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  \"’Now,ifhedoesnotsaytherightthingtothemwearealldonefor,’saidtheRussianatmyelbow。Theknotofmenwiththestretcherhadstoppedtoo,half-waytothesteamer,asifpetrified。Isawthemanonthestretchersitup,lankandwithanupliftedarm,abovetheshouldersofthebearers。’Letushopethatthemanwhocantalksowellofloveingeneralwillfindsomeparticularreasontospareusthistime,’Isaid。I

  resentedbitterlytheabsurddangerofoursituation,asiftobeatthemercyofthatatrociousphantomhadbeenadishonoringnecessity。Icouldnothearasound,butthroughmyglassesIsawthethinarmextendedcommandingly,thelowerjawmoving,theeyesofthatapparitionshiningdarklyfarinitsbonyheadthatnoddedwithgrotesquejerks。Kurtz——Kurtz——thatmeansshortinGerman——don’tit?Well,thenamewasastrueaseverythingelseinhislife——anddeath。Helookedatleastsevenfeetlong。Hiscoveringhadfallenoff,andhisbodyemergedfromitpitifulandappallingasfromawinding-sheet。Icouldseethecageofhisribsallastir,thebonesofhisarmwaving。Itwasasthoughananimatedimageofdeathcarvedoutofoldivoryhadbeenshakingitshandwithmenacesatamotionlesscrowdofmenmadeofdarkandglitteringbronze。Isawhimopenhismouthwide——itgavehimaweirdlyvoraciousaspect,asthoughhehadwantedtoswallowalltheair,alltheearth,allthemenbeforehim。

  Adeepvoicereachedmefaintly。Hemusthavebeenshouting。Hefellbacksuddenly。Thestretchershookasthebearersstaggeredforwardagain,andalmostatthesametimeInoticedthatthecrowdofsavageswasvanishingwithoutanyperceptiblemovementofretreat,asiftheforestthathadejectedthesebeingssosuddenlyhaddrawntheminagainasthebreathisdrawninalongaspiration。

  \"Someofthepilgrimsbehindthestretchercarriedhisarms——twoshot-guns,aheavyrifle,andalightrevolver-

  carbine——thethunderboltsofthatpitifulJupiter。Themanagerbentoverhimmurmuringashewalkedbesidehishead。Theylaidhimdowninoneofthelittlecabins——justaroomforabed-placeandacamp-stoolortwo,youknow。Wehadbroughthisbelatedcorrespondence,andalotoftornenvelopesandopenletterslitteredhisbed。Hishandroamedfeeblyamongstthesepapers。I

  wasstruckbythefireofhiseyesandthecomposedlanguorofhisexpression。Itwasnotsomuchtheex-

  haustionofdisease。Hedidnotseeminpain。Thisshadowlookedsatiatedandcalm,asthoughforthemomentithadhaditsfillofalltheemotions。

  \"Herustledoneoftheletters,andlookingstraightinmyfacesaid,’Iamglad。’Somebodyhadbeenwrit-

  ingtohimaboutme。Thesespecialrecommendationswereturningupagain。Thevolumeoftoneheemittedwithouteffort,almostwithoutthetroubleofmovinghislips,amazedme。Avoice!avoice!Itwasgrave,pro-

  found,vibrating,whilethemandidnotseemcapableofawhisper。However,hehadenoughstrengthinhim——factitiousnodoubt——toverynearlymakeanendofus,asyoushallheardirectly。

  \"Themanagerappearedsilentlyinthedoorway;I

  steppedoutatonceandhedrewthecurtainafterme。

  TheRussian,eyedcuriouslybythepilgrims,wasstar-

  ingattheshore。Ifollowedthedirectionofhisglance。

  \"Darkhumanshapescouldbemadeoutinthedistance,flittingindistinctlyagainstthegloomyborderoftheforest,andneartherivertwobronzefigures,leaningontallspears,stoodinthesunlightunderfantastichead-

  dressesofspottedskins,warlikeandstillinstatuesquerepose。Andfromrighttoleftalongthelightedshoremovedawildandgorgeousapparitionofawoman。

  \"Shewalkedwithmeasuredsteps,drapedinstripedandfringedcloths,treadingtheearthproudly,withaslightjingleandflashofbarbarousornaments。Shecarriedherheadhigh;herhairwasdoneintheshapeofahelmet;shehadbrassleggingstotheknee,brasswiregauntletstotheelbow,acrimsonspotonhertawnycheek,innumerablenecklacesofglassbeadsonherneck;

  bizarrethings,charms,giftsofwitch-men,thathungabouther,glitteredandtrembledateverystep。Shemusthavehadthevalueofseveralelephanttusksuponher。Shewassavageandsuperb,wild-eyedandmagnifi-

  cent;therewassomethingominousandstatelyinherdeliberateprogress。Andinthehushthathadfallensuddenlyuponthewholesorrowfulland,theimmensewilderness,thecolossalbodyofthefecundandmys-

  teriouslifeseemedtolookather,pensive,asthoughithadbeenlookingattheimageofitsowntenebrousandpassionatesoul。

  \"Shecameabreastofthesteamer,stoodstill,andfacedus。Herlongshadowfelltothewater’sedge。Herfacehadatragicandfierceaspectofwildsorrowandofdumbpainmingledwiththefearofsomestruggling,half-shapedresolve。Shestoodlookingatuswithoutastirandlikethewildernessitself,withanairofbrood-

  ingoveraninscrutablepurpose。Awholeminutepassed,andthenshemadeastepforward。Therewasalowjingle,aglintofyellowmetal,aswayoffringeddraper-

  ies,andshestoppedasifherhearthadfailedher。Theyoungfellowbymysidegrowled。Thepilgrimsmur-

  muredatmyback。Shelookedatusallasifherlifehaddependedupontheunswervingsteadinessofherglance。Suddenlysheopenedherbaredarmsandthrewthemuprigidaboveherhead,asthoughinanuncon-

  trollabledesiretotouchthesky,andatthesametimetheswiftshadowsdartedoutontheearth,sweptaroundontheriver,gatheringthesteamerintoashadowyem-

  brace。Aformidablesilencehungoverthescene。

  \"Sheturnedawayslowly,walkedon,followingthebank,andpassedintothebushestotheleft。Onceonlyhereyesgleamedbackatusintheduskofthethicketsbeforeshedisappeared。

  \"’IfshehadofferedtocomeaboardIreallythinkI

  wouldhavetriedtoshoother,’saidthemanofpatches,nervously。’Ihadbeenriskingmylifeeverydayforthelastfortnighttokeepheroutofthehouse。Shegotinonedayandkickeduparowaboutthosemiser-

  ableragsIpickedupinthestoreroomtomendmyclotheswith。Iwasn’tdecent。Atleastitmusthavebeenthat,forshetalkedlikeafurytoKurtzforanhour,point-

  ingatmenowandthen。Idon’tunderstandthedia-

  lectofthistribe。Luckilyforme,IfancyKurtzfelttooillthatdaytocare,ortherewouldhavebeenmis-

  chief。Idon’tunderstand……No——it’stoomuchforme。Ah,well,it’sallovernow。’

  \"AtthismomentIheardKurtz’sdeepvoicebehindthecurtain,’Saveme!——savetheivory,youmean。Don’ttellme。SaveME!Why,I’vehadtosaveyou。Youareinterruptingmyplansnow。Sick!Sick!Notsosickasyouwouldliketobelieve。Nevermind。I’llcarrymyideasoutyet——Iwillreturn。I’llshowyouwhatcanbedone。Youwithyourlittlepeddlingno-

  tions——youareinterferingwithme。Iwillreturn。

  I……’

  \"Themanagercameout。Hedidmethehonortotakemeunderthearmandleadmeaside。’Heisverylow,verylow,’hesaid。Heconsidereditnecessarytosigh,butneglectedtobeconsistentlysorrowful。’Wehavedoneallwecouldforhim——haven’twe?Butthereisnodisguisingthefact,Mr。KurtzhasdonemoreharmthangoodtotheCompany。Hedidnotseethetimewasnotripeforvigorousaction。Cautiously,cau-

  tiously——that’smyprinciple。Wemustbecautiousyet。

  Thedistrictisclosedtousforatime。Deplorable!Uponthewhole,thetradewillsuffer。Idon’tdenythereisaremarkablequantityofivory——mostlyfossil。Wemustsaveit,atallevents——butlookhowprecarioustheposi-

  tionis——andwhy?Becausethemethodisunsound。’

  ’Doyou,’saidI,lookingattheshore,’callit\"unsoundmethod\"?’’Withoutdoubt,’heexclaimed,hotly。

  ’Don’tyou?’……’Nomethodatall,’Imurmuredafterawhile。’Exactly,’heexulted。’Ianticipatedthis。Showsacompletewantofjudgment。Itismydutytopointitoutintheproperquarter。’’Oh,’saidI,’thatfellow——what’shisname?——thebrickmaker,willmakeareadablereportforyou。’Heappearedcon-

  foundedforamoment。ItseemedtomeIhadneverbreathedanatmospheresovile,andIturnedmentallytoKurtzforrelief——positivelyforrelief。’Neverthe-

  lessIthinkMr。Kurtzisaremarkableman,’Isaidwithemphasis。Hestarted,droppedonmeacoldheavyglance,saidveryquietly,’HeWAS,’andturnedhisbackonme。Myhouroffavorwasover;IfoundmyselflumpedalongwithKurtzasapartisanofmethodsforwhichthetimewasnotripe:Iwasunsound!Ah!butitwassomethingtohaveatleastachoiceofnightmares。

  \"Ihadturnedtothewildernessreally,nottoMr。

  Kurtz,who,Iwasreadytoadmit,wasasgoodasburied。

  AndforamomentitseemedtomeasifIalsowereburiedinavastgravefullofunspeakablesecrets。I

  feltanintolerableweightoppressingmybreast,thesmellofthedampearth,theunseenpresenceofvictoriouscorruption,thedarknessofanimpenetrablenight……

  TheRussiantappedmeontheshoulder。Iheardhimmumblingandstammeringsomethingabout’brotherseaman——couldn’tconceal——knowledgeofmattersthatwouldaffectMr。Kurtz’sreputation。’Iwaited。ForhimevidentlyMr。Kurtzwasnotinhisgrave;IsuspectthatforhimMr。Kurtzwasoneoftheimmortals。

  ’Well!’saidIatlast,’speakout。Asithappens,IamMr。Kurtz’sfriend——inaway。’

  \"Hestatedwithagooddealofformalitythathadwenotbeen’ofthesameprofession,’hewouldhavekeptthemattertohimselfwithoutregardtoconse-

  quences。’Hesuspectedtherewasanactiveill-willto-

  wardshimonthepartofthesewhitementhat——’

  ’Youareright,’Isaid,rememberingacertainconversa-

  tionIhadoverheard。’Themanagerthinksyououghttobehanged。’Heshowedaconcernatthisintelligencewhichamusedmeatfirst。’Ihadbettergetoutofthewayquietly,’hesaid,earnestly。’IcandonomoreforKurtznow,andtheywouldsoonfindsomeexcuse。

  What’stostopthem?There’samilitarypostthreehun-

  dredmilesfromhere。’’Well,uponmyword,’saidI,’perhapsyouhadbettergoifyouhaveanyfriendsamongstthesavagesnearby。’’Plenty,’hesaid。’Theyaresimplepeople——andIwantnothing,youknow。’

  Hestoodbitinghislips,then:’Idon’twantanyharmtohappentothesewhiteshere,butofcourseIwasthink-

  ingofMr。Kurtz’sreputation——butyouareabrotherseamanand——’’Allright,’saidI,afteratime。

  ’Mr。Kurtz’sreputationissafewithme。’IdidnotknowhowtrulyIspoke。

  \"Heinformedme,loweringhisvoice,thatitwasKurtzwhohadorderedtheattacktobemadeonthesteamer。’Hehatedsometimestheideaofbeingtakenaway——andthenagain……ButIdon’tunderstandthesematters。Iamasimpleman。Hethoughtitwouldscareyouaway——thatyouwouldgiveitup,thinkinghimdead。Icouldnotstophim。Oh,Ihadanawfultimeofitthislastmonth。’’Verywell,’Isaid。’Heisallrightnow。’’Ye-e-es,’hemuttered,notverycon-

  vincedapparently。’Thanks,’saidI;’Ishallkeepmyeyesopen。’’Butquiet——eh?’heurged,anxiously。’Itwouldbeawfulforhisreputationifanybodyhere——’

  Ipromisedacompletediscretionwithgreatgravity。’I

  haveacanoeandthreeblackfellowswaitingnotveryfar。Iamoff。CouldyougivemeafewMartini-Henrycartridges?’Icould,anddid,withpropersecrecy。Hehelpedhimself,withawinkatme,toahandfulofmytobacco。’Betweensailors——youknow——goodEnglishtobacco。’Atthedoorofthepilot-househeturnedround——’Isay,haven’tyouapairofshoesyoucouldspare?’

  Heraisedoneleg。’Look。’Thesolesweretiedwithknottedstringssandal-wiseunderhisbarefeet。Irootedoutanoldpair,atwhichhelookedwithadmirationbe-

  foretuckingitunderhisleftarm。Oneofhispockets(brightred)wasbulgingwithcartridges,fromtheother(darkblue)peeped’Towson’sInquiry,’&c。,&c。

  Heseemedtothinkhimselfexcellentlywellequippedforarenewedencounterwiththewilderness。’Ah!I’llnever,nevermeetsuchamanagain。Yououghttohaveheardhimrecitepoetry——hisowntooitwas,hetoldme。Poetry!’Herolledhiseyesattherecollectionofthesedelights。’Oh,heenlargedmymind!’’Good-

  by,’saidI。Heshookhandsandvanishedinthenight。

  SometimesIaskmyselfwhetherIhadeverreallyseenhim——whetheritwaspossibletomeetsuchaphenome-

  non!……

  \"WhenIwokeupshortlyaftermidnighthiswarningcametomymindwithitshintofdangerthatseemed,inthestarreddarkness,realenoughtomakemegetupforthepurposeofhavingalookround。Onthehillabigfireburned,illuminatingfitfullyacrookedcornerofthestation-house。Oneoftheagentswithapicketofafewofourblacks,armedforthepurpose,waskeepingguardovertheivory;butdeepwithintheforest,redgleamsthatwavered,thatseemedtosinkandrisefromthegroundamongstconfusedcolumnarshapesofintenseblackness,showedtheexactpositionofthecampwhereMr。Kurtz’sadorerswerekeepingtheirun-

  easyvigil。Themonotonousbeatingofabigdrumfilledtheairwithmuffledshocksandalingeringvibration。A

  steadydroningsoundofmanymenchantingeachtohimselfsomeweirdincantationcameoutfromtheblack,flatwallofthewoodsasthehummingofbeescomesoutofahive,andhadastrangenarcoticeffectuponmyhalf-awakesenses。IbelieveIdozedoffleaningovertherail,tillanabruptburstofyells,anover-

  whelmingoutbreakofapent-upandmysteriousfrenzy,wokemeupinabewilderedwonder。Itwascutshortallatonce,andthelowdroningwentonwithaneffectofaudibleandsoothingsilence。Iglancedcasuallyintothelittlecabin。Alightwasburningwithin,butMr。

  Kurtzwasnotthere。

  \"IthinkIwouldhaveraisedanoutcryifIhadbe-

  lievedmyeyes。ButIdidn’tbelievethematfirst——thethingseemedsoimpossible。ThefactisIwascompletelyunnervedbyasheerblankfright,pureabstractterror,unconnectedwithanydistinctshapeofphysicaldanger。

  Whatmadethisemotionsooverpoweringwas——howshallIdefineit?——themoralshockIreceived,asifsomethingaltogethermonstrous,intolerabletothoughtandodioustothesoul,hadbeenthrustuponmeunexpectedly。Thislastedofcoursethemerestfractionofasecond,andthentheusualsenseofcommonplace,deadlydanger,thepossibilityofasuddenonslaughtandmassacre,orsome-

  thingofthekind,whichIsawimpending,waspositivelywelcomeandcomposing。Itpacifiedme,infact,somuch,thatIdidnotraiseanalarm。

  \"Therewasanagentbuttonedupinsideanulsterandsleepingonachairondeckwithinthreefeetofe。Theyellshadnotawakenedhim;hesnoredveryslightly;Ilefthimtohisslumbersandleapedashore。

  IdidnotbetrayMr。Kurtz——itwasorderedIshouldneverbetrayhim——itwaswrittenIshouldbeloyaltothenightmareofmychoice。Iwasanxioustodealwiththisshadowbymyselfalone,——andtothisdayI

  don’tknowwhyIwassojealousofsharingwithany-

  onethepeculiarblacknessofthatexperience。

  \"AssoonasIgotonthebankIsawatrail——abroadtrailthroughthegrass。IremembertheexultationwithwhichIsaidtomyself,’Hecan’twalk——heiscrawlingonall-fours——I’vegothim。’Thegrasswaswetwithdew。Istroderapidlywithclenchedfists。IfancyI

  hadsomevaguenotionoffallinguponhimandgivinghimadrubbing。Idon’tknow。Ihadsomeimbecilethoughts。Theknittingoldwomanwiththecatob-

  trudedherselfuponmymemoryasamostimproperpersontobesittingattheotherendofsuchanaffair。

  IsawarowofpilgrimssquirtingleadintheairoutofWinchestersheldtothehip。IthoughtIwouldnevergetbacktothesteamer,andimaginedmyselflivingaloneandunarmedinthewoodstoanadvancedage。Suchsillythings——youknow。AndIrememberIconfoundedthebeatofthedrumwiththebeatingofmyheart,andwaspleasedatitscalmregularity。

  \"Ikepttothetrackthough——thenstoppedtolisten。

  Thenightwasveryclear:adarkbluespace,sparklingwithdewandstarlight,inwhichblackthingsstoodverystill。IthoughtIcouldseeakindofmotionaheadofme。Iwasstrangelycocksureofeverythingthatnight。Iactuallyleftthetrackandraninawidesemi-

  circle(Iverilybelievechucklingtomyself)soastogetinfrontofthatstir,ofthatmotionIhadseen——

  ifindeedIhadseenanything。IwascircumventingKurtzasthoughithadbeenaboyishgame。

  \"Icameuponhim,and,ifhehadnotheardmecoming,Iwouldhavefallenoverhimtoo,buthegotupintime。Herose,unsteady,long,pale,indistinct,likeavaporexhaledbytheearth,andswayedslightly,mistyandsilentbeforeme;whileatmybackthefiresloomedbetweenthetrees,andthemurmurofmanyvoicesissuedfromtheforest。Ihadcuthimoffcleverly;butwhenactuallyconfrontinghimIseemedtocometomysenses,Isawthedangerinitsrightproportion。Itwasbynomeansoveryet。Supposehebegantoshout?Thoughhecouldhardlystand,therewasstillplentyofvigorinhisvoice。’Goaway——hideyourself,’hesaid,inthatprofoundtone。Itwasveryawful。Iglancedback。

  Wewerewithinthirtyyardsfromthenearestfire。A

  blackfigurestoodup,strodeonlongblacklegs,wavinglongblackarms,acrosstheglow。Ithadhorns——ante-

  lopehorns,Ithink——onitshead。Somesorcerer,somewitch-man,nodoubt:itlookedfiend-likeenough。’Doyouknowwhatyouaredoing?’Iwhispered。’Per-

  fectly,’heanswered,raisinghisvoiceforthatsingleword:itsoundedtomefaroffandyetloud,likeahailthroughaspeaking-trumpet。Ifhemakesarowwearelost,Ithoughttomyself。Thisclearlywasnotacaseforfisticuffs,evenapartfromtheverynaturalaversionIhadtobeatthatShadow——thiswanderingandtormentedthing。’Youwillbelost,’Isaid——’utterlylost。’Onegetssometimessuchaflashofinspiration,youknow。Ididsaytherightthing,thoughindeedhecouldnothavebeenmoreirretrievablylostthanhewasatthisverymoment,whenthefoundationsofourintimacywerebeinglaid——toendure——toendure——eventotheend——evenbeyond。

  \"’Ihadimmenseplans,’hemutteredirresolutely。

  ’Yes,’saidI;’butifyoutrytoshoutI’llsmashyourheadwith——’therewasnotastickorastonenear。’I

  willthrottleyouforgood,’Icorrectedmyself。’Iwasonthethresholdofgreatthings,’hepleaded,inavoiceoflonging,withawistfulnessoftonethatmademybloodruncold。’Andnowforthisstupidscoundrel——’

  ’YoursuccessinEuropeisassuredinanycase,’Iaf-

  firmed,steadily。Ididnotwanttohavethethrottlingofhim,youunderstand——andindeeditwouldhavebeenverylittleuseforanypracticalpurpose。Itriedtobreakthespell——theheavy,mutespellofthewilder-

  ness——thatseemedtodrawhimtoitspitilessbreastbytheawakeningofforgottenandbrutalinstincts,bythememoryofgratifiedandmonstrouspassions。Thisalone,Iwasconvinced,haddrivenhimouttotheedgeoftheforest,tothebush,towardsthegleamoffires,thethrobofdrums,thedroneofweirdincantations;thisalonehadbeguiledhisunlawfulsoulbeyondtheboundsofpermittedaspirations。And,don’tyousee,theterrorofthepositionwasnotinbeingknockedonthehead——thoughIhadaverylivelysenseofthatdangertoo——butinthis,thatIhadtodealwithabeingtowhomIcouldnotappealinthenameofanythinghighorlow。

  Ihad,evenliketheniggers,toinvokehim——himself——

  hisownexaltedandincredibledegradation。Therewasnothingeitheraboveorbelowhim,andIknewit。Hehadkickedhimselflooseoftheearth。Confoundtheman!hehadkickedtheveryearthtopieces。Hewasalone,andIbeforehimdidnotknowwhetherIstoodonthegroundorfloatedintheair。I’vebeentellingyouwhatwesaid——repeatingthephraseswepronounced,——butwhat’sthegood?Theywerecommoneverydaywords,——thefamiliar,vaguesoundsexchangedoneverywakingdayoflife。Butwhatofthat?Theyhadbe-

  hindthem,tomymind,theterrificsuggestivenessofwordsheardindreams,ofphrasesspokeninnight-

  mares。Soul!Ifanybodyhadeverstruggledwithasoul,Iamtheman。AndIwasn’targuingwithaluna-

  ticeither。Believemeornot,hisintelligencewasper-

  fectlyclear——concentrated,itistrue,uponhimselfwithhorribleintensity,yetclear;andthereinwasmyonlychance——barring,ofcourse,thekillinghimthereandthen,whichwasn’tsogood,onaccountofunavoidablenoise。Buthissoulwasmad。Beingaloneinthewilder-

  ness,ithadlookedwithinitself,and,byheavens!Itellyou,ithadgonemad。Ihad——formysins,Isuppose——

  togothroughtheordealoflookingintoitmyself。Noeloquencecouldhavebeensowitheringtoone’sbeliefinmankindashisfinalburstofsincerity。Hestruggledwithhimself,too。Isawit,——Iheardit。Isawthein-

  conceivablemysteryofasoulthatknewnorestraint,nofaith,andnofear,yetstrugglingblindlywithitself。I

  keptmyheadprettywell;butwhenIhadhimatlaststretchedonthecouch,Iwipedmyforehead,whilemylegsshookundermeasthoughIhadcarriedhalfatononmybackdownthathill。AndyetIhadonlysupportedhim,hisbonyarmclaspedroundmyneck——andhewasnotmuchheavierthanachild。

  \"Whennextdayweleftatnoon,thecrowd,ofwhosepresencebehindthecurtainoftreesIhadbeenacutelyconsciousallthetime,flowedoutofthewoodsagain,filledtheclearing,coveredtheslopewithamassofnaked,breathing,quivering,bronzebodies。Isteamedupabit,thenswungdown-stream,andtwothousandeyesfollowedtheevolutionsofthesplashing,thumping,fierceriver-demonbeatingthewaterwithitsterribletailandbreathingblacksmokeintotheair。Infrontofthefirstrank,alongtheriver,threemen,plasteredwithbrightredearthfromheadtofoot,struttedtoandfrorestlessly。Whenwecameabreastagain,theyfacedtheriver,stampedtheirfeet,noddedtheirhornedheads,swayedtheirscarletbodies;theyshooktowardsthefierceriver-demonabunchofblackfeathers,amangyskinwithapendenttail——somethingthatlookedlikeadriedgourd;theyshoutedperiodicallytogetherstringsofamazingwordsthatresemblednosoundsofhumanlan-

  guage;andthedeepmurmursofthecrowd,inter-

  ruptedsuddenly,wereliketheresponseofsomesataniclitany。

  \"WehadcarriedKurtzintothepilot-house:therewasmoreairthere。Lyingonthecouch,hestaredthroughtheopenshutter。Therewasaneddyinthemassofhumanbodies,andthewomanwithhelmetedheadandtawnycheeksrushedouttotheverybrinkofthestream。

  Sheputoutherhands,shoutedsomething,andallthatwildmobtookuptheshoutinaroaringchorusofarticulated,rapid,breathlessutterance。

  \"’Doyouunderstandthis?’Iasked。

  \"Hekeptonlookingoutpastmewithfiery,longingeyes,withamingledexpressionofwistfulnessandhate。

  Hemadenoanswer,butIsawasmile,asmileofinde-

  finablemeaning,appearonhiscolorlesslipsthatamo-

  mentaftertwitchedconvulsively。’DoInot?’hesaidslowly,gasping,asifthewordshadbeentornoutofhimbyasupernaturalpower。

  \"Ipulledthestringofthewhistle,andIdidthisbecauseIsawthepilgrimsondeckgettingouttheirrifleswithanairofanticipatingajollylark。Atthesuddenscreechtherewasamovementofabjectterrorthroughthatwedgedmassofbodies。’Don’t!don’t!

  youfrightenthemaway,’criedsomeoneondeckdis-

  consolately。Ipulledthestringtimeaftertime。Theybrokeandran,theyleaped,theycrouched,theyswerved,theydodgedtheflyingterrorofthesound。Thethreeredchapshadfallenflat,facedownontheshore,asthoughtheyhadbeenshotdead。Onlythebarbarousandsuperbwomandidnotsomuchasflinch,andstretchedtragicallyherbarearmsafterusoverthesomberandglitteringriver。

  \"Andthenthatimbecilecrowddownonthedeckstartedtheirlittlefun,andIcouldseenothingmoreforsmoke。

  \"Thebrowncurrentranswiftlyoutoftheheartofdarkness,bearingusdowntowardstheseawithtwicethespeedofourupwardprogress;andKurtz’slifewasrunningswiftlytoo,ebbing,ebbingoutofhisheartintotheseaofinexorabletime。Themanagerwasveryplacid,hehadnovitalanxietiesnow,hetookusbothinwithacomprehensiveandsatisfiedglance:the’affair’

  hadcomeoffaswellascouldbewished。IsawthetimeapproachingwhenIwouldbeleftaloneofthepartyof’unsoundmethod。’Thepilgrimslookeduponmewithdisfavor。Iwas,sotospeak,numberedwiththedead。

  ItisstrangehowIacceptedthisunforeseenpartner-

  ship,thischoiceofnightmaresforceduponmeinthetenebrouslandinvadedbythesemeanandgreedyphan-

  toms。

  \"Kurtzdiscoursed。Avoice!avoice!Itrangdeeptotheverylast。Itsurvivedhisstrengthtohideinthemagnificentfoldsofeloquencethebarrendarknessofhisheart。Oh,hestruggled!hestruggled!Thewastesofhiswearybrainwerehauntedbyshadowyimagesnow——imagesofwealthandfamerevolvingobsequiouslyroundhisunextinguishablegiftofnobleandloftyexpression。MyIntended,mystation,mycareer,myideas——thesewerethesubjectsfortheocca-

  sionalutterancesofelevatedsentiments。TheshadeoftheoriginalKurtzfrequentedthebedsideofthehollowsham,whosefateitwastobeburiedpresentlyinthemoldofprimevalearth。Butboththediabolicloveandtheunearthlyhateofthemysteriesithadpenetratedfoughtforthepossessionofthatsoulsatiatedwithprimitiveemotions,avidoflyingfame,ofshamdis-

  tinction,ofalltheappearancesofsuccessandpower。

  \"Sometimeshewascontemptiblychildish。Hedesiredtohavekingsmeethimatrailway-stationsonhisreturnfromsomeghastlyNowhere,whereheintendedtoac-

  complishgreatthings。’Youshowthemyouhaveinyousomethingthatisreallyprofitable,andthentherewillbenolimitstotherecognitionofyourability,’hewouldsay。’Ofcourseyoumusttakecareofthemo-

  tives——rightmotives——always。’Thelongreachesthatwerelikeoneandthesamereach,monotonousbendsthatwereexactlyalike,slippedpastthesteamerwiththeirmultitudeofseculartreeslookingpatientlyafterthisgrimyfragmentofanotherworld,theforerunnerofchange,ofconquest,oftrade,ofmassacres,ofblessings。

  Ilookedahead——piloting。’Closetheshutter,’saidKurtzsuddenlyoneday;’Ican’tbeartolookatthis。’

  Ididso。Therewasasilence。’Oh,butIwillwringyourheartyet!’hecriedattheinvisiblewilderness。

  \"Webrokedown——asIhadexpected——andhadtolieupforrepairsattheheadofanisland。ThisdelaywasthefirstthingthatshookKurtz’sconfidence。Onemorninghegavemeapacketofpapersandaphoto-

  graph,——thelottiedtogetherwithashoe-string。’Keepthisforme,’hesaid。’Thisnoxiousfool’(meaningthemanager)’iscapableofpryingintomyboxeswhenIamnotlooking。’IntheafternoonIsawhim。Hewaslyingonhisbackwithclosedeyes,andIwithdrewquietly,butIheardhimmutter,’Liverightly,die,die……’Ilistened。Therewasnothingmore。Washerehearsingsomespeechinhissleep,orwasitafrag-

  mentofaphrasefromsomenewspaperarticle?Hehadbeenwritingforthepapersandmeanttodosoagain,’forthefurtheringofmyideas。It’saduty。’

  \"Hiswasanimpenetrabledarkness。Ilookedathimasyoupeerdownatamanwhoislyingatthebottomofaprecipicewherethesunnevershines。ButIhadnotmuchtimetogivehim,becauseIwashelpingtheengine-drivertotaketopiecestheleakycylinders,tostraightenabentconnecting-rod,andinothersuchmatters。Ilivedinaninfernalmessofrust,filings,nuts,bolts,spanners,hammers,ratchet-drills——thingsI

  abominate,becauseIdon’tgetonwiththem。Itendedthelittleforgewefortunatelyhadaboard;Itoiledwearilyinawretchedscrap-heap——unlessIhadtheshakestoobadtostand。

  \"OneeveningcominginwithacandleIwasstartledtohearhimsayalittletremulously,’Iamlyinghereinthedarkwaitingfordeath。’Thelightwaswithinafootofhiseyes。Iforcedmyselftomurmur,’Oh,nonsense!’andstoodoverhimasiftransfixed。

  \"AnythingapproachingthechangethatcameoverhisfeaturesIhaveneverseenbefore,andhopenevertoseeagain。Oh,Iwasn’ttouched。Iwasfascinated。

  Itwasasthoughaveilhadbeenrent。Isawonthativoryfacetheexpressionofsomberpride,ofruthlesspower,ofcraventerror——ofanintenseandhopelessdespair。Didhelivehislifeagainineverydetailofdesire,temptation,andsurrenderduringthatsuprememomentofcompleteknowledge?Hecriedinawhisperatsomeimage,atsomevision,——hecriedouttwice,acrythatwasnomorethanabreath——

  \"’Thehorror!Thehorror!’

  \"Iblewthecandleoutandleftthecabin。Thepil-

  grimsweredininginthemess-room,andItookmyplaceoppositethemanager,wholiftedhiseyestogivemeaquestioningglance,whichIsuccessfullyignored。

  Heleanedback,serene,withthatpeculiarsmileofhissealingtheunexpresseddepthsofhismeanness。Acon-

  tinuousshowerofsmallfliesstreameduponthelamp,uponthecloth,uponourhandsandfaces。Suddenlythemanager’sboyputhisinsolentblackheadinthedoorway,andsaidinatoneofscathingcontempt——

  \"’MistahKurtz——hedead。’

  \"Allthepilgrimsrushedouttosee。Iremained,andwentonwithmydinner。IbelieveIwasconsideredbrutallycallous。However,Ididnoteatmuch。Therewasalampinthere——light,don’tyouknow——andoutsideitwassobeastly,beastlydark。Iwentnomoreneartheremarkablemanwhohadpronouncedajudgmentupontheadventuresofhissoulonthisearth。Thevoicewasgone。Whatelsehadbeenthere?ButIamofcourseawarethatnextdaythepilgrimsburiedsome-

  thinginamuddyhole。

  \"Andthentheyverynearlyburiedme。

  \"However,asyousee,IdidnotgotojoinKurtzthereandthen。Ididnot。Iremainedtodreamthenightmareouttotheend,andtoshowmyloyaltytoKurtzoncemore。Destiny。Mydestiny!Drollthinglifeis——thatmysteriousarrangementofmercilesslogicforafutilepurpose。Themostyoucanhopefromitissomeknowledgeofyourself——thatcomestoolate——acropofunextinguishableregrets。Ihavewrestledwithdeath。Itisthemostunexcitingcontestyoucanimagine。

  Ittakesplaceinanimpalpablegrayness,withnothingunderfoot,withnothingaround,withoutspectators,withoutclamor,withoutglory,withoutthegreatdesireofvictory,withoutthegreatfearofdefeat,inasicklyatmosphereoftepidskepticism,withoutmuchbeliefinyourownright,andstilllessinthatofyouradversary。

  Ifsuchistheformofultimatewisdom,thenlifeisagreaterriddlethansomeofusthinkittobe。Iwaswithinahair’s-breadthofthelastopportunityforpro-

  nouncement,andIfoundwithhumiliationthatprobablyIwouldhavenothingtosay。ThisisthereasonwhyI

  affirmthatKurtzwasaremarkableman。Hehadsome-

  thingtosay。Hesaidit。SinceIhadpeepedovertheedgemyself,Iunderstandbetterthemeaningofhisstare,thatcouldnotseetheflameofthecandle,butwaswideenoughtoembracethewholeuniverse,piercingenoughtopenetratealltheheartsthatbeatinthedark-

  ness。Hehadsummedup——hehadjudged。’Thehorror!’Hewasaremarkableman。Afterall,thiswastheexpressionofsomesortofbelief;ithadcandor,ithadconviction,ithadavibratingnoteofrevoltinitswhisper,ithadtheappallingfaceofaglimpsedtruth——thestrangecomminglingofdesireandhate。AnditisnotmyownextremityIrememberbest——avisionofgraynesswithoutformfilledwithphysicalpain,andacarelesscontemptfortheevanescenceofallthings——evenofthispainitself。No!ItishisextremitythatIseemtohavelivedthrough。True,hehadmadethatlaststride,hehadsteppedovertheedge,whileIhadbeenpermittedtodrawbackmyhesitatingfoot。Andper-

  hapsinthisisthewholedifference;perhapsallthewis-

  dom,andalltruth,andallsincerity,arejustcompressedintothatinappreciablemomentoftimeinwhichwestepoverthethresholdoftheinvisible。Perhaps!Iliketothinkmysumming-upwouldnothavebeenawordofcarelesscontempt。Betterhiscry——muchbetter。Itwasanaffirmation,amoralvictorypaidforbyinnumerabledefeats,byabominableterrors,byabominablesatisfac-

  tions。Butitwasavictory!ThatiswhyIhavere-

  mainedloyaltoKurtztothelast,andevenbeyond,whenalongtimeafterIheardoncemore,nothisownvoice,buttheechoofhismagnificenteloquencethrowntomefromasoulastranslucentlypureasacliffofcrystal。

  \"No,theydidnotburyme,thoughthereisaperiodoftimewhichIremembermistily,withashudderingwonder,likeapassagethroughsomeinconceivableworldthathadnohopeinitandnodesire。Ifoundmyselfbackinthesepulchralcityresentingthesightofpeoplehurryingthroughthestreetstofilchalittlemoneyfromeachother,todevourtheirinfamouscookery,togulptheirunwholesomebeer,todreamtheirinsignificantandsillydreams。Theytrespasseduponmythoughts。Theywereintruderswhoseknowledgeoflifewastomeanirritatingpretense,becauseIfeltsosuretheycouldnotpossiblyknowthethingsIknew。Theirbearing,whichwassimplythebearingofcommonplaceindividualsgoingabouttheirbusinessintheassuranceofperfectsafety,wasoffensivetomeliketheoutrageousflaunt-

  ingsoffollyinthefaceofadangeritisunabletocomprehend。Ihadnoparticulardesiretoenlightenthem,butIhadsomedifficultyinrestrainingmyselffromlaughingintheirfaces,sofullofstupidimpor-

  tance。IdaresayIwasnotverywellatthattime。I

  totteredaboutthestreets——therewerevariousaffairstosettle——grinningbitterlyatperfectlyrespectableper-

  sons。Iadmitmybehaviorwasinexcusable,butthenmytemperaturewasseldomnormalinthesedays。Mydearaunt’sendeavorsto’nurseupmystrength’seemedalto-

  getherbesidethemark。Itwasnotmystrengththatwantednursing,itwasmyimaginationthatwantedsoothing。IkeptthebundleofpapersgivenmebyKurtz,notknowingexactlywhattodowithit。Hismotherhaddiedlately,watchedover,asIwastold,byhisIntended。Aclean-shavedman,withanofficialmannerandwearinggold-rimmedspectacles,calledonmeonedayandmadeinquiries,atfirstcircuitous,after-

  wardssuavelypressing,aboutwhathewaspleasedtodenominatecertain’documents。’Iwasnotsurprised,becauseIhadhadtworowswiththemanageronthesubjectoutthere。Ihadrefusedtogiveupthesmallestscrapoutofthatpackage,andItookthesameattitudewiththespectacledman。Hebecamedarklymenacingatlast,andwithmuchheatarguedthattheCompanyhadtherighttoeverybitofinformationaboutits’ter-

  ritories。’And,saidhe,’Mr。Kurtz’sknowledgeofunexploredregionsmusthavebeennecessarilyextensiveandpeculiar——owingtohisgreatabilitiesandtothedeplorablecircumstancesinwhichhehadbeenplaced:

  therefore’——IassuredhimMr。Kurtz’sknowledge,howeverextensive,didnotbearupontheproblemsofcommerceoradministration。Heinvokedthenthenameofscience。’Itwouldbeanincalculablelossif,’&c。,&c。

  Iofferedhimthereportonthe’SuppressionofSavageCustoms,’withthepostscriptumtornoff。Hetookitupeagerly,butendedbysniffingatitwithanairofcontempt。’Thisisnotwhatwehadarighttoexpect,’

  heremarked。’Expectnothingelse,’Isaid。’Thereareonlyprivateletters。’Hewithdrewuponsomethreatoflegalproceedings,andIsawhimnomore;butan-

  otherfellow,callinghimselfKurtz’scousin,appearedtwodayslater,andwasanxioustohearallthedetailsabouthisdearrelative’slastmoments。IncidentallyhegavemetounderstandthatKurtzhadbeenessentiallyagreatmusician。’Therewasthemakingofanim-

  mensesuccess,’saidtheman,whowasanorganist,I

  believe,withlankgrayhairflowingoveragreasycoat-

  collar。Ihadnoreasontodoubthisstatement;andtothisdayIamunabletosaywhatwasKurtz’spro-

  fession,whetherheeverhadany——whichwasthegreatestofhistalents。Ihadtakenhimforapainterwhowroteforthepapers,orelseforajournalistwhocouldpaint——buteventhecousin(whotooksnuffduringtheinter-

  view)couldnottellmewhathehadbeen——exactly。Hewasauniversalgenius——onthatpointIagreedwiththeoldchap,whothereuponblewhisnosenoisilyintoalargecottonhandkerchiefandwithdrewinsenileagita-

  tion,bearingoffsomefamilylettersandmemorandawithoutimportance。Ultimatelyajournalistanxioustoknowsomethingofthefateofhis’dearcolleague’

  turnedup。ThisvisitorinformedmeKurtz’spropersphereoughttohavebeenpolitics’onthepopularside。’

  Hehadfurrystraighteyebrows,bristlyhaircroppedshort,aneye-glassonabroadribbon,and,becomingexpansive,confessedhisopinionthatKurtzreallycouldn’twriteabit——’butheavens!howthatmancouldtalk!Heelectrifiedlargemeetings。Hehadfaith——

  don’tyousee?——hehadthefaith。Hecouldgethimselftobelieveanything——anything。Hewouldhavebeenasplendidleaderofanextremeparty。’’Whatparty?’

  Iasked。’Anyparty,’answeredtheother。’Hewasan——an——extremist。’DidInotthinkso?Iassented。

  DidIknow,heasked,withasuddenflashofcuriosity,’whatitwasthathadinducedhimtogooutthere?’

  ’Yes,’saidI,andforthwithhandedhimthefamousReportforpublication,ifhethoughtfit。Heglancedthroughithurriedly,mumblingallthetime,judged’itwoulddo,’andtookhimselfoffwiththisplunder。

  \"ThusIwasleftatlastwithaslimpacketoflettersandthegirl’sportrait。Shestruckmeasbeautiful——

  Imeanshehadabeautifulexpression。Iknowthatthesunlightcanbemadetolietoo,yetonefeltthatnomanipulationoflightandposecouldhaveconveyedthedelicateshadeoftruthfulnessuponthosefeatures。Sheseemedreadytolistenwithoutmentalreservation,with-

  outsuspicion,withoutathoughtforherself。Icon-

  cludedIwouldgoandgiveherbackherportraitandthoselettersmyself。Curiosity?Yes;andalsosomeotherfeelingperhaps。AllthathadbeenKurtz’shadpassedoutofmyhands:hissoul,hisbody,hisstation,hisplans,hisivory,hiscareer。ThereremainedonlyhismemoryandhisIntended——andIwantedtogivethatuptootothepast,inaway,——tosurrenderpersonallyallthatremainedofhimwithmetothatoblivionwhichisthelastwordofourcommonfate。Idon’tdefendmyself。IhadnoclearperceptionofwhatitwasI

  reallywanted。Perhapsitwasanimpulseofuncon-

  sciousloyalty,orthefulfillmentofoneoftheseironicnecessitiesthatlurkinthefactsofhumanexistence。

  Idon’tknow。Ican’ttell。ButIwent。

  \"Ithoughthismemorywasliketheothermemoriesofthedeadthataccumulateineveryman’slife,——avagueimpressonthebrainofshadowsthathadfallenonitintheirswiftandfinalpassage;butbeforethehighandponderousdoor,betweenthetallhousesofastreetasstillanddecorousasawell-keptalleyinacemetery,I

  hadavisionofhimonthestretcher,openinghismouthvoraciously,asiftodevouralltheearthwithallitsmankind。Helivedthenbeforeme;helivedasmuchashehadeverlived——ashadowinsatiableofsplendidappearances,offrightfulrealities;ashadowdarkerthantheshadowofthenight,anddrapednoblyinthefoldsofagorgeouseloquence。Thevisionseemedtoenterthehousewithme——thestretcher,thephantom-bearers,thewildcrowdofobedientworshipers,thegloomoftheforests,theglitterofthereachbetweenthemurkybends,thebeatofthedrum,regularandmuffledlikethebeat-

  ingofaheart——theheartofaconqueringdarkness。Itwasamomentoftriumphforthewilderness,aninvad-

  ingandvengefulrushwhich,itseemedtome,Iwouldhavetokeepbackaloneforthesalvationofanothersoul。AndthememoryofwhatIhadheardhimsayafarthere,withthehornedshapesstirringatmyback,intheglowoffires,withinthepatientwoods,thosebrokenphrasescamebacktome,wereheardagainintheirominousandterrifyingsimplicity。Irememberedhisabjectpleading,hisabjectthreats,thecolossalscaleofhisviledesires,themeanness,thetorment,thetem-

  pestuousanguishofhissoul。AndlateronIseemedtoseehiscollectedlanguidmanner,whenhesaidoneday,’Thislotofivorynowisreallymine。TheCompanydidnotpayforit。Icollecteditmyselfataverygreatpersonalrisk。Iamafraidtheywilltrytoclaimitastheirsthough。H’m。Itisadifficultcase。WhatdoyouthinkIoughttodo——resist?Eh?Iwantnomorethanjustice。’……Hewantednomorethanjustice——

  nomorethanjustice。Irangthebellbeforeamahoganydooronthefirstfloor,andwhileIwaitedheseemedtostareatmeoutoftheglassypanel——starewiththatwideandimmensestareembracing,condemning,loathingalltheuniverse。Iseemedtohearthewhisperedcry,’Thehorror!Thehorror!’

  \"Theduskwasfalling。Ihadtowaitinaloftydraw-

  ing-roomwiththreelongwindowsfromfloortoceilingthatwerelikethreeluminousandbedrapedcolumns。

  Thebentgiltlegsandbacksofthefurnitureshoneinindistinctcurves。Thetallmarblefireplacehadacoldandmonumentalwhiteness。Agrandpianostoodmas-

  sivelyinacorner,withdarkgleamsontheflatsur-

  faceslikeasomberandpolishedsarcophagus。Ahighdooropened——closed。Irose。

  \"Shecameforward,allinblack,withapalehead,floatingtowardsmeinthedusk。Shewasinmourning。

  Itwasmorethanayearsincehisdeath,morethanayearsincethenewscame;sheseemedasthoughshewouldrememberandmournforever。Shetookbothmyhandsinhersandmurmured,’Ihadheardyouwerecoming。’Inoticedshewasnotveryyoung——I

  meannotgirlish。Shehadamaturecapacityforfidelity,forbelief,forsuffering。Theroomseemedtohavegrowndarker,asifallthesadlightofthecloudyeveninghadtakenrefugeonherforehead。Thisfairhair,thispalevisage,thispurebrow,seemedsurroundedbyanashyhalofromwhichthedarkeyeslookedoutatme。Theirglancewasguileless,profound,confident,andtrustful。Shecarriedhersorrowfulheadasthoughshewereproudofthatsorrow,asthoughshewouldsay,I

  ——Ialoneknowhowtomournforhimashedeserves。

  Butwhilewewerestillshakinghands,suchalookofawfuldesolationcameuponherfacethatIperceivedshewasoneofthosecreaturesthatarenottheplaythingsofTime。Forherhehaddiedonlyyesterday。And,byJove!theimpressionwassopowerfulthatformetooheseemedtohavediedonlyyesterday——nay,thisveryminute。Isawherandhiminthesameinstantoftime——hisdeathandhersorrow——Isawhersorrowintheverymomentofhisdeath。Doyouunderstand?Isawthemtogether——Iheardthemtogether。Shehadsaid,withadeepcatchofthebreath,’Ihavesurvived;’whilemystrainedearsseemedtoheardistinctly,mingledwithhertoneofdespairingregret,thesumming-upwhisperofhiseternalcondemnation。IaskedmyselfwhatI

  wasdoingthere,withasensationofpanicinmyheartasthoughIhadblunderedintoaplaceofcruelandabsurdmysteriesnotfitforahumanbeingtobehold。

  Shemotionedmetoachair。Wesatdown。Ilaidthepacketgentlyonthelittletable,andsheputherhandoverit……’Youknewhimwell,’shemurmured,afteramomentofmourningsilence。

  \"’Intimacygrowsquickoutthere,’Isaid。’Iknewhimaswellasitispossibleforonemantoknowanother。’

  \"’Andyouadmiredhim,’shesaid。’Itwasimpossibletoknowhimandnottoadmirehim。Wasit?’

  \"’Hewasaremarkableman,’Isaid,unsteadily。Thenbeforetheappealingfixityofhergaze,thatseemedtowatchformorewordsonmylips,Iwenton,’Itwasimpossiblenotto——’

  \"’Lovehim,’shefinishedeagerly,silencingmeintoanappalleddumbness。’Howtrue!howtrue!ButwhenyouthinkthatnooneknewhimsowellasI!I

  hadallhisnobleconfidence。Iknewhimbest。’

  \"’Youknewhimbest,’Irepeated。Andperhapsshedid。Butwitheverywordspokentheroomwasgrowingdarker,andonlyherforehead,smoothandwhite,re-

  mainedilluminedbytheunextinguishablelightofbeliefandlove。

  \"’Youwerehisfriend,’shewenton。’Hisfriend,’

  sherepeated,alittlelouder。’Youmusthavebeen,ifhehadgivenyouthis,andsentyoutome。IfeelI

  canspeaktoyou——andoh!Imustspeak。Iwantyou——youwhohaveheardhislastwords——toknowIhavebeenworthyofhim……Itisnotpride……Yes!

  IamproudtoknowIunderstoodhimbetterthanany-

  oneonearth——hetoldmesohimself。AndsincehismotherdiedIhavehadnoone——noone——to——to——’

  \"Ilistened。Thedarknessdeepened。Iwasnotevensurewhetherhehadgivenmetherightbundle。Irathersuspecthewantedmetotakecareofanotherbatchofhispaperswhich,afterhisdeath,Isawthemanagerexaminingunderthelamp。Andthegirltalked,easingherpaininthecertitudeofmysympathy;shetalkedasthirstymendrink。IhadheardthatherengagementwithKurtzhadbeendisapprovedbyherpeople。Hewasn’trichenoughorsomething。AndindeedIdon’tknowwhetherhehadnotbeenapauperallhislife。Hehadgivenmesomereasontoinferthatitwashisim-

  patienceofcomparativepovertythatdrovehimoutthere。

  \"’……Whowasnothisfriendwhohadheardhimspeakonce?’shewassaying。’Hedrewmentowardshimbywhatwasbestinthem。’Shelookedatmewithintensity。’Itisthegiftofthegreat,’shewenton,andthesoundofherlowvoiceseemedtohavetheac-

  companimentofalltheothersounds,fullofmystery,desolation,andsorrow,Ihadeverheard——therippleoftheriver,thesoughingofthetreesswayedbythewind,themurmursofwildcrowds,thefaintringofincom-

  prehensiblewordscriedfromafar,thewhisperofavoicespeakingfrombeyondthethresholdofaneternaldarkness。’Butyouhaveheardhim!Youknow!’shecried。

  \"’Yes,Iknow,’Isaidwithsomethinglikedespairinmyheart,butbowingmyheadbeforethefaiththatwasinher,beforethatgreatandsavingillusionthatshonewithanunearthlyglowinthedarkness,inthetriumphantdarknessfromwhichIcouldnothavede-

  fendedher——fromwhichIcouldnotevendefendmyself。

  \"’Whatalosstome——tous!’——shecorrectedherselfwithbeautifulgenerosity;thenaddedinamurmur,’Totheworld。’BythelastgleamsoftwilightIcouldseetheglitterofhereyes,fulloftears——oftearsthatwouldnotfall。

  \"’Ihavebeenveryhappy——veryfortunate——veryproud,’shewenton。’Toofortunate。Toohappyforalittlewhile。AndnowIamunhappyfor——forlife。’

  \"Shestoodup;herfairhairseemedtocatchalltheremaininglightinaglimmerofgold。Irosetoo。

  \"’Andofallthis,’shewenton,mournfully,’ofallhispromise,andofallhisgreatness,ofhisgenerousmind,ofhisnobleheart,nothingremains——nothingbutamemory。YouandI——’

  \"’Weshallalwaysrememberhim,’Isaid,hastily。

  \"’No!’shecried。’Itisimpossiblethatallthisshouldbelost——thatsuchalifeshouldbesacrificedtoleavenothing——butsorrow。Youknowwhatvastplanshehad。Iknewofthemtoo——Icouldnotperhapsunder-

  stand,——butothersknewofthem。Somethingmustre-

  main。Hiswords,atleast,havenotdied。’

  \"’Hiswordswillremain,’Isaid。

  \"’Andhisexample,’shewhisperedtoherself。’Menlookeduptohim,——hisgoodnessshoneineveryact。Hisexample——’

  \"’True,’Isaid;’hisexampletoo。Yes,hisexample。

  Iforgotthat。’

  \"’ButIdonot。Icannot——Icannotbelieve——notyet。

  IcannotbelievethatIshallneverseehimagain,thatnobodywillseehimagain,never,never,never。’

  \"Sheputoutherarmsasifafteraretreatingfigure,stretchingthemblackandwithclaspedpalehandsacrossthefadingandnarrowsheenofthewindow。Neverseehim!Isawhimclearlyenoughthen。IshallseethiseloquentphantomaslongasIlive,andIshallseehertoo,atragicandfamiliarShade,resemblinginthisges-

  tureanotherone,tragicalso,andbedeckedwithpower-

  lesscharms,stretchingbarebrownarmsovertheglitteroftheinfernalstream,thestreamofdarkness。Shesaidsuddenlyverylow,’Hediedashelived。’

  \"’Hisend,’saidI,withdullangerstirringinme,’wasineverywayworthyofhislife。’

  \"’AndIwasnotwithhim,’shemurmured。Myangersubsidedbeforeafeelingofinfinitepity。

  \"’Everythingthatcouldbedone——’Imumbled。

  \"’Ah,butIbelievedinhimmorethananyoneonearth——morethanhisownmother,morethan——himself。

  Heneededme!Me!Iwouldhavetreasuredeverysigh,everyword,everysign,everyglance。’

  \"Ifeltlikeachillgriponmychest。’Don’t,’Isaid,inamuffledvoice。

  \"’Forgiveme。I——I——havemournedsolonginsilence——insilence……Youwerewithhim——tothelast?

  Ithinkofhisloneliness。NobodyneartounderstandhimasIwouldhaveunderstood。Perhapsnoonetohear……’

  \"’Totheveryend,’Isaid,shakily。’Iheardhisverylastwords……’Istoppedinafright。

  \"’Repeatthem,’shesaidinaheart-brokentone。’I

  want——Iwant——something——something——to——tolivewith。’

  \"Iwasonthepointofcryingather,’Don’tyouhearthem?’Theduskwasrepeatingtheminapersistentwhisperallaroundus,inawhisperthatseemedtoswellmenacinglylikethefirstwhisperofarisingwind。’Thehorror!thehorror!’

  \"’Hislastword——tolivewith,’shemurmured。’Don’tyouunderstandIlovedhim——Ilovedhim——Ilovedhim!’

  \"Ipulledmyselftogetherandspokeslowly。

  \"’Thelastwordhepronouncedwas——yourname。’

  \"Iheardalightsigh,andthenmyheartstoodstill,stoppeddeadshortbyanexultingandterriblecry,bythecryofinconceivabletriumphandofunspeakablepain。’Iknewit——Iwassure!’……Sheknew。Shewassure。Iheardherweeping;shehadhiddenherfaceinherhands。ItseemedtomethatthehousewouldcollapsebeforeIcouldescape,thattheheavenswouldfalluponmyhead。Butnothinghappened。Theheavensdonotfallforsuchatrifle。Wouldtheyhavefallen,Iwonder,ifIhadrenderedKurtzthatjusticewhichwashisdue?Hadn’thesaidhewantedonlyjus-

  tice?ButIcouldn’t。Icouldnottellher。Itwouldhavebeentoodark——toodarkaltogether……\"

  Marlowceased,andsatapart,indistinctandsilent,intheposeofameditatingBuddha。Nobodymovedforatime。\"Wehavelostthefirstoftheebb,\"saidtheDi-

  rector,suddenly。Iraisedmyhead。Theoffingwasbarredbyablackbankofclouds,andthetranquilwater-

  wayleadingtotheuttermostendsoftheearthflowedsomberunderanovercastsky——seemedtoleadintotheheartofanimmensedarkness。

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