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  Onthestrengthofheranger,HildawarmedtowardClifford。

  Afterall,hehadamind。Andifhehadnosex,functionally,allthebetter:somuchthelesstoquarrelabout!Hildawantednomoreofthatsexbusiness,wheremenbecamenasty,selfishlittlehorrors。Conniereallyhadlesstoputupwiththanmanywomenifshedidbutknowit。

  AndClifforddecidedthatHilda,afterall,wasadecidedlyintelligentwoman,andwouldmakeamanafirst-ratehelpmate,ifheweregoinginforpoliticsforexample。Yes,shehadnoneofConnie’ssilliness,Conniewasmoreachild:youhadtomakeexcusesforher,becauseshewasnotaltogetherdependable。

  Therewasanearlycupofteainthehall,wheredoorswereopentoletinthesun。Everybodyseemedtobepantingalittle。

  `Good-bye,Conniegirl!Comebacktomesafely。’

  `Good-bye,Clifford!Yes,Ishan’tbelong。’Conniewasalmosttender。

  `Good-bye,Hilda!Youwillkeepaneyeonher,won’tyou?’

  `I’llevenkeeptwo!’saidHilda。`Sheshan’tgoveryfarastray。’

  `It’sapromise!’

  `Good-bye,MrsBolton!Iknowyou’lllookafterSirCliffordnobly。’

  `I’lldowhatIcan,yourLadyship。’

  `Andwritetomeifthereisanynews,andtellmeaboutSirClifford,howheis。’

  `Verygood,yourLadyship,Iwill。Andhaveagoodtime,andcomebackandcheerusup。’

  Everybodywaved。ThecarwentoffConnielookedbackandsawClifford,sittingatthetopofthestepsinhishouse-chair。Afterall,hewasherhusband:Wragbywasherhome:circumstancehaddoneit。

  MrsChambersheldthegateandwishedherladyshipahappyholiday。

  Thecarslippedoutofthedarkspinneythatmaskedthepark,ontothehighroadwherethecolliersweretrailinghome。HildaturnedtotheCrosshillRoad,thatwasnotamainroad,butrantoMansfield。Connieputongoggles。

  Theyranbesidetherailway,whichwasinacuttingbelowthem。Thentheycrossedthecuttingonabridge。

  `That’sthelanetothecottage!’saidConnie。

  Hildaglancedatitimpatiently。

  `It’safrightfulpitywecan’tgostraightoff!’shesaid。WecouldhavebeeninPallMallbynineo’clock。’

  `I’msorryforyoursake,’saidConnie,frombehindhergoggles。

  TheyweresoonatMansfield,thatonce-romantic,nowutterlydishearteningcollierytown。Hildastoppedatthehotelnamedinthemotor-carbook,andtookaroom。Thewholethingwasutterlyuninteresting,andshewasalmosttooangrytotalk。However,Conniehadtotellhersomethingoftheman’shistory。

  `He!He!Whatnamedoyoucallhimby?Youonlysayhe,’

  saidHilda。

  `I’venevercalledhimbyanyname:norheme:whichiscurious,whenyoucometothinkofit。UnlesswesayLadyJaneandJohnThomas。ButhisnameisOliverMellors。’

  `AndhowwouldyouliketobeMrsOliverMellors,insteadofLadyChatterley?’

  `I’dloveit。’

  TherewasnothingtobedonewithConnie。Andanyhow,ifthemanhadbeenalieutenantinthearmyinIndiaforfourorfiveyears,hemustbemoreorlesspresentable。Apparentlyhehadcharacter。Hildabegantorelentalittle。

  `Butyou’llbethroughwithhiminawhile,’shesaid,`andthenyou’llbeashamedofhavingbeenconnectedwithhim。Onecan’tmixupwiththeworkingpeople。’

  `Butyouaresuchasocialist!you’realwaysonthesideoftheworkingclasses。’

  `Imaybeontheirsideinapoliticalcrisis,butbeingontheirsidemakesmeknowhowimpossibleitistomixone’slifewiththeirs。Notoutofsnobbery,butjustbecausethewholerhythmisdifferent。’

  Hildahadlivedamongtherealpoliticalintellectuals,soshewasdisastrouslyunanswerable。

  Thenondescripteveninginthehoteldraggedout,andatlasttheyhadanondescriptdinner。ThenConnieslippedafewthingsintoalittlesilkbag,andcombedherhaironcemore。

  `Afterall,Hilda,’shesaid,`lovecanbewonderful:whenyoufeelyoulive,andareintheverymiddleofcreation。’Itwasalmostlikebraggingonherpart。

  `Isupposeeverymosquitofeelsthesame,’saidHilda。`Doyouthinkitdoes?Howniceforit!’

  Theeveningwaswonderfullyclearandlong-lingering,eveninthesmalltown。Itwouldbehalf-lightallnight。Withafacelikeamask,fromresentment,Hildastartedhercaragain,andthetwospedbackontheirtraces,takingtheotherroad,throughBolsover。

  Connieworehergogglesanddisguisingcap,andshesatinsilence。

  BecauseofHilda’sOpposition,shewasfiercelyonthesidleoftheman,shewouldstandbyhimthroughthickandthin。

  Theyhadtheirhead-lightson,bythetimetheypassedCrosshill,andthesmalllit-uptrainthatchuffedpastinthecuttingmadeitseemlikerealnight。Hildahadcalculatedtheturnintothelaneatthebridge-end。

  Shesloweduprathersuddenlyandswervedofftheroad,thelightsglaringwhiteintothegrassy,overgrownlane。Connielookedout。Shesawashadowyfigure,andsheopenedthedoor。

  `Hereweare!’shesaidsoftly。

  ButHildahadswitchedoffthelights,andwasabsorbedbacking,makingtheturn。

  `Nothingonthebridge?’sheaskedshortly。`You’reallright,’saidthemall’svoice。Shebackedontothebridge,reversed,letthecarrunforwardsafewyardsalongtheroad,thenbackedintothelane,underawych-elmtree,crushingthegrassandbracken。Thenallthelightswentout。Conniesteppeddown。Themanstoodunderthetrees。

  `Didyouwaitlong?’Connieasked。

  `Notsovery,’hereplied。

  TheybothwaitedforHildatogetout。ButHildashutthedoorofthecarandsattight。

  `ThisismysisterHilda。Won’tyoucomeandspeaktoher?Hilda!ThisisMrMellors。’

  Thekeeperliftedhishat,butwentnonearer。

  `Dowalkdowntothecottagewithus,Hilda,’Conniepleaded。`It’snotfar。’

  `Whataboutthecar?’

  `Peopledoleavethemonthelanes。Youhavethekey。’

  Hildawassilent,deliberating。Thenshelookedbackwardsdownthelane。

  `CanIbackroundthebush?’shesaid。

  `Ohyes!’saidthekeeper。

  Shebackedslowlyroundthecurve,outofsightoftheroad,lockedthecar,andgotdown。Itwasnight,butluminousdark。Thehedgesrosehighandwild,bytheunusedlane,andverydarkseeming。Therewasafreshsweetscentontheair。Thekeeperwentahead,thencameConnie,thenHilda,andinsilence。Helitupthedifficultplaceswithaflash-lighttorch,andtheywentonagain,whileanowlsoftlyhootedovertheoaks,andFlossiepaddedsilentlyaround。Nobodycouldspeak。Therewasnothingtosay。

  AtlengthConniesawtheyellowlightofthehouse,andherheartbeatfast。Shewasalittlefrightened。Theytrailedon,stillinIndianfile。

  Heunlockedthedoorandprecededthemintothewarmbutbarelittleroom。Thefireburnedlowandredinthegrate。Thetablewassetwithtwoplatesandtwoglassesonaproperwhitetable-clothforOnce。Hildashookherhairandlookedroundthebare,cheerlessroom。Thenshesummonedhercourageandlookedattheman。

  Hewasmoderatelytall,andthin,andshethoughthimgood-looking。

  Hekeptaquietdistanceofhisown,andseemedabsolutelyunwillingtospeak。

  `Dositdown,Hilda,’saidConnie。

  `Do!’hesaid。`CanImakeyouteaoranything,orwillyoudrinkaglassofbeer?It’smoderatelycool。’

  `Beer!’saidConnie。

  `Beerforme,please!’saidHilda,withamocksortofshyness。Helookedatherandblinked。

  Hetookabluejugandtrampedtothescullery。Whenhecamebackwiththebeer,hisfacehadchangedagain。

  Conniesatdownbythedoor,andHildasatinhisseat,withthebacktothewall,againstthewindowcorner。

  `Thatishischair,’saidConniesoftly。’AndHildaroseasifithadburnther。

  `Sityerstill,sityerstill!Ta’eonycheerasyo’namindto,noneofusisth’bigbear,’hesaid,withcompleteequanimity。

  AndhebroughtHildaaglass,andpouredherbeerfirstfromthebluejug。

  `Asforcigarettes,’hesaid,`I’vegotnone,but’appenyou’vegotyourown。Idunnasmoke,mysen。Shally’eatsummat?’HeturneddirecttoConnie。`Shallt’eatasmiteo’summat,ifIbringitthee?Thacanusuallydowi’abite。’Hespokethevernacularwithacuriouscalmassurance,asifhewerethelandlordoftheInn。

  `Whatisthere?’askedConnie,flushing。

  `Boiledham,cheese,pickledwa’nuts,ifyerlike——Nowtmuch。’

  `Yes,’saidConnie。`Won’tyou,Hilda?’

  Hildalookedupathim。

  `WhydoyouspeakYorkshire?’shesaidsoftly。

  `That!That’snonYorkshire,that’sDerby。’

  Helookedbackatherwiththatfaint,distantgrin。

  `Derby,then!WhydoyouspeakDerby?YouspokenaturalEnglishatfirst。’

  `DidAhthough?An’cannaAhchangeifAh’mamindto’t?Nay,nay,letmetalkDerbyifitsuitsme。Ifyo’nnowtagainstit。’

  `Itsoundsalittleaffected,’saidHilda。

  `Ay,’appenso!An’upi’Tevershallyo’dsoundaffected。’Helookedagainather,withaqueercalculatingdistance,alonghischeek-bone:

  asiftosay:Yi,an’whoareyou?

  Hetrampedawaytothepantryforthefood。

  Thesisterssatinsilence。Hebroughtanotherplate,andknifeandfork。Thehesaid:

  `An’ifit’sthesametoyou,Is’llta’emycoatofflikeIallersdo。’

  Andhetookoffhiscoat,andhungitonthepeg,thensatdowntotableinhisshirt-sleeves:ashirtofthin,cream-colouredflannel。

  `’Elpyerselves!’hesaid。`’Elpyerselves!Dunnawaitf’raxin’!’Hecutthebread,thensatmotionless。Hildafelt,asConnieonceusedto,hispowerofsilenceanddistance。Shesawhissmallish,sensitive,loosehandonthetable。Hewasnosimpleworkingman,nothe:hewasacting!

  acting!

  `Still!’shesaid,asshetookalittlecheese。`ItwouldbemorenaturalifyouspoketousinnormalEnglish,notinvernacular。’

  Helookedather,feelingherdevilofawill。

  `Wouldit?’hesaidinthenormalEnglish。`Wouldit?Wouldanythingthatwassaidbetweenyouandmebequitenatural,unlessyousaidyouwishedmetohellbeforeyoursistereversawmeagain:andunlessIsaidsomethingalmostasunpleasantbackagain?Wouldanythingelsebenatural?’

  `Ohyes!’saidHilda。`Justgoodmannerswouldbequitenatural。’

  `Secondnature,sotospeak!’hesaid:thenhebegantolaugh。`Nay,’

  hesaid。`I’mwearyo’manners。Letmebe!’

  Hildawasfranklybaffledandfuriouslyannoyed。Afterall,hemightshowthatherealizedhewasbeinghonoured。Insteadofwhich,withhisplay-actingandlordlyairs,heseemedtothinkitwashewhowasconferringthehonour。Justimpudence!PoormisguidedConnie,intheman’sclutches!

  Thethreeateinsilence。Hildalookedtoseewhathistable-mannerswerelike。Shecouldnothelprealizingthathewasinstinctivelymuchmoredelicateandwell-bredthanherself。ShehadacertainScottishclumsiness。

  Andmoreover,hehadallthequietself-containedassuranceoftheEnglish,nolooseedges。Itwouldbeverydifficulttogetthebetterofhim。

  Butneitherwouldhegetthebetterofher。

  `Anddoyoureallythink,’shesaid,alittlemorehumanly,`it’sworththerisk。’

  `Iswhatworthwhatrisk?’

  `Thisescapadewithmysister。’

  Heflickeredhisirritatinggrin。

  `Yo’maunax’er!’ThenhelookedatConnie。

  `Thacomeso’thineownaccord,lass,doesn’tter?It’snonmeasforcesthee?’

  ConnielookedatHilda。

  `Iwishyouwouldn’tcavil,Hilda。’

  `NaturallyIdon’twantto。Butsomeonehastothinkaboutthings。You’vegottohavesomesortofcontinuityinyourlife。Youcan’tjustgomakingamess。’

  Therewasamoment’spause。

  `Eh,continuity!’hesaid。`An’whatbythat?Whatcontinuityaveyergoti’yourlife?Ithoughtyouwasgettin’divorced。Whatcontinuity’sthat?Continuityo’yerownstubbornness。Icanseethatmuch。An’whatgood’sitgoin’todoyer?You’llbesicko’yercontinuityaforeyerafatsightolder。Astubbornwomananerownself-will:ay,theymakeafastcontinuity,theydo。Thankheaven,itisn’tmeas`asgotth’’andlin’

  ofyer!’

  `Whatrighthaveyoutospeaklikethattome?’saidHilda。

  `Right!Whatrightha’yo’terstartharnessin’otherfolksi’yourcontinuity?Leavefolkstotheirowncontinuities。’

  `Mydearman,doyouthinkIamconcernedwithyou?’saidHildasoftly。

  `Ay,’hesaid。`Yo’are。Forit’saforce-put。Yo’moreorlessmysister-in-law。’

  `Stillfarfromit,Iassureyou。

  `Nota’thatfar,Iassureyou。I’vegotmyownsorto’continuity,backyourlife!Goodasyours,anyday。An’ifyoursistertherecomestermeforabito’cuntan’tenderness,sheknowswhatshe’safter。She’sbeeninmybedafore:whichyou’aven’t,thanktheLord,withyourcontinuity。’

  Therewasadeadpause,beforeheadded:`——Eh,Idon’twearmebreechesarse-forrards。An’ifIgetawindfall,Ithankmystars。Amangetsalotofenjoymentouto’thatlasstheer,whichismorethananybodygetsouto’th’likeso’you。Whichisapity,foryoumightappena’binagoodapple,’steadofahandsomecrab。Womenlikeyouneedspropergraftin’。’

  Hewaslookingatherwithanodd,flickeringsmile,faintlysensualandappreciative。

  `Andmenlikeyou,’shesaid,`oughttobesegregated:justifyingtheirownvulgarityandselfishlust。’

  `Ay,ma’am!It’samercythere’safewmenleftlikeme。Butyoudeservewhatyouget:tobeleftseverelyalone。’

  Hildahadrisenandgonetothedoor。Heroseandtookhiscoatfromthepeg。

  `Icanfindmywayquitewellalone,’shesaid。

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