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  butinvain,fortotteringtowardsachair,shesankintoit,lookingsodeadlypaleandhorror-struckthatIthoughteverymomentshewouldfaint。

  ’MercifulGod,keepusfromharmanddanger!’mutteredsheatlength。

  ’Whatcanhaveterrifiedyouso?’saidI,beginningtofearthatshehadseensomethingmorethanhadmetmyeye。’Youappearill,mypoorwoman!’

  ’Nothing,nothing,mylady,’saidshe,rising。’Ibegyourladyship’spardonformakingsobold。MaythegreatGoddefendusfrommisfortune!’

  ’Martha,’saidI,’somethingHASfrightenedyouverymuch,andIinsistonknowingwhatitis;yourkeepingmeinthedarkuponthesubjectwillmakememuchmoreuneasythananythingyoucouldtellme。I

  desireyou,therefore,toletmeknowwhatagitatesyou;Icommandyoutotellme。’

  ’Yourladyshipsaidyousawablackcurtainfallingacrossthedoorwhenyouwerecomingintotheroom,’saidtheoldwoman。

  ’Idid,’saidI;’butthoughthewholethingappearssomewhatstrange,Icannotseeanythinginthemattertoagitateyousoexcessively。’

  ’It’sfornogoodyousawthat,mylady,’saidthecrone;’somethingterribleiscoming。It’sasign,mylady——asignthatneverfails。’

  ’Explain,explainwhatyoumean,mygoodwoman,’saidI,inspiteofmyself,catchingmorethanIcouldaccountfor,ofhersuperstitiousterror。

  ’Wheneversomething——somethingBADisgoingtohappentotheGlenfallenfamily,someonethatbelongstothemseesablackhandkerchieforcurtainjustwavedorfallingbeforetheirfaces。Isawitmyself,’

  continuedshe,loweringhervoice,’whenI

  wasonlyalittlegirl,andI’llneverforgetit。Ioftenheardofitbefore,thoughI

  neversawittillthen,norsince,praisedbeGod。ButIwasgoingintoLadyJane’sroomtowakenherinthemorning;andsureenoughwhenIgotfirsttothebedandbegantodrawthecurtain,somethingdarkwaswavedacrossthedivision,butonlyforamoment;andwhenIsawrightlyintothebed,therewasshelyingcoldanddead,Godbemercifultome!So,mylady,thereissmallblametometobedauntedwhenanyoneofthefamilyseesit;forit’smany’sthestoryIheardofit,thoughIsawitbutonce。’

  Iwasnotofasuperstitiousturnofmind,yetIcouldnotresistafeelingofaweverynearlyalliedtothefearwhichmycompanionhadsounreservedlyexpressed;andwhenyouconsidermysituation,theloneliness,antiquity,andgloomoftheplace,youwillallowthattheweaknesswasnotwithoutexcuse。

  InspiteofoldMartha’sbodingpredictions,however,timeflowedoninanunruffledcourse。Onelittleincidenthowever,thoughtriflinginitself,Imustrelate,asitservestomakewhatfollowsmoreintelligible。

  Uponthedayaftermyarrival,LordGlenfallenofcoursedesiredtomakemeacquaintedwiththehouseanddomain;andaccordinglywesetforthuponourramble。

  Whenreturning,hebecameforsometimesilentandmoody,astatesounusualwithhimasconsiderablytoexcitemysurprise。

  Iendeavouredbyobservationsandquestionstoarousehim——butinvain。Atlength,asweapproachedthehouse,hesaid,asifspeakingtohimself:

  ’’Tweremadness——madness——madness,’

  repeatingthewordsbitterly——’sureandspeedyruin。’

  Therewasherealongpause;andatlength,turningsharplytowardsme,inatoneveryunlikethatinwhichhehadhithertoaddressedme,hesaid:

  ’Doyouthinkitpossiblethatawomancankeepasecret?’

  ’Iamsure,’saidI,’thatwomenareverymuchbelieduponthescoreoftalkativeness,andthatImayansweryourquestionwiththesamedirectnesswithwhichyouputit——IreplythatIDOthinkawomancankeepasecret。’

  ’ButIdonot,’saidhe,drily。

  Wewalkedoninsilenceforatime。I

  wasmuchastonishedathisunwontedabruptness——Ihadalmostsaidrudeness。

  Afteraconsiderablepauseheseemedtorecollecthimself,andwithaneffortresuminghissprightlymanner,hesaid:

  ’Well,well,thenextthingtokeepingasecretwellis,nottodesiretopossessone——talkativenessandcuriositygenerallygotogether。NowIshallmaketestofyou,inthefirstplace,respectingthelatterofthesequalities。IshallbeyourBLUEBEARD——

  tush,whydoItriflethus?Listentome,mydearFanny;Ispeaknowinsolemnearnest。WhatIdesireisintimately,inseparably,connectedwithyourhappinessandhonouraswellasmyown;andyourcompliancewithmyrequestwillnotbedifficult。Itwillimposeuponyouaverytriflingrestraintduringyoursojournhere,whichcertaineventswhichhaveoccurredsinceourarrivalhavedeterminedmeshallnotbealongone。Youmustpromiseme,uponyoursacredhonour,thatyouwillvisitONLYthatpartofthecastlewhichcanbereachedfromthefrontentrance,leavingthebackentranceandthepartofthebuildingcommandedimmediatelybyittothemenials,asalsothesmallgardenwhosehighwallyouseeyonder;andneveratanytimeseektopryorpeepintothem,nortoopenthedoorwhichcommunicatesfromthefrontpartofthehousethroughthecorridorwiththeback。Idonoturgethisinjestorincaprice,butfromasolemnconvictionthatdangerandmiserywillbethecertainconsequencesofyournotobservingwhatIprescribe。Icannotexplainmyselffurtheratpresent。Promiseme,then,thesethings,asyouhopeforpeacehere,andformercyhereafter。’

  Ididmakethepromiseasdesired,andheappearedrelieved;hismannerrecoveredallitsgaietyandelasticity:buttherecollectionofthestrangescenewhichIhavejustdescribeddweltpainfullyuponmymind。

  Morethanamonthpassedawaywithoutanyoccurrenceworthrecording;butI

  wasnotdestinedtoleaveCahergillaghwithoutfurtheradventure。Oneday,intendingtoenjoythepleasantsunshineinaramblethroughthewoods,Iranuptomyroomtoprocuremybonnetandshawl。

  Uponenteringthechamber,Iwassurprisedandsomewhatstartledtofinditoccupied。

  Besidethefireplace,andnearlyoppositethedoor,seatedinalarge,old-fashionedelbow-chair,wasplacedthefigureofalady。Sheappearedtobenearerfiftythanforty,andwasdressedsuitablytoherage,inahandsomesuitoffloweredsilk;shehadaprofusionoftrinketsandjewelleryaboutherperson,andmanyringsuponherfingers。Butalthoughveryrich,herdresswasnotgaudyorinilltaste。Butwhatwasremarkableintheladywas,thatalthoughherfeatureswerehandsome,anduponthewholepleasing,thepupilofeacheyewasdimmedwiththewhitenessofcataract,andshewasevidentlystone-blind。

  Iwasforsomesecondssosurprisedatthisunaccountableapparition,thatIcouldnotfindwordstoaddressher。

  ’Madam,’saidI,’theremustbesomemistakehere——thisismybed-chamber。’

  ’Marrycomeup,’saidthelady,sharply;

  ’YOURchamber!WhereisLordGlenfallen?’

  ’Heisbelow,madam,’repliedI;’andIamconvincedhewillbenotalittlesurprisedtofindyouhere。’

  ’Idonotthinkhewill,’saidshe;’withyourgoodleave,talkofwhatyouknowsomethingabout。TellhimIwanthim。

  Whydoestheminxdilly-dallyso?’

  Inspiteoftheawewhichthisgrimladyinspired,therewassomethinginherairofconfidentsuperioritywhich,whenI

  consideredourrelativesituations,wasnotalittleirritating。

  ’Doyouknow,madam,towhomyouspeak?’saidI。

  ’Ineitherknownorcare,’saidshe;

  ’butIpresumethatyouaresomeoneaboutthehouse,soagainIdesireyou,ifyouwishtocontinuehere,tobringyourmasterhitherforthwith。’

  ’Imusttellyou,madam,’saidI,’thatIamLadyGlenfallen。’

  ’What’sthat?’saidthestranger,rapidly。

  ’Isay,madam,’Irepeated,approachingherthatImightbemoredistinctlyheard,’thatIamLadyGlenfallen。’

  ’It’salie,youtrull!’criedshe,inanaccentwhichmademestart,andatthesametime,springingforward,sheseizedmeinhergrasp,andshookmeviolently,repeating,’It’salie——it’salie!’witharapidityandvehemencewhichswelledeveryveinofherface。Theviolenceofheraction,andthefurywhichconvulsedherface,effectuallyterrifiedme,anddis-

  engagingmyselffromhergrasp,IscreamedasloudasIcouldforhelp。Theblindwomancontinuedtopouroutatorrentofabuseuponme,foamingatthemouthwithrage,andimpotentlyshakingherclenchedfiststowardsme。

  IheardLordGlenfallen’sstepuponthestairs,andIinstantlyranout;asIpassedhimIperceivedthathewasdeadlypale,andjustcaughtthewords:’Ihopethatdemonhasnothurtyou?’

  Imadesomeanswer,Iforgetwhat,andheenteredthechamber,thedoorofwhichhelockedupontheinside。WhatpassedwithinIknownot;butIheardthevoicesofthetwospeakersraisedinloudandangryaltercation。

  IthoughtIheardtheshrillaccentsofthewomanrepeatthewords,’Letherlooktoherself;’butIcouldnotbequitesure。Thisshortsentence,however,was,tomyalarmedimagination,pregnantwithfearfulmeaning。

  Thestormatlengthsubsided,thoughnotuntilafteraconferenceofmorethantwolonghours。LordGlenfallenthenreturned,paleandagitated。

  ’Thatunfortunatewoman,’saidhe,’isoutofhermind。Idaresayshetreatedyoutosomeofherravings;butyouneednotdreadanyfurtherinterruptionfromher:I

  havebroughthersofartoreason。Shedidnothurtyou,Itrust。’

  ’No,no,’saidI;’butsheterrifiedmebeyondmeasure。’

  ’Well,’saidhe,’sheislikelytobehavebetterforthefuture;andIdareswearthatneitheryounorshewoulddesire,afterwhathaspassed,tomeetagain。’

  Thisoccurrence,sostartlingandun-

  pleasant,soinvolvedinmystery,andgivingrisetosomanypainfulsurmises,affordedmenoveryagreeablefoodforrumination。

  Allattemptsonmyparttoarriveatthetruthwerebaffled;LordGlenfallenevadedallmyinquiries,andatlengthperemptorilyforbidanyfurtherallusiontothematter。

  IwasthusobligedtorestsatisfiedwithwhatIhadactuallyseen,andtotrusttotimetoresolvetheperplexitiesinwhichthewholetransactionhadinvolvedme。

  LordGlenfallen’stemperandspiritsgraduallyunderwentacompleteandmostpainfulchange;hebecamesilentandabstracted,hismannertomewasabruptandoftenharsh,somegrievousanxietyseemedeverpresenttohismind;andunderitsinfluencehisspiritssunkandhistemperbecamesoured。

  Isoonperceivedthathisgaietywasratherthatwhichthestirandexcitementofsocietyproduce,thantheresultofahealthyhabitofmind;everydayconfirmedmeintheopinion,thattheconsiderategood-naturewhichIhadsomuchadmiredinhimwaslittlemorethanameremanner;andtomyinfinitegriefandsurprise,thegay,kind,open-heartednoblemanwhohadformonthsfollowedandflatteredme,wasrapidlyassumingtheformofagloomy,morose,andsingularlyselfishman。

  Thiswasabitterdiscovery,andIstrovetoconcealitfrommyselfaslongasIcould;

  butthetruthwasnottobedenied,andI

  wasforcedtobelievethatLordGlenfallennolongerlovedme,andthathewasatlittlepainstoconcealthealterationinhissentiments。

  Onemorningafterbreakfast,LordGlen-

  fallenhadbeenforsometimewalkingsilentlyupanddowntheroom,buriedinhismoodyreflections,whenpausingsuddenly,andturningtowardsme,heexclaimed:

  ’Ihaveit——Ihaveit!Wemustgoabroad,andstaytheretoo;andifthatdoesnotanswer,why——why,wemusttrysomemoreeffectualexpedient。LadyGlenfallen,I

  havebecomeinvolvedinheavyembarrassments。

  Awife,youknow,mustsharethefortunesofherhusband,forbetterforworse;butIwillwaivemyrightifyoupreferremaininghere——hereatCahergillagh。

  ForIwouldnothaveyouseenelsewherewithoutthestatetowhichyourrankentitlesyou;besides,itwouldbreakyourpoormother’sheart,’headded,withsneeringgravity。’Somakeupyourmind——

  CahergillaghorFrance。Iwillstartifpossibleinaweek,sodeterminebetweenthisandthen。’

  Helefttheroom,andinafewmomentsIsawhimridepastthewindow,followedbyamountedservant。Hehaddirectedadomestictoinformmethatheshouldnotbebackuntilthenextday。

  IwasinverygreatdoubtastowhatcourseofconductIshouldpursue,astoaccompanyinghiminthecontinentaltoursosuddenlydeterminedupon。Ifeltthatitwouldbeahazardtoogreattoencounter;

  foratCahergillaghIhadalwaystheconsciousnesstosustainme,thatifhistemperatanytimeledhimintoviolentorunwarrantabletreatmentofme,Ihadaremedywithinreach,intheprotectionandsupportofmyownfamily,fromallusefulandeffectivecommunicationwithwhom,ifonceinFrance,Ishouldbeentirelydebarred。

  AstoremainingatCahergillaghinsolitude,and,foraughtIknew,exposedtohiddendangers,itappearedtomescarcelylessobjectionablethantheformerproposition;

  andyetIfearedthatwithoneorotherImustcomply,unlessIwaspreparedtocometoanactualbreachwithLordGlenfallen。Fulloftheseunpleasingdoubtsandperplexities,Iretiredtorest。

  Iwaswakened,afterhavingsleptuneasilyforsomehours,bysomepersonshakingmerudelybytheshoulder;asmalllampburnedinmyroom,andbyitslight,tomyhorrorandamazement,Idiscoveredthatmyvisitantwastheself-sameblindoldladywhohadsoterrifiedmeafewweeksbefore。

  Istartedupinthebed,withaviewtoringthebell,andalarmthedomestics;butsheinstantlyanticipatedmebysaying:

  ’Donotbefrightened,sillygirl!IfIhadwishedtoharmyouIcouldhavedoneitwhileyouweresleeping;Ineednothavewakenedyou。Listentome,now,attentivelyandfearlessly,forwhatIhavetosayinterestsyoutothefullasmuchasitdoesme。Tellmehere,inthepresenceofGod,didLordGlenfallenmarryyou——ACTUALLY

  MARRYyou?Speakthetruth,woman。’

  ’AssurelyasIliveandspeak,’I

  replied,’didLordGlenfallenmarryme,inpresenceofmorethanahundredwitnesses。’

  ’Well,’continuedshe,’heshouldhavetoldyouTHEN,beforeyoumarriedhim,thathehadawifeliving,whichwifeIam。I

  feelyoutremble——tush!donotbefrightened。

  Idonotmeantoharmyou。Markmenow——youareNOThiswife。WhenI

  makemystoryknownyouwillbesoneitherintheeyeofGodnorofman。Youmustleavethishouseuponto-morrow。

  Lettheworldknowthatyourhusbandhasanotherwifeliving;goyouintoretirement,andleavehimtojustice,whichwillsurelyovertakehim。Ifyouremaininthishouseafterto-morrowyouwillreapthebitterfruitsofyoursin。’

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