SPRINGDAYS
TheiceintheharborgrewblackandrottenintheMarchsuns;inApriltherewerebluewatersandawindy,white-cappedgulfagain;andagaintheFourWindslightbegemmedthetwilights。
\"I’msogladtoseeitoncemore,\"saidAnne,onthefirsteveningofitsreappearance。\"I’vemisseditsoallwinter。Thenorthwesternskyhasseemedblankandlonelywithoutit。\"
Thelandwastenderwithbrand-new,golden-green,babyleaves。TherewasanemeraldmistonthewoodsbeyondtheGlen。Theseawardvalleyswerefulloffairymistsatdawn。
Vibrantwindscameandwentwithsaltfoamintheirbreath。Thesealaughedandflashedandpreenedandallured,likeabeautiful,coquettishwoman。Theherringschooledandthefishingvillagewoketolife。
Theharborwasalivewithwhitesailsmakingforthechannel。Theshipsbegantosailoutwardandinwardagain。
\"Onaspringdaylikethis,\"saidAnne,\"Iknowexactlywhatmysoulwillfeellikeontheresurrectionmorning。\"
\"TherearetimesinspringwhenIsorterfeelthatI
mighthavebeenapoetifI’dbeencaughtyoung,\"
remarkedCaptainJim。\"IcatchmyselfconningoveroldlinesandversesIheardtheschoolmasterrecitingsixtyyearsago。Theydon’ttroublemeatothertimes。
NowIfeelasifIhadtogetoutontherocksorthefieldsorthewaterandspoutthem。\"
CaptainJimhadcomeupthatafternoontobringAnnealoadofshellsforhergarden,andalittlebunchofsweet-grasswhichhehadfoundinarambleoverthesanddunes。
\"It’sgettingrealscarcealongthisshorenow,\"hesaid。\"WhenIwasaboytherewasa-plentyofit。Butnowit’sonlyonceinawhileyou’llfindaplot——andneverwhenyou’relookingforit。Youjesthavetostumbleonit——you’rewalkingalongonthesandhills,neverthinkingofsweet-grass——andallatoncetheairisfullofsweetness——andthere’sthegrassunderyourfeet。Ifavorthesmellofsweet-grass。Italwaysmakesmethinkofmymother。\"
\"Shewasfondofit?\"askedAnne。
\"NotthatIknowson。Dunno’ssheeversawanysweet-grass。No,it’sbecauseithasakindofmotherlyperfume——nottooyoung,youunderstand——somethingkindofseasonedandwholesomeanddependable——jestlikeamother。Theschoolmaster’sbridealwayskeptitamongherhandkerchiefs。Youmightputthatlittlebunchamongyours,MistressBlythe。Idon’tliketheseboughtenscents——butawhiffofsweet-grassbelongsanywherealadydoes。\"
Annehadnotbeenespeciallyenthusiasticovertheideaofsurroundingherflowerbedswithquahogshells;asadecorationtheydidnotappealtoheronfirstthought。
ButshewouldnothavehurtCaptainJim’sfeelingsforanything;sosheassumedavirtueshedidnotatfirstfeel,andthankedhimheartily。AndwhenCaptainJimhadproudlyencircledeverybedwitharimofthebig,milk-whiteshells,Annefoundtohersurprisethatshelikedtheeffect。Onatownlawn,orevenupattheGlen,theywouldnothavebeeninkeeping,buthere,intheold-fashioned,sea-boundgardenofthelittlehouseofdreams,theyBELONGED。
\"TheyDOlooknice,\"shesaidsincerely。
\"Theschoolmaster’sbridealwayshadcowhawksroundherbeds,\"saidCaptainJim。\"Shewasamasterhandwithflowers。SheLOOKEDat’em——andtouched’em——SO——andtheygrewlikemad。Somefolkshavethatknack——I
reckonyouhaveit,too,MistressBlythe。\"
\"Oh,Idon’tknow——butIlovemygarden,andIloveworkinginit。Topotterwithgreen,growingthings,watchingeachdaytoseethedear,newsproutscomeup,isliketakingahandincreation,Ithink。Justnowmygardenislikefaith——thesubstanceofthingshopedfor。Butbideawee。\"
\"Italwaysamazesmetolookatthelittle,wrinkledbrownseedsandthinkoftherainbowsin’em,\"saidCaptainJim。\"WhenIponderonthemseedsIdon’tfinditnowisehardtobelievethatwe’vegotsoulsthat’llliveinotherworlds。Youcouldn’thardlybelievetherewaslifeinthemtinythings,somenobiggerthangrainsofdust,letalonecolorandscent,ifyouhadn’tseenthemiracle,couldyou?\"
Anne,whowascountingherdayslikesilverbeadsonarosary,couldnotnowtakethelongwalktothelighthouseoruptheGlenroad。ButMissCorneliaandCaptainJimcameveryoftentothelittlehouse。MissCorneliawasthejoyofAnne’sandGilbert’sexistence。
Theylaughedside-splittinglyoverherspeechesaftereveryvisit。WhenCaptainJimandshehappenedtovisitthelittlehouseatthesametimetherewasmuchsportforthelistening。Theywagedwordywarfare,sheattacking,hedefending。AnneoncereproachedtheCaptainforhisbaitingofMissCornelia。
\"Oh,Idolovetosethergoing,MistressBlythe,\"
chuckledtheunrepentantsinner。\"It’sthegreatestamusementIhaveinlife。Thattongueofherswouldblisterastone。Andyouandthatyoungdogofadoctorenj’ylisteningtoherasmuchasIdo。\"
CaptainJimcamealonganothereveningtobringAnnesomemayflowers。Thegardenwasfullofthemoist,scentedairofamaritimespringevening。Therewasamilk-whitemistontheedgeofthesea,withayoungmoonkissingit,andasilvergladnessofstarsovertheGlen。Thebellofthechurchacrosstheharborwasringingdreamilysweet。Themellowchimedriftedthroughthedusktominglewiththesoftspring-moanofthesea。CaptainJim’smayflowersaddedthelastcompletingtouchtothecharmofthenight。
\"Ihaven’tseenanythisspring,andI’vemissedthem,\"saidAnne,buryingherfaceinthem。
\"Theyain’ttobefoundaroundFourWinds,onlyinthebarrensawaybehindtheGlenupyander。ItookalittletriptodaytotheLand-of-nothing-to-do,andhuntedtheseupforyou。Ireckonthey’rethelastyou’llseethisspring,forthey’renearlydone。\"
\"Howkindandthoughtfulyouare,CaptainJim。Nobodyelse——notevenGilbert\"——withashakeofherheadathim——\"rememberedthatIalwayslongformayflowersinspring。\"
\"Well,Ihadanothererrand,too——IwantedtotakeMr。
Howardbackyanderamessoftrout。Helikesoneoccasional,andit’sallIcandoforakindnesshedidmeonce。Istayedalltheafternoonandtalkedtohim。
Helikestotalktome,thoughhe’sahighlyeddicatedmanandI’monlyanignorantoldsailor,becausehe’soneofthefolksthat’sGOTtotalkorthey’remiserable,andhefindslistenersscarcearoundhere。
TheGlenfolksfightshyofhimbecausetheythinkhe’saninfidel。Heain’tthatfargoneexactly——fewmenis,Ireckon——buthe’swhatyoumightcallaheretic。
Hereticsarewicked,butthey’remightyint’resting。
It’sjestthatthey’vegotsorterlostlookingforGod,beingundertheimpressionthatHe’shardtofind——whichHeain’tnever。Mostof’emblundertoHimafterawhile,Iguess。Idon’tthinklisteningtoMr。
Howard’sargumentsislikelytodomemuchharm。Mindyou,IbelievewhatIwasbroughtuptobelieve。Itsavesavastofbother——andbackofitall,Godisgood。ThetroublewithMr。Howardisthathe’saleetleTOOclever。Hethinksthathe’sboundtoliveuptohiscleverness,andthatit’ssmartertothrashoutsomenewwayofgettingtoheaventhantogobytheoldtrackthecommon,ignorantfolksistravelling。
Buthe’llgettheresometimeallright,andthenhe’lllaughathimself。\"
\"Mr。HowardwasaMethodisttobeginwith,\"saidMissCornelia,asifshethoughthehadnotfartogofromthattoheresy。
\"Doyouknow,Cornelia,\"saidCaptainJimgravely,\"I’veoftenthoughtthatifIwasn’taPresbyterianI’dbeaMethodist。\"
\"Oh,well,\"concededMissCornelia,\"ifyouweren’taPresbyterianitwouldn’tmattermuchwhatyouwere。
Speakingofheresy,remindsme,doctor——I’vebroughtbackthatbookyoulentme——thatNaturalLawintheSpiritualWorld——Ididn’treadmore’nathirdofit。I
canreadsense,andIcanreadnonsense,butthatbookisneithertheonenortheother。\"
\"ItISconsideredratherhereticalinsomequarters,\"
admittedGilbert,\"butItoldyouthatbeforeyoutookit,MissCornelia。\"
\"Oh,Iwouldn’thavemindeditsbeingheretical。Icanstandwickedness,butIcan’tstandfoolishness,\"saidMissCorneliacalmly,andwiththeairofhavingsaidthelastthingtherewastosayaboutNaturalLaw。
\"Speakingofbooks,AMadLovecometoanendatlasttwoweeksago,\"remarkedCaptainJimmusingly。\"Itruntoonehundredandthreechapters。Whentheygotmarriedthebookstoppedrightoff,soIreckontheirtroubleswereallover。It’srealnicethatthat’sthewayinbooksanyhow,isn’tit,evenif’tistn’tsoanywhereelse?\"
\"Ineverreadnovels,\"saidMissCornelia。\"DidyouhearhowGeordieRussellwastoday,CaptainJim?\"
\"Yes,Icalledinonmywayhometoseehim。He’sgettingroundallright——butstewinginabrothoftrouble,asusual,poorman。
’Coursehebrewsupmostofitforhimself,butI
reckonthatdon’tmakeitanyeasiertobear。\"
\"He’sanawfulpessimist,\"saidMissCornelia。
\"Well,no,heain’tapessimistexactly,Cornelia。Heonlyjestneverfindsanythingthatsuitshim。\"
\"Andisn’tthatapessimist?\"
\"No,no。Apessimistisonewhoneverexpectstofindanythingtosuithim。Geordiehain’tgotTHATfaryet。\"
\"You’dfindsomethinggoodtosayofthedevilhimself,JimBoyd。\"
\"Well,you’veheardthestoryoftheoldladywhosaidhewaspersevering。Butno,Cornelia,I’venothinggoodtosayofthedevil。\"
\"Doyoubelieveinhimatall?\"askedMissCorneliaseriously。
\"HowcanyouaskthatwhenyouknowwhatagoodPresbyterianIam,Cornelia?HowcouldaPresbyteriangetalongwithoutadevil?\"
\"DOyou?\"persistedMissCornelia。
CaptainJimsuddenlybecamegrave。
\"IbelieveinwhatIheardaministeroncecall`amightyandmalignantandINTELLIGENTpowerofevilworkingintheuniverse,’\"hesaidsolemnly。\"IdoTHAT,Cornelia。Youcancallitthedevil,orthe`principleofevil,’ortheOldScratch,oranynameyoulike。It’sTHERE,andalltheinfidelsandhereticsintheworldcan’targueitaway,anymore’ntheycanargueGodaway。It’sthere,andit’sworking。But,mindyou,Cornelia,Ibelieveit’sgoingtogettheworstofitinthelongrun。\"
\"IamsureIhopeso,\"saidMissCornelia,nonetoohopefully。\"Butspeakingofthedevil,IampositivethatBillyBoothispossessedbyhimnow。HaveyouheardofBilly’slatestperformance?\"
\"No,whatwasthat?\"
\"He’sgoneandburneduphiswife’snew,brownbroadclothsuit,thatshepaidtwenty-fivedollarsforinCharlottetown,becausehedeclaresthemenlookedtooadmiringatherwhensheworeittochurchthefirsttime。Wasn’tthatlikeaman?\"
\"MistressBoothISmightypretty,andbrown’shercolor,\"saidCaptainJimreflectively。
\"Isthatanygoodreasonwhyheshouldpokehernewsuitintothekitchenstove?BillyBoothisajealousfool,andhemakeshiswife’slifemiserable。She’scriedalltheweekabouthersuit。Oh,Anne,IwishI
couldwritelikeyou,believeME。Wouldn’tIscoresomeofthemenroundhere!\"
\"ThoseBoothsareallamitequeer,\"saidCaptainJim。
\"Billyseemedthesanestofthelottillhegotmarriedandthenthisqueerjealousstreakcroppedoutinhim。
HisbrotherDaniel,now,wasalwaysodd。\"
\"Tooktantrumseveryfewdaysorsoandwouldn’tgetoutofbed,\"saidMissCorneliawitharelish。\"Hiswifewouldhavetodoallthebarnworktillhegotoverhisspell。Whenhediedpeoplewroteherlettersofcondolence;ifI’dwrittenanythingitwouldhavebeenoneofcongratulation。Theirfather,oldAbramBooth,wasadisgustingoldsot。Hewasdrunkathiswife’sfuneral,andkeptreelingroundandhiccuping`I
didn’tdri——i——i——nkmuchbutIfeela——a——awfullyque——e——e——r。’Igavehimagoodjabinthebackwithmyumbrellawhenhecamenearme,anditsoberedhimupuntiltheygotthecasketoutofthehouse。YoungJohnnyBoothwastohavebeenmarriedyesterday,buthecouldn’tbebecausehe’sgoneandgotthemumps。
Wasn’tthatlikeaman?\"
\"Howcouldhehelpgettingthemumps,poorfellow?\"
\"I’dpoorfellowhim,believeME,ifIwasKateSterns。
Idon’tknowhowhecouldhelpgettingthemumps,butI
DOknowtheweddingsupperwasallpreparedandeverythingwillbespoiledbeforehe’swellagain。
Suchawaste!Heshouldhavehadthemumpswhenhewasaboy。\"
\"Come,come,Cornelia,don’tyouthinkyou’reamiteunreasonable?\"
MissCorneliadisdainedtoreplyandturnedinsteadtoSusanBaker,agrim-faced,kind-heartedelderlyspinsteroftheGlen,whohadbeeninstalledasmaid-of-all-workatthelittlehouseforsomeweeks。
SusanhadbeenuptotheGlentomakeasickcall,andhadjustreturned。
\"HowispooroldAuntMandytonight?\"askedMissCornelia。
Susansighed。
\"Verypoorly——verypoorly,Cornelia。Iamafraidshewillsoonbeinheaven,poorthing!\"
\"Oh,surely,it’snotsobadasthat!\"exclaimedMissCornelia,sympathetically。
CaptainJimandGilbertlookedateachother。Thentheysuddenlyroseandwentout。
\"Therearetimes,\"saidCaptainJim,betweenspasms,\"whenitwouldbeasinNOTtolaugh。Themtwoexcellentwomen!\"
CHAPTER19
DAWNANDDUSK
InearlyJune,whenthesandhillswereagreatgloryofpinkwildroses,andtheGlenwassmotheredinappleblossoms,Marillaarrivedatthelittlehouse,accompaniedbyablackhorsehairtrunk,patternedwithbrassnails,whichhadreposedundisturbedintheGreenGablesgarretforhalfacentury。SusanBaker,who,duringherfewweeks’sojourninthelittlehouse,hadcometoworship\"youngMrs。Doctor,\"asshecalledAnne,withblindfervor,lookedratherjealouslyaskanceatMarillaatfirst。ButasMarilladidnottrytointerfereinkitchenmatters,andshowednodesiretointerruptSusan’sministrationstoyoungMrs。
Doctor,thegoodhandmaidenbecamereconciledtoherpresence,andtoldhercroniesattheGlenthatMissCuthbertwasafineoldladyandknewherplace。
Oneevening,whenthesky’slimpidbowlwasfilledwitharedglory,andtherobinswerethrillingthegoldentwilightwithjubilanthymnstothestarsofevening,therewasasuddencommotioninthelittlehouseofdreams。TelephonemessagesweresentuptotheGlen,DoctorDaveandawhite-cappednursecamehastilydown,Marillapacedthegardenwalksbetweenthequahogshells,murmuringprayersbetweenhersetlips,andSusansatinthekitchenwithcottonwoolinherearsandherapronoverherhead。
Leslie,lookingoutfromthehouseupthebrook,sawthateverywindowofthelittlehousewasalight,anddidnotsleepthatnight。
TheJunenightwasshort;butitseemedaneternitytothosewhowaitedandwatched。
\"Oh,willitNEVERend?\"saidMarilla;thenshesawhowgravethenurseandDoctorDavelooked,andshedaredasknomorequestions。SupposeAnne——butMarillacouldnotsupposeit。
\"Donottellme,\"saidSusanfiercely,answeringtheanguishinMarilla’seyes,\"thatGodcouldbesocruelastotakethatdarlinglambfromuswhenwealllovehersomuch。\"
\"Hehastakenothersaswellbeloved,\"saidMarillahoarsely。
Butatdawn,whentherisingsunrentapartthemistshangingoverthesandbar,andmaderainbowsofthem,joycametothelittlehouse。Annewassafe,andawee,whitelady,withhermother’sbigeyes,waslyingbesideher。Gilbert,hisfacegrayandhaggardfromhisnight’sagony,camedowntotellMarillaandSusan。
\"ThankGod,\"shudderedMarilla。
Susangotupandtookthecottonwooloutofherears。
\"Nowforbreakfast,\"shesaidbriskly。\"Iamoftheopinionthatwewillallbegladofabiteandsup。
YoutellyoungMrs。Doctornottoworryaboutasinglething——Susanisatthehelm。Youtellherjusttothinkofherbaby。\"
Gilbertsmiledrathersadlyashewentaway。Anne,herpalefaceblanchedwithitsbaptismofpain,hereyesaglowwiththeholypassionofmotherhood,didnotneedtobetoldtothinkofherbaby。Shethoughtofnothingelse。Forafewhoursshetastedofhappinesssorareandexquisitethatshewonderediftheangelsinheavendidnotenvyher。
\"LittleJoyce,\"shemurmured,whenMarillacameintoseethebaby。\"Weplannedtocallherthatifshewereagirlie。Thereweresomanywewouldhavelikedtonameherfor;wecouldn’tchoosebetweenthem,sowedecidedonJoyce——wecancallherJoyforshort——Joy——itsuitssowell。Oh,Marilla,IthoughtI
washappybefore。NowIknowthatIjustdreamedapleasantdreamofhappiness。THISisthereality。\"
\"Youmustn’ttalk,Anne——waittillyou’restronger,\"
saidMarillawarningly。
\"YouknowhowharditisformeNOTtotalk,\"smiledAnne。
AtfirstshewastooweakandtoohappytonoticethatGilbertandthenurselookedgraveandMarillasorrowful。Then,assubtly,andcoldly,andremorselesslyasasea-fogstealinglandward,fearcreptintoherheart。WhywasnotGilbertgladder?
Whywouldhenottalkaboutthebaby?Whywouldtheynotletherhaveitwithherafterthatfirstheavenly——happyhour?Was——wasthereanythingwrong?
\"Gilbert,\"whisperedAnneimploringly,\"thebaby——isallright——isn’tshe?Tellme——tellme。\"
Gilbertwasalongwhileinturninground;thenhebentoverAnneandlookedinhereyes。Marilla,listeningfearfullyoutsidethedoor,heardapitiful,heartbrokenmoan,andfledtothekitchenwhereSusanwasweeping。
\"Oh,thepoorlamb——thepoorlamb!Howcanshebearit,MissCuthbert?Iamafraiditwillkillher。Shehasbeenthatbuiltupandhappy,longingforthatbaby,andplanningforit。Cannotanythingbedonenohow,MissCuthbert?\"
\"I’mafraidnot,Susan。Gilbertsaysthereisnohope。
Heknewfromthefirstthelittlethingcouldn’tlive。\"
\"Anditissuchasweetbaby,\"sobbedSusan。\"Ineversawonesowhite——theyaremostlyredoryallow。Anditopeneditsbigeyesasifitwasmonthsold。Thelittle,littlething!Oh,thepoor,youngMrs。
Doctor!\"
Atsunsetthelittlesoulthathadcomewiththedawningwentaway,leavingheartbreakbehindit。MissCorneliatookthewee,whiteladyfromthekindlybutstrangerhandsofthenurse,anddressedthetinywaxenforminthebeautifuldressLesliehadmadeforit。Lesliehadaskedhertodothat。Thenshetookitbackandlaiditbesidethepoor,broken,tear-blindedlittlemother。
\"TheLordhasgivenandtheLordhastakenaway,dearie,\"shesaidthroughherowntears。\"BlessedbethenameoftheLord。\"
Thenshewentaway,leavingAnneandGilbertalonetogetherwiththeirdead。
Thenextday,thesmallwhiteJoywaslaidinavelvetcasketwhichLesliehadlinedwithapple-blossoms,andtakentothegraveyardofthechurchacrosstheharbor。
MissCorneliaandMarillaputallthelittlelove-madegarmentsaway,togetherwiththeruffledbasketwhichhadbeenbefrilledandbelacedfordimpledlimbsanddownyhead。LittleJoywasnevertosleepthere;shehadfoundacolder,narrowerbed。
\"Thishasbeenanawfuldisappointmenttome,\"sighedMissCornelia。\"I’velookedforwardtothisbaby——andIdidwantittobeagirl,too。\"
\"IcanonlybethankfulthatAnne’slifewasspared,\"
saidMarilla,withashiver,recallingthosehoursofdarknesswhenthegirlshelovedwaspassingthroughthevalleyoftheshadow。
\"Poor,poorlamb!Herheartisbroken,\"saidSusan。
\"IENVYAnne,\"saidLesliesuddenlyandfiercely,\"andI’denvyherevenifshehaddied!Shewasamotherforonebeautifulday。I’dgladlygivemylifeforTHAT!\"
\"Iwouldn’ttalklikethat,Leslie,dearie,\"saidMissCorneliadeprecatingly。ShewasafraidthatthedignifiedMissCuthbertwouldthinkLesliequiteterrible。
Anne’sconvalescencewaslong,andmadebitterforherbymanythings。ThebloomandsunshineoftheFourWindsworldgratedharshlyonher;andyet,whentherainfellheavily,shepictureditbeatingsomercilesslydownonthatlittlegraveacrosstheharbor;andwhenthewindblewaroundtheeavessheheardsadvoicesinitshehadneverheardbefore。
Kindlycallershurther,too,withthewell-meantplatitudeswithwhichtheystrovetocoverthenakednessofbereavement。AletterfromPhilBlakewasanaddedsting。Philhadheardofthebaby’sbirth,butnotofitsdeath,andshewroteAnneacongratulatoryletterofsweetmirthwhichhurtherhorribly。
\"IwouldhavelaughedoveritsohappilyifIhadmybaby,\"shesobbedtoMarilla。\"ButwhenIhaven’titjustseemslikewantoncruelty——thoughIknowPhilwouldn’thurtmefortheworld。Oh,Marilla,Idon’tseehowIcanEVERbehappyagain——EVERYTHINGwillhurtmealltherestofmylife。\"
\"Timewillhelpyou,\"saidMarilla,whowasrackedwithsympathybutcouldneverlearntoexpressitinotherthanage-wornformulas。
\"Itdoesn’tseemFAIR,\"saidAnnerebelliously。
\"Babiesarebornandlivewheretheyarenotwanted——wheretheywillbeneglected——wheretheywillhavenochance。Iwouldhavelovedmybabyso——andcaredforitsotenderly——andtriedtogivehereverychanceforgood。AndyetIwasn’tallowedtokeepher。\"
\"ItwasGod’swill,Anne,\"saidMarilla,helplessbeforetheriddleoftheuniverse——theWHYofundeservedpain。\"AndlittleJoyisbetteroff。\"
\"Ican’tbelieveTHAT,\"criedAnnebitterly。Then,seeingthatMarillalookedshocked,sheaddedpassionately,\"Whyshouldshebebornatall——whyshouldanyonebebornatall——ifshe’sbetteroffdead?IDON’Tbelieveitisbetterforachildtodieatbirththantoliveitslifeout——andloveandbeloved——andenjoyandsuffer——anddoitswork——anddevelopacharacterthatwouldgiveitapersonalityineternity。AndhowdoyouknowitwasGod’swill?
PerhapsitwasjustathwartingofHispurposebythePowerofEvil。Wecan’tbeexpectedtoberesignedtoTHAT。\"
\"Oh,Anne,don’ttalkso,\"saidMarilla,genuinelyalarmedlestAnneweredriftingintodeepanddangerouswaters。\"Wecan’tunderstand——butwemusthavefaith——weMUSTbelievethatallisforthebest。I
knowyoufindithardtothinkso,justnow。Buttrytobebrave——forGilbert’ssake。He’ssoworriedaboutyou。Youaren’tgettingstrongasfastasyoushould。\"
\"Oh,IknowI’vebeenveryselfish,\"sighedAnne。\"I
loveGilbertmorethanever——andIwanttoliveforhissake。Butitseemsasifpartofmewasburiedoverthereinthatlittleharborgraveyard——andithurtssomuchthatI’mafraidoflife。\"
\"Itwon’thurtsomuchalways,Anne。\"
\"Thethoughtthatitmaystophurtingsometimeshurtsmeworsethanallelse,Marilla。\"
\"Yes,Iknow,I’vefeltthattoo,aboutotherthings。
Butweallloveyou,Anne。CaptainJimhasbeenupeverydaytoaskforyou——andMrs。Moorehauntstheplace——andMissBryantspendsmostofhertime,I
think,cookingupnicethingsforyou。Susandoesn’tlikeitverywell。ShethinksshecancookaswellasMissBryant。\"
\"DearSusan!Oh,everybodyhasbeensodearandgoodandlovelytome,Marilla。I’mnotungrateful——andperhaps——whenthishorribleachegrowsalittleless——I’llfindthatIcangoonliving。\"
CHAPTER20
LOSTMARGARET
Annefoundthatshecouldgoonliving;thedaycamewhensheevensmiledagainoveroneofMissCornelia’sspeeches。ButtherewassomethinginthesmilethathadneverbeeninAnne’ssmilebeforeandwouldneverbeabsentfromitagain。
OnthefirstdayshewasabletogoforadriveGilberttookherdowntoFourWindsPoint,andlefthertherewhileherowedoverthechanneltoseeapatientatthefishingvillage。Arollickingwindwasscuddingacrosstheharborandthedunes,whippingthewaterintowhite-capsandwashingthesandshorewithlonglinesofsilverybreakers。
\"I’mrealproudtoseeyouhereagain,MistressBlythe,\"saidCaptainJim。\"Sitdown——sitdown。I’mafearedit’smightydustyheretoday——butthere’snoneedoflookingatdustwhenyoucanlookatsuchscenery,isthere?\"
\"Idon’tmindthedust,\"saidAnne,\"butGilbertsaysImustkeepintheopenair。IthinkI’llgoandsitontherocksdownthere。\"
\"Wouldyoulikecompanyorwouldyouratherbealone?\"
\"IfbycompanyyoumeanyoursI’dmuchratherhaveitthanbealone,\"saidAnne,smiling。Thenshesighed。
Shehadneverbeforemindedbeingalone。Nowshedreadedit。Whenshewasalonenowshefeltsodreadfullyalone。
\"Here’sanicelittlespotwherethewindcan’tgetatyou,\"saidCaptainJim,whentheyreachedtherocks。
\"Ioftensithere。It’sagreatplacejesttositanddream。\"
\"Oh——dreams,\"sighedAnne。\"Ican’tdreamnow,CaptainJim——I’mdonewithdreams。\"
\"Oh,no,you’renot,MistressBlythe——oh,no,you’renot,\"saidCaptainJimmeditatively。\"Iknowhowyoufeeljestnow——butifyoukeeponlivingyou’llgetgladagain,andthefirstthingyouknowyou’llbedreamingagain——thankthegoodLordforit!Ifitwasn’tforourdreamstheymightaswellburyus。
How’dwestandlivingifitwasn’tforourdreamofimmortality?Andthat’sadreamthat’sBOUNDtocometrue,MistressBlythe。You’llseeyourlittleJoyceagainsomeday。\"
\"Butshewon’tbemybaby,\"saidAnne,withtremblinglips。\"Oh,shemaybe,asLongfellowsays,`afairmaidenclothedwithcelestialgrace’——butshe’llbeastrangertome。\"
\"Godwillmanagebetter’nTHAT,Ibelieve,\"saidCaptainJim。
Theywerebothsilentforalittletime。ThenCaptainJimsaidverysoftly:
\"MistressBlythe,mayItellyouaboutlostMargaret?\"
\"Ofcourse,\"saidAnnegently。Shedidnotknowwho\"lostMargaret\"was,butshefeltthatshewasgoingtoheartheromanceofCaptainJim’slife。
\"I’veoftenwantedtotellyouabouther,\"CaptainJimwenton。
\"Doyouknowwhy,MistressBlythe?It’sbecauseIwantsomebodytorememberandthinkofhersometimeafterI’mgone。Ican’tbearthathernameshouldbeforgottenbyalllivingsouls。AndnownobodyrememberslostMargaretbutme。\"
ThenCaptainJimtoldthestory——anold,oldforgottenstory,foritwasoverfiftyyearssinceMargarethadfallenasleeponedayinherfather’sdoryanddrifted——orsoitwassupposed,fornothingwasevercertainlyknownastoherfate——outofthechannel,beyondthebar,toperishintheblackthundersquallwhichhadcomeupsosuddenlythatlong-agosummerafternoon。ButtoCaptainJimthosefiftyyearswerebutasyesterdaywhenitispast。
\"Iwalkedtheshoreformonthsafterthat,\"hesaidsadly,\"lookingtofindherdear,sweetlittlebody;
buttheseanevergiveherbacktome。ButI’llfindhersometime,MistressBlythe——I’llfindhersometime。
She’swaitingforme。IwishIcouldtellyoujesthowshelooked,butIcan’t。I’veseenafine,silverymisthangingoverthebaratsunrisethatseemedlikeher——andthenagainI’veseenawhitebirchinthewoodsbackyanderthatmademethinkofher。Shehadpale,brownhairandalittlewhite,sweetface,andlongslenderfingerslikeyours,MistressBlythe,onlybrowner,forshewasashoregirl。SometimesIwakeupinthenightandheartheseacallingtomeintheoldway,anditseemsasiflostMargaretcalledinit。
Andwhenthere’sastormandthewavesaresobbingandmoaningIhearherlamentingamongthem。Andwhentheylaughonagaydayit’sHERlaugh——lostMargaret’ssweet,roguish,littlelaugh。Theseatookherfromme,butsomedayI’llfindher。MistressBlythe。Itcan’tkeepusapartforever。\"
\"Iamgladyouhavetoldmeabouther,\"saidAnne。\"I
haveoftenwonderedwhyyouhadlivedallyourlifealone。\"
\"Icouldn’tevercareforanyoneelse。LostMargarettookmyheartwithher——outthere,\"saidtheoldlover,whohadbeenfaithfulforfiftyyearstohisdrownedsweetheart。\"Youwon’tmindifItalkagooddealabouther,willyou,MistressBlythe?It’sapleasuretome——forallthepainwentoutofhermemoryyearsagoandjestleftitsblessing。Iknowyou’llneverforgether,MistressBlythe。Andiftheyears,asIhope,bringotherlittlefolkstoyourhome,I
wantyoutopromisemethatyou’lltellTHEMthestoryoflostMargaret,sothathernamewon’tbeforgottenamonghumankind。\"
CHAPTER21
BARRIERSSWEPTAWAY
\"Anne,\"saidLeslie,breakingabruptlyashortsilence,\"youdon’tknowhowGOODitistobesittingherewithyouagain——working——andtalking——andbeingsilenttogether。\"
Theyweresittingamongtheblue-eyedgrassesonthebankofthebrookinAnne’sgarden。Thewatersparkledandcroonedpastthem;thebirchesthrewdappledshadowsoverthem;rosesbloomedalongthewalks。Thesunwasbeginningtobelow,andtheairwasfullofwovenmusic。Therewasonemusicofthewindinthefirsbehindthehouse,andanotherofthewavesonthebar,andstillanotherfromthedistantbellofthechurchnearwhichthewee,whiteladyslept。Annelovedthatbell,thoughitbroughtsorrowfulthoughtsnow。
ShelookedcuriouslyatLeslie,whohadthrowndownhersewingandspokenwithalackofrestraintthatwasveryunusualwithher。
\"Onthathorriblenightwhenyouweresoill,\"Lesliewenton,\"Ikeptthinkingthatperhapswe’dhavenomoretalksandwalksandWORKStogether。AndI
realisedjustwhatyourfriendshiphadcometomeantome——justwhatYOUmeant——andjustwhatahatefullittlebeastIhadbeen。\"
\"Leslie!Leslie!Ineverallowanyonetocallmyfriendsnames。\"
\"It’strue。That’sexactlywhatIam——ahatefullittlebeast。There’ssomethingI’veGOTtotellyou,Anne。I
supposeitwillmakeyoudespiseme,butIMUSTconfessit。Anne,therehavebeentimesthispastwinterandspringwhenIhaveHATEDyou。\"
\"IKNEWit,\"saidAnnecalmly。
\"YouKNEWit?\"
\"Yes,Isawitinyoureyes。\"
\"Andyetyouwentonlikingmeandbeingmyfriend。\"
\"Well,itwasonlynowandthenyouhatedme,Leslie。
Betweentimesyoulovedme,Ithink。\"
\"Icertainlydid。Butthatotherhorridfeelingwasalwaysthere,spoilingit,backinmyheart。Ikeptitdown——sometimesIforgotit——butsometimesitwouldsurgeupandtakepossessionofme。IhatedyoubecauseIENVIEDyou——oh,Iwassickwithenvyofyouattimes。Youhadadearlittlehome——andlove——andhappiness——andgladdreams——everythingIwanted——andneverhad——andnevercouldhave。Oh,nevercouldhave!
THATwaswhatstung。Iwouldn’thaveenviedyou,ifI
hadhadanyHOPEthatlifewouldeverbedifferentforme。ButIhadn’t——Ihadn’t——anditdidn’tseemFAIR。
Itmademerebellious——andithurtme——andsoIhatedyouattimes。Oh,Iwassoashamedofit——I’mdyingofshamenow——butIcouldn’tconquerit。
Thatnight,whenIwasafraidyoumightn’tlive——I
thoughtIwasgoingtobepunishedformywickedness——andIlovedyousothen。Anne,Anne,I
neverhadanythingtolovesincemymotherdied,exceptDick’solddog——andit’ssodreadfultohavenothingtolove——lifeissoEMPTY——andthere’sNOTHINGworsethanemptiness——andImighthavelovedyousomuch——andthathorriblethinghadspoiledit——\"
Lesliewastremblingandgrowingalmostincoherentwiththeviolenceofheremotion。
\"Don’t,Leslie,\"imploredAnne,\"oh,don’t。I
understand——don’ttalkofitanymore。\"
\"Imust——Imust。WhenIknewyouweregoingtoliveI
vowedthatIwouldtellyouassoonasyouwerewell——thatIwouldn’tgoonacceptingyourfriendshipandcompanionshipwithouttellingyouhowunworthyI
wasofit。AndI’vebeensoafraid——itwouldturnyouagainstme。\"
\"Youneedn’tfearthat,Leslie。\"
\"Oh,I’msoglad——soglad,Anne。\"Leslieclaspedherbrown,work-hardenedhandstightlytogethertostilltheirshaking。\"ButIwanttotellyoueverything,nowI’vebegun。Youdon’trememberthefirsttimeIsawyou,Isuppose——itwasn’tthatnightontheshore——\"
\"No,itwasthenightGilbertandIcamehome。Youweredrivingyourgeesedownthehill。IshouldthinkIDOrememberit!Ithoughtyouweresobeautiful——I
longedforweeksaftertofindoutwhoyouwere。\"
\"IknewwhoYOUwere,althoughIhadneverseeneitherofyoubefore。IhadheardofthenewdoctorandhisbridewhowerecomingtoliveinMissRussell’slittlehouse。I——Ihatedyouthatverymoment,Anne。\"
\"Ifelttheresentmentinyoureyes——thenIdoubted——I
thoughtImustbemistaken——becauseWHYshoulditbe?\"
\"Itwasbecauseyoulookedsohappy。Oh,you’llagreewithmenowthatIAMahatefulbeast——tohateanotherwomanjustbecauseshewashappy,——andwhenherhappinessdidn’ttakeanythingfromme!ThatwaswhyI
neverwenttoseeyou。IknewquitewellIoughttogo——evenoursimpleFourWindscustomsdemandedthat。
ButIcouldn’t。Iusedtowatchyoufrommywindow——I
couldseeyouandyourhusbandstrollingaboutyourgardenintheevening——oryourunningdownthepoplarlanetomeethim。Andithurtme。AndyetinanotherwayIwantedtogoover。Ifeltthat,ifIwerenotsomiserable,IcouldhavelikedyouandfoundinyouwhatI’veneverhadinmylife——anintimate,REALfriendofmyownage。Andthenyourememberthatnightattheshore?YouwereafraidIwouldthinkyoucrazy。Youmusthavethought_I_was。\"
\"No,butIcouldn’tunderstandyou,Leslie。Onemomentyoudrewmetoyou——thenextyoupushedmeback。\"
\"Iwasveryunhappythatevening。Ihadhadahardday。Dickhadbeenvery——veryhardtomanagethatday。
Generallyheisquitegood-naturedandeasilycontrolled,youknow,Anne。Butsomedaysheisverydifferent。Iwassoheartsick——Iranawaytotheshoreassoonashewenttosleep。Itwasmyonlyrefuge。I
sattherethinkingofhowmypoorfatherhadendedhislife,andwonderingifIwouldn’tbedriventoitsomeday。Oh,myheartwasfullofblackthoughts!Andthenyoucamedancingalongthecovelikeaglad,light-heartedchild。I——IhatedyoumorethenthanI’veeverdonesince。AndyetIcravedyourfriendship。Theonefeelingswayedmeonemoment;theotherfeelingthenext。WhenIgothomethatnightI
criedforshameofwhatyoumustthinkofme。Butit’salwaysbeenjustthesamewhenIcameoverhere。
SometimesI’dbehappyandenjoymyvisit。Andatothertimesthathideousfeelingwouldmaritall。
Thereweretimeswheneverythingaboutyouandyourhousehurtme。YouhadsomanydearlittlethingsI
couldn’thave。Doyouknow——it’sridiculous——butI
hadanespecialspiteatthosechinadogsofyours。
ThereweretimeswhenIwantedtocatchupGogandMagogandbangtheirpertblacknosestogether!Oh,yousmile,Anne——butitwasneverfunnytome。IwouldcomehereandseeyouandGilbertwithyourbooksandyourflowers,andyourhouseholdgoods,andyourlittlefamilyjokes——andyourloveforeachothershowingineverylookandword,evenwhenyoudidn’tknowit——andIwouldgohometo——youknowwhatIwenthometo!Oh,Anne,Idon’tbelieveI’mjealousandenviousbynature。WhenIwasagirlIlackedmanythingsmyschoolmateshad,butInevercared——Ineverdislikedthemforit。ButIseemtohavegrownsohateful——\"
\"Leslie,dearest,stopblamingyourself。YouareNOT
hatefulorjealousorenvious。Thelifeyouhavetolivehaswarpedyoualittle,perhaps-butitwouldhaveruinedanaturelessfineandnoblethanyours。I’mlettingyoutellmeallthisbecauseIbelieveit’sbetterforyoutotalkitoutandridyoursoulofit。
Butdon’tblameyourselfanymore。\"
\"Well,Iwon’t。IjustwantedyoutoknowmeasIam。
Thattimeyoutoldmeofyourdarlinghopeforthespringwastheworstofall,Anne。IshallneverforgivemyselfforthewayIbehavedthen。Irepenteditwithtears。AndIDIDputmanyatenderandlovingthoughtofyouintothelittledressImade。ButI
mighthaveknownthatanythingImadecouldonlybeashroudintheend。\"
\"Now,Leslie,thatISbitterandmorbid——putsuchthoughtsaway。
Iwassogladwhenyoubroughtthelittledress;andsinceIhadtoloselittleJoyceIliketothinkthatthedresssheworewastheoneyoumadeforherwhenyouletyourselfloveme。\"
\"Anne,doyouknow,IbelieveIshallalwaysloveyouafterthis。Idon’tthinkI’lleverfeelthatdreadfulwayaboutyouagain。Talkingitalloutseemstohavedoneawaywithit,somehow。It’sverystrange——andI
thoughtitsorealandbitter。It’slikeopeningthedoorofadarkroomtoshowsomehideouscreatureyou’vebelievedtobethere——andwhenthelightstreamsinyourmonsterturnsouttohavebeenjustashadow,vanishingwhenthelightcomes。Itwillnevercomebetweenusagain。\"
\"No,wearerealfriendsnow,Leslie,andIamveryglad。\"
\"Ihopeyouwon’tmisunderstandmeifIsaysomethingelse。Anne,Iwasgrievedtothecoreofmyheartwhenyoulostyourbaby;andifIcouldhavesavedherforyoubycuttingoffoneofmyhandsIwouldhavedoneit。Butyoursorrowhasbroughtusclosertogether。
Yourperfecthappinessisn’tabarrieranylonger。Oh,don’tmisunderstand,dearest——I’mNOTgladthatyourhappinessisn’tperfectanylonger——Icansaythatsincerely;butsinceitisn’t,thereisn’tsuchagulfbetweenus。\"
\"IDOunderstandthat,too,Leslie。Now,we’lljustshutupthepastandforgetwhatwasunpleasantinit。
It’sallgoingtobedifferent。We’rebothoftheraceofJosephnow。Ithinkyou’vebeenwonderful——wonderful。And,Leslie,Ican’thelpbelievingthatlifehassomethinggoodandbeautifulforyouyet。\"
Leslieshookherhead。
\"No,\"shesaiddully。\"Thereisn’tanyhope。Dickwillneverbebetter——andevenifhismemoryweretocomeback——oh,Anne,itwouldbeworse,evenworse,thanitisnow。Thisissomethingyoucan’tunderstand,youhappybride。Anne,didMissCorneliaevertellyouhowIcametomarryDick?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"I’mglad——Iwantedyoutoknow——butIcouldn’tbringmyselftotalkofitifyouhadn’tknown。Anne,itseemstomethateversinceIwastwelveyearsoldlifehasbeenbitter。BeforethatIhadahappychildhood。
Wewereverypoor——butwedidn’tmind。Fatherwassosplendid——socleverandlovingandsympathetic。WewerechumsasfarbackasIcanremember。Andmotherwassosweet。Shewasvery,verybeautiful。Ilooklikeher,butIamnotsobeautifulasshewas。\"
\"MissCorneliasaysyouarefarmorebeautiful。\"
\"Sheismistaken——orprejudiced。IthinkmyfigureIS
better——motherwasslightandbentbyhardwork——butshehadthefaceofanangel。Iusedjusttolookupatherinworship。Weallworshippedher,——fatherandKennethandI。\"
AnnerememberedthatMissCorneliahadgivenheraverydifferentimpressionofLeslie’smother。Buthadnotlovethetruervision?Still,itWASselfishofRoseWesttomakeherdaughtermarryDickMoore。
\"Kennethwasmybrother,\"wentonLeslie。\"Oh,I
can’ttellyouhowIlovedhim。Andhewascruellykilled。Doyouknowhow?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Anne,Isawhislittlefaceasthewheelwentoverhim。Hefellonhisback。Anne——Anne——Icanseeitnow。Ishallalwaysseeit。Anne,allIaskofheavenisthatthatrecollectionshallbeblottedoutofmymemory。OmyGod!\"
\"Leslie,don’tspeakofit。Iknowthestory——don’tgointodetailsthatonlyharrowyoursoulupunavailingly。ItWILLbeblottedout。\"
Afteramoment’sstruggle,Leslieregainedameasureofself-control。
\"Thenfather’shealthgotworseandhegrewdespondent——hismindbecameunbalanced——you’veheardallthat,too?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"AfterthatIhadjustmothertolivefor。ButIwasveryambitious。Imeanttoteachandearnmywaythroughcollege。Imeanttoclimbtotheverytop——oh,Iwon’ttalkofthateither。It’snouse。Youknowwhathappened。Icouldn’tseemydearlittleheart-brokenmother,whohadbeensuchaslaveallherlife,turnedoutofherhome。Ofcourse,Icouldhaveearnedenoughforustoliveon。ButmotherCOULDN’T
leaveherhome。Shehadcomethereasabride——andshehadlovedfatherso——andallhermemorieswerethere。
Evenyet,Anne,whenIthinkthatImadeherlastyearhappyI’mnotsorryforwhatIdid。AsforDick——I
didn’thatehimwhenImarriedhim——Ijustfeltforhimtheindifferent,friendlyfeelingIhadformostofmyschoolmates。Iknewhedranksome——butIhadneverheardthestoryofthegirldownatthefishingcove。
IfIhad,ICOULDN’Thavemarriedhim,evenformother’ssake。Afterwards——IDIDhatehim——butmotherneverknew。Shedied——andthenIwasalone。IwasonlyseventeenandIwasalone。DickhadgoneoffintheFourSisters。Ihopedhewouldn’tbehomeverymuchmore。Theseahadalwaysbeeninhisblood。I
hadnootherhope。Well,CaptainJimbroughthimhome,asyouknow——andthat’sallthereistosay。Youknowmenow,Anne——theworstofme——thebarriersarealldown。Andyoustillwanttobemyfriend?\"
Annelookedupthroughthebirches,atthewhitepaper-lanternofahalfmoondriftingdownwardstothegulfofsunset。Herfacewasverysweet。
\"Iamyourfriendandyouaremine,foralways,\"shesaid。\"SuchafriendasIneverhadbefore。Ihavehadmanydearandbelovedfriends——butthereisasomethinginyou,Leslie,thatIneverfoundinanyoneelse。Youhavemoretooffermeinthatrichnatureofyours,andIhavemoretogiveyouthanIhadinmycarelessgirlhood。Wearebothwomen——andfriendsforever。\"
Theyclaspedhandsandsmiledateachotherthroughthetearsthatfilledthegrayeyesandtheblue。
CHAPTER22
MISSCORNELIAARRANGESMATTERS
GilbertinsistedthatSusanshouldbekeptonatthelittlehouseforthesummer。Anneprotestedatfirst。
\"Lifeherewithjustthetwoofusissosweet,Gilbert。Itspoilsitalittletohaveanyoneelse。
Susanisadearsoul,butsheisanoutsider。Itwon’thurtmetodotheworkhere。\"
\"Youmusttakeyourdoctor’sadvice,\"saidGilbert。
\"There’sanoldproverbtotheeffectthatshoemakers’
wivesgobarefootanddoctors’wivesdieyoung。I
don’tmeanthatitshallbetrueinmyhousehold。YouwillkeepSusanuntiltheoldspringcomesbackintoyourstep,andthoselittlehollowsonyourcheeksfillout。\"
\"Youjusttakeiteasy,Mrs。Doctor,dear,\"saidSusan,comingabruptlyin。\"Haveagoodtimeanddonotworryaboutthepantry。Susanisatthehelm。
Thereisnouseinkeepingadoganddoingyourownbarking。Iamgoingtotakeyourbreakfastuptoyoueverymorning。\"
\"Indeedyouarenot,\"laughedAnne。\"IagreewithMissCorneliathatit’sascandalforawomanwhoisn’tsicktoeatherbreakfastinbed,andalmostjustifiesthemeninanyenormities。\"
\"Oh,Cornelia!\"saidSusan,withineffablecontempt。
\"Ithinkyouhavebettersense,Mrs。Doctor,dear,thantoheedwhatCorneliaBryantsays。Icannotseewhyshemustbealwaysrunningdownthemen,evenifsheisanoldmaid。_I_amanoldmaid,butyouneverhearME
abusingthemen。Ilike’em。IwouldhavemarriedoneifIcould。Isitnotfunnynobodyeveraskedmetomarryhim,Mrs。Doctor,dear?Iamnobeauty,butIamasgood-lookingasmostofthemarriedwomenyousee。
ButIneverhadabeau。Whatdoyousupposeisthereason?\"
\"Itmaybepredestination,\"suggestedAnne,withunearthlysolemnity。
Susannodded。
\"ThatiswhatIhaveoftenthought,Mrs。Doctor,dear,andagreatcomfortitis。IdonotmindnobodywantingmeiftheAlmightydecreeditsoforHisownwisepurposes。Butsometimesdoubtcreepsin,Mrs。
Doctor,dear,andIwonderifmaybetheOldScratchhasnotmoretodowithitthananyoneelse。IcannotfeelresignedTHEN。Butmaybe,\"addedSusan,brighteningup,\"Iwillhaveachancetogetmarriedyet。Ioftenandoftenthinkoftheoldversemyauntusedtorepeat:
ThereneverwasagoosesograybutsometimesoonorlateSomehonestgandercameherwayandtookherforhismate!
Awomancannoteverbesureofnotbeingmarriedtillsheisburied,Mrs。Doctor,dear,andmeanwhileIwillmakeabatchofcherrypies。Inoticethedoctorfavors’em,andIDOlikecookingforamanwhoappreciateshisvictuals。\"
MissCorneliadroppedinthatafternoon,puffingalittle。
\"Idon’tmindtheworldorthedevilmuch,butthefleshDOESratherbotherme,\"sheadmitted。\"Youalwayslookascoolasacucumber,Anne,dearie。DoI
smellcherrypie?IfIdo,askmetostaytotea。
Haven’ttastedacherrypiethissummer。MycherrieshaveallbeenstolenbythosescampsofGilmanboysfromtheGlen。\"
\"Now,now,Cornelia,\"remonstratedCaptainJim,whohadbeenreadingaseanovelinacornerofthelivingroom,\"youshouldn’tsaythataboutthosetwopoor,motherlessGilmanboys,unlessyou’vegotcertainproof。Jestbecausetheirfatherain’tnonetoohonestisn’tanyreasonforcallingthemthieves。It’smorelikelyit’sbeentherobinstookyourcherries。
They’returriblethickthisyear。\"
\"Robins!\"saidMissCorneliadisdainfully。\"Humph!
Two-leggedrobins,believeME!\"
\"Well,mostoftheFourWindsrobinsAREconstructedonthatprinciple,\"saidCaptainJimgravely。
MissCorneliastaredathimforamoment。Thensheleanedbackinherrockerandlaughedlongandungrudgingly。
\"Well,youHAVEgotoneonmeatlast,JimBoyd,I’lladmit。Justlookhowpleasedheis,Anne,dearie,grinninglikeaChessy-cat。Asfortherobins’legsifrobinshavegreat,big,bare,sunburnedlegs,withraggedtrousershangingon’em,suchasIsawupinmycherrytreeonemorningatsunriselastweek,I’llbegtheGilmanboys’pardon。BythetimeIgotdowntheyweregone。Icouldn’tunderstandhowtheyhaddisappearedsoquick,butCaptainJimhasenlightenedme。Theyflewaway,ofcourse。\"
CaptainJimlaughedandwentaway,regretfullydeclininganinvitationtostaytosupperandpartakeofcherrypie。
\"I’monmywaytoseeLeslieandaskherifshe’lltakeaboarder,\"MissCorneliaresumed。\"I’daletteryesterdayfromaMrs。DalyinToronto,whoboardedaspellwithmetwoyearsago。Shewantedmetotakeafriendofhersforthesummer。HisnameisOwenFord,andhe’sanewspaperman,anditseemshe’sagrandsonoftheschoolmasterwhobuiltthishouse。JohnSelwyn’soldestdaughtermarriedanOntariomannamedFord,andthisisherson。Hewantstoseetheoldplacehisgrandparentslivedin。Hehadabadspelloftyphoidinthespringandhasn’tgotrightlyoverit,sohisdoctorhasorderedhimtothesea。Hedoesn’twanttogotothehotel——hejustwantsaquiethomeplace。Ican’ttakehim,forIhavetobeawayinAugust。I’vebeenappointedadelegatetotheW。F。M。S。
conventioninKingsportandI’mgoing。Idon’tknowwhetherLeslie’llwanttobebotheredwithhim,either,butthere’snooneelse。Ifshecan’ttakehimhe’llhavetogoovertheharbor。\"
\"Whenyou’veseenhercomebackandhelpuseatourcherrypies,\"saidAnne。\"BringLeslieandDick,too,iftheycancome。Andsoyou’regoingtoKingsport?
Whatanicetimeyouwillhave。Imustgiveyoualettertoafriendofminethere——Mrs。JonasBlake。\"
\"I’veprevailedonMrs。ThomasHolttogowithme,\"
saidMissCorneliacomplacently。\"It’stimeshehadalittleholiday,believeME。Shehasjustaboutworkedherselftodeath。TomHoltcancrochetbeautifully,buthecan’tmakealivingforhisfamily。Heneverseemstobeabletogetupearlyenoughtodoanywork,butInoticehecanalwaysgetupearlytogofishing。
Isn’tthatlikeaman?\"
Annesmiled。ShehadlearnedtodiscountlargelyMissCornelia’sopinionsoftheFourWindsmen。Otherwiseshemusthavebelievedthemthemosthopelessassortmentofreprobatesandne’er-do-wellsintheworld,withveritableslavesandmartyrsforwives。
ThisparticularTomHolt,forexample,sheknewtobeakindhusband,amuchlovedfather,andanexcellentneighbor。Ifhewereratherinclinedtobelazy,likingbetterthefishinghehadbeenbornforthanthefarminghehadnot,andifhehadaharmlesseccentricityfordoingfancywork,nobodysaveMissCorneliaseemedtoholditagainsthim。Hiswifewasa\"hustler,\"whogloriedinhustling;hisfamilygotacomfortablelivingoffthefarm;andhisstrappingsonsanddaughters,inheritingtheirmother’senergy,wereallinafairwaytodowellintheworld。TherewasnotahappierhouseholdinGlenSt。MarythantheHolts’。
MissCorneliareturnedsatisfiedfromthehouseupthebrook。
\"Leslie’sgoingtotakehim,\"sheannounced。\"Shejumpedatthechance。Shewantstomakealittlemoneytoshingletheroofofherhousethisfall,andshedidn’tknowhowshewasgoingtomanageit。IexpectCaptainJim’llbemorethaninterestedwhenhehearsthatagrandsonoftheSelwyns’iscominghere。Lesliesaidtotellyoushehankeredaftercherrypie,butshecouldn’tcometoteabecauseshehastogoandhuntupherturkeys。They’vestrayedaway。Butshesaid,iftherewasapieceleft,foryoutoputitinthepantryandshe’drunoverinthecat’slight,whenprowling’sinorder,togetit。Youdon’tknow,Anne,dearie,whatgooditdidmyhearttohearLesliesendyouamessagelikethat,laughinglikesheusedtolongago。
There’sagreatchangecomeoverherlately。Shelaughsandjokeslikeagirl,andfromhertalkI
gathershe’shererealoften。\"
\"Everyday——orelseI’moverthere,\"saidAnne。\"I
don’tknowwhatI’ddowithoutLeslie,especiallyjustnowwhenGilbertissobusy。He’shardlyeverhomeexceptforafewhoursintheweesma’s。He’sreallyworkinghimselftodeath。Somanyoftheover-harborpeoplesendforhimnow。\"
\"Theymightbetterbecontentwiththeirowndoctor,\"
saidMissCornelia。\"ThoughtobesureIcan’tblamethem,forhe’saMethodist。EversinceDr。BlythebroughtMrs。Allonbyroundfolksthinkhecanraisethedead。IbelieveDr。Daveisamitejealous——justlikeaman。HethinksDr。Blythehastoomanynew-fanglednotions!`Well,’Isaystohim,`itwasanew-fanglednotionsavedRhodaAllonby。IfYOU’Dbeenattendinghershe’dhavedied,andhadatombstonesayingithadpleasedGodtotakeheraway。’Oh,IDOliketospeakmymindtoDr。Dave!He’sbossedtheGlenforyears,andhethinkshe’sforgottenmorethanotherpeopleeverknew。Speakingofdoctors,IwishDr。Blythe’drunoverandseetothatboilonDickMoore’sneck。
It’sgettingpastLeslie’sskill。I’msureIdon’tknowwhatDickMoorewantstostartinhavingboilsfor——asifhewasn’tenoughtroublewithoutthat!\"
\"Doyouknow,Dickhastakenquiteafancytome,\"
saidAnne。\"Hefollowsmeroundlikeadog,andsmileslikeapleasedchildwhenInoticehim。\"
\"Doesitmakeyoucreepy?\"
\"Notatall。IratherlikepoorDickMoore。Heseemssopitifulandappealing,somehow。\"
\"Youwouldn’tthinkhimveryappealingifyou’dseehimonhiscantankerousdays,believeME。ButI’mgladyoudon’tmindhim——it’sallthenicerforLeslie。She’llhavemoretodowhenherboardercomes。Ihopehe’llbeadecentcreature。You’llprobablylikehim——he’sawriter。\"
\"Iwonderwhypeoplesocommonlysupposethatiftwoindividualsarebothwriterstheymustthereforebehugelycongenial,\"saidAnne,ratherscornfully。
\"Nobodywouldexpecttwoblacksmithstobeviolentlyattractedtowardeachothermerelybecausetheywerebothblacksmiths。\"
Nevertheless,shelookedforwardtotheadventofOwenFordwithapleasantsenseofexpectation。IfhewereyoungandlikeablehemightproveaverypleasantadditiontosocietyinFourWinds。Thelatch-stringofthelittlehousewasalwaysoutfortheraceofJoseph。