TheprincegazedaffectionatelyatColia,who,ofcourse,hadcomeinsolelyforthepurposeoftalkingaboutthis\"giganticthought。\"
\"Butitisnotanyoneparticularthought,only;itisthegeneralcircumstancesofthecase。IfVoltairehadwrittenthisnow,orRousseau,Ishouldhavejustreaditandthoughtitremarkable,butshouldnothavebeensoIMPRESSEDbyit。Butamanwhoknowsforcertainthathehasbuttenminutestoliveandcantalklikethat——why——it’s——it’sPRIDE,thatis!Itisreallyamostextraordinary,exaltedassertionofpersonaldignity,it’s——it’sDEFIANT!WhataGIGANTICstrengthofwill,eh?Andtoaccuseafellowlikethatofnotputtinginthecaponpurpose;
it’sbaseandmean!Youknowhedeceiveduslastnight,thecunningrascal。Ineverpackedhisbagforhim,andIneversawhispistol。Hepackedithimself。Butheputmeoffmyguardlikethat,yousee。Verasaysyouaregoingtolethimstayon;I
swearthere’snodanger,especiallyaswearealwayswithhim。\"
\"Whowasbyhimatnight?\"
\"I,andBurdovsky,andKostiaLebedeff。Kellerstayedalittlewhile,andthenwentovertoLebedeff’stosleep。FerdishenkosleptatLebedeff’s,too;buthewentawayatseveno’clock。MyfatherisalwaysatLebedeff’s;buthehasgoneoutjustnow。I
daresayLebedeffwillbecominginheredirectly;hehasbeenlookingforyou;Idon’tknowwhathewants。Shallwelethiminornot,ifyouareasleep?I’mgoingtohaveanap,too。By-the-
by,suchacuriousthinghappened。Burdovskywokemeatseven,andImetmyfatherjustoutsidetheroom,sodrunk,hedidn’tevenknowme。Hestoodbeforemelikealog,andwhenherecoveredhimself,askedhurriedlyhowHippolytewas。’Yes,’hesaid,whenItoldhim,’that’sallverywell,butIREALLYcametowarnyouthatyoumustbeverycarefulwhatyousaybeforeFerdishenko。’Doyoufollowme,prince?\"
\"Yes。Isitreallyso?However,it’sallthesametous,ofcourse。\"
\"Ofcourseitis;wearenotasecretsociety;andthatbeingthecase,itisallthemorecuriousthatthegeneralshouldhavebeenonhiswaytowakemeupinordertotellmethis。\"
\"Ferdishenkohasgone,yousay?\"
\"Yes,hewentatseveno’clock。Hecameintotheroomonhiswayout;Iwaswatchingjustthen。Hesaidhewasgoingtospend’therestofthenight’atWilkin’s;there’satipsyfellow,afriendofhis,ofthatname。Well,I’moff。Oh,here’sLebedeffhimself!
Theprincewantstogotosleep,LukianTimofeyovitch,soyoumayjustgoawayagain。\"
\"Onemoment,mydearprince,justone。Imustabsolutelyspeaktoyouaboutsomethingwhichismostgrave,\"saidLebedeff,mysteriouslyandsolemnly,enteringtheroomwithabowandlookingextremelyimportant。Hehadbutjustreturned,andcarriedhishatinhishand。Helookedpreoccupiedandmostunusuallydignified。
Theprincebeggedhimtotakeachair。
\"Ihearyouhavecalledtwice;Isupposeyouarestillworriedaboutyesterday’saffair。\"
\"What,aboutthatboy,youmean?Ohdearno,yesterdaymyideaswerealittle——well——mixed。Today,Iassureyou,Ishallnotopposeintheslightestdegreeanysuggestionsitmaypleaseyoutomake。\"
\"What’supwithyouthismorning,Lebedeff?Youlooksoimportantanddignified,andyouchooseyourwordssocarefully,\"saidtheprince,smiling。
\"NicolaiArdalionovitch!\"saidLebedeff,inamostamiabletoneofvoice,addressingtheboy。\"AsIhaveacommunicationtomaketotheprincewhichconcernsonlymyself——\"
\"Ofcourse,ofcourse,notmyaffair。Allright,\"saidColia,andawayhewent。
\"Ilovethatboyforhisperception,\"saidLebedeff,lookingafterhim。\"Mydearprince,\"hecontinued,\"Ihavehadaterriblemisfortune,eitherlastnightorearlythismorning。Icannottelltheexacttime。\"
\"Whatisit?\"
\"Ihavelostfourhundredroublesoutofmysidepocket!They’regone!\"saidLebedeff,withasoursmile。
\"You’velostfourhundredroubles?Oh!I’msorryforthat。\"
\"Yes,itisseriousforapoormanwholivesbyhistoil。\"
\"Ofcourse,ofcourse!Howwasit?\"
\"Oh,thewineistoblame,ofcourse。Iconfesstoyou,prince,asIwouldtoProvidenceitself。YesterdayIreceivedfourhundredroublesfromadebtorataboutfiveintheafternoon,andcamedownherebytrain。Ihadmypurseinmypocket。WhenI
changed,Iputthemoneyintothepocketofmyplainclothes,intendingtokeepitbyme,asIexpectedtohaveanapplicantforitintheevening。\"
\"It’struethen,Lebedeff,thatyouadvertisetolendmoneyongoldorsilverarticles?\"
\"Yes,throughanagent。Myownnamedoesn’tappear。Ihavealargefamily,yousee,andatasmallpercentage——\"
\"Quiteso,quiteso。Ionlyaskedforinformation——excusethequestion。Goon。\"
\"Well,meanwhilethatsickboywasbroughthere,andthoseguestscamein,andwehadtea,and——well,wemademerry——tomyruin!
Hearingofyourbirthdayafterwards,andexcitedwiththecircumstancesoftheevening,Iranupstairsandchangedmyplainclothesoncemoreformyuniform[CivilServiceclerksinRussiawearuniform。]——youmusthavenoticedIhadmyuniformonalltheevening?Well,Iforgotthemoneyinthepocketofmyoldcoat——
youknowwhenGodwillruinamanhefirstofallbereaveshimofhissenses——anditwasonlythismorningathalf-pastseventhatIwokeupandgrabbedatmycoatpocket,firstthing。Thepocketwasempty——thepursegone,andnotatracetobefound!\"
\"Dearme!Thisisveryunpleasant!\"
\"Unpleasant!Indeeditis。Youhavefoundaveryappropriateexpression,\"saidLebedeff,politely,butwithsarcasm。
\"Butwhat’stobedone?It’saseriousmatter,\"saidtheprince,thoughtfully。\"Don’tyouthinkyoumayhavedroppeditoutofyourpocketwhilstintoxicated?\"
\"Certainly。Anythingispossiblewhenoneisintoxicated,asyouneatlyexpressit,prince。Butconsider——ifI,intoxicatedornot,droppedanobjectoutofmypocketontotheground,thatobjectoughttoremainontheground。Whereistheobject,then?\"
\"Didn’tyouputitawayinsomedrawer,perhaps?\"
\"I’velookedeverywhere,andturnedouteverything。\"
\"Iconfessthisdisturbsmeagooddeal。Someonemusthavepickeditup,then。\"
\"Ortakenitoutofmypocket——twoalternatives。\"
\"Itisverydistressing,becauseWHO——?That’sthequestion!\"
\"Mostundoubtedly,excellentprince,youhavehitit——thatistheveryquestion。Howwonderfullyyouexpresstheexactsituationinafewwords!\"
\"Come,come,Lebedeff,nosarcasm!It’saserious——\"
\"Sarcasm!\"criedLebedeff,wringinghishands。
\"Allright,allright,I’mnotangry。I’monlyputoutaboutthis。Whomdoyoususpect?\"
\"Thatisaverydifficultandcomplicatedquestion。Icannotsuspecttheservant,forshewasinthekitchenthewholeevening,nordoIsuspectanyofmychildren。\"
\"Ishouldthinknot。Goon。\"
\"Thenitmustbeoneoftheguests。\"
\"Issuchathingpossible?\"
\"Absolutelyandutterlyimpossible——andyet,soitmustbe。ButonethingIamsureof,ifitbeatheft,itwascommitted,notintheeveningwhenwewerealltogether,buteitheratnightorearlyinthemorning;therefore,byoneofthosewhoslepthere。
BurdovskyandColiaIexcept,ofcourse。Theydidnotevencomeintomyroom。\"
\"Yes,oreveniftheyhad!Butwhodidsleepwithyou?\"\"Fourofus,includingmyself,intworooms。Thegeneral,myself,Keller,andFerdishenko。Oneofusfouritmusthavebeen。Idon’tsuspectmyself,thoughsuchcaseshavebeenknown。\"
\"Oh!DOgoon,Lebedeff!Don’tdragitoutso。\"
\"Well,therearethreeleft,then——Kellerfirstly。Heisadrunkardtobeginwith,andaliberalinthesenseofotherpeople’spockets,otherwisewithmoreoftheancientknightabouthimthanofthemodernliberal。Hewaswiththesickmanatfirst,butcameoverafterwardsbecausetherewasnoplacetoliedownintheroomandthefloorwassohard。\"
\"Yoususpecthim?\"
\"IDIDsuspecthim。WhenIwokeupathalf-pastsevenandtoremyhairindespairformylossandcarelessness,Iawokethegeneral,whowassleepingthesleepofinnocencenearme。TakingintoconsiderationthesuddendisappearanceofFerdishenko,whichwassuspiciousinitself,wedecidedtosearchKeller,whowaslyingtheresleepinglikeatop。Well,wesearchedhisclothesthoroughly,andnotafarthingdidwefind;infact,hispocketsallhadholesinthem。Wefoundadirtyhandkerchief,andalove-
letterfromsomescullery-maid。Thegeneraldecidedthathewasinnocent。Weawokehimforfurtherinquiries,andhadthegreatestdifficultyinmakinghimunderstandwhatwasup。Heopenedhismouthandstared——helookedsostupidandsoabsurdlyinnocent。Itwasn’tKeller。\"
\"Oh,I’msoglad!\"saidtheprince,joyfully。\"Iwassoafraid。\"
\"Afraid!Thenyouhadsomegroundsforsupposinghemightbetheculprit?\"saidLebedeff,frowning。
\"Ohno——notabit!ItwasfoolishofmetosayIwasafraid!
Don’trepeatitplease,Lebedeff,don’ttellanyoneIsaidthat!\"
\"Mydearprince!yourwordslieinthelowestdepthofmyheart——
itistheirtomb!\"saidLebedeff,solemnly,pressinghishattotheregionofhisheart。
\"Thanks;verywell。ThenIsupposeit’sFerdishenko;thatis,I
mean,yoususpectFerdishenko?\"
\"Whomelse?\"saidLebedeff,softly,gazingintentlyintotheprincesface。
\"Ofcourse——quiteso,whomelse?Butwhataretheproofs?\"
\"Wehaveevidence。Inthefirstplace,hismysteriousdisappearanceatseveno’clock,orevenearlier。\"
\"Iknow,Coliatoldmethathehadsaidhewasoffto——Iforgetthename,somefriendofhis,tofinishthenight。\"
\"H’m!thenColiahasspokentoyoualready?\"
\"Notaboutthetheft。\"
\"Hedoesnotknowofit;Ihavekeptitasecret。Verywell,FerdishenkowentofftoWilkin’s。Thatisnotsocuriousinitself,butheretheevidenceopensoutfurther。Helefthisaddress,yousee,whenhewent。Nowprince,consider,whydidheleavehisaddress?WhydoyousupposehewentoutofhiswaytotellColiathathehadgonetoWilkin’s?WhocaredtoknowthathewasgoingtoWilkin’s?No,no!prince,thisisfinesse,thieves’finesse!Thisisasgoodassaying,’There,howcanIbeathiefwhenIleavemyaddress?I’mnotconcealingmymovementsasathiefwould。’Doyouunderstand,prince?\"
\"Ohyes,butthatisnotenough。\"
\"Secondproof。Thescentturnsouttobefalse,andtheaddressgivenisasham。Anhourafter——thatisatabouteight,IwenttoWilkin’smyself,andtherewasnotraceofFerdishenko。Themaiddidtellme,certainly,thatanhourorsosincesomeonehadbeenhammeringatthedoor,andhadsmashedthebell;shesaidshewouldnotopenthedoorbecauseshedidn’twanttowakehermaster;probablyshewastoolazytogetupherself。Suchphenomenaaremetwithoccasionally!\"
\"Butisthatallyourevidence?Itisnotenough!\"
\"Well,prince,whomarewetosuspect,then?Consider!\"saidLebedeffwithalmostservileamiability,smilingattheprince。
Therewasalookofcunninginhiseyes,however。
\"Youshouldsearchyourroomandallthecupboardsagain,\"saidtheprince,afteramomentortwoofsilentreflection。
\"ButIhavedoneso,mydearprince!\"saidLebedeff,moresweetlythanever。
\"H’m!whymustyouneedsgoupandchangeyourcoatlikethat?\"
askedtheprince,bangingthetablewithhisfist,inannoyance。
\"Oh,don’tbesoworriedonmyaccount,prince!IassureyouIamnotworthit!Atleast,notIalone。ButIseeyouaresufferingonbehalfofthecriminaltoo,forwretchedFerdishenko,infact!\"
\"Ofcourseyouhavegivenmeadisagreeableenoughthingtothinkabout,\"saidtheprince,irritably,\"butwhatareyougoingtodo,sinceyouaresosureitwasFerdishenko?\"
\"ButwhoelseCOULDitbe,myverydearprince?\"repeatedLebedeff,assweetassugaragain。\"Ifyoudon’twishmetosuspectMr。Burdovsky?\"
\"Ofcoursenot。\"
\"Northegeneral?Ha,ha,ha!\"
\"Nonsense!\"saidtheprince,angrily,turningrounduponhim。
\"Quiteso,nonsense!Ha,ha,ha!dearme!Hedidamuseme,didthegeneral!WewentoffonthehotscenttoWilkin’stogether,youknow;butImustfirstobservethatthegeneralwasevenmorethunderstruckthanImyselfthismorning,whenIawokehimafterdiscoveringthetheft;somuchsothathisveryfacechanged——hegrewredandthenpale,andatlengthflewintoaparoxysmofsuchnoblewraththatIassureyouIwasquitesurprised!Heisamostgenerous-heartedman!Hetellsliesbythethousands,I
know,butitismerelyaweakness;heisamanofthehighestfeelings;asimple-mindedmantoo,andamanwhocarriestheconvictionofinnocenceinhisveryappearance。Ilovethatman,sir;Imayhavetoldyousobefore;itisaweaknessofmine。
Well——hesuddenlystoppedinthemiddleoftheroad,openedouthiscoatandbaredhisbreast。\"Searchme,\"hesays,\"yousearchedKeller;whydon’tyousearchmetoo?Itisonlyfair!\"
sayshe。Andallthewhilehislegsandhandsweretremblingwithanger,andheaswhiteasasheetallover!SoIsaidtohim,\"Nonsense,general;ifanybodybutyourselfhadsaidthattome,I’dhavetakenmyhead,myownhead,andputitonalargedishandcarrieditroundtoanyonewhosuspectedyou;andIshouldhavesaid:’There,youseethathead?It’smyhead,andI’llgobailwiththatheadforhim!Yes,andwalkthroughthefireforhim,too。There,’saysI,’that’showI’danswerforyou,general!’Thenheembracedme,inthemiddleofthestreet,andhuggedmesotightcryingovermeallthewhilethatIcoughedfittochoke!’Youaretheonefriendlefttomeamidallmymisfortunes,’sayshe。Oh,he’samanofsentiment,that!Hewentontotellmeastoryofhowhehadbeenaccused,orsuspected,ofstealingfivehundredthousandroublesonce,asayoungman;
andhow,theverynextday,hehadrushedintoaburning,blazinghouseandsavedtheverycountwhosuspectedhim,andNinaAlexandrovnawhowasthenayounggirl,fromafierydeath。Thecountembracedhim,andthatwashowhecametomarryNinaAlexandrovna,hesaid。Asforthemoney,itwasfoundamongtheruinsnextdayinanEnglishironboxwithasecretlock;ithadgotunderthefloorsomehow,andifithadnotbeenforthefireitwouldneverhavebeenfound!Thewholethingis,ofcourse,anabsolutefabrication,thoughwhenhespokeofNinaAlexandrovnahewept!She’sagrandwoman,isNinaAlexandrovna,thoughsheisveryangrywithme!\"
\"Areyouacquaintedwithher?\"
\"Well,hardlyatall。IwishIwere,ifonlyforthesakeofjustifyingmyselfinhereyes。NinaAlexandrovnahasagrudgeagainstmefor,asshethinks,encouragingherhusbandindrinking;whereasinrealityInotonlydonotencouragehim,butIactuallykeephimoutofharm’sway,andoutofbadcompany。
Besides,he’smyfriend,prince,sothatIshallnotlosesightofhim,again。Wherehegoes,Igo。He’squitegivenupvisitingthecaptain’swidow,thoughsometimeshethinkssadlyofher,especiallyinthemorning,whenhe’sputtingonhisboots。I
don’tknowwhyit’satthattime。Buthehasnomoney,andit’snousehisgoingtoseeherwithout。Hasheborrowedanymoneyfromyou,prince?\"
\"No,hehasnot。\"
\"Ah,he’sashamedto!HeMEANTtoaskyou,Iknow,forhesaidso。Isupposehethinksthatasyougavehimsomeonceyouremember,youwouldprobablyrefuseifheaskedyouagain。\"
\"Doyouevergivehimmoney?\"
\"Prince!Money!WhyIwouldgivethatmannotonlymymoney,butmyverylife,ifhewantedit。Well,perhapsthat’sexaggeration;
notlife,we’llsay,butsomeillness,aboilorabadcough,oranythingofthatsort,Iwouldstandwithpleasure,forhissake;
forIconsiderhimagreatmanfallen——money,indeed!\"
\"H’m,thenyouDOgivehimmoney?\"
\"N-no,Ihavenevergivenhimmoney,andheknowswellthatI
willnevergivehimany;becauseIamanxioustokeephimoutofintemperateways。Heisgoingtotownwithmenow;foryoumustknowIamofftoPetersburgafterFerdishenko,whilethescentishot;I’mcertainheisthere。Ishallletthegeneralgooneway,whileIgotheother;wehavesoarrangedmattersinordertopopoutuponFerdishenko,yousee,fromdifferentsides。ButIamgoingtofollowthatnaughtyoldgeneralandcatchhim,Iknowwhere,atacertainwidow’shouse;forIthinkitwillbeagoodlesson,toputhimtoshamebycatchinghimwiththewidow。\"
\"Oh,Lebedeff,don’t,don’tmakeanyscandalaboutit!\"saidtheprince,muchagitated,andspeakinginalowvoice。
\"Notfortheworld,notfortheworld!Imerelywishtomakehimashamedofhimself。Oh,prince,greatthoughthismisfortunebetomyself,Icannothelpthinkingofhismorals!Ihaveagreatfavourtoaskofyou,esteemedprince;Iconfessthatitisthechiefobjectofmyvisit。YouknowtheIvolgins,youhaveevenlivedintheirhouse;soifyouwouldlendmeyourhelp,honouredprince,inthegeneral’sowninterestandforhisgood。\"
Lebedeffclaspedhishandsinsupplication。
\"Whathelpdoyouwantfromme?YoumaybecertainthatIammostanxioustounderstandyou,Lebedeff。\"
\"Ifeltsureofthat,orIshouldnothavecometoyou。WemightmanageitwiththehelpofNinaAlexandrovna,sothathemightbecloselywatchedinhisownhouse。UnfortunatelyIamnotonterms……otherwise……butNicolaiArdalionovitch,whoadoresyouwithallhisyouthfulsoul,mighthelp,too。\"
\"No,no!HeavenforbidthatweshouldbringNinaAlexandrovnaintothisbusiness!OrColia,either。ButperhapsIhavenotyetquiteunderstoodyou,Lebedeff?\"
Lebedeffmadeanimpatientmovement。
\"Butthereisnothingtounderstand!Sympathyandtenderness,thatisall——thatisallourpoorinvalidrequires!Youwillpermitmetoconsiderhimaninvalid?\"
\"Yes,itshowsdelicacyandintelligenceonyourpart。\"
\"Iwillexplainmyideabyapracticalexample,tomakeitclearer。Youknowthesortofmanheis。Atpresenthisonlyfailingisthatheiscrazyaboutthatcaptain’swidow,andhecannotgotoherwithoutmoney,andImeantocatchhimatherhousetoday——forhisowngood;butsupposingitwasnotonlythewidow,butthathehadcommittedarealcrime,oratleastsomeverydishonourableactionofwhichheis,ofcourse,incapable,Irepeatthateveninthatcase,ifheweretreatedwithwhatI
maycallgeneroustenderness,onecouldgetatthewholetruth,forheisverysoft-hearted!Believeme,hewouldbetrayhimselfbeforefivedayswereout;hewouldburstintotears,andmakeacleanbreastofthematter;especiallyifmanagedwithtact,andifyouandhisfamilywatchedhiseverystep,sotospeak。Oh,mydearprince,\"Lebedeffaddedmostemphatically,\"Idonotpositivelyassertthathehas……Iamready,asthesayingis,toshedmylastdropofbloodforhimthisinstant;butyouwilladmitthatdebauchery,drunkenness,andthecaptain’swidow,allthesetogethermayleadhimveryfar。\"
\"Iam,ofcourse,quitereadytoaddmyeffortstoyoursinsuchacase,\"saidtheprince,rising;\"butIconfess,Lebedeff,thatIamterriblyperplexed。Tellme,doyoustillthink……
plainly,yousayyourselfthatyoususpectMr。Ferdishenko?\"
Lebedeffclaspedhishandsoncemore。
\"Why,whoelsecouldIpossiblysuspect?Whoelse,mostoutspokenprince?\"hereplied,withanunctuoussmile。
Muishkinfrowned,androsefromhisseat。
\"Yousee,Lebedeff,amistakeherewouldbeadreadfulthing。
ThisFerdishenko,Iwouldnotsayawordagainsthim,ofcourse;
but,whoknows?Perhapsitreallywashe?Imeanhereallydoesseemtobeamorelikelymanthan……thananyother。\"
Lebedeffstrainedhiseyesandearstotakeinwhattheprincewassaying。Thelatterwasfrowningmoreandmore,andwalkingexcitedlyupanddown,tryingnottolookatLebedeff。
\"Yousee,\"hesaid,\"IwasgiventounderstandthatFerdishenkowasthatsortofman,——thatonecan’tsayeverythingbeforehim。
Onehastotakecarenottosaytoomuch,youunderstand?Isaythistoprovethathereallyis,sotospeak,morelikelytohavedonethisthananyoneelse,eh?Youunderstand?Theimportantthingis,nottomakeamistake。\"
\"AndwhotoldyouthisaboutFerdishenko?\"
\"Oh,Iwastold。OfcourseIdon’taltogetherbelieveit。IamverysorrythatIshouldhavehadtosaythis,becauseIassureyouIdon’tbelieveitmyself;itisallnonsense,ofcourse。Itwasstupidofmetosayanythingaboutit。\"
\"Yousee,itisveryimportant,itismostimportanttoknowwhereyougotthisreportfrom,\"saidLebedeff,excitedly。Hehadrisenfromhisseat,andwastryingtokeepstepwiththeprince,runningafterhim,upanddown。\"Becauselookhere,prince,I
don’tmindtellingyounowthatasweweregoingalongtoWilkin’sthismorning,aftertellingmewhatyouknowaboutthefire,andsavingthecountandallthat,thegeneralwaspleasedtodropcertainhintstothesameeffectaboutFerdishenko,butsovaguelyandclumsilythatIthoughtbettertoputafewquestionstohimonthematter,withtheresultthatIfoundthewholethingwasaninventionofhisexcellency’sownmind。Ofcourse,heonlylieswiththebestintentions;still,helies。
But,suchbeingthecase,wherecouldyouhaveheardthesamereport?Itwastheinspirationofthemomentwithhim,youunderstand,sowhocouldhavetoldYOU?Itisanimportantquestion,yousee!\"
\"ItwasColiatoldme,andhisfathertoldHIMataboutsixthismorning。Theymetatthethreshold,whenColiawasleavingtheroomforsomethingorother。\"TheprincetoldLebedeffallthatColiahadmadeknowntohimself,indetail。
\"Therenow,that’swhatwemaycallSCENT!\"saidLebedeff,rubbinghishandsandlaughingsilently。\"Ithoughtitmustbeso,yousee。Thegeneralinterruptedhisinnocentslumbers,atsixo’clock,inordertogoandwakehisbelovedson,andwarnhimofthedreadfuldangerofcompanionshipwithFerdishenko。
Dearme!whatadreadfullydangerousmanFerdishenkomustbe,andwhattouchingpaternalsolicitude,onthepartofhisexcellency,ha!ha!ha!\"
\"Listen,Lebedeff,\"begantheprince,quiteoverwhelmed;\"DOactquietly——don’tmakeascandal,Lebedeff,Iaskyou——Ientreatyou!Noonemustknow——NOONE,mind!Inthatcaseonly,Iwillhelpyou。\"
\"Beassured,mosthonourable,mostworthyofprinces——beassuredthatthewholemattershallbeburiedwithinmyheart!\"criedLebedeff,inaparoxysmofexaltation。\"I’dgiveeverydropofmyblood……Illustriousprince,Iamapoorwretchinsoulandspirit,butasktheveriestscoundrelwhetherhewouldprefertodealwithonelikehimself,orwithanoble-heartedmanlikeyou,andthereisnodoubtastohischoice!He’llanswerthatheprefersthenoble-heartedman——andthereyouhavethetriumphofvirtue!Aurevoir,honouredprince!YouandItogether——softly!
softly!\"
X。
THEprinceunderstoodatlastwhyheshiveredwithdreadeverytimehethoughtofthethreelettersinhispocket,andwhyhehadputoffreadingthemuntiltheevening。
Whenhefellintoaheavysleeponthesofaontheverandah,withouthavinghadthecouragetoopenasingleoneofthethreeenvelopes,heagaindreamedapainfuldream,andoncemorethatpoor,\"sinful\"womanappearedtohim。Againshegazedathimwithtearssparklingonherlonglashes,andbeckonedhimafterher;
andagainheawoke,asbefore,withthepictureofherfacehauntinghim。
Helongedtogetupandgotoheratonce——butheCOULDNOT。Atlength,almostindespair,heunfoldedtheletters,andbegantoreadthem。
Theseletters,too,werelikeadream。Wesometimeshavestrange,impossibledreams,contrarytoallthelawsofnature。Whenweawakewerememberthemandwonderattheirstrangeness。Youremember,perhaps,thatyouwereinfullpossessionofyourreasonduringthissuccessionoffantasticimages;eventhatyouactedwithextraordinarylogicandcunningwhilesurroundedbymurdererswhohidtheirintentionsandmadegreatdemonstrationsoffriendship,whilewaitingforanopportunitytocutyourthroat。Yourememberhowyouescapedthembysomeingeniousstratagem;thenyoudoubtediftheywerereallydeceived,orwhethertheywereonlypretendingnottoknowyourhiding-place;
thenyouthoughtofanotherplanandhoodwinkedthemonceagain。
Yourememberallthisquiteclearly,buthowisitthatyourreasoncalmlyacceptedallthemanifestabsurditiesandimpossibilitiesthatcrowdedintoyourdream?Oneofthemurdererssuddenlychangedintoawomanbeforeyourveryeyes;
thenthewomanwastransformedintoahideous,cunninglittledwarf;andyoubelievedit,andaccepteditallalmostasamatterofcourse——whileatthesametimeyourintelligenceseemedunusuallykeen,andaccomplishedmiraclesofcunning,sagacity,andlogic!Whyisitthatwhenyouawaketotheworldofrealitiesyounearlyalwaysfeel,sometimesveryvividly,thatthevanisheddreamhascarriedwithitsomeenigmawhichyouhavefailedtosolve?Yousmileattheextravaganceofyourdream,andyetyoufeelthatthistissueofabsurditycontainedsomerealidea,somethingthatbelongstoyourtruelife,——somethingthatexists,andhasalwaysexisted,inyourheart。Yousearchyourdreamforsomeprophecythatyouwereexpecting。Ithasleftadeepimpressionuponyou,joyfulorcruel,butwhatitmeans,orwhathasbeenpredictedtoyouinit,youcanneitherunderstandnorremember。
Thereadingoftheselettersproducedsomesucheffectupontheprince。Hefelt,beforeheevenopenedtheenvelopes,thattheveryfactoftheirexistencewaslikeanightmare。Howcouldsheeverhavemadeuphermindtowritetoher?heaskedhimself。Howcouldshewriteaboutthatatall?Andhowcouldsuchawildideahaveenteredherhead?Andyet,thestrangestpartofthematterwas,thatwhilehereadtheletters,hehimselfalmostbelievedinthepossibility,andeveninthejustification,oftheideahehadthoughtsowild。Ofcourseitwasamaddream,anightmare,andyettherewassomethingcruellyrealaboutit。Forhourshewashauntedbywhathehadread。Severalpassagesreturnedagainandagaintohismind,andashebroodedoverthem,hefeltinclinedtosaytohimselfthathehadforeseenandknownallthatwaswrittenhere;itevenseemedtohimthathehadreadthewholeofthissometimeorother,long,longago;andallthathadtormentedandgrievedhimuptonowwastobefoundintheseold,longsinceread,letters。
\"Whenyouopenthisletter\"sothefirstbegan,\"lookfirstatthesignature。Thesignaturewilltellyouall,sothatIneedexplainnothing,norattempttojustifymyself。WereIinanywayonafootingwithyou,youmightbeoffendedatmyaudacity;butwhoamI,andwhoareyou?Weareatsuchextremes,andIamsofarremovedfromyou,thatIcouldnotoffendyouifIwishedtodoso。\"
Fartheron,inanotherplace,shewrote:\"Donotconsidermywordsasthesicklyecstasiesofadiseasedmind,butyouare,inmyopinion——perfection!Ihaveseenyou——Iseeyoueveryday。I
donotjudgeyou;IhavenotweighedyouinthescalesofReasonandfoundyouPerfection——itissimplyanarticleoffaith。ButI
mustconfessonesinagainstyou——Iloveyou。Oneshouldnotloveperfection。Oneshouldonlylookonitasperfection——yetIaminlovewithyou。Thoughloveequalizes,donotfear。Ihavenotloweredyoutomylevel,eveninmymostsecretthoughts。Ihavewritten’Donotfear,’asifyoucouldfear。IwouldkissyourfootprintsifIcould;but,oh!Iamnotputtingmyselfonalevelwithyou!——Lookatthesignature——quick,lookatthesignature!\"
\"However,observe\"shewroteinanotheroftheletters,\"thatalthoughIcoupleyouwithhim,yetIhavenotonceaskedyouwhetheryoulovehim。Hefellinlovewithyou,thoughhesawyoubutonce。Hespokeofyouasof’thelight。’Thesearehisownwords——Iheardhimusethem。ButIunderstoodwithouthissayingitthatyouwereallthatlightistohim。Ilivednearhimforawholemonth,andIunderstoodthenthatyou,too,mustlovehim。
Ithinkofyouandhimasone。\"
\"Whatwasthematteryesterday?\"shewroteonanothersheet。\"I
passedbyyou,andyouseemedtometoBLUSH。Perhapsitwasonlymyfancy。IfIweretobringyoutothemostloathsomeden,andshowyoutherevelationofundisguisedvice——youshouldnotblush。Youcanneverfeelthesenseofpersonalaffront。Youmayhateallwhoaremean,orbase,orunworthy——butnotforyourself——onlyforthosewhomtheywrong。NoonecanwrongYOU。
Doyouknow,Ithinkyououghttoloveme——foryouarethesameinmyeyesasinhis-youareaslight。Anangelcannothate,perhapscannotlove,either。Ioftenaskmyself——isitpossibletoloveeverybody?Indeeditisnot;itisnotinnature。
Abstractloveofhumanityisnearlyalwaysloveofself。Butyouaredifferent。Youcannothelplovingall,sinceyoucancomparewithnone,andareaboveallpersonaloffenceoranger。Oh!howbitteritwouldbetometoknowthatyoufeltangerorshameonmyaccount,forthatwouldbeyourfall——youwouldbecomecomparableatoncewithsuchasme。
\"Yesterday,afterseeingyou,Iwenthomeandthoughtoutapicture。
\"ArtistsalwaysdrawtheSaviourasanactorinoneoftheGospelstories。Ishoulddodifferently。IshouldrepresentChristalone——thedisciplesdidleaveHimaloneoccasionally。IshouldpaintonelittlechildleftwithHim。ThischildhasbeenplayingaboutnearHim,andhadprobablyjustbeentellingtheSavioursomethinginitsprettybabyprattle。Christhadlistenedtoit,butwasnowmusing——onehandreposingonthechild’sbrighthead。
Hiseyeshaveafar-awayexpression。Thought,greatastheUniverse,isinthem——Hisfaceissad。ThelittleoneleansitselbowuponChrist’sknee,andwithitscheekrestingonitshand,gazesupatHim,ponderingaschildrensometimesdoponder。Thesunissetting。Thereyouhavemypicture。
\"Youareinnocent——andinyourinnocenceliesallyourperfection——oh,rememberthat!Whatismypassiontoyou?——youareminenow;Ishallbenearyouallmylife——Ishallnotlivelong!\"
Atlength,inthelastletterofall,hefound:
\"ForHeaven’ssake,don’tmisunderstandme!DonotthinkthatI
humiliatemyselfbywritingthustoyou,orthatIbelongtothatclassofpeoplewhotakeasatisfactioninhumiliatingthemselves——frompride。Ihavemyconsolation,thoughitwouldbedifficulttoexplainit——butIdonothumiliatemyself。
\"WhydoIwishtouniteyoutwo?Foryoursakesormyown?Formyownsake,naturally。Alltheproblemsofmylifewouldthusbesolved;Ihavethoughtsoforalongtime。IknowthatoncewhenyoursisterAdelaidasawmyportraitshesaidthatsuchbeautycouldoverthrowtheworld。ButIhaverenouncedtheworld。YouthinkitstrangethatIshouldsayso,foryousawmedeckedwithlaceanddiamonds,inthecompanyofdrunkardsandwastrels。Takenonoticeofthat;IknowthatIhavealmostceasedtoexist。Godknowswhatitisdwellingwithinmenow——itisnotmyself。Icanseeiteverydayintwodreadfuleyeswhicharealwayslookingatme,evenwhennotpresent。Theseeyesaresilentnow,theysaynothing;butIknowtheirsecret。Hishouseisgloomy,andthereisasecretinit。Iamconvincedthatinsomeboxhehasarazorhidden,tiedroundwithsilk,justliketheonethatMoscowmurdererhad。Thismanalsolivedwithhismother,andhadarazorhiddenaway,tiedroundwithwhitesilk,andwiththisrazorheintendedtocutathroat。
\"AllthewhileIwasintheirhouseIfeltsurethatsomewherebeneaththefloortherewashiddenawaysomedreadfulcorpse,wrappedinoil-cloth,perhapsburiedtherebyhisfather,whoknows?JustasintheMoscowcase。Icouldhaveshownyoutheveryspot!
\"Heisalwayssilent,butIknowwellthathelovesmesomuchthathemusthateme。Myweddingandyoursaretobeonthesameday;soIhavearrangedwithhim。Ihavenosecretsfromhim。I
wouldkillhimfromveryfright,buthewillkillmefirst。Hehasjustburstoutlaughing,andsaysthatIamraving。HeknowsIamwritingtoyou。\"
Therewasmuchmoreofthisdeliriouswanderingintheletters——
oneofthemwasverylong。
Atlasttheprincecameoutofthedark,gloomypark,inwhichhehadwanderedaboutforhoursjustasyesterday。Thebrightnightseemedtohimtobelighterthanever。\"Itmustbequiteearly,\"
hethought。Hehadforgottenhiswatch。Therewasasoundofdistantmusicsomewhere。\"Ah,\"hethought,\"theVauxhall!Theywon’tbetheretoday,ofcourse!\"Atthismomenthenoticedthathewasclosetotheirhouse;hehadfeltthathemustgravitatetothisspoteventually,and,withabeatingheart,hemountedtheverandahsteps。
Noonemethim;theverandahwasempty,andnearlypitchdark。Heopenedthedoorintotheroom,butit,too,wasdarkandempty。
Hestoodinthemiddleoftheroominperplexity。Suddenlythedooropened,andincameAlexandra,candleinhand。Seeingtheprinceshestoppedbeforehiminsurprise,lookingathimquestioningly。
Itwasclearthatshehadbeenmerelypassingthroughtheroomfromdoortodoor,andhadnothadtheremotestnotionthatshewouldmeetanyone。
\"Howdidyoucomehere?\"sheasked,atlast。
\"I-I——camein——\"
\"Mammaisnotverywell,norisAglaya。Adelaidahasgonetobed,andIamjustgoing。Wewerealonethewholeevening。FatherandPrinceS。havegonetotown。\"
\"Ihavecometoyou——now——to——\"
\"Doyouknowwhattimeitis?\"
\"N——no!\"
\"Half-pasttwelve。Wearealwaysinbedbyone。\"
\"I-Ithoughtitwashalf-pastnine!\"
\"Nevermind!\"shelaughed,\"butwhydidn’tyoucomeearlier?
Perhapsyouwereexpected!\"
\"Ithought\"hestammered,makingforthedoor。
\"Aurevoir!Ishallamusethemallwiththisstorytomorrow!\"
Hewalkedalongtheroadtowardshisownhouse。Hisheartwasbeating,histhoughtswereconfused,everythingaroundseemedtobepartofadream。
Andsuddenly,justastwicealreadyhehadawakedfromsleepwiththesamevision,thatveryapparitionnowseemedtoriseupbeforehim。Thewomanappearedtostepoutfromthepark,andstandinthepathinfrontofhim,asthoughshehadbeenwaitingforhimthere。
Heshudderedandstopped;sheseizedhishandandpresseditfrenziedly。
No,thiswasnoapparition!
Thereshestoodatlast,facetofacewithhim,forthefirsttimesincetheirparting。
Shesaidsomething,buthelookedsilentlybackather。Hisheartachedwithanguish。Oh!neverwouldhebanishtherecollectionofthismeetingwithher,andheneverremembereditbutwiththesamepainandagonyofmind。
Shewentonherkneesbeforehim——thereintheopenroad——likeamadwoman。Heretreatedastep,butshecaughthishandandkissedit,and,justasinhisdream,thetearsweresparklingonherlong,beautifullashes。
\"Getup!\"hesaid,inafrightenedwhisper,raisingher。\"Getupatonce!\"
\"Areyouhappy——areyouhappy?\"sheasked。\"Saythisoneword。
Areyouhappynow?Today,thismoment?Haveyoujustbeenwithher?Whatdidshesay?\"
Shedidnotrisefromherknees;shewouldnotlistentohim;sheputherquestionshurriedly,asthoughshewerepursued。
\"Iamgoingawaytomorrow,asyoubademe——Iwon’twrite——sothatthisisthelasttimeIshallseeyou,thelasttime!ThisisreallytheLASTTIME!\"
\"Oh,becalm——becalm!Getup!\"heentreated,indespair。
Shegazedthirstilyathimandclutchedhishands。
\"Good-bye!\"shesaidatlast,androseandlefthim,veryquickly。
TheprincenoticedthatRogojinhadsuddenlyappearedatherside,andhadtakenherarmandwasleadingheraway。
\"Waitaminute,prince,\"shoutedthelatter,ashewent。\"Ishallbebackinfiveminutes。\"
Hereappearedinfiveminutesashehadsaid。Theprincewaswaitingforhim。
\"I’veputherinthecarriage,\"hesaid;\"ithasbeenwaitingroundthecornertheresinceteno’clock。SheexpectedthatyouwouldbewithTHEMalltheevening。Itoldherexactlywhatyouwroteme。Shewon’twritetothegirlanymore,shepromises;andtomorrowshewillbeoff,asyouwish。Shedesiredtoseeyouforthelasttime,althoughyourefused,sowe’vebeensittingandwaitingonthatbenchtillyoushouldpassonyourwayhome。\"
\"Didshebringyouwithherofherownaccord?\"
\"Ofcourseshedid!\"saidRogojin,showinghisteeth;\"andIsawformyselfwhatIknewbefore。You’vereadherletters,I
suppose?\"
\"Didyoureadthem?\"askedtheprince,struckbythethought。
\"Ofcourse——sheshowedthemtomeherself。Youarethinkingoftherazor,eh?Ha,ha,ha!\"
\"Oh,sheismad!\"criedtheprince,wringinghishands。\"Whoknows?Perhapssheisnotsomadafterall,\"saidRogojin,softly,asthoughthinkingaloud。
Theprincemadenoreply。
\"Well,good-bye,\"saidRogojin。\"I’mofftomorrowtoo,youknow。
Remembermekindly!By-the-by,\"headded,turningroundsharplyagain,\"didyouanswerherquestionjustnow?Areyouhappy,ornot?\"
\"No,no,no!\"criedtheprince,withunspeakablesadness。
\"Ha,ha!Ineversupposedyouwouldsay’yes,’\"criedRogojin,laughingsardonically。
Andhedisappeared,withoutlookingroundagain。
PARTIV
I。
AWEEKhadelapsedsincetherendezvousofourtwofriendsonthegreenbenchinthepark,when,onefinemorningatabouthalf-
pastteno’clock,VarvaraArdalionovna,otherwiseMrs。Ptitsin,whohadbeenouttovisitafriend,returnedhomeinastateofconsiderablementaldepression。
Therearecertainpeopleofwhomitisdifficulttosayanythingwhichwillatoncethrowthemintorelief——inotherwords,describethemgraphicallyintheirtypicalcharacteristics。Thesearetheywhoaregenerallyknownas\"commonplacepeople,\"andthisclasscomprises,ofcourse,theimmensemajorityofmankind。
Authors,asarule,attempttoselectandportraytypesrarelymetwithintheirentirety,butthesetypesareneverthelessmorerealthanreallifeitself。
\"Podkoleosin\"[AcharacterinGogol’scomedy,TheWedding。]wasperhapsanexaggeration,buthewasbynomeansanon-existentcharacter;onthecontrary,howmanyintelligentpeople,afterhearingofthisPodkoleosinfromGogol,immediatelybegantofindthatscoresoftheirfriendswereexactlylikehim!Theyknew,perhaps,beforeGogoltoldthem,thattheirfriendswerelikePodkoleosin,buttheydidnotknowwhatnametogivethem。Inreallife,youngfellowsseldomjumpoutofthewindowjustbeforetheirweddings,becausesuchafeat,nottospeakofitsotheraspects,mustbeadecidedlyunpleasantmodeofescape;andyetthereareplentyofbridegrooms,intelligentfellowstoo,whowouldbereadytoconfessthemselvesPodkoleosinsinthedepthsoftheirconsciousness,justbeforemarriage。Nordoeseveryhusbandfeelboundtorepeatateverystep,\"Tul’asvoulu,GeorgesDandin!\"likeanothertypicalpersonage;andyethowmanymillionsandbillionsofGeorgesDandinsthereareinreallifewhofeelinclinedtoutterthissoul-drawncryaftertheirhoneymoon,ifnotthedayafterthewedding!Therefore,withoutenteringintoanymoreseriousexaminationofthequestion,I
willcontentmyselfwithremarkingthatinreallifetypicalcharactersare\"watereddown,\"sotospeak;andalltheseDandinsandPodkoleosinsactuallyexistamonguseveryday,butinadilutedform。Iwilljustadd,however,thatGeorgesDandinmighthaveexistedexactlyasMolierepresentedhim,andprobablydoesexistnowandthen,thoughrarely;andsoIwillendthisscientificexamination,whichisbeginningtolooklikeanewspapercriticism。Butforallthis,thequestionremains,——
whatarethenoveliststodowithcommonplacepeople,andhowaretheytobepresentedtothereaderinsuchaformastobeintheleastdegreeinteresting?Theycannotbeleftoutaltogether,forcommonplacepeoplemeetoneateveryturnoflife,andtoleavethemoutwouldbetodestroythewholerealityandprobabilityofthestory。Tofillanovelwithtypicalcharactersonly,orwithmerelystrangeanduncommonpeople,wouldrenderthebookunrealandimprobable,andwouldverylikelydestroytheinterest。Inmyopinion,thedutyofthenovelististoseekoutpointsofinterestandinstructioneveninthecharactersofcommonplacepeople。
Forinstance,whenthewholeessenceofanordinaryperson’snatureliesinhisperpetualandunchangeablecommonplaceness;
andwheninspiteofallhisendeavourstodosomethingoutofthecommon,thispersonends,eventually,byremaininginhisunbrokenlineofroutine。Ithinksuchanindividualreallydoesbecomeatypeofhisown——atypeofcommonplacenesswhichwillnotfortheworld,ifitcanhelpit,becontented,butstrainsandyearnstobesomethingoriginalandindependent,withouttheslightestpossibilityofbeingso。Tothisclassofcommonplacepeoplebelongseveralcharactersinthisnovel;——
characterswhich——Iadmit——Ihavenotdrawnveryvividlyuptonowformyreader’sbenefit。
Suchwere,forinstance,VarvaraArdalionovnaPtitsin,herhusband,andherbrother,Gania。
Thereisnothingsoannoyingastobefairlyrich,ofafairlygoodfamily,pleasingpresence,averageeducation,tobe\"notstupid,\"kind-hearted,andyettohavenotalentatall,nooriginality,notasingleideaofone’sown——tobe,infact,\"justlikeeveryoneelse。\"
Ofsuchpeopletherearecountlessnumbersinthisworld——farmoreeventhanappear。Theycanbedividedintotwoclassesasallmencan——thatis,thoseoflimitedintellect,andthosewhoaremuchcleverer。Theformeroftheseclassesisthehappier。
Toacommonplacemanoflimitedintellect,forinstance,nothingissimplerthantoimaginehimselfanoriginalcharacter,andtorevelinthatbeliefwithouttheslightestmisgiving。
Manyofouryoungwomenhavethoughtfittocuttheirhairshort,putonbluespectacles,andcallthemselvesNihilists。Bydoingthistheyhavebeenabletopersuadethemselves,withoutfurthertrouble,thattheyhaveacquirednewconvictionsoftheirown。
Somemenhavebutfeltsomelittlequalmofkindnesstowardstheirfellow-men,andthefacthasbeenquiteenoughtopersuadethemthattheystandaloneinthevanofenlightenmentandthatnoonehassuchhumanitarianfeelingsasthey。Othershavebuttoreadanideaofsomebodyelse’s,andtheycanimmediatelyassimilateitandbelievethatitwasachildoftheirownbrain。
The\"impudenceofignorance,\"ifImayusetheexpression,isdevelopedtoawonderfulextentinsuchcases;——unlikelyasitappears,itismetwithateveryturn。
ThisconfidenceofastupidmaninhisowntalentshasbeenwonderfullydepictedbyGogolintheamazingcharacterofPirogoff。Pirogoffhasnottheslightestdoubtofhisowngenius,——nay,ofhisSUPERIORITYofgenius,——socertainisheofitthatheneverquestionsit。HowmanyPirogoffshavetherenotbeenamongourwriters——scholars——propagandists?Isay\"havebeen,\"butindeedthereareplentyofthematthisveryday。
Ourfriend,Gania,belongedtotheotherclass——tothe\"muchcleverer\"persons,thoughhewasfromheadtofootpermeatedandsaturatedwiththelongingtobeoriginal。Thisclass,asIhavesaidabove,isfarlesshappy。Forthe\"clevercommonplace\"
person,thoughhemaypossiblyimaginehimselfamanofgeniusandoriginality,nonethelesshaswithinhisheartthedeathlesswormofsuspicionanddoubt;andthisdoubtsometimesbringsaclevermantodespair。Asarule,however,nothingtragichappens;——hisliverbecomesalittledamagedinthecourseoftime,nothingmoreserious。Suchmendonotgiveuptheiraspirationsafteroriginalitywithoutaseverestruggle,——andtherehavebeenmenwho,thoughgoodfellowsinthemselves,andevenbenefactorstohumanity,havesunktothelevelofbasecriminalsforthesakeoforiginality。
Ganiawasabeginner,asitwere,uponthisroad。Adeepandunchangeableconsciousnessofhisownlackoftalent,combinedwithavastlongingtobeabletopersuadehimselfthathewasoriginal,hadrankledinhisheart,evenfromchildhood。
Heseemedtohavebeenbornwithoverwroughtnerves,andinhispassionatedesiretoexcel,hewasoftenledtothebrinkofsomerashstep;andyet,havingresolveduponsuchastep,whenthemomentarrived,heinvariablyprovedtoosensibletotakeit。Hewasready,inthesameway,todoabaseactioninordertoobtainhiswished-forobject;andyet,whenthemomentcametodoit,hefoundthathewastoohonestforanygreatbaseness。Notthatheobjectedtoactsofpettymeanness——hewasalwaysreadyforTHEM。Helookedwithhateandloathingonthepovertyanddownfallofhisfamily,andtreatedhismotherwithhaughtycontempt,althoughheknewthathiswholefuturedependedonhercharacterandreputation。
Aglayahadsimplyfrightenedhim;yethedidnotgiveupallthoughtsofher——thoughheneverseriouslyhopedthatshewouldcondescendtohim。Atthetimeofhis\"adventure\"withNastasiaPhilipovnahehadcometotheconclusionthatmoneywashisonlyhope——moneyshoulddoallforhim。
AtthemomentwhenhelostAglaya,andafterthescenewithNastasia,hehadfeltsolowinhisowneyesthatheactuallybroughtthemoneybacktotheprince。Ofthisreturningofthemoneygiventohimbyamadwomanwhohadreceiveditfromamadman,hehadoftenrepentedsince——thoughheneverceasedtobeproudofhisaction。DuringtheshorttimethatMuishkinremainedinPetersburgGaniahadhadtimetocometohatehimforhissympathy,thoughtheprincetoldhimthatitwas\"noteveryonewhowouldhaveactedsonobly\"astoreturnthemoney。Hehadlongpondered,too,overhisrelationswithAglaya,andhadpersuadedhimselfthatwithsuchastrange,childish,innocentcharacterashers,thingsmighthaveendedverydifferently。
Remorsethenseizedhim;hethrewuphispost,andburiedhimselfinself-tormentandreproach。
HelivedatPtitsin’s,andopenlyshowedcontemptforthelatter,thoughhealwayslistenedtohisadvice,andwassensibleenoughtoaskforitwhenhewantedit。GavrilaArdalionovitchwasangrywithPtitsinbecausethelatterdidnotcaretobecomeaRothschild。\"IfyouaretobeaJew,\"hesaid,\"doitproperly——
squeezepeoplerightandleft,showsomecharacter;betheKingoftheJewswhileyouareaboutit。\"
Ptitsinwasquietandnoteasilyoffended——heonlylaughed。ButononeoccasionheexplainedseriouslytoGaniathathewasnoJew,thathedidnothingdishonest,thathecouldnothelpthemarketpriceofmoney,that,thankstohisaccuratehabits,hehadalreadyagoodfootingandwasrespected,andthathisbusinesswasflourishing。
\"Ishan’teverbeaRothschild,andthereisnoreasonwhyI
should,\"headded,smiling;\"butIshallhaveahouseintheLiteynaya,perhapstwo,andthatwillbeenoughforme。\"\"WhoknowsbutwhatImayhavethree!\"heconcludedtohimself;butthisdream,cherishedinwardly,heneverconfidedtoasoul。
Naturelovesandfavourssuchpeople。Ptitsinwillcertainlyhavehisreward,notthreehouses,butfour,preciselybecausefromchildhooduphehadrealizedthathewouldneverbeaRothschild。
ThatwillbethelimitofPtitsin’sfortune,and,comewhatmay,hewillneverhavemorethanfourhouses。
VarvaraArdalionovnawasnotlikeherbrother。Shetoo,hadpassionatedesires,buttheywerepersistentratherthanimpetuous。Herplanswereaswiseashermethodsofcarryingthemout。Nodoubtshealsobelongedtothecategoryofordinarypeoplewhodreamofbeingoriginal,butshesoondiscoveredthatshehadnotagrainoftrueoriginality,andshedidnotletittroublehertoomuch。Perhapsacertainkindofpridecametoherhelp。ShemadeherfirstconcessiontothedemandsofpracticallifewithgreatresolutionwhensheconsentedtomarryPtitsin。
However,whenshemarriedshedidnotsaytoherself,\"Nevermindameanactionifitleadstotheendinview,\"asherbrotherwouldcertainlyhavesaidinsuchacase;itisquiteprobablethathemayhavesaiditwhenheexpressedhiselder-brotherlysatisfactionatherdecision。Farfromthis;VarvaraArdalionovnadidnotmarryuntilshefeltconvincedthatherfuturehusbandwasunassuming,agreeable,almostcultured,andthatnothingonearthwouldtempthimtoareallydishonourabledeed。Astosmallmeannesses,suchtriflesdidnottroubleher。Indeed,whoisfreefromthem?Itisabsurdtoexpecttheideal!Besides,sheknewthathermarriagewouldprovidearefugeforallherfamily。
SeeingGaniaunhappy,shewasanxioustohelphim,inspiteoftheirformerdisputesandmisunderstandings。Ptitsin,inafriendlyway,wouldpresshisbrother-in-lawtoenterthearmy。
\"Youknow,\"hesaidsometimes,jokingly,\"youdespisegeneralsandgeneraldom,butyouwillseethat’they’willallendbybeinggeneralsintheirturn。Youwillseeitifyoulivelongenough!\"
\"ButwhyshouldtheysupposethatIdespisegenerals?\"Ganiathoughtsarcasticallytohimself。
Toserveherbrother’sinterests,VarvaraArdalionovnawasconstantlyattheEpanchins’house,helpedbythefactthatinchildhoodsheandGaniahadplayedwithGeneralIvanFedorovitch’sdaughters。Itwouldhavebeeninconsistentwithhercharacterifinthesevisitsshehadbeenpursuingachimera;herprojectwasnotchimericalatall;shewasbuildingonafirmbasis——onherknowledgeofthecharacteroftheEpanchinfamily,especiallyAglaya,whomshestudiedclosely。AllVarvara’seffortsweredirectedtowardsbringingAglayaandGaniatogether。
Perhapssheachievedsomeresult;perhaps,also,shemadethemistakeofdependingtoomuchuponherbrother,andexpectingmorefromhimthanhewouldeverbecapableofgiving。Howeverthismaybe,hermanoeuvreswereskilfulenough。ForweeksatatimeshewouldnevermentionGania。Herattitudewasmodestbutdignified,andshewasalwaysextremelytruthfulandsincere。
Examiningthedepthsofherconscience,shefoundnothingtoreproachherselfwith,andthisstillfurtherstrengthenedherinherdesigns。ButVarvaraArdalionovnasometimesremarkedthatshefeltspiteful;thattherewasagooddealofvanityinher,perhapsevenofwoundedvanity。Shenoticedthisatcertaintimesmorethanatothers,andespeciallyafterhervisitstotheEpanchins。
Today,asIhavesaid,shereturnedfromtheirhousewithaheavyfeelingofdejection。Therewasasensationofbitterness,asortofmockingcontempt,mingledwithit。
Arrivedatherownhouse,Variaheardaconsiderablecommotiongoingonintheupperstorey,anddistinguishedthevoicesofherfatherandbrother。OnenteringthesalonshefoundGaniapacingupanddownatfranticspeed,palewithrageandalmosttearinghishair。Shefrowned,andsubsidedontothesofawithatiredair,andwithouttakingthetroubletoremoveherhat。Sheverywellknewthatifshekeptquietandaskedherbrothernothingabouthisreasonfortearingupanddowntheroom,hiswrathwouldfalluponherhead。Soshehastenedtoputthequestion:
\"Theoldstory,eh?\"
\"Oldstory?No!Heavenknowswhat’supnow——Idon’t!Fatherhassimplygonemad;mother’sinfloodsoftears。Uponmyword,Varia,Imustkickhimoutofthehouse;orelsegomyself,\"headded,probablyrememberingthathecouldnotwellturnpeopleoutofahousewhichwasnothisown。
\"Youmustmakeallowances,\"murmuredVaria。
\"Makeallowances?Forwhom?Him——theoldblackguard?No,no,Varia——thatwon’tdo!Itwon’tdo,Itellyou!Andlookattheswaggeroftheman!He’salltoblamehimself,andyetheputsonsomuch’side’thatyou’dthink——myword!——’It’stoomuchtroubletogothroughthegate,youmustbreakthefenceforme!’
That’sthesortofairheputson;butwhat’sthematterwithyou,Varia?Whatacuriousexpressionyouhave!\"
\"I’mallright,\"saidVaria,inatonethatsoundedasthoughshewereallwrong。
Ganialookedmoreintentlyather。
\"You’vebeenTHERE?\"heasked,suddenly。
\"Yes。\"
\"Didyoufindoutanything?\"
\"Nothingunexpected。Idiscoveredthatit’salltrue。Myhusbandwaswiserthaneitherofus。Justashesuspectedfromthebeginning,soithasfallenout。Whereishe?\"
\"Out。Well——whathashappened?——goon。\"
\"Theprinceisformallyengagedtoher——that’ssettled。Theeldersisterstoldmeaboutit。Aglayahasagreed。Theydon’tattempttoconcealitanylonger;youknowhowmysteriousandsecrettheyhaveallbeenuptonow。Adelaida’sweddingisputoffagain,sothatbothcanbemarriedononeday。Isn’tthatdelightfullyromantic?Somebodyoughttowriteapoemonit。Sitdownandwriteanodeinsteadoftearingupanddownlikethat。ThiseveningPrincessBielokonskiistoarrive;shecomesjustintime——theyhaveapartytonight。HeistobepresentedtooldBielokonski,thoughIbelieveheknowsheralready;probablytheengagementwillbeopenlyannounced。Theyareonlyafraidthathemayknocksomethingdown,ortripoversomethingwhenhecomesintotheroom。Itwouldbejustlikehim。\"
Ganialistenedattentively,buttohissister’sastonishmenthewasbynomeanssoimpressedbythisnewswhichshould,shethought,havebeensoimportanttohimasshehadexpected。
\"Well,itwasclearenoughallalong,\"hesaid,afteramoment’sreflection。\"Sothat’stheend,\"headded,withadisagreeablesmile,continuingtowalkupanddowntheroom,butmuchslowerthanbefore,andglancingslylyintohissister’sface。
\"It’sagoodthingthatyoutakeitphilosophically,atallevents,\"saidVaria。\"I’mreallyverygladofit。\"
\"Yes,it’soffourhands——offYOURS,Ishouldsay。\"
\"IthinkIhaveservedyoufaithfully。IneverevenaskedyouwhathappinessyouexpectedtofindwithAglaya。\"
\"DidIeverexpecttofindhappinesswithAglaya?\"
\"Come,come,don’toverdoyourphilosophy。Ofcourseyoudid。Nowit’sallover,andagoodthing,too;pairoffoolsthatwehavebeen!IconfessIhaveneverbeenabletolookatitseriously。I
busiedmyselfinitforyoursake,thinkingthattherewasnoknowingwhatmighthappenwithafunnygirllikethattodealwith。Therewereninetytoonechancesagainstit。TothismomentIcan’tmakeoutwhyyouwishedforit。\"
\"H’m!now,Isuppose,youandyourhusbandwillneverwearyofeggingmeontoworkagain。You’llbeginyourlecturesaboutperseveranceandstrengthofwill,andallthat。Iknowitallbyheart,\"saidGania,laughing。
\"He’sgotsomenewideainhishead,\"thoughtVaria。\"Aretheypleasedoverthere——theparents?\"askedGania,suddenly。
\"N——no,Idon’tthinktheyare。Youcanjudgeforyourself。I
thinkthegeneralispleasedenough;hermotherisalittleuneasy。ShealwaysloathedtheideaoftheprinceasaHUSBAND;
everybodyknowsthat。\"
\"Ofcourse,naturally。Thebridegroomisanimpossibleandridiculousone。Imean,hasSHEgivenherformalconsent?\"
\"Shehasnotsaid’no,’uptonow,andthat’sall。Itwassuretobesowithher。Youknowwhatsheislike。Youknowhowabsurdlyshysheis。Yourememberhowsheusedtohideinacupboardasachild,soastoavoidseeingvisitors,forhoursatatime。Sheisjustthesamenow;but,doyouknow,Ithinkthereissomethingseriousinthematter,evenfromherside;Ifeelit,somehow。Shelaughsattheprince,theysay,frommorntonightinordertohideherrealfeelings;butyoumaybesureshefindsoccasiontosaysomethingorothertohimonthesly,forhehimselfisinastateofradianthappiness。Hewalksintheclouds;theysayheisextremelyfunnyjustnow;Ihearditfromthemselves。Theyseemedtobelaughingatmeintheirsleeves——
thoseeldergirls——Idon’tknowwhy。\"
Ganiahadbeguntofrown,andprobablyVariaaddedthislastsentenceinordertoprobehisthought。However,atthismoment,thenoisebeganagainupstairs。
\"I’llturnhimout!\"shoutedGania,gladoftheopportunityofventinghisvexation。\"Ishalljustturnhimout——wecan’thavethis。\"
\"Yes,andthenhe’llgoabouttheplaceanddisgraceusashedidyesterday。\"
\"How’ashedidyesterday’?Whatdoyoumean?Whatdidhedoyesterday?\"askedGania,inalarm。
\"Why,goodnessme,don’tyouknow?\"Variastoppedshort。
\"What?Youdon’tmeantosaythathewentthereyesterday!\"criedGania,flushingredwithshameandanger。\"Goodheavens,Varia!
Speak!Youhavejustbeenthere。WAShethereornot,QUICK?\"AndGaniarushedforthedoor。Variafollowedandcaughthimbybothhands。
\"Whatareyoudoing?Whereareyougoingto?Youcan’tlethimgonow;ifyoudohe’llgoanddosomethingworse。\"
\"Whatdidhedothere?Whatdidhesay?\"\"Theycouldn’ttellmethemselves;theycouldn’tmakeheadortailofit;buthefrightenedthemall。Hecametoseethegeneral,whowasnotathome;soheaskedforLizabethaProkofievna。Firstofall,hebeggedherforsomeplace,orsituation,forworkofsomekind,andthenhebegantocomplainaboutUS,aboutmeandmyhusband,andyou,especiallyYOU;hesaidalotofthings。\"
\"Oh!couldn’tyoufindout?\"mutteredGania,tremblinghysterically。
\"No——nothingmorethanthat。Why,theycouldn’tunderstandhimthemselves;andverylikelydidn’ttellmeall。\"
Ganiaseizedhisheadwithbothhandsandtotteredtothewindow;
Variasatdownattheotherwindow。
\"Funnygirl,Aglaya,\"sheobserved,afterapause。\"Whensheleftmeshesaid,’Givemyspecialandpersonalrespectstoyourparents;Ishallcertainlyfindanopportunitytoseeyourfatheroneday,’andsoseriousoverit。She’sastrangecreature。\"
\"Wasn’tshejoking?Shewasspeakingsarcastically!\"\"Notabitofit;that’sjustthestrangepartofit。\"
\"Doessheknowaboutfather,doyouthink——ornot?\"
\"ThattheydoNOTknowaboutitinthehouseisquitecertain,therestofthem,Imean;butyouhavegivenmeanidea。Aglayaperhapsknows。Shealone,though,ifanyone;forthesisterswereasastonishedasIwastohearherspeaksoseriously。Ifsheknows,theprincemusthavetoldher。\"
\"Oh!it’snotagreatmattertoguesswhotoldher。Athief!A
thiefinourfamily,andtheheadofthefamily,too!\"
\"Oh!nonsense!\"criedVaria,angrily。\"Thatwasnothingbutadrunkard’stale。Nonsense!Why,whoinventedthewholething