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  “Downthere,walkingontheroadtothevillageShewasinabluedress,andsheliftedtheveilofherbonnetandsaid:——’RamDass,givemysalaamstotheSahib,andtellhimthatIshallmeethimnextmonthatNuddea。’ThenIranaway,becauseIwasafraid。”

  WhatDumoisesaidordidIdonotknowRamDassdeclaresthathesaidnothing,butwalkedupanddowntheverandahallthecoldnight,waitingfortheMemsahibtocomeupthehillandstretchingouthisarmsintothedarklikeamadmanButnoMemsahibcame,and,nextday,hewentontoSimlacross-questioningthebearereveryhour。

  RamDasscouldonlysaythathehadmetMrsDumoiseandthatshehadliftedupherveilandgivenhimthemessagewhichhehadfaithfullyrepeatedtoDumoiseTothisstatementRamDassadhered。

  HedidnotknowwhereNuddeawas,hadnofriendsatNuddea,andwouldmostcertainlynevergotoNuddea;eventhoughhispayweredoubled。

  NuddeaisinBengal,andhasnothingwhatevertodowithadoctorservinginthePunjabItmustbemorethantwelvehundredmilesfromMeridki。

  DumoisewentthroughSimlawithouthalting,andreturnedtoMeridkitheretotakeoverchargefromthemanwhohadbeenofficiatingforhimduringhistourThereweresomeDispensaryaccountstobeexplained,andsomerecentordersoftheSurgeon-Generaltobenoted,and,altogether,thetaking-overwasafullday’sworkIntheevening,Dumoisetoldhislocumtenens,whowasanoldfriendofhisbachelordays,whathadhappenedatBagi;andthemansaidthatRamDassmightaswellhavechosenTuticorinwhilehewasaboutit。

  Atthatmomentatelegraph-peoncameinwithatelegramfromSimla,orderingDumoisenottotakeoverchargeatMeridki,buttogoatoncetoNuddeaonspecialdutyTherewasanastyoutbreakofcholeraatNuddea,andtheBengalGovernment,beingshorthanded,asusual,hadborrowedaSurgeonfromthePunjab。

  Dumoisethrewthetelegramacrossthetableandsaid:——“Well?”

  TheotherDoctorsaidnothingItwasallthathecouldsay。

  ThenherememberedthatDumoisehadpassedthroughSimlaonhiswayfromBagi;andthusmight,possibly,haveheardthefirstnewsoftheimpendingtransfer。

  Hetriedtoputthequestion,andtheimpliedsuspicionintowords,butDumoisestoppedhimwith:——“IfIhaddesiredTHAT,IshouldneverhavecomebackfromChiniIwasshootingthereIwishtolive,forIhavethingstodobutIshallnotbesorry。”

  Theothermanbowedhishead,andhelped,inthetwilight,topackupDumoise’sjustopenedtrunksRamDassenteredwiththelamps。

  “WhereistheSahibgoing?”heasked。

  “ToNuddea。”saidDumoise,softly。

  RamDassclawedDumoise’skneesandbootsandbeggedhimnottogo。

  RamDassweptandhowledtillhewasturnedoutoftheroom。

  ThenhewrappedupallhisbelongingsandcamebacktoaskforacharacterHewasnotgoingtoNuddeatoseehisSahibdie,and,perhapstodiehimself。

  SoDumoisegavethemanhiswagesandwentdowntoNuddeaalone;theotherDoctorbiddinghimgood-byeasoneundersentenceofdeath。

  Elevendayslater,hehadjoinedhisMemsahib;andtheBengalGovernmenthadtoborrowafreshDoctortocopewiththatepidemicatNuddeaThefirstimportationlaydeadinChooadangaDak-

  Bungalow。

  TOBEHELDFORREFERENCE。

  BythehoofoftheWildGoatup-tossedFromtheCliffwhereShelayintheSun,FelltheStoneTotheTarnwherethedaylightislost;

  SoShefellfromthelightoftheSun,Andalone。

  Nowthefallwasordainedfromthefirst,WiththeGoatandtheCliffandtheTarn,ButtheStoneKnowsonlyHerlifeisaccursed,AsShesinksinthedepthsoftheTarn,Andalone。

  Oh,ThouwhohasbuildedtheworldOh,ThouwhohastlightedtheSun!

  Oh,ThouwhohastdarkenedtheTarn!

  JudgeThouTheSinoftheStonethatwashurledBytheGoatfromthelightoftheSun,AsShesinksinthemireoftheTarn,Evennow——evennow——evennow!

  FromtheUnpublishedPapersofMcIntoshJellaludin。

  “Say,isitdawn,isitduskinthyBower,ThouwhomIlongfor,wholongestforme?

  Ohbeitnight——beit——“

  Herehefelloveralittlecamel-coltthatwassleepingintheSeraiwherethehorse-tradersandthebestoftheblackguardsfromCentralAsialive;and,becausehewasverydrunkindeedandthenightwasdark,hecouldnotriseagaintillIhelpedhimThatwasthebeginningofmyacquaintancewithMcIntoshJellaludinWhenaloafer,anddrunk,singsTheSongoftheBower,hemustbeworthcultivatingHegotoffthecamel’sbackandsaid,ratherthickly:——

  “I——I——I’mabitscrewed,butadipinLoggerheadwillputmerightagain;andIsay,haveyouspokentoSymondsaboutthemare’sknees?”

  NowLoggerheadwassixthousandwearymilesawayfromus,closetoMesopotamia,whereyoumustn’tfishandpoachingisimpossible,andCharleySymonds’stableahalfmilefurtheracrossthepaddocks。

  Itwasstrangetohearalltheoldnames,onaMaynight,amongthehorsesandcamelsoftheSultanCaravanseraiThenthemanseemedtorememberhimselfandsoberdownatthesametimeHeleanedagainstthecamelandpointedtoacorneroftheSeraiwherealampwasburning:——

  “Ilivethere。”saidhe,“andIshouldbeextremelyobligedifyouwouldbegoodenoughtohelpmymutinousfeetthither;forIammorethanusuallydrunk——most——mostphenomenallytightButnotinrespecttomyhead’Mybraincriesoutagainst’——howdoesitgo?

  Butmyheadridesonthe——rollsonthedung-hillIshouldhavesaid,andcontrolsthequalm。”

  Ihelpedhimthroughthegangsoftetheredhorsesandhecollapsedontheedgeoftheverandahinfrontofthelineofnativequarters。

  “Thanks——athousandthanks!OMoonandlittle,littleStars!TothinkthatamanshouldsoshamelesslyInfamousliquor,tooOvidinexiledranknoworseBetterItwasfrozenAlas!

  IhadnoiceGood-nightIwouldintroduceyoutomywifewereI

  sober——orshecivilized。”

  Anativewomancameoutofthedarknessoftheroom,andbegancallingthemannames;soIwentawayHewasthemostinterestingloaferthatIhadthepleasureofknowingforalongtime;andlateron,hebecameafriendofmineHewasatall,well-built,fairmanfearfullyshakenwithdrink,andhelookednearerfiftythanthethirty-fivewhich,hesaid,washisrealageWhenamanbeginstosinkinIndia,andisnotsentHomebyhisfriendsassoonasmaybe,hefallsverylowfromarespectablepointofviewBythetimethathechangeshiscreed,asdidMcIntosh,heispastredemption。

  Inmostbigcities,nativeswilltellyouoftwoorthreeSahibs,generallylow-caste,whohaveturnedHinduorMussulman,andwholivemoreorlessassuchButitisnotoftenthatyoucangettoknowthemAsMcIntoshhimselfusedtosay:——“IfIchangemyreligionformystomach’ssake,Idonotseektobecomeamartyrtomissionaries,noramIanxiousfornotoriety。”

  AttheoutsetofacquaintanceMcIntoshwarnedme“Rememberthis。

  IamnotanobjectforcharityIrequireneitheryourmoney,yourfood,noryourcast-offraimentIamthatrareanimal,aself-

  supportingdrunkardIfyouchoose,Iwillsmokewithyou,forthetobaccoofthebazarsdoesnot,Iadmit,suitmypalate;andIwillborrowanybookswhichyoumaynotspeciallyvalueItismorethanlikelythatIshallsellthemforbottlesofexcessivelyfilthycountry-liquorsInreturn,youshallsharesuchhospitalityasmyhouseaffordsHereisacharpoyonwhichtwocansit,anditispossiblethattheremay,fromtimetotime,befoodinthatplatter。

  Drink,unfortunately,youwillfindonthepremisesatanyhour:

  andthusImakeyouwelcometoallmypoorestablishments。”

  IwasadmittedtotheMcIntoshhousehold——Iandmygoodtobacco。

  ButnothingelseUnluckily,onecannotvisitaloaferintheSeraibydayFriendsbuyinghorseswouldnotunderstandit。

  Consequently,IwasobligedtoseeMcIntoshafterdarkHelaughedatthis,andsaidsimply:——“YouareperfectlyrightWhenIenjoyedapositioninsociety,ratherhigherthanyours,Ishouldhavedoneexactlythesamething,GoodHeavens!Iwasonce“——hespokeasthoughhehadfallenfromtheCommandofaRegiment——“anOxfordMan!”ThisaccountedforthereferencetoCharleySymonds’

  stable。

  “You。”saidMcIntosh,slowly,“havenothadthatadvantage;but,tooutwardappearance,youdonotseempossessedofacravingforstrongdrinksOnthewhole,IfancythatyouaretheluckierofthetwoYetIamnotcertainYouare——forgivemysayingsoevenwhileIamsmokingyourexcellenttobacco——painfullyignorantofmanythings。”

  Weweresittingtogetherontheedgeofhisbedstead,forheownednochairs,watchingthehorsesbeingwateredforthenight,whilethenativewomanwaspreparingdinnerIdidnotlikebeingpatronizedbyaloafer,butIwashisguestforthetimebeing,thoughheownedonlyoneverytornalpaca-coatandapairoftrousersmadeoutofgunny-bagsHetookthepipeoutofhismouth,andwentonjudicially:——“Allthingsconsidered,IdoubtwhetheryouaretheluckierIdonotrefertoyourextremelylimitedclassicalattainments,oryourexcruciatingquantities,buttoyourgrossignoranceofmattersmoreimmediatelyunderyournoticeThatforinstance。”——HepointedtoawomancleaningasamovarnearthewellinthecentreoftheSeraiShewasflickingthewateroutofthespoutinregularcadencedjerks。

  “TherearewaysandwaysofcleaningsamovarsIfyouknewwhyshewasdoingherworkinthatparticularfashion,youwouldknowwhattheSpanishMonkmeantwhenhesaid——

  ’ItheTrinityillustrate,Drinkingwateredorange-pulp——

  InthreesipstheAryanfrustrate,Whilehedrainshisatonegulp——’

  andmanyotherthingswhichnowarehiddenfromyoureyes。

  However,MrsMcIntoshhasprepareddinnerLetuscomeandeatafterthefashionofthepeopleofthecountry——ofwhom,bytheway,youknownothing。”

  ThenativewomandippedherhandinthedishwithusThiswaswrongThewifeshouldalwayswaituntilthehusbandhaseaten。

  McIntoshJellaludinapologized,saying:——

  “ItisanEnglishprejudicewhichIhavenotbeenabletoovercome;

  andshelovesmeWhy,IhaveneverbeenabletounderstandI

  fore-gatheredwithheratJullundur,threeyearsago,andshehasremainedwithmeeversinceIbelievehertobemoral,andknowhertobeskilledincookery。”

  Hepattedthewoman’sheadashespoke,andshecooedsoftly。

  Shewasnotprettytolookat。

  McIntoshnevertoldmewhatpositionhehadheldbeforehisfall。

  Hewas,whensober,ascholarandagentlemanWhendrunk,hewasrathermoreofthefirstthanthesecondHeusedtogetdrunkaboutonceaweekfortwodaysOnthoseoccasionsthenativewomantendedhimwhileheravedinalltonguesexcepthisownOneday,indeed,hebeganrecitingAtalantainCalydon,andwentthroughittotheend,beatingtimetotheswingoftheversewithabedstead-

  legButhedidmostofhisravingsinGreekorGermanTheman’smindwasaperfectrag-bagofuselessthingsOnce,whenhewasbeginningtogetsober,hetoldmethatIwastheonlyrationalbeingintheInfernointowhichhehaddescended——aVirgilintheShades,hesaid——andthat,inreturnformytobacco,hewould,beforehedied,givemethematerialsofanewInfernothatshouldmakemegreaterthanDanteThenhefellasleeponahorse-blanketandwokeupquitecalm。

  “Man。”saidhe,“whenyouhavereachedtheuttermostdepthsofdegradation,littleincidentswhichwouldvexahigherlife,aretoyouofnoconsequenceLastnight,mysoulwasamongthegods;

  butImakenodoubtthatmybestialbodywaswrithingdownhereinthegarbage。”

  “Youwereabominablydrunkifthat’swhatyoumean。”Isaid。

  “IWASdrunk——filthydrunkIwhoamthesonofamanwithwhomyouhavenoconcern——IwhowasonceFellowofaCollegewhosebuttery-

  hatchyouhavenotseenIwasloathsomelydrunkButconsiderhowlightlyIamtouchedItisnothingtomeLessthannothing;forIdonotevenfeeltheheadachewhichshouldbemyportionNow,inahigherlife,howghastlywouldhavebeenmypunishment,howbittermyrepentance!Believeme,myfriendwiththeneglectededucation,thehighestisasthelowest——alwayssupposingeachdegreeextreme。”

  Heturnedroundontheblanket,puthisheadbetweenhisfistsandcontinued:——

  “OntheSoulwhichIhavelostandontheConsciencewhichIhavekilled,ItellyouthatICANNOTfeel!Iamasthegods,knowinggoodandevil,butuntouchedbyeitherIsthisenviableorisitnot?”

  Whenamanhaslostthewarningof“nextmorning’shead。”hemustbeinabadstate,Ianswered,lookingatMcIntoshontheblanket,withhishairoverhiseyesandhislipsblue-white,thatIdidnotthinktheinsensibilitygoodenough。

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