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  Theykepttheirsecretforawhile,oratleasttheyhadthatspecialjoyofbelievingthatnooneinalltheworldbutthemselvesknewthisthathadhappenedtothem。ButIthinkthattherewasonepersonwhoknewhowtokeepasecretevenbetterthanthesetwolovers。Mrs。Taylormadenoremarkstoanyonewhatever。NobodyonBearCreek,however,wassoextraordinarilycheerfulandserene。ThatpeculiarseveritywhichshehadmanifestedinthedayswhenMollywaspackingherpossessions,hadnowaltogetherchanged。Inthesedaysshewasendlesslykindandindulgenttoher“deary。“Although,asahousekeeper,Mrs。

  Taylorbelievedinpunctualityatmeals,andvisitedheroffspringwithdisciplinewhentheywerelatewithoutgoodandsufficientexcuse,Mollywasnowexemptfromthefaintesthintofreprimand。

  “Andit’snotbecauseyou’renothermother,“saidGeorgeTaylor,bitterly。“Sheusedtogetit,too。Andwe’retheonlyonesthatgetit。Thereshecomes,justaswe’reaboutreadytoquit!

  Aren’tyougoingtosayNOTHINGtoher?“

  “George,“saidhismother,“whenyou’vesavedaman’slifeit’llbetimeforyoutotalk。“

  SoMollywouldcomeintohermealswithmuchirregularity;andherremarksabouttheimperfectionsofherclockmetwithnorejoinder。AndyetonecanscarcelybesosevereashadbeenMrs。

  Taylor,andbecomewhollyasmildasmilk。Therewasonerecurrenteventthatcouldinvariablyawakenhostilesymptomsinthedame。WhenevershesawaletterarrivewiththeBenningtonpostmarkuponit,sheshookherfistatthatletter。“What’sfamilypride?“shewouldsaytoherself。“TaylorcouldbeaSonoftheRevolutionifhe’damindto。Iwonderifshehastoldherfolksyet。“

  AndwhenlettersdirectedtoBenningtonwouldgoout,Mrs。Taylorwouldinspecteveryoneasifitsenvelopeoughttogrowtransparentbeneathhereyes,andyielduptoheritsgreatsecret,ifithadone。Butintruththeselettershadnogreatsecrettoyieldup,untiloneday——yes;onedayMrs。Taylorwouldhaveburst,wereburstingathingthatpeopleoftendid。ThreeletterswerethecauseofthisemotiononMrs。Taylor’spart;oneaddressedtoBennington,onetoDunbarton,andthethird——herewasthegreatexcitement——toBennington,butnotinthelittleschoolmarm’sdelicatewriting。Aman’shandhadtracedthoseplain,steadyvowelsandconsonants。

  “It’scome!“exclaimedMrs。Taylor,atthissight。“Hehaswrittentohermotherhimself。“

  ThatiswhattheVirginianhaddone,andhereishowithadcomeabout。

  Thesickman’sconvalescencewasachieved。Theweekshadbroughtbacktohim,nothiswholestrengthyet——thatcouldcomeonlybymanymilesofopenaironthebackofMonte;buthewasstrongenoughnowtoGETstrength。Whenapatientreachesthisstage,heisoutofthewoods。

  Hehadgoneforalittlewalkwithhisnurse。Theyhadtakenunderthedoctor’srecommendationseveralsuchlittlewalks,beginningwithafive-minuteone,andatlastto-dayaccomplishingthreemiles。

  “No,ithasnotbeentoofar,“saidhe。“IamafraidIcouldwalktwiceasfar。“

  “Afraid?“

  “Yes。BecauseitmeansIcangotoworkagain。Thisthingwehavehadtogetherisover。“

  Forreply,sheleanedagainsthim。

  “Lookatyou!“hesaid。“Onlyalittlewhileagoyouhadtohelpmestandonmylaigs。Andnow——“Forawhiletherewassilencebetweenthem。“Ihaveneverhadarightdownsicknessbefore,“hepresentlywenton。“Nottoremember,thatis。IfanypersonhadtoldmeIcouldENJOYsuchathing——“Hesaidnomore,forshereachedup,andnomorespeechwaspossible。

  “Howlonghasitbeen?“henextaskedher。

  Shetoldhim。

  “Well,ifitcouldbeforever——no。Notforeverwithnomorethanthis。IreckonI’dbesickagain!Butifitcouldbeforeverwithjustyouandme,andnooneelsetobotherwith。Butanylongerwouldnotbedoingrightbyyourmother。Shewouldhavearighttothinkillofme。“

  “Oh!“saidthegirl。“Letuskeepit。“

  “NotafterIamgone。Yourmothermustbetold。“

  “Itseemsso——can’twe——oh,whyneedanybodyknow?“

  “Yourmotherain’t’anybody。’Sheisyourmother。IfeelmightyresponsibletoherforwhatIhavedone。“

  “ButIdidit!“

  “Doyouthinkso?Yourmotherwillnotthinkso。Iamgoingtowritetoherto-day。“

  “You!Writetomymother!Oh,theneverythingwillbesodifferent!Theywillall——“MollystoppedbeforetherisingvisionsofBennington。Uponthefairy-talethatshehadbeenlivingwithhercow-boyloverbrokethevoicesoftheworld。Shecouldhearthemfromafar。ShecouldseetheeyesofBenningtonwatchingthismanatherside。ShecouldimaginetheearsofBenningtonlisteningforslipsinhisEnglish。Thereloomeduponhertheroundofvisitswhichtheywouldhavetomake。Theringingofthedoor-bells,thewaitingindrawing-roomsforthemistresstodescendandutterherpreparedcongratulations,whilehersecreteyedevouredtheVirginian’sappearance,andhismannerofstandingandsitting。Hewouldbewearinggloves,insteadoffringedgauntletsofbuckskin。Inasmoothblackcoatandwaistcoat,howcouldtheyperceivethemanhewas?Duringthoseshortformalinterviews,whatwouldtheyeverfindoutofthethingsthatsheknewabouthim?Thethingsforwhichshewasproudofhim?Hewouldspeakshortlyandsimply;theywouldsay,“Oh,yes!“and“HowdifferentyoumustfindthisfromWyoming!“——andthen,afterthedoorwasshutbehindhisdepartingbacktheywouldsay——Hewouldbetotallyunderrated,notintheleastunderstood。Whyshouldhebesubjectedtothis?Heshouldneverbe!

  Nowinallthesehalf-formed,hurried,distressingthoughtswhichstreamedthroughthegirl’smind,shealtogetherforgotonetruth。Trueitwasthatthevoiceoftheworldwouldspeakassheimagined。TrueitwasthatintheeyesofherfamilyandacquaintancethisloverofherchoicewouldbeexaminedevenmorelikeaSPECIMENthanareotherloversupontheseoccasions:andallacceptedlovershavetofacethisordealofbeingtreatedlikespecimensbytheotherfamily。Butdearme!mostofusmanagetostandit,dontwe?Itisn’t,perhaps,themostdeliciousexperiencethatwecanrecallinconnectionwithourengagement。Butitdidn’tprovefatal。Wegotthroughitsomehow。

  WedinedwithAuntJane,andwinedwithUncleJoseph,andperhapshadtwofingersgiventousbyoldCousinHoratio,whoseenormousfortunewasofthegreatestimportancetoeverybody。Andperhapsfragmentsoftheotherfamily’sestimateofussubsequentlyreachedourownears。Butifachosenlovercannotstandbeingtreatedasaspecimenbytheotherfamily,he’saveryweakvessel,andnotworthanygoodgirl’slove。That’sallIcansayforhim。

  NowtheVirginianwasscarcelywhatevenhisenemywouldtermaweakvessel;andMolly’sjealousyoftheimpressionwhichhemightmakeuponBenningtonwasvastlysuperfluous。Sheshouldhaveknownthathewouldindeedcaretomakeagoodimpression;

  butthatsuchanxietyonhispartwouldbewhollyforhersake,thatintheeyesofherfriendsshemightstandjustifiedintakinghimforherweddedhusband。Sofarashewasconcernedapartfromher,AuntJaneandUncleJosephmightsayanythingtheypleased,orthinkanythingtheypleased。Hischaracterwasopenforinvestigation。JudgeHenrywouldvouchforhim。

  Thisiswhathewouldhavesaidtohissweethearthadshebutrevealedtohimherperturbations。Butshedidnotrevealthem;

  andtheywerenotoftheorderthathewithhisnaturewaslikelytodivine。Idonotknowwhatgoodwouldhavecomefromherspeakingouttohim,unlessthatperfectunderstandingbetweenloverswhichindeedisagoodthing。ButIdonotbelievethathecouldhavereassuredher;andIamcertainthatshecouldnothavepreventedhiswritingtohermother。

  “Well,then,“shesighedatlast,“ifyouthinkso,Iwilltellher。“

  Thatsighofhers,beitwellunderstood,wasnotonlybecauseofthosefar-offvoiceswhichtheworldwouldinconsequenceofhernewsbeliftingpresently。Itcamealsofrombiddingfarewelltothefairy-talewhichshemustleavenow;thatlandinwhichsheandhehadbeenlivingclosetogetheralone,unhindered,unmindfulofallthings。

  “Yes,youwilltellher,“saidherlover。“AndImusttellhertoo。“

  “Bothofus?“questionedthegirl。

  Whatwouldhesaytohermother?Howwouldhermotherlikesuchaletterashewouldwritetoher?Supposeheshouldmisspellaword?Wouldnotsentencesfromhimatthistime——writtensentences——beafurtherbartohiswelcomeacceptanceatBennington?

  “Whydon’tyousendmessagesbyme?“sheaskedhim。

  Heshookhishead。“Sheisnotgoingtolikeit,anyway,“heanswered。“Imustspeaktoherdirect。Itwouldbelikeshirking。“

  Mollysawhowtruehisinstinctwashere;andalittleflameshotupwardfromtheglowofherloveandprideinhim。Oh,iftheycouldallonlyknowthathewaslikethiswhenyouunderstoodhim!Shedidnotdaresayouttohimwhatherfearwasaboutthisletterofhistohermother。Shedidnotdarebecause——well,becauseshelackedalittlefaith。Thatisit,Iamafraid。Andforthatsinshewasherownpunishment。Forinthisday,andinmanydaystocome,thepurejoyofherlovewasvexedandclouded,allthroughalittlelackoffaith;whileforhim,perfectinhisfaith,hisjoywaslikecrystal。

  “Tellmewhatyou’regoingtowrite,“shesaid。

  Hesmiledather。“No。“

  “Aren’tyougoingtoletmeseeitwhenit’sdone?“

  “No。“Thenafreakishlookcameintohiseyes。“I’llletyu’seeanythingIwritetootherwomen。“Andhegaveheroneofhislongkisses。“Let’sgetthroughwithittogether,“hesuggested,whentheywereoncemoreinhissick-room,thatroomwhichshehadgiventohim。“You’llsitonesideo’thetable,andI’llsittheother,andwe’llgoahaid;andprettysoonitwillbedone。“

  “Odear!“shesaid。“Yes,Isupposethatisthebestway。“

  Andso,accordingly,theytooktheirplaces。Theinkstandstoodbetweenthem。Besideeachofthemshedistributedpaperenough,almost,forapresidentialmessage。Andpensandpencilswereinplenty。WasthisnottheheadquartersoftheBearCreekschoolmarm?

  “Why,aren’tyougoingtodoitinpencilfirst?“sheexclaimed,lookingupfromhervacantsheet。Hispenwasmovingslowly,butsteadily。

  “No,Idon’treckonIneedto,“heanswered,withhisnoseclosetothepaper。“Oh,damnation,there’sablot!“Hetorehisspoiledbeginninginsmallbits,andthrewthemintothefireplace。“You’vegotittoofull,“hecommented;andtakingtheinkstand,hetippedalittlefromitoutofthewindow。Shesatlostamongherfalsestarts。Hadsheheardhimswear,shewouldnothaveminded。Sheratherlikeditwhenheswore。Hepossessedthatqualityinhisprofanityofnotoffendingbyit。Itisquitewonderfulhowmuchworsethesamewordwillsoundinoneman’slipsthaninanother’s。Butshedidnothearhim。Hermindwasamongalitterofbrokensentences。Eachthoughtwhichshebeganranoutintotheemptyair,orcameagainstsomestonewall。Sothereshesat,hereyesnowuponthatinexorableblanksheetthatlaybeforeher,waiting,andnowturnedwithvacanthopelessnessuponthesundryobjectsintheroom。Andwhileshethussataccomplishingnothing,oppositetohertheblackheadbentdown,andthesteadypenmovedfromphrasetophrase。

  Shebecameawareofhisgazingather,flushedandsolemn。Thatstrangecolorofthesea-water,whichshecouldnevername,waslustrousinhiseyes。Hewasfoldinghisletter。“Youhavefinished?“shesaid。

  “Yes。“Hisvoicewasveryquiet。“Ifeellikeanhonesterman。“

  “PerhapsIcandosomethingto-nightatMrs。Taylor’s,“shesaid,lookingatherpaper。

  Onitwereafewwordscrossedout。Thiswasallshehadtoshow。

  Atthissettaskinletter-writing,thecow-puncherhadgreatlyexcelledtheschoolmarm!

  Butthatnight,whilehelayquitefastasleepinhisbed,shewaskeepingvigilinherroomatMrs。Taylor’s。

  Accordingly,thenextday,thosethreelettersdepartedforthemail,andMrs。Taylorconsequentlymadeherexclamation,“It’scome!“

  OnthedaybeforetheVirginianreturnedtotakeuphisworkatJudgeHenry’sranch,heandMollyannouncedtheirnews。WhatMollysaidtoMrs。TaylorandwhatMrs。Taylorsaidtoher,isofnointeresttous,thoughitwasofmuchtothem。

  ButMr。McLeanhappenedtomakeacallquiteearlyinthemorningtoinquireforhisfriend’shealth。

  “Lin,“begantheVirginian,“thereisnoharminyourknowinganhourorsobeforetherest,Iam——“

  “Lord!“saidMr。McLean,indulgently。Everybodyhasknowedthatsincethedayshefoundyu’atthespring。“

  “Itwasnotso,then,“saidtheVirginian,crossly。

  “Lord!Everybodyhasknoweditrightalong。“

  “Hmp!“saidtheVirginian。“Ididn’tknowthiscountrywasthatrankwithgossips。“

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