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  Henowstooduponthelong,steep,narrowbridge,whichcrossedtheriverclosetoCarrigvarah,thefamilymansionoftheO’Maras;helookedbackinthedirectioninwhichhehadlefthiscompanion,andleaninguponthebattlement,heruminatedlongandmoodily。Atlengthheraisedhimselfandsaid:

  ’Helovesthegirl,andWILLlovehermore——Ihaveanopportunityofwinningfavour,ofdoingservice,whichshallbindhimtome;yes,heshallhavethegirl,ifIhavearttocompassthematter。Imustthinkuponit。’

  Heenteredtheavenueandwassoonlostinthedistance。

  Daysandweekspassedon,andyoungO’Maradailytookhisrodandnet,andrambleduptheriver;andscarcetwelvehourselapsedinwhichsomeofthoseaccidents,whichinvariablybringloverstogether,didnotsecurehimameetingoflongerorshorterduration,withthebeautifulgirlwhomhesofatallyloved。

  Oneevening,afteralonginterviewwithher,inwhichhehadbeenalmostirresistiblypromptedtodeclarehislove,andhadallbutyieldedhimselfuptothepassionateimpulse,uponhisarrivalathomehefoundaletteronthetableawaitinghisreturn;itwasfromhisfathertothefollowingeffect:

  ’ToRichardO’Mara。

  ’September,17——,L——m,England。

  ’MYDEARSON,——

  ’Ihavejusthadasevereattackofmyoldandalmostforgottenenemy,thegout。ThisIregardasagoodsign;thedoctorstellingmethatitisthesafestdevelopmentofpeccanthumours;andI

  thinkmychestislesstormentingandoppressedthanIhaveknownitforsomeyears。Mychiefreasonforwritingtoyounow,asIdoitnotwithoutdifficulty,istoletyouknowmypleasureincertainmatters,inwhichIsuspectsomeshameful,and,indeed,infatuatedneglectonyourpart,“quemperderevultdeuspriusdementat:“howcomesitthatyouhaveneglectedtowritetoLadyEmilyoranyofthatfamily?theunderstoodrelationsubsistingbetweenyouisoneofextremedelicacy,andwhichcallsformarkedandcourteous,nay,devotedattentionuponyourside。Lord——isalreadyoffended;

  bewarewhatyoudo;forasyouwillfind,ifthismatchbelostbyyourfaultorfolly,by——Iwillcutyouoffwithashilling。

  IamnotinthehabitofusingthreatswhenIdonotmeantofulfilthem,andthatyouwellknow;howeverIdonotthinkyouhavemuchrealcauseforalarminthiscase。LadyEmily,who,bytheway,looksifpossiblemorecharmingthanever,isanythingbuthard-hearted,atleastwhenYOUsolicit;butdoasIdesire,andlosenotimeinmakingwhatexcuseyoumay,andletmehearfromyouwhenyoucanfixatimetojoinmeandyourmotherhere。

  ’Yoursincerewell-wisherandfather,’RICHARDO’MARA。’

  Inthisletterwasinclosedasmallerone,directedtoDwyer,andcontainingachequefortwelvepounds,withthefollowingwords:

  ’Makeuseoftheenclosed,andletmehearifRichardisuponanywildschemeatpresent:Iamuneasyabouthim,andnotwithoutreason;reporttomespeedilytheresultofyourvigilance。

  ’R。O’MARA。’

  Dwyerjustglancedthroughthisbrief,butnotunwelcome,epistle;anddepositeditanditscontentsinthesecretrecessesofhisbreechespocket,andthenfixedhiseyesuponthefaceofhiscompanion,whosatopposite,utterlyabsorbedintheperusalofhisfather’sletter,whichhereadagainandagain,pausingandmutteringbetweenwhiles,andapparentlylostinnoverypleasingreflections。Atlengthheveryabruptlyexclaimed:

  ’Adelicateepistle,truly——andapolitic——wouldthatmytonguehadbeenburnedthroughbeforeIassentedtothatdoubly-

  cursedcontract。Why,Iamnotpledgedyet——Iamnot;thereisneitherwriting,nortroth,norwordofhonour,passedbetweenus。Myfatherhasnorighttopledgeme,eventhoughItoldhimIlikedthegirl,andwouldwishthematch。’Tisnotenoughthatmyfatheroffershermyheartandhand;hehasnorighttodoit;

  adelicatewomanwouldnotacceptprofessionsmadebyproxy。LadyEmily!LadyEmily!withallthetawdryfrippery,andfineryofdressanddemeanour——compareHERwith——Pshaw!Ridiculous!Howblind,howidioticIhavebeen。’

  Herelapsedintomoodyreflections,whichDwyerdidnotcaretodisturb,andsometenminutesmighthavepassedbeforehespokeagain。Whenhedid,itwasinthecalmtoneofonewhohasirrevocablyresolveduponsomedecidedandimportantact。

  ’Dwyer,’hesaid,risingandapproachingthatperson,’whatevergodordemontoldyou,evenbeforemyownheartknewit,thatIlovedEllenHeathcote,spoketruth。

  Ilovehermadly——Ineverdreamedtillnowhowfervently,howirrevocably,Iamhers——howdeadtomeallotherinterestsare。Dwyer,Iknowsomethingofyourdisposition,andyounodoubtthinkitstrangethatIshouldtelltoyou,ofallpersons,SUCHasecret;butwhateverbeyourfaults,Ithinkyouareattachedtoourfamily。Iamsatisfiedyouwillnotbetrayme。Iknow——’

  ’Pardonme,’saidDwyer,’ifIsaythatgreatprofessionsofconfidencetoofrequentlymarkdistrust。Ihavenopossiblemotivetoinducemetobetrayyou;onthecontrary,Iwouldgladlyassistanddirectwhateverplansyoumayhaveformed。

  Commandmeasyouplease;Ihavesaidenough。’

  ’Iwillnotdoubtyou,Dwyer,’saidO’Mara;’Ihavetakenmyresolution——I

  have,Ithink,firmnesstoactuptoit。TomarryEllenHeathcote,situatedasIam,weremadness;toproposeanythingelsewereworse,werevillainynottobenamed。

  Iwillleavethecountryto-morrow,costwhatpainitmay,forEngland。IwillatoncebreakofftheproposedalliancewithLadyEmily,andwillwaituntilIammyownmaster,toopenmyhearttoEllen。

  Myfathermaysayanddowhathelikes;

  buthispassionwillnotlast。Hewillforgiveme;andevenwerehetodisinheritme,ashethreatens,thereissomepropertywhichmustdescendtome,whichhiswillcannotaffect。Hecannotruinmyinterests;heSHALLNOTruinmyhappiness。

  Dwyer,givemepenandink;Iwillwritethismoment。’

  ThisboldplanofproceedingformanyreasonsappearedinexpedienttoDwyer,andhedeterminednottoconsenttoitsadoptionwithoutastruggle。

  ’Icommendyourprudence,’saidhe,’indeterminingtoremoveyourselffromthefascinatinginfluencewhichhassolongboundyouhere;butbewareofoffendingyourfather。ColonelO’Maraisnotamantoforgiveanactofdeliberatedisobedience,andsurelyyouarenotmadenoughtoruinyourselfwithhimbyofferinganout-

  rageousinsulttoLadyEmilyandtoherfamilyinherperson;thereforeyoumustnotbreakofftheunderstoodcontractwhichsubsistsbetweenyoubyanyformalact——

  hearmeoutpatiently。YoumustletLadyEmilyperceive,asyoueasilymay,withoutrudenessorevencoldnessofmanner,thatsheisperfectlyindifferenttoyou;andwhensheunderstandsthistobethecase,itshepossesseseitherdelicacyorspirit,shewillherselfbreakofftheengagement。

  Makewhatdelayitispossibletoeffect;

  itisverypossiblethatyourfather,whocannot,inallprobability,livemanymonths,maynotliveasmanydaysifharassedandexcitedbysuchscenesasyourbreakingoffyourengagementmustproduce。’

  ’Dwyer,’saidO’Mara,’Iwillhearyouout——proceed。’

  ’Besides,sir,remember,’hecontinued,’theunderstandingwhichwehavetermedanengagementwasenteredintowithoutanydirectsanctionuponyourpart;yourfatherhascommittedHIMSELF,notYOU,toLord。Beforearealcontractcansubsist,youmustbeanassentingpartytoit。Iknowofnocasuistrysubtleenoughtoinvolveyouinanyengagementwhatever,withoutsuchaningredient。Tush!

  youhaveaneasycardtoplay。’

  ’Well,’saidtheyoungman,’Iwillthinkonwhatyouhavesaid;inthemeantime,Iwillwritetomyfathertoannouncemyimmediatedeparture,inordertojoinhim。’

  ’Excuseme,’saidDwyer,’butIwouldsuggestthatbyhasteningyourdepartureyoubutbringyourdangersnearer。Whileyouareinthiscountryaletternowandthenkeepseverythingquiet;butonceacrosstheChannelandwiththecolonel,youmusteitherquarrelwithhimtoyourowndestruction,oryoumustdanceattendanceuponLadyEmilywithsuchassiduityastocommityourselfascompletelyasifyouhadbeenthricecalledwithherintheparishchurch。No,no;keeptothissideoftheChannelaslongasyoudecentlycan。Besides,yoursuddendeparturemustappearsuspicious,andwillprobablyexciteinquiry。EverygoodendlikelytobeaccomplishedbyyourabsencewillbeeffectedaswellbyyourdepartureforDublin,whereyoumayremainforthreeweeksoramonthwithoutgivingrisetocuriosityordoubtofanunpleasantkind;

  Iwouldthereforeadviseyoustronglytowriteimmediatelytothecolonel,statingthatbusinesshasoccurredtodeferyourdepartureforamonth,andyoucanthenleavethisplace,ifyouthinkfit,immediately,thatis,withinaweekorso。’

  YoungO’Marawasnothardtobepersuaded。

  Perhapsitwasthat,unacknowledgedbyhimself,anyargumentwhichrecommendedhisstaying,evenforanhourlongerthanhisfirstdecisionhadannounced,intheneighbourhoodofEllenHeathcote,appearedpeculiarlycogentandconvincing;howeverthismayhavebeen,itiscertainthathefollowedthecounselofhiscool-headedfollower,whoretiredthatnighttobedwiththepleasingconvictionthathewaslikelysoontoinvolvehisyoungpatroninalltheintricaciesofdisguiseandintrigue——aconsummationwhichwouldleavehimtotallyatthemercyofthefavouredconfidantwhoshouldpossesshissecret。

  YoungO’Mara’sreflectionsweremoreagitatingandlesssatisfactorythanthoseofhiscompanion。Heresolveduponleavingthecountrybeforetwodayshadpassed。HefeltthathecouldnotfairlyseektoinvolveEllenHeathcoteinhisfatebypledgeorpromise,untilhehadextricatedhimselffromthosetrammelswhichconstrainedandembarrassedallhisactions。Hisdeterminationwassofarprudent;but,alas!healsoresolvedthatitwasbutright,butnecessary,thatheshouldseeherbeforehisdeparture。Hisleavingthecountrywithoutalookorawordofpartingkindnessinterchanged,musttoherappearanactofcoldandheartlesscaprice;hecouldnotbearthethought。

  ’No,’saidhe,’Iamnotchildenoughtosaymorethanprudencetellsmeoughttosay;thiscowardlydistrustofmyfirmnessIshouldandwillcontemn。

  Besides,whyshouldIcommitmyself?Itispossiblethegirlmaynotcareforme。No,no;Ineednotshrinkfromthisinterview。

  Ihavenoreasontodoubtmyfirmness——

  none——none。Imustceasetobegovernedbyimpulse。Iaminvolvedinrocksandquicksands;andacollectedspirit,aquickeye,andasteadyhand,alonecanpilotmethrough。Godgrantmeasafevoyage!’

  Thenextdaycame,andyoungO’Maradidnottakehisfishing-rodasusual,butwrotetwoletters;theonetohisfather,announcinghisintentionofdepartingspeedilyforEngland;theothertoLadyEmily,containingacoldbutcourteousapologyforhisapparentneglect。Boththeseweredespatchedtothepost-officethatevening,anduponthenextmorninghewastoleavethecountry。

  Uponthenightofthemomentousdayofwhichwehavejustspoken,EllenHeathcoteglidedsilentlyandunperceivedfromamongthebusycrowdswhowereengagedinthegaydissipationfurnishedbywhatisinIrelandcommonlycalledadancetheexpensesattendantuponwhich,music,etc。,aredefrayedbyasubscriptionofonehalfpennyeach,andhavingdrawnhermantlecloselyabouther,wasproceedingwithquickstepstotraversethesmallfieldwhichseparatedherfromherfather’sabode。Shehadnotwalkedmanyyardswhenshebecameawarethatasolitaryfigure,muffledinacloak,stoodinthepathway。Itapproached;alowvoicewhispered:

  ’Ellen。’

  ’Isityou,MasterRichard?’shereplied。

  Hethrewbackthecloakwhichhadconcealedhisfeatures。

  ’ItisI,Ellen,hesaid;’Ihavebeenwatchingforyou。Iwillnotdelayyoulong。’

  Hetookherhand,andshedidnotattempttowithdrawit;forshewastooartlesstothinkanyevil,tooconfidingtodreadit。

  ’Ellen,’hecontinued,evennowunconsciouslydepartingfromtherigidcoursewhichprudencehadmarkedout;’Ellen,Iamgoingtoleavethecountry;goingto-morrow。IhavehadlettersfromEngland。Imustgo;andtheseawillsoonbebetweenus。’

  Hepaused,andshewassilent。

  ’Thereisonerequest,oneentreatyI

  havetomake,’hecontinued;’Iwould,whenIamfaraway,havesomethingtolookatwhichbelongedtoyou。Willyougiveme——donotrefuseit——onelittlelockofyourbeautifulhair?’

  Withartlessalacrity,butwithtremblinghand,shetookthescissors,whichinsimplefashionhungbyherside,anddetachedoneofthelongandbeautifullockswhichpartedoverherforehead。Sheplaceditinhishand。

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