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  Whydoyouteasehim?\"criedtheprince,suddenly。

  \"You’vemovedhimtotears,\"addedFerdishenko。ButHippolytewasbynomeansweeping。Hewasabouttomovefromhisplace,whenhisfourguardsrushedathimandseizedhimoncemore。Therewasalaughatthis。

  \"Heleduptothisonpurpose。Hetookthetroubleofwritingallthatsothatpeopleshouldcomeandgrabhimbythearm,\"

  observedRogojin。\"Good-night,prince。Whatatimewe’vesathere,myverybonesache!\"

  \"Ifyoureallyintendedtoshootyourself,Terentieff,\"saidEvgeniePavlovitch,laughing,\"ifIwereyou,afterallthesecompliments,Ishouldjustnotshootmyselfinordertovexthemall。\"

  \"Theyareveryanxioustoseemeblowmybrainsout,\"saidHippolyte,bitterly。

  \"Yes,they’llbeawfullyannoyediftheydon’tseeit。\"

  \"Thenyouthinktheywon’tseeit?\"

  \"Iamnottryingtoeggyouon。Onthecontrary,Ithinkitverylikelythatyoumayshootyourself;buttheprincipalthingistokeepcool,\"saidEvgeniewithadrawl,andwithgreatcondescension。

  \"IonlynowperceivewhataterriblemistakeImadeinreadingthisarticletothem,\"saidHippolyte,suddenly,addressingEvgenie,andlookingathimwithanexpressionoftrustandconfidence,asthoughhewereapplyingtoafriendforcounsel。

  \"Yes,it’sadrollsituation;Ireallydon’tknowwhatadvicetogiveyou,\"repliedEvgenie,laughing。Hippolytegazedsteadfastlyathim,butsaidnothing。Tolookathimonemighthavesupposedthathewasunconsciousatintervals。

  \"Excuseme,\"saidLebedeff,\"butdidyouobservetheyounggentleman’sstyle?’I’llgoandblowmybrainsoutinthepark,’

  sayshe,’soasnottodisturbanyone。’Hethinkshewon’tdisturbanybodyifhegoesthreeyardsaway,intothepark,andblowshisbrainsoutthere。\"

  \"Gentlemen——\"begantheprince。

  \"No,no,excuseme,mostreveredprince,\"Lebedeffinterrupted,excitedly。\"Sinceyoumusthaveobservedyourselfthatthisisnojoke,andsinceatleasthalfyourguestsmustalsohaveconcludedthatafterallthathasbeensaidthisyouthMUSTblowhisbrainsoutforhonour’ssake——I——asmasterofthishouse,andbeforethesewitnesses,nowcalluponyoutotakesteps。\"

  \"Yes,butwhatamItodo,Lebedeff?WhatstepsamItotake?I

  amready。\"

  \"I’lltellyou。Inthefirstplacehemustimmediatelydeliverupthepistolwhichheboastedof,withallitsappurtenances。IfhedoesthisIshallconsenttohisbeingallowedtospendthenightinthishouse——consideringhisfeeblestateofhealth,andofcourseconditionallyuponhisbeingunderpropersupervision。Buttomorrowhemustgoelsewhere。Excuseme,prince!Shouldherefusetodeliveruphisweapon,thenIshallinstantlyseizeoneofhisarmsandGeneralIvolgintheother,andweshallholdhimuntilthepolicearriveandtakethematterintotheirownhands。

  Mr。Ferdishenkowillkindlyfetchthem。\"

  Atthistherewasadreadfulnoise;Lebedeffdancedaboutinhisexcitement;Ferdishenkopreparedtogoforthepolice;Ganiafranticallyinsistedthatitwasallnonsense,\"fornobodywasgoingtoshootthemselves。\"EvgeniePavlovitchsaidnothing。

  \"Prince,\"whisperedHippolyte,suddenly,hiseyesallablaze,\"youdon’tsupposethatIdidnotforeseeallthishatred?\"Helookedattheprinceasthoughheexpectedhimtoreply,foramoment。\"Enough!\"headdedatlength,andaddressingthewholecompany,hecried:\"It’sallmyfault,gentlemen!Lebedeff,here’sthekey,\"hetookoutasmallbunchofkeys;\"thisone,thelastbutone——Coliawillshowyou——Colia,where’sColia?\"hecried,lookingstraightatColiaandnotseeinghim。\"Yes,he’llshowyou;hepackedthebagwithmethismorning。Takehimup,Colia;mybagisupstairsintheprince’sstudy,underthetable。

  Here’sthekey,andinthelittlecaseyou’llfindmypistolandthepowder,andall。Coliapackedithimself,Mr。Lebedeff;he’llshowyou;butit’sonconditionthattomorrowmorning,whenI

  leaveforPetersburg,youwillgivemebackmypistol,doyouhear?Idothisfortheprince’ssake,notyours。\"

  \"Capital,that’smuchbetter!\"criedLebedeff,andseizingthekeyhemadeoffinhaste。

  Coliastoppedamomentasthoughhewishedtosaysomething;butLebedeffdraggedhimaway。

  Hippolytelookedaroundatthelaughingguests。Theprinceobservedthathisteethwerechatteringasthoughinaviolentattackofague。

  \"Whatbrutestheyallare!\"hewhisperedtotheprince。Wheneverheaddressedhimheloweredhisvoice。

  \"Letthemalone,you’retooweaknow——\"

  Yes,directly;I’llgoawaydirectly。I’ll——\"

  SuddenlyheembracedMuishkin。

  \"PerhapsyouthinkIammad,eh?\"heaskedhim,laughingverystrangely。

  \"No,butyou——\"

  \"Directly,directly!Standstillamoment,Iwishtolookinyoureyes;don’tspeak——standso——letmelookatyou!Iambiddingfarewelltomankind。\"

  Hestoodsofortenseconds,gazingattheprince,motionless,deadlypale,histempleswetwithperspiration;heheldtheprince’shandinastrangegrip,asthoughafraidtolethimgo。

  \"Hippolyte,Hippolyte,whatisthematterwithyou?\"criedMuishkin。

  \"Directly!There,that’senough。I’llliedowndirectly。Imustdrinktothesun’shealth。Iwishto——Iinsistuponit!Letgo!\"

  Heseizedaglassfromthetable,brokeawayfromtheprince,andinamomenthadreachedtheterracesteps。

  Theprincemadeafterhim,butitsohappenedthatatthismomentEvgeniePavlovitchstretchedouthishandtosaygood-night。Thenextinstanttherewasageneraloutcry,andthenfollowedafewmomentsofindescribableexcitement。

  Reachingthesteps,Hippolytehadpaused,holdingtheglassinhislefthandwhileheputhisrighthandintohiscoatpocket。

  Kellerinsistedafterwardsthathehadheldhisrighthandinhispocketallthewhile,whenhewasspeakingtotheprince,andthathehadheldthelatter’sshoulderwithhislefthandonly。

  Thiscircumstance,Kelleraffirmed,hadledhimtofeelsomesuspicionfromthefirst。Howeverthismaybe,KellerranafterHippolyte,buthewastoolate。

  HecaughtsightofsomethingflashinginHippolyte’srighthand,andsawthatitwasapistol。Herushedathim,butatthatveryinstantHippolyteraisedthepistoltohistempleandpulledthetrigger。Therefollowedasharpmetallicclick,butnoreport。

  WhenKellerseizedthewould-besuicide,thelatterfellforwardintohisarms,probablyactuallybelievingthathewasshot。

  Kellerhadholdofthepistolnow。Hippolytewasimmediatelyplacedinachair,whilethewholecompanythrongedaroundexcitedly,talkingandaskingeachotherquestions。Everyoneofthemhadheardthesnapofthetrigger,andyettheysawaliveandapparentlyunharmedmanbeforethem。

  Hippolytehimselfsatquiteunconsciousofwhatwasgoingon,andgazedaroundwithasenselessexpression。

  LebedeffandColiacamerushingupatthismoment。

  \"Whatisit?\"someoneasked,breathlessly——\"Amisfire?\"

  \"Perhapsitwasn’tloaded,\"saidseveralvoices。

  \"It’sloadedallright,\"saidKeller,examiningthepistol,\"but——\"

  \"What!diditmissfire?\"

  \"Therewasnocapinit,\"Kellerannounced。

  Itwouldbedifficulttodescribethepitiablescenethatnowfollowed。Thefirstsensationofalarmsoongaveplacetoamusement;someburstoutlaughingloudandheartily,andseemedtofindamalicioussatisfactioninthejoke。PoorHippolytesobbedhysterically;hewrunghishands;heapproachedeveryoneinturn——evenFerdishenko——andtookthembybothhands,andsworesolemnlythathehadforgotten——absolutelyforgotten——

  \"accidentally,andnotonpurpose,\"——toputacapin——thathe\"hadtenofthem,atleast,inhispocket。\"Hepulledthemoutandshowedthemtoeveryone;heprotestedthathehadnotlikedtoputoneinbeforehandforfearofanaccidentalexplosioninhispocket。Thathehadthoughthewouldhavelotsoftimetoputitinafterwards——whenrequired——and,that,intheheatofthemoment,hehadforgottenallaboutit。Hethrewhimselfupontheprince,thenonEvgeniePavlovitch。HeentreatedKellertogivehimbackthepistol,andhe’dsoonshowthemallthat\"hishonour——hishonour,\"——buthewas\"dishonoured,now,forever!\"

  Hefellsenselessatlast——andwascarriedintotheprince’sstudy。

  Lebedeff,nowquitesobereddown,sentforadoctor;andheandhisdaughter,withBurdovskyandGeneralIvolgin,remainedbythesickman’scouch。

  Whenhewascarriedawayunconscious,Kellerstoodinthemiddleoftheroom,andmadethefollowingdeclarationtothecompanyingeneral,inaloudtoneofvoice,withemphasisuponeachword。

  \"Gentlemen,ifanyoneofyoucastsanydoubtagain,beforeme,uponHippolyte’sgoodfaith,orhintsthatthecapwasforgottenintentionally,orsuggeststhatthisunhappyboywasactingapartbeforeus,Ibegtoannouncethatthepersonsospeakingshallaccounttomeforhiswords。\"

  Noonereplied。

  Thecompanydepartedveryquickly,inamass。Ptitsin,Gania,andRogojinwentawaytogether。

  TheprincewasmuchastonishedthatEvgeniePavlovitchchangedhismind,andtookhisdeparturewithouttheconversationhehadrequested。

  \"Why,youwishedtohaveatalkwithmewhentheothersleft?\"hesaid。

  \"Quiteso,\"saidEvgenie,sittingdownsuddenlybesidehim,\"butIhavechangedmymindforthetimebeing。Iconfess,Iamtoodisturbed,andso,Ithink,areyou;andthematterastowhichI

  wishedtoconsultyouistooserioustotacklewithone’smindevenalittledisturbed;tooseriousbothformyselfandforyou。

  Yousee,prince,foronceinmylifeIwishtoperformanabsolutelyhonestaction,thatis,anactionwithnoulteriormotive;andIthinkIamhardlyinaconditiontotalkofitjustatthismoment,and——and——well,we’lldiscussitanothertime。

  Perhapsthemattermaygaininclearnessifwewaitfortwoorthreedays——justthetwoorthreedayswhichImustspendinPetersburg。\"

  Hereheroseagainfromhischair,sothatitseemedstrangethatheshouldhavethoughtitworthwhiletositdownatall。

  Theprincethought,too,thathelookedvexedandannoyed,andnotnearlysofriendlytowardshimselfashehadbeenearlierinthenight。

  \"Isupposeyouwillgotothesufferer’sbedsidenow?\"headded。

  \"Yes,Iamafraid……\"begantheprince。

  \"Oh,youneedn’tfear!He’llliveanothersixweeksallright。

  Verylikelyhewillrecoveraltogether;butIstronglyadviseyoutopackhimofftomorrow。\"

  \"IthinkImayhaveoffendedhimbysayingnothingjustnow。IamafraidhemaysuspectthatIdoubtedhisgoodfaith,——aboutshootinghimself,youknow。Whatdoyouthink,EvgeniePavlovitch?\"

  \"Notabitofit!Youaremuchtoogoodtohim;youshouldn’tcareahangaboutwhathethinks。Ihaveheardofsuchthingsbefore,butnevercameacross,tilltonight,amanwhowouldactuallyshoothimselfinordertogainavulgarnotoriety,orblowouthisbrainsforspite,ifhefindsthatpeopledon’tcaretopathimonthebackforhissanguinaryintentions。Butwhatastonishesmemorethananythingisthefellow’scandidconfessionofweakness。You’dbettergetridofhimtomorrow,inanycase。

  \"Doyouthinkhewillmakeanotherattempt?\"

  \"Ohno,nothe,notnow!Butyouhavetobeverycarefulwiththissortofgentleman。Crimeistoooftenthelastresourceofthesepettynonentities。Thisyoungfellowisquitecapableofcuttingthethroatsoftenpeople,simplyforalark,ashetoldusinhis’explanation。’Iassureyouthoseconfoundedwordsofhiswillnotletmesleep。\"

  \"Ithinkyoudisturbyourselftoomuch。\"

  \"Whatanextraordinarypersonyouare,prince!Doyoumeantosaythatyoudoubtthefactthatheiscapableofmurderingtenmen?\"

  \"Idaren’tsay,onewayortheother;allthisisverystrange——

  but——\"

  \"Well,asyoulike,justasyoulike,\"saidEvgeniePavlovitch,irritably。\"Onlyyouaresuchapluckyfellow,takecareyoudon’tgetincludedamongthetenvictims!\"

  \"Oh,heismuchmorelikelynottokillanyoneatall,\"saidtheprince,gazingthoughtfullyatEvgenie。Thelatterlaugheddisagreeably。

  \"Well,aurevoir!Didyouobservethathe’willed’acopyofhisconfessiontoAglayaIvanovna?\"

  \"Yes,Idid;Iamthinkingofit。\"

  \"Inconnectionwith’theten,’eh?\"laughedEvgenie,ashelefttheroom。

  Anhourlater,towardsfouro’clock,theprincewentintothepark。Hehadendeavouredtofallasleep,butcouldnot,owingtothepainfulbeatingofhisheart。

  Hehadleftthingsquietandpeaceful;theinvalidwasfastasleep,andthedoctor,whohadbeencalledin,hadstatedthattherewasnospecialdanger。Lebedeff,Colia,andBurdovskywerelyingdowninthesick-room,readytotakeitinturnstowatch。

  Therewasnothingtofear,therefore,athome。

  Buttheprince’smentalperturbationincreasedeverymoment。Hewanderedaboutthepark,lookingabsentlyaroundhim,andpausedinastonishmentwhenhesuddenlyfoundhimselfintheemptyspacewiththerowsofchairsroundit,neartheVauxhall。Thelookoftheplacestruckhimasdreadfulnow:soheturnedroundandwentbythepathwhichhehadfollowedwiththeEpanchinsonthewaytotheband,untilhereachedthegreenbenchwhichAglayahadpointedoutfortheirrendezvous。Hesatdownonitandsuddenlyburstintoaloudfitoflaughter,immediatelyfollowedbyafeelingofirritation。Hisdisturbanceofmindcontinued;hefeltthathemustgoawaysomewhere,anywhere。

  Abovehisheadsomelittlebirdsangout,ofasudden;hebegantopeeraboutforitamongtheleaves。Suddenlythebirddartedoutofthetreeandaway,andinstantlyhethoughtofthe\"flybuzzingaboutinthesun’srays\"thatHippolytehadtalkedof;

  howthatitknewitsplaceandwasaparticipatorintheuniversallife,whilehealonewasan\"outcast。\"Thispicturehadimpressedhimatthetime,andhemeditateduponitnow。Anold,forgottenmemoryawokeinhisbrain,andsuddenlyburstintoclearnessandlight。ItwasarecollectionofSwitzerland,duringthefirstyearofhiscure,theveryfirstmonths。Atthattimehehadbeenprettynearlyanidiotstill;hecouldnotspeakproperly,andhaddifficultyinunderstandingwhenothersspoketohim。Heclimbedthemountain-side,onesunnymorning,andwanderedlongandaimlesslywithacertainthoughtinhisbrain,whichwouldnotbecomeclear。Abovehimwastheblazingsky,below,thelake;allaroundwasthehorizon,clearandinfinite。

  Helookedoutuponthis,longandanxiously。Herememberedhowhehadstretchedouthisarmstowardsthebeautiful,boundlessblueofthehorizon,andwept,andwept。Whathadsotormentedhimwastheideathathewasastrangertoallthis,thathewasoutsidethisgloriousfestival。

  Whatwasthisuniverse?Whatwasthisgrand,eternalpageanttowhichhehadyearnedfromhischildhoodup,andinwhichhecouldnevertakepart?Everymorningthesamemagnificentsun;everymorningthesamerainbowinthewaterfall;everyeveningthesameglowonthesnow-mountains。

  Everylittleflythatbuzzedinthesun’srayswasasingerintheuniversalchorus,\"knewitsplace,andwashappyinit。

  \"Everybladeofgrassgrewandwashappy。Everythingknewitspathandlovedit,wentforthwithasongandreturnedwithasong;onlyheknewnothing,understoodnothing,neithermennorwords,noranyofnature’svoices;hewasastrangerandanoutcast。

  Oh,hecouldnotthenspeakthesewords,orexpressallhefelt!

  Hehadbeentormenteddumbly;butnowitappearedtohimthathemusthavesaidtheseverywords——eventhen——andthatHippolytemusthavetakenhispictureofthelittleflyfromhistearsandwordsofthattime。

  Hewassureofit,andhisheartbeatexcitedlyatthethought,heknewnotwhy。

  Hefellasleeponthebench;buthismentaldisquietcontinuedthroughhisslumbers。

  Justbeforehedozedoff,theideaofHippolytemurderingtenmenflittedthroughhisbrain,andhesmiledattheabsurdityofsuchathought。

  Aroundhimallwasquiet;onlytheflutterandwhisperoftheleavesbrokethesilence,butbrokeitonlytocauseittoappearyetmoredeepandstill。

  Hedreamedmanydreamsashesatthere,andallwerefullofdisquiet,sothatheshudderedeverymoment。

  Atlengthawomanseemedtoapproachhim。Heknewher,oh!heknewheronlytoowell。Hecouldalwaysnameherandrecognizeheranywhere;but,strange,sheseemedtohavequiteadifferentfacefromhers,ashehadknownit,andhefeltatormentingdesiretobeabletosayshewasnotthesamewoman。Inthefacebeforehimtherewassuchdreadfulremorseandhorrorthathethoughtshemustbeacriminal,thatshemusthavejustcommittedsomeawfulcrime。

  Tearsweretremblingonherwhitecheek。Shebeckonedhim,butplacedherfingeronherlipasthoughtowarnhimthathemustfollowherveryquietly。Hisheartfrozewithinhim。Hewouldn’t,heCOULDN’Tconfesshertobeacriminal,andyethefeltthatsomethingdreadfulwouldhappenthenextmoment,somethingwhichwouldblasthiswholelife。

  Sheseemedtowishtoshowhimsomething,notfaroff,inthepark。

  Herosefromhisseatinordertofollowher,whenabright,clearpealoflaughterrangoutbyhisside。Hefeltsomebody’shandsuddenlyinhisown,seizedit,pressedithard,andawoke。

  BeforehimstoodAglaya,laughingaloud。

  VIII。

  SHElaughed,butshewasratherangrytoo。

  \"He’sasleep!Youwereasleep,\"shesaid,withcontemptuoussurprise。

  \"Isitreallyyou?\"mutteredtheprince,notquitehimselfasyet,andrecognizingherwithastartofamazement。\"Ohyes,ofcourse,\"headded,\"thisisourrendezvous。Ifellasleephere。\"

  \"SoIsaw。\"

  \"Didnooneawakemebesidesyourself?Wastherenooneelsehere?Ithoughttherewasanotherwoman。\"

  \"Therewasanotherwomanhere?\"

  Atlasthewaswideawake。

  \"Itwasadream,ofcourse,\"hesaid,musingly。\"StrangethatI

  shouldhaveadreamlikethatatsuchamoment。Sitdown——\"

  Hetookherhandandseatedheronthebench;thensatdownbesideherandreflected。

  Aglayadidnotbegintheconversation,butcontentedherselfwithwatchinghercompanionintently。

  Helookedbackather,butattimesitwasclearthathedidnotseeherandwasnotthinkingofher。

  Aglayabegantoflushup。

  \"Ohyes!\"criedtheprince,starting。\"Hippolyte’ssuicide——\"

  \"What?Atyourhouse?\"sheasked,butwithoutmuchsurprise。\"Hewasaliveyesterdayevening,wasn’the?Howcouldyousleephereafterthat?\"shecried,growingsuddenlyanimated。

  \"Oh,buthedidn’tkillhimself;thepistoldidn’tgooff。\"

  Aglayainsistedonhearingthewholestory。Shehurriedtheprincealong,butinterruptedhimwithallsortsofquestions,nearlyallofwhichwereirrelevant。Amongotherthings,sheseemedgreatlyinterestedineverywordthatEvgeniePavlovitchhadsaid,andmadetheprincerepeatthatpartofthestoryoverandoveragain。

  \"Well,that’lldo;wemustbequick,\"sheconcluded,afterhearingall。\"Wehaveonlyanhourhere,tilleight;Imustbehomebythenwithoutfail,sothattheymaynotfindoutthatI

  cameandsatherewithyou;butI’vecomeonbusiness。Ihaveagreatdealtosaytoyou。Butyouhavebowledmeoverconsiderablywithyournews。AstoHippolyte,Ithinkhispistolwasboundnottogooff;itwasmoreconsistentwiththewholeaffair。Areyousurehereallywishedtoblowhisbrainsout,andthattherewasnohumbugaboutthematter?\"

  \"Nohumbugatall。\"

  \"Verylikely。Sohewrotethatyouweretobringmeacopyofhisconfession,didhe?Whydidn’tyoubringit?\"

  \"Why,hedidn’tdie!I’llaskhimforit,ifyoulike。\"

  \"Bringitbyallmeans;youneedn’taskhim。Hewillbedelighted,youmaybesure;for,inallprobability,heshotathimselfsimplyinorderthatImightreadhisconfession。Don’tlaughatwhatIsay,please,LefNicolaievitch,becauseitmayverywellbethecase。\"

  \"I’mnotlaughing。Iamconvinced,myself,thatthatmayhavebeenpartlythereason。

  \"Youareconvinced?Youdon’treallymeantosayyouthinkthathonestly?\"askedAglaya,extremelysurprised。

  Sheputherquestionsveryquicklyandtalkedfast,everynowandthenforgettingwhatshehadbeguntosay,andnotfinishinghersentence。Sheseemedtobeimpatienttowarntheprinceaboutsomethingorother。Shewasinastateofunusualexcitement,andthoughsheputonabraveandevendefiantair,sheseemedtoberatheralarmed。Shewasdressedverysimply,butthissuitedherwell。Shecontinuallytrembledandblushed,andshesatontheveryedgeoftheseat。

  Thefactthattheprinceconfirmedheridea,aboutHippolyteshootinghimselfthatshemightreadhisconfession,surprisedhergreatly。

  \"Ofcourse,\"addedtheprince,\"hewishedusalltoapplaudhisconduct——besidesyourself。\"

  \"Howdoyoumean——applaud?\"

  \"Well——howamItoexplain?Hewasveryanxiousthatweshouldallcomearoundhim,andsayweweresosorryforhim,andthatwelovedhimverymuch,andallthat;andthatwehopedhewouldn’tkillhimself,butremainalive。Verylikelyhethoughtmoreofyouthantherestofus,becausehementionedyouatsuchamoment,thoughperhapshedidnotknowhimselfthathehadyouinhismind’seye。\"

  \"Idon’tunderstandyou。Howcouldhehavemeinview,andnotbeawareofithimself?Andyet,Idon’tknow——perhapsIdo。DoyouknowIhaveintendedtopoisonmyselfatleastthirtytimes——eversinceIwasthirteenorso——andtowritetomyparentsbeforeI

  didit?Iusedtothinkhowniceitwouldbetolieinmycoffin,andhavethemallweepingovermeandsayingitwasalltheirfaultforbeingsocruel,andallthat——whatareyousmilingat?\"

  sheadded,knittingherbrow。\"WhatdoYOUthinkofwhenyougomooningaboutalone?Isupposeyouimagineyourselfafield-

  marshal,andthinkyouhaveconqueredNapoleon?\"

  \"Well,Ireallyhavethoughtsomethingofthesortnowandthen,especiallywhenjustdozingoff,\"laughedtheprince。\"OnlyitistheAustrianswhomIconquer——notNapoleon。\"

  \"Idon’twishtojokewithyou,LefNicolaievitch。IshallseeHippolytemyself。Tellhimso。Asforyou,Ithinkyouarebehavingverybadly,becauseitisnotrighttojudgeaman’ssoulasyouarejudgingHippolyte’s。Youhavenogentleness,butonlyjustice——soyouareunjust。\"

  Theprincereflected。

  \"Ithinkyouareunfairtowardsme,\"hesaid。\"ThereisnothingwronginthethoughtsIascribetoHippolyte;theyareonlynatural。ButofcourseIdon’tknowforcertainwhathethought。

  Perhapshethoughtnothing,butsimplylongedtoseehumanfacesoncemore,andtohearhumanpraiseandfeelhumanaffection。Whoknows?Onlyitallcameoutwrong,somehow。Somepeoplehaveluck,andeverythingcomesoutrightwiththem;othershavenone,andneverathingturnsoutfortunately。\"

  \"Isupposeyouhavefeltthatinyourowncase,\"saidAglaya。

  \"Yes,Ihave,\"repliedtheprince,quiteunsuspiciousofanyironyintheremark。

  \"H’m——well,atallevents,Ishouldn’thavefallenasleephere,inyourplace。Itwasn’tniceofyou,that。Isupposeyoufallasleepwhereveryousitdown?\"

  \"ButIdidn’tsleepawinkallnight。Iwalkedandwalkedabout,andwenttowherethemusicwas——\"

  \"Whatmusic?\"

  \"Wheretheyplayedlastnight。ThenIfoundthisbenchandsatdown,andthoughtandthought——andatlastIfellfastasleep。\"

  \"Oh,isthatit?Thatmakesadifference,perhaps。Whatdidyougotothebandstandfor?\"

  \"Idon’tknow;I——\"

  \"Verywell——afterwards。Youarealwaysinterruptingme。Whatwomanwasityouweredreamingabout?\"

  \"Itwas——about——yousawher——\"

  \"Quiteso;Iunderstand。Iunderstandquitewell。Youarevery——

  Well,howdidsheappeartoyou?Whatdidshelooklike?No,I

  don’twanttoknowanythingabouther,\"saidAglaya,angrily;

  \"don’tinterruptme——\"

  Shepausedamomentasthoughgettingbreath,ortryingtomasterherfeelingofannoyance。

  \"Lookhere;thisiswhatIcalledyouherefor。Iwishtomakeyoua——toaskyoutobemyfriend。Whatdoyoustareatmelikethatfor?\"sheadded,almostangrily。

  Theprincecertainlyhaddartedaratherpiercinglookather,andnowobservedthatshehadbeguntoblushviolently。Atsuchmoments,themoreAglayablushed,theangriershegrewwithherself;andthiswasclearlyexpressedinhereyes,whichflashedlikefire。Asarule,sheventedherwrathonherunfortunatecompanion,beitwhoitmight。Shewasveryconsciousofherownshyness,andwasnotnearlysotalkativeashersistersforthisreason——infact,attimesshewasmuchtooquiet。When,therefore,shewasboundtotalk,especiallyatsuchdelicatemomentsasthis,sheinvariablydidsowithanairofhaughtydefiance。Shealwaysknewbeforehandwhenshewasgoingtoblush,longbeforetheblushcame。

  \"Perhapsyoudonotwishtoacceptmyproposition?\"sheasked,gazinghaughtilyattheprince。

  \"Ohyes,Ido;butitissounnecessary。Imean,Ididnotthinkyouneedmakesuchaproposition,\"saidtheprince,lookingconfused。

  \"Whatdidyousuppose,then?WhydidyouthinkIinvitedyououthere?Isupposeyouthinkmea’littlefool,’astheyallcallmeathome?\"

  \"Ididn’tknowtheycalledyouafool。Icertainlydon’tthinkyouone。\"

  \"Youdon’tthinkmeone!Oh,dearme!——that’sverycleverofyou;

  youputitsoneatly,too。\"

  \"Inmyopinion,youarefarfromafoolsometimes——infact,youareveryintelligent。YousaidaverycleverthingjustnowaboutmybeingunjustbecauseIhadONLYjustice。Ishallrememberthat,andthinkaboutit。\"

  Aglayablushedwithpleasure。Allthesechangesinherexpressioncameaboutsonaturallyandsorapidly——theydelightedtheprince;hewatchedher,andlaughed。

  \"Listen,\"shebeganagain;\"Ihavelongwaitedtotellyouallthis,eversincethetimewhenyousentmethatletter——evenbeforethat。HalfofwhatIhavetosayyouheardyesterday。I

  consideryouthemosthonestanduprightofmen——morehonestanduprightthananyotherman;andifanybodysaysthatyourmindis——issometimesaffected,youknow——itisunfair。Ialwayssaysoandupholdit,becauseevenifyoursurfacemindbealittleaffectedofcourseyouwillnotfeelangrywithmefortalkingso——Iamspeakingfromahigherpointofviewyetyourrealmindisfarbetterthanalltheirsputtogether。SuchamindastheyhaveneverevenDREAMEDof;becausereally,thereareTWOminds——

  thekindthatmatters,andthekindthatdoesn’tmatter。Isn’titso?\"

  \"Maybe!maybeso!\"saidtheprince,faintly;hisheartwasbeatingpainfully。

  \"Iknewyouwouldnotmisunderstandme,\"shesaid,triumphantly。

  \"PrinceS。andEvgeniePavlovitchandAlexandradon’tunderstandanythingaboutthesetwokindsofmind,but,justfancy,mammadoes!\"

  \"YouareverylikeLizabethaProkofievna。\"

  \"What!surelynot?\"saidAglaya。

  \"Yes,youare,indeed。\"

  \"Thankyou;Iamgladtobelikemamma,\"shesaid,thoughtfully。

  \"Yourespectherverymuch,don’tyou?\"sheadded,quiteunconsciousofthenaivenessofthequestion。

  \"VERYmuch;andIamsogladthatyouhaverealizedthefact。\"

  \"Iamveryglad,too,becausesheisoftenlaughedatbypeople。

  Butlistentothechiefpoint。Ihavelongthoughtoverthematter,andatlastIhavechosenyou。Idon’twishpeopletolaughatme;Idon’twishpeopletothinkmea’littlefool。’I

  don’twanttobechaffed。Ifeltallthisofasudden,andI

  refusedEvgeniePavlovitchflatly,becauseIamnotgoingtobeforeverthrownatpeople’sheadstobemarried。Iwant——Iwant——

  well,I’lltellyou,Iwishtorunawayfromhome,andIhavechosenyoutohelpme。\"

  \"Runawayfromhome?\"criedtheprince。

  \"Yes——yes——yes!Runawayfromhome!\"sherepeated,inatransportofrage。\"Iwon’t,Iwon’tbemadetoblusheveryminutebythemall!Idon’twanttoblushbeforePrinceS。orEvgeniePavlovitch,oranyone,andthereforeIhavechosenyou。Ishalltellyoueverything,EVERYTHING,eventhemostimportantthingsofall,wheneverIlike,andyouaretohidenothingfrommeonyourside。Iwanttospeaktoatleastoneperson,asIwouldtomyself。TheyhavesuddenlybeguntosaythatIamwaitingforyou,andinlovewithyou。Theybeganthisbeforeyouarrivedhere,andsoIdidn’tshowthemtheletter,andnowtheyallsayit,everyoneofthem。Iwanttobebrave,andbeafraidofnobody。Idon’twanttogototheirballsandthings——Iwanttodogood。Ihavelongdesiredtorunaway,forIhavebeenkeptshutupfortwentyyears,andtheyarealwaystryingtomarrymeoff。IwantedtorunawaywhenIwasfourteenyearsold——Iwasalittlefoolthen,Iknow——butnowIhaveworkeditallout,andI

  havewaitedforyoutotellmeaboutforeigncountries。IhaveneverseenasingleGothiccathedral。ImustgotoRome;Imustseeallthemuseums;ImuststudyinParis。AllthislastyearI

  havebeenpreparingandreadingforbiddenbooks。AlexandraandAdelaidaareallowedtoreadanythingtheylike,butImayn’t。I

  don’twanttoquarrelwithmysisters,butItoldmyparentslongagothatIwishtochangemysocialposition。Ihavedecidedtotakeupteaching,andIcountonyoubecauseyousaidyoulovedchildren。Canwegoinforeducationtogether——ifnotatonce,thenafterwards?Wecoulddogoodtogether。Iwon’tbeageneral’sdaughteranymore!Tellme,areyouaverylearnedman?\"

  \"Ohno;notatall。\"

  \"Oh-h-h!I’msorryforthat。Ithoughtyouwere。IwonderwhyI

  alwaysthoughtso——butatalleventsyou’llhelpme,won’tyou?

  BecauseI’vechosenyou,youknow。\"

  \"AglayaIvanovna,it’sabsurd。\"

  ButIwill,IWILLrunaway!\"shecried——andhereyesflashedagainwithanger——\"andifyoudon’tagreeIshallgoandmarryGavrilaArdalionovitch!Iwon’tbeconsideredahorriblegirl,andaccusedofgoodnessknowswhat。\"

  \"Areyououtofyourmind?\"criedtheprince,almoststartingfromhisseat。\"Whatdotheyaccuseyouof?Whoaccusesyou?\"

  \"Athome,everybody,mother,mysisters,PrinceS。,eventhatdetestableColia!Iftheydon’tsayit,theythinkit。Itoldthemallsototheirfaces。Itoldmotherandfatherandeverybody。Mammawasillallthedayafterit,andnextdayfatherandAlexandratoldmethatIdidn’tunderstandwhatnonsenseIwastalking。Iinformedthemthattheylittleknewme——

  Iwasnotasmallchild——Iunderstoodeverywordinthelanguage——

  thatIhadreadacoupleofPauldeKok’snovelstwoyearssinceonpurpose,soastoknowallabouteverything。Nosoonerdidmammahearmesaythisthanshenearlyfainted!\"

  Astrangethoughtpassedthroughtheprince’sbrain;hegazedintentlyatAglayaandsmiled。

  HecouldnotbelievethatthiswasthesamehaughtyyounggirlwhohadoncesoproudlyshownhimGania’sletter。Hecouldnotunderstandhowthatproudandausterebeautycouldshowherselftobesuchanutterchild——achildwhoprobablydidnotevennowunderstandsomewords。

  \"Haveyoualwayslivedathome,AglayaIvanovna?\"heasked。\"I

  mean,haveyouneverbeentoschool,orcollege,oranything?\"

  \"No——never——nowhere!I’vebeenathomeallmylife,corkedupinabottle;andtheyexpectmetobemarriedstraightoutofit。

  Whatareyoulaughingatagain?Iobservethatyou,too,havetakentolaughingatme,andrangeyourselfontheirsideagainstme,\"sheadded,frowningangrily。\"Don’tirritateme——I’mbadenoughwithoutthat——Idon’tknowwhatIamdoingsometimes。IampersuadedthatyoucameheretodayinthefullbeliefthatIaminlovewithyou,andthatIarrangedthismeetingbecauseofthat,\"shecried,withannoyance。

  \"IadmitIwasafraidthatthatwasthecase,yesterday,\"

  blunderedtheprincehewasratherconfused,\"buttodayIamquiteconvincedthat\"

  \"How?\"criedAglaya——andherlowerliptrembledviolently。\"YouwereAFRAIDthatI——youdaredtothinkthatI——goodgracious!yoususpected,perhaps,thatIsentforyoutocomehereinordertocatchyouinatrap,sothattheyshouldfindusheretogether,andmakeyoumarryme——\"

  \"AglayaIvanovna,aren’tyouashamedofsayingsuchathing?Howcouldsuchahorribleideaenteryoursweet,innocentheart?Iamcertainyoudon’tbelieveawordofwhatyousay,andprobablyyoudon’tevenknowwhatyouaretalkingabout。\"

  Aglayasatwithhereyesontheground;sheseemedtohavealarmedevenherselfbywhatshehadsaid。

  \"No,I’mnot;I’mnotabitashamed!\"shemurmured。\"Andhowdoyouknowmyheartisinnocent?Andhowdaredyousendmealove——

  letterthattime?\"

  \"LOVE-LETTER?Myletteralove-letter?Thatletterwasthemostrespectfulofletters;itwentstraightfrommyheart,atwhatwasperhapsthemostpainfulmomentofmylife!Ithoughtofyouatthetimeasakindoflight。I——\"

  \"Well,verywell,verywell!\"shesaid,butquiteinadifferenttone。Shewasremorsefulnow,andbentforwardtotouchhisshoulder,thoughstilltryingnottolookhimintheface,asifthemorepersuasivelytobeghimnottobeangrywithher。\"Verywell,\"shecontinued,lookingthoroughlyashamedofherself,\"I

  feelthatIsaidaveryfoolishthing。Ionlydiditjusttotryyou。Takeitasunsaid,andifIoffendedyou,forgiveme。Don’tlookstraightatmelikethat,please;turnyourheadaway。Youcalledita’horribleidea’;Ionlysaidittoshockyou。VeryoftenIammyselfafraidofsayingwhatIintendtosay,andoutitcomesallthesame。Youhavejusttoldmethatyouwrotethatletteratthemostpainfulmomentofyourlife。Iknowwhatmomentthatwas!\"sheaddedsoftly,lookingatthegroundagain。

  \"Oh,ifyoucouldknowall!\"

  \"IDOknowall!\"shecried,withanotherburstofindignation。

  \"Youwerelivinginthesamehouseasthathorriblewomanwithwhomyouranaway。\"Shedidnotblushasshesaidthis;onthecontrary,shegrewpale,andstartedfromherseat,apparentlyobliviousofwhatshedid,andimmediatelysatdownagain。Herlipcontinuedtotrembleforalongtime。

  Therewassilenceforamoment。Theprincewastakenabackbythesuddennessofthislastreply,anddidnotknowtowhatheshouldattributeit。

  \"Idon’tloveyouabit!\"shesaidsuddenly,justasthoughthewordshadexplodedfromhermouth。

  Theprincedidnotanswer,andtherewassilenceagain。\"IloveGavrilaArdalionovitch,\"shesaid,quickly;buthardlyaudibly,andwithherheadbentlowerthanever。

  \"ThatisNOTtrue,\"saidtheprince,inanequallylowvoice。

  \"What!Itellstories,doI?Itistrue!Igavehimmypromiseacoupleofdaysagoonthisveryseat。\"

  Theprincewasstartled,andreflectedforamoment。

  \"Itisnottrue,\"herepeated,decidedly;\"youhavejustinventedit!\"

  \"Youarewonderfullypolite。Youknowheisgreatlyimproved。Helovesmebetterthanhislife。Helethishandburnbeforemyveryeyesinordertoprovetomethathelovedmebetterthanhislife!\"

  \"Heburnedhishand!\"

  \"Yes,believeitornot!It’sallthesametome!\"

  Theprincesatsilentoncemore。Aglayadidnotseemtobejoking;shewastooangryforthat。

  \"What!hebroughtacandlewithhimtothisplace?Thatis,iftheepisodehappenedhere;otherwiseIcan’t\"

  \"Yes,acandle!What’sthereimprobableaboutthat?\"

  \"Awholeone,andinacandlestick?\"

  \"Yes——no-halfacandle——anend,youknow——no,itwasawholecandle;it’sallthesame。Bequiet,can’tyou!Hebroughtaboxofmatchestoo,ifyoulike,andthenlightedthecandleandheldhisfingerinitforhalfanhourandmore!——There!Can’tthatbe?\"

  \"Isawhimyesterday,andhisfingerswereallright!\"

  Aglayasuddenlyburstoutlaughing,assimplyasachild。

  \"DoyouknowwhyIhavejusttoldyoutheselies?\"Sheappealedtotheprince,ofasudden,withthemostchildlikecandour,andwiththelaughstilltremblingonherlips。\"Becausewhenonetellsalie,ifoneinsistsonsomethingunusualandeccentric——

  somethingtoo’outoftheway’’foranything,youknow——themoreimpossiblethethingis,themoreplausibledoestheliesound。

  I’venoticedthis。ButImanageditbadly;Ididn’tknowhowtoworkit。\"Shesuddenlyfrownedagainatthispointasthoughatsomesuddenunpleasantrecollection。

  \"If\"——shebegan,lookingseriouslyandevensadlyathim——\"ifwhenIreadyouallthataboutthe’poorknight,’Iwishedto-topraiseyouforonething——IalsowishedtoshowyouthatIknewall——anddidnotapproveofyourconduct。\"

  \"Youareveryunfairtome,andtothatunfortunatewomanofwhomyouspokejustnowinsuchdreadfulterms,Aglaya。\"

  \"BecauseIknowall,all——andthatiswhyIspeakso。Iknowverywellhowyou——halfayearsince——offeredheryourhandbeforeeverybody。Don’tinterruptme。Yousee,Iammerelystatingfactswithoutanycommentuponthem。AfterthatsheranawaywithRogojin。Thenyoulivedwithheratsomevillageortown,andsheranawayfromyou。\"Aglayablusheddreadfully。\"ThenshereturnedtoRogojinagain,wholovesherlikeamadman。Thenyou——likeawisemanasyouare——camebackhereafterherassoonaseveryouheardthatshehadreturnedtoPetersburg。Yesterdayeveningyousprangforwardtoprotecther,andjustnowyoudreamedabouther。Yousee,Iknowall。Youdidcomebackhereforher,forher——nowdidn’tyou?\"

  \"Yes——forher!\"saidtheprincesoftlyandsadly,andbendinghisheaddown,quiteunconsciousofthefactthatAglayawasgazingathimwitheyeswhichburnedlikelivecoals。\"Icametofindoutsomething——Idon’tbelieveinherfuturehappinessasRogojin’swife,although——inaword,Ididnotknowhowtohelpherorwhattodoforher——butIcame,onthechance。\"

  HeglancedatAglaya,whowaslisteningwithalookofhatredonherface。

  \"Ifyoucamewithoutknowingwhy,Isupposeyouloveherverymuchindeed!\"shesaidatlast。

  \"No,\"saidtheprince,\"no,Idonotloveher。Oh!ifyouonlyknewwithwhathorrorIrecallthetimeIspentwithher!\"

  Ashudderseemedtosweepoverhiswholebodyattherecollection。

  \"Tellmeaboutit,\"saidAglaya。

  \"Thereisnothingwhichyoumightnothear。WhyIshouldwishtotellyou,andonlyyou,thisexperienceofmine,Ireallycannotsay;perhapsitreallyisbecauseIloveyouverymuch。Thisunhappywomanispersuadedthatsheisthemosthopeless,fallencreatureintheworld。Oh,donotcondemnher!Donotcaststonesather!Shehassufferedtoomuchalreadyintheconsciousnessofherownundeservedshame。

  \"Andsheisnotguilty——ohGod!——Everymomentshebemoansandbewailsherself,andcriesoutthatshedoesnotadmitanyguilt,thatsheisthevictimofcircumstances——thevictimofawickedlibertine。

  \"Butwhatevershemaysay,rememberthatshedoesnotbelieveitherself,——rememberthatshewillbelievenothingbutthatsheisaguiltycreature。

  \"WhenItriedtoridhersoulofthisgloomyfallacy,shesufferedsoterriblythatmyheartwillneverbequiteatpeacesolongasIcanrememberthatdreadfultime!——Doyouknowwhysheleftme?Simplytoprovetomewhatisnottrue——thatsheisbase。Buttheworstofitis,shedidnotrealizeherselfthatthatwasallshewantedtoprovebyherdeparture!Shewentawayinresponsetosomeinnerpromptingtodosomethingdisgraceful,inorderthatshemightsaytoherself——’There——you’vedoneanewactofshame——youdegradedcreature!’

  \"Oh,Aglaya——perhapsyoucannotunderstandallthis。Trytorealizethatintheperpetualadmissionofguiltsheprobablyfindssomedreadfulunnaturalsatisfaction——asthoughshewererevengingherselfuponsomeone。

  \"NowandthenIwasabletopersuadeheralmosttoseelightaroundheragain;butshewouldsoonfall,oncemore,intoheroldtormentingdelusions,andwouldgosofarastoreproachmeforplacingmyselfonapedestalaboveherIneverhadanideaofsuchathing!,andinformedme,inreplytomyproposalofmarriage,thatshe’didnotwantcondescendingsympathyorhelpfromanybody。’Yousawherlastnight。Youdon’tsupposeshecanbehappyamongsuchpeopleasthose——youcannotsupposethatsuchsocietyisfitforher?Youhavenoideahowwell-educatedsheis,andwhatanintellectshehas!Sheastonishedmesometimes。\"

  \"Andyoupreachedhersermonsthere,didyou?\"

  \"Ohno,\"continuedtheprincethoughtfully,notnoticingAglaya’smockingtone,\"Iwasalmostalwayssilentthere。Ioftenwishedtospeak,butIreallydidnotknowwhattosay。Insomecasesitisbesttosaynothing,Ithink。Ilovedher,yes,Ilovedherverymuchindeed;butafterwards——afterwardssheguessedall。\"

  \"Whatdidsheguess?\"

  \"ThatIonlyPITIEDher——and——andlovedhernolonger!\"

  \"Howdoyouknowthat?Howdoyouknowthatsheisnotreallyinlovewiththat——thatrichcad——themansheelopedwith?\"

  \"Ohno!Iknowsheonlylaughsathim;shehasmadeafoolofhimallalong。\"

  \"Hassheneverlaughedatyou?\"

  \"No——inanger,perhaps。Ohyes!shereproachedmedreadfullyinanger;andsufferedherself,too!Butafterwards——oh!don’tremindme——don’tremindmeofthat!\"

  Hehidhisfaceinhishands。

  \"Areyouawarethatshewritestomealmosteveryday?\"

  \"Sothatistrue,isit?\"criedtheprince,greatlyagitated。

  \"Ihadheardareportofit,butwouldnotbelieveit。\"

  \"Whomdidyouhearitfrom?\"askedAglaya,alarmed。\"Rogojinsaidsomethingaboutityesterday,butnothingdefinite。\"

  \"Yesterday!Morningorevening?Beforethemusicorafter?\"

  \"After——itwasabouttwelveo’clock。\"

  \"Ah!Well,ifitwasRogojin——butdoyouknowwhatshewritestomeabout?\"

  \"Ishouldnotbesurprisedbyanything。Sheismad!\"

  \"Therearetheletters。\"Aglayatookthreelettersoutofherpocketandthrewthemdownbeforetheprince。\"Forawholeweekshehasbeenentreatingandworryingandpersuadingmetomarryyou。She——well,sheisclever,thoughshemaybemad——muchclevererthanIam,asyousay。Well,shewritesthatsheisinlovewithmeherself,andtriestoseemeeveryday,ifonlyfromadistance。Shewritesthatyouloveme,andthatshehaslongknownitandseenit,andthatyouandshetalkedaboutme——

  there。Shewishestoseeyouhappy,andshesaysthatsheiscertainonlyIcanensureyouthehappinessyoudeserve。Shewritessuchstrange,wildletters——Ihaven’tshownthemtoanyone。Now,doyouknowwhatallthismeans?Canyouguessanything?\"

  \"Itismadness——itismerelyanotherproofofherinsanity!\"saidtheprince,andhislipstrembled。

  \"Youarecrying,aren’tyou?\"

  \"No,Aglaya。No,I’mnotcrying。\"Theprincelookedather。

  \"Well,whatamItodo?Whatdoyouadviseme?Icannotgoonreceivingtheseletters,youknow。\"

  \"Oh,letheralone,Ientreatyou!\"criedtheprince。Whatcanyoudointhisdark,gloomymystery?Letheralone,andI’lluseallmypowertopreventherwritingyouanymoreletters。\"

  \"Ifso,youareaheartlessman!\"criedAglaya。Asifyoucan’tseethatitisnotmyselfsheloves,butyou,you,andonlyyou!

  Surelyyouhavenotremarkedeverythingelseinher,andonlynotTHIS?Doyouknowwhattheselettersmean?Theymeanjealousy,sir——nothingbutpurejealousy!She——doyouthinkshewilleverreallymarrythisRogojin,asshesayshereshewill?ShewouldtakeherownlifethedayafteryouandIweremarried。\"

  Theprinceshuddered;hisheartseemedtofreezewithinhim。HegazedatAglayainwonderment;itwasdifficultforhimtorealizethatthischildwasalsoawoman。

  \"Godknows,Aglaya,thattorestoreherpeaceofmindandmakeherhappyIwouldwillinglygiveupmylife。ButIcannotloveher,andsheknowsthat。\"

  \"Oh,makeasacrificeofyourself!Thatsortofthingbecomesyouwell,youknow。Whynotdoit?Anddon’tcallme’Aglaya’;youhavedoneitseveraltimeslately。Youarebound,itisyourDUTY

  to’raise’her;youmustgooffsomewhereagaintosootheandpacifyher。Why,youloveher,youknow!\"

  \"Icannotsacrificemyselfso,thoughIadmitIdidwishtodosoonce。Whoknows,perhapsIstillwishto!ButIknowforCERTAIN,thatifshemarriedmeitwouldbeherruin;IknowthisandthereforeIleaveheralone。Ioughttogotoseehertoday;nowIshallprobablynotgo。Sheisproud,shewouldneverforgivemethenatureoftheloveIbearher,andweshouldbothberuined。

  Thismaybeunnatural,Idon’tknow;buteverythingseemsunnatural。Yousayshelovesme,asifthiswereLOVE!AsifshecouldloveME,afterwhatIhavebeenthrough!No,no,itisnotlove。\"

  \"Howpaleyouhavegrown!\"criedAglayainalarm。

  Oh,it’snothing。Ihaven’tslept,that’sall,andI’mrathertired。I——wecertainlydidtalkaboutyou,Aglaya。\"

  \"Oh,indeed,itistruethen!YOUCOULDACTUALLYTALKABOUTME

  WITHHER;and——andhowcouldyouhavebeenfondofmewhenyouhadonlyseenmeonce?\"

  \"Idon’tknow。PerhapsitwasthatIseemedtocomeuponlightinthemidstofmygloom。ItoldyouthetruthwhenIsaidIdidnotknowwhyIthoughtofyoubeforeallothers。Ofcourseitwasallasortofdream,adreamamidstthehorrorsofreality。

  AfterwardsIbegantowork。Ididnotintendtocomebackherefortwoorthreeyears——\"

  \"Thenyoucameforhersake?\"Aglaya’svoicetrembled。

  \"Yes,Icameforhersake。\"

  Therewasamomentortwoofgloomysilence。Aglayarosefromherseat。

  \"Ifyousay,\"shebeganinshakytones,\"ifyousaythatthiswomanofyoursismad——atalleventsIhavenothingtodowithherinsanefancies。Kindlytakethesethreeletters,LefNicolaievitch,andthrowthembacktoher,fromme。Andifshedares,\"criedAglayasuddenly,muchlouderthanbefore,\"ifshedaressomuchaswritemeonewordagain,tellherIshalltellmyfather,andthatsheshallbetakentoalunaticasylum。\"

  TheprincejumpedupinalarmatAglaya’ssuddenwrath,andamistseemedtocomebeforehiseyes。

  \"Youcannotreallyfeellikethat!Youdon’tmeanwhatyousay。

  Itisnottrue,\"hemurmured。

  \"ItIStrue,itIStrue,\"criedAglaya,almostbesideherselfwithrage。

  \"What’strue?What’sallthis?What’strue?\"saidanalarmedvoicejustbesidethem。

  BeforethemstoodLizabethaProkofievna。

  \"Why,it’struethatIamgoingtomarryGavrilaArdalionovitch,thatIlovehimandintendtoelopewithhimtomorrow,\"criedAglaya,turninguponhermother。\"Doyouhear?Isyourcuriositysatisfied?Areyoupleasedwithwhatyouhaveheard?\"

  Aglayarushedawayhomewardswiththesewords。

  \"H’m!well,YOUarenotgoingawayjustyet,myfriend,atallevents,\"saidLizabetha,stoppingtheprince。\"Kindlystephomewithme,andletmehavealittleexplanationofthemystery。

  Nicegoingson,these!Ihaven’tsleptawinkallnightasitis。\"

  Theprincefollowedher。

  IX。

  ARRIVEDatherhouse,LizabethaProkofievnapausedinthefirstroom。Shecouldgonofarther,andsubsidedontoacouchquiteexhausted;toofeebletoremembersomuchastoasktheprincetotakeaseat。Thiswasalargereception-room,fullofflowers,andwithaglassdoorleadingintothegarden。

  AlexandraandAdelaidacameinalmostimmediately,andlookedinquiringlyattheprinceandtheirmother。

  Thegirlsgenerallyroseataboutnineinthemorninginthecountry;Aglaya,oflate,hadbeeninthehabitofgettingupratherearlierandhavingawalkinthegarden,butnotatseveno’clock;abouteightoralittlelaterwasherusualtime。

  LizabethaProkofievna,whoreallyhadnotsleptallnight,roseatabouteightonpurposetomeetAglayainthegardenandwalkwithher;butshecouldnotfindhereitherinthegardenorinherownroom。

  Thisagitatedtheoldladyconsiderably;andsheawokeherotherdaughters。Next,shelearnedfromthemaidthatAglayahadgoneintotheparkbeforeseveno’clock。ThesistersmadeajokeofAglaya’slastfreak,andtoldtheirmotherthatifshewentintotheparktolookforher,Aglayawouldprobablybeveryangrywithher,andthatshewasprettysuretobesittingreadingonthegreenbenchthatshehadtalkedoftwoorthreedayssince,andaboutwhichshehadnearlyquarrelledwithPrinceS。,whodidnotseeanythingparticularlylovelyinit。

  Arrivedattherendezvousoftheprinceandherdaughter,andhearingthestrangewordsofthelatter,LizabethaProkofievnahadbeendreadfullyalarmed,formanyreasons。However,nowthatshehaddraggedtheprincehomewithher,shebegantofeelalittlefrightenedatwhatshehadundertaken。WhyshouldnotAglayameettheprinceintheparkandhaveatalkwithhim,evenifsuchameetingshouldbebyappointment?

  \"Don’tsuppose,prince,\"shebegan,bracingherselfupfortheeffort,\"don’tsupposethatIhavebroughtyouheretoaskquestions。Afterlastnight,Iassureyou,Iamnotsoexceedinglyanxioustoseeyouatall;Icouldhavepostponedthepleasureforalongwhile。\"Shepaused。

  \"ButatthesametimeyouwouldbeverygladtoknowhowI

  happenedtomeetAglayaIvanovnathismorning?\"Theprincefinishedherspeechforherwiththeutmostcomposure。

  \"Well,whatthen?SupposingIshouldliketoknow?\"criedLizabethaProkofievna,blushing。\"I’msureIamnotafraidofplainspeaking。I’mnotoffendinganyone,andIneverwishto,and——\"

  \"Pardonme,itisnooffencetowishtoknowthis;youarehermother。Wemetatthegreenbenchthismorning,punctuallyatseveno’clock,——accordingtoanagreementmadebyAglayaIvanovnawithmyselfyesterday。Shesaidthatshewishedtoseemeandspeaktomeaboutsomethingimportant。WemetandconversedforanhouraboutmattersconcerningAglayaIvanovnaherself,andthat’sall。\"

  \"Ofcourseitisall,myfriend。Idon’tdoubtyouforamoment,\"

  saidLizabethaProkofievnawithdignity。

  \"Welldone,prince,capital!\"criedAglaya,whoenteredtheroomatthismoment。\"ThankyouforassumingthatIwouldnotdemeanmyselfwithlies。Come,isthatenough,mamma,ordoyouintendtoputanymorequestions?\"

  \"YouknowIhaveneverneededtoblushbeforeyou,uptothisday,thoughperhapsyouwouldhavebeengladenoughtomakeme,\"

  saidLizabethaProkofievna,——withmajesty。\"Good-bye,prince;

  forgivemeforbotheringyou。Itrustyouwillrestassuredofmyunalterableesteemforyou。\"

  Theprincemadehisbowsandretiredatonce。AlexandraandAdelaidasmiledandwhisperedtoeachother,whileLizabethaProkofievnaglaredseverelyatthem。\"Weareonlylaughingattheprince’sbeautifulbows,mamma,\"saidAdelaida。\"Sometimeshebowsjustlikeameal-sack,butto-dayhewaslike——likeEvgeniePavlovitch!\"

  \"ItistheHEARTwhichisthebestteacherofrefinementanddignity,notthedancing-master,\"saidhermother,sententiously,anddepartedupstairstoherownroom,notsomuchasglancingatAglaya。

  Whentheprincereachedhome,aboutnineo’clock,hefoundVeraLebedeffandthemaidontheverandah。Theywerebothbusytryingtotidyuptheplaceafterlastnight’sdisorderlyparty。

  \"Thankgoodness,we’vejustmanagedtofinishitbeforeyoucamein!\"saidVera,joyfully。

  \"Good-morning!Myheadwhirlsso;Ididn’tsleepallnight。I

  shouldliketohaveanapnow。\"

  \"Here,ontheverandah?Verywell,I’lltellthemallnottocomeandwakeyou。Papahasgoneoutsomewhere。\"

  Theservantlefttheroom。Verawasabouttofollowher,butreturnedandapproachedtheprincewithapreoccupiedair。

  \"Prince!\"shesaid,\"havepityonthatpoorboy;don’tturnhimouttoday。\"

  \"Notfortheworld;heshalldojustashelikes。\"

  \"Hewon’tdoanyharmnow;and——anddon’tbetooseverewithhim,\"

  \"Ohdearno!Why——\"

  \"And——andyouwon’tLAUGHathim?That’sthechiefthing。\"

  \"Ohno!Never。\"

  \"HowfoolishIamtospeakofsuchthingstoamanlikeyou,\"

  saidVera,blushing。\"ThoughyouDOlooktired,\"sheadded,halfturningaway,\"youreyesaresosplendidatthismoment——sofullofhappiness。\"

  \"Really?\"askedtheprince,gleefully,andhelaughedindelight。

  ButVera,simple-mindedlittlegirlthatshewasjustlikeaboy,infact,herebecamedreadfullyconfused,ofasudden,andranhastilyoutoftheroom,laughingandblushing。

  \"Whatadearlittlethingsheis,\"thoughttheprince,andimmediatelyforgotallabouther。

  Hewalkedtothefarendoftheverandah,wherethesofastood,withatableinfrontofit。Herehesatdownandcoveredhisfacewithhishands,andsoremainedfortenminutes。Suddenlyheputhishandinhiscoat-pocketandhurriedlyproducedthreeletters。

  Butthedooropenedagain,andoutcameColia。

  Theprinceactuallyfeltgladthathehadbeeninterrupted,——andmightreturntheletterstohispocket。Hewasgladoftherespite。

  \"Well,\"saidColia,plunginginmediasres,ashealwaysdid,\"here’sago!WhatdoyouthinkofHippolytenow?Don’trespecthimanylonger,eh?\"

  \"Whynot?Butlookhere,Colia,I’mtired;besides,thesubjectistoomelancholytobeginuponagain。Howishe,though?\"

  \"Asleep——he’llsleepforacoupleofhoursyet。Iquiteunderstand——youhaven’tslept——youwalkedaboutthepark,Iknow。

  Agitation——excitement——allthatsortofthing——quitenatural,too!\"

  \"HowdoyouknowIwalkedintheparkanddidn’tsleepathome?\"

  \"Verajusttoldme。Shetriedtopersuademenottocome,butI

  couldn’thelpmyself,justforoneminute。Ihavebeenhavingmyturnatthebedsideforthelasttwohours;KostiaLebedeffistherenow。Burdovskyhasgone。Now,liedown,prince,makeyourselfcomfortable,andsleepwell!I’mawfullyimpressed,youknow。\"

  \"Naturally,allthis——\"

  \"No,no,Imeanwiththe’explanation,’especiallythatpartofitwherehetalksaboutProvidenceandafuturelife。Thereisagiganticthoughtthere。\"

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