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  Butitismyaunt,anoldmaid;and,also,mymotheriscrazyabouttheidea。IfIweretobackoutnow,shewoulddieofchagrin。Myauntwoulddisinheritme,andsheistheonewhohasthefamilyfortune。Then,too,thereismyfather—in—law,aregulardragoonforhisprinciples——severe,violent。Henevermakesajokeofseriousthings,andItellyouitwouldcostmedear,terriblydear。And,besides,Ihavegivenmyword。\"

  \"Youmusttakebackyourword。\"

  \"Youstillinsist?\"exclaimedGeorge,indespair。\"Butthen,supposethatitwerepossible,howcouldItakebackmysignaturewhichIputatthebottomofthedeed?Ihavepledgedmyselftopayintwomonthsfortheattorney’spracticeIhavepurchased!\"

  \"Sir,\"saidthedoctor,\"allthesethings——\"

  \"YouaregoingtotellmethatIwaslackinginprudence,thatI

  shouldneverhavedisposedofmywife’sdowryuntilafterthehoneymoon!\"

  \"Sir,\"saidthedoctor,again,\"alltheseconsiderationsareforeigntome。Iamaphysician,andnothingbutaphysician,andIcanonlytellyouthis:Ifyoumarrybeforethreeorfouryears,youwillbeacriminal。\"

  Georgebrokeoutwithawildexclamation。\"Nosir,youarenotmerelyaphysician!Youarealsoaconfessor!Youarenotmerelyascientist;anditisnotenoughforyouthatyouobservemeasyouwouldsomelifelessthinginyourlaboratory,andsay,’Youhavethis;sciencesaysthat;nowgoalongwithyou。’Allmyexistencedependsuponyou。Itisyourdutytolistentome,becausewhenyouknoweverythingyouwillunderstandme,andyouwillfindsomewaytocuremewithinamonth。\"

  \"But,\"protestedthedoctor,\"Iwearmyselfouttellingyouthatsuchmeansdonotexist。Ishallnotbecertainofyourcure,asmuchasanyonecanbecertain,inlessthanthreeorfouryears。\"

  Georgewasalmostbesidehimself。\"Itellyouyoumustfindsomemeans!Listentome,sir——ifIdon’tgetmarriedIdon’tgetthedowry!AndwillyoutellmehowIcanpaythenotesIhavesigned?\"

  \"Oh,\"saidthedoctor,dryly,\"ifthatisthequestion,itisverysimple——Iwillgiveyouaplantogetoutoftheaffair。

  Youwillgoandgetacquaintedwithsomerichman;youwilldoeverythingyoucantogainhisconfidence;andwhenyouhavesucceeded,youwillplunderhim。\"

  Georgeshookhishead。\"Iamnotinanymoodforjoking。\"

  \"Iamnotjoking,\"repliedhisadviser。\"Robthatman,assassinatehimeven——thatwouldbenoworsecrimethanyouwouldcommitintakingayounggirlingoodhealthinordertogetaportionofherdowry,whenatthesametimeyouwouldhavetoexposehertothefrightfulconsequencesofthediseasewhichyouwouldgiveher。\"

  \"Frightfulconsequences?\"echoedGeorge。

  \"Consequencesofwhichdeathwouldnotbethemostfrightful。\"

  \"But,sir,youweresayingtomejustnow——\"

  \"JustnowIdidnottellyoueverything。Evenreduced,suppressedalittlebyourremedies,thediseaseremainsmysterious,menacing,andititssum,sufficientlygrave。Soitwouldbeaninfamytoexposeyourfianceeinordertoavoidaninconvenience,howevergreatthatmightbe。\"

  ButGeorgewasstillnottobeconvinced。WasitcertainthatthismisfortunewouldbefallHenriette,evenwiththebestattention?

  Saidtheother:\"Idonotwishtolietoyou。No,itisnotabsolutelycertain,itisprobable。AndthereisanothertruthwhichIwishtotellyounow:ourremediesarenotinfallible。

  Inacertainnumberofcases——averysmallnumber,scarcelyfivepercent——theyhaveremainedwithouteffect。Youmightbeoneofthoseexceptions,yourwifemightbeone。Whatthen?\"

  \"Iwillemployawordyouusedjustnow,yourself。Weshouldhavetoexpecttheworstcatastrophes。\"

  Georgesatinastateofcompletedespair。

  \"Tellmewhattodo,then,\"hesaid。

  \"Icantellyouonlyonething:don’tmarry。Youhaveamostseriousblemish。Itisasifyouowedadebt。Perhapsnoonewillevercometoclaimit;ontheotherhand,perhapsapitilesscreditorwillcomeallatonce,presentingabrutaldemandforimmediatepayment。Comenow——youareabusinessman。Marriageisacontract;tomarrywithoutsayinganything——thatmeanstoenterintoabargainbymeansofpassivedissimulation。That’stheterm,isitnot?Itisdishonesty,anditoughttocomeunderthelaw。\"

  George,beingalawyer,couldappreciatetheargument,andcouldthinkofnothingtosaytoit。

  \"WhatshallIdo?\"heasked。

  Theotheranswered,\"Gotoyourfather—in—lawandtellhimfranklythetruth。\"

  \"But,\"criedtheyoungman,wildly,\"therewillbenoquestionthenofthreeorfouryears’delay。Hewillrefusehisconsentaltogether。\"

  \"Ifthatisthecase,\"saidthedoctor,\"don’ttellhimanything。\"

  \"ButIhavetogivehimareason,orIdon’tknowwhathewilldo。Heisthesortofmantogivehimselftotheworstviolence,andagainmyfianceewouldbelosttome。Listen,doctor。FromeverythingIhavesaidtoyou,youmayperhapsthinkIamamercenaryman。ItistruethatIwanttogetalongintheworld,thatisonlynatural。ButHenriettehassuchqualities;sheissomuchbetterthanI,thatIloveher,really,aspeopleloveinnovels。Mygreatestgrief——itisnottogiveupthepracticeI

  havebought——although,indeed,itwouldbeabitterblowtome;

  mygreatestgriefwouldbetoloseHenriette。Ifyoucouldonlyseeher,ifyouonlyknewher——thenyouwouldunderstand。Ihaveherpicturehere——\"

  Theyoungfellowtookouthiscard—case。Andofferedaphotographtothedoctor,whogentlyrefusedit。Theotherblushedwithembarrassment。

  \"Ibegyourpardon,\"hesaid,\"Iamridiculous。Thathappenstome,sometimes。Only,putyourselfinmyplace——Iloveherso!\"

  Hisvoicebroke。

  \"Mydearboy,\"saidthedoctor,feelingly,\"thatisexactlywhyyououghtnottomarryher。\"

  \"But,\"hecried,\"ifIbackoutwithoutsayinganythingtheywillguessthetruth,andIshallbedishonored。\"

  \"Oneisnotdishonoredbecauseoneisill。\"

  \"Butwithsuchadisease!Peoplearesostupid。Imyself,yesterday——Ishouldhavelaughedatanyonewhohadgotintosuchaplight;Ishouldhaveavoidedhim,Ishouldhavedespisedhim!\"

  AndsuddenlyGeorgebrokedownagain。\"Oh!\"hecried,\"ifIweretheonlyonetosuffer;butshe——sheisinlovewithme。Iswearittoyou!Sheissogood;andshewillbesounhappy!\"

  Thedoctoranswered,\"Shewouldbeunhappierlateron。\"

  \"Itwillbeascandal!\"Georgeexclaimed。

  \"Youwillavoidonefargreater,\"theotherreplied。

  SuddenlyGeorgesethislipswithresolution。Herosefromhisseat。Hetookseveraltwenty—francpiecesfromhispocketandlaidthemquietlyuponthedoctor’sdesk——payingthefeeincash,sothathewouldnothavetogivehisnameandaddress。Hetookuphisgloves,hiscaneandhishat,androse。

  \"Iwillthinkitover,\"hesaid。\"Ithankyou,Doctor。Iwillcomebacknextweekasyouhavetoldme。Thatis——probablyI

  will。\"

  Hewasabouttoleave。

  Thedoctorrose,andhespokeinavoiceoffuriousanger。\"No,\"

  hesaid,\"Ishan’tseeyounextweek,andyouwon’teventhinkitover。Youcamehereknowingwhatyouhad;youcametoaskadviceofme,withtheintentionofpayingnoheedtoit,unlessitconformedtoyourwishes。Asuperficialhonestyhasdrivenyoutotakethatchanceinordertosatisfyyourconscience。Youwantedtohavesomebodyuponwhomyoucouldputoff,byeandbye,theconsequencesofanactwhoseculpabilityyouunderstand!No,don’tprotest!Manyofthosewhocomeherethinkandactasyouthink,andasyouwishtoact;butthemarriagemadeagainstmywillhasgenerallybeenthesourceofsuchcalamitiesthatnowI

  amalwaysafraidofnothavingbeenpersuasiveenough,anditevenseemstomethatIamalittletoblameforthesemisfortunes。Ishouldhavebeenabletopreventthem;theywouldnothavehappenedifthosewhoaretheauthorsofthemknewwhatIknowandhadseenwhatIhaveseen。Sweartome,sir,thatyouaregoingtobreakoffthatmarriage!\"

  Georgewasgreatlyembarrassed,andunwillingtoreply。\"I

  cannotsweartoyouatall,Doctor;IcanonlytellyouagainthatIwillthinkitover。\"

  \"ThatWHATover?\"

  \"Whatyouhavetoldme。\"

  \"WhatIhavetoldyouistrue!Youcannotbringanynewobjections;andIhaveansweredthosewhichyouhavepresentedtome;therefore,yourmindoughttobemadeup。\"

  Gropingforareply,Georgehesitated。Hecouldnotdenythathehadmadeinquiryaboutthesemattersbeforehehadcometothedoctor。Buthesaidthathewasnotalallcertainthathehadthisdisease。Thedoctordeclaredit,andperhapsitwastrue,butthemostlearnedphysiciansweresometimesdeceived。

  Herememberedsomethinghehadreadinoneofthemedicalbooks。

  \"Dr。Ricordmaintainsthatafteracertainperiodthediseaseisnolongercontagious。Hehasprovenhiscontentionsbyexamples。

  Todayyouproducenewexamplestoshowthatheiswrong!Now,I

  wanttodowhat’sright,butsurelyIhavetherighttothinkitover。AndwhenIthinkitover,Irealizethatalltheevilswithwhichyouthreatenmeareonlyprobableevils。Inspiteofyourdesiretoterrifyme,youhavebeenforcedtoadmitthatpossiblymymarriagewouldnothaveanytroublesomeconsequenceformywife。\"

  Thedoctorfounddifficultyinrestraininghimself。Buthesaid,\"Goon。Iwillansweryouafterwards。\"

  AndGeorgeblunderedaheadinhisdesperation。\"Yourremediesarepowerful,youtellme;andforthecalamitiesofwhichyouspeaktobefallme,Iwouldhavetobeamongtherareexceptions——alsomywifewouldhavetobeamongthenumberofthoserareexceptions。Ifamathematicianweretoapplythelawofchancetothesefacts,theresultofhisoperationwouldshowbutslightchanceofacatastrophe,ascomparedwiththeabsolutecertaintyofaseriesofmisfortunes,sufferings,troubles,tears,andperhapstragicaccidentswhichthebreakingofmyengagementwouldcause。SoIsaythatthemathematician——whois,evenmorethanyou,amanofscience,amanofamoreinfalliblescience——themathematicianwouldconcludethatwisdomwasnotwithyoudoctors,butwithme。\"

  \"Youbelieveit,sir!\"exclaimedtheother。\"Butyoudeceiveyourself。\"Andhecontinued,drivinghomehispointwithafingerwhichseemedtoGeorgetopiercehisverysoul。\"Twentycasesidenticalwithyourownhavebeenpatientlyobserved,fromthebeginningtotheend。Nineteentimesthewomanwasinfectedbyherhusband;youhearme,sir,nineteentimesoutoftwenty!

  Youbelievethatthediseaseiswithoutdanger,andyoutaketoyourselftherighttoexposeyourwifetowhatyoucallthechanceofyourbeingoneofthoseexceptions,forwhomourremediesarewithouteffect。Verywell;itisnecessarythatyoushouldknowthediseasewhichyourwife,withoutbeingconsulted,willrunachanceofcontracting。Takethatbook,sir;itistheworkofmyteacher。Readityourself。Here,Ihavemarkedthepassage。\"

  Heheldouttheopenbook;butGeorgecouldnotliftahandtotakeit。

  \"Youdonotwishtoreadit?\"theothercontinued。\"Listentome。\"Andinavoicetremblingwithpassion,heread:\"’Ihavewatchedthespectacleofanunfortunateyoungwoman,turnedintoaveritablemonsterbymeansofasyphiliticinfection。Herface,orratherletmesaywhatwasleftofherface,wasnothingbutaflatsurfaceseamedwithscars。’\"

  Georgecoveredhisface,exclaiming,\"Enough,sir!Havemercy!\"

  Buttheothercried,\"No,no!Iwillgototheveryend。Ihaveadutytoperform,andIwillnotbestoppedbythesensibilityofyournerves。\"

  Hewentonreading:\"’Oftheupperlipnotatracewasleft;theridgeoftheuppergumsappearedperfectlybare。’\"Butthenattheyoungman’sprotests,hisresolutionfailedhim。\"Come,\"hesaid,\"Iwillstop。Iamsorryforyou——youwhoacceptforanotherperson,forthewomanyousayyoulove,thechanceofadiseasewhichyoucannotevenenduretoheardescribed。Now,fromwhomdidthatwomangetsyphilis?ItisnotIwhoamspeaking,itisthebook。’Fromamiserablescoundrelwhowasnotafraidtoenterintomatrimonywhenhehadasecondaryeruption。’Allthatwasestablishedlateron——’andwho,moreover,hadthoughtitbestnottolethiswifebetreatedforfearofawakeninghersuspicions!’\"

  Thedoctorclosedthebookwithabang。\"Whatthatmanhasdone,sir,iswhatyouwanttodo。\"

  Georgewasedgingtowardthedoor;hecouldnolongerlookthedoctorintheeye。\"IshoulddeserveallthoseepithetsandstillmorebrutalonesifIshouldmarry,knowingthatmymarriagewouldcausesuchhorrors。ButthatIdonotbelieve。

  Youandyourteachers——youarespecialists,andconsequentlyyouaredriventoattributeeverythingtothediseaseyoumakethesubjectofyourstudies。Atragiccase,anexceptionalcase,holdsakindoffascinationforyou;youthinkitcanneverbetalkedaboutenough。\"

  \"Ihaveheardthatargumentbefore,\"saidthedoctor,withaneffortatpatience。

  \"Letmegoon,Ibegyou,\"pleadedGeorge。\"Youhavetoldmethatoutofeverysevenmenthereisonesyphilitic。YouhavetoldmethatthereareonehundredthousandinParis,comingandgoing,alert,andapparentlywell。\"

  \"Itistrue,\"saidthedoctor,\"thatthereareonehundredthousandwhoareactuallyatthismomentnotvisiblyundertheinfluenceofthedisease。Butmanythousandshavepassedintoourhospitals,victimsofthemostfrightfulravagesthatourpoorbodiescansupport。These——youdonotseethem,andtheydonotcountforyou。Butagain,ifitconcernednoonebutyourself,youmightbeabletoarguethus。WhatIdeclaretoyou,whatIaffirmwithalltheviolenceofmyconviction,isthatyouhavenottherighttoexposeahumancreaturetosuchchances——rare,asIknow,butterrible,asIknowstillbetter。

  Whathaveyoutoanswertothat?\"

  \"Nothing,\"stammeredGeorge,broughttohiskneesatlast。\"Youarerightaboutthat。Idon’tknowwhattothink。\"

  \"Andinforbiddingyoumarriage,\"continuedthedoctor,\"isitthesameasifIforbadeitforever?IsitthesameasifItoldyouthatyoucouldneverbecured?Onthecontrary,Iholdouttoyoueveryhope;butIdemandofyouadelayofthreeorfouryears,becauseitwilltakemethattimetofindoutifyouareamongthenumberofthoseunfortunateoneswhomIpitywithallmyheart,forwhomthediseaseiswithoutmercy;becauseduringthattimeyouwillbedangeroustoyourwifeandtoyourchildren。ThechildrenIhavenotyetmentionedtoyou。\"

  Herethedoctor’svoicetrembledslightly。Hespokewithmovingeloquence。\"Come,sir,youareanhonestman;youaretooyoungforsuchthingsnottomoveyou;youarenotinsensibletoduty。

  ItisimpossiblethatIshan’tbeabletofindawaytoyourheart,thatIshan’tbeabletomakeyouobeyme。MyemotioninspeakingtoyouprovesthatIappreciateyoursuffering,thatI

  sufferwithyou。ItisinthenameofmysinceritythatI

  imploreyou。Youhaveadmittedit——thatyouhavenottherighttoexposeyourwifetosuchmiseries。Butitisnotonlyyourwifethatyoustrike;youmayattackinheryourownchildren。I

  excludeyouforamomentfrommythought——youandher。ItisinthenameoftheseinnocentsthatIimploreyou;itisthefuture,itistheracethatIdefend。Listentome,listentome!OutofthetwentyhouseholdsofwhichIspoke,onlyfifteenhadchildren;thesefifteenhadtwenty—eight。Doyouknowhowmanyoutofthesetwenty—eightsurvived?Three,sir!Threeoutoftwenty—eight!Syphilisisaboveeverythingamurdererofchildren。HerodreignsinFrance,andoveralltheearth,andbeginseachyearhismassacreoftheinnocents;andifitbenotblasphemyagainstthesacrednessoflife,Isaythatthemosthappyarethosewhohavedisappeared。Visitourchildren’shospitals!Weknowtoowellthechildofsyphiliticparents;thetypeisclassical;thedoctorscanpickitoutanywhere。Thoselittleoldcreatureswhohavetheappearanceofhavingalreadylived,andwhohavekeptthestigmataofalloutinfirmities,ofallourdecay。Theyarethevictimsoffatherswhohavemarried,beingignorantofwhatyouknow——thingswhichIshouldliketogoandcryoutinthepublicplaces。\"

  Thedoctorpaused,andtheninasolemnvoicecontinued:\"Ihavetoldyouall,withoutexaggeration。Thinkitover。Considertheprosandcons;sumupthepossiblemisfortunesandthecertainmiseries。Butdisregardyourself,andconsiderthatthereareinonesideofthescalesthemisfortunesofothers,andintheotheryourown。Takecarethatyouarejust。\"

  Georgewasatlastovercome。\"Verywell,\"hesaid,\"Igiveway。

  Iwon’tgetmarried。Iwillinventsomeexcuse;Iwillgetadelayofsixmonths。Morethanthat,Icannotdo。\"

  Thedoctorexclaimed,\"Ineedthreeyears——Ineedfouryears!\"

  \"No,Doctor!\"persistedGeorge。\"Youcancuremeinlesstimethanthat。\"

  Theotheranswered,\"No!No!No!\"

  Georgecaughthimbythehand,imploringly。\"Yes!Scienceinallpowerful!\"

  \"ScienceisnotGod,\"wasthereply。\"Therearenolongeranymiracles。\"

  \"Ifonlyyouwantedtodoit!\"criedtheyoungman,hysterically。

  \"Youarealearnedman;seek,invent,findsomething!Trysomenewplanwithme;givemedoublethedose,tentimesthedoes;

  makemesuffer。Igivemyselfuptoyou;Iwillendureeverything——Iswearit!Thereoughttobesomewaytocuremewithinsixmonths。Listentome!ItellyouIcan’tanswerformyselfwiththatdelay。Come;itisinthenameofmywife,inthenameofmychildren,thatIimploreyou。Dosomethingforthem!\"

  Thedoctorhadreachedthelimitofhispatience。\"Enough,sir!\"

  hecried。\"Enough!\"

  Butnothingcouldstopthewretchedman。\"Onmyknees!\"hecried。\"Iputmyselfonmykneesbeforeyou!Oh!Ifonlyyouwoulddoit!Iwouldblessyou;Iwouldadoreyou,asoneadoresagod!Allmygratitude,allmylife——halfmyfortune!

  Formercy’ssake,Doctor,dosomething;inventsomething;makesomediscovery——havepity!\"

  Thedoctoransweredgravely,\"Doyouwishmetodomoreforyouthanfortheothers?\"

  Georgeanswered,unblushingly,’answered,unblushingly,\"Yes!\"

  Hewasbesidehimselfwithterroranddistress。

  Theother’sreplywasdeliveredinasolemntone。\"Understand,sir,foreveryoneofoutpatientswedoallthatwecan,whetheritbethegreatestpersonage,orthelastcomertoouthospitalclinic。Wehavenosecretsinreserveforthosewhoaremorefortunate,orlessfortunatethantheothers,andwhoareinahurrytobecured。\"

  Georgegazedathimforamomentinbewildermentanddespair,andthensuddenlybowedhishead。\"Good—by,Doctor,\"heanswered。

  \"Aurevoir,sir,\"theothercorrected——withwhatprovedtobepropheticunderstanding。ForGeorgewasdestinedtoseehimagain——eventhoughhehadmadeuphismindtothecontrary!

  CHAPTERIII

  GeorgeDuponthadthemostimportantdecisionofhislifetomake;buttherewasneververymuchdoubtwhathisdecisionwouldbe。Onetheonehandwasthedefinitecertaintythatifhetookthedoctor’sadvice,hewouldwreckhisbusinessprospects,andperhapsalsolosethewomanheloved。Ontheotherhandwerevagueanduncertainpossibilitieswhichitwasdifficultforhimtomakerealtohimself。Itwasallverywelltowaitawhiletobecuredofthedreaddisease;buttowaitthreeorfouryears——

  thatwassimplypreposterous!

  Hedecidedtoconsultanotherphysician。Hewouldfindonethistimewhowouldnotbesoparticular,whowouldbewillingtotakesometroubletocurehimquickly。Hebegantonoticetheadvertisementswhichwerescatteredoverthepagesofthenewspapersheread。TherewereapparentlyplentyofdoctorsinPariswhocouldcurehim,whowerewillingtoguaranteetocurehim。Aftermuchhesitation,hepickedoutonewhoseadvertisementsoundedthemostconvincing。

  Theofficewaslocatedinacheapquarter。Itwasadingyplace,notencumberedwithworksofart,butwithafewbookscoveredwithdust。Thedoctorhimselfwasstoutandgreasy,andherubbedhishandswithanticipationatthesightofsoprosperous—lookingapatient。Buthewasevidentlyamanofexperience,forheknewexactlywhatwasthematterwithGeorge,almostwithouttheformalityofanexamination。Yes,hecouldcurehim,quickly,hesaid。Therehadrecentlybeengreatdiscoveriesmade——newmethodswhichhadnotreachedthebulkoftheprofession。Helaughedattheideaofthreeorfouryears。

  Thatwasthewaywiththosespecialists!Whenonegotfortyfrancsforaconsultation,naturally,onewasgladtodragoutthecase。Thereweretricksinthemedicaltrade,asinallothers。Adoctorhadtolive;whenhehadabigname,hehadtoliveexpensively。

  Thenewphysicianwroteouttwoprescriptions,andpattedGeorgeontheshoulderashewentaway。Therewasnoneedforhimtoworry;hewouldsurelybewellinthreemonths。Ifhewouldputoffhismarriageforsixmonths,hewouldbedoingeverythingwithinreason。Andmeantime,therewasnoneedforhimtoworryhimself——thingswouldcomeoutallright。SoGeorgewentaway,feelingasifamountainhadbeenliftedfromhisshoulders。

  HewenttoseeHenriettethatsameevening,togetthemattersettled。\"Henriette,\"hesaid,\"Ihavetotellyousomethingveryimportant——somethingratherpainful。Ihopeyouwon’tletitdisturbyoutoomuch。\"

  Shewasgazingathiminalarm。\"Whatisit?\"

  \"Why,\"hesaid,blushinginspiteofhimself,andregrettingthathehadbegunthemattersoprecipitately,\"forsometimeI’venotbeenfeelingquitewell。I’vebeenhavingaslightcough。Haveyounoticedit?\"

  \"Whyno!\"exclaimedHenriette,anxiously。

  \"Well,todayIwenttoseeadoctor,andhesaysthatthereisapossibility——youunderstanditisnothingveryserious——butitmightbe——Imightpossiblyhavelungtrouble。\"

  \"George!\"criedthegirlinhorror。

  Heputhishanduponhers。\"Don’tbefrightened,\"hesaid。\"Itwillbeallright,onlyIhavetotakecareofmyself。\"Howverydearofher,hethought——tobesomuchworried!

  \"George,yououghttogoawaytothecountry!\"shecried。\"Youhavebeenworkingtoohard。Ialwaystoldyouthatifyoushutyourselfupsomuch——\"

  \"Iamgoingtotakecareofmyself,\"hesaid。\"Irealizethatitisnecessary。Ishallbeallright——thedoctorassuredmetherewasnodoubtofit,soyouarenottodistressyourself。Butmeantime,hereisthetrouble:Idon’tthinkitwouldberightformetomarryuntilIamperfectlywell。\"

  Henriettegaveanexclamationofdismay。

  \"Iamsureweshouldputitoff,\"hewenton,\"itwouldbeonlyfairtoyou。\"

  \"But,George!\"sheprotested。\"Surelyitcan’tbethatserious!\"

  \"Weoughttowait,\"hesaid。\"Yououghtnottotakethechanceofbeingmarriedtoaconsumptive。\"

  Theotherprotestedinconsternation。Hedidnotlooklikeaconsumptive;shedidnotbelievethatheWASaconsumptive。Shewaswillingtotakeherchances。Shelovedhim,andshewasnotafraid。ButGeorgeinsisted——hewassurethatheoughtnottomarryforsixmonths。

  \"Didthedoctoradvisethat?\"askedHenriette。

  \"No,\"hereplied,\"butImadeupmymindaftertalkingtohimthatImustdothefairandhonorablething。Ibegyoutoforgiveme,andtobelievethatIknowbest。\"

  Georgestoodfirmlybythisposition,andsointheendshehadtogiveway。Itdidnotseemquitemodestinhertocontinuepersisting。

  Georgevolunteeredtowritealettertoherfather;andhehopedthiswouldsettlethematterwithoutfurtherdiscussion。Butinthishewasdisappointed。TherehadtobealongcorrespondencewithlongargumentsandprotestationsfromHenriette’sfatherandfromhisownmother。Itseemedsuchasingularwhim。Everybodypersistedindiagnosinghissymptoms,inquestioninghimaboutwhatthedoctorhadsaid,whothedoctorwas,howhehadcometoconsulthim——allofwhich,ofcourse,wasveryembarrassingtoGeorge,whocouldnotseewhytheyhadtomakesuchafuss。Hetooktocultivatingaconsumptivelook,aswellashecouldimagineit;hetooktocoughingashewentaboutthehouse——anditwasallhecoulddotokeepfromlaughing,ashesawthelookofdismayonhispoormother’sface。Afterall,however,hetoldhimselfthathewasnotdeceivingher,forthediseasehehadwasquiteasseriousastuberculosis。

  Itwasverypainfulandverytrying。Buttherewasnothingthatcouldbedoneaboutit;themarriagehadbeenputoffforsixmonths,andinthemeantimeheandHenriettehadtocontroltheirimpatienceandmakethebestoftheirsituation。Sixmonthswasalongtime;butwhatifithadbeenthreeorfouryears,astheotherdoctorhaddemanded?Thatwouldhavebeenaveritablesentenceofdeath。

  George,aswehaveseen,wasconscientious,andregularandcarefulinhishabits。Hetookthemedicinewhichthenewdoctorprescribedforhim;anddaybydayhewatched,andtohisgreatreliefsawthetroublesomesymptomsgraduallydisappearing。Hebegantotakeheart,andtolookforwardtolifewithhisformerbuoyancy。Hehadhadabadscare,butnoweverythingwasgoingtobeallright。

  Threeorfourmonthspassed,andthedoctortoldhimhewascured。Hereallywascured,sofarashecouldsee。Hewassorry,now,thathehadaskedforsolongadelayfromHenriette;

  butthenewdatefortheweddinghadbeenannounced,anditwouldbeawkwardtochangeitagain。Georgetoldhimselfthathewasbeing\"extracareful,\"andhewasrepaidfortheinconveniencebythefeelingofvirtuederivedfromthedelay。Hewasrelievedthathedidnothavetocoughanymore,ortoinventanymoretalesofhisinterviewswiththeimaginarylung—specialist。

  Sometimeshehadguiltyfeelingsbecauseofallthelyinghehadhadtodo;buthetoldhimselfthatitwasforHenriette’ssake。

  Shelovedhimasmuchashelovedher。Shewouldhavesufferedneedlessagonieshadsheknownthetruth;shewouldneverhavegotoverit——soitwouldhavebeenacrimetotellher。

  Hereallylovedherdevotedly,thoroughly。Fromthebeginninghehadthoughtasmuchofhermentalsufferingsashehadofanyphysicalharmthatthedreaddiseasemightdotohim。Howcouldhepossiblypersuadehimselftogiveherup,whenheknewthattheseparationwouldbreakherheartandruinherwholelife?

  No;obviously,insuchadilemma,itwashisdutytousehisownbestjudgment,andgethimselfcuredasquicklyaspossible。

  Afterthathewouldbetruetoher,hewouldtakenomorechancesofaloathsomedisease。

  Thesecrethewashidingmadehimfeelhumble——madehimunusuallygentleinhisattitudetowardsthegirl。Hewasaperfectlover,andshewasravishedwithhappiness。Shethoughtthatallhissufferingswerebecauseofhisloveforher,andthedelaywhichhehadimposedoutofhisexcessofconscientiousness。Soshelovedhimmoreandmore,andneverwasthereahappierbridethanHenrietteLoches,whenatlastthegreatdayarrived。

  TheywenttotheRiveriafortheirhoneymoon,andthenreturnedtoliveinthehomewhichhadbelongedtoGeorge’sfather。Theinvestmentinthenotary’spracticehadprovenagoodone,andsolifeheldouteverypromisefortheyoungcouple。Theyweredivinelyhappy。

  Afterawhile,thebridecommunicatedtoherhusbandthetidingsthatshewasexpectingachild。ThenitseemedtoGeorgethatthecupofhisearthlyblisswasfull。Hisailmenthadslippedfarintothebackgroundofhisthoughts,likeanevildreamwhichhehadforgotten。Heputawaythemedicinesinthebottomofhistrunkanddismissedthewholematterfromhismind。Henriettewaswell——averypictureofhealth,aseveryoneagreed。Thedoctorhadneverseenamorepromisingyoungmother,hedeclared,andMadameDupont,theelder,bloomedwithfreshlifeandjoyassheattendedherdaughter—in—law。

  Henriettewentforthesummertoherfather’splaceintheprovinces,whichsheandGeorgehadvisitedbeforetheirmarriage。Theydroveoutonedaytothefarmwheretheyhadstopped。Thefarmer’swifehadaweek—oldbaby,thesightofwhichmadeHenriette’sheartleapwithdelight。HewassuchaveryhealthybabythatGeorgeconceivedtheideathatthiswouldbethewomantonursehisownchild,incaseHenrietteherselfshouldnotbeabletodoit。

  Theycamebacktothecity,andtherethebabywasborn。AsGeorgepacedthefloor,waitingforthenews,thememoryofhisevildreamscamebacktohim。Herememberedallthedreadfulmonstrositiesofwhichhehadread——infantsthatwerebornofsyphiliticparents。Hisheartstoodstillwhenthenursecameintotheroomtotellhimthetidings。

  Butitwasallright;ofcourseitwasallright!Hehadbeenafool,hetoldhimself,ashestoodinthedarkenedroomandgazedatthewonderfullittlemiteoflifewhichwasthefruitofhislove。Itwasaperfectchild,thedoctorsaid——alittlesmall,tobesure,butthatwasadefectwhichwouldsoonberemedied。

  Georgekneeledbythebedsideandkissedthehandofhiswife,andwentoutoftheroomfeelingasifhehadescapedfromatomb。

  Allwentwell,andafteracoupleofweeksHenriettewasaboutthehouseagain,laughingalldayandsingingwithjoy。Butthebabydidnotgainquiteasrapidlyasthedoctorhadhoped,anditwasdecidedthatthecountryairwouldbebetterforher。SoGeorgeandhismotherpaidavisittothefarminthecountry,andarrangedthatthecountrywomanshouldputherownchildtonurseelsewhereandshouldbecomethefoster—motheroflittleGervaise。

  Georgepaidagoodpricefortheservice,farmorethanwouldhavebeennecessary,forthesimplecountrywomanwasdelightedwiththeideaoftakingcareofthegrandchildofthedeputyofherdistrict。Georgecamehomeandtoldhiswifeaboutthisandhadamerrytimeashepicturedthewomanboastingaboutittothetravelerswhostoppedatherdoor。\"Yes,ma’am,agreatpieceofluckI’vegot,ma’am。I’vegotthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy——atyourservicema’am。My!Butsheisasfatasoutlittlecalf——andsoclever!Sheunderstandseverything。Agreatpieceofluckforme,ma’am。She’sthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy!\"Henriettewasvastlyentertained,discoveringinherhusbandanewtalent,thatofanactor。

  AsforGeorge’smother,shewashardlytobepersuadedfromstayinginthecountrywiththechild。Shewenttwiceaweek,tomakesurethatallwentwell。Henrietteandshelivedwiththechild’spicturebeforethem;theyspenttheirtimesewingoncapsandunderwear——allcoveredwithlacesandfrillsandpinkandblueribbons。Everyday,whenGeorgecamehomefromhiswork,hefoundsomenewarticlecompleted,andwasravishedbythescentofsomenewkindofsachetpowder。Whataluckymanhewas!

  YouwouldthinkhemusthavebeenthehappiestmaninthewholecityofParis。ButGeorge,alas,hadtopaythepenaltyforhisearlysins。Therewas,forinstance,thedeceptionhehadpracticeduponhisfriend,awaybackintheearlydays。Nowhehadfriendsofhisown,andhecouldnotkeepthesefriendsfromvisitinghim;andsohewasunquietwiththefearthatsomeoneofthemmightplayuponhimthesameviletrick。Eveninthemidstofhisradianthappiness,whenheknewthatHenriettewashanginguponhiseveryword,tremblingwithdelightwhensheheardhislatchkeyinthedoor——stillhecouldnotdriveawaythehorriblethoughtthatperhapsallthismightbedeception。

  Therewashisfriend,Gustave,forexample。HehadbeenafriendofHenriette’sbeforehermarriage;hehadevenbeeninlovewithheratonetime。Andnowhecamesometimestothehouse——onceortwicewhenGeorgewasaway!Whatdidthatmean?Georgewondered。Hebroodedoveritallday,butdarednotdropanyhinttoHenriette。Buthetooktosettinglittletrapstocatchher;forinstance,hewouldcallheruponthetelephone,disguisinghisvoice。\"Hello!Hello!Isthatyou,MadameDupont?\"Andwhensheanswered,\"ItisI,sir,\"allunsuspecting,hewouldinquire,\"IsGeorgethere?\"

  \"No,sir,\"shereplied。\"Whoisthisspeaking?\"

  Heanswered,\"ItisI,Gustave。Howareyouthismorning?\"Hewantedtoseewhatshewouldanswer。Wouldsheperhapssay,\"Verywell,Gustave。Howareyou?\"——inatonewhichwouldbetraytoogreatintimacy!

  ButHenriettewasasharpyoungperson。ThetonedidnotsoundlikeGustave’s。Sheaskedinbewilderment,\"What?\"andthenagain,\"What?\"

  So,atlast,George,afraidthathistrickmightbesuspected,hadtoburstoutlaughing,andturnitintoajoke。Butwhenhecamehomeandteasedhiswifeaboutit,thelaughwasnotallonhisside。Henriettehadguessedtherealmeaningofhisjoke!

  Shedidnotreallymind——shetookhisjealousyasasignoflove,andwaspleasedwithit。Itisnotuntilathirdpartycomeuponthescenethatjealousybeginstobeannoying。

  SoshehadamerrytimeteasingGeorge。\"Youareagreatfellow!

  YouhavenoideahowwellIunderstandyou——andafteronlyayearofmarriage!\"

  \"Youknowme?\"saidthehusband,curiously。(Itisalwayssofascinatingwhenanybodythinkssheknowusbetterthanweknowourselves!)\"Tellme,whatdoyouthinkaboutme?\"

  \"Youarerestless,\"saidHenriette。\"Youaresuspicious。Youpassyourtimeputtingfliesinyourmilk,andinventingwiseschemestogetthemout。\"

  \"Oh,youthinkthat,doyou?\"saidGeorge,pleasedtobetalkedabout。

  \"Iamnotannoyed,\"sheanswered。\"Youhavealwaysbeenthatway——andIknowthatit’sbecauseatbottomyouaretimidanddisposedtosuffer。Andthen,too,perhapsyouhavereasonsfornothavingconfidenceinawife’sintimatefriends——lady—killerthatyouare!\"

  Georgefoundthisratherembarrassing;buthedarednotshowit,sohelaughedgayly。\"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,\"hesaid——

  \"uponmywordIdon’t。ButitisatrickIwouldnotadviseeverybodytotry。\"

  Therewereotherembarrassingmoments,causedbyGeorge’shavingthingstoconceal。Therewas,forinstance,thematterofthesixmonths’delayinthemarriage——aboutwhichHenriettewouldneverstoptalking。Shebegrudgedthetime,becauseshehadgottheideathatlittleGervaisewassixmonthsyoungerthansheotherwisewouldhavebeen。\"Thatshowsyourtimidityagain,\"shewouldsay。\"Theideaofyourhavingimaginedyourselfaconsumptive!\"

  PoorGeorgehadtodefendhimself。\"Ididn’ttellyouhalfthetruth,becauseIwasafraidofupsettingyou。ItseemedIhadthebeginningofchronicbronchitis。IfeltitquitekeenlywheneverItookabreath,adeepbreath——look,likethis。Yes——I

  felt——hereandthere,oneachsideofthechest,aheaviness——adifficulty——\"

  \"Theideaoftakingsixmonthstocureyouofathinglikethat!\"

  exclaimedHenriette。\"Andmakingourbabysixmonthsyoungerthansheoughttobe!\"

  \"But,\"laughedGeorge,\"thatmeansthatweshallhavehersomuchthelonger!Shewillgetmarriedsixmonthslater!\"

  \"Oh,dearme,\"respondedtheother,\"letusnottalkaboutsuchthings!Iamalreadyworried,thinkingshewillgetmarriedsomeday。\"

  \"Formypart,\"saidGeorge,\"IseemyselfmountingwithheronmyarmthestaircaseoftheMadeleine。\"

  \"WhytheMadeleine?\"exclaimedhiswife。\"Suchaverymagnificentchurch!\"

  \"Idon’tknow——Iseeherunderherwhiteveil,andmyselfalldressedup,andwithanorder。\"

  \"Withanorder!\"laughedHenriette。\"Whatdoyouexpecttodotowinanorder?\"

  \"Idon’tknowthat——butIseemyselfwithit。Explainitasyouwill,Iseemyselfwithanorder。Iseeitall,exactlyasifI

  werethere——theSwissguardwithhiswhitestockingsandthehalbard,andthelittlemilliner’sassistantsandthescullionlinedupstaring。\"

  \"Itisfaroff——allthat,\"saidHenriette。\"Idon’tliketotalkofit。Ipreferherasababy。Iwanthertogrowup——butthenIchangemymindandthinkIdon’t。Iknowyourmotherdoesn’t。

  Doyouknow,Idon’tbelievesheeverthinksaboutanythingbutherlittleGervaise。\"

  \"Ibelieveyou,\"saidthefather。\"Thechildcancertainlyboastofhavingagrandmotherwholovesher。\"

  \"Also,Iadoreyourmother,\"declaredHenriette。\"Shemakesmeforgetmymisfortuneinnothavingmyownmother。Sheissogood!\"

  \"Wearealllikethatinourfamily,\"putinGeorge。

  \"Really,\"laughedthewife。\"Well,anyhow——thelasttimethatwewentdowninthecountrywithher——youhadgoneout,Idon’tknowwhereyouhadgone——\"

  \"Toseethesixteenth—centurychest,\"suggestedtheother。

  \"Oh,yes,\"laughedHenriette;\"yourfamouschest!\"(Youmustexcusethislittlefamilychatteroftheirs——theyweresomuchinlovewitheachother!)

  \"Don’tlet’stalkaboutthat,\"objectedGeorge。\"Youweresaying——?\"

  \"Youwerenotthere。Thenursewasoutatmass,Ithink——\"

  \"Oratthewinemerchant’s!Goon,goon。\"

  \"Well,Iwasinthelittleroom,andmotherdearthoughtshewasallalonewithGervaise。Iwaslistening;shewastalkingtothebaby——allsortsofnonsense,prettylittlewords——stupid,ifyoulike,buttender。Iwantedtolaugh,andatthesametimeI

  wantedtoweep。\"

  \"Perhapsshecalledher’mydearlittleSavior’?\"

  \"Exactly!Didyouhearher?\"

  \"No——butthatiswhatsheusedtocallmewhenIwaslittle。\"

  \"Itwasthatdayshesworethatthelittleonehadrecognizedher,andlaughed!\"

  \"Oh,yes!\"

  \"Andthenanothertime,whenIwentintoherroom——mother’sroom——shedidn’thearmebecausethedoorwasopen,butIsawher。Shewasinecstasybeforethelittlebootswhichthebabyworeatbaptism——youknow?\"

  \"Yes,yes。\"

  \"Listen,then。Shehadtakenthemandshewasembracingthem!\"

  \"Andwhatdidyousaythen?\"

  \"Nothing;Istoleoutverysoftly,andIsentacrossthethresholdagreatkisstothedeargrandmother!\"

  Henriettesatforamomentinthought。\"Itdidn’ttakeherverylong,\"sheremarked,\"todaywhenshegottheletterfromthenurse。Iimagineshecaughttheeight—fifty—ninetrain!\"

  \"Anyyet,\"laughedGeorge,\"itwasreallynothingatall。\"

  \"Ohno,\"saidhiswife。\"Yetafterall,perhapsshewasright——

  andperhapsIoughttohavegonewithher。\"

  \"Howcharmingyouare,mypoorHenriette!Youbelieveeverythingyouaretold。I,formypart,divinedrightawaythetruth。Thenursewassimplyplayingagameonus;shewantedaraise。Willyoubet?Come,I’llbetyousomething。Whatwouldyouliketobet?Youdon’twantto?Come,I’llbetyoualovelynecklace——

  youknow,withabigpearl。\"

  \"No,\"saidHenriette,whohadsuddenlylosthermoodofgayety。

  \"Ishouldbetoomuchafraidofwinning。\"

  \"Stop!\"laughedherhusband。\"Don’tyoubelieveIloveherasmuchasyouloveher——mylittleduck?Doyouknowhowoldsheis?ImeanherEXACTage?\"

  Henriettesatknittingherbrows,tryingtofigure。

  \"Ah!\"heexploded。\"Youseeyoudon’tknow!Sheisninety—onedaysandeighthours!Ha,ha!Imaginewhenshewillbeabletowalkallalone。Thenwewilltakeherbackwithus;wemustwaitatleastsixmonths。\"Then,toolate,poorGeorgerealizedthathehadspokenthefatalphraseagain。

  \"Ifonlyyouhadn’tputoffourmarriage,shewouldbeabletowalknow,\"saidHenriette。

  Herosesuddenly。\"Come,\"hesaid,\"didn’tyousayyouhadtodressandpaysomecalls?\"

  Henriettelaughed,buttookthehint。

  \"Runalong,littlewife,\"hesaid。\"Ihavealotofworktodointhemeantime。Youwon’tbedown—stairsbeforeIshallhavemynoseburiedinmypapers。Bye—bye。\"

  \"Bye—bye,\"saidHenriette。Buttheypausedtoexchangeadozenorsokissesbeforeshewentawaytodress。

  ThenGeorgelightedacigaretteandstretchedhimselfoutinthebigarmchair。Heseemedrestless;heseemedtobedisturbedaboutsomething。Coulditbethathehadnotbeensomuchateaseashehadpretendedtobe,sincetheletterhadcomefromthebaby’snurse?MadameDuponthadgonebytheearliesttrainthatmorning。Shehadpromisedtotelegraphatonce——butshehadnotdoneso,andnowitwaslateafternoon。

  Georgegotupandwanderedabout。Helookedathimselfintheglassforamoment;thenhewentbacktothechairandpulledupanothertoputhisgeetupon。Hepuffedawayathiscigaretteuntilhewascalmer。Butthensuddenlyheheardtherustleofadressbehindhim,andglancedabout,andstartedupwithanexclamation,\"Mother!\"

  MadameDupontstoodinthedoorway。Shedidnotspeak。HerveilwasthrownbackandGeorgenotedinstantlythelookofagitationuponhercountenance。

  \"What’sthematter?\"hecried。\"Wedidn’tgetanytelegramfromyou;wewerenotexpectingyoutilltomorrow。\"

  Stillhismotherdidnotspeak。

  \"Henriettewasjustgoingout,\"heexclaimednervously;\"Ihadbettercallher。\"

  \"No!\"saidhismotherquickly。Hervoicewaslowandtrembling。

  \"IdidnotwantHenriettetobeherewhenIarrived。\"

  \"Butwhat’sthematter?\"criedGeorge。

  Againtherewasasilencebeforethereplycame。Hereadsomethingterribleinthemother’smanner,andhefoundhimselftremblingviolently。

  \"Ihavebroughtbackthechildandthenurse,\"saidMadameDupont。

  \"What!Isthelittleonesick?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"What’sthematterwithher?\"

  \"Nothingdangerous——forthemoment,atleast。\"

  \"Wemustsendandgetthedoctor!\"criedGeorge。

  \"Ihavejustcomefromthedoctor’s,\"wasthereply。\"Hesaiditwasnecessarytotakeoutchildfromthenurseandbringheruponthebottle。\"

  Againtherewasapause。Georgecouldhardlybringhimselftoaskthenextquestion。Tryashewould,hecouldnotkeephisvoicefromweakening。\"Well,now,whatishertrouble?\"

  Themotherdidnotanswer。Shestoodstaringbeforeher。Atlastshesaid,faintly,\"Idon’tknow。\"

  \"Youdidn’task?\"

  \"Iasked。ButitwasnottoourowndoctorthatIwent。\"

  \"Ah!\"whisperedGeorge。Fornearlyaminuteneitheroneofthemspoke。\"Why?\"heinquiredatlast。

  \"Because——he——thenurse’sdoctor——hadfrightenedmeso——\"

  \"Truly?\"

  \"Yes。Itisadisease——\"againshestopped。

  Georgecried,inavoiceofagony,\"andthen?\"

  \"ThenIaskedhimifthematterwassogravethatIcouldnotbesatisfiedwithourordinarydoctor。\"

  \"Andwhatdidheanswer?\"

  \"Hesaidthatifwehadthemeansitwouldreallybebettertoconsultaspecialist。\"

  Georgelookedathismotheragain。Hewasabletodoit,becauseshewasnotlookingathim。Heclenchedhishandsandgothimselftogether。\"And——wheredidhesendyou?\"

  Hismotherfumbledinherhandbaganddrewoutavisitingcard。

  \"Here,\"shesaid。

  AndGeorgelookedatthecard。Itwasallhecoulddotokeephimselffromtottering。Itwasthecardofthedoctorwhomhehadfirstconsultedabouthistrouble!Thespecialistinvenerealdiseases!

  CHAPTERIV

  ItwasallGeorgecoulddotocontrolhisvoice。\"You——youwenttoseehim?\"hestammered。

  \"Yes,\"saidhismother。\"Youknowhim?\"

  \"No,no,\"heanswered。\"Or——thatis——Ihavemethim,Ithink。I

  don’tknow。\"Andthentohimself,\"MyGod!\"

  Therewasasilence。\"Heiscomingtotalktoyou,\"saidthemother,atlast。

  Georgewashardlyabletospeak。\"Thenheisverymuchdisturbed?\"

  \"No,buthewantstotalktoyou。\"

  \"Tome?\"

  \"Yes。Whenthedoctorsawthenurse,hesaid,’Madame,itisimpossibleformetocontinuetoattendthischildunlessIhavehadthisverydayaconversationwitthefather。’SoIsaid’Verywell,’andhesaidhewouldcomeatonce。\"

  Georgeturnedaway,andputhishandstohisforehead。\"Mypoorlittledaughter!\"hewhisperedtohimself。

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