“Dogsrun-“
“Dogs?Now,enough,littlefellow。“
“Dogsrunlikechickens。Theyrunhere,intheravine,“
continuedNilushkainthemurmuringaccentsofachildofthree。
“Nevertheless,“musedVologonov,“eventhatseemingnothingofhismaymeansomething。Yes,theremaylieinitagreatdeal。
Now,say:’Perditionwillarisebeforehimwhoshallhasten。’“
“No,IwanttoSINGsomething。“
WithasplutterVologonovsaid:
“Trulyyouareadifficultsubjecttodealwith!“
Andwiththathefelltopacingthefloorwithlong,thoughtfulstridesastheidiot’svoicecriedinquaveringaccents:
“OLo-ord,haveme-ercyuponus!“
ThusthewinsomeNilushkaprovedindispensabletothefoul,mean,unhealthylifeofthesuburb。Ofthatlifehecolouredandroundedoffthesenselessness,theugliness,thesuperfluity。Heresembledanapplehangingforgottenonagnarledoldworm-eatentree,whenceallthefruitandtheleaveshavefallenuntilonlythebrancheswaveintheautumnwind。Rather,heresembledasole-survivingpictureinthepagesofaragged,soiledoldbookwhichhasneitherabeginningnoranending,andthereforecannolongerberead,isnolongerworththereading,sincenowitspagescontainnothingintelligible。
Andassmilinghisgracioussmile,thelad’spathetic,legendaryfigureflittedpastthemouldybutsandcrackedfencesandriotousbedsofnettles,therewouldreadilyrecurtothememory,andsucceedoneanother,visionsofsomeofthefinerandmorereputablepersonagesofRussianlore——therewouldfilebeforeone’smentalvision,inendlesssequence,menwhosebiographiesinformushow,infearfortheirsouls,theyleftthelifeoftheworld,and,hieingthemtotheforestsandthecaves,abandonedmankindforthewildthingsofnature。Andatthesametimewouldthererecurtoone’smemorypoemsconcerningtheblindandthepoor-inparticular,thepoemconcerningAlexeitheManofGod,andallthemultitudeofotherfair,butunsubstantial,formswhereinRussiahasembodiedhersadandterrifiedsoul,herhumbleandprotestinggrief。Yetitwasaprocesstodepressonealmosttothepointofdistraction。
Once,forgettingthatNilushkawasimbecile,Iconceivedanirrepressibledesiretotalkwithhim,andtoreadhimgoodpoetry,andtotellhimbothoftheworld’syouthfulhopesandofmyownpersonalthoughts。
Theoccasionhappenedonadaywhen,asIwassittingontheedgeoftheravine,anddanglingmylegsovertheravine’sdepths,theladcamefloatingtowardsmeasthoughonair。Inhishands,withtheirfingersasslenderasagirl’s,hewasholdingalargeleaf;andashegazedatitthesmileofhisclearblueeyeswas,asitwere,pervadinghimfromheadtofoot。
“Whither,Nilushka?“saidI。
Withastartheraisedhisheadandeyesheavenward。Thentimidlyheglancedattheblueshadowoftheravine,andextendedtomehisleaf,overtheveinsofwhichtherewascrawlingaladybird。
“Abukan,“heobserved。
“Itisso。Andwhitherareyougoingtotakeit?“
“Weshallallofusdie。Iwasgoingtotakeandburyit。“
“Butitisalive;andonedoesnotburythingsbeforetheyaredead。“
Nilushkaclosedandopenedhiseyesonceortwice。
“Ishouldliketosingsomething,“heremarked。
“Rather,doyouSAYsomething。“
Heglancedattheravineagain——hispinknostrilsquiveringanddilating——thensighedasthoughhewasweary,andinallunconsciousnessmutteredafoulexpression。AshedidsoI
noticedthatontheportionofhisneckbelowhisrighteartherewasalargebirthmark,andthat,coveredwithgoldendownlikevelvet,andresemblinginshapeabee,itseemedtobeendowedwithasimilitudeoflife,throughthefaintbeatingofaveininitsvicinity。
Presentlytheladybirdraisedherupperwingsasthoughshewerepreparingforflight;whereuponNilushkasoughtwithafingertodetainher,and,insodoing,letfalltheleaf,andenabledtheinsecttodetachitselfandflyawayatalowlevel。Uponthat,bendingforwardwitharmsoutstretched,theidiotwentsoftlyinpursuit,muchasthoughhehimselfwerelaunchinghisbodyintoleisurelyflight,but,whentenpacesaway,stopped,raisedhisfacetoheaven,and,witharmspendentbeforehim,andthepalmsofhishandsturnedoutwardsasthoughrestingonsomethingwhichIcouldnotsee,remainedfixedandmotionless。
Fromtheravinethereweretendingupwardstowardsthesunlightsomegreensprigsofwillow,withdullyellowflowersandaclumpofgreywormwood,whilethedampcrackswhichseamedtheclayoftheravinewerelinedwithroundleavesofthe“mother-stepmotherplant,“androundaboutuslittlebirdswerehovering,andfromboththebushesandthebedoftheravinetherewasascendingthemoistsmellofdecay。Yetoverourheadstheskywasclear,asthesun,nowsoleoccupantoftheheavens,declinedslowlyinthedirectionofthedarkmarshesacrosstheriver;onlyabovetheroofsofZhitnaiaStreetcouldtherebeseenflutteringaboutinalarmaflockofsnow-whitepigeons,whilewavingbelowthemwastheblackbesomwhichhad,asitwere,sweptthemintotheair,andfromafaronecouldhearthesoundofanangrymurmur,themournful,mysteriousmurmurofthetown。
Whiningly,likeanoldman,achildofthesuburbwasraisingitsvoiceinlamentation;andasIlistenedtothesound,itputmeinmindofaclerkreadingVespersamidthedesolationofanemptychurch。Presentlyabrowndogpasseduswithshaggyheaddespondentlypendent,andeyesasbeautifulasthoseofadrunkenwoman。
And,tocompletethepicture,therewasstanding——outlinedagainstthenearestshantyofthesuburb,ashantywhichlayattheextremeedgeoftheravine-therewasstanding,facetothesun,andbacktothetown,asthoughpreparingforflight,thestraight,slenderformoftheboywho,whilealientoall,caressedallwiththeeternallyincomprehensiblesmileofhisangel-likeeyes。Yes,thatgoldenbirthmarksolikeabeeIcanseetothisday!
Twoweekslater,onaSundayatmid-day,Nilushkapassedintotheotherworld。Thatday,afterreturninghomefromlateMass,andhandingtohismotheracoupleofwaferswhichhadbeengivenhimasamarkofcharity,theladsaid:
“Mother,pleaselayoutmybedonthechest,forIthinkthatI
amgoingtoliedownforthelasttime。“
YetthewordsinnowaysurprisedFelitzata,forhehadoftenbeforeremarked,beforeretiringtorest:
“Somedayweshallallofushavetodie。“
Atthesametime,whereas,onpreviousoccasions,Nilushkahadnevergonetosleepwithoutfirstofallsingingtohimselfhislittlesong,andthenchantingtheeternal,universal“Lord,havemercyuponus!“he,onthisoccasion,merelyfoldedhishandsuponhisbreast,closedhiseyes,andrelapsedintoslumber。
ThatdayFelitzatahaddinner,andthendepartedonbusinessofherown;andwhenshereturnedintheevening,shewasastonishedtofindthathersonwasstillasleep。Next,onlookingcloserathim,sheperceivedthathewasdead。
“Ilooked,“sherelatedplaintivelytosomeofthesuburbanresidentswhocamerunningtohercot,“andperceivedhislittlefeettobeblue;andsinceitwasonlyjustbeforeMassthatIhadwashedhishandswithsoap,Iremarkedthemorereadilythathisfeetwerebecomelesswhitethanhishands。AndwhenIfeltoneofthosehands,Ifoundthatithadstiffened。“
OnFelitzata’sface,assherecountedthis,therewasmanifestanervousexpression。Likewise,herfeatureswereatrifleflushed。Yetgleamingalsothroughthetearsinherlanguorouseyestherewasasenseofrelief——onemightalmosthavesaidasenseofjoy。
“Next,“continuedshe,“Ilookedcloserstill,andthenfellonmykneesbeforethebody,sobbing:’0hmydarling,whitherartthoufled?0hGod,whereforehastThoutakenhimfromme?’“
HereFelitzatainclinedherheaduponherleftshouldercontractedherbrowsoverhermischievouseyes,claspedherhandstoherbreast,andfellintothelament:
Oh,goneismydove,myradiantmoon!
0starofmineeyes,thouhastsettoosoon!
Indarksomedepthsthylightliesdrown’d,Andtimemustyetcompleteitsround,AndthetrumpoftheSecondAdventsound,Ereevermy——
“Here,you!Holdyourtongue!“gruntedVologonovirritably。
Formyself,Ihad,thatday,beenwalkingintheforest,until,asIreturned,IwasbroughtupshortbeforethewindowsofFelitzata’scotbythefactthatsomeoftheerstwhileturbulentdenizensofthesuburbwerewhisperingsoftlytogetheras,withanabsenceofallnoise,theytookturnstoraisethemselvesontiptoe,and,craningtheirnecks,topeerintooneoftheblackwindow-spaces。Yes,likebeesonthestepofahivedidtheylook,andonthegreatmajorityoffaces,andinthegreatmajorityofeyes,therewasquiveringanairoftense,nervousexpectancy。
OnlyVologonovwasnudgingFelitzata,andsayingtoherinaloud,authoritativetone: