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  Sosaying,shequittedtheroom,leavingmeverylittledisposedtosleep。

  Herewasfoodformyveryworstandmostterriblesuspicions;stilltherewasnotenoughtoremovealldoubt。Ihadnoproofofthetruthofthiswoman’sstatement。

  Takenbyitself,therewasnothingtoinducemetoattachweighttoit;butwhenIvieweditinconnectionwiththeextraordinarymysteryofsomeofLordGlen-

  fallen’sproceedings,hisstrangeanxietytoexcludemefromcertainportionsofthemansion,doubtlesslestIshouldencounterthisperson——thestronginfluence,nay,commandwhichshepossessedoverhim,acircumstanceclearlyestablishedbytheveryfactofherresidingintheveryplacewhere,ofallothers,heshouldleasthavedesiredtofindher——herthusacting,andcontinuingtoactindirectcontradictiontohiswishes;

  when,Isay,Iviewedherdisclosureinconnectionwithallthesecircumstances,Icouldnothelpfeelingthattherewasatleastafearfulverisimilitudeintheallegationswhichshehadmade。

  StillIwasnotsatisfied,nornearlyso。

  Youngmindshaveareluctancealmostinsurmountabletobelieving,uponanythingshortofunquestionableproof,theexistenceofpremeditatedguiltinanyonewhomtheyhaveevertrusted;andinsupportofthisfeelingIwasassuredthatiftheassertionofLordGlenfallen,whichnothinginthiswoman’smannerhadledmetodisbelieve,weretrue,namelythathermindwasunsound,thewholefabricofmydoubtsandfearsmustfalltotheground。

  IdeterminedtostatetoLordGlenfallenfreelyandaccuratelythesubstanceofthecommunicationwhichIhadjustheard,andinhiswordsandlookstoseekforitsprooforrefutation。Fullofthesethoughts,I

  remainedwakefulandexcitedallnight,everymomentfancyingthatIheardthesteporsawthefigureofmyrecentvisitor,towardswhomIfeltaspeciesofhorroranddreadwhichIcanhardlydescribe。

  Therewassomethinginherface,thoughherfeatureshadevidentlybeenhandsome,andwerenot,atfirstsight,unpleasing,which,uponanearerinspection,seemedtoindicatethehabitualprevalenceandindulgenceofevilpassions,andapowerofexpressingmereanimalanger,withanintensenessthatIhaveseldomseenequalled,andtowhichanalmostunearthlyeffectwasgivenbytheconvulsivequiveringofthesightlesseyes。

  Youmayeasilysupposethatitwasnoverypleasingreflectiontometoconsiderthat,whenevercapricemightinducehertoreturn,Iwaswithinthereachofthisviolentand,foraughtIknew,insanewoman,whohad,uponthatverynight,spokentomeinatoneofmenace,ofwhichhermerewords,divestedofthemannerandlookwithwhichsheutteredthem,canconveybutafaintidea。

  WillyoubelievemewhenItellyouthatIwasactuallyafraidtoleavemybedinordertosecurethedoor,lestIshouldagainencounterthedreadfulobjectlurkinginsomecornerorpeepingfrombehindthewindow-curtains,soveryachildwasI

  inmyfears。

  Themorningcame,andwithitLordGlenfallen。Iknewnot,andindeedIcarednot,wherehemighthavebeen;mythoughtswerewhollyengrossedbytheterriblefearsandsuspicionswhichmylastnight’sconferencehadsuggestedtome。

  Hewas,asusual,gloomyandabstracted,andIfearedinnoveryfittingmoodtohearwhatIhadtosaywithpatience,whetherthechargesweretrueorfalse。

  Iwas,however,determinednottosuffertheopportunitytopass,orLordGlenfallentoleavetheroom,until,atallhazards,Ihadunburdenedmymind。

  ’Mylord,’saidI,afteralongsilence,summoningupallmyfirmness——’mylord,Iwishtosayafewwordstoyouuponamatterofverygreatimportance,ofverydeepconcernmenttoyouandtome。’

  Ifixedmyeyesuponhimtodiscern,ifpossible,whethertheannouncementcausedhimanyuneasiness;butnosymptomofanysuchfeelingwasperceptible。

  ’Well,mydear,’saidhe,’thisisnodoubtaverygravepreface,andportends,Ihavenodoubt,somethingextraordinary。

  Prayletushaveitwithoutmoreado。’

  Hetookachair,andseatedhimselfnearlyoppositetome。

  ’Mylord,’saidI,’Ihaveseenthepersonwhoalarmedmesomuchashorttimesince,theblindlady,again,uponlastnight。’Hisface,uponwhichmyeyeswerefixed,turnedpale;hehesitatedforamoment,andthensaid:

  ’Anddidyou,pray,madam,sototallyforgetorspurnmyexpresscommand,astoenterthatportionofthehousefromwhichyourpromise,Imightsayyouroath,excludedyou?——answermethat!’headdedfiercely。

  ’Mylord,’saidI,’IhaveneitherforgottenyourCOMMANDS,sincesuchtheywere,nordisobeyedthem。Iwas,lastnight,wakenedfrommysleep,asIlayinmyownchamber,andaccostedbythepersonwhomIhavementioned。HowshefoundaccesstotheroomIcannotpretendtosay。’

  ’Ha!thismustbelookedto,’saidhe,halfreflectively;’andpray,’addedhe,quickly,whileinturnhefixedhiseyesuponme,’whatdidthispersonsay?sincesomecommentuponhercommunicationforms,nodoubt,thesequeltoyourpreface。’

  ’Yourlordshipisnotmistaken,’saidI;

  ’herstatementwassoextraordinarythatIcouldnotthinkofwithholdingitfromyou。Shetoldme,mylord,thatyouhadawifelivingatthetimeyoumarriedme,andthatshewasthatwife。’

  LordGlenfallenbecameashypale,almostlivid;hemadetwoorthreeeffortstoclearhisvoicetospeak,butinvain,andturningsuddenlyfromme,hewalkedtothewindow。Thehorroranddismaywhich,intheoldentime,overwhelmedthewomanofEndorwhenherspellsunexpectedlyconjuredthedeadintoherpresence,werebuttypesofwhatIfeltwhenthuspresentedwithwhatappearedtobealmostunequivocalevidenceoftheguiltwhoseexistenceIhadbeforesostronglydoubted。

  Therewasasilenceofsomemoments,duringwhichitwerehardtoconjecturewhetherIormycompanionsufferedmost。

  LordGlenfallensoonrecoveredhisself-

  command;hereturnedtothetable,againsatdownandsaid:

  ’Whatyouhavetoldmehassoastonishedme,hasunfoldedsuchatissueofmotivelessguilt,andinaquarterfromwhichIhadsolittlereasontolookforingratitudeortreachery,thatyourannouncementalmostdeprivedmeofspeech;

  thepersoninquestion,however,hasoneexcuse,hermindis,asItoldyoubefore,unsettled。Youshouldhaverememberedthat,andhesitatedtoreceiveasunexceptionableevidenceagainstthehonourofyourhusband,theravingsofalunatic。I

  nowtellyouthatthisisthelasttimeI

  shallspeaktoyouuponthissubject,and,inthepresenceoftheGodwhoistojudgeme,andasIhopeformercyinthedayofjudgment,Iswearthatthechargethusbroughtagainstmeisutterlyfalse,unfounded,andridiculous;Idefytheworldinanypointtotaintmyhonour;and,asIhavenevertakentheopinionofmadmentouchingyourcharacterormorals,I

  thinkitbutfairtorequirethatyouwillevincealiketendernessforme;andnow,onceforall,neveragaindaretorepeattomeyourinsultingsuspicions,ortheclumsyandinfamouscalumniesoffools。

  Ishallinstantlylettheworthyladywhocontrivedthissomewhatoriginaldevice,understandfullymyopinionuponthematter。Goodmorning;’andwiththesewordsheleftmeagainindoubt,andinvolvedinallhorrorsofthemostagonisingsuspense。

  IhadreasontothinkthatLordGlenfallenwreakedhisvengeanceupontheauthorofthestrangestorywhichIhadheard,withaviolencewhichwasnotsatisfiedwithmerewords,foroldMartha,withwhomIwasagreatfavourite,whileattendingmeinmyroom,toldmethatshefearedhermasterhadill-usedthepoorblindDutchwoman,forthatshehadheardherscreamasiftheverylifewereleavingher,butaddedarequestthatIshouldnotspeakofwhatshehadtoldmetoanyone,particularlytothemaster。

  ’HowdoyouknowthatsheisaDutchwoman?’inquiredI,anxioustolearnanythingwhateverthatmightthrowalightuponthehistoryofthisperson,whoseemedtohaveresolvedtomixherselfupinmyfortunes。

  ’Why,mylady,’answeredMartha,’themasteroftencallshertheDutchhag,andothernamesyouwouldnotliketohear,andIamsuresheisneitherEnglishnorIrish;for,whenevertheytalktogether,theyspeaksomequeerforeignlingo,andfastenough,I’llbebound。ButIoughtnottotalkaboutheratall;itmightbeasmuchasmyplaceisworthtomentionher——onlyyousawherfirstyourself,sotherecanbenogreatharminspeakingofhernow。’

  ’Howlonghasthisladybeenhere?’

  continuedI。

  ’Shecameearlyonthemorningafteryourladyship’sarrival,’answeredshe;’butdonotaskmeanymore,forthemasterwouldthinknothingofturningmeoutofdoorsfordaringtospeakofheratall,muchlesstoyou,mylady。’

  Ididnotliketopressthepoorwomanfurther,forherreluctancetospeakonthistopicwasevidentandstrong。

  Youwillreadilybelievethatupontheveryslightgroundswhichmyinformationafforded,contradictedasitwasbythesolemnoathofmyhusband,andderivedfromwhatwas,atbest,averyquestionablesource,Icouldnottakeanyverydecisivemeasurewhatever;andastothemenaceofthestrangewomanwhohadthusunaccountablytwiceintrudedherselfintomychamber,although,atthemoment,itoccasionedmesomeuneasiness,itwasnot,eveninmyeyes,sufficientlyformidabletoinducemydeparturefromCahergillagh。

  AfewnightsafterthescenewhichI

  havejustmentioned,LordGlenfallenhaving,asusual,earlyretiredtohisstudy,IwasleftaloneintheparlourtoamusemyselfasbestImight。

  ItwasnotstrangethatmythoughtsshouldoftenrecurtotheagitatingscenesinwhichIhadrecentlytakenapart。

  Thesubjectofmyreflections,thesolitude,thesilence,andthelatenessofthehour,asalsothedepressionofspiritstowhichI

  hadoflatebeenaconstantprey,tendedtoproducethatnervousexcitementwhichplacesuswhollyatthemercyoftheimagination。

  InordertocalmmyspiritsIwasendeavouringtodirectmythoughtsintosomemorepleasingchannel,whenIheard,orthoughtIheard,uttered,withinafewyardsofme,inanodd,half-sneeringtone,thewords,’Thereisblooduponyourladyship’sthroat。’

  SovividwastheimpressionthatI

  startedtomyfeet,andinvoluntarilyplacedmyhanduponmyneck。

  Ilookedaroundtheroomforthespeaker,butinvain。

  Iwentthentotheroom-door,whichI

  opened,andpeeredintothepassage,nearlyfaintwithhorrorlestsomeleering,shapelessthingshouldgreetmeuponthethreshold。

  WhenIhadgazedlongenoughtoassuremyselfthatnostrangeobjectwaswithinsight,’Ihavebeentoomuchofarakelately;

  Iamrackingoutmynerves,’saidI,speakingaloud,withaviewtoreassuremyself。

  Irangthebell,and,attendedbyoldMartha,Iretiredtosettleforthenight。

  Whiletheservantwas——aswashercustom——arrangingthelampwhichIhavealreadystatedalwaysburnedduringthenightinmychamber,Iwasemployedinundressing,and,indoingso,Ihadrecoursetoalargelooking-glasswhichoccupiedaconsiderableportionofthewallinwhichitwasfixed,risingfromthegroundtoaheightofaboutsixfeet——thismirrorfilledthespaceofalargepanelinthewainscotingoppositethefootofthebed。

  Ihadhardlybeenbeforeitforthelapseofaminutewhensomethinglikeablackpallwasslowlywavedbetweenmeandit。

  ’Oh,God!thereitis,’Iexclaimed,wildly。’Ihaveseenitagain,Martha——

  theblackcloth。’

  ’Godbemercifultous,then!’answeredshe,tremulouslycrossingherself。’Somemisfortuneisoverus。’

  ’No,no,Martha,’saidI,almostinstantlyrecoveringmycollectedness;for,althoughofanervoustemperament,Ihadneverbeensuperstitious。’Idonotbelieveinomens。YouknowIsaw,orfanciedI

  saw,thisthingbefore,andnothingfollowed。’

  ’TheDutchladycamethenextmorning,’

  repliedshe。

  ’Butsurelyhercomingscarcelydeservedsuchadreadfulwarning,’I

  replied。

  ’Sheisastrangewoman,mylady,’saidMartha;’andsheisnotGONEyet——markmywords。’

  ’Well,well,Martha,’saidI,’Ihavenotwitenoughtochangeyouropinions,norinclinationtoaltermine;soIwilltalknomoreofthematter。Good-night,’andsoIwaslefttomyreflections。

  Afterlyingforaboutanhourawake,Iatlengthfellintoakindofdoze;butmyimaginationwasstillbusy,forIwasstartledfromthisunrefreshingsleepbyfancyingthatIheardavoiceclosetomyfaceexclaimasbefore:

  ’Thereisblooduponyourladyship’sthroat。’

  Thewordswereinstantlyfollowedbyaloudburstoflaughter。

  Quakingwithhorror,Iawakened,andheardmyhusbandentertheroom。Eventhiswasitrelief。

  ScaredasIwas,however,bythetrickswhichmyimaginationhadplayedme,I

  preferredremainingsilent,andpretendingtosleep,toattemptingtoengagemyhusbandinconversation,forIwellknewthathismoodwassuch,thathiswordswouldnot,inallprobability,conveyanythingthathadnotbetterbeunsaidandunheard。

  LordGlenfallenwentintohisdressing-

  room,whichlayupontheright-handsideofthebed。Thedoorlyingopen,Icouldseehimbyhimself,atfulllengthuponasofa,and,inabouthalfanhour,Ibecameaware,byhisdeepandregularlydrawnrespiration,thathewasfastasleep。

  Whenslumberrefusestovisitone,thereissomethingpeculiarlyirritating,nottothetemper,buttothenerves,intheconsciousnessthatsomeoneisinyourimmediatepresence,actuallyenjoyingtheboonwhichyouareseekinginvain;atleast,Ihavealwaysfounditso,andnevermorethanuponthepresentoccasion。

  Athousandannoyingimaginationsharassedandexcitedme;everyobjectwhichIlookedupon,thougheversofamiliar,seemedtohaveacquiredastrangephantom-

  likecharacter,thevaryingshadowsthrownbytheflickeringofthelamplight,seemedshapingthemselvesintogrotesqueandunearthlyforms,andwhenevermyeyeswanderedtothesleepingfigureofmyhusband,hisfeaturesappearedtoundergothestrangestandmostdemoniacalcontortions。

  Hourafterhourwastoldbytheoldclock,andeachsucceedingonefoundme,ifpossible,lessinclinedtosleepthanitspredecessor。

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