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  Babalatchimovedaboutintheshadows,whisperingtoanindistinctformortwothatflittedaboutatthefarendofthehut。WithoutstirringLingardglancedsideways,andcaughtsightofmuffled-uphumanshapesthathoveredforamomentneartheedgeoflightandretreatedsuddenlybackintothedarkness。

  Babalatchiapproached,andsatatLingard’sfeetonarolled-upbundleofmats。

  \"Willyoueatriceanddrinksagueir?\"hesaid。\"Ihavewakedupmyhousehold。\"

  \"Myfriend,\"saidLingard,withoutlookingathim,\"whenIcometoseeLakamba,oranyofLakamba’sservants,Iamneverhungryandneverthirsty。Tau!Savee!Never!DoyouthinkIamdevoidofreason?Thatthereisnothingthere?\"

  Hesatup,and,fixingabruptlyhiseyesonBabalatchi,tappedhisownforeheadsignificantly。

  \"Tse!Tse!Tse!Howcanyoutalklikethat,Tuan!\"exclaimedBabalatchi,inahorrifiedtone。

  \"ItalkasIthink。Ihavelivedmanyyears,\"saidLingard,stretchinghisarmnegligentlytotakeupthegun,whichhebegantoexamineknowingly,cockingit,andeasingdownthehammerseveraltimes。\"Thisisgood。Matarammake。Old,too,\"hewenton。

  \"Hai!\"brokeinBabalatchi,eagerly。\"IgotitwhenIwasyoung。

  HewasanArutrader,amanwithabigstomachandaloudvoice,andbrave——verybrave。Whenwecameupwithhisprauinthegreymorning,hestoodaftshoutingtohismenandfiredthisgunatusonce。Onlyonce!\"……Hepaused,laughedsoftly,andwentoninalow,dreamyvoice。\"Inthegreymorningwecameup:

  fortysilentmeninaswiftSuluprau;andwhenthesunwassohigh\"——herehehelduphishandsaboutthreefeetapart——\"whenthesunwasonlysohigh,Tuan,ourworkwasdone——andtherewasafeastreadyforthefishesofthesea。\"

  \"Aye!aye!\"mutteredLingard,noddinghisheadslowly。\"Isee。

  Youshouldnotletitgetrustylikethis,\"headded。

  Heletthegunfallbetweenhisknees,andmovingbackonhisseat,leanedhisheadagainstthewallofthehut,crossinghisarmsonhisbreast。

  \"Agoodgun,\"wentonBabalatchi。\"Carryfarandtrue。Betterthanthis——there。\"

  WiththetipsofhisfingershetouchedgentlythebuttofarevolverpeepingoutoftherightpocketofLingard’swhitejacket。

  \"Takeyourhandoffthat,\"saidLingardsharply,butinagood-humouredtoneandwithoutmakingtheslightestmovement。

  Babalatchismiledandhitchedhisseatalittlefurtheroff。

  Forsometimetheysatinsilence。Lingard,withhisheadtiltedback,lookeddownwardswithloweredeyelidsatBabalatchi,whowastracinginvisiblelineswithhisfingeronthematbetweenhisfeet。Outside,theycouldhearAliandtheotherboatmenchatteringandlaughingroundthefiretheyhadlightedinthebiganddesertedcourtyard。

  \"Well,whataboutthatwhiteman?\"saidLingard,quietly。

  ItseemedasifBabalatchihadnotheardthequestion。Hewentontracingelaboratepatternsonthefloorforagoodwhile。

  Lingardwaitedmotionless。AtlasttheMalayliftedhishead。

  \"Hai!Thewhiteman。Iknow!\"hemurmuredabsently。\"Thiswhitemanoranother……Tuan,\"hesaidaloudwithunexpectedanimation,\"youareamanofthesea?\"

  \"Youknowme。Whyask?\"saidLingard,inalowtone。

  \"Yes。Amanofthesea——evenasweare。AtrueOrangLaut,\"

  wentonBabalatchi,thoughtfully,\"notliketherestofthewhitemen。\"

  \"Iamlikeotherwhites,anddonotwishtospeakmanywordswhenthetruthisshort。IcameheretoseethewhitemanthathelpedLakambaagainstPatalolo,whoismyfriend。Showmewherethatwhitemanlives;Iwanthimtohearmytalk。\"

  \"Talkonly?Tuan!Whyhurry?Thenightislonganddeathisswift——asyououghttoknow;youwhohavedealtittosomanyofmypeople。ManyyearsagoIhavefacedyou,armsinhand。Doyounotremember?ItwasinCarimata——farfromhere。\"

  \"Icannotremembereveryvagabondthatcameinmyway,\"protestedLingard,seriously。

  \"Hai!Hai!\"continuedBabalatchi,unmovedanddreamy。\"Manyyearsago。Thenallthis\"——andlookingupsuddenlyatLingard’sbeard,heflourishedhisfingersbelowhisownbeardlesschin——\"thenallthiswaslikegoldinsunlight,nowitislikethefoamofanangrysea。\"

  \"Maybe,maybe,\"saidLingard,patiently,payingtheinvoluntarytributeofafaintsightothememoriesofthepastevokedbyBabalatchi’swords。

  HehadbeenlivingwithMalayssolongandsoclosethattheextremedeliberationanddeviousnessoftheirmentalproceedingshadceasedtoirritatehimmuch。To-night,perhaps,hewaslesspronetoimpatiencethanever。Hewasdisposed,ifnottolistentoBabalatchi,thentolethimtalk。Itwasevidenttohimthatthemanhadsomethingtosay,andhehopedthatfromthetalkarayoflightwouldshootthroughthethickblacknessofinexplicabletreachery,toshowhimclearly——ifonlyforasecond——themanuponwhomhewouldhavetoexecutetheverdictofjustice。Justiceonly!Nothingwasfurtherfromhisthoughtsthansuchanuselessthingasrevenge。Justiceonly。Itwashisdutythatjusticeshouldbedone——andbyhisownhand。Hedidnotliketothinkhow。Tohim,astoBabalatchi,itseemedthatthenightwouldbelongenoughfortheworkhehadtodo。Buthedidnotdefinetohimselfthenatureofthework,andhesatverystill,andwillinglydilatory,underthefearsomeoppressionofhiscall。Whatwasthegoodtothinkaboutit?Itwasinevitable,anditstimewasnear。Yethecouldnotcommandhismemoriesthatcamecrowdingroundhiminthatevil-smellinghut,whileBabalatchitalkedoninaflowingmonotone,nothingofhimmovingbutthelips,intheartificiallyinanimatedface。

  Lingard,likeananchoredshipthathadbrokenhersheer,dartedabouthereandthereontherapidtideofhisrecollections。Thesubduedsoundofsoftwordsrangaroundhim,buthisthoughtswerelost,nowinthecontemplationofthepastsweetnessandstrifeofCarimatadays,nowintheuneasywonderatthefailureofhisjudgment;atthefatalblindnessofaccidentthathadcausedhim,manyyearsago,torescueahalf-starvedrunawayfromaDutchshipinSamarangroads。Howhehadlikedtheman:hisassurance,hispush,hisdesiretogeton,hisconceitedgood-humourandhisselfisheloquence。Hehadlikedhisveryfaults——thosefaultsthathadsomany,tohim,sympatheticsides。

  Andhehadalwaysdealtfairlybyhimfromtheverybeginning;

  andhewoulddealfairlybyhimnow——totheveryend。ThislastthoughtdarkenedLingard’sfeatureswitharesponsiveandmenacingfrown。Thedoerofjusticesatwithcompressedlipsandaheavyheart,whileinthecalmdarknessoutsidethesilentworldseemedtobewaitingbreathlesslyforthatjusticeheheldinhishand——inhisstronghand:——readytostrike——reluctanttomove。

  CHAPTERTWO

  Babalatchiceasedspeaking。Lingardshiftedhisfeetalittle,uncrossedhisarms,andshookhisheadslowly。ThenarrativeoftheeventsinSambir,relatedfromthepointofviewoftheastutestatesman,thesenseofwhichhadbeencaughthereandtherebyhisinattentiveears,hadbeenyetlikeathreadtoguidehimoutofthesombrelabyrinthofhisthoughts;andnowhehadcometotheendofit,outofthetangledpastintothepressingnecessitiesofthepresent。Withthepalmsofhishandsonhisknees,hiselbowssquaredout,helookeddownonBabalatchiwhosatinastiffattitude,inexpressiveandmuteasatalkingdollthemechanismofwhichhadatlengthrundown。

  \"Youpeopledidallthis,\"saidLingardatlast,\"andyouwillbesorryforitbeforethedrywindbeginstoblowagain。Abdulla’svoicewillbringtheDutchrulehere。\"

  Babalatchiwavedhishandtowardsthedarkdoorway。

  \"Thereareforeststhere。Lakambarulesthelandnow。Tellme,Tuan,doyouthinkthebigtreesknowthenameoftheruler?No。

  Theyareborn,theygrow,theyliveandtheydie——yetknownot,feelnot。Itistheirland。\"

  \"Evenabigtreemaybekilledbyasmallaxe,\"saidLingard,drily。\"And,remember,myone-eyedfriend,thataxesaremadebywhitehands。Youwillsoonfindthatout,sinceyouhavehoistedtheflagoftheDutch。\"

  \"Ay——wa!\"saidBabalatchi,slowly。\"Itiswrittenthattheearthbelongstothosewhohavefairskinsandhardbutfoolishhearts。

  Thefartherawayisthemaster,theeasieritisfortheslave,Tuan!Youweretoonear。Yourvoiceranginourearsalways。

  Nowitisnotgoingtobeso。ThegreatRajahinBataviaisstrong,buthemaybedeceived。Hemustspeakveryloudtobeheardhere。Butifwehaveneedtoshout,thenhemusthearthemanyvoicesthatcallforprotection。Heisbutawhiteman。\"

  \"IfIeverspoketoPatalolo,likeanelderbrother,itwasforyourgood——forthegoodofall,\"saidLingardwithgreatearnestness。

  \"Thisisawhiteman’stalk,\"exclaimedBabalatchi,withbitterexultation。\"Iknowyou。Thatishowyoualltalkwhileyouloadyourgunsandsharpenyourswords;andwhenyouareready,thentothosewhoareweakyousay:’Obeymeandbehappy,ordie!Youarestrange,youwhitemen。Youthinkitisonlyyourwisdomandyourvirtueandyourhappinessthataretrue。Youarestrongerthanthewildbeasts,butnotsowise。Ablacktigerknowswhenheisnothungry——youdonot。Heknowsthedifferencebetweenhimselfandthosethatcanspeak;youdonotunderstandthedifferencebetweenyourselvesandus——whoaremen。Youarewiseandgreat——andyoushallalwaysbefools。\"

  Hethrewupbothhishands,stirringthesleepingcloudofsmokethathungabovehishead,andbroughttheopenpalmsontheflimsyflooroneachsideofhisoutstretchedlegs。Thewholehutshook。Lingardlookedattheexcitedstatesmancuriously。

  \"Apa!Apa!What’sthematter?\"hemurmured,soothingly。\"WhomdidIkillhere?Wherearemyguns?WhathaveIdone?WhathaveIeatenup?\"

  Babalatchicalmeddown,andspokewithstudiedcourtesy。

  \"You,Tuan,areofthesea,andmorelikewhatweare。ThereforeIspeaktoyouallthewordsthatareinmyheart……OnlyoncehastheseabeenstrongerthantheRajahofthesea。\"

  \"Youknowit;doyou?\"saidLingard,withpainedsharpness。

  \"Hai!Wehaveheardaboutyourship——andsomerejoiced。NotI。

  Amongstthewhites,whoaredevils,youareaman。\"

  \"Trimakassi!Igiveyouthanks,\"saidLingard,gravely。

  Babalatchilookeddownwithabashfulsmile,buthisfacebecamesaddeneddirectly,andwhenhespokeagainitwasinamournfultone。

  \"Hadyoucomeadaysooner,Tuan,youwouldhaveseenanenemydie。Youwouldhaveseenhimdiepoor,blind,unhappy——withnosontodighisgraveandspeakofhiswisdomandcourage。Yes;

  youwouldhaveseenthemanthatfoughtyouinCarimatamanyyearsago,diealone——butforonefriend。Agreatsighttoyou。\"

  \"Nottome,\"answeredLingard。\"Ididnotevenrememberhimtillyouspokehisnamejustnow。Youdonotunderstandus。Wefight,wevanquish——andweforget。\"

  \"True,true,\"saidBabalatchi,withpoliteirony;\"youwhitesaresogreatthatyoudisdaintorememberyourenemies。No!No!\"hewenton,inthesametone,\"youhavesomuchmercyforus,thatthereisnoroomforanyremembrance。Oh,youaregreatandgood!Butitisinmymindthatamongstyourselvesyouknowhowtoremember。Isitnotso,Tuan?\"

  Lingardsaidnothing。Hisshouldersmovedimperceptibly。Helaidhisgunacrosshiskneesandstaredattheflintlockabsently。

  \"Yes,\"wentonBabalatchi,fallingagainintoamournfulmood,\"yes,hediedindarkness。Isatbyhissideandheldhishand,buthecouldnotseethefaceofhimwhowatchedthefaintbreathonhislips。She,whomhehadcursedbecauseofthewhiteman,wastheretoo,andweptwithcoveredface。Thewhitemanwalkedaboutthecourtyardmakingmanynoises。Nowandthenhewouldcometothedoorwayandglareatuswhomourned。Hestaredwithwickedeyes,andthenIwasgladthathewhowasdyingwasblind。

  Thisistruetalk。Iwasglad;forawhiteman’seyesarenotgoodtoseewhenthedevilthatliveswithinislookingoutthroughthem。\"

  \"Devil!Hey?\"saidLingard,halfaloudtohimself,asifstruckwiththeobviousnessofsomenovelidea。Babalatchiwenton:

  \"Atthefirsthourofthemorninghesatup——hesoweak——andsaidplainlysomewordsthatwerenotmeantforhumanears。Iheldhishandtightly,butitwastimefortheleaderofbravementogoamongsttheFaithfulwhoarehappy。Theyofmyhouseholdbroughtawhitesheet,andIbegantodigagraveinthehutinwhichhedied。Shemournedaloud。Thewhitemancametothedoorwayandshouted。Hewasangry。Angrywithherbecauseshebeatherbreast,andtoreherhair,andmournedwithshrillcriesasawomanshould。DoyouunderstandwhatIsay,Tuan?Thatwhitemancameinsidethehutwithgreatfury,andtookherbytheshoulder,anddraggedherout。Yes,Tuan。IsawOmardead,andIsawheratthefeetofthatwhitedogwhohasdeceivedme。

  Isawhisfacegrey,likethecoldmistofthemorning;IsawhispaleeyeslookingdownatOmar’sdaughterbeatingherheadonthegroundathisfeet。AtthefeetofhimwhoisAbdulla’sslave。

  Yes,helivesbyAbdulla’swill。ThatiswhyIheldmyhandwhileIsawallthis。IheldmyhandbecausewearenowundertheflagoftheOrangBlanda,andAbdullacanspeakintotheearsofthegreat。Wemustnothaveanytroublewithwhitemen。

  Abdullahasspoken——andImustobey。\"

  \"That’sit,isit?\"growledLingardinhismoustache。TheninMalay,\"Itseemsthatyouareangry,OBabalatchi!\"

  \"No;Iamnotangry,Tuan,\"answeredBabalatchi,descendingfromtheinsecureheightsofhisindignationintotheinsinceredepthsofsafehumility。\"Iamnotangry。WhatamItobeangry?IamonlyanOrangLaut,andIhavefledbeforeyourpeoplemanytimes。Servantofthisone——protectedofanother;Ihavegivenmycounselhereandthereforahandfulofrice。WhatamI,tobeangrywithawhiteman?Whatisangerwithoutthepowertostrike?Butyouwhiteshavetakenall:theland,thesea,andthepowertostrike!Andthereisnothingleftforusintheislandsbutyourwhitemen’sjustice;yourgreatjusticethatknowsnotanger。\"

  Hegotupandstoodforamomentinthedoorway,sniffingthehotairofthecourtyard,thenturnedbackandleanedagainstthestayoftheridgepole,facingLingardwhokepthisseatonthechest。Thetorch,consumednearlytotheend,burnednoisily。

  Smallexplosionstookplaceintheheartoftheflame,drivingthroughitssmokyblazestringsofhard,roundpuffsofwhitesmoke,nobiggerthanpeas,whichrolledoutofdoorsinthefaintdraughtthatcamefrominvisiblecracksofthebamboowalls。Thepungenttaintofuncleanthingsbelowandaboutthehutgrewheavier,weighingdownLingard’sresolutionandhisthoughtsinanirresistiblenumbnessofthebrain。Hethoughtdrowsilyofhimselfandofthatmanwhowantedtoseehim——whowaitedtoseehim。Whowaited!Nightandday。Waited……A

  spitefulbutvaporousideafloatedthroughhisbrainthatsuchwaitingcouldnotbeverypleasanttothefellow。Well,lethimwait。Hewouldseehimsoonenough。Andforhowlong?Fiveseconds——fiveminutes——saynothing——saysomething。What?No!

  Justgivehimtimetotakeonegoodlook,andthen……

  SuddenlyBabalatchibegantospeakinasoftvoice。Lingardblinked,clearedhisthroat——satupstraight。

  \"Youknowallnow,Tuan。LakambadwellsinthestockadedhouseofPatalolo;Abdullahasbeguntobuildgodownsofplankandstone;andnowthatOmarisdead,ImyselfshalldepartfromthisplaceandlivewithLakambaandspeakinhisear。Ihaveservedmany。Thebestofthemallsleepsinthegroundinawhitesheet,withnothingtomarkhisgravebuttheashesofthehutinwhichhedied。Yes,Tuan!thewhitemandestroyedithimself。

  Withablazingbrandinhishandhestrodearound,shoutingtometocomeout——shoutingtome,whowasthrowingearthonthebodyofagreatleader。Yes;swearingtomebythenameofyourGodandoursthathewouldburnmeandherinthereifwedidnotmakehaste……Hai!Thewhitemenareverymasterfulandwise。Idraggedheroutquickly!\"

  \"Oh,damnit!\"exclaimedLingard——thenwentoninMalay,speakingearnestly。\"Listen。Thatmanisnotlikeotherwhitemen。Youknowheisnot。Heisnotamanatall。Heis……Idon’tknow。\"

  Babalatchiliftedhishanddeprecatingly。Hiseyetwinkled,andhisred-stainedbiglips,partedbyanexpressionlessgrin,uncoveredastumpyrowofblackteethfiledevenlytothegums。

  \"Hai!Hai!Notlikeyou。Notlikeyou,\"hesaid,increasingthesoftnessofhistonesashenearedtheobjectuppermostinhismindduringthatmuch-desiredinterview。\"Notlikeyou,Tuan,whoarelikeourselves,onlywiserandstronger。Yethe,also,isfullofgreatcunning,andspeaksofyouwithoutanyrespect,afterthemannerofwhitemenwhentheytalkofoneanother。\"

  Lingardleapedinhisseatasifhehadbeenprodded。

  \"Hespeaks!Whatdoeshesay?\"heshouted。

  \"Nay,Tuan,\"protestedthecomposedBabalatchi;\"whatmattershistalkifheisnotaman?Iamnothingbeforeyou——whyshouldI

  repeatwordsofonewhitemanaboutanother?HedidboasttoAbdullaofhavinglearnedmuchfromyourwisdominyearspast。

  OtherwordsIhaveforgotten。Indeed,Tuan,Ihave……\"

  LingardcutshortBabalatchi’sprotestationsbyacontemptuouswaveofthehandandreseatedhimselfwithdignity。

  \"Ishallgo,\"saidBabalatchi,\"andthewhitemanwillremainhere,alonewiththespiritofthedeadandwithherwhohasbeenthedelightofhisheart。He,beingwhite,cannothearthevoiceofthosethatdied……Tellme,Tuan,\"hewenton,lookingatLingardwithcuriosity——\"tellme,Tuan,doyouwhitepeopleeverhearthevoicesoftheinvisibleones?\"

  \"Wedonot,\"answeredLingard,\"becausethosethatwecannotseedonotspeak。\"

  \"Neverspeak!Andnevercomplainwithsoundsthatarenotwords?\"exclaimedBabalatchi,doubtingly。\"Itmaybeso——oryourearsaredull。WeMalayshearmanysoundsneartheplaceswheremenareburied。To-nightIheard……Yes,evenIhaveheard……Idonotwanttohearanymore,\"headded,nervously。

  \"PerhapsIwaswrongwhenI……TherearethingsIregret。

  Thetroublewasheavyinhisheartwhenhedied。SometimesI

  thinkIwaswrong……butIdonotwanttohearthecomplaintofinvisiblelips。ThereforeIgo,Tuan。Lettheunquietspiritspeaktohisenemythewhitemanwhoknowsnotfear,orlove,ormercy——knowsnothingbutcontemptandviolence。Ihavebeenwrong!Ihave!Hai!Hai!\"

  Hestoodforawhilewithhiselbowinthepalmofhislefthand,thefingersoftheotheroverhislipsasiftostifletheexpressionofinconvenientremorse;then,afterglancingatthetorch,burntoutnearlytoitsend,hemovedtowardsthewallbythechest,fumbledaboutthereandsuddenlyflungopenalargeshutterofattapswoveninalightframeworkofsticks。Lingardswunghislegsquicklyroundthecornerofhisseat。

  \"Hallo!\"hesaid,surprised。

  Thecloudofsmokestirred,andaslowwispcurledoutthroughthenewopening。Thetorchflickered,hissed,andwentout,theglowingendfallingonthemat,whenceBabalatchisnatcheditupandtosseditoutsidethroughtheopensquare。Itdescribedavanishingcurveofredlight,andlaybelow,shiningfeeblyinthevastdarkness。Babalatchiremainedwithhisarmstretchedoutintotheemptynight。

  \"There,\"hesaid,\"youcanseethewhiteman’scourtyard,Tuan,andhishouse。\"

  \"Icanseenothing,\"answeredLingard,puttinghisheadthroughtheshutter-hole。\"It’stoodark。\"

  \"Wait,Tuan,\"urgedBabalatchi。\"Youhavebeenlookinglongattheburningtorch。Youwillsoonsee。Mindthegun,Tuan。Itisloaded。\"

  \"Thereisnoflintinit。Youcouldnotfindafire-stoneforahundredmilesroundthisspot,\"saidLingard,testily。\"Foolishthingtoloadthatgun。\"

  \"Ihaveastone。IhaditfromamanwiseandpiousthatlivesinMenangKabau。Averypiousman——verygoodfire。Hespokewordsoverthatstonethatmakeitssparksgood。Andthegunisgood——carriesstraightandfar。Wouldcarryfromheretothedoorofthewhiteman’shouse,Ibelieve,Tuan。\"

  \"Tidaapa。Nevermindyourgun,\"mutteredLingard,peeringintotheformlessdarkness。\"Isthatthehouse——thatblackthingoverthere?\"heasked。

  \"Yes,\"answeredBabalatchi;\"thatishishouse。HelivestherebythewillofAbdulla,andshalllivetheretill……Fromwhereyoustand,Tuan,youcanlookoverthefenceandacrossthecourtyardstraightatthedoor——atthedoorfromwhichhecomesouteverymorning,lookinglikeamanthathadseenJehannuminhissleep。\"

  Lingarddrewhisheadin。Babalatchitouchedhisshoulderwithagropinghand。

  \"Waitalittle,Tuan。Sitstill。Themorningisnotfaroffnow——amorningwithoutsunafteranightwithoutstars。ButtherewillbelightenoughtoseethemanwhosaidnotmanydaysagothathealonehasmadeyoulessthanachildinSambir。\"

  Hefeltaslighttremorunderhishand,buttookitoffdirectlyandbeganfeelingalloverthelidofthechest,behindLingard’sback,forthegun。

  \"Whatareyouat?\"saidLingard,impatiently。\"Youdoworryaboutthatrottengun。Youhadbettergetalight。\"

  \"Alight!Itellyou,Tuan,thatthelightofheavenisverynear,\"saidBabalatchi,whohadnowobtainedpossessionoftheobjectofhissolicitude,andgraspingitstronglybyitslongbarrel,groundedthestockathisfeet。

  \"Perhapsitisnear,\"saidLingard,leaningbothhiselbowsonthelowercross-pieceoftheprimitivewindowandlookingout。

  \"Itisveryblackoutsideyet,\"heremarkedcarelessly。

  Babalatchifidgetedabout。

  \"Itisnotgoodforyoutositwhereyoumaybeseen,\"hemuttered。

  \"Whynot?\"askedLingard。

  \"Thewhitemansleeps,itistrue,\"explainedBabalatchi,softly;

  \"yethemaycomeoutearly,andhehasarms。\"

  \"Ah!hehasarms?\"saidLingard。

  \"Yes;ashortgunthatfiresmanytimes——likeyourshere。

  Abdullahadtogiveittohim。\"

  LingardheardBabalatchi’swords,butmadenomovement。Totheoldadventurertheideathatfirearmscouldbedangerousinotherhandsthanhisowndidnotoccurreadily,andcertainlynotinconnectionwithWillems。Hewassobusywiththethoughtsaboutwhatheconsideredhisownsacredduty,thathecouldnotgiveanyconsiderationtotheprobableactionsofthemanofwhomhethought——asonemaythinkofanexecutedcriminal——withwonderingindignationtemperedbyscornfulpity。Whilehesatstaringintothedarkness,thateveryminutegrewthinnerbeforehispensiveeyes,likeadispersingmist,Willemsappearedtohimasafigurebelongingalreadywhollytothepast——afigurethatcouldcomeinnowayintohislifeagain。Hehadmadeuphismind,andthethingwasaswellasdone。Inhiswearythoughtshehadclosedthisfatal,inexplicable,andhorribleepisodeinhislife。Theworsthadhappened。Thecomingdayswouldseetheretribution。

  Hehadremovedanenemyonceortwicebefore,outofhispath;hehadpaidoffsomeveryheavyscoresagoodmanytimes。CaptainTomhadbeenagoodfriendtomany:butitwasgenerallyunderstood,fromHonoluluroundabouttoDiegoSuarez,thatCaptainTom’senmitywasrathermorethananymansingle-handedcouldeasilymanage。Hewouldnot,ashesaidoften,hurtaflyaslongastheflylefthimalone;yetamandoesnotliveforyearsbeyondthepaleofcivilizedlawswithoutevolvingforhimselfsomequeernotionsofjustice。Nobodyofthoseheknewhadevercaredtopointouttohimtheerrorsofhisconceptions。

  Itwasnotworthanybody’swhiletoruncountertoLingard’sideasofthefitnessofthings——thatfactwasacquiredtothefloatingwisdomoftheSouthSeas,oftheEasternArchipelago,andwasnowherebetterunderstoodthaninout-of-the-waynooksoftheworld;inthosenookswhichhefilled,unresistedandmasterful,withtheechoesofhisnoisypresence。Thereisnotmuchuseinarguingwithamanwhoboastsofneverhavingregrettedasingleactionofhislife,whoseanswertoamildcriticismisagood-naturedshout——\"Youknownothingaboutit。I

  woulddoitagain。Yes,sir!\"Hisassociatesandhisacquaintancesacceptedhim,hisopinions,hisactionslikethingspreordainedandunchangeable;lookeduponhismany-sidedmanifestationswithpassivewondernotunmixedwiththatadmirationwhichisonlytherightfuldueofasuccessfulman。

  Butnobodyhadeverseenhiminthemoodhewasinnow。NobodyhadseenLingarddoubtfulandgivingwaytodoubt,unabletomakeuphismindandunwillingtoact;Lingardtimidandhesitatingoneminute,angryyetinactivethenext;Lingardpuzzledinaword,becauseconfrontedwithasituationthatdiscomposedhimbyitsunprovokedmalevolence,byitsghastlyinjustice,thattohisroughbutunsophisticatedpalatetasteddistinctlyofsulphurousfumesfromthedeepesthell。

  Thesmoothdarknessfillingtheshutter-holegrewpalerandbecameblotchywithill-definedshapes,asifanewuniversewasbeingevolvedoutofsombrechaos。Thenoutlinescameout,definingformswithoutanydetails,indicatinghereatree,thereabush;ablackbeltofforestfaroff;thestraightlinesofahouse,theridgeofahighroofnearby。Insidethehut,Babalatchi,wholatelyhadbeenonlyapersuasivevoice,becameahumanshapeleaningitschinimprudentlyonthemuzzleofagunandrollinganuneasyeyeoverthereappearingworld。Thedaycamerapidly,dismalandoppressedbythefogoftheriverandbytheheavyvapoursofthesky——adaywithoutcolourandwithoutsunshine:incomplete,disappointing,andsad。

  BabalatchitwitchedgentlyLingard’ssleeve,andwhentheoldseamanhadlifteduphisheadinterrogatively,hestretchedoutanarmandapointingforefingertowardsWillems’house,nowplainlyvisibletotherightandbeyondthebigtreeofthecourtyard。

  \"Look,Tuan!\"hesaid。\"Helivesthere。Thatisthedoor——hisdoor。Throughithewillappearsoon,withhishairindisorderandhismouthfullofcurses。Thatisso。Heisawhiteman,andneversatisfied。Itisinmymindheisangryeveninhissleep。Adangerousman。AsTuanmayobserve,\"hewenton,obsequiously,\"hisdoorfacesthisopening,whereyoucondescendtosit,whichisconcealedfromalleyes。Facesit——straight——andnotfar。Observe,Tuan,notatallfar。\"

  \"Yes,yes;Icansee。Ishallseehimwhenhewakes。\"

  \"Nodoubt,Tuan。Whenhewakes……Ifyouremainherehecannotseeyou。Ishallwithdrawquicklyandpreparemycanoemyself。Iamonlyapoorman,andmustgotoSambirtogreetLakambawhenheopenshiseyes。ImustbowbeforeAbdullawhohasstrength——evenmorestrengththanyou。Nowifyouremainhere,youshalleasilybeholdthemanwhoboastedtoAbdullathathehadbeenyourfriend,evenwhilehepreparedtofightthosewhocalledyouprotector。Yes,heplottedwithAbdullaforthatcursedflag。Lakambawasblindthen,andIwasdeceived。Butyou,Tuan!Remember,hedeceivedyoumore。Ofthatheboastedbeforeallmen。\"

  Heleanedthegunquietlyagainstthewallclosetothewindow,andsaidsoftly:\"ShallIgonow,Tuan?Becarefulofthegun。

  Ihaveputthefire-stonein。Thefire-stoneofthewiseman,whichneverfails。\"

  Lingard’seyeswerefastenedonthedistantdoorway。Acrosshislineofsight,inthegreyemptinessofthecourtyard,abigfruit-pigeonflappedlanguidlytowardstheforestswithaloudboomingcry,likethenoteofadeepgong:abrilliantbirdlookinginthegloomofthreateningdayasblackasacrow。A

  serriedflockofwhitericebirdsroseabovethetreeswithafaintscream,andhovered,swayinginadisorderedmassthatsuddenlyscatteredinalldirections,asifburstasunderbyasilentexplosion。BehindhisbackLingardheardashuffleoffeet——womenleavingthehut。Intheothercourtyardavoicewasheardcomplainingofcold,andcomingveryfeeble,butexceedinglydistinct,outofthevastsilenceoftheabandonedhousesandclearings。Babalatchicougheddiscreetly。Fromunderthehousethethumpingofwoodenpestleshuskingthericestartedwithunexpectedabruptness。Theweakbutclearvoiceintheyardagainurged,\"Blowuptheembers,Obrother!\"Anothervoiceanswered,drawlinginmodulated,thinsing-song,\"Doityourself,Oshiveringpig!\"andthedrawlofthelastwordsstoppedshort,asifthemanhadfallenintoadeephole。Babalatchicoughedagainalittleimpatiently,andsaidinaconfidentialtone——

  \"Doyouthinkitistimeformetogo,Tuan?Willyoutakecareofmygun,Tuan?Iamamanthatknowshowtoobey;evenobeyAbdulla,whohasdeceivedme。Neverthelessthisguncarriesfarandtrue——ifyouwouldwanttoknow,Tuan。AndIhaveputinadoublemeasureofpowder,andthreeslugs。Yes,Tuan。

  Now——perhaps——Igo。\"

  WhenBabalatchicommencedspeaking,Lingardturnedslowlyroundandgazeduponhimwiththedullandunwillinglookofasickmanwakingtoanotherdayofsuffering。Astheastutestatesmanproceeded,Lingard’seyebrowscameclose,hiseyesbecameanimated,andabigveinstoodoutonhisforehead,accentuatingaloweringfrown。WhenspeakinghislastwordsBabalatchifaltered,thenstopped,confused,beforethesteadygazeoftheoldseaman。

  Lingardrose。Hisfacecleared,andhelookeddownattheanxiousBabalatchiwithsuddenbenevolence。

  \"So!That’swhatyouwereafter,\"hesaid,layingaheavyhandonBabalatchi’syieldingshoulder。\"YouthoughtIcameheretomurderhim。Hey?Speak!YoufaithfuldogofanArabtrader!\"

  \"Andwhatelse,Tuan?\"shriekedBabalatchi,exasperatedintosincerity。\"Whatelse,Tuan!Rememberwhathehasdone;hepoisonedourearswithhistalkaboutyou。Youareaman。Ifyoudidnotcometokill,Tuan,theneitherIamafoolor……\"

  Hepaused,struckhisnakedbreastwithhisopenpalm,andfinishedinadiscouragedwhisper——\"or,Tuan,youare。\"

  Lingardlookeddownathimwithscornfulserenity。AfterhislongandpainfulgropingsamongsttheobscureabominationsofWillems’conduct,thelogicaliftortuousevolutionsofBabalatchi’sdiplomaticmindweretohimwelcomeasdaylight。

  Therewassomethingatlasthecouldunderstand——thecleareffectofasimplecause。Hefeltindulgenttowardsthedisappointedsage。

  \"Soyouareangrywithyourfriend,Oone-eyedone!\"hesaidslowly,noddinghisfiercecountenanceclosetoBabalatchi’sdiscomfitedface。\"ItseemstomethatyoumusthavehadmuchtodowithwhathappenedinSambirlately。Hey?Yousonofaburntfather。\"

  \"MayIperishunderyourhand,ORajahofthesea,ifmywordsarenottrue!\"saidBabalatchi,withrecklessexcitement。\"Youarehereinthemidstofyourenemies。Hethegreatest。Abdullawoulddonothingwithouthim,andIcoulddonothingwithoutAbdulla。Strikeme——sothatyoustrikeall!\"

  \"Whoareyou,\"exclaimedLingardcontemptuously——\"whoareyoutodarecallyourselfmyenemy!Dirt!Nothing!Gooutfirst,\"hewentonseverely。\"Lakas!quick。Marchout!\"

  HepushedBabalatchithroughthedoorwayandfollowedhimdowntheshortladderintothecourtyard。Theboatmensquattingoverthefireturnedtheirsloweyeswithapparentdifficultytowardsthetwomen;then,unconcerned,huddledclosetogetheragain,stretchingforlornlytheirhandsovertheembers。Thewomenstoppedintheirworkandwithupliftedpestlesflashedquickandcuriousglancesfromthegloomunderthehouse。

  \"Isthattheway?\"askedLingardwithanodtowardsthelittlewicket-gateofWillems’enclosure。

  \"Ifyouseekdeath,thatissurelytheway,\"answeredBabalatchiinadispassionatevoice,asifhehadexhaustedalltheemotions。\"Helivesthere:hewhodestroyedyourfriends;whohastenedOmar’sdeath;whoplottedwithAbdullafirstagainstyou,thenagainstme。Ihavebeenlikeachild。Oshame!……

  Butgo,Tuan。Gothere。\"

  \"IgowhereIlike,\"saidLingard,emphatically,\"andyoumaygotothedevil;Idonotwantyouanymore。TheislandsoftheseseasshallsinkbeforeI,RajahLaut,servethewillofanyofyourpeople。Tau?ButItellyouthis:Idonotcarewhatyoudowithhimafterto-day。AndIsaythatbecauseIammerciful。\"

  \"Tida!Idonothing,\"saidBabalatchi,shakinghisheadwithbitterapathy。\"IaminAbdulla’shandandcarenot,evenasyoudo。No!no!\"headded,turningaway,\"Ihavelearnedmuchwisdomthismorning。Therearenomenanywhere。Youwhitesarecrueltoyourfriendsandmercifultoyourenemies——whichistheworkoffools。\"

  Hewentawaytowardstheriverside,and,withoutoncelookingback,disappearedinthelowbankofmistthatlayoverthewaterandtheshore。Lingardfollowedhimwithhiseyesthoughtfully。

  Afterawhileherousedhimselfandcalledouttohisboatmen——

  \"Hai——yathere!Afteryouhaveeatenrice,waitformewithyourpaddlesinyourhands。Youhear?\"

  \"Ada,Tuan!\"answeredAlithroughthesmokeofthemorningfirethatwasspreadingitself,lowandgentle,overthecourtyard——\"wehear!\"

  Lingardopenedslowlythelittlewicket-gate,madeafewstepsintotheemptyenclosure,andstopped。Hehadfeltabouthisheadtheshortbreathofapuffofwindthatpassedhim,madeeveryleafofthebigtreeshiver——anddiedoutinahardlyperceptibletremorofbranchesandtwigs。Instinctivelyheglancedupwardswithaseaman’simpulse。Abovehim,underthegreymotionlesswasteofastormysky,driftedlowblackvapours,instretchingbars,inshapelesspatches,insinuouswispsandtormentedspirals。Overthecourtyardandthehousefloatedaround,sombre,andlingeringcloud,draggingbehindatailoftangledandfilmystreamers——likethedishevelledhairofamourningwoman。

  CHAPTERTHREE

  \"Beware!\"

  Thetremulouseffortandthebroken,inadequatetoneofthefaintcry,surprisedLingardmorethantheunexpectedsuddennessofthewarningconveyed,hedidnotknowbywhomandtowhom。Besideshimselftherewasnooneinthecourtyardasfarashecouldsee。

  Thecrywasnotrenewed,andhiswatchfuleyes,scanningwarilythemistysolitudeofWillems’enclosure,weremeteverywhereonlybythestolidimpassivenessofinanimatethings:thebigsombre-lookingtree,theshut-up,sightlesshouse,theglisteningbamboofences,thedampanddroopingbushesfurtheroff——allthesethings,thatcondemnedtolookforeverattheincomprehensibleafflictionsorjoysofmankind,assertintheiraspectofcoldunconcernthehighdignityoflifelessmatterthatsurrounds,incuriousandunmoved,therestlessmysteriesoftheever-changing,ofthenever-endinglife。

  Lingard,steppingaside,putthetrunkofthetreebetweenhimselfandthehouse,then,movingcautiouslyroundoneoftheprojectingbuttresses,hadtotreadshortinordertoavoidscatteringasmallheapofblackembersuponwhichhecameunexpectedlyontheotherside。Athin,wizened,littleoldwoman,who,standingbehindthetree,hadbeenlookingatthehouse,turnedtowardshimwithastart,gazedwithfaded,expressionlesseyesattheintruder,thenmadealimpingattempttogetaway。Sheseemed,however,torealizedirectlythehopelessnessorthedifficultyoftheundertaking,stopped,hesitated,totteredbackslowly;then,afterblinkingdully,fellsuddenlyonherkneesamongstthewhiteashes,and,bendingovertheheapofsmoulderingcoals,distendedhersunkencheeksinasteadyefforttoblowupthehiddensparksintoausefulblaze。

  Lingardlookeddownonher,butsheseemedtohavemadeuphermindthattherewasnotenoughlifeleftinherleanbodyforanythingelsethanthedischargeofthesimpledomesticduty,and,apparently,shebegrudgedhimtheleastmomentofattention。

  Afterwaitingforawhile,Lingardasked——

  \"Whydidyoucall,Odaughter?\"

  \"Isawyouenter,\"shecroakedfeebly,stillgrovellingwithherfaceneartheashesandwithoutlookingup,\"andIcalled——thecryofwarning。Itwasherorder。Herorder,\"sherepeated,withamoaningsigh。

  \"Anddidshehear?\"pursuedLingard,withgentlecomposure。

  Herprojectingshoulder-bladesmoveduneasilyunderthethinstuffofthetightbodyjacket。Shescrambledupwithdifficultytoherfeet,andhobbledaway,mutteringpeevishlytoherself,towardsapileofdrybrushwoodheapedupagainstthefence。

  Lingard,lookingidlyafterher,heardtherattleoflooseplanksthatledfromthegroundtothedoorofthehouse。HemovedhisheadbeyondtheshelterofthetreeandsawAissacomingdowntheinclinedwayintothecourtyard。Aftermakingafewhurriedpacestowardsthetree,shestoppedwithonefootadvancedinanappearanceofsuddenterror,andhereyesglancedwildlyrightandleft。Herheadwasuncovered。Ablueclothwrappedherfromherheadtofootincloseslantingfolds,withoneendthrownoverhershoulder。Atressofherblackhairstrayedacrossherbosom。Herbarearmspresseddownclosetoherbody,withhandsopenandoutstretchedfingers;herslightlyelevatedshouldersandthebackwardinclinationofhertorsogavehertheaspectofonedefiantyetshrinkingfromacomingblow。Shehadclosedthedoorofthehousebehindher;andasshestoodsolitaryintheunnaturalandthreateningtwilightofthemurkyday,witheverythingunchangedaroundher,sheappearedtoLingardasifshehadbeenmadethere,onthespot,outoftheblackvapoursoftheskyandofthesinistergleamsoffeeblesunshinethatstruggled,throughthethickeningclouds,intothecolourlessdesolationoftheworld。

  Afterashortbutattentiveglancetowardstheshut-uphouse,Lingardsteppedoutfrombehindthetreeandadvancedslowlytowardsher。Thesuddenfixityofher——tillthen——restlesseyesandaslighttwitchofherhandsweretheonlysignsshegaveatfirstofhavingseenhim。Shemadealongstrideforward,andputtingherselfrightinhispath,stretchedherarmsacross;herblackeyesopenedwide,herlipspartedasifinanuncertainattempttospeak——butnosoundcameouttobreakthesignificantsilenceoftheirmeeting。Lingardstoppedandlookedatherwithsterncuriosity。Afterawhilehesaidcomposedly——

  \"Letmepass。Icameheretotalktoaman。Doeshehide?Hashesentyou?\"

  Shemadeastepnearer,herarmsfellbyherside,thensheputthemstraightoutnearlytouchingLingard’sbreast。

  \"Heknowsnotfear,\"shesaid,speakinglow,withaforwardthrowofherhead,inavoicetremblingbutdistinct。\"Itismyownfearthathassentmehere。Hesleeps。\"

  \"Hehassleptlongenough,\"saidLingard,inmeasuredtones。\"I

  amcome——andnowisthetimeofhiswaking。Goandtellhimthis——orelsemyownvoicewillcallhimup。Avoiceheknowswell。\"

  Heputherhandsdownfirmlyandagainmadeasiftopassbyher。

  \"Donot!\"sheexclaimed,andfellathisfeetasifshehadbeencutdownbyascythe。TheunexpectedsuddennessofhermovementstartledLingard,whosteppedback。

  \"What’sthis?\"heexclaimedinawonderingwhisper——thenaddedinatoneofsharpcommand:\"Standup!\"

  Sheroseatonceandstoodlookingathim,timorousandfearless;

  yetwithafireofrecklessnessburninginhereyesthatmadeclearherresolvetopursueherpurposeeventothedeath。

  Lingardwentoninaseverevoice——

  \"Gooutofmypath。YouareOmar’sdaughter,andyououghttoknowthatwhenmenmeetindaylightwomenmustbesilentandabidetheirfate。\"

  \"Women!\"sheretorted,withsubduedvehemence。\"Yes,Iamawoman!Youreyesseethat,ORajahLaut,butcanyouseemylife?Ialsohaveheard——Omanofmanyfights——Ialsohaveheardthevoiceoffire-arms;Ialsohavefelttherainofyoungtwigsandofleavescutupbybulletsfalldownaboutmyhead;Ialsoknowhowtolookinsilenceatangryfacesandatstronghandsraisedhighgraspingsharpsteel。Ialsosawmenfalldeadaroundmewithoutacryoffearandofmourning;andIhavewatchedthesleepofwearyfugitives,andlookedatnightshadowsfullofmenaceanddeathwitheyesthatknewnothingbutwatchfulness。And,\"shewenton,withamournfuldropinhervoice,\"Ihavefacedtheheartlesssea,heldonmylaptheheadsofthosewhodiedravingfromthirst,andfromtheircoldhandstookthepaddleandworkedsothatthosewithmedidnotknowthatonemanmorewasdead。Ididallthis。Whatmorehaveyoudone?Thatwasmylife。Whathasbeenyours?\"

  ThematterandthemannerofherspeechheldLingardmotionless,attentiveandapprovingagainsthiswill。Sheceasedspeaking,andfromherstaringblackeyeswithanarrowborderofwhiteaboveandbelow,adoublerayofherverysoulstreamedoutinafiercedesiretolightupthemostobscuredesignsofhisheart。

  Afteralongsilence,whichservedtoemphasizethemeaningofherwords,sheaddedinthewhisperofbitterregret——

  \"AndIhavekneltatyourfeet!AndIamafraid!\"

  \"You,\"saidLingarddeliberately,andreturningherlookwithaninterestedgaze,\"youareawomanwhoseheart,Ibelieve,isgreatenoughtofillaman’sbreast:butstillyouareawoman,andtoyou,I,RajahLaut,havenothingtosay。\"

  Shelistenedbendingherheadinamovementofforcedattention;

  andhisvoicesoundedtoherunexpected,faroff,withthedistantandunearthlyringofvoicesthatwehearindreams,sayingfaintlythingsstartling,cruelorabsurd,towhichthereisnopossiblereply。Toherhehadnothingtosay!Shewrungherhands,glancedoverthecourtyardwiththateageranddistractedlookthatseesnothing,thenlookedupatthehopelessskyoflividgreyanddriftingblack;attheunquietmourningofthehotandbrilliantheaventhathadseenthebeginningofherlove,thathadheardhisentreatiesandheranswers,thathadseenhisdesireandherfear;thathadseenherjoy,hersurrender——andhisdefeat。Lingardmovedalittle,andthisslightstirnearherprecipitatedherdisorderedandshapelessthoughtsintohurriedwords。

  \"Wait!\"sheexclaimedinastifledvoice,andwentondisconnectedlyandrapidly——\"Stay。Ihaveheard。Menoftenspokebythefires……menofmypeople。Andtheysaidofyou——thefirstonthesea——theysaidthattomen’scriesyouweredeafinbattle,butafter……No!evenwhileyoufought,yourearswereopentothevoiceofchildrenandwomen。Theysaid……that。NowI,awoman,I……\"

  Shebrokeoffsuddenlyandstoodbeforehimwithdroppedeyelidsandpartedlips,sostillnowthatsheseemedtohavebeenchangedintoabreathless,anunhearing,anunseeingfigure,withoutknowledgeoffearorhope,ofangerordespair。Intheastoundingreposethatcameonherface,nothingmovedbutthedelicatenostrilsthatexpandedandcollapsedquickly,flutteringly,ininterruptedbeats,likethewingsofasnaredbird。

  \"Iamwhite,\"saidLingard,proudly,lookingatherwithasteadygazewheresimplecuriositywasgivingwaytoapityingannoyance,\"andmenyouhaveheard,spokeonlywhatistrueovertheeveningfires。Myearsareopentoyourprayer。Butlistentomebeforeyouspeak。Foryourselfyouneednotbeafraid。YoucancomeevennowwithmeandyoushallfindrefugeinthehouseholdofSyedAbdulla——whoisofyourownfaith。Andthisalsoyoumustknow:nothingthatyoumaysaywillchangemypurposetowardsthemanwhoissleeping——orhiding——inthathouse。\"

  Againshegavehimthelookthatwaslikeastab,notofangerbutofdesire;oftheintense,over-poweringdesiretoseein,toseethrough,tounderstandeverything:everythought,emotion,purpose;everyimpulse,everyhesitationinsidethatman;insidethatwhite-cladforeignbeingwholookedather,whospoketoher,whobreathedbeforeherlikeanyotherman,butbigger,red-faced,white-hairedandmysterious。Itwasthefutureclothedinflesh;theto-morrow;thedayafter;allthedays,alltheyearsofherlifestandingtherebeforeheraliveandsecret,withalltheirgoodorevilshutupwithinthebreastofthatman;ofthatmanwhocouldbepersuaded,cajoled,entreated,perhapstouched,worried;frightened——whoknows?——ifonlyfirsthecouldbeunderstood!Shehadseenalongtimeagowhithereventsweretending。ShehadnotedthecontemptuousyetmenacingcoldnessofAbdulla;shehadheard——alarmedyetunbelieving——Babalatchi’sgloomyhints,covertallusionsandveiledsuggestionstoabandontheuselesswhitemanwhosefatewouldbethepriceofthepeacesecuredbythewiseandgoodwhohadnoneedofhimanymore。Andhe——himself!Sheclungtohim。

  Therewasnobodyelse。Nothingelse。Shewouldtrytoclingtohimalways——allthelife!Andyethewasfarfromher。Furthereveryday。Everydayheseemedmoredistant,andshefollowedhimpatiently,hopefully,blindly,butsteadily,throughallthedeviouswanderingsofhismind。Shefollowedaswellasshecould。Yetattimes——veryoftenlately——shehadfeltlostlikeonestrayedinthethicketsoftangledundergrowthofagreatforest。Tohertheex-clerkofoldHudigappearedasremote,asbrilliant,asterrible,asnecessary,asthesunthatgiveslifetotheselands:thesunofuncloudedskiesthatdazzlesandwithers;thesunbeneficentandwicked——thegiveroflight,perfume,andpestilence。Shehadwatchedhim——watchedhimclose;

  fascinatedbylove,fascinatedbydanger。Hewasalonenow——butforher;andshesaw——shethoughtshesaw——thathewaslikeamanafraidofsomething。Wasitpossible?Heafraid?Ofwhat?Wasitofthatoldwhitemanwhowascoming——whohadcome?Possibly。

  Shehadheardofthatmaneversinceshecouldremember。Thebravestwereafraidofhim!Andnowwhatwasinthemindofthisold,oldmanwholookedsostrong?Whatwashegoingtodowiththelightofherlife?Putitout?Takeitaway?Takeitawayforever!——forever!——andleaveherindarkness:——notinthestirring,whispering,expectantnightinwhichthehushedworldawaitsthereturnofsunshine;butinthenightwithoutend,thenightofthegrave,wherenothingbreathes,nothingmoves,nothingthinks——thelastdarknessofcoldandsilencewithouthopeofanothersunrise。

  Shecried——\"Yourpurpose!Youknownothing。Imust……\"

  Heinterrupted——unreasonablyexcited,asifshehad,byherlook,inoculatedhimwithsomeofherowndistress。

  \"Iknowenough。\"

  Sheapproached,andstoodfacinghimatarm’slength,withbothherhandsonhisshoulders;andhe,surprisedbythataudacity,closedandopenedhiseyestwoorthreetimes,awareofsomeemotionarisingwithinhim,fromherwords,hertone,hercontact;anemotionunknown,singular,penetratingandsad——attheclosesightofthatstrangewoman,ofthatbeingsavageandtender,stronganddelicate,fearfulandresolute,thathadgotentangledsofatallybetweentheirtwolives——hisownandthatotherwhiteman’s,theabominablescoundrel。

  \"Howcanyouknow?\"shewenton,inapersuasivetonethatseemedtoflowoutofherveryheart——\"howcanyouknow?Ilivewithhimallthedays。Allthenights。Ilookathim;Iseehiseverybreath,everyglanceofhiseye,everymovementofhislips。Iseenothingelse!Whatelseisthere?AndevenIdonotunderstand。Idonotunderstandhim!——Him!——Mylife!Himwhotomeissogreatthathispresencehidestheearthandthewaterfrommysight!\"

  Lingardstoodstraight,withhishandsdeepinthepocketsofhisjacket。Hiseyeswinkedquickly,becauseshespokeveryclosetohisface。Shedisturbedhimandhehadasenseoftheeffortshewasmakingtogetholdofhermeaning,whileallthetimehecouldnothelptellinghimselfthatallthiswasofnouse。

  Sheaddedafterapause——\"TherehasbeenatimewhenIcouldunderstandhim。WhenIknewwhatwasinhismindbetterthanheknewithimself。WhenIfelthim。WhenIheldhim……Andnowhehasescaped。\"

  \"Escaped?What?Goneaway!\"shoutedLingard。

  \"Escapedfromme,\"shesaid;\"leftmealone。Alone。AndIamevernearhim。Yetalone。\"

  HerhandsslippedslowlyoffLingard’sshouldersandherarmsfellbyherside,listless,discouraged,asiftoher——toher,thesavage,violent,andignorantcreature——hadbeenrevealedclearlyinthatmomentthetremendousfactofourisolation,ofthelonelinessimpenetrableandtransparent,elusiveandeverlasting;oftheindestructiblelonelinessthatsurrounds,envelopes,clotheseveryhumansoulfromthecradletothegrave,and,perhaps,beyond。

  \"Aye!Verywell!Iunderstand。Hisfaceisturnedawayfromyou,\"saidLingard。\"Now,whatdoyouwant?\"

  \"Iwant……Ihavelooked——forhelp……everywhere……

  againstmen……Allmen……Idonotknow。Firsttheycame,theinvisiblewhites,anddealtdeathfromafar……thenhecame。Hecametomewhowasaloneandsad。Hecame;angrywithhisbrothers;greatamongsthisownpeople;angrywiththoseIhavenotseen:withthepeoplewheremenhavenomercyandwomenhavenoshame。Hewasofthem,andgreatamongstthem。

  Forhewasgreat?\"

  Lingardshookhisheadslightly。Shefrownedathim,andwentonindisorderedhaste——

  \"Listen。Isawhim。Ihavelivedbythesideofbravemen……

  ofchiefs。WhenhecameIwasthedaughterofabeggar——ofablindmanwithoutstrengthandhope。HespoketomeasifIhadbeenbrighterthanthesunshine——moredelightfulthanthecoolwaterofthebrookbywhichwemet——more……\"Heranxiouseyessawsomeshadeofexpressionpassonherlistener’sfacethatmadeherholdherbreathforasecond,andthenexplodeintopainedfurysoviolentthatitdroveLingardbackapace,likeanunexpectedblastofwind。Heliftedbothhishands,incongruouslypaternalinhisvenerableaspect,bewilderedandsoothing,whileshestretchedherneckforwardandshoutedathim。

  \"ItellyouIwasallthattohim。Iknowit!Isawit!……

  Therearetimeswhenevenyouwhitemenspeakthetruth。Isawhiseyes。Ifelthiseyes,Itellyou!IsawhimtremblewhenI

  camenear——whenIspoke——whenItouchedhim。Lookatme!Youhavebeenyoung。Lookatme。Look,RajahLaut!\"

  ShestaredatLingardwithprovokingfixity,then,turningherheadquickly,shesentoverhershoulderaglance,fullofhumblefear,atthehousethatstoodhighbehindherback——dark,closed,ricketyandsilentonitscrookedposts。

  Lingard’seyesfollowedherlook,andremainedgazingexpectantlyatthehouse。Afteraminuteorsohemuttered,glancingathersuspiciously——

  \"Ifhehasnotheardyourvoicenow,thenhemustbefaraway——ordead。\"

  \"Heisthere,\"shewhispered,alittlecalmedbutstillanxious——\"heisthere。Forthreedayshewaited。Waitedforyounightandday。AndIwaitedwithhim。Iwaited,watchinghisface,hiseyes,hislips;listeningtohiswords——TothewordsI

  couldnotunderstand——Tothewordshespokeindaylight;tothewordshespokeatnightinhisshortsleep。Ilistened。Hespoketohimselfwalkingupanddownhere——bytheriver;bythebushes。AndIfollowed。Iwantedtoknow——andIcouldnot!Hewastormentedbythingsthatmadehimspeakinthewordsofhisownpeople。Speaktohimself——nottome。Nottome!Whatwashesaying?Whatwashegoingtodo?Washeafraidofyou?——Ofdeath?Whatwasinhisheart?……Fear?……Oranger?……whatdesire?……whatsadness?Hespoke;spoke;manywords。

  Allthetime!AndIcouldnotknow!Iwantedtospeaktohim。

  Hewasdeaftome。Ifollowedhimeverywhere,watchingforsomewordIcouldunderstand;buthismindwasinthelandofhispeople——awayfromme。WhenItouchedhimhewasangry——so!\"

  Sheimitatedthemovementofsomeoneshakingoffroughlyanimportunatehand,andlookedatLingardwithtearfulandunsteadyeyes。

  Afterashortintervaloflabouredpanting,asifshehadbeenoutofbreathwithrunningorfighting,shelookeddownandwenton——

  \"Dayafterday,nightafternight,Ilivedwatchinghim——seeingnothing。Andmyheartwasheavy——heavywiththepresenceofdeaththatdweltamongstus。Icouldnotbelieve。Ithoughthewasafraid。Afraidofyou!ThenI,myself,knewfear……

  Tellme,RajahLaut,doyouknowthefearwithoutvoice——thefearofsilence——thefearthatcomeswhenthereisnoonenear——whenthereisnobattle,nocries,noangryfacesorarmedhandsanywhere?……Thefearfromwhichthereisnoescape!\"

  Shepaused,fastenedhereyesagainonthepuzzledLingard,andhurriedoninatoneofdespair——

  \"AndIknewthenhewouldnotfightyou!Before——manydaysago——Iwentawaytwicetomakehimobeymydesire;tomakehimstrikeathisownpeoplesothathecouldbemine——mine!O

  calamity!Hishandwasfalseasyourwhitehearts。Itstruckforward,pushedbymydesire——byhisdesireofme……Itstruckthatstronghand,and——Oshame!——itkillednobody!Itsfierceandlyingblowwokeuphatewithoutanyfear。Roundmeallwaslies。Hisstrengthwasalie。Myownpeopleliedtomeandtohim。Andtomeetyou——you,thegreat!——hehadnoonebutme?Butmewithmyrage,mypain,myweakness。Onlyme!Andtomehewouldnotevenspeak。Thefool!\"

  ShecameupclosetoLingard,withthewildandstealthyaspectofalunaticlongingtowhisperoutaninsanesecret——oneofthosemisshapen,heart-rending,andludicroussecrets;oneofthosethoughtsthat,likemonsters——cruel,fantastic,andmournful,wanderaboutterribleandunceasinginthenightofmadness。Lingardlookedather,astoundedbutunflinching。Shespokeinhisface,verylow。

  \"Heisall!Everything。Heismybreath,mylight,myheart……Goaway……Forgethim……Hehasnocourageandnowisdomanymore……andIhavelostmypower……Goawayandforget。Thereareotherenemies……Leavehimtome。Hehadbeenamanonce……Youaretoogreat。Nobodycanwithstandyou……Itried……Iknownow……Icryformercy。

  Leavehimtomeandgoaway。\"

  Thefragmentsofhersupplicatingsentenceswereasiftossedonthecrestofhersobs。Lingard,outwardlyimpassive,withhiseyesfixedonthehouse,experiencedthatfeelingofcondemnation,deep-seated,persuasive,andmasterful;thatillogicalimpulseofdisapprovalwhichishalfdisgust,halfvaguefear,andthatwakesupinourheartsinthepresenceofanythingneworunusual,ofanythingthatisnotrunintothemouldofourownconscience;theaccursedfeelingmadeupofdisdain,ofanger,andofthesenseofsuperiorvirtuethatleavesusdeaf,blind,contemptuousandstupidbeforeanythingwhichisnotlikeourselves。

  Heanswered,notlookingatheratfirst,butspeakingtowardsthehousethatfascinatedhim——

  \"_I_goaway!Hewantedmetocome——hehimselfdid!……YOU

  mustgoaway。Youdonotknowwhatyouareaskingfor。Listen。

  Gotoyourownpeople。Leavehim。Heis……\"

  Hepaused,lookeddownatherwithhissteadyeyes;hesitated,asifseekinganadequateexpression;thensnappedhisfingers,andsaid——

  \"Finish。\"

  Shesteppedback,hereyesontheground,andpressedhertempleswithbothherhands,whichsheraisedtoherheadinaslowandamplemovementfullofunconscioustragedy。Thetoneofherwordswasgentleandvibrating,likealoudmeditation。Shesaid——

  \"Tellthebrooknottoruntotheriver;telltherivernottoruntothesea。Speakloud。Speakangrily。Maybetheywillobeyyou。Butitisinmymindthatthebrookwillnotcare。

  Thebrookthatspringsoutofthehillsideandrunstothegreatriver。Hewouldnotcareforyourwords:hethatcaresnotfortheverymountainthatgavehimlife;hethattearstheearthfromwhichhesprings。Tearsit,eatsit,destroysit——tohurryfastertotheriver——totheriverinwhichheislostforever……ORajahLaut!Idonotcare。\"

  ShedrewcloseagaintoLingard,approachingslowly,reluctantly,asifpushedbyaninvisiblehand,andaddedinwordsthatseemedtobetornoutofher——

  \"Icarednotformyownfather。Forhimthatdied。Iwouldhaverather……YoudonotknowwhatIhavedone……I……\"

  \"Youshallhavehislife,\"saidLingard,hastily。

  Theystoodtogether,crossingtheirglances;shesuddenlyappeased,andLingardthoughtfulanduneasyunderavaguesenseofdefeat。Andyettherewasnodefeat。Heneverintendedtokillthefellow——notafterthefirstmomentofanger,alongtimeago。Thedaysofbitterwonderhadkilledanger;hadleftonlyabitterindignationandabitterwishforcompletejustice。Hefeltdiscontentedandsurprised。Unexpectedlyhehadcomeuponahumanbeing——awomanatthat——whohadmadehimdisclosehiswillbeforeitstime。Sheshouldhavehislife。Butshemustbetold,shemustknow,thatforsuchmenasWillemstherewasnofavourandnograce。

  \"Understand,\"hesaidslowly,\"thatIleavehimhislifenotinmercybutinpunishment。\"

  Shestarted,watchedeverywordonhislips,andafterhefinishedspeakingsheremainedstillandmuteinastonishedimmobility。Asinglebigdropofrain,adropenormous,pellucidandheavy——likeasuper-humantearcomingstraightandrapidfromabove,tearingitswaythroughthesombresky——struckloudlythedrygroundbetweentheminastarredsplash。Shewrungherhandsinthebewildermentofthenewandincomprehensiblefear。Theanguishofherwhisperwasmorepiercingthantheshrillestcry。

  \"Whatpunishment!Willyoutakehimawaythen?Awayfromme?

  ListentowhatIhavedone……ItisIwho……\"

  \"Ah!\"exclaimedLingard,whohadbeenlookingatthehouse。

  \"Don’tyoubelieveher,CaptainLingard,\"shoutedWillemsfromthedoorway,whereheappearedwithswolleneyelidsandbaredbreast。Hestoodforawhile,hishandsgraspingthelintelsoneachsideofthedoor,andwrithedabout,glaringwildly,asifhehadbeencrucifiedthere。Thenhemadeasuddenrushheadforemostdowntheplankwaythatrespondedwithhollow,shortnoisestoeveryfootstep。

  Sheheardhim。Aslightthrillpassedonherfaceandthewordsthatwereonherlipsfellbackunspokenintoherbenightedheart;fellbackamongstthemud,thestones——andtheflowers,thatareatthebottomofeveryheart。

  CHAPTERFOUR

  Whenhefeltthesolidgroundofthecourtyardunderhisfeet,Willemspulledhimselfupinhisheadlongrushandmovedforwardwithamoderategait。Hepacedstiffly,lookingwithextremeexactitudeatLingard’sface;lookingneithertotherightnortotheleftbutatthefaceonly,asiftherewasnothingintheworldbutthosefeaturesfamiliaranddreaded;thatwhite-haired,roughandsevereheaduponwhichhegazedinafixedeffortofhiseyes,likeamantryingtoreadsmallprintatthefullrangeofhumanvision。AssoonasWillems’feethadlefttheplanks,thesilencewhichhadbeenliftedupbythejerkyrattleofhisfootstepsfelldownagainuponthecourtyard;thesilenceofthecloudyskyandofthewindlessair,thesullensilenceoftheearthoppressedbytheaspectofcomingturmoil,thesilenceoftheworldcollectingitsfacultiestowithstandthestorm。

  ThroughthissilenceWillemspushedhisway,andstoppedaboutsixfeetfromLingard。Hestoppedsimplybecausehecouldgonofurther。Hehadstartedfromthedoorwiththerecklesspurposeofclappingtheoldfellowontheshoulder。Hehadnoideathatthemanwouldturnouttobesotall,sobigandsounapproachable。Itseemedtohimthathehadnever,neverinhislife,seenLingard。

  Hetriedtosay——

  \"Donotbelieve……\"

  Afitofcoughingcheckedhissentenceinafaintsplutter。

  Directlyafterwardsheswallowed——asitwere——acoupleofpebbles,throwinghischinupintheact;andLingard,wholookedathimnarrowly,sawabone,sharpandtriangularliketheheadofasnake,dartupanddowntwiceundertheskinofhisthroat。

  Thenthat,too,didnotmove。Nothingmoved。

  \"Well,\"saidLingard,andwiththatwordhecameunexpectedlytotheendofhisspeech。Hishandinhispocketclosedfirmlyroundthebuttofhisrevolverbulginghisjacketonthehip,andhethoughthowsoonandhowquicklyhecouldterminatehisquarrelwiththatmanwhohadbeensoanxioustodeliverhimselfintohishands——andhowinadequatewouldbethatending!Hecouldnotbeartheideaofthatmanescapingfromhimbygoingoutoflife;escapingfromfear,fromdoubt,fromremorseintothepeacefulcertitudeofdeath。Heheldhimnow。Andhewasnotgoingtolethimgo——tolethimdisappearforeverinthefaintbluesmokeofapistolshot。Hisangergrewwithinhim。

  Hefeltatouchasofaburninghandonhisheart。Notonthefleshofhisbreast,butatouchonhisheartitself,onthepalpitatinganduntiringparticleofmatterthatrespondstoeveryemotionofthesoul;thatleapswithjoy,withterror,orwithanger。

  Hedrewalongbreath。Hecouldseebeforehimthebarechestofthemanexpandingandcollapsingunderthewide-openjacket。Heglancedaside,andsawthebosomofthewomannearhimriseandfallinquickrespirationsthatmovedslightlyupanddownherhand,whichwaspressedtoherbreastwithallthefingersspreadoutandalittlecurved,asifgraspingsomethingtoobigforitsspan。Andnearlyaminutepassed。Oneofthoseminuteswhenthevoiceissilenced,whilethethoughtsflutterinthehead,likecaptivebirdsinsideacage,inrushesdesperate,exhaustingandvain。

  DuringthatminuteofsilenceLingard’sangerkeptrising,immenseandtowering,suchasacrestedwaverunningoverthetroubledshallowsofthesands。Itsroarfilledhiscars;aroarsopowerfulanddistractingthat,itseemedtohim,hisheadmustburstdirectlywiththeexpandingvolumeofthatsound。Helookedatthatman。Thatinfamousfigureuprightonitsfeet,still,rigid,withstonyeyes,asifitsrottensoulhaddepartedthatmomentandthecarcasshadn’thadthetimeyettotoppleover。Forthefractionofasecondhehadtheillusionandthefearofthescoundrelhavingdiedtherebeforetheenragedglanceofhiseyes。Willems’eyelidsfluttered,andtheunconsciousandpassingtremorinthatstifflyerectbodyexasperatedLingardlikeafreshoutrage。Thefellowdaredtostir!Daredtowink,tobreathe,toexist;here,rightbeforehiseyes!Hisgripontherevolverrelaxedgradually。Asthetransportofhisrageincreased,soalsohiscontemptfortheinstrumentsthatpierceorstab,thatinterposethemselvesbetweenthehandandtheobjectofhate。Hewantedanotherkindofsatisfaction。Nakedhands,byheaven!Nofirearms。Handsthatcouldtakehimbythethroat,beatdownhisdefence,batterhisfaceintoshapelessflesh;handsthatcouldfeelallthedesperationofhisresistanceandoverpoweritintheviolentdelightofacontactlingeringandfurious,intimateandbrutal。

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