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  Yettheirfearofhimwasinnowayreciprocated,nor,forthatmatter,didtheyeverassaulthim,despitethefactthatoccasionallytheywouldthrowanoldbootorachipofwoodinhisdirection-throwitaimlessly,andwithoutreallydesiringtohitthemarkaimedat。

  Also,anythingcircular——forexample,aplateorthewheelofatoy,engagedNilushka’sattentionandledhimtocaressitaseagerlyashedidglobesandballs。Evidentlytherotundityoftheobjectwasthepointthatexcitedhisinterest。Andasheturnedtheobjectoverandover,andfelttheflatpartofit,hewouldmutter:

  “Butwhatabouttheotherone?“

  What“theotherone“meantIcouldneverdivine。NorcouldAntipa。Once,drawingtheidiottohim,hesaid:

  “Whydoyoualwayssay’Whatabouttheotherone’?“

  Troubledandnervous,Nilushkamerelymutteredsomeunintelligiblereplyashisfingersturnedandturnedaboutthecircularobjectwhichhewasholding。

  “Nothing,“atlengthhereplied。

  “Nothingofwhat?

  “Nothinghere。“

  “Ah,heistoofoolishtounderstand,“saidVologonovwithasighashiseyesdarkenedinmeditativefashion。

  “Yes,thoughitmayseemfoolishtosayso,“headded,“somepeoplewouldenvyhim。“

  “Whyshouldthey?“

  “Formorethanonereason。Tobeginwith,helivesalifefreefromcare——heiskeptcomfortably,andevenheldinrespect。

  Sincenoonecanproperlyunderstandhim,andeveryonefearshim,throughabeliefthatfolkwithoutwit,the’blessedonesofGod,’aremoreespeciallytheAlmighty’sfavouritesthanpersonspossessedofunderstanding。Onlyaverywisemancoulddealwithsuchamatter,andthelesssointhatitmustberememberedthatmorethanone’blessedone’hasbecomeaSaint,whilesomeofthosepossessedofunderstandinghavegone——well,havegonewhither?Yes,indeed!“

  And,thoughtfullycontractingthebushyeyebrowswhichlookedasthoughtheyhadbeentakenfromthefaceofanotherman,Vologonovthrusthishandsuphissleeves,andstoodeyeingNilushkashrewdlywithhisintangiblegaze。

  NeverdidFelitzatasayforcertainwhotheboy’sfatherhadbeen,butatleastitwasknowntomethatinvaguetermsshehaddesignatedtwomenassuch——theoneayoung“surveystudent,“andtheotheramerchantbynameViporotkov,amannotorioustothewholetownasamostturbulentrakeandbully。

  ButoncewhensheandAntipaandIwereseatedgossipingattheentrance-gates,andIinquiredofherwhetherNilushka’sfatherwerestillsurviving,sherepliedinacarelessway:

  “Heisso,damnhim!“

  “Thenwhoishe?“

  Felitzata,asusual,lickedherfaded,butstillcomely,lipswiththetipofhertonguebeforeshereplied:

  “Amonk。“

  “Ah!“Vologonovexclaimedwithunexpectedanimation。“That,then,explainsthings。Atallevents,wehaveinitanintelligibleTHEORYofthings。“

  Whereafter,heexpoundedtousatlength,andwithnosparingofdetails,thereasonwhyamonkshouldhavebeenNilushka’sfatherratherthaneitherthemerchantortheyoung“surveystudent。“AndasVologonovproceededhegrewunwontedlyenthusiastic,andwentsofarastoclenchhisfistsuntilpresentlyheheavedasigh,asthoughmentallyhurt,andsaidfrowninglyandreproachfullytothewoman:

  “Whydidyounevertellusthisbefore?Itwasexceedinglynegligentofyou。“

  Felitzatalookedattheoldmanwithsarcasmandsaucinessgleaminginherbrowneyes。Suddenly,however,shecontractedherbrows,counterfeitedasigh,andwhined:

  “Ah,Iwasgood-lookingthen,anddesiredofall。InthosedaysIhadbothagoodheartandahappynature。“

  “Butthemonkmayprovetohavebeenanimportantfactorinthequestion,“wasAntipa’sthoughtfulremark。

  “Yes,andmanyanothermanthanhehasrunaftermeforhispleasure,“continuedFelitzatainatoneofreminiscence。ThisledVologonovtocough,risetohisfeet,layhishanduponthewoman’sclaret-colouredsleeveofsatin,andsaysternly:

  “Doyoucomeintomyroom,forIhavebusinesstotransactwithyou。“

  Asshecompliedshesmiledandwinkedatme。Andsothepairdeparted——heshufflingcarefullywithhisbandylegs,andshewatchingherstepsasthoughatanymomentshemightcollapseontoherleftside。

  Thenceforth,FelitzatavisitedVologonovalmostdaily;andonceduringthetimeoftwohoursorsothatthepairwereoccupiedindrinkingteaIheard,throughthepartition-wall,theoldmansayinvigorous,level,didacticaltones:

  “Thesetalesandrumoursoughtnottobedismissedsavewithcaution。Atleastoughttheytobegiventhebenefitofthedoubt。For,thoughallthathesaysmaySEEMtousunintelligible,theremayyetbeenshrinedthereinameaning,suchas——“

  “Yousayameaning?“

  “Yes,ameaningwhich,eventually,willbevouchsafedtoyouinavision。Forexample,youmayonedayseeissuefromadenseforestamanofGod,andhearhimcryaloud:Felitzata,OhservantofGod,Ohsinnermostdarkofsoul——“

  “Whatacroaking,tobesure!“

  “Besilent!Nononsense!Doyoublameyourselfratherthansingyourownpraises。AndinthatvisionyoumayhearthemanofGodcry:’Felitzata,goyouforthanddothatwhichonewhoshallmeetyoumayrequestyoutoperform!’And,havinggoneforth,youmayfindthemanofGodtobethemonkwhomwehavespokenof。“

  “A-a-ah!“thewomandrawledwithanairofbeingabouttosaysomethingmore。

  “Come,fool!“

  “Yousee——“

  “HaveI,thistime,abusedyou?“

  “No,but——“

  “IhaveanideathatthemanofGodwillbeholdingacrook。“

  “Ofcourse,“assentedFelitzata。

  Similarly,onanotheroccasion,didIhearAntipamutterconfidentiallytohiscompanion:

  “Thefactthatallhissayingsaresosimpleisnotafavourablesign。For,yousee,theydonotharmonisewiththeaffairinitsentirety——insuchaconnectionwordsshouldbemysterious,andso,abletobeinterpretedinmorethanoneway,seeingthatthemoremeaningswordspossess,themorearethosewordsrespectedandheededbymankind。“

  “Whyso?“queriedFelitzata。

  “Whyso?“re-echoedVologonovirritably。“Arewenot,then,torespectANYONEorANYTHING?Onlyheisworthyofrespectwhodoesnotharmhisfellows;andofthosewhodonotharmtheirfellowstherearebutfew。Tothispointyoumustpayattention——youmustteachhimwordsofvariableimport,wordsmoreabstract,aswellasmoresonorous。“

  “ButIknownosuchwords。“

  “Iwillrepeattoyouafew,andeverynight,whenhegoestobed,youshallrepeatthemtoHIM。Forexample:’Adomispolneni,pokaites’[Doyepeoplewhoarefilledwithvenomrepent]。AndmarkthattheexactwordsoftheChurchbeadheredto。Forinstance,’Dushenbitzi,pozhaleiteBoga,okayannie,’[Murderersofthesoul,accursedones,repentyebeforeGod。]mustbesaidratherthan’Dushenbitzi,pozhaleiteBoga,okayanni,’sincethelatter,thoughtheshorterform,isalsonotthecorrectone。

  ButperhapsIhadbetterinstructtheladmyself。“

  “Certainlythatwouldbethebetterplan。“

  SofromthattimeonwardsVologonovfelltostoppingNilushkainthestreet,andrepeatingtohimsomethingoranotherinhiskindlyfashion。Onceheeventookhimbythehand,and,leadinghimtohisroom,andgivinghimsomethingtocat,saidpersuasively:

  “Saythisafterme。’Donothasten,Ohyepeople。’Tryifyoucansaythat。“

  “’Alantern,’“beganNilushkacivilly。

  “’Alantern?’Yes。Well,goon,andsay,’Iamalanternuntothee——“

  “Iwanttosing,it。“

  “Thereisnoneedforthat,thoughpresentlyyoushallsingit。

  Forthemomentyourtaskistolearnthecorrectspeakingofthings。Sosayafterme——“

  “0Lo-ord,havemercy!“cameinaquiet,thoughtfulchantfromtheidiot。Whereafterheaddedinthecoaxingtoneofachild:

  “Weshallallofushavetodie。“

  “Yes,butcome,come!“expostulatedVologonov。“WhatareyoublurtingoutNOW?ThatmuchIknowwithoutyourtellingme——alwayshaveIknown,littlefriend,thateachofusishasteningtowardshisdeath。Yetyourwantofunderstandingexceedswhatshouldbe。“

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