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  1。VI。ONTHEBRINK

  MissBencombwasleavingthehotelfortherailway,whichwasquitenearathand,andhadonlyrecentlybeenopened,asifonpurposeforthisevent。AtJocelyn’ssuggestionshewroteamessagetoinformherfatherthatshehadgonetoheraunt’s,withaviewtoallayinganxietyanddeterringpursuit。Theywalkedtogethertotheplatformandbadeeachothergood-bye;eachobtainedaticketindependently,andJocelyngothisluggagefromthecloak-room。

  Ontheplatformtheyencounteredeachotheragain,andtherewasalightintheirglancesateachotherwhichsaid,asbyaflash-

  telegraph:’Weareboundforthesametown,whynotenterthesamecompartment?’

  Theydid。

  Shetookacornerseat,withherbacktotheengine;hesatopposite。

  Theguardlookedin,thoughttheywerelovers,anddidnotshowothertravellersintothatcompartment。Theytalkedonstrictlyordinarymatters;whatshethoughthedidnotknow,butateverystoppingstationhedreadedintrusion。BeforetheywerehalfwaytoLondontheeventhehadjustbeguntorealizewasapatentfact。TheBelovedwasagainembodied;shefilledeveryfibreandcurveofthiswoman’sform。

  DrawingnearthegreatLondonstationwaslikedrawingnearDoomsday。

  Howshouldheleaveherintheturmoilofacrowdedcitystreet?Sheseemedquiteunpreparedfortherattleofthescene。Heaskedherwhereherauntlived。

  ’Bayswater,’saidMissBencomb。

  Hecalledacab,andproposedthatsheshouldshareittilltheyarrivedatheraunt’s,whoseresidencelaynotmuchoutofthewaytohisown。Tryashewouldhecouldnotascertainifsheunderstoodhisfeelings,butsheassentedtohisofferandenteredthevehicle。

  ’Weareoldfriends,’hesaid,astheydroveonward。

  ’Indeed,weare,’sheanswered,withoutsmiling。

  ’Buthereditarilywearemortalenemies,dearJuliet。’

  ’Yes——Whatdidyousay?’

  ’IsaidJuliet。’

  Shelaughedinahalf-proudway,andmurmured:’Yourfatherismyfather’senemy,andmyfatherismine。Yes,itisso。’Andthentheireyescaughteachother’sglance。’Myqueenlydarling!’heburstout;

  ’insteadofgoingtoyouraunt’s,willyoucomeandmarryme?’

  Aflushcoveredherover,whichseemedakintoaflushofrage。Itwasnotexactlythat,butshewasexcited。Shedidnotanswer,andhefearedhehadmortallyoffendedherdignity。Perhapsshehadonlymadeuseofhimasaconvenientaidtoherintentions。However,hewenton——

  ’Yourfatherwouldnotbeabletoreclaimyouthen!Afterall,thisisnotsoprecipitateasitseems。Youknowallaboutme,myhistory,myprospects。Iknowallaboutyou。Ourfamilieshavebeenneighboursonthatisleforhundredsofyears,thoughyouarenowsuchaLondonproduct。’

  ’WillyoueverbeaRoyalAcademician?’sheaskedmusingly,herexcitementhavingcalmeddown。

  ’Ihopetobe——IWILLbe,ifyouwillbemywife。’

  Hiscompanionlookedathimlong。

  ’Thinkwhatashortwayoutofyourdifficultythiswouldbe,’hecontinued。’Nobotheraboutaunts,nofetchinghomebyanangryfather。’

  Itseemedtodecideher。Sheyieldedtohisembrace。

  ’Howlongwillittaketomarry?’MissBencombaskedby-and-by,withobviousself-repression。

  ’Wecoulddoitto-morrow。IcouldgettoDoctors’Commonsbynoonto-

  day,andthelicencewouldbereadybyto-morrowmorning。’

  ’Iwon’tgotomyaunt’s,Iwillbeanindependentwoman!IhavebeenreprimandedasifIwereachildofsix。I’llbeyourwifeifitisaseasyasyousay。’

  Theystoppedthecabwhiletheyheldaconsultation。PierstonhadroomsandastudiointheneighbourhoodofCampdenHill;butitwouldbehardlydesirabletotakeherthithertilltheyweremarried。Theydecidedtogotoanhotel。

  Changingtheirdirection,therefore,theywentbacktotheStrand,andsoonensconcedthemselvesinoneofthevenerableoldtavernsofCoventGarden,aprecinctwhichinthosedayswasfrequentedbyWest-countrypeople。Jocelynthenleftherandproceededonhiserrandeastward。

  Itwasaboutthreeo’clockwhen,havingarrangedallpreliminariesnecessitatedbythissuddenchangeoffront,hebeganstrollingslowlyback;hefeltbewildered,andtowalkwasarelief。Gazingoccasionallyintothisshopwindowandthat,hecalledahansomasbyaninspiration,anddirectedthedriverto’MellstockGardens。’

  Arrivedhere,herangthebellofastudio,andinaminuteortwoitwasansweredbyayoungmaninshirt-sleeves,abouthisownage,withagreatsmearedpaletteonhisleftthumb。

  ’O,you,Pierston!Ithoughtyouwereinthecountry。Comein。I’mawfullygladofthis。IamhereintownfinishingoffapaintingforanAmerican,whowantstotakeitbackwithhim。’

  Pierstonfollowedhisfriendintothepainting-room,whereaprettyyoungwomanwassittingsewing。Atasignalfromthepaintershedisappearedwithoutspeaking。

  ’Icanseefromyourfaceyouhavesomethingtosay;sowe’llhaveitalltoourselves。Youareinsometrouble?What’llyoudrink?’

  ’Oh!itdoesn’tmatterwhat,sothatitisalcoholinsomeshapeorform……Now,Somers,youmustjustlistentome,forIHAVE

  somethingtotell。’

  Pierstonhadsatdowninanarm-chair,andSomershadresumedhispainting。WhenaservanthadbroughtinbrandytosoothePierston’snerves,andsodatotakeofftheinjuriouseffectsofthebrandy,andmilktotakeoffthedepletingeffectsofthesoda,Jocelynbeganhisnarrative,addressingitrathertoSomers’sGothicchimneypiece,andSomers’sGothicclock,andSomers’sGothicrugs,thantoSomershimself,whostoodathispicturealittlebehindhisfriend。

  ’BeforeItellyouwhathashappenedtome,’Pierstonsaid,’IwanttoletyouknowthemannerofmanIam。’

  ’Lord——Iknowalready。’

  ’No,youdon’t。Itisasortofthingonedoesn’tliketotalkof。I

  lieawakeatnightthinkingaboutit。’

  ’No!’saidSomers,withmoresympathy,seeingthathisfriendwasreallytroubled。

  ’Iamunderacuriouscurse,orinfluence。Iamposed,puzzledandperplexedbythelegerdemainofacreature——adeityrather;byAphrodite,asapoetwouldputit,asIshouldputitmyselfinmarble……ButIforget——thisisnottobeadeprecatorywail,butadefence——asortofApologiaprovitamea。’

  ’That’sbetter。Fireaway!’

  1。VII。HEREARLIERINCARNATIONS

  ’You,Somers,arenot,Iknow,oneofthosewhocontinuetoindulgeintheworld-wide,fondsuperstitionthattheBelovedOneofanymanalways,orevenusually,carestoremaininonecorporealnookorshellforanygreatlengthoftime,howevermuchhemaywishhertodoso。

  IfIamwrong,andyoudostillholdtothatancienterror——well,mystorywillseemratherqueer。’

  ’SupposeyousaytheBelovedofsomemen,notofanyman。’

  ’Allright——I’llsayoneman,thismanonly,ifyouaresoparticular。

  Weareastrange,visionaryracedownwhereIcomefrom,andperhapsthataccountsforit。TheBelovedofthisoneman,then,hashadmanyincarnations——toomanytodescribeindetail。Eachshape,orembodiment,hasbeenatemporaryresidenceonly,whichshehasentered,livedinawhile,andmadeherexitfrom,leavingthesubstance,sofarasIhavebeenconcerned,acorpse,worseluck!Now,thereisnospiritualisticnonsenseinthis——itissimplefact,putintheplainformthattheconventionalpublicareafraidof。Somuchfortheprinciple。’

  ’Good。Goon。’

  ’Well;thefirstembodimentofheroccurred,sonearlyasIcanrecollect,whenIwasabouttheageofnine。Hervehiclewasalittleblue-eyedgirlofeightorso,oneofafamilyofeleven,withflaxenhairabouthershoulders,whichattemptedtocurl,butignominiouslyfailed,hanginglikechimney-crooksonly。Thisdefectusedrathertotroubleme;andwas,Ibelieve,oneofthemainreasonsofmyBeloved’sdeparturefromthattenement。Icannotrememberwithanyexactnesswhenthedepartureoccurred。IknowitwasafterIhadkissedmylittlefriendinagarden-seatonahotnoontide,underablueginghamumbrella,whichwehadopenedoverusaswesat,thatpassersthroughEastQuarriersmightnotobserveourmarksofaffection,forgettingthatourscreenmustattractmoreattentionthanourpersons。

  ’Whenthewholedreamcametoanendthroughherfatherleavingtheisland,IthoughtmyWell-Belovedhadgoneforever(beingthenintheunpractisedconditionofAdamatsightofthefirstsunset)。Butshehadnot。Laurahadgoneforever,butnotmyBeloved。

  ’ForsomemonthsafterIhaddonecryingfortheflaxen-hairededitionofher,myLovedidnotreappear。Thenshecamesuddenly,unexpectedly,inasituationIshouldneverhavepredicted。IwasstandingonthekerbstoneofthepavementinBudmouth-Regis,outsidethePreparatorySchool,lookingacrosstowardsthesea,whenamiddle-

  agedgentlemanonhorseback,andbesidehimayounglady,alsomounted,passeddownthestreet。Thegirlturnedherhead,and——possiblybecauseIwasgapingatherinawkwardadmiration,orsmilingmyself——

  smiledatme。Havingriddenafewpaces,shelookedroundagainandsmiled。

  ’Itwasenough,morethanenough,tosetmeonfire。Iunderstoodinamomenttheinformationconveyedtomebymyemotion——theWell-Belovedhadreappeared。Thissecondforminwhichithadpleasedhertotakeupherabodewasquiteagrownyoungwoman’s,darkerincomplexionthanthefirst。Herhair,alsoworninaknot,wasofanordinarybrown,andso,Ithink,werehereyes,butthenicetiesofherfeatureswerenottobegatheredsocursorily。However,theresatmycovetedone,re-embodied;and,biddingmyschoolmatesahastyfarewellassoonasI

  coulddosowithoutsuspicion,IhurriedalongtheEsplanadeinthedirectionsheandherfatherhadridden。Buttheyhadputtheirhorsestoacanter,andIcouldnotseewhichwaytheyhadgone。InthegreatestmiseryIturneddownasidestreet,butwassoonelevatedtoastateofexcitementbyseeingthesamepairgallopingtowardsme。

  Flushinguptomyhair,Istoppedandheroicallyfacedherasshepassed。Shesmiledagain,but,alas!uponmyLove’scheektherewasnoblushofpassionforme。’

  Pierstonpaused,anddrankfromhisglass,ashelivedforabriefmomentinthescenehehadconjuredup。Somersreservedhiscomments,andJocelyncontinued——

  ’ThatafternoonIidledaboutthestreets,lookingforherinvain。

  WhenInextsawoneoftheboyswhohadbeenwithmeatherfirstpassingIstealthilyremindedhimoftheincident,andaskedifheknewtheriders。

  ’\"Oyes,\"hesaid。\"ThatwasColonelTargeandhisdaughterElsie。\"

  ’\"Howolddoyouthinksheis?\"saidI,asenseofdisparityinouragesdisturbingmymind。

  ’\"O——nineteen,Ithinktheysay。She’sgoingtobemarriedthedayafterto-morrowtoCaptainPopp,ofthe501st,andtheyareorderedofftoIndiaatonce。\"

  ’ThegriefwhichIexperiencedatthisintelligencewassuchthatatduskIwentawaytotheedgeoftheharbour,intendingtoputanendtomyselfthereandthen。ButIhadbeentoldthatcrabshadbeenfoundclingingtothedeadfacesofpersonswhohadfalleninthereabout,leisurelyeatingthem,andtheideaofsuchanunpleasantcontingencydeterredme。IshouldstatethatthemarriageofmyBelovedconcernedmelittle;itwasherdeparturethatbrokemyheart。Ineversawheragain。

  ’ThoughIhadalreadylearntthattheabsenceofthecorporealmatterdidnotinvolvetheabsenceoftheinformingspirit,Icouldscarcebringmyselftobelievethatinthiscaseitwaspossibleforhertoreturntomyviewwithouttheformshehadlastinhabited。

  ’Butshedid。

  ’Itwasnot,however,tillafteragoodspaceoftime,duringwhichI

  passedthroughthatbearishageinboys,theirearlyteens,whengirlsaretheirespecialcontempt。Iwasaboutseventeen,andwassittingoneeveningoveracupofteainaconfectioner’sattheverysamewatering-place,whenoppositemealadytookherseatwithalittlegirl。Welookedateachotherawhile,thechildmadeadvances,tillI

  said:\"She’sagoodlittlething。\"

  ’Theladyassented,andmadeafurtherremark。

  ’\"Shehasthesoftfineeyesofhermother,\"saidI。

  ’\"Doyouthinkhereyesaregood?\"asksthelady,asifshehadnotheardwhatshehadheardmost——thelastthreewordsofmyopinion。

  ’\"Yes——forcopies,\"saidI,regardingher。

  ’Afterthiswegotonverywell。Sheinformedmethatherhusbandhadgoneoutinayacht,andIsaiditwasapityhedidn’ttakeherwithhimfortheairing。Shegraduallydisclosedherselfinthecharacterofadesertedyoungwife,andlateronImetherinthestreetwithoutthechild。Shewasgoingtothelanding-stagetomeetherhusband,soshetoldme;butshedidnotknowtheway。

  ’Iofferedtoshowher,anddidso。Iwillnotgointoparticulars,butIafterwardssawherseveraltimes,andsoondiscoveredthattheBeloved(astowhosewhereaboutsIhadbeenatfaultsolong)lurkedhere。Thoughwhyshehadchosenthistantalizingsituationofaninaccessiblematron’sformwhensomanyothersoffered,itwasbeyondmetodiscover。Thewholeaffairendedinnocentlyenough,whentheladyleftthetownwithherhusbandandchild:sheseemedtoregardouracquaintanceasaflirtation;yetitwasanythingbutaflirtationforme!

  ***

  ’WhyshouldItelltherestofthetantalizingtale!Afterthis,theWell-Belovedputherselfinevidencewithgreaterandgreaterfrequency,anditwouldbeimpossibleformetogiveyoudetailsofhervariousincarnations。Shecameninetimesinthecourseofthetwoorthreeensuingyears。Fourtimesshemasqueradedasabrunette,twiceasapale-hairedcreature,andtwoorthreetimesunderacomplexionneitherlightnordark。Sometimesshewasatall,finegirl,butmoreoften,Ithink,shepreferredtoslipintotheskinofalitheairybeing,ofnogreatstature。IgrewsoaccustomedtotheseexitsandentrancesthatIresignedmyselftothemquitepassively,talkedtoher,kissedher,correspondedwithher,achedforher,ineachofherseveralguises。Soitwentonuntilamonthago。AndthenforthefirsttimeIwaspuzzled。Sheeitherhad,orshehadnot,enteredthepersonofAviceCaro,ayounggirlIhadknownfrominfancy。Uponthewhole,Ihavedecidedthat,afterall,shedidnotentertheformofAviceCaro,becauseIretainsogreatarespectforherstill。’

  PierstonheregaveinbriefthehistoryofhisrevivedcomradeshipwithAvice,thevergeoftheengagementtowhichtheyhadreached,anditsunexpectedrupturebyhim,merelythroughhismeetingwithawomanintowhomtheWell-Belovedunmistakablymovedunderhisveryeyes——bynameMissMarciaBencomb。Hedescribedtheirspontaneousdecisiontomarryoffhand;andthenheputittoSomerswhetherheoughttomarryornot——

  heroranybodyelse——insuchcircumstances。

  ’Certainlynot,’saidSomers。’Though,ifanybody,littleAvice。Butnotevenher。Youarelikeothermen,onlyratherworse。Essentially,allmenarefickle,likeyou;butnotwithsuchperceptiveness。’

  ’Surelyfickleisnottheword?Ficklenessmeansgettingwearyofathingwhilethethingremainsthesame。ButIhavealwaysbeenfaithfultotheelusivecreaturewhomIhaveneverbeenabletogetafirmholdof,unlessIhavedonesonow。Andletmetellyouthatherflittingfromeachtoeachindividualhasbeenanythingbutapleasureforme——certainlynotawantongameofmyinstigation。Toseethecreaturewhohashithertobeenperfect,divine,loseunderyourverygazethedivinitywhichhasinformedher,growcommonplace,turnfromflametoashes,fromaradiantvitalitytoarelic,isanythingbutapleasureforanyman,andhasbeennothinglessthanarackingspectacletomysight。Eachmournfulemptiedshapestandseverafterlikethenestofsomebeautifulbirdfromwhichtheinhabitanthasdepartedandleftittofillwithsnow。IhavebeenabsolutelymiserablewhenIhavelookedinafaceforherIusedtoseethere,andcouldseehertherenomore。’

  ’Yououghtnottomarry,’repeatedSomers。

  ’PerhapsIoughtn’tto!ThoughpoorMarciawillbecompromised,I’mafraid,ifIdon’t……WasInotrightinsayingIamaccursedinthisthing?Fortunatelynobodybutmyselfhassufferedonaccountofittillnow。Knowingwhattoexpect,Ihaveseldomventuredonacloseacquaintancewithanywoman,infearofprematurelydrivingawaythedearoneinher;who,however,hasintimegoneoffjustthesame。’

  Pierstonsoonaftertookhisleave。Afriend’sadviceonsuchasubjectweighslittle。HequicklyreturnedtoMissBencomb。

  Shewasdifferentnow。Anxietyhadvisiblybroughtherdownanotchortwo,undoneafewdegreesofthathaughtycurlwhichherlipcouldoccasionallyassume。’Howlongyouhavebeenaway!’shesaidwithashowofimpatience。

  ’Nevermind,darling。Itisallarranged,’saidhe。’Weshallbeabletomarryinafewdays。’

  ’Notto-morrow?’

  ’Wecan’tto-morrow。Wehavenotbeenherequitelongenough。’

  ’ButhowdidthepeopleatDoctors’Commonsknowthat?’

  ’Well——Iforgotthatresidence,realorassumed,wasnecessary,andunfortunatelyadmittedthatwehadonlyjustarrived。’

  ’Ohowstupid!Butitcan’tbehelpednow。Ithink,dear,Ishouldhaveknownbetter,however!’

  1。VIII。’TOOLIKETHELIGHTNING’

  Theylivedonatthehotelsomedayslonger,eyedcuriouslybythechambermaids,andburstinuponeverynowandthenbythewaitersasifaccidentally。Whentheywerewalkingtogether,mostlyinbackstreetsforfearofbeingrecognized,Marciawasoftensilent,andherimperiousfacelookedgloomy。

  ’Dummy!’hesaidplayfully,ononeoftheseoccasions。

  ’IamvexedthatbyyouradmissionsatDoctors’Commonsyoupreventedthemgivingyouthelicenceatonce!Itisnotnice,mylivingonwithyoulikethis!’

  ’Butwearegoingtomarry,dear!’

  ’Yes,’shemurmured,andfellintoreverieagain。’Whatasuddenresolveitwasofours!’shecontinued。’IwishIcouldgetmyfatherandmother’sconsenttoourmarriage……Aswecan’tcompleteitforanotherdayortwo,alettermightbesenttothemandtheiranswerreceived?Ihaveamindtowrite。’

  Pierstonexpressedhisdoubtsofthewisdomofthiscourse,whichseemedtomakeherdesireitthemore,andtheresultwasatiffbetweenthem。’Sinceweareobligedtodelayit,Iwon’tmarrywithouttheirconsent!’shecriedatlastpassionately。

  ’Verywellthen,dear。Write,’hesaid。

  Whentheywereagainindoors,shesatdowntoanote,butafterawhilethrewasideherpendespairingly。’No:Icannotdoit!’shesaid。’I

  can’tbendmypridetosuchajob。WillYOUwriteforme,Jocelyn?’

  ’I?Idon’tseewhyIshouldbetheone,particularlyasIthinkitpremature。’

  ’ButyouhavenotquarrelledwithmyfatherasIhavedone。’

  ’Wellno。Butthereisalong-standingantagonism,whichwouldmakeitoddinmetobethewriter。Waittillwearemarried,andthenIwillwrite。Nottillthen。’

  ’ThenIsupposeImust。Youdon’tknowmyfather。Hemightforgivememarryingintoanyotherfamilywithouthisknowledge,buthethinksyourssuchameanone,andsoresentsthetraderivalry,thathewouldneverpardontillthedayofhisdeathmybecomingaPierstonsecretly。

  Ididn’tseeitatfirst。’

  ThisremarkcausedanunpleasantjaronthemindofPierston。DespitehisindependentartisticpositioninLondon,hewasstaunchtothesimpleoldparentwhohadstubbornlyheldoutforsomanyyearsagainstBencomb’sencroachingtrade,andwhosemoneyhadeducatedandmaintainedJocelynasanart-studentinthebestschools。Sohebeggedhertosaynomoreabouthismeanfamily,andshesilentlyresumedherletter,givinganaddressatapost-officethattheirquartersmightnotbediscovered,atleastjustyet。

  Noreplycamebyreturnofpost;but,ratherominously,somelettersforMarciathathadarrivedatherfather’ssinceherdepartureweresentoninsilencetotheaddressgiven。Sheopenedthemonebyone,tillonreadingthelast,sheexclaimed,’Goodgracious!’andburstintolaughter。

  ’Whatisit?’askedPierston。

  Marciabegantoreadtheletteraloud。Itcamefromafaithfulloverofhers,ayouthfulJerseygentleman,whostatedthathewassoongoingtostartforEnglandtoclaimhisdarling,accordingtoherplightedword。

  Shewashalfrisible,halfconcerned。’WhatshallIdo?’shesaid。

  ’Do?Mydeargirl,itseemstomethatthereisonlyonethingtodo,andthataveryobviousthing。Tellhimassoonaspossiblethatyouarejustonthepointofmarriage。’

  Marciathereuponwroteoutareplytothateffect,Jocelynhelpinghertoshapethephrasesasgentlyaspossible。

  ’Irepeat’(herletterconcluded)’thatIhadquiteforgotten!Iamdeeplysorry;butthatisthetruth。Ihavetoldmyintendedhusbandeverything,andheislookingovermyshoulderasIwrite。’

  SaidJocelynwhenhesawthissetdown:’Youmightleaveoutthelastfewwords。Theyareratheranextrastabforthepoorboy。’

  ’Stab?Itisnotthat,dear。Whydoeshewanttocomebotheringme?

  Jocelyn,yououghttobeveryproudthatIhaveputyouinmyletteratall。YousaidyesterdaythatIwasconceitedindeclaringImighthavemarriedthatscience-manItoldyouof。Butnowyouseetherewasyetanotheravailable。’

  He,gloomily:’Well,Idon’tcaretohearaboutthat。Tomymindthissortofthingisdecidedlyunpleasant,thoughyoutreatitsolightly。’

  ’Well,’shepouted,’Ihaveonlydonehalfwhatyouhavedone!’

  ’What’sthat?’

  ’Ihaveonlyprovedfalsethroughforgetfulness,butyouhavewhileremembering!’

  ’Oyes;ofcourseyoucanuseAviceCaroasaretort。Butdon’tvexmeabouther,andmakemedosuchanunexpectedthingasregretthefalseness。’

  Sheshuthermouthtight,andherfaceflushed。

  Thenextmorningtheredidcomeananswertotheletteraskingherparents’consenttoherunionwithhim;buttoMarcia’samazementherfathertookalinequiteotherthantheoneshehadexpectedhimtotake。Whethershehadcompromisedherselforwhethershehadnotseemedaquestionforthefutureratherthanthepresentwithhim,anativeislander,bornwhenoldislandmarriageviewsprevailedinfamilies;hewasfixedinhisdisapprovalofhermarriagewithahatedPierston。Hedidnotconsent;hewouldnotsaymoretillhecouldseeher:ifshehadanysenseatallshewould,ifstillunmarried,returntothehomefromwhichshehadevidentlybeenenticed。Hewouldthenseewhathecoulddoforherinthedesperatecircumstancesshehadmadeforherself;otherwisehewoulddonothing。

  Pierstoncouldnothelpbeingsarcasticatherfather’sevidentlylowestimateofhimandhisbelongings;andMarciatookumbrageathissarcasms。

  ’Iamtheonedeservingofsatireifanybody!’shesaid。’IbegintofeelIwasafoolishgirltorunawayfromafatherforsuchatrumperyreasonasalittlescoldingbecauseIhadexceededmyallowance。’

  ’Iadvisedyoutogoback,Marcie。’

  ’Inasortofway:notintherighttone。Youspokemostcontemptuouslyofmyfather’shonestyasamerchant。’

  ’Icouldn’tspeakotherwiseofhimthanIdid,I’mafraid,knowingwhat——’。

  ’Whathaveyoutosayagainsthim?’

  ’Nothing——toyou,Marcie,beyondwhatismatterofcommonnotoriety。

  Everybodyknowsthatatonetimehemadeitthebusinessofhislifetoruinmyfather;andthewayhealludestomeinthatlettershowsthathisenmitystillcontinues。’

  ’Thatmiserruinedbyanopen-handedmanlikemyfather!’saidshe。

  ’Itislikeyourpeople’smisrepresentationstosaythat!’

  Marcia’seyesflashed,andherfaceburntwithanangryheat,theenhancedbeautywhichthiswarmthmighthavebroughtbeingkilledbytherectilinearsternnessofcountenancethatcametherewith。

  ’Marcia——thistemperistooexasperating!Icouldgiveyoueverystepoftheproceedingindetail——anybodycould——thegettingthequarriesonebyone,andeverything,myfatheronlyholdinghisownbythemostdesperatecourage。Thereisnoblinkingfacts。Ourparents’relationsareanuglyfactinthecircumstancesofustwopeoplewhowanttomarry,andwearejustbeginningtoperceiveit;andhowwearegoingtogetoveritIcannottell。’

  Shesaidsteadily:’Idon’tthinkweshallgetoveritatall!’

  ’Wemaynot——wemaynot——altogether,’Pierstonmurmured,ashegazedatthefinepictureofscornpresentedbyhisJuno’sclassicalfaceanddarkeyes。

  ’Unlessyoubegmypardonforhavingbehavedso!’

  Pierstoncouldnotquitebringhimselftoseethathehadbehavedbadlytohistooimperiouslady,anddeclinedtoaskforgivenessforwhathehadnotdone。

  Shethereuponlefttheroom。Laterinthedayshere-enteredandbrokeasilencebysayingbitterly:’Ishowedtemperjustnow,asyoutoldme。Butthingshavecauses,anditisperhapsamistakethatyoushouldhavedesertedAviceforme。InsteadofweddingRosaline,RomeomustneedsgoelopingwithJuliet。ItwasafortunatethingfortheaffectionsofthosetwoVeroneseloversthattheydiedwhentheydid。

  Inashorttimetheenmityoftheirfamilieswouldhaveprovedafruitfulsourceofdissension;Julietwouldhavegonebacktoherpeople,hetohis;thesubjectwouldhavesplitthemasmuchasitsplitsus。’

  Pierstonlaughedalittle。ButMarciawaspainfullyserious,ashefoundattea-time,whenshesaidthatsincehisrefusaltobegherpardonshehadbeenthinkingoverthematter,andhadresolvedtogotoheraunt’safterall——atanyratetillherfathercouldbeinducedtoagreetotheirunion。Pierstonwasaschilledbythisresolveofhersashewassurprisedatherindependenceincircumstanceswhichusuallymakewomenthereverse。Butheputnoobstaclesinherway,and,withakissstrangelycoldaftertheirrecentardour,theRomeoofthefreestoneMontagueswentoutofthehotel,toavoideventheappearanceofcoercinghisJulietoftherivalhouse。Whenhereturnedshewasgone。

  ***

  Acorrespondencebeganbetweenthesetoo-hastilypledgedones;anditwascarriedonintermsofseriousreasoningupontheirawkwardsituationonaccountofthefamilyfeud。Theysawtheirrecentloveaswhatitwas:

  ’Toorash,toounadvised,toosudden;

  Toolikethelightning……’

  Theysawitwithaneyewhosecalmness,coldness,and,itmustbeadded,wisdom,didnotpromisewellfortheirreunion。

  TheirdebateswereclinchedbyafinalletterfromMarcia,sentfromnootherplacethanherrecentlylefthomeintheIsle。Sheinformedhimthatherfatherhadappearedsuddenlyatheraunt’s,andhadinducedhertogohomewithhim。Shehadtoldherfatherallthecircumstancesoftheirelopement,andwhatmereaccidentshadcausedit:hehadpersuadedheronwhatshehadalmostbeenconvincedofbytheirdisagreement,thatallthoughtoftheirmarriageshouldbeatleastpostponedforthepresent;anyawkwardnessandevenscandalbeingbetterthanthattheyshouldimmediatelyunitethemselvesforlifeonthestrengthofatwoorthreedays’resultlesspassion,andbethewretchedvictimsofasituationtheycouldneverchange。

  Pierstonsawplainlyenoughthatheowedittoherfatherbeingabornislander,withalltheancientislandnotionsofmatrimonylyingunderneathhisacquiredconventions,thatthestone-merchantdidnotimmediatelyinsistupontheusualremedyforadaughter’sprecipitancyinsuchcases,butpreferredtoawaitissues。

  ButtheyoungmanstillthoughtthatMarciaherself,whenhertemperhadquitecooled,andshewasmoreconsciousofherrealposition,wouldreturntohim,inspiteofthefamilyhostility。Therewasnosocialreasonagainstsuchastep。Inbirththepairwereaboutononeplane;andthoughMarcia’sfamilyhadgainedastartintheaccumulationofwealth,andinthebeginningsofsocialdistinction,whichlentcolourtothefeelingthattheadvantagesofthematchwouldbemainlyononeside,Pierstonwasasculptorwhomightrisetofame;

  sothatpotentiallytheirmarriagecouldnotbeconsideredinauspiciousforawomanwho,beyondbeingtheprobableheiresstoaconsiderablefortune,hadnoexceptionalopportunities。

  Thus,thoughdisillusioned,hefeltboundinhonourtoremainoncallathisLondonaddressaslongastherewastheslightestchanceofMarcia’sreappearance,orofthearrivalofsomemessagerequestinghimtojoinher,thattheymight,afterall,gotothealtartogether。Yetinthenightheseemedtohearsardonicvoices,andlaughterinthewindatthisdevelopmentofhislittleromance,andduringtheslowandcolourlessdayshehadtositandbeholdthemournfuldepartureofhisWell-Belovedfromtheformhehadlatelycherished,tillshehadalmostvanishedaway。TheexactmomentofhercompletewithdrawalPierstonknewnot,butnotmanylinesofherwerelongerdiscernibleinMarcia’srememberedcontours,normanysoundsofherinMarcia’srecalledaccents。Theiracquaintance,thoughsofervid,hadbeentoobriefforsuchlingering。

  Therecameatimewhenhelearnt,throughatrustworthychannel,twopiecesofnewsaffectinghimself。OnewasthemarriageofAviceCarowithhercousin,theotherthattheBencombshadstartedonatourroundtheworld,whichwastoincludeavisittoarelationofMr。

  Bencomb’swhowasabankerinSanFrancisco。Sinceretiringfromhisformerlargebusinessthestonemerchanthadnotknownwhattodowithhisleisure,andfindingthattravelbenefitedhishealthhehaddecidedtoindulgehimselfthus。Althoughhewasnotsoinformed,PierstonconcludedthatMarciahaddiscoveredthatnothingwaslikelytohappenasaconsequenceoftheirelopement,andthatshehadaccompaniedherparents。Hewasmorethaneverstruckwithwhatthissignified——herfather’sobstinateantagonismtoherunionwithoneofhisbloodandname。

  1。IX。FAMILIARPHENOMENAINTHEDISTANCE

  BydegreesPierstonbegantotraceagainthecustomarylinesofhisexistence;andhisprofessionoccupiedhimmuchasofold。Thenextyearortwoonlyoncebroughthimtidings,throughsomeresidentsathisformerhome,ofthemovementsoftheBencombs。TheextendedvoyageofMarcia’sparentshadgiventhemquiteazestforotherscenesandcountries;anditwassaidthatherfather,amanstillinvigoroushealthexceptatbriefintervals,wasutilizingtheoutlookwhichhiscosmopolitanismaffordedhimbyinvestingcapitalinforeignundertakings。Whathehadsupposedturnedouttobetrue;Marciawaswiththem;nonecessityforjoininghimhadarisen;andthustheseparationofhimselfandhisnearlymarriedwifebycommonconsentwaslikelytobeapermanentone。

  Itseemedasifhewouldscarceeveragaindiscoverthecarnatedwelling-placeofthehauntingminionofhisimagination。HavinggonesoneartomatrimonywithMarciaastoapplyforalicence,hehadfeltforalongwhilemorallyboundtoherbytheincipientcontract,andwouldnotintentionallylookabouthiminsearchofthevanishedIdeality。ThusduringthefirstyearofMissBencomb’sabsence,whenabsolutelyboundtokeepfaithwiththeelusiveone’slateincarnationifsheshouldreturntoclaimhim,thismanoftheoddfancywouldsometimestrembleatthethoughtofwhatwouldbecomeofhissolemnintentionifthePhantomweresuddenlytodiscloseherselfinanunexpectedquarter,andseducehimbeforehewasaware。Onceortwiceheimaginedthathesawherinthedistance——attheendofastreet,onthefarsandsofashore,inawindow,inameadow,attheoppositesideofarailwaystation;buthedeterminedlyturnedonhisheel,andwalkedtheotherway。

  DuringthemanyuneventfulseasonsthatfollowedMarcia’sstrokeofindependence(forwhichhewasnotwithoutasecretadmirationattimes),Jocelynthrewintoplasticcreationsthatever-bubblingspringofemotionwhich,withoutsomeconduitintospace,willsurgeupwardsandruinallbutthegreatestmen。Itwasprobablyowingtothis,certainlynotonaccountofanycareoranxietyforsucharesult,thathewassuccessfulinhisart,successfulbyaseeminglysuddenspurt,whichcarriedhimatoneboundoverthehindrancesofyears。

  Heprosperedwithouteffort。HewasA。R。A。

  Butrecognitionsofthissort,socialdistinctions,whichhehadoncecovetedsokeenly,seemedtohavenoutilityforhimnow。Bytheaccidentofbeingabachelor,hewasfloatinginsocietywithoutanysoul-anchorageorshrinethathecouldcallhisown;and,forwantofadomesticcentreroundwhichhonoursmightcrystallize,theydispersedimpalpablywithoutaccumulatingandaddingweighttohismaterialwell-

  being。

  Hewouldhavegoneonworkingwithhischiselwithjustasmuchzestifhiscreationshadbeendoomedtomeetnomortaleyebuthisown。Thisindifferencetothepopularreceptionofhisdream-figureslenthimacuriousartisticaplombthatcarriedhimthroughthegustsofopinionwithoutsufferingthemtodisturbhisinherentbias。

  Thestudyofbeautywashisonlyjoyforyearsonward。Inthestreetshewouldobserveaface,orafractionofaface,whichseemedtoexpresstoahair’s-breadthinmutablefleshwhathewasatthatmomentwishingtoexpressindurableshape。Hewoulddodgeandfollowtheownerlikeadetective;inomnibus,incab,insteam-boat,throughcrowds,intoshops,churches,theatres,public-houses,andslums——

  mostly,whenatclosequarters,tobedisappointedforhispains。

  Intheseprofessionalbeauty-chaseshesometimescasthiseyeacrosstheThamestothewharvesonthesouthside,andtothatparticularonewhereathisfather’stonsoffreestoneweredailylandedfromtheketchesofthesouthcoast。Hecouldoccasionallydiscernthewhiteblockslyingthere,vastcubessopersistentlynibbledbyhisparentfromhisislandrockintheEnglishChannel,thatitseemedasifintimeitwouldbenibbledallaway。

  Onethingitpassedhimtounderstand:onwhatfieldofobservationthepoetsandphilosophersbasedtheirassumptionthatthepassionoflovewasintensestinyouthandburntlowerasmaturityadvanced。Itwaspossiblybecauseofhisutterdomesticlonelinessthat,duringtheproductiveintervalwhichfollowedthefirstyearsofMarcia’sdeparture,whenhewasdriftingalongfromfive-and-twentytoeight-

  and-thirty,Pierstonoccasionallylovedwithanardour——though,itistrue,alsowithaself-control——unknowntohimwhenhewasgreeninjudgment。

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  Hiswhimsicalisle-bredfancyhadgrowntobesuchanemotionthattheWell-Beloved——nowagainvisible——wasalwaysexistingsomewherenearhim。Formonthshewouldfindheronthestageofatheatre:thenshewouldflitaway,leavingthepoor,emptycarcasethathadlodgedhertomummonasbestitcouldwithouther——asorrylayfiguretohiseyes,heapedwithimperfectionsandsulliedwithcommonplace。Shewouldreappear,itmightbe,inanatfirstunnoticedlady,metatsomefashionableeveningparty,exhibition,bazaar,ordinner;toflitfromher,inturn,afterafewmonths,andstandasagracefulshop-girlatsomelargedraperywarehouseintowhichhehadstrayedonanunaccustomederrand。Thenshewouldforsakethisfigureandrediscloseherselfintheguiseofsomepopularauthoress,piano-player,orfiddleress,atwhoseshrinehewouldworshipforperhapsatwelvemonth。

  Onceshewasadancing-girlattheRoyalMoorishPalaceofVarieties,thoughduringherwholecontinuanceatthatestablishmentheneveronceexchangedawordwithher,nordidshefirstorlasteverdreamofhisexistence。Heknewthataten-minutes’conversationinthewingswiththesubstancewouldsendtheelusivehaunterscurryingfearfullyawayintosomeotherevenlessaccessiblemask-figure。

  Shewasablonde,abrunette,tall,petite,svelte,straight-featured,full,curvilinear。Onlyonequalityremainedunalterable:herinstabilityoftenure。InBorne’sphrase,nothingwaspermanentinherbutchange。

  ’Itisodd,’hesaidtohimself,’thatthisexperienceofmine,oridiosyncrasy,orwhateveritis,whichwouldbesheerwasteoftimeforothermen,createssoberbusinessforme。’Forallthesedreamshetranslatedintoplaster,andfoundthatbythemhewashittingapublictastehehadneverdeliberatelyaimedat,andmostlydespised。Hewas,inshort,indangerofdriftingawayfromasolidartisticreputationtoapopularitywhichmightpossiblybeasbriefasitwouldbebrilliantandexciting。

  ’Youwillbecaughtsomeday,myfriend,’Somerswouldoccasionallyobservetohim。’Idon’tmeantosayentangledinanythingdiscreditable,forIadmitthatyouareinpracticeasidealasintheory。Imeantheprocesswillbereversed。Somewoman,whoseWell-

  Belovedflitsaboutasyoursdoesnow,willcatchyoureye,andyou’llsticktoherlikealimpet,whileshefollowsherPhantomandleavesyoutoacheasyouwill。’

  ’Youmayberight;butIthinkyouarewrong,’saidPierston。’Asfleshshediesdaily,liketheApostle’scorporealself;becausewhenI

  grapplewiththerealityshe’snolongerinit,sothatIcannotsticktooneincarnationifIwould。’

  ’Waittillyouareolder,’saidSomers。

  PARTSECOND——AYOUNGMANOFFORTY

  ’SinceLovewillneedsthatIshalllove,OfveryforceImustagree:

  AndsincenochancemayitremoveInwealthandinadversityIshallalwaymyselfapplyToserveandsufferpatiently。’

  ——SirT。Wyatt。

  2。I。THEOLDPHANTOMBECOMESDISTINCT

  InthecourseoftheselongyearsPierston’sartisticemotionswereabruptlysuspendedbythenewsofhisfather’ssuddendeathatSandbourne,whitherthestone-merchanthadgoneforachangeofairbytheadviceofhisphysician。

  Mr。Pierston,senior,itmustbeadmitted,hadbeensomethingmiserlyinhishomelife,asMarciahadsorashlyremindedhisson。ButhehadneverstintedJocelyn。Hehadbeenratherahardtaskmaster,thoughasapaymastertrustworthy;aready-moneyman,justandungenerous。Toeveryone’ssurprise,thecapitalhehadaccumulatedinthestonetradewasoflargeamountforabusinesssounostentatiouslycarriedon——muchlargerthanJocelynhadeverregardedaspossible。Whilethesonhadbeenmodellingandchippinghisephemeralfanciesintoperennialshapes,thefatherhadbeenpersistentlychisellingforhalfacenturyatthecrudeoriginalmatterofthoseshapes,thestern,isolatedrockintheChannel;andbytheaidofhiscranesandpulleys,histrolleysandhisboats,hadsentoffhisspoiltoallpartsofGreatBritain。

  WhenJocelynhadwoundupeverythinganddisposedofthebusiness,asrecommendedbyhisfather’swill,hefoundhimselfenabledtoaddabouteightythousandpoundstothetwelvethousandwhichhealreadypossessedfromprofessionalandothersources。

  Afterarrangingforthesaleofsomefreeholdpropertiesintheislandotherthanquarries——forhedidnotintendtoresidethere——hereturnedtotown。HeoftenwonderedwhathadbecomeofMarcia。Hehadpromisednevertotroubleher;norforawholetwentyyearshadhedoneso;

  thoughhehadoftensighedforherasafriendofsterlingcommonsenseinpracticaldifficulties。

  Herparentswere,hebelieved,dead;andshe,heknew,hadnevergonebacktotheisle。Possiblyshehadformedsomenewtieabroad,andhadmadeitnexttoimpossibletodiscoverherbyheroldname。

  Areposefultimeensued。Almosthisfirstentryintosocietyafterhisfather’sdeathoccurredoneevening,when,forwantofknowingwhatbettertodo,herespondedtoaninvitationsentbyoneofthefewladiesofrankwhomhenumberedamonghisfriends,andsetoutinacabforthesquarewhereinshelivedduringthreeorfourmonthsoftheyear。

  Thehansomturnedthecorner,andheobtainedarakingviewofthehousesalongthenorthside,ofwhichherswasone,withthefamiliarlinkmanatthedoor。TherewereChineselanterns,too,onthebalcony。

  Heperceivedinamomentthatthecustomary’smallandearly’receptionhadresolveditselfonthisoccasionintosomethingverylikegreatandlate。Herememberedthattherehadjustbeenapoliticalcrisis,whichaccountedfortheenlargementoftheCountessofChannelcliffe’sassembly;forherswasoneoftheneutralornon-politicalhousesatwhichpartypoliticsaremorefreelyagitatedthanattheprofessedlypartygatherings。

  TherewassuchastringofcarriagesthatPierstondidnotwaittotakehisturnatthedoor,butunobtrusivelyalightedsomeyardsoffandwalkedforward。Hehadtopauseamomentbehindthewallofspectatorswhichbarredhisway,andashepausedsomeladiesinwhitecloakscrossedfromtheircarriagestothedooronthecarpetlaidforthepurpose。Hehadnotseentheirfaces,nothingofthembutvagueforms,andyethewassuddenlyseizedwithapresentiment。Itsgistwasthathemightbegoingtore-encountertheWell-Belovedthatnight:afterherrecentlonghidingshemeanttoreappearandintoxicatehim。Thatliquidsparkleofhereye,thatlingualmusic,thatturnofthehead,howwellheknewitall,despitethemanysuperficialchanges,andhowinstantlyhewouldrecognizeitunderwhatevercomplexion,contour,accent,height,orcarriagethatitmightchoosetomasquerade!

  Pierston’sotherconjecture,thatthenightwastobealivelypoliticalone,receivedconfirmationassoonashereachedthehall,whereasimmerofexcitementwasperceptibleassurplusoroverflowfromabovedownthestaircase——afeaturewhichhehadalwaysnoticedtobepresentwhenanyclimaxorsensationhadbeenreachedintheworldofpartyandfaction。

  ’Andwherehaveyoubeenkeepingyourselfsolong,youngman?’saidhishostessarchly,whenhehadshakenhandswithher。(Pierstonwasalwaysregardedasayoungman,thoughhewasnowaboutforty。)’O

  yes,ofcourse,Iremember,’sheadded,lookingseriousinamomentatthoughtofhisloss。TheCountesswasawomanwithagood-naturedmannervergingonthatoft-claimedfemininequality,humour,andwasquicklysympathetic。

  Shethenbegantotellhimofascandalinthepoliticalsidetowhichshenominallybelonged,onethathadcomeoutofthepresentcrisis;

  andthat,asforherself,shehadsworntoabjurepoliticsforeveronaccountofit,sothathewastoregardherforthwithasamoreneutralhouseholderthanever。Bythistimesomemorepeoplehadsurgedupstairs,andPierstonpreparedtomoveon。

  ’Youarelookingforsomebody——Icanseethat,’saidshe。

  ’Yes——alady,’saidPierston。

  ’Tellmehername,andI’lltrytothinkifshe’shere。’

  ’Icannot;Idon’tknowit,’hesaid。

  ’Indeed!Whatisshelike?’

  ’Icannotdescribeher,notevenhercomplexionordress。’

  LadyChannelcliffelookedapout,asifshethoughthewereteasingher,andhemovedoninthecurrent。Thefactwasthat,foramoment,PierstonfanciedhehadmadethesensationaldiscoverythattheOnehewasinsearchoflurkedinthepersonoftheveryhostesshehadconversedwith,whowascharmingalways,andparticularlycharmingto-

  night;hewasjustfeelinganincipientconsternationatthepossibilityofsuchajade’strickinhisBeloved,whohadoncebeforechosentoembodyherselfasamarriedwoman,though,happily,atthattimewithnoseriousresults。However,hefeltthathehadbeenmistaken,andthatthefancyhadbeensolelyowingtothehighlychargedelectricconditioninwhichhehadarrivedbyreasonofhisrecentisolation。

  Thewholesetofroomsformedonegreatutteranceoftheopinionsofthehour。Thegodsofpartywerepresentwiththeirembattledseraphim,butthebrilliancyofmannerandforminthehandlingofpublicquestionswasonlylessconspicuousthanthepaucityoforiginalideas。Noprinciplesofwisegovernmenthadplaceinanymind,abluntandjollypersonalismastotheInsandOutsanimatingall。ButJocelyn’sinterestdidnotruninthisstream:hewaslikeastoneinapurlingbrook,waitingforsomepeculiarfloatingobjecttobebroughttowardshimandtostickuponhismentalsurface。

  Thuslookingforthenextnewversionofthefairfigure,hedidnotconsideratthemoment,thoughhehaddonesoatothertimes,thatthispresentimentofmeetingherwas,ofallpresentiments,justthesortofonetoworkoutitsownfulfilment。

  HelookedforherintheknotofpersonsgatheredroundapastPrimeMinisterwhowasstandinginthemiddleofthelargestroomdiscoursinginthegenial,almostjovial,mannernaturaltohimatthesetimes。

  Thetwoorthreeladiesforminghisaudiencehadbeenjoinedbyanotherinblackandwhite,anditwasonherthatPierston’sattentionwasdirected,aswellasthegreatstatesman’s,whosefirstsheergazeather,expressing’Whoareyou?’almostaudibly,changedintoaninterested,listeninglookasthefewwordsshespokewereuttered——fortheMinisterdifferedfrommanyofhisstandinginbeingextremelycarefulnottointerruptatimidspeaker,givingwayinaninstantifanybodyelsebeganwithhim。Nobodyknewbetterthanhimselfthatallmaylearn,andhismannerwasthatofanunconceitedmanwhocouldcatchanideareadily,evenifhecouldnotundertaketocreateone。

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