LESLIECOMESOVER
LesliecameovertothehouseofdreamsonefrostyOctobernight,whenmoonlitmistswerehangingovertheharborandcurlinglikesilverribbonsalongtheseawardglens。ShelookedasifsherepentedcomingwhenGilbertansweredherknock;butAnneflewpasthim,pouncedonher,anddrewherin。
\"I’msogladyoupickedtonightforacall,\"shesaidgaily。\"Imadeupalotofextragoodfudgethisafternoonandwewantsomeonetohelpuseatit——beforethefire——whilewetellstories。PerhapsCaptainJimwilldropin,too。Thisishisnight。\"
\"No。CaptainJimisoverhome,\"saidLeslie。\"He——hemademecomehere,\"sheadded,halfdefiantly。
\"I’llsayathank-youtohimforthatwhenIseehim,\"
saidAnne,pullingeasychairsbeforethefire。
\"Oh,Idon’tmeanthatIdidn’twanttocome,\"
protestedLeslie,flushingalittle。\"I——I’vebeenthinkingofcoming——butitisn’talwayseasyformetogetaway。\"
\"OfcourseitmustbehardforyoutoleaveMr。
Moore,\"saidAnne,inamatter-of-facttone。ShehaddecidedthatitwouldbebesttomentionDickMooreoccasionallyasanacceptedfact,andnotgiveunduemorbidnesstothesubjectbyavoidingit。Shewasright,forLeslie’sairofconstraintsuddenlyvanished。EvidentlyshehadbeenwonderinghowmuchAnneknewoftheconditionsofherlifeandwasrelievedthatnoexplanationswereneeded。Sheallowedhercapandjackettobetaken,andsatdownwithagirlishsnuggleinthebigarmchairbyMagog。Shewasdressedprettilyandcarefully,withthecustomarytouchofcolorinthescarletgeraniumatherwhitethroat。Herbeautifulhairgleamedlikemoltengoldinthewarmfirelight。Hersea-blueeyeswerefullofsoftlaughterandallurement。Forthemoment,undertheinfluenceofthelittlehouseofdreams,shewasagirlagain——agirlforgetfulofthepastanditsbitterness。Theatmosphereofthemanylovesthathadsanctifiedthelittlehousewasallabouther;thecompanionshipoftwohealthy,happy,youngfolksofherowngenerationencircledher;shefeltandyieldedtothemagicofhersurroundings——MissCorneliaandCaptainJimwouldscarcelyhaverecognizedher;Annefoundithardtobelievethatthiswasthecold,unresponsivewomanshehadmetontheshore——thisanimatedgirlwhotalkedandlistenedwiththeeagernessofastarvedsoul。AndhowhungrilyLeslie’seyeslookedatthebookcasesbetweenthewindows!
\"Ourlibraryisn’tveryextensive,\"saidAnne,\"buteverybookinitisaFRIEND。We’vepickedourbooksupthroughtheyears,hereandthere,neverbuyingoneuntilwehadfirstreaditandknewthatitbelongedtotheraceofJoseph。\"
Leslielaughed——beautifullaughterthatseemedakintoallthemirththathadechoedthroughthelittlehouseinthevanishedyears。
\"Ihaveafewbooksoffather’s——notmany,\"shesaid。
\"I’vereadthemuntilIknowthemalmostbyheart。I
don’tgetmanybooks。There’sacirculatinglibraryattheGlenstore——butIdon’tthinkthecommitteewhopickthebooksforMr。ParkerknowwhatbooksareofJoseph’srace——orperhapstheydon’tcare。ItwassoseldomIgotoneIreallylikedthatIgaveupgettingany。\"
\"Ihopeyou’lllookonourbookshelvesasyourown,\"
saidAnne。
\"Youareentirelyandwholeheartedlywelcometotheloanofanybookonthem。\"
\"Youaresettingafeastoffatthingsbeforeme,\"
saidLeslie,joyously。Then,astheclockstruckten,sherose,halfunwillingly。
\"Imustgo。Ididn’trealiseitwassolate。CaptainJimisalwayssayingitdoesn’ttakelongtostayanhour。ButI’vestayedtwo——andoh,butI’veenjoyedthem,\"sheaddedfrankly。
\"Comeoften,\"saidAnneandGilbert。Theyhadrisenandstoodtogetherinthefirelight’sglow。Leslielookedatthem——youthful,hopeful,happy,typifyingallshehadmissedandmustforevermiss。Thelightwentoutofherfaceandeyes;thegirlvanished;itwasthesorrowful,cheatedwomanwhoansweredtheinvitationalmostcoldlyandgotherselfawaywithapitifulhaste。
Annewatchedheruntilshewaslostintheshadowsofthechillandmistynight。Thensheturnedslowlybacktotheglowofherownradianthearthstone。
\"Isn’tshelovely,Gilbert?Herhairfascinatesme。
MissCorneliasaysitreachestoherfeet。RubyGillishadbeautifulhair——butLeslie’sisALIVE——everythreadofitislivinggold。\"
\"Sheisverybeautiful,\"agreedGilbert,soheartilythatAnnealmostwishedhewereaLITTLElessenthusiastic。
\"Gilbert,wouldyoulikemyhairbetterifitwerelikeLeslie’s?\"sheaskedwistfully。
\"Iwouldn’thaveyourhairanycolorbutjustwhatitisfortheworld,\"saidGilbert,withoneortwoconvincingaccompaniments。
Youwouldn’tbeANNEifyouhadgoldenhair——orhairofanycolorbut\"——
\"Red,\"saidAnne,withgloomysatisfaction。
\"Yes,red——togivewarmthtothatmilk-whiteskinandthoseshininggray-greeneyesofyours。Goldenhairwouldn’tsuityouatallQueenAnne——MYQueenAnne——queenofmyheartandlifeandhome。\"
\"ThenyoumayadmireLeslie’sallyoulike,\"saidAnnemagnanimously。
CHAPTER13
AGHOSTLYEVENING
Oneevening,aweeklater,Annedecidedtorunoverthefieldstothehouseupthebrookforaninformalcall。
Itwasaneveningofgrayfogthathadcreptinfromthegulf,swathedtheharbor,filledtheglensandvalleys,andclungheavilytotheautumnalmeadows。
Throughittheseasobbedandshuddered。AnnesawFourWindsinanewaspect,andfounditweirdandmysteriousandfascinating;butitalsogaveheralittlefeelingofloneliness。Gilbertwasawayandwouldbeawayuntilthemorrow,attendingamedicalpow-wowinCharlottetown。Annelongedforanhouroffellowshipwithsomegirlfriend。CaptainJimandMissCorneliawere\"goodfellows\"each,intheirownway;
butyouthyearnedtoyouth。
\"IfonlyDianaorPhilorPrisorStellacoulddropinforachat,\"shesaidtoherself,\"howdelightfulitwouldbe!ThisissuchaGHOSTLYnight。I’msurealltheshipsthateversailedoutofFourWindstotheirdoomcouldbeseentonightsailinguptheharborwiththeirdrownedcrewsontheirdecks,ifthatshroudingfogcouldsuddenlybedrawnaside。Ifeelasifitconcealedinnumerablemysteries——asifIweresurroundedbythewraithsofoldgenerationsofFourWindspeoplepeeringatmethroughthatgrayveil。Ifeverthedeardeadladiesofthislittlehousecamebacktorevisitittheywouldcomeonjustsuchanightasthis。IfIsithereanylongerI’llseeoneofthemthereoppositemeinGilbert’schair。Thisplaceisn’texactlycannytonight。EvenGogandMagoghaveanairofprickinguptheirearstohearthefootstepsofunseenguests。I’llrunovertoseeLesliebeforeI
frightenmyselfwithmyownfancies,asIdidlongagointhematteroftheHauntedWood。I’llleavemyhouseofdreamstowelcomebackitsoldinhabitants。Myfirewillgivethemmygood-willandgreeting——theywillbegonebeforeIcomeback,andmyhousewillbemineoncemore。TonightIamsureitiskeepingatrystwiththepast。\"
Laughingalittleoverherfancy,yetwithsomethingofacreepysensationintheregionofherspine,AnnekissedherhandtoGogandMagogandslippedoutintothefog,withsomeofthenewmagazinesunderherarmforLeslie。
\"Leslie’swildforbooksandmagazines,\"MissCorneliahadtoldher,\"andshehardlyeverseesone。Shecan’taffordtobuythemorsubscribeforthem。She’sreallypitifullypoor,Anne。Idon’tseehowshemakesouttoliveatallonthelittlerentthefarmbringsin。
Sheneverevenhintsacomplaintonthescoreofpoverty,butIknowwhatitmustbe。She’sbeenhandicappedbyitallherlife。Shedidn’tminditwhenshewasfreeandambitious,butitmustgallnow,believeME。I’mgladsheseemedsobrightandmerrytheeveningshespentwithyou。CaptainJimtoldmehehadfairlytoputhercapandcoatonandpushheroutofthedoor。Don’tbetoolonggoingtoseehereither。Ifyouareshe’llthinkit’sbecauseyoudon’tlikethesightofDick,andshe’llcrawlintohershellagain。Dick’sagreat,big,harmlessbaby,butthatsillygrinandchuckleofhisdogetonsomepeople’snerves。Thankgoodness,I’venonervesmyself。IlikeDickMoorebetternowthanIeverdidwhenhewasinhisrightsenses——thoughtheLordknowsthatisn’tsayingmuch。IwasdownthereonedayinhousecleaningtimehelpingLeslieabit,andIwasfryingdoughnuts。
Dickwashangingroundtogetone,asusual,andallatoncehepickedupascaldinghotoneI’djustfishedoutanddroppeditonthebackofmyneckwhenIwasbendingover。Thenhelaughedandlaughed。BelieveME,Anne,ittookallthegraceofGodinmyhearttokeepmefromjustwhiskingupthatstew-panofboilingfatandpouringitoverhishead。\"
AnnelaughedoverMissCornelia’swrathasshespedthroughthedarkness。Butlaughteraccordedillwiththatnight。Shewassoberenoughwhenshereachedthehouseamongthewillows。Everythingwasverysilent。
Thefrontpartofthehouseseemeddarkanddeserted,soAnneslippedroundtothesidedoor,whichopenedfromtheverandaintoalittlesittingroom。Thereshehaltednoiselessly。
Thedoorwasopen。Beyond,inthedimlylightedroom,satLeslieMoore,withherarmsflungoutonthetableandherheadbentuponthem。Shewasweepinghorribly——withlow,fierce,chokingsobs,asifsomeagonyinhersoulweretryingtotearitselfout。Anoldblackdogwassittingbyher,hisnoserestingonhislap,hisbigdoggisheyesfullofmute,imploringsympathyanddevotion。Annedrewbackindismay。Shefeltthatshecouldnotintermeddlewiththisbitterness。Herheartachedwithasympathyshemightnotutter。Togoinnowwouldbetoshutthedoorforeveronanypossiblehelporfriendship。SomeinstinctwarnedAnnethattheproud,bittergirlwouldneverforgivetheonewhothussurprisedherinherabandonmentofdespair。
Anneslippednoiselesslyfromtheverandaandfoundherwayacrosstheyard。Beyond,sheheardvoicesinthegloomandsawthedimglowofalight。Atthegateshemettwomen——CaptainJimwithalantern,andanotherwhosheknewmustbeDickMoore——abigman,badlygonetofat,withabroad,round,redface,andvacanteyes。
EveninthedulllightAnnegottheimpressionthattherewassomethingunusualabouthiseyes。
\"Isthisyou,MistressBlythe?\"saidCaptainJim。
\"Now,now,youhadn’toughterberoamingaboutaloneonanightlikethis。Youcouldgetlostinthisfogeasierthannot。JestyouwaittillIseeDicksafeinsidethedoorandI’llcomebackandlightyouoverthefields。Iain’tgoingtohaveDr。BlythecominghomeandfindingthatyouwalkedcleanoverCapeLeforceinthefog。Awomandidthatonce,fortyyearsago。
\"Soyou’vebeenovertoseeLeslie,\"hesaid,whenherejoinedher。
\"Ididn’tgoin,\"saidAnne,andtoldwhatshehadseen。CaptainJimsighed。
\"Poor,poor,littlegirl!Shedon’tcryoften,MistressBlythe——she’stoobraveforthat。Shemustfeelterriblewhenshedoescry。Anightlikethisishardonpoorwomenwhohavesorrows。There’ssomethingaboutitthatkinderbringsupallwe’vesuffered——orfeared。\"
\"It’sfullofghosts,\"saidAnne,withashiver。
\"ThatwaswhyIcameover——Iwantedtoclaspahumanhandandhearahumanvoice。
ThereseemtobesomanyINHUMANpresencesabouttonight。Evenmyowndearhousewasfullofthem。
Theyfairlyelbowedmeout。SoIfledoverhereforcompanionshipofmykind。\"
\"Youwererightnottogoin,though,MistressBlythe。
Lesliewouldn’thavelikedit。Shewouldn’thavelikedmegoinginwithDick,asI’dhavedoneifIhadn’tmetyou。IhadDickdownwithmeallday。IkeephimwithmeasmuchasIcantohelpLeslieabit。\"
\"Isn’ttheresomethingoddabouthiseyes?\"askedAnne。
\"Younoticedthat?Yes,oneisblueandt’otherishazel——hisfatherhadthesame。It’saMoorepeculiarity。ThatwaswhattoldmehewasDickMoorewhenIsawhimfirstdowninCuby。Ifithadn’ta-binforhiseyesImightn’ta-knownhim,withhisbeardandfat。Youknow,Ireckon,thatitwasmefoundhimandbroughthimhome。MissCorneliaalwayssaysI
shouldn’thavedoneit,butIcan’tagreewithher。ItwastheRIGHTthingtodo——andso’twastheonlything。
Thereain’tnoquestioninmymindaboutTHAT。ButmyoldheartachesforLeslie。She’sonlytwenty-eightandshe’seatenmorebreadwithsorrowthanmostwomendoineightyyears。\"
Theywalkedoninsilenceforalittlewhile。
PresentlyAnnesaid,\"Doyouknow,CaptainJim,Ineverlikewalkingwithalantern。Ihavealwaysthestrangestfeelingthatjustoutsidethecircleoflight,justoveritsedgeinthedarkness,Iamsurroundedbyaringoffurtive,sinisterthings,watchingmefromtheshadowswithhostileeyes。I’vehadthatfeelingfromchildhood。Whatisthereason?
IneverfeellikethatwhenI’mreallyinthedarkness——whenitiscloseallaroundme——I’mnottheleastfrightened。\"
\"I’vesomethingofthatfeelingmyself,\"admittedCaptainJim。\"Ireckonwhenthedarknessisclosetousitisafriend。Butwhenwesorterpushitawayfromus——divorceourselvesfromit,sotospeak,withlanternlight——itbecomesanenemy。Butthefogislifting。
There’sasmartwestwindrising,ifyounotice。Thestarswillbeoutwhenyougethome。\"
Theywereout;andwhenAnnere-enteredherhouseofdreamstheredemberswerestillglowingonthehearth,andallthehauntingpresencesweregone。
CHAPTER14
NOVEMBERDAYS
ThesplendorofcolorwhichhadglowedforweeksalongtheshoresofFourWindsHarborhadfadedoutintothesoftgray-blueoflateautumnalhills。Therecamemanydayswhenfieldsandshoresweredimwithmistyrain,orshiveringbeforethebreathofamelancholysea-wind——nights,too,ofstormandtempest,whenAnnesometimeswakenedtopraythatnoshipmightbebeatingupthegrimnorthshore,forifitweresonoteventhegreat,faithfullightwhirlingthroughthedarknessunafraid,couldavailtoguideitintosafehaven。
\"InNovemberIsometimesfeelasifspringcouldnevercomeagain,\"shesighed,grievingoverthehopelessunsightlinessofherfrostedandbedraggledflower-plots。Thegaylittlegardenoftheschoolmaster’sbridewasratheraforlornplacenow,andtheLombardiesandbircheswereunderbarepoles,asCaptainJimsaid。Butthefir-woodbehindthelittlehousewasforevergreenandstaunch;andeveninNovemberandDecembertherecamegraciousdaysofsunshineandpurplehazes,whentheharbordancedandsparkledasblithelyasinmidsummer,andthegulfwassosoftlyblueandtenderthatthestormandthewildwindseemedonlythingsofalong-pastdream。
AnneandGilbertspentmanyanautumneveningatthelighthouse。Itwasalwaysacheeryplace。Evenwhentheeastwindsanginminorandtheseawasdeadandgray,hintsofsunshineseemedtobelurkingallaboutit。PerhapsthiswasbecausetheFirstMatealwaysparadeditinpanoplyofgold。Hewassolargeandeffulgentthatonehardlymissedthesun,andhisresoundingpurrsformedapleasantaccompanimenttothelaughterandconversationwhichwentonaroundCaptainJim’sfireplace。CaptainJimandGilberthadmanylongdiscussionsandhighconverseonmattersbeyondthekenofcatorking。
\"Iliketoponderonallkindsofproblems,thoughI
can’tsolve’em,\"saidCaptainJim。\"Myfatherheldthatweshouldnevertalkofthingswecouldn’tunderstand,butifwedidn’t,doctor,thesubjectsforconversationwouldbemightyfew。Ireckonthegodslaughmanyatimetohearus,butwhatmatterssolongaswerememberthatwe’reonlymenanddon’ttaketofancyingthatwe’regodsourselves,really,knowinggoodandevil。Ireckonourpow-wowswon’tdousoranyonemuchharm,solet’shaveanotherwhackatthewhence,whyandwhitherthisevening,doctor。\"
Whilethey\"whacked,\"Annelistenedordreamed。
SometimesLesliewenttothelighthousewiththem,andsheandAnnewanderedalongtheshoreintheeerietwilight,orsatontherocksbelowthelighthouseuntilthedarknessdrovethembacktothecheerofthedriftwoodfire。ThenCaptainJimwouldbrewthemteaandtellthem\"talesoflandandseaAndwhatsoevermightbetideThegreatforgottenworldoutside。\"
Leslieseemedalwaystoenjoythoselighthousecarousalsverymuch,andbloomedoutforthetimebeingintoreadywitandbeautifullaughter,orglowing-eyedsilence。TherewasacertaintangandsavorintheconversationwhenLesliewaspresentwhichtheymissedwhenshewasabsent。Evenwhenshedidnottalksheseemedtoinspireotherstobrilliancy。CaptainJimtoldhisstoriesbetter,Gilbertwasquickerinargumentandrepartee,AnnefeltlittlegushesandtricklesoffancyandimaginationbubblingtoherlipsundertheinfluenceofLeslie’spersonality。
\"Thatgirlwasborntobealeaderinsocialandintellectualcircles,farawayfromFourWinds,\"shesaidtoGilbertastheywalkedhomeonenight。\"She’sjustwastedhere——wasted。\"
\"Weren’tyoulisteningtoCaptainJimandyourstrulytheothernightwhenwediscussedthatsubjectgenerally?WecametothecomfortingconclusionthattheCreatorprobablyknewhowtorunHisuniversequiteaswellaswedo,andthat,afterall,therearenosuchthingsas`wasted’lives,savingandexceptwhenanindividualwilfullysquandersandwasteshisownlife——whichLeslieMoorecertainlyhasn’tdone。AndsomepeoplemightthinkthataRedmondB。A。,whomeditorswerebeginningtohonor,was`wasted’asthewifeofastrugglingcountrydoctorintheruralcommunityofFourWinds。\"
\"Gilbert!\"
\"IfyouhadmarriedRoyGardner,now,\"continuedGilbertmercilessly,\"YOUcouldhavebeen`aleaderinsocialandintellectualcirclesfarawayfromFourWinds。’\"
\"GilbertBLYTHE!\"
\"YouKNOWyouwereinlovewithhimatonetime,Anne。\"
\"Gilbert,that’smean——`pisenmean,justlikeallthemen,’asMissCorneliasays。INEVERwasinlovewithhim。IonlyimaginedIwas。YOUknowthat。YouKNOW
I’dratherbeyourwifeinourhouseofdreamsandfulfillmentthanaqueeninapalace。\"
Gilbert’sanswerwasnotinwords;butIamafraidthatbothofthemforgotpoorLesliespeedingherlonelywayacrossthefieldstoahousethatwasneitherapalacenorthefulfillmentofadream。
Themoonwasrisingoverthesad,darkseabehindthemandtransfiguringit。Herlighthadnotyetreachedtheharbor,thefurthersideofwhichwasshadowyandsuggestive,withdimcovesandrichgloomsandjewellinglights。
\"Howthehomelightsshineouttonightthroughthedark!\"saidAnne。\"Thatstringofthemovertheharborlookslikeanecklace。AndwhatacoruscationthereisupattheGlen!Oh,look,Gilbert;thereisours。I’msogladweleftitburning。Ihatetocomehometoadarkhouse。OURhomelight,Gilbert!Isn’titlovelytosee?\"
\"Justoneofearth’smanymillionsofhomes,Anne——girl——butours——OURS——ourbeaconin`anaughtyworld。’Whenafellowhasahomeandadear,little,red-hairedwifeinitwhatmoreneedheaskoflife?\"
\"Well,hemightaskONEthingmore,\"whisperedAnnehappily。\"Oh,Gilbert,itseemsasifIjustCOULDN’T
waitforthespring。\"
CHAPTER15
CHRISTMASATFOURWINDS
AtfirstAnneandGilberttalkedofgoinghometoAvonleaforChristmas;buteventuallytheydecidedtostayinFourWinds。\"IwanttospendthefirstChristmasofourlifetogetherinourownhome,\"
decreedAnne。
SoitfelloutthatMarillaandMrs。RachelLyndeandthetwinscametoFourWindsforChristmas。Marillahadthefaceofawomanwhohadcircumnavigatedtheglobe。Shehadneverbeensixtymilesawayfromhomebefore;andshehadnevereatenaChristmasdinneranywheresaveatGreenGables。
Mrs。Rachelhadmadeandbroughtwithheranenormousplumpudding。NothingcouldhaveconvincedMrs。RachelthatacollegegraduateoftheyoungergenerationcouldmakeaChristmasplumpuddingproperly;butshebestowedapprovalonAnne’shouse。
\"Anne’sagoodhousekeeper,\"shesaidtoMarillainthespareroomthenightoftheirarrival。\"I’velookedintoherbreadboxandherscrappail。Ialwaysjudgeahousekeeperbythose,that’swhat。There’snothinginthepailthatshouldn’thavebeenthrownaway,andnostalepiecesinthebreadbox。Ofcourse,shewastrainedupwithyou——but,then,shewenttocollegeafterwards。Inoticeshe’sgotmytobaccostripequiltonthebedhere,andthatbigroundbraidedmatofyoursbeforeherliving-roomfire。Itmakesmefeelrightathome。\"
Anne’sfirstChristmasinherownhousewasasdelightfulasshecouldhavewished。Thedaywasfineandbright;thefirstskimofsnowhadfallenonChristmasEveandmadetheworldbeautiful;theharborwasstillopenandglittering。
CaptainJimandMissCorneliacametodinner。LeslieandDickhadbeeninvited,butLesliemadeexcuse;theyalwayswenttoherUncleIsaacWest’sforChristmas,shesaid。
\"She’dratherhaveitso,\"MissCorneliatoldAnne。
\"Shecan’tbeartakingDickwheretherearestrangers。
ChristmasisalwaysahardtimeforLeslie。Sheandherfatherusedtomakealotofit。\"
MissCorneliaandMrs。Racheldidnottakeaveryviolentfancytoeachother。\"Twosunsholdnottheircoursesinonesphere。\"Buttheydidnotclashatall,forMrs。RachelwasinthekitchenhelpingAnneandMarillawiththedinner,anditfelltoGilberttoentertainCaptainJimandMissCornelia,——orrathertobeentertainedbythem,foradialoguebetweenthosetwooldfriendsandantagonistswasassuredlyneverdull。
\"It’smanyayearsincetherewasaChristmasdinnerhere,MistressBlythe,\"saidCaptainJim。\"MissRussellalwayswenttoherfriendsintownforChristmas。ButIwasheretothefirstChristmasdinnerthatwasevereateninthishouse——andtheschoolmaster’sbridecookedit。Thatwassixtyyearsagotoday,MistressBlythe——andadayverylikethis——justenoughsnowtomakethehillswhite,andtheharborasblueasJune。Iwasonlyalad,andI’dneverbeeninvitedouttodinnerbefore,andIwastooshytoeatenough。I’vegotalloverTHAT。\"
\"Mostmendo,\"saidMissCornelia,sewingfuriously。
MissCorneliawasnotgoingtositwithidlehands,evenonChristmas。
Babiescomewithoutanyconsiderationforholidays,andtherewasoneexpectedinapoverty-strickenhouseholdatGlenSt。Mary。MissCorneliahadsentthathouseholdasubstantialdinnerforitslittleswarm,andsomeanttoeatherownwithacomfortableconscience。
\"Well,youknow,thewaytoaman’sheartisthroughhisstomach,Cornelia,\"explainedCaptainJim。
\"Ibelieveyou——whenheHASaheart,\"retortedMissCornelia。\"Isupposethat’swhysomanywomenkillthemselvescooking——justaspoorAmeliaBaxterdid。
ShediedlastChristmasmorning,andshesaiditwasthefirstChristmassinceshewasmarriedthatshedidn’thavetocookabig,twenty-platedinner。Itmusthavebeenarealpleasantchangeforher。Well,she’sbeendeadayear,soyou’llsoonhearofHoraceBaxtertakingnotice。\"
\"Iheardhewastakingnoticealready,\"saidCaptainJim,winkingatGilbert。\"Wasn’theuptoyourplaceoneSundaylately,withhisfuneralblackson,andaboiledcollar?\"
\"No,hewasn’t。Andheneedn’tcomeneither。Icouldhavehadhimlongagowhenhewasfresh。Idon’twantanysecond-handgoods,believeME。AsforHoraceBaxter,hewasinfinancialdifficultiesayearagolastsummer,andheprayedtotheLordforhelp;andwhenhiswifediedandhegotherlifeinsurancehesaidhebelieveditwastheanswertohisprayer。
Wasn’tthatlikeaman?\"
\"Haveyoureallyproofthathesaidthat,Cornelia?\"
\"IhavetheMethodistminister’swordforit——ifyoucallTHATproof。RobertBaxtertoldmethesamethingtoo,butIadmitTHATisn’tevidence。RobertBaxterisn’toftenknowntotellthetruth。\"
\"Come,come,Cornelia,Ithinkhegenerallytellsthetruth,buthechangeshisopinionsooftenitsometimessoundsasifhedidn’t。\"
\"Itsoundslikeitmightyoften,believeME。Buttrustonemantoexcuseanother。IhavenouseforRobertBaxter。HeturnedMethodistjustbecausethePresbyterianchoirhappenedtobesinging`Beholdthebridegroomcometh’foracollectionpiecewhenhimandMargaretwalkeduptheaisletheSundayaftertheyweremarried。Servedhimrightforbeinglate!Healwaysinsistedthechoirdiditonpurposetoinsulthim,asifhewasofthatmuchimportance。Butthatfamilyalwaysthoughttheyweremuchbiggerpotatoesthantheyreallywere。HisbrotherEliphaletimaginedthedevilwasalwaysathiselbow——but_I_neverbelievedthedevilwastedthatmuchtimeonhim。\"
\"I——don’t——know,\"saidCaptainJimthoughtfully。
\"EliphaletBaxterlivedtoomuchalone——hadn’tevenacatordogtokeephimhuman。Whenamanisalonehe’smightyapttobewiththedevil——ifheain’twithGod。
Hehastochoosewhichcompanyhe’llkeep,Ireckon。
IfthedevilalwayswasatLifeBaxter’selbowitmusthavebeenbecauseLifelikedtohavehimthere。\"
\"Man-like,\"saidMissCornelia,andsubsidedintosilenceoveracomplicatedarrangementoftucksuntilCaptainJimdeliberatelystirredherupagainbyremarkinginacasualway:
\"IwasuptotheMethodistchurchlastSundaymorning。\"
\"You’dbetterhavebeenhomereadingyourBible,\"wasMissCornelia’sretort。
\"Come,now,Cornelia,_I_can’tseeanyharmingoingtotheMethodistchurchwhenthere’snopreachinginyourown。I’vebeenaPresbyterianforseventy-sixyears,anditisn’tlikelymytheologywillhoistanchoratthislateday。\"
\"It’ssettingabadexample,\"saidMissCorneliagrimly。
\"Besides,\"continuedwickedCaptainJim,\"Iwantedtohearsomegoodsinging。TheMethodistshaveagoodchoir;andyoucan’tdeny,Cornelia,thatthesinginginourchurchisawfulsincethesplitinthechoir。\"
\"Whatifthesingingisn’tgood?They’redoingtheirbest,andGodseesnodifferencebetweenthevoiceofacrowandthevoiceofanightingale。\"
\"Come,come,Cornelia,\"saidCaptainJimmildly,\"I’veabetteropinionoftheAlmighty’searformusicthanTHAT。\"
\"Whatcausedthetroubleinourchoir?\"askedGilbert,whowassufferingfromsuppressedlaughter。
\"Itdatesbacktothenewchurch,threeyearsago,\"
answeredCaptainJim。\"Wehadafearfultimeoverthebuildingofthatchurch——felloutoverthequestionofanewsite。Thetwositeswasn’tmore’ntwohundredyardsapart,butyou’dhavethoughttheywasathousandbythebitternessofthatfight。Wewassplitupintothreefactions——onewantedtheeastsiteandonethesouth,andoneheldtotheold。Itwasfoughtoutinbedandatboard,andinchurchandatmarket。Alltheoldscandalsofthreegenerationsweredraggedoutoftheirgravesandaired。Threematcheswasbrokenupbyit。Andthemeetingswehadtotrytosettlethequestion!Cornelia,willyoueverforgettheonewhenoldLutherBurnsgotupandmadeaspeech?HEstatedhisopinionsforcibly。\"
\"Callaspadeaspade,Captain。Youmeanhegotred-madandrakedthemall,foreandaft。Theydeservedittoo——apackofincapables。Butwhatwouldyouexpectofacommitteeofmen?Thatbuildingcommitteeheldtwenty-sevenmeetings,andattheendofthetwenty-seventhweren’tnonearerhavingachurchthanwhentheybegun——notsonear,forafact,forinonefitofhurryingthingsalongthey’dgonetoworkandtoretheoldchurchdown,sotherewewere,withoutachurch,andnoplacebutthehalltoworshipin。\"
\"TheMethodistsofferedustheirchurch,Cornelia。\"
\"TheGlenSt。Marychurchwouldn’thavebeenbuilttothisday,\"wentonMissCornelia,ignoringCaptainJim,\"ifwewomenhadn’tjuststartedinandtookcharge。WesaidWEmeanttohaveachurch,ifthemenmeanttoquarreltilldoomsday,andweweretiredofbeingalaughing-stockfortheMethodists。WeheldONE
meetingandelectedacommitteeandcanvassedforsubscriptions。Wegotthem,too。Whenanyofthementriedtosassuswetoldthemthey’dtriedfortwoyearstobuildachurchanditwasourturnnow。Weshutthemupclose,believeME,andinsixmonthswehadourchurch。Ofcourse,whenthemensawweweredeterminedtheystoppedfightingandwenttowork,man-like,assoonastheysawtheyhadto,orquitbossing。Oh,womencan’tpreachorbeelders;buttheycanbuildchurchesandscareupthemoneyforthem。\"
\"TheMethodistsallowwomentopreach,\"saidCaptainJim。
MissCorneliaglaredathim。
\"IneversaidtheMethodistshadn’tcommonsense,Captain。WhatIsayis,Idoubtiftheyhavemuchreligion。\"
\"Isupposeyouareinfavorofvotesforwomen,MissCornelia,\"saidGilbert。
\"I’mnothankeringafterthevote,believeME,\"saidMissCorneliascornfully。\"_I_knowwhatitistocleanupafterthemen。Butsomeofthesedays,whenthemenrealizethey’vegottheworldintoamesstheycan’tgetitoutof,they’llbegladtogiveusthevote,andshouldertheirtroublesoveronus。That’sTHEIRscheme。Oh,it’swellthatwomenarepatient,believeME!\"
\"WhataboutJob?\"suggestedCaptainJim。
\"Job!Itwassuchararethingtofindapatientmanthatwhenonewasreallydiscoveredtheyweredeterminedheshouldn’tbeforgotten,\"retortedMissCorneliatriumphantly。\"Anyhow,thevirtuedoesn’tgowiththename。ThereneverwassuchanimpatientmanbornasoldJobTayloroverharbor。\"
\"Well,youknow,hehadagooddealtotryhim,Cornelia。Evenyoucan’tdefendhiswife。IalwaysrememberwhatoldWilliamMacAllistersaidofheratherfuneral,`There’snaedootshewasaChreestianwumman,butshehadthede’il’sowntemper。’\"
\"IsupposesheWAStrying,\"admittedMissCorneliareluctantly,\"butthatdidn’tjustifywhatJobsaidwhenshedied。Herodehomefromthegraveyardthedayofthefuneralwithmyfather。Heneversaidawordtilltheygotnearhome。Thenheheavedabigsighandsaid,`Youmaynotbelieveit,Stephen,butthisisthehappiestdayofmylife!’Wasn’tthatlikeaman?\"
\"Is’posepooroldMrs。Jobdidmakelifekinderuneasyforhim,\"reflectedCaptainJim。
\"Well,there’ssuchathingasdecency,isn’tthere?
Evenifamanisrejoicinginhisheartoverhiswifebeingdead,heneedn’tproclaimittothefourwindsofheaven。Andhappydayornot,JobTaylorwasn’tlonginmarryingagain,youmightnotice。Hissecondwifecouldmanagehim。ShemadehimwalkSpanish,believeme!ThefirstthingshedidwastomakehimhustleroundandputupatombstonetothefirstMrs。
Job——andshehadaplaceleftonitforherownname。
Shesaidthere’dbenobodytomakeJobputupamonumenttoHER。\"
\"SpeakingofTaylors,howisMrs。LewisTaylorupattheGlen,doctor?\"askedCaptainJim。
\"She’sgettingbetterslowly——butshehastoworktoohard,\"repliedGilbert。
\"Herhusbandworkshardtoo——raisingprizepigs,\"saidMissCornelia。\"He’snotedforhisbeautifulpigs。
He’saheapprouderofhispigsthanofhischildren。
Butthen,tobesure,hispigsarethebestpigspossible,whilehischildrendon’tamounttomuch。Hepickedapoormotherforthem,andstarvedherwhileshewasbearingandrearingthem。Hispigsgotthecreamandhischildrengottheskimmilk。
\"Therearetimes,Cornelia,whenIhavetoagreewithyou,thoughithurtsme,\"saidCaptainJim。\"That’sjustexactlythetruthaboutLewisTaylor。WhenIseethosepoor,miserablechildrenofhis,robbedofallchildrenoughttohave,itp’isensmyownbiteandsupfordaysafterwards。\"
GilbertwentouttothekitcheninresponsetoAnne’sbeckoning。Anneshutthedoorandgavehimaconnubiallecture。
\"Gilbert,youandCaptainJimmuststopbaitingMissCornelia。Oh,I’vebeenlisteningtoyou——andIjustwon’tallowit。\"
`Anne,MissCorneliaisenjoyingherselfhugely。Youknowsheis。’
\"Well,nevermind。Youtwoneedn’teggheronlikethat。Dinnerisreadynow,and,Gilbert,DON’TletMrs。Rachelcarvethegeese。Iknowshemeanstooffertodoitbecauseshedoesn’tthinkyoucandoitproperly。Showheryoucan。\"
\"Ioughttobeableto。I’vebeenstudyingA-B-C-D
diagramsofcarvingforthepastmonth,\"saidGilbert。
\"Onlydon’ttalktomewhileI’mdoingit,Anne,forifyoudrivethelettersoutofmyheadI’llbeinaworsepredicamentthanyouwereinoldgeometrydayswhentheteacherchangedthem。\"
Gilbertcarvedthegeesebeautifully。EvenMrs。Rachelhadtoadmitthat。Andeverybodyateofthemandenjoyedthem。Anne’sfirstChristmasdinnerwasagreatsuccessandshebeamedwithhousewifelypride。
Merrywasthefeastandlong;andwhenitwasovertheygatheredaroundthecheeroftheredhearthflameandCaptainJimtoldthemstoriesuntiltheredsunswunglowoverFourWindsHarbor,andthelongblueshadowsoftheLombardiesfellacrossthesnowinthelane。
\"Imustbegettingbacktothelight,\"hesaidfinally。\"I’lljesthavetimetowalkhomebeforesundown。ThankyouforabeautifulChristmas,MistressBlythe。BringMasterDavydowntothelightsomenightbeforehegoeshome。
\"Iwanttoseethosestonegods,\"saidDavywitharelish。
CHAPTER16
NEWYEAR’SEVEATTHELIGHT
TheGreenGablesfolkwenthomeafterChristmas,Marillaundersolemncovenanttoreturnforamonthinthespring。MoresnowcamebeforeNewYear’s,andtheharborfrozeover,butthegulfstillwasfree,beyondthewhite,imprisonedfields。Thelastdayoftheoldyearwasoneofthosebright,cold,dazzlingwinterdays,whichbombarduswiththeirbrilliancy,andcommandouradmirationbutneverourlove。Theskywassharpandblue;thesnowdiamondssparkledinsistently;
thestarktreeswerebareandshameless,withakindofbrazenbeauty;thehillsshotassaultinglancesofcrystal。Eventheshadowsweresharpandstiffandclear-cut,asnopropershadowsshouldbe。Everythingthatwashandsomeseemedtentimeshandsomerandlessattractiveintheglaringsplendor;andeverythingthatwasuglyseemedtentimesuglier,andeverythingwaseitherhandsomeorugly。Therewasnosoftblending,orkindobscurity,orelusivemistinessinthatsearchingglitter。Theonlythingsthatheldtheirownindividualitywerethefirs——forthefiristhetreeofmysteryandshadow,andyieldsnevertotheencroachmentsofcruderadiance。
Butfinallythedaybegantorealisethatshewasgrowingold。Thenacertainpensivenessfelloverherbeautywhichdimmedyetintensifiedit;sharpangles,glitteringpoints,meltedawayintocurvesandenticinggleams。Thewhiteharborputonsoftgraysandpinks;thefar-awayhillsturnedamethyst。
\"Theoldyearisgoingawaybeautifully,\"saidAnne。
SheandLeslieandGilbertwereontheirwaytotheFourWindsPoint,havingplottedwithCaptainJimtowatchtheNewYearinatthelight。ThesunhadsetandinthesouthwesternskyhungVenus,gloriousandgolden,havingdrawnasneartoherearth-sisterasispossibleforher。ForthefirsttimeAnneandGilbertsawtheshadowcastbythatbrilliantstarofevening,thatfaint,mysteriousshadow,neverseensavewhenthereiswhitesnowtorevealit,andthenonlywithavertedvision,vanishingwhenyougazeatitdirectly。
\"It’slikethespiritofashadow,isn’tit?\"
whisperedAnne。\"Youcanseeitsoplainlyhauntingyoursidewhenyoulookahead;butwhenyouturnandlookatit——it’sgone。\"
\"IhaveheardthatyoucanseetheshadowofVenusonlyonceinalifetime,andthatwithinayearofseeingityourlife’smostwonderfulgiftwillcometoyou,\"
saidLeslie。Butshespokeratherhardly;perhapsshethoughtthateventheshadowofVenuscouldbringhernogiftoflife。Annesmiledinthesofttwilight;shefeltquitesurewhatthemysticshadowpromisedher。
TheyfoundMarshallElliottatthelighthouse。AtfirstAnnefeltinclinedtoresenttheintrusionofthislong-haired,long-beardedeccentricintothefamiliarlittlecircle。ButMarshallElliottsoonprovedhislegitimateclaimtomembershipinthehouseholdofJoseph。Hewasawitty,intelligent,well-readman,rivallingCaptainJimhimselfintheknackoftellingagoodstory。Theywereallgladwhenheagreedtowatchtheoldyearoutwiththem。
CaptainJim’ssmallnephewJoehadcomedowntospendNewYear’swithhisgreat-uncle,andhadfallenasleeponthesofawiththeFirstMatecurledupinahugegoldenballathisfeet。
\"Ain’theadearlittleman?\"saidCaptainJimgloatingly。\"Idolovetowatchalittlechildasleep,MistressBlythe。It’sthemostbeautifulsightintheworld,Ireckon。Joedoeslovetogetdownhereforanight,becauseIhavehimsleepwithme。Athomehehastosleepwiththeothertwoboys,andhedoesn’tlikeit。\"Whycan’tIsleepwithfather,UncleJim?\"
sayshe。`EverybodyintheBiblesleptwiththeirfathers。’Asforthequestionsheasks,theministerhimselfcouldn’tanswerthem。Theyfairswampme。
`UncleJim,ifIwasn’tMEwho’dIbe?’and,`UncleJim,whatwouldhappenifGoddied?’Hefiredthemtwooffatmetonight,aforehewenttosleep。Asforhisimagination,itsailsawayfromeverything。Hemakesupthemostremarkableyarns——andthenhismothershutshimupintheclosetfortellingstories。Andhesitsdownandmakesupanotherone,andhasitreadytorelatetoherwhensheletshimout。Hehadoneformewhenhecomedowntonight。`UncleJim,’sayshe,solemnasatombstone,`Ihada’ventureintheGlentoday。’`Yes,whatwasit?’saysI,expectingsomethingquitestartling,butnowisepreparedforwhatIreallygot。`Imetawolfinthestreet,’sayshe,`a’normouswolfwithabig,redmoufandAWFUL
longteeth,UncleJim。’`Ididn’tknowtherewasanywolvesupattheGlen,’saysI。`Oh,hecomedtherefromfar,faraway,’saysJoe,`andIfoughthewasgoingtoeatmeup,UncleJim。’`Wereyouscared?’
saysI。`No,’causeIhadabiggun,’saysJoe,`andI
shotthewolfdead,UncleJim,——soliddead——andthenhewentuptoheavenandbitGod,’sayshe。Well,I
wasfairstaggered,MistressBlythe。\"
Thehoursbloomedintomirtharoundthedriftwoodfire。
CaptainJimtoldtales,andMarshallElliottsangoldScotchballadsinafinetenorvoice;finallyCaptainJimtookdownhisoldbrownfiddlefromthewallandbegantoplay。Hehadatolerableknackoffiddling,whichallappreciatedsavetheFirstMate,whosprangfromthesofaasifhehadbeenshot,emittedashriekofprotest,andfledwildlyupthestairs。
\"Can’tcultivateanearformusicinthatcatnohow,\"
saidCaptainJim。\"Hewon’tstaylongenoughtolearntolikeit。WhenwegottheorganupattheGlenchurcholdElderRichardsbouncedupfromhisseattheminutetheorganistbegantoplayandscuttleddowntheaisleandoutofthechurchattherateofno-man’s-business。ItremindedmesostrongoftheFirstMatetearinglooseassoonasIbegintofiddlethatIcomenearertolaughingoutloudinchurchthanIeverdidbeforeorsince。\"
TherewassomethingsoinfectiousintherollickingtuneswhichCaptainJimplayedthatverysoonMarshallElliott’sfeetbegantotwitch。Hehadbeenanoteddancerinhisyouth。PresentlyhestartedupandheldouthishandstoLeslie。Instantlysheresponded。
Roundandroundthefirelitroomtheycircledwitharhythmicgracethatwaswonderful。Lesliedancedlikeoneinspired;thewild,sweetabandonofthemusicseemedtohaveenteredintoandpossessedher。Annewatchedherinfascinatedadmiration。Shehadneverseenherlikethis。Alltheinnaterichnessandcolorandcharmofhernatureseemedtohavebrokenlooseandoverflowedincrimsoncheekandglowingeyeandgraceofmotion。EventheaspectofMarshallElliott,withhislongbeardandhair,couldnotspoilthepicture。
Onthecontrary,itseemedtoenhanceit。MarshallElliottlookedlikeaVikingofelderdays,dancingwithoneoftheblue-eyed,golden-haireddaughtersoftheNorthland。
\"ThepurtiestdancingIeversaw,andI’veseensomeinmytime,\"declaredCaptainJim,whenatlastthebowfellfromhistiredhand。Lesliedroppedintoherchair,laughing,breathless。
\"Ilovedancing,\"shesaidaparttoAnne。\"Ihaven’tdancedsinceIwassixteen——butIloveit。ThemusicseemstorunthroughmyveinslikequicksilverandI
forgeteverything——everything——exceptthedelightofkeepingtimetoit。Thereisn’tanyfloorbeneathme,orwallsaboutme,orroofoverme——I’mfloatingamidthestars。\"
CaptainJimhunghisfiddleupinitsplace,besidealargeframeenclosingseveralbanknotes。
\"Isthereanybodyelseofyouracquaintancewhocanaffordtohanghiswallswithbanknotesforpictures?\"
heasked。\"There’stwentyten-dollarnotesthere,notworththeglassoverthem。They’reoldBankofP。E。
Islandnotes。Hadthembymewhenthebankfailed,andIhad’emframedandhungup,partlyasaremindernottoputyourtrustinbanks,andpartlytogivemearealluxurious,millionairyfeeling。Hullo,Matey,don’tbescared。Youcancomebacknow。Themusicandrevelryisoverfortonight。Theoldyearhasjustanotherhourtostaywithus。I’veseenseventy-sixNewYearscomeinoverthatgulfyonder,MistressBlythe。\"
\"You’llseeahundred,\"saidMarshallElliott。
CaptainJimshookhishead。
\"No;andIdon’twantto——atleast,IthinkIdon’t。
Deathgrowsfriendlieraswegrowolder。Notthatoneofusreallywantstodiethough,Marshall。Tennysonspoketruthwhenhesaidthat。There’soldMrs。
WallaceupattheGlen。She’shadheapsoftroubleallherlife,poorsoul,andshe’slostalmosteveryoneshecaredabout。She’salwayssayingthatshe’llbegladwhenhertimecomes,andshedoesn’twanttosojournanylongerinthisvaleoftears。Butwhenshetakesasickspellthere’safuss!Doctorsfromtown,andatrainednurse,andenoughmedicinetokilladog。Lifemaybeavaleoftears,allright,buttherearesomefolkswhoenjoyweeping,Ireckon。\"
Theyspenttheoldyear’slasthourquietlyaroundthefire。AfewminutesbeforetwelveCaptainJimroseandopenedthedoor。
\"WemustlettheNewYearin,\"hesaid。
Outsidewasafinebluenight。Asparklingribbonofmoonlightgarlandedthegulf。Insidethebartheharborshonelikeapavementofpearl。Theystoodbeforethedoorandwaited——CaptainJimwithhisripe,fullexperience,MarshallElliottinhisvigorousbutemptymiddlelife,GilbertandAnnewiththeirpreciousmemoriesandexquisitehopes,Lesliewithherrecordofstarvedyearsandherhopelessfuture。Theclockonthelittleshelfabovethefireplacestrucktwelve。
\"Welcome,NewYear,\"saidCaptainJim,bowinglowasthelaststrokediedaway。\"Iwishyouallthebestyearofyourlives,mates。IreckonthatwhatevertheNewYearbringsuswillbethebesttheGreatCaptainhasforus——andsomehoworotherwe’llallmakeportinagoodharbor。\"
CHAPTER17
AFOURWINDSWINTER
WintersetinvigorouslyafterNewYear’s。Big,whitedriftsheapedthemselvesaboutthelittlehouse,andpalmsoffrostcovereditswindows。Theharboricegrewharderandthicker,untiltheFourWindspeoplebegantheirusualwintertravellingoverit。Thesafewayswere\"bushed\"byabenevolentGovernment,andnightanddaythegaytinkleofthesleigh-bellssoundedonit。OnmoonlitnightsAnneheardtheminherhouseofdreamslikefairychimes。Thegulffrozeover,andtheFourWindslightflashednomore。DuringthemonthswhennavigationwasclosedCaptainJim’sofficewasasinecure。
\"TheFirstMateandIwillhavenothingtodotillspringexceptkeepwarmandamuseourselves。ThelastlighthousekeeperusedalwaystomoveuptotheGleninwinter;butI’dratherstayatthePoint。TheFirstMatemightgetpoisonedorchewedupbydogsattheGlen。It’samitelonely,tobesure,withneitherthelightnorthewaterforcompany,butifourfriendscometoseeusoftenwe’llweatheritthrough。\"
CaptainJimhadaniceboat,andmanyawild,gloriousspinGilbertandAnneandLesliehadovertheglibharboricewithhim。AnneandLeslietooklongsnowshoetrampstogether,too,overthefields,oracrosstheharborafterstorms,orthroughthewoodsbeyondtheGlen。Theywereverygoodcomradesintheirramblesandtheirfiresidecommunings。Eachhadsomethingtogivetheother——eachfeltlifethericherforfriendlyexchangeofthoughtandfriendlysilence;
eachlookedacrossthewhitefieldsbetweentheirhomeswithapleasantconsciousnessofafriendbeyond。But,inspiteofallthis,AnnefeltthattherewasalwaysabarrierbetweenLeslieandherself——aconstraintthatneverwhollyvanished。
\"Idon’tknowwhyIcan’tgetclosertoher,\"AnnesaidoneeveningtoCaptainJim。\"Ilikehersomuch——Iadmirehersomuch——IWANTtotakeherrightintomyheartandcreeprightintohers。ButIcannevercrossthebarrier。\"
\"You’vebeentoohappyallyourlife,MistressBlythe,\"saidCaptainJimthoughtfully。\"Ireckonthat’swhyyouandLesliecan’tgetrealclosetogetherinyoursouls。Thebarrierbetweenyouisherexperienceofsorrowandtrouble。Sheain’tresponsibleforitandyouain’t;butit’sthereandneitherofyoucancrossit。\"
\"Mychildhoodwasn’tveryhappybeforeIcametoGreenGables,\"saidAnne,gazingsoberlyoutofthewindowatthestill,sad,deadbeautyoftheleaflesstree-shadowsonthemoonlitsnow。
\"Mebbenot——butitwasjusttheusualunhappinessofachildwhohasn’tanyonetolookafteritproperly。
Therehasn’tbeenanyTRAGEDYinyourlife,MistressBlythe。AndpoorLeslie’shasbeenalmostALL
tragedy。Shefeels,Ireckon,thoughmebbeshehardlyknowsshefeelsit,thatthere’savastdealinherlifeyoucan’tenternorunderstand——andsoshehastokeepyoubackfromit——holdyouoff,sotospeak,fromhurtingher。Youknowifwe’vegotanythingaboutusthathurtsweshrinkfromanyone’stouchonornearit。
Itholdsgoodwithoursoulsaswellasourbodies,I
reckon。Leslie’ssoulmustbenearraw——it’snowondershehidesitaway。\"
\"Ifthatwerereallyall,Iwouldn’tmind,CaptainJim。
Iwouldunderstand。Buttherearetimes——notalways,butnowandagain——whenIalmosthavetobelievethatLesliedoesn’t——doesn’tlikeme。SometimesIsurprisealookinhereyesthatseemstoshowresentmentanddislike——itgoessoquickly——butI’veseenit,I’msureofthat。Andithurtsme,CaptainJim。I’mnotusedtobeingdisliked——andI’vetriedsohardtowinLeslie’sfriendship。\"
\"Youhavewonit,MistressBlythe。Don’tyougocherishinganyfoolishnotionthatLesliedon’tlikeyou。Ifshedidn’tshewouldn’thaveanythingtodowithyou,muchlesschummingwithyouasshedoes。I
knowLeslieMooretoowellnottobesureofthat。\"
\"ThefirsttimeIeversawher,drivinghergeesedownthehillonthedayIcametoFourWinds,shelookedatmewiththesameexpression,\"persistedAnne。\"Ifeltit,eveninthemidstofmyadmirationofherbeauty。
Shelookedatmeresentfully——shedid,indeed,CaptainJim。\"
\"Theresentmentmusthavebeenaboutsomethingelse,MistressBlythe,andyoujestcomeinforashareofitbecauseyouhappenedpast。LeslieDOEStakesullenspellsnowandagain,poorgirl。Ican’tblameher,whenIknowwhatshehastoputupwith。Idon’tknowwhyit’spermitted。ThedoctorandIhavetalkedalotabuttheoriginofevil,butwehaven’tquitefoundoutallaboutityet。There’savastofonunderstandablethingsinlife,ain’tthere,MistressBlythe?
Sometimesthingsseemtoworkoutrealproper-like,sameaswithyouandthedoctor。Andthenagaintheyallseemtogocatawampus。There’sLeslie,socleverandbeautifulyou’dthinkshewasmeantforaqueen,andinsteadshe’scoopedupoverthere,robbedofalmosteverythingawoman’dvalue,withnoprospectexceptwaitingonDickMooreallherlife。Though,mindyou,MistressBlythe,Idaresayshe’dchooseherlifenow,suchasitis,ratherthanthelifeshelivedwithDickbeforehewentaway。THAT’Ssomethingaclumsyoldsailor’stonguemustn’tmeddlewith。Butyou’vehelpedLesliealot——she’sadifferentcreaturesinceyoucometoFourWinds。Usoldfriendsseethedifferenceinher,asyoucan’t。MissCorneliaandmewastalkingitovertheotherday,andit’soneofthemightyfewp’intsthatweseeeyetoeyeon。Sojestyouthrowoverboardanyideaofhernotlikingyou。\"
Annecouldhardlydiscarditcompletely,fortherewereundoubtedlytimeswhenshefelt,withaninstinctthatwasnottobecombatedbyreason,thatLeslieharboredaqueer,indefinableresentmenttowardsher。Attimes,thissecretconsciousnessmarredthedelightoftheircomradeship;atothersitwasalmostforgotten;butAnnealwaysfeltthehiddenthornwasthere,andmightprickheratanymoment。ShefeltacruelstingfromitonthedaywhenshetoldLeslieofwhatshehopedthespringwouldbringtothelittlehouseofdreams。
Leslielookedatherwithhard,bitter,unfriendlyeyes。
\"SoyouaretohaveTHAT,too,\"shesaidinachokedvoice。Andwithoutanotherwordshehadturnedandgoneacrossthefieldshomeward。Annewasdeeplyhurt;
forthemomentshefeltasifshecouldneverlikeLeslieagain。ButwhenLesliecameoverafeweveningslatershewassopleasant,sofriendly,sofrank,andwitty,andwinsome,thatAnnewascharmedintoforgivenessandforgetfulness。Only,shenevermentionedherdarlinghopetoLeslieagain;nordidLeslieeverrefertoit。Butoneevening,whenlatewinterwaslisteningforthewordofspring,shecameovertothelittlehouseforatwilightchat;andwhenshewentawaysheleftasmall,whiteboxonthetable。
Annefounditaftershewasgoneandopeneditwonderingly。Initwasatinywhitedressofexquisiteworkmanship——delicateembroidery,wonderfultucking,sheerloveliness。Everystitchinitwashandwork;andthelittlefrillsoflaceatneckandsleeveswereofrealValenciennes。Lyingonitwasacard——\"withLeslie’slove。\"
\"Whathoursofworkshemusthaveputonit,\"saidAnne。\"Andthematerialmusthavecostmorethanshecouldreallyafford。Itisverysweetofher。\"
ButLesliewasbrusqueandcurtwhenAnnethankedher,andagainthelatterfeltthrownbackuponherself。
Leslie’sgiftwasnotaloneinthelittlehouse。MissCorneliahad,forthetimebeing,givenupsewingforunwanted,unwelcomeeighthbabies,andfallentosewingforaverymuchwantedfirstone,whosewelcomewouldleavenothingtobedesired。PhilippaBlakeandDianaWrighteachsentamarvellousgarment;andMrs。RachelLyndesentseveral,inwhichgoodmaterialandhoneststitchestooktheplaceofembroideryandfrills。Anneherselfmademany,desecratedbynotouchofmachinery,spendingoverthemthehappiesthoursofthehappywinter。
CaptainJimwasthemostfrequentguestofthelittlehouse,andnonewasmorewelcome。EverydayAnnelovedthesimple-souled,true-heartedoldsailormoreandmore。Hewasasrefreshingasaseabreeze,asinterestingassomeancientchronicle。Shewasnevertiredoflisteningtohisstories,andhisquaintremarksandcommentswereacontinualdelighttoher。
CaptainJimwasoneofthoserareandinterestingpeoplewho\"neverspeakbuttheysaysomething。\"Themilkofhumankindnessandthewisdomoftheserpentweremingledinhiscompositionindelightfulproportions。
NothingeverseemedtoputCaptainJimoutordepresshiminanyway。
\"I’vekindofcontractedahabitofenj’yingthings,\"
heremarkedonce,whenAnnehadcommentedonhisinvariablecheerfulness。\"It’sgotsochronicthatI
believeIevenenj’ythedisagreeablethings。It’sgreatfunthinkingtheycan’tlast。`Oldrheumatiz,’
saysI,whenitgripsmehard,`you’veGOTtostopachingsometime。Theworseyouarethesooneryou’llstop,mebbe。I’mboundtogetthebetterofyouinthelongrun,whetherinthebodyoroutofthebody。’\"
Onenight,bythefiresideatthelightAnnesawCaptainJim’s\"life-book。\"Heneedednocoaxingtoshowitandproudlygaveittohertoread。
\"IwritittoleavetolittleJoe,\"hesaid。\"Idon’tliketheideaofeverythingI’vedoneandseenbeingcleanforgotafterI’veshippedformylastv’yage。
Joe,he’llrememberit,andtelltheyarnstohischildren。\"
Itwasanoldleather-boundbookfilledwiththerecordofhisvoyagesandadventures。Annethoughtwhatatreasuretroveitwouldbetoawriter。Everysentencewasanugget。Initselfthebookhadnoliterarymerit;CaptainJim’scharmofstorytellingfailedhimwhenhecametopenandink;hecouldonlyjotroughlydowntheoutlineofhisfamoustales,andbothspellingandgrammarweresadlyaskew。ButAnnefeltthatifanyonepossessedofthegiftcouldtakethatsimplerecordofabrave,adventurouslife,readingbetweenthebaldlinesthetalesofdangersstaunchlyfacedanddutymanfullydone,awonderfulstorymightbemadefromit。RichcomedyandthrillingtragedywerebothlyinghiddeninCaptainJim’s\"life-book,\"waitingforthetouchofthemasterhandtowakenthelaughterandgriefandhorrorofthousands。
AnnesaidsomethingofthistoGilbertastheywalkedhome。
\"Whydon’tyoutryyourhandatityourself,Anne?\"
Anneshookherhead。
\"No。IonlywishIcould。Butit’snotinthepowerofmygift。Youknowwhatmyforteis,Gilbert——thefanciful,thefairylike,thepretty。TowriteCaptainJim’slife-bookasitshouldbewrittenoneshouldbeamasterofvigorousyetsubtlestyle,akeenpsychologist,abornhumoristandaborntragedian。A
rarecombinationofgiftsisneeded。Paulmightdoitifhewereolder。Anyhow,I’mgoingtoaskhimtocomedownnextsummerandmeetCaptainJim。\"
\"Cometothisshore,\"wroteAnnetoPaul。\"IamafraidyoucannotfindhereNoraortheGoldenLadyortheTwinSailors;butyouwillfindoneoldsailorwhocantellyouwonderfulstories。\"
Paul,howeverwroteback,sayingregretfullythathecouldnotcomethatyear。Hewasgoingabroadfortwoyear’sstudy。
\"WhenIreturnI’llcometoFourWinds,dearTeacher,\"
hewrote。
\"Butmeanwhile,CaptainJimisgrowingold,\"saidAnne,sorrowfully,\"andthereisnobodytowritehislife-book。\"