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  periencetoteachthemasitwere),andofcourse,aslongastherewasapieceofpaperwrittenoverinac-

  cordancewithsomefarcicallaworothermadedowntheriver,itdidn’tenteranybody’sheadtotroublehowtheywouldlive。Certainlytheyhadbroughtwiththemsomerottenhippo-meat,whichcouldn’thavelastedverylong,anyway,evenifthepilgrimshadn’t,inthemidstofashockinghullabaloo,thrownaconsiderablequantityofitoverboard。Itlookedlikeahigh-handedproceed-

  ing;butitwasreallyacaseoflegitimateself-defense。

  Youcan’tbreathedeadhippowaking,sleeping,andeating,andatthesametimekeepyourprecariousgriponexistence。Besidesthat,theyhadgiventhemeveryweekthreepiecesofbrasswire,eachaboutnineincheslong;andthetheorywastheyweretobuytheirpro-

  visionswiththatcurrencyinriver-sidevillages。YoucanseehowTHATworked。Therewereeithernovillages,orthepeoplewerehostile,orthedirector,wholiketherestofusfedoutoftins,withanoccasionaloldhe-goatthrownin,didn’twanttostopthesteamerforsomemoreorlessreconditereason。So,unlesstheyswallowedthewireitself,ormadeloopsofittosnarethefisheswith,Idon’tseewhatgoodtheirextravagantsalarycouldbetothem。Imustsayitwaspaidwitharegularityworthyofalargeandhonorabletradingcompany。Fortherest,theonlythingtoeat——thoughitdidn’tlookeat-

  ableintheleast——Isawintheirpossessionwasafewlumpsofsomestufflikehalf-cookeddough,ofadirtylavendercolor,theykeptwrappedinleaves,andnowandthenswallowedapieceof,butsosmallthatitseemeddonemoreforthelooksofthethingthanforanyseri-

  ouspurposeofsustenance。Whyinthenameofallthegnawingdevilsofhungertheydidn’tgoforus——theywerethirtytofive——andhaveagoodtuckinforonce,amazesmenowwhenIthinkofit。Theywerebigpowerfulmen,withnotmuchcapacitytoweighthecon-

  sequences,withcourage,withstrength,evenyet,thoughtheirskinswerenolongerglossyandtheirmusclesnolongerhard。AndIsawthatsomethingrestraining,oneofthosehumansecretsthatbaffleprobability,hadcomeintoplaythere。Ilookedatthemwithaswiftquicken-

  ingofinterest——notbecauseitoccurredtomeImightbeeatenbythembeforeverylong,thoughIowntoyouthatjustthenIperceived——inanewlight,asitwere——

  howunwholesomethepilgrimslooked,andIhoped,yes,Ipositivelyhoped,thatmyaspectwasnotso——whatshallIsay?——so——unappetizing:atouchoffantasticvanitywhichfittedwellwiththedream-sensationthatpervadedallmydaysatthattime。PerhapsIhadalittlefevertoo。Onecan’tlivewithone’sfingereverlastinglyonone’spulse。Ihadoften’alittlefever,’oralittletouchofotherthings——theplayfulpaw-strokesofthewilder-

  ness,thepreliminarytriflingbeforethemoreseriousonslaughtwhichcameinduecourse。Yes;Ilookedatthemasyouwouldonanyhumanbeing,withacuriosityoftheirimpulses,motives,capacities,weaknesses,whenbroughttothetestofaninexorablephysicalnecessity。

  Restraint!Whatpossiblerestraint?Wasitsupersti-

  tion,disgust,patience,fear——orsomekindofprimitivehonor?Nofearcanstanduptohunger,nopatiencecanwearitout,disgustsimplydoesnotexistwherehungeris;andastosuperstition,beliefs,andwhatyoumaycallprinciples,theyarelessthanchaffinabreeze。

  Don’tyouknowthedevilryoflingeringstarvation,itsexasperatingtorment,itsblackthoughts,itssomberandbroodingferocity?Well,Ido。Ittakesamanallhisinbornstrengthtofighthungerproperly。It’sreallyeasiertofacebereavement,dishonor,andtheperditionofone’ssoul——thanthiskindofprolongedhunger。Sad,buttrue。Andthesechapstoohadnoearthlyreasonforanykindofscruple。Restraint!Iwouldjustassoonhaveexpectedrestraintfromahyenaprowlingamongstthecorpsesofabattlefield。Buttherewasthefactfacingme——thefactdazzling,tobeseen,likethefoamonthedepthsofthesea,likearippleonanun-

  fathomableenigma,amysterygreater——whenIthoughtofit——thanthecurious,inexplicablenoteofdesperategriefinthissavageclamorthathadsweptbyusontheriver-bank,behindtheblindwhitenessofthefog。

  \"Twopilgrimswerequarrelinginhurriedwhispersastowhichbank。’Left。’’No,no;howcanyou?

  Right,right,ofcourse。’’Itisveryserious,’saidthemanager’svoicebehindme;’IwouldbedesolatedifanythingshouldhappentoMr。Kurtzbeforewecameup。’Ilookedathim,andhadnottheslightestdoubthewassincere。Hewasjustthekindofmanwhowouldwishtopreserveappearances。Thatwashisrestraint。

  Butwhenhemutteredsomethingaboutgoingonatonce,Ididnoteventakethetroubletoanswerhim。Iknew,andheknew,thatitwasimpossible。Werewetoletgoourholdofthebottom,wewouldbeabsolutelyintheair——inspace。Wewouldn’tbeabletotellwhereweweregoingto——whetherupordownstream,oracross——tillwefetchedagainstonebankortheother,——andthenwewouldn’tknowatfirstwhichitwas。OfcourseImadenomove。Ihadnomindforasmash-up。Youcouldn’timagineamoredeadlyplaceforashipwreck。

  Whetherdrownedatonceornot,weweresuretoperishspeedilyinonewayoranother。’Iauthorizeyoutotakealltherisks,’hesaid,afterashortsilence。’Irefusetotakeany,’Isaidshortly;whichwasjusttheanswerheexpected,thoughitstonemighthavesurprisedhim。

  ’Well,Imustdefertoyourjudgment。Youarecap-

  tain,’hesaid,withmarkedcivility。Iturnedmyshoul-

  dertohiminsignofmyappreciation,andlookedintothefog。Howlongwoulditlast?Itwasthemosthope-

  lesslook-out。TheapproachtothisKurtzgrubbingforivoryinthewretchedbushwasbesetbyasmanydangersasthoughhehadbeenanenchantedprincesssleepinginafabulouscastle。’Willtheyattack,doyouthink?’askedthemanager,inaconfidentialtone。

  \"Ididnotthinktheywouldattack,forseveralobviousreasons。Thethickfogwasone。Iftheyleftthebankintheircanoestheywouldgetlostinit,aswewouldbeifweattemptedtomove。Still,Ihadalsojudgedthejungleofbothbanksquiteimpenetrable——andyeteyeswereinit,eyesthathadseenus。Theriver-sidebusheswerecertainlyverythick;buttheundergrowthbehindwasevidentlypenetrable。However,duringtheshortliftIhadseennocanoesanywhereinthereach——cer-

  tainlynotabreastofthesteamer。Butwhatmadetheideaofattackinconceivabletomewasthenatureofthenoise——ofthecrieswehadheard。Theyhadnotthefiercecharacterbodingofimmediatehostileintention。

  Unexpected,wild,andviolentastheyhadbeen,theyhadgivenmeanirresistibleimpressionofsorrow。Theglimpseofthesteamboathadforsomereasonfilledthosesavageswithunrestrainedgrief。Thedanger,ifany,Iexpounded,wasfromourproximitytoagreathu-

  manpassionletloose。Evenextremegriefmayulti-

  matelyventitselfinviolence——butmoregenerallytakestheformofapathy……

  \"Youshouldhaveseenthepilgrimsstare!Theyhadnohearttogrin,oreventorevileme;butIbelievetheythoughtmegonemad——withfright,maybe。Ideliveredaregularlecture。Mydearboys,itwasnogoodbother-

  ing。Keepalook-out?Well,youmayguessIwatchedthefogforthesignsofliftingasacatwatchesamouse;

  butforanythingelseoureyeswereofnomoreusetousthanifwehadbeenburiedmilesdeepinaheapofcotton-wool。Itfeltlikeittoo——choking,warm,stifling。

  Besides,allIsaid,thoughitsoundedextravagant,wasabsolutelytruetofact。Whatweafterwardsalludedtoasanattackwasreallyanattemptatrepulse。Theactionwasveryfarfrombeingaggressive——itwasnotevendefensive,intheusualsense:itwasundertakenunderthestressofdesperation,andinitsessencewaspurelyprotective。

  \"Itdevelopeditself,Ishouldsay,twohoursafterthefoglifted,anditscommencementwasataspot,roughlyspeaking,aboutamileandahalfbelowKurtz’sstation。

  Wehadjustflounderedandfloppedroundabend,whenIsawanislet,ameregrassyhummockofbrightgreen,inthemiddleofthestream。Itwastheonlythingofthekind;butasweopenedthereachmore,Iperceiveditwastheheadofalongsandbank,orratherofachainofshallowpatchesstretchingdownthemiddleoftheriver。Theywerediscolored,justawash,andthewholelotwasseenjustunderthewater,exactlyasaman’sbackboneisseenrunningdownthemiddleofhisbackundertheskin。Now,asfarasIdidsee,Icouldgototherightortotheleftofthis。Ididn’tknoweitherchannel,ofcourse。Thebankslookedprettywellalike,thedepthappearedthesame;butasIhadbeeninformedthestationwasonthewestside,Inaturallyheadedforthewesternpassage。

  \"NosoonerhadwefairlyentereditthanIbecameawareitwasmuchnarrowerthanIhadsupposed。Totheleftofustherewasthelonguninterruptedshoal,andtotherightahigh,steepbankheavilyovergrownwithbushes。Abovethebushthetreesstoodinserriedranks。Thetwigsoverhungthecurrentthickly,andfromdistancetodistancealargelimbofsometreepro-

  jectedrigidlyoverthestream。Itwasthenwellonintheafternoon,thefaceoftheforestwasgloomy,andabroadstripofshadowhadalreadyfallenonthewater。

  Inthisshadowwesteamedup——veryslowly,asyoumayimagine。Isheeredherwellinshore——thewaterbeingdeepestnearthebank,asthesounding-poleinformedme。

  \"Oneofmyhungryandforbearingfriendswassound-

  inginthebowsjustbelowme。Thissteamboatwasexactlylikeadeckedscow。Onthedeckthereweretwolittleteak-woodhouses,withdoorsandwindows。Theboilerwasinthefore-end,andthemachineryrightastern。Overthewholetherewasalightroof,supportedonstanchions。Thefunnelprojectedthroughthatroof,andinfrontofthefunnelasmallcabinbuiltoflightplanksservedforapilot-house。Itcontainedacouch,twocamp-stools,aloadedMartini-Henryleaninginonecorner,atinytable,andthesteering-wheel。Ithadawidedoorinfrontandabroadshutterateachside。Allthesewerealwaysthrownopen,ofcourse。Ispentmydaysperchedupthereontheextremefore-endofthatroof,beforethedoor。AtnightIslept,ortriedto,onthecouch。Anathleticblackbelongingtosomecoasttribe,andeducatedbymypoorpredecessor,wasthehelmsman。Hesportedapairofbrassearrings,woreablueclothwrapperfromthewaisttotheankles,andthoughtalltheworldofhimself。HewasthemostunstablekindoffoolIhadeverseen。Hesteeredwithnoendofaswaggerwhileyouwereby;butifhelostsightofyou,hebecameinstantlythepreyofanabjectfunk,andwouldletthatcrippleofasteamboatgettheupperhandofhiminaminute。

  \"Iwaslookingdownatthesounding-pole,andfeel-

  ingmuchannoyedtoseeateachtryalittlemoreofitstickoutofthatriver,whenIsawmypolemangiveupthebusinesssuddenly,andstretchhimselfflatonthedeck,withouteventakingthetroubletohaulhispolein。Hekeptholdonitthough,andittrailedinthewater。Atthesametimethefireman,whomIcouldalsoseebelowme,satdownabruptlybeforehisfurnaceandduckedhishead。Iwasamazed。ThenIhadtolookattherivermightyquick,becausetherewasasnaginthefairway。Sticks,littlesticks,wereflyingabout——

  thick:theywerewhizzingbeforemynose,droppingbe-

  lowme,strikingbehindmeagainstmypilot-house。Allthistimetheriver,theshore,thewoods,wereveryquiet——

  perfectlyquiet。Icouldonlyheartheheavysplashingthumpofthestern-wheelandthepatterofthesethings。

  Weclearedthesnagclumsily。Arrows,byJove!Wewerebeingshotat!Isteppedinquicklytoclosetheshutteronthelandside。Thatfool-helmsman,hishandsonthespokes,wasliftinghiskneeshigh,stampinghisfeet,champinghismouth,likeareined-inhorse。Con-

  foundhim!Andwewerestaggeringwithintenfeetofthebank。Ihadtoleanrightouttoswingtheheavyshutter,andIsawafaceamongsttheleavesonthelevelwithmyown,lookingatmeveryfierceandsteady;

  andthensuddenly,asthoughaveilhadbeenremovedfrommyeyes,Imadeout,deepinthetangledgloom,nakedbreasts,arms,legs,glaringeyes,——thebushwasswarmingwithhumanlimbsinmovement,glistening,ofbronzecolor。Thetwigsshook,swayed,andrustled,thearrowsflewoutofthem,andthentheshuttercameto。

  ’Steerherstraight,’Isaidtothehelmsman。Heheldhisheadrigid,faceforward;buthiseyesrolled,hekeptonliftingandsettingdownhisfeetgently,hismouthfoamedalittle。’Keepquiet!’Isaidinafury。

  Imightjustaswellhaveorderedatreenottoswayinthewind。Idartedout。Belowmetherewasagreatscuffleoffeetontheirondeck;confusedexclamations;

  avoicescreamed,’Canyouturnback?’IcaughtshapeofaV-shapedrippleonthewaterahead。What?An-

  othersnag!Afusilladeburstoutundermyfeet。ThepilgrimshadopenedwiththeirWinchesters,andweresimplysquirtingleadintothatbush。Adeuceofalotofsmokecameupanddroveslowlyforward。I

  sworeatit。NowIcouldn’tseetherippleorthesnageither。Istoodinthedoorway,peering,andthearrowscameinswarms。Theymighthavebeenpoisoned,buttheylookedasthoughtheywouldn’tkillacat。Thebushbegantohowl。Ourwood-cuttersraisedawarlikewhoop;thereportofariflejustatmybackdeafenedme。Iglancedovermyshoulder,andthepilot-housewasyetfullofnoiseandsmokewhenImadeadashatthewheel。Thefool-niggerhaddroppedeverything,tothrowtheshutteropenandletoffthatMartini-Henry。

  Hestoodbeforethewideopening,glaring,andIyelledathimtocomeback,whileIstraightenedthesuddentwistoutofthatsteamboat。TherewasnoroomtoturnevenifIhadwantedto,thesnagwassomewhereverynearaheadinthatconfoundedsmoke,therewasnotimetolose,soIjustcrowdedherintothebank——rightintothebank,whereIknewthewaterwasdeep。

  \"Wetoreslowlyalongtheoverhangingbushesinawhirlofbrokentwigsandflyingleaves。Thefusilladebelowstoppedshort,asIhadforeseenitwouldwhenthesquirtsgotempty。Ithrewmyheadbacktoaglint-

  ingwhizzthattraversedthepilot-house,inatoneshutter-

  holeandoutattheother。Lookingpastthatmadhelms-

  man,whowasshakingtheemptyrifleandyellingattheshore,Isawvagueformsofmenrunningbentdouble,leaping,gliding,distinct,incomplete,evanescent。Some-

  thingbigappearedintheairbeforetheshutter,theriflewentoverboard,andthemansteppedbackswiftly,lookedatmeoverhisshoulderinanextraordinary,pro-

  found,familiarmanner,andfelluponmyfeet。Thesideofhisheadhitthewheeltwice,andtheendofwhatappearedalongcaneclatteredroundandknockedoveralittlecamp-stool。Itlookedasthoughafterwrench-

  ingthatthingfromsomebodyashorehehadlosthisbalanceintheeffort。Thethinsmokehadblownaway,wewereclearofthesnag,andlookingaheadIcouldseethatinanotherhundredyardsorsoIwouldbefreetosheeroff,awayfromthebank;butmyfeetfeltsoverywarmandwetthatIhadtolookdown。Themanhadrolledonhisbackandstaredstraightupatme;bothhishandsclutchedthatcane。Itwastheshaftofaspearthat,eitherthrownorlungedthroughtheopen-

  ing,hadcaughthiminthesidejustbelowtheribs;thebladehadgoneinoutofsight,aftermakingafrightfulgash;myshoeswerefull;apoolofbloodlayverystill,gleamingdark-redunderthewheel;hiseyesshonewithanamazingluster。Thefusilladeburstoutagain。Helookedatmeanxiously,grippingthespearlikesome-

  thingprecious,withanairofbeingafraidIwouldtrytotakeitawayfromhim。Ihadtomakeanefforttofreemyeyesfromhisgazeandattendtothesteering。

  WithonehandIfeltabovemyheadforthelineofthesteam-whistled,andjerkedoutscreechafterscreechhur-

  riedly。Thetumultofangryandwarlikeyellswascheckedinstantly,andthenfromthedepthsofthewoodswentoutsuchatremulousandprolongedwailofmourn-

  fulfearandutterdespairasmaybeimaginedtofollowtheflightofthelasthopefromtheearth。Therewasagreatcommotioninthebush;theshowerofarrowsstopped,afewdroppingshotsrangoutsharply——thensilence,inwhichthelanguidbeatofthestern-wheelcameplainlytomyears。Iputthehelmharda-star-

  boardatthemomentwhenthepilgriminpinkpyjamas,veryhotandagitated,appearedinthedoorway。’Themanagersendsme——’hebeganinanofficialtone,andstoppedshort。’GoodGod!’hesaid,glaringatthewoundedman。

  \"Wetwowhitesstoodoverhim,andhislustrousandinquiringglanceenvelopedusboth。Ideclareitlookedasthoughhewouldpresentlyputtoussomequestioninanunderstandablelanguage;buthediedwithoututter-

  ingasound,withoutmovingalimb,withouttwitchingamuscle。Onlyintheverylastmoment,asthoughinresponsetosomesignwecouldnotsee,tosomewhisperwecouldnothear,hefrownedheavily,andthatfrowngavetohisblackdeath-maskaninconceivablysomber,brooding,andmenacingexpression。Thelusterofin-

  quiringglancefadedswiftlyintovacantglassiness。’Canyousteer?’Iaskedtheagenteagerly。Helookedverydubious;butImadeagrabathisarm,andheunder-

  stoodatonceImeanthimtosteerwhetherorno。Totellyouthetruth,Iwasmorbidlyanxioustochangemyshoesandsocks。’Heisdead,’murmuredthefel-

  low,immenselyimpressed。’Nodoubtaboutit,’saidI,tugginglikemadattheshoe-laces。’And,bytheway,IsupposeMr。Kurtzisdeadaswellbythistime。’

  \"Forthemomentthatwasthedominantthought。

  Therewasasenseofextremedisappointment,asthoughIhadfoundoutIhadbeenstrivingaftersomethingal-

  togetherwithoutasubstance。Icouldn’thavebeenmoredisgustedifIhadtraveledallthiswayforthesolepurposeoftalkingwithMr。Kurtz。Talkingwith……Iflungoneshoeoverboard,andbecameawarethatthatwasexactlywhatIhadbeenlookingforwardto——atalkwithKurtz。ImadethestrangediscoverythatIhadneverimaginedhimasdoing,youknow,butasdiscoursing。Ididn’tsaytomyself,’NowIwillneverseehim,’or’NowIwillnevershakehimbythehand,’but,’NowIwillneverhearhim。’Themanpre-

  sentedhimselfasavoice。NotofcoursethatIdidnotconnecthimwithsomesortofaction。Hadn’tIbeentoldinallthetonesofjealousyandadmirationthathehadcollected,bartered,swindled,orstolenmoreivorythanalltheotheragentstogether。Thatwasnotthepoint。Thepointwasinhisbeingagiftedcreature,andthatofallhisgiftstheonethatstoodoutpre-

  eminently,thatcarriedwithitasenseofrealpresence,washisabilitytotalk,hiswords——thegiftofexpression,thebewildering,theilluminating,themostexaltedandthemostcontemptible,thepulsatingstreamoflight,orthedeceitfulflowfromtheheartofanimpenetrabledarkness。

  \"Theothershoewentflyinguntothedevil-godofthatriver。Ithought,ByJove!it’sallover。Wearetoolate;hehasvanished——thegifthasvanished,bymeansofsomespear,arrow,orclub。Iwillneverhearthatchapspeakafterall,——andmysorrowhadastartlingextravaganceofemotion,evensuchasIhadnoticedinthehowlingsorrowofthesesavagesinthebush。I

  couldn’thavefeltmoreoflonelydesolationsomehow,hadIbeenrobbedofabelieforhadmissedmydestinyinlife……Whydoyousighinthisbeastlyway,somebody?Absurd?Well,absurd。GoodLord!

  mustn’tamanever——Here,givemesometo-

  bacco。\"……

  Therewasapauseofprofoundstillness,thenamatchflared,andMarlow’sleanfaceappeared,worn,hollow,withdownwardfoldsanddroppedeyelids,withanaspectofconcentratedattention;andashetookvigorousdrawsathispipe,itseemedtoretreatandadvanceoutofthenightintheregularflickerofthetinyflame。Thematchwentout。

  \"Absurd!\"hecried。\"Thisistheworstoftryingtotell……Hereyouallare,eachmooredwithtwogoodaddresses,likeahulkwithtwoanchors,abutcherroundonecorner,apolicemanroundanother,excellentappetites,andtemperaturenormal——youhear——normalfromyear’sendtoyear’send。Andyousay,Absurd!

  Absurdbe——exploded!Absurd!Mydearboys,whatcanyouexpectfromamanwhooutofsheernervous-

  nesshadjustflungoverboardapairofnewshoes。

  NowIthinkofit,itisamazingIdidnotshedtears。

  Iam,uponthewhole,proudofmyfortitude。IwascuttothequickattheideaofhavinglosttheinestimableprivilegeoflisteningtothegiftedKurtz。OfcourseIwaswrong。Theprivilegewaswaitingforme。Ohyes,Iheardmorethanenough。AndIwasright,too。

  Avoice。Hewasverylittlemorethanavoice。AndIheard——him——it——thisvoice——othervoices——allofthemweresolittlemorethanvoices——andthememoryofthattimeitselflingersaroundme,impalpable,likeadyingvibrationofoneimmensejabber,silly,atrocious,sordid,savage,orsimplymean,withoutanykindofsense。

  Voices,voices——eventhegirlherself——now——\"

  Hewassilentforalongtime。

  \"Ilaidtheghostofhisgiftsatlastwithalie,\"hebegansuddenly。\"Girl!What?DidImentionagirl?Oh,sheisoutofit——completely。They——thewomenImean——areoutofit——shouldbeoutofit。Wemusthelpthemtostayinthatbeautifulworldoftheirown,lestoursgetsworse。Oh,shehadtobeoutofit。

  YoushouldhaveheardthedisinterredbodyofMr。

  Kurtzsaying,’MyIntended。’Youwouldhaveper-

  ceiveddirectlythenhowcompletelyshewasoutofit。

  AndtheloftyfrontalboneofMr。Kurtz!Theysaythehairgoesongrowingsometimes,butthis——ah——

  specimen,wasimpressivelybald。Thewildernesshadpattedhimonthehead,and,behold,itwaslikeaball——anivoryball;ithadcaressedhim,and——lo!——hehadwithered;ithadtakenhim,lovedhim,embracedhim,gotintohisveins,consumedhisflesh,andsealedhissoultoitsownbytheinconceivableceremoniesofsomedevilishinitiation。Hewasitsspoiledandpamperedfavorite。Ivory?Ishouldthinkso。Heapsofit,stacksofit。Theoldmudshantywasburstingwithit。

  Youwouldthinktherewasnotasingletusklefteitheraboveorbelowthegroundinthewholecountry。’Mostlyfossil,’themanagerhadremarkeddisparagingly。ItwasnomorefossilthanIam;buttheycallitfossilwhenitisdugup。Itappearstheseniggersdoburythetuskssometimes——butevidentlytheycouldn’tburythisparceldeepenoughtosavethegiftedMr。Kurtzfromhisfate。Wefilledthesteamboatwithit,andhadtopilealotonthedeck。Thushecouldseeandenjoyaslongashecouldsee,becausetheappreciationofthisfavorhadremainedwithhimtothelast。Youshouldhaveheardhimsay,’Myivory。’Ohyes,Iheardhim。

  ’MyIntended,myivory,mystation,myriver,my——’

  everythingbelongedtohim。Itmademeholdmybreathinexpectationofhearingthewildernessburstintoaprodigiouspealoflaughterthatwouldshakethefixedstarsintheirplaces。Everythingbelongedtohim——butthatwasatrifle。Thethingwastoknowwhathebe-

  longedto,howmanypowersofdarknessclaimedhimfortheirown。Thatwasthereflectionthatmadeyoucreepyallover。Itwasimpossible——itwasnotgoodforoneeither——tryingtoimagine。Hehadtakenahighseatamongstthedevilsoftheland——Imeanliterally。

  Youcan’tunderstand。Howcouldyou?——withsolidpavementunderyourfeet,surroundedbykindneigh-

  borsreadytocheeryouortofallonyou,steppingdelicatelybetweenthebutcherandthepoliceman,intheholyterrorofscandalandgallowsandlunaticasylums——howcanyouimaginewhatparticularregionofthefirstagesaman’suntrammeledfeetmaytakehimintobythewayofsolitude——uttersolitudewithoutapolice-

  man——bythewayofsilence,uttersilence,wherenowarningvoiceofakindneighborcanbeheardwhisper-

  ingofpublicopinion?Theselittlethingsmakeallthegreatdifference。Whentheyaregoneyoumustfallbackuponyourowninnatestrength,uponyourowncapacityforfaithfulness。Ofcourseyoumaybetoomuchofafooltogowrong——toodulleventoknowyouarebeingassaultedbythepowersofdarkness。Itakeit,nofoolevermadeabargainforhissoulwiththedevil:thefoolistoomuchofafool,orthedeviltoomuchofadevil——Idon’tknowwhich。Oryoumaybesuchathunderinglyexaltedcreatureastobealtogetherdeafandblindtoanythingbutheavenlysightsandsounds。Thentheearthforyouisonlyastandingplace——andwhethertobelikethisisyourlossoryourgainI

  won’tpretendtosay。Butmostofusareneitheronenortheother。Theearthforusisaplacetolivein,wherewemustputupwithsights,withsounds,withsmellstoo,byJove!——breathedeadhippo,sotospeak,andnotbecontaminated。Andthere,don’tyousee?

  yourstrengthcomesin,thefaithinyourabilityforthediggingofunostentatiousholestoburythestuffin——

  yourpowerofdevotion,nottoyourself,buttoanobscure,back-breakingbusiness。Andthat’sdifficultenough。Mind,Iamnottryingtoexcuseorevenex-

  plain——Iamtryingtoaccounttomyselffor——for——Mr。

  Kurtz——fortheshadeofMr。Kurtz。ThisinitiatedwraithfromthebackofNowherehonoredmewithitsamazingconfidencebeforeitvanishedaltogether。ThiswasbecauseitcouldspeakEnglishtome。TheoriginalKurtzhadbeeneducatedpartlyinEngland,and——ashewasgoodenoughtosayhimself——hissympathieswereintherightplace。Hismotherwashalf-English,hisfatherwashalf-French。AllEuropecontributedtothemakingofKurtz;andby-and-byIlearnedthat,mostappropriately,theInternationalSocietyfortheSup-

  pressionofSavageCustomshadintrustedhimwiththemakingofareport,foritsfutureguidance。Andhehadwrittenittoo。I’veseenit。I’vereadit。Itwaseloquent,vibratingwitheloquence,buttoohigh-strung,Ithink。Seventeenpagesofclosewritinghehadfoundtimefor!Butthismusthavebeenbeforehis——letussay——nerves,wentwrong,andcausedhimtopresideatcertainmidnightdancesendingwithunspeakablerites,which——asfarasIreluctantlygatheredfromwhatI

  heardatvarioustimes——wereoffereduptohim——doyouunderstand?——toMr。Kurtzhimself。Butitwasabeau-

  tifulpieceofwriting。Theopeningparagraph,how-

  ever,inthelightoflaterinformation,strikesmenowasominous。Hebeganwiththeargumentthatwewhites,fromthepointofdevelopmentwehadarrivedat,’mustnecessarilyappeartothem[savages]inthenatureofsupernaturalbeings——weapproachthemwiththemightasofadeity,’andsoon,andsoon。’Bythesimpleexerciseofourwillwecanexertapowerforgoodpracticallyunbounded,’&c。,&c。Fromthatpointhesoaredandtookmewithhim。Theperorationwasmag-

  nificent,thoughdifficulttoremember,youknow。ItgavemethenotionofanexoticImmensityruledbyanaugustBenevolence。Itmademetinglewithen-

  thusiasm。Thiswastheunboundedpowerofeloquence——ofwords——ofburningnoblewords。Therewerenopracticalhintstointerruptthemagiccurrentofphrases,unlessakindofnoteatthefootofthelastpage,scrawledevidentlymuchlater,inanunsteadyhand,mayberegardedastheexpositionofamethod。Itwasverysimple,andattheendofthatmovingappealtoeveryaltruisticsentimentitblazedatyou,luminousandterrifying,likeaflashoflightninginaserenesky:

  ’Exterminateallthebrutes!’Thecuriouspartwasthathehadapparentlyforgottenallaboutthatvalu-

  ablepostscriptum,because,lateron,whenheinasensecametohimself,herepeatedlyentreatedmetotakegoodcareof’mypamphlet’(hecalledit),asitwassuretohaveinthefutureagoodinfluenceuponhiscareer。Ihadfullinformationaboutallthesethings,and,besides,asitturnedout,Iwastohavethecareofhismemory。I’vedoneenoughforittogivemetheindisputablerighttolayit,ifIchoose,foraneverlast-

  ingrestinthedust-binofprogress,amongstallthesweepingsand,figurativelyspeaking,allthedeadcatsofcivilization。Butthen,yousee,Ican’tchoose。Hewon’tbeforgotten。Whateverhewas,hewasnotcom-

  mon。Hehadthepowertocharmorfrightenrudi-

  mentarysoulsintoanaggravatedwitch-danceinhishonor;hecouldalsofillthesmallsoulsofthepilgrimswithbittermisgivings:hehadonedevotedfriendatleast,andhehadconqueredonesoulintheworldthatwasneitherrudimentarynortaintedwithself-seeking。

  No;Ican’tforgethim,thoughIamnotpreparedtoaffirmthefellowwasexactlyworththelifewelostingettingtohim。Imissedmylatehelmsmanawfully,——

  Imissedhimevenwhilehisbodywasstilllyinginthepilot-house。PerhapsyouwillthinkitpassingstrangethisregretforasavagewhowasnomoreaccountthanagrainofsandinablackSahara。Well,don’tyousee,hehaddonesomething,hehadsteered;formonthsI

  hadhimatmyback——ahelp——aninstrument。Itwasakindofpartnership。Hesteeredforme——Ihadtolookafterhim,Iworriedabouthisdeficiencies,andthusasubtlebondhadbeencreated,ofwhichIonlybecameawarewhenitwassuddenlybroken。Andtheintimateprofundityofthatlookhegavemewhenhereceivedhishurtremainstothisdayinmymemory——likeaclaimofdistantkinshipaffirmedinasuprememoment。

  \"Poorfool!Ifhehadonlyleftthatshutteralone。

  Hehadnorestraint,norestraint——justlikeKurtz——atreeswayedbythewind。AssoonasIhadputonadrypairofslippers,Idraggedhimout,afterfirstjerkingthespearoutofhisside,whichoperationIconfessI

  performedwithmyeyesshuttight。Hisheelsleapedtogetheroverthelittledoor-step;hisshoulderswerepressedtomybreast;Ihuggedhimfrombehinddes-

  perately。Oh!hewasheavy,heavy;heavierthananymanonearth,Ishouldimagine。ThenwithoutmoreadoItippedhimoverboard。Thecurrentsnatchedhimasthoughhehadbeenawispofgrass,andIsawthebodyrollovertwicebeforeIlostsightofitforever。

  Allthepilgrimsandthemanagerwerethencongregatedontheawning-deckaboutthepilot-house,chatteringateachotherlikeaflockofexcitedmagpies,andtherewasascandalizedmurmuratmyheartlesspromptitude。

  WhattheywantedtokeepthatbodyhangingaboutforIcan’tguess。Embalmit,maybe。ButIhadalsoheardanother,andaveryominous,murmuronthedeckbelow。

  Myfriendsthewood-cutterswerelikewisescandalized,andwithabettershowofreason——thoughIadmitthatthereasonitselfwasquiteinadmissible。Oh,quite!I

  hadmadeupmymindthatifmylatehelmsmanwastobeeaten,thefishesaloneshouldhavehim。Hehadbeenaverysecond-ratehelmsmanwhilealive,butnowhewasdeadhemighthavebecomeafirst-classtempta-

  tion,andpossiblycausesomestartlingtrouble。Besides,Iwasanxioustotakethewheel,themaninpinkpyjamasshowinghimselfahopelessdufferatthebusiness。

  \"ThisIdiddirectlythesimplefuneralwasover。Weweregoinghalf-speed,keepingrightinthemiddleofthestream,andIlistenedtothetalkaboutme。TheyhadgivenupKurtz,theyhadgivenupthestation;

  Kurtzwasdead,andthestationhadbeenburnt——andsoon——andsoon。Thered-hairedpilgrimwasbesidehimselfwiththethoughtthatatleastthispoorKurtzhadbeenproperlyrevenged。’Say!Wemusthavemadeagloriousslaughteroftheminthebush。Eh?

  Whatdoyouthink?Say?’Hepositivelydanced,thebloodthirstylittlegingerybeggar。Andhehadnearlyfaintedwhenhesawthewoundedman!Icouldnothelpsaying,’Youmadeagloriouslotofsmoke,any-

  how。’Ihadseen,fromthewaythetopsofthebushesrustledandflew,thatalmostalltheshotshadgonetoohigh。Youcan’thitanythingunlessyoutakeaimandfirefromtheshoulder;butthesechapsfiredfromthehipwiththeireyesshut。Theretreat,Imaintained——

  andIwasright——wascausedbythescreechingofthesteam-whistle。UponthistheyforgotKurtz,andbegantohowlatmewithindignantprotests。

  \"Themanagerstoodbythewheelmurmuringconfi-

  dentiallyaboutthenecessityofgettingwellawaydowntheriverbeforedarkatallevents,whenIsawinthedistanceaclearingontheriver-sideandtheoutlinesofsomesortofbuilding。’What’sthis?’Iasked。Heclappedhishandsinwonder。’Thestation!’hecried。

  Iedgedinatonce,stillgoinghalf-speed。

  \"ThroughmyglassesIsawtheslopeofahillinter-

  spersedwithraretreesandperfectlyfreefromunder-

  growth。Alongdecayingbuildingonthesummitwashalfburiedinthehighgrass;thelargeholesinthepeakedroofgapedblackfromafar;thejungleandthewoodsmadeabackground。Therewasnoinclosureorfenceofanykind;buttherehadbeenoneapparently,fornearthehousehalf-a-dozenslimpostsremainedinarow,roughlytrimmed,andwiththeirupperendsorna-

  mentedwithroundcarvedballs。Therails,orwhat-

  evertherehadbeenbetween,haddisappeared。Ofcoursetheforestsurroundedallthat。Theriver-bankwasclear,andonthewater-sideIsawawhitemanunderahatlikeacart-wheelbeckoningpersistentlywithhiswholearm。Examiningtheedgeoftheforestaboveandbelow,IwasalmostcertainIcouldseemovements——

  humanformsglidinghereandthere。Isteamedpastprudently,thenstoppedtheenginesandletherdriftdown。Themanontheshorebegantoshout,urgingustoland。’Wehavebeenattacked,’screamedtheman-

  ager。’Iknow——Iknow。It’sallright,’yelledbacktheother,ascheerfulasyouplease。’Comealong。It’sallright。Iamglad。’

  \"HisaspectremindedmeofsomethingIhadseen——

  somethingfunnyIhadseensomewhere。AsImaneuveredtogetalongside,Iwasaskingmyself,’Whatdoesthisfellowlooklike?’SuddenlyIgotit。Helookedlikeaharlequin。Hisclotheshadbeenmadeofsomestuffthatwasbrownhollandprobably,butitwascoveredwithpatchesallover,withbrightpatches,blue,red,andyel-

  low,——patchesontheback,patchesonfront,patchesonelbows,onknees;coloredbindingroundhisjacket,scar-

  letedgingatthebottomofhistrousers;andthesun-

  shinemadehimlookextremelygayandwonderfullyneatwithal,becauseyoucouldseehowbeautifullyallthispatchinghadbeendone。Abeardless,boyishface,veryfair,nofeaturestospeakof,nosepeeling,littleblueeyes,smilesandfrownschasingeachotheroverthatopencountenancelikesunshineandshadowonawind-

  sweptplain。’Lookout,captain!’hecried;’there’sasnaglodgedinherelastnight。’What!Anothersnag?IconfessIsworeshamefully。Ihadnearlyholedmycripple,tofinishoffthatcharmingtrip。Theharle-

  quinonthebankturnedhislittlepugnoseuptome。

  ’YouEnglish?’heasked,allsmiles。’Areyou?’I

  shoutedfromthewheel。Thesmilesvanished,andheshookhisheadasifsorryformydisappointment。Thenhebrightenedup。’Nevermind!’hecriedencourag-

  ingly。’Areweintime?’Iasked。’Heisupthere,’

  hereplied,withatossoftheheadupthehill,andbecominggloomyallofasudden。Hisfacewasliketheautumnsky,overcastonemomentandbrightthenext。

  \"Whenthemanager,escortedbythepilgrims,allofthemarmedtotheteeth,hadgonetothehouse,thischapcameonboard。’Isay,Idon’tlikethis。Thesenativesareinthebush,’Isaid。Heassuredmeearnestlyitwasallright。’Theyaresimplepeople,’headded;

  ’well,Iamgladyoucame。Ittookmeallmytimetokeepthemoff。’’Butyousaiditwasallright,’Icried。

  ’Oh,theymeantnoharm,’hesaid;andasIstaredhecorrectedhimself,’Notexactly。’Thenvivaciously,’Myfaith,yourpilot-housewantsacleanup!’Inthenextbreathheadvisedmetokeepenoughsteamontheboilertoblowthewhistleincaseofanytrouble。’Onegoodscreechwilldomoreforyouthanallyourrifles。

  Theyaresimplepeople,’herepeated。Herattledawayatsucharatehequiteoverwhelmedme。Heseemedtobetryingtomakeupforlotsofsilence,andactuallyhinted,laughing,thatsuchwasthecase。’Don’tyoutalkwithMr。Kurtz?’Isaid。’Youdon’ttalkwiththatman——youlistentohim,’heexclaimedwithsevereexaltation。’Butnow——’Hewavedhisarm,andinthetwinklingofaneyewasintheuttermostdepthsofdespondency。Inamomenthecameupagainwithajump,possessedhimselfofbothmyhands,shookthemcontinuously,whilehegabbled:’Brothersailor……

  honor……pleasure……delight……introducemyself……Russian……sonofanarch-priest……GovernmentofTambov……What?Tobacco!

  Englishtobacco;theexcellentEnglishtobacco!Now,that’sbrotherly。Smoke?Where’sasailorthatdoesnotsmoke?’

  \"Thepipesoothedhim,andgraduallyImadeouthehadrunawayfromschool,hadgonetoseainaRussianship;ranawayagain;servedsometimeinEnglishships;wasnowreconciledwiththearch-priest。Hemadeapointofthat。’Butwhenoneisyoungonemustseethings,gatherexperience,ideas;enlargethemind。’

  ’Here!’Iinterrupted。’Youcannevertell!HereI

  havemetMr。Kurtz,’hesaid,youthfullysolemnandreproachful。Iheldmytongueafterthat。ItappearshehadpersuadedaDutchtrading-houseonthecoasttofithimoutwithstoresandgoods,andhadstartedfortheinteriorwithalightheart,andnomoreideaofwhatwouldhappentohimthanababy。Hehadbeenwan-

  deringaboutthatriverfornearlytwoyearsalone,cutofffromeverybodyandeverything。’IamnotsoyoungasIlook。Iamtwenty-five,’hesaid。’AtfirstoldVanShuytenwouldtellmetogotothedevil,’henarratedwithkeenenjoyment;’butIstucktohim,andtalkedandtalked,tillatlasthegotafraidIwouldtalkthehind-legoffhisfavoritedog,sohegavemesomecheapthingsandafewguns,andtoldmehehopedhewouldneverseemyfaceagain。GoodoldDutchman,VanShuyten。I’vesenthimonesmalllotofivoryayearago,sothathecan’tcallmealittlethiefwhenIgetback。Ihopehegotit。AndfortherestIdon’tcare。

  Ihadsomewoodstackedforyou。Thatwasmyoldhouse。Didyousee?’

  \"IgavehimTowson’sbook。Hemadeasthoughhewouldkissme,butrestrainedhimself。’TheonlybookIhadleft,andIthoughtIhadlostit,’hesaid,lookingatitecstatically。’Somanyaccidentshappentoamangoingaboutalone,youknow。Canoesgetupsetsome-

  times——andsometimesyou’vegottoclearoutsoquickwhenthepeoplegetangry。’Hethumbedthepages。

  ’YoumadenotesinRussian?’Iasked。Henodded。

  ’Ithoughttheywerewrittenincipher,’Isaid。Helaughed,thenbecameserious。’Ihadlotsoftroubletokeepthesepeopleoff,’hesaid。’Didtheywanttokillyou?’Iasked。’Ohno!’hecried,andcheckedhim-

  self。’Whydidtheyattackus?’Ipursued。Hehesi-

  tated,thensaidshamefacedly,’Theydon’twanthimtogo。’’Don’tthey?’Isaid,curiously。Henoddedanodfullofmysteryandwisdom。’Itellyou,’hecried,’thismanhasenlargedmymind。’Heopenedhisarmswide,staringatmewithhislittleblueeyesthatwereperfectlyround。\"

  part3

  PartThree\"Ilookedathim,lostinastonishment。Therehewasbeforeme,inmotley,asthoughhehadabscondedfromatroupeofmimes,enthusiastic,fabulous。Hisveryexistencewasimprobable,inexplicable,andalto-

  getherbewildering。Hewasaninsolubleproblem。Itwasinconceivablehowhehadexisted,howhehadsuc-

  ceededingettingsofar,howhehadmanagedtoremain——whyhedidnotinstantlydisappear。’Iwentalittlefarther,’hesaid,’thenstillalittlefarther——tillIhadgonesofarthatIdon’tknowhowI’llevergetback。

  Nevermind。Plentytime。Icanmanage。YoutakeKurtzawayquick——quick——Itellyou。’Theglamourofyouthenvelopedhisparticoloredrags,hisdestitution,hisloneliness,theessentialdesolationofhisfutilewander-

  ings。Formonths——foryears——hislifehadn’tbeenworthaday’spurchase;andtherehewasgallantly,thoughtlesslyalive,toallappearanceindestructiblesolelybythevirtueofhisfewyearsandofhisunreflectingaudacity。Iwasseducedintosomethinglikeadmiration——likeenvy。Glamoururgedhimon,glamourkepthimunscathed。Hesurelywantednothingfromthewilder-

  nessbutspacetobreatheinandtopushonthrough。

  Hisneedwastoexist,andtomoveonwardsatthegreat-

  estpossiblerisk,andwithamaximumofprivation。Iftheabsolutelypure,uncalculating,unpracticalspiritofadventurehadeverruledahumanbeing,itruledthisbe-patchedyouth。Ialmostenviedhimthepossessionofthismodestandclearflame。Itseemedtohavecon-

  sumedallthoughtofselfsocompletely,that,evenwhilehewastalkingtoyou,youforgotthatitwashe——themanbeforeyoureyes——whohadgonethroughthesethings。IdidnotenvyhimhisdevotiontoKurtz,though。Hehadnotmeditatedoverit。Itcametohim,andheaccepteditwithasortofeagerfatalism。Imustsaythattomeitappearedaboutthemostdangerousthingineverywayhehadcomeuponsofar。

  \"Theyhadcometogetherunavoidably,liketwoshipsbecalmedneareachother,andlayrubbingsidesatlast。

  IsupposeKurtzwantedanaudience,becauseonacer-

  tainoccasion,whenencampedintheforest,theyhadtalkedallnight,ormoreprobablyKurtzhadtalked。

  ’Wetalkedofeverything,’hesaid,quitetransportedattherecollection。’Iforgottherewassuchathingassleep。Thenightdidnotseemtolastanhour。Every-

  thing!Everything!……Oflovetoo。’’Ah,hetalkedtoyouoflove!’Isaid,muchamused。’Itisn’twhatyouthink,’hecried,almostpassionately。’Itwasingeneral。Hemademeseethings——things。’

  \"Hethrewhisarmsup。Wewereondeckatthetime,andtheheadmanofmywood-cutters,loungingnearby,turneduponhimhisheavyandglitteringeyes。Ilookedaround,andIdon’tknowwhy,butIassureyouthatnever,neverbefore,didthisland,thisriver,thisjungle,theveryarchofthisblazingsky,appeartomesohope-

  lessandsodark,soimpenetrabletohumanthought,sopitilesstohumanweakness。’And,eversince,youhavebeenwithhim,ofcourse?’Isaid。

  \"Onthecontrary。Itappearstheirintercoursehadbeenverymuchbrokenbyvariouscauses。Hehad,asheinformedmeproudly,managedtonurseKurtzthroughtwoillnesses(healludedtoitasyouwouldtosomeriskyfeat),butasaruleKurtzwanderedalone,farinthedepthsoftheforest。’Veryoftencomingtothisstation,Ihadtowaitdaysanddaysbeforehewouldturnup,’hesaid。’Ah,itwasworthwaitingfor!——

  sometimes。’’Whatwashedoing?exploringorwhat?’

  Iasked。’Ohyes,ofcourse;’hehaddiscoveredlotsofvillages,alaketoo——hedidnotknowexactlyinwhatdirection;itwasdangeroustoinquiretoomuch——butmostlyhisexpeditionshadbeenforivory。’Buthehadnogoodstotradewithbythattime,’Iobjected。’There’sagoodlotofcartridgesleftevenyet,’heanswered,look-

  ingaway。’Tospeakplainly,heraidedthecountry,’

  Isaid。Henodded。’Notalone,surely!’Hemutteredsomethingaboutthevillagesroundthatlake。’Kurtzgotthetribetofollowhim,didhe?’Isuggested。Hefidgetedalittle。’Theyadoredhim,’hesaid。ThetoneofthesewordswassoextraordinarythatIlookedathimsearchingly。Itwascurioustoseehismingledeager-

  nessandreluctancetospeakofKurtz。Themanfilledhislife,occupiedhisthoughts,swayedhisemotions。

  ’Whatcanyouexpect?’heburstout;’hecametothemwiththunderandlightning,youknow——andtheyhadneverseenanythinglikeit——andveryterrible。Hecouldbeveryterrible。Youcan’tjudgeMr。Kurtzasyouwouldanordinaryman。No,no,no!Now——justtogiveyouanidea——Idon’tmindtellingyou,hewantedtoshootmetoooneday——butIdon’tjudgehim。’

  ’Shootyou!’Icried。’Whatfor?’’Well,Ihadasmalllotofivorythechiefofthatvillagenearmyhousegaveme。YouseeIusedtoshootgameforthem。Well,hewantedit,andwouldn’thearreason。HedeclaredhewouldshootmeunlessIgavehimtheivoryandthenclearedoutofthecountry,becausehecoulddoso,andhadafancyforit,andtherewasnothingonearthtopreventhimkillingwhomhejollywellpleased。Anditwastruetoo。Igavehimtheivory。WhatdidIcare!

  ButIdidn’tclearout。No,no。Icouldn’tleavehim。

  Ihadtobecareful,ofcourse,tillwegotfriendlyagainforatime。Hehadhissecondillnessthen。AfterwardsIhadtokeepoutoftheway;butIdidn’tmind。Hewaslivingforthemostpartinthosevillagesonthelake。Whenhecamedowntotheriver,sometimeshewouldtaketome,andsometimesitwasbetterformetobecareful。Thismansufferedtoomuch。Hehatedallthis,andsomehowhecouldn’tgetaway。WhenIhadachanceIbeggedhimtotryandleavewhiletherewastime;Iofferedtogobackwithhim。Andhewouldsayyes,andthenhewouldremain;gooffonanotherivoryhunt;disappearforweeks;forgethimselfamongstthesepeople——forgethimself——youknow。’’Why!he’smad,’Isaid。Heprotestedindignantly。Mr。Kurtzcouldn’tbemad。IfIhadheardhimtalk,onlytwodaysago,Iwouldn’tdarehintatsuchathing……

  Ihadtakenupmybinocularswhilewetalkedandwaslookingattheshore,sweepingthelimitoftheforestateachsideandatthebackofthehouse。Theconsciousnessoftherebeingpeopleinthatbush,sosilent,soquiet——assilentandquietastheruinedhouseonthehill——mademeuneasy。Therewasnosignonthefaceofnatureofthisamazingtalethatwasnotsomuchtoldassuggestedtomeindesolateexclamations,com-

  pletedbyshrugs,ininterruptedphrases,inhintsendingindeepsighs。Thewoodswereunmoved,likeamask——

  heavy,likethecloseddoorofaprison——theylookedwiththeirairofhiddenknowledge,ofpatientexpectation,ofunapproachablesilence。TheRussianwasexplainingtomethatitwasonlylatelythatMr。Kurtzhadcomedowntotheriver,bringingalongwithhimallthefight-

  ingmenofthatlaketribe。Hehadbeenabsentforseveralmonths——gettinghimselfadored,Isuppose——andhadcomedownunexpectedly,withtheintentiontoallappearanceofmakingaraideitheracrosstheriverordownstream。Evidentlytheappetiteformoreivoryhadgotthebetterofthe——whatshallIsay?——lessma-

  terialaspirations。Howeverhehadgotmuchworsesuddenly。’Iheardhewaslyinghelpless,andsoIcameup——tookmychance,’saidtheRussian。’Oh,heisbad,verybad。’Idirectedmyglasstothehouse。Therewerenosignsoflife,buttherewastheruinedroof,thelongmudwallpeepingabovethegrass,withthreelittlesquarewindow-holes,notwoofthesamesize;allthisbroughtwithinreachofmyhand,asitwere。AndthenImadeabrusquemovement,andoneoftheremain-

  ingpostsofthatvanishedfenceleapedupinthefieldofmyglass。YourememberItoldyouIhadbeenstruckatthedistancebycertainattemptsatornamenta-

  tion,ratherremarkableintheruinousaspectoftheplace。

  NowIhadsuddenlyanearerview,anditsfirstresultwastomakemethrowmyheadbackasifbeforeablow。

  ThenIwentcarefullyfromposttopostwithmyglass,andIsawmymistake。Theseroundknobswerenotornamentalbutsymbolic;theywereexpressiveandpuzzling,strikinganddisturbing——foodforthoughtandalsoforthevulturesiftherehadbeenanylookingdownfromthesky;butatalleventsforsuchantsaswereindustriousenoughtoascendthepole。Theywouldhavebeenevenmoreimpressive,thoseheadsonthestakes,iftheirfaceshadnotbeenturnedtothehouse。

  Onlyone,thefirstIhadmadeout,wasfacingmyway。

  Iwasnotsoshockedasyoumaythink。ThestartbackIhadgivenwasreallynothingbutamovementofsur-

  prise。Ihadexpectedtoseeaknobofwoodthere,youknow。IreturneddeliberatelytothefirstIhadseen——

  andthereitwas,black,dried,sunken,withclosedeye-

  lids,——aheadthatseemedtosleepatthetopofthatpole,and,withtheshrunkendrylipsshowinganarrowwhitelineoftheteeth,wassmilingtoo,smilingcontinuouslyatsomeendlessandjocosedreamofthateternalslumber。

  \"Iamnotdisclosinganytradesecrets。InfactthemanagersaidafterwardsthatMr。Kurtz’smethodshadruinedthedistrict。Ihavenoopiniononthatpoint,butIwantyouclearlytounderstandthattherewasnothingexactlyprofitableintheseheadsbeingthere。

  TheyonlyshowedthatMr。Kurtzlackedrestraintinthegratificationofhisvariouslusts,thattherewassome-

  thingwantinginhim——somesmallmatterwhich,whenthepressingneedarose,couldnotbefoundunderhismagnificenteloquence。Whetherheknewofthisde-

  ficiencyhimselfIcan’tsay。Ithinktheknowledgecametohimatlast——onlyattheverylast。Butthewilder-

  nesshadfoundhimoutearly,andhadtakenonhimaterriblevengeanceforthefantasticinvasion。Ithinkithadwhisperedtohimthingsabouthimselfwhichhedidnotknow,thingsofwhichhehadnoconceptiontillhetookcounselwiththisgreatsolitude——andthewhisperhadprovedirresistiblyfascinating。Itechoedloudlywithinhimbecausehewashollowatthecore……I

  putdowntheglass,andtheheadthathadappearednearenoughtobespokentoseemedatoncetohaveleapedawayfrommeintoinaccessibledistance。

  \"TheadmirerofMr。Kurtzwasabitcrestfallen。Inahurried,indistinctvoicehebegantoassuremehehadnotdaredtotakethese——say,symbols——down。Hewasnotafraidofthenatives;theywouldnotstirtillMr。

  Kurtzgavetheword。Hisascendencywasextraor-

  dinary。Thecampsofthesepeoplesurroundedtheplace,andthechiefscameeverydaytoseehim。Theywouldcrawl……’Idon’twanttoknowanythingoftheceremoniesusedwhenapproachingMr。Kurtz,’I

  shouted。Curious,thisfeelingthatcameovermethatsuchdetailswouldbemoreintolerablethanthoseheadsdryingonthestakesunderMr。Kurtz’swindows。Afterall,thatwasonlyasavagesight,whileIseemedatoneboundtohavebeentransportedintosomelightlessregionofsubtlehorrors,wherepure,uncomplicatedsavagerywasapositiverelief,beingsomethingthathadarighttoexist——obviously——inthesunshine。Theyoungmanlookedatmewithsurprise。IsupposeitdidnotoccurtohimMr。Kurtzwasnoidolofmine。

  HeforgotIhadn’theardanyofthesesplendidmono-

  logueson,whatwasit?onlove,justice,conductoflife——orwhatnot。IfithadcometocrawlingbeforeMr。

  Kurtz,hecrawledasmuchastheveriestsavageofthemall。Ihadnoideaoftheconditions,hesaid:theseheadsweretheheadsofrebels。Ishockedhimexcessivelybylaughing。Rebels!WhatwouldbethenextdefinitionIwastohear?Therehadbeenenemies,criminals,work-

  ers——andthesewererebels。Thoserebelliousheadslookedverysubduedtomeontheirsticks。’Youdon’tknowhowsuchalifetriesamanlikeKurtz,’criedKurtz’slastdisciple。’Well,andyou?’Isaid。’I!I!I

  amasimpleman。Ihavenogreatthoughts。Iwantnothingfromanybody。Howcanyoucomparemeto……?\"

  Hisfeelingsweretoomuchforspeech,andsuddenlyhebrokedown。’Idon’tunderstand,’hegroaned。’I’vebeendoingmybesttokeephimalive,andthat’senough。

  Ihadnohandinallthis。Ihavenoabilities。Therehasn’tbeenadropofmedicineoramouthfulofinvalidfoodformonthshere。Hewasshamefullyabandoned。

  Amanlikethis,withsuchideas。Shamefully!

  Shamefully!I——I——haven’tsleptforthelasttennights……’

  \"Hisvoicelostitselfinthecalmoftheevening。Thelongshadowsoftheforesthadslippeddownhillwhilewetalked,hadgonefarbeyondtheruinedhovel,be-

  yondthesymbolicrowofstakes。Allthiswasinthegloom,whilewedowntherewereyetinthesunshine,andthestretchoftheriverabreastoftheclearingglitteredinastillanddazzlingsplendor,withamurkyandover-shadowedbendaboveandbelow。Notalivingsoulwasseenontheshore。Thebushesdidnotrustle。

  \"Suddenlyroundthecornerofthehouseagroupofmenappeared,asthoughtheyhadcomeupfromtheground。Theywadedwaist-deepinthegrass,inacompactbody,bearinganimprovisedstretcherintheirmidst。Instantly,intheemptinessofthelandscape,acryarosewhoseshrillnesspiercedthestillairlikeasharparrowflyingstraighttotheveryheartoftheland;and,asifbyenchantment,streamsofhumanbeings——ofnakedhumanbeings——withspearsintheirhands,withbows,withshields,withwildglancesandsavagemove-

  ments,werepouredintotheclearingbythedark-facedandpensiveforest。Thebushesshook,thegrassswayedforatime,andtheneverythingstoodstillinattentiveimmobility。

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