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  ’It’stoogoodofyou,——muchtoogoodBecauseyouareconsolingyourselfwithwhatwillneverhappen,andIknowthat,andyetIwanttokeepyouDon’tblamemelater,please。’

  ’I’mgoingintothematterwithmyeyesopenMoreovertheQueencandonowrongItisn’tyourselfishnessthatimpressesmeIt’syouraudacityinproposingtomakeuseofme。’

  ’Pooh!You’reonlyDick,——andaprint-shop。’

  ’Verygood:that’sallIamBut,Maisie,youbelieve,don’tyou,thatIloveyou?Idon’twantyoutohaveanyfalsenotionsaboutbrothersandsisters。’

  Maisielookedupforamomentanddroppedhereyes。

  ’It’sabsurd,but——IbelieveIwishIcouldsendyouawaybeforeyougetangrywithmeBut——butthegirlthatliveswithmeisred-haired,andanimpressionist,andallournotionsclash。’

  ’Sodoours,IthinkNevermindThreemonthsfromto-dayweshallbelaughingatthistogether。’

  Maisieshookherheadmournfully’Iknewyouwouldn’tunderstand,anditwillonlyhurtyoumorewhenyoufindoutLookatmyface,Dick,andtellmewhatyousee。’

  TheystoodupandfacedeachotherforamomentThefogwasgathering,anditstifledtheroarofthetrafficofLondonbeyondtherailingsDickbroughtallhispainfullyacquiredknowledgeoffacestobearontheeyes,mouth,andchinunderneaththeblackvelvettoque。

  ’It’sthesameMaisie,andit’sthesameme,’hesaid’We’vebothnicelittlewillsofourown,andoneorotherofushastobebroken。

  NowaboutthefutureImustcomeandseeyourpicturessomeday,——Isupposewhenthered-hairedgirlisonthepremises。’

  ’SundaysaremybesttimesYoumustcomeonSundaysTherearesuchheapsofthingsIwanttotalkaboutandaskyouradviceabout。

  NowI

  mustgetbacktowork。’

  ’TrytofindoutbeforenextSundaywhatIam,’saidDick’Don’ttakemywordforanythingI’vetoldyouGood-bye,darling,andblessyou。’

  MaisiestoleawaylikealittlegraymouseDickwatchedhertillshewasoutofsight,buthedidnothearhersaytoherself,verysoberly,’I’mawretch,——ahorrid,selfishwretchButit’sDick,andDickwillunderstand。’

  Noonehasyetexplainedwhatactuallyhappenswhenanirresistibleforcemeetstheimmovablepost,thoughmanyhavethoughtdeeply,evenasDickthoughtHetriedtoassurehimselfthatMaisiewouldbeledinafewweeksbyhismerepresenceanddiscoursetoabetterwayofthinkingThenherememberedmuchtoodistinctlyherfaceandallthatwaswrittenonit。

  ’IfIknowanythingofheads,’hesaid,’there’severythinginthatfacebutloveIshallhavetoputthatinmyself;andthatchinandmouthwon’tbewonfornothingButshe’srightSheknowswhatshewants,andshe’sgoingtogetitWhatinsolence!Me!Ofallthepeopleinthewideworld,touseme!Butthenshe’sMaisieThere’snogettingoverthatfact;

  andit’sgoodtoseeheragainThisbusinessmusthavebeensimmeringatthebackofmyheadforyearsShe’llusemeasIusedBinatatPortSaid。

  She’squiterightItwillhurtalittleIshallhavetoseehereverySunday,——likeayoungmancourtingahousemaidShe’ssuretocomearound;andyet——thatmouthisn’tayieldingmouthIshallbewantingtokissherallthetime,andIshallhavetolookatherpictures,——I

  don’tevenknowwhatsortofworkshedoesyet,——andIshallhavetotalkaboutArt,——Woman’sArt!Therefore,particularlyandperpetually,damnallvarietiesofArtItdidmeagoodturnonce,andnowit’sinmywayI’llgohomeanddosomeArt。’

  Half-waytothestudio,Dickwassmittenwithaterriblethought。

  Thefigureofasolitarywomaninthefogsuggestedit。

  ’She’sallaloneinLondon,withared-hairedimpressionistgirl,whoprobablyhasthedigestionofanostrichMostred-hairedpeoplehave。

  Maisie’sabiliouslittlebodyThey’lleatlikelonewomen,——mealsatallhours,andteawithallmealsIrememberhowthestudentsinParisusedtopigalongShemayfallillatanyminute,andIshan’tbeabletohelp。

  Whew!thisistentimesworsethanowningawife。’

  Torpenhowenteredthestudioatdusk,andlookedatDickwitheyesfulloftheausterelovethatspringsupbetweenmenwhohavetuggedatthesameoartogetherandareyokedbycustomanduseandtheintimaciesoftoilThisisagoodlove,and,sinceitallows,andevenencourages,strife,recrimination,andbrutalsincerity,doesnotdie,butgrows,andisproofagainstanyabsenceandevilconduct。

  DickwassilentafterhehandedTorpenhowthefilledpipeofcouncilHethoughtofMaisieandherpossibleneedsItwasanewthingtothinkofanybodybutTorpenhow,whocouldthinkforhimselfHereatlastwasanoutletforthatcashbalanceHecouldadornMaisiebarbaricallywithjewelry,——athickgoldnecklaceroundthatlittleneck,braceletsupontheroundedarms,andringsofpriceuponherhands,——thiecool,temperate,ringlesshandsthathehadtakenbetweenhisownItwasanabsurdthought,forMaisiewouldnotevenallowhimtoputoneringononefinger,andshewouldlaughatgoldentrappingsItwouldbebettertositwithherquietlyinthedusk,hisarmaroundherneckandherfaceonhisshoulder,asbefittedhusbandandwifeTorpenhow’sbootscreakedthatnight,andhisstrongvoicejarredDick’sbrowscontractedandhemurmuredanevilwordbecausehehadtakenallhissuccessasarightandpartpaymentforpastdiscomfort,andnowhewascheckedinhisstridebyawomanwhoadmittedallthesuccessanddidnotinstantlycareforhim。

  ’Isay,oldman,’saidTorpenhow,whohadmadeoneortwovainattemptsatconversation,’Ihaven’tputyourbackupbyanythingI’vesaidlately,haveI?’

  ’You!NoHowcouldyou?’

  ’Liveroutoforder?’

  ’Thetrulyhealthymandoesn’tknowhehasaliverI’monlyabitworriedaboutthingsingeneralIsupposeit’smysoul。’

  ’Thetrulyhealthymandoesn’tknowhehasasoulWhatbusinesshaveyouwithluxuriesofthatkind?’

  ’ItcameofitselfWho’sthemanthatsaysthatwe’reallislandsshoutingliestoeachotheracrossseasofmisunderstanding?’

  ’He’sright,whoeverheis,——exceptaboutthemisunderstandingI

  don’tthinkwecouldmisunderstandeachother。’

  ThebluesmokecurledbackfromtheceilingincloudsThenTorpenhow,insinuatingly——

  ’Dick,isitawoman?’

  ’Behangedifit’sanythingremotelyresemblingawoman;andifyoubegintotalklikethat,I’llhireared-brickstudiowithwhitepainttrimmings,andbegoniasandpetuniasandblueHungariastoplayamongthree-and-sixpennypot-palms,andI’llmountallmypicsinaniline-dyeplushplasters,andI’llinviteeverywomanwhomaundersoverwhatherguide-bookstellherisArt,andyoushallreceive’em,Torp,——inasnuff-brownvelvetcoatwithyellowtrousersandanorangetie。

  You’lllikethat?’

  ’Toothin,DickAbettermanthanyouoncedeniedwithcursingandswearingYou’veoverdoneit,justashedidIt’snobusinessofmine,ofcourse,butit’scomfortingtothinkthatsomewhereunderthestarsthere’ssavingupforyouatremendousthrashingWhetherit’llcomefromheavenorearth,Idon’tknow,butit’sboundtocomeandbreakyouupalittleYouwanthammering。’

  Dickshivered’Allright,’saidhe’Whenthisislandisdisintegrated,itwillcallforyou。’

  ’Ishallcomeroundthecornerandhelptodisintegrateitsomemore。

  We’retalkingnonsenseComealongtoatheatre。’

  ’Andyoumayleadathousandmen,Noreverdrawtherein,ButereyeleadtheFaeryQueen’Twillburstyourheartintwain。’

  Hehasslippedhisfootfromthestirrup-bar,Thebridlefromhishand,AndheisboundbyhandandfootTotheQueeno’Faery-land。

  SirHoggieandtheFairies。

  SOMEweekslater,onaveryfoggySunday,DickwasreturningacrosstheParktohisstudio’This,’hesaid,’isevidentlythethrashingthatTorpmeantIthurtsmorethanIexpected;buttheQueencandonowrong;andshecertainlyhassomenotionofdrawing。’

  HehadjustfinishedaSundayvisittoMaisie,——alwaysunderthegreeneyesofthered-hairedimpressionistgirl,whomhelearnedtohateatsight,——andwastinglingwithakeensenseofshameSundayafterSunday,puttingonhisbestclothes,hehadwalkedovertotheuntidyhousenorthofthePark,firsttoseeMaisie’spictures,andthentocriticiseandadviseuponthemasherealisedthattheywereproductionsonwhichadvicewouldnotbewastedSundayafterSunday,andhislovegrewwitheachvisit,hehadbeencompelledtocramhisheartbackfrombetweenhislipswhenitpromptedhimtokissMaisieseveraltimesandverymuchindeedSundayafterSunday,theheadabovethehearthadwarnedhimthatMaisiewasnotyetattainable,andthatitwouldbebettertotalkasconnectedlyaspossibleuponthemysteriesofthecraftthatwasallinalltoherThereforeitwashisfatetoendureweeklytortureinthestudiobuiltoutovertheclammybackgardenofafrailstuffylittlevillawherenothingwaseverinitsrightplaceandnobodyeverycalled,——toendureandtowatchMaisiemovingtoandfrowiththeteacupsHeabhorredtea,but,sinceitgavehimalittlelongertimeinherpresence,hedrankitdevoutly,andthered-hairedgirlsatinanuntidyheapandeyedhimwithoutspeakingShewasalwayswatchinghim。

  Once,andonlyonce,whenshehadleftthestudio,Maisieshowedhimanalbumthatheldafewpoorcuttingsfromprovincialpapers,——thebriefestofhurriednotesonsomeofherpicturessenttooutlyingexhibitionsDickstoopedandkissedthepaint-smudgedthumbontheopenpage。

  ’Oh,mylove,mylove,’hemuttered,’doyouvaluethesethings?Chuck’emintothewaste-paperbasket!’

  ’NottillIgetsomethingbetter,’saidMaisie,shuttingthebook。

  ThenDick,movedbynorespectforhispublicandaverydeepregardforthemaiden,diddeliberatelypropose,inordertosecuremoreofthesecovetedcuttings,thatheshouldpaintapicturewhichMaisieshouldsign。

  ’That’schildish,’saidMaisie,’andIdidn’tthinkitofyouItmustbemyworkMine,——mine,——mine!’

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