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  \"’MargaretAubyn’sLetters。’Twovolumes。Outto—day。Firsteditionoffivethousandsoldoutbeforeleavingthepress。

  Secondeditionreadynextweek。THEBOOKOFTHEYEAR……\"

  Helookedupstupidly。Hiswifestillsatwithherheadthrownback,herpureprofiledetachedagainstthecushions。Shewassmilingalittleovertheprospecthislastwordshadopened。

  Behindherheadshiversofsunandshaderanacrossthestripedawning。Arowofmaplesandaprivethedgehidtheirneighbor’sgables,givingthemundividedpossessionoftheirleafyhalf—acre;

  andlife,amomentbefore,hadbeenliketheirplotofground,shutoff,hedgedinfromimportunities,impenetrablyhisandhers。

  Nowitseemedtohimthateverymaple—leaf,everyprivet—bud,wasarelentlesshumangaze,pressingcloseupontheirprivacy。Itwasasthoughtheysatinabrightlylitroom,uncurtainedfromadarknessfullofhostilewatchers……Hiswifestillsmiled;

  andherunconsciousnessofdangerseemed,insomehorribleway,toputherbeyondthereachofrescue……

  Hehadnotknownthatitwouldbelikethis。Afterthefirstodiousweeks,spentinpreparingthelettersforpublication,insubmittingthemtoFlamel,andinnegotiatingwiththepublishers,thetransactionhaddroppedoutofhisconsciousnessintothatunvisitedlimbotowhichwerelegatethedeedswewouldrathernothavedonebuthavenonotionofundoing。FromthemomenthehadobtainedMissTrent’spromisenottosailwithheraunthehadtriedtoimaginehimselfirrevocablycommitted。Afterthat,heargued,hisfirstdutywastoher——shehadbecomehisconscience。

  ThesumobtainedfromthepublishersbyFlamel’sadroitmanipulationsandopportunelytransferredtoDinslow’ssuccessfulventure,alreadyyieldedareturnwhich,combinedwithGlennard’sprofessionalearnings,tooktheedgeofcompulsionfromtheirwayofliving,makingitappeartheexpressionofagracefulpreferenceforsimplicity。Itwasthemitigatedpovertywhichcansubscribetoareviewortwoandhaveafewflowersonthedinner—

  table。AndalreadyinasmallwayGlennardwasbeginningtofeelthemagneticqualityofprosperity。Clientswhohadpassedhisdoorinthehungrydayssoughtitoutnowthatitborethenameofasuccessfulman。Itwasunderstoodthatasmallinheritance,cleverlyinvested,wasthesourceofhisfortune;andtherewasafeelingthatamanwhocoulddosowellforhimselfwaslikelytoknowhowtoturnoverotherpeople’smoney。

  Butitwasinthemoreintimaterewardofhiswife’shappinessthatGlennardtastedthefullflavorofsuccess。Comingoutofconditionssonarrowthatthoseheofferedherseemedspacious,shefittedintohernewlifewithoutanyofthosemanifesteffortsatadjustmentthatareassoretoahusband’sprideasthecriticalrearrangementofthebridalfurniture。Shehadgivenhim,instead,thedelicatepleasureofwatchingherexpandlikeasea—creaturerestoredtoitselement,stretchingouttheatrophiedtentaclesofgirlishvanityandenjoymenttotherisingtideofopportunity。Andsomehow——inthewindowlessinnercellofhisconsciousnesswhereself—criticismcowered——Glennard’scourseseemedjustifiedbyitsmerelymaterialsuccess。Howcouldsuchacropofinnocentblessednesshavesprungfromtaintedsoil?

  Nowhehadtheinjuredsenseofamanentrappedintoadisadvantageousbargain。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis;

  andadullangergatheredathisheart。Angeragainstwhom?

  Againsthiswife,fornotknowingwhathesuffered?AgainstFlamel,forbeingtheunconsciousinstrumentofhiswrong—doing?

  Oragainstthatmutememorytowhichhisownacthadsuddenlygivenavoiceofaccusation?Yes,thatwasit;andhispunishmenthenceforthwouldbethepresence,theunescapablepresence,ofthewomanhehadsopersistentlyevaded。Shewouldalwaysbetherenow。Itwasasthoughhehadmarriedherinsteadoftheother。

  Itwaswhatshehadalwayswanted——tobewithhim——andshehadgainedherpointatlast……

  Hesprangup,asthoughinanimpulseofflight……Thesuddenmovementliftedhiswife’slids,andsheasked,intheincuriousvoiceofthewomanwhoselifeisenclosedinamagiccircleofprosperity——\"Anynews?\"

  \"No——none——\"hesaid,rousedtoasenseofimmediateperil。Thepaperslayscatteredathisfeet——whatifsheweretoseethem?

  Hestretchedhisarmtogatherthemup,buthisnextthoughtshowedhimthefutilityofsuchconcealment。Thesameadvertisementwouldappeareveryday,forweekstocome,ineverynewspaper;howcouldhepreventherseeingit?Hecouldnotalwaysbehidingthepapersfromher……Well,andwhatifshedidseeit?Itwouldsignifynothingtoher,thechanceswerethatshewouldneverevenreadthebook……Assheceasedtobeanelementoffearinhiscalculationsthedistancebetweenthemseemedtolessenandhetookheragain,asitwere,intothecircleofhisconjugalprotection……Yetamomentbeforehehadalmosthatedher!……Helaughedaloudathissenselessterrors……Hewasoffhisbalance,decidedly。

  \"Whatareyoulaughingat?\"sheasked。

  Heexplained,elaborately,thathewaslaughingattherecollectionofanoldwomaninthetrain,anoldwomanwithalotofbundles,whocouldn’tfindherticket……Butsomehow,inthetelling,thehumorofthestoryseemedtoevaporate,andhefelttheconventionalityofhersmile。Heglancedathiswatch,\"Isn’tittimetodress?\"

  Sherosewithserenereluctance。\"It’sapitytogoin。Thegardenlookssolovely。\"

  Theylingeredsidebyside,surveyingtheirdomain。Therewasnotspaceinit,atthishour,fortheshadowoftheelm—treeintheangleofthehedge;itcrossedthelawn,cuttheflower—borderintwo,andranupthesideofthehousetothenurserywindow。Shebenttoflickacaterpillarfromthehoney—suckle;then,astheyturnedindoors,\"IfwemeantogoontheyachtnextSunday,\"shesuggested,\"oughtn’tyoutoletMr。Flamelknow?\"

  Glennard’sexasperationdeflectedsuddenly。\"OfcourseIshalllethimknow。YoualwaysseemtoimplythatI’mgoingtodosomethingrudetoFlamel。\"

  Thewordsreverberatedthroughhersilence;shehadawayofthusleavingonespaceinwhichtocontemplateone’sfollyatarm’slength。Glennardturnedonhisheelandwentupstairs。Ashedroppedintoachairbeforehisdressing—tablehesaidtohimselfthatinthelasthourhehadsoundedthedepthsofhishumiliationandthatthelowestdregsofit,theverybottom—slime,wasthehatefulnecessityofhavingalways,aslongasthetwomenlived,tobeciviltoBartonFlamel。

  VI

  THEweekintownhadbeensultry,andthemen,intheSundayemancipationofwhiteflannelandduck,filledthedeck—chairsoftheyachtwiththeiroutstretchedapathy,following,throughamistofcigarette—smoke,theflittinginconsequencesofthewomen。

  Thepartwasasmallone——Flamelhadfewintimatefriends——butcomposedofmoreheterogeneousatomsthanthelittlepoolsintowhichsocietyusuallyruns。ThereactionfromthechiefepisodeofhisearlierlifehadbredinGlennardanuneasydistasteforanykindofpersonalsaliency。Clevernesswasusefulinbusiness;

  butinsocietyitseemedtohimasfutileastheshamcascadesformedbyastreamthatmighthavebeenusedtodriveamill。Helikedthecollectivepointofviewthatgoeswiththecivilizeduniformityofdress—clothes,andhiswife’sattitudeimpliedthesamepreference;yettheyfoundthemselvesslippingmoreandmoreintoFlamel’sintimacy。Alexahadonceortwicesaidthatsheenjoyedmeetingcleverpeople;butherenjoymenttookthenegativeformofasmilingreceptivity;andGlennardfeltagrowingpreferenceforthekindofpeoplewhohavetheirthinkingdoneforthembythecommunity。

  Still,thedeckoftheyachtwasapleasantrefugefromtheheatonshore,andhiswife’sprofile,serenelyprojectedagainstthechangingblue,layonhisretinalikeacoolhandonthenerves。

  Hehadneverbeenmoreimpressedbythekindofabsolutenessthatliftedherbeautyabovethetransienteffectsofotherwomen,makingthemostharmoniousfaceseemanaccidentalcollocationoffeatures。

  Theladieswhodirectlysuggestedthiscomparisonwereofakindaccustomedtotakesimilarriskswithmoregratifyingresults。

  Mrs。Armigerhadinfactlongbeenthetriumphantalternativeofthosewhocouldn’t\"see\"AlexaGlennard’slooks;andMrs。

  Touchett’sclaimstoconsiderationwerefoundedonthatdistributionofeffectswhichisthewonderofthosewhoadmireahighlycultivatedcountry。ThethirdladyofthetriowhichGlennard’sfancyhadputtosuchunflatteringuses,wasboundbycircumstancestosupporttheclaimsoftheothertwo。ThiswasMrs。Dresham,thewifeoftheeditoroftheRadiator。Mrs。

  Dreshamwasaladywhohadrescuedherselffromsocialobscuritybyassumingtheroleofherhusband’sexponentandinterpreter;

  andDresham’sleisurebeingdevotedtothecultivationofremarkablewomen,hiswife’sattitudecommittedhertothepubliccelebrationoftheirremarkableness。Fortheconceivabletediumofthisduty,Mrs。DreshamwasrepaidbythefactthattherewerepeoplewhotookHERforaremarkablewoman;andwhointurnprobablypurchasedsimilardistinctionwiththesmallchangeofherreflectedimportance。Astotheotherladiesoftheparty,theyweresimplythewivesofsomeofthemen——thekindofwomenwhoexpecttobetalkedtocollectivelyandtohavetheirquestionsleftunanswered。

  Mrs。Armiger,thelatestembodimentofDresham’sinstinctfortheremarkable,wasaninnocentbeautywhoforyearshaddistilleddulnessamongasetofpeoplenowself—condemnedbytheirinabilitytoappreciateher。UnderDresham’stutelageshehaddevelopedintoa\"thoughtfulwoman,\"whoreadhisleadersintheRadiatorandboughtthebooksherecommended。Whenanewnovelappeared,peoplewantedtoknowwhatMrs。Armigerthoughtofit;

  andayounggentlemanwhohadmadeatripinTourainehadrecentlyinscribedtoherthewide—marginedresultofhisexplorations。

  Glennard,leaningbackwithhisheadagainsttherailandaslitoffugitivebluebetweenhishalf—closedlids,vaguelywishedshewouldn’tspoiltheafternoonbymakingpeopletalk;thoughhereducedhisannoyancetotheminimumbynotlisteningtowhatwassaid,thereremainedalatentirritationagainstthegeneralfutilityofwords。

  Hiswife’sgiftofsilenceseemedtohimthemostvividcommentaryontheclumsinessofspeechasameansofintercourse,andhiseyeshadturnedtoherinrenewedappreciationofthisfinerfacultywhenMrs。Armiger’svoiceabruptlybroughthometohimtheunderratedpotentialitiesoflanguage。

  \"You’vereadthem,ofcourse,Mrs。Glennard?\"heheardherask;

  and,inreplytoAlexa’svagueinterrogation——\"Why,the’AubynLetters’——it’stheonlybookpeoplearetalkingofthisweek。\"

  Mrs。Dreshamimmediatelysawheradvantage。\"YouHAVEN’Treadthem?Howveryextraordinary!AsMrs。Armigersays,thebook’sintheair;onebreathesitinliketheinfluenza。\"

  Glennardsatmotionless,watchinghiswife。

  \"Perhapsithasn’treachedthesuburbsyet,\"shesaid,withherunruffledsmile。

  \"Oh,DOletmecometoyou,then!\"Mrs。Touchettcried;\"anythingforachangeofair!I’mpositivelysickofthebookandIcan’tputitdown。Can’tyousailusbeyonditsreach,Mr。Flamel?\"

  Flamelshookhishead。\"Notevenwiththisbreeze。Literaturetravelsfasterthansteamnowadays。Andtheworstofitisthatwecan’tanyofusgiveupreading;it’sasinsidiousasaviceandastiresomeasavirtue。\"

  \"IbelieveitISavice,almost,toreadsuchabookasthe’Letters,’\"saidMrs。Touchett。\"It’sthewoman’ssoul,absolutelytornupbytheroots——herwholeselflaidbare;andtoamanwhoevidentlydidn’tcare;whocouldn’thavecared。Idon’tmeantoreadanotherline;it’stoomuchlikelisteningatakeyhole。\"

  \"Butifshewanteditpublished?\"

  \"Wantedit?Howdoweknowshedid?\"

  \"Why,Iheardshe’dlefttheletterstotheman——whoeverheis——

  withdirectionsthattheyshouldbepublishedafterhisdeath——\"

  \"Idon’tbelieveit,\"Mrs。Touchettdeclared。

  \"He’sdeadthen,ishe?\"oneofthemenasked。

  \"Why,youdon’tsupposeifhewerealivehecouldeverholduphisheadagain,withtheselettersbeingreadbyeverybody?\"Mrs。

  Touchettprotested。\"Itmusthavebeenhorribleenoughtoknowthey’dbeenwrittentohim;buttopublishthem!Nomancouldhavedoneitandnowomancouldhavetoldhimto——\"

  \"Oh,come,come,\"Dreshamjudiciallyinterposed;\"afterall,they’renotlove—letters。\"

  \"No——that’stheworstofit;they’reunlovedletters,\"Mrs。

  Touchettretorted。

  \"Then,obviously,sheneedn’thavewrittenthem;whereastheman,poordevil,couldhardlyhelpreceivingthem。\"

  \"Perhapshecountedonthepublictosavehimthetroubleofreadingthem,\"saidyoungHartly,whowasinthecynicalstage。

  Mrs。ArmigerturnedherreproachfullovelinesstoDresham。\"Fromthewayyoudefendhim,Ibelieveyouknowwhoheis。\"

  EveryonelookedatDresham,andhiswifesmiledwiththesuperiorairofthewomanwhoisinherhusband’sprofessionalsecrets。

  Dreshamshruggedhisshoulders。

  \"WhathaveIsaidtodefendhim?\"

  \"Youcalledhimapoordevil——youpitiedhim。\"

  \"AmanwhocouldletMargaretAubynwritetohiminthatway?OfcourseIpityhim。\"

  \"ThenyouMUSTknowwhoheis,\"criedMrs。Armiger,withatriumphantairofpenetration。

  HartlyandFlamellaughedandDreshamshookhishead。\"Nooneknows;noteventhepublishers;sotheytellmeatleast。\"

  \"Sotheytellyoutotellus,\"Hartlyastutelyamended;andMrs。

  Armigeradded,withtheappearanceofcarryingtheargumentapointfarther,\"ButevenifHE’SdeadandSHE’Sdead,somebodymusthavegiventheletterstothepublishers。\"

  \"Alittlebird,probably,\"saidDresham,smilingindulgentlyonherdeduction。

  \"Alittlebirdofpreythen——avulture,Ishouldsay——\"anothermaninterpolated。

  \"Oh,I’mnotwithyouthere,\"saidDresham,easily。\"Thoselettersbelongedtothepublic。\"

  \"Howcananylettersbelongtothepublicthatweren’twrittentothepublic?\"Mrs。Touchettinterposed。

  \"Well,thesewere,inasense。ApersonalityasbigasMargaretAubyn’sbelongstotheworld。Suchamindispartofthegeneralfundofthought。It’sthepenaltyofgreatness——onebecomesamonumenthistorique。Posteritypaysthecostofkeepingoneup,butonconditionthatoneisalwaysopentothepublic。\"

  \"Idon’tseethatthatexoneratesthemanwhogivesupthekeysofthesanctuary,asitwere。\"

  \"WhoWAShe?\"anothervoiceinquired。

  \"Whowashe?Oh,nobody,Ifancy——theletter—box,theslitinthewallthroughwhichtheletterspassedtoposterity……\"

  \"Butshenevermeantthemforposterity!\"

  \"Awomanshouldn’twritesuchlettersifshedoesn’tmeanthemtobepublished……\"

  \"Sheshouldn’twritethemtosuchaman!\"Mrs。Touchettscornfullycorrected。

  \"Ineverkeepletters,\"saidMrs。Armiger,undertheobviousimpressionthatshewascontributingavaluablepointtothediscussion。

  Therewasagenerallaugh,andFlamel,whohadnotspoken,said,lazily,\"Youwomenaretooincurablysubjective。Iventuretosaythatmostmenwouldseeinthoselettersmerelytheirimmenseliteraryvalue,theirsignificanceasdocuments。Thepersonalsidedoesn’tcountwherethere’ssomuchelse。\"

  \"Oh,weallknowyouhaven’tanyprinciples,\"Mrs。Armigerdeclared;andAlexaGlennard,liftinganindolentsmile,said:\"I

  shallneverwriteyoualove—letter,Mr。Flamel。\"

  Glennardmovedawayimpatiently。Suchtalkwasastediousasthebuzzingofgnats。Hewonderedwhyhiswifehadwantedtodraghimonsuchasenselessexpedition……HehatedFlamel’scrowd——

  andwhatbusinesshadFlamelhimselftointerfereinthatway,standingupforthepublicationofthelettersasthoughGlennardneededhisdefence?……

  GlennardturnedhisheadandsawthatFlamelhaddrawnaseattoAlexa’selbowandwasspeakingtoherinalowtone。Theothergroupshadscattered,strayingintwosalongthedeck。ItcameoverGlennardthatheshouldneveragainbeabletoseeFlamelspeakingtohiswifewithoutthesenseofsickmistrustthatnowloosenedhisjoints……

  Alexa,thenextmorning,overtheirearlybreakfast,surprisedherhusbandbyanunexpectedrequest。

  \"Willyoubringmethoselettersfromtown?\"sheasked。

  \"Whatletters?\"hesaid,puttingdownhiscup。Hefelthimselfashelplesslyvulnerableasamanwhoislungedatinthedark。

  \"Mrs。Aubyn’s。Thebooktheywerealltalkingaboutyesterday。\"

  Glennard,carefullymeasuringhissecondcupoftea,said,withdeliberation,\"Ididn’tknowyoucaredaboutthatsortofthing。\"

  Shewas,infact,notagreatreader,andanewbookseldomreachedhertillitwas,sotospeak,onthehomestretch;butshereplied,withagentletenacity,\"IthinkitwouldinterestmebecauseIreadherlifelastyear。\"

  \"Herlife?Wheredidyougetthat?\"

  \"Someonelentittomewhenitcameout——Mr。Flamel,Ithink。\"

  Hisfirstimpulsewastoexclaim,\"WhythedevildoyouborrowbooksofFlamel?Icanbuyyouallyouwant——\"buthefelthimselfirresistiblyforcedintoanattitudeofsmilingcompliance。\"Flamelalwayshasthenewestbooksgoing,hasn’the?

  Youmustbecareful,bytheway,aboutreturningwhathelendsyou。He’srathercrotchetyabouthislibrary。\"

  \"Oh,I’malwaysverycareful,\"shesaid,withatouchofcompetencethatstruckhim;andsheadded,ashecaughtuphishat:\"Don’tforgettheletters。\"

  Whyhadsheaskedforthebook?WashersuddenwishtoseeittheresultofsomehintofFlamel’s?ThethoughtturnedGlennardsick,buthepreservedsufficientluciditytotellhimself,amomentlater,thathislasthopeofself—controlwouldbelostifheyieldedtothetemptationofseeingahiddenpurposeineverythingshesaidanddid。HowmuchFlamelguessed,hehadnomeansofdivining;norcouldhepredicate,fromwhatheknewoftheman,towhatusehisinferencesmightbeput。TheveryqualitiesthathadmadeFlamelausefuladvisermadehimthemostdangerousofaccomplices。Glennardfelthimselfagropeamongalienforcesthathisownacthadsetinmotion……

  Alexawasawomanoffewrequirements;butherwishes,evenintrifles,hadadefinitenessthatdistinguishedthemfromthefluidimpulsesofherkind。Heknewthat,havingonceaskedforthebook,shewouldnotforgetit;andheputaside,asanineffectualexpedient,hismomentaryideaofapplyingforitatthecirculatinglibraryandtellingherthatallthecopieswereout。

  Ifthebookwastobeboughtithadbetterbeboughtatonce。Helefthisofficeearlierthanusualandturnedinatthefirstbook—shoponhiswaytothetrain。Theshow—windowwasstackedwithconspicuouslyletteredvolumes。\"MargaretAubyn\"flashedbackathiminendlessrepetition。Heplungedintotheshopandcameonacounterwherethenamereiterateditselfonrowafterrowofbindings。Itseemedtohavedriventherestofliteraturetothebackshelves。Hecaughtupacopy,tossingthemoneytoanastonishedclerkwhopursuedhimtothedoorwiththeunheededoffertowrapupthevolumes。

  Inthestreethewasseizedwithasuddenapprehension。WhatifheweretomeetFlamel?Thethoughtwasintolerable。Hecalledacabanddrovestraighttothestationwhere,amidthepalm—leaffansofaperspiringcrowd,hewaitedalonghalf—hourforhistraintostart。

  Hehadthrustavolumeineitherpocketandinthetrainhedarednotdrawthemout;butthedetestedwordsleapedathimfromthefoldsoftheeveningpaper。TheairseemedfullofMargaretAubyn’sname。Themotionofthetrainsetitdancingupanddownonthepageofamagazinethatamaninfrontofhimwasreading……

  AtthedoorhewastoldthatMrs。Glennardwasstillout,andhewentupstairstohisroomanddraggedthebooksfromhispocket。

  Theylayonthetablebeforehimlikelivethingsthathefearedtotouch……Atlengthheopenedthefirstvolume。Afamiliarlettersprangoutathim,eachwordquickenedbyitsglaringgarboftype。Thelittlebrokenphrasesfledacrossthepagelikewoundedanimalsintheopen……Itwasahorriblesight……

  Abattueofhelplessthingsdrivensavagelyoutofshelter。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis……

  Heunderstoodnowthat,atthemomentofsellingtheletters,hehadviewedthetransactionsolelyasitaffectedhimself:asanunfortunateblemishonanotherwisepresentablerecord。HehadscarcelyconsideredtheactinrelationtoMargaretAubyn;fordeath,ifithallows,alsomakesinnocuous。Glennard’sGodwasagodoftheliving,oftheimmediate,theactual,thetangible;allhisdayshehadlivedinthepresenceofthatgod,heedlessofthedivinitieswho,belowthesurfaceofourdeedsandpassions,silentlyforgethefatalweaponsofthedead。

  VII

  Aknockrousedhimandlookinguphesawhiswife。Hemetherglanceinsilence,andshefalteredout,\"Areyouill?\"

  Thewordsrestoredhisself—possession。\"Ill?Ofcoursenot。

  TheytoldmeyouwereoutandIcameupstairs。\"

  Thebookslaybetweenthemonthetable;hewonderedwhenshewouldseethem。Shelingeredtentativelyonthethreshold,withtheairofleavinghisexplanationonhishands。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhocouldbecountedontofortifyanexcusebyappearingtodisputeit。

  \"Wherehaveyoubeen?\"Glennardasked,movingforwardsothatheobstructedhervisionofthebooks。

  \"IwalkedovertotheDreshamsfortea。\"

  \"Ican’tthinkwhatyouseeinthosepeople,\"hesaidwithashrug;adding,uncontrollably——\"IsupposeFlamelwasthere?\"

  \"No;heleftontheyachtthismorning。\"

  AnanswersoobstructingtothenaturalescapeofhisirritationleftGlennardwithnomomentaryresourcebutthatofstrollingimpatientlytothewindow。Ashereyesfollowedhimtheylitonthebooks。

  \"Ah,you’vebroughtthem!I’msoglad,\"sheexclaimed。

  Heansweredoverhisshoulder,\"Forawomanwhoneverreadsyoumakethemostastoundingexceptions!\"

  Hersmilewasanexasperatingconcessiontotheprobabilitythatithadbeenhotintownorthatsomethinghadbotheredhim。

  \"Doyoumeanit’snotnicetowanttoreadthebook?\"sheasked。

  \"Itwasnotnicetopublishit,certainly;butafterall,I’mnotresponsibleforthat,amI?\"Shepaused,and,ashemadenoanswer,wenton,stillsmiling,\"Idoreadsometimes,youknow;

  andI’mveryfondofMargaretAubyn’sbooks。Iwasreading’PomegranateSeed’whenwefirstmet。Don’tyouremember?Itwasthenyoutoldmeallabouther。\"

  Glennardhadturnedbackintotheroomandstoodstaringathiswife。\"Allabouther?\"herepeated,andwiththewordsremembrancecametohim。HehadfoundMissTrentoneafternoonwiththenovelinherhand,andmovedbythelover’sfatuousimpulsetoassociatehimselfinsomewaywithwhateverfillsthemindofthebeloved,hadbrokenthroughhishabitualsilenceaboutthepast。RewardedbytheconsciousnessoffiguringimpressivelyinMissTrent’simaginationhehadgoneonfromoneanecdotetoanother,revivingdormantdetailsofhisoldHillbridgelife,andpasturinghisvanityontheeagernesswithwhichshereceivedhisreminiscencesofabeingalreadyclothedintheimpersonalityofgreatness。

  Theincidenthadleftnotraceinhismind;butitsprangupnowlikeanoldenemy,themoredangerousforhavingbeenforgotten。

  Theinstinctofself—preservation——sometimesthemostperilousthatmancanexercise——madehimawkwardlydeclare——\"Oh,Iusedtoseeheratpeople’shouses,thatwasall;\"andhersilenceasusualleavingroomforamultiplicationofblunders,headded,withincreasedindifference,\"Isimplycan’tseewhatyoucanfindtointerestyouinsuchabook。\"

  Sheseemedtoconsiderthisintently。\"You’vereadit,then?\"

  \"Iglancedatit——Ineverreadsuchthings。\"

  \"Isittruethatshedidn’twishtheletterstobepublished?\"

  Glennardfeltthesuddendizzinessofthemountaineeronanarrowledge,andwithitthesensethathewaslostifhelookedmorethanastepahead。

  \"I’msureIdon’tknow,\"hesaid;then,summoningasmile,hepassedhishandthroughherarm。\"Ididn’thaveteaattheDreshams,youknow;won’tyougivemesomenow?\"hesuggested。

  ThateveningGlennard,underpretextofworktobedone,shuthimselfintothesmallstudyopeningoffthedrawing—room。Ashegathereduphispapershesaidtohiswife:\"You’renotgoingtositindoorsonsuchanightasthis?I’lljoinyoupresentlyoutside。\"

  Butshehaddrawnherarmchairtothelamp。\"Iwanttolookatmybook,\"shesaid,takingupthefirstvolumeofthe\"Letters。\"

  Glennard,withashrug,withdrewintothestudy。\"I’mgoingtoshutthedoor;Iwanttobequiet,\"heexplainedfromthethreshold;andshenoddedwithoutliftinghereyesfromthebook。

  Hesankintoachair,staringaimlesslyattheoutspreadpapers。

  Howwashetowork,whileontheothersideofthedoorshesatwiththatvolumeinherhand?Thedoordidnotshutherout——hesawherdistinctly,feltherclosetohiminacontactaspainfulasthepressureonabruise。

  Thesensationwaspartofthegeneralstrangenessthatmadehimfeellikeamanwakingfromalongsleeptofindhimselfinanunknowncountryamongpeopleofalientongue。Weliveinourownsoulsasinanunmappedregion,afewacresofwhichwehaveclearedforourhabitation;whileofthenatureofthosenearestusweknowbuttheboundariesthatmarchwithours。Ofthepointsinhiswife’scharacternotindirectcontactwithhisown,Glennardnowdiscernedhisignorance;andthebafflingsenseofherremotenesswasintensifiedbythediscoverythat,inoneway,shewasclosertohimthaneverbefore。Asonemayliveforyearsinhappyunconsciousnessofthepossessionofasensitivenerve,hehadlivedbesidehiswifeunawarethatherindividualityhadbecomeapartofthetextureofhislife,ineradicableassomegrowthonavitalorgan;andhenowfelthimselfatonceincapableofforecastingherjudgmentandpowerlesstoevadeitseffects。

  Toescape,thenextmorning,theconfidencesofthebreakfast—

  table,hewenttotownearlierthanusual。Hiswife,whoreadslowly,wasgiventotalkingoverwhatsheread,andatpresenthisfirstobjectinlifewastopostponetheinevitablediscussionoftheletters。Thisinstinctofprotectionintheafternoon,onhiswayuptown,guidedhimtotheclubinsearchofamanwhomightbepersuadedtocomeouttothecountrytodine。TheonlymanintheclubwasFlamel。

  Glennard,asheheardhimselfalmostinvoluntarilypressingFlameltocomeanddine,feltthefullironyofthesituation。TouseFlamelasashieldagainsthiswife’sscrutinywasonlyashadelesshumiliatingthantoreckononhiswifeasadefenceagainstFlamel。

  Hefeltacontradictorymovementofannoyanceatthelatter’sreadyacceptance,andthetwomendroveinsilencetothestation。

  Astheypassedthebookstallinthewaiting—roomFlamellingeredamomentandtheeyesofbothfellonMargaretAubyn’sname,conspicuouslydisplayedaboveacounterstackedwiththefamiliarvolumes。

  \"Weshallbelate,youknow,\"Glennardremonstrated,pullingouthiswatch。

  \"Goahead,\"saidFlamel,imperturbably。\"Iwanttogetsomething——\"

  Glennardturnedonhisheelandwalkeddowntheplatform。Flamelrejoinedhimwithaninnocent—lookingmagazineinhishand;butGlennarddarednotevenglanceatthecover,lestitshouldshowthesyllableshefeared。

  Thetrainwasfullofpeopletheyknew,andtheywerekeptaparttillitdroppedthematthelittlesuburbanstation。Astheystrolleduptheshadedhill,Glennardtalkedvolubly,pointingouttheimprovementsintheneighborhood,deploringthethreatenedapproachofanelectricrailway,andscreeninghimselfbyaseriesofreflexadjustmentsfromtheimminentriskofanyallusiontothe\"Letters。\"Flamelsufferedhisdiscoursewiththeblandinattentionthatweaccordtotheaffairsofsomeoneelse’ssuburb,andtheyreachedtheshelterofAlexa’stea—tablewithoutaperceptibleturntowardthedreadedtopic。

  Thedinnerpassedoffsafely。Flamel,alwaysathisbestinAlexa’spresence,gaveherthekindofattentionwhichislikeabeaconinglightthrownonthespeaker’swords:hisanswersseemedtobringoutalatentsignificanceinherphrases,asthesculptordrawshisstatuefromtheblock。Glennard,underhiswife’scomposure,detectedasensibilitytothismanoeuvre,andthediscoverywaslikethelightning—flashacrossanocturnallandscape。Thusfarthesemomentaryilluminationshadservedonlytorevealthestrangenessoftheinterveningcountry:eachfreshobservationseemedtoincreasethesum—totalofhisignorance。

  Hersimplicityofoutlinewasmorepuzzlingthanacomplexsurface。Onemayconceivablyworkone’swaythroughalabyrinth;

  butAlexa’scandorwaslikeasnow—coveredplainwhere,theroadoncelost,therearenolandmarkstotravelby。

  Dinnerover,theyreturnedtotheveranda,whereamoon,risingbehindtheoldelm,wascombiningwiththatcomplaisanttreearomanticenlargementoftheirborders。Glennardhadforgottenthecigars。Hewenttohisstudytofetchthem,andinpassingthroughthedrawing—roomhesawthesecondvolumeofthe\"Letters\"

  lyingopenonhiswife’stable。Hepickedupthebookandlookedatthedateofthelettershehadbeenreading。Itwasoneofthelast……heknewthefewlinesbyheart。Hedroppedthebookandleanedagainstthewall。Whyhadheincludedthatoneamongtheothers?Orwasitpossiblethatnowtheywouldallseemlikethat……?

  Alexa’svoicecamesuddenlyoutofthedusk。\"MayTouchettwasright——itISlikelisteningatakey—hole。IwishIhadn’treadit!\"

  Flamelreturned,intheleisurelytoneofthemanwhosephrasesarepunctuatedbyacigarette,\"Itseemssotous,perhaps;buttoanothergenerationthebookwillbeaclassic。\"

  \"Thenitoughtnottohavebeenpublishedtillithadbecomeaclassic。It’shorrible,it’sdegradingalmost,toreadthesecretsofawomanonemighthaveknown。\"Sheadded,inalowertone,\"StephenDIDknowher——\"

  \"Didhe?\"camefromFlamel。

  \"Heknewherverywell,atHillbridge,yearsago。Thebookhasmadehimfeeldreadfully……hewouldn’treadit……hedidn’twantmetoreadit。Ididn’tunderstandatfirst,butnowIcanseehowhorriblydisloyalitmustseemtohim。It’ssomuchworsetosurpriseafriend’ssecretsthanastranger’s。\"

  \"Oh,Glennard’ssuchasensitivechap,\"Flamelsaid,easily;andAlexaalmostrebukinglyrejoined,\"Ifyou’dknownherI’msureyou’dfeelashedoes……\"

  Glennardstoodmotionless,overcomebythesingularinfelicitywithwhichhehadcontrivedtoputFlamelinpossessionofthetwopointsmostdamagingtohiscase:thefactthathehadbeenafriendofMargaretAubyn’s,andthathehadconcealedfromAlexahisshareinthepublicationoftheletters。ToamanoflessthanFlamel’sastutenessitmustnowbecleartowhomtheletterswereaddressed;andthepossibilityoncesuggested,nothingcouldbeeasierthantoconfirmitbydiscreetresearch。Animpulseofself—accusaldroveGlennardtothewindow。WhynotanticipatebetrayalbytellinghiswifethetruthinFlamel’spresence?Ifthemanhadadropofdecentfeelinginhim,suchacoursewouldbethesurestmeansofsecuringhissilence;andaboveall,itwouldridGlennardofthenecessityofdefendinghimselfagainsttheperpetualcriticismofhiswife’sbeliefinhim……

  Theimpulsewasstrongenoughtocarryhimtothewindow;butthereareactionofdefiancesetin。Whathadhedone,afterall,toneeddefenceandexplanation?BothDreshamandFlamelhad,inhishearing,declaredthepublicationoftheletterstobenotonlyjustifiablebutobligatory;andifthedisinterestednessofFlamel’sverdictmightbequestioned,Dresham’satleastrepresentedtheimpartialviewofthemanofletters。AstoAlexa’swords,theyweresimplytheconventionalutteranceofthe\"nice\"womanonaquestionalreadydecidedforherbyother\"nice\"

  women。Shehadsaidtheproperthingasmechanicallyasshewouldhaveputontheappropriategownorwrittenthecorrectformofdinner—invitation。Glennardhadsmallfaithintheabstractjudgmentsoftheothersex;heknewthathalfthewomenwhowerehorrifiedbythepublicationofMrs。Aubyn’sletterswouldhavebetrayedhersecretswithoutascruple。

  Thesuddenloweringofhisemotionalpitchbroughtaproportionaterelief。Hetoldhimselfthatnowtheworstwasoverandthingswouldfallintoperspectiveagain。HiswifeandFlamelhadturnedtoothertopics,andcomingoutontheveranda,hehandedthecigarstoFlamel,saying,cheerfully——andyethecouldhavesworntheywerethelastwordshemeanttoutter!——\"Lookhere,oldman,beforeyougodowntoNewportyoumustcomeoutandspendafewdayswithus——mustn’the,Alexa?\"

  VIII

  Glennardhad,perhapsunconsciously,countedonthecontinuanceofthiseasiermood。Hehadalwaystakenprideinacertainrobustnessoffibrethatenabledhimtohardenhimselfagainsttheinevitable,toconverthisfailuresintothebuildingmaterialsofsuccess。Thoughitdidnotevennowoccurtohimthatwhathecalledtheinevitablehadhithertobeenthealternativehehappenedtoprefer,hewasyetobscurelyawarethathispresentdifficultywasonenottobeconjuredbyanyaffectationofindifference。Somegriefsbuildthesoulaspacioushouse——butinthismiseryofGlennard’shecouldnotstandupright。Itpressedagainsthimateveryturn。Hetoldhimselfthatthiswasbecausetherewasnoescapefromthevisibleevidencesofhisact。The\"Letters\"confrontedhimeverywhere。Peoplewhohadneveropenedabookdiscussedthemwithcriticalreservations;tohavereadthemhadbecomeasocialobligationincirclestowhichliteratureneverpenetratesexceptinapersonalguise。

  Glennarddidhimselfinjustice。itwasfromtheunexpecteddiscoveryofhisownpettinessthathechieflysuffered。Ourself—esteemisapttobebasedonthehypotheticalgreatactwehaveneverhadoccasiontoperform;andeventhemostself—

  scrutinizingmodestycreditsitselfnegativelywithahighstandardofconduct。Glennardhadneverthoughthimselfahero;

  buthehadbeencertainthathewasincapableofbaseness。Wealllikeourwrong—doingstohaveabecomingcut,tobemadetoorder,asitwere;andGlennardfoundhimselfsuddenlythrustintoagarbofdishonorsurelymeantforameanerfigure。

  Theimmediateresultofhisfirstweeksofwretchednesswastheresolvetogototownforthewinter。Heknewthatsuchacoursewasjustbeyondthelimitofprudence;butitwaseasytoallaythefearsofAlexawho,scrupulouslyvigilantinthemanagementofthehousehold,preservedtheAmericanwife’susualaloofnessfromherhusband’sbusinesscares。Glennardfeltthathecouldnottrusthimselftoawinter’ssolitudewithher。Hehadanunspeakabledreadofherlearningthetruthabouttheletters,yetcouldnotbesureofsteelinghimselfagainstthesuicidalimpulseofavowal。Hisverysoulwasparchedforsympathy;hethirstedforavoiceofpityandcomprehension。Butwouldhiswifepity?

  Wouldsheunderstand?Againhefoundhimselfbroughtupabruptlyagainsthisincredibleignoranceofhernature。Thefactthatheknewwellenoughhowshewouldbehaveintheordinaryemergenciesoflife,thathecouldcount,insuchcontingencies,onthekindofhighcourageanddirectnesshehadalwaysdivinedinher,madehimthemorehopelessofherenteringintothetorturouspsychologyofanactthathehimselfcouldnolongerexplainorunderstand。Itwouldhavebeeneasierhadshebeenmorecomplex,morefeminine——ifhecouldhavecountedonherimaginativesympathyorhermoralobtuseness——buthewassureofneither。Hewassureofnothingbutthat,foratime,hemustavoidher。

  Glennardcouldnotridhimselfofthedelusionthatbyandbyhisactionwouldceasetomakeitsconsequencesfelt。Hewouldnothavecaredtoowntohimselfthathecountedonthedullingofhissensibilities:hepreferredtoindulgethevaguehypothesisthatextraneouscircumstanceswouldsomehoweffacetheblotuponhisconscience。Inhisworstmomentsofself—abasementhetriedtofindsolaceinthethoughtthatFlamelhadsanctionedhiscourse。

  Flamel,attheoutset,musthaveguessedtowhomtheletterswereaddressed;yetneitherthennorafterwardhadhehesitatedtoadvisetheirpublication。ThisthoughtdrewGlennardtohiminfitfulimpulsesoffriendliness,fromeachofwhichtherewasasharperreactionofdistrustandaversion。WhenFlamelwasnotatthehouse,hemissedthesupportofhistacitconnivance;whenhewasthere,hispresenceseemedtheassertionofanintolerableclaim。

  EarlyinthewintertheGlennardstookpossessionofthelittlehousethatwastocostthemalmostnothing。ThechangebroughtGlennardtheimmediatereliefofseeinglessofhiswife,andofbeingprotected,inherpresence,bythemultipliedpreoccupationsoftownlife。Alexa,whocouldneverappearhurried,showedthesmilingabstractionofaprettywomantowhomthesocialsideofmarriedlifehasnotlostitsnovelty。Glennard,withtherecklessnessofamanfreshfromhisfirstfinancialimprudence,encouragedherinsuchlittleextravagancesashergoodsenseatfirstresisted。Sincetheyhadcometotown,heargued,theymightaswellenjoythemselves。Hetookasympatheticviewofthenecessityofnewgowns,hegaveherasetoffursatChristmas,andbeforetheNewYeartheyhadagreedontheobligationofaddingaparlour—maidtotheirsmallestablishment。

  ProvidencetheverynextdayhastenedtojustifythismeasurebyplacingonGlennard’sbreakfast—plateanenvelopebearingthenameofthepublisherstowhomhehadsoldMrs。Aubyn’sletters。Ithappenedtobetheonlylettertheearlyposthadbrought,andheglancedacrossthetableathiswife,whohadcomedownbeforehimandhadprobablylaidtheenvelopeonhisplate。Shewasnotthewomantoaskawkwardquestions,buthefelttheconjectureofherglance,andhewasdebatingwhethertoaffectsurpriseatthereceiptoftheletter,ortopassitoffasabusinesscommunicationthathadstrayedtohishouse,whenacheckfellfromtheenvelope。Itwastheroyaltyonthefirsteditionoftheletters。Hisfirstfeelingwasoneofsimplesatisfaction。Themoneyhadcomewithsuchinfernalopportunenessthathecouldnothelpwelcomingit。Beforelong,too,therewouldbemore;heknewthebookwasstillsellingfarbeyondthepublisher’sprevisions。

  Heputthecheckinhispocketandlefttheroomwithoutlookingathiswife。

  Onthewaytohisofficethehabitualreactionsetin。Themoneyhehadreceivedwasthefirsttangiblereminderthathewaslivingonthesaleofhisself—esteem。Thethoughtofmaterialbenefithadbeenovershadowedbyhissenseoftheintrinsicbasenessofmakingthelettersknown;nowhesawwhatanelementofsordidnessitaddedtothesituationandhowthefactthatheneededthemoney,andmustuseit,pledgedhimmoreirrevocablythanevertotheconsequencesofhisact。Itseemedtohim,inthatfirsthourofmisery,thathehadbetrayedhisfriendanew。

  When,thatafternoon,hereachedhomeearlierthanusual,Alexa’sdrawing—roomwasfullofagayetythatoverflowedtothestairs。

  Flamel,forawonder,wasnotthere;butDreshamandyoungHartly,groupedaboutthetea—table,werereceivingwithresonantmirthanarrativedeliveredintheflutteredstaccatothatmadeMrs。

  Armiger’sconversationliketheejaculationsofastartledaviary。

  ShepausedasGlennardentered,andhehadtimetonoticethathiswife,whowasbusiedaboutthetea—tray,hadnotjoinedinthelaughterofthemen。

  \"Oh,goon,goon,\"youngHartlyrapturouslygroaned;andMrs。

  ArmigermetGlennard’sinquirywiththedeprecatingcrythatreallyshedidn’tseewhattherewastolaughat。\"I’msureI

  feelmorelikecrying。Idon’tknowwhatIshouldhavedoneifAlexahadn’tbeenhometogivemeacupoftea。Mynervesareinshreds——yes,another,dear,please——\"andasGlennardlookedhisperplexity,shewenton,afterponderingontheselectionofasecondlumpofsugar,\"Why,I’vejustcomefromthereading,youknow——thereadingattheWaldorf。\"

  \"Ihaven’tbeenintownlongenoughtoknowanything,\"saidGlennard,takingthecuphiswifehandedhim。\"Whohasbeenreadingwhat?\"

  \"ThatlovelygirlfromtheSouth——Georgie——Georgiewhat’shername——Mrs。Dresham’sprotegee——unlessshe’sYOURS,Mr。Dresham!

  Why,thebigball—roomwasPACKED,andallthewomenwerecryinglikeidiots——itwasthemostharrowingthingIeverheard——\"

  \"WhatDIDyouhear?\"Glennardasked;andhiswifeinterposed:

  \"Won’tyouhaveanotherbitofcake,Julia?Or,Stephen,ringforsomehottoast,please。\"Hertonebetrayedapolitesatietyofthetopicunderdiscussion。Glennardturnedtothebell,butMrs。

  Armigerpursuedhimwithherlovelyamazement。

  \"Why,the\"AubynLetters\"——didn’tyouknowaboutit?Thegirlreadthemsobeautifullythatitwasquitehorrible——Ishouldhavefaintedifthere’dbeenamannearenoughtocarrymeout。\"

  Hartly’sgleeredoubled,andDreshamsaid,jovially,\"Howlikeyouwomentoraiseashriekoverthebookandthendoallyoucantoencouragetheblatantpublicityofthereadings!\"

  Mrs。Armigermethimmorethanhalf—wayonatorrentofself—

  accusal。\"ItWAShorrid;itwasdisgraceful。Itoldyourwifeweoughtalltobeashamedofourselvesforgoing,andIthinkAlexawasquiterighttorefusetotakeanytickets——evenifitwasforacharity。\"

  \"Oh,\"herhostessmurmured,indifferently,\"withmecharitybeginsathome。Ican’taffordemotionalluxuries。\"

  \"Acharity?Acharity?\"Hartlyexulted。\"Ihadn’tseizedthefullbeautyofit。ReadingpoorMargaretAubyn’slove—lettersattheWaldorfbeforefivehundredpeopleforacharity!WHAT

  charity,dearMrs。Armiger?\"

  \"Why,theHomeforFriendlessWomen——\"

  \"Itwaswellchosen,\"Dreshamcommented;andHartlyburiedhismirthinthesofa—cushions。

  WhentheywerealoneGlennard,stillholdinghisuntouchedcupoftea,turnedtohiswife,whosatsilentlybehindthekettle。\"Whoaskedyoutotakeaticketforthatreading?\"

  \"Idon’tknow,really——KateDresham,Ifancy。Itwasshewhogotitup。\"

  \"It’sjustthesortofdamnablevulgarityshe’scapableof!It’sloathsome——it’smonstrous——\"

  Hiswife,withoutlookingup,answeredgravely,\"Ithoughtsotoo。

  ItwasforthatreasonIdidn’tgo。ButyoumustrememberthatveryfewpeoplefeelaboutMrs。Aubynasyoudo——\"

  Glennardmanagedtosetdownhiscupwithasteadyhand,buttheroomswungroundwithhimandhedroppedintothenearestchair。

  \"AsIdo?\"herepeated。

  \"ImeanthatveryfewpeopleknewherwhenshelivedinNewYork。

  Tomostofthewomenwhowenttothereadingshewasamerename,tooremotetohaveanypersonality。Withme,ofcourse,itwasdifferent——\"

  Glennardgaveherastartledlook。\"Different?Whydifferent?\"

  \"Sinceyouwereherfriend——\"

  \"Herfriend!\"Hestoodupimpatiently。\"Youspeakasifshehadhadonlyone——themostfamouswomanofherday!\"Hemovedvaguelyabouttheroom,bendingdowntolookatsomebooksonthetable。

  \"Ihope,\"headded,\"youdidn’tgivethatasareason,bytheway?\"

  \"Areason?\"

  \"Fornotgoing。Awomanwhogivesreasonsforgettingoutofsocialobligationsissuretomakeherselfunpopularorridiculous。

  Thewordswereuncalculated;butinaninstanthesawthattheyhadstrangelybridgedthedistancebetweenhiswifeandhimself。

  Hefelthercloseonhim,likeapantingfoe;andheranswerwasaflashthatshowedthehandonthetrigger。

  \"Iseem,\"shesaidfromthethreshold,\"tohavedonebothingivingmyreasontoyou。\"

  ThefactthattheywerediningoutthateveningmadeiteasyforhimtoavoidAlexatillshecamedownstairsinheropera—cloak。

  Mrs。Touchett,whowasgoingtothesamedinner,hadofferedtocallforher,andGlennard,refusingaprecariousseatbetweentheladies’draperies,followedonfoot。Theeveningwasinterminable。ThereadingattheWaldorf,atwhichallthewomenhadbeenpresent,hadrevivedthediscussionofthe\"AubynLetters\"andGlennard,hearinghiswifequestionedastoherabsence,felthimselfmiserablywishingthatshehadgone,ratherthanthatherstayingawayshouldhavebeenremarked。Hewasrapidlylosingallsenseofproportionwherethe\"Letters\"wereconcerned。Hecouldnolongerhearthemmentionedwithoutsuspectingapurposeintheallusion;heevenyieldedhimselfforamomenttotheextravaganceofimaginingthatMrs。Dresham,whomhedisliked,hadorganizedthereadinginthehopeofmakinghimbetrayhimself——forhewasalreadysurethatDreshamhaddivinedhisshareinthetransaction。

  Theattempttokeepasmoothsurfaceonthisinnertumultwasasendlessandunavailingaseffortsmadeinanightmare。Helostallsenseofwhathewassayingtohisneighborsandoncewhenhelookeduphiswife’sglancestruckhimcold。

  Shesatnearlyoppositehim,atFlamel’sside,anditappearedtoGlennardthattheyhadbuiltaboutthemselvesoneofthoseairybarriersoftalkbehindwhichtwopeoplecansaywhattheyplease。

  Whilethereadingwasdiscussedtheyweresilent。TheirsilenceseemedtoGlennardalmostcynical——itstrippedthelastdisguisefromtheircomplicity。Athrobofangerroseinhim,butsuddenlyitfell,andhefelt,withacurioussenseofrelief,thatatbottomhenolongercaredwhetherFlamelhadtoldhiswifeornot。

  TheassumptionthatFlamelknewaboutthelettershadbecomeafacttoGlennard;anditnowseemedtohimbetterthatAlexashouldknowtoo。

  Hewasfrightenedatfirstbythediscoveryofhisownindifference。Thelastbarriersofhiswillseemedtobebreakingdownbeforeafloodofmorallassitude。Howcouldhecontinuetoplayhispart,tokeephisfronttotheenemy,withthispoisonofindifferencestealingthroughhisveins?Hetriedtobracehimselfwiththeremembranceofhiswife’sscorn。Hehadnotforgottenthenoteonwhichtheirconversationhadclosed。Ifhehadeverwonderedhowshewouldreceivethetruthhewonderednolonger——shewoulddespisehim。Butthislentanewinsidiousnesstohistemptation,sincehercontemptwouldbearefugefromhisown。Hesaidtohimselfthat,sincehenolongercaredfortheconsequences,hecouldatleastacquithimselfofspeakinginself—defence。Whathewantednowwasnotimmunitybutcastigation:hiswife’sindignationmightstillreconcilehimtohimself。Thereinlayhisonehopeofregeneration;herscornwasthemoralantisepticthatheneeded,hercomprehensiontheonebalmthatcouldhealhim……

  Whentheyleftthedinnerhewassoafraidofspeakingthatheletherdrivehomealone,andwenttotheclubwithFlamel。

  IX

  HErosenextmorningwiththeresolvetoknowwhatAlexathoughtofhim。Itwasnotanchoringinahaven,butlyingtoinastorm——

  hefelttheneedofatemporarylullintheturmoilofhissensations。

  Hecamehomelate,fortheywerediningaloneandheknewthattheywouldhavetheeveningtogether。Whenhefollowedhertothedrawing—roomafterdinnerhethoughthimselfonthepointofspeaking;butasshehandedhimhiscoffeehesaid,involuntarily:

  \"Ishallhavetocarrythisofftothestudy,I’vegotalotofworkto—night。\"

  Aloneinthestudyhecursedhiscowardice。Whatwasitthathadwithheldhim?Acertainbrightunapproachablenessseemedtokeephimatarm’slength。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhosecompassioncouldbecircumvented;therewasnochanceofslippingpasttheoutposts;hewouldnevertakeherbysurprise。Well——whynotfaceher,then?Whatheshrankfromcouldbenoworsethanwhathewasenduring。Hehadpushedbackhischairandturnedtogoupstairswhenanewexpedientpresenteditself。Whatif,insteadoftellingher,heweretoletherfindoutforherselfandwatchtheeffectofthediscoverybeforespeaking?Inthiswayhemadeovertochancetheburdenoftherevelation。

  Theideahadbeensuggestedbythesightoftheformulaenclosingthepublisher’scheck。Hehaddepositedthemoney,butthenoticeaccompanyingitdroppedfromhisnote—caseasheclearedhistableforwork。ItwastheformulausualinsuchcasesandrevealedclearlyenoughthathewastherecipientofaroyaltyonMargaretAubyn’sletters。ItwouldbeimpossibleforAlexatoreaditwithoutunderstandingatoncethatthelettershadbeenwrittentohimandthathehadsoldthem……

  Hesatdownstairstillheheardherringfortheparlor—maidtoputoutthelights;thenhewentuptothedrawing—roomwithabundleofpapersinhishand。Alexawasjustrisingfromherseatandthelamplightfellonthedeeprollofhairthatoverhungherbrowliketheeavesofatemple。Herfacehadoftenthehighsecludedlookofashrine;anditwasthistouchofaweinherbeautythatnowmadehimfeelhimselfonthebrinkofsacrilege。

  Lestthefeelingshoulddominatehim,hespokeatonce。\"I’vebroughtyouapieceofwork——alotofoldbillsandthingsthatI

  wantyoutosortforme。Somearenotworthkeeping——butyou’llbeabletojudgeofthat。Theremaybealetterortwoamongthem——nothingofmuchaccount,butIdon’tliketothrowawaythewholelotwithouthavingthemlookedoverandIhaven’ttimetodoitmyself。\"

  Heheldoutthepapersandshetookthemwithasmilethatseemedtorecognizeintheserviceheaskedthetacitintentionofmakingamendsfortheincidentofthepreviousday。

  \"AreyousureIshallknowwhichtokeep?\"

  \"Oh,quitesure,\"heanswered,easily——\"andbesides,noneareofmuchimportance。\"

  Thenextmorningheinventedanexcuseforleavingthehousewithoutseeingher,andwhenhereturned,justbeforedinner,hefoundavisitor’shatandstickinthehall。ThevisitorwasFlamel,whowasintheactoftakingleave。

  Hehadrisen,butAlexaremainedseated;andtheirattitudegavetheimpressionofacolloquythathadprolongeditselfbeyondthelimitsofspeech。BothturnedasurprisedeyeonGlennardandhehadthesenseofwalkingintoaroomgrownsuddenlyempty,asthoughtheirthoughtswereconspiratorsdispersedbyhisapproach。

  Hefelttheclutchofhisoldfear。WhatifhiswifehadalreadysortedthepapersandhadtoldFlamelofherdiscovery?Well,itwasnonewstoFlamelthatGlennardwasinreceiptofaroyaltyonthe\"AubynLetters。\"……

  AsuddenresolvetoknowtheworstmadehimlifthiseyestohiswifeasthedoorclosedonFlamel。ButAlexahadrisenalso,andbendingoverherwriting—table,withherbacktoGlennard,wasbeginningtospeakprecipitately。

  \"I’mdiningoutto—night——youdon’tmindmydesertingyou?JuliaArmigersentmewordjustnowthatshehadanextraticketforthelastAmbroseconcert。Shetoldmetosayhowsorryshewasthatshehadn’ttwo——butIknewYOUwouldn’tbesorry!\"SheendedwithalaughthathadtheeffectofbeingastrayedechoofMrs。

  Armiger’s;andbeforeGlennardcouldspeakshehadadded,withherhandonthedoor,\"Mr。FlamelstayedsolatethatI’vehardlytimetodress。Theconcertbeginsridiculouslyearly,andJuliadinesathalf—pastseven——\"

  Glennardstoodaloneintheemptyroomthatseemedsomehowfullofanironicalconsciousnessofwhatwashappening。\"Shehatesme,\"

  hemurmured。\"Shehatesme……\"

  ThenextdaywasSunday,andGlennardpurposelylingeredlateinhisroom。Whenhecamedownstairshiswifewasalreadyseatedatthebreakfast—table。Sheliftedherusualsmiletohisentranceandtheytookshelterinthenearesttopic,likewayfarersovertakenbyastorm。Whilehelistenedtoheraccountoftheconcerthebegantothinkthat,afterall,shehadnotyetsortedthepapers,andthatheragitationofthepreviousdaymustbeascribedtoanothercause,inwhichperhapshehadbutanindirectconcern。HewonderedithadneverbeforeoccurredtohimthatFlamelwasthekindofmanwhomightverywellpleaseawomanathisownexpense,withoutneedoffortuitousassistance。Ifthispossibilityclearedtheoutlookitdidnotbrightenit。Glennardmerelyfelthimselfleftalonewithhisbaseness。

  Alexaleftthebreakfast—tablebeforehimandwhenhewentuptothedrawing—roomhefoundherdressedtogoout。

  \"Aren’tyoualittleearlyforchurch?\"heasked。

  Sherepliedthat,onthewaythere,shemeanttostopamomentathermother’s;andwhileshedrewonhergloves,hefumbledamongtheknick—knacksonthemantel—pieceforamatchtolighthiscigarette。

  \"Well,good—by,\"shesaid,turningtogo;andfromthethresholdsheadded:\"Bytheway,I’vesortedthepapersyougaveme。ThosethatIthoughtyouwouldliketokeepareonyourstudy—table。\"

  Shewentdownstairsandheheardthedoorclosebehindher。

  Shehadsortedthepapers——sheknew,then——sheMUSTknow——andshehadmadenosign!

  Glennard,hehardlyknewhow,foundhimselfoncemoreinthestudy。Onthetablelaythepackethehadgivenher。Itwasmuchsmaller——shehadevidentlygoneoverthepaperswithcare,destroyingthegreaternumber。Heloosenedtheelasticbandandspreadtheremainingenvelopesonhisdesk。Thepublisher’snoticewasamongthem。

  X

  Hiswifeknewandshemadenosign。Glennardfoundhimselfinthecaseoftheseafarerwho,closinghiseyesatnightfallonascenehethinkstoputleaguesbehindhimbeforeday,wakestoaport—

  holeframingthesamepatchofshore。Fromthekindofexaltationtowhichhisresolvehadliftedhimhedroppedtoanunreasoningapathy。Hisimpulseofconfessionhadactedasadrugtoself—

  reproach。Hehadtriedtoshiftaportionofhisburdentohiswife’sshouldersandnowthatshehadtacitlyrefusedtocarryit,hefelttheloadtooheavytobetakenupagain。

  Afortunateintervalofhardworkbroughtrespitefromthisphaseofsterilemisery。HewentWesttoargueanimportantcase,wonit,andcamebacktofreshpreoccupations。Hisownaffairswerethrivingenoughtoengrosshiminthepausesofhisprofessionalwork,andforovertwomonthshehadlittletimetolookhimselfintheface。Notunnaturally——forhewasasyetunskilledinthesubtletiesofintrospection——hemistookhistemporaryinsensibilityforagradualrevivalofmoralhealth。

  Hetoldhimselfthathewasrecoveringhissenseofproportion,gettingtoseethingsintheirtruelight;andifhenowthoughtofhisrashappealtohiswife’ssympathyitwasasanactoffollyfromtheconsequencesofwhichhehadbeensavedbytheprovidencethatwatchesovermadmen。HehadlittleleisuretoobserveAlexa;butheconcludedthatthecommon—sensemomentarilydeniedhimhadcounselledheruncriticalacceptanceoftheinevitable。Ifsuchaqualitywasapoorsubstituteforthepassionatejustnessthathadonceseemedtocharacterizeher,heacceptedthealternativeasapartofthatgeneralloweringofthekeythatseemsneedfultothemaintenanceofthematrimonialduet。

  Whatwomaneverretainedherabstractsenseofjusticewhereanotherwomanwasconcerned?PossiblythethoughtthathehadprofitedbyMrs。Aubyn’stendernesswasnotwhollydisagreeabletohiswife。

  Whenthepressureofworkbegantolessen,andhefoundhimself,inthelengtheningafternoons,abletoreachhomesomewhatearlier,henoticedthatthelittledrawing—roomwasalwaysfullandthatheandhiswifeseldomhadaneveningalonetogether。

  Whenhewastired,asoftenhappened,shewentoutalone;theideaofgivingupanengagementtoremainwithhimseemednottooccurtoher。Shehadshown,asagirl,littlefondnessforsociety,norhadsheseemedtoregretitduringtheyeartheyhadspentinthecountry。Hereflected,however,thathewassharingthecommonlotofhusbands,whoproverbiallymistaketheearlyardorsofhousekeepingforasignofsettleddomesticity。Alexa,atanyrate,wasrefutinghistheoryasinconsideratelyasaseedlingdefeatsthegardener’sexpectations。Anundefinablechangehadcomeoverher。Inonesenseitwasahappyone,sinceshehadgrown,ifnothandsomer,atleastmorevividandexpressive;herbeautyhadbecomemorecommunicable:itwasasthoughshehadlearnedtheconsciousexerciseofintuitiveattributesandnowusedhereffectswiththediscriminationofanartistskilledinvalues。Toadispassionatecritic(asGlennardnowratedhimself)

  theartmayattimeshavebeenalittletooobvious。Herattemptsatlightnesslackedspontaneity,andshesometimesraspedhimbylaughinglikeJuliaArmiger;buthehadenoughimaginationtoperceivethat,inrespectofthewife’ssocialarts,ahusbandnecessarilyseesthewrongsideofthetapestry。

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