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  ’Well,dear,andwhatfrightensyou?’

  continuedshe。’Areyouafraidofatitle?

  Whathashedonetoalarmyou?heisneitheroldnorugly。’

  Iwassilent,thoughImighthavesaid,’Heisneitheryoungnorhandsome。’

  ’MydearFanny,’continuedmymother,’insoberseriousnessyouhavebeenmostfortunateinengagingtheaffectionsofanoblemansuchasLordGlenfallen,youngandwealthy,withfirst-rate——yes,acknowledgedFIRST-RATEabilities,andofafamilywhoseinfluenceisnotexceededbythatofanyinIreland。OfcourseyouseetheofferinthesamelightthatIdo——indeedIthinkyouMUST。’

  Thiswasutteredinnoverydubioustone。IwassomuchastonishedbythesuddennessofthewholecommunicationthatIliterallydidnotknowwhattosay。

  ’Youarenotinlove?’saidmymother,turningsharply,andfixingherdarkeyesuponmewithseverescrutiny。

  ’No,madam,’saidI,promptly;horrified,aswhatyoungladywouldnothavebeen,atsuchaquery。

  ’I’mgladtohearit,’saidmymother,drily。’Once,nearlytwentyyearsago,afriendofmineconsultedmeastohowheshoulddealwithadaughterwhohadmadewhattheycallalove-match——beggaredherself,anddisgracedherfamily;andIsaid,withouthesitation,takenocareforher,butcastheroff。SuchpunishmentI

  awardedforanoffencecommittedagainstthereputationofafamilynotmyown;

  andwhatIadvisedrespectingthechildofanother,withfullassmallcompunctionIwouldDOwithmine。Icannotconceiveanythingmoreunreasonableorintolerablethanthatthefortuneandthecharacterofafamilyshouldbemarredbytheidlecapricesofagirl。’

  Shespokethiswithgreatseverity,andpausedasifsheexpectedsomeobservationfromme。

  I,however,saidnothing。

  ’ButIneednotexplaintoyou,mydearFanny,’shecontinued,’myviewsuponthissubject;youhavealwaysknownthemwell,andIhaveneveryethadreasontobelieveyoulikely,voluntarily,tooffendme,ortoabuseorneglectanyofthoseadvantageswhichreasonanddutytellyoushouldbeimproved。Comehither,mydear;kissme,anddonotlooksofrightened。Well,now,aboutthisletter,youneednotanswerityet;

  ofcourseyoumustbeallowedtimetomakeupyourmind。InthemeantimeI

  willwritetohislordshiptogivehimmypermissiontovisitusatAshtown。Good-

  night,mylove。’

  Andthusendedoneofthemostdisagreeable,nottosayastounding,conversationsIhadeverhad。ItwouldnotbeeasytodescribeexactlywhatweremyfeelingstowardsLordGlenfallen;——

  whatevermighthavebeenmymother’ssuspicions,myheartwasperfectlydisengaged——andhitherto,althoughIhadnotbeenmadeintheslightestdegreeacquaintedwithhisrealviews,Ihadlikedhimverymuch,asanagreeable,well-

  informedman,whomIwasalwaysgladtomeetinsociety。Hehadservedinthenavyinearlylife,andthepolishwhichhismannersreceivedinhisafterintercoursewithcourtsandcitieshadnotservedtoobliteratethatfranknessofmannerwhichbelongsproverbiallytothesailor。

  Whetherthisapparentcandourwentdeeperthantheoutwardbearing,Iwasyettolearn。However,therewasnodoubtthat,asfarasIhadseenofLordGlenfallen,hewas,thoughperhapsnotsoyoungasmighthavebeendesiredinalover,asingularlypleasingman;andwhateverfeelingunfavourabletohimhadfounditswayintomymind,arosealtogetherfromthedread,notanunreasonableone,thatconstraintmightbepractiseduponmyinclinations。Ireflected,however,thatLordGlenfallenwasawealthyman,andonehighlythoughtof;andalthoughI

  couldneverexpecttolovehimintheromanticsenseoftheterm,yetIhadnodoubtbutthat,allthingsconsidered,I

  mightbemorehappywithhimthanI

  couldhopetobeathome。

  WhennextImethimitwaswithnosmallembarrassment,histactandgoodbreeding,however,soonreassuredme,andeffectuallypreventedmyawkwardnessbeingremarkedupon。AndIhadthesatisfactionofleavingDublinforthecountrywiththefullconvictionthatnobody,noteventhosemostintimatewithme,evensuspectedthefactofLordGlenfallen’shavingmademeaformalproposal。

  Thiswastomeaveryserioussubjectofself-gratulation,for,besidesmyinstinctivedreadofbecomingthetopicofthespeculationsofgossip,IfeltthatifthesituationwhichIoccupiedinrelationtohimweremadepubliclyknown,Ishouldstandcommittedinamannerwhichwouldscarcelyleavemethepowerofretraction。

  TheperiodatwhichLordGlenfallenhadarrangedtovisitAshtownHousewasnowfastapproaching,anditbecamemymother’swishtoformmethoroughlytoherwill,andtoobtainmyconsenttotheproposedmarriagebeforehisarrival,sothatallthingsmightproceedsmoothly,withoutapparentoppositionorobjectionuponmypart。Whateverobjections,therefore,Ihadentertainedweretobesubdued;

  whateverdispositiontoresistanceI

  hadexhibitedorhadbeensupposedtofeel,weretobecompletelyeradicatedbeforehemadehisappearance;andmymotheraddressedherselftothetaskwithadecisionandenergyagainstwhicheventhebarriers,whichherimaginationhadcreated,couldhardlyhavestood。

  Ifshehad,however,expectedanydeterminedoppositionfromme,shewasagree-

  ablydisappointed。Myheartwasperfectlyfree,andallmyfeelingsoflikingandpreferencewereinfavourofLordGlenfallen;andIwellknewthatincaseI

  refusedtodisposeofmyselfasIwasdesired,mymotherhadalikethepowerandthewilltorendermyexistenceasutterlymiserableaseventhemostill-

  assortedmarriagecouldpossiblyhavedone。

  Youwillremember,mygoodfriend,thatIwasveryyoungandverycompletelyunderthecontrolofmyparents,bothofwhom,mymotherparticularly,wereunscrupulouslydeterminedinmattersofthiskind,andwilling,whenvoluntaryobedienceonthepartofthosewithintheirpowerwaswithheld,tocompelaforcedacquiescencebyanunsparinguseofalltheenginesofthemoststernandrigorousdomesticdiscipline。

  Allthesecombined,notunnaturally,inducedmetoresolveuponyieldingatonce,andwithoutuselessopposition,towhatappearedalmosttobemyfate。

  Theappointedtimewascome,andmynowacceptedsuitorarrived;hewasinhighspirits,and,ifpossible,moreentertainingthanever。

  Iwasnot,however,quiteinthemoodtoenjoyhissprightliness;butwhateverIwantedingaietywasamplymadeupinthetriumphantandgraciousgood-humourofmymother,whosesmilesofbenevolenceandexultationwereshoweredaroundasbountifullyasthesummersunshine。

  Iwillnotwearyyouwithunnecessaryprolixity。Letitsufficetosay,thatIwasmarriedtoLordGlenfallenwithalltheattendantpompandcircumstanceofwealth,rank,andgrandeur。Accordingtotheusageofthetimes,nowhumanelyreformed,theceremonywasmade,untillongpastmidnight,theseasonofwild,uproarious,andpromiscuousfeastingandrevelry。

  OfallthisIhaveapainfullyvividrecollection,andparticularlyofthelittleannoyancesinflicteduponmebythedullandcoarsejokesofthewitsandwagswhoaboundinallsuchplaces,anduponallsuchoccasions。

  Iwasnotsorrywhen,afterafewdays,LordGlenfallen’scarriageappearedatthedoortoconveyusbothfromAshtown;foranychangewouldhavebeenarelieffromtheirksomenessofceremonialandformalitywhichthevisitsreceivedinhonourofmynewly-acquiredtitleshourlyentaileduponme。

  ItwasarrangedthatweweretoproceedtoCahergillagh,oneoftheGlenfallenestates,lying,however,inasoutherncounty,sothat,owingtothedifficultyoftheroadsatthetime,atediousjourneyofthreedaysintervened。

  Isetforthwithmynoblecompanion,followedbytheregretsofsome,andbytheenvyofmany;thoughGodknowsI

  littledeservedthelatter。Thethreedaysoftravelwerenowalmostspent,when,passingthebrowofawildheathyhill,thedomainofCahergillaghopenedsuddenlyuponourview。

  Itformedastrikingandabeautifulscene。

  Alakeofconsiderableextentstretchingawaytowardsthewest,andreflectingfromitsbroad,smoothwaters,therichglowofthesettingsun,wasoverhungbysteephills,coveredbyarichmantleofvelvetsward,brokenhereandtherebythegreyfrontofsomeoldrock,andexhibitingontheirshelvingsides,theirslopesandhollows,everyvarietyoflightandshade;athickwoodofdwarfoak,birch,andhazelskirtedthesehills,andclothedtheshoresofthelake,runningoutinrichluxurianceuponeverypromontory,andspreadingupwardconsiderablyuponthesideofthehills。

  ’Thereliestheenchantedcastle,’saidLordGlenfallen,pointingtowardsaconsiderablelevelspaceinterveningbetweentwoofthepicturesquehills,whichrosedimlyaroundthelake。

  Thislittleplainwaschieflyoccupiedbythesamelow,wildwoodwhichcoveredtheotherpartsofthedomain;buttowardsthecentreamassoftallerandstatelierforesttreesstooddarklygroupedtogether,andamongthemstoodanancientsquaretower,withmanybuildingsofahumblercharacter,formingtogetherthemanor-

  house,or,asitwasmoreusuallycalled,theCourtofCahergillagh。

  Asweapproachedtheleveluponwhichthemansionstood,thewindingroadgaveusmanyglimpsesofthetime-worncastleanditssurroundingbuildings;andseenasitwasthroughthelongvistasofthefineoldtrees,andwiththerichglowofeveninguponit,Ihaveseldombeheldanobjectmorepicturesquelystriking。

  Iwasgladtoperceive,too,thathereandtherethebluecurlingsmokeascendedfromstacksofchimneysnowhiddenbytherich,darkivywhich,inagreatmeasure,coveredthebuilding。Otherindicationsofcomfortmadethemselvesmanifestasweapproached;andindeed,thoughtheplacewasevidentlyoneofconsiderableantiquity,ithadnothingwhateverofthegloomofdecayaboutit。

  ’Youmustnot,mylove,’saidLordGlenfallen,’imaginethisplaceworsethanitis。Ihavenotasteforantiquity——atleastIshouldnotchooseahousetoresideinbecauseitisold。IndeedIdonotrecollectthatIwasevensoromanticastoovercomemyaversiontoratsandrheumatism,thosefaithfulattendantsuponyournoblerelicsoffeudalism;andImuchpreferasnug,modern,unmysteriousbedroom,withwell-

  airedsheets,tothewavingtapestry,mildewedcushions,andalltheotherinterestingappliancesofromance。However,thoughI

  cannotpromiseyouallthediscomfortgenerallybelongingtoanoldcastle,youwillfindlegendsandghostlyloreenoughtoclaimyourrespect;andifoldMarthabestilltothefore,asItrustsheis,youwillsoonhaveasupernaturalandappropriateanecdoteforeveryclosetandcornerofthemansion;buthereweare——so,withoutmoreado,welcometoCahergillagh!’

  Wenowenteredthehallofthecastle,andwhilethedomesticswereemployedinconveyingourtrunksandotherluggagewhichwehadbroughtwithusforimmediateusetotheapartmentswhichLordGlenfallenhadselectedforhimselfandme,Iwentwithhimintoaspacioussitting-room,wainscotedwithfinelypolishedblackoak,andhungroundwiththeportraitsofvariousworthiesoftheGlenfallenfamily。

  Thisroomlookedoutuponanextensivelevelcoveredwiththesoftestgreensward,andirregularlyboundedbythewildwoodI

  havebeforementioned,throughtheleafyarcadeformedbywhoseboughsandtrunksthelevelbeamsofthesettingsunwerepouring。Inthedistanceagroupofdairy-

  maidswereplyingtheirtask,whichtheyaccompaniedthroughoutwithsnatchesofIrishsongswhich,mellowedbythedistance,floatednotunpleasinglytotheear;andbesidethemsatorlay,withallthegraveimportanceofconsciousprotection,sixorsevenlargedogsofvariouskinds。Fartherinthedistance,andthroughthecloistersofthearchingwood,twoorthreeraggedurchinswereemployedindrivingsuchstraykineashadwanderedfartherthantheresttojointheirfellows。

  AsIlookeduponthisscenewhichIhavedescribed,afeelingoftranquillityandhappinesscameuponme,whichIhaveneverexperiencedinsostrongadegree;andsostrangetomewasthesensationthatmyeyesfilledwithtears。

  LordGlenfallenmistookthecauseofmyemotion,andtakingmekindlyandtenderlybythehand,hesaid:

  ’Donotsuppose,mylove,thatitismyintentiontoSETTLEhere。Wheneveryoudesiretoleavethis,youhaveonlytoletmeknowyourwish,anditshallbecompliedwith;soImustentreatofyounottosufferanycircumstanceswhichIcancontroltogiveyouonemoment’suneasiness。ButhereisoldMartha;youmustbeintroducedtoher,oneoftheheirloomsofourfamily。’

  Ahale,good-humoured,erectoldwomanwasMartha,andanagreeablecontrasttothegrim,decrepidhagwhichmyfancyhadconjuredup,asthedepositoryofallthehorribletalesinwhichIdoubtednotthisoldplacewasmostfruitful。

  Shewelcomedmeandhermasterwithaprofusionofgratulations,alternatelykissingourhandsandapologisingfortheliberty,untilatlengthLordGlenfallenputanendtothissomewhatfatiguingceremonialbyrequestinghertoconductmetomychamberifitwerepreparedformyreception。

  IfollowedMarthaupanold-fashionedoakstaircaseintoalong,dimpassage,attheendofwhichlaythedoorwhichcommunicatedwiththeapartmentswhichhadbeenselectedforouruse;heretheoldwomanstopped,andrespectfullyrequestedmetoproceed。

  Iaccordinglyopenedthedoor,andwasabouttoenter,whensomethinglikeamassofblacktapestry,asitappeared,disturbedbymysuddenapproach,fellfromabovethedoor,soascompletelytoscreentheaperture;thestartlingunexpectednessoftheoccurrence,andtherustlingnoisewhichthedraperymadeinitsdescent,causedmeinvoluntarilytosteptwoorthreepacesbackwards。Iturned,smilingandhalf-

  ashamed,totheoldservant,andsaid:

  ’YouseewhatacowardIam。’

  Thewomanlookedpuzzled,and,withoutsayinganymore,Iwasabouttodrawasidethecurtainandentertheroom,when,uponturningtodoso,Iwassurprisedtofindthatnothingwhateverinterposedtoobstructthepassage。

  Iwentintotheroom,followedbytheservant-woman,andwasamazedtofindthatit,liketheonebelow,waswainscoted,andthatnothinglikedraperywastobefoundnearthedoor。

  ’Whereisit?’saidI;’whathasbecomeofit?’

  ’Whatdoesyourladyshipwishtoknow?’

  saidtheoldwoman。

  ’Whereistheblackcurtainthatfellacrossthedoor,whenIattemptedfirsttocometomychamber?’answeredI。

  ’ThecrossofChristaboutus!’saidtheoldwoman,turningsuddenlypale。

  ’Whatisthematter,mygoodfriend?’

  saidI;’youseemfrightened。’

  ’Ohno,no,yourladyship,’saidtheoldwoman,endeavouringtoconcealheragitation;

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