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  Thenextdayhementallytimedthemdowntheriver,allowingforthepausetotakeinballast,andontheWednesdaypicturedthesaildowntheopensea。Thatnighthethoughtofthelittlecraftunderthebowsofthehugesteam-vessels,powerlesstomakeitselfseenorheard,andAvice,nowgrowinginexpressiblydear,sleepinginherlittleberthatthemercyofathousandchancecatastrophes。

  HonestperceptionhadtoldhimthatthisAvice,fairerthanhermotherinfaceandform,washerinferiorinsoulandunderstanding。Yetthefervourwhichthefirstcouldneverkindleinhimwas,almosttohisalarm,burningupnow。HebegantohavemisgivingsastosomequeertrickthathismigratoryBelovedwasabouttoplayhim,orratherthecapriciousDivinitybehindthatideallady。

  Agiganticsatireuponthemutationsofhisnymphduringthepasttwentyyearsseemedloominginthedistance。Aforsakingoftheaccomplishedandwell-connectedMrs。Pine-Avonforthelittlelaundress,underthetractionofsomemysticmagnetwhichhadnothingtodowithreason——surelythatwastheformofthesatire。

  Butitwasrecklesslypleasanttoleavethesuspicionunrecognizedasyet,andfollowthelead。

  InthinkinghowbesttodothisPierstonrecollectedthat,aswascustomarywhenthesummer-timeapproached,SylvaniaCastlehadbeenadvertisedforlettingfurnished。Asolitarydreamerlikehimself,whosewantsalllayinanartisticandidealdirection,didnotrequiresuchgauntaccommodationastheaforesaidresidenceoffered;butthespotwasall,andtheexpensesofafewmonthsoftenancythereinhecouldwellafford。Alettertotheagentwasdispatchedthatnight,andinafewdaysJocelynfoundhimselfthetemporarypossessorofaplacewhichhehadneverseentheinsideofsincehischildhood,andhadthendeemedtheabodeofunpleasantghosts。

  2。VI。THEPASTSHINESINTHEPRESENT

  ItwastheeveningofPierston’sarrivalatSylvaniaCastle,adignifiedmanor-houseinanookbythecliffs,withmoderncastellationsandbattlements;andhehadwalkedthroughtherooms,aboutthelawn,andintothesurroundingplantationofelms,whichonthisislandoftreelessrocklentauniquecharactertotheenclosure。

  Inname,nature,andaccessoriesthepropertywithinthegirdlingwallformedacompleteantithesistoeverythinginitsprecincts。TofindothertreesbetweenPebble-bankandBeal,itwasnecessarytorecedealittleintime——todigdowntoaloosestratumoftheunderlyingstone-

  beds,whereaforestofconiferslayaspetrifactions,theirheadsallinonedirection,asblowndownbyagaleintheSecondarygeologicepoch。

  Duskhadclosedin,andhenowproceededwithwhatwas,afterall,therealbusinessofhissojourn。Thetwoservantswhohadbeenlefttotakecareofthehousewereintheirownquarters,andhewentoutunobserved。Crossingahollowoverhungbythebuddingboughsheapproachedanemptygarden-houseofElizabethandesign,whichstoodontheouterwallofthegrounds,andcommandedbyawindowthefrontsofthenearestcottages。AmongthemwasthehomeoftheresuscitatedAvice。

  Hehadchosenthismomentforhisoutlookthroughknowingthatthevillagerswereinnohurrytopulldowntheirblindsatnightfall。

  And,ashehaddivined,theinsideoftheyoungwoman’sliving-roomwasvisibletohimasformerly,illuminatedbytheraysofitsownlamp。

  Asubduedthumpingcameeverynowandthenfromtheapartment。Shewasironinglinenonaflanneltable-cloth,arowofsuchapparelhangingonaclothes-horsebythefire。Herfacehadbeenpalewhenheencounteredher,butnowitwaswarmandpinkwithherexertionsandtheheatofthestove。Yetitwasinperfectandpassionlessrepose,whichimpartedaMinervacasttotheprofile。Whensheglancedup,herlineamentsseemedtohaveallthesoulandheartthathadcharacterizedhermother’s,andhadbeenwithheratrueindexofthespiritwithin。

  Coulditbepossiblethatinthiscasethemanifestationwasfictitious?Hehadmetwithmanysuchexamplesofhereditarypersistencewithoutthequalitiessignifiedbythetraits。Heunconsciouslyhopedthatitwasatleastnotentirelysohere。

  Theroomwaslessfurnishedthanwhenhehadlastbeheldit。The’bo-

  fet,’ordoublecorner-cupboard,wherethechinawasformerlykept,haddisappeared,itsplacebeingtakenbyaplainboard。Thetalloldclock,withitsancientoakcarcase,archedbrow,andhumorousmouth,wasalsonottobeseen,acheap,white-dialledspecimendoingitswork。Whatthesedisplacementsmightbetokensaddenedhishumanitylessthanitcheeredhisprimitiveinstinctinpointingouthowhernecessitiesmightbringthemtogether。

  Havingfixedhisresidencenearherforsomelengthytimehefeltinnohurrytoobtrudehispresencejustnow,andwentindoors。Thatthisgirl’sframewasdoomedtobearealembodimentofthatoldenseductiveone——thatProteandream-creature,whohadneverseenfittoirradiatethemother’simagetillitbecameamerememoryafterdissolution——hedoubtedlesseverymoment。

  Therewasanuneasinessinrecognizingsuch。Therewassomethingabnormalinhispresentproclivity。Acertainsanityhad,afterall,accompaniedhisformeridealizingpassions:theBelovedhadseldominformedapersonalitywhich,whileenrapturinghissoul,simultaneouslyshockedhisintellect。Achange,perhaps,hadcome。

  Itwasafinemorningonthemorrow。WalkinginthegroundstowardsthegatehesawAviceenteringhishiredcastlewithabroadovalwicker-basketcoveredwithawhitecloth,whichburdensheboreroundtothebackdoor。Ofcourse,shewashedforhisownhousehold:hehadnotthoughtofthat。Inthemorningsunlightsheappearedratherasasylphthanasawasherwoman;andhecouldnotbutthinkthattheslightnessofherfigurewasasilladaptedtothisoccupationashermother’shadbeen。

  But,afterall,itwasnotthewasherwomanthathesawnow。Infrontofher,onthesurfaceofher,wasshiningoutthatmorereal,moreinter-penetratingbeingwhomheknewsowell!Theoccupationofthesubservingminion,theblemishesofthetemporarycreaturewhoformedthebackground,wereofthesameaccountinthepresentationoftheindispensableoneasthesupportingpostsandframeworkinapyrotechnicdisplay。

  Sheleftthehouseandwenthomewardbyapathofwhichhewasnotaware,havingprobablychangedhercoursebecauseshehadseenhimstandingthere。Itmeantnothing,forshehadhardlybecomeacquaintedwithhim;yetthatsheshouldhaveavoidedhimwasanewexperience。

  Hehadnoopportunityforafurtherstudyofherbydistantobservation,andhituponapretextforbringingherfacetofacewithhim。Hefoundfaultwithhislinen,anddirectedthatthelaundressshouldbesentfor。

  ’Sheisratheryoung,poorlittlething,’saidthehousemaidapologetically。’Butsincehermother’sdeathshehasenoughtodotokeepabovewater,andwemakeshiftwithher。ButI’lltellher,sir。’

  ’Iwillseehermyself。Sendherinwhenshecomes,’saidPierston。

  Onemorning,accordingly,whenhewasansweringaspitefulcriticismofalateworkofhis,hewastoldthatshewaitedhispleasureinthehall。Hewentout。

  ’Aboutthewashing,’saidthesculptorstiffly。’Iamaveryparticularperson,andIwishnopreparationoflimetobeused。’

  ’Ididn’tknowfolksusedit,’repliedthemaiden,inascaredandreservedtone,withoutlookingathim。

  ’That’sallright。Andthen,themanglingsmashesthebuttons。’

  ’Ihaven’tgotamangle,sir,’shemurmured。

  ’Ah!that’ssatisfactory。AndIobjecttosomuchboraxinthestarch。’

  ’Idon’tputany,’Avicereturnedinthesamecloseway;’neverheardthenameo’tafore!’

  ’OIsee。’

  AllthistimePierstonwasthinkingofthegirl——orasthescientificmightsay,Naturewasworkingherplansforthenextgenerationunderthecloakofadialogueonlinen。Hecouldnotreadherindividualcharacter,owingtotheconfusingeffectofherlikenesstoawomanwhomhehadvaluedtoolate。Hecouldnothelpseeinginherallthatheknewofanother,andveilinginherallthatdidnotharmonizewithhissenseofmetempsychosis。

  Thegirlseemedtothinkofnothingbutthebusinessinhand。Shehadansweredtothepoint,andwashardlyawareofhissexorofhisshape。

  ’Iknewyourmother,Avice,’hesaid。’Youremembermytellingyouso?’

  ’Yes。’

  ’Well——Ihavetakenthishousefortwoorthreemonths,andyouwillbeveryusefultome。Youstilllivejustoutsidethewall?’

  ’Yes,sir,’saidtheself-containedgirl。

  Demurelyanddispassionatelysheturnedtoleave——thisprettycreaturewithfeaturessostill。Therewassomethingstrangeinseeingmoveoffthusthatformwhichheknewpassingwell,shewhowasoncesothrobbinglyalivetohispresencethat,notmanyyardsfromthisspot,shehadflungherarmsroundhimandgivenhimakisswhich,despisedinitsfreshness,hadrevivedinhimlatterlyasthedearestkissofallhislife。Andnowthis’daps’ofhermother(astheycalledherinthedialecthere),thisperfectcopy,whydidsheturnaway?

  ’Yourmotherwasarefinedandwell-informedwoman,IthinkI

  remember?’

  ’Shewas,sir;everybodysaidso。’

  ’Ihopeyouresembleher。’

  Shearchlyshookherhead,anddrewwarilyaway。

  ’O!onethingmore,Avice。Ihavenotbroughtmuchlinen,soyoumustcometothehouseeveryday。’

  ’Verygood,sir。’

  ’Youwon’tforgetthat?’

  ’Ono。’

  Thenhelethergo。Hewasatownman,andsheanartlessislander,yethehadopenedhimselfout,likeasea-anemone,withoutdisturbingtheepidermofhernature。Itwasmonstrousthatamaidenwhohadassumedthepersonalityofherofhistenderestmemoryshouldbesoimpervious。Perhapsitwashewhowaswanting。AvicemightbePassionmaskingasIndifference,becausehewassomanyyearsolderinoutwardshow。

  Thisbroughthimtotherootofit。Inhishearthewasnotadayolderthanwhenhehadwooedthemotheratthedaughter’spresentage。

  Hisrecordmovedonwiththeyears,hissentimentsstoodstill。

  Whenhebeheldthoseofhisfellowswhoweredefinedasbuffersandfogeys——imperturbable,matter-of-fact,slightlyridiculousbeings,pastmastersintheartofpopulatinghomes,schools,andcolleges,andpresentadeptsinthescienceofgivingawaybrides——howheenviedthem,assumingthemtofeelastheyappearedtofeel,withtheircommerceandtheirpolitics,theirglassesandtheirpipes。Theyhadgotpastthedistractingcurrentsofpassionateness,andwereinthecalmwatersofmiddle-agedphilosophy。Buthe,theircontemporary,wastossedlikeacorkhitherandthitheruponthecrestofeveryfancy,preciselyashehadbeentossedwhenhewashalfhispresentage,withtheburdennowofdoublepaintohimselfinhisgrowingvisionofallasvanity。

  Avicehadgone,andhesawhernomorethatday。Sincehecouldnotagaincalluponher,shewasasinaccessibleasifshehadenteredthemilitarycitadelonthehill-topbeyondthem。

  IntheeveninghewentoutandpaceddownthelanetotheRedKing’scastleoverhangingthecliff,besidewhoseagethecastleheoccupiedwasbutathingofyesterday。Belowthecastleprecipicelayenormousblocks,whichhadfallenfromit,andseveralofthemwerecarvedoverwithnamesandinitials。Heknewthespotandtheoldtrickwell,andbysearchinginthefaintmoon-rayshefoundapairofnameswhich,asaboy,hehimselfhadcut。Theywere’AVICE’and’JOCELYN’——AviceCaro’sandhisown。Theletterswerenownearlywornawaybytheweatherandthebrine。Butcloseby,inquitefreshletters,stood’ANNAVICE,’coupledwiththename’ISAAC。’Theycouldnothavebeentheremorethantwoorthreeyears,andthe’AnnAvice’wasprobablyAvicetheSecond。WhowasIsaac?Someboyadmirerofherchild-timedoubtless。

  Heretracedhissteps,andpassedtheCaros’housetowardshisown。

  TherevivifiedAviceanimatedthedwelling,andthelightwithintheroomfelluponthewindow。Shewasjustinsidethatblind。

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  Wheneversheunexpectedlycametothecastlehestarted,andlostplacidity。Itwasnotatherpresenceassuch,butatthenewcondition,whichseemedtohavesomethingsinisterinit。Ontheotherhand,themostabruptencounterwithhimmovedhertonoemotionasithadmovedherprototypeintheolddays。Shewasindifferentto,almostunconsciousof,hispropinquity。Hewasnomorethanastatuetoher;shewasagrowingfiretohim。

  AsuddenSapphicterroroflovewouldeverandanoncomeuponthesculptor,whenhismaturedreflectingpowerswouldinsistuponinforminghimofthefearfullapsefromreasonablenessthatlayinthisinfatuation。Itthrewhimintoasweat。Whatifnow,atlast,heweredoomedtodopenanceforhispastemotionalwanderings(inamaterialsense)bybeingchainedinfatalfidelitytoanobjectthathisintellectdespised?Onenighthedreamtthathesawdimlymaskingbehindthatyoungcountenance’theWeaverofWiles’herself,’withallhersubtlefacelaughingaloud。’

  However,theWell-Belovedwasaliveagain,hadbeenlostandwasfound。

  Hewasamazedatthechangeoffrontinhimself。Shehadworntheguiseofstrangewomen;shehadbeenawomanofeveryclass,fromthedignifieddaughterofsomeecclesiasticorpeertoaNubianAlmehwithherhandkerchief,undulatingtothebeatsofthetom-tom;butalltheseembodimentshadbeenendowedwithacertainsmartness,eitherofthefleshorspirit:somewithwit,afewwithtalent,andevengenius。

  Butthenewimpersonationhadapparentlynothingbeyondsexandprettiness。Sheknewnothowtosportafanorhandkerchief,hardlyhowtopullonaglove。

  Butherlimitedlifewasinnocent,andthatwentfar。PoorlittleAvice!hermother’simage:thereitalllay。Afterall,herparentagewasasgoodashisown;itwasmisfortunethathadsentherdowntothis。Oddasitseemedtohim,herlimitationswerelargelywhathelovedherfor。Herrejuvenatingpoweroverhimhadineffablecharm。

  Hefeltashehadfeltwhenstandingbesideherpredecessor;but,alas!

  hewastwentyyearsfurtherontowardstheshade。

  2。VII。THENEWBECOMESESTABLISHED

  Afewmorningslaterhewaslookingthroughanupperbackwindowoverascreenedpartofthegarden。Thedoorbeneathhimopened,andafigureappearedtrippingforth。Shewentroundoutofsighttowherethegardenerwasatwork,andpresentlyreturnedwithabunchofgreenstuffflutteringineachhand。ItwasAvice,herdarkhairnowbraidedupsnuglyunderacap。Shesailedonwitharaptandunconsciousface,herthoughtsathousandremovesfromhim。

  Howshehadsuddenlycometobeaninmateofhisownhousehecouldnotunderstand,tillherecalledthefactthathehadgiventhecastleservantsawholeholidaytoattendareviewoftheyeomanryinthewatering-placeoverthebay,ontheirstatingthattheycouldprovideatemporarysubstitutetostayinthehouse。TheyhadevidentlycalledinAvice。Tohisgreatpleasurehediscoveredtheiropinionofhisrequirementstobesuchameanonethattheyhadcalledinnooneelse。

  TheSpirit,assheseemedtohim,broughthislunchintotheroomwherehewaswriting,andhebeheldheruncoverit。Shewenttothewindowtoadjustablindwhichhadslipped,andhehadagoodviewofherprofile。ItwasnotunlikethatofoneofthethreegoddessesinRubens’s’JudgmentofParis,’andincontourwasnighperfection。Butitwasinherfullfacethatthevisionofhermotherwasmostapparent。

  ’Didyoucookallthis,Avice?’heasked,arousinghimself。

  Sheturnedandhalf-smiled,merelymurmuring,’Yes,sir。’

  Wellheknewthearrangementofthosewhiteteeth。Inthejunctionoftwooftheupperonestherewasaslightirregularity;nostrangerwouldhavenoticedit,norwouldhe,butthatheknewofthesamemarkinhermother’smouth,andlookedforithere。TillAvicetheSecondhadrevealeditthismomentbyhersmile,hehadneverbeheldthatmarksincethepartingfromAvicetheFirst,whenshehadsmiledunderhiskissasthecopyhaddonenow。

  Nextmorning,whendressing,heheardherthroughtherickettyfloorofthebuildingengagedinconversationwiththeotherservants。HavingbythistimeregularlyinstalledherselfastheexponentoftheLong-

  pursued——asonewho,bynoinitiativeofhisown,hadbeenchosenbysomesuperiorPowerasthevehicleofhernextdebut,sheattractedhimbythecadencesofhervoice;shewouldsuddenlydropittoarichwhisperofroguishness,whentheslightruralmonotonyofitsnarrativespeechdisappeared,andsoulandheart——orwhatseemedsoulandheart——

  resounded。Thecharmlayintheintervals,usingthatwordinitsmusicalsense。Shewouldsayafewsyllablesinonenote,andendhersentenceinasoftmodulationupwards,thendownwards,thenintoherownnoteagain。Thecurveofsoundwasasartisticasanylineofbeautyeverstruckbyhispencil——assatisfyingasthecurvesofherwhowastheWorld’sDesire。

  Thesubjectofherdiscoursehecarednothingabout——itwasnomorehisinterestthanhisconcern。Hetookspecialpainsthatincatchinghervoicehemightnotcomprehendherwords。Tothetoneshehadaright,nonetothearticulations。Bydegreeshecouldnotexistlongwithoutthissound。

  OnSundayeveninghefoundthatshewenttochurch。Hefollowedbehindherovertheopenroad,keepinghiseyeonthelittlehatwithitsbunchofcock’sfeathersasonastar。WhenshehadpassedinPierstonobservedherpositionandtookaseatbehindher。

  Engagedinthestudyofherearandthenapeofherwhiteneck,hesuddenlybecameawareofthepresenceofaladystillfurtheraheadintheaisle,whoseattire,thoughofblackmaterialsinthequietestform,wasofacutwhichrathersuggestedLondonthanthisUltimaThule。Fortheminuteheforgot,inhiscuriosity,thatAviceintervened。Theladyturnedherheadsomewhat,and,thoughshewasveiledwithunusualthicknessfortheseason,heseemedtorecognizeNicholaPine-Avonintheform。

  WhyshouldMrs。Pine-Avonbethere?Pierstonaskedhimself,ifitshould,indeed,beshe。

  TheendoftheservicesawhisattentionagainconcentratedonAvicetosuchadegreethatatthecriticalmomentofmovingoutheforgotthemysteriousladyinfrontofher,andfoundthatshehadleftthechurchbytheside-door。SupposingittohavebeenMrs。Pine-Avon,shewouldprobablybediscoveredstayingatoneofthehotelsatthewatering-

  placeoverthebay,andtohavecomealongthePebble-banktotheislandassomanydid,foraneveningdrive。Forthepresent,however,theexplanationwasnotforthcoming;andhedidnotseekit。

  WhenheemergedfromthechurchthegreatplacideyeofthelighthouseattheBealPointwasopen,andhemovedthitherwardafewstepstoescapeNichola,orherdouble,andtherestofthecongregation。

  Turningatlength,hehastenedhomewardalongthenowdesertedtrackway,intendingtoovertaketherevitalizedAvice。Buthecouldseenothingofher,andconcludedthatshehadwalkedtoofastforhim。

  Arrivedathisowngatehepausedamoment,andperceivedthatAvice’slittlefreeholdwasstillindarkness。Shehadnotcome。

  Heretracedhissteps,butcouldnotfindher,theonlypersonsontheroadbeingamanandhiswife,asheknewthemtobethoughhecouldnotseethem,fromthewordsoftheman——

  ’Ifyouhadnota’readymarriedme,you’dcutmyacquaintance!That’saprettythingforawifetosay!’

  Theremarkstruckhisearunpleasantly,andby-and-byhewentbackagain。Avice’scottagewasnowlighted:shemusthavecomeroundbytheotherroad。SatisfiedthatshewassafelydomiciledforthenightheopenedthegateofSylvaniaCastleandretiredtohisroomalso。

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  Eastwardfromthegroundsthecliffswereruggedandtheviewoftheoppositecoastpicturesqueintheextreme。Alittledoorfromthelawngavehimimmediateaccesstotherocksandshoreonthisside。Withoutthedoorwasadip-wellofpurewater,whichpossiblyhadsuppliedtheinmatesoftheadjoiningandnowruinousRedKing’scastleatthetimeofitserection。Onasunnymorninghewasmeditatingherewhenhediscernedafigureontheshorebelowspreadingwhitelinenuponthepebblystrand。

  Jocelyndescended。Avice,ashehadsupposed,hadnowreturnedtoherownoccupation。Hershapelypinkarms,thoughslight,wereplumpenoughtoshowdimplesattheelbows,andweresetoffbyherpurplecottonprint,whichtheshore-breezelickedandtantalized。Hestoodnear,withoutspeaking。Thewinddraggedashirt-sleevefromthe’popple’orpebblewhichhelditdown。Pierstonstoopedandputaheavieroneinitsplace。

  ’Thankyou,’shesaidquietly。Sheturnedupherhazeleyes,andseemedgratifiedtoperceivethatherassistantwasPierston。Shehadplainlybeensowrappedinherownthoughts——gloomythoughts,bytheirsigns——thatshehadnotconsideredhimtillthen。

  Theyounggirlcontinuedtoconversewithhiminfriendlyfrankness,showingneitherardournorshyness。Asforlove——itwasevidentlyfurtherfromhermindthanevendeathanddissolution。

  WhenoneofthesheetsbecameintractableJocelynsaid,’Doyouholditdown,andI’llputthepopples。’

  Sheacquiesced,andinplacingapebblehishandtouchedhers。

  Itwasayounghand,ratherlongandthin,alittledampandcoddledfromherslopping。Insettingdownthelaststonehelaidit,byapureaccident,ratherheavilyonherfingers。

  ’Iamvery,verysorry!’Jocelynexclaimed。’O,Ihavebruisedtheskin,Avice!’Heseizedherfingerstoexaminethedamagedone。

  ’No,sir,youhaven’t!’shecriedluminously,allowinghimtoretainherhandwithouttheleastobjection。’Why——that’swhereIscratcheditthismorningwithapin。Youdidn’thurtmeabitwiththepopple-

  stone!’

  Althoughhergownwaspurple,therewasalittleblackcrapebowuponeacharm。Heknewwhatitmeant,anditsaddenedhim。’Doyouevervisityourmother’sgrave?’heasked。

  ’Yes,sir,sometimes。Iamgoingtheretonighttowaterthedaisies。’

  Shehadnowfinishedhere,andtheyparted。Thatevening,whentheskywasred,heemergedbythegarden-doorandpassedherhouse。Theblindswerenotdown,andhecouldseehersewingwithin。Whilehepausedshesprangupasifshehadforgottenthehour,andtossedonherhat。Jocelynstrodeaheadandroundthecorner,andwashalfwayupthestragglingstreetbeforehediscernedherlittlefigurebehindhim。

  Hehastenedpasttheladsandyoungwomenwithclinkingbucketswhoweredrawingwaterfromthefountainsbythewayside,andtookthedirectionofthechurch。Withthedisappearanceofthesunthelighthousehadagainsetupitsflameagainstthesky,thedarkchurchrisingintheforeground。Hereheallowedhertoovertakehim。

  ’Youlovedyourmothermuch?’saidJocelyn。

  ’Idid,sir;ofcourseIdid,’saidthegirl,whotrippedsolightlythatitseemedhemighthavecarriedheronhishand。

  Pierstonwishedtosay,’SodidI,’butdidnotliketodiscloseeventswhichshe,apparently,neverguessed。Avicefellintothought,andcontinued——

  ’MotherhadaverysadlifeforsometimewhenshewasaboutasoldasI。Ishouldnotlikeminetobeashers。Heryoungmanprovedfalsetoherbecauseshewouldn’tagreetomeethimonenight,anditgrievedmotheralmostallherlife。Iwouldn’tha’frettedabouthim,ifI’dbeenshe。Shewouldnevernamehisname,butIknowhewasawicked,cruelman;andIhatetothinkofhim。’

  Afterthishecouldnotgointothechurchyardwithher,andwalkedonwardalonetothesouthoftheisle。Hewaswretchedforhours。Yethewouldnothavestoodwherehedidstandintheranksofanimaginativeprofessionifhehadnotbeenatthemercyofeveryhauntingofthefancythatcanbesetman。Itwasinhisweaknessesasacitizenandanational-unitthathisstrengthlayasanartist,andhefeltitchildishtocomplainofsusceptibilitiesnotonlyinnatebutcultivated。

  ButhewaspayingdearlyenoughforhisLiliths。Hesawaterriblevengeanceahead。Whathadhedonetobetormentedlikethis?TheBeloved,afterflittingfromNicholaPine-Avontothephantomofadeadwomanwhomheneveradoredinherlifetime,hadtakenupherabodeinthelivingrepresentativeofthedead,withapermanenceofholdwhichtheabsoluteindifferenceofthatlittlebrown-eyedrepresentativeonlyseemedtointensify。

  Didhereallywishtoproceedtomarriagewiththischitofagirl?Hedid:thewishhadcomeatlast。Itwastruethatashestudiedherhesawdefectsinadditiontohersocialinsufficiencies。Judgment,hoodwinkedasitwas,toldhimthatshewascolderinnature,commonerincharacter,thanthatwellread,brightlittlewomanAvicetheFirst。

  Buttwentyyearsmakeadifferenceinideals,andtheaddeddemandsofmiddle-ageinphysicalformaremorethanbalancedbyitsconcessionsastothespiritualcontent。Helookedathimselfintheglass,andfeltgladatthoseinnerdeficienciesinAvicewhichformerlywouldhaveimpelledhimtorejecther。

  Therewasastrangedifferenceinhisregardofhispresentfollyandofhisloveinhisyouthfultime。Nowhecouldbemadwithmethod,knowingittobemadness:thenhewascompelledtomakebelievehismadnesswisdom。Inthosedaysanyflashofreasonuponhislovedone’simperfectionswasblurredoverhastilyandwithfear。Suchpenetrativevisionnowdidnotcoolhim。Heknewhewasthecreatureofatendency;andpassivelyacquiesced。

  Touseapracticaleye,itappearedthat,ashehadoncethought,thisCarofamily——thoughitmightnotforcenturies,orever,furbishupanindividualnaturewhichwouldexactly,ideally,supplementhisownimperfectoneandroundwithittheperfectwhole——wasyettheonlyfamilyhehadevermet,orwaslikelytomeet,whichpossessedthematerialsforhermaking。ItwasasiftheCaroshadfoundtheclaybutnotthepotter,whileotherfamilieswhosedaughtersmightattracthimhadfoundthepotterbutnottheclay。

  2。VIII。HISOWNSOULCONFRONTSHIM

  FromhisroomycastleanditsgroundsandthecliffshardbyhecouldcommandeverymoveandaspectofherwhowastherejuvenatedSpiritofthePasttohim——intheeffulgenceofwhomallsordiddetailsweredisregarded。

  Amongotherthingsheobservedthatshewasoftenanxiouswhenitrained。If,afterawetday,agoldenstreakappearedintheskyoverDeadman’sBay,underalidofcloud,hermannerwasjoyousandhertreadlight。

  Thispuzzledhim;andhefoundthatifheendeavouredtoencounterheratthesetimessheshunnedhim——stealthilyandsubtly,butunmistakably。Oneevening,whenshehadlefthercottageandtrippedoffinthedirectionoftheunder-hilltownlet,hesetoutbythesameroute,resolvedtoawaitherreturnalongthehighroadwaywhichstretchedbetweenthatplaceandEastQuarriers。

  Hereachedthetopoftheoldroadwhereitmakesasuddendescenttothetownlet,butshedidnotappear。Turningback,hesaunteredalongtillhehadnearlyreachedhisownhouseagain。Thenheretracedhissteps,andinthedimnighthewalkedbackwardsandforwardsonthebareandloftyconvexoftheisle;thestarsaboveandaroundhim,thelighthouseondutyatthedistantpoint,thelightshipwinkingfromthesandbank,thecombingofthepebblebeachbythetidebeneath,thechurchawaysouth-westward,wheretheislandfatherslay。

  Hewalkedthewildsummittillhislegsached,andhisheartached——

  tillheseemedtohearontheupperwindthestonesoftheslingerswhizzingpast,andthevoicesoftheinvaderswhoannihilatedthem,andmarriedtheirwivesanddaughters,andproducedAviceastheultimateflowerofthecombinedstocks。Stillshedidnotcome。Itwasmorethanfoolishtowait,yethecouldnothelpwaiting。Atlengthhediscernedadotofafigure,whichheknewtobehersratherbyitsmotionthanbyitsshape。

  Howincomparablytheimmaterialdreamdwarfedthegrandestofsubstantialthings,whenhere,betweenthosethreesublimities——thesky,therock,andtheocean——theminutepersonalityofthiswasher-

  girlfilledhisconsciousnesstoitsextremestboundary,andthestupendousinanimatesceneshranktoacornertherein。

  Butallatoncetheapproachingfigurehaddisappeared。Helookedabout;shehadcertainlyvanished。Atonesideoftheroadwasalowwall,butshecouldnothavegonebehindthatwithoutconsiderabletroubleandsingularconduct。Helookedbehindhim;shehadreappearedfurtherontheroad。

  JocelynPierstonhurriedafter;and,discerninghismovement,Avicestoodstill。Whenhecameup,shewasslilyshakingwithrestrainedlaughter。

  ’Well,whatdoesthismean,mydeargirl?’heasked。

  Herinnermirthescapinginspiteofhersheturnedaskanceandsaid:

  ’WhenyouwasfollowingmetoStreeto’Wells,twohoursago,Ilookedroundandsawyou,andhuddiedbehindastone!Youpassedandbrushedmyfrockwithoutseeingme。Andwhen,onmywaybackalong,Isawyouwaitinghereaboutagain,Islippedoverthewall,andranpastyou!IfIhadnotstoppedandlookedroundat’ee,youwouldneverhavecatchedme!’

  ’Whatdidyoudothatfor,youelf!’

  ’Thatyoushouldn’tfindme。’

  ’That’snotexactlyareason。Giveanother,dearAvice,’hesaid,asheturnedandwalkedbesideherhomeward。

  Shehesitated。’Come!’heurgedagain。

  ’’TwasbecauseIthoughtyouwantedtobemyyoungman,’sheanswered。

  ’Whatawildthoughtofyours!SupposingIdid,wouldn’tyouhaveme?’

  ’Notnow……Andnotforlong,evenifithadbeensoonerthannow。’

  ’Why?’

  ’IfItellyou,youwon’tlaughatmeorletanybodyelseknow?’

  ’Never。’

  ’ThenIwilltellyou,’shesaidquiteseriously。’’TisbecauseIgettiredo’myloversassoonasIgettoknowthemwell。WhatIseeinoneyoungmanforawhilesoonleaveshimandgoesintoanotheryonder,andIfollow,andthenwhatIadmirefadesoutofhimandspringsupsomewhereelse;andsoIfollowon,andneverfixtoone。IhavelovedFIFTEENa’ready!Yes,fifteen,Iamalmostashamedtosay,’sherepeated,laughing。’Ican’thelpit,sir,Iassureyou。Ofcourseitisreally,toME,thesameoneallthrough,on’yIcan’tcatchhim!’

  Sheaddedanxiously,’Youwon’ttellanybodyo’thisinme,willyou,sir?BecauseifitwereknownIamafraidnomanwouldlikeme。’

  Pierstonwassurprisedintostillness。Herewasthisobscureandalmostilliterategirlengagedinthepursuitoftheimpossibleideal,justashehadbeenhimselfdoingforthelasttwentyyears。Shewasdoingitquiteinvoluntarily,bysheernecessityofherorganization,puzzledallthewhileatherowninstinct。Hesuddenlythoughtofitsbearinguponhimself,andsaid,withasinkingheart——

  ’AmI——oneofthem?’

  Sheponderedcritically。

  ’Youwas;foraweek;whenIfirstsawyou。’

  ’Onlyaweek?’

  ’Aboutthat。’

  ’Whatmadethebeingofyourfancyforsakemyformandgoelsewhere?’

  ’Well——thoughyouseemedhandsomeandgentlemanlyatfirst——’

  ’Yes?’

  ’Ifoundyoutoooldsoonafter。’

  ’Youareacandidyoungperson。’

  ’Butyouaskedme,sir!’sheexpostulated。

  ’Idid;and,havingbeenanswered,Iwon’tintrudeuponyoulonger。Socutalonghomeasfastasyoucan。Itisgettinglate。’

  Whenshehadpassedoutofearshothealsofollowedhomewards。ThisseekingoftheWell-Belovedwas,then,ofthenatureofaknifewhichcouldcuttwoways。Tobetheseekerwasonething:tobeoneofthecorpsesfromwhichtheidealinhabitanthaddepartedwasanother;andthiswaswhathehadbecomenow,inthemockeryofnewDays。

  ThestartlingparallelintheidiosyncraciesofAviceandhimself——

  evincedbytheelusivenessoftheBelovedwithheraswithhim——meantprobablythattherehadbeensomeremoteancestorcommontobothfamilies,fromwhomthetraithadlatentlydescendedandrecrudesced。

  Buttheresultwasnonethelessdisconcerting。

  Drawingnearhisowngatehesmelttobacco,andcoulddiscerntwofiguresinthesidelaneleadingpastAvice’sdoor。Theydidnot,however,enterherhouse,butstrolledonwardtothenarrowpassconductingtoRed-KingCastleandthesea。HewasinmomentaryheavinessatthethoughtthattheymightbeAvicewithaworthlesslover,butafaintlyargumentativetonefromthemaninformedhimthattheywerethesamemarriedcouplegoinghomewardwhomhehadencounteredonapreviousoccasion。

  Thenextdayhegavetheservantsahalf-holidaytogettheprettyAviceintothecastleagainforafewhours,thebettertoobserveher。

  Whileshewaspullingdowntheblindsatsunsetawhistleofpeculiarqualitycamefromsomepointonthecliffsoutsidethelawn。Heobservedthathercolourroseslightly,thoughshebustledaboutasifshehadnoticednothing。

  Pierstonsuddenlysuspectedthatshehadnotonlyfifteenpastadmirersbutacurrentone。Still,hemightbemistaken。Stimulatednowbyancientmemoriesandpresenttendernesstouseeveryefforttomakeherhiswife,despiteherconventionalunfitness,hestrunghimselfuptosiftthismystery。Ifhecouldonlywinher——andhowcouldacountrygirlrefusesuchanopportunity?——hecouldpackherofftoschoolfortwoorthreeyears,marryher,enlargehermindbyalittletravel,andtakehischanceoftherest。Astoherwantofardourforhim——sosadlyincontrastwithhersaintedmother’saffection——amantwentyyearsolderthanhisbridecouldexpectnobetter,andhewouldbewellcontenttoputupwithitinthepleasureofpossessingoneinwhomseemedtolingerasanaromaallthecharmofhisyouthandhisearlyhome。

  2。IX。JUXTAPOSITIONS

  Itwasasadandleadenafternoon,andPierstonpacedupthelong,steeppassorstreetoftheWells。Oneithersideoftheroadyounggirlsstoodwithpitchersatthefountainswhichbubbledthere,andbehindthehousesformingthepropylaeaoftherockrosethemassiveforeheadoftheIsle——crestedatthispartwithitsenormousrampartsaswithamuralcrown。

  Asyouapproachtheupperendofthestreetallprogressseemsabouttobecheckedbythealmostverticalfaceoftheescarpment。Intoityourtrackapparentlyrunspoint-blank:aconfrontingmasswhich,ifitweretoslipdown,wouldoverwhelmthewholetown。Butinamomentyoufindthattheroad,theoldRomanhighwayintothepeninsula,turnsatasharpanglewhenitreachesthebaseofthescarp,andascendsinthestiffestofinclinestotheright。Totheleftthereisalsoanotherascendingroad,modern,almostassteepasthefirst,andperfectlystraight。Thisistheroadtotheforts。

  Pierstonarrivedattheforkingoftheways,andpausedforbreath。

  Beforeturningtotheright,hisproperandpicturesquecourse,helookeduptheuninterestingleftroadtothefortifications。Itwasnew,long,white,regular,taperingtoavanishingpoint,likealessoninperspective。Aboutaquarterofthewayupagirlwasrestingbesideabasketofwhitelinen:andbytheshapeofherhatandthenatureofherburdenherecognizedher。

  Shedidnotseehim,andabandoningtheright-handcourseheslowlyascendedtheinclineshehadtaken。Heobservedthatherattentionwasabsorbedbysomethingaloft。Hefollowedthedirectionofhergaze。

  Abovethemtoweredthegreen-greymountainofgrassystone,herelevelledatthetopbymilitaryart。Theskylinewasbrokeneverynowandthenbyalittlepeg-likeobject——asentry-box;andnearoneoftheseasmallredspotkeptcreepingbackwardsandforwardsmonotonouslyagainsttheheavysky。

  Thenhedivinedthatshehadasoldier-lover。

  Sheturnedherhead,sawhim,andtookupherclothes-baskettocontinuetheascent。Thesteepnesswassuchthattoclimbitunencumberedwasabreathlessbusiness;thelinenmadehertaskacrueltytoher。’You’llnevergettothefortswiththatweight,’hesaid。’Giveittome。’

  Butshewouldnot,andhestoodstill,watchingherasshepanteduptheway;forthemomentanirradiatedbeing,theepitomeofawholesex:bythebeamsofhisowninfatuation’……robedinsuchexceedinggloryThathebeheldhernot;’

  beheldhernotasshereallywas,asshewaseventohimselfsometimes。

  Buttothesoldierwhatwasshe?Smallerandsmallershewaneduptherigidmathematicalroad,stillgazingatthesoldieraloft,asPierstongazedather。Hecouldjustdiscernsentinelsspringingupatthedifferentcoignsofvantagethatshepassed,butseeingwhoshewastheydidnotintercepther;andpresentlyshecrossedthedrawbridgeovertheenormouschasmsurroundingtheforts,passedthesentriestherealso,anddisappearedthroughthearchintotheinterior。

  Pierstoncouldnotseethesentrynow,andthereoccurredtohimthehatefulideathatthisscarletrivalwasmeetingandtalkingfreelytoher,theunprotectedorphangirlofhissweetoriginalAvice;perhaps,relievedofduty,escortingheracrosstheinterior,carryingherbasket,hertenderbodyencircledbyhisarm。

  ’Whatthedevilareyoustaringat,asifyouwereinatrance?’

  Pierstonturnedhishead:andtherestoodhisoldfriendSomers——stilllookingthelong-leasedbachelorthathewas。

  ’Imightsaywhatthedevildoyoudohere?ifIweren’tsogladtoseeyou。’

  Somerssaidthathehadcometoseewhatwasdetaininghisfriendinsuchanout-of-the-wayplaceatthattimeofyear,andincidentallytogetsomefreshairintohisownlungs。Pierstonmadehimwelcome,andtheywenttowardsSylvaniaCastle。

  ’Youwerestaring,asfarasIcouldsee,ataprettylittlewasherwomanwithabasketofclothes?’resumedthepainter。

  ’Yes;itwasthattoyou,butnottome。Behindthemereprettyisland-girl(totheworld)is,inmyeye,theIdea,inPlatonicphraseology——theessenceandepitomeofallthatisdesirableinthisexistence……Iamunderadoom,Somers。Yes,Iamunderadoom。

  TohavebeenalwaysfollowingaphantomwhomIsawinwomanafterwomanwhileshewasatadistance,butvanishingawayoncloseapproach,wasbadenough;butnowtheterriblethingisthatthephantomdoesNOT

  vanish,butstaystotantalizemeevenwhenIamnearenoughtoseewhatitis!Thatgirlholdsme,THOUGHmyeyesareopen,andTHOUGHI

  seethatIamafool!’

  Somersregardedthevisionarylookofhisfriend,whichratherintensifiedthandecreasedashisyearsworeon,butmadenofurtherremark。WhentheyreachedthecastleSomersgazedrounduponthescenery,andPierston,signifyingthequaintlittleElizabethancottage,said:’That’swhereshelives。’

  ’Whataromanticplace!——andthisislandaltogether。Amanmightloveascarecroworturnip-lanternhere。’

  ’Butawomanmightn’t。Scenerydoesn’timpressthem,thoughtheypretenditdoes。Thisgirlisasfickleas——’

  ’Youoncewere。’

  ’Exactly——fromyourpointofview。Shehastoldmeso——candidly。Andithitsmehard。’

  Somersstoodstillinsuddenthought。’Well——thatISastrangeturningofthetables!’hesaid。’Butyouwouldn’treallymarryher,Pierston?’

  ’Iwould——to-morrow。Whyshouldn’tI?Whatarefameandnameandsocietytome——adescendantofwreckersandsmugglers,likeher。

  Besides,Iknowwhatshe’smadeof,myboy,toherinnermostfibre;I

  knowtheperfectandpurequarryshewasdugfrom:andthatgivesamanconfidence。’

  ’Thenyou’llwin。’

  ***

  Whiletheyweresittingafterdinnerthateveningtheirquietdiscoursewasinterruptedbythelonglowwhistlefromthecliffswithout。

  Somerstooknonotice,butPierstonmarkedit。ThatwhistlealwaysoccurredatthesametimeintheeveningwhenAvicewashelpinginthehouse。Heexcusedhimselfforamomenttohisvisitorandwentoutuponthedarklawn。Acrunchingoffeetuponthegravelmixedinwiththearticulationofthesea——stepslightasiftheywerewinged。Andhesupposed,twominuteslater,thatthemouthofsomehulkingfellowwasuponhers,whichhehimselfhardlyventuredtolookat,sotouchingwasitsyoungbeauty。

  Hearingpeopleabout——amongothersthebefore-mentionedmarriedcouplequarrelling,thewoman’stoneshavingakinshiptoAvice’sown——hereturnedtothehouse。NextdaySomersroamedabroadtolookforsceneryforamarinepainting,and,goingouttoseekhim,PierstonmetAvice。

  ’Soyouhavealover,mylady!’hesaidseverely。Sheadmittedthatitwasthefact。’Youwon’tsticktohim,’hecontinued。

  ’IthinkImaytoTHISone,’saidshe,inameaningtonethathefailedtofathomthen。’Hedesertedmeonce,buthewon’tagain。’

  ’Isupposehe’sawonderfulsortoffellow?’

  ’He’sgoodenoughforme。’

  ’Sohandsome,nodoubt。’

  ’Handsomeenoughforme。’

  ’Sorefinedandrespectable。’

  ’Refinedandrespectableenoughforme。’

  Hecouldnotdisturbherequanimity,andletherpass。ThenextdaywasSunday,andSomershavingchosenhisviewattheotherendoftheisland,PierstondeterminedintheafternoontoseeAvice’slover。Hefoundthatshehadlefthercottagestronghold,andwentontowardsthelighthousesattheBeal。Turningbackwhenhehadreachedthenearest,hesawonthelonelyroadbetweenthequarriesayoungmanevidentlyconnectedwiththestonetrade,withAvicetheSeconduponhisarm。

  Shelookedprettilyguiltyandblushedalittleunderhisglance。Theman’swasoneofthetypicalislandphysiognomies——hisfeaturesenergeticandwaryintheirexpression,andhalfcoveredwithaclose,crispblackbeard。Pierstonfanciedthatoutofhiskeendarkeyesthereglimmeredadrysenseofhumouratthesituation。

  Ifso,AvicemusthavetoldhimofPierston’ssymptomsoftenderness。

  Thisgirl,whom,forherdearmother’ssakemorethanforherownunquestionableattractiveness,hewouldhaveguardedastheappleofhiseye,howcouldsheestimatehimsoflippantly!

  Themortificationofhavingbroughthimselftothispositionwiththeantitype,byhisearlyslightofthetype,blindedhimforthemomenttowhatstruckhimashorttimeafter。Themanuponwhosearmshehungwasnotasoldier。What,then,becameofherentrancedgazeatthesentinel?Shecouldhardlyhavetransferredheraffectionssopromptly;or,togiveherthebenefitofhisowntheory,herBelovedcouldscarcelyhaveflittedfromframetoframeinsoverybriefaninterval。Andwhichofthemhadbeenhewhowhistledsoftlyinthedusktoher?

  WithoutfurtherattempttofindAlfredSomersPierstonwalkedhomeward,moodilythinkingthatthedesiretomakereparationtotheoriginalwomanbyweddingandenrichingthecopy——whichlentsuchanunprecedentedpermanencetohisnewlove——wasthwarted,asifbysetintentionofhisdestiny。

  Atthedoorofthegroundsaboutthecastletherestoodacarriage。Heobservedthatitwasnotoneofthehomelyflysfromtheunder-hilltown,butapparentlyfromthepopularresortacrossthebay。Wonderingwhythevisitorhadnotdriveninheentered,tofindinthedrawing-

  roomNicholaPine-Avon。

  Athisfirstglanceuponher,fashionablydressedandgracefulinmovement,sheseemedbeautiful;atthesecond,whenheobservedthatherfacewaspaleandagitated,sheseemedpatheticlikewise。

  Altogether,shewasnowaverydifferentfigurefromherwho,sittinginherchairwithsuchfinishedcomposure,hadsnubbedhiminherdrawing-roominHamptonshireSquare。

  ’Youaresurprisedatthis?Ofcourseyouare!’shesaid,inalow,pleadingvoice,languidlyliftingherheavyeyelids,whilehewasholdingherhand。’ButIcouldn’thelpit!IknowIhavedonesomethingtooffendyou——haveInot?O!whatcanitbe,thatyouhavecomeawaytothisoutlandishrock,tolivewithbarbariansinthemidstoftheLondonseason?’

  ’Youhavenotoffendedme,dearMrs。Pine-Avon,’hesaid。’HowsorryI

  amthatyoushouldhavesupposedit!YetIamglad,too,thatyourfancyshouldhavedonemethegoodturnofbringingyouheretoseeme。’

  ’IamstayingatBudmouth-Regis,’sheexplained。

  ’ThenIdidseeyouatachurch-serviceherealittlewhileback?’

  Sheblushedfaintlyuponherpallor,andshesighed。Theireyesmet。

  ’Well,’shesaidatlast,’Idon’tknowwhyIshouldn’tshowthevirtueofcandour。Youknowwhatitmeans。Iwasthestrongeronce;nowIamtheweaker。WhateverpainImayhavegivenyouintheupsanddownsofouracquaintanceIamsorryfor,andwouldwillinglyrepairallerrorsofthepastby——beingamenabletoreasoninthefuture。’

  ItwasimpossiblethatJocelynshouldnotfeelatenderimpulsiontowardsthisattractiveandonceindependentwoman,whofromeveryworldlypointofviewwasanexcellentmatchforhim——asuperiormatch,indeed,exceptinmoney。Hetookherhandagainandhelditawhile,andafaintwaveofgladnessseemedtoflowthroughher。Butno——hecouldgonofurther。Thatislandgirl,inhercoquettishSundayfrockandlittlehatwithitsbunchofcock’sfeathersheldhimasbystrandsofManilarope。HedroppedNichola’shand。

  ’IamleavingBudmouthto-morrow,’shesaid。’ThatwaswhyIfeltI

  mustcall。YoudidnotknowIhadbeenthereallthroughtheWhitsunholidays?’

  ’Ididnot,indeed;orIshouldhavecometoseeyou。’。

  ’Ididn’tliketowrite。IwishIhad,now!’

  ’Iwishyouhad,too,dearMrs。Pine-Avon。’

  Butitwas’Nichola’thatshewantedtobe。Astheyreachedthelandauhetoldherthatheshouldbebackintownhimselfagainsoon,andwouldcallimmediately。AtthemomentofhiswordsAviceCaro,nowalone,passedclosealongbythecarriageontheotherside,towardsherhousehardathand。Shedidnotturnheadoreyetothepair:

  theyseemedtobeinherviewobjectsofindifference。

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