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  SPRINGDAYS

  TheiceintheharborgrewblackandrottenintheMarchsuns;inApriltherewerebluewatersandawindy,white-cappedgulfagain;andagaintheFourWindslightbegemmedthetwilights。

  \"I’msogladtoseeitoncemore,\"saidAnne,onthefirsteveningofitsreappearance。\"I’vemisseditsoallwinter。Thenorthwesternskyhasseemedblankandlonelywithoutit。\"

  Thelandwastenderwithbrand-new,golden-green,babyleaves。TherewasanemeraldmistonthewoodsbeyondtheGlen。Theseawardvalleyswerefulloffairymistsatdawn。

  Vibrantwindscameandwentwithsaltfoamintheirbreath。Thesealaughedandflashedandpreenedandallured,likeabeautiful,coquettishwoman。Theherringschooledandthefishingvillagewoketolife。

  Theharborwasalivewithwhitesailsmakingforthechannel。Theshipsbegantosailoutwardandinwardagain。

  \"Onaspringdaylikethis,\"saidAnne,\"Iknowexactlywhatmysoulwillfeellikeontheresurrectionmorning。\"

  \"TherearetimesinspringwhenIsorterfeelthatI

  mighthavebeenapoetifI’dbeencaughtyoung,\"

  remarkedCaptainJim。\"IcatchmyselfconningoveroldlinesandversesIheardtheschoolmasterrecitingsixtyyearsago。Theydon’ttroublemeatothertimes。

  NowIfeelasifIhadtogetoutontherocksorthefieldsorthewaterandspoutthem。\"

  CaptainJimhadcomeupthatafternoontobringAnnealoadofshellsforhergarden,andalittlebunchofsweet-grasswhichhehadfoundinarambleoverthesanddunes。

  \"It’sgettingrealscarcealongthisshorenow,\"hesaid。\"WhenIwasaboytherewasa-plentyofit。Butnowit’sonlyonceinawhileyou’llfindaplot——andneverwhenyou’relookingforit。Youjesthavetostumbleonit——you’rewalkingalongonthesandhills,neverthinkingofsweet-grass——andallatoncetheairisfullofsweetness——andthere’sthegrassunderyourfeet。Ifavorthesmellofsweet-grass。Italwaysmakesmethinkofmymother。\"

  \"Shewasfondofit?\"askedAnne。

  \"NotthatIknowson。Dunno’ssheeversawanysweet-grass。No,it’sbecauseithasakindofmotherlyperfume——nottooyoung,youunderstand——somethingkindofseasonedandwholesomeanddependable——jestlikeamother。Theschoolmaster’sbridealwayskeptitamongherhandkerchiefs。Youmightputthatlittlebunchamongyours,MistressBlythe。Idon’tliketheseboughtenscents——butawhiffofsweet-grassbelongsanywherealadydoes。\"

  Annehadnotbeenespeciallyenthusiasticovertheideaofsurroundingherflowerbedswithquahogshells;asadecorationtheydidnotappealtoheronfirstthought。

  ButshewouldnothavehurtCaptainJim’sfeelingsforanything;sosheassumedavirtueshedidnotatfirstfeel,andthankedhimheartily。AndwhenCaptainJimhadproudlyencircledeverybedwitharimofthebig,milk-whiteshells,Annefoundtohersurprisethatshelikedtheeffect。Onatownlawn,orevenupattheGlen,theywouldnothavebeeninkeeping,buthere,intheold-fashioned,sea-boundgardenofthelittlehouseofdreams,theyBELONGED。

  \"TheyDOlooknice,\"shesaidsincerely。

  \"Theschoolmaster’sbridealwayshadcowhawksroundherbeds,\"saidCaptainJim。\"Shewasamasterhandwithflowers。SheLOOKEDat’em——andtouched’em——SO——andtheygrewlikemad。Somefolkshavethatknack——I

  reckonyouhaveit,too,MistressBlythe。\"

  \"Oh,Idon’tknow——butIlovemygarden,andIloveworkinginit。Topotterwithgreen,growingthings,watchingeachdaytoseethedear,newsproutscomeup,isliketakingahandincreation,Ithink。Justnowmygardenislikefaith——thesubstanceofthingshopedfor。Butbideawee。\"

  \"Italwaysamazesmetolookatthelittle,wrinkledbrownseedsandthinkoftherainbowsin’em,\"saidCaptainJim。\"WhenIponderonthemseedsIdon’tfinditnowisehardtobelievethatwe’vegotsoulsthat’llliveinotherworlds。Youcouldn’thardlybelievetherewaslifeinthemtinythings,somenobiggerthangrainsofdust,letalonecolorandscent,ifyouhadn’tseenthemiracle,couldyou?\"

  Anne,whowascountingherdayslikesilverbeadsonarosary,couldnotnowtakethelongwalktothelighthouseoruptheGlenroad。ButMissCorneliaandCaptainJimcameveryoftentothelittlehouse。MissCorneliawasthejoyofAnne’sandGilbert’sexistence。

  Theylaughedside-splittinglyoverherspeechesaftereveryvisit。WhenCaptainJimandshehappenedtovisitthelittlehouseatthesametimetherewasmuchsportforthelistening。Theywagedwordywarfare,sheattacking,hedefending。AnneoncereproachedtheCaptainforhisbaitingofMissCornelia。

  \"Oh,Idolovetosethergoing,MistressBlythe,\"

  chuckledtheunrepentantsinner。\"It’sthegreatestamusementIhaveinlife。Thattongueofherswouldblisterastone。Andyouandthatyoungdogofadoctorenj’ylisteningtoherasmuchasIdo。\"

  CaptainJimcamealonganothereveningtobringAnnesomemayflowers。Thegardenwasfullofthemoist,scentedairofamaritimespringevening。Therewasamilk-whitemistontheedgeofthesea,withayoungmoonkissingit,andasilvergladnessofstarsovertheGlen。Thebellofthechurchacrosstheharborwasringingdreamilysweet。Themellowchimedriftedthroughthedusktominglewiththesoftspring-moanofthesea。CaptainJim’smayflowersaddedthelastcompletingtouchtothecharmofthenight。

  \"Ihaven’tseenanythisspring,andI’vemissedthem,\"saidAnne,buryingherfaceinthem。

  \"Theyain’ttobefoundaroundFourWinds,onlyinthebarrensawaybehindtheGlenupyander。ItookalittletriptodaytotheLand-of-nothing-to-do,andhuntedtheseupforyou。Ireckonthey’rethelastyou’llseethisspring,forthey’renearlydone。\"

  \"Howkindandthoughtfulyouare,CaptainJim。Nobodyelse——notevenGilbert\"——withashakeofherheadathim——\"rememberedthatIalwayslongformayflowersinspring。\"

  \"Well,Ihadanothererrand,too——IwantedtotakeMr。

  Howardbackyanderamessoftrout。Helikesoneoccasional,andit’sallIcandoforakindnesshedidmeonce。Istayedalltheafternoonandtalkedtohim。

  Helikestotalktome,thoughhe’sahighlyeddicatedmanandI’monlyanignorantoldsailor,becausehe’soneofthefolksthat’sGOTtotalkorthey’remiserable,andhefindslistenersscarcearoundhere。

  TheGlenfolksfightshyofhimbecausetheythinkhe’saninfidel。Heain’tthatfargoneexactly——fewmenis,Ireckon——buthe’swhatyoumightcallaheretic。

  Hereticsarewicked,butthey’remightyint’resting。

  It’sjestthatthey’vegotsorterlostlookingforGod,beingundertheimpressionthatHe’shardtofind——whichHeain’tnever。Mostof’emblundertoHimafterawhile,Iguess。Idon’tthinklisteningtoMr。

  Howard’sargumentsislikelytodomemuchharm。Mindyou,IbelievewhatIwasbroughtuptobelieve。Itsavesavastofbother——andbackofitall,Godisgood。ThetroublewithMr。Howardisthathe’saleetleTOOclever。Hethinksthathe’sboundtoliveuptohiscleverness,andthatit’ssmartertothrashoutsomenewwayofgettingtoheaventhantogobytheoldtrackthecommon,ignorantfolksistravelling。

  Buthe’llgettheresometimeallright,andthenhe’lllaughathimself。\"

  \"Mr。HowardwasaMethodisttobeginwith,\"saidMissCornelia,asifshethoughthehadnotfartogofromthattoheresy。

  \"Doyouknow,Cornelia,\"saidCaptainJimgravely,\"I’veoftenthoughtthatifIwasn’taPresbyterianI’dbeaMethodist。\"

  \"Oh,well,\"concededMissCornelia,\"ifyouweren’taPresbyterianitwouldn’tmattermuchwhatyouwere。

  Speakingofheresy,remindsme,doctor——I’vebroughtbackthatbookyoulentme——thatNaturalLawintheSpiritualWorld——Ididn’treadmore’nathirdofit。I

  canreadsense,andIcanreadnonsense,butthatbookisneithertheonenortheother。\"

  \"ItISconsideredratherhereticalinsomequarters,\"

  admittedGilbert,\"butItoldyouthatbeforeyoutookit,MissCornelia。\"

  \"Oh,Iwouldn’thavemindeditsbeingheretical。Icanstandwickedness,butIcan’tstandfoolishness,\"saidMissCorneliacalmly,andwiththeairofhavingsaidthelastthingtherewastosayaboutNaturalLaw。

  \"Speakingofbooks,AMadLovecometoanendatlasttwoweeksago,\"remarkedCaptainJimmusingly。\"Itruntoonehundredandthreechapters。Whentheygotmarriedthebookstoppedrightoff,soIreckontheirtroubleswereallover。It’srealnicethatthat’sthewayinbooksanyhow,isn’tit,evenif’tistn’tsoanywhereelse?\"

  \"Ineverreadnovels,\"saidMissCornelia。\"DidyouhearhowGeordieRussellwastoday,CaptainJim?\"

  \"Yes,Icalledinonmywayhometoseehim。He’sgettingroundallright——butstewinginabrothoftrouble,asusual,poorman。

  ’Coursehebrewsupmostofitforhimself,butI

  reckonthatdon’tmakeitanyeasiertobear。\"

  \"He’sanawfulpessimist,\"saidMissCornelia。

  \"Well,no,heain’tapessimistexactly,Cornelia。Heonlyjestneverfindsanythingthatsuitshim。\"

  \"Andisn’tthatapessimist?\"

  \"No,no。Apessimistisonewhoneverexpectstofindanythingtosuithim。Geordiehain’tgotTHATfaryet。\"

  \"You’dfindsomethinggoodtosayofthedevilhimself,JimBoyd。\"

  \"Well,you’veheardthestoryoftheoldladywhosaidhewaspersevering。Butno,Cornelia,I’venothinggoodtosayofthedevil。\"

  \"Doyoubelieveinhimatall?\"askedMissCorneliaseriously。

  \"HowcanyouaskthatwhenyouknowwhatagoodPresbyterianIam,Cornelia?HowcouldaPresbyteriangetalongwithoutadevil?\"

  \"DOyou?\"persistedMissCornelia。

  CaptainJimsuddenlybecamegrave。

  \"IbelieveinwhatIheardaministeroncecall`amightyandmalignantandINTELLIGENTpowerofevilworkingintheuniverse,’\"hesaidsolemnly。\"IdoTHAT,Cornelia。Youcancallitthedevil,orthe`principleofevil,’ortheOldScratch,oranynameyoulike。It’sTHERE,andalltheinfidelsandhereticsintheworldcan’targueitaway,anymore’ntheycanargueGodaway。It’sthere,andit’sworking。But,mindyou,Cornelia,Ibelieveit’sgoingtogettheworstofitinthelongrun。\"

  \"IamsureIhopeso,\"saidMissCornelia,nonetoohopefully。\"Butspeakingofthedevil,IampositivethatBillyBoothispossessedbyhimnow。HaveyouheardofBilly’slatestperformance?\"

  \"No,whatwasthat?\"

  \"He’sgoneandburneduphiswife’snew,brownbroadclothsuit,thatshepaidtwenty-fivedollarsforinCharlottetown,becausehedeclaresthemenlookedtooadmiringatherwhensheworeittochurchthefirsttime。Wasn’tthatlikeaman?\"

  \"MistressBoothISmightypretty,andbrown’shercolor,\"saidCaptainJimreflectively。

  \"Isthatanygoodreasonwhyheshouldpokehernewsuitintothekitchenstove?BillyBoothisajealousfool,andhemakeshiswife’slifemiserable。She’scriedalltheweekabouthersuit。Oh,Anne,IwishI

  couldwritelikeyou,believeME。Wouldn’tIscoresomeofthemenroundhere!\"

  \"ThoseBoothsareallamitequeer,\"saidCaptainJim。

  \"Billyseemedthesanestofthelottillhegotmarriedandthenthisqueerjealousstreakcroppedoutinhim。

  HisbrotherDaniel,now,wasalwaysodd。\"

  \"Tooktantrumseveryfewdaysorsoandwouldn’tgetoutofbed,\"saidMissCorneliawitharelish。\"Hiswifewouldhavetodoallthebarnworktillhegotoverhisspell。Whenhediedpeoplewroteherlettersofcondolence;ifI’dwrittenanythingitwouldhavebeenoneofcongratulation。Theirfather,oldAbramBooth,wasadisgustingoldsot。Hewasdrunkathiswife’sfuneral,andkeptreelingroundandhiccuping`I

  didn’tdri——i——i——nkmuchbutIfeela——a——awfullyque——e——e——r。’Igavehimagoodjabinthebackwithmyumbrellawhenhecamenearme,anditsoberedhimupuntiltheygotthecasketoutofthehouse。YoungJohnnyBoothwastohavebeenmarriedyesterday,buthecouldn’tbebecausehe’sgoneandgotthemumps。

  Wasn’tthatlikeaman?\"

  \"Howcouldhehelpgettingthemumps,poorfellow?\"

  \"I’dpoorfellowhim,believeME,ifIwasKateSterns。

  Idon’tknowhowhecouldhelpgettingthemumps,butI

  DOknowtheweddingsupperwasallpreparedandeverythingwillbespoiledbeforehe’swellagain。

  Suchawaste!Heshouldhavehadthemumpswhenhewasaboy。\"

  \"Come,come,Cornelia,don’tyouthinkyou’reamiteunreasonable?\"

  MissCorneliadisdainedtoreplyandturnedinsteadtoSusanBaker,agrim-faced,kind-heartedelderlyspinsteroftheGlen,whohadbeeninstalledasmaid-of-all-workatthelittlehouseforsomeweeks。

  SusanhadbeenuptotheGlentomakeasickcall,andhadjustreturned。

  \"HowispooroldAuntMandytonight?\"askedMissCornelia。

  Susansighed。

  \"Verypoorly——verypoorly,Cornelia。Iamafraidshewillsoonbeinheaven,poorthing!\"

  \"Oh,surely,it’snotsobadasthat!\"exclaimedMissCornelia,sympathetically。

  CaptainJimandGilbertlookedateachother。Thentheysuddenlyroseandwentout。

  \"Therearetimes,\"saidCaptainJim,betweenspasms,\"whenitwouldbeasinNOTtolaugh。Themtwoexcellentwomen!\"

  CHAPTER19

  DAWNANDDUSK

  InearlyJune,whenthesandhillswereagreatgloryofpinkwildroses,andtheGlenwassmotheredinappleblossoms,Marillaarrivedatthelittlehouse,accompaniedbyablackhorsehairtrunk,patternedwithbrassnails,whichhadreposedundisturbedintheGreenGablesgarretforhalfacentury。SusanBaker,who,duringherfewweeks’sojourninthelittlehouse,hadcometoworship\"youngMrs。Doctor,\"asshecalledAnne,withblindfervor,lookedratherjealouslyaskanceatMarillaatfirst。ButasMarilladidnottrytointerfereinkitchenmatters,andshowednodesiretointerruptSusan’sministrationstoyoungMrs。

  Doctor,thegoodhandmaidenbecamereconciledtoherpresence,andtoldhercroniesattheGlenthatMissCuthbertwasafineoldladyandknewherplace。

  Oneevening,whenthesky’slimpidbowlwasfilledwitharedglory,andtherobinswerethrillingthegoldentwilightwithjubilanthymnstothestarsofevening,therewasasuddencommotioninthelittlehouseofdreams。TelephonemessagesweresentuptotheGlen,DoctorDaveandawhite-cappednursecamehastilydown,Marillapacedthegardenwalksbetweenthequahogshells,murmuringprayersbetweenhersetlips,andSusansatinthekitchenwithcottonwoolinherearsandherapronoverherhead。

  Leslie,lookingoutfromthehouseupthebrook,sawthateverywindowofthelittlehousewasalight,anddidnotsleepthatnight。

  TheJunenightwasshort;butitseemedaneternitytothosewhowaitedandwatched。

  \"Oh,willitNEVERend?\"saidMarilla;thenshesawhowgravethenurseandDoctorDavelooked,andshedaredasknomorequestions。SupposeAnne——butMarillacouldnotsupposeit。

  \"Donottellme,\"saidSusanfiercely,answeringtheanguishinMarilla’seyes,\"thatGodcouldbesocruelastotakethatdarlinglambfromuswhenwealllovehersomuch。\"

  \"Hehastakenothersaswellbeloved,\"saidMarillahoarsely。

  Butatdawn,whentherisingsunrentapartthemistshangingoverthesandbar,andmaderainbowsofthem,joycametothelittlehouse。Annewassafe,andawee,whitelady,withhermother’sbigeyes,waslyingbesideher。Gilbert,hisfacegrayandhaggardfromhisnight’sagony,camedowntotellMarillaandSusan。

  \"ThankGod,\"shudderedMarilla。

  Susangotupandtookthecottonwooloutofherears。

  \"Nowforbreakfast,\"shesaidbriskly。\"Iamoftheopinionthatwewillallbegladofabiteandsup。

  YoutellyoungMrs。Doctornottoworryaboutasinglething——Susanisatthehelm。Youtellherjusttothinkofherbaby。\"

  Gilbertsmiledrathersadlyashewentaway。Anne,herpalefaceblanchedwithitsbaptismofpain,hereyesaglowwiththeholypassionofmotherhood,didnotneedtobetoldtothinkofherbaby。Shethoughtofnothingelse。Forafewhoursshetastedofhappinesssorareandexquisitethatshewonderediftheangelsinheavendidnotenvyher。

  \"LittleJoyce,\"shemurmured,whenMarillacameintoseethebaby。\"Weplannedtocallherthatifshewereagirlie。Thereweresomanywewouldhavelikedtonameherfor;wecouldn’tchoosebetweenthem,sowedecidedonJoyce——wecancallherJoyforshort——Joy——itsuitssowell。Oh,Marilla,IthoughtI

  washappybefore。NowIknowthatIjustdreamedapleasantdreamofhappiness。THISisthereality。\"

  \"Youmustn’ttalk,Anne——waittillyou’restronger,\"

  saidMarillawarningly。

  \"YouknowhowharditisformeNOTtotalk,\"smiledAnne。

  AtfirstshewastooweakandtoohappytonoticethatGilbertandthenurselookedgraveandMarillasorrowful。Then,assubtly,andcoldly,andremorselesslyasasea-fogstealinglandward,fearcreptintoherheart。WhywasnotGilbertgladder?

  Whywouldhenottalkaboutthebaby?Whywouldtheynotletherhaveitwithherafterthatfirstheavenly——happyhour?Was——wasthereanythingwrong?

  \"Gilbert,\"whisperedAnneimploringly,\"thebaby——isallright——isn’tshe?Tellme——tellme。\"

  Gilbertwasalongwhileinturninground;thenhebentoverAnneandlookedinhereyes。Marilla,listeningfearfullyoutsidethedoor,heardapitiful,heartbrokenmoan,andfledtothekitchenwhereSusanwasweeping。

  \"Oh,thepoorlamb——thepoorlamb!Howcanshebearit,MissCuthbert?Iamafraiditwillkillher。Shehasbeenthatbuiltupandhappy,longingforthatbaby,andplanningforit。Cannotanythingbedonenohow,MissCuthbert?\"

  \"I’mafraidnot,Susan。Gilbertsaysthereisnohope。

  Heknewfromthefirstthelittlethingcouldn’tlive。\"

  \"Anditissuchasweetbaby,\"sobbedSusan。\"Ineversawonesowhite——theyaremostlyredoryallow。Anditopeneditsbigeyesasifitwasmonthsold。Thelittle,littlething!Oh,thepoor,youngMrs。

  Doctor!\"

  Atsunsetthelittlesoulthathadcomewiththedawningwentaway,leavingheartbreakbehindit。MissCorneliatookthewee,whiteladyfromthekindlybutstrangerhandsofthenurse,anddressedthetinywaxenforminthebeautifuldressLesliehadmadeforit。Lesliehadaskedhertodothat。Thenshetookitbackandlaiditbesidethepoor,broken,tear-blindedlittlemother。

  \"TheLordhasgivenandtheLordhastakenaway,dearie,\"shesaidthroughherowntears。\"BlessedbethenameoftheLord。\"

  Thenshewentaway,leavingAnneandGilbertalonetogetherwiththeirdead。

  Thenextday,thesmallwhiteJoywaslaidinavelvetcasketwhichLesliehadlinedwithapple-blossoms,andtakentothegraveyardofthechurchacrosstheharbor。

  MissCorneliaandMarillaputallthelittlelove-madegarmentsaway,togetherwiththeruffledbasketwhichhadbeenbefrilledandbelacedfordimpledlimbsanddownyhead。LittleJoywasnevertosleepthere;shehadfoundacolder,narrowerbed。

  \"Thishasbeenanawfuldisappointmenttome,\"sighedMissCornelia。\"I’velookedforwardtothisbaby——andIdidwantittobeagirl,too。\"

  \"IcanonlybethankfulthatAnne’slifewasspared,\"

  saidMarilla,withashiver,recallingthosehoursofdarknesswhenthegirlshelovedwaspassingthroughthevalleyoftheshadow。

  \"Poor,poorlamb!Herheartisbroken,\"saidSusan。

  \"IENVYAnne,\"saidLesliesuddenlyandfiercely,\"andI’denvyherevenifshehaddied!Shewasamotherforonebeautifulday。I’dgladlygivemylifeforTHAT!\"

  \"Iwouldn’ttalklikethat,Leslie,dearie,\"saidMissCorneliadeprecatingly。ShewasafraidthatthedignifiedMissCuthbertwouldthinkLesliequiteterrible。

  Anne’sconvalescencewaslong,andmadebitterforherbymanythings。ThebloomandsunshineoftheFourWindsworldgratedharshlyonher;andyet,whentherainfellheavily,shepictureditbeatingsomercilesslydownonthatlittlegraveacrosstheharbor;andwhenthewindblewaroundtheeavessheheardsadvoicesinitshehadneverheardbefore。

  Kindlycallershurther,too,withthewell-meantplatitudeswithwhichtheystrovetocoverthenakednessofbereavement。AletterfromPhilBlakewasanaddedsting。Philhadheardofthebaby’sbirth,butnotofitsdeath,andshewroteAnneacongratulatoryletterofsweetmirthwhichhurtherhorribly。

  \"IwouldhavelaughedoveritsohappilyifIhadmybaby,\"shesobbedtoMarilla。\"ButwhenIhaven’titjustseemslikewantoncruelty——thoughIknowPhilwouldn’thurtmefortheworld。Oh,Marilla,Idon’tseehowIcanEVERbehappyagain——EVERYTHINGwillhurtmealltherestofmylife。\"

  \"Timewillhelpyou,\"saidMarilla,whowasrackedwithsympathybutcouldneverlearntoexpressitinotherthanage-wornformulas。

  \"Itdoesn’tseemFAIR,\"saidAnnerebelliously。

  \"Babiesarebornandlivewheretheyarenotwanted——wheretheywillbeneglected——wheretheywillhavenochance。Iwouldhavelovedmybabyso——andcaredforitsotenderly——andtriedtogivehereverychanceforgood。AndyetIwasn’tallowedtokeepher。\"

  \"ItwasGod’swill,Anne,\"saidMarilla,helplessbeforetheriddleoftheuniverse——theWHYofundeservedpain。\"AndlittleJoyisbetteroff。\"

  \"Ican’tbelieveTHAT,\"criedAnnebitterly。Then,seeingthatMarillalookedshocked,sheaddedpassionately,\"Whyshouldshebebornatall——whyshouldanyonebebornatall——ifshe’sbetteroffdead?IDON’Tbelieveitisbetterforachildtodieatbirththantoliveitslifeout——andloveandbeloved——andenjoyandsuffer——anddoitswork——anddevelopacharacterthatwouldgiveitapersonalityineternity。AndhowdoyouknowitwasGod’swill?

  PerhapsitwasjustathwartingofHispurposebythePowerofEvil。Wecan’tbeexpectedtoberesignedtoTHAT。\"

  \"Oh,Anne,don’ttalkso,\"saidMarilla,genuinelyalarmedlestAnneweredriftingintodeepanddangerouswaters。\"Wecan’tunderstand——butwemusthavefaith——weMUSTbelievethatallisforthebest。I

  knowyoufindithardtothinkso,justnow。Buttrytobebrave——forGilbert’ssake。He’ssoworriedaboutyou。Youaren’tgettingstrongasfastasyoushould。\"

  \"Oh,IknowI’vebeenveryselfish,\"sighedAnne。\"I

  loveGilbertmorethanever——andIwanttoliveforhissake。Butitseemsasifpartofmewasburiedoverthereinthatlittleharborgraveyard——andithurtssomuchthatI’mafraidoflife。\"

  \"Itwon’thurtsomuchalways,Anne。\"

  \"Thethoughtthatitmaystophurtingsometimeshurtsmeworsethanallelse,Marilla。\"

  \"Yes,Iknow,I’vefeltthattoo,aboutotherthings。

  Butweallloveyou,Anne。CaptainJimhasbeenupeverydaytoaskforyou——andMrs。Moorehauntstheplace——andMissBryantspendsmostofhertime,I

  think,cookingupnicethingsforyou。Susandoesn’tlikeitverywell。ShethinksshecancookaswellasMissBryant。\"

  \"DearSusan!Oh,everybodyhasbeensodearandgoodandlovelytome,Marilla。I’mnotungrateful——andperhaps——whenthishorribleachegrowsalittleless——I’llfindthatIcangoonliving。\"

  CHAPTER20

  LOSTMARGARET

  Annefoundthatshecouldgoonliving;thedaycamewhensheevensmiledagainoveroneofMissCornelia’sspeeches。ButtherewassomethinginthesmilethathadneverbeeninAnne’ssmilebeforeandwouldneverbeabsentfromitagain。

  OnthefirstdayshewasabletogoforadriveGilberttookherdowntoFourWindsPoint,andlefthertherewhileherowedoverthechanneltoseeapatientatthefishingvillage。Arollickingwindwasscuddingacrosstheharborandthedunes,whippingthewaterintowhite-capsandwashingthesandshorewithlonglinesofsilverybreakers。

  \"I’mrealproudtoseeyouhereagain,MistressBlythe,\"saidCaptainJim。\"Sitdown——sitdown。I’mafearedit’smightydustyheretoday——butthere’snoneedoflookingatdustwhenyoucanlookatsuchscenery,isthere?\"

  \"Idon’tmindthedust,\"saidAnne,\"butGilbertsaysImustkeepintheopenair。IthinkI’llgoandsitontherocksdownthere。\"

  \"Wouldyoulikecompanyorwouldyouratherbealone?\"

  \"IfbycompanyyoumeanyoursI’dmuchratherhaveitthanbealone,\"saidAnne,smiling。Thenshesighed。

  Shehadneverbeforemindedbeingalone。Nowshedreadedit。Whenshewasalonenowshefeltsodreadfullyalone。

  \"Here’sanicelittlespotwherethewindcan’tgetatyou,\"saidCaptainJim,whentheyreachedtherocks。

  \"Ioftensithere。It’sagreatplacejesttositanddream。\"

  \"Oh——dreams,\"sighedAnne。\"Ican’tdreamnow,CaptainJim——I’mdonewithdreams。\"

  \"Oh,no,you’renot,MistressBlythe——oh,no,you’renot,\"saidCaptainJimmeditatively。\"Iknowhowyoufeeljestnow——butifyoukeeponlivingyou’llgetgladagain,andthefirstthingyouknowyou’llbedreamingagain——thankthegoodLordforit!Ifitwasn’tforourdreamstheymightaswellburyus。

  How’dwestandlivingifitwasn’tforourdreamofimmortality?Andthat’sadreamthat’sBOUNDtocometrue,MistressBlythe。You’llseeyourlittleJoyceagainsomeday。\"

  \"Butshewon’tbemybaby,\"saidAnne,withtremblinglips。\"Oh,shemaybe,asLongfellowsays,`afairmaidenclothedwithcelestialgrace’——butshe’llbeastrangertome。\"

  \"Godwillmanagebetter’nTHAT,Ibelieve,\"saidCaptainJim。

  Theywerebothsilentforalittletime。ThenCaptainJimsaidverysoftly:

  \"MistressBlythe,mayItellyouaboutlostMargaret?\"

  \"Ofcourse,\"saidAnnegently。Shedidnotknowwho\"lostMargaret\"was,butshefeltthatshewasgoingtoheartheromanceofCaptainJim’slife。

  \"I’veoftenwantedtotellyouabouther,\"CaptainJimwenton。

  \"Doyouknowwhy,MistressBlythe?It’sbecauseIwantsomebodytorememberandthinkofhersometimeafterI’mgone。Ican’tbearthathernameshouldbeforgottenbyalllivingsouls。AndnownobodyrememberslostMargaretbutme。\"

  ThenCaptainJimtoldthestory——anold,oldforgottenstory,foritwasoverfiftyyearssinceMargarethadfallenasleeponedayinherfather’sdoryanddrifted——orsoitwassupposed,fornothingwasevercertainlyknownastoherfate——outofthechannel,beyondthebar,toperishintheblackthundersquallwhichhadcomeupsosuddenlythatlong-agosummerafternoon。ButtoCaptainJimthosefiftyyearswerebutasyesterdaywhenitispast。

  \"Iwalkedtheshoreformonthsafterthat,\"hesaidsadly,\"lookingtofindherdear,sweetlittlebody;

  buttheseanevergiveherbacktome。ButI’llfindhersometime,MistressBlythe——I’llfindhersometime。

  She’swaitingforme。IwishIcouldtellyoujesthowshelooked,butIcan’t。I’veseenafine,silverymisthangingoverthebaratsunrisethatseemedlikeher——andthenagainI’veseenawhitebirchinthewoodsbackyanderthatmademethinkofher。Shehadpale,brownhairandalittlewhite,sweetface,andlongslenderfingerslikeyours,MistressBlythe,onlybrowner,forshewasashoregirl。SometimesIwakeupinthenightandheartheseacallingtomeintheoldway,anditseemsasiflostMargaretcalledinit。

  Andwhenthere’sastormandthewavesaresobbingandmoaningIhearherlamentingamongthem。Andwhentheylaughonagaydayit’sHERlaugh——lostMargaret’ssweet,roguish,littlelaugh。Theseatookherfromme,butsomedayI’llfindher。MistressBlythe。Itcan’tkeepusapartforever。\"

  \"Iamgladyouhavetoldmeabouther,\"saidAnne。\"I

  haveoftenwonderedwhyyouhadlivedallyourlifealone。\"

  \"Icouldn’tevercareforanyoneelse。LostMargarettookmyheartwithher——outthere,\"saidtheoldlover,whohadbeenfaithfulforfiftyyearstohisdrownedsweetheart。\"Youwon’tmindifItalkagooddealabouther,willyou,MistressBlythe?It’sapleasuretome——forallthepainwentoutofhermemoryyearsagoandjestleftitsblessing。Iknowyou’llneverforgether,MistressBlythe。Andiftheyears,asIhope,bringotherlittlefolkstoyourhome,I

  wantyoutopromisemethatyou’lltellTHEMthestoryoflostMargaret,sothathernamewon’tbeforgottenamonghumankind。\"

  CHAPTER21

  BARRIERSSWEPTAWAY

  \"Anne,\"saidLeslie,breakingabruptlyashortsilence,\"youdon’tknowhowGOODitistobesittingherewithyouagain——working——andtalking——andbeingsilenttogether。\"

  Theyweresittingamongtheblue-eyedgrassesonthebankofthebrookinAnne’sgarden。Thewatersparkledandcroonedpastthem;thebirchesthrewdappledshadowsoverthem;rosesbloomedalongthewalks。Thesunwasbeginningtobelow,andtheairwasfullofwovenmusic。Therewasonemusicofthewindinthefirsbehindthehouse,andanotherofthewavesonthebar,andstillanotherfromthedistantbellofthechurchnearwhichthewee,whiteladyslept。Annelovedthatbell,thoughitbroughtsorrowfulthoughtsnow。

  ShelookedcuriouslyatLeslie,whohadthrowndownhersewingandspokenwithalackofrestraintthatwasveryunusualwithher。

  \"Onthathorriblenightwhenyouweresoill,\"Lesliewenton,\"Ikeptthinkingthatperhapswe’dhavenomoretalksandwalksandWORKStogether。AndI

  realisedjustwhatyourfriendshiphadcometomeantome——justwhatYOUmeant——andjustwhatahatefullittlebeastIhadbeen。\"

  \"Leslie!Leslie!Ineverallowanyonetocallmyfriendsnames。\"

  \"It’strue。That’sexactlywhatIam——ahatefullittlebeast。There’ssomethingI’veGOTtotellyou,Anne。I

  supposeitwillmakeyoudespiseme,butIMUSTconfessit。Anne,therehavebeentimesthispastwinterandspringwhenIhaveHATEDyou。\"

  \"IKNEWit,\"saidAnnecalmly。

  \"YouKNEWit?\"

  \"Yes,Isawitinyoureyes。\"

  \"Andyetyouwentonlikingmeandbeingmyfriend。\"

  \"Well,itwasonlynowandthenyouhatedme,Leslie。

  Betweentimesyoulovedme,Ithink。\"

  \"Icertainlydid。Butthatotherhorridfeelingwasalwaysthere,spoilingit,backinmyheart。Ikeptitdown——sometimesIforgotit——butsometimesitwouldsurgeupandtakepossessionofme。IhatedyoubecauseIENVIEDyou——oh,Iwassickwithenvyofyouattimes。Youhadadearlittlehome——andlove——andhappiness——andgladdreams——everythingIwanted——andneverhad——andnevercouldhave。Oh,nevercouldhave!

  THATwaswhatstung。Iwouldn’thaveenviedyou,ifI

  hadhadanyHOPEthatlifewouldeverbedifferentforme。ButIhadn’t——Ihadn’t——anditdidn’tseemFAIR。

  Itmademerebellious——andithurtme——andsoIhatedyouattimes。Oh,Iwassoashamedofit——I’mdyingofshamenow——butIcouldn’tconquerit。

  Thatnight,whenIwasafraidyoumightn’tlive——I

  thoughtIwasgoingtobepunishedformywickedness——andIlovedyousothen。Anne,Anne,I

  neverhadanythingtolovesincemymotherdied,exceptDick’solddog——andit’ssodreadfultohavenothingtolove——lifeissoEMPTY——andthere’sNOTHINGworsethanemptiness——andImighthavelovedyousomuch——andthathorriblethinghadspoiledit——\"

  Lesliewastremblingandgrowingalmostincoherentwiththeviolenceofheremotion。

  \"Don’t,Leslie,\"imploredAnne,\"oh,don’t。I

  understand——don’ttalkofitanymore。\"

  \"Imust——Imust。WhenIknewyouweregoingtoliveI

  vowedthatIwouldtellyouassoonasyouwerewell——thatIwouldn’tgoonacceptingyourfriendshipandcompanionshipwithouttellingyouhowunworthyI

  wasofit。AndI’vebeensoafraid——itwouldturnyouagainstme。\"

  \"Youneedn’tfearthat,Leslie。\"

  \"Oh,I’msoglad——soglad,Anne。\"Leslieclaspedherbrown,work-hardenedhandstightlytogethertostilltheirshaking。\"ButIwanttotellyoueverything,nowI’vebegun。Youdon’trememberthefirsttimeIsawyou,Isuppose——itwasn’tthatnightontheshore——\"

  \"No,itwasthenightGilbertandIcamehome。Youweredrivingyourgeesedownthehill。IshouldthinkIDOrememberit!Ithoughtyouweresobeautiful——I

  longedforweeksaftertofindoutwhoyouwere。\"

  \"IknewwhoYOUwere,althoughIhadneverseeneitherofyoubefore。IhadheardofthenewdoctorandhisbridewhowerecomingtoliveinMissRussell’slittlehouse。I——Ihatedyouthatverymoment,Anne。\"

  \"Ifelttheresentmentinyoureyes——thenIdoubted——I

  thoughtImustbemistaken——becauseWHYshoulditbe?\"

  \"Itwasbecauseyoulookedsohappy。Oh,you’llagreewithmenowthatIAMahatefulbeast——tohateanotherwomanjustbecauseshewashappy,——andwhenherhappinessdidn’ttakeanythingfromme!ThatwaswhyI

  neverwenttoseeyou。IknewquitewellIoughttogo——evenoursimpleFourWindscustomsdemandedthat。

  ButIcouldn’t。Iusedtowatchyoufrommywindow——I

  couldseeyouandyourhusbandstrollingaboutyourgardenintheevening——oryourunningdownthepoplarlanetomeethim。Andithurtme。AndyetinanotherwayIwantedtogoover。Ifeltthat,ifIwerenotsomiserable,IcouldhavelikedyouandfoundinyouwhatI’veneverhadinmylife——anintimate,REALfriendofmyownage。Andthenyourememberthatnightattheshore?YouwereafraidIwouldthinkyoucrazy。Youmusthavethought_I_was。\"

  \"No,butIcouldn’tunderstandyou,Leslie。Onemomentyoudrewmetoyou——thenextyoupushedmeback。\"

  \"Iwasveryunhappythatevening。Ihadhadahardday。Dickhadbeenvery——veryhardtomanagethatday。

  Generallyheisquitegood-naturedandeasilycontrolled,youknow,Anne。Butsomedaysheisverydifferent。Iwassoheartsick——Iranawaytotheshoreassoonashewenttosleep。Itwasmyonlyrefuge。I

  sattherethinkingofhowmypoorfatherhadendedhislife,andwonderingifIwouldn’tbedriventoitsomeday。Oh,myheartwasfullofblackthoughts!Andthenyoucamedancingalongthecovelikeaglad,light-heartedchild。I——IhatedyoumorethenthanI’veeverdonesince。AndyetIcravedyourfriendship。Theonefeelingswayedmeonemoment;theotherfeelingthenext。WhenIgothomethatnightI

  criedforshameofwhatyoumustthinkofme。Butit’salwaysbeenjustthesamewhenIcameoverhere。

  SometimesI’dbehappyandenjoymyvisit。Andatothertimesthathideousfeelingwouldmaritall。

  Thereweretimeswheneverythingaboutyouandyourhousehurtme。YouhadsomanydearlittlethingsI

  couldn’thave。Doyouknow——it’sridiculous——butI

  hadanespecialspiteatthosechinadogsofyours。

  ThereweretimeswhenIwantedtocatchupGogandMagogandbangtheirpertblacknosestogether!Oh,yousmile,Anne——butitwasneverfunnytome。IwouldcomehereandseeyouandGilbertwithyourbooksandyourflowers,andyourhouseholdgoods,andyourlittlefamilyjokes——andyourloveforeachothershowingineverylookandword,evenwhenyoudidn’tknowit——andIwouldgohometo——youknowwhatIwenthometo!Oh,Anne,Idon’tbelieveI’mjealousandenviousbynature。WhenIwasagirlIlackedmanythingsmyschoolmateshad,butInevercared——Ineverdislikedthemforit。ButIseemtohavegrownsohateful——\"

  \"Leslie,dearest,stopblamingyourself。YouareNOT

  hatefulorjealousorenvious。Thelifeyouhavetolivehaswarpedyoualittle,perhaps-butitwouldhaveruinedanaturelessfineandnoblethanyours。I’mlettingyoutellmeallthisbecauseIbelieveit’sbetterforyoutotalkitoutandridyoursoulofit。

  Butdon’tblameyourselfanymore。\"

  \"Well,Iwon’t。IjustwantedyoutoknowmeasIam。

  Thattimeyoutoldmeofyourdarlinghopeforthespringwastheworstofall,Anne。IshallneverforgivemyselfforthewayIbehavedthen。Irepenteditwithtears。AndIDIDputmanyatenderandlovingthoughtofyouintothelittledressImade。ButI

  mighthaveknownthatanythingImadecouldonlybeashroudintheend。\"

  \"Now,Leslie,thatISbitterandmorbid——putsuchthoughtsaway。

  Iwassogladwhenyoubroughtthelittledress;andsinceIhadtoloselittleJoyceIliketothinkthatthedresssheworewastheoneyoumadeforherwhenyouletyourselfloveme。\"

  \"Anne,doyouknow,IbelieveIshallalwaysloveyouafterthis。Idon’tthinkI’lleverfeelthatdreadfulwayaboutyouagain。Talkingitalloutseemstohavedoneawaywithit,somehow。It’sverystrange——andI

  thoughtitsorealandbitter。It’slikeopeningthedoorofadarkroomtoshowsomehideouscreatureyou’vebelievedtobethere——andwhenthelightstreamsinyourmonsterturnsouttohavebeenjustashadow,vanishingwhenthelightcomes。Itwillnevercomebetweenusagain。\"

  \"No,wearerealfriendsnow,Leslie,andIamveryglad。\"

  \"Ihopeyouwon’tmisunderstandmeifIsaysomethingelse。Anne,Iwasgrievedtothecoreofmyheartwhenyoulostyourbaby;andifIcouldhavesavedherforyoubycuttingoffoneofmyhandsIwouldhavedoneit。Butyoursorrowhasbroughtusclosertogether。

  Yourperfecthappinessisn’tabarrieranylonger。Oh,don’tmisunderstand,dearest——I’mNOTgladthatyourhappinessisn’tperfectanylonger——Icansaythatsincerely;butsinceitisn’t,thereisn’tsuchagulfbetweenus。\"

  \"IDOunderstandthat,too,Leslie。Now,we’lljustshutupthepastandforgetwhatwasunpleasantinit。

  It’sallgoingtobedifferent。We’rebothoftheraceofJosephnow。Ithinkyou’vebeenwonderful——wonderful。And,Leslie,Ican’thelpbelievingthatlifehassomethinggoodandbeautifulforyouyet。\"

  Leslieshookherhead。

  \"No,\"shesaiddully。\"Thereisn’tanyhope。Dickwillneverbebetter——andevenifhismemoryweretocomeback——oh,Anne,itwouldbeworse,evenworse,thanitisnow。Thisissomethingyoucan’tunderstand,youhappybride。Anne,didMissCorneliaevertellyouhowIcametomarryDick?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"I’mglad——Iwantedyoutoknow——butIcouldn’tbringmyselftotalkofitifyouhadn’tknown。Anne,itseemstomethateversinceIwastwelveyearsoldlifehasbeenbitter。BeforethatIhadahappychildhood。

  Wewereverypoor——butwedidn’tmind。Fatherwassosplendid——socleverandlovingandsympathetic。WewerechumsasfarbackasIcanremember。Andmotherwassosweet。Shewasvery,verybeautiful。Ilooklikeher,butIamnotsobeautifulasshewas。\"

  \"MissCorneliasaysyouarefarmorebeautiful。\"

  \"Sheismistaken——orprejudiced。IthinkmyfigureIS

  better——motherwasslightandbentbyhardwork——butshehadthefaceofanangel。Iusedjusttolookupatherinworship。Weallworshippedher,——fatherandKennethandI。\"

  AnnerememberedthatMissCorneliahadgivenheraverydifferentimpressionofLeslie’smother。Buthadnotlovethetruervision?Still,itWASselfishofRoseWesttomakeherdaughtermarryDickMoore。

  \"Kennethwasmybrother,\"wentonLeslie。\"Oh,I

  can’ttellyouhowIlovedhim。Andhewascruellykilled。Doyouknowhow?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Anne,Isawhislittlefaceasthewheelwentoverhim。Hefellonhisback。Anne——Anne——Icanseeitnow。Ishallalwaysseeit。Anne,allIaskofheavenisthatthatrecollectionshallbeblottedoutofmymemory。OmyGod!\"

  \"Leslie,don’tspeakofit。Iknowthestory——don’tgointodetailsthatonlyharrowyoursoulupunavailingly。ItWILLbeblottedout。\"

  Afteramoment’sstruggle,Leslieregainedameasureofself-control。

  \"Thenfather’shealthgotworseandhegrewdespondent——hismindbecameunbalanced——you’veheardallthat,too?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"AfterthatIhadjustmothertolivefor。ButIwasveryambitious。Imeanttoteachandearnmywaythroughcollege。Imeanttoclimbtotheverytop——oh,Iwon’ttalkofthateither。It’snouse。Youknowwhathappened。Icouldn’tseemydearlittleheart-brokenmother,whohadbeensuchaslaveallherlife,turnedoutofherhome。Ofcourse,Icouldhaveearnedenoughforustoliveon。ButmotherCOULDN’T

  leaveherhome。Shehadcomethereasabride——andshehadlovedfatherso——andallhermemorieswerethere。

  Evenyet,Anne,whenIthinkthatImadeherlastyearhappyI’mnotsorryforwhatIdid。AsforDick——I

  didn’thatehimwhenImarriedhim——Ijustfeltforhimtheindifferent,friendlyfeelingIhadformostofmyschoolmates。Iknewhedranksome——butIhadneverheardthestoryofthegirldownatthefishingcove。

  IfIhad,ICOULDN’Thavemarriedhim,evenformother’ssake。Afterwards——IDIDhatehim——butmotherneverknew。Shedied——andthenIwasalone。IwasonlyseventeenandIwasalone。DickhadgoneoffintheFourSisters。Ihopedhewouldn’tbehomeverymuchmore。Theseahadalwaysbeeninhisblood。I

  hadnootherhope。Well,CaptainJimbroughthimhome,asyouknow——andthat’sallthereistosay。Youknowmenow,Anne——theworstofme——thebarriersarealldown。Andyoustillwanttobemyfriend?\"

  Annelookedupthroughthebirches,atthewhitepaper-lanternofahalfmoondriftingdownwardstothegulfofsunset。Herfacewasverysweet。

  \"Iamyourfriendandyouaremine,foralways,\"shesaid。\"SuchafriendasIneverhadbefore。Ihavehadmanydearandbelovedfriends——butthereisasomethinginyou,Leslie,thatIneverfoundinanyoneelse。Youhavemoretooffermeinthatrichnatureofyours,andIhavemoretogiveyouthanIhadinmycarelessgirlhood。Wearebothwomen——andfriendsforever。\"

  Theyclaspedhandsandsmiledateachotherthroughthetearsthatfilledthegrayeyesandtheblue。

  CHAPTER22

  MISSCORNELIAARRANGESMATTERS

  GilbertinsistedthatSusanshouldbekeptonatthelittlehouseforthesummer。Anneprotestedatfirst。

  \"Lifeherewithjustthetwoofusissosweet,Gilbert。Itspoilsitalittletohaveanyoneelse。

  Susanisadearsoul,butsheisanoutsider。Itwon’thurtmetodotheworkhere。\"

  \"Youmusttakeyourdoctor’sadvice,\"saidGilbert。

  \"There’sanoldproverbtotheeffectthatshoemakers’

  wivesgobarefootanddoctors’wivesdieyoung。I

  don’tmeanthatitshallbetrueinmyhousehold。YouwillkeepSusanuntiltheoldspringcomesbackintoyourstep,andthoselittlehollowsonyourcheeksfillout。\"

  \"Youjusttakeiteasy,Mrs。Doctor,dear,\"saidSusan,comingabruptlyin。\"Haveagoodtimeanddonotworryaboutthepantry。Susanisatthehelm。

  Thereisnouseinkeepingadoganddoingyourownbarking。Iamgoingtotakeyourbreakfastuptoyoueverymorning。\"

  \"Indeedyouarenot,\"laughedAnne。\"IagreewithMissCorneliathatit’sascandalforawomanwhoisn’tsicktoeatherbreakfastinbed,andalmostjustifiesthemeninanyenormities。\"

  \"Oh,Cornelia!\"saidSusan,withineffablecontempt。

  \"Ithinkyouhavebettersense,Mrs。Doctor,dear,thantoheedwhatCorneliaBryantsays。Icannotseewhyshemustbealwaysrunningdownthemen,evenifsheisanoldmaid。_I_amanoldmaid,butyouneverhearME

  abusingthemen。Ilike’em。IwouldhavemarriedoneifIcould。Isitnotfunnynobodyeveraskedmetomarryhim,Mrs。Doctor,dear?Iamnobeauty,butIamasgood-lookingasmostofthemarriedwomenyousee。

  ButIneverhadabeau。Whatdoyousupposeisthereason?\"

  \"Itmaybepredestination,\"suggestedAnne,withunearthlysolemnity。

  Susannodded。

  \"ThatiswhatIhaveoftenthought,Mrs。Doctor,dear,andagreatcomfortitis。IdonotmindnobodywantingmeiftheAlmightydecreeditsoforHisownwisepurposes。Butsometimesdoubtcreepsin,Mrs。

  Doctor,dear,andIwonderifmaybetheOldScratchhasnotmoretodowithitthananyoneelse。IcannotfeelresignedTHEN。Butmaybe,\"addedSusan,brighteningup,\"Iwillhaveachancetogetmarriedyet。Ioftenandoftenthinkoftheoldversemyauntusedtorepeat:

  ThereneverwasagoosesograybutsometimesoonorlateSomehonestgandercameherwayandtookherforhismate!

  Awomancannoteverbesureofnotbeingmarriedtillsheisburied,Mrs。Doctor,dear,andmeanwhileIwillmakeabatchofcherrypies。Inoticethedoctorfavors’em,andIDOlikecookingforamanwhoappreciateshisvictuals。\"

  MissCorneliadroppedinthatafternoon,puffingalittle。

  \"Idon’tmindtheworldorthedevilmuch,butthefleshDOESratherbotherme,\"sheadmitted。\"Youalwayslookascoolasacucumber,Anne,dearie。DoI

  smellcherrypie?IfIdo,askmetostaytotea。

  Haven’ttastedacherrypiethissummer。MycherrieshaveallbeenstolenbythosescampsofGilmanboysfromtheGlen。\"

  \"Now,now,Cornelia,\"remonstratedCaptainJim,whohadbeenreadingaseanovelinacornerofthelivingroom,\"youshouldn’tsaythataboutthosetwopoor,motherlessGilmanboys,unlessyou’vegotcertainproof。Jestbecausetheirfatherain’tnonetoohonestisn’tanyreasonforcallingthemthieves。It’smorelikelyit’sbeentherobinstookyourcherries。

  They’returriblethickthisyear。\"

  \"Robins!\"saidMissCorneliadisdainfully。\"Humph!

  Two-leggedrobins,believeME!\"

  \"Well,mostoftheFourWindsrobinsAREconstructedonthatprinciple,\"saidCaptainJimgravely。

  MissCorneliastaredathimforamoment。Thensheleanedbackinherrockerandlaughedlongandungrudgingly。

  \"Well,youHAVEgotoneonmeatlast,JimBoyd,I’lladmit。Justlookhowpleasedheis,Anne,dearie,grinninglikeaChessy-cat。Asfortherobins’legsifrobinshavegreat,big,bare,sunburnedlegs,withraggedtrousershangingon’em,suchasIsawupinmycherrytreeonemorningatsunriselastweek,I’llbegtheGilmanboys’pardon。BythetimeIgotdowntheyweregone。Icouldn’tunderstandhowtheyhaddisappearedsoquick,butCaptainJimhasenlightenedme。Theyflewaway,ofcourse。\"

  CaptainJimlaughedandwentaway,regretfullydeclininganinvitationtostaytosupperandpartakeofcherrypie。

  \"I’monmywaytoseeLeslieandaskherifshe’lltakeaboarder,\"MissCorneliaresumed。\"I’daletteryesterdayfromaMrs。DalyinToronto,whoboardedaspellwithmetwoyearsago。Shewantedmetotakeafriendofhersforthesummer。HisnameisOwenFord,andhe’sanewspaperman,anditseemshe’sagrandsonoftheschoolmasterwhobuiltthishouse。JohnSelwyn’soldestdaughtermarriedanOntariomannamedFord,andthisisherson。Hewantstoseetheoldplacehisgrandparentslivedin。Hehadabadspelloftyphoidinthespringandhasn’tgotrightlyoverit,sohisdoctorhasorderedhimtothesea。Hedoesn’twanttogotothehotel——hejustwantsaquiethomeplace。Ican’ttakehim,forIhavetobeawayinAugust。I’vebeenappointedadelegatetotheW。F。M。S。

  conventioninKingsportandI’mgoing。Idon’tknowwhetherLeslie’llwanttobebotheredwithhim,either,butthere’snooneelse。Ifshecan’ttakehimhe’llhavetogoovertheharbor。\"

  \"Whenyou’veseenhercomebackandhelpuseatourcherrypies,\"saidAnne。\"BringLeslieandDick,too,iftheycancome。Andsoyou’regoingtoKingsport?

  Whatanicetimeyouwillhave。Imustgiveyoualettertoafriendofminethere——Mrs。JonasBlake。\"

  \"I’veprevailedonMrs。ThomasHolttogowithme,\"

  saidMissCorneliacomplacently。\"It’stimeshehadalittleholiday,believeME。Shehasjustaboutworkedherselftodeath。TomHoltcancrochetbeautifully,buthecan’tmakealivingforhisfamily。Heneverseemstobeabletogetupearlyenoughtodoanywork,butInoticehecanalwaysgetupearlytogofishing。

  Isn’tthatlikeaman?\"

  Annesmiled。ShehadlearnedtodiscountlargelyMissCornelia’sopinionsoftheFourWindsmen。Otherwiseshemusthavebelievedthemthemosthopelessassortmentofreprobatesandne’er-do-wellsintheworld,withveritableslavesandmartyrsforwives。

  ThisparticularTomHolt,forexample,sheknewtobeakindhusband,amuchlovedfather,andanexcellentneighbor。Ifhewereratherinclinedtobelazy,likingbetterthefishinghehadbeenbornforthanthefarminghehadnot,andifhehadaharmlesseccentricityfordoingfancywork,nobodysaveMissCorneliaseemedtoholditagainsthim。Hiswifewasa\"hustler,\"whogloriedinhustling;hisfamilygotacomfortablelivingoffthefarm;andhisstrappingsonsanddaughters,inheritingtheirmother’senergy,wereallinafairwaytodowellintheworld。TherewasnotahappierhouseholdinGlenSt。MarythantheHolts’。

  MissCorneliareturnedsatisfiedfromthehouseupthebrook。

  \"Leslie’sgoingtotakehim,\"sheannounced。\"Shejumpedatthechance。Shewantstomakealittlemoneytoshingletheroofofherhousethisfall,andshedidn’tknowhowshewasgoingtomanageit。IexpectCaptainJim’llbemorethaninterestedwhenhehearsthatagrandsonoftheSelwyns’iscominghere。Lesliesaidtotellyoushehankeredaftercherrypie,butshecouldn’tcometoteabecauseshehastogoandhuntupherturkeys。They’vestrayedaway。Butshesaid,iftherewasapieceleft,foryoutoputitinthepantryandshe’drunoverinthecat’slight,whenprowling’sinorder,togetit。Youdon’tknow,Anne,dearie,whatgooditdidmyhearttohearLesliesendyouamessagelikethat,laughinglikesheusedtolongago。

  There’sagreatchangecomeoverherlately。Shelaughsandjokeslikeagirl,andfromhertalkI

  gathershe’shererealoften。\"

  \"Everyday——orelseI’moverthere,\"saidAnne。\"I

  don’tknowwhatI’ddowithoutLeslie,especiallyjustnowwhenGilbertissobusy。He’shardlyeverhomeexceptforafewhoursintheweesma’s。He’sreallyworkinghimselftodeath。Somanyoftheover-harborpeoplesendforhimnow。\"

  \"Theymightbetterbecontentwiththeirowndoctor,\"

  saidMissCornelia。\"ThoughtobesureIcan’tblamethem,forhe’saMethodist。EversinceDr。BlythebroughtMrs。Allonbyroundfolksthinkhecanraisethedead。IbelieveDr。Daveisamitejealous——justlikeaman。HethinksDr。Blythehastoomanynew-fanglednotions!`Well,’Isaystohim,`itwasanew-fanglednotionsavedRhodaAllonby。IfYOU’Dbeenattendinghershe’dhavedied,andhadatombstonesayingithadpleasedGodtotakeheraway。’Oh,IDOliketospeakmymindtoDr。Dave!He’sbossedtheGlenforyears,andhethinkshe’sforgottenmorethanotherpeopleeverknew。Speakingofdoctors,IwishDr。Blythe’drunoverandseetothatboilonDickMoore’sneck。

  It’sgettingpastLeslie’sskill。I’msureIdon’tknowwhatDickMoorewantstostartinhavingboilsfor——asifhewasn’tenoughtroublewithoutthat!\"

  \"Doyouknow,Dickhastakenquiteafancytome,\"

  saidAnne。\"Hefollowsmeroundlikeadog,andsmileslikeapleasedchildwhenInoticehim。\"

  \"Doesitmakeyoucreepy?\"

  \"Notatall。IratherlikepoorDickMoore。Heseemssopitifulandappealing,somehow。\"

  \"Youwouldn’tthinkhimveryappealingifyou’dseehimonhiscantankerousdays,believeME。ButI’mgladyoudon’tmindhim——it’sallthenicerforLeslie。She’llhavemoretodowhenherboardercomes。Ihopehe’llbeadecentcreature。You’llprobablylikehim——he’sawriter。\"

  \"Iwonderwhypeoplesocommonlysupposethatiftwoindividualsarebothwriterstheymustthereforebehugelycongenial,\"saidAnne,ratherscornfully。

  \"Nobodywouldexpecttwoblacksmithstobeviolentlyattractedtowardeachothermerelybecausetheywerebothblacksmiths。\"

  Nevertheless,shelookedforwardtotheadventofOwenFordwithapleasantsenseofexpectation。IfhewereyoungandlikeablehemightproveaverypleasantadditiontosocietyinFourWinds。Thelatch-stringofthelittlehousewasalwaysoutfortheraceofJoseph。

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