第23章
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  “Veryreadyareyoutoweep,butIshouldlikefirsttoheartheexactcircumstancesofthelad’sdeath。“

  Thusinvited,thewomanwipedhereyeswiththesleeveofherbodice,lickedherlips,heavedaprolongedsigh,andfelltoregardingAntipa’sred,hardbittenfacewiththecheerful,unabashedglanceofapersonwhoisundertheinfluenceofliquor。Fromunderherwhitehead-bandtherehadfallenoverhertemplesandherrightcheekafewwispsofgoldenhair;andindeed,asshedrewherselfup,andtossedherheadandbosom,andsmoothedoutandstretchedthecreasesinherbodice,shelookedlessthanheryears。Everyonenowfelltoeyeingherinanattentivesilence,thoughnot,itwouldseem,withoutatouchofenvy。

  Abruptly,sternly,theoldmaninquired:

  “Didtheladevercomplainofill-health?“

  “No,never,“Felitzatareplied。“Neveroncedidhespeakofit——neveronce。“

  “Andhehadnotbeenbeaten?“

  “Oh,howcanyouaskmesuchathing,andespeciallyseeingthat,that——?“

  “IdidnotsaybeatenbyYOU。“

  “Well,Icannotanswerforanyoneelse,butatleasthadhenomarkonhisbody,seeingthatwhenIliftedthesmockIcouldfindnothingsaveforscratchesonlegsandback。“

  Hertonenowhadinitanewring,aringofincreasedassurance,andwhenshehadfinishedsheclosedherbrighteyeslanguidlybeforeheavingasoft,asitwere,voluptuous,and,withal,veryaudiblesigh。

  Someoneheremurmured:

  “SheDIDusetobeathim。“

  “What?“

  “Atalleventssheusedtolosehertemperwithhim。“

  Thisledtotheputtingofafurtherdozenorsoofleadingquestions;whereafterAntipa,forawhile,preservedasuggestivesilence,andthecrowdtooremainedsilent,asthoughithadsuddenlybeenlulledtoslumber。Onlyatlonglast,andwithaclearingofhisthroat,didAntipasay:

  “Friends,wemustsupposethatGod,ofHisinfiniteMercy,hasvouchsafedtoushereaspecialvisitation,inthat,asallofushaveperceived,aladbereftofwit,thesameradiantladwhomallofushaveknown,hashereabidedintheclosestofcommunionwiththeBlessedDispenseroflifeonearth。“

  ThenImovedaway,foruponmyhearttherewaspressingaburdenofunendurablesorrow,andIwasyearning,oh,soterribly,toseeNilushkaoncemore。

  ThebackportionofFelitzata’scotstoodalittlesunkenintotheground,sothatthefrontportionhaditscoldwindowpanesandraisedsashtiltedatrifletowardstheremoteheavens。I

  bentmyhead,andenteredbytheopendoor。NearthethresholdNilushkawaslyingonanarrowchestagainstthewall。Thefoldsofadark-redpillowoffustianundertheheadsetofftoperfectionthepalebluetintofhisround,innocentfaceunderitscoronaofgoldencurls;andthoughtheeyeswereclosed,andthelipspressedtightlytogether,hestillseemedtobesmilinginhisoldquiet,butjoyous,way。Ingeneral,thetall,thinfigureonthemattressofdarkfelt,withitsbarelegs,anditsslenderhandsandwristsfoldedacrossthebreast,remindedmelessofanangelthanofacertainimageoftheHolyChildwithwhichablackenedoldikonhadrenderedmefamiliarfrommyboyhoodupwards。

  Everythingamidthepurplegloomwasstill。Eventheflieswereforbearingtobuzz。Onlyfromthestreetwastheregratingthroughtheshadedwindowthestrong,roguishvoiceofFelitzataasittracedthestrange,lugubriousword-pattern:

  Withmybosompressedtothewarm,greyearth,Tothee,greyearth,tothee,0hmymotherofold,Ibeseechthee,Iwhoamamotherlikethee,Andamotherinpain,toenfoldinthyarmsThismyson,thismydeadson,thismyruby,Thismydropofmyheart’sblood,thismy——

  SuddenlyIcaughtsightofAntipastandinginthedoorway。Hewaswipinghiseyeswiththebackofhishand。Presentlyinagruffandunsteadyvoicehesaid:

  “Itisallveryfineforyoutoweep,goodwoman,butthepresentisnottherightmomenttosingsuchversesasthose——theyweremeant,rather,tobesunginagraveyardatthesideofatomb。Well,tellmeeverythingwithoutreserve。

  ImportantisitthatIshouldknowEVERYTHING。“

  Whereafter,havingcrossedhimselfwithafalteringhand,hecarefullyscrutinisedthecorpse,andatlastlethiseyeshaltuponthelad’ssweetfeatures。Thenhemutteredsadly:

  “Howextraordinarilyhehasgrown!Yes,deathhasindeedenlargedhim!Ah,well,sobeit!SoonItooshallhavetobestretchingmyselfout。Ohthatitwerenow!“

  Thenwithcautiousmovementsofhisdeformedfingershestraightenedthefoldsofthelad’ssmock,anddrewitoverthelegs。Whereafterhepressedhisflushedlipstothehemofthegarment。

  SaidItohimatthatmoment:

  “Whatisitthatyouhavebeenwantingofhim?Whyisitthatyouhavebeentryingtoteachhimstrangewords?“

  Straighteninghimself,andglancingatmewithdimeyes,Antiparepeated:

  “WhatisitthatIhavebeenwantingofhim?“Totherepetitionheaddedwithmanifestsincerity,thoughalsowithaself-depreciatorymovementofthehead:

  “Totellthetruth,IscarcelyknowWHATitisthatIhavebeenwantingofhim。ByGodIdonot。Yet,asonespeakingthetruthinthepresenceofdeath,IsaythatneverduringmylonglifetimehadIsodesiredaughtelse……Yes,Ihavewaitedandwaitedforfortunetorevealittome;andeverhasfortuneremainedmuteandtongueless。Foolishwasitofmetohaveexpectedotherwise,tohaveexpected,forinstance,thatsomedaytheremightoccursomethingmarvellous,somethingunlooked-for。“

  Withashortlaugh,heindicatedthecorpsewithhiseyes,andcontinuedmorefirmly:

  “Yes,bootlesswasittohaveexpectedanythingfromsuchasourceasthat。Never,despiteone’swishes,wasanythingpossibleofacquisitionthence……Thisisusuallythecase。

  Felitzata,asacleverwomanindeedalbeitonecoldofheart,wasforhavinghersonaccountedaGod’sfool,andtherebygainingsomeprovisionagainstheroldage。“

  “Butyouyourselfwerethepersonwhosuggestedthat?Youyourselfwishedit?“

  “I?“

  Presently。thrustinghishandsuphissleeves,headdeddullyandbrokenly:

  “Yes,IDIDwishit。Whynot,indeed,seeingthatatleastitwouldhavebroughtcomforttothepoorpeopleofthisplace?

  SometimesIfeelverysorryforthemwiththeirbitter,troublouslives——liveswhichmaybethelivesofroguesandvillains,yetareliveswhichhaveproducedamongstusapravednik,“[A“justperson,“ahumanbeingwithoutsin]。

  Alltheeveningskywasnowaflame。Upontheeartherefellthemournfullament:

  Whensnowhasveiledtheearthinwhite,Thesnowyplainthewildwolvestread。

  TheywailforthecheeringwarmthofspringAsIbewailthebairnthat’sdead。

  Vologonovlistenedforamoment。Thenhesaidfirmly:

  “Thesearemereaccessesofimpulsewhichcomeuponher。Andthatisonlywhatmightbeexpected。Evenasinsongorinvicethereisnoholdingher,soremorse,whenithasfasteneduponsuchawoman’sheart,willknownobounds。Imaytellyouthatononeoccasiontwoyoungmerchantstookher,strippedherstarknaked,anddroveherintheircarriagedownZhitnaiaStreet,withthemselvessittingontheseatsofthevehicle,andFelitzatastandinguprightbetweenthem——yes,inastateofnudity!Thereaftertheybeatheralmosttodeath。“

  AsIsteppedoutintothedark,narrowvestibule,Antipa,whowasfollowingme,muttered:

  “Suchalamentasherscouldcomeonlyofgenuinegrief。“

  WefoundFelitzatainfrontofthehut,withherbackcoveringthewindow。There,withhandspressedtoherbosom,andherskirtallawry,shewasstrainingherdishevelledheadtowardstheheavens,whiletheeveningbreeze,stirringherfineauburnhair,scattereditpromiscuouslyoverherflushed,sharply-definedfeaturesandwildlyprotrudingeyes。Abizarre,pitiable,andextraordinaryfiguredidshecutasshewailedinathroatyvoicewhichconstantlygatheredstrength:

  0hwindsofice,windscruelandrude,Pressonmyhearttillitsthrobbingsfail!

  Arrestthecurrentofmyblood!

  Turnthesehotmeltingtearstohail!

  Beforehertherewaspostedaknotofwomen,compassionatecontemplatorsofthesinger’sdistracted,grief-wroughtfeatures。Throughtheravine’sdarkopeningIcouldseethesunsinkingbelowthesuburbbeforeplungingintothemarshyforestandhavinghisdiskpiercedbysharp,blacktipsofpinetrees。

  Alreadyeverythingaroundhimwasred。Already,seemingly,hehadbeenwounded,andwasbleedingtodeath。

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