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  Againhetookherhand,andtwiceheattemptedtospeakinvain;atlengthhesaid:

  ’Ellen,whenIamgone——whenIamaway——willyousometimesremember,sometimesthinkofme?’

  EllenHeathcotehadasmuch,perhapsmore,ofwhatisnobleinpridethanthehaughtiestbeautythatevertrodacourt;

  buttheeffortwasuseless;thehoneststrugglewasinvain;andsheburstintofloodsoftears,bittererthanshehadevershedbefore。

  Icannottellhowpassionsriseandfall;

  Icannotdescribetheimpetuouswordsoftheyounglover,aspressingagainandagaintohislipsthecold,passivehand,whichhadbeenresignedtohim,prudence,caution,doubts,resolutions,allvanishedfromhisview,andmeltedintonothing。

  ’Tisformetotellthesimplefact,thatfromthatbriefinterviewtheybothdepartedpromisedandpledgedtoeachotherforever。

  Throughtherestofthisstoryeventsfollowoneanotherrapidly。

  AfewnightsafterthatwhichIhavejustmentioned,EllenHeathcotedisappeared;

  butherfatherwasnotleftlonginsuspenseastoherfate,forDwyer,accompaniedbyoneofthosemendicantfriarswhotraversedthecountrythenevenmorecommonlythantheynowdo,calleduponHeathcotebeforehehadhadtimetotakeanyactivemeasuresfortherecoveryofhischild,andputhiminpossessionofadocumentwhichappearedtocontainsatisfactoryevidenceofthemarriageofEllenHeathcotewithRichardO’Mara,executedupontheeveningprevious,asthedatewenttoshow;andsignedbybothparties,aswellasbyDwyerandaservantofyoungO’Mara’s,boththesehavingactedaswitnesses;andfurthersupportedbythesignatureofPeterNicholls,abrotheroftheorderofSt。Francis,bywhomtheceremonyhadbeenperformed,andwhomHeathcotehadnodifficultyinrecognisinginthepersonofhisvisitant。

  Thisdocument,andthepromptpersonalvisitofthetwomen,andaboveall,theknownidentityoftheFranciscan,satisfiedHeathcoteasfullyasanythingshortofcompletepublicitycouldhavedone。

  Andhisconvictionwasnotamistakenone。

  Dwyer,beforehetookhisleave,impresseduponHeathcotethenecessityofkeepingtheaffairsosecretastorenderitimpossiblethatitshouldreachColonelO’Mara’sears,aneventwhichwouldhavebeenattendedwithruinousconsequencestoallparties。Herefused,also,topermitHeathcotetoseehisdaughter,andeventotellhimwhereshewas,untilcircumstancesrendereditsafeforhimtovisither。

  Heathcotewasaharshandsullenman;

  andthoughhistemperwasanythingbuttractable,therewassomuchtoplease,almosttodazzlehim,intheevent,thatheacceptedthetermswhichDwyerimposeduponhimwithoutanyfurthertokenofdisapprobationthanashakeofthehead,andagruffwishthat’itmightproveallforthebest。’

  Nearlytwomonthshadpassed,andyoungO’MarahadnotyetdepartedforEngland。Hislettershadbeenstrangelyfewandfarbetween;andinshort,hisconductwassuchastoinduceColonelO’MaratohastenhisreturntoIreland,andatthesametimetopressanengagement,whichLord——,hissonCaptainN——,andLadyEmilyhadmadetospendsomeweekswithhimathisresidenceinDublin。

  AletterarrivedforyoungO’Mara,statingthearrangement,andrequiringhisattendanceinDublin,whichwasaccordinglyimmediatelyafforded。

  Hearrived,withDwyer,intimetowelcomehisfatherandhisdistinguishedguests。HeresolvedtobreakoffhisembarrassingconnectionwithLadyEmily,without,however,statingtherealmotive,whichhefeltwouldexasperatetheresentmentwhichhisfatherandLord——

  wouldnodoubtfeelathisconduct。

  Hestronglyfelthowdishonourablyhewouldactif,inobediencetoDwyer’sadvice,heseemedtacitlytoacquiesceinanengagementwhichitwasimpossibleforhimtofulfil。HeknewthatLadyEmilywasnotcapableofanythinglikestrongattachment;andthatevenifshewere,hehadnoreasonwhatevertosupposethatshecaredatallforhim。

  Hehadnotatanytimedesiredthealliance;norhadheanyreasontosupposetheyoungladyinanydegreelessindifferent。Heregardeditnow,andnotwithoutsomeappearanceofjustice,asnothingmorethanakindofunderstoodstipulation,enteredintobytheirparents,andtobeconsideredratherasamatterofbusinessandcalculationthanasinvolvinganythingofmutualinclinationonthepartofthepartiesmostnearlyinterestedinthematter。

  Heanxiously,therefore,watchedforanopportunityofmakingknownhisfeelingstoLord——,ashecouldnotwithproprietydosotoLadyEmily;butwhatatadistanceappearedtobeamatterofeasyaccomplishment,now,uponanearerapproach,andwhentheimmediateimpulsewhichhadpromptedtheacthadsubsided,appearedsofullofdifficultyandalmostinextricableembarrassments,thatheinvoluntarilyshrunkfromthetaskdayafterday。

  Thoughitwasasourceofindescribableanxietytohim,hedidnotventuretowritetoEllen,forhecouldnotdisguisefromhimselfthedangerwhichthesecrecyofhisconnectionwithhermustincurbyhiscommunicatingwithher,eventhroughapublicoffice,wheretheirlettersmightbepermittedtolielongerthanthegossipinginquisitivenessofacountrytownwouldwarranthiminsupposingsafe。

  ItwasaboutafortnightafteryoungO’MarahadarrivedinDublin,whereallthings,andplaces,andamusements;andpersonsseemedthoroughlystale,flat,andunprofitable,whenoneday,temptedbytheunusualfinenessoftheweather,LadyEmilyproposedawalkintheCollegePark,afavouritepromenadeatthattime。

  ShethereforewithyoungO’Mara,accompaniedbyDwyerwho,by-the-by,whenhepleased,couldactthegentlemansufficientlywell,proceededtotheplaceproposed,wheretheycontinuedtowalkforsometime。

  ’Why,Richard,’saidLadyEmily,afteratediousandunbrokenpauseofsomeminutes,’youarebecomingworseandworseeveryday。Youaregrowingabsolutelyintolerable;perfectlystupid!notonegoodthinghaveIheardsinceIleftthehouse。’

  O’Marasmiled,andwasseekingforasuitablereply,whenhisdesignwasinterrupted,andhisattentionsuddenlyandpainfullyarrested,bytheappearanceoftwofigures,whowereslowlypassingthebroadwalkonwhichheandhispartymoved;theonewasthatofCaptainN——,theotherwastheformof——MartinHeathcote!

  O’Marafeltconfounded,almoststunned;

  theanticipationofsomeimpendingmischief——ofanimmediateandviolentcollisionwithayoungmanwhomhehadeverregardedashisfriend,wereapprehensionswhichsuchajuxtapositioncouldnotfailtoproduce。

  ’IsHeathcotemad?’thoughthe。

  ’Whatdevilcanhavebroughthimhere?’

  DwyerhavingexchangedasignificantglancewithO’Mara,saidslightlytoLadyEmily:

  ’Willyourladyshipexcusemeforamoment?IhaveawordtosaytoCaptainN——,andwill,withyourpermission,immediatelyrejoinyou。’

  Hebowed,andwalkingrapidlyon,wasinafewmomentsbesidetheobjectofhisandhispatron’suneasiness。

  WhateverHeathcote’sobjectmightbe,hecertainlyhadnotyetdeclaredthesecret,whosesafetyO’Marahadsonaturallydesired,forCaptainN——appearedingoodspirits;andoncominguptohissisterandhercompanion,hejoinedthemforamoment,tellingO’Mara,laughingly,thatanoldquizhadcomefromthecountryfortheexpresspurposeoftellingtales,asitwastobesupposed,ofhimyoungO’Mara,inwhoseneighbourhoodhelived。

  DuringthisspeechitrequiredalltheeffortwhichitwaspossibletoexerttopreventO’Mara’sbetrayingtheextremeagitationtowhichhissituationgaverise。

  CaptainN——,however,suspectedno-

  thing,andpassedonwithoutfurtherdelay。

  Dinnerwasanearlymealinthosedays,andLadyEmilywasobligedtoleavetheParkinlessthanhalfanhouraftertheunpleasantmeetingwhichwehavejustmentioned。

  YoungO’Maraand,atasignfromhim,DwyerhavingescortedtheladytothedoorofColonelO’Mara’shouse,pretendedanengagement,anddepartedtogether。

  RichardO’Marainstantlyquestionedhiscomradeuponthesubjectofhisanxiety;butDwyerhadnothingtocommunicateofasatisfactorynature。Hehadonlytime,whilethecaptainhadbeenengagedwithLadyEmilyandhercompanion,tosaytoHeathcote:

  ’Besecret,asyouvalueyourexistence:

  everythingwillberight,ifyoubebutsecret。’

  TothisHeathcotehadreplied:’Neverfearme;IunderstandwhatIamabout。’

  ThiswassaidinsuchanambiguousmannerthatitwasimpossibletoconjecturewhetherheintendedornottoactuponDwyer’sexhortation。Theconclusionwhichappearedmostnatural,wasbynomeansanagreeableone。

  ItwasmuchtobefearedthatHeathcotehavingheardsomevaguereportofO’Mara’sengagementwithLadyEmily,perhapsexaggerated,bytherepetition,intoaspeedilyapproachingmarriage,hadbecomealarmedforhisdaughter’sinterest,andhadtakenthisdecisivestepinordertoprevent,byadisclosureofthecircumstancesofhisclandestineunionwithEllen,thepossibilityofhiscompletingaguiltyalliancewithCaptainN——’ssister。Ifheentertainedthesuspicionswhichtheyattributedtohim,hehadcertainlytakenthemosteffectualmeanstopreventtheirbeingrealised。Whateverhisobjectmightbe,hispresenceinDublin,incompanywithCaptainN——,bodednothinggoodtoO’Mara。

  Theyentered——’stavern,inDameStreet,together;andthere,overahastyandbynomeansacomfortablemeal,theytalkedovertheirplansandconjectures。

  Eveningclosedin,andfoundthemstillclosetedtogether,withnothingtointerrupt,andalargetankardofclarettosustaintheirdesultoryconversation。

  Nothinghadbeendeterminedupon,exceptthatDwyerandO’MarashouldproceedundercoverofthedarknesstosearchthetownforHeathcote,andbyminuteinquiriesatthemostfrequentedhousesofentertainment,toascertainhisplaceofresidence,inordertoprocuringafullandexplanatoryinterviewwithhim。

  Theyhadeachfilledtheirlastglass,andweresippingitslowly,seatedwiththeirfeetstretchedtowardsabrightcheerfulfire;thesmalltablewhichsustainedtheflagonofwhichwehavespoken,togetherwithtwopairofwaxcandles,placedbetweenthem,soastoaffordaconvenientresting-placeforthelongglassesoutofwhichtheydrank。

  ’Onegoodresult,atallevents,willbeeffectedbyHeathcote’svisit,’saidO’Mara。

  ’Beforetwenty-fourhoursIshalldothatwhichIshouldhavedonelongago。I

  shall,withoutreserve,stateeverything。

  Icannolongerendurethissuspense——thisdishonourablesecrecy——thisapparentdissimulation。EverymomentIhavepassedsincemydeparturefromthecountryhasbeenoneofembarrassment,ofpain,ofhumiliation。To-morrowIwillbravethestorm,whethersuccessfullyornotisdoubtful;butIhadratherwalkthehighroadsabeggar,thansubmitadaylongertobemadethedegradedsportofeveryaccident——themiserabledependentuponasuccessfulsystemofdeception。ThoughPASSIVEdeception,itisstillunmanly,unworthy,unjustifiabledeception。I

  cannotbeartothinkofit。Idespisemyself,butIwillceasetobethedespicablethingIhavebecome。To-morrowseesmefree,andthisharassingsubjectforeveratrest。’

  Hewasinterruptedherebythesoundoffootstepsheavilybutrapidlyascendingthetavernstaircase。Theroomdooropened,andCaptainN——,accompaniedbyafashionably-attiredyoungman,enteredtheroom。

  YoungO’Marahadrisenfromhisseatontheentranceoftheirunexpectedvisitants;andthemomentCaptainN——

  recognisedhisperson,anevidentandominouschangepassedoverhiscountenance。

  Heturnedhastilytowithdraw,but,asitseemed,almostinstantlychangedhismind,forheturnedagainabruptly。

  ’Thischamberisengaged,sir,’saidthewaiter。

  ’Leavetheroom,sir,’washisonlyreply。

  ’Theroomisengaged,sir,’repeatedthewaiter,probablybelievingthathisfirstsuggestionhadbeenunheard。

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