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  Shehadbegunbywatchingthewordsfromhislipswithamournfulregard,asthoughtheirpassagewerevisible;butashewentonshedroppedherglance。“Yes。”shesaid,“Ihavethoughtthat,too。And,becauseIhavethoughtit,Ibynomeansmeant,inspeakingoftheproprieties,tobereservedandcoldtoyouwholovedmesolongago,ortohurtyourheartasIusedtodoatthatthoughtlesstime。Oh,notatall,indeed!But——oughtItoallowyou?——oh,itistooquick——surely!”Hereyesfilledwithtearsofbewildered,alarmedemotion。

  Winterbornewastoostraightforwardtoinfluenceherfurtheragainstherbetterjudgment。“Yes——Isupposeitis。”hesaid,repentantly。“I’llwaittillallissettled。Whatdidyourfathersayinthatlastletter?”

  Hemeantabouthisprogresswiththepetition;butshe,mistakinghim,franklyspokeofthepersonalpart。“Hesaid——whatIhaveimplied。ShouldItellmoreplainly?”

  “Ohno——don’t,ifitisasecret。”

  “Notatall。Iwilltelleveryword,straightout,Giles,ifyouwish。HesaidIwastoencourageyou。There。ButIcannotobeyhimfurtherto-day。Come,letusgonow。”Shegentlyslidherhandfromhis,andwentinfrontofhimoutoftheAbbey。

  “Iwasthinkingofgettingsomedinner。”saidWinterborne,changingtotheprosaic,astheywalked。“Andyou,too,mustrequiresomething。DoletmetakeyoutoaplaceIknow。”

  Gracewasalmostwithoutafriendintheworldoutsideherfather’shouse;herlifewithFitzpiershadbroughthernosociety;hadsometimes,indeed,broughtherdeepersolitudeandinconsiderationthananyshehadeverknownbefore。Henceitwasatreattohertofindherselfagaintheobjectofthoughtfulcare。ButshequestionediftogopubliclytodinewithGilesWinterbornewerenotaproposal,duerathertohisunsophisticationthantohisdiscretion。Shesaidgentlythatshewouldmuchpreferhisorderingherlunchatsomeplaceandthencomingtotellheritwasready,whilesheremainedintheAbbeyporch。Gilessawhersecretreasoning,thoughthowhopelesslyblindtoproprietyhewasbesideher,andwenttodoasshewished。

  Hewasnotabsentmorethantenminutes,andfoundGracewherehehadlefther。“Itwillbequitereadybythetimeyougetthere。”

  hesaid,andtoldherthenameoftheinnatwhichthemealhadbeenordered,whichwasonethatshehadneverheardof。

  “I’llfinditbyinquiry。”saidGrace,settingout。

  “AndshallIseeyouagain?”

  “Ohyes——cometomethere。Itwillnotbelikegoingtogether。I

  shallwantyoutofindmyfather’smanandthegigforme。”

  Hewaitedonsometenminutesoraquarterofanhour,tillhethoughtherlunchended,andthathemightfairlytakeadvantageofherinvitationtostartheronherwayhome。HewentstraighttoTheThreeTuns——alittletaverninasidestreet,scrupulouslyclean,buthumbleandinexpensive。Onhiswayhehadanoccasionalmisgivingastowhethertheplacehadbeenelegantenoughforher;andassoonasheenteredit,andsawherensconcedthere,heperceivedthathehadblundered。

  Gracewasseatedintheonlydining-roomthatthesimpleoldhostelrycouldboastof,whichwasalsoageneralparloronmarket-days;along,lowapartment,withasandedfloorherring-

  bonedwithabroom;awide,red-curtainedwindowtothestreet,andanothertothegarden。Gracehadretreatedtotheendoftheroomlookingoutuponthelatter,thefrontpartbeingfullofamixedcompanywhichhaddroppedinsincehewasthere。

  Shewasinamoodofthegreatestdepression。Onarriving,andseeingwhatthetavernwaslike,shehadbeentakenbysurprise;

  buthavinggonetoofartoretreat,shehadheroicallyenteredandsatdownonthewell-scrubbedsettle,oppositethenarrowtablewithitsknivesandsteelforks,tinpepper-boxes,bluesalt-

  cellars,andpostersadvertisingthesaleofbullocksagainstthewall。ThelasttimethatshehadtakenanymealinapublicplaceithadbeenwithFitzpiersatthegrandnewEarlofWessexHotelinthattown,afteratwomonths’roamingandsojourningatthegigantichotelsoftheContinent。HowcouldshehaveexpectedanyotherkindofaccommodationinpresentcircumstancesthansuchasGileshadprovided?Andyethowunpreparedshewasforthischange!ThetastesthatshehadacquiredfromFitzpiershadbeenimbibedsosubtlythatshehardlyknewshepossessedthemtillconfrontedbythiscontrast。TheelegantFitzpiers,infact,atthatverymomentowedalongbillattheabove-mentionedhotelfortheluxuriousstyleinwhichheusedtoputheruptherewhenevertheydrovetoSherton。Butsuchissocialsentiment,thatshehadbeenquitecomfortableunderthosedebt-impendingconditions,whileshefelthumiliatedbyherpresentsituation,whichWinterbornehadpaidforhonestlyonthenail。

  Hehadnoticedinamomentthatsheshrunkfromherposition,andallhispleasurewasgone。ItwasthesamesusceptibilityoveragainwhichhadspoiledhisChristmaspartylongago。

  ButhedidnotknowthatthisrecrudescencewasonlythecasualresultofGrace’sapprenticeshiptowhatshewasdeterminedtolearninspiteofit——aconsequenceofoneofthosesuddensurpriseswhichconfronteverybodybentuponturningoveranewleaf。Shehadfinishedherlunch,whichhesawhadbeenaverymincingperformance;andhebroughtheroutofthehouseassoonashecould。

  “Now。”hesaid,withgreatsadeyes,“youhavenotfinishedatallwell,Iknow。ComeroundtotheEarlofWessex。I’llorderateathere。Ididnotrememberthatwhatwasgoodenoughformewasnotgoodenoughforyou。”

  Herfacefadedintoanaspectofdeepdistresswhenshesawwhathadhappened。“Ohno,Giles。”shesaid,withextremepathos;

  “certainlynot。Whydoyou——saythatwhenyouknowbetter?YouEVERwillmisunderstandme。”

  “Indeed,that’snotso,Mrs。Fitzpiers。CanyoudenythatyoufeltoutofplaceatTheThreeTuns?”

  “Idon’tknow。Well,sinceyoumakemespeak,Idonotdenyit。”

  “AndyetIhavefeltathometherethesetwentyyears。YourhusbandusedalwaystotakeyoutotheEarlofWessex,didhenot?”

  “Yes。”shereluctantlyadmitted。Howcouldsheexplaininthestreetofamarket-townthatitwashersuperficialandtransitorytastewhichhadbeenoffended,andnothernatureorheraffection?Fortunately,orunfortunately,atthatmomenttheysawMelbury’smandrivingvacantlyalongthestreetinsearchofher,thehourhavingpassedatwhichhehadbeentoldtotakeherup。

  Winterbornehailedhim,andshewaspowerlessthentoprolongthediscourse。Sheenteredthevehiclesadly,andthehorsetrottedaway。

  AllnightdidWinterbornethinkoverthatunsatisfactoryendingofapleasanttime,forgettingthepleasanttimeitself。Hefearedanewthattheycouldneverbehappytogether,evenshouldshebefreetochoosehim。Shewasaccomplished;hewasunrefined。Itwastheoriginaldifficulty,whichhewastoosensitivetorecklesslyignore,assomemenwouldhavedoneinhisplace。

  Hewasoneofthosesilent,unobtrusivebeingswhowantlittlefromothersinthewayoffavororcondescension,andperhapsonthatveryaccountscrutinizethoseothers’behaviortooclosely。

  Hewasnotversatile,butoneinwhomahopeorbeliefwhichhadoncehaditsrise,meridian,anddeclineseldomagainexactlyrecurred,asinthebreastsofmoresanguinemortals。Hehadonceworshippedher,laidouthislifetosuither,wooedher,andlosther。Thoughitwaswithalmostthesamezest,itwaswithnotquitethesamehope,thathehadbeguntotreadtheoldtracksagain,andallowedhimselftobesocharmedwithherthatday。

  Moveanothersteptowardsherhewouldnot。Hewouldevenrepulseher——asatributetoconscience。Itwouldbesheersintoletherprepareapitfallforherhappinessnotmuchsmallerthanthefirstbyinveiglingherintoaunionwithsuchashe。Herpoorfatherwasnowblindtothesesubtleties,whichhehadformerlybeheldasinnoontidelight。Itwashisowndutytodeclarethem——

  forherdearsake。

  Grace,too,hadaveryuncomfortablenight,andhersolicitousembarrassmentwasnotlessenedthenextmorningwhenanotherletterfromherfatherwasputintoherhands。Itstenorwasanintenserstrainoftheonethathadprecededit。Afterstatinghowextremelygladhewastohearthatshewasbetter,andabletogetout-of-doors,hewenton:

  “Thisisawearisomebusiness,thesolicitorwehavecometoseebeingoutoftown。IdonotknowwhenIshallgethome。MygreatanxietyinthisdelayisstilllestyoushouldloseGilesWinterborne。Icannotrestatnightforthinkingthatwhileourbusinessishangingfirehemaybecomeestranged,orgoawayfromtheneighborhood。Ihavesetmyheartuponseeinghimyourhusband,ifyoueverhaveanother。Do,then,Grace,givehimsometemporaryencouragement,eventhoughitisover-early。ForwhenI

  considerthepastIdothinkGodwillforgivemeandyouforbeingalittleforward。Ihaveanotherreasonforthis,mydear。I

  feelmyselfgoingrapidlydownhill,andlateaffairshavestillfurtherhelpedmethatway。AnduntilthisthingisdoneIcannotrestinpeace。”

  Headdedapostscript:

  “Ihavejustheardthatthesolicitoristobeseento-morrow。

  Possibly,therefore,Ishallreturnintheeveningafteryougetthis。”

  Thepaternallongingranonallfourswithherowndesire;andyetinforwardingityesterdayshehadbeenonthebrinkofgivingoffence。Whilecravingtobeacountrygirlagainjustasherfatherrequested;toputofftheoldEve,thefastidiousmiss——orrathermadam——completely,herfirstattempthadbeenbeatenbytheunexpectedvitalityofthatfastidiousness。HerfatheronreturningandseeingthetriflingcoolnessofGileswouldbesuretosaythatthesameperversitywhichhadledhertomakedifficultiesaboutmarryingFitzpierswasnowpromptinghertoblowhotandcoldwithpoorWinterborne。

  Ifthelatterhadbeenthemostsubtlehandattouchingthestopsofherdelicatesoulinsteadofonewhohadjustboundhimselftoletherdriftawayfromhimagainifshewouldonthewindofherestrangingeducation,hecouldnothaveactedmoreseductivelythanhedidthatday。Hechancedtobesuperintendingsometemporaryworkinafieldoppositeherwindows。Shecouldnotdiscoverwhathewasdoing,butshereadhismoodkeenlyandtruly:shecouldseeinhiscomingandgoinganairofdeterminedabandonmentofthewholelandscapethatlayinherdirection。

  Oh,howshelongedtomakeitupwithhim!Herfathercomingintheevening——whichmeant,shesupposed,thatallformalitieswouldbeintrain,hermarriagevirtuallyannulled,andshebefreetobewonagain——howcouldshelookhiminthefaceifheshouldseethemestrangedthus?

  ItwasafairgreeneveninginJune。Shewasseatedinthegarden,intherusticchairwhichstoodunderthelaurel-bushes——

  madeofpeeledoak-branchesthatcametoMelbury’spremisesasrefuseafterbarking-time。Themassoffull-juicedleafageontheheightsaroundherwasjustswayedintofaintgesturesbyanearlyspentwindwhich,eveninitsenfeebledstate,didnotreachhershelter。AlldayshehadexpectedGilestocall——toinquirehowshehadgothome,orsomethingorother;buthehadnotcome。Andhestilltantalizedherbygoingathwartandacrossthatorchardopposite。Shecouldseehimasshesat。

  AslightdiversionwaspresentlycreatedbyCreedlebringinghimaletter。SheknewfromthisthatCreedlehadjustcomefromSherton,andhadcalledasusualatthepost-officeforanythingthathadarrivedbytheafternoonpost,ofwhichtherewasnodeliveryatHintock。Sheponderedonwhatthelettermightcontain——particularlywhetheritwereasecondrefresherforWinterbornefromherfather,likeherownofthemorning。

  Butitappearedtohavenobearinguponherselfwhatever。Gilesreaditscontents;andalmostimmediatelyturnedawaytoagapinthehedgeoftheorchard——ifthatcouldbecalledahedgewhich,owingtothedrippingsofthetrees,waslittlemorethanabankwithabushuponithereandthere。Heenteredtheplantation,andwasnodoubtgoingthatwayhomewardtothemysterioushutheoccupiedontheothersideofthewoodland。

  ThesadsandswererunningswiftlythroughTime’sglass;shehadoftenfeltitintheselatterdays;and,likeGiles,shefeltitdoublynowafterthesolemnandpatheticreminderinherfather’scommunication。Herfreshnesswouldpass,thelong-sufferingdevotionofGilesmightsuddenlyend——mightendthatveryhour。

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