Menweresostrange。Thethoughttookawayfromherallherformerreticence,andmadeheractionbold。Shestartedfromherseat。Ifthelittlebreach,quarrel,orwhateveritmightbecalled,ofyesterday,wastobehealedupitmustbedonebyherontheinstant。Shecrossedintotheorchard,andclamberedthroughthegapafterGiles,justashewasdiminishingtoafaun-
likefigureunderthegreencanopyandoverthebrownfloor。
Gracehadbeenwrong——veryfarwrong——inassumingthattheletterhadnoreferencetoherselfbecauseGileshadturnedawayintothewoodafteritsperusal。Itwas,sadtosay,becausethemissivehadsomuchreferencetoherselfthathehadthusturnedaway。Hefearedthathisgrieveddiscomfituremightbeobserved。TheletterwasfromBeaucock,writtenafewhourslaterthanMelbury’stohisdaughter。Itannouncedfailure。
Gileshadoncedonethatthriftlessmanagoodturn,andnowwasthemomentwhenBeaucockhadchosentorememberitinhisownway。
DuringhisabsenceintownwithMelbury,thelawyer’sclerkhadnaturallyheardagreatdealofthetimber-merchant’sfamilyschemeofjusticetoGiles,andhiscommunicationwastoinformWinterborneattheearliestpossiblemomentthattheirattempthadfailed,inorderthattheyoungmanshouldnotplacehimselfinafalsepositiontowardsGraceinthebeliefofitscomingsuccess。
Thenewswas,insum,thatFitzpiers’sconducthadnotbeensufficientlycrueltoGracetoenablehertosnapthebond。Shewasapparentlydoomedtobehiswifetilltheendofthechapter。
Winterbornequiteforgothissuperficialdifferenceswiththepoorgirlunderthewarmrushofdeepanddistractingloveforherwhichthealmosttragicalinformationengendered。
Torenounceherforever——thatwasthentheendofitforhim,afterall。Therewasnolongeranyquestionaboutsuitability,orroomfortiffsonpettytastes。Thecurtainhadfallenagainbetweenthem。Shecouldnotbehis。Thecrueltyoftheirlaterevivedhopewasnowterrible。Howcouldtheyallhavebeensosimpleastosupposethisthingcouldbedone?
Itwasatthismomentthat,hearingsomeonecomingbehindhim,heturnedandsawherhasteningonbetweenthethickets。Heperceivedinaninstantthatshedidnotknowtheblightingnews。
“Giles,whydidn’tyoucomeacrosstome?”sheasked,witharchreproach。“Didn’tyouseemesittingthereeversolong?”
“Ohyes。”hesaid,inunprepared,extemporizedtones,forherunexpectedpresencecaughthimwithouttheslightestplanofbehaviorintheconjuncture。Hismannermadeherthinkthatshehadbeentoochidinginherspeech;andamildscarletwavepassedoverherassheresolvedtosoftenit。
“Ihavehadanotherletterfrommyfather。”shehastenedtocontinue。“Hethinkshemaycomehomethisevening。And——inviewofhishopes——itwillgrievehimifthereisanylittledifferencebetweenus,Giles。”
“Thereisnone。”hesaid,sadlyregardingherfromthefacedownwardasheponderedhowtolaythecrueltruthbare。
“Still——Ifearyouhavenotquiteforgivenmeaboutmybeinguncomfortableattheinn。”
“Ihave,Grace,I’msure。”
“Butyouspeakinquiteanunhappyway。”shereturned,comingupclosetohimwiththemostwinningofthemanyprettyairsthatappertainedtoher。“Don’tyouthinkyouwilleverbehappy,Giles?”
Hedidnotreplyforsomeinstants。“WhenthesunshinesonthenorthfrontofShertonAbbey——that’swhenmyhappinesswillcometome!”saidhe,staringasitwereintotheearth。
“But——thenthatmeansthatthereissomethingmorethanmyoffendingyouinnotlikingTheThreeTuns。IfitisbecauseI——
didnotliketoletyoukissmeintheAbbey——well,youknow,Giles,thatitwasnotonaccountofmycoldfeelings,butbecauseIdidcertainly,justthen,thinkitwasratherpremature,inspiteofmypoorfather。Thatwasthetruereason——thesoleone。
ButIdonotwanttobehard——GodknowsIdonot。”shesaid,hervoicefluctuating。“Andperhaps——asIamonthevergeoffreedom——
Iamnotright,afterall,inthinkingthereisanyharminyourkissingme。”
“OhGod!”saidWinterbornewithinhimself。Hisheadwasturnedaskanceashestillresolutelyregardedtheground。Forthelastseveralminuteshehadseenthisgreattemptationapproachinghiminregularsiege;andnowithadcome。Thewrong,thesocialsin,ofnowtakingadvantageoftheofferofherlipshadamagnitude,intheeyesofonewhoselifehadbeensoprimitive,soruledbypuresthouseholdlaws,asGiles’s,whichcanhardlybeexplained。
“Didyousayanything?”sheasked,timidly。
“Ohno——onlythat——“
“YoumeanthatitmustBEsettled,sincemyfatheriscominghome?”shesaid,gladly。
Winterborne,thoughfightingvaliantlyagainsthimselfallthiswhile——thoughhewouldhaveprotectedGrace’sgoodreputeastheappleofhiseye——wasaman;and,asDesdemonasaid,menarenotgods。Infaceoftheagonizingseductivenessshownbyher,inherunenlightenedschool-girlsimplicityaboutthelawsandordinances,hebetrayedaman’sweakness。Sinceitwasso——sinceithadcometothis,thatGrace,deemingherselffreetodoit,wasvirtuallyaskinghimtodemonstratethathelovedher——sincehecoulddemonstrateitonlytootruly——sincelifewasshortandlovewasstrong——hegavewaytothetemptation,notwithstandingthatheperfectlywellknewhertobeweddedirrevocablytoFitzpiers。Indeed,hecaredfornothingpastorfuture,simplyacceptingthepresentandwhatitbrought,desiringonceinhislifetoclaspinhisarmsherhehadwatchedoverandlovedsolong。
Shestartedbacksuddenlyfromhisembrace,influencedbyasortofinspiration。“Oh,Isuppose。”shestammered,“thatIamreallyfree?——thatthisisright?IsthereREALLYanewlaw?Fathercannothavebeentoosanguineinsaying——“
Hedidnotanswer,andamomentafterwardsGraceburstintotearsinspiteofherself。“Oh,whydoesnotmyfathercomehomeandexplain。”shesobbed,“andletmeknowclearlywhatIam?Itistootrying,this,toaskmeto——andthentoleavemesolonginsovagueastatethatIdonotknowwhattodo,andperhapsdowrong!”
WinterbornefeltlikeaveryCain,overandabovehisprevioussorrow。Howhehadsinnedagainstherinnottellingherwhatheknew。Heturnedaside;thefeelingofhiscrueltymountedhigherandhigher。Howcouldhehavedreamedofkissingher?Hecouldhardlyrefrainfromtears。Surelynothingmorepitiablehadeverbeenknownthantheconditionofthispooryoungthing,nowasheretoforethevictimofherfather’swell-meantbutblunderingpolicy。
EveninthehourofMelbury’sgreatestassuranceWinterbornehadharboredasuspicionthatnolaw,neworold,couldundoGrace’smarriagewithoutherappearanceinpublic;thoughhewasnotsufficientlysureofwhatmighthavebeenenactedtodestroybyhisownwordsherpleasingideathatameredashofthepen,onherfather’stestimony,wasgoingtobesufficient。Buthehadneversuspectedthesadfactthatthepositionwasirremediable。
PoorGrace,perhapsfeelingthatshehadindulgedintoomuchflusterforamerekiss,calmedherselfatfindinghowgravehewas。“Iamgladwearefriendsagainanyhow。”shesaid,smilingthroughhertears。“Giles,ifyouhadonlyshownhalftheboldnessbeforeImarriedthatyoushownow,youwouldhavecarriedmeoffforyourownfirstinsteadofsecond。Ifwedomarry,Ihopeyouwillneverthinkbadlyofmeforencouragingyoualittle,butmyfatherisSOimpatient,youknow,ashisyearsandinfirmitiesincrease,thathewillwishtoseeusalittleadvancedwhenhecomes。Thatismyonlyexcuse。”
ToWinterborneallthiswassadderthanitwassweet。Howcouldshesotrustherfather’sconjectures?Hedidnotknowhowtotellherthetruthandshamehimself。Andyethefeltthatitmustbedone。“Wemayhavebeenwrong。”hebegan,almostfearfully,“insupposingthatitcanallbecarriedoutwhilewestayhereatHintock。IamnotsurebutthatpeoplemayhavetoappearinapubliccourtevenunderthenewAct;andifthereshouldbeanydifficulty,andwecannotmarryafterall——“
Hercheeksbecameslowlybloodless。“Oh,Giles。”shesaid,graspinghisarm,“youhaveheardsomething!What——cannotmyfatherconcludeitthereandnow?Surelyhehasdoneit?Oh,Giles,Giles,don’tdeceiveme。WhatterriblepositionamIin?”
Hecouldnottellher,tryashewould。Thesenseofherimplicittrustinhishonorabsolutelydisabledhim。“Icannotinformyou。”hemurmured,hisvoiceashuskyasthatoftheleavesunderfoot。“Yourfatherwillsoonbehere。Thenweshallknow。
Iwilltakeyouhome。”
Inexpressiblydearasshewastohim,heofferedherhisarmwiththemostreservedair,asheadded,correctingly,“Iwilltakeyou,atanyrate,intothedrive。”
Thustheywalkedontogether。Gracevibratingbetweenhappinessandmisgiving。Itwasonlyafewminutes’walktowherethedriveran,andtheyhadhardlydescendedintoitwhentheyheardavoicebehindthemcry,“Takeoutthatarm!”
Foramomenttheydidnotheed,andthevoicerepeated,moreloudlyandhoarsely,“Takeoutthatarm!”
ItwasMelbury’s。Hehadreturnedsoonerthantheyexpected,andnowcameuptothem。Grace’shandhadbeenwithdrawnlikelightningonherhearingthesecondcommand。“Idon’tblameyou——
Idon’tblameyou。”hesaid,inthewearycadenceofonebrokendownwithscourgings。“Butyoutwomustwalktogethernomore——I
havebeensurprised——Ihavebeencruellydeceived——Giles,don’tsayanythingtome;butgoaway!”
HewasevidentlynotawarethatWinterbornehadknownthetruthbeforehebroughtit;andGileswouldnotstaytodiscussitwithhimthen。WhentheyoungmanhadgoneMelburytookhisdaughterin-doorstotheroomheusedashisoffice。Therehesatdown,andbentovertheslopeofthebureau,herbewilderedgazefixeduponhim。
WhenMelburyhadrecoveredalittlehesaid,“Youarenow,asever,Fitzpiers’swife。Iwasdeluded。HehasnotdoneyouENOUGHharm。Youarestillsubjecttohisbeckandcall。”
“Thenletitbe,andnevermind,father。”shesaid,withdignifiedsorrow。“Icanbearit。Itisyourtroublethatgrievesmemost。”Shestoopedoverhim,andputherarmroundhisneck,whichdistressedMelburystillmore。“Idon’tmindatallwhatcomestome。”Gracecontinued;“whosewifeIam,orwhoseIamnot。IdoloveGiles;Icannothelpthat;andIhavegonefurtherwithhimthanIshouldhavedoneifIhadknownexactlyhowthingswere。
ButIdonotreproachyou。”
“ThenGilesdidnottellyou?”saidMelbury。
“No。”saidshe。“Hecouldnothaveknownit。Hisbehaviortomeprovedthathedidnotknow。”
Herfathersaidnothingmore,andGracewentawaytothesolitudeofherchamber。
Herheavydisquietudehadmanyshapes;andforatimesheputasidethedominantfacttothinkofhertoofreeconducttowardsGiles。Hislove-makinghadbeenbriefasitwassweet;butwouldheonreflectioncontemnherforforwardness?Howcouldshehavebeensosimpleastosupposeshewasinapositiontobehaveasshehaddone!Thusshementallyblamedherignorance;andyetinthecentreofherheartsheblesseditalittleforwhatithadmomentarilybroughther。
Lifeamongthepeopleinvolvedintheseeventsseemedtobesuppressedandhide-boundforawhile。Graceseldomshowedherselfoutsidethehouse,neveroutsidethegarden;forshefearedshemightencounterGilesWinterborne;andthatshecouldnotbear。
Thispensiveintramuralexistenceoftheself-constitutednunappearedlikelytocontinueforanindefinitetime。Shehadlearnedthattherewasonepossibilityinwhichherformerlyimaginedpositionmightbecomereal,andonlyone;thatherhusband’sabsenceshouldcontinuelongenoughtoamounttopositivedesertion。Butsheneverallowedhermindtodwellmuchuponthethought;stilllessdidshedeliberatelyhopeforsucharesult。HerregardforWinterbornehadbeenrarefiedbytheshockwhichfolloweditsavowalintoanetherealemotionthathadlittletodowithlivinganddoing。
AsforGiles,hewaslying——orrathersitting——illathishut。A
feverishindispositionwhichhadbeenhangingabouthimforsometime,theresultofachillcaughtthepreviouswinter,seemedtoacquirevirulencewiththeprostrationofhishopes。Butnotasoulknewofhislanguor,andhedidnotthinkthecaseseriousenoughtosendforamedicalman。Afterafewdayshewasbetteragain,andcreptabouthishomeinagreatcoat,attendingtohissimplewantsasusualwithhisownhands。SomattersstoodwhenthelimpidinertionofGrace’spool-likeexistencewasdisturbedasbyageyser。ShereceivedaletterfromFitzpiers。