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  Mustitnotfollowofcourse,that,whenhewasunderstood,heshouldsucceed?Hebelieveditfully。Lovesuchashis,inamanlikehimself,mustwithperseverancesecureareturn,andatnogreatdistance;andhehadsomuchdelightintheideaofobliginghertolovehiminaveryshorttime,thathernotlovinghimnowwasscarcelyregretted。

  AlittledifficultytobeovercomewasnoeviltoHenryCrawford。Heratherderivedspiritsfromit。

  Hehadbeenapttogainheartstooeasily。Hissituationwasnewandanimating。

  ToFanny,however,whohadknowntoomuchoppositionallherlifetofindanycharminit,allthiswasunintelligible。

  Shefoundthathedidmeantopersevere;buthowhecould,aftersuchlanguagefromherasshefeltherselfobligedtouse,wasnottobeunderstood。Shetoldhimthatshedidnotlovehim,couldnotlovehim,wassureshenevershouldlovehim;thatsuchachangewasquiteimpossible;

  thatthesubjectwasmostpainfultoher;thatshemustentreathimnevertomentionitagain,toallowhertoleavehimatonce,andletitbeconsideredasconcludedforever。

  Andwhenfartherpressed,hadadded,thatinheropiniontheirdispositionsweresototallydissimilarastomakemutualaffectionincompatible;andthattheywereunfittedforeachotherbynature,education,andhabit。Allthisshehadsaid,andwiththeearnestnessofsincerity;

  yetthiswasnotenough,forheimmediatelydeniedtherebeinganythinguncongenialintheircharacters,oranythingunfriendlyintheirsituations;andpositivelydeclared,thathewouldstilllove,andstillhope!

  Fannyknewherownmeaning,butwasnojudgeofherownmanner。

  Hermannerwasincurablygentle;andshewasnotawarehowmuchitconcealedthesternnessofherpurpose。

  Herdiffidence,gratitude,andsoftnessmadeeveryexpressionofindifferenceseemalmostaneffortofself-denial;

  seem,atleast,tobegivingnearlyasmuchpaintoherselfastohim。Mr。CrawfordwasnolongertheMr。Crawfordwho,astheclandestine,insidious,treacherousadmirerofMariaBertram,hadbeenherabhorrence,whomshehadhatedtoseeortospeakto,inwhomshecouldbelievenogoodqualitytoexist,andwhosepower,evenofbeingagreeable,shehadbarelyacknowledged。HewasnowtheMr。Crawfordwhowasaddressingherselfwithardent,disinterestedlove;

  whosefeelingswereapparentlybecomeallthatwashonourableandupright,whoseviewsofhappinesswereallfixedonamarriageofattachment;whowaspouringouthissenseofhermerits,describinganddescribingagainhisaffection,provingasfaraswordscouldproveit,andinthelanguage,tone,andspiritofamanoftalenttoo,thathesoughtherforhergentlenessandhergoodness;

  andtocompletethewhole,hewasnowtheMr。CrawfordwhohadprocuredWilliam’spromotion!

  Herewasachange,andherewereclaimswhichcouldnotbutoperate!Shemighthavedisdainedhiminallthedignityofangryvirtue,inthegroundsofSotherton,orthetheatreatMansfieldPark;butheapproachedhernowwithrightsthatdemandeddifferenttreatment。

  Shemustbecourteous,andshemustbecompassionate。

  Shemusthaveasensationofbeinghonoured,andwhetherthinkingofherselforherbrother,shemusthaveastrongfeelingofgratitude。Theeffectofthewholewasamannersopityingandagitated,andwordsintermingledwithherrefusalsoexpressiveofobligationandconcern,thattoatemperofvanityandhopelikeCrawford’s,thetruth,oratleastthestrengthofherindifference,mightwellbequestionable;andhewasnotsoirrationalasFannyconsideredhim,intheprofessionsofpersevering,assiduous,andnotdespondingattachmentwhichclosedtheinterview。

  Itwaswithreluctancethathesufferedhertogo;buttherewasnolookofdespairinpartingtobeliehiswords,orgiveherhopesofhisbeinglessunreasonablethanheprofessedhimself。

  Nowshewasangry。Someresentmentdidariseataperseverancesoselfishandungenerous。Herewasagainawantofdelicacyandregardforotherswhichhadformerlysostruckanddisgustedher。HerewasagainasomethingofthesameMr。Crawfordwhomshehadsoreprobatedbefore。

  Howevidentlywasthereagrosswantoffeelingandhumanitywherehisownpleasurewasconcerned;andalas!howalwaysknownnoprincipletosupplyasadutywhattheheartwasdeficientin!Hadherownaffectionsbeenasfreeasperhapstheyoughttohavebeen,henevercouldhaveengagedthem。

  SothoughtFanny,ingoodtruthandsobersadness,asshesatmusingoverthattoogreatindulgenceandluxuryofafireupstairs:wonderingatthepastandpresent;

  wonderingatwhatwasyettocome,andinanervousagitationwhichmadenothingcleartoherbutthepersuasionofherbeingneverunderanycircumstancesabletoloveMr。Crawford,andthefelicityofhavingafiretositoverandthinkofit。

  SirThomaswasobliged,orobligedhimself,towaittillthemorrowforaknowledgeofwhathadpassedbetweentheyoungpeople。HethensawMr。Crawford,andreceivedhisaccount。Thefirstfeelingwasdisappointment:

  hehadhopedbetterthings;hehadthoughtthatanhour’sentreatyfromayoungmanlikeCrawfordcouldnothaveworkedsolittlechangeonagentle-temperedgirllikeFanny;

  buttherewasspeedycomfortinthedeterminedviewsandsanguineperseveranceofthelover;andwhenseeingsuchconfidenceofsuccessintheprincipal,SirThomaswassoonabletodependonithimself。

  Nothingwasomitted,onhisside,ofcivility,compliment,orkindness,thatmightassisttheplan。Mr。Crawford’ssteadinesswashonoured,andFannywaspraised,andtheconnexionwasstillthemostdesirableintheworld。

  AtMansfieldParkMr。Crawfordwouldalwaysbewelcome;

  hehadonlytoconsulthisownjudgmentandfeelingsastothefrequencyofhisvisits,atpresentorinfuture。

  Inallhisniece’sfamilyandfriends,therecouldbebutoneopinion,onewishonthesubject;theinfluenceofallwholovedhermustinclineoneway。

  Everythingwassaidthatcouldencourage,everyencouragementreceivedwithgratefuljoy,andthegentlemenpartedthebestoffriends。

  Satisfiedthatthecausewasnowonafootingthemostproperandhopeful,SirThomasresolvedtoabstainfromallfartherimportunitywithhisniece,andtoshewnoopeninterference。Uponherdispositionhebelievedkindnessmightbethebestwayofworking。

  Entreatyshouldbefromonequarteronly。Theforbearanceofherfamilyonapoint,respectingwhichshecouldbeinnodoubtoftheirwishes,mightbetheirsurestmeansofforwardingit。Accordingly,onthisprinciple,SirThomastookthefirstopportunityofsayingtoher,withamildgravity,intendedtobeovercoming,“Well,Fanny,IhaveseenMr。Crawfordagain,andlearnfromhimexactlyhowmattersstandbetweenyou。Heisamostextraordinaryyoungman,andwhateverbetheevent,youmustfeelthatyouhavecreatedanattachmentofnocommoncharacter;though,youngasyouare,andlittleacquaintedwiththetransient,varying,unsteadynatureoflove,asitgenerallyexists,youcannotbestruckasIamwithallthatiswonderfulinaperseveranceofthissortagainstdiscouragement。Withhimitisentirelyamatteroffeeling:heclaimsnomeritinit;

  perhapsisentitledtonone。Yet,havingchosensowell,hisconstancyhasarespectablestamp。Hadhischoicebeenlessunexceptionable,Ishouldhavecondemnedhispersevering。“

  “Indeed,sir,“saidFanny,“IamverysorrythatMr。Crawfordshouldcontinuetoknowthatitispayingmeaverygreatcompliment,andIfeelmostundeservedlyhonoured;

  butIamsoperfectlyconvinced,andIhavetoldhimso,thatitneverwillbeinmypower——“

  “Mydear,“interruptedSirThomas,“thereisnooccasionforthis。Yourfeelingsareaswellknowntomeasmywishesandregretsmustbetoyou。

  Thereisnothingmoretobesaidordone。Fromthishourthesubjectisnevertoberevivedbetweenus。

  Youwillhavenothingtofear,ortobeagitatedabout。

  Youcannotsupposemecapableoftryingtopersuadeyoutomarryagainstyourinclinations。YourhappinessandadvantageareallthatIhaveinview,andnothingisrequiredofyoubuttobearwithMr。Crawford’sendeavourstoconvinceyouthattheymaynotbeincompatiblewithhis。

  Heproceedsathisownrisk。Youareonsafeground。

  Ihaveengagedforyourseeinghimwheneverhecalls,asyoumighthavedonehadnothingofthissortoccurred。

  Youwillseehimwiththerestofus,inthesamemanner,and,asmuchasyoucan,dismissingtherecollectionofeverythingunpleasant。HeleavesNorthamptonshiresosoon,thateventhisslightsacrificecannotbeoftendemanded。

  Thefuturemustbeveryuncertain。Andnow,mydearFanny,thissubjectisclosedbetweenus。“

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