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  HAMILTON

  Quiteso。Farewell。

  JohnBrownThoughforyoursakeIwouldnothaveyounowSoneartometonightasnowyouare,GodknowshowmuchastrangertomyheartWasanycoldwordthatImayhavewritten;

  Andyou,poorwomanthatImademywife,Youhavehadmoreofloneliness,Ifear,ThanI——thoughIhavebeenthemostalone,Evenwhenthemostattended。SoitwasGodsetthemarkofhisinscrutableNecessityononethatwastogrope,Andserve,andsuffer,andwithalbegladForwhatwashis,andis,andistobe,Whenhisoldbones,thatareaburdennow,AresayingwhatthemanwhocarriedthemHadnotthepowertosay。Bonesinagrave,Coverthemastheywillwithchokingearth,Mayshoutthetruthtomenwhoputthemthere,Morethanallorators。Andso,mydear,SinceyouhavecheatedwisdomforthesakeOfsorrow,letyoursorrowbeforyou,Thislastofnightsbeforethelastofdays,ThelyingghostofwhatthereisofmeThatisthemostalive。ThereisnodeathFormeinwhattheydo。TheirdeathitisTheyshouldheedmostwhenthesuncomesagainTomakethemsolemn。TherearesomeIknowWhoseeyeswillhardlyseetheiroccupation,Fortearsinthem——andallforoneoldman;

  Forsomeofthemwillpitythisoldman,WhotookuponhimselftheworkofGodBecausehepitiedmillions。ThatwillbeForthem,Ifancy,theircompassionateBestwayofsayingwhatisbestinthemTosay;fortheycansaynomorethanthat,AndtheycandonomorethanwhatthedawnOfonemoredayshallgivethemlightenoughTodo。Buttherearemanydaystobe,Andtherearemanymentogivetheirblood,AsIgavemineforthem。Maytheycomesoon!

  Maytheycomesoon,Isay。Andwhentheycome,MayallthatIhavesaidunheardbeheard,Provingatlast,ormaybenot——nomatter——

  WhatsortofmadnesswasthepartofmeThatmademestrike,whetherIfoundthemarkOrmissedit。Meanwhile,I’veastrangecontent,Apatience,andavastindifferenceTowhatmensayofmeandwhatmenfearTosay。Therewasaworktobebegun,AndwhentheVoice,thatIhaveheardsolong,AnnouncedasinathousandsilencesAnendofpreparation,IbeganThecomingworkofdeathwhichistobe,Thatlifemaybe。ThereisnootherwayThantheoldwayofwarforanewlandThatwillnotknowitselfandistonightAstrangertoitself,andtotheworldAmoreprodigiousupstartamongstatesThanIwasamongmen,andsoshallbeTilltheyaretoldandtold,andtoldagain;

  Formenarechildren,waitingtobetold,Andmostofthemarechildrenalltheirlives。

  ThegoodGodinhiswisdomhadthemso,ThatnowandthenamadmanoraseerMayshakethemoutoftheircomplacencyAndshamethemintodeeds。ThemajorfileSeeonlywhattheirfathersmayhaveseen,Ormayhavesaidtheysawwhentheysawnothing。

  Idonotsayitmatterswhattheysaw。

  NowandagaintosomelonesoulorotherGodspeaks,andthereishangingtobedone,——

  AsoncetherewasaburningofourbodiesAlive,albeitoursoulsweresorryfuel。

  Butnowthefiresarefew,andwearepoisedAccordingly,forthestate’sbenefit,Afewstillminutesbetweenheavenandearth。

  Thepurposeis,whentheyhaveseenenoughOfwhatitisthattheyarenottosee,Topluckmeasanunripefruitoftreason,AndthentoflingmebacktothesameearthOfwhichtheyare,asIsuppose,theflower——

  NotgiventoknowtheriperfruitthatwaitsForamorecomprehensiveharvesting。

  Yes,maytheycome,andsoon。AgainIsay,Maytheycomesoon!——beforetoomanyofthemShallbethebloodycostofourdefection。

  Whenhellwaitsonthedawnofanewstate,Betteritwerethathellshouldnotwaitlong,——

  OrsoitisIseeitwhoshouldseeAsfarorfartherintotimetonightThantheywhotalkandtrembleformenow,OrwishmetothoseeverlastingfiresThatareformenofear。ToomanyfiresHavesoughtmeoutandsearedmetothebone——

  Thereby,forallIknow,totempermeForwhatwasminetodo。IfIdidillWhatIdidwell,letmensayIwasmad;

  OrletmynameforeverbeaquestionThatwillnotsleepinhistory。WhatmensayIwaswillcoolnocannon,dullnosword,Invalidatenotruth。Meanwhile,Iwas;

  Andthelongtrainislightedthatshallburn,Thoughfloodsofwrathmaydrenchit,andhotfeetMaystampitforaslighttimeintosmokeThatshallblazeupagainwithgrowingspeed,UntilatlastafierycrashwillcomeTocleanseandshakeawoundedhemisphere,AndhealitofalongmalignityThatangrytimediscreditsanddisowns。

  Tonighttherearemensayingmanythings;

  AndsomewhoseelifeinthelastofmeWillanswerfirstthecomingcalltodeath;

  Fordeathiswhatiscoming,andthenlife。

  IdonotsayagainforthedullsakeOfspeechwhatyouhaveheardmesaybefore,ButratherforthesakeofallIam,AndallGodmadeofme。AmantodieAsIdomusthavedonesomeotherworkThanman’salone。Iwasnotafterglory,Buttherewasglorywithme,likeafriend,Throughoutthosecripplingyearswhenfriendswerefew,AndfearfultobeknownbytheirownnamesWhenminewasvilifiedfortheirapproval。

  Yetfriendstheyare,andtheydidwhatwasgivenTheirwilltodo;theycouldhavedonenomore。

  Iwastheonemanmadenough,itseems,Todomywork;andnowmyworkisover。

  Andyou,mydear,arenottomournforme,Orforyoursons,morethanasoulshouldmournInParadise,donewithevilandwithearth。

  ThereisnotmuchofearthinwhatremainsForyou;andwhattheremaybeleftofitForyourenduranceyoushallhaveatlastInpeace,withoutthetwingeofanyfearFormycondition;forIshallbedoneWithplansandactionsthathaveheretoforeMadeyourdayslongandyournightsominousWithdarknessandthemanydistancesThatwerebetweenus。Whenthesilencecomes,IshallinfaithbenearertoyouthenThanIamnowinfact。WhatyouseenowIsonlytheoutsideofanoldman,Olderthanyearshavemadehim。Lethimdie,Andlethimbeathingforlittlegrief。

  Therewasatimeforservice,andheserved;

  AndthereisnomoretimeforanythingButashortgratefulnesstothosewhogaveTheirscaredallegiancetoanenterpriseThathasthenameoftreason——whichwillserveAswellasanyotherforthepresent。

  Therearesomedeedsofmenthathavenonames,Andminemaylikeasnotbeoneofthem。

  Iamnotlookingfarfornamestonight。

  TheKingofGlorywaswithoutanameUntilmengavehimone;yetthereHewas,BeforewefoundHimandaffrontedHimWithnumerousingenuitiesofevil,Ofwhichone,withHisaid,istobesweptAndwashedoutoftheworldwithfireandblood。

  OnceIbelieveditmighthavecometopassWithasmallcostofblood;butIwasdreaming——

  DreamingthatIbelieved。TheVoiceIheardWhenIleftyoubehindmeinthenorth,——

  TowaitthereandtowonderandgrowoldOfloneliness,——toldonlywhatwasbest,Andwithasavingvagueness,IshouldknowTillIknewmore。AndhadIknowneventhen——

  Aftergrimyearsofsearchandsuffering,Somanyofthemtoendastheybegan——

  AftermysickeningdoubtsandestimationsOfplansabandonedandofnewplansvain——

  AfterawearydelvingeverywhereFormenwitheveryvirtuebuttheVision——

  CouldIhaveknown,Isay,beforeIleftyouThatsummermorning,alltherewastoknow——

  EvenuntothelastconsumingwordThatwouldhaveblastedeverymortalanswerAslightningwouldannihilatealeaf,Imighthavetrembledonthatsummermorning;

  Imighthavewavered;andImighthavefailed。

  AndtherearemanyamongmentodayTosayofmethatIhadbesthavewavered。

  Sohasitbeen,soshallitalwaysbe,ForthoseofuswhogiveourselvestodieBeforewearesoparcelledandapprovedAstobeslaughteredbyauthority。

  WedonotmakesomuchofwhattheysayAstheyofwhatourfollysaysofus;

  Theygiveushardlytimeenoughforthat,Andtherebywegainmuchbylosinglittle。

  Fewarealiveto-daywithlesstoloseThanIwhotellyouthis,ormoretogain;

  AndwhetherIspeakasonetobedestroyedFornogoodendoutsidehisowndestruction,TimeshallhavemoretosaythanmenshallhearBetweennowandthecomingofthatharvestWhichistocome。Beforeitcomes,Igo——

  BytheshortroadthatmysterymakeslongForman’senduranceofaccomplishment。

  IshallhavemoretosaywhenIamdead。

  TheFalseGods\"Wearefalseandevanescent,andawareofourdeceit,Fromthestrawthatisourvitalstotheclaythatisourfeet。

  Youmayserveusifyoumust,andyoushallhaveyourwageofashes,——

  Thougharrearsduethereaftermaybehardforyoutomeet。

  \"Youmayswearthatwearesolid,youmaysaythatwearestrong,Butweknowthatweareneitherandwesaythatyouarewrong;

  Youmayfindaneasyworshipinacclaimingourindulgence,Butyourlargeadmirationofusnowisnotforlong。

  \"Ifyourdoomistoadoreuswithadoubtthat’sneverstill,Andyoupraytoseeourfaces——prayinearnest,andyouwill。

  Youmaygazeatusandlive,andliveassuredofourconfusion:

  FortheFalseGodsaremortal,andaremadeforyoutokill。

  \"Andyoumayaswellobserve,whileapprehensivelyateaseWithanArtthat’sinorganicandisanythingyouplease,Thatanonyournewestruinmayliecrumblingunregarded,Likeanoldshrineforgotteninaforestofnewtrees。

  \"Howsoeverlikenootherbethemodeyoumayemploy,There’sanorderintheagesfortheagestoenjoy;

  ThoughthetemplesyouareshapingandthepassionsyouaresingingArealongwayfromAthensandalongerwayfromTroy。

  \"Whenwepromisemorethaneverofwhatnevershallarrive,Andyouseemalittlemorethanordinarilyalive,Makeanotethatyouaresureyouunderstandourobligations——

  Forthere’sgriefalwaysauditingwheretwoandtwoarefive。

  \"Therewasthisforustosayandtherewasthisforyoutoknow,Thoughithumblesandithurtsuswhenwehavetotellyouso。

  Ifyoudoubttheonlytruthinallourperjuredcomposition,MaytheTrueGodsattendyouandforgetuswhenwego。\"

  Archibald’sExampleOldArchibald,inhiseternalchair,Wheretrespassers,whatevertheirdegree,Weresoonfrownedoutagain,waslookingoffAcrossthecloverwhenhesaidtome:

  \"Mygreenhillyonder,wherethesungoesdownWithoutascratch,wasonceinhabitedBytreesthatinjuredhim——aneviltrashThatmadeacage,andheldhimwhilehebled。

  \"Gonefiftyyears,IseethemastheywereBeforetheyfell。TheywereacrookedlotTospoilmysunset,andIsawnotimeInfiftyyearsforcrookedthingstorot。

  \"Trees,yes;butnotaserviceorajoyToGodorman,fortheywerethievesoflight。

  Sodowntheycame。NatureandIlookedon,Andweweregladwhentheywereoutofsight。

  \"Treesarelikemen,sometimes;andthatbeingso,Somuchforthat。\"Hetwinkledinhischair,AndlookedacrosstheclovertotheplaceThatherememberedwhenthetreeswerethere。

  LondonBridge\"DoIhearthem?Yes,Ihearthechildrensinging——andwhatofit?

  Haveyoucomewitheyesafiretofindmenowandaskmethat?

  IfIwerenottheirfatherandifyouwerenottheirmother,Wemightbelievetheymadeanoise……Whatareyou——drivingat!\"

  \"Well,begladthatyoucanhearthem,andbegladtheyaresonearus,——

  ForIhaveheardthestarsofheaven,andtheywerenearerstill。

  AllwithinanhouritisthatIhaveheardthemcalling,AndthoughIprayforthemtocease,Iknowtheyneverwill;

  Fortheirmusiconmyheart,thoughyoumayfreezeit,willfallalways,Likesummersnowthatnevermeltsuponamountain-top。

  Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthemoverhead——thechildren——singing?

  Doyouhearthechildrensinging?……God,willyoumakethemstop!\"

  \"Andwhatnowinhisholynamehaveyoutodowithmountains?

  We’rebacktotownagain,mydear,andwe’veadancetonight。

  Frozenheartsandfallingmusic?Snowandstars,and——whatthedevil!

  Sayitovertomeslowly,andbesureyouhaveitright。\"

  \"GodknowsifIberightorwronginsayingwhatItellyou,OrifIknowthemeaninganymoreofwhatIsay。

  AllIknowis,itwillkillmeifItrytokeepithidden——

  Well,Imethim……Yes,Imethim,andItalkedwithhim——today。\"

  \"Youmethim?Didyoumeettheghostofsomeoneyouhadpoisoned,Longago,beforeIknewyouforthewomanthatyouare?

  Takeachair;anddon’tbeginyourstoriesalwaysinthemiddle。

  Washeman,orwashedemon?Anyhow,you’vegonetoofarTogoback,andI’myourservant。I’mthelord,butyou’rethemaster。

  Nowgoonwithwhatyouknow,forI’mexcited。\"

  \"Doyoumean——

  DoyoumeantomakemetrytothinkthatyouknowlessthanIdo?\"

  \"Iknowthatyouforeshadowthebeginningofascene。

  Praybecareful,andasaccurateasifthedoorsofheavenWeretoswingortostayboltedfromnowonforevermore。\"

  \"Doyouconceive,withallyoursmoothcontemptofeveryfeeling,Ofhidingwhatyouknowandwhatyoumusthaveknownbefore?

  Isitworthawoman’storturetostandhereandhaveyousmiling,Withonlyyourpoorfetishofpossessiononyourside?

  Nothingbutoneiswhollysure,andthat’snotonetoscareme;

  WhenImeetitImaysaytoGodatlastthatIhavetried。

  Andyet,forallIknow,orallIdarebelieve,mytrialsHenceforwardwillbemoreforyoutobearthanareyourown;

  AndyoumustgivemekeysofyourstoroomsIhavenotentered。

  Doyouseemeonyourthresholdallmylife,andtherealone?

  Willyoutellmewhereyouseemeinyourfancy——whenitleadsyouFarenoughbeyondthemomentforaglanceattheabyss?\"

  \"WillyoutellmewhatintrinsicandamazingsortofnonsenseYouarecrowdingonthepatienceofthemanwhogivesyou——this?

  Lookaroundyouandbesorryyou’renotlivinginanattic,Withacivetandafish-net,andwithyoutopaytherent。

  Isaywordsthatyoucanspellwithouttheuseofallyourletters;

  AndIgrant,ifyouinsist,thatI’veaguessatwhatyoumeant。\"

  \"HaveItoldyou,then,fornothing,thatImethim?AreyoutryingTobemerrywhileyoutrytomakemehateyou?\"

  \"Thinkagain,Mydear,beforeyoutellme,inalanguageunbecomingToalady,whatyouplantotellmenext。IfIcomplain,IfIseemanatompeevishatthepreferenceyoumention——

  Orimply,tobeprecise——youmaybelieve,oryoumaynot,ThatI’matriflemoreawareofwhathewantsthanyouare。

  ButIshouldn’tthrowthatatyou。MakebelievethatIforgot。

  Makebelievethathe’sagenius,ifyoulike,——butinthemeantimeDon’tgobacktorocking-horses。There,there,there,now。\"

  \"Makebelieve!

  Whenyouseemestandinghelplessonaplankaboveawhirlpool,DoIdrown,ordoIhearyouwhenyousayit?Makebelieve?

  HowmuchmoreamItosayordoforyoubeforeItellyouThatImethim!What’stofollownowmaybeforyoutochoose。

  Doyouhearme?Won’tyoulisten?It’saneasythingtolisten……\"

  \"Andit’seasytobecrazywhenthere’severythingtolose。\"

  \"IfatlastyouhaveanotionthatImeanwhatIamsaying,DoIseemtotellyounothingwhenItellyouIshalltry?

  Ifyousaveme,andIlosehim——Idon’tknow——itwon’tmuchmatter。

  IdaresaythatI’veliedenough,butnowIdonotlie。\"

  \"DoyoufancymetheonemanwhohaswaitedandsaidnothingWhileawifehasdraggedanoldinfatuationfromatomb?

  Givethethingalittleairanditwillvanishintoashes。

  Thereyouare——piff!presto!\"

  \"WhenIcameintothisroom,ItseemedasifIsawtheplace,andyouthereatyourtable,Asyouarenowatthismoment,forthelasttimeinmylife;

  AndItoldmyselfbeforeIcametofindyou,`Ishalltellhim,IfIcan,whatIhavelearnedofhimsinceIbecamehiswife。’

  Andifyousay,asI’venodoubtyouwillbeforeIfinish,Thatyouhavetriedunceasingly,withallyourmightandmain,Toteachme,knowingmorethanIofwhatitwasIneeded,Don’tthink,withallyoumayhavethought,thatyouhavetriedinvain;

  ForyouhavetaughtmemorethanhidesinalltheshelvesofknowledgeOfhowlittleyoufoundthat’sinmeandwasinmeallalong。

  Ibelieved,ifIintrudednothingonyouthatIcaredfor,I’dbehalfasmuchashorses,——anditseemsthatIwaswrong;

  Ibelievedtherewasenoughofearthinme,withallmynonsenseOverthingsthatmadeyousleepy,tokeepsomethingstillawake;

  Butyoutaughtmesoontoreadmybook,andGodknowsIhavereadit——

  Ageslongerthananangelwouldhavereaditforyoursake。

  IhavesaidthatyoumustopenotherdoorsthanIhaveentered,ButIwonderedwhileIsaiditifImightnotbeobscure。

  IsthereanythinginallyourpedigreesandinventoriesWithavaluemoreelusivethanadollar’s?AreyousureThatifIstarveanotheryearforyouIshallbestrongerToendureanotherlikeit——andanother——tillI’mdead?\"

  \"Hasyourtamecatsoldapicture?——ormorelikelyhadawindfall?

  OrforGod’ssake,what’sbrokeloose?Haveyouabee-hiveinyourhead?

  Alittlemoreofthisfromyouwillnotbeeasyhearing。

  Doyouknowthat?Understandit,ifyoudo;forifyouwon’t……

  Whatthedevilareyousaying!Makebelieveyouneversaidit,AndI’llsayIneverheardit……Oh,you……Ifyou……\"

  \"IfIdon’t?\"

  \"Therearemenwhosaythere’sreasonhiddensomewhereinawoman,ButIdoubtifGodhimselfrememberswherethekeywashung。\"

  \"Hemaynot;fortheysaythatevenGodhimselfisgrowing。

  Iwonderifhemakesbelievethatheisgrowingyoung;

  IwonderifhemakesbelievethatwomenwhoaregivingAlltheyhaveinholyloathingtoastrangeralltheirlivesArethewiseoneswhobuildhousesintheBible……\"

  \"Stop——youdevil!\"

  \"……Orthatsoulsareanywhiterwhentheirbodiesarecalledwives。

  Ifadollar’sworthofgoldwillhoopthewallsofhelltogether,Whyneedheavenbesucharuinofaplacethatneverwas?

  AndifatlastIliedmystarvingsoulawaytonothing,Areyousureyoumightnotmissit?HaveyoucometosuchapassThatyouwouldhavemelongerinyourarmsifyoudiscoveredThatImadeyouintosomeoneelse……Oh!……Well,thereareworseways。

  Butwhyaimitatmyfeet——unlessyoufearyoumaybesorry……

  Therearemanydaysaheadofyou。\"

  \"Idonotseethosedays。\"

  \"Icanseethem。GrantedevenIamwrong,therearethechildren。

  Andaretheytopraisetheirfatherforhisinsightifwedie?

  Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthemoverhead——thechildren——singing?

  Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthechildren?\"

  \"Damnthechildren!\"

  \"Why?

  WhathaveTHEYdone?……Well,then,——doit……Doitnow,andhaveitover。\"

  \"Oh,youdevil!……Oh,you……\"

  \"No,I’mnotadevil,I’maprophet——

  OnewhoseestheendalreadyofsomuchthatoneendmoreWouldhavenowthesmallimportanceofoneothersmallillusion,Whichinturnwouldhaveawelcomewheretheresthavegonebefore。

  ButifIwereyou,myfancywouldlookonalittlefartherFortheglimpseofareleasethatmaybesomewherestillinsight。

  Furthermore,youmustrememberthosetwohundredinvitationsForthedancingafterdinner。Weshallhavetoshinetonight。

  Weshalldance,andbeashappyasapairofmerryspectres,Onthegraveofalltheliesthatweshallneverhavetotell;

  Weshalldanceamongtheruinsofthetombofourendurance,AndIhavenotadoubtthatweshalldoitverywell。

  There!——I’mgladyou’veputitback;forIdon’tlikeit。

  Shutthedrawernow。

  No——no——don’tcancelanything。I’lldanceuntilIdrop。

  Ican’twalkyet,butI’mgoingto……Goawaysomewhere,andleaveme……

  Oh,youchildren!Oh,youchildren!……God,willtheyneverstop!\"

  TaskerNorcross\"Whetheralltownsandallwholiveinthem——

  SolongastheybesomewhereinthisworldThatweinourcomplacencycallours——

  Aremoreorlessthesame,Ileavetoyou。

  Ishouldsayless。Whetherornot,meanwhile,We’vealltwolegs——andasforthat,wehaven’t——

  TherewerethreekindsofmenwhereIwasborn:

  Thegood,thenotsogood,andTaskerNorcross。

  Nowtherearetwokinds。\"

  \"Meaning,asIdivine,Yourfriendisdead,\"Iventured。

  Ferguson,WhotalkedhimselfatlastoutoftheworldHecensured,andisthereforesilentnow,Agreedindifferently:\"Myfriendsaredead——

  Ormostofthem。\"

  \"Rememberonethatisn’t,\"

  Isaid,protesting。\"Honorhimforhisears;

  Treasurehimalsoforhisunderstanding。\"

  Fergusonsighed,andthentalkedonagain:

  \"YouhaveanovergrownalacrityForsayingnothingmuchandhearingless;

  AndI’veathanklesswonder,atthestart,HowmuchitistoyouthatIshalltellWhatIhavenowtosayofTaskerNorcross,Andhowmuchtotheairthatisaroundyou。

  ButgivenapatiencethatisnotaverseTotheslowtragediesofhauntedmen——

  Horrors,infact,ifyou’veaskilfuleyeToknowthemattheirfiresides,oroutwalking,——\"

  \"Horrors,\"Isaid,\"aremynecessity;

  AndIwouldhavethem,fortheirbesteffect,Alwaysoutwalking。\"

  Fergusonfrownedatme:

  \"ThewisestofusarenotthosewholaughBeforetheyknow。Mostofusneverknow——

  OrthelongtoilofourmortalityWouldnotbedone。Mostofusneverknow——

  AndthereyouhaveareasontobelieveInGod,ifyoumayhavenoother。Norcross,OrsoIgatherofhisinfirmity,Wasgiventoknowmorethanheshouldhaveknown,AndonlyGodknowswhy。SeeforyourselfAnoldhousefullofghostsofancestors,Whodidtheirbest,orworst,andhavingdoneit,Diedhonorably;andeachwithadistinctionThathardlywouldhavebeenforhimthathadit,Hadhonorfailedhimwhollyasafriend。

  Honorthatisafriendbegetsafriend。

  Whetherornotwelovehim,stillwehavehim;

  Andwemustlivesomehowbywhatwehave,Orthenwedie。Ifyousaychemistry,Thenyoumusthaveyourmoleculesinmotion,Andintheirrightabundance。Failingeither,Youhavenotlongtodance。Failingafriend,Agenius,oramadness,orafaithLargerthandesperation,youarehereForasmuchlongerthanyoulikeasmaybe。

  Imaginingnow,bywayofanexample,Myselfamoreorlessrememberedphantom——

  Again,Ishouldsayless——howmanytimesAdayshouldIcomebacktoyou?Noanswer。

  ForgivemewhenIseemalittlecareless,Butwemusthaveexamples,orbelucidWithoutthem;andIquestionyouradherenceTosuchanundramaticnarrativeAsthisofmine,withoutthepersonalhook。\"

  \"AtimeisgiveninEcclesiastesFordiversworks,\"Itoldhim。\"IsthereoneForsayingnothinginreturnfornothing?

  Ifnot,thereshouldbe。\"Icouldfeelhiseyes,AndtheywereliketwocoldinquiringpointsOfasharpmetal。WhenIlookedagain,Toseethemshine,thecoldthatIhadfeltWasgonetomakewayforasmoulderingOflonelyfirethatI,asIknewthen,Couldneverquenchwithkindnessorwithlies。

  IshouldhavedonewhatevertherewastodoForFerguson,yetIcouldnothavemournedInhonestyforoncearoundtheclockThelossofhim,formysakeorforhis,TryasImight;norwouldhisghostapprove,HadIthepowerandtheunthinkingwillTomakehimtreadagainwithoutanaimTheroadthatwasbehindhim——andwithoutThefaith,orfriend,orgenius,orthemadnessThathecontendedwasimperative。

  Afterasilencethathadbeentoolong,\"Itmaybequiteaswellwedon’t,\"hesaid;

  \"Aswell,Imean,thatwedon’talwayssayit。

  YouknowbestwhatImean,andIsupposeYoumighthavesaiditbetter。Whatwasthat?

  Incorrigible?AmIincorrigible?

  Well,it’saword;andawordhasitsuse,Or,likeaman,itwillsoonhaveagrave。

  It’sagoodwordenough。Incorrigible,Maybe,forallIknow,thewordforNorcross。

  SeeforyourselfthathouseofhisagainThathecalledhome:Anoldhouse,paintedwhite,Squareasabox,andchillierthanatombTolookatortolivein。Thereweretrees——

  Toomanyofthem,ifsuchathingmaybe——

  Beforeitandaroundit。DowninfrontTherewasaroad,arailroad,andariver;

  Thentherewerehillsbehindit,andmoretrees。

  Thethingwouldfairlystareatyouthroughtrees,LikeapaleinmateoutofabarredwindowWithagreenshadehalfdown;andIdaresayPeoplewhopassedhavesaid:`There’swherehelives。

  Weknowhim,butwedonotseemtoknowThatwerememberanygoodofhim,Oranyevilthatisinteresting。

  Thereyouhaveallweknowandallwecare。’

  Theymighthavesaiditinallsortsofways;

  Andthen,iftheyperceivedacat,theymightOrmightnothaverememberedwhattheysaid。

  Thecatmighthaveapersonality——

  AndmaybethesameonetheLordleftoutOfTaskerNorcross,who,forlackofit,Sawthesamesungodownyearafteryear;

  Allwhichatlastwasmydiscovery。

  Andonlymine,sofarasevidenceEnlightensonemoredarkness。YouhaveknownAllroundyou,allyourdays,menwhoarenothing——

  Nothing,Imean,sofarastimetellsyetOfanyotherneedithasofthemThantomakesextonshardy——butnolessAretothemselvesincalculablysomething,Andthereforetobecherished。God,yousee,Beingsorryforthemintheirfashioning,IndemnifiedthemwithaquaintesteemOfself,andwithillusionslongaslife。

  Youknowthemwell,andyouhavesmiledatthem;

  Andthey,intheirserenity,mayhavehadTheirtimetosmileatyou。BlessedaretheyThatseethemselvesforwhattheyneverwereOrweretobe,andare,fortheirdefect,AteasewithmirrorsandthedimremarksThatpasstheirtranquilears。\"

  \"Come,come,\"saidI;

  \"TheremaybenamesinyourcompendiumThatwearenotyetallonfireforshouting。

  Skinmostofusofourmediocrity,Weshouldhavenothingthenthatwecouldscratch。

  Thepicturesmarts。Coverit,ifyouplease,Anddosorathergently。NowforNorcross。\"

  Fergusonclosedhiseyesinresignation,Whileadeadsighcameoutofhim。\"GoodGod!\"

  Hesaid,andsaiditonlyhalfaloud,Asifheknewnolongernow,norcared,Ifoneweretheretolisten:\"HaveIsaidnothing——

  Nothingatall——ofNorcross?DoyoumeanTopatronizehimtillhisnamebecomesAtoymadeoutofletters?IfanameIsallyouneed,arrangeanhonestcolumnOfallthepeopleyouhaveeverknownThatyouhaveneverliked。You’llhaveenough;

  Andyou’llhavemine,moreover。No,notyet。

  IfIassumetoomanyprivileges,Ipay,andIalone,fortheirassumption;

  Bywhich,ifIassumeadarkerknowledgeOfNorcrossthananother,lettheweightOfmyinjusticeaggravatetheloadThatisnotonyourshoulders。WhenIcameToknowthisfellowNorcrossinhishouse,IfoundhimasIfoundhiminthestreet——

  Nomore,noless;indifferent,butnobetter。

  `Worse’werenotquitetheword:hewasnotbad;

  Hewasnot……well,hewasnotanything。

  HasyourinventioneverentertainedThepictureofadustywormsodryThateventheearlybirdwouldshakehisheadAndflyonfartherforanotherbreakfast?\"

  \"Butwhyforgetthefortuneoftheworm,\"

  Isaid,\"ifinthedrynessyoudeploreSalvationcentredandendured?YourNorcrossMayhavebeenoneformanytohaveenvied。\"

  \"Salvation?Fortune?Wouldthewormsaythat?

  Hemight;andthereforeIdismissthewormWithalldrythingsbutone。Figuresaway,Doyoubegintoseethismanalittle?

  Doyoubegintoseehimintheair,WithallthevacanthorrorsofhisoutlineForyoutofillwithmorethanitwillhold?

  Ifso,youneedn’tcrownyourselfatonceWithepiclaurelifyouseemtofillit。

  Horrors,Isay,forinthefiresandforksOfanewhell——ifonewerenotenough——

  IdoubtifanewhorrorwouldhaveheldhimWithamalignantingenuityMoretobefearedthanhisbeforehedied。

  Yousmile,asifindoubt。Well,smileagain。

  Nowcomeintohishouse,alongwithme:

  ThefoursquaresombrethingsthatyouseefirstAroundyouarefourwallsthatgoashighAstotheceiling。Norcrossknewthemwell,Andheknewotherslikethem。FastentothatWithalltheclawsofyourintelligence;

  AndholdthemanbeforeyouinhishouseAsifhewereawhiteratinabox,Andonethatknewhimselftobenoother。

  Itellyoutwicethatheknewallaboutit,ThatyoumaynotforgettheworstofallOurtragediesbeginwithwhatweknow。

  CouldNorcrossonlynothaveknown,IwonderHowmanywouldhaveblessedandenviedhim!

  CouldhehavehadtheusualeyeforspotsOnothers,andfornoneuponhimself,IsmiletoponderonthecarriagesThatmightaswellasnothavecloggedthetownInhonorofhisend。Fortherewasgold,Yousee,thoughallheneededwasalittle,Andwhathegavesaidnothingofwhogaveit。

  HewouldhavegivenitallifinreturnTheremighthavebeenamoresufficientfaceTogreethimwhenheshaved。ThoughyouinsistItisthedower,andalways,ofourdegreeNottobecursedwithsuchinvidiousinsight,Rememberthatyoustand,youandyourfancy,Nowinhishouse;andsincewearetogether,Seeforyourselfandtellmewhatyousee。

  Tellmethebestyousee。MakeaslightnoiseOfrecognitionwhenyoufindabookThatyouwouldnotasliefreadupsidedownAsotherwise,forexample。Ifthereyoufail,Observethewallsandleadmetotheplace,Whereyouareled。IfthereyoumeetapictureThatholdsyounearitforalongertimeThanyouaresorry,youmaycallityours,Andhangitinthedarkofyourremembrance,WhereNorcrossneversees。HowcanheseeThathasnoeyestosee?Andasformusic,HepaidwithemptywonderforthepangsOfhisinfrequentforcedenduranceofit;

  Andhavinghadnopleasure,paidnomoreForneedlessimmolation,orforthesightOfthosewhoheardwhathewasnevertohear。

  ToseethemlisteningwasitselfenoughTomakehimsuffer;andtowatchworneyes,Onotherdays,ofstrangerswhoforgotTheirsorrowsandtheirfailuresandthemselvesBeforeafewmysteriousoddsandendsOfmarblecartedfromtheParthenon——

  Andallforseeingwhathewasnevertosee,Becauseitwasaliveandhewasdead——

  HerewasawonderthatwasmoreprofoundThananythatwasinfiddlesandbrasshorns。

  \"Heknew,andinhisknowledgetherewasdeath。

  HeknewtherewasaregionallaroundhimThatlayoutsideman’shavocandaffairs,Andyetwasnotallhostiletotheirtumult,Wherepoetswouldhaveservedandhonoredhim,Andsavedhim,hadtherebeenanythingtosave。

  Buttherewasnothing,andhistetheredrangeWasonlyasmalldesert。KingsofsongArenotforthronesindeserts。TowersofsoundAndflowersofsensearebutawasteofheavenWherethereisnonetoknowthemfromtherocksAndsand-grassofhisownmonotonyThatmakesearthlessthanearth。Hecouldseethat,Andhecouldseenomore。ThecapturedlightThatmayhavebeenornot,forallhecared,Thesongthatisinsculpturewasnothis,Butonly,tohisGod-forgotteneyes,OnemoreimmortalnonsenseinaworldWhereallwasmortal,orhadbestbeso,Andsobedonewith。`Art,’hewouldhavesaid,`Isnotlife,andmustthereforebealie;’

  AndwithafewprofunditieslikethatHewouldhavecontrovertedanddismissedThebenefitoftheGreeks。Hehadheardofthem,Ashehadheardofhisaspiringsoul——

  Nevertotheperceptibleadvantage,Inhisesteem,ofeither。`Faith,’hesaid,Orwouldhavesaidifhehadthoughtofit,`LivesinthesamehousewithPhilosophy,WherethetwofeedonscrapsandareforlornAsorphansafterwar。Hecouldseestars,Onaclearnight,buthehadnotaneyeToseebeyondthem。Hecouldhearspokenwords,Buthadnoearforsilencewhenalone。

  Hecouldeatfoodofwhichheknewthesavor,ButhadnopalatefortheBreadofLife,Thathumandesperation,tohisthinking,Madefamouslongago,havingnoother。

  Nowdoyousee?Doyoubegintosee?\"

  ItoldhimthatIdidbegintosee;

  AndIwasnearerthanIshouldhavebeenTolaughingathismaligninclusiveness,WhenIconsideredthat,withallourspeed,Wearenotlaughingyetatfunerals。

  IseehimnowasIcouldseehimthen,AndIseenowthatitwasgoodforme,Asitwasgoodforhim,thatIwasquiet;

  ForTime’seyewasonFerguson,andtheshaftOfitsinquiringhesitancyhadtouchedhim,OrsoIchosetofancymorethanonceBeforehetoldofNorcross。WhenthewordOfhisrelease(hewouldhavecalleditso)

  Madehalfaninchofnews,therewerenotearsThatarerecorded。WomentheremayhavebeenTowishhimback,thoughIshouldsay,notknowing,Thefewthereweretomournwerenotforlove,Andwerenotlovely。Nothingofthem,atleast,WasinthemeagrelegendthatIgatheredYearsafter,whenachanceoftraveltookmeSoneartheregionofhisnativityThatafewmilesofleisurebroughtmethere;

  ForthereIfoundafriendlycitizenWholedmetohishouseamongthetreesThatwereabovearailroadandariver。

  SquareasaboxandchillierthanatombItwasindeed,tolookatortolivein——

  AllwhichhadIbeentold。\"Fergusondied,\"

  Thestrangersaid,\"andthentherewasanauction。

  Ilivehere,butI’veneveryetbeenwarm。

  Rememberhim?Yes,Irememberhim。

  Iknewhim——asamanmayknowatree——

  Fortwentyyears。HemayhaveheldhimselfAlittlehighwhenhewashere,butnow……

  Yes,IrememberFerguson。Oh,yes。\"

  Others,Ifound,rememberedFerguson,ButnoneofthemhadheardofTaskerNorcross。

  ASongatShannon’sTwomencameoutofShannon’shavingknownThefacesofeachotherforaslongAstheyhadlistenedtheretoanoldsong,SungthinlyinawastrelmonotoneBysomeunhappynight-bird,whohadflownToomanytimesandwithawingtoostrongTosavehimself,andsodoneheavywrongTomorefrailelementsthanhisalone。

  Slowlyawaytheywent,leavingbehindMorelightthanwasbeforethem。NeithermetTheother’seyesagainorsaidaword。

  Eachtohislonelinessortohiskind,Wenthisownway,andwithhisownregret,Notknowingwhattheothermayhaveheard。

  SouvenirAvanishedhousethatforanhourIknewBysomeforgottenchancewhenIwasyoungHadonceaglimmeringwindowoverhungWithhoneysucklewetwitheveningdew。

  Alongthepathtallduskydahliasgrew,AndshadowyhydrangeasreachedandswungFerociously;andoverme,amongThemothsandmysteries,ablurredbatflew。

  SomewherewithinthereweredimpresencesOfdaysthathoveredandofyearsgoneby。

  Iwaited,andbetweentheirsilencesTherewasanevanescentfadednoise;

  Andthoughachild,IknewitwasthevoiceOfonewhoseoccupationwastodie。

  DiscoveryWetoldofhimasonewhoshouldhavesoaredAndseenforusthedevastatinglightWhereofthereisnoteitherdayornight,AndsharedwithustheglamouroftheWordThatfellonceuponAmostorecordFormenateaseinZion,whenthesightOfillsobscuredaggrievedhimandthemightOfHamathwasawarningoftheLord。

  Assuredsomehowthathewouldmakeuswise,Ourpleasurewastowait;andoursurpriseWashardwhenweconfessedthedryreturnOfhisregret。ForwewerestilltolearnThatearthhasnotaschoolwherewemaygoForwisdom,orformorethanwemayknow。

  FirelightTenyearstogetherwithoutyetacloud,Theyseekeachother’seyesatintervalsOfgratefulnesstofirelightandfourwallsForlove’sobliterationofthecrowd。

  SerenelyandperenniallyendowedAndboweredasfewmaybe,theirjoyrecallsNosnake,nosword;andoverthemtherefallsTheblessingofwhatneithersaysaloud。

  Wiserforsilence,theywerenotsogladWereshetoreadthegraventaleoflinesOnthewanfaceofonesomewherealone;

  NorweretheymorecontentcouldhehavehadHerthoughtsamomentsinceofonewhoshinesApart,andwouldbehersifhehadknown。

  TheNewTenantsThedaywasherewhenitwashistoknowHowfaredthebarriershehadbuiltbetweenHistriumphandhisenemiesunseen,Forthemtoundermineandoverthrow;

  AnditwashisnolongertoforegoThesightofthem,insidiousandserene,WheretheyweredelvingalwaysandhadbeenLeftalwaystobeviciousandtogrow。

  Andtherewerethenewtenantswhohadcome,Bydoorsthatwereleftopenunawares,Intohishouse,andweresomuchathomeTherenowthathewouldhardlyhavetoguess,Bytheslowguileoftheirvindictiveness,Whatultimateinsolencewouldsoonbetheirs。

  InferentialAlthoughIsawbeforemetherethefaceOfonewhomIhadhonoredamongmenTheleast,andonregardinghimagainWouldnothavehadhiminanotherplace,HefittedwithanunfamiliargraceThecoffinwhereIcouldnotseehimthenAsIhadseenhimandappraisedhimwhenIdeemedhimunessentialtotherace。

  FortherewasmoreofhimthanwhatIsaw。

  AndtherewasonmemorethantheoldaweThatisthecommongeniusofthedead。

  Imightaswellhaveheardhim:\"Nevermind;

  Ifsomeofuswerenotsofarbehind,Therestofuswerenotsofarahead。\"

  TheRatAsoftenashelethimselfbeseenWepitiedhim,orscornedhim,ordeploredTheinscrutableprofusionoftheLordWhoshapedasoneofusathingsomean——

  WhomadehimhumanwhenhemighthavebeenArat,andsobeenwhollyinaccordWithanyothercreatureweabhorredAsalwaysuselessandnotalwaysclean。

  Nowheishidingallalonesomewhere,Andinafinalholenotreadythen;

  FornowheisamongthoseoverthereWhoarenotcomingbacktousagain。

  AndwewhodothefictionofourshareSaylessofratsandrathermoreofmen。

  RaheltoVarnhagenNote。——RahelRobertandVarnhagenvonEnseweremarried,aftermanyprotestationsonherpart,in1814。Themarriage——sofarashewasconcerned,atanyrate——appearstohavebeensatisfactory。

  Nowyouhavereadthemall;orifnotall,AsmanyasinallconscienceIshouldfancyTobeenough。Therearenomoreofthem——

  Ornonetoburnyoursleep,ortobringdreamsOfdevils。Ifthesearenotsufficient,surelyYouareastrangeyoungman。ImightliveonAlone,andforanotherfortyyears,Ornotquiteforty,——areyouhappiernow?——

  AlwaystoaskifthereprevailedelsewhereAnotherlikeyourselfthatwouldhaveheldTheseagedhandsaslongasyouhaveheldthem,Notonceobserving,forallIcansee,Howtheyarelikeyourmother’s。Well,youhavereadHislettersnow,andyouhaveheardmesayThatinthemarethecindersofapassionThatwasmylife;andyouhavenotyetbrokenYourwayoutofmyhouse,outofmysight,——

  Intothestreet。Youareastrangeyoungman。

  Iknowasmuchasthatofyou,forcertain;

  AndI’malreadypraying,foryoursake,Thatyoubenottoostrange。ToomuchofthatMayleadyoubyeandbyethroughgloomylanesToasadwilderness,whereonemaygropeAlone,andalways,oruntilhefeelsFerociousandinvisibleanimalsThatwaitformenandeattheminthedark。

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