Judethendroppedbehind，waitedafewminutestorecoverbreath，andwenthomewithaconsciousnessofhavingstruckablowforChristminster。
Throughtheinterveningfortnightheranaboutandsmiledoutwardlyathisinwardthoughts，asiftheywerepeoplemeetingandnoddingtohim-smiledwiththatsingularlybeautifulirradiationwhichisseentospreadonyoungfacesattheinceptionofsomegloriousidea，asifasupernaturallampwereheldinsidetheirtransparentnatures，givingrisetotheflatteringfancythatheavenliesaboutthemthen。
Hehonestlyperformedhispromisetothemanofmanycures，inwhomhenowsincerelybelieved，walkingmileshitherandthitheramongthesurroundinghamletsasthePhysician’sagentinadvance。Ontheeveningappointedhestoodmotionlessontheplateau，attheplacewherehehadpartedfromVilbert，andthereawaitedhisapproach。Theroad-physicianwasfairlyuptotime；but，tothesurpriseofJudeonstrikingintohispace，whichthepedestriandidnotdiminishbyasingleunitofforce，thelatterseemedhardlytorecognizehisyoungcompanion，thoughwiththelapseofthefortnighttheeveningshadgrownlight。Judethoughtitmightperhapsbeowingtohiswearinganotherhat，andhesalutedthephysicianwithdignity。
`Well，myboy？’saidthelatterabstractedly。
`I’vecome，’saidJude。
`You？whoareyou？Ohyes-tobesure！Gotanyorders，lad？’
`Yes。’AndJudetoldhimthenamesandaddressesofthecottagerswhowerewillingtotestthevirtuesoftheworld-renownedpillsandsalve。
Thequackmentallyregisteredthesewithgreatcare。
`AndtheLatinandGreekgrammars？’Jude’svoicetrembledwithanxiety。
`Whataboutthem？’
`Youweretobringmeyours，thatyouusedbeforeyoutookyourdegree。’
`Ah，yes，yes！Forgotallaboutit-all！Somanylivesdependingonmyattention，yousee，myman，thatIcan’tgivesomuchthoughtasIwouldliketootherthings。’
Judecontrolledhimselfsufficientlylongtomakesureofthetruth；andherepeated，inavoiceofdrymisery，`Youhaven’tbrought’em！’
`No。Butyoumustgetmesomemoreordersfromsickpeople，andI’llbringthegrammarsnexttime。’
Judedroppedbehind。Hewasanunsophisticatedboy，butthegiftofsuddeninsightwhichissometimesvouchsafedtochildrenshowedhimallatoncewhatshoddyhumanitythequackwasmadeof。Therewastobenointellectuallightfromthissource。Theleavesdroppedfromhisimaginarycrownoflaurel；heturnedtoagate，leantagainstit，andcriedbitterly。
Thedisappointmentwasfollowedbyanintervalofblankness。Hemight，perhaps，haveobtainedgrammarsfromAlfredston，buttodothatrequiredmoney，andaknowledgeofwhatbookstoorder；andthoughphysicallycomfortable，hewasinsuchabsolutedependenceastobewithoutafarthingofhisown。
AtthisdateMr。Phillotsonsentforhispianoforte，anditgaveJudealead。Whyshouldhenotwritetotheschoolmaster，andaskhimtobesokindastogethimthegrammarsinChristminster？Hemightslipaletterinsidethecaseoftheinstrument，anditwouldbesuretoreachthedesiredeyes。Whynotaskhimtosendanyoldsecond-handcopies，whichwouldhavethecharmofbeingmellowedbytheuniversityatmosphere？
Totellhisauntofhisintentionwouldbetodefeatit。Itwasnecessarytoactalone。
Afterafurtherconsiderationofafewdayshedidact，andonthedayofthepiano’sdeparture，whichhappenedtobehisnextbirthday，clandestinelyplacedtheletterinsidethepacking-case，directedtohismuch-admiredfriend，beingafraidtorevealtheoperationtohisauntDrusilla，lestsheshoulddiscoverhismotive，andcompelhimtoabandonhisscheme。
Thepianowasdespatched，andJudewaiteddaysandweeks，callingeverymorningatthecottagepostofficebeforehisgreat-auntwasstirring。
Atlastapacketdidindeedarriveatthevillage，andhesawfromtheendsofitthatitcontainedtwothinbooks。Hetookitawayintoalonelyplace，andsatdownonafelledelmtoopenit。
EversincehisfirstecstasyorvisionofChristminsteranditspossibilities，Judehadmeditatedmuchandcuriouslyontheprobablesortofprocessthatwasinvolvedinturningtheexpressionsofonelanguageintothoseofanother。Heconcludedthatagrammaroftherequiredtonguewouldcontain，primarily，arule，prescription，orclueofthenatureofasecretcipher，which，onceknown，wouldenablehim，bymerelyapplyingit，tochangeatwillallwordsofhisownspeechintothoseoftheforeignone。Hischildishideawas，infact，apushingtotheextremityofmathematicalprecisionwhatiseverywhereknownasGrimm’sLaw-anaggrandizementofroughrulestoidealcompleteness。Thusheassumedthatthewordsoftherequiredlanguagewerealwaystobefoundsomewherelatentinthewordsofthegivenlanguagebythosewhohadthearttouncoverthem，suchartbeingfurnishedbythebooksaforesaid。
When，therefore，havingnotedthatthepacketborethepostmarkofChristminster，hecutthestring，openedthevolumes，andturnedtotheLatingrammar，whichchancedtocomeuppermost，hecouldscarcelybelievehiseyes。
Thebookwasanoldone-thirtyyearsold，soiled，scribbledwantonlyoverwithastrangenameineveryvarietyofenmitytotheletterpress，andmarkedatrandomwithdatestwentyyearsearlierthanhisownday。
ButthiswasnotthecauseofJude’samazement。Helearntforthefirsttimethattherewasnolawoftransmutation，asinhisinnocencehehadsupposedtherewas，insomedegree，butthegrammariandidnotrecognizeit，butthateverywordinbothLatinandGreekwastobeindividuallycommittedtomemoryatthecostofyearsofplodding。
Judeflungdownthebooks，laybackwardalongthebroadtrunkoftheelm，andwasanutterlymiserableboyforthespaceofaquarterofanhour。Ashehadoftendonebefore，hepulledhishatoverhisfaceandwatchedthesunpeeringinsidiouslyathimthroughtheintersticesofthestraw。ThiswasLatinandGreek，then，wasitthisgranddelusion！
ThecharmhehadsupposedinstoreforhimwasreallyalabourlikethatofIsraelinEgypt。
WhatbrainstheymusthaveinChristminsterandthegreatschools，hepresentlythought，tolearnwordsonebyoneuptotensofthousands！
Therewerenobrainsinhisheadequaltothisbusiness；andasthelittlesun-rayscontinuedtostreaminthroughhishatathim，hewishedhehadneverseenabook，thathemightneverseeanother，thathehadneverbeenborn。
Somebodymighthavecomealongthatwaywhowouldhaveaskedhimhistrouble，andmighthavecheeredhimbysayingthathisnotionswerefurtheradvancedthanthoseofhisgrammarian。Butnobodydidcome，becausenobodydoes；andunderthecrushingrecognitionofhisgiganticerrorJudecontinuedtowishhimselfoutoftheworld。
JudetheObscureChapter05I-vDuringthethreeorfoursucceedingyearsaquaintandsingularvehiclemighthavebeendiscernedmovingalongthelanesandby-roadsnearMarygreen，driveninaquaintandsingularway。
InthecourseofamonthortwoafterthereceiptofthebooksJudehadgrowncalloustotheshabbytrickplayedhimbythedeadlanguages。
Infact，hisdisappointmentatthenatureofthosetongueshad，afterawhile，beenthemeansofstillfurtherglorifyingtheeruditionofChristminster。
Toacquirelanguages，departedorlivinginspiteofsuchobstinaciesashenowknewtheminherentlytopossess，wasaherculeanperformancewhichgraduallyledhimontoagreaterinterestinitthaninthepresupposedpatentprocess。Themountain-weightofmaterialunderwhichtheideaslayinthosedustyvolumescalledtheclassicspiquedhimintoadogged，mouselikesubtletyofattempttomoveitpiecemeal。
Hehadendeavouredtomakehispresencetolerabletohiscrustymaidenauntbyassistinghertothebestofhisability，andthebusinessofthelittlecottagebakeryhadgrowninconsequence。Anagedhorsewithahangingheadhadbeenpurchasedforeightpoundsatasale，acreakingcartwithawhity-browntiltobtainedforafewpoundsmore，andinthisturn-outitbecameJude’sbusinessthriceaweektocarryloavesofbreadtothevillagersandsolitarycottersimmediatelyroundMarygreen。
Thesingularityaforesaidlay，afterall，lessintheconveyanceitselfthaninJude’smannerofconductingitalongitsroute。ItsinteriorwasthesceneofmostofJude’seducationby`privatestudy。’Assoonasthehorsehadlearnttheroadandthehousesatwhichhewastopauseawhile，theboy，seatedinfront，wouldslipthereinsoverhisarm，ingeniouslyfixopen，bymeansofastrapattachedtothetilt，thevolumehewasreading，spreadthedictionaryonhisknees，andplungeintothesimplerpassagesfromCaesar，Virgil，orHorace，asthecasemightbe，inhispurblindstumblingway，andwithanexpenditureoflabourthatwouldhavemadeatender-heartedpedagogueshedtears；yetsomehowgettingatthemeaningofwhatheread，anddiviningratherthanbeholdingthespiritoftheoriginal，whichoftentohismindwassomethingelsethanthatwhichhewastaughttolookfor。
TheonlycopieshehadbeenabletolayhandsonwereoldDelphineditions，becausetheyweresuperseded，andthereforecheap。But，badforidleschoolboys，itdidsohappenthattheywerepassablygoodforhim。
Thehamperedandlonelyitinerantconscientiouslycoveredupthemarginalreadings，andusedthemmerelyonpointsofconstruction，ashewouldhaveusedacomradeortutorwhoshouldhavehappenedtobepassingby。AndthoughJudemayhavehadlittlechanceofbecomingascholarbytheseroughandreadymeans，hewasinthewayofgettingintothegroovehewishedtofollow。
Whilehewasbusiedwiththeseancientpages，whichhadalreadybeenthumbedbyhandspossiblyinthegrave，diggingoutthethoughtsofthesemindssoremoteyetsonear，thebonyoldhorsepursuedhisrounds，andJudewouldbearousedfromthewoesofDidobythestoppageofhiscartandthevoiceofsomeoldwomancrying，`Twoto-day，baker，andI
returnthisstaleone。’
Hewasfrequentlymetinthelanesbypedestriansandotherswithouthisseeingthem，andbydegreesthepeopleoftheneighbourhoodbegantotalkabouthismethodofcombiningworkandplaysuchtheyconsideredhisreadingtobe，which，thoughprobablyconvenientenoughtohimself，wasnotaltogetherasafeproceedingforothertravellersalongthesameroads。Thereweremurmurs。Thenaprivateresidentofanadjoiningplaceinformedthelocalpolicemanthatthebaker’sboyshouldnotbeallowedtoreadwhiledriving，andinsistedthatitwastheconstable’sdutytocatchhimintheact，andtakehimtothepolicecourtatAlfredston，andgethimfinedfordangerouspracticesonthehighway。ThepolicemanthereuponlayinwaitforJude，andonedayaccostedhimandcautionedhim。
AsJudehadtogetupatthreeo’clockinthemorningtoheattheoven，andmixandsetinthebreadthathedistributedlaterintheday，hewasobligedtogotobedatnightimmediatelyafterlayingthesponge；sothatifhecouldnotreadhisclassicsonthehighwayshecouldhardlystudyatall。Theonlythingtobedonewas，therefore，tokeepasharpeyeaheadandaroundhimaswellashecouldinthecircumstances，andslipawayhisbooksassoonasanybodyloomedinthedistance，thepolicemaninparticular。Todothatofficialjustice，hedidnotputhimselfmuchinthewayofJude’sbread-cart，consideringthatinsuchalonelydistrictthechiefdangerwastoJudehimself，andoftenonseeingthewhitetiltoverthehedgeshewouldmoveinanotherdirection。
OnadaywhenFawleywasgettingquiteadvanced，beingnowaboutsixteen，andhadbeenstumblingthroughthe`CarmenSaeculare，’onhiswayhome，hefoundhimselftobepassingoverthehighedgeoftheplateaubytheBrownHouse。Thelighthadchanged，anditwasthesenseofthiswhichhadcausedhimtolookup。Thesunwasgoingdown，andthefullmoonwasrisingsimultaneouslybehindthewoodsintheoppositequarter。Hismindhadbecomesoimpregnatedwiththepoemthat，inamomentofthesameimpulsiveemotionwhichyearsbeforehadcausedhimtokneelontheladder，hestoppedthehorse，alighted，andglancingroundtoseethatnobodywasinsight，kneltdownontheroadsidebankwithopenbook。Heturnedfirsttotheshinygoddess，whoseemedtolooksosoftlyandcriticallyathisdoings，thentothedisappearingluminaryontheotherhand，ashebegan：