\"’MargaretAubyn’sLetters。’Twovolumes。Outto—day。Firsteditionoffivethousandsoldoutbeforeleavingthepress。
Secondeditionreadynextweek。THEBOOKOFTHEYEAR……\"
Helookedupstupidly。Hiswifestillsatwithherheadthrownback,herpureprofiledetachedagainstthecushions。Shewassmilingalittleovertheprospecthislastwordshadopened。
Behindherheadshiversofsunandshaderanacrossthestripedawning。Arowofmaplesandaprivethedgehidtheirneighbor’sgables,givingthemundividedpossessionoftheirleafyhalf—acre;
andlife,amomentbefore,hadbeenliketheirplotofground,shutoff,hedgedinfromimportunities,impenetrablyhisandhers。
Nowitseemedtohimthateverymaple—leaf,everyprivet—bud,wasarelentlesshumangaze,pressingcloseupontheirprivacy。Itwasasthoughtheysatinabrightlylitroom,uncurtainedfromadarknessfullofhostilewatchers……Hiswifestillsmiled;
andherunconsciousnessofdangerseemed,insomehorribleway,toputherbeyondthereachofrescue……
Hehadnotknownthatitwouldbelikethis。Afterthefirstodiousweeks,spentinpreparingthelettersforpublication,insubmittingthemtoFlamel,andinnegotiatingwiththepublishers,thetransactionhaddroppedoutofhisconsciousnessintothatunvisitedlimbotowhichwerelegatethedeedswewouldrathernothavedonebuthavenonotionofundoing。FromthemomenthehadobtainedMissTrent’spromisenottosailwithheraunthehadtriedtoimaginehimselfirrevocablycommitted。Afterthat,heargued,hisfirstdutywastoher——shehadbecomehisconscience。
ThesumobtainedfromthepublishersbyFlamel’sadroitmanipulationsandopportunelytransferredtoDinslow’ssuccessfulventure,alreadyyieldedareturnwhich,combinedwithGlennard’sprofessionalearnings,tooktheedgeofcompulsionfromtheirwayofliving,makingitappeartheexpressionofagracefulpreferenceforsimplicity。Itwasthemitigatedpovertywhichcansubscribetoareviewortwoandhaveafewflowersonthedinner—
table。AndalreadyinasmallwayGlennardwasbeginningtofeelthemagneticqualityofprosperity。Clientswhohadpassedhisdoorinthehungrydayssoughtitoutnowthatitborethenameofasuccessfulman。Itwasunderstoodthatasmallinheritance,cleverlyinvested,wasthesourceofhisfortune;andtherewasafeelingthatamanwhocoulddosowellforhimselfwaslikelytoknowhowtoturnoverotherpeople’smoney。
Butitwasinthemoreintimaterewardofhiswife’shappinessthatGlennardtastedthefullflavorofsuccess。Comingoutofconditionssonarrowthatthoseheofferedherseemedspacious,shefittedintohernewlifewithoutanyofthosemanifesteffortsatadjustmentthatareassoretoahusband’sprideasthecriticalrearrangementofthebridalfurniture。Shehadgivenhim,instead,thedelicatepleasureofwatchingherexpandlikeasea—creaturerestoredtoitselement,stretchingouttheatrophiedtentaclesofgirlishvanityandenjoymenttotherisingtideofopportunity。Andsomehow——inthewindowlessinnercellofhisconsciousnesswhereself—criticismcowered——Glennard’scourseseemedjustifiedbyitsmerelymaterialsuccess。Howcouldsuchacropofinnocentblessednesshavesprungfromtaintedsoil?
Nowhehadtheinjuredsenseofamanentrappedintoadisadvantageousbargain。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis;
andadullangergatheredathisheart。Angeragainstwhom?
Againsthiswife,fornotknowingwhathesuffered?AgainstFlamel,forbeingtheunconsciousinstrumentofhiswrong—doing?
Oragainstthatmutememorytowhichhisownacthadsuddenlygivenavoiceofaccusation?Yes,thatwasit;andhispunishmenthenceforthwouldbethepresence,theunescapablepresence,ofthewomanhehadsopersistentlyevaded。Shewouldalwaysbetherenow。Itwasasthoughhehadmarriedherinsteadoftheother。
Itwaswhatshehadalwayswanted——tobewithhim——andshehadgainedherpointatlast……
Hesprangup,asthoughinanimpulseofflight……Thesuddenmovementliftedhiswife’slids,andsheasked,intheincuriousvoiceofthewomanwhoselifeisenclosedinamagiccircleofprosperity——\"Anynews?\"
\"No——none——\"hesaid,rousedtoasenseofimmediateperil。Thepaperslayscatteredathisfeet——whatifsheweretoseethem?
Hestretchedhisarmtogatherthemup,buthisnextthoughtshowedhimthefutilityofsuchconcealment。Thesameadvertisementwouldappeareveryday,forweekstocome,ineverynewspaper;howcouldhepreventherseeingit?Hecouldnotalwaysbehidingthepapersfromher……Well,andwhatifshedidseeit?Itwouldsignifynothingtoher,thechanceswerethatshewouldneverevenreadthebook……Assheceasedtobeanelementoffearinhiscalculationsthedistancebetweenthemseemedtolessenandhetookheragain,asitwere,intothecircleofhisconjugalprotection……Yetamomentbeforehehadalmosthatedher!……Helaughedaloudathissenselessterrors……Hewasoffhisbalance,decidedly。
\"Whatareyoulaughingat?\"sheasked。
Heexplained,elaborately,thathewaslaughingattherecollectionofanoldwomaninthetrain,anoldwomanwithalotofbundles,whocouldn’tfindherticket……Butsomehow,inthetelling,thehumorofthestoryseemedtoevaporate,andhefelttheconventionalityofhersmile。Heglancedathiswatch,\"Isn’tittimetodress?\"
Sherosewithserenereluctance。\"It’sapitytogoin。Thegardenlookssolovely。\"
Theylingeredsidebyside,surveyingtheirdomain。Therewasnotspaceinit,atthishour,fortheshadowoftheelm—treeintheangleofthehedge;itcrossedthelawn,cuttheflower—borderintwo,andranupthesideofthehousetothenurserywindow。Shebenttoflickacaterpillarfromthehoney—suckle;then,astheyturnedindoors,\"IfwemeantogoontheyachtnextSunday,\"shesuggested,\"oughtn’tyoutoletMr。Flamelknow?\"
Glennard’sexasperationdeflectedsuddenly。\"OfcourseIshalllethimknow。YoualwaysseemtoimplythatI’mgoingtodosomethingrudetoFlamel。\"
Thewordsreverberatedthroughhersilence;shehadawayofthusleavingonespaceinwhichtocontemplateone’sfollyatarm’slength。Glennardturnedonhisheelandwentupstairs。Ashedroppedintoachairbeforehisdressing—tablehesaidtohimselfthatinthelasthourhehadsoundedthedepthsofhishumiliationandthatthelowestdregsofit,theverybottom—slime,wasthehatefulnecessityofhavingalways,aslongasthetwomenlived,tobeciviltoBartonFlamel。
VI
THEweekintownhadbeensultry,andthemen,intheSundayemancipationofwhiteflannelandduck,filledthedeck—chairsoftheyachtwiththeiroutstretchedapathy,following,throughamistofcigarette—smoke,theflittinginconsequencesofthewomen。
Thepartwasasmallone——Flamelhadfewintimatefriends——butcomposedofmoreheterogeneousatomsthanthelittlepoolsintowhichsocietyusuallyruns。ThereactionfromthechiefepisodeofhisearlierlifehadbredinGlennardanuneasydistasteforanykindofpersonalsaliency。Clevernesswasusefulinbusiness;
butinsocietyitseemedtohimasfutileastheshamcascadesformedbyastreamthatmighthavebeenusedtodriveamill。Helikedthecollectivepointofviewthatgoeswiththecivilizeduniformityofdress—clothes,andhiswife’sattitudeimpliedthesamepreference;yettheyfoundthemselvesslippingmoreandmoreintoFlamel’sintimacy。Alexahadonceortwicesaidthatsheenjoyedmeetingcleverpeople;butherenjoymenttookthenegativeformofasmilingreceptivity;andGlennardfeltagrowingpreferenceforthekindofpeoplewhohavetheirthinkingdoneforthembythecommunity。
Still,thedeckoftheyachtwasapleasantrefugefromtheheatonshore,andhiswife’sprofile,serenelyprojectedagainstthechangingblue,layonhisretinalikeacoolhandonthenerves。
Hehadneverbeenmoreimpressedbythekindofabsolutenessthatliftedherbeautyabovethetransienteffectsofotherwomen,makingthemostharmoniousfaceseemanaccidentalcollocationoffeatures。
Theladieswhodirectlysuggestedthiscomparisonwereofakindaccustomedtotakesimilarriskswithmoregratifyingresults。
Mrs。Armigerhadinfactlongbeenthetriumphantalternativeofthosewhocouldn’t\"see\"AlexaGlennard’slooks;andMrs。
Touchett’sclaimstoconsiderationwerefoundedonthatdistributionofeffectswhichisthewonderofthosewhoadmireahighlycultivatedcountry。ThethirdladyofthetriowhichGlennard’sfancyhadputtosuchunflatteringuses,wasboundbycircumstancestosupporttheclaimsoftheothertwo。ThiswasMrs。Dresham,thewifeoftheeditoroftheRadiator。Mrs。
Dreshamwasaladywhohadrescuedherselffromsocialobscuritybyassumingtheroleofherhusband’sexponentandinterpreter;
andDresham’sleisurebeingdevotedtothecultivationofremarkablewomen,hiswife’sattitudecommittedhertothepubliccelebrationoftheirremarkableness。Fortheconceivabletediumofthisduty,Mrs。DreshamwasrepaidbythefactthattherewerepeoplewhotookHERforaremarkablewoman;andwhointurnprobablypurchasedsimilardistinctionwiththesmallchangeofherreflectedimportance。Astotheotherladiesoftheparty,theyweresimplythewivesofsomeofthemen——thekindofwomenwhoexpecttobetalkedtocollectivelyandtohavetheirquestionsleftunanswered。
Mrs。Armiger,thelatestembodimentofDresham’sinstinctfortheremarkable,wasaninnocentbeautywhoforyearshaddistilleddulnessamongasetofpeoplenowself—condemnedbytheirinabilitytoappreciateher。UnderDresham’stutelageshehaddevelopedintoa\"thoughtfulwoman,\"whoreadhisleadersintheRadiatorandboughtthebooksherecommended。Whenanewnovelappeared,peoplewantedtoknowwhatMrs。Armigerthoughtofit;
andayounggentlemanwhohadmadeatripinTourainehadrecentlyinscribedtoherthewide—marginedresultofhisexplorations。
Glennard,leaningbackwithhisheadagainsttherailandaslitoffugitivebluebetweenhishalf—closedlids,vaguelywishedshewouldn’tspoiltheafternoonbymakingpeopletalk;thoughhereducedhisannoyancetotheminimumbynotlisteningtowhatwassaid,thereremainedalatentirritationagainstthegeneralfutilityofwords。
Hiswife’sgiftofsilenceseemedtohimthemostvividcommentaryontheclumsinessofspeechasameansofintercourse,andhiseyeshadturnedtoherinrenewedappreciationofthisfinerfacultywhenMrs。Armiger’svoiceabruptlybroughthometohimtheunderratedpotentialitiesoflanguage。
\"You’vereadthem,ofcourse,Mrs。Glennard?\"heheardherask;
and,inreplytoAlexa’svagueinterrogation——\"Why,the’AubynLetters’——it’stheonlybookpeoplearetalkingofthisweek。\"
Mrs。Dreshamimmediatelysawheradvantage。\"YouHAVEN’Treadthem?Howveryextraordinary!AsMrs。Armigersays,thebook’sintheair;onebreathesitinliketheinfluenza。\"
Glennardsatmotionless,watchinghiswife。
\"Perhapsithasn’treachedthesuburbsyet,\"shesaid,withherunruffledsmile。
\"Oh,DOletmecometoyou,then!\"Mrs。Touchettcried;\"anythingforachangeofair!I’mpositivelysickofthebookandIcan’tputitdown。Can’tyousailusbeyonditsreach,Mr。Flamel?\"
Flamelshookhishead。\"Notevenwiththisbreeze。Literaturetravelsfasterthansteamnowadays。Andtheworstofitisthatwecan’tanyofusgiveupreading;it’sasinsidiousasaviceandastiresomeasavirtue。\"
\"IbelieveitISavice,almost,toreadsuchabookasthe’Letters,’\"saidMrs。Touchett。\"It’sthewoman’ssoul,absolutelytornupbytheroots——herwholeselflaidbare;andtoamanwhoevidentlydidn’tcare;whocouldn’thavecared。Idon’tmeantoreadanotherline;it’stoomuchlikelisteningatakeyhole。\"
\"Butifshewanteditpublished?\"
\"Wantedit?Howdoweknowshedid?\"
\"Why,Iheardshe’dlefttheletterstotheman——whoeverheis——
withdirectionsthattheyshouldbepublishedafterhisdeath——\"
\"Idon’tbelieveit,\"Mrs。Touchettdeclared。
\"He’sdeadthen,ishe?\"oneofthemenasked。
\"Why,youdon’tsupposeifhewerealivehecouldeverholduphisheadagain,withtheselettersbeingreadbyeverybody?\"Mrs。
Touchettprotested。\"Itmusthavebeenhorribleenoughtoknowthey’dbeenwrittentohim;buttopublishthem!Nomancouldhavedoneitandnowomancouldhavetoldhimto——\"
\"Oh,come,come,\"Dreshamjudiciallyinterposed;\"afterall,they’renotlove—letters。\"
\"No——that’stheworstofit;they’reunlovedletters,\"Mrs。
Touchettretorted。
\"Then,obviously,sheneedn’thavewrittenthem;whereastheman,poordevil,couldhardlyhelpreceivingthem。\"
\"Perhapshecountedonthepublictosavehimthetroubleofreadingthem,\"saidyoungHartly,whowasinthecynicalstage。
Mrs。ArmigerturnedherreproachfullovelinesstoDresham。\"Fromthewayyoudefendhim,Ibelieveyouknowwhoheis。\"
EveryonelookedatDresham,andhiswifesmiledwiththesuperiorairofthewomanwhoisinherhusband’sprofessionalsecrets。
Dreshamshruggedhisshoulders。
\"WhathaveIsaidtodefendhim?\"
\"Youcalledhimapoordevil——youpitiedhim。\"
\"AmanwhocouldletMargaretAubynwritetohiminthatway?OfcourseIpityhim。\"
\"ThenyouMUSTknowwhoheis,\"criedMrs。Armiger,withatriumphantairofpenetration。
HartlyandFlamellaughedandDreshamshookhishead。\"Nooneknows;noteventhepublishers;sotheytellmeatleast。\"
\"Sotheytellyoutotellus,\"Hartlyastutelyamended;andMrs。
Armigeradded,withtheappearanceofcarryingtheargumentapointfarther,\"ButevenifHE’SdeadandSHE’Sdead,somebodymusthavegiventheletterstothepublishers。\"
\"Alittlebird,probably,\"saidDresham,smilingindulgentlyonherdeduction。
\"Alittlebirdofpreythen——avulture,Ishouldsay——\"anothermaninterpolated。
\"Oh,I’mnotwithyouthere,\"saidDresham,easily。\"Thoselettersbelongedtothepublic。\"
\"Howcananylettersbelongtothepublicthatweren’twrittentothepublic?\"Mrs。Touchettinterposed。
\"Well,thesewere,inasense。ApersonalityasbigasMargaretAubyn’sbelongstotheworld。Suchamindispartofthegeneralfundofthought。It’sthepenaltyofgreatness——onebecomesamonumenthistorique。Posteritypaysthecostofkeepingoneup,butonconditionthatoneisalwaysopentothepublic。\"
\"Idon’tseethatthatexoneratesthemanwhogivesupthekeysofthesanctuary,asitwere。\"
\"WhoWAShe?\"anothervoiceinquired。
\"Whowashe?Oh,nobody,Ifancy——theletter—box,theslitinthewallthroughwhichtheletterspassedtoposterity……\"
\"Butshenevermeantthemforposterity!\"
\"Awomanshouldn’twritesuchlettersifshedoesn’tmeanthemtobepublished……\"
\"Sheshouldn’twritethemtosuchaman!\"Mrs。Touchettscornfullycorrected。
\"Ineverkeepletters,\"saidMrs。Armiger,undertheobviousimpressionthatshewascontributingavaluablepointtothediscussion。
Therewasagenerallaugh,andFlamel,whohadnotspoken,said,lazily,\"Youwomenaretooincurablysubjective。Iventuretosaythatmostmenwouldseeinthoselettersmerelytheirimmenseliteraryvalue,theirsignificanceasdocuments。Thepersonalsidedoesn’tcountwherethere’ssomuchelse。\"
\"Oh,weallknowyouhaven’tanyprinciples,\"Mrs。Armigerdeclared;andAlexaGlennard,liftinganindolentsmile,said:\"I
shallneverwriteyoualove—letter,Mr。Flamel。\"
Glennardmovedawayimpatiently。Suchtalkwasastediousasthebuzzingofgnats。Hewonderedwhyhiswifehadwantedtodraghimonsuchasenselessexpedition……HehatedFlamel’scrowd——
andwhatbusinesshadFlamelhimselftointerfereinthatway,standingupforthepublicationofthelettersasthoughGlennardneededhisdefence?……
GlennardturnedhisheadandsawthatFlamelhaddrawnaseattoAlexa’selbowandwasspeakingtoherinalowtone。Theothergroupshadscattered,strayingintwosalongthedeck。ItcameoverGlennardthatheshouldneveragainbeabletoseeFlamelspeakingtohiswifewithoutthesenseofsickmistrustthatnowloosenedhisjoints……
Alexa,thenextmorning,overtheirearlybreakfast,surprisedherhusbandbyanunexpectedrequest。
\"Willyoubringmethoselettersfromtown?\"sheasked。
\"Whatletters?\"hesaid,puttingdownhiscup。Hefelthimselfashelplesslyvulnerableasamanwhoislungedatinthedark。
\"Mrs。Aubyn’s。Thebooktheywerealltalkingaboutyesterday。\"
Glennard,carefullymeasuringhissecondcupoftea,said,withdeliberation,\"Ididn’tknowyoucaredaboutthatsortofthing。\"
Shewas,infact,notagreatreader,andanewbookseldomreachedhertillitwas,sotospeak,onthehomestretch;butshereplied,withagentletenacity,\"IthinkitwouldinterestmebecauseIreadherlifelastyear。\"
\"Herlife?Wheredidyougetthat?\"
\"Someonelentittomewhenitcameout——Mr。Flamel,Ithink。\"
Hisfirstimpulsewastoexclaim,\"WhythedevildoyouborrowbooksofFlamel?Icanbuyyouallyouwant——\"buthefelthimselfirresistiblyforcedintoanattitudeofsmilingcompliance。\"Flamelalwayshasthenewestbooksgoing,hasn’the?
Youmustbecareful,bytheway,aboutreturningwhathelendsyou。He’srathercrotchetyabouthislibrary。\"
\"Oh,I’malwaysverycareful,\"shesaid,withatouchofcompetencethatstruckhim;andsheadded,ashecaughtuphishat:\"Don’tforgettheletters。\"
Whyhadsheaskedforthebook?WashersuddenwishtoseeittheresultofsomehintofFlamel’s?ThethoughtturnedGlennardsick,buthepreservedsufficientluciditytotellhimself,amomentlater,thathislasthopeofself—controlwouldbelostifheyieldedtothetemptationofseeingahiddenpurposeineverythingshesaidanddid。HowmuchFlamelguessed,hehadnomeansofdivining;norcouldhepredicate,fromwhatheknewoftheman,towhatusehisinferencesmightbeput。TheveryqualitiesthathadmadeFlamelausefuladvisermadehimthemostdangerousofaccomplices。Glennardfelthimselfagropeamongalienforcesthathisownacthadsetinmotion……
Alexawasawomanoffewrequirements;butherwishes,evenintrifles,hadadefinitenessthatdistinguishedthemfromthefluidimpulsesofherkind。Heknewthat,havingonceaskedforthebook,shewouldnotforgetit;andheputaside,asanineffectualexpedient,hismomentaryideaofapplyingforitatthecirculatinglibraryandtellingherthatallthecopieswereout。
Ifthebookwastobeboughtithadbetterbeboughtatonce。Helefthisofficeearlierthanusualandturnedinatthefirstbook—shoponhiswaytothetrain。Theshow—windowwasstackedwithconspicuouslyletteredvolumes。\"MargaretAubyn\"flashedbackathiminendlessrepetition。Heplungedintotheshopandcameonacounterwherethenamereiterateditselfonrowafterrowofbindings。Itseemedtohavedriventherestofliteraturetothebackshelves。Hecaughtupacopy,tossingthemoneytoanastonishedclerkwhopursuedhimtothedoorwiththeunheededoffertowrapupthevolumes。
Inthestreethewasseizedwithasuddenapprehension。WhatifheweretomeetFlamel?Thethoughtwasintolerable。Hecalledacabanddrovestraighttothestationwhere,amidthepalm—leaffansofaperspiringcrowd,hewaitedalonghalf—hourforhistraintostart。
Hehadthrustavolumeineitherpocketandinthetrainhedarednotdrawthemout;butthedetestedwordsleapedathimfromthefoldsoftheeveningpaper。TheairseemedfullofMargaretAubyn’sname。Themotionofthetrainsetitdancingupanddownonthepageofamagazinethatamaninfrontofhimwasreading……
AtthedoorhewastoldthatMrs。Glennardwasstillout,andhewentupstairstohisroomanddraggedthebooksfromhispocket。
Theylayonthetablebeforehimlikelivethingsthathefearedtotouch……Atlengthheopenedthefirstvolume。Afamiliarlettersprangoutathim,eachwordquickenedbyitsglaringgarboftype。Thelittlebrokenphrasesfledacrossthepagelikewoundedanimalsintheopen……Itwasahorriblesight……
Abattueofhelplessthingsdrivensavagelyoutofshelter。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis……
Heunderstoodnowthat,atthemomentofsellingtheletters,hehadviewedthetransactionsolelyasitaffectedhimself:asanunfortunateblemishonanotherwisepresentablerecord。HehadscarcelyconsideredtheactinrelationtoMargaretAubyn;fordeath,ifithallows,alsomakesinnocuous。Glennard’sGodwasagodoftheliving,oftheimmediate,theactual,thetangible;allhisdayshehadlivedinthepresenceofthatgod,heedlessofthedivinitieswho,belowthesurfaceofourdeedsandpassions,silentlyforgethefatalweaponsofthedead。
VII
Aknockrousedhimandlookinguphesawhiswife。Hemetherglanceinsilence,andshefalteredout,\"Areyouill?\"
Thewordsrestoredhisself—possession。\"Ill?Ofcoursenot。
TheytoldmeyouwereoutandIcameupstairs。\"
Thebookslaybetweenthemonthetable;hewonderedwhenshewouldseethem。Shelingeredtentativelyonthethreshold,withtheairofleavinghisexplanationonhishands。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhocouldbecountedontofortifyanexcusebyappearingtodisputeit。
\"Wherehaveyoubeen?\"Glennardasked,movingforwardsothatheobstructedhervisionofthebooks。
\"IwalkedovertotheDreshamsfortea。\"
\"Ican’tthinkwhatyouseeinthosepeople,\"hesaidwithashrug;adding,uncontrollably——\"IsupposeFlamelwasthere?\"
\"No;heleftontheyachtthismorning。\"
AnanswersoobstructingtothenaturalescapeofhisirritationleftGlennardwithnomomentaryresourcebutthatofstrollingimpatientlytothewindow。Ashereyesfollowedhimtheylitonthebooks。
\"Ah,you’vebroughtthem!I’msoglad,\"sheexclaimed。
Heansweredoverhisshoulder,\"Forawomanwhoneverreadsyoumakethemostastoundingexceptions!\"
Hersmilewasanexasperatingconcessiontotheprobabilitythatithadbeenhotintownorthatsomethinghadbotheredhim。
\"Doyoumeanit’snotnicetowanttoreadthebook?\"sheasked。
\"Itwasnotnicetopublishit,certainly;butafterall,I’mnotresponsibleforthat,amI?\"Shepaused,and,ashemadenoanswer,wenton,stillsmiling,\"Idoreadsometimes,youknow;
andI’mveryfondofMargaretAubyn’sbooks。Iwasreading’PomegranateSeed’whenwefirstmet。Don’tyouremember?Itwasthenyoutoldmeallabouther。\"
Glennardhadturnedbackintotheroomandstoodstaringathiswife。\"Allabouther?\"herepeated,andwiththewordsremembrancecametohim。HehadfoundMissTrentoneafternoonwiththenovelinherhand,andmovedbythelover’sfatuousimpulsetoassociatehimselfinsomewaywithwhateverfillsthemindofthebeloved,hadbrokenthroughhishabitualsilenceaboutthepast。RewardedbytheconsciousnessoffiguringimpressivelyinMissTrent’simaginationhehadgoneonfromoneanecdotetoanother,revivingdormantdetailsofhisoldHillbridgelife,andpasturinghisvanityontheeagernesswithwhichshereceivedhisreminiscencesofabeingalreadyclothedintheimpersonalityofgreatness。
Theincidenthadleftnotraceinhismind;butitsprangupnowlikeanoldenemy,themoredangerousforhavingbeenforgotten。
Theinstinctofself—preservation——sometimesthemostperilousthatmancanexercise——madehimawkwardlydeclare——\"Oh,Iusedtoseeheratpeople’shouses,thatwasall;\"andhersilenceasusualleavingroomforamultiplicationofblunders,headded,withincreasedindifference,\"Isimplycan’tseewhatyoucanfindtointerestyouinsuchabook。\"
Sheseemedtoconsiderthisintently。\"You’vereadit,then?\"
\"Iglancedatit——Ineverreadsuchthings。\"
\"Isittruethatshedidn’twishtheletterstobepublished?\"
Glennardfeltthesuddendizzinessofthemountaineeronanarrowledge,andwithitthesensethathewaslostifhelookedmorethanastepahead。
\"I’msureIdon’tknow,\"hesaid;then,summoningasmile,hepassedhishandthroughherarm。\"Ididn’thaveteaattheDreshams,youknow;won’tyougivemesomenow?\"hesuggested。
ThateveningGlennard,underpretextofworktobedone,shuthimselfintothesmallstudyopeningoffthedrawing—room。Ashegathereduphispapershesaidtohiswife:\"You’renotgoingtositindoorsonsuchanightasthis?I’lljoinyoupresentlyoutside。\"
Butshehaddrawnherarmchairtothelamp。\"Iwanttolookatmybook,\"shesaid,takingupthefirstvolumeofthe\"Letters。\"
Glennard,withashrug,withdrewintothestudy。\"I’mgoingtoshutthedoor;Iwanttobequiet,\"heexplainedfromthethreshold;andshenoddedwithoutliftinghereyesfromthebook。
Hesankintoachair,staringaimlesslyattheoutspreadpapers。
Howwashetowork,whileontheothersideofthedoorshesatwiththatvolumeinherhand?Thedoordidnotshutherout——hesawherdistinctly,feltherclosetohiminacontactaspainfulasthepressureonabruise。
Thesensationwaspartofthegeneralstrangenessthatmadehimfeellikeamanwakingfromalongsleeptofindhimselfinanunknowncountryamongpeopleofalientongue。Weliveinourownsoulsasinanunmappedregion,afewacresofwhichwehaveclearedforourhabitation;whileofthenatureofthosenearestusweknowbuttheboundariesthatmarchwithours。Ofthepointsinhiswife’scharacternotindirectcontactwithhisown,Glennardnowdiscernedhisignorance;andthebafflingsenseofherremotenesswasintensifiedbythediscoverythat,inoneway,shewasclosertohimthaneverbefore。Asonemayliveforyearsinhappyunconsciousnessofthepossessionofasensitivenerve,hehadlivedbesidehiswifeunawarethatherindividualityhadbecomeapartofthetextureofhislife,ineradicableassomegrowthonavitalorgan;andhenowfelthimselfatonceincapableofforecastingherjudgmentandpowerlesstoevadeitseffects。
Toescape,thenextmorning,theconfidencesofthebreakfast—
table,hewenttotownearlierthanusual。Hiswife,whoreadslowly,wasgiventotalkingoverwhatsheread,andatpresenthisfirstobjectinlifewastopostponetheinevitablediscussionoftheletters。Thisinstinctofprotectionintheafternoon,onhiswayuptown,guidedhimtotheclubinsearchofamanwhomightbepersuadedtocomeouttothecountrytodine。TheonlymanintheclubwasFlamel。
Glennard,asheheardhimselfalmostinvoluntarilypressingFlameltocomeanddine,feltthefullironyofthesituation。TouseFlamelasashieldagainsthiswife’sscrutinywasonlyashadelesshumiliatingthantoreckononhiswifeasadefenceagainstFlamel。
Hefeltacontradictorymovementofannoyanceatthelatter’sreadyacceptance,andthetwomendroveinsilencetothestation。
Astheypassedthebookstallinthewaiting—roomFlamellingeredamomentandtheeyesofbothfellonMargaretAubyn’sname,conspicuouslydisplayedaboveacounterstackedwiththefamiliarvolumes。
\"Weshallbelate,youknow,\"Glennardremonstrated,pullingouthiswatch。
\"Goahead,\"saidFlamel,imperturbably。\"Iwanttogetsomething——\"
Glennardturnedonhisheelandwalkeddowntheplatform。Flamelrejoinedhimwithaninnocent—lookingmagazineinhishand;butGlennarddarednotevenglanceatthecover,lestitshouldshowthesyllableshefeared。
Thetrainwasfullofpeopletheyknew,andtheywerekeptaparttillitdroppedthematthelittlesuburbanstation。Astheystrolleduptheshadedhill,Glennardtalkedvolubly,pointingouttheimprovementsintheneighborhood,deploringthethreatenedapproachofanelectricrailway,andscreeninghimselfbyaseriesofreflexadjustmentsfromtheimminentriskofanyallusiontothe\"Letters。\"Flamelsufferedhisdiscoursewiththeblandinattentionthatweaccordtotheaffairsofsomeoneelse’ssuburb,andtheyreachedtheshelterofAlexa’stea—tablewithoutaperceptibleturntowardthedreadedtopic。
Thedinnerpassedoffsafely。Flamel,alwaysathisbestinAlexa’spresence,gaveherthekindofattentionwhichislikeabeaconinglightthrownonthespeaker’swords:hisanswersseemedtobringoutalatentsignificanceinherphrases,asthesculptordrawshisstatuefromtheblock。Glennard,underhiswife’scomposure,detectedasensibilitytothismanoeuvre,andthediscoverywaslikethelightning—flashacrossanocturnallandscape。Thusfarthesemomentaryilluminationshadservedonlytorevealthestrangenessoftheinterveningcountry:eachfreshobservationseemedtoincreasethesum—totalofhisignorance。
Hersimplicityofoutlinewasmorepuzzlingthanacomplexsurface。Onemayconceivablyworkone’swaythroughalabyrinth;
butAlexa’scandorwaslikeasnow—coveredplainwhere,theroadoncelost,therearenolandmarkstotravelby。
Dinnerover,theyreturnedtotheveranda,whereamoon,risingbehindtheoldelm,wascombiningwiththatcomplaisanttreearomanticenlargementoftheirborders。Glennardhadforgottenthecigars。Hewenttohisstudytofetchthem,andinpassingthroughthedrawing—roomhesawthesecondvolumeofthe\"Letters\"
lyingopenonhiswife’stable。Hepickedupthebookandlookedatthedateofthelettershehadbeenreading。Itwasoneofthelast……heknewthefewlinesbyheart。Hedroppedthebookandleanedagainstthewall。Whyhadheincludedthatoneamongtheothers?Orwasitpossiblethatnowtheywouldallseemlikethat……?
Alexa’svoicecamesuddenlyoutofthedusk。\"MayTouchettwasright——itISlikelisteningatakey—hole。IwishIhadn’treadit!\"
Flamelreturned,intheleisurelytoneofthemanwhosephrasesarepunctuatedbyacigarette,\"Itseemssotous,perhaps;buttoanothergenerationthebookwillbeaclassic。\"
\"Thenitoughtnottohavebeenpublishedtillithadbecomeaclassic。It’shorrible,it’sdegradingalmost,toreadthesecretsofawomanonemighthaveknown。\"Sheadded,inalowertone,\"StephenDIDknowher——\"
\"Didhe?\"camefromFlamel。
\"Heknewherverywell,atHillbridge,yearsago。Thebookhasmadehimfeeldreadfully……hewouldn’treadit……hedidn’twantmetoreadit。Ididn’tunderstandatfirst,butnowIcanseehowhorriblydisloyalitmustseemtohim。It’ssomuchworsetosurpriseafriend’ssecretsthanastranger’s。\"
\"Oh,Glennard’ssuchasensitivechap,\"Flamelsaid,easily;andAlexaalmostrebukinglyrejoined,\"Ifyou’dknownherI’msureyou’dfeelashedoes……\"
Glennardstoodmotionless,overcomebythesingularinfelicitywithwhichhehadcontrivedtoputFlamelinpossessionofthetwopointsmostdamagingtohiscase:thefactthathehadbeenafriendofMargaretAubyn’s,andthathehadconcealedfromAlexahisshareinthepublicationoftheletters。ToamanoflessthanFlamel’sastutenessitmustnowbecleartowhomtheletterswereaddressed;andthepossibilityoncesuggested,nothingcouldbeeasierthantoconfirmitbydiscreetresearch。Animpulseofself—accusaldroveGlennardtothewindow。WhynotanticipatebetrayalbytellinghiswifethetruthinFlamel’spresence?Ifthemanhadadropofdecentfeelinginhim,suchacoursewouldbethesurestmeansofsecuringhissilence;andaboveall,itwouldridGlennardofthenecessityofdefendinghimselfagainsttheperpetualcriticismofhiswife’sbeliefinhim……
Theimpulsewasstrongenoughtocarryhimtothewindow;butthereareactionofdefiancesetin。Whathadhedone,afterall,toneeddefenceandexplanation?BothDreshamandFlamelhad,inhishearing,declaredthepublicationoftheletterstobenotonlyjustifiablebutobligatory;andifthedisinterestednessofFlamel’sverdictmightbequestioned,Dresham’satleastrepresentedtheimpartialviewofthemanofletters。AstoAlexa’swords,theyweresimplytheconventionalutteranceofthe\"nice\"womanonaquestionalreadydecidedforherbyother\"nice\"
women。Shehadsaidtheproperthingasmechanicallyasshewouldhaveputontheappropriategownorwrittenthecorrectformofdinner—invitation。Glennardhadsmallfaithintheabstractjudgmentsoftheothersex;heknewthathalfthewomenwhowerehorrifiedbythepublicationofMrs。Aubyn’sletterswouldhavebetrayedhersecretswithoutascruple。
Thesuddenloweringofhisemotionalpitchbroughtaproportionaterelief。Hetoldhimselfthatnowtheworstwasoverandthingswouldfallintoperspectiveagain。HiswifeandFlamelhadturnedtoothertopics,andcomingoutontheveranda,hehandedthecigarstoFlamel,saying,cheerfully——andyethecouldhavesworntheywerethelastwordshemeanttoutter!——\"Lookhere,oldman,beforeyougodowntoNewportyoumustcomeoutandspendafewdayswithus——mustn’the,Alexa?\"
VIII
Glennardhad,perhapsunconsciously,countedonthecontinuanceofthiseasiermood。Hehadalwaystakenprideinacertainrobustnessoffibrethatenabledhimtohardenhimselfagainsttheinevitable,toconverthisfailuresintothebuildingmaterialsofsuccess。Thoughitdidnotevennowoccurtohimthatwhathecalledtheinevitablehadhithertobeenthealternativehehappenedtoprefer,hewasyetobscurelyawarethathispresentdifficultywasonenottobeconjuredbyanyaffectationofindifference。Somegriefsbuildthesoulaspacioushouse——butinthismiseryofGlennard’shecouldnotstandupright。Itpressedagainsthimateveryturn。Hetoldhimselfthatthiswasbecausetherewasnoescapefromthevisibleevidencesofhisact。The\"Letters\"confrontedhimeverywhere。Peoplewhohadneveropenedabookdiscussedthemwithcriticalreservations;tohavereadthemhadbecomeasocialobligationincirclestowhichliteratureneverpenetratesexceptinapersonalguise。
Glennarddidhimselfinjustice。itwasfromtheunexpecteddiscoveryofhisownpettinessthathechieflysuffered。Ourself—esteemisapttobebasedonthehypotheticalgreatactwehaveneverhadoccasiontoperform;andeventhemostself—
scrutinizingmodestycreditsitselfnegativelywithahighstandardofconduct。Glennardhadneverthoughthimselfahero;
buthehadbeencertainthathewasincapableofbaseness。Wealllikeourwrong—doingstohaveabecomingcut,tobemadetoorder,asitwere;andGlennardfoundhimselfsuddenlythrustintoagarbofdishonorsurelymeantforameanerfigure。
Theimmediateresultofhisfirstweeksofwretchednesswastheresolvetogototownforthewinter。Heknewthatsuchacoursewasjustbeyondthelimitofprudence;butitwaseasytoallaythefearsofAlexawho,scrupulouslyvigilantinthemanagementofthehousehold,preservedtheAmericanwife’susualaloofnessfromherhusband’sbusinesscares。Glennardfeltthathecouldnottrusthimselftoawinter’ssolitudewithher。Hehadanunspeakabledreadofherlearningthetruthabouttheletters,yetcouldnotbesureofsteelinghimselfagainstthesuicidalimpulseofavowal。Hisverysoulwasparchedforsympathy;hethirstedforavoiceofpityandcomprehension。Butwouldhiswifepity?
Wouldsheunderstand?Againhefoundhimselfbroughtupabruptlyagainsthisincredibleignoranceofhernature。Thefactthatheknewwellenoughhowshewouldbehaveintheordinaryemergenciesoflife,thathecouldcount,insuchcontingencies,onthekindofhighcourageanddirectnesshehadalwaysdivinedinher,madehimthemorehopelessofherenteringintothetorturouspsychologyofanactthathehimselfcouldnolongerexplainorunderstand。Itwouldhavebeeneasierhadshebeenmorecomplex,morefeminine——ifhecouldhavecountedonherimaginativesympathyorhermoralobtuseness——buthewassureofneither。Hewassureofnothingbutthat,foratime,hemustavoidher。
Glennardcouldnotridhimselfofthedelusionthatbyandbyhisactionwouldceasetomakeitsconsequencesfelt。Hewouldnothavecaredtoowntohimselfthathecountedonthedullingofhissensibilities:hepreferredtoindulgethevaguehypothesisthatextraneouscircumstanceswouldsomehoweffacetheblotuponhisconscience。Inhisworstmomentsofself—abasementhetriedtofindsolaceinthethoughtthatFlamelhadsanctionedhiscourse。
Flamel,attheoutset,musthaveguessedtowhomtheletterswereaddressed;yetneitherthennorafterwardhadhehesitatedtoadvisetheirpublication。ThisthoughtdrewGlennardtohiminfitfulimpulsesoffriendliness,fromeachofwhichtherewasasharperreactionofdistrustandaversion。WhenFlamelwasnotatthehouse,hemissedthesupportofhistacitconnivance;whenhewasthere,hispresenceseemedtheassertionofanintolerableclaim。
EarlyinthewintertheGlennardstookpossessionofthelittlehousethatwastocostthemalmostnothing。ThechangebroughtGlennardtheimmediatereliefofseeinglessofhiswife,andofbeingprotected,inherpresence,bythemultipliedpreoccupationsoftownlife。Alexa,whocouldneverappearhurried,showedthesmilingabstractionofaprettywomantowhomthesocialsideofmarriedlifehasnotlostitsnovelty。Glennard,withtherecklessnessofamanfreshfromhisfirstfinancialimprudence,encouragedherinsuchlittleextravagancesashergoodsenseatfirstresisted。Sincetheyhadcometotown,heargued,theymightaswellenjoythemselves。Hetookasympatheticviewofthenecessityofnewgowns,hegaveherasetoffursatChristmas,andbeforetheNewYeartheyhadagreedontheobligationofaddingaparlour—maidtotheirsmallestablishment。
ProvidencetheverynextdayhastenedtojustifythismeasurebyplacingonGlennard’sbreakfast—plateanenvelopebearingthenameofthepublisherstowhomhehadsoldMrs。Aubyn’sletters。Ithappenedtobetheonlylettertheearlyposthadbrought,andheglancedacrossthetableathiswife,whohadcomedownbeforehimandhadprobablylaidtheenvelopeonhisplate。Shewasnotthewomantoaskawkwardquestions,buthefelttheconjectureofherglance,andhewasdebatingwhethertoaffectsurpriseatthereceiptoftheletter,ortopassitoffasabusinesscommunicationthathadstrayedtohishouse,whenacheckfellfromtheenvelope。Itwastheroyaltyonthefirsteditionoftheletters。Hisfirstfeelingwasoneofsimplesatisfaction。Themoneyhadcomewithsuchinfernalopportunenessthathecouldnothelpwelcomingit。Beforelong,too,therewouldbemore;heknewthebookwasstillsellingfarbeyondthepublisher’sprevisions。
Heputthecheckinhispocketandlefttheroomwithoutlookingathiswife。
Onthewaytohisofficethehabitualreactionsetin。Themoneyhehadreceivedwasthefirsttangiblereminderthathewaslivingonthesaleofhisself—esteem。Thethoughtofmaterialbenefithadbeenovershadowedbyhissenseoftheintrinsicbasenessofmakingthelettersknown;nowhesawwhatanelementofsordidnessitaddedtothesituationandhowthefactthatheneededthemoney,andmustuseit,pledgedhimmoreirrevocablythanevertotheconsequencesofhisact。Itseemedtohim,inthatfirsthourofmisery,thathehadbetrayedhisfriendanew。
When,thatafternoon,hereachedhomeearlierthanusual,Alexa’sdrawing—roomwasfullofagayetythatoverflowedtothestairs。
Flamel,forawonder,wasnotthere;butDreshamandyoungHartly,groupedaboutthetea—table,werereceivingwithresonantmirthanarrativedeliveredintheflutteredstaccatothatmadeMrs。
Armiger’sconversationliketheejaculationsofastartledaviary。
ShepausedasGlennardentered,andhehadtimetonoticethathiswife,whowasbusiedaboutthetea—tray,hadnotjoinedinthelaughterofthemen。
\"Oh,goon,goon,\"youngHartlyrapturouslygroaned;andMrs。
ArmigermetGlennard’sinquirywiththedeprecatingcrythatreallyshedidn’tseewhattherewastolaughat。\"I’msureI
feelmorelikecrying。Idon’tknowwhatIshouldhavedoneifAlexahadn’tbeenhometogivemeacupoftea。Mynervesareinshreds——yes,another,dear,please——\"andasGlennardlookedhisperplexity,shewenton,afterponderingontheselectionofasecondlumpofsugar,\"Why,I’vejustcomefromthereading,youknow——thereadingattheWaldorf。\"
\"Ihaven’tbeenintownlongenoughtoknowanything,\"saidGlennard,takingthecuphiswifehandedhim。\"Whohasbeenreadingwhat?\"
\"ThatlovelygirlfromtheSouth——Georgie——Georgiewhat’shername——Mrs。Dresham’sprotegee——unlessshe’sYOURS,Mr。Dresham!
Why,thebigball—roomwasPACKED,andallthewomenwerecryinglikeidiots——itwasthemostharrowingthingIeverheard——\"
\"WhatDIDyouhear?\"Glennardasked;andhiswifeinterposed:
\"Won’tyouhaveanotherbitofcake,Julia?Or,Stephen,ringforsomehottoast,please。\"Hertonebetrayedapolitesatietyofthetopicunderdiscussion。Glennardturnedtothebell,butMrs。
Armigerpursuedhimwithherlovelyamazement。
\"Why,the\"AubynLetters\"——didn’tyouknowaboutit?Thegirlreadthemsobeautifullythatitwasquitehorrible——Ishouldhavefaintedifthere’dbeenamannearenoughtocarrymeout。\"
Hartly’sgleeredoubled,andDreshamsaid,jovially,\"Howlikeyouwomentoraiseashriekoverthebookandthendoallyoucantoencouragetheblatantpublicityofthereadings!\"
Mrs。Armigermethimmorethanhalf—wayonatorrentofself—
accusal。\"ItWAShorrid;itwasdisgraceful。Itoldyourwifeweoughtalltobeashamedofourselvesforgoing,andIthinkAlexawasquiterighttorefusetotakeanytickets——evenifitwasforacharity。\"
\"Oh,\"herhostessmurmured,indifferently,\"withmecharitybeginsathome。Ican’taffordemotionalluxuries。\"
\"Acharity?Acharity?\"Hartlyexulted。\"Ihadn’tseizedthefullbeautyofit。ReadingpoorMargaretAubyn’slove—lettersattheWaldorfbeforefivehundredpeopleforacharity!WHAT
charity,dearMrs。Armiger?\"
\"Why,theHomeforFriendlessWomen——\"
\"Itwaswellchosen,\"Dreshamcommented;andHartlyburiedhismirthinthesofa—cushions。
WhentheywerealoneGlennard,stillholdinghisuntouchedcupoftea,turnedtohiswife,whosatsilentlybehindthekettle。\"Whoaskedyoutotakeaticketforthatreading?\"
\"Idon’tknow,really——KateDresham,Ifancy。Itwasshewhogotitup。\"
\"It’sjustthesortofdamnablevulgarityshe’scapableof!It’sloathsome——it’smonstrous——\"
Hiswife,withoutlookingup,answeredgravely,\"Ithoughtsotoo。
ItwasforthatreasonIdidn’tgo。ButyoumustrememberthatveryfewpeoplefeelaboutMrs。Aubynasyoudo——\"
Glennardmanagedtosetdownhiscupwithasteadyhand,buttheroomswungroundwithhimandhedroppedintothenearestchair。
\"AsIdo?\"herepeated。
\"ImeanthatveryfewpeopleknewherwhenshelivedinNewYork。
Tomostofthewomenwhowenttothereadingshewasamerename,tooremotetohaveanypersonality。Withme,ofcourse,itwasdifferent——\"
Glennardgaveherastartledlook。\"Different?Whydifferent?\"
\"Sinceyouwereherfriend——\"
\"Herfriend!\"Hestoodupimpatiently。\"Youspeakasifshehadhadonlyone——themostfamouswomanofherday!\"Hemovedvaguelyabouttheroom,bendingdowntolookatsomebooksonthetable。
\"Ihope,\"headded,\"youdidn’tgivethatasareason,bytheway?\"
\"Areason?\"
\"Fornotgoing。Awomanwhogivesreasonsforgettingoutofsocialobligationsissuretomakeherselfunpopularorridiculous。
Thewordswereuncalculated;butinaninstanthesawthattheyhadstrangelybridgedthedistancebetweenhiswifeandhimself。
Hefelthercloseonhim,likeapantingfoe;andheranswerwasaflashthatshowedthehandonthetrigger。
\"Iseem,\"shesaidfromthethreshold,\"tohavedonebothingivingmyreasontoyou。\"
ThefactthattheywerediningoutthateveningmadeiteasyforhimtoavoidAlexatillshecamedownstairsinheropera—cloak。
Mrs。Touchett,whowasgoingtothesamedinner,hadofferedtocallforher,andGlennard,refusingaprecariousseatbetweentheladies’draperies,followedonfoot。Theeveningwasinterminable。ThereadingattheWaldorf,atwhichallthewomenhadbeenpresent,hadrevivedthediscussionofthe\"AubynLetters\"andGlennard,hearinghiswifequestionedastoherabsence,felthimselfmiserablywishingthatshehadgone,ratherthanthatherstayingawayshouldhavebeenremarked。Hewasrapidlylosingallsenseofproportionwherethe\"Letters\"wereconcerned。Hecouldnolongerhearthemmentionedwithoutsuspectingapurposeintheallusion;heevenyieldedhimselfforamomenttotheextravaganceofimaginingthatMrs。Dresham,whomhedisliked,hadorganizedthereadinginthehopeofmakinghimbetrayhimself——forhewasalreadysurethatDreshamhaddivinedhisshareinthetransaction。
Theattempttokeepasmoothsurfaceonthisinnertumultwasasendlessandunavailingaseffortsmadeinanightmare。Helostallsenseofwhathewassayingtohisneighborsandoncewhenhelookeduphiswife’sglancestruckhimcold。
Shesatnearlyoppositehim,atFlamel’sside,anditappearedtoGlennardthattheyhadbuiltaboutthemselvesoneofthoseairybarriersoftalkbehindwhichtwopeoplecansaywhattheyplease。
Whilethereadingwasdiscussedtheyweresilent。TheirsilenceseemedtoGlennardalmostcynical——itstrippedthelastdisguisefromtheircomplicity。Athrobofangerroseinhim,butsuddenlyitfell,andhefelt,withacurioussenseofrelief,thatatbottomhenolongercaredwhetherFlamelhadtoldhiswifeornot。
TheassumptionthatFlamelknewaboutthelettershadbecomeafacttoGlennard;anditnowseemedtohimbetterthatAlexashouldknowtoo。
Hewasfrightenedatfirstbythediscoveryofhisownindifference。Thelastbarriersofhiswillseemedtobebreakingdownbeforeafloodofmorallassitude。Howcouldhecontinuetoplayhispart,tokeephisfronttotheenemy,withthispoisonofindifferencestealingthroughhisveins?Hetriedtobracehimselfwiththeremembranceofhiswife’sscorn。Hehadnotforgottenthenoteonwhichtheirconversationhadclosed。Ifhehadeverwonderedhowshewouldreceivethetruthhewonderednolonger——shewoulddespisehim。Butthislentanewinsidiousnesstohistemptation,sincehercontemptwouldbearefugefromhisown。Hesaidtohimselfthat,sincehenolongercaredfortheconsequences,hecouldatleastacquithimselfofspeakinginself—defence。Whathewantednowwasnotimmunitybutcastigation:hiswife’sindignationmightstillreconcilehimtohimself。Thereinlayhisonehopeofregeneration;herscornwasthemoralantisepticthatheneeded,hercomprehensiontheonebalmthatcouldhealhim……
Whentheyleftthedinnerhewassoafraidofspeakingthatheletherdrivehomealone,andwenttotheclubwithFlamel。
IX
HErosenextmorningwiththeresolvetoknowwhatAlexathoughtofhim。Itwasnotanchoringinahaven,butlyingtoinastorm——
hefelttheneedofatemporarylullintheturmoilofhissensations。
Hecamehomelate,fortheywerediningaloneandheknewthattheywouldhavetheeveningtogether。Whenhefollowedhertothedrawing—roomafterdinnerhethoughthimselfonthepointofspeaking;butasshehandedhimhiscoffeehesaid,involuntarily:
\"Ishallhavetocarrythisofftothestudy,I’vegotalotofworkto—night。\"
Aloneinthestudyhecursedhiscowardice。Whatwasitthathadwithheldhim?Acertainbrightunapproachablenessseemedtokeephimatarm’slength。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhosecompassioncouldbecircumvented;therewasnochanceofslippingpasttheoutposts;hewouldnevertakeherbysurprise。Well——whynotfaceher,then?Whatheshrankfromcouldbenoworsethanwhathewasenduring。Hehadpushedbackhischairandturnedtogoupstairswhenanewexpedientpresenteditself。Whatif,insteadoftellingher,heweretoletherfindoutforherselfandwatchtheeffectofthediscoverybeforespeaking?Inthiswayhemadeovertochancetheburdenoftherevelation。
Theideahadbeensuggestedbythesightoftheformulaenclosingthepublisher’scheck。Hehaddepositedthemoney,butthenoticeaccompanyingitdroppedfromhisnote—caseasheclearedhistableforwork。ItwastheformulausualinsuchcasesandrevealedclearlyenoughthathewastherecipientofaroyaltyonMargaretAubyn’sletters。ItwouldbeimpossibleforAlexatoreaditwithoutunderstandingatoncethatthelettershadbeenwrittentohimandthathehadsoldthem……
Hesatdownstairstillheheardherringfortheparlor—maidtoputoutthelights;thenhewentuptothedrawing—roomwithabundleofpapersinhishand。Alexawasjustrisingfromherseatandthelamplightfellonthedeeprollofhairthatoverhungherbrowliketheeavesofatemple。Herfacehadoftenthehighsecludedlookofashrine;anditwasthistouchofaweinherbeautythatnowmadehimfeelhimselfonthebrinkofsacrilege。
Lestthefeelingshoulddominatehim,hespokeatonce。\"I’vebroughtyouapieceofwork——alotofoldbillsandthingsthatI
wantyoutosortforme。Somearenotworthkeeping——butyou’llbeabletojudgeofthat。Theremaybealetterortwoamongthem——nothingofmuchaccount,butIdon’tliketothrowawaythewholelotwithouthavingthemlookedoverandIhaven’ttimetodoitmyself。\"
Heheldoutthepapersandshetookthemwithasmilethatseemedtorecognizeintheserviceheaskedthetacitintentionofmakingamendsfortheincidentofthepreviousday。
\"AreyousureIshallknowwhichtokeep?\"
\"Oh,quitesure,\"heanswered,easily——\"andbesides,noneareofmuchimportance。\"
Thenextmorningheinventedanexcuseforleavingthehousewithoutseeingher,andwhenhereturned,justbeforedinner,hefoundavisitor’shatandstickinthehall。ThevisitorwasFlamel,whowasintheactoftakingleave。
Hehadrisen,butAlexaremainedseated;andtheirattitudegavetheimpressionofacolloquythathadprolongeditselfbeyondthelimitsofspeech。BothturnedasurprisedeyeonGlennardandhehadthesenseofwalkingintoaroomgrownsuddenlyempty,asthoughtheirthoughtswereconspiratorsdispersedbyhisapproach。
Hefelttheclutchofhisoldfear。WhatifhiswifehadalreadysortedthepapersandhadtoldFlamelofherdiscovery?Well,itwasnonewstoFlamelthatGlennardwasinreceiptofaroyaltyonthe\"AubynLetters。\"……
AsuddenresolvetoknowtheworstmadehimlifthiseyestohiswifeasthedoorclosedonFlamel。ButAlexahadrisenalso,andbendingoverherwriting—table,withherbacktoGlennard,wasbeginningtospeakprecipitately。
\"I’mdiningoutto—night——youdon’tmindmydesertingyou?JuliaArmigersentmewordjustnowthatshehadanextraticketforthelastAmbroseconcert。Shetoldmetosayhowsorryshewasthatshehadn’ttwo——butIknewYOUwouldn’tbesorry!\"SheendedwithalaughthathadtheeffectofbeingastrayedechoofMrs。
Armiger’s;andbeforeGlennardcouldspeakshehadadded,withherhandonthedoor,\"Mr。FlamelstayedsolatethatI’vehardlytimetodress。Theconcertbeginsridiculouslyearly,andJuliadinesathalf—pastseven——\"
Glennardstoodaloneintheemptyroomthatseemedsomehowfullofanironicalconsciousnessofwhatwashappening。\"Shehatesme,\"
hemurmured。\"Shehatesme……\"
ThenextdaywasSunday,andGlennardpurposelylingeredlateinhisroom。Whenhecamedownstairshiswifewasalreadyseatedatthebreakfast—table。Sheliftedherusualsmiletohisentranceandtheytookshelterinthenearesttopic,likewayfarersovertakenbyastorm。Whilehelistenedtoheraccountoftheconcerthebegantothinkthat,afterall,shehadnotyetsortedthepapers,andthatheragitationofthepreviousdaymustbeascribedtoanothercause,inwhichperhapshehadbutanindirectconcern。HewonderedithadneverbeforeoccurredtohimthatFlamelwasthekindofmanwhomightverywellpleaseawomanathisownexpense,withoutneedoffortuitousassistance。Ifthispossibilityclearedtheoutlookitdidnotbrightenit。Glennardmerelyfelthimselfleftalonewithhisbaseness。
Alexaleftthebreakfast—tablebeforehimandwhenhewentuptothedrawing—roomhefoundherdressedtogoout。
\"Aren’tyoualittleearlyforchurch?\"heasked。
Sherepliedthat,onthewaythere,shemeanttostopamomentathermother’s;andwhileshedrewonhergloves,hefumbledamongtheknick—knacksonthemantel—pieceforamatchtolighthiscigarette。
\"Well,good—by,\"shesaid,turningtogo;andfromthethresholdsheadded:\"Bytheway,I’vesortedthepapersyougaveme。ThosethatIthoughtyouwouldliketokeepareonyourstudy—table。\"
Shewentdownstairsandheheardthedoorclosebehindher。
Shehadsortedthepapers——sheknew,then——sheMUSTknow——andshehadmadenosign!
Glennard,hehardlyknewhow,foundhimselfoncemoreinthestudy。Onthetablelaythepackethehadgivenher。Itwasmuchsmaller——shehadevidentlygoneoverthepaperswithcare,destroyingthegreaternumber。Heloosenedtheelasticbandandspreadtheremainingenvelopesonhisdesk。Thepublisher’snoticewasamongthem。
X
Hiswifeknewandshemadenosign。Glennardfoundhimselfinthecaseoftheseafarerwho,closinghiseyesatnightfallonascenehethinkstoputleaguesbehindhimbeforeday,wakestoaport—
holeframingthesamepatchofshore。Fromthekindofexaltationtowhichhisresolvehadliftedhimhedroppedtoanunreasoningapathy。Hisimpulseofconfessionhadactedasadrugtoself—
reproach。Hehadtriedtoshiftaportionofhisburdentohiswife’sshouldersandnowthatshehadtacitlyrefusedtocarryit,hefelttheloadtooheavytobetakenupagain。
Afortunateintervalofhardworkbroughtrespitefromthisphaseofsterilemisery。HewentWesttoargueanimportantcase,wonit,andcamebacktofreshpreoccupations。Hisownaffairswerethrivingenoughtoengrosshiminthepausesofhisprofessionalwork,andforovertwomonthshehadlittletimetolookhimselfintheface。Notunnaturally——forhewasasyetunskilledinthesubtletiesofintrospection——hemistookhistemporaryinsensibilityforagradualrevivalofmoralhealth。
Hetoldhimselfthathewasrecoveringhissenseofproportion,gettingtoseethingsintheirtruelight;andifhenowthoughtofhisrashappealtohiswife’ssympathyitwasasanactoffollyfromtheconsequencesofwhichhehadbeensavedbytheprovidencethatwatchesovermadmen。HehadlittleleisuretoobserveAlexa;butheconcludedthatthecommon—sensemomentarilydeniedhimhadcounselledheruncriticalacceptanceoftheinevitable。Ifsuchaqualitywasapoorsubstituteforthepassionatejustnessthathadonceseemedtocharacterizeher,heacceptedthealternativeasapartofthatgeneralloweringofthekeythatseemsneedfultothemaintenanceofthematrimonialduet。
Whatwomaneverretainedherabstractsenseofjusticewhereanotherwomanwasconcerned?PossiblythethoughtthathehadprofitedbyMrs。Aubyn’stendernesswasnotwhollydisagreeabletohiswife。
Whenthepressureofworkbegantolessen,andhefoundhimself,inthelengtheningafternoons,abletoreachhomesomewhatearlier,henoticedthatthelittledrawing—roomwasalwaysfullandthatheandhiswifeseldomhadaneveningalonetogether。
Whenhewastired,asoftenhappened,shewentoutalone;theideaofgivingupanengagementtoremainwithhimseemednottooccurtoher。Shehadshown,asagirl,littlefondnessforsociety,norhadsheseemedtoregretitduringtheyeartheyhadspentinthecountry。Hereflected,however,thathewassharingthecommonlotofhusbands,whoproverbiallymistaketheearlyardorsofhousekeepingforasignofsettleddomesticity。Alexa,atanyrate,wasrefutinghistheoryasinconsideratelyasaseedlingdefeatsthegardener’sexpectations。Anundefinablechangehadcomeoverher。Inonesenseitwasahappyone,sinceshehadgrown,ifnothandsomer,atleastmorevividandexpressive;herbeautyhadbecomemorecommunicable:itwasasthoughshehadlearnedtheconsciousexerciseofintuitiveattributesandnowusedhereffectswiththediscriminationofanartistskilledinvalues。Toadispassionatecritic(asGlennardnowratedhimself)
theartmayattimeshavebeenalittletooobvious。Herattemptsatlightnesslackedspontaneity,andshesometimesraspedhimbylaughinglikeJuliaArmiger;buthehadenoughimaginationtoperceivethat,inrespectofthewife’ssocialarts,ahusbandnecessarilyseesthewrongsideofthetapestry。