Wegotbackintotheboat.Thenightwasdark,verydark.Isawclearly,however,thathehadcaughtherbythewaist,andthattheywerehuggingeachotheragainandagain.
Itwasafrightfulcatastrophe.Ourescapadewasdiscovered,withtheresultthatPerePiquedentwasdismissed.Andmyfather,inafitofanger,sentmetofinishmycourseofphilosophyatRibaudet’sschool.
SixmonthslaterItookmydegreeofBachelorofArts.ThenIwenttostudylawinParis,anddidnotreturntomynativetowntilltwoyearslater.
AtthecorneroftheRuedeSerpentashopcaughtmyeye.Overthedoorwerethewords:\"ColonialProducts——Piquedent\";thenunderneath,soastoenlightenthemostignorant:\"Grocery.\"
Iexclaimed:
\"’Quantummutatusabillo!’\"
Piquedentraisedhishead,lefthisfemalecustomer,andrushedtowardmewithoutstretchedhands.
\"Ah!myyoungfriend,myyoungfriend,hereyouare!Whatluck!whatluck!\"
Abeautifulwoman,veryplump,abruptlyleftthecashier’sdeskandflungherselfonmybreast.Ihadsomedifficultyinrecognizingher,shehadgrownsostout.
Iasked:
\"Sothenyou’redoingwell?\"
Piquedenthadgonebacktoweighthegroceries.
\"Oh!verywell,verywell,verywell.Ihavemadethreethousandfrancsclearthisyear!\"
\"AndwhataboutLatin,MonsieurPiquedent?\"
\"Oh,goodheavens!Latin,Latin,Latin——youseeitdoesnotkeepthepotboiling!\"
AMEETING
Itwasnothingbutanaccident,anaccidentpureandsimple.Onthatparticulareveningtheprincess’roomswereopen,andastheyappeareddarkafterthebrilliantlylightedparlors,Barond’Etraille,whowastiredofstanding,inadvertentlywanderedintoanemptybedroom.
Helookedroundforachairinwhichtohaveadoze,ashewassurehiswifewouldnotleavebeforedaylight.Assoonashebecameaccustomedtothelightoftheroomhedistinguishedthebigbedwithitsazure—and—
goldhangings,inthemiddleofthegreatroom,lookinglikeacatafalqueinwhichlovewasburied,fortheprincesswasnolongeryoung.Behindit,alargebrightsurfacelookedlikealakeseenatadistance.Itwasalargemirror,discreetlycoveredwithdarkdrapery,thatwasveryrarelyletdown,andseemedtolookatthebed,whichwasitsaccomplice.
Onemightalmostfancythatithadreminiscences,andthatonemightseeinitcharmingfemaleformsandthegentlemovementoflovingarms.
Thebaronstoodstillforamoment,smiling,almostexperiencinganemotiononthethresholdofthischamberdedicatedtolove.Butsuddenlysomethingappearedinthelooking—glass,asifthephantomswhichhehadevokedhadrisenupbeforehim.Amanandawomanwhohadbeensittingonalowcouchconcealedintheshadowhadarisen,andthepolishedsurface,reflectingtheirfigures,showedthattheywerekissingeachotherbeforeseparating.
Barond’EtraillerecognizedhiswifeandtheMarquisdeCervigne.Heturnedandwentawaylikeamanwhoisfullymasterofhimself,andwaitedtillitwasdaybeforetakingawaythebaroness;buthehadnolongeranythoughtsofsleeping.
Assoonastheywerealonehesaid:
\"Madame,IsawyoujustnowinPrincessedeRaynes’room;Ineedsaynomore,andIamnotfondeitherofreproaches,actsofviolence,orofridicule.AsIwishtoavoidallsuchthings,weshallseparatewithoutanyscandal.Ourlawyerswillsettleyourpositionaccordingtomyorders.Youwillbefreetoliveasyoupleasewhenyouarenolongerundermyroof;but,asyouwillcontinuetobearmyname,ImustwarnyouthatshouldanyscandalariseIshallshowmyselfinflexible.\"
Shetriedtospeak,buthestoppedher,bowed,andlefttheroom.
Hewasmoreastonishedandsadthanunhappy.Hehadlovedherdearlyduringthefirstperiodoftheirmarriedlife;buthisardorhadcooled,andnowheoftenamusedhimselfelsewhere,eitherinatheatreorinsociety,thoughhealwayspreservedacertainlikingforthebaroness.
Shewasveryyoung,hardlyfour—and—twenty,small,slight——tooslight——
andveryfair.ShewasatrueParisiandoll:clever,spoiled,elegant,coquettish,witty,withmorecharmthanrealbeauty.Heusedtosayfamiliarlytohisbrother,whenspeakingofher:
\"Mywifeischarming,attractive,but——thereisnothingtolayholdof.
Sheislikeaglassofchampagnethatisallfroth;whenyougettothewineitisverygood,butthereistoolittleofit,unfortunately.\"
Hewalkedupanddowntheroomingreatagitation,thinkingofathousandthings.Atonemomenthewasfurious,andfeltinclinedtogivethemarquisagoodthrashing,ortoslaphisfacepublicly,intheclub.
Buthedecidedthatwouldnotdo,itwouldnotbegoodform;hewouldbelaughedat,andnothisrival,andthisthoughtwoundedhisvanity.
Sohewenttobed,butcouldnotsleep.ParisknewinafewdaysthattheBaronandBaronessd’Etraillehadagreedtoanamicableseparationonaccountofincompatibilityoftemper.Noonesuspectedanything,noonelaughed,andnoonewasastonished.
Thebaron,however,toavoidmeetinghiswife,travelledforayear,thenspentthesummerattheseaside,andtheautumninshooting,returningtoParisforthewinter.Hedidnotmeetthebaronessonce.
Hedidnotevenknowwhatpeoplesaidabouther.Inanycase,shetookcaretorespectappearances,andthatwasallheaskedfor.
Hebecamedreadfullybored,travelledagain,restoredhisoldcastleofVillebosc,whichtookhimtwoyears;thenforoverayearheentertainedfriendsthere,tillatlast,tiredofalltheseso—calledpleasures,hereturnedtohismansionintheRuedeLille,justsixyearsaftertheseparation.
Hewasnowforty—five,withagoodcropofgrayhair,ratherstout,andwiththatmelancholylookcharacteristicofthosewhohavebeenhandsome,soughtafter,andliked,butwhoaredeteriorating,daily.
AmonthafterhisreturntoParis,hetookcoldoncomingoutofhisclub,andhadsuchabadcoughthathismedicalmanorderedhimtoNicefortherestofthewinter.
HereachedthestationonlyafewminutesbeforethedepartureofthetrainonMondayevening,andhadbarelytimetogetintoacarriage,withonlyoneotheroccupant,whowassittinginacornersowrappedinfursandcloaksthathecouldnotevenmakeoutwhetheritwasamanorawoman,asnothingofthefigurecouldbeseen.Whenheperceivedthathecouldnotfindout,heputonhistravellingcap,rolledhimselfupinhisrugs,andstretchedoutcomfortablytosleep.
Hedidnotwakeuntilthedaywasbreaking,andlookedatonceathisfellow—traveller,whohadnotstirredallnight,andseemedstilltobesoundasleep.
M.d’Etraillemadeuseoftheopportunitytobrushhishairandhisbeard,andtotrytofreshenhimselfupalittlegenerally,foranight’straveldoesnotimproveone’sappearancewhenonehasattainedacertainage.
Agreatpoethassaid:
\"Whenweareyoung,ourmorningsaretriumphant!\"
Thenwewakeupwithacoolskin,abrighteye,andglossyhair.
Asonegrowsolderonewakesupinaverydifferentcondition.Dulleyes,red,swollencheeks,drylips,hairandbearddisarranged,impartanold,fatigued,worn—outlooktotheface.
Thebaronopenedhistravellingcase,andimprovedhislooksasmuchaspossible.
Theenginewhistled,thetrainstopped,andhisneighbormoved.Nodoubthewasawake.Theystartedoffagain,andthenaslantingrayofsunlightshoneintothecarriageandonthesleeper,whomovedagain,shookhimself,andthenhisfacecouldbeseen.
Itwasayoung,fair,pretty,plumpwoman,andthebaronlookedatherinamazement.Hedidnotknowwhattothink.Hecouldreallyhaveswornthatitwashiswife,butwonderfullychangedforthebetter:stouter——
whyshehadgrownasstoutashewas,onlyitsuitedhermuchbetterthanitdidhim.
Shelookedathimcalmly,didnotseemtorecognizehim,andthenslowlylaidasideherwraps.Shehadthatquietassuranceofawomanwhoissureofherself,whofeelsthatonawakingsheisinherfullbeautyandfreshness.
Thebaronwasreallybewildered.Wasithiswife,orelseaslikeherasanysistercouldbe?Nothavingseenherforsixyears,hemightbemistaken.
Sheyawned,andthisgesturebetrayedher.Sheturnedandlookedathimagain,calmly,indifferently,asifshescarcelysawhim,andthenlookedoutofthewindowagain.
Hewasupsetanddreadfullyperplexed,andkeptlookingathersideways.
Yes;itwassurelyhiswife.Howcouldhepossiblyhavedoubtedit?
Therecouldcertainlynotbetwonoseslikethat,andathousandrecollectionsflashedthroughhismind.Hefelttheoldfeelingoftheintoxicationoflovestealingoverhim,andhecalledtomindthesweetodorofherskin,hersmilewhensheputherarmsontohisshoulders,thesoftintonationsofhervoice,allhergraceful,coaxingways.
Buthowshehadchangedandimproved!Itwassheandyetnotshe.Sheseemedriper,moredeveloped,moreofawoman,moreseductive,moredesirable,adorablydesirable.
Andthisstrange,unknownwoman,whomhehadaccidentallymetinarailwaycarriage,belongedtohim;hehadonlytosaytoher:
\"Iinsistuponit.\"
Hehadformerlysleptinherarms,existedonlyinherlove,andnowhehadfoundheragaincertainly,butsochangedthathescarcelyknewher.
Itwasanother,andyetitwassheherself.Itwassomeonewhohadbeenbornandhadformedandgrownsincehehadlefther.Itwasshe,indeed;
shewhomhehadloved,butwhowasnowaltered,withamoreassuredsmileandgreaterself—possession.Thereweretwowomeninone,minglingagreatpartofwhatwasnewandunknownwithmanysweetrecollectionsofthepast.Therewassomethingsingular,disturbing,excitingaboutit——akindofmysteryofloveinwhichtherefloatedadeliciousconfusion.
Itwashiswifeinanewbodyandinnewfleshwhichlipshadneverpressed.
Andhethoughtthatinafewyearsnearlyeverythingchangesinus;onlytheoutlinecanberecognized,andsometimeseventhatdisappears.
Theblood,thehair,theskin,allchangesandisrenewed,andwhenpeoplehavenotseeneachotherforalongtime,whentheymeettheyfindeachothertotallydifferentbeings,althoughtheyarethesameandbearthesamename.
Andtheheartalsocanchange.Ideasmaybemodifiedandrenewed,sothatinfortyyearsoflifewemay,bygradualandconstanttransformations,becomefourorfivetotallynewanddifferentbeings.
Hedweltonthisthoughttillittroubledhim;ithadfirsttakenpossessionofhimwhenhesurprisedherintheprincess’room.Hewasnottheleastangry;itwasnotthesamewomanthathewaslookingat——
thatthin,excitablelittledollofthosedays.
Whatwashetodo?Howshouldheaddressher?andwhatcouldhesaytoher?Hadsherecognizedhim?
Thetrainstoppedagain.Hegotup,bowed,and,said:\"Bertha,doyouwantanythingIcouldbringyou?\"
Shelookedathimfromheadtofoot,andanswered,withoutshowingtheslightestsurprise,orconfusion,oranger,butwiththemostperfectindifference:
\"Idonotwantanything———thankyou.\"
Hegotoutandwalkedupanddowntheplatformalittleinordertorecoverhimself,and,asitwere,torecoverhissensesafterafall.
Whatshouldhedonow?Ifhegotintoanothercarriageitwouldlookasifhewererunningaway.Shouldhebepoliteorimportunate?Thatwouldlookasifhewereaskingforforgiveness.Shouldhespeakasifhewerehermaster?Hewouldlooklikeafool,and,besides,hereallyhadnorighttodoso.
Hegotinagainandtookhisplace.
Duringhisabsenceshehadhastilyarrangedherdressandhair,andwasnowlyingstretchedoutontheseat,radiant,andwithoutshowinganyemotion.
Heturnedtoher,andsaid:\"MydearBertha,sincethissingularchancehasbroughtuptogetherafteraseparationofsixyears——aquitefriendlyseparation——arewetocontinuetolookuponeachotherasirreconcilableenemies?Weareshutuptogether,tete—d—tete,whichissomuchthebetterorsomuchtheworse.Iamnotgoingtogetintoanothercarriage,sodon’tyouthinkitispreferabletotalkasfriendstilltheendofourjourney?\"
Sheanswered,quitecalmlyagain:
\"Justasyouplease.\"
Thenhesuddenlystopped,reallynotknowingwhattosay;butashehadplentyofassurance,hesatdownonthemiddleseat,andsaid:
\"Well,IseeImustpaymycourttoyou;somuchthebetter.Itis,however,reallyapleasure,foryouarecharming.Youcannotimaginehowyouhaveimprovedinthelastsixyears.IdonotknowanywomanwhocouldgivemethatdelightfulsensationwhichIexperiencedjustnowwhenyouemergedfromyourwraps.Ireallycouldnothavethoughtsuchachangepossible.\"
Withoutmovingherheadorlookingathim,shesaid:\"Icannotsaythesamewithregardtoyou;youhavecertainlydeterioratedagreatdeal.\"
Hegotredandconfused,andthen,withasmileofresignation,hesaid:
\"Youareratherhard.\"
\"Why?\"washerreply.\"Iamonlystatingfacts.Idon’tsupposeyouintendtooffermeyourlove?Itmust,therefore,beamatterofperfectindifferencetoyouwhatIthinkaboutyou.ButIseeitisapainfulsubject,soletustalkofsomethingelse.WhathaveyoubeendoingsinceIlastsawyou?\"
Hefeltratheroutofcountenance,andstammered:
\"I?Ihavetravelled,donesomeshooting,andgrownold,asyousee.
Andyou?\"
Shesaid,quitecalmly:\"Ihavetakencareofappearances,asyouorderedme.\"
Hewasverynearlysayingsomethingbrutal,buthecheckedhimself;andkissedhiswife’shand:
\"AndIthankyou,\"hesaid.
Shewassurprised.Hewasindeeddiplomatic,andalwaysmasterofhimself.
Hewenton:\"Asyouhaveaccededtomyfirstrequest,shallwenowtalkwithoutanybitterness?\"
Shemadealittlemovementofsurprise.
\"Bitterness?Idon’tfeelany;youareacompletestrangertome;Iamonlytryingtokeepupadifficultconversation.\"
Hewasstilllookingather,fascinatedinspiteofherharshness,andhefeltseizedwithabrutalBeside,thedesireofthemaster.
Perceivingthatshehadhurthisfeelings,shesaid:
\"Howoldareyounow?Ithoughtyouwereyoungerthanyoulook.\"
\"Iamforty—five\";andthenheadded:\"IforgottoaskafterPrincessedeRaynes.Areyoustillintimatewithher?\"
Shelookedathimasifshehatedhim:
\"Yes,Icertainlyam.Sheisverywell,thankyou.\"
Theyremainedsittingsidebyside,agitatedandirritated.Suddenlyhesaid:
\"MydearBertha,Ihavechangedmymind.Youaremywife,andIexpectyoutocomewithmeto—day.Youhave,Ithink,improvedbothmorallyandphysically,andIamgoingtotakeyoubackagain.Iamyourhusband,anditismyrighttodoso.\"
Shewasstupefied,andlookedathim,tryingtodivinehisthoughts;buthisfacewasresoluteandimpenetrable.
\"Iamverysorry,\"shesaid,\"butIhavemadeotherengagements.\"
\"Somuchtheworseforyou,\"washisreply.\"Thelawgivesmethepower,andImeantouseit.\"
TheywerenearingMarseilles,andthetrainwhistledandslackenedspeed.
Thebaronessrose,carefullyrolledupherwraps,andthen,turningtoherhusband,said:
\"MydearRaymond,donotmakeabaduseofthistete—atetewhichIhadcarefullyprepared.Iwishedtotakeprecautions,accordingtoyouradvice,sothatImighthavenothingtofearfromyouorfromotherpeople,whatevermighthappen.YouaregoingtoNice,areyounot?\"
\"Ishallgowhereveryougo.\"
\"Notatall;justlistentome,andIamsurethatyouwillleavemeinpeace.Inafewmoments,whenwegettothestation,youwillseethePrincessedeRaynesandComtesseHenriotwaitingformewiththeirhusbands.Iwishedthemtoseeas,andtoknowthatwehadspentthenighttogetherintherailwaycarriage.Don’tbealarmed;theywilltelliteverywhereasamostsurprisingfact.
\"ItoldyoujustnowthatIhadmostcarefullyfollowedyouradviceandsavedappearances.Anythingelsedoesnotmatter,doesit?Well,inordertodoso,Iwishedtobeseenwithyou.Youtoldmecarefullytoavoidanyscandal,andIamavoidingit,for,Iamafraid——Iamafraid——\"
Shewaitedtillthetrainhadquitestopped,andasherfriendsranuptoopenthecarriagedoor,shesaid:
\"Iamafraid\"——hesitating——\"thatthereisanotherreason——jesuisenceinte.\"
Theprincessstretchedoutherarmstoembraceher,——andthebaronesssaid,paintingtothebaron,whowasdumbwithastonishment,andwastryingtogetatthetruth:
\"YoudonotrecognizeRaymond?Hehascertainlychangedagooddeal,andheagreedtocomewithmesothatImightnottravelalone.Wetakelittletripslikethisoccasionally,likegoodfriendswhocannotlivetogether.Wearegoingtoseparatehere;hehashadenoughofmealready.\"
Sheputoutherhand,whichhetookmechanically,andthenshejumpedoutontotheplatformamongherfriends,whowerewaitingforher.
Thebaronhastilyshutthecarriagedoor,forhewastoomuchdisturbedtosayawordorcometoanydetermination.Heheardhiswife’svoiceandtheirmerrylaughterastheywentaway.
Heneversawheragain,nordidheeverdiscoverwhethershehadtoldhimalieorwasspeakingthetruth.
THEBLINDMAN
Howisitthatthesunlightgivesussuchjoy?Whydoesthisradiancewhenitfallsontheearthfilluswiththejoyofliving?Thewholeskyisblue,thefieldsaregreen,thehousesallwhite,andourenchantedeyesdrinkinthosebrightcolorswhichbringdelighttooursouls.Andthentherespringsupinourheartsadesiretodance,torun,tosing,ahappylightnessofthought,asortofenlargedtenderness;wefeelalongingtoembracethesun.
Theblind,astheysitinthedoorways,impassiveintheireternaldarkness,remainascalmaseverinthemidstofthisfreshgaiety,and,notunderstandingwhatistakingplacearoundthem,theycontinuallychecktheirdogsastheyattempttoplay.
When,atthecloseoftheday,theyarereturninghomeonthearmofayoungbrotheroralittlesister,ifthechildsays:\"Itwasaveryfineday!\"theotheranswers:\"Icouldnoticethatitwasfine.Loulouwouldn’tkeepquiet.\"
Iknewoneofthesemenwhoselifewasoneofthemostcruelmartyrdomsthatcouldpossiblybeconceived.
Hewasapeasant,thesonofaNormanfarmer.Aslongashisfatherandmotherlived,hewasmoreorlesstakencareof;hesufferedlittlesavefromhishorribleinfirmity;butassoonastheoldpeopleweregone,anatrociouslifeofmiserycommencedforhim.Dependentonasisterofhis,everybodyinthefarmhousetreatedhimasabeggarwhoiseatingthebreadofstrangers.Ateverymealtheveryfoodheswallowedwasmadeasubjectofreproachagainsthim;hewascalledadrone,aclown,andalthoughhisbrother—in—lawhadtakenpossessionofhisportionoftheinheritance,hewashelpedgrudginglytosoup,gettingjustenoughtosavehimfromstarving.
Hisfacewasverypaleandhistwobigwhiteeyeslookedlikewafers.
Heremainedunmovedatalltheinsultshurledathim,soreservedthatonecouldnottellwhetherhefeltthem.
Moreover,hehadneverknownanytenderness,hismotherhavingalwaystreatedhimunkindlyandcaringverylittleforhim;forincountryplacesuselesspersonsareconsideredanuisance,andthepeasantswouldbegladtokilltheinfirmoftheirspecies,aspoultrydo.
Assoonashefinishedhissouphewentandsatoutsidethedoorinsummerandinwinterbesidethefireside,anddidnotstiragainalltheevening.Hemadenogesture,nomovement;onlyhiseyelids,quiveringfromsomenervousaffection,felldownsometimesoverhiswhite,sightlessorbs.Hadheanyintellect,anythinkingfaculty,anyconsciousnessofhisownexistence?Nobodycaredtoinquire.
Forsomeyearsthingswentoninthisfashion.Buthisincapacityforworkaswellashisimpassivenesseventuallyexasperatedhisrelatives,andhebecamealaughingstock,asortofbuttformerriment,apreytotheinbornferocity,tothesavagegaietyofthebruteswhosurroundedhim.
Itiseasytoimagineallthecruelpracticaljokesinspiredbyhisblindness.And,inordertohavesomefuninreturnforfeedinghim,theynowconvertedhismealsintohoursofpleasurefortheneighborsandofpunishmentforthehelplesscreaturehimself.
Thepeasantsfromthenearesthousescametothisentertainment;itwastalkedaboutfromdoortodoor,andeverydaythekitchenofthefarmhousewasfullofpeople.Sometimestheyplacedbeforehisplate,whenhewasbeginningtoeathissoup,somecatordog.Theanimalinstinctivelyperceivedtheman’sinfirmity,and,softlyapproaching,commencedeatingnoiselessly,lappingupthesoupdaintily;and,whentheylappedthefoodrathernoisily,rousingthepoorfellow’sattention,theywouldprudentlyscamperawaytoavoidtheblowofthespoondirectedatrandombytheblindman!
Thenthespectatorsrangedalongthewallwouldburstoutlaughing,nudgeeachotherandstamptheirfeetonthefloor.Andhe,withouteverutteringaword,wouldcontinueeatingwithhisrighthand,whilestretchingouthislefttoprotecthisplate.
Anothertimetheymadehimchewcorks,bitsofwood,leavesorevenfilth,whichhewasunabletodistinguish.
Afterthistheygottiredevenofthesepracticaljokes,andthebrother—
in—law,angryathavingtosupporthimalways,struckhim,cuffedhimincessantly,laughingathisfutileeffortstowardofforreturntheblows.Thencameanewpleasure——thepleasureofsmackinghisface.Andtheplough—men,theservantgirlsandeveneverypassingvagabondwereeverymomentgivinghimcuffs,whichcausedhiseyelashestotwitchspasmodically.Hedidnotknowwheretohidehimselfandremainedwithhisarmsalwaysheldouttoguardagainstpeoplecomingtooclosetohim.
Atlasthewasforcedtobeg.
Hewasplacedsomewhereonthehigh—roadonmarket—days,andassoonasheheardthesoundoffootstepsortherollingofavehicle,hereachedouthishat,stammering:
\"Charity,ifyouplease!\"
Butthepeasantisnotlavish,andforwholeweekshedidnotbringbackasou.
Thenhebecamethevictimoffurious,pitilesshatred.Andthisishowhedied.
Onewinterthegroundwascoveredwithsnow,anditwasfreezinghard.
Hisbrother—in—lawledhimonemorningagreatdistancealongthehighroadinorderthathemightsolicitalms.Theblindmanwasleftthereallday;andwhennightcameon,thebrother—in—lawtoldthepeopleofhishousethathecouldfindnotraceofthemendicant.Thenheadded:
\"Pooh!bestnotbotherabouthim!Hewascoldandgotsomeonetotakehimaway.Neverfear!he’snotlost.He’llturnupsoonenoughtomorrowtoeatthesoup.\"
Nextdayhedidnotcomeback.
Afterlonghoursofwaiting,stiffenedwiththecold,feelingthathewasdying,theblindmanbegantowalk.Beingunabletofindhiswayalongtheroad,owingtoitsthickcoatingofice,hewentonatrandom,fallingintoditches,gettingupagain,withoututteringasound,hissoleobjectbeingtofindsomehousewherehecouldtakeshelter.
But,bydegrees,thedescendingsnowmadeanumbnessstealoverhim,andhisfeeblelimbsbeingincapableofcarryinghimfarther,hesatdowninthemiddleofanopenfield.Hedidnotgetupagain.
Thewhiteflakeswhichfellcontinuouslyburiedhim,sothathisbody,quitestiffandstark,disappearedundertheincessantaccumulationoftheirrapidlythickeningmass,andnothingwaslefttoindicatetheplacewherehelay.
Hisrelativesmadeapretenceofinquiringabouthimandsearchingforhimforaboutaweek.Theyevenmadeashowofweeping.
Thewinterwassevere,andthethawdidnotsetinquickly.Now,oneSunday,ontheirwaytomass,thefarmersnoticedagreatflightofcrows,whowerewhirlingincessantlyabovetheopenfield,andthendescendinglikeashowerofblackrainatthesamespot,evergoingandcoming.
Thefollowingweekthesegloomybirdswerestillthere.Therewasacrowdofthemupintheair,asiftheyhadgatheredfromallcornersofthehorizon,andtheyswoopeddownwithagreatcawingintotheshiningsnow,whichtheycoveredlikeblackpatches,andinwhichtheykeptpeckingobstinately.Ayoungfellowwenttoseewhattheyweredoinganddiscoveredthebodyoftheblindman,alreadyhalfdevoured,mangled.
Hiswaneyeshaddisappeared,peckedoutbythelong,voraciousbeaks.
AndIcanneverfeelthegladradianceofsunlitdayswithoutsadlyrememberingandponderingoverthefateofthebeggarwhowassuchanoutcastinlife—thathishorribledeathwasarelieftoallwhohadknownhim.
INDISCRETION
Theyhadlovedeachotherbeforemarriagewithapureandloftylove.
Theyhadfirstmetonthesea—shore.Hehadthoughtthisyounggirlcharming,asshepassedbywithherlight—coloredparasolandherdaintydressamidthemarinelandscapeagainstthehorizon.Hehadlovedher,blondandslender,inthesesurroundingsofblueoceanandspacioussky.
Hecouldnotdistinguishthetendernesswhichthisbuddingwomanawokeinhimfromthevagueandpowerfulemotionwhichthefreshsaltairandthegrandsceneryofsurfandsunshineandwavesarousedinhissoul.
She,ontheotherhand,hadlovedhimbecausehecourtedher,becausehewasyoung,rich,kind,andattentive.Shehadlovedhimbecauseitisnaturalforyounggirlstolovemenwhowhispersweetnothingstothem.
So,forthreemonths,theyhadlivedsidebyside,andhandinhand.
Thegreetingwhichtheyexchangedinthemorningbeforethebath,inthefreshnessofthemorning,orintheeveningonthesand,underthestars,inthewarmthofacalmnight,whisperedlow,verylow,alreadyhadtheflavorofkisses,thoughtheirlipshadnevermet.
Eachdreamedoftheotheratnight,eachthoughtoftheotheronawaking,and,withoutyethavingvoicedtheirsentiments,eachlongerfortheother,bodyandsoul.
Aftermarriagetheirlovedescendedtoearth.Itwasatfirstatireless,sensuouspassion,thenexaltedtendernesscomposedoftangiblepoetry,morerefinedcaresses,andnewandfoolishinventions.Everyglanceandgesturewasanexpressionofpassion.
But,littlebylittle,withoutevennoticingit,theybegantogettiredofeachother.Lovewasstillstrong,buttheyhadnothingmoretorevealtoeachother,nothingmoretolearnfromeachother,nonewtaleofendearment,nounexpectedoutburst,nonewwayofexpressingthewell—
known,oft—repeatedverb.
Theytried,however,torekindlethedwindlingflameofthefirstlove.
Everydaytheytriedsomenewtrickordesperateattempttobringbacktotheirheartstheuncooledardoroftheirfirstdaysofmarriedlife.
Theytriedmoonlightwalksunderthetrees,inthesweetwarmthofthesummerevenings:thepoetryofmist—coveredbeaches;theexcitementofpublicfestivals.
OnemorningHenriettesaidtoPaul:
\"Willyoutakemetoacafefordinner?\"
\"Certainly,dearie.\"
\"Tosomewell—knowncafe?\"
\"Ofcourse!\"
Helookedatherwithaquestioningglance,seeingthatshewasthinkingofsomethingwhichshedidnotwishtotell.
Shewenton:
\"Youknow,oneofthosecafes——oh,howcanIexplainmyself?——asportycafe!\"
Hesmiled:\"Ofcourse,Iunderstand——youmeaninoneofthecafeswhicharecommonlycalledbohemian.\"
\"Yes,that’sit.Buttakemetooneofthebigplaces,onewhereyouareknown,onewhereyouhavealreadysupped——no——dined——well,youknow——I———
—I——oh!Iwillneverdaresayit!\"
\"Goahead,dearie.Littlesecretsshouldnolongerexistbetweenus.\"
\"No,Idarenot.\"
\"Goon;don’tbeprudish.Tellme.\"
\"Well,I——I——Iwanttobetakenforyoursweetheart——there!andIwanttheboys,whodonotknowthatyouaremarried,totakemeforsuch;andyoutoo——IwantyoutothinkthatIamyoursweetheartforonehour,inthatplacewhichmustholdsomanymemoriesforyou.There!AndIwillplaythatIamyoursweetheart.It’sawful,Iknow——Iamabominablyashamed,Iamasredasapeony.Don’tlookatme!\"
Helaughed,greatlyamused,andanswered:
\"Allright,wewillgoto—nighttoaveryswellplacewhereIamwellknown.\"
Towardseveno’clocktheywentupthestairsofoneofthebigcafesontheBoulevard,he,smiling,withthelookofaconqueror,she,timid,veiled,delighted.Theywereimmediatelyshowntooneoftheluxuriousprivatedining—rooms,furnishedwithfourlargearm—chairsandaredplushcouch.Theheadwaiterenteredandbroughtthemthemenu.Paulhandedittohiswife.
\"Whatdoyouwanttoeat?\"
\"Idon’tcare;orderwhateverisgood.\"
Afterhandinghiscoattothewaiter,heordereddinnerandchampagne.
Thewaiterlookedattheyoungwomanandsmiled.Hetooktheorderandmurmured:
\"WillMonsieurPaulhavehischampagnesweetordry?\"
\"Dry,verydry.\"
Henriettewaspleasedtohearthatthismanknewherhusband’sname.
Theysatonthecouch,sidebyside,andbegantoeat.
Tencandleslightedtheroomandwerereflectedinthemirrorsallaroundthem,whichseemedtoincreasethebrilliancyathousand—fold.
Henriettedrankglassafterglassinordertokeepuphercourage,althoughshefeltdizzyafterthefirstfewglasses.Paul,excitedbythememorieswhichreturnedtohim,keptkissinghiswife’shands.Hiseyesweresparkling.
Shewasfeelingstrangelyexcitedinthisnewplace,restless,pleased,alittleguilty,butfulloflife.Twowaiters,serious,silent,accustomedtoseeingandforgettingeverything,toenteringtheroomonlywhenitwasnecessaryandtoleavingitwhentheyfelttheywereintruding,weresilentlyflittinghitherandthither.
Towardthemiddleofthedinner,Henriettewaswellundertheinfluenceofchampagne.Shewasprattlingalongfearlessly,hercheeksflushed,hereyesglistening.
\"Come,Paul;tellmeeverything.\"
\"What,sweetheart?\"
\"Idon’tdaretellyou.\"
\"Goon!\"
\"Haveyoulovedmanywomenbeforeme?\"
Hehesitated,alittleperplexed,notknowingwhetherheshouldhidehisadventuresorboastofthem.
Shecontinued:
\"Oh!pleasetellme.Howmanyhaveyouloved?\"
\"Afew.\"
\"Howmany?\"
\"Idon’tknow.Howdoyouexpectmetoknowsuchthings?\"
\"Haven’tyoucountedthem?\"
\"Ofcoursenot.\"
\"Thenyoumusthavelovedagoodmany!\"
\"Perhaps.\"
\"Abouthowmany?Justtellmeabouthowmany.\"
\"ButIdon’tknow,dearest.Someyearsagoodmany,andsomeyearsonlyafew.\"
\"Howmanyayear,didyousay?\"
\"Sometimestwentyorthirty,sometimesonlyfourorfive.\"
\"Oh!thatmakesmorethanahundredinall!\"
\"Yes,justabout.\"
\"Oh!Ithinkthatisdreadful!\"
\"Whydreadful?\"
\"Becauseit’sdreadfulwhenyouthinkofit——allthosewomen——andalways——alwaysthesamething.Oh!it’sdreadful,justthesame——morethanahundredwomen!\"
Hewassurprisedthatsheshouldthinkthatdreadful,andanswered,withtheairofsuperioritywhichmentakewithwomenwhentheywishtomakethemunderstandthattheyhavesaidsomethingfoolish:
\"That’sfunny!Ifitisdreadfultohaveahundredwomen,it’sdreadfultohaveone.\"
\"Oh,no,notatall!\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"Becausewithonewomanyouhavearealbondoflovewhichattachesyoutoher,whilewithahundredwomenit’snotthesameatall.Thereisnoreallove.Idon’tunderstandhowamancanassociatewithsuchwomen.\"
\"Buttheyareallright.\"
\"No,theycan’tbe!\"
\"Yes,theyare!\"
\"Oh,stop;youdisgustme!\"
\"Butthen,whydidyouaskmehowmanysweetheartsIhadhad?\"
\"Because————\"
\"That’snoreason!\"
\"Whatwerethey—actresses,littleshop—girls,orsocietywomen?\"
\"Afewofeach.\"
\"Itmusthavebeenrathermonotonoustowardthelast.\"
\"Oh,no;it’samusingtochange.\"
Sheremainedthoughtful,staringatherchampagneglass.Itwasfull——
shedrankitinonegulp;thenputtingitbackonthetable,shethrewherarmsaroundherhusband’sneckandmurmuredinhisear:
\"Oh!howIloveyou,sweetheart!howIloveyou!\"
Hethrewhisarmsaroundherinapassionateembrace.Awaiter,whowasjustentering,backedout,closingthedoordiscreetly.Inaboutfiveminutestheheadwaitercameback,solemnanddignified,bringingthefruitfordessert.Shewasoncemoreholdingbetweenherfingersafullglass,andgazingintotheamberliquidasthoughseekingunknownthings.
Shemurmuredinadreamyvoice:
\"Yes,itmustbefun!\"
AFAMILYAFFAIR
ThesmallengineattachedtotheNeuillysteam—tramwhistledasitpassedthePorteMaillottowarnallobstaclestogetoutofitswayandpuffedlikeapersonoutofbreathasitsentoutitssteam,itspistonsmovingrapidlywithanoiseasofironlegsrunning.ThetrainwasgoingalongthebroadavenuethatendsattheSeine.ThesultryheatatthecloseofaJulydaylayoverthewholecity,andfromtheroad,althoughtherewasnotabreathofwindstirring,therearoseawhite,chalky,suffocating,warmdust,whichadheredtothemoistskin,filledtheeyesandgotintothelungs.Peoplestoodinthedoorwaysoftheirhousestotryandgetabreathofair.
Thewindowsofthesteam—tramwereopenandthecurtainsflutteredinthewind.Therewereveryfewpassengersinside,becauseonwarmdayspeoplepreferredtheoutsideortheplatforms.Theyconsistedofstoutwomeninpeculiarcostumes,ofthoseshopkeepers’wivesfromthesuburbs,whomadeupforthedistinguishedlookswhichtheydidnotpossessbyill—assumeddignity;ofmentiredfromoffice—work,withyellowfaces,stoopedshoulders,andwithoneshoulderhigherthantheother,inconsequenceof,theirlonghoursofwritingatadesk.Theiruneasyandmelancholyfacesalsospokeofdomestictroubles,ofconstantwantofmoney,disappointedhopes,fortheyallbelongedtothearmyofpoor,threadbaredevilswhovegetateeconomicallyincheap,plasteredhouseswithatinypieceofneglectedgardenontheoutskirtsofParis,inthemidstofthosefieldswherenightsoilisdeposited.
Ashort,corpulentman,withapuffyface,dressedallinblackandwearingadecorationinhisbuttonhole,wastalkingtoatall,thinman,dressedinadirty,whitelinensuit,thecoatallunbuttoned,withawhitePanamahatonhishead.Theformerspokesoslowlyandhesitatinglythatitoccasionallyalmostseemedasifhestammered;hewasMonsieurCaravan,chiefclerkintheAdmiralty.Theother,whohadformerlybeensurgeononboardamerchantship,hadsetupinpracticeinCourbevoie,whereheappliedthevagueremnantsofmedicalknowledgewhichhehadretainedafteranadventurouslife,tothewretchedpopulationofthatdistrict.HisnamewasChenet,andstrangerumorswerecurrentastohismorality.
MonsieurCaravanhadalwaysledthenormallifeofamaninaGovernmentoffice.Forthelastthirtyyearshehadinvariablygonethesamewaytohisofficeeverymorning,andhadmetthesamemengoingtobusinessatthesametime,andnearlyonthesamespot,andhereturnedhomeeveryeveningbythesameroad,andagainmetthesamefaceswhichhehadseengrowingold.Everymorning,afterbuyinghispennypaperatthecorneroftheFaubourgSaintHonore,heboughttworolls,andthenwenttohisoffice,likeaculpritwhoisgivinghimselfuptojustice,andgottohisdeskasquicklyaspossible,alwaysfeelinguneasy;asthoughhewereexpectingarebukeforsomeneglectofdutyofwhichhemighthavebeenguilty.
Nothinghadeveroccurredtochangethemonotonousorderofhisexistence,fornoeventaffectedhimexcepttheworkofhisoffice,perquisites,gratuities,andpromotion.Heneverspokeofanythingbutofhisduties,eitherattheoffice,orathome——hehadmarriedtheportionlessdaughterofoneofhiscolleagues.Hismind,whichwasinastateofatrophyfromhisdepressingdailywork,hadnootherthoughts,hopesordreamsthansuchasrelatedtotheoffice,andtherewasaconstantsourceofbitternessthatspoilteverypleasurethathemighthavehad,andthatwastheemploymentofsomanynavalofficials,tinsmiths,astheywerecalledbecauseoftheirsilver—laceasfirst—
classclerks;andeveryeveningatdinnerhediscussedthematterhotlywithhiswife,whosharedhisangryfeelings,andprovedtotheirownsatisfactionthatitwasineverywayunjusttogiveplacesinParistomenwhooughtproperlytohavebeenemployedinthenavy.
Hewasoldnow,andhadscarcelynoticedhowhislifewaspassing,forschoolhadmerelybeenexchangedfortheofficewithoutanyintermediatetransition,andtheushers,atwhomhehadformerlytrembled,werereplacedbyhischiefs,ofwhomhewasterriblyafraid.Whenhehadtogointotheroomsoftheseofficialdespots,itmadehimtremblefromheadtofoot,andthatconstantfearhadgivenhimaveryawkwardmannerintheirpresence,ahumbledemeanor,andakindofnervousstammering.
HeknewnothingmoreaboutParisthanablindmanmightknowwhowasledtothesamespotbyhisdogeveryday;andifhereadtheaccountofanyuncommoneventsorscandalsinhispennypaper,theyappearedtohimlikefantastictales,whichsomepressmanhadmadeupoutofhisownhead,inordertoamusetheinferioremployees.Hedidnotreadthepoliticalnews,whichhispaperfrequentlyalteredasthecausewhichsubsidizeditmightrequire,forhewasnotfondofinnovations,andwhenhewentthroughtheAvenueoftheChamps—Elyseeseveryevening,helookedatthesurgingcrowdofpedestrians,andatthestreamofcarriages,asatravellermightwhohaslosthiswayinastrangecountry.
Ashehadcompletedhisthirtyyearsofobligatoryservicethatyear,onthefirstofJanuary,hehadhadthecrossoftheLegionofHonorbestoweduponhim,which,inthesemi—militarypublicoffices,isarecompenseforthemiserableslavery——theofficialphraseis,loyalservices——ofunfortunateconvictswhoarerivetedtotheirdesk.Thatunexpecteddignitygavehimahighandnewideaofhisowncapacities,andaltogetherchangedhim.Heimmediatelyleftoffwearinglighttrousersandfancywaistcoats,andworeblacktrousersandlongcoats,onwhichhisribbon,whichwasverybroad,showedoffbetter.Hegotshavedeverymorning,manicuredhisnailsmorecarefully,changedhislineneverytwodays,fromalegitimatesenseofwhatwasproper,andoutofrespectforthenationalOrder,ofwhichheformedapart,andfromthatdayhewasanotherCaravan,scrupulouslyclean,majesticandcondescending.
Athome,hesaid,\"mycross,\"ateverymoment,andhehadbecomesoproudofit,thathecouldnotbeartoseemenwearinganyotherribbonintheirbutton—holes.Hebecameespeciallyangryonseeingstrangeorders:
\"WhichnobodyoughttobeallowedtowearinFrance,\"andheboreChenetaparticulargrudge,ashemethimonatram—careveryevening,wearingadecorationofonekindoranother,white,blue,orange,orgreen.
Theconversationofthetwomen,fromtheArcdeTriomphetoNeuilly,wasalwaysthesame,andonthatdaytheydiscussed,firstofall,variouslocalabuseswhichdisgustedthemboth,andtheMayorofNeuillyreceivedhisfullshareoftheircensure.Then,asinvariablyhappensinthecompanyofmedicalmanCaravanbegantoenlargeonthechapterofillness,asinthatmanner,hehopedtoobtainalittlegratuitousadvice,ifhewascarefulnottoshowhishand.Hismotherhadbeencausinghimnolittleanxietyforsometime;shehadfrequentandprolongedfaintingfits,and,althoughshewasninety,shewouldnottakecareofherself.
Caravangrewquitetender—heartedwhenhementionedhergreatage,andmorethanonceaskedDoctorChenet,emphasizingtheworddoctor——althoughhewasnotfullyqualified,beingonlyanOffcierdeSante——whetherhehadoftenmetanyoneasoldasthat.Andherubbedhishandswithpleasure;not,perhaps,thathecaredverymuchaboutseeingthegoodwomanlastforeverhereonearth,butbecausethelongdurationofhismother’slifewas,asitwereanearnestofoldageforhimself,andhecontinued:
\"Inmyfamily,welastlong,andIamsurethat,unlessImeetwithanaccident,IshallnotdieuntilIamveryold.\"
Thedoctorlookedathimwithpity,andglancedforamomentathisneighbor’sredface,hisshort,thickneck,his\"corporation,\"asChenetcalledittohimself,histwofat,flabbylegs,andtheapoplecticrotundityoftheoldofficial;andraisingthewhitePanamahatfromhishead,hesaidwithasnigger:
\"Iamnotsosureofthat,oldfellow;yourmotherisastoughasnails,andIshouldsaythatyourlifeisnotaverygoodone.\"
ThisratherupsetCaravan,whodidnotspeakagainuntilthetramputthemdownattheirdestination,wherethetwofriendsgotout,andChenetaskedhisfriendtohaveaglassofvermouthattheCafeduGlobe,opposite,whichbothofthemwereinthehabitoffrequenting.Theproprietor,whowasafriendoftheirs,heldouttothemtwofingers,whichtheyshookacrossthebottlesofthecounter;andthentheyjoinedthreeoftheirfriends,whowereplayingdominoes,andwhohadbeentheresincemidday.Theyexchangedcordialgreetings,withtheusualquestion:
\"Anythingnew?\"Andthenthethreeplayerscontinuedtheirgame,andheldouttheirhandswithoutlookingup,whentheotherswishedthem\"Good—night,\"andthentheybothwenthometodinner.
Caravanlivedinasmalltwo—storyhouseinCourbevaie,nearwheretheroadsmeet;thegroundfloorwasoccupiedbyahair—dresser.Twobedrooms,adining—roomandakitchen,formedthewholeoftheirapartments,andMadameCaravanspentnearlyherwholetimeincleaningthemup,whileherdaughter,Marie—Louise,whowastwelve,andherson,Phillip—Auguste,wererunningaboutwithallthelittle,dirty,mischievousbratsoftheneighborhood,andplayinginthegutter.
Caravanhadinstalledhismother,whoseavaricewasnotoriousintheneighborhood,andwhowasterriblythin,intheroomabovethem.Shewasalwayscross,andsheneverpassedadaywithoutquarrelingandflyingintofurioustempers.Shewouldapostrophizetheneighbors,whowerestandingattheirowndoors,thecoster—mongers,thestreet—sweepers,andthestreet—boys,inthemostviolentlanguage;andthelatter,tohavetheirrevenge,usedtofollowheratadistancewhenshewentout,andcalloutrudethingsafterher.
AlittleservantfromNormandy,whowasincrediblygiddyandthoughtless,performedthehouseholdwork,andsleptonthesecondfloorinthesameroomastheoldwoman,forfearofanythinghappeningtoherinthenight.
WhenCaravangotin,hiswife,whosufferedfromachronicpassionforcleaning,waspolishingupthemahoganychairsthatwerescatteredabouttheroomwithapieceofflannel.Shealwaysworecottongloves,andadornedherheadwithacapornamentedwithmanycoloredribbons,whichwasalwaystiltedoveroneear;andwheneveranyonecaughtherpolishing,sweeping,orwashing,sheusedtosay:
\"Iamnotrich;everythingisverysimpleinmyhouse,butcleanlinessismyluxury,andthatisworthquiteasmuchasanyother.\"
Asshewasgiftedwithsound,obstinate,practicalcommonsense,sheledherhusbandineverything.Everyeveningduringdinner,andafterwardswhentheywereintheirroom,theytalkedoverthebusinessoftheofficeforalongtime,andalthoughshewastwentyyearsyoungerthanhewas,heconfidedeverythingtoherasifshetookthelead,andfollowedheradviceineverymatter.
Shehadneverbeenpretty,andnowshehadgrownugly;inadditiontothat,shewasshortandthin,whilehercarelessandtastelesswayofdressingherselfconcealedherfewsmallfeminineattractions,whichmighthavebeenbroughtoutifshehadpossessedanytasteindress.
Herskirtswerealwaysawry,andshefrequentlyscratchedherself,nomatteronwhatpartofherperson,totallyindifferentastowhomightseeher,andsopersistently,thatanyonewhosawhermightthinkthatshewassufferingfromsomethingliketheitch.Theonlyadornmentsthatsheallowedherselfweresilkribbons,whichshehadingreatprofusion,andofvariouscolorsmixedtogether,inthepretentiouscapswhichsheworeathome.
Assoonasshesawherhusbandsheroseandsaid,asshekissedhiswhiskers:
\"DidyourememberPotin,mydear?\"
Hefellintoachair,inconsternation,forthatwasthefourthtimeonwhichhehadforgottenacommissionthathehadpromisedtodoforher.
\"Itisafatality,\"hesaid;\"itisnogoodformetothinkofitalldaylong,forIamsuretoforgetitintheevening.\"
Butasheseemedreallysoverysorry,shemerelysaid,quietly:
\"Youwillthinkofitto—morrow,Idaresay.Anythingnewattheoffice?\"
\"Yes,agreatpieceofnews;anothertinsmithhasbeenappointedsecondchiefclerk.\"Shebecameveryserious,andsaid:
\"SohesucceedsRamon;thiswastheverypostthatIwantedyoutohave.
AndwhataboutRamon?\"
\"Heretiresonhispension.\"
Shebecamefurious,hercapsliddownonhershoulder,andshecontinued:
\"Thereisnothingmoretobedoneinthatshopnow.Andwhatisthenameofthenewcommissioner?\"
\"Bonassot.\"
ShetookuptheNavalYearBook,whichshealwayskeptcloseathand,andlookedhimup.
\"’Bonassot—Toulon.Bornin1851.StudentCommissionerin1871.Sub—
Commissionerin1875.’Hashebeentosea?\"shecontinued.AtthatquestionCaravan’slooksclearedup,andhelaugheduntilhissidesshook.
\"AsmuchasBalin——asmuchasBaffin,hischief.\"Andheaddedanoldofficejoke,andlaughedmorethanever:
\"ItwouldnotevendotosendthembywatertoinspectthePoint—du—Jour,fortheywouldbesickonthepennysteamboatsontheSeine.\"
Butsheremainedasseriousasifshehadnotheardhim,andthenshesaidinalowvoice,asshescratchedherchin:
\"IfweonlyhadaDeputytofallbackupon.WhentheChamberhearseverythingthatisgoingonattheAdmiralty,theMinisterwillbeturnedout————,Shewasinterruptedbyaterriblenoiseonthestairs.Marie—LouiseandPhilippe—Auguste,whohadjustcomeinfromthegutter,wereslappingeachotherallthewayupstairs.Theirmotherrushedatthemfuriously,andtakingeachofthembyanarmshedraggedthemintotheroom,shakingthemvigorously;butassoonastheysawtheirfather,theyrusheduptohim,andhekissedthemaffectionately,andtakingoneofthemoneachknee,begantotalktothem.
Philippe—Augustewasanugly,ill—kemptlittlebrat,dirtyfromheadtofoot,withthefaceofanidiot,andMarie—Louisewasalreadylikehermother——spokelikeher,repeatedherwords,andevenimitatedhermovements.Shealsoaskedhimwhethertherewasanythingfreshattheoffice,andherepliedmerrily:
\"Yourfriend,Ramon,whocomesanddineshereeverySunday,isgoingtoleaveus,littleone.Thereisanewsecondhead—clerk.\"
Shelookedatherfather,andwithaprecociouschild’spity,shesaid:
\"Anothermanhasbeenputoveryourheadagain.\"
Hestoppedlaughing,anddidnotreply,andinordertocreateadiversion,hesaid,addressinghiswife,whowascleaningthewindows:
\"Howismamma,upstairs?\"
MadameCaravanleftoffrubbing,turnedround.pulledhercapup,asithadfallenquiteontoherback,andsaidwithtremblinglips:
\"Ah!yes;letustalkaboutyourmother,forshehasmadeaprettyscene.Justimagine:ashorttimeagoMadameLebaudin,thehairdresser’swife,cameupstairstoborrowapacketofstarchofme,and,asIwasnotathome,yourmotherchasedheroutasthoughshewereabeggar;butI
gaveittotheoldwoman.Shepretendednottohear,asshealwaysdoeswhenonetellsherunpleasanttruths,butsheisnomoredeafthanIam,asyouknow.Itisallasham,andtheproofofitis,thatshewentuptoherownroomimmediately,withoutsayingaword.\"
Caravan,embarrassed,didnotutteraword,andatthatmomentthelittleservantcameintoannouncedinner.Inordertolethismotherknow,hetookabroom—handle,whichalwaysstoodinacorner,andrappedloudlyontheceilingthreetimes,andthentheywentintothedining—room.MadameCaravan,junior,helpedthesoup,andwaitedfortheoldwoman,butshedidnotcome,andasthesoupwasgettingcold,theybegantoeatslowly,andwhentheirplateswereempty,theywaitedagain,andMadameCaravan,whowasfurious,attackedherhusband:
\"Shedoesitonpurpose,youknowthataswellasIdo.Butyoualwaysupholdher.\"
Notknowingwhichsidetotake,hesentMarie—Louisetofetchhergrandmother,andhesatmotionless,withhiseyescastdown,whilehiswifetappedherglassangrilywithherknife.Inaboutaminute,thedoorflewopensuddenly,andthechildcameinagain,outofbreathandverypale,andsaidhurriedly:
\"Grandmammahasfallenonthefloor.\"
Caravanjumpedup,threwhistable—napkindown,andrushedupstairs,whilehiswife,whothoughtitwassometrickofhermother—in—law’s,followedmoreslowly,shrugginghershoulders,asiftoexpressherdoubt.Whentheygotupstairs,however,theyfoundtheoldwomanlyingatfulllengthinthemiddleoftheroom;andwhentheyturnedherover,theysawthatshewasinsensibleandmotionless,whileherskinlookedmorewrinkledandyellowthanusual,hereyeswereclosed,herteethclenched,andherthinbodywasstiff.
Caravankneltdownbyher,andbegantomoan.
\"Mypoormother!mypoormother!\"hesaid.ButtheotherMadameCaravansaid:
\"Bah!Shehasonlyfaintedagain,thatisall,andshehasdoneittopreventusfromdiningcomfortably,youmaybesureofthat.\"
Theyputheronthebed,undressedhercompletely,andCaravan,hiswife,andtheservantbegantorubher;but,inspiteoftheirefforts,shedidnotrecoverconsciousness,sotheysentRosalie,theservant,tofetchDoctorChenet.Helivedalongwayoff,onthequay,goingtowardsSuresnes,andsoitwasaconsiderabletimebeforehearrived.Hecameatlast,however,and,afterhavinglookedattheoldwoman,feltherpulse,andlistenedforaheartbeat,hesaid:\"Itisallover.\"
Caravanthrewhimselfonthebody,sobbingviolently;hekissedhismother’srigidface,andweptsothatgreattearsfellonthedeadwoman’sfacelikedropsofwater,and,naturally,MadameCaravan,junior,showedadecorousamountofgrief,andutteredfeeblemoansasshestoodbehindherhusband,whilesherubbedhereyesvigorously.
But,suddenly,Caravanraisedhimselfup,withhisthinhairindisorder,and,lookingveryuglyinhisgrief,said:
\"But——areyousure,doctor?Areyouquitesure?\"
Thedoctorstoopedoverthebody,and,handlingitwithprofessionaldexterity,asashopkeepermightdo,whenshowingoffhisgoods,hesaid:
\"See,mydearfriend,lookathereye.\"
Heraisedtheeyelid,andtheoldwoman’seyeappearedaltogetherunaltered,unless,perhaps,thepupilwasratherlarger,andCaravanfeltasevereshockatthesight.ThenMonsieurChenettookherthinarm,forcedthefingersopen,andsaid,angrily,asifhehadbeencontradicted:
\"Justlookatherhand;Inevermakeamistake,youmaybequitesureofthat.\"
Caravanfellonthebed,andalmostbellowed,whilehiswife,stillwhimpering,didwhatwasnecessary.
Shebroughtthenight—table,onwhichshespreadatowelandplacedfourwaxcandlesonit,whichshelighted;thenshetookasprigofbox,whichwashangingoverthechimneyglass,andputitbetweenthefourcandles,inaplate,whichshefilledwithcleanwater,asshehadnoholywater.
But,afteramoment’srapidreflection,shethrewapinchofsaltintothewater,nodoubtthinkingshewasperformingsomesortofactofconsecrationbydoingthat,andwhenshehadfinished,sheremainedstandingmotionless,andthedoctor,whohadbeenhelpingher,whisperedtoher:
\"WemusttakeCaravanaway.\"
Shenoddedassent,and,goinguptoherhusband,whowasstillonhisknees,sobbing,sheraisedhimupbyonearm,whileChenettookhimbytheother.
Theyputhimintoachair,andhiswifekissedhisforehead,andthenbegantolecturehim.Chenetenforcedherwordsandpreachedfirmness,courage,andresignation——theverythingswhicharealwayswantinginsuchoverwhelmingmisfortunes——andthenbothofthemtookhimbythearmsagainandledhimout.
Hewascryinglikeagreatchild,withconvulsivesobs;hisarmshangingdown,andhislegsweak,andhewentdownstairswithoutknowingwhathewasdoing,andmovinghisfeetmechanically.Theyputhimintothechairwhichhealwaysoccupiedatdinner,infrontofhisemptysoupplate.
Andtherehesat,withoutmoving,hiseyesfixedonhisglass,andsostupefiedwithgrief,thathecouldnoteventhink.
Inacorner,MadameCaravanwastalkingwiththedoctorandaskingwhatthenecessaryformalitieswere,asshewantedtoobtainpracticalinformation.Atlast,MonsieurChenet,whoappearedtobewaitingforsomething,tookuphishatandpreparedtogo,sayingthathehadnotdinedyet;whereuponsheexclaimed:
\"What!youhavenotdined?Why,stayhere,doctor;don’tgo.Youshallhavewhateverwehave,for,ofcourse,youunderstandthatwedonotfaresumptuously.\"Hemadeexcusesandrefused,butshepersisted,andsaid:
\"Youreallymuststay;attimeslikethis,peopleliketohavefriendsnearthem,and,besidesthat,perhapsyouwillbeabletopersuademyhusbandtotakesomenourishment;hemustkeepuphisstrength.\"
Thedoctorbowed,and,puttingdownhishat,hesaid:
\"Inthatcase,Iwillacceptyourinvitation,madame.\"
ShegaveRosalie,whoseemedtohavelostherhead,someorders,andthensatdown,\"topretendtoeat,\"asshesaid,\"tokeepthedoctorcompany.\"
Thesoupwasbroughtinagain,andMonsieurChenettooktwohelpings.
Thentherecameadishoftripe,whichexhaledasmellofonions,andwhichMadameCaravanmadeuphermindtotaste.
\"Itisexcellent,\"thedoctorsaid,atwhichshesmiled,and,turningtoherhusband,shesaid:
\"Dotakealittle,mypoorAlfred,onlyjusttoputsomethinginyourstomach.Rememberthatyouhavegottopassthenightwatchingbyher!\"
Heheldouthisplate,docilely,justashewouldhavegonetobed,ifhehadbeentoldto,obeyingherineverything,withoutresistanceandwithoutreflection,andheate;thedoctorhelpedhimselfthreetimes,whileMadameCaravan,fromtimetotime,fishedoutalargepieceattheendofherfork,andswalloweditwithasortofstudiedindifference.
Whenasaladbowlfullofmacaroniwasbroughtin,thedoctorsaid:
\"ByJove!ThatiswhatIamveryfondof.\"Andthistime,MadameCaravanhelpedeverybody.Sheevenfilledthesaucersthatwerebeingscrapedbythechildren,who,beinglefttothemselves,hadbeendrinkingwinewithoutanywater,andwerenowkickingeachotherunderthetable.
ChenetrememberedthatRossini,thecomposer,hadbeenveryfondofthatItaliandish,andsuddenlyheexclaimed:
\"Why!thatrhymes,andonecouldbeginsomelineslikethis:
TheMaestroRossiniWasfondofmacaroni.\"
Nobodylistenedtohim,however.MadameCaravan,whohadsuddenlygrownthoughtful,wasthinkingofalltheprobableconsequencesoftheevent,whileherhusbandmadebreadpellets,whichheputonthetable—cloth,andlookedatwithafixed,idioticstare.Ashewasdevouredbythirst,hewascontinuallyraisinghisglassfullofwinetohislips,andtheconsequencewasthathismind,whichhadbeenupsetbytheshockandgrief,seemedtobecomevague,andhisideasdancedaboutasdigestioncommenced.
Thedoctor,who,meanwhile,hadbeendrinkingawaysteadily,wasgettingvisiblydrunk,andMadameCaravanherselffeltthereactionwhichfollowsallnervousshocks,andwasagitatedandexcited,and,althoughshehaddrunknothingbutwater,herheadfeltratherconfused.
Presently,Chenetbegantorelatestoriesofdeaththatappearedcomicaltohim.ForinthatsuburbofParis,thatisfullofpeoplefromtheprovinces,onefindsthatindifferencetowardsdeathwhichallpeasantsshow,wereiteventheirownfatherormother;thatwantofrespect,thatunconsciousbrutalitywhichissocommoninthecountry,andsorareinParis,andhesaid:
\"Why,IwassentforlastweektotheRueduPuteaux,andwhenIwent,I
foundthepatientdeadandthewholefamilycalmlysittingbesidethebedfinishingabottleofaniseedcordial,whichhadbeenboughtthenightbeforetosatisfythedyingman’sfancy.\"
ButMadameCaravanwasnotlistening;shewascontinuallythinkingoftheinheritance,andCaravanwasincapableofunderstandinganythingfurther.
Coffeewaspresentlyserved,andithadbeenmadeverystrongtogivethemcourage.Aseverycupwaswellflavoredwithcognac,itmadealltheirfacesred,andconfusedtheirideasstillmore.Tomakemattersstillworse,Chenetsuddenlyseizedthebrandybottleandpouredout\"adropforeachofthemjusttowashtheirmouthsoutwith,\"ashetermedit,andthen,withoutspeakinganymore,overcomeinspiteofthemselves,bythatfeelingofanimalcomfortwhichalcoholaffordsafterdinner,theyslowlysippedthesweetcognac,whichformedayellowishsyrupatthebottomoftheircups.
Thechildrenhadfallenasleep,andRosaliecarriedthemofftobed.
Caravan,mechanicallyobeyingthatwishtoforgetoneselfwhichpossessesallunhappypersons,helpedhimselftobrandyagainseveraltimes,andhisdulleyesgrewbright.Atlastthedoctorrosetogo,andseizinghisfriend’sarm,hesaid:
\"Comewithme;alittlefreshairwilldoyougood.Whenoneisintrouble,onemustnotremaininonespot.\"
Theotherobeyedmechanically,putonhishat,tookhisstick,andwentout,andbothofthemwalkedarm—in—armtowardstheSeine,inthestarlightnight.
Theairwaswarmandsweet,forallthegardensintheneighborhoodwerefullofflowersatthisseasonoftheyear,andtheirfragrance,whichisscarcelyperceptibleduringtheday,seemedtoawakenattheapproachofnight,andmingledwiththelightbreezeswhichblewupontheminthedarkness.
Thebroadavenuewithitstworowsofgaslamps,thatextendedasfarastheArcdeTriomphe,wasdesertedandsilent,buttherewasthedistantroarofParis,whichseemedtohaveareddishvaporhangingoverit.
Itwasakindofcontinualrumbling,whichwasattimesansweredbythewhistleofatraininthedistance,travellingatfullspeedtotheocean,throughtheprovinces.
Thefreshaironthefacesofthetwomenratherovercamethematfirst,madethedoctorlosehisequilibriumalittle,andincreasedCaravan’sgiddiness,fromwhichhehadsufferedsincedinner.Hewalkedasifhewereinadream;histhoughtswereparalyzed,althoughhefeltnogreatgrief,forhewasinastateofmentaltorporthatpreventedhimfromsuffering,andheevenfeltasenseofreliefwhichwasincreasedbythemildnessofthenight.