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  “Dogsrun-“

  “Dogs?Now,enough,littlefellow。“

  “Dogsrunlikechickens。Theyrunhere,intheravine,“

  continuedNilushkainthemurmuringaccentsofachildofthree。

  “Nevertheless,“musedVologonov,“eventhatseemingnothingofhismaymeansomething。Yes,theremaylieinitagreatdeal。

  Now,say:’Perditionwillarisebeforehimwhoshallhasten。’“

  “No,IwanttoSINGsomething。“

  WithasplutterVologonovsaid:

  “Trulyyouareadifficultsubjecttodealwith!“

  Andwiththathefelltopacingthefloorwithlong,thoughtfulstridesastheidiot’svoicecriedinquaveringaccents:

  “OLo-ord,haveme-ercyuponus!“

  ThusthewinsomeNilushkaprovedindispensabletothefoul,mean,unhealthylifeofthesuburb。Ofthatlifehecolouredandroundedoffthesenselessness,theugliness,thesuperfluity。Heresembledanapplehangingforgottenonagnarledoldworm-eatentree,whenceallthefruitandtheleaveshavefallenuntilonlythebrancheswaveintheautumnwind。Rather,heresembledasole-survivingpictureinthepagesofaragged,soiledoldbookwhichhasneitherabeginningnoranending,andthereforecannolongerberead,isnolongerworththereading,sincenowitspagescontainnothingintelligible。

  Andassmilinghisgracioussmile,thelad’spathetic,legendaryfigureflittedpastthemouldybutsandcrackedfencesandriotousbedsofnettles,therewouldreadilyrecurtothememory,andsucceedoneanother,visionsofsomeofthefinerandmorereputablepersonagesofRussianlore——therewouldfilebeforeone’smentalvision,inendlesssequence,menwhosebiographiesinformushow,infearfortheirsouls,theyleftthelifeoftheworld,and,hieingthemtotheforestsandthecaves,abandonedmankindforthewildthingsofnature。Andatthesametimewouldthererecurtoone’smemorypoemsconcerningtheblindandthepoor-inparticular,thepoemconcerningAlexeitheManofGod,andallthemultitudeofotherfair,butunsubstantial,formswhereinRussiahasembodiedhersadandterrifiedsoul,herhumbleandprotestinggrief。Yetitwasaprocesstodepressonealmosttothepointofdistraction。

  Once,forgettingthatNilushkawasimbecile,Iconceivedanirrepressibledesiretotalkwithhim,andtoreadhimgoodpoetry,andtotellhimbothoftheworld’syouthfulhopesandofmyownpersonalthoughts。

  Theoccasionhappenedonadaywhen,asIwassittingontheedgeoftheravine,anddanglingmylegsovertheravine’sdepths,theladcamefloatingtowardsmeasthoughonair。Inhishands,withtheirfingersasslenderasagirl’s,hewasholdingalargeleaf;andashegazedatitthesmileofhisclearblueeyeswas,asitwere,pervadinghimfromheadtofoot。

  “Whither,Nilushka?“saidI。

  Withastartheraisedhisheadandeyesheavenward。Thentimidlyheglancedattheblueshadowoftheravine,andextendedtomehisleaf,overtheveinsofwhichtherewascrawlingaladybird。

  “Abukan,“heobserved。

  “Itisso。Andwhitherareyougoingtotakeit?“

  “Weshallallofusdie。Iwasgoingtotakeandburyit。“

  “Butitisalive;andonedoesnotburythingsbeforetheyaredead。“

  Nilushkaclosedandopenedhiseyesonceortwice。

  “Ishouldliketosingsomething,“heremarked。

  “Rather,doyouSAYsomething。“

  Heglancedattheravineagain——hispinknostrilsquiveringanddilating——thensighedasthoughhewasweary,andinallunconsciousnessmutteredafoulexpression。AshedidsoI

  noticedthatontheportionofhisneckbelowhisrighteartherewasalargebirthmark,andthat,coveredwithgoldendownlikevelvet,andresemblinginshapeabee,itseemedtobeendowedwithasimilitudeoflife,throughthefaintbeatingofaveininitsvicinity。

  Presentlytheladybirdraisedherupperwingsasthoughshewerepreparingforflight;whereuponNilushkasoughtwithafingertodetainher,and,insodoing,letfalltheleaf,andenabledtheinsecttodetachitselfandflyawayatalowlevel。Uponthat,bendingforwardwitharmsoutstretched,theidiotwentsoftlyinpursuit,muchasthoughhehimselfwerelaunchinghisbodyintoleisurelyflight,but,whentenpacesaway,stopped,raisedhisfacetoheaven,and,witharmspendentbeforehim,andthepalmsofhishandsturnedoutwardsasthoughrestingonsomethingwhichIcouldnotsee,remainedfixedandmotionless。

  Fromtheravinethereweretendingupwardstowardsthesunlightsomegreensprigsofwillow,withdullyellowflowersandaclumpofgreywormwood,whilethedampcrackswhichseamedtheclayoftheravinewerelinedwithroundleavesofthe“mother-stepmotherplant,“androundaboutuslittlebirdswerehovering,andfromboththebushesandthebedoftheravinetherewasascendingthemoistsmellofdecay。Yetoverourheadstheskywasclear,asthesun,nowsoleoccupantoftheheavens,declinedslowlyinthedirectionofthedarkmarshesacrosstheriver;onlyabovetheroofsofZhitnaiaStreetcouldtherebeseenflutteringaboutinalarmaflockofsnow-whitepigeons,whilewavingbelowthemwastheblackbesomwhichhad,asitwere,sweptthemintotheair,andfromafaronecouldhearthesoundofanangrymurmur,themournful,mysteriousmurmurofthetown。

  Whiningly,likeanoldman,achildofthesuburbwasraisingitsvoiceinlamentation;andasIlistenedtothesound,itputmeinmindofaclerkreadingVespersamidthedesolationofanemptychurch。Presentlyabrowndogpasseduswithshaggyheaddespondentlypendent,andeyesasbeautifulasthoseofadrunkenwoman。

  And,tocompletethepicture,therewasstanding——outlinedagainstthenearestshantyofthesuburb,ashantywhichlayattheextremeedgeoftheravine-therewasstanding,facetothesun,andbacktothetown,asthoughpreparingforflight,thestraight,slenderformoftheboywho,whilealientoall,caressedallwiththeeternallyincomprehensiblesmileofhisangel-likeeyes。Yes,thatgoldenbirthmarksolikeabeeIcanseetothisday!

  Twoweekslater,onaSundayatmid-day,Nilushkapassedintotheotherworld。Thatday,afterreturninghomefromlateMass,andhandingtohismotheracoupleofwaferswhichhadbeengivenhimasamarkofcharity,theladsaid:

  “Mother,pleaselayoutmybedonthechest,forIthinkthatI

  amgoingtoliedownforthelasttime。“

  YetthewordsinnowaysurprisedFelitzata,forhehadoftenbeforeremarked,beforeretiringtorest:

  “Somedayweshallallofushavetodie。“

  Atthesametime,whereas,onpreviousoccasions,Nilushkahadnevergonetosleepwithoutfirstofallsingingtohimselfhislittlesong,andthenchantingtheeternal,universal“Lord,havemercyuponus!“he,onthisoccasion,merelyfoldedhishandsuponhisbreast,closedhiseyes,andrelapsedintoslumber。

  ThatdayFelitzatahaddinner,andthendepartedonbusinessofherown;andwhenshereturnedintheevening,shewasastonishedtofindthathersonwasstillasleep。Next,onlookingcloserathim,sheperceivedthathewasdead。

  “Ilooked,“sherelatedplaintivelytosomeofthesuburbanresidentswhocamerunningtohercot,“andperceivedhislittlefeettobeblue;andsinceitwasonlyjustbeforeMassthatIhadwashedhishandswithsoap,Iremarkedthemorereadilythathisfeetwerebecomelesswhitethanhishands。AndwhenIfeltoneofthosehands,Ifoundthatithadstiffened。“

  OnFelitzata’sface,assherecountedthis,therewasmanifestanervousexpression。Likewise,herfeatureswereatrifleflushed。Yetgleamingalsothroughthetearsinherlanguorouseyestherewasasenseofrelief——onemightalmosthavesaidasenseofjoy。

  “Next,“continuedshe,“Ilookedcloserstill,andthenfellonmykneesbeforethebody,sobbing:’0hmydarling,whitherartthoufled?0hGod,whereforehastThoutakenhimfromme?’“

  HereFelitzatainclinedherheaduponherleftshouldercontractedherbrowsoverhermischievouseyes,claspedherhandstoherbreast,andfellintothelament:

  Oh,goneismydove,myradiantmoon!

  0starofmineeyes,thouhastsettoosoon!

  Indarksomedepthsthylightliesdrown’d,Andtimemustyetcompleteitsround,AndthetrumpoftheSecondAdventsound,Ereevermy——

  “Here,you!Holdyourtongue!“gruntedVologonovirritably。

  Formyself,Ihad,thatday,beenwalkingintheforest,until,asIreturned,IwasbroughtupshortbeforethewindowsofFelitzata’scotbythefactthatsomeoftheerstwhileturbulentdenizensofthesuburbwerewhisperingsoftlytogetheras,withanabsenceofallnoise,theytookturnstoraisethemselvesontiptoe,and,craningtheirnecks,topeerintooneoftheblackwindow-spaces。Yes,likebeesonthestepofahivedidtheylook,andonthegreatmajorityoffaces,andinthegreatmajorityofeyes,therewasquiveringanairoftense,nervousexpectancy。

  OnlyVologonovwasnudgingFelitzata,andsayingtoherinaloud,authoritativetone:

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