Butitismyaunt,anoldmaid;and,also,mymotheriscrazyabouttheidea。IfIweretobackoutnow,shewoulddieofchagrin。Myauntwoulddisinheritme,andsheistheonewhohasthefamilyfortune。Then,too,thereismyfather—in—law,aregulardragoonforhisprinciples——severe,violent。Henevermakesajokeofseriousthings,andItellyouitwouldcostmedear,terriblydear。And,besides,Ihavegivenmyword。\"
\"Youmusttakebackyourword。\"
\"Youstillinsist?\"exclaimedGeorge,indespair。\"Butthen,supposethatitwerepossible,howcouldItakebackmysignaturewhichIputatthebottomofthedeed?Ihavepledgedmyselftopayintwomonthsfortheattorney’spracticeIhavepurchased!\"
\"Sir,\"saidthedoctor,\"allthesethings——\"
\"YouaregoingtotellmethatIwaslackinginprudence,thatI
shouldneverhavedisposedofmywife’sdowryuntilafterthehoneymoon!\"
\"Sir,\"saidthedoctor,again,\"alltheseconsiderationsareforeigntome。Iamaphysician,andnothingbutaphysician,andIcanonlytellyouthis:Ifyoumarrybeforethreeorfouryears,youwillbeacriminal。\"
Georgebrokeoutwithawildexclamation。\"Nosir,youarenotmerelyaphysician!Youarealsoaconfessor!Youarenotmerelyascientist;anditisnotenoughforyouthatyouobservemeasyouwouldsomelifelessthinginyourlaboratory,andsay,’Youhavethis;sciencesaysthat;nowgoalongwithyou。’Allmyexistencedependsuponyou。Itisyourdutytolistentome,becausewhenyouknoweverythingyouwillunderstandme,andyouwillfindsomewaytocuremewithinamonth。\"
\"But,\"protestedthedoctor,\"Iwearmyselfouttellingyouthatsuchmeansdonotexist。Ishallnotbecertainofyourcure,asmuchasanyonecanbecertain,inlessthanthreeorfouryears。\"
Georgewasalmostbesidehimself。\"Itellyouyoumustfindsomemeans!Listentome,sir——ifIdon’tgetmarriedIdon’tgetthedowry!AndwillyoutellmehowIcanpaythenotesIhavesigned?\"
\"Oh,\"saidthedoctor,dryly,\"ifthatisthequestion,itisverysimple——Iwillgiveyouaplantogetoutoftheaffair。
Youwillgoandgetacquaintedwithsomerichman;youwilldoeverythingyoucantogainhisconfidence;andwhenyouhavesucceeded,youwillplunderhim。\"
Georgeshookhishead。\"Iamnotinanymoodforjoking。\"
\"Iamnotjoking,\"repliedhisadviser。\"Robthatman,assassinatehimeven——thatwouldbenoworsecrimethanyouwouldcommitintakingayounggirlingoodhealthinordertogetaportionofherdowry,whenatthesametimeyouwouldhavetoexposehertothefrightfulconsequencesofthediseasewhichyouwouldgiveher。\"
\"Frightfulconsequences?\"echoedGeorge。
\"Consequencesofwhichdeathwouldnotbethemostfrightful。\"
\"But,sir,youweresayingtomejustnow——\"
\"JustnowIdidnottellyoueverything。Evenreduced,suppressedalittlebyourremedies,thediseaseremainsmysterious,menacing,andititssum,sufficientlygrave。Soitwouldbeaninfamytoexposeyourfianceeinordertoavoidaninconvenience,howevergreatthatmightbe。\"
ButGeorgewasstillnottobeconvinced。WasitcertainthatthismisfortunewouldbefallHenriette,evenwiththebestattention?
Saidtheother:\"Idonotwishtolietoyou。No,itisnotabsolutelycertain,itisprobable。AndthereisanothertruthwhichIwishtotellyounow:ourremediesarenotinfallible。
Inacertainnumberofcases——averysmallnumber,scarcelyfivepercent——theyhaveremainedwithouteffect。Youmightbeoneofthoseexceptions,yourwifemightbeone。Whatthen?\"
\"Iwillemployawordyouusedjustnow,yourself。Weshouldhavetoexpecttheworstcatastrophes。\"
Georgesatinastateofcompletedespair。
\"Tellmewhattodo,then,\"hesaid。
\"Icantellyouonlyonething:don’tmarry。Youhaveamostseriousblemish。Itisasifyouowedadebt。Perhapsnoonewillevercometoclaimit;ontheotherhand,perhapsapitilesscreditorwillcomeallatonce,presentingabrutaldemandforimmediatepayment。Comenow——youareabusinessman。Marriageisacontract;tomarrywithoutsayinganything——thatmeanstoenterintoabargainbymeansofpassivedissimulation。That’stheterm,isitnot?Itisdishonesty,anditoughttocomeunderthelaw。\"
George,beingalawyer,couldappreciatetheargument,andcouldthinkofnothingtosaytoit。
\"WhatshallIdo?\"heasked。
Theotheranswered,\"Gotoyourfather—in—lawandtellhimfranklythetruth。\"
\"But,\"criedtheyoungman,wildly,\"therewillbenoquestionthenofthreeorfouryears’delay。Hewillrefusehisconsentaltogether。\"
\"Ifthatisthecase,\"saidthedoctor,\"don’ttellhimanything。\"
\"ButIhavetogivehimareason,orIdon’tknowwhathewilldo。Heisthesortofmantogivehimselftotheworstviolence,andagainmyfianceewouldbelosttome。Listen,doctor。FromeverythingIhavesaidtoyou,youmayperhapsthinkIamamercenaryman。ItistruethatIwanttogetalongintheworld,thatisonlynatural。ButHenriettehassuchqualities;sheissomuchbetterthanI,thatIloveher,really,aspeopleloveinnovels。Mygreatestgrief——itisnottogiveupthepracticeI
havebought——although,indeed,itwouldbeabitterblowtome;
mygreatestgriefwouldbetoloseHenriette。Ifyoucouldonlyseeher,ifyouonlyknewher——thenyouwouldunderstand。Ihaveherpicturehere——\"
Theyoungfellowtookouthiscard—case。Andofferedaphotographtothedoctor,whogentlyrefusedit。Theotherblushedwithembarrassment。
\"Ibegyourpardon,\"hesaid,\"Iamridiculous。Thathappenstome,sometimes。Only,putyourselfinmyplace——Iloveherso!\"
Hisvoicebroke。
\"Mydearboy,\"saidthedoctor,feelingly,\"thatisexactlywhyyououghtnottomarryher。\"
\"But,\"hecried,\"ifIbackoutwithoutsayinganythingtheywillguessthetruth,andIshallbedishonored。\"
\"Oneisnotdishonoredbecauseoneisill。\"
\"Butwithsuchadisease!Peoplearesostupid。Imyself,yesterday——Ishouldhavelaughedatanyonewhohadgotintosuchaplight;Ishouldhaveavoidedhim,Ishouldhavedespisedhim!\"
AndsuddenlyGeorgebrokedownagain。\"Oh!\"hecried,\"ifIweretheonlyonetosuffer;butshe——sheisinlovewithme。Iswearittoyou!Sheissogood;andshewillbesounhappy!\"
Thedoctoranswered,\"Shewouldbeunhappierlateron。\"
\"Itwillbeascandal!\"Georgeexclaimed。
\"Youwillavoidonefargreater,\"theotherreplied。
SuddenlyGeorgesethislipswithresolution。Herosefromhisseat。Hetookseveraltwenty—francpiecesfromhispocketandlaidthemquietlyuponthedoctor’sdesk——payingthefeeincash,sothathewouldnothavetogivehisnameandaddress。Hetookuphisgloves,hiscaneandhishat,androse。
\"Iwillthinkitover,\"hesaid。\"Ithankyou,Doctor。Iwillcomebacknextweekasyouhavetoldme。Thatis——probablyI
will。\"
Hewasabouttoleave。
Thedoctorrose,andhespokeinavoiceoffuriousanger。\"No,\"
hesaid,\"Ishan’tseeyounextweek,andyouwon’teventhinkitover。Youcamehereknowingwhatyouhad;youcametoaskadviceofme,withtheintentionofpayingnoheedtoit,unlessitconformedtoyourwishes。Asuperficialhonestyhasdrivenyoutotakethatchanceinordertosatisfyyourconscience。Youwantedtohavesomebodyuponwhomyoucouldputoff,byeandbye,theconsequencesofanactwhoseculpabilityyouunderstand!No,don’tprotest!Manyofthosewhocomeherethinkandactasyouthink,andasyouwishtoact;butthemarriagemadeagainstmywillhasgenerallybeenthesourceofsuchcalamitiesthatnowI
amalwaysafraidofnothavingbeenpersuasiveenough,anditevenseemstomethatIamalittletoblameforthesemisfortunes。Ishouldhavebeenabletopreventthem;theywouldnothavehappenedifthosewhoaretheauthorsofthemknewwhatIknowandhadseenwhatIhaveseen。Sweartome,sir,thatyouaregoingtobreakoffthatmarriage!\"
Georgewasgreatlyembarrassed,andunwillingtoreply。\"I
cannotsweartoyouatall,Doctor;IcanonlytellyouagainthatIwillthinkitover。\"
\"ThatWHATover?\"
\"Whatyouhavetoldme。\"
\"WhatIhavetoldyouistrue!Youcannotbringanynewobjections;andIhaveansweredthosewhichyouhavepresentedtome;therefore,yourmindoughttobemadeup。\"
Gropingforareply,Georgehesitated。Hecouldnotdenythathehadmadeinquiryaboutthesemattersbeforehehadcometothedoctor。Buthesaidthathewasnotalallcertainthathehadthisdisease。Thedoctordeclaredit,andperhapsitwastrue,butthemostlearnedphysiciansweresometimesdeceived。
Herememberedsomethinghehadreadinoneofthemedicalbooks。
\"Dr。Ricordmaintainsthatafteracertainperiodthediseaseisnolongercontagious。Hehasprovenhiscontentionsbyexamples。
Todayyouproducenewexamplestoshowthatheiswrong!Now,I
wanttodowhat’sright,butsurelyIhavetherighttothinkitover。AndwhenIthinkitover,Irealizethatalltheevilswithwhichyouthreatenmeareonlyprobableevils。Inspiteofyourdesiretoterrifyme,youhavebeenforcedtoadmitthatpossiblymymarriagewouldnothaveanytroublesomeconsequenceformywife。\"
Thedoctorfounddifficultyinrestraininghimself。Buthesaid,\"Goon。Iwillansweryouafterwards。\"
AndGeorgeblunderedaheadinhisdesperation。\"Yourremediesarepowerful,youtellme;andforthecalamitiesofwhichyouspeaktobefallme,Iwouldhavetobeamongtherareexceptions——alsomywifewouldhavetobeamongthenumberofthoserareexceptions。Ifamathematicianweretoapplythelawofchancetothesefacts,theresultofhisoperationwouldshowbutslightchanceofacatastrophe,ascomparedwiththeabsolutecertaintyofaseriesofmisfortunes,sufferings,troubles,tears,andperhapstragicaccidentswhichthebreakingofmyengagementwouldcause。SoIsaythatthemathematician——whois,evenmorethanyou,amanofscience,amanofamoreinfalliblescience——themathematicianwouldconcludethatwisdomwasnotwithyoudoctors,butwithme。\"
\"Youbelieveit,sir!\"exclaimedtheother。\"Butyoudeceiveyourself。\"Andhecontinued,drivinghomehispointwithafingerwhichseemedtoGeorgetopiercehisverysoul。\"Twentycasesidenticalwithyourownhavebeenpatientlyobserved,fromthebeginningtotheend。Nineteentimesthewomanwasinfectedbyherhusband;youhearme,sir,nineteentimesoutoftwenty!
Youbelievethatthediseaseiswithoutdanger,andyoutaketoyourselftherighttoexposeyourwifetowhatyoucallthechanceofyourbeingoneofthoseexceptions,forwhomourremediesarewithouteffect。Verywell;itisnecessarythatyoushouldknowthediseasewhichyourwife,withoutbeingconsulted,willrunachanceofcontracting。Takethatbook,sir;itistheworkofmyteacher。Readityourself。Here,Ihavemarkedthepassage。\"
Heheldouttheopenbook;butGeorgecouldnotliftahandtotakeit。
\"Youdonotwishtoreadit?\"theothercontinued。\"Listentome。\"Andinavoicetremblingwithpassion,heread:\"’Ihavewatchedthespectacleofanunfortunateyoungwoman,turnedintoaveritablemonsterbymeansofasyphiliticinfection。Herface,orratherletmesaywhatwasleftofherface,wasnothingbutaflatsurfaceseamedwithscars。’\"
Georgecoveredhisface,exclaiming,\"Enough,sir!Havemercy!\"
Buttheothercried,\"No,no!Iwillgototheveryend。Ihaveadutytoperform,andIwillnotbestoppedbythesensibilityofyournerves。\"
Hewentonreading:\"’Oftheupperlipnotatracewasleft;theridgeoftheuppergumsappearedperfectlybare。’\"Butthenattheyoungman’sprotests,hisresolutionfailedhim。\"Come,\"hesaid,\"Iwillstop。Iamsorryforyou——youwhoacceptforanotherperson,forthewomanyousayyoulove,thechanceofadiseasewhichyoucannotevenenduretoheardescribed。Now,fromwhomdidthatwomangetsyphilis?ItisnotIwhoamspeaking,itisthebook。’Fromamiserablescoundrelwhowasnotafraidtoenterintomatrimonywhenhehadasecondaryeruption。’Allthatwasestablishedlateron——’andwho,moreover,hadthoughtitbestnottolethiswifebetreatedforfearofawakeninghersuspicions!’\"
Thedoctorclosedthebookwithabang。\"Whatthatmanhasdone,sir,iswhatyouwanttodo。\"
Georgewasedgingtowardthedoor;hecouldnolongerlookthedoctorintheeye。\"IshoulddeserveallthoseepithetsandstillmorebrutalonesifIshouldmarry,knowingthatmymarriagewouldcausesuchhorrors。ButthatIdonotbelieve。
Youandyourteachers——youarespecialists,andconsequentlyyouaredriventoattributeeverythingtothediseaseyoumakethesubjectofyourstudies。Atragiccase,anexceptionalcase,holdsakindoffascinationforyou;youthinkitcanneverbetalkedaboutenough。\"
\"Ihaveheardthatargumentbefore,\"saidthedoctor,withaneffortatpatience。
\"Letmegoon,Ibegyou,\"pleadedGeorge。\"Youhavetoldmethatoutofeverysevenmenthereisonesyphilitic。YouhavetoldmethatthereareonehundredthousandinParis,comingandgoing,alert,andapparentlywell。\"
\"Itistrue,\"saidthedoctor,\"thatthereareonehundredthousandwhoareactuallyatthismomentnotvisiblyundertheinfluenceofthedisease。Butmanythousandshavepassedintoourhospitals,victimsofthemostfrightfulravagesthatourpoorbodiescansupport。These——youdonotseethem,andtheydonotcountforyou。Butagain,ifitconcernednoonebutyourself,youmightbeabletoarguethus。WhatIdeclaretoyou,whatIaffirmwithalltheviolenceofmyconviction,isthatyouhavenottherighttoexposeahumancreaturetosuchchances——rare,asIknow,butterrible,asIknowstillbetter。
Whathaveyoutoanswertothat?\"
\"Nothing,\"stammeredGeorge,broughttohiskneesatlast。\"Youarerightaboutthat。Idon’tknowwhattothink。\"
\"Andinforbiddingyoumarriage,\"continuedthedoctor,\"isitthesameasifIforbadeitforever?IsitthesameasifItoldyouthatyoucouldneverbecured?Onthecontrary,Iholdouttoyoueveryhope;butIdemandofyouadelayofthreeorfouryears,becauseitwilltakemethattimetofindoutifyouareamongthenumberofthoseunfortunateoneswhomIpitywithallmyheart,forwhomthediseaseiswithoutmercy;becauseduringthattimeyouwillbedangeroustoyourwifeandtoyourchildren。ThechildrenIhavenotyetmentionedtoyou。\"
Herethedoctor’svoicetrembledslightly。Hespokewithmovingeloquence。\"Come,sir,youareanhonestman;youaretooyoungforsuchthingsnottomoveyou;youarenotinsensibletoduty。
ItisimpossiblethatIshan’tbeabletofindawaytoyourheart,thatIshan’tbeabletomakeyouobeyme。MyemotioninspeakingtoyouprovesthatIappreciateyoursuffering,thatI
sufferwithyou。ItisinthenameofmysinceritythatI
imploreyou。Youhaveadmittedit——thatyouhavenottherighttoexposeyourwifetosuchmiseries。Butitisnotonlyyourwifethatyoustrike;youmayattackinheryourownchildren。I
excludeyouforamomentfrommythought——youandher。ItisinthenameoftheseinnocentsthatIimploreyou;itisthefuture,itistheracethatIdefend。Listentome,listentome!OutofthetwentyhouseholdsofwhichIspoke,onlyfifteenhadchildren;thesefifteenhadtwenty—eight。Doyouknowhowmanyoutofthesetwenty—eightsurvived?Three,sir!Threeoutoftwenty—eight!Syphilisisaboveeverythingamurdererofchildren。HerodreignsinFrance,andoveralltheearth,andbeginseachyearhismassacreoftheinnocents;andifitbenotblasphemyagainstthesacrednessoflife,Isaythatthemosthappyarethosewhohavedisappeared。Visitourchildren’shospitals!Weknowtoowellthechildofsyphiliticparents;thetypeisclassical;thedoctorscanpickitoutanywhere。Thoselittleoldcreatureswhohavetheappearanceofhavingalreadylived,andwhohavekeptthestigmataofalloutinfirmities,ofallourdecay。Theyarethevictimsoffatherswhohavemarried,beingignorantofwhatyouknow——thingswhichIshouldliketogoandcryoutinthepublicplaces。\"
Thedoctorpaused,andtheninasolemnvoicecontinued:\"Ihavetoldyouall,withoutexaggeration。Thinkitover。Considertheprosandcons;sumupthepossiblemisfortunesandthecertainmiseries。Butdisregardyourself,andconsiderthatthereareinonesideofthescalesthemisfortunesofothers,andintheotheryourown。Takecarethatyouarejust。\"
Georgewasatlastovercome。\"Verywell,\"hesaid,\"Igiveway。
Iwon’tgetmarried。Iwillinventsomeexcuse;Iwillgetadelayofsixmonths。Morethanthat,Icannotdo。\"
Thedoctorexclaimed,\"Ineedthreeyears——Ineedfouryears!\"
\"No,Doctor!\"persistedGeorge。\"Youcancuremeinlesstimethanthat。\"
Theotheranswered,\"No!No!No!\"
Georgecaughthimbythehand,imploringly。\"Yes!Scienceinallpowerful!\"
\"ScienceisnotGod,\"wasthereply。\"Therearenolongeranymiracles。\"
\"Ifonlyyouwantedtodoit!\"criedtheyoungman,hysterically。
\"Youarealearnedman;seek,invent,findsomething!Trysomenewplanwithme;givemedoublethedose,tentimesthedoes;
makemesuffer。Igivemyselfuptoyou;Iwillendureeverything——Iswearit!Thereoughttobesomewaytocuremewithinsixmonths。Listentome!ItellyouIcan’tanswerformyselfwiththatdelay。Come;itisinthenameofmywife,inthenameofmychildren,thatIimploreyou。Dosomethingforthem!\"
Thedoctorhadreachedthelimitofhispatience。\"Enough,sir!\"
hecried。\"Enough!\"
Butnothingcouldstopthewretchedman。\"Onmyknees!\"hecried。\"Iputmyselfonmykneesbeforeyou!Oh!Ifonlyyouwoulddoit!Iwouldblessyou;Iwouldadoreyou,asoneadoresagod!Allmygratitude,allmylife——halfmyfortune!
Formercy’ssake,Doctor,dosomething;inventsomething;makesomediscovery——havepity!\"
Thedoctoransweredgravely,\"Doyouwishmetodomoreforyouthanfortheothers?\"
Georgeanswered,unblushingly,’answered,unblushingly,\"Yes!\"
Hewasbesidehimselfwithterroranddistress。
Theother’sreplywasdeliveredinasolemntone。\"Understand,sir,foreveryoneofoutpatientswedoallthatwecan,whetheritbethegreatestpersonage,orthelastcomertoouthospitalclinic。Wehavenosecretsinreserveforthosewhoaremorefortunate,orlessfortunatethantheothers,andwhoareinahurrytobecured。\"
Georgegazedathimforamomentinbewildermentanddespair,andthensuddenlybowedhishead。\"Good—by,Doctor,\"heanswered。
\"Aurevoir,sir,\"theothercorrected——withwhatprovedtobepropheticunderstanding。ForGeorgewasdestinedtoseehimagain——eventhoughhehadmadeuphismindtothecontrary!
CHAPTERIII
GeorgeDuponthadthemostimportantdecisionofhislifetomake;buttherewasneververymuchdoubtwhathisdecisionwouldbe。Onetheonehandwasthedefinitecertaintythatifhetookthedoctor’sadvice,hewouldwreckhisbusinessprospects,andperhapsalsolosethewomanheloved。Ontheotherhandwerevagueanduncertainpossibilitieswhichitwasdifficultforhimtomakerealtohimself。Itwasallverywelltowaitawhiletobecuredofthedreaddisease;buttowaitthreeorfouryears——
thatwassimplypreposterous!
Hedecidedtoconsultanotherphysician。Hewouldfindonethistimewhowouldnotbesoparticular,whowouldbewillingtotakesometroubletocurehimquickly。Hebegantonoticetheadvertisementswhichwerescatteredoverthepagesofthenewspapersheread。TherewereapparentlyplentyofdoctorsinPariswhocouldcurehim,whowerewillingtoguaranteetocurehim。Aftermuchhesitation,hepickedoutonewhoseadvertisementsoundedthemostconvincing。
Theofficewaslocatedinacheapquarter。Itwasadingyplace,notencumberedwithworksofart,butwithafewbookscoveredwithdust。Thedoctorhimselfwasstoutandgreasy,andherubbedhishandswithanticipationatthesightofsoprosperous—lookingapatient。Buthewasevidentlyamanofexperience,forheknewexactlywhatwasthematterwithGeorge,almostwithouttheformalityofanexamination。Yes,hecouldcurehim,quickly,hesaid。Therehadrecentlybeengreatdiscoveriesmade——newmethodswhichhadnotreachedthebulkoftheprofession。Helaughedattheideaofthreeorfouryears。
Thatwasthewaywiththosespecialists!Whenonegotfortyfrancsforaconsultation,naturally,onewasgladtodragoutthecase。Thereweretricksinthemedicaltrade,asinallothers。Adoctorhadtolive;whenhehadabigname,hehadtoliveexpensively。
Thenewphysicianwroteouttwoprescriptions,andpattedGeorgeontheshoulderashewentaway。Therewasnoneedforhimtoworry;hewouldsurelybewellinthreemonths。Ifhewouldputoffhismarriageforsixmonths,hewouldbedoingeverythingwithinreason。Andmeantime,therewasnoneedforhimtoworryhimself——thingswouldcomeoutallright。SoGeorgewentaway,feelingasifamountainhadbeenliftedfromhisshoulders。
HewenttoseeHenriettethatsameevening,togetthemattersettled。\"Henriette,\"hesaid,\"Ihavetotellyousomethingveryimportant——somethingratherpainful。Ihopeyouwon’tletitdisturbyoutoomuch。\"
Shewasgazingathiminalarm。\"Whatisit?\"
\"Why,\"hesaid,blushinginspiteofhimself,andregrettingthathehadbegunthemattersoprecipitately,\"forsometimeI’venotbeenfeelingquitewell。I’vebeenhavingaslightcough。Haveyounoticedit?\"
\"Whyno!\"exclaimedHenriette,anxiously。
\"Well,todayIwenttoseeadoctor,andhesaysthatthereisapossibility——youunderstanditisnothingveryserious——butitmightbe——Imightpossiblyhavelungtrouble。\"
\"George!\"criedthegirlinhorror。
Heputhishanduponhers。\"Don’tbefrightened,\"hesaid。\"Itwillbeallright,onlyIhavetotakecareofmyself。\"Howverydearofher,hethought——tobesomuchworried!
\"George,yououghttogoawaytothecountry!\"shecried。\"Youhavebeenworkingtoohard。Ialwaystoldyouthatifyoushutyourselfupsomuch——\"
\"Iamgoingtotakecareofmyself,\"hesaid。\"Irealizethatitisnecessary。Ishallbeallright——thedoctorassuredmetherewasnodoubtofit,soyouarenottodistressyourself。Butmeantime,hereisthetrouble:Idon’tthinkitwouldberightformetomarryuntilIamperfectlywell。\"
Henriettegaveanexclamationofdismay。
\"Iamsureweshouldputitoff,\"hewenton,\"itwouldbeonlyfairtoyou。\"
\"But,George!\"sheprotested。\"Surelyitcan’tbethatserious!\"
\"Weoughttowait,\"hesaid。\"Yououghtnottotakethechanceofbeingmarriedtoaconsumptive。\"
Theotherprotestedinconsternation。Hedidnotlooklikeaconsumptive;shedidnotbelievethatheWASaconsumptive。Shewaswillingtotakeherchances。Shelovedhim,andshewasnotafraid。ButGeorgeinsisted——hewassurethatheoughtnottomarryforsixmonths。
\"Didthedoctoradvisethat?\"askedHenriette。
\"No,\"hereplied,\"butImadeupmymindaftertalkingtohimthatImustdothefairandhonorablething。Ibegyoutoforgiveme,andtobelievethatIknowbest。\"
Georgestoodfirmlybythisposition,andsointheendshehadtogiveway。Itdidnotseemquitemodestinhertocontinuepersisting。
Georgevolunteeredtowritealettertoherfather;andhehopedthiswouldsettlethematterwithoutfurtherdiscussion。Butinthishewasdisappointed。TherehadtobealongcorrespondencewithlongargumentsandprotestationsfromHenriette’sfatherandfromhisownmother。Itseemedsuchasingularwhim。Everybodypersistedindiagnosinghissymptoms,inquestioninghimaboutwhatthedoctorhadsaid,whothedoctorwas,howhehadcometoconsulthim——allofwhich,ofcourse,wasveryembarrassingtoGeorge,whocouldnotseewhytheyhadtomakesuchafuss。Hetooktocultivatingaconsumptivelook,aswellashecouldimagineit;hetooktocoughingashewentaboutthehouse——anditwasallhecoulddotokeepfromlaughing,ashesawthelookofdismayonhispoormother’sface。Afterall,however,hetoldhimselfthathewasnotdeceivingher,forthediseasehehadwasquiteasseriousastuberculosis。
Itwasverypainfulandverytrying。Buttherewasnothingthatcouldbedoneaboutit;themarriagehadbeenputoffforsixmonths,andinthemeantimeheandHenriettehadtocontroltheirimpatienceandmakethebestoftheirsituation。Sixmonthswasalongtime;butwhatifithadbeenthreeorfouryears,astheotherdoctorhaddemanded?Thatwouldhavebeenaveritablesentenceofdeath。
George,aswehaveseen,wasconscientious,andregularandcarefulinhishabits。Hetookthemedicinewhichthenewdoctorprescribedforhim;anddaybydayhewatched,andtohisgreatreliefsawthetroublesomesymptomsgraduallydisappearing。Hebegantotakeheart,andtolookforwardtolifewithhisformerbuoyancy。Hehadhadabadscare,butnoweverythingwasgoingtobeallright。
Threeorfourmonthspassed,andthedoctortoldhimhewascured。Hereallywascured,sofarashecouldsee。Hewassorry,now,thathehadaskedforsolongadelayfromHenriette;
butthenewdatefortheweddinghadbeenannounced,anditwouldbeawkwardtochangeitagain。Georgetoldhimselfthathewasbeing\"extracareful,\"andhewasrepaidfortheinconveniencebythefeelingofvirtuederivedfromthedelay。Hewasrelievedthathedidnothavetocoughanymore,ortoinventanymoretalesofhisinterviewswiththeimaginarylung—specialist。
Sometimeshehadguiltyfeelingsbecauseofallthelyinghehadhadtodo;buthetoldhimselfthatitwasforHenriette’ssake。
Shelovedhimasmuchashelovedher。Shewouldhavesufferedneedlessagonieshadsheknownthetruth;shewouldneverhavegotoverit——soitwouldhavebeenacrimetotellher。
Hereallylovedherdevotedly,thoroughly。Fromthebeginninghehadthoughtasmuchofhermentalsufferingsashehadofanyphysicalharmthatthedreaddiseasemightdotohim。Howcouldhepossiblypersuadehimselftogiveherup,whenheknewthattheseparationwouldbreakherheartandruinherwholelife?
No;obviously,insuchadilemma,itwashisdutytousehisownbestjudgment,andgethimselfcuredasquicklyaspossible。
Afterthathewouldbetruetoher,hewouldtakenomorechancesofaloathsomedisease。
Thesecrethewashidingmadehimfeelhumble——madehimunusuallygentleinhisattitudetowardsthegirl。Hewasaperfectlover,andshewasravishedwithhappiness。Shethoughtthatallhissufferingswerebecauseofhisloveforher,andthedelaywhichhehadimposedoutofhisexcessofconscientiousness。Soshelovedhimmoreandmore,andneverwasthereahappierbridethanHenrietteLoches,whenatlastthegreatdayarrived。
TheywenttotheRiveriafortheirhoneymoon,andthenreturnedtoliveinthehomewhichhadbelongedtoGeorge’sfather。Theinvestmentinthenotary’spracticehadprovenagoodone,andsolifeheldouteverypromisefortheyoungcouple。Theyweredivinelyhappy。
Afterawhile,thebridecommunicatedtoherhusbandthetidingsthatshewasexpectingachild。ThenitseemedtoGeorgethatthecupofhisearthlyblisswasfull。Hisailmenthadslippedfarintothebackgroundofhisthoughts,likeanevildreamwhichhehadforgotten。Heputawaythemedicinesinthebottomofhistrunkanddismissedthewholematterfromhismind。Henriettewaswell——averypictureofhealth,aseveryoneagreed。Thedoctorhadneverseenamorepromisingyoungmother,hedeclared,andMadameDupont,theelder,bloomedwithfreshlifeandjoyassheattendedherdaughter—in—law。
Henriettewentforthesummertoherfather’splaceintheprovinces,whichsheandGeorgehadvisitedbeforetheirmarriage。Theydroveoutonedaytothefarmwheretheyhadstopped。Thefarmer’swifehadaweek—oldbaby,thesightofwhichmadeHenriette’sheartleapwithdelight。HewassuchaveryhealthybabythatGeorgeconceivedtheideathatthiswouldbethewomantonursehisownchild,incaseHenrietteherselfshouldnotbeabletodoit。
Theycamebacktothecity,andtherethebabywasborn。AsGeorgepacedthefloor,waitingforthenews,thememoryofhisevildreamscamebacktohim。Herememberedallthedreadfulmonstrositiesofwhichhehadread——infantsthatwerebornofsyphiliticparents。Hisheartstoodstillwhenthenursecameintotheroomtotellhimthetidings。
Butitwasallright;ofcourseitwasallright!Hehadbeenafool,hetoldhimself,ashestoodinthedarkenedroomandgazedatthewonderfullittlemiteoflifewhichwasthefruitofhislove。Itwasaperfectchild,thedoctorsaid——alittlesmall,tobesure,butthatwasadefectwhichwouldsoonberemedied。
Georgekneeledbythebedsideandkissedthehandofhiswife,andwentoutoftheroomfeelingasifhehadescapedfromatomb。
Allwentwell,andafteracoupleofweeksHenriettewasaboutthehouseagain,laughingalldayandsingingwithjoy。Butthebabydidnotgainquiteasrapidlyasthedoctorhadhoped,anditwasdecidedthatthecountryairwouldbebetterforher。SoGeorgeandhismotherpaidavisittothefarminthecountry,andarrangedthatthecountrywomanshouldputherownchildtonurseelsewhereandshouldbecomethefoster—motheroflittleGervaise。
Georgepaidagoodpricefortheservice,farmorethanwouldhavebeennecessary,forthesimplecountrywomanwasdelightedwiththeideaoftakingcareofthegrandchildofthedeputyofherdistrict。Georgecamehomeandtoldhiswifeaboutthisandhadamerrytimeashepicturedthewomanboastingaboutittothetravelerswhostoppedatherdoor。\"Yes,ma’am,agreatpieceofluckI’vegot,ma’am。I’vegotthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy——atyourservicema’am。My!Butsheisasfatasoutlittlecalf——andsoclever!Sheunderstandseverything。Agreatpieceofluckforme,ma’am。She’sthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy!\"Henriettewasvastlyentertained,discoveringinherhusbandanewtalent,thatofanactor。
AsforGeorge’smother,shewashardlytobepersuadedfromstayinginthecountrywiththechild。Shewenttwiceaweek,tomakesurethatallwentwell。Henrietteandshelivedwiththechild’spicturebeforethem;theyspenttheirtimesewingoncapsandunderwear——allcoveredwithlacesandfrillsandpinkandblueribbons。Everyday,whenGeorgecamehomefromhiswork,hefoundsomenewarticlecompleted,andwasravishedbythescentofsomenewkindofsachetpowder。Whataluckymanhewas!
YouwouldthinkhemusthavebeenthehappiestmaninthewholecityofParis。ButGeorge,alas,hadtopaythepenaltyforhisearlysins。Therewas,forinstance,thedeceptionhehadpracticeduponhisfriend,awaybackintheearlydays。Nowhehadfriendsofhisown,andhecouldnotkeepthesefriendsfromvisitinghim;andsohewasunquietwiththefearthatsomeoneofthemmightplayuponhimthesameviletrick。Eveninthemidstofhisradianthappiness,whenheknewthatHenriettewashanginguponhiseveryword,tremblingwithdelightwhensheheardhislatchkeyinthedoor——stillhecouldnotdriveawaythehorriblethoughtthatperhapsallthismightbedeception。
Therewashisfriend,Gustave,forexample。HehadbeenafriendofHenriette’sbeforehermarriage;hehadevenbeeninlovewithheratonetime。Andnowhecamesometimestothehouse——onceortwicewhenGeorgewasaway!Whatdidthatmean?Georgewondered。Hebroodedoveritallday,butdarednotdropanyhinttoHenriette。Buthetooktosettinglittletrapstocatchher;forinstance,hewouldcallheruponthetelephone,disguisinghisvoice。\"Hello!Hello!Isthatyou,MadameDupont?\"Andwhensheanswered,\"ItisI,sir,\"allunsuspecting,hewouldinquire,\"IsGeorgethere?\"
\"No,sir,\"shereplied。\"Whoisthisspeaking?\"
Heanswered,\"ItisI,Gustave。Howareyouthismorning?\"Hewantedtoseewhatshewouldanswer。Wouldsheperhapssay,\"Verywell,Gustave。Howareyou?\"——inatonewhichwouldbetraytoogreatintimacy!
ButHenriettewasasharpyoungperson。ThetonedidnotsoundlikeGustave’s。Sheaskedinbewilderment,\"What?\"andthenagain,\"What?\"
So,atlast,George,afraidthathistrickmightbesuspected,hadtoburstoutlaughing,andturnitintoajoke。Butwhenhecamehomeandteasedhiswifeaboutit,thelaughwasnotallonhisside。Henriettehadguessedtherealmeaningofhisjoke!
Shedidnotreallymind——shetookhisjealousyasasignoflove,andwaspleasedwithit。Itisnotuntilathirdpartycomeuponthescenethatjealousybeginstobeannoying。
SoshehadamerrytimeteasingGeorge。\"Youareagreatfellow!
YouhavenoideahowwellIunderstandyou——andafteronlyayearofmarriage!\"
\"Youknowme?\"saidthehusband,curiously。(Itisalwayssofascinatingwhenanybodythinkssheknowusbetterthanweknowourselves!)\"Tellme,whatdoyouthinkaboutme?\"
\"Youarerestless,\"saidHenriette。\"Youaresuspicious。Youpassyourtimeputtingfliesinyourmilk,andinventingwiseschemestogetthemout。\"
\"Oh,youthinkthat,doyou?\"saidGeorge,pleasedtobetalkedabout。
\"Iamnotannoyed,\"sheanswered。\"Youhavealwaysbeenthatway——andIknowthatit’sbecauseatbottomyouaretimidanddisposedtosuffer。Andthen,too,perhapsyouhavereasonsfornothavingconfidenceinawife’sintimatefriends——lady—killerthatyouare!\"
Georgefoundthisratherembarrassing;buthedarednotshowit,sohelaughedgayly。\"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,\"hesaid——
\"uponmywordIdon’t。ButitisatrickIwouldnotadviseeverybodytotry。\"
Therewereotherembarrassingmoments,causedbyGeorge’shavingthingstoconceal。Therewas,forinstance,thematterofthesixmonths’delayinthemarriage——aboutwhichHenriettewouldneverstoptalking。Shebegrudgedthetime,becauseshehadgottheideathatlittleGervaisewassixmonthsyoungerthansheotherwisewouldhavebeen。\"Thatshowsyourtimidityagain,\"shewouldsay。\"Theideaofyourhavingimaginedyourselfaconsumptive!\"
PoorGeorgehadtodefendhimself。\"Ididn’ttellyouhalfthetruth,becauseIwasafraidofupsettingyou。ItseemedIhadthebeginningofchronicbronchitis。IfeltitquitekeenlywheneverItookabreath,adeepbreath——look,likethis。Yes——I
felt——hereandthere,oneachsideofthechest,aheaviness——adifficulty——\"
\"Theideaoftakingsixmonthstocureyouofathinglikethat!\"
exclaimedHenriette。\"Andmakingourbabysixmonthsyoungerthansheoughttobe!\"
\"But,\"laughedGeorge,\"thatmeansthatweshallhavehersomuchthelonger!Shewillgetmarriedsixmonthslater!\"
\"Oh,dearme,\"respondedtheother,\"letusnottalkaboutsuchthings!Iamalreadyworried,thinkingshewillgetmarriedsomeday。\"
\"Formypart,\"saidGeorge,\"IseemyselfmountingwithheronmyarmthestaircaseoftheMadeleine。\"
\"WhytheMadeleine?\"exclaimedhiswife。\"Suchaverymagnificentchurch!\"
\"Idon’tknow——Iseeherunderherwhiteveil,andmyselfalldressedup,andwithanorder。\"
\"Withanorder!\"laughedHenriette。\"Whatdoyouexpecttodotowinanorder?\"
\"Idon’tknowthat——butIseemyselfwithit。Explainitasyouwill,Iseemyselfwithanorder。Iseeitall,exactlyasifI
werethere——theSwissguardwithhiswhitestockingsandthehalbard,andthelittlemilliner’sassistantsandthescullionlinedupstaring。\"
\"Itisfaroff——allthat,\"saidHenriette。\"Idon’tliketotalkofit。Ipreferherasababy。Iwanthertogrowup——butthenIchangemymindandthinkIdon’t。Iknowyourmotherdoesn’t。
Doyouknow,Idon’tbelievesheeverthinksaboutanythingbutherlittleGervaise。\"
\"Ibelieveyou,\"saidthefather。\"Thechildcancertainlyboastofhavingagrandmotherwholovesher。\"
\"Also,Iadoreyourmother,\"declaredHenriette。\"Shemakesmeforgetmymisfortuneinnothavingmyownmother。Sheissogood!\"
\"Wearealllikethatinourfamily,\"putinGeorge。
\"Really,\"laughedthewife。\"Well,anyhow——thelasttimethatwewentdowninthecountrywithher——youhadgoneout,Idon’tknowwhereyouhadgone——\"
\"Toseethesixteenth—centurychest,\"suggestedtheother。
\"Oh,yes,\"laughedHenriette;\"yourfamouschest!\"(Youmustexcusethislittlefamilychatteroftheirs——theyweresomuchinlovewitheachother!)
\"Don’tlet’stalkaboutthat,\"objectedGeorge。\"Youweresaying——?\"
\"Youwerenotthere。Thenursewasoutatmass,Ithink——\"
\"Oratthewinemerchant’s!Goon,goon。\"
\"Well,Iwasinthelittleroom,andmotherdearthoughtshewasallalonewithGervaise。Iwaslistening;shewastalkingtothebaby——allsortsofnonsense,prettylittlewords——stupid,ifyoulike,buttender。Iwantedtolaugh,andatthesametimeI
wantedtoweep。\"
\"Perhapsshecalledher’mydearlittleSavior’?\"
\"Exactly!Didyouhearher?\"
\"No——butthatiswhatsheusedtocallmewhenIwaslittle。\"
\"Itwasthatdayshesworethatthelittleonehadrecognizedher,andlaughed!\"
\"Oh,yes!\"
\"Andthenanothertime,whenIwentintoherroom——mother’sroom——shedidn’thearmebecausethedoorwasopen,butIsawher。Shewasinecstasybeforethelittlebootswhichthebabyworeatbaptism——youknow?\"
\"Yes,yes。\"
\"Listen,then。Shehadtakenthemandshewasembracingthem!\"
\"Andwhatdidyousaythen?\"
\"Nothing;Istoleoutverysoftly,andIsentacrossthethresholdagreatkisstothedeargrandmother!\"
Henriettesatforamomentinthought。\"Itdidn’ttakeherverylong,\"sheremarked,\"todaywhenshegottheletterfromthenurse。Iimagineshecaughttheeight—fifty—ninetrain!\"
\"Anyyet,\"laughedGeorge,\"itwasreallynothingatall。\"
\"Ohno,\"saidhiswife。\"Yetafterall,perhapsshewasright——
andperhapsIoughttohavegonewithher。\"
\"Howcharmingyouare,mypoorHenriette!Youbelieveeverythingyouaretold。I,formypart,divinedrightawaythetruth。Thenursewassimplyplayingagameonus;shewantedaraise。Willyoubet?Come,I’llbetyousomething。Whatwouldyouliketobet?Youdon’twantto?Come,I’llbetyoualovelynecklace——
youknow,withabigpearl。\"
\"No,\"saidHenriette,whohadsuddenlylosthermoodofgayety。
\"Ishouldbetoomuchafraidofwinning。\"
\"Stop!\"laughedherhusband。\"Don’tyoubelieveIloveherasmuchasyouloveher——mylittleduck?Doyouknowhowoldsheis?ImeanherEXACTage?\"
Henriettesatknittingherbrows,tryingtofigure。
\"Ah!\"heexploded。\"Youseeyoudon’tknow!Sheisninety—onedaysandeighthours!Ha,ha!Imaginewhenshewillbeabletowalkallalone。Thenwewilltakeherbackwithus;wemustwaitatleastsixmonths。\"Then,toolate,poorGeorgerealizedthathehadspokenthefatalphraseagain。
\"Ifonlyyouhadn’tputoffourmarriage,shewouldbeabletowalknow,\"saidHenriette。
Herosesuddenly。\"Come,\"hesaid,\"didn’tyousayyouhadtodressandpaysomecalls?\"
Henriettelaughed,buttookthehint。
\"Runalong,littlewife,\"hesaid。\"Ihavealotofworktodointhemeantime。Youwon’tbedown—stairsbeforeIshallhavemynoseburiedinmypapers。Bye—bye。\"
\"Bye—bye,\"saidHenriette。Buttheypausedtoexchangeadozenorsokissesbeforeshewentawaytodress。
ThenGeorgelightedacigaretteandstretchedhimselfoutinthebigarmchair。Heseemedrestless;heseemedtobedisturbedaboutsomething。Coulditbethathehadnotbeensomuchateaseashehadpretendedtobe,sincetheletterhadcomefromthebaby’snurse?MadameDuponthadgonebytheearliesttrainthatmorning。Shehadpromisedtotelegraphatonce——butshehadnotdoneso,andnowitwaslateafternoon。
Georgegotupandwanderedabout。Helookedathimselfintheglassforamoment;thenhewentbacktothechairandpulledupanothertoputhisgeetupon。Hepuffedawayathiscigaretteuntilhewascalmer。Butthensuddenlyheheardtherustleofadressbehindhim,andglancedabout,andstartedupwithanexclamation,\"Mother!\"
MadameDupontstoodinthedoorway。Shedidnotspeak。HerveilwasthrownbackandGeorgenotedinstantlythelookofagitationuponhercountenance。
\"What’sthematter?\"hecried。\"Wedidn’tgetanytelegramfromyou;wewerenotexpectingyoutilltomorrow。\"
Stillhismotherdidnotspeak。
\"Henriettewasjustgoingout,\"heexclaimednervously;\"Ihadbettercallher。\"
\"No!\"saidhismotherquickly。Hervoicewaslowandtrembling。
\"IdidnotwantHenriettetobeherewhenIarrived。\"
\"Butwhat’sthematter?\"criedGeorge。
Againtherewasasilencebeforethereplycame。Hereadsomethingterribleinthemother’smanner,andhefoundhimselftremblingviolently。
\"Ihavebroughtbackthechildandthenurse,\"saidMadameDupont。
\"What!Isthelittleonesick?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"What’sthematterwithher?\"
\"Nothingdangerous——forthemoment,atleast。\"
\"Wemustsendandgetthedoctor!\"criedGeorge。
\"Ihavejustcomefromthedoctor’s,\"wasthereply。\"Hesaiditwasnecessarytotakeoutchildfromthenurseandbringheruponthebottle。\"
Againtherewasapause。Georgecouldhardlybringhimselftoaskthenextquestion。Tryashewould,hecouldnotkeephisvoicefromweakening。\"Well,now,whatishertrouble?\"
Themotherdidnotanswer。Shestoodstaringbeforeher。Atlastshesaid,faintly,\"Idon’tknow。\"
\"Youdidn’task?\"
\"Iasked。ButitwasnottoourowndoctorthatIwent。\"
\"Ah!\"whisperedGeorge。Fornearlyaminuteneitheroneofthemspoke。\"Why?\"heinquiredatlast。
\"Because——he——thenurse’sdoctor——hadfrightenedmeso——\"
\"Truly?\"
\"Yes。Itisadisease——\"againshestopped。
Georgecried,inavoiceofagony,\"andthen?\"
\"ThenIaskedhimifthematterwassogravethatIcouldnotbesatisfiedwithourordinarydoctor。\"
\"Andwhatdidheanswer?\"
\"Hesaidthatifwehadthemeansitwouldreallybebettertoconsultaspecialist。\"
Georgelookedathismotheragain。Hewasabletodoit,becauseshewasnotlookingathim。Heclenchedhishandsandgothimselftogether。\"And——wheredidhesendyou?\"
Hismotherfumbledinherhandbaganddrewoutavisitingcard。
\"Here,\"shesaid。
AndGeorgelookedatthecard。Itwasallhecoulddotokeephimselffromtottering。Itwasthecardofthedoctorwhomhehadfirstconsultedabouthistrouble!Thespecialistinvenerealdiseases!
CHAPTERIV
ItwasallGeorgecoulddotocontrolhisvoice。\"You——youwenttoseehim?\"hestammered。
\"Yes,\"saidhismother。\"Youknowhim?\"
\"No,no,\"heanswered。\"Or——thatis——Ihavemethim,Ithink。I
don’tknow。\"Andthentohimself,\"MyGod!\"
Therewasasilence。\"Heiscomingtotalktoyou,\"saidthemother,atlast。
Georgewashardlyabletospeak。\"Thenheisverymuchdisturbed?\"
\"No,buthewantstotalktoyou。\"
\"Tome?\"
\"Yes。Whenthedoctorsawthenurse,hesaid,’Madame,itisimpossibleformetocontinuetoattendthischildunlessIhavehadthisverydayaconversationwitthefather。’SoIsaid’Verywell,’andhesaidhewouldcomeatonce。\"
Georgeturnedaway,andputhishandstohisforehead。\"Mypoorlittledaughter!\"hewhisperedtohimself。