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  \"TheGodowskas,\"hemurmured。\"Doyouknowthem?AmotheranddaughterfromVienna。Themotherhasaninternalcomplaintandthedaughterisanactress。FrauleinSoniaisaverymodernsoul。Ithinkyouwouldfindhermostsympathetic。Sheisforcedtobeinattendanceonhermotherjustnow。Butwhatatemperament!Ihaveoncedescribedherinherautographalbumasatigresswithaflowerinthehair。Willyouexcuseme?PerhapsIcanpersuadethemtobeintroducedtoyou。\"

  Isaid,\"Iamgoinguptomyroom。\"ButtheProfessorroseandshookaplayfulfingeratme。\"Na,\"hesaid,\"wearefriends,and,therefore,I

  shallspeakquitefranklytoyou。Ithinktheywouldconsideritalittle’marked’ifyouimmediatelyretiredtothehouseattheirapproach,aftersittingherealonewithmeinthetwilight。Youknowthisworld。Yes,youknowitasIdo。\"

  Ishruggedmyshoulders,remarkingwithoneeyethatwhiletheProfessorhadbeentalkingtheGodowskashadtrailedacrossthelawntowardsus。

  TheyconfrontedtheHerrProfessorashestoodup。

  \"Good—evening,\"quaveredFrauGodowska。\"Wonderfulweather!Ithasgivenmequiteatouchofhayfever!\"FrauleinGodowskasaidnothing。SheswoopedoverarosegrowingintheembryoorchardthenstretchedoutherhandwithamagnificentgesturetotheHerrProfessor。Hepresentedme。

  \"ThisismylittleEnglishfriendofwhomIhavespoken。Sheisthestrangerinourmidst。Wehavebeeneatingcherriestogether。\"

  \"Howdelightful,\"sighedFrauGodowska。\"MydaughterandIhaveoftenobservedyouthroughthebedroomwindow。Haven’twe,Sonia?\"

  Soniaabsorbedmyoutwardandvisibleformwithaninwardandspiritualglance,thenrepeatedthemagnificentgestureformybenefit。Thefourofussatonthebench,withthatfaintairofexcitementofpassengersestablishedinarailwaycarriageonthequiviveforthetrainwhistle。

  FrauGodowskasneezed。\"Iwonderifitishayfever,\"sheremarked,worryingthesatinreticuleforherhandkerchief,\"orwoulditbethedew。

  Sonia,dear,isthedewfalling?\"

  FrauleinSoniaraisedherfacetothesky,andhalfclosedhereyes。\"No,mamma,myfaceisquitewarm。Oh,look,HerrProfessor,thereareswallowsinflight;theyarelikealittleflockofJapanesethoughts——nichtwahr?\"

  \"Where?\"criedtheHerrProfessor。\"Ohyes,Isee,bythekitchenchimney。

  Butwhydoyousay’Japanese’?CouldyounotcomparethemwithequalveracitytoalittleflockofGermanthoughtsinflight?\"Heroundedonme。\"HaveyouswallowsinEngland?\"

  \"Ibelievetherearesomeatcertainseasons。ButdoubtlesstheyhavenotthesamesymbolicalvaluefortheEnglish。InGermany——\"

  \"IhaveneverbeentoEngland,\"interruptedFrauleinSonia,\"butIhavemanyEnglishacquaintances。Theyaresocold!\"Sheshivered。

  \"Fish—blooded,\"snappedFrauGodowska。\"Withoutsoul,withoutheart,withoutgrace。Butyoucannotequaltheirdressmaterials。IspentaweekinBrightontwentyyearsago,andthetravellingcapeIboughtthereisnotyetwornout——theoneyouwrapthehot—waterbottlein,Sonia。Mylamentedhusband,yourfather,Sonia,knewagreatdealaboutEngland。Butthemoreheknewaboutittheoftenerheremarkedtome,’Englandismerelyanislandofbeeffleshswimminginawarmgulfseaofgravy。’Suchabrilliantwayofputtingthings。Doyouremember,Sonia?\"

  \"Iforgetnothing,mamma,\"answeredSonia。

  SaidtheHerrProfessor:\"Thatistheproofofyourcalling,gnadigesFraulein。NowIwonder——andthisisaveryinterestingspeculation——ismemoryablessingor——excusetheword——acurse?\"

  FrauGodowskalookedintothedistance,thenthecornersofhermouthdroppedandherskinpuckered。Shebegantoshedtears。

  \"AchGott!Graciouslady,whathaveIsaid?\"exclaimedtheHerrProfessor。

  Soniatookhermother’shand。\"Doyouknow,\"shesaid,\"to—nightitisstewedcarrotsandnuttartforsupper。Supposewegoinandtakeourplaces,\"hersidelong,tragicstareaccusingtheProfessorandmethewhile。

  Ifollowedthemacrossthelawnandupthesteps。FrauGodowskawasmurmuring,\"Suchawonderful,belovedman\";withherdisengagedhandFrauleinSoniawasarrangingthesweetpea\"garniture。\"……

  \"AconcertforthebenefitofafflictedCatholicinfantswilltakeplaceinthesalonateight—thirtyP。M。Artists:FrauleinSoniaGodowska,fromVienna;HerrProfessorWindbergandhistrombone;FrauOberlehrerWeidel,andothers。\"

  Thisnoticewastiedroundtheneckofthemelancholystag’sheadinthedining—room。Itgracedhimlikearedandwhitedinnerbibfordaysbeforetheevent,causingtheHerrProfessortobowbeforeitandsay\"goodappetite\"untilwesickenedofhispleasantryandleftthesmilingtobedonebythewaiter,whowaspaidtobepleasingtotheguests。

  Ontheappointeddaythemarriedladiessailedaboutthepensiondressedlikeupholsteredchairs,andtheunmarriedladieslikedrapedmuslindressing—tablecovers。FrauGodowskapinnedaroseinthecentreofherreticule;anotherblossomwastuckedinthemazyfoldsofawhiteantimacassarthrownacrossherbreast。Thegentlemenworeblackcoats,whitesilktiesandfernybuttonholesticklingthechin。

  Thefloorofthesalonwasfreshlypolished,chairsandbenchesarranged,andarowoflittleflagsstrungacrosstheceiling——theyflewandjiggedinthedraughtwithalltheenthusiasmoffamilywashing。ItwasarrangedthatIshouldsitbesideFrauGodowska,andthattheHerrProfessorandSoniashouldjoinuswhentheirshareoftheconcertwasover。

  \"Thatwillmakeyoufeelquiteoneoftheperformers,\"saidtheHerrProfessorgenially。\"ItisagreatpitythattheEnglishnationissounmusical。Nevermind!To—nightyoushallhearsomething——wehavediscoveredanestoftalentduringtherehearsals。\"

  \"Whatdoyouintendtorecite,FrauleinSonia?\"

  Sheshookbackherhair。\"Ineverknowuntilthelastmoment。WhenIcomeonthestageIwaitforonemomentandthenIhavethesensationasthoughsomethingstruckmehere,\"——sheplacedherhanduponhercollarbrooch——\"and……wordscome!\"

  \"Benddownamoment,\"whisperedhermother。\"Sonia,love,yourskirtsafety—pinisshowingattheback。ShallIcomeoutsideandfastenitproperlyforyou,orwillyoudoityourself?\"

  \"Oh,mamma,pleasedon’tsaysuchthings,\"Soniaflushedandgrewveryangry。\"YouknowhowsensitiveIamtotheslightestunsympatheticimpressionatatimelikethis……Iwouldrathermyskirtdroppedoffmybody——\"

  \"Sonia——myheart!\"

  Abelltinkled。

  Thewaitercameinandopenedthepiano。Intheheatedexcitementofthemomentheentirelyforgotwhatwasfitting,andflickedthekeyswiththegrimytablenapkinhecarriedoverhisarm。TheFrauOberlehrertrippedontheplatformfollowedbyaveryyounggentleman,whoblewhisnosetwicebeforehehurledhishandkerchiefintothebosomofthepiano。

  \"Yes,Iknowyouhavenoloveforme,Andnoforget—me—not。

  Nolove,noheart,andnoforget—me—not。\"

  sangtheFrauOberlehrer,inavoicethatseemedtoissuefromherforgottenthimbleandhavenothingtodowithher。

  \"Ach,howsweet,howdelicate,\"wecried,clappinghersoothingly。Shebowedasthoughtosay,\"Yes,isn’tit?\"andretired,theveryyounggentlemandodginghertrainandscowling。

  Thepianowasclosed,anarm—chairwasplacedinthecentreoftheplatform。FrauleinSoniadriftedtowardsit。Abreathlesspause。Then,presumably,thewingedshaftstruckhercollarbrooch。Sheimploredusnottogointothewoodsintraineddresses,butratheraslightlydrapedaspossible,andbedwithheramongthepineneedles。Herloud,slightlyharshvoicefilledthesalon。Shedroppedherarmsoverthebackofthechair,movingherleanhandsfromthewrists。Wewerethrilledandsilent。

  TheHerrProfessor,besideme,abnormallyserious,hiseyesbulging,pulledathismoustacheends。FrauGodowskaadoptedthatpeculiarlydetachedattitudeoftheproudparent。Theonlysoulwhoremaineduntouchedbyherappealwasthewaiter,wholeanedidlyagainstthewallofthesalonandcleanedhisnailswiththeedgeofaprogramme。Hewas\"offduty\"andintendedtoshowit。

  \"WhatdidIsay?\"shoutedtheHerrProfessorundercoveroftumultuousapplause,\"tem—per—ament!Thereyouhaveit。Sheisaflameintheheartofalily。IknowIamgoingtoplaywell。Itismyturnnow。Iaminspired。FrauleinSonia\"——asthatladyreturnedtous,paleanddrapedinalargeshawl——\"youaremyinspiration。To—nightyoushallbethesoulofmytrombone。Waitonly。\"

  TorightandleftofuspeoplebentoverandwhisperedadmirationdownFrauleinSonia’sneck。Shebowedinthegrandstyle。

  \"Iamalwayssuccessful,\"shesaidtome。\"Yousee,whenIactIAM。InVienna,intheplaysofIbsenwehadsomanybouquetsthatthecookhadthreeinthekitchen。Butitisdifficulthere。Thereissolittlemagic。

  Doyounotfeelit?ThereisnoneofthatmysteriousperfumewhichfloatsalmostasavisiblethingfromthesoulsoftheVienneseaudiences。Myspiritstarvesforwantofthat。\"Sheleanedforward,chinonhand。

  \"Starves,\"sherepeated。

  TheProfessorappearedwithhistrombone,blewintoit,heldituptooneeye,tuckedbackhisshirtcuffsandwallowedinthesoulofSoniaGodowska。SuchasensationdidhecreatethathewasrecalledtoplayaBavariandance,whichheacknowledgedwastobetakenasabreathingexerciseratherthananartisticachievement。FrauGodowskakepttimetoitwithafan。

  Followedtheveryyounggentlemanwhopipedinatenorvoicethathelovedsomebody,\"withbloodinhisheartandathousandpains。\"FrauleinSoniaactedapoisonscenewiththeassistanceofhermother’spillvialandthearm—chairreplacedbya\"chaiselongue\";ayounggirlscratchedalullabyonayoungfiddle;andtheHerrProfessorperformedthelastsacrificialritesonthealtaroftheafflictedchildrenbyplayingtheNationalAnthem。

  \"NowImustputmammatobed,\"whisperedFrauleinSonia。\"ButafterwardsI

  musttakeawalk。ItisimperativethatIfreemyspiritintheopenairforamoment。Wouldyoucomewithmeasfarastherailwaystationandback?\"

  \"Verywell,then,knockonmydoorwhenyou’reready。\"

  ThusthemodernsoulandIfoundourselvestogetherunderthestars。

  \"Whatanight!\"shesaid。\"DoyouknowthatpoemofSapphoaboutherhandsinthestars……Iamcuriouslysapphic。Andthisissoremarkable——notonlyamIsapphic,Ifindinalltheworksofallthegreatestwriters,especiallyintheiruneditedletters,sometouch,somesignofmyself——someresemblance,somepartofmyself,likeathousandreflectionsofmyownhandsinadarkmirror。\"

  \"Butwhatabother,\"saidI。

  \"Idonotknowwhatyoumeanby’bother’;isitratherthecurseofmygenius……\"Shepausedsuddenly,staringatme。\"Doyouknowmytragedy?\"

  sheasked。

  Ishookmyhead。

  \"Mytragedyismymother。LivingwithherIlivewiththecoffinofmyunbornaspirations。Youheardthataboutthesafety—pinto—night。Itmayseemtoyoualittlething,butitruinedmythreefirstgestures。Theywere——\"

  \"Impaledonasafety—pin,\"Isuggested。

  \"Yes,exactlythat。AndwhenweareinViennaIamthevictimofmoods,youknow。Ilongtodowild,passionatethings。Andmammasays,’Pleasepouroutmymixturefirst。’OnceIrememberIflewintoarageandthrewawashstandjugoutofthewindow。Doyouknowwhatshesaid?’Sonia,itisnotsomuchthrowingthingsoutofwindows,ifonlyyouwould——’\"

  \"Choosesomethingsmaller?\"saidI。

  \"No……’tellmeaboutitbeforehand。’Humiliating!AndIdonotseeanypossiblelightoutofthisdarkness。\"

  \"Whydon’tyoujoinatouringcompanyandleaveyourmotherinVienna?\"

  \"What!Leavemypoor,little,sick,widowedmotherinVienna!SoonerthanthatIwoulddrownmyself。IlovemymotherasIlovenobodyelseintheworld——nobodyandnothing!Doyouthinkitisimpossibletoloveone’stragedy?’OutofmygreatsorrowsImakemylittlesongs,’thatisHeineormyself。\"

  \"Oh,well,that’sallright,\"Isaidcheerfully。

  \"’Butitisnotallright!\"

  Isuggestedweshouldturnback。Weturned。

  \"SometimesIthinkthesolutionliesinmarriage,\"saidFrauleinSonia。

  \"IfIfindasimple,peacefulmanwhoadoresmeandwilllookaftermamma——amanwhowouldbeformeapillow——forgeniuscannothopetomate——I

  shallmarryhim……YouknowtheHerrProfessorhaspaidmeverymarkedattentions。\"

  \"Oh,FrauleinSonia,\"Isaid,verypleasedwithmyself,\"whynotmarryhimtoyourmother?\"Wewerepassingthehairdresser’sshopatthemoment。

  FrauleinSoniaclutchedmyarm。

  \"You,you,\"shestammered。\"Thecruelty。Iamgoingtofaint。MammatomarryagainbeforeImarry——theindignity。Iamgoingtofainthereandnow。\"

  Iwasfrightened。\"Youcan’t,\"Isaid,shakingher。

  \"Comebacktothepensionandfaintasmuchasyouplease。Butyoucan’tfainthere。Alltheshopsareclosed。Thereisnobodyabout。Pleasedon’tbesofoolish。\"

  \"Hereandhereonly!\"Sheindicatedtheexactspotanddroppedquitebeautifully,lyingmotionless。

  \"Verywell,\"Isaid,\"faintaway;butpleasehurryoverit。\"

  Shedidnotmove。Ibegantowalkhome,buteachtimeIlookedbehindmeI

  sawthedarkformofthemodernsoulpronebeforethehairdresser’swindow。

  FinallyIran,androotedouttheHerrProfessorfromhisroom。\"FrauleinSoniahasfainted,\"Isaidcrossly。

  \"DulieberGott!Where?How?\"

  \"Outsidethehairdresser’sshopintheStationRoad。\"

  \"JesusandMaria!Hasshenowaterwithher?\"——heseizedhiscarafe——

  \"nobodybesideher?\"

  \"Nothing。\"

  \"Whereismycoat?Nomatter,Ishallcatchacoldonthechest。

  Willingly,Ishallcatchone……Youarereadytocomewithme?\"

  \"No,\"Isaid;\"youcantakethewaiter。\"

  \"Butshemusthaveawoman。Icannotbesoindelicateastoattempttoloosenherstays。\"

  \"Modernsoulsoughtn’ttowearthem,\"saidI。Hepushedpastmeandclattereddownthestairs……

  WhenIcamedowntobreakfastnextmorningthereweretwoplacesvacantattable。FrauleinSoniaandHerrProfessorhadgoneoffforaday’sexcursioninthewoods。

  Iwondered。

  7。ATLEHMANN’S。

  CertainlySabinadidnotfindlifeslow。Shewasonthetrotfromearlymorninguntillateatnight。Atfiveo’clockshetumbledoutofbed,buttonedonherclothes,wearingalong—sleevedalpacapinaforeoverherblackfrock,andgropedherwaydownstairsintothekitchen。

  Anna,thecook,hadgrownsofatduringthesummerthatsheadoredherbedbecauseshedidnothavetowearhercorsetsthere,butcouldspreadasmuchassheliked,rollaboutunderthegreatmattress,callinguponJesusandHolyMaryandBlessedAnthonyhimselfthatherlifewasnotfitforapiginacellar。

  Sabinawasnewtoherwork。Pinkcolourstillflewinhercheeks;therewasalittledimpleontheleftsideofhermouththatevenwhenshewasmostserious,mostabsorbed,poppedoutandgaveheraway。AndAnnablessedthatdimple。Itmeantanextrahalf—hourinbedforher;itmadeSabinalightthefire,turnoutthekitchenandwashendlesscupsandsaucersthathadbeenleftoverfromtheeveningbefore。Hans,thesculleryboy,didnotcomeuntilseven。Hewasthesonofthebutcher——amean,undersizedchildverymuchlikeoneofhisfather’ssausages,Sabinathought。Hisredfacewascoveredwithpimples,andhisnailsindescribablyfilthy。WhenHerrLehmannhimselftoldHanstogetahairpinandcleanthemhesaidtheywerestainedfrombirthbecausehismotherhadalwaysgotsoinkydoingtheaccounts——andSabinabelievedhimandpitiedhim。

  WinterhadcomeveryearlytoMindelbau。BytheendofOctoberthestreetswerebankedwaist—highwithsnow,andthegreaternumberofthe\"CureGuests,\"sickuntodeathofcoldwaterandherbs,haddepartedinnothingapproachingpeace。SothelargesalonwasshutatLehmann’sandthebreakfast—roomwasalltheaccommodationthecafeafforded。Herethefloorhadtobewashedover,thetablesrubbed,coffee—cupssetout,eachwithitslittlechinaplatterofsugar,andnewspapersandmagazineshungontheirhooksalongthewallsbeforeHerrLehmannappearedatseven—thirtyandopenedbusiness。

  Asarulehiswifeservedintheshopleadingintothecafe,butshehadchosenthequietseasontohaveababy,and,abigwomanatthebestoftimes,shehadgrownsoenormousintheprocessthatherhusbandtoldhershelookedunappetising,andhadbetterremainupstairsandsew。

  Sabinatookontheextraworkwithoutanythoughtofextrapay。Shelovedtostandbehindthecounter,cuttingupslicesofAnna’smarvellouschocolate—spottedconfections,ordoinguppacketsofsugaralmondsinpinkandbluestripedbags。

  \"You’llgetvaricoseveins,likeme,\"saidAnna。\"That’swhattheFrau’sgot,too。Nowonderthebabydoesn’tcome!Allherswelling’sgotintoherlegs。\"AndHanswasimmenselyinterested。

  Duringthemorningbusinesswascomparativelyslack。Sabinaansweredtheshopbell,attendedtoafewcustomerswhodrankaliqueurtowarmtheirstomachsbeforethemiddaymeal,andranupstairsnowandagaintoasktheFrauifshewantedanything。Butintheafternoonsixorsevenchoicespiritsplayedcards,andeverybodywhowasanybodydrankteaorcoffee。

  \"Sabina……Sabina……\"

  Sheflewfromonetabletotheother,countingouthandfulsofsmallchange,givingorderstoAnnathroughthe\"slide,\"helpingthemenwiththeirheavycoats,alwayswiththatmagicalchildairabouther,thatdelightfulsenseofperpetuallyattendingaparty。

  \"HowistheFrauLehmann?\"thewomenwouldwhisper。

  \"Shefeelsratherlow,butaswellascanbeexpected,\"Sabinawouldanswer,noddingconfidentially。

  FrauLehmann’sbadtimewasapproaching。Annaandherfriendsreferredtoitasher\"journeytoRome,\"andSabinalongedtoaskquestions,yet,beingashamedofherignorance,wassilent,tryingtopuzzleitoutforherself。

  SheknewpracticallynothingexceptthattheFrauhadababyinsideher,whichhadtocomeout——verypainfulindeed。Onecouldnothaveonewithoutahusband——thatshealsorealised。Butwhathadthemangottodowithit?

  Soshewonderedasshesatmendingteatowelsintheevening,headbentoverherwork,lightshiningonherbrowncurls。Birth——whatwasit?

  wonderedSabina。Death——suchasimplething。Shehadalittlepictureofherdeadgrandmotherdressedinablacksilkfrock,tiredhandsclaspingthecrucifixthatdraggedbetweenherflattenedbreasts,mouthcuriouslytight,yetalmostsecretlysmiling。Butthegrandmotherhadbeenbornonce——thatwastheimportantfact。

  Asshesatthereoneevening,thinking,theYoungManenteredthecafe,andcalledforaglassofportwine。Sabinaroseslowly。Thelongdayandthehotroommadeherfeelalittlelanguid,butasshepouredoutthewineshefelttheYoungMan’seyesfixedonher,lookeddownathimanddimpled。

  \"It’scoldout,\"shesaid,corkingthebottle。

  TheYoungManranhishandsthroughhissnow—powderedhairandlaughed。

  \"Iwouldn’tcallitexactlytropical,\"hesaid,\"Butyou’reverysnuginhere——lookasthoughyou’vebeenasleep。\"

  VerylanguidfeltSabinainthehotroom,andtheYoungMan’svoicewasstronganddeep。Shethoughtshehadneverseenanybodywholookedsostrong——asthoughhecouldtakeupthetableinonehand——andhisrestlessgazewanderingoverherfaceandfiguregaveheracuriousthrilldeepinherbody,halfpleasure,halfpain……Shewantedtostandthere,closebesidehim,whilehedrankhiswine。Alittlesilencefollowed。Thenhetookabookoutofhispocket,andSabinawentbacktohersewing。Sittingthereinthecorner,shelistenedtothesoundoftheleavesbeingturnedandtheloudtickingoftheclockthathungoverthegiltmirror。Shewantedtolookathimagain——therewasasomethingabouthim,inhisdeepvoice,eveninthewayhisclothesfitted。FromtheroomabovesheheardtheheavydraggingsoundofFrauLehmann’sfootsteps,andagaintheoldthoughtsworriedSabina。Ifsheherselfshouldonedaylooklikethat——feellikethat!Yetitwouldbeverysweettohavealittlebabytodressandjumpupanddown。

  \"Fraulein——what’syourname——whatareyousmilingat?\"calledtheYoungMan。

  Sheblushedandlookedup,handsquietinherlap,lookedacrosstheemptytablesandshookherhead。

  \"Comehere,andI’llshowyouapicture,\"hecommanded。

  Shewentandstoodbesidehim。Heopenedthebook,andSabinasawacolouredsketchofanakedgirlsittingontheedgeofagreat,crumpledbed,aman’soperahatonthebackofherhead。

  Heputhishandoverthebody,leavingonlythefaceexposed,thenscrutinisedSabinaclosely。

  \"Well?\"

  \"Whatdoyoumean?\"sheasked,knowingperfectlywell。

  \"Why,itmightbeyourownphotograph——theface,Imean——that’sasfarasI

  canjudge。\"

  \"Butthehair’sdonedifferently,\"saidSabina,laughing。Shethrewbackherhead,andthelaughterbubbledinherroundwhitethroat。

  \"It’sratheranicepicture,don’tyouthink?\"heasked。Butshewaslookingatacuriousringheworeonthehandthatcoveredthegirl’sbody,andonlynodded。

  \"Everseenanythinglikeitbefore?\"

  \"Oh,there’splentyofthosefunnyonesintheillustratedpapers。\"

  \"Howwouldyouliketohaveyourpicturetakenthatway?\"

  \"Me?I’dneverletanybodyseeit。Besides,Ihaven’tgotahatlikethat!\"

  \"That’seasilyremedied。\"

  Againalittlesilence,brokenbyAnnathrowinguptheslide。

  Sabinaranintothekitchen。

  \"Here,takethismilkandegguptotheFrau,\"saidAnna。\"Who’veyougotinthere?\"

  \"Gotsuchafunnyman!Ithinkhe’salittlegonehere,\"tappingherforehead。

  UpstairsintheuglyroomtheFrausatsewing,ablackshawlroundhershoulders,herfeetencasedinredwoollenslippers。Thegirlputthemilkonatablebyher,thenstood,polishingaspoononherapron。

  \"Nothingelse?\"

  \"Na,\"saidtheFrau,heavingupinherchair。\"Where’smyman?\"

  \"He’splayingcardsoveratSnipold’s。Doyouwanthim?\"

  \"Dearheaven,leavehimalone。I’mnothing。Idon’tmatter……Andthewholedaywaitinghere。\"

  Herhandshookasshewipedtherimoftheglasswithherfatfinger。

  \"ShallIhelpyoutobed?\"

  \"Yougodownstairs,leavemealone。TellAnnanottoletHansgrubthesugar——givehimoneontheear。\"

  \"Ugly——ugly——ugly,\"mutteredSabina,returningtothecafewheretheYoungManstoodcoat—buttoned,readyfordeparture。

  \"I’llcomeagainto—morrow,\"saidhe。\"Don’ttwistyourhairbacksotightly;itwillloseallitscurl。\"

  \"Well,youareafunnyone,\"shesaid。\"Goodnight。\"

  BythetimeSabinawasreadyforbedAnnawassnoring。Shebrushedoutherlonghairandgathereditinherhands……Perhapsitwouldbeapityifitlostallitscurl。Thenshelookeddownatherstraightchemise,anddrawingitoff,satdownonthesideofthebed。

  \"Iwish,\"shewhispered,smilingsleepily,\"therewasagreatbiglooking—glassinthisroom。\"

  Lyingdowninthedarkness,shehuggedherlittlebody。

  \"Iwouldn’tbetheFrauforonehundredmarks——notforathousandmarks。

  Tolooklikethat。\"

  Andhalf—dreaming,sheimaginedherselfheavingupinherchairwiththeportwinebottleinherhandastheYoungManenteredthecafe。

  Coldanddarkthenextmorning。Sabinawoke,tired,feelingasthoughsomethingheavyhadbeenpressingunderherheartallnight。Therewasasoundoffootstepsshufflingalongthepassage。HerrLehmann!Shemusthaveoversleptherself。Yes,hewasrattlingthedoor—handle。

  \"Onemoment,onemoment,\"shecalled,draggingonherstockings。

  \"Bina,tellAnnatogototheFrau——butquickly。Imustrideforthenurse。\"

  \"Yes,yes!\"shecried。\"Hasitcome?\"

  Buthehadgone,andsheranovertoAnnaandshookherbytheshoulder。

  \"TheFrau——thebaby——HerrLehmannforthenurse,\"shestuttered。

  \"NameofGod!\"saidAnna,flingingherselfoutofbed。

  Nocomplaintsto—day。Importance——enthusiasminAnna’swholebearing。

  \"Yourundownstairsandlighttheoven。Putonapanofwater\"——speakingtoanimaginarysuffererasshefastenedherblouse——\"Yes,yes,Iknow——wemustbeworsebeforewearebetter——I’mcoming——patience。\"

  Itwasdarkallthatday。Lightswereturnedonimmediatelythecafeopened,andbusinesswasverybrisk。Anna,turnedoutoftheFrau’sroombythenurse,refusedtowork,andsatinacornernursingherself,listeningtosoundsoverhead。HanswasmoresympatheticthanSabina。Healsoforsookwork,andstoodbythewindow,pickinghisnose。

  \"ButwhymustIdoeverything?\"saidSabina,washingglasses。\"Ican’thelptheFrau;sheoughtn’ttotakesuchatimeaboutit。\"

  \"Listen,\"saidAnna,\"they’vemovedherintothebackbedroomabovehere,soasnottodisturbthepeople。Thatwasagroan——thatone!\"

  \"Twosmallbeers,\"shoutedHerrLehmannthroughtheslide。

  \"Onemoment,onemoment。\"

  Ateighto’clockthecafewasdeserted。Sabinasatdowninthecornerwithouthersewing。NothingseemedtohavehappenedtotheFrau。Adoctorhadcome——thatwasall。

  \"Ach,\"saidSabina。\"Ithinknomoreofit。Ilistennomore。Ach,I

  wouldliketogoaway——Ihatethistalk。Iwillnothearit。No,itistoomuch。\"Sheleanedbothelbowsonthetable——cuppedherfaceinherhandsandpouted。

  Buttheouterdoorsuddenlyopening,shesprangtoherfeetandlaughed。

  ItwastheYoungManagain。Heorderedmoreport,andbroughtnobookthistime。

  \"Don’tgoandsitmilesaway,\"hegrumbled。\"Iwanttobeamused。Andhere,takemycoat。Can’tyoudryitsomewhere?——snowingagain。\"

  \"There’sawarmplace——theladies’cloak—room,\"shesaid。\"I’lltakeitinthere——justbythekitchen。\"

  Shefeltbetter,andquitehappyagain。

  \"I’llcomewithyou,\"hesaid。\"I’llseewhereyouputit。\"

  Andthatdidnotseematallextraordinary。Shelaughedandbeckonedtohim。

  \"Inhere,\"shecried。\"Feelhowwarm。I’llputmorewoodonthatoven。

  Itdoesn’tmatter,they’reallbusyupstairs。\"

  Shekneltdownonthefloor,andthrustthewoodintotheoven,laughingatherownwickedextravagance。

  TheFrauwasforgotten,thestupiddaywasforgotten。Herewassomeonebesideherlaughing,too。TheyweretogetherinthelittlewarmroomstealingHerrLehmann’swood。Itseemedthemostexcitingadventureintheworld。Shewantedtogoonlaughing——orburstoutcrying——or——or——catchholdoftheYoungMan。

  \"Whatafire,\"sheshrieked,stretchingoutherhands。

  \"Here’sahand;pullup,\"saidtheYoungMan。\"There,now,you’llcatchitto—morrow。\"

  Theystoodoppositetoeachother,handsstillclinging。AndagainthatstrangetremorthrilledSabina。

  \"Lookhere,\"hesaidroughly,\"areyouachild,orareyouplayingatbeingone?\"

  \"I——I——\"

  Laughterceased。Shelookedupathimonce,thendownatthefloor,andbeganbreathinglikeafrightenedlittleanimal。

  Hepulledhercloserstillandkissedhermouth。

  \"Na,whatareyoudoing?\"shewhispered。

  Heletgoherhands,heplacedhisonherbreasts,andtheroomseemedtoswimroundSabina。Suddenly,fromtheroomabove,afrightful,tearingshriek。

  Shewrenchedherselfaway,tightenedherself,drewherselfup。

  \"Whodidthat——whomadethatnoise?\"……

  Inthesilencethethinwailingofababy。

  \"Achk!\"shriekedSabina,rushingfromtheroom。

  8。THELUFTBAD。

  Ithinkitmustbetheumbrellaswhichmakeuslookridiculous。

  WhenIwasadmittedintotheenclosureforthefirsttime,andsawmyfellow—batherswalkingaboutverynearly\"intheirnakeds,\"itstruckmethattheumbrellasgaveadistinctly\"LittleBlackSambo\"touch。

  Ridiculousdignityinholdingoveryourselfagreencottonthingwitharedparroquethandlewhenyouaredressedinnothinglargerthanahandkerchief。

  Therearenotreesinthe\"LuftBad。\"Itboastsacollectionofplain,woodencells,abathshelter,twoswingsandtwooddclubs——one,presumablythelostpropertyofHerculesortheGermanarmy,andtheothertobeusedwithsafetyinthecradle。

  Andthereinallweatherswetaketheair——walking,orsittinginlittlecompaniestalkingovereachother’sailmentsandmeasurementsandillsthatfleshisheirto。

  Ahighwoodenwallcompassesusallabout;aboveitthepine—treeslookdownalittlesuperciliously,nudgingeachotherinawaythatispeculiarlytryingtoadebutante。Overthewall,ontherightside,isthemen’ssection。Wehearthemchoppingdowntreesandsawingthroughplanks,dashingheavyweightstotheground,andsingingpartsongs。Yes,theytakeitfarmoreseriously。

  OnthefirstdayIwasconsciousofmylegs,andwentbackintomycellthreetimestolookatmywatch,butwhenawomanwithwhomIhadplayedchessforthreeweekscutmedead,Itookheartandjoinedacircle。

  WelaycurledonthegroundwhileaHungarianladyofimmenseproportionstolduswhatabeautifultombshehadboughtforhersecondhusband。

  \"Avaultitis,\"shesaid,\"withniceblackrailings。AndsolargethatI

  cangodownthereandwalkabout。Boththeirphotographsarethere,withtwoveryhandsomewreathssentmebymyfirsthusband’sbrother。Thereisanenlargementofafamilygroupphotograph,too,andanilluminatedaddresspresentedtomyfirsthusbandonhismarriage。Iamoftenthere;

  itmakessuchapleasantexcursionforafineSaturdayafternoon。\"

  Shesuddenlylaydownflatonherback,tookinsixlongbreaths,andsatupagain。

  \"Thedeathagonywasdreadful,\"shesaidbrightly;\"ofthesecond,Imean。

  The’first’wasrunintobyafurniturewagon,andhadfiftymarksstolenoutofanewwaistcoatpocket,butthe’second’wasdyingforsixty—sevenhours。Ineverceasedcryingonce——noteventoputthechildrentobed。\"

  AyoungRussian,witha\"bang\"curlonherforehead,turnedtome。

  \"Canyoudothe’Salome’dance?\"sheasked。\"Ican。\"

  \"Howdelightful,\"Isaid。

  \"ShallIdoitnow?Wouldyouliketoseeme?\"

  Shesprangtoherfeet,executedaseriesofamazingcontortionsforthenexttenminutes,andthenpaused,panting,twistingherlonghair。

  \"Isn’tthatnice?\"shesaid。\"AndnowIamperspiringsosplendidly。I

  shallgoandtakeabath。\"

  OppositetomewasthebrownestwomanIhaveeverseen,lyingonherback,herarmsclaspedoverherhead。

  \"Howlonghaveyoubeenhereto—day?\"shewasasked。

  \"Oh,Ispendthedayherenow,\"sheanswered。\"Iammakingmyown’cure,’

  andlivingentirelyonrawvegetablesandnuts,andeachdayIfeelmyspiritisstrongerandpurer。Afterall,whatcanyouexpect?Themajorityofusarewalkingaboutwithpigcorpusclesandoxenfragmentsinourbrain。Thewonderistheworldisasgoodasitis。NowIliveonthesimple,providedfood\"——shepointedtoalittlebagbesideher——\"alettuce,acarrot,apotato,andsomenutsareample,rationalnourishment。Iwashthemunderthetapandeatthemraw,justastheycomefromtheharmlessearth——freshanduncontaminated。\"

  \"Doyoutakenothingelseallday?\"Icried。

  \"Water。AndperhapsabananaifIwakeinthenight。\"Sheturnedroundandleanedononeelbow。\"Youover—eatyourselfdreadfully,\"shesaid;

  \"shamelessly!HowcanyouexpecttheFlameoftheSpirittoburnbrightlyunderlayersofsuperfluousflesh?\"

  Iwishedshewouldnotstareatme,andthoughtofgoingtolookatmywatchagainwhenalittlegirlwearingastringofcoralbeadsjoinedus。

  \"ThepoorFrauHauptmanncannotjoinusto—day,\"shesaid;\"shehascomeoutinspotsalloveronaccountofhernerves。Shewasveryexcitedyesterdayafterhavingwrittentwopost—cards。\"

  \"Adelicatewoman,\"volunteeredtheHungarian,\"butpleasant。Fancy,shehasaseparateplateforeachofherfrontteeth!Butshehasnorighttoletherdaughterswearsuchshortsailorsuits。Theysitaboutonbenches,crossingtheirlegsinamostshamelessmanner。Whatareyougoingtodothisafternoon,FrauleinAnna?\"

  \"Oh,\"saidtheCoralNecklace,\"theHerrOberleutnanthasaskedmetogowithhimtoLandsdorf。Hemustbuysomeeggstheretotakehometohismother。Hesavesapennyoneighteggsbyknowingtherightpeasantstobargainwith。\"

  \"AreyouanAmerican?\"saidtheVegetableLady,turningtome。

  \"No。\"

  \"ThenyouareanEnglishwoman?\"

  \"Well,hardly——\"

  \"Youmustbeoneofthetwo;youcannothelpit。Ihaveseenyouwalkingaloneseveraltimes。Youwearyour——\"

  Igotupandclimbedontotheswing。Theairwassweetandcool,rushingpastmybody。Above,whitecloudstraileddelicatelythroughthebluesky。

  Fromthepineforeststreamedawildperfume,thebranchesswayedtogether,rhythmically,sonorously。Ifeltsolightandfreeandhappy——sochildish!

  Iwantedtopokemytongueoutatthecircleonthegrass,who,drawingclosetogether,werewhisperingmeaningly。

  \"Perhapsyoudonotknow,\"criedavoicefromoneofthecells,\"toswingisveryupsettingforthestomach?Afriendofminecouldkeepnothingdownforthreeweeksafterexcitingherselfso。\"

  Iwenttothebathshelterandwashosed。

  AsIdressed,someonetappedonthewall。

  \"Doyouknow,\"saidavoice,\"thereisamanwhoLIVESintheLuftBadnextdoor?HeburieshimselfuptothearmpitsinmudandrefusestobelieveintheTrinity。\"

  TheumbrellasarethesavinggraceoftheLuftBad。NowwhenIgo,Itakemyhusband’s\"storm\"gampandsitinacorner,hidingbehindit。

  NotthatIamintheleastashamedofmylegs。

  9。ABIRTHDAY。

  AndreasBinzerwokeslowly。Heturnedoveronthenarrowbedandstretchedhimself——yawned——openinghismouthaswidelyaspossibleandbringinghisteethtogetherafterwardswithasharp\"click。\"Thesoundofthatclickfascinatedhim;herepeateditquicklyseveraltimes,withasnappingmovementofthejaws。Whatteeth!hethought。Soundasabell,everymanjackofthem。Neverhadoneout,neverhadonestopped。Thatcomesofnotomfooleryineating,andagoodregularbrushingnightandmorning。Heraisedhimselfonhisleftelbowandwavedhisrightarmoverthesideofthebedtofeelforthechairwhereheputhiswatchandchainovernight。

  Nochairwasthere——ofcourse,he’dforgotten,therewasn’tachairinthiswretchedspareroom。Hadtoputtheconfoundedthingunderhispillow。

  \"Half—pasteight,Sunday,breakfastatnine——timeforthebath\"——hisbraintickedtothewatch。Hesprangoutofbedandwentovertothewindow。

  Thevenetianblindwasbroken,hungfan—shapedovertheupperpane……\"Thatblindmustbemended。I’llgettheofficeboytodropinandfixitonhiswayhometo—morrow——he’sagoodhandatblinds。Givehimtwopenceandhe’lldoitaswellasacarpenter……Annacoulddoitherselfifshewasallright。SowouldI,forthematterofthat,butIdon’tliketotrustmyselfonricketystep—ladders。\"Helookedupatthesky:itshone,strangelywhite,unfleckedwithcloud;helookeddownattherowofgardenstripsandbackyards。Thefenceofthesegardenswasbuiltalongtheedgeofagully,spannedbyanironsuspensionbridge,andthepeoplehadawretchedhabitofthrowingtheiremptytinsoverthefenceintothegully。

  Justlikethem,ofcourse!Andreasstartedcountingthetins,anddecided,viciously,towritealettertothepapersaboutitandsignit——signitinfull。

  Theservantgirlcameoutoftheirbackdoorintotheyard,carryinghisboots。Shethrewonedownontheground,thrustherhandintotheother,andstaredatit,suckinginhercheeks。Suddenlyshebentforward,spatonthetoecap,andstartedpolishingwithabrushrootedoutofherapronpocket……\"Slutofagirl!Heavenknowswhatinfectiousdiseasemaybebreedingnowinthatboot。Annamustgetridofthatgirl——evenifshehastodowithoutoneforabit——assoonasshe’supandaboutagain。Thewayshechuckedonebootdownandthenspatupontheother!Shedidn’tcarewhosebootsshe’dgotholdof。SHEhadnofalsenotionsoftherespectduetothemasterofthehouse。\"Heturnedawayfromthewindowandswitchedhisbathtowelfromthewashstandrail,sickatheart。\"I’mtoosensitiveforaman——that’swhat’sthematterwithme。Havebeenfromthebeginning,andwillbetotheend。\"

  Therewasagentleknockatthedoorandhismothercamein。Sheclosedthedoorafterherandleantagainstit。Andreasnoticedthathercapwascrooked,andalongtailofhairhungoverhershoulder。Hewentforwardandkissedher。

  \"Goodmorning,mother;how’sAnna?\"

  Theoldwomanspokequickly,claspingandunclaspingherhands。

  \"Andreas,pleasegotoDoctorErbassoonasyouaredressed。\"

  \"Why,\"hesaid,\"isshebad?\"

  FrauBinzernodded,andAndreas,watchingher,sawherfacesuddenlychange;afinenetworkofwrinklesseemedtopulloveritfromundertheskinsurface。

  \"Sitdownonthebedamoment,\"hesaid。\"Beenupallnight?\"

  \"Yes。No,Iwon’tsitdown,Imustgobacktoher。Annahasbeeninpainallnight。Shewouldn’thaveyoudisturbedbeforebecauseshesaidyoulookedsorundownyesterday。Youtoldheryouhadcaughtacoldandbeenveryworried。\"

  StraightwayAndreasfeltthathewasbeingaccused。

  \"Well,shemademetellher,worrieditoutofme;youknowthewayshedoes。\"

  AgainFrauBinzernodded。

  \"Ohyes,Iknow。Shesays,isyourcoldbetter,andthere’sawarmundervestforyouintheleft—handcornerofthebigdrawer。\"

  QuiteautomaticallyAndreasclearedhisthroattwice。

  \"Yes,\"heanswered。\"Tellhermythroatcertainlyfeelslooser。IsupposeI’dbetternotdisturbher?\"

  \"No,andbesides,TIME,Andreas。\"

  \"I’llbereadyinfiveminutes。\"

  Theywentintothepassage。AsFrauBinzeropenedthedoorofthefrontbedroom,alongwailcamefromtheroom。

  ThatshockedandterrifiedAndreas。Hedashedintothebathroom,turnedonbothtapsasfarastheywouldgo,cleanedhisteethandparedhisnailswhilethewaterwasrunning。

  \"Frightfulbusiness,frightfulbusiness,\"heheardhimselfwhispering。

  \"AndIcan’tunderstandit。Itisn’tasthoughitwereherfirst——it’sherthird。OldSchafertoldme,yesterday,hiswifesimply’dropped’herfourth。Annaoughttohavehadaqualifiednurse。Mothergiveswaytoher。Motherspoilsher。IwonderwhatshemeantbysayingI’dworriedAnnayesterday。Niceremarktomaketoahusbandatatimelikethis。

  Unstrung,Isuppose——andmysensitivenessagain。\"

  Whenhewentintothekitchenforhisboots,theservantgirlwasbentoverthestove,cookingbreakfast。\"Breathingintothat,now,Isuppose,\"

  thoughtAndreas,andwasveryshortwiththeservantgirl。Shedidnotnotice。Shewasfullofterrifiedjoyandimportanceinthegoingsonupstairs。Shefeltshewaslearningthesecretsoflifewitheverybreathshedrew。Hadlaidthetablethatmorningsaying,\"Boy,\"assheputdownthefirstdish,\"Girl,\"assheplacedthesecond——ithadworkedoutwiththesaltspoonto\"Boy。\"\"FortwopinsI’dtellthemasterthat,tocomforthim,like,\"shedecided。ButtheMastergavehernoopening。

  \"Putanextracupandsauceronthetable,\"hesaid;\"thedoctormaywantsomecoffee。\"

  \"Thedoctor,sir?\"Theservantgirlwhippedaspoonoutofapan,andspilttwodropsofgreaseonthestove。\"ShallIfrysomethingextra?\"

  Butthemasterhadgone,slammingthedoorafterhim。Hewalkeddownthestreet——therewasnobodyaboutatall——deadandalivethisplaceonaSundaymorning。Ashecrossedthesuspensionbridgeastrongstenchoffennelanddecayedrefusestreamedfromthegulley,andagainAndreasbeganconcoctingaletter。Heturnedintothemainroad。Theshutterswerestillupbeforetheshops。Scrapsofnewspaper,hay,andfruitskinsstrewedthepavement;thegutterswerechokedwiththeleavingsofSaturdaynight。Twodogssprawledinthemiddleoftheroad,scufflingandbiting。

  Onlythepublic—houseatthecornerwasopen;ayoungbarmansloppedwateroverthedoorstep。

  Fastidiously,hislipscurling,Andreaspickedhiswaythroughthewater。

  \"ExtraordinaryhowIamnoticingthingsthismorning。It’spartlytheeffectofSunday。IloatheaSundaywhenAnna’stiedbythelegandthechildrenareaway。OnSundayamanhastherighttoexpecthisfamily。

  Everythinghere’sfilthy,thewholeplacemightbedownwiththeplague,andwillbe,too,ifthisstreet’snotsweptaway。I’dliketohaveahandonthegovernmentropes。\"Hebracedhisshoulders。\"Nowforthisdoctor。\"

  \"DoctorErbisatbreakfast,\"themaidinformedhim。Sheshowedhimintothewaiting—room,adarkandmustyplace,withsomefernsunderaglass—casebythewindow。\"Hesayshewon’tbeaminute,please,sir,andthereisapaperonthetable。\"

  \"Unhealthyhole,\"thoughtBinzer,walkingovertothewindowanddrumminghisfingersontheglassfern—shade。\"Atbreakfast,ishe?That’sthemistakeImade:turningoutearlyonanemptystomach。\"

  Amilkcartrattleddownthestreet,thedriverstandingattheback,crackingawhip;heworeanimmensegeraniumflowerstuckinthelapelofhiscoat。Firmasarockhestood,bendingbackalittleintheswayingcart。Andreascranedhisnecktowatchhimallthewaydowntheroad,evenafterhehadgone,listeningforthesharpsoundofthoserattlingcans。

  \"H’m,notmuchwrongwithhim,\"hereflected。\"Wouldn’tmindatasteofthatlifemyself。Upearly,workalloverbyeleveno’clock,nothingtodobutloafaboutalldayuntilmilkingtime。\"Whichheknewwasanexaggeration,buthewantedtopityhimself。

  Themaidopenedthedoor,andstoodasideforDoctorErb。Andreaswheeledround;thetwomenshookhands。

  \"Well,Binzer,\"saidthedoctorjovially,brushingsomecrumbsfromapearl—colouredwaistcoat,\"sonandheirbecomingimportunate?\"

  UpwentBinzer’sspiritswithabound。Sonandheir,byJove!Hewasgladtohavetodealwithamanagain。Andasanefellowthis,whocameacrossthissortofthingeverydayoftheweek。

  \"That’saboutthemeasureofit,Doctor,\"heanswered,smilingandpickinguphishat。\"Motherdraggedmeoutofbedthismorningwithimperativeorderstobringyoualong。\"

  \"Gigwillberoundinaminute。Drivebackwithme,won’tyou?

  Extraordinary,sultryday;you’reasredasabeetrootalready。\"

  Andreasaffectedtolaugh。Thedoctorhadoneannoyinghabit——imaginedhehadtherighttopokefunateverybodysimplybecausehewasadoctor。

  \"Theman’sriddledwithconceit,likealltheseprofessionals,\"Andreasdecided。

  \"WhatsortofnightdidFrauBinzerhave?\"askedthedoctor。\"Ah,here’sthegig。Tellmeonthewayup。Sitasnearthemiddleasyoucan,willyou,Binzer?Yourweighttiltsitoverabitoneside——that’stheworstofyousuccessfulbusinessmen。\"

  \"TwostoneheavierthanI,ifhe’sapound,\"thoughtAndreas。\"Themanmaybeallrightinhisprofession——butheavenpreserveme。\"

  \"Offyougo,mybeauty。\"DoctorErbflickedthelittlebrownmare。\"Didyourwifegetanysleeplastnight?\"

  \"No;Idon’tthinkshedid,\"answeredAndreasshortly。\"Totellyouthetruth,I’mnotsatisfiedthatshehasn’tanurse。\"

  \"Oh,yourmother’sworthadozennurses,\"criedthedoctor,withimmensegusto。\"Totellyouthetruth,I’mnotkeenonnurses——tooraw——rawasrump—steak。TheywrestleforababyasthoughtheywerewrestlingwithDeathforthebodyofPatroclus……EverseenthatpicturebyanEnglishartist。Leighton?Wonderfulthing——fullofsinew!\"

  \"Therehegoesagain,\"thoughtAndreas,\"airingoffhisknowledgetomakeafoolofme。\"

  \"Nowyourmother——she’sfirm——she’scapable。Doeswhatshe’stoldwithafundofsympathy。Lookattheseshopswe’repassing——they’refesteringsores。Howonearththisgovernmentcantolerate——\"

  \"They’renotsobad——soundenough——onlywantacoatofpaint。\"

  Thedoctorwhistledalittletuneandflickedthemareagain。

  \"Well,Ihopetheyoungshaverwon’tgivehismothertoomuchtrouble,\"hesaid。\"Hereweare。\"

  Askinnylittleboy,whohadbeenslidingupanddownthebackseatofthegig,sprangoutandheldthehorse’shead。Andreaswentstraightintothedining—roomandlefttheservantgirltotakethedoctorupstairs。Hesatdown,pouredoutsomecoffee,andbitthroughhalfarollbeforehelpinghimselftofish。Thenhenoticedtherewasnohotplateforthefish——thewholehousewasatsixesandsevens。Herangthebell,buttheservantgirlcameinwithatrayholdingabowlofsoupandahotplate。

  \"I’vebeenkeepingthemonthestove,\"shesimpered。

  \"Ah,thanks,that’sverykindofyou。\"Asheswallowedthesouphisheartwarmedtothisfoolofagirl。

  \"Oh,it’sagoodthingDoctorErbhascome,\"volunteeredtheservantgirl,whowasburstingforwantofsympathy。

  \"H’m,h’m,\"saidAndreas。

  Shewaitedamoment,expectantly,rollinghereyes,theninfullloathingofmenkindwentbacktothekitchenandvowedherselftosterility。

  Andreasclearedthesoupbowl,andclearedthefish。Asheate,theroomslowlydarkened。Afaintwindsprangupandbeatthetreebranchesagainstthewindow。Thedining—roomlookedoverthebreakwateroftheharbour,andtheseaswungheavilyinrollingwaves。Windcreptroundthehouse,moaningdrearily。

  \"We’reinforastorm。ThatmeansI’mboxeduphereallday。Well,there’soneblessing;it’llcleartheair。\"Heheardtheservantgirlrushingimportantlyroundthehouse,slammingwindows。Thenhecaughtaglimpseofherinthegarden,unpeggingteatowelsfromthelineacrossthelawn。Shewasaworker,therewasnodoubtaboutthat。Hetookupabook,andwheeledhisarm—chairovertothewindow。Butitwasuseless。Toodarktoread;hedidn’tbelieveinstraininghiseyes,andgasatteno’clockinthemorningseemedabsurd。Soheslippeddowninthechair,leanedhiselbowsonthepaddedarmsandgavehimselfup,foronce,toidledreaming。\"Aboy?Yes,itwasboundtobeaboythistime……\"\"What’syourfamily,Binzer?\"\"Oh,I’vetwogirlsandaboy!\"Averynicelittlenumber。Ofcoursehewasthelastmantohaveafavouritechild,butamanneededason。\"I’mworkingupthebusinessformyson!Binzer&Son!Itwouldmeanlivingverytightforthenexttenyears,cuttingexpensesasfineaspossible;andthen——\"

  Atremendousgustofwindspranguponthehouse,seizedit,shookit,dropped,onlytogripthemoretightly。Thewavesswelledupalongthebreakwaterandwerewhippedwithbrokenfoam。Overthewhiteskyflewtatteredstreamersofgreycloud。

  AndreasfeltquiterelievedtohearDoctorErbcomingdownthestairs;hegotupandlitthegas。

  \"MindifIsmokeinhere?\"askedDoctorErb,lightingacigarettebeforeAndreashadtimetoanswer。\"Youdon’tsmoke,doyou?Notimetoindulgeinperniciouslittlehabits!\"

  \"Howisshenow?\"askedAndreas,loathingtheman。

  \"Oh,wellascanbeexpected,poorlittlesoul。Shebeggedmetocomedownandhavealookatyou。Saidsheknewyouwereworrying。\"Withlaughingeyesthedoctorlookedatthebreakfast—table。\"Managedtopeckabit,I

  see,eh?\"

  \"Hoo—wih!\"shoutedthewind,shakingthewindow—sashes。

  \"Pity——thisweather,\"saidDoctorErb。

  \"Yes,itgetsonAnna’snerves,andit’sjustnerveshewants。\"

  \"Eh,what’sthat?\"retortedthedoctor。\"Nerve!Manalive!She’sgottwicethenerveofyouandmerolledintoone。Nerve!she’snothingbutnerve。Awomanwhoworksasshedoesaboutthehouseandhasthreechildreninfouryearsthrowninwiththedusting,sotospeak!\"

  Hepitchedhishalf—smokedcigaretteintothefireplaceandfrownedatthewindow。

  \"NowHE’Saccusingme,\"thoughtAndreas。\"That’sthesecondtimethismorning——firstmotherandnowthismantakingadvantageofmysensitiveness。\"Hecouldnottrusthimselftospeak,andrangthebellfortheservantgirl。

  \"Clearawaythebreakfastthings,\"heordered。\"Ican’thavethemmessingaboutonthetabletilldinner!\"

  \"Don’tbehardonthegirl,\"coaxedDoctorErb。\"She’sgottwicetheworktodoto—day。\"

  AtthatBinzer’sangerblazedout。

  \"I’lltroubleyou,Doctor,nottointerferebetweenmeandmyservants!\"

  Andhefeltafoolatthesamemomentfornotsaying\"servant。\"

  DoctorErbwasnotperturbed。Heshookhishead,thrusthishandsintohispockets,andbeganbalancinghimselfontoeandheel。

  \"You’rejaggedbytheweather,\"hesaidwryly,\"nothingelse。Agreatpity——thisstorm。Youknowclimatehasanimmenseeffectuponbirth。A

  finedayperksawoman——givesherheartforherbusiness。Goodweatherisasnecessarytoaconfinementasitistoawashingday。Notbad——thatlastremarkofmine——foraprofessionalfossil,eh?\"

  Andreasmadenoreply。

  \"Well,I’llbegettingbacktomypatient。Whydon’tyoutakeawalk,andclearyourhead?That’stheideaforyou。\"

  \"No,\"heanswered,\"Iwon’tdothat;it’stoorough。\"

  Hewentbacktohischairbythewindow。Whiletheservantgirlclearedawayhepretendedtoread……thenhisdreams!Itseemedyearssincehehadhadthetimetohimselftodreamlikethat——heneverhadabreathingspace。

  Saddledwithworkallday,andcouldn’tshakeitoffintheeveninglikeothermen。Besides,Annawasinterested——theytalkedofpracticallynothingelsetogether。Excellentmothershe’dmakeforaboy;shehadagripofthings。

  Churchbellsstartedringingthroughthewindyair,nowsoundingasthoughfromveryfaraway,thenagainasthoughallthechurchesinthetownhadbeensuddenlytransplantedintotheirstreet。Theystirredsomethinginhim,thosebells,somethingvagueandtender。JustaboutthattimeAnnawouldcallhimfromthehall。\"Andreas,comeandhaveyourcoatbrushed。

  I’mready。\"Thenofftheywouldgo,shehangingonhisarm,andlookingupathim。Shecertainlywasalittlething。Herememberedoncesayingwhentheywereengaged,\"Justashighasmyheart,\"andshehadjumpedontoastoolandpulledhisheaddown,laughing。Akidinthosedays,youngerthanherchildreninnature,brighter,more\"go\"and\"spirit\"inher。Thewayshe’drundowntheroadtomeethimafterbusiness!Andthewayshelaughedwhentheywerelookingforahouse。ByJove!thatlaughofhers!

  Atthememoryhegrinned,thengrewsuddenlygrave。Marriagecertainlychangedawomanfarmorethanitdidaman。Talkaboutsoberingdown。Shehadlostallhergointwomonths!Well,oncethisboybusinesswasovershe’dgetstronger。Hebegantoplanalittletripforthem。He’dtakeherawayandthey’dloafabouttogethersomewhere。Afterall,dashit,theywereyoungstill。She’dgotintoagroove;he’dhavetoforceheroutofit,that’sall。

  Hegotupandwentintothedrawing—room,carefullyshutthedoorandtookAnna’sphotographfromthetopofthepiano。Sheworeawhitedresswithabigbowofsomesoftstuffunderthechin,andstood,alittlestiffly,holdingasheafofartificialpoppiesandcorninherhands。Delicateshelookedeventhen;hermassesofhairgaveherthatlook。Sheseemedtodroopundertheheavybraidsofit,andyetshewassmiling。Andreascaughthisbreathsharply。Shewashiswife——thatgirl。Posh!ithadonlybeentakenfouryearsago。Hehelditclosetohim,bentforwardandkissedit。Thenrubbedtheglasswiththebackofhishand。Atthatmoment,fainterthanhehadheardinthepassage,moreterrifying,Andreasheardagainthatwailingcry。Thewindcaughtitupinmockingecho,blewitoverthehouse—tops,downthestreet,farawayfromhim。Heflungouthisarms,\"I’msodamnablyhelpless,\"hesaid,andthen,tothepicture,\"Perhapsit’snotasbadasitsounds;perhapsitisjustmysensitiveness。\"Inthehalflightofthedrawing—roomthesmileseemedtodeepeninAnna’sportrait,andtobecomesecret,evencruel。\"No,\"hereflected,\"thatsmileisnotatallherhappiestexpression——itwasamistaketoletherhaveittakensmilinglikethat。Shedoesn’tlooklikemywife——likethemotherofmyson。\"Yes,thatwasit,shedidnotlooklikethemotherofasonwhowasgoingtobeapartnerinthefirm。Thepicturegotonhisnerves;hehelditindifferentlights,lookedatitfromadistance,sideways,spent,itseemedtoAndreasafterwards,awholelifetimetryingtofititin。Themoreheplayedwithitthedeepergrewhisdislikeofit。ThricehecarrieditovertothefireplaceanddecidedtochuckitbehindtheJapaneseumbrellainthegrate;thenhethoughtitabsurdtowasteanexpensiveframe。Therewasnogoodinbeatingaboutthebush。Annalookedlikeastranger——abnormal,afreak——itmightbeapicturetakenjustbeforeorafterdeath。

  Suddenlyherealisedthatthewindhaddropped,thatthewholehousewasstill,terriblystill。Coldandpale,withadisgustingfeelingthatspiderswerecreepinguphisspineandacrosshisface,hestoodinthecentreofthedrawing—room,hearingDoctorErb’sfootstepsdescendingthestairs。

  HesawDoctorErbcomeintotheroom;theroomseemedtochangeintoagreatglassbowlthatspunround,andDoctorErbseemedtoswimthroughthisglassbowltowardshim,likeagoldfishinapearl—colouredwaistcoat。

  \"Mybelovedwifehaspassedaway!\"Hewantedtoshoutitoutbeforethedoctorspoke。

  \"Well,she’shookedaboythistime!\"saidDoctorErb。Andreasstaggeredforward。

  \"Lookout。Keeponyourpins,\"saidDoctorErb,catchingDinzer’sarm,andmurmuring,ashefeltit,\"Flabbyasbutter。\"

  AglowspreadalloverAndreas。Hewasexultant。

  \"Well,byGod!NobodycanaccuseMEofnotknowingwhatsufferingis,\"hesaid。

  10。THECHILD—WHO—WAS—TIRED。

  Shewasjustbeginningtowalkalongalittlewhiteroadwithtallblacktreesoneitherside,alittleroadthatledtonowhere,andwherenobodywalkedatall,whenahandgrippedhershoulder,shookher,slappedherear。

  \"Oh,oh,don’tstopme,\"criedtheChild—Who—Was—Tired。\"Letmego。\"

  \"Getup,yougood—for—nothingbrat,\"saidavoice;\"getupandlighttheovenorI’llshakeeveryboneoutofyourbody。\"

  Withanimmenseeffortsheopenedhereyes,andsawtheFraustandingby,thebabybundledunderonearm。ThethreeotherchildrenwhosharedthesamebedwiththeChild—Who—Was—Tired,accustomedtobrawls,sleptonpeacefully。InacorneroftheroomtheManwasfasteninghisbraces。

  \"Whatdoyoumeanbysleepinglikethisthewholenightthrough——likeasackofpotatoes?You’veletthebabywethisbedtwice。\"

  Shedidnotanswer,buttiedherpetticoatstring,andbuttonedonherplaidfrockwithcold,shakingfingers。

  \"There,that’senough。Takethebabyintothekitchenwithyou,andheatthatcoldcoffeeonthespiritlampforthemaster,andgivehimtheloafofblackbreadoutofthetabledrawer。Don’tguzzleityourselforI’llknow。\"

  TheFraustaggeredacrosstheroom,flungherselfontoherbed,drawingthepinkbolsterroundhershoulders。

  Itwasalmostdarkinthekitchen。Shelaidthebabyonthewoodensettle,coveringhimwithashawl,thenpouredthecoffeefromtheearthenwarejugintothesaucepan,andsetitonthespiritlamptoboil。

  \"I’msleepy,\"noddedtheChild—Who—Was—Tired,kneelingonthefloorandsplittingthedamppinelogsintolittlechips。\"That’swhyI’mnotawake。\"

  Theoventookalongtimetolight。Perhapsitwascold,likeherself,andsleepy……Perhapsithadbeendreamingofalittlewhiteroadwithblacktreesoneitherside,alittleroadthatledtonowhere。

  ThenthedoorwaspulledviolentlyopenandtheManstrodein。

  \"Here,whatareyoudoing,sittingonthefloor?\"heshouted。\"Givememycoffee。I’vegottobeoff。Ugh!Youhaven’tevenwashedoverthetable。\"

  Shesprangtoherfeet,pouredhiscoffeeintoanenamelcup,andgavehimbreadandaknife,then,takingawashragfromthesink,smearedovertheblacklinoleumedtable。

  \"Swineofaday——swine’slife,\"mumbledtheMan,sittingbythetableandstaringoutofthewindowatthebruisedsky,whichseemedtobulgeheavilyoverthedullland。Hestuffedhismouthwithbreadandthenswilleditdownwiththecoffee。

  TheChilddrewapailofwater,turneduphersleeves,frowningthewhileatherarms,asiftoscoldthemforbeingsothin,somuchlikelittlestuntedtwigs,andbegantomopoverthefloor。

  \"StopsousingaboutthewaterwhileI’mhere,\"grumbledtheMan。\"Stopthebabysnivelling;it’sbeengoingonlikethatallnight。\"

  TheChildgatheredthebabyintoherlapandsatrockinghim。

  \"Ts——ts——ts,\"shesaid。\"He’scuttinghiseyeteeth,that’swhatmakeshimcryso。ANDdribble——Ineverseenababydribblelikethisone。\"Shewipedhismouthandnosewithacornerofherskirt。\"Somebabiesgettheirteethwithoutyouknowingit,\"shewenton,\"andsometakeonthiswayallthetime。Ionceheardofababythatdied,andtheyfoundallit’steethinitsstomach。\"

  TheMangotup,unhookedhiscloakfromthebackofthedoor,andflungitroundhim。

  \"There’sanothercoming,\"saidhe。

  \"What——atooth!\"exclaimedtheChild,startledforthefirsttimethatmorningoutofherdreadfulheaviness,andthrustingherfingerintothebaby’smouth。

  \"No,\"hesaidgrimly,\"anotherbaby。Now,getonwithyourwork;it’stimetheothersgotupforschool。\"Shestoodamomentquitesilently,hearinghisheavystepsonthestonepassage,thenthegravelwalk,andfinallytheslamofthefrontgate。

  \"Anotherbaby!Hasn’tshefinishedhavingthemYET?\"thoughttheChild。

  \"Twobabiesgettingeyeteeth——twobabiestogetupforinthenight——twobabiestocarryaboutandwashtheirlittlepiggyclothes!\"Shelookedwithhorrorattheoneinherarms,who,seemingtounderstandthecontemptuousloathingofhertiredglance,doubledhisfists,stiffenedhisbody,andbeganviolentlyscreaming。

  \"Ts——ts——ts。\"Shelaidhimonthesettleandwentbacktoherfloor—

  washing。Heneverceasedcryingforamoment,butshegotquiteusedtoitandkepttimewithherbroom。Oh,howtiredshewas!Oh,theheavybroomhandleandtheburningspotjustatthebackofherneckthatachedso,andafunnylittleflutteringfeelingjustatthebackofherwaistband,asthoughsomethingweregoingtobreak。

  Theclockstrucksix。Shesetthepanofmilkintheoven,andwentintothenextroomtowakeanddressthethreechildren。AntonandHanslaytogetherinattitudesofmutualamitywhichcertainlyneverexistedoutoftheirsleepinghours。Lenawascurledup,herkneesunderherchin,onlyastraight,standing—uppigtailofhairshowingabovethebolster。

  \"Getup,\"criedtheChild,speakinginavoiceofimmenseauthority,pullingoffthebedclothesandgivingtheboyssundrypokesanddigs。

  \"I’vebeencallingyouthislasthalf—hour。It’slate,andI’lltellonyouifyoudon’tgetdressedthisminute。\"

  AntonawokesufficientlytoturnoverandkickHansonatenderpart,whereuponHanspulledLena’spigtailuntilsheshriekedforhermother。

  \"Oh,dobequiet,\"whisperedtheChild。\"Oh,dogetupanddress。Youknowwhatwillhappen。There——I’llhelpyou。\"

  Butthewarningcametoolate。TheFraugotoutofbed,walkedinadeterminedfashionintothekitchen,returningwithabundleoftwigsinherhandfastenedtogetherwithastrongcord。Onebyoneshelaidthechildrenacrossherkneeandseverelybeatthem,expendingafinalburstofenergyontheChild—Who—Was—Tired,thenreturnedtobed,withacomfortablesenseofhermaternaldutiesingoodworkingorderfortheday。Verysubdued,thethreeallowedthemselvestobedressedandwashedbytheChild,whoevenlacedtheboys’boots,havingfoundthroughexperiencethatiflefttothemselvestheyhoppedaboutforatleastfiveminutestofindacomfortableledgefortheirfoot,andthenspatontheirhandsandbrokethebootlaces。

  Whileshegavethemtheirbreakfasttheybecameuproarious,andthebabywouldnotceasecrying。Whenshefilledthetinkettlewithmilk,tiedontherubberteat,and,firstmoisteningitherself,triedwithlittlecoaxingwordstomakehimdrink,hethrewthebottleontothefloorandtrembledallover。

  \"Eyeteeth!\"shoutedHans,hittingAntonovertheheadwithhisemptycup;

  \"he’sgettingtheevil—eyeteeth,Ishouldsay。\"

  \"Smarty!\"retortedLena,pokingouthertongueathim,andthen,whenhepromptlydidthesame,cryingatthetopofhervoice,\"Mother,Hansismakingfacesatme!\"

  \"That’sright,\"saidHans;\"goonhowling,andwhenyou’reinbedto—nightI’llwaittillyou’reasleep,andthenI’llcreepoverandtakealittletinypieceofyourarmandtwistandtwistituntil——\"HeleantoverthetablemakingthemosthorriblefacesatLena,notnoticingthatAntonwasstandingbehindhischairuntilthelittleboybentoverandspatonhisbrother’sshavenhead。

  \"Oh,weh!oh,weh!\"

  TheChild—Who—Was—Tiredpushedandpulledthemapart,muffledthemintotheircoats,anddrovethemoutofthehouse。

  \"Hurry,hurry!thesecondbell’srung,\"sheurged,knowingperfectlywellshewastellingastory,andratherexultinginthefact。Shewashedupthebreakfastthings,thenwentdowntothecellartolookoutthepotatoesandbeetroot。

  Suchafunny,coldplacethecoalcellar!Withpotatoesbankedononecorner,beetrootinanoldcandlebox,twotubsofsauerkraut,andatwistedmassofdahliaroots——thatlookedasrealasthoughtheywerefightingoneanother,thoughttheChild。

  Shegatheredthepotatoesintoherskirt,choosingbigoneswithfeweyesbecausetheywereeasiertopeel,andbendingoverthedullheapinthesilentcellar,shebegantonod。

  \"Here,you,whatareyoudoingdownthere?\"criedtheFrau,fromthetopofthestairs。\"Thebaby’sfallenoffthesettle,andgotabumpasbigasaneggoverhiseye。Comeuphere,andI’llteachyou!\"

  \"Itwasn’tme——itwasn’tme!\"screamedtheChild,beatenfromonesideofthehalltotheother,sothatthepotatoesandbeetrootrolledoutofherskirt。

  TheFrauseemedtobeasbigasagiant,andtherewasacertainheavinessinallhermovementsthatwasterrifyingtoanyonesosmall。

  \"Sitinthecorner,andpeelandwashthevegetables,andkeepthebabyquietwhileIdothewashing。\"

  Whimperingsheobeyed,butastokeepingthebabyquiet,thatwasimpossible。Hisfacewashot,littlebeadsofsweatstoodalloverhishead,andhestiffenedhisbodyandcried。Sheheldhimonherknees,withapanofcoldwaterbesideherforthecleanedvegetablesandthe\"ducks’

  bucket\"forthepeelings。

  \"Ts——ts——ts!\"shecrooned,scrapingandboring;\"there’sgoingtobeanothersoon,andyoucan’tbothkeeponcrying。Whydon’tyougotosleep,baby?Iwould,ifIwereyou。I’lltellyouadream。Onceuponatimetherewasalittlewhiteroad——\"

  Sheshookbackherhead,agreatlumpachedinherthroatandthenthetearsrandownherfaceontothevegetables。

  \"That’snogood,\"saidtheChild,shakingthemaway。\"JuststopcryinguntilI’vefinishedthis,baby,andI’llwalkyouupanddown。\"

  ButbythattimeshehadtopegoutthewashingfortheFrau。Awindhadsprungup。Standingontiptoeintheyard,shealmostfeltshewouldbeblownaway。Therewasabadsmellcomingfromtheducks’coop,whichwashalffullofmanurewater,butawayinthemeadowshesawthegrassblowinglikelittlegreenhairs。Andsherememberedhavingheardofachildwhohadonceplayedforawholedayinjustsuchameadowwithrealsausagesandbeerforherdinner——andnotalittlebitoftiredness。Whohadtoldherthatstory?Shecouldnotremember,andyetitwassoplain。

  Thewetclothesflappedinherfaceasshepeggedthem;dancedandjiggedontheline,bulgedoutandtwisted。Shewalkedbacktothehousewithlaggingsteps,lookinglonginglyatthegrassinthemeadow。

  \"WhatmustIdonow,please?\"shesaid。

  \"Makethebedsandhangthebaby’smattressoutofthewindow,thengetthewagonandtakehimforalittlewalkalongtheroad。Infrontofthehouse,mind——whereIcanseeyou。Don’tstandthere,gaping!ThencomeinwhenIcallyouandhelpmecutupthesalad。\"

  WhenshehadmadethebedstheChildstoodandlookedatthem。Gentlyshestrokedthepillowwithherhand,andthen,justforonemoment,letherheadrestthere。Againthesmartinglumpinherthroat,thestupidtearsthatfellandkeptonfallingasshedressedthebabyanddraggedthelittlewagonupanddowntheroad。

  Amanpassed,drivingabullockwagon。Heworealong,queerfeatherinhishat,andwhistledashepassed。Twogirlswithbundlesontheirshoulderscamewalkingoutofthevillage——oneworearedhandkerchiefaboutherheadandoneablue。Theywerelaughingandholdingeachotherbythehand。Thenthesunpushedbyaheavyfoldofgreycloudandspreadawarmyellowlightovereverything。

  \"Perhaps,\"thoughttheChild—Who—Was—Tired,\"ifIwalkedfarenoughupthisroadImightcometoalittlewhiteone,withtallblacktreesoneitherside——alittleroad——\"

  \"Salad,salad!\"criedtheFrau’svoicefromthehouse。

  Soonthechildrencamehomefromschool,dinnerwaseaten,theMantooktheFrau’sshareofpuddingaswellashisown,andthethreechildrenseemedtosmearthemselvesalloverwithwhatevertheyate。Thenmoredish—washingandmorecleaningandbaby—minding。Sotheafternoondraggedcoldlythrough。

  OldFrauGrathwohlcameinwithafreshpieceofpig’sfleshfortheFrau,andtheChildlistenedtothemgossipingtogether。

  \"FrauMandawentonher’journeytoRome’lastnight,andbroughtbackadaughter。Howareyoufeeling?\"

  \"Iwassicktwicethismorning,\"saidtheFrau。\"Myinsidesarealltwistedupwithhavingchildrentooquickly。\"

  \"Iseeyou’vegotanewhelp,\"commentedoldMotherGrathwohl。

  \"Oh,dearLord\"——theFrauloweredhervoice——\"don’tyouknowher?She’sthefree—bornone——daughterofthewaitressattherailwaystation。Theyfoundhermothertryingtosqueezeherheadinthewash—handjug,andthechild’shalfsilly。\"

  \"Ts——ts——ts!\"whisperedthe\"free—born\"onetothebaby。

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