\"Yes,\"saidthemother,hervoicebreaking,\"sheis,indeed,apoorlittledaughter!\"
Asilencefell;forwhatcouldwordsavailinsuchasituation?
Hearingthedooropen,MadameDupontstarted,forhernerveswerealla—quiverwiththestrainshehadbeenunder。Aservantcameinandspoketoher,andshesaidtoGeorge,\"Itisthedoctor。
Ifyouneedme,Ishallbeinthenextroom。\"
Hersonstoodtrembling,asifhewerewaitingtheapproachofanexecutioner。Theothercameintotheroomwithoutseeinghimandhestoodforaminute,claspingandunclaspinghishands,almostovercomewithemotion。Thenhesaid,\"Good—day,doctor。\"Asthemanstaredathim,surprisedandpuzzled,headded,\"Youdon’trecognizeme?\"
Thedoctorlookedagain,moreclosely。Georgewasexpectinghimtobreakoutinrage;butinsteadhisvoicefelllow。\"You!\"heexclaimed。\"Itisyou!\"
Atlast,inavoiceofdiscouragementthanofanger,hewenton,\"Yougotmarried,andyouhaveachild!AfterallthatItoldyou!Youareawretch!\"
\"Sir,\"criedGeorge,\"letmeexplaintoyou!\"
\"Notaword!\"exclaimedtheother。\"Therecanbenoexplanationforwhatyouhavedone。\"
Asilencefollowed。Theyoungmandidnotknowwhattosay。
Finally,stretchingouthisarms,hepleaded,\"Youwilltakecareofmylittledaughterallthesame,willyounot?\"
Theotherturnedawaywithdisgust。\"Imbecile!\"hesaid。
Georgedidnotheartheword。\"Iwasabletowaitonlysixmonths,\"hemurmured。
Thedoctoransweredinavoiceofcoldself—repression,\"Thatisenough,sir!Allthatdoesnotconcernme。Ihavedonewrongeventoletyouseemyindignation。Ishouldhaveleftyoutojudgeyourself。Ihavenothingtodoherebutwiththepresentandwiththefuture——withtheinfantandwiththenurse。\"
\"Sheisn’tindanger?\"criedGeorge。
\"Thenurseisindangerofbeingcontaminated。\"
ButGeorgehadnotbeenthinkingaboutthenurse。\"Imeanmychild,\"hesaid。
\"Justatpresentthesymptomsarenotdisturbing。\"
Georgewaited;afterawhilehebegan,\"Youweresayingaboutthenurse。WillyouconsentthatIcallmymother?SheknowsbetterthanI。\"
\"Asyouwish,\"wasthereply。
Theyoungmanstartedtothedoor,butcameback,interribledistress。\"Ihaveoneprayertoofferyousir;arrangeitsothatmywife——sothatnoonewillknow。IfmywifelearnedthatitisIwhoamthecause——!ItisforherthatIimploreyou!
She——sheisn’ttoblame。\"
Saidthedoctor:\"Iwilldoeverythinginmypowerthatshemaybekeptignorantofthetruenatureofthedisease。\"
\"Oh,howIthankyou!\"murmuredGeorge。\"HowIthankyou!\"
\"Donotthankme;itisforher,andnotforyou,thatIwillconsenttolie。\"
\"Andmymother?\"
\"Yourmotherknowsthetruth。\"
\"But——\"
\"Iprayyou,sir——wehaveenoughtotalkabout,andveryseriousmatters。\"
SoGeorgewenttothedoorandcalledhismother。Sheenteredandgreetedthedoctor,holdingherselferect,andstrivingtokeepthesignsofgriefandterrorfromherface。Shesignedtothedoctortotakeaseat,andthenseatedherselfbyalittletablenearhim。
\"MadameDupont,\"hebegan,\"Ihaveprescribedacourseoftreatmentforthechild。Ihopetobeabletoimproveitscondition,andtopreventanynewdevelopments。Butmydutyandyoursdoesnotstopthere;ifthereisstilltime,itisnecessarytoprotectthehealthofthenurse。\"
\"Telluswhatitisnecessarytodo,Doctor?\"saidshe。
\"Thewomanmuststopnursingthechild。\"
\"Youmeanwehavetochangethenurse?\"
\"Madame,thechildcannolongerbebroughtupatthebreast,eitherbythatnurseorbyanyothernurse。\"
\"Butwhy,sir?\"
\"Becausethechildwouldgiveherdiseasetothewomanwhogavehermilk。\"
\"But,Doctor,ifweputheronthebottle——ourlittleone——shewilldie!\"
AndsuddenlyGeorgeburstoutintosobs。\"Oh,mypoorlittledaughter!MyGod,myGod!\"
Saidthedoctor,\"Ifthefeedingiswellattendedto,withsterilizedmilk——\"
\"Thatcandoverywellforhealthyinfants,\"brokeinMadameDupont。\"Butattheageofthreemonthsonecannottakefromthebreastababylikeours,frailandill。Morethananyothersuchaninfanthasneedofanurse——isthatnottrue?\"
\"Yes,\"thedoctoradmitted,\"thatistrue。But——\"
\"Inthatcase,betweenthelifeofthechild,andthehealthofthenurse,youunderstandperfectlywellthatmychoiceismade。\"
BetweenherwordsthedoctorheardthesobbingofGeorge,whoseheadwasburiedinhisarms。\"Madame,\"hesaid,\"yourloveforthatbabyhasjustcausedyoutouttersomethingferocious!Itisnotforyoutochoose。Itisnotforyoutochoose。Iforbidthenursing。Thehealthofthatwomandoesnotbelongtoyou。\"
\"No,\"criedthegrandmother,wildly,\"nordoesthehealthofoutchildbelongtoyou!Ifthereisahopeofsavingit,thathopeisingivingitmorecarethananyotherchild;andyouwouldwishthatIputituponamodeofnourishmentwhichthedoctorscondemn,evenforvigorousinfants!YouexpectthatIwillletmyselfbetakeninlikethat?Iansweryou:sheshallhavethemilkwhichsheneeds,mypoorlittleone!Iftherewasasinglethingthatonecoulddotosaveher——Ishouldbeacriminaltoneglectit!\"AndMadameDupontbrokeout,withfuriousscorn,\"Thenurse!Thenurse!Weshallknowhowtodoourduty——weshalltakecareofher,repayher。Butourchildbeforeall!Nosir,no!EverythingthatcanbedonetosaveourbabyIshalldo,letitcostwhatitwill。Todowhatyousay——youdon’trealizeit——itwouldbeasifIshouldkillthechild!\"Intheendtheagonizedwomanburstintotears。\"Oh,mypoorlittleangel!Mylittlesavior!\"
Georgehadneverceasedsobbingwhilehismotherspoke;attheselastwordshissobsbecameloudcries。Hestruckthefloorwithhisfoot,hetorehishair,asifheweresufferingfromviolentphysicalpain。\"Oh,oh,oh!\"hecried。\"Mylittlechild!Mylittlechild!\"Andthen,inahorrifiedwhispertohimself,\"I
amawretch!Acriminal!\"
\"Madame,\"saidthedoctor,\"youmustcalmyourself;youmustbothcalmyourselves。Youwillnothelpoutthesituationbylamentations。Youmustlearntotakeitwithcalmness。\"
MadameDupontsetherlipstogether,andwithapainfuleffortrecoveredherself—control。\"Youareright,sir,\"shesaid,inalowvoice。\"Iaskyourpardon;butifyouonlyknewwhatthatchildmeanstome!Ilostoneatthatage。Iamanoldwoman,I
amawidow——Ihadhardlyhopedtolivelongenoughtobeagrandmother。But,asyousay——wemustbecalm。\"Sheturnedtotheyoungman,\"Calmyourself,myson。Itisapoorwaytoshowourloveforthechild,toabandonourselvestotears。Letustalk,Doctor,andseriously——coldly。ButIdeclaretoyouthatnothingwilleverinducemetoputthechildonthebottle,whenIknowthatitmightkillher。ThatisallIcansay。\"
Thedoctorreplied:\"Thisisn’tthefirsttimethatIfindmyselfinthepresentsituation。Madame,Ideclaretoyouthatalways——ALWAYS,youunderstand——personswhohaverejectedmyadvicehavehadreasontorepentitcruelly。\"
\"TheonlythingofwhichIshouldrepent——\"begantheother。
\"Yousimplydonotknow,\"interruptedthedoctor,\"whatsuchanurseiscapableof。Youcannotimaginewhatbitterness——
legitimatebitterness,youunderstand——joinedtotherapacity,thecupidity,themischief—makingimpulse——mightinspirethesepeopletodo。ForthemtheBOURGEOISisalwayssomewhatofanenemy;andwhentheyfindthemselvesinpositiontoavengetheirinferiority,theyareferocious。\"
\"Butwhatcouldthewomando?\"
\"Whatcouldshedo?Shecouldbringlegalproceedingsagainstyou。\"
\"Butsheismuchtoostupidtohavethatidea。\"
\"Otherswillputitintohermind。\"
\"Sheistoopoortopaythepreliminaryexpenses。\"
\"Anddoyouproposethentoprofitbyherignoranceandstupidity?Besides,shecouldobtainjudicialassistance。\"
\"Why,surely,\"exclaimedMadameDupont,\"suchathingwasneverheardof!Doyoumeanthat?\"
\"Iknowadozenprosecutionsofthatsort;andalwayswhentherehasbeencertainty,theparentshavelosttheircase。\"
\"Butsurely,Doctor,youmustbemistaken!Notinacaselikeours——notwhenitisaquestionofsavingthelifeofapoorlittleinnocent!\"
\"Oftentimesexactlysuchfactshavebeenpresented。\"
HereGeorgebrokein。\"Icangiveyouthedatesofthedecisions。\"Herosefromhischair,gladofanopportunitytobeuseful。\"Ihavethebooks,\"hesaid,andtookonefromthecaseandbroughtittothedoctor。
\"Allofthatisnouse——\"interposedthemother。
ButthedoctorsaidtoGeorge,\"Youwillbeabletoconvinceyourself。Theparentshavebeenforcedonceortwicetopaythenursearegularincome,andatothertimestheyhavehadtopayheranindemnity,ofwhichthefigurehasvariedbetweenthreeandeightthousandfrancs。\"
MadameDupontwasreadywithareplytothis。\"Neverfear,sir!
Ifthereshouldbeasuit,weshouldhaveagoodlawyer。Weshallbeabletopayandchoosethebest——andhewoulddemand,withoutdoubt,whichofthetwo,thenurseorthechild,hasgiventhediseasetotheother。\"
Thedoctorwasstaringatherinhorror。\"Doyounotperceivethatwouldbeamonstrousthingtodo?\"
\"Oh,Iwouldnothavetosayit,\"wasthereply。\"Thelawyerwouldseetoit——isnotthathisprofession?Mypointisthis:
byonemeansoranotherhewouldmakeuswinourcase。\"
\"Andthescandalthatwouldresult,\"repliedtheother。\"Haveyouthoughtofthat?\"
HereGeorge,whohadbeenlookingoverhislaw—books,brokein。
\"Doctor,permitmetogiveyoualittleinformation。Incasesofthissort,thenamesareneverprinted。\"
\"Yes,buttheyarespokenatthehearings。\"
\"That’strue。\"
\"Andareyoucertainthattherewillnotbeanynewspapertoprintthejudgment?\"
\"Whatwon’ttheystoopto,\"exclaimedMadameDupont——\"thosefilthyjournals!\"
\"Ah,\"saidtheother,\"andseewhatascandal?Whatashameitwouldbetoyou!\"
\"Thedoctorisright,mother,\"exclaimedtheyoungman。
ButMadameDupontwasnotyetconvinced。\"Wewillpreventthewomanfromtakinganysteps;wewillgiveherwhatshedemandsfromus。\"
\"Butthen,\"saidtheother,\"youwillgiveyourselvesuptotheriskofblackmail。Iknowafamilywhichhasbeenthusheldupforovertwelveyears。\"
\"Ifyouwillpermitme,Doctor,\"saidGeorge,timidly,\"shecouldbemadetosignareceipt。\"
\"Forpaymentinfull?\"askedthedoctor,scornfully。
\"Evenso。\"
\"Andthen,\"addedhismother,\"shewouldbemorethandelightedtogobacktohercountrywithafullpurse。Shewouldbeabletobuyalittlehouseandabitofground——inthatcountryonedoesn’tneedsomuchinordertolive。\"
Atthismomenttherewasatapuponthedoor,andthenurseentered。Shewasacountrywoman,robust,rosy—cheeked,fairlyburstingwithhealth。Whenshespokeonegottheimpressionthathervoicewasmorethanshecouldcontain。Itdidnotbelonginadrawing—room,butundertheopenskyofhercountryhome。
\"Sir,\"shesaid,addressingthedoctor,\"thebabyisawake。\"
\"Iwillgoandseeher,\"wasthereply;andthentoMadameDupont,\"Wewilltakeupthisconversationlateron。\"
\"Certainly,\"saidthemother。\"Willyouhaveneedofthenurse?\"
\"No,Madame,\"thedoctoranswered。
\"Nurse,\"saidthemother,\"sitdownandrest。Waitaminute,I
wishtospeaktoyou。\"Asthedoctorwentout,shetookhersontoonesideandwhisperedtohim,\"Iknowthewaytoarrangeeverything。Ifweletherknowwhatisthematter,andifsheaccepts,thedoctorwillhavenothingmoretosay。Isn’tthatso?\"
\"Obviously,\"repliedtheson。
\"Iamgoingtopromisethatwewillgivehertwothousandfrancswhenshegoesaway,ifshewillconsenttocontinuenursingthechild。\"
\"Twothousandfrancs?\"saidtheother。\"Isthatenough?\"
\"Iwillsee,\"wasthereply。\"Ifshehesitates,Iwillgofurther。Letmeattendtoit。\"
Georgenoddedhisassent,andMadameDupontreturnedtothenurse。\"Youknow,\"shesaid,\"thatourchildisalittlesick?\"
Theotherlookedatherinsurprise。\"Whyno,ma’am!\"
\"Yes,\"saidthegrandmother。
\"But,ma’am,Ihavetakenthebestofcareofher;Ihavealwayskeptherproper。\"
\"Iamnotsayinganythingtothecontrary,\"saidMadameDupont,\"butthechildissick,thedoctorshavesaidit。\"
Thenursewasnottobepersuaded;shethoughttheyweregettingreadytoscoldher。\"Humph,\"shesaid,\"that’safinething——thedoctors!Iftheycouldn’talwaysfindsomethingwrongyou’dsaytheydidn’tknowtheirbusiness。\"
\"Butourdoctorisagreatdoctor;andyouhaveseenyourselfthatourchildhassomelittlepimples。\"
\"Ah,ma’am,\"saidthenurse,\"that’stheheat——it’snothingbuttheheatofthebloodbreakingout。Youdon’tneedtobotheryourself;Itellyouit’sonlythechild’sblood。It’snotmyfault;Isweartoyouthatshehadnotlackedanything,andthatIhavealwayskeptherproper。\"
\"Iamnotreproachingyou——\"
\"Whatistheretoreproachmefor?Oh,whatbadluck!She’stiny——thelittleone——she’sabitfeeble;butLordsaveus,she’sacitychild!Andshe’sgettingalongallright,Itellyou。\"
\"No,\"persistedMadameDupont,\"Itellyou——shehasgotacoldinherhead,andshehasaneruptionatthebackofthethroat。\"
\"Well,\"criedthenurse,angrily,\"ifshehas,it’sbecausethedoctorscratchedherwiththatspoonheputintohermouthwrongendfirst!Acoldinthehead?Yes,that’strue;butifshehascaughtcold,Ican’tsaywhen,Idon’tknowanythingaboutit——
nothing,nothingatall。Ihavealwayskeptherwellcovered;
she’salwayshadasmuchasthreecoversonher。Thetruthis,itwaswhenyoucame,thetimebeforelast;youwereallthetimeinsistinguponopeningthewindowsinthehouse!\"
\"ButoncemoreItellyou,\"criedMadameDupont,\"wearenotputtinganyblameonyou。\"
\"Yes,\"criedthewoman,morevehemently。\"Iknowwhatthatkindoftalkmeans。It’snouse——whenyou’reapoorcountrywoman。\"
\"Whatareyouimaginingnow?\"demandedtheother。
\"Oh,that’sallright。It’snousewhenyou’reapoorcountrywoman。\"
\"Irepeattoyouoncemore,\"criedMadameDupont,withdifficultycontrollingherimpatience,\"wehavenothingwhatevertoblameyoufor。\"
Butthenursebegantoweep。\"IfIhadknownthatanythinglikethiswascomingtome——\"
\"Wehavenothingtoblameyoufor,\"declaredtheother。\"Weonlywishtowarnyouthatyoumightpossiblycatchthediseaseofthechild。\"
Thewomanpouted。\"Acoldinthehead!\"sheexclaimed。\"Well,ifIcatchit,itwon’tbethefirsttime。Iknowhowtoblowmynose。\"
\"Butyoumightalsogetthepimples。\"
Atthisthenurseburstintolaughtersoloudthatthebric—a—bracrattled。\"Oh,oh,oh!Dearlady,letmetellyou,weain’tcityfolks,weain’t;wedon’thavesuchsoftskins。
Whatsortoftalkisthat?Pimples——whatdifferencewouldthatmaketopoorfolkslikeus?Wedon’thaveawhitecomplexionliketheladiesofParis。Weareoutalldayinthefields,inthesunandtherain,insteadofrubbingcoldcreamonourmuzzles!Nooffense,ma’am——butIsayifyou’relookingforanexcusetogetridofme,youmustgetabetteronethanthat。\"
\"Excuse!\"exclaimedtheother。\"Whatintheworlddoyoumean?\"
\"Oh,Iknow!\"saidthenurse,noddingherhead。
\"Butspeak!\"
\"It’snouse,whenyou’reonlyapoorcountrywoman。\"
\"Idon’tunderstandyou!IsweartoyouthatIdon’tunderstandyou!\"
\"Well,\"sneeredtheother,\"Iunderstand。\"
\"Butthen——explainyourself。\"
\"No,Idon’twanttosayit。\"
\"Butyoumust;Iwishit。\"
\"Well——\"
\"Goahead。\"
\"I’monlyapoorcountrywoman,butIamnomorestupidthantheothers,forallthat。Iknowperfectlywellwhatyourtricksmean。Mr。Georgeherehasbeengrumblingbecauseyoupromisedmethirtyfrancsmoreamonth,ifIcametoParis。\"Andthen,turningupontheother,shewenton——\"But,sir,isn’titonlynatural?Don’tIhavetoputmyownchildawaysomewhereselse?
Andthen,canmyhusbandliveonhisappetite?We’renothingbutpoorcountrypeople,weare。\"
\"Youaremakingamistake,nurse,\"brokeinGeorge。\"Itisnothingatallofthatsort;motherisquiteright。Iamsofarfromwantingtoreproachyou,that,onthecontrary,Ithinkshehadnotpromisedenough,andIwanttomakeyou,formypart,anotherpromise。Whenyougoaway,whenbabyisoldenoughtobeweaned,bywayofthankingyou,wewishtogiveyou——\"
MadameDupontbrokein,hurriedly,\"Wewishtogiveyou,——overandaboveyourwages,youunderstand——wewishtogiveyoufivehundredfrancs,andperhapsathousand,ifthelittleoneisaltogetheringoodhealth。Youunderstand?\"
Thenursestaredather,stupefied。\"Youwillgivemefivehundredfrancs——formyself?\"Shesoughttocomprehendthewords。
\"Butthatwasnotagreed,youdon’thavetodothatatall。\"
\"No,\"admittedMadameDupont。
\"Butthen,\"whisperedthenurse,halftoherself,\"that’snotnatural。\"
\"Yes,\"theotherhurriedon,\"itisbecausethebabywillhaveneedofextracare。Youwillhavetotakemoretrouble;youwillhavetogiveitmedicines;yourtaskwillbealittlemoredelicate,alittlemoredifficult。\"
\"Oh,yes;thenit’ssothatIwillbesuretotakecareofher?
Iunderstand。\"
\"Thenit’sagreed?\"exclaimedMadameDupont,withrelief。
\"Yesma’am,\"saidthenurse。
\"Andyouwon’tcomelaterontomakereproachestous?Weunderstandoneanotherclearly?Wehavewarnedyouthatthechildissickandthatyoucouldcatchthedisease。Becauseofthat,becauseofthespecialneedofcarewhichshehas,wepromiseyoufivehundredfrancsattheendofthenursing。
That’sallright,isit?
\"But,mylady,\"criedthenurse,allhercupidityawakened,\"youspokejustnowofathousandfrancs。\"
\"Verywell,then,athousandfrancs。\"
Georgepassedbehindthenurseandgothismotherbythearm,drawinghertooneside。\"Itwouldbeamistake,\"hewhispered,\"ifwedidnotmakehersignanagreementtoallthat。\"
Hismotherturnedtothenurse。\"Inorderthattheremaybenomisunderstandingaboutthesum——youseehowitis,IhadforgottenalreadythatIhadspokenofathousandfrancs——wewilldrawupalittlepaper,andyou,onyourpart,willwriteoneforus。\"
\"Verygood,ma’am,\"saidthenurse,delightedwiththeideaofsoimportantatransaction。\"Why,it’sjustasyoudowhenyourentahouse!\"
\"Herecomesthedoctor,\"saidtheother。\"Come,nurse,itisagreed?\"
\"Yes,ma’am,\"wastheanswer。Butallthesame,asshewentoutshehesitatedandlookedsharplyfirstatthedoctor,andthenatGeorgeandhismother。Shesuspectedthatsomethingwaswrong,andshemeanttofindoutifshecould。
ThedoctorseatedhimselfinGeorge’sofficechair,asiftowriteaprescription。\"Thechild’sconditionremainsthesame,\"
hesaid;\"nothingdisturbing。\"
\"Doctor,\"saidMadameDupont,gravely,\"fromnowon,youwillbeabletodevoteyourattentiontothebabyandthenursewithoutanyscruple。Duringyourabsencewehavearrangedmattersnicely。Thenursehasbeeninformedaboutthesituation,andshedoesnotmind。Shehasagreedtoacceptanindemnity,andtheamounthasbeenstated。\"
Butthedoctordidnottakethesetidingsastheotherhadhopedhemight。Hereplied:\"Themaladywhichthenursewillalmostinevitablycontractinfeedingthechildistoograveinitsconsequences。Suchconsequencesmightgoasfarascompletehelplessness,evenasfarasdeath。SoIsaythattheindemnity,whateveritmightbe,wouldnotpaythedamage。\"
\"But,\"exclaimedtheother,\"sheacceptsit!Sheismistressofherself,andshehastheright——\"
\"Iamnotatallcertainthatshehastherighttosellherownhealth。AndIamcertainthatshehasnottherighttosellthehealthofherhusbandandherchildren。Ifshebecomesinfected,itisnearlycertainthatshewillcommunicatethediseasetothem;thehealthandthelifeofthechildrenshemighthavelateronwouldbegreatlycompromised。Suchthingsshecannotpossiblysell。Come,madame,youmustseethatabargainofthissortisn’tpossible。Iftheevilhasnotbeendone,youmustdoeverythingtoavoidit。\"
\"Sir,\"protestedthemother,wildly,\"youdonotdefendourinterests!\"
\"Madame,\"wasthereply,\"Idefendthosewhoareweakest。\"
\"Ifwehadcalledinourownphysician,whoknowsus,\"sheprotested,\"hewouldhavetakensideswithus。\"
Thedoctorrose,withaseverelookonhisface。\"Idoubtit,\"
hesaid,\"butthereisstilltimetocallhim。\"
Georgebrokeinwithacryofdistress。\"Sir,Iimploreyou!\"
Andthemotherinturncried。\"Don’tabandonus,sir!Yououghttomakeallowances!Ifyouknewwhatthatchildistome!I
tellyouitseemstomeasifIhadwaitedforhercominginordertodie。Havepityuponus!Havepityuponher!Youspeakoftheweakest——itisnotshewhoistheweakest?Youhaveseenher,youhaveseenthatpoorlittlebaby,soemaciated!Youhaveseenwhataheapofsufferingsheisalready;andcannotthatinspireinyouanysympathy?Iprayyou,sir——Iprayyou!\"
\"Ipityher,\"saidthedoctor,\"Iwouldliketosaveher——andI
willdoeverythingforher。Butdonotaskmetosacrificetoafeebleinfant,withanuncertainandprobablyunhappylife,thehealthofasoundandrobustwoman。Itisuselessforustocontinuesuchadiscussionasthat。\"
WhereuponMadameDupontleapedupinsuddenfrenzy。\"VeryWell!\"
sheexclaimed。\"Iwillnotfollowyourcounsels,Iwillnotlistentoyou!\"
Saidthedoctorinasolemnvoice:\"Thereisalreadysomeoneherewhoregretsthathedidnotlistentome。\"
\"Yes,\"moanedGeorge,\"tomymisfortune,tothemisfortuneofallofus。\"
ButMadameDupontwasquitebesideherself。\"Verywell!\"shecried。\"Ifitisafault,ifitisacrime,ifIshallhavetosufferremorseforitinthislife,andallthepunishmentsinthelifetocome——Iacceptitallformyselfalone!Myselfalone,Itakethatresponsibility!Itisfrightfullyheavy,butIacceptit。IamprofoundlyaChristiansir;Ibelieveineternaldamnation;buttosavemylittlechildIconsenttolosemysoulforever。Yes,mymindismadeup——Iwilldoeverythingtosavethatlife!LetGodjudgeme;andifhecondemnsme,somuchtheworseforme!\"
Thedoctoranswered:\"ThatresponsibilityisonewhichIcannotletyoutake,foritwillbenecessarythatIshouldacceptmypart,andIrefuseit。\"
\"Whatwillyoudo?\"
\"Ishallwarnthenurse。Ishallinformherexactly,completely——somethingwhichyouhavenotdone,Ifeelsure。\"
\"What?\"criedMadameDupont,wildly。\"You,adoctor,calledintoafamilywhichgivesyouitsentireconfidence,whichhandsovertoyouitsmostterriblesecrets,itsmosthorriblemiseries——youwouldbetraythem?\"
\"Itisnotabetrayal,\"repliedtheman,sternly。\"Itissomethingwhichthelawcommands;andevenifthelawweresilent,Iwouldnotpermitafamilyofworthypeopletogoastraysofarastocommitacrime。EitherIgiveupthecase,oryouhavethenursingofthechildstopped。\"
\"Youthreaten!Youthreaten!\"criedthewoman,almostfrantic。
\"Youabusethepowerwhichyourknowledgegivesyou!Youknowthatitisyouwhoseattentionweneedbythatlittlecradle;youknowthatwebelieveinyou,andyouthreatentoabandonus!
Yourabandonmentmeansthedeathofthechild,perhaps!AndifI
listentoyou,ifwestopthenursingofthechild——thatalsomeansherdeath!\"
Sheflungupherhandslikeamadcreature。\"Andyetthereisnoothermeans!Ah,myGod!Whydoyounotletitbepossibleformetosacrificemyself?Iwouldwishnothingmorethantobeabletodoit——ifonlyyoumighttakemyoldbody,myoldflesh,myoldbones——ifonlyImightserveforsomething!HowquicklywouldIconsentthatitshouldinfectme——thisatrociousmalady!
HowIwouldoffermyselftoit——withwhatjoys,withwhatdelights——howeverdisgusting,howeverfrightfulitmightbe,howevermuchtobedreaded!Yes,Iwouldtakeitwithoutfear,withoutregret,ifmypooroldemptybreastsmightstillgivetothechildthemilkwhichwouldpreserveitslife!\"
Shestopped;andGeorgesprangsuddenlyfromhisseat,andfledtoherandflunghimselfdownuponhiskneesbeforeher,minglinghissobsandtearswithhers。
Thedoctorroseandmovedabouttheroom,unableanylongertocontrolhisdistress。\"Oh,thepoorpeople!\"hemurmuredtohimself。\"Thepoor,poorpeople!\"
Thestormpassed,andMadameDupont,whowasawomanofstrongcharacter,gotherselftogether。Facingthedoctoragain,shesaid,\"Come,sir,telluswhatwehavetodo。\"
\"Youmuststopthenursing,andkeepthewomanhereasadrynurse,inorderthatshemaynotgoawaytocarrythediseaseelsewhere。Donotexaggeratetoyourselfthedangerwhichwillresulttothechild。Iam,intruth,extremelymovedbyyoursuffering,andIwilldoeverything——Iswearittoyou——thatyourbabymayrecoverasquicklyaspossibleitsperfecthealth。I
hopetosucceed,andthatsoon。AndnowImustleaveyouuntiltomorrow。\"
\"Thankyou,Doctor,thankyou,\"saidMadameDupont,faintly。
Theyoungmanroseandaccompaniedthedoctortothedoor。Hecouldnotbringhimselftospeak,butstoodhanginghisheaduntiltheotherwasgone。Thenhecametohismother。Hesoughttoembraceher,butsherepelledhim——withoutviolence,butfirmly。
Hersonsteppedbackandputhishandsoverhisface。\"Forgiveme!\"hesaid,inabrokenvoice。\"Arewenotunhappyenough,withouthatingeachother?\"
Hismotheranswered:\"Godhaspunishedyouforyourdebauchbystrikingatyourchild。\"
But,grief—strickenastheyoungmanwas,hecouldnotbelievethat。\"Impossible!\"hesaid。\"ThereisnotevenamansufficientlywickedorunjusttocommittheactwhichyouattributetoyourGod!\"
\"Yes,\"saidhismother,sadly,\"youbelieveinnothing。\"
\"IbelieveinnosuchGodasthat,\"heanswered。
Asilencefollowed。Whenitwasbroken,itwasbytheentranceofthenurse。Shehadopenedthedooroftheroomandhadbeenstandingthereforsomemoments,unheeded。Finallyshesteppedforward。\"Madame,\"shesaid,\"Ihavethoughtitover;Iwouldrathergobacktomyhomeatonce,andhaveonlythefivehundredfrancs。\"
MadameDupontstaredatherinconsternation。\"Whatisthatyouaresaying?Youwanttoreturntoyourhome?\"
\"Yes,ma’am,\"wastheanswer。
\"But,\"criedGeorge,\"onlytenminutesagoyouwerenotthinkingofit。\"
\"Whathashappenedsincethen?\"demandedMadameDupont。
\"Ihavethoughtitover。\"
\"Thoughtitover?\"
\"Well,Iamgettinglonesomeformylittleoneandformyhusband。\"
\"Inthelasttenminutes?\"exclaimedGeorge。
\"Theremustbesomethingelse,\"hismotheradded。\"Evidentlytheremustbesomethingelse。\"
\"No!\"insistedthenurse。
\"ButIsayyes!\"
\"Well,I’mafraidtheairofParismightnotbegoodforme。\"
\"Youhadbetterwaitandtryit。\"
\"Iwouldrathergobackatoncetomyhome。\"
\"Come,now,\"criedMadameDupont,\"telluswhy?\"
\"Ihavetoldyou。Ihavethoughtitover。\"
\"Thoughtwhatover?\"
\"Well,Ihavethought。\"
\"Oh,\"criedthemother,\"whatastupidreply!’Ihavethoughtitover!Ihavethoughtitover!’ThoughtWHATover,Iwanttoknow!\"
\"Well,everything。\"
\"Don’tyouknowhowtotelluswhat?\"
\"Itellyou,everything。\"
\"Why,\"exclaimedMadameDupont,\"youareanimbecile!\"
Georgesteppedbetweenhismotherandthenurse。\"Letmetalktoher,\"hesaid。
Thewomancamebacktoheroldformula:\"Iknowthatwe’reonlypoorcountrypeople。\"
\"Listentome,nurse,\"saidtheyoungman。\"Onlyalittlewhileagoyouwereafraidthatwewouldsendyouaway。Youweresatisfiedwiththewageswhichmymotherhadfixed。Inadditiontothosewageswehadpromisedyouagoodsumwhenyoureturnedtoyourhome。Nowyoutellusthatyouwanttogoaway。Yousee?Allatonce。Theremustbesomereason;letusunderstandit。Theremustcertainlybeareason。Hasanybodydoneanythingtoyou?\"
\"No,sir,\"saidthewoman,droppinghereyes。
\"Well,then?\"
\"Ihavethoughtitover。\"
Georgeburstout,\"Don’tgoonrepeatingalwaysthesamething——
’Ihavethoughtitover!’That’snottellingusanything。\"
Controllinghimself,headded,gently,\"Come,tellmewhyyouwanttogoaway?\"
Therewasasilence。\"Well?\"hedemanded。
\"Itellyou,Ihavethought——\"
Georgeexclaimedindespair,\"It’sasifoneweretalkingtoablockofwood!\"
Hismothertookuptheconversationagain。\"Youmustrealize,youhavenottherighttogoaway。\"
Thewomananswered,\"IWANTtogo。\"
\"ButIwillnotletyouleaveus。\"
\"No,\"interruptedGeorgeangrily,\"lethergo;wecannotfastenherhere。\"
\"Verywell,then,\"criedtheexasperatedmother,\"sinceyouwanttogo,go!ButIhavecertainlytherighttosaytoyouthatyouareasstupidastheanimalsonyourfarm!\"
\"Idon’tsaythatIamnot,\"answeredthewoman。
\"Iwillnotpayyouthemonthwhichhasjustbegun,andyouwillpayyourrailroadfareforyourself。\"
Theotherdrewbackwithalookofanger。\"Oho!\"shecried。
\"We’llseeaboutthat!\"
\"Yes,we’llseeaboutit!\"criedGeorge。\"Andyouwillgetoutofhereatonce。Takeyourselfoff——Iwillhavenomoretodowithyou。Goodevening。\"
\"No,George,\"protestedhismother,\"don’tlosecontrolofyourself。\"Andthen,withagreateffortatcalmness,\"Thatcannotbeserious,nurse!Answerme。\"
\"Iwouldrathergooffrightawaytomyhome,andonlyhavemyfivehundredfrancs。\"
\"WHAT?\"criedGeorge,inconsternation。
\"What’sthatyouaretellingme?\"exclaimedMadameDupont。
\"Fivehundredfrancs?\"repeatedherson。
\"Whatfivehundredfrancs?\"echoedthemother。
\"Thefivehundredfrancsyoupromisedme,\"saidthenurse。
\"Wehavepromisedyoufivehundredfrancs?WE?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Whenthechildshouldbeweaned,andifweshouldbesatisfiedwithyou!Thatwasourpromise。\"
\"No。YousaidyouwouldgivethemtomewhenIwasleaving。NowIamleaving,andIwantthem。\"
MadameDupontdrewherselfup,haughtily。\"Inthefirstplace,\"
shesaid,\"kindlyobligemebyspeakingtomeinanothertone;doyouunderstand?\"
Thewomananswered,\"Youhavenothingtodobutgivememymoney,andIwillsaynothingmore。\"
Georgewentalmostbesidehimselfwithrageatthis。\"Oh,it’slikethat?\"heshouted。\"Verywell;I’llshowyou!\"Andhesprangtothedoorandopenedit。
Butthenurseneverbudged。\"Givememyfivehundredfrancs!\"
shesaid。
Georgeseizedherbythearmandshovedhertowardthedoor。
\"Youclearoutofhere,doyouunderstandme?Andasquicklyasyoucan!\"
Thewomanshookherarmloose,andsneeredintohisface。\"Comenow,you——youcantalktomealittlemorepolitely,eh?\"
\"Willyougo?\"shoutedGeorge,completelybesidehimself。\"Willyougo,ormustIgooutandlookforapoliceman?\"
\"Apoliceman!\"demandedthewoman。\"Forwhat?\"
\"Toputyououtside!Youarebehavingyourselflikeathief。\"
\"Athief?I?Whatdoyoumean?\"
\"Imeanthatyouaredemandingmoneywhichdoesn’tbelongtoyou。\"
\"Morethanthat,\"brokeinMadameDupont,\"youaredestroyingthatpoorlittlebaby!Youareawickedwoman!\"
\"Iwillputyououtmyself!\"shoutedGeorge,andseizedherbythearmagain。
\"Oh,it’slikethat,isit?\"retortedthenurse。\"ThenyoureallywantmetotellyouwhyIamgoingaway?\"
\"Yes,tellme!\"criedhe。
Hismotheradded,\"Yes,yes!\"
ShewouldhavespokendifferentlyhadshechancedtolookbehindherandseenHenriette,whoatthatmomentappearedinthedoorway。Shehadbeenabouttogoout,whenherattentionhadbeencaughtbytheloudvoices。Shestoodnow,amazed,claspingherhandstogether,whilethenurse,shakingherfistfirstatMadameDupontandthenatherson,criedloudly,\"Verywell!I’mgoingawaybecauseIdon’twanttocatchafilthydiseasehere!\"
\"HUSH!\"criedMadameDupont,andsprangtowardher,herhandsclenchedasifshewouldchokeher。
\"Besilent!\"criedGeorge,wildwithterror。
Butthewomanrushedonwithoutdroppinghervoice,\"Oh,youneednotbetroublingyourselvesforfearanyoneshouldoverhear!Alltheworldknowsit!Yourotherservantswerelisteningwithmeatyourdoor!Theyheardeverywordyourdoctorsaid!\"
\"Shutup!\"screamedGeorge。
Hermotherseizedthewomanfiercelybythearm。\"Holdyourtongue!\"shehissed。
Butagaintheothershookherselfloose。Shewaspowerful,andnowherragewasnottobecontrolled。Shewavedherhandsintheair,shouting,\"Letmebe,letmebe!Iknowallaboutyourbrat——thatyouwillneverbeabletoraiseit——thatit’srottenbecauseit’sfatherhasafilthydiseasehegotfromawomanofthestreet!\"
Shegotnofarther。ShewasinterruptedbyafrenziedshriekfromHenriette。Thethreeturned,horrified,justintimetoseeherfallforwarduponthefloor,convulsed。
\"MyGod!\"criedGeorge。Hesprangtowardher,andtriedtolifther,butsheshrankfromhim,repellinghimwithagestureofdisgust,ofhatred,ofthemostprofoundterror。\"Don’ttouchme!\"shescreamed,likeamaniac。\"Don’ttouchme!\"
CHAPTERV
ItwasinvainthatMadameDupontsoughttocontrolherdaughter—
in—law。Henriettewasbesideherself,frantic,shecouldnotbebroughttolistentoanyone。Sherushedintotheotherroom,andwhentheolderwomanfollowedher,shriekedouttobeleftalone。Afterwards,shefledtoherownroomandbarredherselfin,andGeorgeandhismotherwaiteddistractedlyforhoursuntilsheshouldgivesomesign。
Wouldshekillherself,perhaps?MadameDuponthoveredonguardaboutthedoorofthenurseryforfearthatthemotherinherfitofinsanitymightattemptsomeharmtoherchild。
Thenursehadslunkawayabashedwhenshesawtheconsequencesofheroutburst。Bythetimeshehadgotherbelongingspacked,shehadrecoveredherassurance。Shewantedherfivehundred;alsoshewantedherwagesandherrailroadfarehome。Shewantedthematonce,andshewouldnotleaveuntilshegotthem。Georgeandhismother,inthemidstofalltheiranguishofmind,hadtogothroughadisgustingscenewiththiscoarseandangrywoman。
Theyhadnosuchsumofmoneyinthehouse,andthenurserefusedtoacceptacheck。Sheknewnothingaboutacheck。Itwassomuchpaper,andmightbesometrickthattheywereplayingonher。Shekeptrepeatingheroldformula,\"Iamnothingbutapoorcountrywoman。\"Norwouldshebecontentedwiththepromisethatshewouldreceivethemoneythenextday。Sheseemedtobeafraidthatifsheleftthehouseshewouldbesurrenderingherclaim。SoatlastthedistractedGeorgetosallyforthandobtainthecashfromsometradesmenintheneighborhood。
Thewomantookherdeparture。Theymadehersignareceiptinfullforallclaimsandtheystrovetopersuadethemselvesthatthismadethemsafe;butintheirheartstheyhadnorealconvictionofsafety。Whatwasthewoman’ssignature,orherpledgedword,againstthecupidityofherhusbandandrelatives。
Alwaysshewouldhavethedreadfulsecrettoholdoverthem,andsotheywouldliveundertheshadowofpossibleblackmail。
LaterinthedayHenriettesentforhermother—in—law。Shewaswhite,hereyeswereswollenwithweeping,andshespokeinavoicechokedwithsobs。Shewishedtoreturnatoncetoherfather’shome,andtotakelittleGervaisewithher。MadameDupontcriedoutinhorroratthisproposition,andarguedandpleadedandwept——butalltonopurpose。Thegirlwasimmovable。
Shewouldnotstayunderherhusband’sroof,andshewouldtakeherchildwithher。Itwasherright,andnoonecouldrefuseher。
Theinfanthadbeencryingforhours,butthatmadenodifference。Henrietteinsistedthatacabshouldbecalledatonce。
SoshewentbacktothehomeofMonsieurLochesandtoldhimthehideousstory。Neverbeforeinherlifehadshediscussedsuchsubjectswithanyone,butnowinheragitationshetoldherfatherall。AsGeorgehaddeclaredtothedoctor,MonsieurLocheswasapersonofviolenttemper;atthisrevelation,atthesightofhisdaughter’sagony,hewasalmostbesidehimself。Hisfaceturnedpurple,theveinsstoodoutonhisforehead;atremblingseizedhim。HedeclaredthathewouldkillGeorge——
therewasnothingelsetodo。Suchascoundrelshouldnotbepermittedtolive。
TheeffortwhichHenriettehadtomaketorestrainhimhadacalmingeffectuponherself。Bitterandindignantasshewas,shedidnotwantGeorgetobekilled。Sheclungtoherfather,beseechinghimtopromiseherthathewouldnotdosuchathing;
andallthatdayandeveningshewatchedhim,unwillingtolethimoutofhersight。
Therewasamatterwhichclaimedherimmediateattention,andwhichhelpedtowithdrawthemfromthecontemplationoftheirownsufferings。Theinfantmustbefedandcaredfor——theunhappyvictimofotherpeople’ssins,whoselifewasnowimperiled。A
drynursemustbefoundatonce,anursecompetenttotakeeveryprecautionandgivethechildeverychance。Thisnursemustbeinformedofthenatureofthetrouble——anothermatterwhichrequiredagreatdealofanxiousthought。
ThateveningcameMadameDupont,tormentedbyanxietyaboutthechild’swelfare,andbeseechingpermissiontohelptakecareofit。Itwasimpossibletorefusesucharequest。Henriettecouldnotenduretoseeher,butthepoorgrandmotherwouldcomeandsitforhoursinthenursery,watchingthechildandthenurse,insilentagony。
Thiscontinuedfordays,whilepoorGeorgewanderedaboutathome,sufferingsuchtormentofmindascanhardlybeimagined。
Truly,inthesedayshepaidforhissins;hepaidathousand—
foldinagonizedandimpotentregret。Helookedbackuponthecourseofhislife,andtracedonebyonetheactswhichhadledhimandthosehelovedintothisnightmareoftorment。Hewouldhavebeenwillingtogivehislifeifhecouldhaveundonethoseacts。Butavengingnatureofferedhimnosucheasydeliveranceasthat。WeshudderaswereadthegrimwordsoftheJehovahoftheancientHebrews;andyetnotallthelearningofmoderntimeshasavailedtodeliverusfromthecrueldecree,thatthesinsofthefathersshallbevisiteduponthechildren。
Georgewrotenotestohiswife,imploringherforgiveness。Hepouredoutallhisagonyandshametoher,begginghertoseehimjustonce,togivehimachancetopleadhisdefense。Itwasnotmuchofadefense,tobesure;itwasonlythathehaddonenoworsethantheothersdid——onlythathewasawretchedvictimofignorance。Buthelovedher,hehadproventhathelovedher,andhepleadedthatforthesakeoftheirchildshewouldforgivehim。
Whenallthisavailednothing,hewenttoseethedoctor,whoseadvicehehadsoshamefullyneglected。Hebesoughtthismantointercedeforhim——whichthedoctor,ofcourse,refusedtodo。
Itwasanextra—medicalmatter,hesaid,andGeorgewasabsurdtoexpecthimtomeddleinit。
But,asamatteroffact,thedoctorhadalreadybeeninterceding——hehadgonefartherinpleadingGeorge’scausethanhewaswillingtohaveGeorgeknow。ForMonsieurLocheshadpaidhimavisit——hispurposebeingtoaskthedoctortocontinueattendanceupontheinfant,andalsotogiveHenrietteacertificatewhichshecoulduseinhersuitforadivorcefromherhusband。
Soinevitablytherehadbeenadiscussionofthewholequestionbetweenthetwomen。Thedoctorhadgrantedthefirstrequest,butrefusedthesecond。Inthefirstplace,hesaid,therewasaruleofprofessionalsecrecywhichwouldpreventhim。Andwhenthefather—in—lawrequestedtoknowiftheruleofprofessionalsecrecycompelledhimtoprotectacriminalagainsthonestpeople,thedoctoransweredthatevenifhisethicspermittedit,hewouldstillrefusetherequest。\"Iwouldreproachmyselfforever,\"hesaid,\"ifIhadaidedyoutoobtainsuchadivorce。\"
\"Then,\"criedtheoldman,vehemently,\"becauseyouprofesssuchandsuchtheories,becausetheexerciseofyourprofessionmakesyoutheconstantwitnessofsuchmiseries——thereforeitisnecessarythatmydaughtershouldcontinuetobearthatman’snameallherlife!\"
Thedoctoranswered,gently,\"Sir,Iunderstandandrespectyourgrief。Butbelieveme,youarenotinastateofmindtodecideaboutthesemattersnow。\"
\"Youaremistaken,\"declaredtheother,controllinghimselfwithaneffort。\"Ihavebeenthinkingaboutnothingelsefordays。I
havediscusseditwithmydaughter,andsheagreeswithme。