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  AsthedaydrewintheChild—Who—Was—Tireddidnotknowhowtofighthersleepinessanylonger。Shewasafraidtositdownorstandstill。AsshesatatsuppertheManandtheFrauseemedtoswelltoanimmensesizeasshewatchedthem,andthenbecomesmallerthandolls,withlittlevoicesthatseemedtocomefromoutsidethewindow。Lookingatthebaby,itsuddenlyhadtwoheads,andthennohead。Evenhiscryingmadeherfeelworse。Whenshethoughtofthenearnessofbedtimesheshookalloverwithexcitedjoy。Butaseighto’clockapproachedtherewasthesoundofwheelsontheroad,andpresentlyincameapartyoffriendstospendtheevening。

  Thenitwas:

  \"Putonthecoffee。\"

  \"Bringmethesugartin。\"

  \"Carrythechairsoutofthebedroom。\"

  \"Setthetable。\"

  And,finally,theFrausentherintothenextroomtokeepthebabyquiet。

  Therewasalittlepieceofcandleburningintheenamelbracket。Asshewalkedupanddownshesawhergreatbigshadowonthewalllikeagrown—uppersonwithagrown—upbaby。Whateverwoulditlooklikewhenshecarriedtwobabiesso!

  \"Ts——ts——ts!\"Onceuponatimeshewaswalkingalongalittlewhiteroad,withoh!suchgreatbigblacktreesoneitherside。\"

  \"Hereyou!\"calledtheFrau’svoice,\"bringmemynewjacketfrombehindthedoor。\"Andasshetookitintothewarmroomoneofthewomensaid,\"Shelookslikeanowl。Suchchildrenareseldomrightintheirheads。\"

  \"Whydon’tyoukeepthatbabyquiet?\"saidtheMan,whohadjustdrunkenoughbeertomakehimfeelverybraveandmasterofhishouse。

  \"Ifyoudon’tkeepthatbabyquietyou’llknowwhylateron。\"

  Theyburstoutlaughingasshestumbledbackintothebedroom。

  \"Idon’tbelieveHolyMarycouldkeephimquiet,\"shemurmured。\"DidJesuscrylikethiswhenHewaslittle?IfIwasnotsotiredperhapsIcoulddoit;butthebabyjustknowsthatIwanttogotosleep。Andthereisgoingtobeanotherone。\"

  Sheflungthebabyonthebed,andstoodlookingathimwithterror。

  Fromthenextroomtherecamethejingleofglassesandthewarmsoundoflaughter。

  Andshesuddenlyhadabeautifulmarvellousidea。

  Shelaughedforthefirsttimethatday,andclappedherhands。

  \"Ts——ts——ts!\"shesaid,\"liethere,sillyone;youWILLgotosleep。

  You’llnotcryanymoreorwakeupinthenight。Funny,little,uglybaby。\"

  Heopenedhiseyes,andshriekedloudlyatthesightoftheChild—Who—Was—Tired。FromthenextroomsheheardtheFraucallouttoher。

  \"Onemoment——heisalmostasleep,\"shecried。

  Andthengently,smiling,ontiptoe,shebroughtthepinkbolsterfromtheFrau’sbedandcoveredthebaby’sfacewithit,pressedwithallhermightashestruggled,\"likeaduckwithitsheadoff,wriggling\",shethought。

  Sheheavedalongsigh,thenfellbackontothefloor,andwaswalkingalongalittlewhiteroadwithtallblacktreesoneitherside,alittleroadthatledtonowhere,andwherenobodywalkedatall——nobodyatall。

  11。THEADVANCEDLADY。

  \"Doyouthinkwemightaskhertocomewithus,\"saidFrauleinElsa,retyingherpinksashribbonbeforemymirror。\"Youknow,althoughsheissointellectual,Icannothelpfeelingconvincedthatshehassomesecretsorrow。AndLisatoldmethismorning,asshewasturningoutmyroom,thatsheremainshoursandhoursbyherself,writing;infactLisasayssheiswritingabook!Isupposethatiswhyshenevercarestominglewithus,andhassolittletimeforherhusbandandthechild。\"

  \"Well,YOUaskher,\"saidI。\"Ihaveneverspokentothelady。\"

  Elsablushedfaintly。\"Ihaveonlyspokentoheronce,\"sheconfessed。\"I

  tookherabunchofwildflowers,toherroom,andshecametothedoorinawhitegown,withherhairloose。NevershallIforgetthatmoment。Shejusttooktheflowers,andIheardher——becausethedoorwasnotquiteproperlyshut——Iheardher,asIwalkeddownthepassage,saying’Purity,fragrance,thefragranceofpurityandthepurityoffragrance!’Itwaswonderful!\"

  AtthatmomentFrauKellermannknockedatthedoor。

  \"Areyouready?\"shesaid,comingintotheroomandnoddingtousverygenially。\"Thegentlemenarewaitingonthesteps,andIhaveaskedtheAdvancedLadytocomewithus。\"

  \"Na,howextraordinary!\"criedElsa。\"ButthismomentthegnadigeFrauandIweredebatingwhether——\"

  \"Yes,Imethercomingoutofherroomandshesaidshewascharmedwiththeidea。Likeallofus,shehasneverbeentoSchlingen。Sheisdownstairsnow,talkingtoHerrErchardt。Ithinkweshallhaveadelightfulafternoon。\"

  \"IsFritziwaitingtoo?\"askedElsa。

  \"Ofcourseheis,dearchild——asimpatientasahungrymanlisteningforthedinnerbell。Runalong!\"

  Elsaran,andFrauKellermannsmiledatmesignificantly。InthepastsheandIhadseldomspokentoeachother,owingtothefactthather\"oneremainingjoy\"——hercharminglittleKarl——hadneversucceededinkindlingintoflamethosesparksofmaternitywhicharesupposedtoglowingreatnumbersuponthealtarofeveryrespectablefemaleheart;but,inviewofapremeditatedjourneytogether,webecamedelightfullycordial。

  \"Forus,\"shesaid,\"therewillbeadoublejoy。Weshallbeabletowatchthehappinessofthesetwodearchildren,ElsaandFritz。Theyonlyreceivedthelettersofblessingfromtheirparentsyesterdaymorning。Itisaverystrangething,butwheneverIaminthecompanyofnewly—engagedcouplesIblossom。Newly—engagedcouples,motherswithfirstbabies,andnormaldeathbedshavepreciselythesameeffectonme。Shallwejointheothers?\"

  Iwaslongingtoaskherwhynormaldeathbedsshouldcauseanyonetoburstintoflower,andsaid,\"Yes,doletus。\"

  Weweregreetedbythelittlepartyof\"cureguests\"onthepensionsteps,withthosecriesofjoyandexcitementwhichheraldsopleasantlythemildestGermanexcursion。HerrErchardtandIhadnotmetbeforethatday,so,inaccordancewithstrictpensioncustom,weaskedeachotherhowlongwehadsleptduringthenight,hadwedreamedagreeably,whattimewehadgotup,wasthecoffeefreshwhenwehadappearedatbreakfast,andhowhadwepassedthemorning。Havingtoiledupthesestairsofalmostnationalpolitenesswelanded,triumphantandsmiling,andpausedtorecoverbreath。

  \"Andnow,\"saidHerrErchardt,\"Ihaveapleasureinstoreforyou。TheFrauProfessorisgoingtobeoneofusfortheafternoon。Yes,\"noddinggraciouslytotheAdvancedLady。\"Allowmetointroduceyoutoeachother。\"

  Webowedveryformally,andlookedeachotheroverwiththateyewhichisknownas\"eagle\"butisfarmorethepropertyofthefemalethanthatmostunoffendingofbirds。\"IthinkyouareEnglish?\"shesaid。Iacknowledgedthefact。\"IamreadingagreatmanyEnglishbooksjustnow——rather,Iamstudyingthem。\"

  \"Nu,\"criedHerrErchardt。\"Fancythat!Whatabondalready!IhavemadeupmymindtoknowShakespeareinhismothertonguebeforeIdie,butthatyou,FrauProfessor,shouldbealreadyimmersedinthosewellsofEnglishthought!\"

  \"FromwhatIhaveread,\"shesaid,\"Idonotthinktheyareverydeepwells。\"

  Henoddedsympathetically。

  \"No,\"heanswered,\"soIhaveheard……ButdonotletusembitterourexcursionforourlittleEnglishfriend。Wewillspeakofthisanothertime。\"

  \"Nu,areweready?\"criedFritz,whostood,supportingElsa’selbowinhishand,atthefootofthesteps。ItwasimmediatelydiscoveredthatKarlwaslost。

  \"Ka——rl,Karl——chen!\"wecried。Noresponse。

  \"Buthewashereonemomentago,\"saidHerrLangen,atired,paleyouth,whowasrecoveringfromanervousbreakdownduetomuchphilosophyandlittlenourishment。\"Hewassittinghere,pickingouttheworksofhiswatchwithahairpin!\"

  FrauKellermannroundedonhim。\"Doyoumeantosay,mydearHerrLangen,youdidnotstopthechild!\"

  \"No,\"saidHerrLangen;\"I’vetriedstoppinghimbeforenow。\"

  \"Da,thatchildhassuchenergy;neverishisbrainatpeace。Ifheisnotdoingonething,heisdoinganother!\"

  \"Perhapshehasstartedonthedining—roomclocknow,\"suggestedHerrLangen,abominablyhopeful。

  TheAdvancedLadysuggestedthatweshouldgowithouthim。\"Inevertakemylittledaughterforwalks,\"shesaid。\"IhaveaccustomedhertosittingquietlyinmybedroomfromthetimeIgooutuntilIreturn!\"

  \"Thereheis——thereheis,\"pipedElsa,andKarlwasobservedslitheringdownachestnut—tree,verymuchtheworsefortwigs。

  \"I’vebeenlisteningtowhatyousaidaboutme,mumma,\"heconfessedwhileFrauKellermannbrushedhimdown。\"Itwasnottrueaboutthewatch。Iwasonlylookingatit,andthelittlegirlneverstaysinthebedroom。Shetoldmeherselfshealwaysgoesdowntothekitchen,and——\"

  \"Da,that’senough!\"saidFrauKellermann。

  Wemarchedenmassealongthestationroad。Itwasaverywarmafternoon,andcontinuouspartiesof\"cureguests\",whoweregivingtheirdigestionsaquietairinginpensiongardens,calledafterus,askedifweweregoingforawalk,andcried\"HerrGott——happyjourney\"withimmenseill—concealedrelishwhenwementionedSchlingen。

  \"Butthatiseightkilometres,\"shoutedoneoldmanwithawhitebeard,wholeanedagainstafence,fanninghimselfwithayellowhandkerchief。

  \"Sevenandahalf,\"answeredHerrErchardtshortly。

  \"Eight,\"bellowedthesage。

  \"Sevenandahalf!\"

  \"Eight!\"

  \"Themanismad,\"saidHerrErchardt。

  \"Well,pleaselethimbemadinpeace,\"saidI,puttingmyhandsovermyears。

  \"Suchignorancemustnotbeallowedtogouncontradicted,\"saidhe,andturninghisbackonus,tooexhaustedtocryoutanylonger,heheldupsevenandahalffingers。

  \"Eight!\"thunderedthegreybeard,withpristinefreshness。

  Wefeltverysobered,anddidnotrecoveruntilwereachedawhitesignpostwhichentreatedustoleavetheroadandwalkthroughthefieldpath——

  withouttramplingdownmoreofthegrassthanwasnecessary。Beinginterpreted,itmeant\"singlefile\",whichwasdistressingforElsaandFritz。Karl,likeahappychild,gambolledahead,andcutdownasmanyflowersaspossiblewiththestickofhismother’sparasol——followedthethreeothers——thenmyself——andtheloversintherear。AndabovetheconversationoftheadvancepartyIhadtheprivilegeofhearingthesedeliciouswhispers。

  Fritz:\"Doyouloveme?\"Elsa:\"Nu——yes。\"Fritzpassionately:\"Buthowmuch?\"TowhichElsaneverreplied——exceptwith\"HowmuchdoYOUloveME?\"

  FritzescapedthattrulyChristiantrapbysaying,\"Iaskedyoufirst。\"

  ItgrewsoconfusingthatIslippedinfrontofFrauKellermann——andwalkedinthepeacefulknowledgethatshewasblossomingandIwasundernoobligationtoinformevenmynearestanddearestastotheprecisecapacityofmyaffections。\"Whatrighthavetheytoaskeachothersuchquestionsthedayafterlettersofblessinghavebeenreceived?\"Ireflected。\"Whatrighthavetheyeventoquestioneachother?Lovewhichbecomesengagedandmarriedisapurelyaffirmativeaffair——theyareusurpingtheprivilegesoftheirbettersandwisers!\"

  Theedgesofthefieldfrilledoverintoanimmensepineforest——verypleasantandcoolitlooked。AnothersignpostbeggedustokeeptothebroadpathforSchlingenanddepositwastepaperandfruitpeelingsinwirereceptaclesattachedtothebenchesforthepurpose。Wesatdownonthefirstbench,andKarlwithgreatcuriosityexploredthewirereceptacle。

  \"Ilovewoods,\"saidtheAdvancedLady,smilingpitifullyintotheair。

  \"Inawoodmyhairalreadyseemstostirandremembersomethingofitssavageorigin。\"

  \"Butspeakingliterally,\"saidFrauKellermann,afteranappreciativepause,\"thereisreallynothingbetterthantheairofpine—treesforthescalp。\"

  \"Oh,FrauKellermann,pleasedon’tbreakthespell,\"saidElsa。

  TheAdvancedLadylookedatherverysympathetically。\"Haveyou,too,foundthemagicheartofNature?\"shesaid。

  ThatwasHerrLangen’scue。\"Naturehasnoheart,\"saidhe,verybitterlyandreadily,aspeopledowhoareover—philosophisedandunderfed。\"Shecreatesthatshemaydestroy。Sheeatsthatshemayspewupandshespewsupthatshemayeat。Thatiswhywe,whoareforcedtoekeoutanexistenceathertramplingfeet,considertheworldmad,andrealisethedeadlyvulgarityofproduction。\"

  \"Youngman,\"interruptedHerrErchardt,\"youhaveneverlivedandyouhaveneversuffered!\"

  \"Oh,excuseme——howcanyouknow?\"

  \"Iknowbecauseyouhavetoldme,andthere’sanendofit。Comebacktothisbenchintenyears’timeandrepeatthosewordstome,\"saidFrauKellermann,withaneyeuponFritz,whowasengagedincountingElsa’sfingerswithpassionatefervour——\"andbringwithyouyouryoungwife,HerrLangen,andwatch,perhaps,yourlittlechildplayingwith——\"SheturnedtowardsKarl,whohadrootedanoldillustratedpaperoutofthereceptacleandwasspellingoveranadvertisementfortheenlargementofBeautifulBreasts。

  Thesentenceremainedunfinished。Wedecidedtomoveon。Asweplungedmoredeeplyintothewoodourspiritsrose——reachingapointwheretheyburstintosong——onthepartofthethreemen——\"OWelt,wiebistduwunderbar!\"——thelowerpartofwhichwaspiercinglysustainedbyHerrLangen,whoattemptedquiteunsuccessfullytoinfusesatireintoitinaccordancewithhis——\"worldoutlook\"。Theystrodeaheadandleftustotrailafterthem——hotandhappy。

  \"Nowistheopportunity,\"saidFrauKellermann。\"DearFrauProfessor,dotellusalittleaboutyourbook。\"

  \"Ach,howdidyouknowIwaswritingone?\"shecriedplayfully。

  \"Elsa,here,haditfromLisa。AndneverbeforehaveIpersonallyknownawomanwhowaswritingabook。Howdoyoumanagetofindenoughtowritedown?\"

  \"Thatisneverthetrouble,\"saidtheAdvancedLady——shetookElsa’sarmandleanedonitgently。\"Thetroubleistoknowwheretostop。Mybrainhasbeenahiveforyears,andaboutthreemonthsagothepent—upwatersburstovermysoul,andsincethenIamwritingalldayuntillateintothenight,stilleverfindingfreshinspirationsandthoughtswhichbeatimpatientwingsaboutmyheart。\"

  \"Isitanovel?\"askedElsashyly。

  \"Ofcourseitisanovel,\"saidI。

  \"Howcanyoubesopositive?\"saidFrauKellermann,eyeingmeseverely。

  \"Becausenothingbutanovelcouldproduceaneffectlikethat。\"

  \"Ach,don’tquarrel,\"saidtheAdvancedLadysweetly。\"Yes,itisanovel——upontheModernWoman。Forthisseemstomethewoman’shour。Itismysteriousandalmostprophetic,itisthesymbolofthetrueadvancedwoman:notoneofthoseviolentcreatureswhodenytheirsexandsmothertheirfrailwingsunder……under——\"

  \"TheEnglishtailor—made?\"fromFrauKellermann。

  \"Iwasnotgoingtoputitlikethat。Rather,underthelyinggarboffalsemasculinity!\"

  \"Suchasubtledistinction!\"Imurmured。

  \"Whomthen,\"askedFrauleinElsa,lookingadoringlyattheAdvancedLady——

  \"whomthendoyouconsiderthetruewoman?\"

  \"SheistheincarnationofcomprehendingLove!\"

  \"ButmydearFrauProfessor,\"protestedFrauKellermann,\"youmustrememberthatonehassofewopportunitiesforexhibitingLovewithinthefamilycirclenowadays。One’shusbandisatbusinessallday,andnaturallydesirestosleepwhenhereturnshome——one’schildrenareoutofthelapandinattheuniversitybeforeonecanlavishanythingatalluponthem!\"

  \"ButLoveisnotaquestionoflavishing,\"saidtheAdvancedLady。\"Itisthelampcarriedinthebosomtouchingwithsereneraysalltheheightsanddepthsof——\"

  \"DarkestAfrica,\"Imurmuredflippantly。

  Shedidnothear。

  \"Themistakewehavemadeinthepast——asasex,\"saidshe,\"isinnotrealisingthatourgiftsofgivingareforthewholeworld——wearethegladsacrificeofourselves!\"

  \"Oh!\"criedElsarapturously,andalmostburstingintogiftsasshebreathed——\"howIknowthat!YouknoweversinceFritzandIhavebeenengaged,Isharethedesiretogivetoeverybody,toshareeverything!\"

  \"Howextremelydangerous,\"saidI。

  \"Itisonlythebeautyofdanger,orthedangerofbeauty\"saidtheAdvancedLady——\"andthereyouhavetheidealofmybook——thatwomanisnothingbutagift。\"

  Ismiledatherverysweetly。\"Doyouknow,\"Isaid,\"I,too,wouldliketowriteabook,ontheadvisabilityofcaringfordaughters,andtakingthemforairingsandkeepingthemoutofkitchens!\"

  Ithinkthemasculineelementmusthavefelttheseangryvibrations:theyceasedfromsinging,andtogetherweclimbedoutofthewood,toseeSchlingenbelowus,tuckedinacircleofhills,thewhitehousesshininginthesunlight,\"foralltheworldlikeeggsinabird’snest\",asHerrErchardtdeclared。WedescendeduponSchlingenanddemandedsourmilkwithfreshcreamandbreadattheInnoftheGoldenStag,amostfriendlyplace,withtablesinarose—gardenwherehensandchickensranriot——evenfloppinguponthedisusedtablesandpeckingattheredchecksonthecloths。Webrokethebreadintothebowls,addedthecream,andstirreditroundwithflatwoodenspoons,thelandlordandhiswifestandingby。

  \"Splendidweather!\"saidHerrErchardt,wavinghisspoonatthelandlord,whoshruggedhisshoulders。

  \"What!youdon’tcallitsplendid!\"

  \"Asyouplease,\"saidthelandlord,obviouslyscorningus。

  \"Suchabeautifulwalk,\"saidFrauleinElsa,makingafreegiftofhermostcharmingsmiletothelandlady。

  \"Ineverwalk,\"saidthelandlady;\"whenIgotoMindelbaumymandrivesme——I’vemoreimportantthingstodowithmylegsthanwalkthemthroughthedust!\"

  \"Ilikethesepeople,\"confessedHerrLangentome。\"Ilikethemvery,verymuch。IthinkIshalltakearoomhereforthewholesummer。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Oh,becausetheyliveclosetotheearth,andthereforedespiseit。\"

  Hepushedawayhisbowlofsourmilkandlitacigarette。Weate,solidlyandseriously,untilthosesevenandahalfkilometrestoMindelbaustretchedbeforeuslikeaneternity。EvenKarl’sactivitybecamesofullfedthathelayonthegroundandremovedhisleatherwaistbelt。ElsasuddenlyleanedovertoFritzandwhispered,whoonhearinghertotheendandaskingherifshelovedhim,gotupandmadealittlespeech。

  \"We——wewishtocelebrateourbetrothalby——by——askingyoualltodrivebackwithusinthelandlord’scart——if——itwillholdus!\"

  \"Oh,whatabeautiful,nobleidea!\"saidFrauKellermann,heavingasighofreliefthataudiblybursttwohooks。

  \"Itismylittlegift,\"saidElsatotheAdvancedLady,whobyvirtueofthreeportionsalmostwepttearsofgratitude。

  Squeezedintothepeasantcartanddrivenbythelandlord,whoshowedhiscontemptformotherearthbyspittingsavagelyeverynowandagain,wejoltedhomeagain,andthenearerwecametoMindelbauthemoreweloveditandoneanother。

  \"Wemusthavemanyexcursionslikethis,\"saidHerrErchardttome,\"foronesurelygetstoknowapersoninthesimplesurroundingsoftheopenair——oneSHARESthesamejoys——onefeelsfriendship。WhatisityourShakespearesays?Onemoment,Ihaveit。Thefriendsthouhast,andtheiradoptiontried——grapplethemtothysoulwithhoopsofsteel!\"

  \"But,\"saidI,feelingveryfriendlytowardshim,\"thebotheraboutmysoulisthatitrefusestograppleanybodyatall——andIamsurethatthedeadweightofafriendwhoseadoptionithadtriedwouldkillitimmediately。

  Neveryethasitshowntheslightestsignofahoop!\"

  Hebumpedagainstmykneesandexcusedhimselfandthecart。

  \"Mydearlittlelady,youmustnottakethequotationliterally。

  Naturally,oneisnotphysicallyconsciousofthehoops;buthoopsthereareinthesoulofhimorherwholoveshisfellow—men……Takethisafternoon,forinstance。Howdidwestartout?Asstrangersyoumightalmostsay,andyet——allofus——howhavewecomehome?\"

  \"Inacart,\"saidtheonlyremainingjoy,whosatuponhismother’slapandfeltsick。

  Weskirtedthefieldthatwehadpassedthrough,goingroundbythecemetery。HerrLangenleanedovertheedgeoftheseatandgreetedthegraves。HewassittingnexttotheAdvancedLady——insidetheshelterofhershoulder。Iheardhermurmur:\"Youlooklikealittleboywithyourhairblowingaboutinthewind。\"HerrLangen,slightlylessbitter——

  watchedthelastgravesdisappear。AndIheardhermurmur:\"Whyareyousosad?Itooamverysadsometimes——but——youlookyoungenoughformetodaretosaythis——I——too——knowofmuchjoy!\"

  \"Whatdoyouknow?\"saidhe。

  IleanedoverandtouchedtheAdvancedLady’shand。\"Hasn’titbeenaniceafternoon?\"Isaidquestioningly。\"Butyouknow,thattheoryofyoursaboutwomenandLove——it’sasoldasthehills——oh,older!\"

  Fromtheroadasuddenshoutoftriumph。Yes,therehewasagain——whitebeard,silkhandkerchiefandundauntedenthusiasm。

  \"WhatdidIsay?Eightkilometres——itis!\"

  \"Sevenandahalf!\"shriekedHerrErchardt。

  \"Why,then,doyoureturnincarts?Eightkilometresitmustbe。\"

  HerrErchardtmadeacupofhishandsandstoodupinthejoltingcartwhileFrauKellermannclungtohisknees。\"Sevenandahalf!\"

  \"Ignorancemustnotgouncontradicted!\"IsaidtotheAdvancedLady。

  12。THESWINGOFTHEPENDULUM。

  Thelandladyknockedatthedoor。

  \"Comein,\"saidViola。

  \"Thereisaletterforyou,\"saidthelandlady,\"aspecialletter\"——sheheldthegreenenvelopeinacornerofherdingyapron。

  \"Thanks。\"Viola,kneelingonthefloor,pokingatthelittledustystove,stretchedoutherhand。\"Anyanswer?\"

  \"No;themessengerhasgone。\"

  \"Oh,allright!\"Shedidnotlookthelandladyintheface;shewasashamedofnothavingpaidherrent,andwonderedgrimly,withoutanyhope,ifthewomanwouldbegintoblusteragain。

  \"Aboutthismoneyowingtome——\"saidthelandlady。

  \"Oh,theLord——offshegoes!\"thoughtViola,turningherbackonthewomanandmakingagrimaceatthestove。

  \"It’ssettle——orit’sgo!\"Thelandladyraisedhervoice;shebegantobawl。\"I’malandlady,Iam,andarespectablewoman,I’llhaveyouknow。

  I’llhavenoliceinmyhouse,sneakingtheirwayintothefurnitureandeatingupeverything。It’scash——oroutyougobeforetwelveo’clockto—

  morrow。\"

  Violafeltratherthansawthewoman’sgesture。Sheshotoutherarminastupidhelplessway,asthoughadirtypigeonhadsuddenlyflownatherface。\"Filthyoldbeast!Ugh!Andthesmellofher——likestalecheeseanddampwashing。\"

  \"Verywell!\"sheansweredshortly;\"it’scashdownorIleaveto—morrow。

  Allright:don’tshout。\"

  Itwasextraordinary——alwaysbeforethiswomancamenearhershetrembledinhershoes——eventhesoundofthoseflatfeetstumpingupthestairsmadeherfeelsick,butoncetheywerefacetofaceshefeltimmenselycalmandindifferent,andcouldnotunderstandwhysheevenworriedaboutmoney,norwhyshesneakedoutofthehouseontiptoe,notevendaringtoshutthedoorafterherincasethelandladyshouldhearandshoutsomethingterrible,norwhyshespentnightspacingupanddownherroom——drawingupsharplybeforethemirrorandsayingtoatragicreflection:\"Money,money,money!\"Whenshewasaloneherpovertywaslikeahugedream—mountainonwhichherfeetwerefastrooted——achingwiththeacheofthesizeofthething——butifitcametodefiniteaction,withnotimeforimaginings,herdream—mountaindwindledintoabeastly\"hold—your—nose\"

  affair,tobepassedasquicklyaspossible,withangerandastrongsenseofsuperiority。

  Thelandladybouncedoutoftheroom,bangingthedoor,sothatitshookandrattledasthoughithadlistenedtotheconversationandfullysympathisedwiththeoldhag。

  Squattingonherheels,Violaopenedtheletter。ItwasfromCasimir:

  \"Ishallbewithyouatthreeo’clockthisafternoon——andmustbeoffagainthisevening。Allnewswhenwemeet。IhopeyouarehappierthanI。——

  CASIMIR。\"

  \"Huh!howkind!\"shesneered;\"howcondescending。Toogoodofyou,really!\"Shesprangtoherfeet,crumblingtheletterinherhands。\"AndhowareyoutoknowthatIshallstickhereawaitingyourpleasureuntilthreeo’clockthisafternoon?\"Butsheknewshewould;herragewasonlyhalfsincere。ShelongedtoseeCasimir,forshewasconfidentthatthistimeshewouldmakehimunderstandthesituation……\"For,asitis,it’sintolerable——intolerable!\"shemuttered。

  Itwasteno’clockinthemorningofagreydaycuriouslylightedbypaleflashesofsunshine。Searchedbytheseflashesherroomlookedtumbledandgrimed。Shepulleddownthewindow—blinds——buttheygaveapersistent,whitishglarewhichwasjustasbad。Theonlythingoflifeintheroomwasajarofhyacinthsgivenherbythelandlady’sdaughter:itstoodonthetableexudingasicklyperfumefromitsplumppetals;therewereevenrichbudsunfolding,andtheleavesshonelikeoil。

  Violawentovertothewashstand,pouredsomewaterintotheenamelbasin,andspongedherfaceandneck。Shedippedherfaceintothewater,openedhereyes,andshookherheadfromsidetoside——itwasexhilarating。Shediditthreetimes。\"IsupposeIcoulddrownmyselfifIstayedunderlongenough,\"shethought。\"Iwonderhowlongittakestobecomeunconscious?……Oftenreadofwomendrowninginabucket。Iwonderifanyairentersbytheears——ifthebasinwouldhavetobeasdeepasabucket?\"

  Sheexperimented——grippedthewashstandwithbothhandsandslowlysankherheadintothewater,whenagaintherewasaknockonthedoor。Notthelandladythistime——itmustbeCasimir。Withherfaceandhairdripping,withherpetticoatbodiceunbuttoned,sheranandopenedit。

  Astrangemanstoodagainstthelintel——seeingher,heopenedhiseyesverywideandsmileddelightfully。\"Excuseme——doesFrauleinSchaferlivehere?\"

  \"No;neverheardofher。\"Hissmilewassoinfectious,shewantedtosmiletoo——andthewaterhadmadeherfeelsofreshandrosy。

  Thestrangemanappearedoverwhelmedwithastonishment。\"Shedoesn’t?\"hecried。\"Sheisout,youmean!\"

  \"No,she’snotlivinghere,\"answeredViola。

  \"But——pardon——onemoment。\"Hemovedfromthedoorlintel,standingsquarelyinfrontofher。Heunbuttonedhisgreatcoatanddrewaslipofpaperfromthebreastpocket,smoothingitinhisglovedfingersbeforehandingittoher。

  \"Yes,that’stheaddress,rightenough,buttheremustbeamistakeinthenumber。Somanylodging—housesinthisstreet,youknow,andsobig。\"

  Dropsofwaterfellfromherhairontothepaper。Sheburstoutlaughing。

  \"Oh,HOWdreadfulImustlook——onemoment!\"Sheranbacktothewashstandandcaughtupatowel。Thedoorwasstillopen……Afterall,therewasnothingmoretobesaid。Whyonearthhadsheaskedhimtowaitamoment?

  Shefoldedthetowelroundhershoulders,andreturnedtothedoor,suddenlygrave。\"I’msorry;Iknownosuchname\"inasharpvoice。

  Saidthestrangeman:\"Sorry,too。Haveyoubeenlivingherelong?\"

  \"Er——yes——alongtime。\"Shebegantoclosethedoorslowly。

  \"Well——good—morning,thankssomuch。HopeIhaven’tbeenabother。\"

  \"Good—morning。\"

  Sheheardhimwalkdownthepassageandthenpause——lightingacigarette。

  Yes——afaintscentofdeliciouscigarettesmokepenetratedherroom。Shesniffedatit,smilingagain。Well,thathadbeenafascinatinginterlude!

  Helookedsoamazinglyhappy:hisheavyclothesandbigbuttonedgloves;

  hisbeautifullybrushedhair……andthatsmile……\"Jolly\"wastheword——justawell—fedboywiththeworldforhisplayground。Peoplelikethatdidonegood——onefelt\"madeover\"atthesightofthem。SANEtheywere——sosaneandsolid。Youcoulddependonthemneverhavingonemadimpulsefromthedaytheywerebornuntilthedaytheydied。AndLifewasinleaguewiththem——jumpedthemonherknee——quiterightly,too。AtthatmomentshenoticedCasimir’sletter,crumpleduponthefloor——thesmilefaded。

  Staringatthelettershebeganbraidingherhair——adullfeelingofragecreptthroughher——sheseemedtobebraidingitintoherbrain,andbindingit,tightly,aboveherhead……Ofcoursethathadbeenthemistakeallalong。Whathad?Oh,Casimir’sfrightfulseriousness。Ifshehadbeenhappywhentheyfirstmetsheneverwouldhavelookedathim——buttheyhadbeenliketwopatientsinthesamehospitalward——eachfindingcomfortinthesicknessoftheother——sweetfoundationforaloveepisode!Misfortunehadknockedtheirheadstogether:theyhadlookedateachother,stunnedwiththeconflictandsympathised……\"IwishIcouldstepoutsidethewholeaffairandjustjudgeit——thenI’dfindawayout。IcertainlywasinlovewithCasimir……Oh,besincereforonce。\"Shefloppeddownonthebedandhidherfaceinthepillow。\"Iwasnotinlove。Iwantedsomebodytolookafterme——andkeepmeuntilmyworkbegantosell——andhekeptbotherswithothermenaway。Andwhatwouldhavehappenedifhehadn’tcomealong?I

  wouldhavespentmywretchedlittlepittance,andthen——Yes,thatwaswhatdecidedme,thinkingaboutthat’then。’Hewastheonlysolution。AndI

  believedinhimthen。Ithoughthisworkhadonlytoberecognisedonce,andhe’drollinwealth。Ithoughtperhapswemightbepoorforamonth——

  buthesaid,ifonlyhecouldhaveme,thestimulus……Funny,ifitwasn’tsodamnedtragic!Exactlythecontraryhashappened——hehasn’thadathingpublishedformonths——neitherhaveI——butthenIdidn’texpectto。Yes,thetruthis,I’mhardandbitter,andIhaveneitherfaithnorloveforunsuccessfulmen。IalwaysendbydespisingthemasIdespiseCasimir。I

  supposeit’sthesavageprideofthefemalewholikestothinkthemantowhomshehasgivenherselfmustbeaverygreatchiefindeed。ButtostewinthisdisgustinghousewhileCasimirscoursthelandinthehopeoffindingoneeditorialopendoor——it’shumiliating。It’schangedmywholenature。Iwasn’tbornforpoverty——Ionlyfloweramongreallyjollypeople,andpeoplewhoneverareworried。\"

  Thefigureofthestrangemanrosebeforeher——wouldnotbedismissed。

  \"Thatwasthemanforme,afterallissaidanddone——amanwithoutacare——who’dgivemeeverythingIwantandwithwhomI’dalwaysfeelthatsenseoflifeandofbeingintouchwiththeworld。Ineverwantedtofight——itwasthrustonme。Really,there’safountofhappinessinme,thatisdryingup,littlebylittle,inthishatefulexistence。I’llbedeadifthisgoeson——and\"——shestirredinthebedandflungoutherarms——\"Iwantpassion,andlove,andadventure——Iyearnforthem。WhyshouldIstayhereandrot?——Iamrotting!\"shecried,comfortingherselfwiththesoundofherbreakingvoice。\"ButifItellCasimirallthiswhenhecomesthisafternoon,andhesays,’Go’——ashecertainlywill——that’sanotherthingI

  loatheabouthim——he’sundermythumb——whatshouldIdothen——whereshouldIgoto?\"Therewasnowhere。\"Idon’twanttowork——orcarveoutmyownpath。Iwanteaseandanyamountofnursinginthelapofluxury。ThereisonlyonethingI’mfittedfor,andthatistobeagreatcourtesan。\"

  Butshedidnotknowhowtogoaboutit。Shewasfrightenedtogointothestreets——sheheardofsuchawfulthingshappeningtothosewomen——menwithdiseases——ormenwhodidn’tpay——besides,theideaofastrangemaneverynight——no,thatwasoutofthequestion。\"IfI’dtheclothesIwouldgotoareallygoodhotelandfindsomewealthyman……likethestrangemanthismorning。Hewouldbeideal。Oh,ifIonlyhadhisaddress——IamsureI

  wouldfascinatehim。I’dkeephimlaughingallday——I’dmakehimgivemeunlimitedmoney……\"Atthethoughtshegrewwarmandsoft。Shebegantodreamofawonderfulhouse,andofpressesfullofclothesandofperfumes。

  Shesawherselfsteppingintocarriages——lookingatthestrangemanwithamysterious,voluptuousglance——shepractisedtheglance,lyingonthebed——

  andneveranotherworry,justdruggedwithhappiness。Thatwasthelifeforher。Well,thethingtodowastoletCasimirgoonhiswild—goosechasethatevening,andwhilehewasaway——What!Also——pleasetoremember——therewastherenttobepaidbeforetwelvenextmorning,andshehadn’tthemoneyforasquaremeal。Atthethoughtoffoodshefeltasharptwingeinherstomach,asensationasthoughtherewereahandinherstomach,squeezingitdry。Shewasterriblyhungry——allCasimir’sfault——

  andthatmanhadlivedonthefatofthelandeversincehewasborn。Helookedasthoughhecouldorderamagnificentdinner。Oh,whyhadn’tsheplayedhercardsbetter?——he’dbeensentbyProvidence——andshe’dsnubbedhim。\"IfIhadthattimeoveragain,I’dbesafebynow。\"Andinsteadoftheordinarymanwhohadspokenwithheratthedoorhermindcreatedabrilliant,laughingimage,whowouldtreatherlikeaqueen……\"There’sonlyonethingIcouldnotstand——thatheshouldbecoarseorvulgar。Well,hewasn’t——hewasobviouslyamanoftheworld,andthewayheapologised……I

  haveenoughfaithinmyownpowerandbeautytoknowIcouldmakeamantreatmejustasIwantedtobetreated。\"……Itfloatedintoherdreams——

  thatsweetscentofcigarettesmoke。Andthensherememberedthatshehadheardnobodygodownthestonestairs。Wasitpossiblethatthestrangemanwasstillthere?……Thethoughtwastooabsurd——Lifedidn’tplaytrickslikethat——andyet——shewasquiteconsciousofhisnearness。Veryquietlyshegotup,unhookedfromthebackofthedooralongwhitegown,buttonediton——smilingslyly。Shedidnotknowwhatwasgoingtohappen。Sheonlythought:\"Oh,whatfun!\"andthattheywereplayingadeliciousgame——thisstrangemanandshe。Verygentlysheturnedthedoor—handle,screwingupherfaceandbitingherlipasthelocksnappedback。Ofcourse,therehewas——leaningagainstthebanisterrail。Hewheeledroundassheslippedintothepassage。

  \"Da,\"shemuttered,foldinghergowntightlyaroundher,\"Imustgodownstairsandfetchsomewood。Brr!thecold!\"

  \"Thereisn’tanywood,\"volunteeredthestrangeman。Shegavealittlecryofastonishment,andthentossedherhead。

  \"Youagain,\"shesaidscornfully,consciousthewhileofhismerryeye,andthefresh,strongsmellofhishealthybody。

  \"Thelandladyshoutedouttherewasnowoodleft。Ijustsawhergoouttobuysome。\"

  \"Story——story!\"shelongedtocry。Hecamequiteclosetoher,stoodoverherandwhispered:

  \"Aren’tyougoingtoaskmetofinishmycigaretteinyourroom?\"

  Shenodded。\"Youmayifyouwantto!\"

  Inthatmomenttogetherinthepassageamiraclehadhappened。Herroomwasquitechanged——itwasfullofsweetlightandthescentofhyacinthflowers。Eventhefurnitureappeareddifferent——exciting。Quickasaflashsherememberedchildishpartieswhentheyhadplayedcharades,andonesidehadlefttheroomandcomeinagaintoactaword——justwhatshewasdoingnow。Thestrangemanwentovertothestoveandsatdowninherarm—chair。Shedidnotwanthimtotalkorcomenearher——itwasenoughtoseehimintheroom,sosecureandhappy。Howhungryshehadbeenforthenearnessofsomeonelikethat——whoknewnothingatallabouther——andmadenodemands——butjustlived。Violaranovertothetableandputherarmsroundthejarofhyacinths。

  \"Beautiful!Beautiful!\"shecried——buryingherheadintheflowers——andsniffinggreedilyatthescent。Overtheleavesshelookedatthemanandlaughed。

  \"Youareafunnylittlething,\"saidhelazily。

  \"Why?BecauseIloveflowers?\"

  \"I’dfarratheryoulovedotherthings,\"saidthestrangemanslowly。Shebrokeoffalittlepinkpetalandsmiledatit。

  \"Letmesendyousomeflowers,\"saidthestrangeman。\"I’llsendyouaroomfulifyou’dlikethem。\"

  Hisvoicefrightenedherslightly。\"Ohno,thanks——thisoneisquiteenoughforme。\"

  \"No,itisn’t\"——inateasingvoice。

  \"Whatastupidremark!\"thoughtViola,andlookingathimagainhedidnotseemquitesojolly。Shenoticedthathiseyesweresettoocloselytogether——andtheyweretoosmall。Horriblethought,thatheshouldprovestupid。

  \"Whatdoyoudoallday?\"sheaskedhastily。

  \"Nothing。\"

  \"Nothingatall?\"

  \"WhyshouldIdoanything?\"

  \"Oh,don’timagineforonemomentthatIcondemnsuchwisdom——onlyitsoundstoogoodtobetrue!\"

  \"What’sthat?\"——hecranedforward。\"Whatsoundstoogoodtobetrue?\"

  Yes——therewasnodenyingit——helookedsilly。

  \"IsupposethesearchingafterFrauleinSchaferdoesn’toccupyallyourdays。\"

  \"Ohno\"——hesmiledbroadly——\"that’sverygood!ByJove!no。Idriveagoodbit——areyoukeenonhorses?\"

  Shenodded。\"Lovethem。\"

  \"Youmustcomedrivingwithme——I’vegotafinepairofgreys。Willyou?\"

  \"PrettyI’dlookperchedbehindgreysinmyoneandonlyhat,\"thoughtshe。

  Aloud:\"I’dloveto。\"Hereasyacceptancepleasedhim。

  \"Howaboutto—morrow?\"hesuggested。\"Supposeyouhavelunchwithmeto—

  morrowandItakeyoudriving。\"

  Afterall——thiswasjustagame。\"Yes,I’mnotbusyto—morrow,\"shesaid。

  Alittlepause——thenthestrangemanpattedhisleg。\"Whydon’tyoucomeandsitdown?\"hesaid。

  Shepretendednottoseeandswungontothetable。\"Oh,I’mallrighthere。\"

  \"No,you’renot\"——againtheteasingvoice。\"Comeandsitonmyknee。\"

  \"Ohno,\"saidViolaveryheartily,suddenlybusywithherhair。

  \"Whynot?\"

  \"Idon’twantto。\"

  \"Oh,comealong\"——impatiently。

  Sheshookherheadfromsidetoside。\"Iwouldn’tdreamofsuchathing。\"

  Atthathegotupandcameovertoher。\"Funnylittlepusscat!\"Heputuponehandtotouchherhair。

  \"Don’t,\"shesaid——andslippedoffthetable。\"I——Ithinkit’stimeyouwentnow。\"Shewasquitefrightenednow——thinkingonly:\"Thismanmustbegotridofasquicklyaspossible。\"

  \"Oh,butyoudon’twantmetogo?\"

  \"Yes,Ido——I’mverybusy。\"

  \"Busy。Whatdoesthepussycatdoallday?\"

  \"Lotsandlotsofthings!\"Shewantedtopushhimoutoftheroomandslamthedooronhim——idiot——fool——crueldisappointment。

  \"What’sshefrowningfor?\"heasked。\"Issheworriedaboutanything?\"

  Suddenlyserious:\"Isay——youknow,areyouinanyfinancialdifficulty?

  Doyouwantmoney?I’llgiveittoyouifyoulike!\"

  \"Money!Steadyonthebrake——don’tloseyourhead!\"——soshespoketoherself。

  \"I’llgiveyoutwohundredmarksifyou’llkissme。\"

  \"Oh,boo!Whatacondition!AndIdon’twanttokissyou——Idon’tlikekissing。Pleasego!\"

  \"Yes——youdo!——yes,youdo。\"Hecaughtholdofherarmsabovetheelbows。

  Shestruggled,andwasquiteamazedtorealisehowangryshefelt。

  \"Letmego——immediately!\"shecried——andheslippedonearmroundherbody,anddrewhertowardshim——likeabarofironacrossherback——thatarm。

  \"Leavemealone!Itellyou。Don’tbemean!Ididn’twantthistohappenwhenyoucameintomyroom。Howdareyou?\"

  \"Well,kissmeandI’llgo!\"

  Itwastooidiotic——dodgingthatstupid,smilingface。

  \"Iwon’tkissyou!——youbrute!——Iwon’t!\"Somehowsheslippedoutofhisarmsandrantothewall——stoodbackagainstit——breathingquickly。

  \"Getout!\"shestammered。\"Goonnow,clearout!\"

  Atthatmoment,whenhewasnottouchingher,shequiteenjoyedherself。

  Shethrilledatherownangryvoice。\"TothinkIshouldtalktoamanlikethat!\"Anangryflushspreadoverhisface——hislipscurledback,showinghisteeth——justlikeadog,thoughtViola。Hemadearushather,andheldheragainstthewall——presseduponherwithalltheweightofhisbody。

  Thistimeshecouldnotgetfree。

  \"Iwon’tkissyou。Iwon’t。StopdoingthatUgh!you’relikeadog——yououghttofindloversroundlamp—posts——youbeast——youfiend!\"

  Hedidnotanswer。Withanexpressionofthemostabsurddeterminationhepressedevermoreheavilyuponher。Hedidnotevenlookather——butrappedoutinasharpvoice:\"Keepquiet——keepquiet。\"

  \"Gar——r!Whyaremensostrong?\"Shebegantocry。\"Goaway——Idon’twantyou,youdirtycreature。Iwanttomurderyou。Oh,myGod!ifIhadaknife。\"

  \"Don’tbesilly——comeandbegood!\"Hedraggedhertowardsthebed。

  \"DoyousupposeI’malightwoman?\"shesnarled,andswoopingovershefastenedherteethinhisglove。

  \"Ach!don’tdothat——youarehurtingme!\"

  Shedidnotletgo,butherheartsaid,\"ThanktheLordIthoughtofthis。\"

  \"Stopthisminute——youvixen——youbitch。\"Hethrewherawayfromhim。Shesawwithjoythathiseyeswerefulloftears。\"You’vereallyhurtme,\"hesaidinachokingvoice。

  \"OfcourseIhave。Imeantto。That’snothingtowhatI’lldoifyoutouchmeagain。\"

  Thestrangemanpickeduphishat。\"Nothanks,\"hesaidgrimly。\"ButI’llnotforgetthis——I’llgotoyourlandlady。\"

  \"Pooh!\"Sheshruggedhershouldersandlaughed。\"I’lltellheryouforcedyourwayinhereandtriedtoassaultme。Whowillshebelieve?——withyourbittenhand。YougoandfindyourSchafers。\"

  Asensationofglorious,intoxicatinghappinessfloodedViola。Sherolledhereyesathim。\"Ifyoudon’tgoawaythismomentI’llbiteyouagain,\"

  shesaid,andtheabsurdwordsstartedherlaughing。Evenwhenthedoorwasclosed,hearinghimdescendingthestairs,shelaughed,anddancedabouttheroom。

  Whatamorning!Oh,chalkitup。Thatwasherfirstfight,andshe’dwon——she’dconqueredthatbeast——allbyherself。Herhandswerestilltrembling。Shepulledupthesleeveofhergown——greatredmarksonherarms。\"Myribswillbeblue。I’llbeblueallover,\"shereflected。\"IfonlythatbelovedCasimircouldhaveseenus。\"AndthefeelingofrageanddisgustagainstCasimirhadtotallydisappeared。Howcouldthepoordarlinghelpnothavinganymoney?Itwasherfaultasmuchashis,andhe,justlikeher,wasapartfromtheworld,fightingit,justasshehaddone。Ifonlythreeo’clockwouldcome。Shesawherselfrunningtowardshimandputtingherarmsroundhisneck。\"Myblessedone!Ofcourseweareboundtowin。Doyoulovemestill?Oh,Ihavebeenhorriblelately。\"

  13。ABLAZE。

  \"Max,yousillydevil,you’llbreakyourneckifyougocareeringdowntheslidethatway。Dropit,andcometotheClubHousewithmeandgetsomecoffee。\"

  \"I’vehadenoughforto—day。I’mdampallthrough。There,giveusacigarette,Victor,oldman。Whenareyougoinghome?\"

  \"Notforanotherhour。It’sfinethisafternoon,andI’mgettingintodecentshape。Lookout,getoffthetrack;herecomesFrauleinWinkel。

  Damnedelegantthewayshemanageshersleigh!\"

  \"I’mcoldallthrough。That’stheworstofthisplace——themists——it’sadampcold。Here,Forman,lookafterthissleigh——andstickitsomewheresothatIcangetitwithoutlookingthroughahundredandfiftyothersto—

  morrowmorning。\"

  Theysatdownatasmallroundtablenearthestoveandorderedcoffee。

  Victorsprawledinhischair,pattinghislittlebrowndogBoboandlooking,halflaughingly,atMax。

  \"What’sthematter,mydear?Isn’ttheworldbeingniceandpretty?\"

  \"Iwantmycoffee,andIwanttoputmyfeetintomypocket——they’relikestones……Nothingtoeat,thanks——thecakeislikeunderdoneindia—rubberhere。\"

  FuchsandWistubacameandsatattheirtable。Maxhalfturnedhisbackandstretchedhisfeetouttotheoven。Thethreeothermenallbegantalkingatonce——oftheweather——oftherecordslide——ofthefineconditionoftheWaldSeeforskating。

  SuddenlyFuchslookedatMax,raisedhiseyebrowsandnoddedacrosstoVictor,whoshookhishead。

  \"Babydoesn’tfeelwell,\"hesaid,feedingthebrowndogwithbrokenlumpsofsugar,\"andnobody’stodisturbhim——I’mnurse。\"

  \"That’sthefirsttimeI’veeverknownhimoffcolour,\"saidWistuba。

  \"I’vealwaysimaginedhehadthebetterpartofthisworldthatcouldnotbetakenawayfromhim。IthinkhesayshisprayerstothedearLordforhavingsparedhimbeingtakenhomeinsevenbasketsfulto—night。It’safool’sgametoriskyourallthatwayandleavethenationdesolate。\"

  \"Dryup,\"saidMax。\"Yououghttobewheeledaboutonthesnowinaperambulator。\"

  \"Oh,nooffence,Ihope。Don’tgetnasty。How’syourwife,Victor?\"

  \"She’snotatallwell。ShehurtherheadcomingdowntheslidewithMaxonSunday。Itoldhertostayathomeallday。\"

  \"I’msorry。Areyouotherfellowsgoingbacktothetownorstoppingonhere?\"

  FuchsandVictorsaidtheywerestopping——Maxdidnotanswer,butsatmotionlesswhilethemenpaidfortheircoffeeandmovedaway。Victorcamebackamomentandputahandonhisshoulder。

  \"Ifyou’regoingrightback,mydear,Iwishyou’dlookElsaupandtellherIwon’tbeintilllate。Andfeedwithusto—nightatLimpold,willyou?Andtakesomehotgrogwhenyougetin。\"

  \"Thanks,oldfellow,I’mallright。Goingbacknow。\"

  Herose,stretchedhimself,buttonedonhisheavycoatandlightedanothercigarette。

  FromthedoorVictorwatchedhimplungingthroughtheheavysnow——headbent——handsthrustinhispockets——healmostappearedtoberunningthroughtheheavysnowtowardsthetown……

  Someonecamestampingupthestairs——pausedatthedoorofhersitting—

  room,andknocked。

  \"Isthatyou,Victor?\"shecalled。

  \"No,itisI……canIcomein?\"

  \"Ofcourse。Why,whataSantaClaus!Hangyourcoatonthelandingandshakeyourselfoverthebanisters。Hadagoodtime?\"

  Theroomwasfulloflightandwarmth。Elsa,inawhitevelvettea—gown,laycurleduponthesofa——abookoffashionsonherlap,aboxofcreamsbesideher。

  Thecurtainswerenotyetdrawnbeforethewindowsandabluelightshonethrough,andthewhiteboughsofthetreessprayedacross。

  Awoman’sroom——fullofflowersandphotographsandsilkpillows——thefloorsmotheredinrugs——animmensetiger—skinunderthepiano——justtheheadprotruding——sleepilysavage。

  \"Itwasgoodenough,\"saidMax。\"Victorcan’tbeintilllate。Hetoldmetocomeupandtellyou。\"

  Hestartedwalkingupanddown——toreoffhisglovesandflungthemonthetable。

  \"Don’tdothat,Max,\"saidElsa,\"yougetonmynerves。AndI’vegotaheadacheto—day;I’mfeverishandquiteflushed……Don’tIlookflushed?\"

  Hepausedbythewindowandglancedatheramomentoverhisshoulder。

  \"No,\"hesaid;\"Ididn’tnoticeit。\"

  \"Oh,youhaven’tlookedatmeproperly,andI’vegotanewtea—gownon,too。\"Shepulledherskirtstogetherandpattedalittleplaceonthecouch。

  \"Comealongandsitbymeandtellmewhyyou’rebeingnaughty。\"

  But,standingbythewindow,hesuddenlyflunghisarmacrosshiseyes。

  \"Oh,\"hesaid,\"Ican’t。I’mdone——I’mspent——I’msmashed。\"

  Silenceintheroom。Thefashion—bookfelltothefloorwithaquickrustleofleaves。Elsasatforward,herhandsclaspedinherlap;astrangelightshoneinhereyes,aredcolourstainedhermouth。

  Thenshespokeveryquietly。

  \"Comeoverhereandexplainyourself。Idon’tknowwhatonearthyouaretalkingabout。\"

  \"Youdoknow——youknowfarbetterthanI。You’vesimplyplayedwithVictorinmypresencethatImayfeelworse。You’vetormentedme——you’veledmeon——offeringmeeverythingandnothingatall。It’sbeenaspider—and—flybusinessfromfirsttolast——andI’veneverforonemomentbeenignorantofthat——andI’veneverforonemomentbeenabletowithstandit。\"

  Heturnedrounddeliberately。

  \"Doyousupposethatwhenyouaskedmetopinyourflowersintoyoureveninggown——whenyouletmecomeintoyourbedroomwhenVictorwasoutwhileyoudidyourhair——whenyoupretendedtobeababyandletmefeedyouwithgrapes——whenyouhaveruntomeandsearchedinallmypocketsforacigarette——knowingperfectlywellwheretheywerekept——goingthrougheverypocketjustthesame——Iknowingtoo——Ikeepingupthefarce——doyousupposethatnowyouhavefinallylightedyourbonfireyouaregoingtofinditapeacefulandpleasantthing——youaregoingtopreventthewholehousefromburning?\"

  Shesuddenlyturnedwhiteanddrewinherbreathsharply。

  \"Don’ttalktomelikethat。Youhavenorighttotalktomelikethat。I

  amanotherman’swife。\"

  \"Hum,\"hesneered,throwingbackhishead,\"that’sratherlateinthegame,andthat’sbeenyourtrumpcardallalong。YouonlyloveVictoronthecat—and—creamprinciple——youapoorlittlestarvedkittenthathe’sgiveneverythingto,thathe’scarriedinhisbreast,neverdreamingthatthoselittlepinkclawscouldtearoutaman’sheart。\"

  Shestirred,lookingathimwithalmostfearinhereyes。

  \"Afterall\"——unsteadily——\"thisismyroom;I’llhavetoaskyoutogo。\"

  Buthestumbledtowardsher,kneltdownbythecouch,buryinghisheadinherlap,claspinghisarmsroundherwaist。

  \"AndILOVEyou——Iloveyou;thehumiliationofit——Iadoreyou。Don’t——

  don’t——justaminuteletmestayhere——justamomentinawholelife——Elsa!

  Elsa!\"

  Sheleantbackandpressedherheadintothepillows。

  Thenhismuffledvoice:\"Ifeellikeasavage。Iwantyourwholebody。I

  wanttocarryyouawaytoacaveandloveyouuntilIkillyou——youcan’tunderstandhowamanfeels。IkillmyselfwhenIseeyou——I’msickofmyownstrengththatturnsinuponitself,anddies,andrisesnewbornlikeaPhoenixoutoftheashesofthathorribledeath。Lovemejustthisonce,tellmealie,SAYthatyoudo——youarealwayslying。\"

  Instead,shepushedhimaway——frightened。

  \"Getup,\"shesaid;\"supposetheservantcameinwiththetea?\"

  \"Oh,yegods!\"Hestumbledtohisfeetandstoodstaringdownather。

  \"You’rerottentothecoreandsoamI。Butyou’reheathenishlybeautiful。\"

  Thewomanwentovertothepiano——stoodthere——strikingonenote——herbrowsdrawntogether。Thensheshruggedhershouldersandsmiled。

  \"I’llmakeaconfession。Everywordyouhavesaidistrue。Ican’thelpit。Ican’thelpseekingadmirationanymorethanacatcanhelpgoingtopeopletobestroked。It’smynature。I’mbornoutofmytime。Andyet,youknow,I’mnotaCOMMONwoman。Ilikementoadoreme——toflatterme——

  eventomakelovetome——butIwouldnevergivemyselftoanyman。Iwouldneverletamankissme……even。\"

  \"It’simmeasurablyworse——you’venolegitimateexcuse。Why,evenaprostitutehasagreatersenseofgenerosity!\"

  \"Iknow,\"shesaid,\"Iknowperfectlywell——butIcan’thelpthewayI’mbuilt……Areyougoing?\"

  Heputonhisgloves。

  \"Well,\"hesaid,\"what’sgoingtohappentousnow?\"

  Againsheshruggedhershoulders。

  \"Ihaven’ttheslightestidea。Ineverhave——justletthingsoccur。\"……

  \"Allalone?\"criedVictor。\"HasMaxbeenhere?\"

  \"Heonlystayedamoment,andwouldn’tevenhavetea。Isenthimhometochangehisclothes……Hewasfrightfullyboring。\"

  \"Youpoordarling,yourhair’scomingdown。I’llfixit,standstillamoment……soyouwerebored?\"

  \"Um——m——frightfully……Oh,you’verunahairpinrightintoyourwife’shead——younaughtyboy!\"

  Sheflungherarmsroundhisneckandlookedupathim,halflaughing,likeabeautiful,lovingchild。

  \"God!Whatawomanyouare,\"saidtheman。\"Youmakemesoinfernallyproud——dearest,thatI……Itellyou!\"

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