Thequestionastowhatshemighthavetosayofspecialinteresttohimselfoccurredtohimonceortwice。Hedidnotdoubt,foramoment,thatshereallyhadsomesuchsubjectofconversationinstore,butsoverylittleinterestedinthematterwashethatitdidnotstrikehimtowonderwhatitcouldbe。Thecrunchofgravelonthepathsuddenlycausedhimtoraisehishead。
Aman,whosefaceitwasdifficulttoseeinthegloom,approachedthebench,andsatdownbesidehim。Theprincepeeredintohisface,andrecognizedthelividfeaturesofRogojin。
\"Iknewyou’dbewanderingaboutsomewherehere。Ididn’thavetolookforyouverylong,\"mutteredthelatterbetweenhisteeth。
Itwasthefirsttimetheyhadmetsincetheencounteronthestaircaseatthehotel。
PainfullysurprisedashewasatthissuddenapparitionofRogojin,theprince,forsomelittlewhile,wasunabletocollecthisthoughts。Rogojin,evidently,sawandunderstoodtheimpressionhehadmade;andthoughheseemedmoreorlessconfusedatfirst,yethebegantalkingwithwhatlookedlikeassumedeaseandfreedom。However,theprincesoonchangedhismindonthisscore,andthoughtthattherewasnotonlynoaffectationofindifference,butthatRogojinwasnotevenparticularlyagitated。Iftherewerealittleapparentawkwardness,itwasonlyinhiswordsandgestures。Themancouldnotchangehisheart。
\"Howdidyou——findmehere?\"askedtheprinceforthesakeofsayingsomething。
\"KellertoldmeIfoundhimatyourplacethatyouwereinthepark。’Ofcourseheis!’Ithought。\"
\"Whyso?\"askedtheprinceuneasily。
Rogojinsmiled,butdidnotexplain。
\"Ireceivedyourletter,LefNicolaievitch——what’sthegoodofallthat?——It’snouse,youknow。I’vecometoyoufromHER,——shebademetellyouthatshemustseeyou,shehassomethingtosaytoyou。Shetoldmetofindyoutoday。\"
\"I’llcometomorrow。NowI’mgoinghome——areyoucomingtomyhouse?\"
\"WhyshouldI?I’vegivenyouthemessage——Goodbye!\"
\"Won’tyoucome?\"askedtheprinceinagentlevoice。
\"Whatanextraordinarymanyouare!Iwonderatyou!\"Rogojinlaughedsarcastically。
\"Whydoyouhatemeso?\"askedtheprince,sadly。\"Youknowyourselfthatallyoususpectedisquiteunfounded。Ifeltyouwerestillangrywithme,though。Doyouknowwhy?Becauseyoutriedtokillme——that’swhyyoucan’tshakeoffyourwrathagainstme。ItellyouthatIonlyremembertheParfenRogojinwithwhomIexchangedcrosses,andvowedbrotherhood。Iwroteyouthisinyesterday’sletter,inorderthatyoumightforgetallthatmadnessonyourpart,andthatyoumightnotfeelcalledtotalkaboutitwhenwemet。Whydoyouavoidme?Whydoyouholdyourhandbackfromme?Itellyouagain,Iconsiderallthathaspassedadelirium,aninsanedream。Icanunderstandallyoudid,andallyoufeltthatday,asifitweremyself。Whatyouwerethenimaginingwasnotthecase,andcouldneverbethecase。
Why,then,shouldtherebeangerbetweenus?\"
\"Youdon’tknowwhatangeris!\"laughedRogojin,inreplytotheprince’sheatedwords。
Hehadmovedapaceortwoaway,andwashidinghishandsbehindhim。
\"No,itisimpossibleformetocometoyourhouseagain,\"headdedslowly。
\"Why?Doyouhatemesomuchasallthat?\"
\"Idon’tloveyou,LefNicolaievitch,and,therefore,whatwouldbetheuseofmycomingtoseeyou?Youarejustlikeachild——
youwantaplaything,anditmustbetakenoutandgivenyou——andthenyoudon’tknowhowtoworkit。Youaresimplyrepeatingallyousaidinyourletter,andwhat’stheuse?OfcourseIbelieveeverywordyousay,andIknowperfectlywellthatyouneitherdidorevercandeceivemeinanyway,andyet,Idon’tloveyou。
Youwritethatyou’veforgotteneverything,andonlyrememberyourbrotherParfen,withwhomyouexchangedcrosses,andthatyoudon’trememberanythingabouttheRogojinwhoaimedaknifeatyourthroat。Whatdoyouknowaboutmyfeelings,eh?\"Rogojinlaugheddisagreeably。\"HereyouareholdingoutyourbrotherlyforgivenesstomeforathingthatIhaveperhapsneverrepentedofintheslightestdegree。Ididnotthinkofitagainallthatevening;allmythoughtswerecentredonsomethingelse——\"
\"Notthinkofitagain?Ofcourseyoudidn’t!\"criedtheprince。
\"AndIdareswearthatyoucamestraightawaydownheretoPavlofsktolistentothemusicanddogheraboutinthecrowd,andstareather,justasyoudidtoday。There’snothingsurprisinginthat!Ifyouhadn’tbeeninthatconditionofmindthatyoucouldthinkofnothingbutonesubject,youwould,probably,neverhaveraisedyourknifeagainstme。Ihadapresentimentofwhatyouwoulddo,thatday,eversinceIsawyoufirstinthemorning。Doyouknowyourselfwhatyoulookedlike?
Iknewyouwouldtrytomurdermeevenattheverymomentwhenweexchangedcrosses。Whatdidyoutakemetoyourmotherfor?Didyouthinktostayyourhandbydoingso?Perhapsyoudidnotputyourthoughtsintowords,butyouandIwerethinkingthesamething,orfeelingthesamethingloomingoverus,atthesamemoment。Whatshouldyouthinkofmenowifyouhadnotraisedyourknifetome——theknifewhichGodavertedfrommythroat?I
wouldhavebeenguiltyofsuspectingyouallthesame——andyouwouldhaveintendedthemurderallthesame;thereforeweshouldhavebeenmutuallyguiltyinanycase。Come,don’tfrown;youneedn’tlaughatme,either。Yousayyouhaven’t’repented。’
Repented!Youprobablycouldn’t,ifyouweretotry;youdislikemetoomuchforthat。Why,ifIwereanangeloflight,andasinnocentbeforeyouasababe,youwouldstillloathemeifyoubelievedthatSHElovedme,insteadoflovingyourself。That’sjealousy——thatistherealjealousy。
\"ButdoyouknowwhatIhavebeenthinkingoutduringthislastweek,Parfen?I’lltellyou。Whatifshelovesyounowbetterthananyone?AndwhatifshetormentsyouBECAUSEshelovesyou,andinproportiontoherloveforyou,soshetormentsyouthemore?Shewon’ttellyouthis,ofcourse;youmusthaveeyestosee。Whydoyousupposesheconsentstomarryyou?Shemusthaveareason,andthatreasonshewilltellyousomeday。Somewomendesirethekindofloveyougiveher,andsheisprobablyoneofthese。Yourloveandyourwildnatureimpressher。Doyouknowthatawomaniscapableofdrivingamancrazyalmost,withhercrueltiesandmockeries,andfeelsnotonesinglepangofregret,becauseshelooksathimandsaystoherself,’There!I’lltormentthismannearlyintohisgrave,andthen,oh!howI’llcompensatehimforitallwithmylove!’\"
Rogojinlistenedtotheend,andthenburstoutlaughing:
\"Why,prince,Ideclareyoumusthavehadatasteofthissortofthingyourself——haven’tyou?Ihaveheardtellofsomethingofthekind,youknow;isittrue?\"
\"What?Whatcanyouhaveheard?\"saidtheprince,stammering。
Rogojincontinuedtolaughloudly。Hehadlistenedtotheprince’sspeechwithcuriosityandsomesatisfaction。Thespeaker’simpulsivewarmthhadsurprisedandevencomfortedhim。
\"Why,I’venotonlyheardofit;Iseeitformyself,\"hesaid。
\"Whenhaveyoueverspokenlikethatbefore?Itwasn’tlikeyourself,prince。Why,ifIhadn’theardthisreportaboutyou,I
shouldneverhavecomeallthiswayintothepark——atmidnight,too!\"
\"Idon’tunderstandyouintheleast,Parfen。\"
\"Oh,SHEtoldmeallaboutitlongago,andtonightIsawformyself。Isawyouatthemusic,youknow,andwhomyouweresittingwith。Shesworetomeyesterday,andagaintoday,thatyouaremadlyinlovewithAglayaIvanovna。Butthat’sallthesametome,prince,andit’snotmyaffairatall;forifyouhaveceasedtoloveHER,SHEhasnotceasedtoloveYOU。Youknow,ofcourse,thatshewantstomarryyoutothatgirl?She’ssworntoit!Ha,ha!Shesaystome,’UntilthenIwon’tmarryyou。Whentheygotochurch,we’llgotoo-andnotbefore。’Whatonearthdoesshemeanbyit?Idon’tknow,andIneverdid。
Eithershelovesyouwithoutlimitsor——yet,ifshelovesyou,whydoesshewishtomarryyoutoanothergirl?Shesays,’Iwanttoseehimhappy,’whichistosay——shelovesyou。\"
\"Iwrote,andIsaytoyouoncemore,thatsheisnotinherrightmind,\"saidtheprince,whohadlistenedwithanguishtowhatRogojinsaid。
\"Goodnessknows——youmaybewrongthere!Atallevents,shenamedthedaythisevening,asweleftthegardens。’Inthreeweeks,’
saysshe,’andperhapssooner,weshallbemarried。’Shesworetoit,tookoffhercrossandkissedit。Soitalldependsuponyounow,prince,Yousee!Ha,ha!\"
\"That’sallmadness。Whatyousayaboutme,Parfen,nevercanandneverwillbe。Tomorrow,Ishallcomeandseeyou——\"
\"Howcanshebemad,\"Rogojininterrupted,\"whensheissaneenoughforotherpeopleandonlymadforyou?HowcanshewriteletterstoHER,ifshe’smad?Ifshewereinsanetheywouldobserveitinherletters。\"
\"Whatletters?\"saidtheprince,alarmed。
\"ShewritestoHER——andthegirlreadstheletters。Haven’tyouheard?——Youaresuretohear;she’ssuretoshowyouthelettersherself。\"
\"Iwon’tbelievethis!\"criedtheprince。
\"Why,prince,you’veonlygoneafewstepsalongthisroad,I
perceive。Youareevidentlyamerebeginner。Waitabit!Beforelong,you’llhaveyourowndetectives,you’llwatchdayandnight,andyou’llknoweverylittlethingthatgoesonthere——
thatis,if——\"
\"Dropthatsubject,Rogojin,andnevermentionitagain。Andlisten:asIhavesathere,andtalked,andlistened,ithassuddenlystruckmethattomorrowismybirthday。Itmustbeabouttwelveo’clock,now;comehomewithme——do,andwe’llseethedayin!We’llhavesomewine,andyoushallwishme——Idon’tknowwhat——butyou,especiallyyou,mustwishmeagoodwish,andIshallwishyoufullhappinessinreturn。Otherwise,handmemycrossbackagain。Youdidn’treturnittomenextday。Haven’tyougotitonnow?\"
\"Yes,Ihave,\"saidRogojin。
\"Comealong,then。Idon’twishtomeetmynewyearwithoutyou——
mynewlife,Ishouldsay,foranewlifeisbeginningforme。
Didyouknow,Parfen,thatanewlifehadbegunforme?\"
\"Iseeformyselfthatitisso——andIshalltellHER。Butyouarenotquiteyourself,LefNicolaievitch。\"
IV。
THEprinceobservedwithgreatsurprise,asheapproachedhisvilla,accompaniedbyRogojin,thatalargenumberofpeoplewereassembledonhisverandah,whichwasbrilliantlylightedup。Thecompanyseemedmerryandwerenoisilylaughingandtalking——evenquarrelling,tojudgefromthesounds。Atalleventstheywereclearlyenjoyingthemselves,andtheprinceobservedfurtheroncloserinvestigation——thatallhadbeendrinkingchampagne。Tojudgefromthelivelyconditionofsomeoftheparty,itwastobesupposedthataconsiderablequantityofchampagnehadbeenconsumedalready。
Alltheguestswereknowntotheprince;butthecuriouspartofthematterwasthattheyhadallarrivedonthesameevening,asthoughwithoneaccord,althoughhehadonlyhimselfrecollectedthefactthatitwashisbirthdayafewmomentssince。
\"Youmusthavetoldsomebodyyouweregoingtotrotoutthechampagne,andthat’swhytheyareallcome!\"mutteredRogojin,asthetwoenteredtheverandah。\"Weknowallaboutthat!You’veonlytowhistleandtheycomeupinshoals!\"hecontinued,almostangrily。Hewasdoubtlessthinkingofhisownlateexperienceswithhisbooncompanions。
Allsurroundedtheprincewithexclamationsofwelcome,and,onhearingthatitwashisbirthday,withcriesofcongratulationanddelight;manyofthemwereverynoisy。
Thepresenceofcertainofthoseintheroomsurprisedtheprincevastly,buttheguestwhoseadventfilledhimwiththegreatestwonder——almostamountingtoalarm——wasEvgeniePavlovitch。Theprincecouldnotbelievehiseyeswhenhebeheldthelatter,andcouldnothelpthinkingthatsomethingwaswrong。
Lebedeffranuppromptlytoexplainthearrivalofallthesegentlemen。Hewashimselfsomewhatintoxicated,buttheprincegatheredfromhislong-windedperiodsthatthepartyhadassembledquitenaturally,andaccidentally。
FirstofallHippolytehadarrived,earlyintheevening,andfeelingdecidedlybetter,haddeterminedtoawaittheprinceontheverandah。ThereLebedeffhadjoinedhim,andhishouseholdhadfollowed——thatis,hisdaughtersandGeneralIvolgin。
BurdovskyhadbroughtHippolyte,andstayedonwithhim。GaniaandPtitsinhaddroppedinaccidentallylateron;thencameKeller,andheandColiainsistedonhavingchampagne。EvgeniePavlovitchhadonlydroppedinhalfanhourorsoago。Lebedeffhadservedthechampagnereadily。
\"Myownthough,prince,myown,mind,\"hesaid,\"andthere’llbesomesupperlateron;mydaughterisgettingitreadynow。Comeandsitdown,prince,weareallwaitingforyou,wewantyouwithus。Fancywhatwehavebeendiscussing!Youknowthequestion,’tobeornottobe,’——outofHamlet!Acontemporarytheme!Quiteup-to-date!Mr。Hippolytehasbeeneloquenttoadegree。Hewon’tgotobed,buthehasonlydrunkalittlechampagne,andthatcan’tdohimanyharm。Comealong,prince,andsettlethequestion。Everyoneiswaitingforyou,sighingforthelightofyourluminousintelligence……\"
Theprincenoticedthesweet,welcominglookonVeraLebedeff’sface,asshemadeherwaytowardshimthroughthecrowd。Heheldouthishandtoher。Shetookit,blushingwithdelight,andwishedhim\"ahappylifefromthatdayforward。\"Thensheranofftothekitchen,where。herpresencewasnecessarytohelpinthepreparationsforsupper。Beforetheprince’sarrivalshehadspentsometimeontheterrace,listeningeagerlytotheconversation,thoughthevisitors,mostlyundertheinfluenceofwine,werediscussingabstractsubjectsfarbeyondhercomprehension。Inthenextroomheryoungersisterlayonawoodenchest,soundasleep,withhermouthwideopen;buttheboy,Lebedeff’sson,hadtakenuphispositionclosebesideColiaandHippolyte,hisfacelitupwithinterestintheconversationofhisfatherandtherest,towhichhewouldwillinglyhavelistenedfortenhoursatastretch。
\"Ihavewaitedforyouonpurpose,andamverygladtoseeyouarrivesohappy,\"saidHippolyte,whentheprincecameforwardtopresshishand,immediatelyaftergreetingVera。
\"AndhowdoyouknowthatIam’sohappy’?
\"Icanseeitbyyourface!Say’howdoyoudo’totheothers,andcomeandsitdownhere,quick——I’vebeenwaitingforyou!\"headded,accentuatingthefactthathehadwaited。Ontheprince’sasking,\"Willitnotbeinjurioustoyoutositoutsolate?\"herepliedthathecouldnotbelievethathehadthoughthimselfdyingthreedaysorsoago,forheneverhadfeltbetterthanthisevening。
Burdovskynextjumpedupandexplainedthathehadcomeinbyaccident,havingescortedHippolytefromtown。Hemurmuredthathewasgladhehad\"writtennonsense\"inhisletter,andthenpressedtheprince’shandwarmlyandsatdownagain。
TheprinceapproachedEvgeniePavlovitchlastofall。Thelatterimmediatelytookhisarm。
\"Ihaveacoupleofwordstosaytoyou,\"hebegan,\"andthoseonaveryimportantmatter;let’sgoasideforaminuteortwo。\"
\"Justacoupleofwords!\"whisperedanothervoiceintheprince’sotherear,andanotherhandtookhisotherarm。Muishkinturned,andtohisgreatsurpriseobservedared,flushedfaceandadroll-lookingfigurewhichherecognizedatonceasthatofFerdishenko。Goodnessknowswherehehadturnedupfrom!
\"DoyourememberFerdishenko?\"heasked。
\"Wherehaveyoudroppedfrom?\"criedtheprince。
\"Heissorryforhissinsnow,prince,\"criedKeller。\"Hedidnotwanttoletyouknowhewashere;hewashiddenoverthereinthecorner,——butherepentsnow,hefeelshisguilt。\"
\"Why,whathashedone?\"
\"Imethimoutsideandbroughthimin——he’sagentlemanwhodoesn’toftenallowhisfriendstoseehim,oflate——buthe’ssorrynow。\"
\"Delighted,I’msure!——I’llcomebackdirectly,gentlemen,——sitdowntherewiththeothers,please,——excusemeonemoment,\"saidthehost,gettingawaywithdifficultyinordertofollowEvgenie。
\"Youareverygayhere,\"beganthelatter,\"andIhavehadquiteapleasanthalf-hourwhileIwaitedforyou。Nowthen,mydearLefNicolaievitch,thisiswhat’sthematter。I’vearrangeditallwithMoloftsoff,andhavejustcomeintorelieveyourmindonthatscore。Youneedbeundernoapprehensions。Hewasverysensible,asheshouldbe,ofcourse,forIthinkhewasentirelytoblamehimself。\"
\"WhatMoloftsoff?\"
\"Theyoungfellowwhosearmsyouheld,don’tyouknow?Hewassowildwithyouthathewasgoingtosendafriendtoyoutomorrowmorning。\"
\"Whatnonsense!\"
\"Ofcourseitisnonsense,andinnonsenseitwouldhaveended,doubtless;butyouknowthesefellows,they——\"
\"Excuseme,butIthinkyoumusthavesomethingelsethatyouwishedtospeakabout,EvgeniePavlovitch?\"
\"Ofcourse,Ihave!\"saidtheother,laughing。\"Yousee,mydearfellow,tomorrow,veryearlyinthemorning,Imustbeofftotownaboutthisunfortunatebusinessmyuncle,youknow!。Justimagine,mydearsir,itisalltrue——wordforword——and,ofcourse,everybodyknewitexceptingmyself。AllthishasbeensuchablowtomethatIhavenotmanagedtocallinattheEpanchins’。TomorrowIshallnotseethemeither,becauseI
shallbeintown。Imaynotbehereforthreedaysormore;inaword,myaffairsarealittleoutofgear。Butthoughmytownbusinessis,ofcourse,mostpressing,stillIdeterminednottogoawayuntilIhadseenyou,andhadaclearunderstandingwithyouuponcertainpoints;andthatwithoutlossoftime。Iwillwaitnow,ifyouwillallowme,untilthecompanydeparts;Imayjustaswell,forIhavenowhereelsetogoto,andIshallcertainlynotdoanysleepingtonight;I’mfartooexcited。Andfinally,Imustconfessthat,thoughIknowitisbadformtopursueamaninthisway,Ihavecometobegyourfriendship,mydearprince。Youareanunusualsortofaperson;youdon’tlieateverystep,assomemendo;infact,youdon’tlieatall,andthereisamatterinwhichIneedatrueandsincerefriend,forIreallymayclaimtobeamongthenumberofbonafideunfortunatesjustnow。\"
Helaughedagain。
\"Butthetroubleis,\"saidtheprince,afteraslightpauseforreflection,\"thatgoodnessonlyknowswhenthispartywillbreakup。Hadn’twebetterstrollintothepark?I’llexcusemyself,there’snodangeroftheirgoingaway。\"
\"No,no!Ihavemyreasonsforwishingthemnottosuspectusofbeingengagedinanyspeciallyimportantconversation。Therearegentrypresentwhoarealittletoomuchinterestedinus。Youarenotawareofthatperhaps,prince?Itwillbeagreatdealbetteriftheyseethatwearefriendlyjustinanordinaryway。
They’llallgoinacoupleofhours,andthenI’llaskyoutogivemetwentyminutes-halfanhouratmost。\"
\"Byallmeans!IassureyouIamdelighted——youneednothaveenteredintoalltheseexplanations。Asforyourremarksaboutfriendshipwithme——thanks,verymuchindeed。Youmustexcusemybeingalittleabsentthisevening。Doyouknow,Icannotsomehowbeattentivetoanythingjustnow?\"
\"Isee,Isee,\"saidEvgenie,smilinggently。Hismirthseemedverynearthesurfacethisevening。
\"Whatdoyousee?\"saidtheprince,startled。
\"Idon’twantyoutosuspectthatIhavesimplycomeheretodeceiveyouandpumpinformationoutofyou!\"saidEvgenie,stillsmiling,andwithoutmakinganydirectreplytothequestion。
\"Oh,butIhaven’ttheslightestdoubtthatyoudidcometopumpme,\"saidtheprince,laughinghimself,atlast;\"andIdaresayyouarequitepreparedtodeceivemetoo,sofarasthatgoes。
Butwhatofthat?I’mnotafraidofyou;besides,you’llhardlybelieveit,IfeelasthoughIreallydidn’tcareascraponewayortheother,justnow!——And-and-andasyouareacapitalfellow,Iamconvincedofthat,Idaresaywereallyshallendbybeinggoodfriends。IlikeyouverymuchEvgeniePavlovitch;Iconsideryouaverygoodfellowindeed。\"
\"Well,inanycase,youareamostdelightfulmantohavetodealwith,bethebusinesswhatitmay,\"concludedEvgenie。\"Comealongnow,I’lldrinkaglasstoyourhealth。I’mcharmedtohaveenteredintoalliancewithyou。By-the-by,\"headdedsuddenly,hasthisyoungHippolytecomedowntostaywithyou\"Yes。\"
\"He’snotgoingtodieatonce,Ishouldthink,ishe?\"
\"Why?\"
\"Oh,Idon’tknow。I’vebeenhalfanhourherewithhim,andhe——\"
Hippolytehadbeenwaitingfortheprinceallthistime,andhadneverceasedlookingathimandEvgeniePavlovitchastheyconversedinthecorner。Hebecamemuchexcitedwhentheyapproachedthetableoncemore。Hewasdisturbedinhismind,itseemed;perspirationstoodinlargedropsonhisforehead;inhisgleamingeyesitwaseasytoreadimpatienceandagitation;hisgazewanderedfromfacetofaceofthosepresent,andfromobjecttoobjectintheroom,apparentlywithoutaim。Hehadtakenapart,andananimatedone,inthenoisyconversationofthecompany;buthisanimationwasclearlytheoutcomeoffever。Histalkwasalmostincoherent;hewouldbreakoffinthemiddleofasentencewhichhehadbegunwithgreatinterest,andforgetwhathehadbeensaying。TheprincediscoveredtohisdismaythatHippolytehadbeenallowedtodrinktwolargeglassesofchampagne;theonenowstandingbyhimbeingthethird。Allthishefoundoutafterwards;atthemomenthedidnotnoticeanything,veryparticularly。
\"DoyouknowIamspeciallygladthattodayisyourbirthday!\"
criedHippolyte。
\"Why?\"
\"You’llsoonsee。D’youknowIhadafeelingthattherewouldbealotofpeopleheretonight?It’snotthefirsttimethatmypresentimentshavebeenfulfilled。IwishIhadknownitwasyourbirthday,I’dhavebroughtyouapresent——perhapsIhavegotapresentforyou!Whoknows?Ha,ha!Howlongisitnowbeforedaylight?\"
\"Notacoupleofhours,\"saidPtitsin,lookingathiswatch。
What’sthegoodofdaylightnow?Onecanreadallnightintheopenairwithoutit,\"saidsomeone。
\"Thegoodofit!Well,Iwantjusttoseearayofthesun,\"saidHippolyte。Canonedrinktothesun’shealth,doyouthink,prince?\"
\"Oh,Idaresayonecan;butyouhadbetterbecalmandliedown,Hippolyte——that’smuchmoreimportant。
\"Youarealwayspreachingaboutresting;youarearegularnursetome,prince。Assoonasthesunbeginsto’resound’inthesky——whatpoetsaidthat?’Thesunresoundedinthesky。’Itisbeautiful,thoughthere’snosenseinit!——thenwewillgotobed。Lebedeff,tellme,isthesunthesourceoflife?Whatdoesthesource,or’spring,’oflifereallymeanintheApocalypse?
Youhaveheardofthe’StarthatiscalledWormwood,’prince?\"
\"IhaveheardthatLebedeffexplainsitastherailroadsthatcoverEuropelikeanet。\"
Everybodylaughed,andLebedeffgotupabruptly。
\"No!Allowme,thatisnotwhatwearediscussing!\"hecried,wavinghishandtoimposesilence。\"Allowme!Withthesegentlemen……allthesegentlemen,\"headded,suddenlyaddressingtheprince,\"oncertainpoints……thatis……\"Hethumpedthetablerepeatedly,andthelaughterincreased。Lebedeffwasinhisusualeveningcondition,andhadjustendedalongandscientificargument,whichhadlefthimexcitedandirritable。Onsuchoccasionshewasapttoevinceasupremecontemptforhisopponents。
\"Itisnotright!Halfanhourago,prince,itwasagreedamongusthatnooneshouldinterrupt,nooneshouldlaugh,thateachpersonwastoexpresshisthoughtsfreely;andthenattheend,wheneveryonehadspoken,objectionsmightbemade,evenbytheatheists。Wechosethegeneralaspresident。Nowwithoutsomesuchruleandorder,anyonemightbeshouteddown,evenintheloftiestandmostprofoundthought……\"
\"Goon!Goon!Nobodyisgoingtointerruptyou!\"criedseveralvoices。
\"Speak,butkeeptothepoint!\"
\"Whatisthis’star’?\"askedanother。
Ihavenoidea,\"repliedGeneralIvolgin,whopresidedwithmuchgravity。
\"Ilovethesearguments,prince,\"saidKeller,alsomorethanhalfintoxicated,movingrestlesslyinhischair。\"Scientificandpolitical。\"Then,turningsuddenlytowardsEvgeniePavlovitch,whowasseatednearhim:\"Doyouknow,IsimplyadorereadingtheaccountsofthedebatesintheEnglishparliament。Notthatthediscussionsthemselvesinterestme;Iamnotapolitician,youknow;butitdelightsmetoseehowtheyaddresseachother’thenoblelordwhoagreeswithme,’’myhonourableopponentwhoastonishedEuropewithhisproposal,’’thenobleviscountsittingopposite’——alltheseexpressions,allthisparliamentarismofafreepeople,hasanenormousattractionforme。Itfascinatesme,prince。Ihavealwaysbeenanartistinthedepthsofmysoul,I
assureyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。\"
\"Doyoumeantosay,\"criedGania,fromtheothercorner,\"doyoumeantosaythatrailwaysareaccursedinventions,thattheyareasourceofruintohumanity,apoisonpouredupontheearthtocorruptthespringsoflife?\"
GavrilaArdalionovitchwasinhighspiritsthatevening,anditseemedtotheprincethathisgaietywasmingledwithtriumph。OfcoursehewasonlyjokingwithLebedeff,meaningtoegghimon,buthegrewexcitedhimselfatthesametime。
\"Nottherailways,ohdear,no!\"repliedLebedeff,withamixtureofviolentangerandextremeenjoyment。\"Consideredalone,therailwayswillnotpollutethespringsoflife,butasawholetheyareaccursed。Thewholetendencyofourlatestcenturies,initsscientificandmaterialisticaspect,ismostprobablyaccursed。\"
\"Isitcertainlyaccursed?……ordoyouonlymeanitmightbe?
Thatisanimportantpoint,\"saidEvgeniePavlovitch。
\"Itisaccursed,certainlyaccursed!\"repliedtheclerk,vehemently。
\"Don’tgosofast,Lebedeff;youaremuchmilderinthemorning,\"
saidPtitsin,smiling。
\"But,ontheotherhand,morefrankintheevening!Intheeveningsincereandfrank,\"repeatedLebedeff,earnestly。\"Morecandid,moreexact,morehonest,morehonourable,and……
althoughImayshowyoumyweakside,Ichallengeyouall;youatheists,forinstance!Howareyougoingtosavetheworld?Howfindastraightroadofprogress,youmenofscience,ofindustry,ofcooperation,oftradesunions,andalltherest?
Howareyougoingtosaveit,Isay?Bywhat?Bycredit?Whatiscredit?Towhatwillcreditleadyou?\"
\"Youaretooinquisitive,\"remarkedEvgeniePavlovitch。
\"Well,anyonewhodoesnotinteresthimselfinquestionssuchasthisis,inmyopinion,amerefashionabledummy。\"
\"Butitwillleadatleasttosolidarity,andbalanceofinterests,\"saidPtitsin。
\"Youwillreachthatwithnothingtohelpyoubutcredit?Withoutrecoursetoanymoralprinciple,havingforyourfoundationonlyindividualselfishness,andthesatisfactionofmaterialdesires?
Universalpeace,andthehappinessofmankindasawhole,beingtheresult!IsitreallysothatImayunderstandyou,sir?\"
\"Buttheuniversalnecessityofliving,ofdrinking,ofeating——
inshort,thewholescientificconvictionthatthisnecessitycanonlybesatisfiedbyuniversalco-operationandthesolidarityofinterests——is,itseemstome,astrongenoughideatoserveasabasis,sotospeak,anda’springoflife,’forhumanityinfuturecenturies,\"saidGavrilaArdalionovitch,nowthoroughlyroused。
\"Thenecessityofeatinganddrinking,thatistosay,solelytheinstinctofself-preservation……\"
\"Isnotthatenough?Theinstinctofself-preservationisthenormallawofhumanity……\"
\"Whotoldyouthat?\"brokeinEvgeniePavlovitch。
\"Itisalaw,doubtless,butalawneithermorenorlessnormalthanthatofdestruction,evenself-destruction。Isitpossiblethatthewholenormallawofhumanityiscontainedinthissentimentofself-preservation?\"
\"Ah!\"criedHippolyte,turningtowardsEvgeniePavlovitch,andlookingathimwithaqueersortofcuriosity。
ThenseeingthatRadomskiwaslaughing,hebegantolaughhimself,nudgedColia,whowassittingbesidehim,withhiselbow,andagainaskedwhattimeitwas。HeevenpulledColia’ssilverwatchoutofhishand,andlookedatiteagerly。Then,asifhehadforgotteneverything,hestretchedhimselfoutonthesofa,puthishandsbehindhishead,andlookedupatthesky。
AfteraminuteortwohegotupandcamebacktothetabletolistentoLebedeff’soutpourings,asthelatterpassionatelycommentatedonEvgeniePavlovitch’sparadox。
\"Thatisanartfulandtraitorousidea。Asmartnotion,\"
vociferatedtheclerk,\"thrownoutasanappleofdiscord。Butitisjust。Youareascoffer,amanoftheworld,acavalryofficer,and,thoughnotwithoutbrains,youdonotrealizehowprofoundisyourthought,norhowtrue。Yes,thelawsofself-
preservationandofself-destructionareequallypowerfulinthisworld。Thedevilwillholdhisempireoverhumanityuntilalimitoftimewhichisstillunknown。Youlaugh?Youdonotbelieveinthedevil?ScepticismastothedevilisaFrenchidea,anditisalsoafrivolousidea。Doyouknowwhothedevilis?Doyouknowhisname?Althoughyoudon’tknowhisnameyoumakeamockeryofhisform,followingtheexampleofVoltaire。Yousneerathishoofs,athistail,athishorns——allofthemtheproduceofyourimagination!Inrealitythedevilisagreatandterriblespirit,withneitherhoofs,nortail,norhorns;itisyouwhohaveendowedhimwiththeseattributes!But……heisnotthequestionjustnow!\"
\"Howdoyouknowheisnotthequestionnow?\"criedHippolyte,laughinghysterically。
\"Anotherexcellentidea,andworthconsidering!\"repliedLebedeff。\"But,again,thatisnotthequestion。Thequestionatthismomentiswhetherwehavenotweakened’thespringsoflife’
bytheextension……\"
\"Ofrailways?\"putinColiaeagerly。
\"Notrailways,properlyspeaking,presumptuousyouth,butthegeneraltendencyofwhichrailwaysmaybeconsideredastheoutwardexpressionandsymbol。Wehurryandpushandhustle,forthegoodofhumanity!’Theworldisbecomingtoonoisy,toocommercial!’groanssomesolitarythinker。’Undoubtedlyitis,butthenoiseofwaggonsbearingbreadtostarvinghumanityisofmorevaluethantranquillityofsoul,’repliesanothertriumphantly,andpassesonwithanairofpride。Asforme,I
don’tbelieveinthesewaggonsbringingbreadtohumanity。For,foundedonnomoralprinciple,thesemaywell,evenintheactofcarryingbreadtohumanity,coldlyexcludeaconsiderableportionofhumanityfromenjoyingit;thathasbeenseenmorethanonce。
\"What,thesewaggonsmaycoldlyexclude?\"repeatedsomeone。
\"Thathasbeenseenalready,\"continuedLebedeff,notdeigningtonoticetheinterruption。\"Malthuswasafriendofhumanity,but,withill-foundedmoralprinciples,thefriendofhumanityisthedevourerofhumanity,withoutmentioninghispride;for,touchthevanityofoneofthesenumberlessphilanthropists,andtoavengehisself-esteem,hewillbereadyatoncetosetfiretothewholeglobe;andtotellthetruth,weareallmoreorlesslikethat。I,perhaps,mightbethefirsttosetalighttothefuel,andthenrunaway。But,again,Imustrepeat,thatisnotthequestion。\"
\"Whatisitthen,forgoodness’sake?\"
\"Heisboringus!\"
\"Thequestionisconnectedwiththefollowinganecdoteofpasttimes;forIamobligedtorelateastory。Inourtimes,andinourcountry,whichIhopeyouloveasmuchasIdo,forasfarasIamconcerned,Iamreadytoshedthelastdropofmyblood……
\"Goon!Goon!\"
\"Inourdearcountry,asindeedinthewholeofEurope,afaminevisitshumanityaboutfourtimesacentury,asfarasIcanremember;onceineverytwenty-fiveyears。Iwon’tsweartothisbeingtheexactfigure,butanyhowtheyhavebecomecomparativelyrare。\"
\"Comparativelytowhat?\"
\"Tothetwelfthcentury,andthoseimmediatelyprecedingandfollowingit。Wearetoldbyhistoriansthatwidespreadfaminesoccurredinthosedayseverytwoorthreeyears,andsuchwastheconditionofthingsthatmenactuallyhadrecoursetocannibalism,insecret,ofcourse。Oneofthesecannibals,whohadreachedagoodage,declaredofhisownfreewillthatduringthecourseofhislongandmiserablelifehehadpersonallykilledandeaten,inthemostprofoundsecrecy,sixtymonks,nottomentionseveralchildren;thenumberofthelatterhethoughtwasaboutsix,aninsignificanttotalwhencomparedwiththeenormousmassofecclesiasticsconsumedbyhim。Astoadults,laymenthatistosay,hehadnevertouchedthem。\"
Thepresidentjoinedinthegeneraloutcry。
\"That’simpossible!\"saidheinanaggrievedtone。\"Iamoftendiscussingsubjectsofthisnaturewithhim,gentlemen,butforthemostparthetalksnonsenseenoughtomakeonedeaf:thisstoryhasnopretenceofbeingtrue。\"
\"General,rememberthesiegeofKars!Andyou,gentlemen,I
assureyoumyanecdoteisthenakedtruth。Imayremarkthatreality,althoughitisgovernedbyinvariablelaw,hasattimesaresemblancetofalsehood。Infact,thetruerathingisthelesstrueitsounds。\"
\"Butcouldanyonepossiblyeatsixtymonks?\"objectedthescoffinglisteners。
\"Itisquiteclearthathedidnoteatthemallatonce,butinaspaceoffifteenortwentyyears:fromthatpointofviewthethingiscomprehensibleandnatural……\"
\"Natural?\"
\"Andnatural,\"repeatedLebedeffwithpedanticobstinacy。
\"Besides,aCatholicmonkisbynatureexcessivelycurious;itwouldbequiteeasythereforetoenticehimintoawood,orsomesecretplace,onfalsepretences,andtheretodealwithhimassaid。ButIdonotdisputeintheleastthatthenumberofpersonsconsumedappearstodenoteaspiceofgreediness。\"
\"Itisperhapstrue,gentlemen,\"saidtheprince,quietly。Hehadbeenlisteninginsilenceuptothatmomentwithouttakingpartintheconversation,butlaughingheartilywiththeothersfromtimetotime。Evidentlyhewasdelightedtoseethateverybodywasamused,thateverybodywastalkingatonce,andeventhateverybodywasdrinking。Itseemedasifhewerenotintendingtospeakatall,whensuddenlyheintervenedinsuchaseriousvoicethateveryonelookedathimwithinterest。
\"Itistruethattherewerefrequentfaminesatthattime,gentlemen。Ihaveoftenheardofthem,thoughIdonotknowmuchhistory。Butitseemstomethatitmusthavebeenso。WhenIwasinSwitzerlandIusedtolookwithastonishmentatthemanyruinsoffeudalcastlesperchedonthetopofsteepandrockyheights,halfamileatleastabovesea-level,sothattoreachthemonehadtoclimbmanymilesofstonytracks。Acastle,asyouknow,is,akindofmountainofstones——adreadful,almostanimpossible,labour!Doubtlessthebuilderswereallpoormen,vassals,andhadtopayheavytaxes,andtokeepupthepriesthood。How,then,couldtheyprovideforthemselves,andwhenhadtheytimetoploughandsowtheirfields?Thegreaternumbermust,literally,havediedofstarvation。Ihavesometimesaskedmyselfhowitwasthatthesecommunitieswerenotutterlysweptoffthefaceoftheearth,andhowtheycouldpossiblysurvive。Lebedeffisnotmistaken,inmyopinion,whenhesaysthattherewerecannibalsinthosedays,perhapsinconsiderablenumbers;butIdonotunderstandwhyheshouldhavedraggedinthemonks,norwhathemeansbythat。\"
\"Itisundoubtedlybecause,inthetwelfthcentury,monksweretheonlypeopleonecouldeat;theywerethefat,amongmanylean,\"saidGavrilaArdalionovitch。
\"Abrilliantidea,andmosttrue!\"criedLebedeff,\"forhenevereventouchedthelaity。Sixtymonks,andnotasinglelayman!Itisaterribleidea,butitishistoric,itisstatistic;itisindeedoneofthosefactswhichenablesanintelligenthistoriantoreconstructthephysiognomyofaspecialepoch,foritbringsoutthisfurtherpointwithmathematicalaccuracy,thattheclergywereinthosedayssixtytimesricherandmoreflourishingthantherestofhumanity。andperhapssixtytimesfatteralso……\"
\"Youareexaggerating,youareexaggerating,Lebedeff!\"criedhishearers,amidlaughter。
\"Iadmitthatitisanhistoricthought,butwhatisyourconclusion?\"askedtheprince。
HespokesoseriouslyinaddressingLebedeff,thathistonecontrastedquitecomicallywiththatoftheothers。Theywereverynearlylaughingathim,too,buthedidnotnoticeit。
\"Don’tyouseeheisalunatic,prince?\"whisperedEvgeniePavlovitchinhisear。\"Someonetoldmejustnowthatheisabittouchedonthesubjectoflawyers,thathehasamaniaformakingspeechesandintendstopasstheexaminations。Iamexpectingasplendidburlesquenow。\"
\"Myconclusionisvast,\"repliedLebedeff,inavoicelikethunder。\"Letusexaminefirstthepsychologicalandlegalpositionofthecriminal。Weseethatinspiteofthedifficultyoffindingotherfood,theaccused,or,aswemaysay,myclient,hasoftenduringhispeculiarlifeexhibitedsignsofrepentance,andofwishingtogiveupthisclericaldiet。Incontrovertiblefactsprovethisassertion。Hehaseatenfiveorsixchildren,arelativelyinsignificantnumber,nodoubt,butremarkableenoughfromanotherpointofview。Itismanifestthat,prickedbyremorse——formyclientisreligious,inhisway,andhasaconscience,asIshallprovelater——anddesiringtoextenuatehissinasfaraspossible,hehastriedsixtimesatleasttosubstitutelaynourishmentforclerical。Thatthiswasmerelyanexperimentwecanhardlydoubt:forifithadbeenonlyaquestionofgastronomicvariety,sixwouldhavebeentoofew;whyonlysix?Whynotthirty?Butifweregarditasanexperiment,inspiredbythefearofcommittingnewsacrilege,thenthisnumbersixbecomesintelligible。Sixattemptstocalmhisremorse,andtheprickingofhisconscience,wouldamplysuffice,fortheseattemptscouldscarcelyhavebeenhappyones。Inmyhumbleopinion,achildistoosmall;Ishouldsay,notsufficient;whichwouldresultinfourorfivetimesmorelaychildrenthanmonksbeingrequiredinagiventime。Thesin,lessenedontheonehand,wouldthereforebeincreasedontheother,inquantity,notinquality。Pleaseunderstand,gentlemen,thatinreasoningthus,Iamtakingthepointofviewwhichmighthavebeentakenbyacriminalofthemiddleages。Asformyself,amanofthelatenineteenthcentury,I,ofcourse,shouldreasondifferently;Isaysoplainly,andthereforeyouneednotjeeratmenormockme,gentlemen。Asforyou,general,itisstillmoreunbecomingonyourpart。Inthesecondplace,andgivingmyownpersonalopinion,achild’sfleshisnotasatisfyingdiet;itistooinsipid,toosweet;andthecriminal,inmakingtheseexperiments,couldhavesatisfiedneitherhisconsciencenorhisappetite。Iamabouttoconclude,gentlemen;andmyconclusioncontainsareplytooneofthemostimportantquestionsofthatdayandofourown!Thiscriminalendedatlastbydenouncinghimselftotheclergy,andgivinghimselfuptojustice。Wecannotbutask,rememberingthepenalsystemofthatday,andthetorturesthatawaitedhim——thewheel,thestake,thefire!——wecannotbutask,Irepeat,whatinducedhimtoaccusehimselfofthiscrime?Whydidhenotsimplystopshortatthenumbersixty,andkeephissecretuntilhislastbreath?Whycouldhenotsimplyleavethemonksalone,andgointothedeserttorepent?
Orwhynotbecomeamonkhimself?Thatiswherethepuzzlecomesin!Theremusthavebeensomethingstrongerthanthestakeorthefire,oreventhanthehabitsoftwentyyears!Theremusthavebeenanideamorepowerfulthanallthecalamitiesandsorrowsofthisworld,famineortorture,leprosyorplague——anideawhichenteredintotheheart,directedandenlargedthespringsoflife,andmadeeventhathellsupportabletohumanity!Showmeaforce,apowerlikethat,inthisourcenturyofvicesandrailways!Imightsay,perhaps,inourcenturyofsteamboatsandrailways,butIrepeatinourcenturyofvicesandrailways,becauseIamdrunkbuttruthful!Showmeasingleideawhichunitesmennowadayswithhalfthestrengththatithadinthosecenturies,anddaretomaintainthatthe’springsoflife’havenotbeenpollutedandweakenedbeneaththis’star,’beneaththisnetworkinwhichmenareentangled!Don’ttalktomeaboutyourprosperity,yourriches,therarityoffamine,therapidityofthemeansoftransport!Thereismoreofriches,butlessofforce。Theideaunitingheartandsoultoheartandsoulexistsnomore。Allisloose,soft,limp——weareallofuslimp……
Enough,gentlemen!Ihavedone。Thatisnotthequestion。No,thequestionisnow,excellency,Ibelieve,tositdowntothebanquetyouareabouttoprovideforus!\"
Lebedeffhadrousedgreatindignationinsomeofhisauditorsitshouldberemarkedthatthebottleswereconstantlyuncorkedduringhisspeech;butthisunexpectedconclusioncalmedeventhemostturbulentspirits。\"That’showacleverbarristermakesagoodpoint!\"saidhe,whenspeakingofhisperorationlateron。
Thevisitorsbegantolaughandchatteronceagain;thecommitteelefttheirseats,andstretchedtheirlegsontheterrace。KelleralonewasstilldisgustedwithLebedeffandhisspeech;heturnedfromonetoanother,sayinginaloudvoice:
\"Heattackseducation,heboastsofthefanaticismofthetwelfthcentury,hemakesabsurdgrimaces,andaddedtothatheisbynomeanstheinnocenthemakeshimselfouttobe。Howdidhegetthemoneytobuythishouse,allowmetoask?\"
Inanothercornerwasthegeneral,holdingforthtoagroupofhearers,amongthemPtitsin,whomhehadbuttonholed。\"Ihaveknown,\"saidhe,\"arealinterpreteroftheApocalypse,thelateGregorySemeonovitchBurmistroff,andhe——hepiercedtheheartlikeafieryflash!Hebeganbyputtingonhisspectacles,thenheopenedalargeblackbook;hiswhitebeard,andhistwomedalsonhisbreast,recallingactsofcharity,alladdedtohisimpressiveness。Hebeganinasternvoice,andbeforehimgenerals,hardmenoftheworld,boweddown,andladiesfelltothegroundfainting。Butthisonehere——heendsbyannouncingabanquet!Thatisnottherealthing!\"
Ptitsinlistenedandsmiled,thenturnedasiftogethishat;
butifhehadintendedtoleave,hechangedhismind。Beforetheothershadrisenfromthetable,Ganiahadsuddenlyleftoffdrinking,andpushedawayhisglass,adarkshadowseemedtocomeoverhisface。Whentheyallrose,hewentandsatdownbyRogojin。Itmighthavebeenbelievedthatquitefriendlyrelationsexistedbetweenthem。Rogojin,whohadalsoseemedonthepointofgoingawaynowsatmotionless,hisheadbent,seemingtohaveforgottenhisintention。Hehaddrunknowine,andappearedabsorbedinreflection。Fromtimetotimeheraisedhiseyes,andexaminedeveryonepresent;onemighthaveimaginedthathewasexpectingsomethingveryimportanttohimself,andthathehaddecidedtowaitforit。Theprincehadtakentwoorthreeglassesofchampagne,andseemedcheerful。AsherosehenoticedEvgeniePavlovitch,and,rememberingtheappointmenthehadmadewithhim,smiledpleasantly。EvgeniePavlovitchmadeasignwithhisheadtowardsHippolyte,whomhewasattentivelywatching。Theinvalidwasfastasleep,stretchedoutonthesofa。
\"Tellme,prince,whyonearthdidthisboyintrudehimselfuponyou?\"heasked,withsuchannoyanceandirritationinhisvoicethattheprincewasquitesurprised。\"Iwouldn’tmindlayingoddsthatheisuptosomemischief。\"
\"Ihaveobserved,\"saidtheprince,\"thatheseemstobeanobjectofverysingularinteresttoyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。Whyisit?\"
\"YoumayaddthatIhavesurelyenoughtothinkof,onmyownaccount,withouthim;andthereforeitisallthemoresurprisingthatIcannottearmyeyesandthoughtsawayfromhisdetestablephysiognomy。\"
\"Oh,come!Hehasahandsomeface。\"
\"Why,lookathim——lookathimnow!\"
TheprinceglancedagainatEvgeniePavlovitchwithconsiderablesurprise。
V。
HIPPOLYTE,whohadfallenasleepduringLebedeff’sdiscourse,nowsuddenlywokeup,justasthoughsomeonehadjoggedhimintheside。Heshuddered,raisedhimselfonhisarm,gazedaround,andgrewverypale。Alookalmostofterrorcrossedhisfaceasherecollected。
\"What!aretheyalloff?Isitallover?Isthesunup?\"Hetrembled,andcaughtattheprince’shand。\"Whattimeisit?Tellme,quick,forgoodness’sake!HowlonghaveIslept?\"headded,almostindespair,justasthoughhehadoversleptsomethinguponwhichhiswholefatedepended。
\"Youhavesleptsevenorperhapseightminutes,\"saidEvgeniePavlovitch。
Hippolytegazedeagerlyatthelatter,andmusedforafewmoments。
\"Oh,isthatall?\"hesaidatlast。\"ThenI——\"
Hedrewalong,deepbreathofrelief,asitseemed。Herealizedthatallwasnotoverasyet,thatthesunhadnotrisen,andthattheguestshadmerelygonetosupper。Hesmiled,andtwohecticspotsappearedonhischeeks。
\"SoyoucountedtheminuteswhileIslept,didyou,EvgeniePavlovitch?\"hesaid,ironically。\"Youhavenottakenyoureyesoffmealltheevening——Ihavenoticedthatmuch,yousee!Ah,Rogojin!I’vejustbeendreamingabouthim,prince,\"headded,frowning。\"Yes,bytheby,\"startingup,\"where’stheorator?
Where’sLebedeff?Hashefinished?Whatdidhetalkabout?Isittrue,prince,thatyouoncedeclaredthat’beautywouldsavetheworld’?GreatHeaven!Theprincesaysthatbeautysavestheworld!AndIdeclarethatheonlyhassuchplayfulideasbecausehe’sinlove!Gentlemen,theprinceisinlove。Iguesseditthemomenthecamein。Don’tblush,prince;youmakemesorryforyou。Whatbeautysavestheworld?ColiatoldmethatyouareazealousChristian;isitso?ColiasaysyoucallyourselfaChristian。\"
Theprinceregardedhimattentively,butsaidnothing。
\"Youdon’tanswerme;perhapsyouthinkIamveryfondofyou?\"
addedHippolyte,asthoughthewordshadbeendrawnfromhim。
\"No,Idon’tthinkthat。Iknowyoudon’tloveme。\"
\"What,afteryesterday?Wasn’tIhonestwithyou?\"
\"Iknewyesterdaythatyoudidn’tloveme。\"
\"Whyso?whyso?BecauseIenvyyou,eh?Youalwaysthinkthat,I
know。ButdoyouknowwhyIamsayingallthis?Lookhere!Imusthavesomemorechampagne——pourmeoutsome,Keller,willyou?\"
\"No,you’renottodrinkanymore,Hippolyte。Iwon’tletyou。\"
Theprincemovedtheglassaway。
\"Wellperhapsyou’reright,\"saidHippolyte,musing。Theymightsay——yet,deviltakethem!whatdoesitmatter?——prince,whatcanitmatterwhatpeoplewillsayofusTHEN,eh?IbelieveI’mhalfasleep。I’vehadsuchadreadfuldream——I’veonlyjustrememberedit。Prince,Idon’twishyousuchdreamsasthat,thoughsureenough,perhaps,IDON’Tloveyou。Whywishamanevil,thoughyoudonotlovehim,eh?Givemeyourhand——letmepressitsincerely。There——you’vegivenmeyourhand——youmustfeelthatI
DOpressitsincerely,don’tyou?Idon’tthinkIshalldrinkanymore。Whattimeisit?Nevermind,Iknowthetime。Thetimehascome,atallevents。What!theyarelayingsupperoverthere,arethey?Thenthistableisfree?Capital,gentlemen!I——hem!thesegentlemenarenotlistening。Prince,IwilljustreadoveranarticleIhavehere。Supperismoreinteresting,ofcourse,but——\"
HereHippolytesuddenly,andmostunexpectedly,pulledoutofhisbreast-pocketalargesealedpaper。Thisimposing-lookingdocumentheplaceduponthetablebeforehim。
Theeffectofthissuddenactionuponthecompanywasinstantaneous。EvgeniePavlovitchalmostboundedoffhischairinexcitement。Rogojindrewnearertothetablewithalookonhisfaceasifheknewwhatwascoming。Ganiacamenearertoo;sodidLebedeffandtheothers——thepaperseemedtobeanobjectofgreatinteresttothecompanyingeneral。
\"Whathaveyougotthere?\"askedtheprince,withsomeanxiety。
\"Atthefirstglimpseoftherisingsun,prince,Iwillgotobed。ItoldyouIwould,wordofhonour!Youshallsee!\"criedHippolyte。\"YouthinkI’mnotcapableofopeningthispacket,doyou?\"Heglareddefiantlyroundattheaudienceingeneral。
Theprinceobservedthathewastremblingallover。
\"Noneofuseverthoughtsuchathing!\"Muishkinrepliedforall。
\"Whyshouldyousupposeitofus?Andwhatareyougoingtoread,Hippolyte?Whatisit?\"
\"Yes,whatisit?\"askedothers。Thepacketsealedwithredwaxseemedtoattracteveryone,asthoughitwereamagnet。
\"Iwrotethisyesterday,myself,justafterIsawyou,prince,andtoldyouIwouldcomedownhere。Iwrotealldayandallnight,andfinisheditthismorningearly。AfterwardsIhadadream。\"
\"Hadn’twebetterhearittomorrow?\"askedtheprincetimidly。
\"Tomorrow’therewillbenomoretime!’\"laughedHippolyte,hysterically。\"Youneedn’tbeafraid;Ishallgetthroughthewholethinginfortyminutes,atmostanhour!Lookhowinterestedeverybodyis!Everybodyhasdrawnnear。Look!lookatthemallstaringatmysealedpacket!IfIhadn’tsealeditupitwouldn’thavebeenhalfsoeffective!Ha,ha!that’smystery,thatis!Nowthen,gentlemen,shallIbreakthesealornot?Saytheword;it’samystery,Itellyou——asecret!Prince,youknowwhosaidtherewouldbe’nomoretime’?ItwasthegreatandpowerfulangelintheApocalypse。\"
\"Betternotreaditnow,\"saidtheprince,puttinghishandonthepacket。
\"No,don’treadit!\"criedEvgeniesuddenly。Heappearedsostrangelydisturbedthatmanyofthosepresentcouldnothelpwondering。
\"Reading?Noneofyourreadingnow!\"saidsomebody;\"it’ssupper-
time。\"\"Whatsortofanarticleisit?Forapaper?Probablyit’sverydull,\"saidanother。Buttheprince’stimidgesturehadimpressedevenHippolyte。
\"ThenI’mnottoreadit?\"hewhispered,nervously。\"AmInottoreadit?\"herepeated,gazingaroundateachfaceinturn。\"Whatareyouafraidof,prince?\"heturnedandaskedthelattersuddenly。
\"WhatshouldIbeafraidof?\"
\"Hasanyoneacoinaboutthem?Givemeatwenty-copeckpiece,somebody!\"AndHippolyteleaptfromhischair。
\"Hereyouare,\"saidLebedeff,handinghimone;hethoughttheboyhadgonemad。
\"VeraLukianovna,\"saidHippolyte,\"tossit,willyou?Heads,I
read,tails,Idon’t。\"
VeraLebedefftossedthecoinintotheairandletitfallonthetable。
Itwas\"heads。\"
\"ThenIreadit,\"saidHippolyte,inthetoneofonebowingtothefiatofdestiny。Hecouldnothavegrownpalerifaverdictofdeathhadsuddenlybeenpresentedtohim。
\"Butafterall,whatisit?IsitpossiblethatIshouldhavejustriskedmyfatebytossingup?\"hewenton,shuddering;andlookedroundhimagain。Hiseyeshadacuriousexpressionofsincerity。\"Thatisanastonishingpsychologicalfact,\"hecried,suddenlyaddressingtheprince,inatoneofthemostintensesurprise。\"Itis……itissomethingquiteinconceivable,prince,\"herepeatedwithgrowinganimation,likeamanregainingconsciousness。\"Takenoteofit,prince,rememberit;youcollect,Iamtold,factsconcerningcapitalpunishment……Theytoldmeso。Ha,ha!MyGod,howabsurd!\"Hesatdownonthesofa,puthiselbowsonthetable,andlaidhisheadonhishands。\"Itisshameful——thoughwhatdoesitmattertomeifitisshameful?
\"Gentlemen,gentlemen!Iamabouttobreaktheseal,\"hecontinued,withdetermination。\"I-I——ofcourseIdon’tinsistuponanyonelisteningiftheydonotwishto。\"
Withtremblingfingershebrokethesealanddrewoutseveralsheetsofpaper,smoothedthemoutbeforehim,andbegansortingthem。
\"Whatonearthdoesallthismean?What’shegoingtoread?\"
mutteredseveralvoices。Otherssaidnothing;butoneandallsatdownandwatchedwithcuriosity。Theybegantothinksomethingstrangemightreallybeabouttohappen。Verastoodandtrembledbehindherfather’schair,almostintearswithfright;Coliawasnearlyasmuchalarmedasshewas。LebedeffjumpedupandputacoupleofcandlesnearertoHippolyte,sothathemightseebetter。
\"Gentlemen,this——you’llsoonseewhatthisis,\"beganHippolyte,andsuddenlycommencedhisreading。
\"It’sheaded,’ANecessaryExplanation,’withthemotto,’Apresmoiledeluge!’Oh,deucetakeitall!SurelyIcanneverhaveseriouslywrittensuchasillymottoasthat?Lookhere,gentlemen,Ibegtogivenoticethatallthisisverylikelyterriblenonsense。Itisonlyafewideasofmine。Ifyouthinkthatthereisanythingmysteriouscoming——orinaword——\"
\"Betterreadonwithoutanymorebeatingaboutthebush,\"saidGania。
\"Affectation!\"remarkedsomeoneelse。
\"Toomuchtalk,\"saidRogojin,breakingthesilenceforthefirsttime。
Hippolyteglancedathimsuddenly,andwhentheireye,metRogojinshowedhisteethinadisagreeablesmile,andsaidthefollowingstrangewords:\"That’snotthewaytosettlethisbusiness,myfriend;that’snotthewayatall。\"
OfcoursenobodyknewwhatRogojinmeantbythis;buthiswordsmadeadeepimpressionuponall。Everyoneseemedtoseeinaflashthesameidea。
AsforHippolyte,theireffectuponhimwasastounding。Hetrembledsothattheprincewasobligedtosupporthim,andwouldcertainlyhavecriedout,butthathisvoiceseemedtohaveentirelylefthimforthemoment。Foraminuteortwohecouldnotspeakatall,butpantedandstaredatRogojin。Atlasthemanagedtoejaculate:
\"ThenitwasYOUwhocame——YOU——YOU?\"
\"Camewhere?Whatdoyoumean?\"askedRogojin,amazed。ButHippolyte,pantingandchokingwithexcitement,interruptedhimviolently。
\"YOUcametomelastweek,inthenight,attwoo’clock,thedayIwaswithyouinthemorning!Confessitwasyou!\"
\"Lastweek?Inthenight?Haveyougonecracked,mygoodfriend?\"
Hippolytepausedandconsideredamoment。Thenasmileofcunning——almosttriumph——crossedhislips。
\"Itwasyou,\"hemurmured,almostinawhisper,butwithabsoluteconviction。\"Yes,itwasyouwhocametomyroomandsatsilentlyonachairatmywindowforawholehour——more!Itwasbetweenoneandtwoatnight;youroseandwentoutataboutthree。Itwasyou,you!Whyyoushouldhavefrightenedmeso,whyyoushouldhavewishedtotormentmelikethat,Icannottell——butyouitwas。\"
Therewasabsolutehatredinhiseyesashesaidthis,buthislookoffearandhistremblinghadnotlefthim。
\"Youshallhearallthisdirectly,gentlemen。I-I——listen!\"
Heseizedhispaperinadesperatehurry;hefidgetedwithit,andtriedtosortit,butforalongwhilehistremblinghandscouldnotcollectthesheetstogether。\"He’seithermadordelirious,\"murmuredRogojin。Atlasthebegan。
Forthefirstfiveminutesthereader’svoicecontinuedtotremble,andhereaddisconnectedlyandunevenly;butgraduallyhisvoicestrengthened。Occasionallyaviolentfitofcoughingstoppedhim,buthisanimationgrewwiththeprogressofthereading——asdidalsothedisagreeableimpressionwhichitmadeuponhisaudience,——untilitreachedthehighestpitchofexcitement。
Hereisthearticle。
MYNECESSARYEXPLANATION。
\"Apresmoiledeluge。
\"Yesterdaymorningtheprincecametoseeme。Amongotherthingsheaskedmetocomedowntohisvilla。Iknewhewouldcomeandpersuademetothisstep,andthathewouldadducetheargumentthatitwouldbeeasierformetodie’amongpeopleandgreentrees,’——asheexpressedit。Buttodayhedidnotsay’die,’hesaid’live。’Itisprettymuchthesametome,inmyposition,whichhesays。WhenIaskedhimwhyhemadesuchapointofhis’greentrees,’hetoldme,tomyastonishment,thathehadheardthatlasttimeIwasinPavlofskIhadsaidthatIhadcome’tohavealastlookatthetrees。’
\"WhenIobservedthatitwasallthesamewhetheronediedamongtreesorinfrontofablankbrickwall,ashere,andthatitwasnotworthmakinganyfussoverafortnight,heagreedatonce。
ButheinsistedthatthegoodairatPavlofskandthegreennesswouldcertainlycauseaphysicalchangeforthebetter,andthatmyexcitement,andmyDREAMS,wouldbeperhapsrelieved。I
remarkedtohim,withasmile,thathespokelikeamaterialist,andheansweredthathehadalwaysbeenone。Ashenevertellsalie,theremustbesomethinginhiswords。Hissmileisapleasantone。Ihavehadagoodlookathim。Idon’tknowwhetherIlikehimornot;andIhavenotimetowasteoverthequestion。
ThehatredwhichIfeltforhimforfivemonthshasbecomeconsiderablymodified,Imaysay,duringthelastmonth。Whoknows,perhapsIamgoingtoPavlofskonpurposetoseehim!ButwhydoIleavemychamber?Thosewhoaresentencedtodeathshouldnotleavetheircells。IfIhadnotformedafinalresolve,buthaddecidedtowaituntilthelastminute,Ishouldnotleavemyroom,oraccepthisinvitationtocomeanddieatPavlofsk。Imustbequickandfinishthisexplanationbeforetomorrow。Ishallhavenotimetoreaditoverandcorrectit,forImustreadittomorrowtotheprinceandtwoorthreewitnesseswhomIshallprobablyfindthere。
\"Asitwillbeabsolutelytrue,withoutatouchoffalsehood,I
amcurioustoseewhatimpressionitwillmakeuponmemyselfatthemomentwhenIreaditout。Thisismy’lastandsolemn’——butwhyneedIcallitthat?Thereisnoquestionaboutthetruthofit,foritisnotworthwhilelyingforafortnight;afortnightoflifeisnotitselfworthhaving,whichisaproofthatIwritenothingherebutpuretruth。
\"N。B——Letmeremembertoconsider;amImadatthismoment,ornot?orratheratthesemoments?Ihavebeentoldthatconsumptivessometimesdogooutoftheirmindsforawhileinthelaststagesofthemalady。IcanprovethistomorrowwhenI
readitout,bytheimpressionitmakesupontheaudience。Imustsettlethisquestiononceandforall,otherwiseIcan’tgoonwithanything。
\"IbelieveIhavejustwrittendreadfulnonsense;butthere’snotimeforcorrecting,asIsaidbefore。Besidesthat,IhavemademyselfapromisenottoalterasinglewordofwhatIwriteinthispaper,eventhoughIfindthatIamcontradictingmyselfeveryfivelines。Iwishtoverifytheworkingofthenaturallogicofmyideastomorrowduringthereading——whetherIamcapableofdetectinglogicalerrors,andwhetherallthatIhavemeditatedoverduringthelastsixmonthsbetrue,ornothingbutdelirium。
\"IftwomonthssinceIhadbeencalledupontoleavemyroomandtheviewofMeyer’swallopposite,IverilybelieveIshouldhavebeensorry。ButnowIhavenosuchfeeling,andyetIamleavingthisroomandMeyer’sbrickwallFOREVER。Sothatmyconclusion,thatitisnotworthwhileindulgingingrief,oranyotheremotion,forafortnight,hasprovedstrongerthanmyverynature,andhastakenoverthedirectionofmyfeelings。Butisitso?Isitthecasethatmynatureisconqueredentirely?IfI
weretobeputontheracknow,Ishouldcertainlycryout。I
shouldnotsaythatitisnotworthwhiletoyellandfeelpainbecauseIhavebutafortnighttolive。
\"ButisittruethatIhavebutafortnightoflifelefttome?I
knowItoldsomeofmyfriendsthatDoctorB。hadinformedmethatthiswasthecase;butInowconfessthatIlied;B。hasnotevenseenme。However,aweekago,Icalledinamedicalstudent,Kislorodoff,whoisaNationalist,anAtheist,andaNihilist,byconviction,andthatiswhyIhadhim。Ineededamanwhowouldtellmethebaretruthwithoutanyhumbugorceremony——andsohedid——indeed,almostwithpleasurewhichIthoughtwasgoingalittletoofar。
\"Well,heplumpedoutthatIhadaboutamonthleftme;itmightbealittlemore,hesaid,underfavourablecircumstances,butitmightalsobeconsiderablyless。AccordingtohisopinionI
mightdiequitesuddenly——tomorrow,forinstance——therehadbeensuchcases。OnlyadayortwosinceayoungladyatColomnawhosufferedfromconsumption,andwasaboutonaparwithmyselfinthemarchofthedisease,wasgoingouttomarkettobuyprovisions,whenshesuddenlyfeltfaint,laydownonthesofa,gaspedonce,anddied。
\"Kislorodofftoldmeallthiswithasortofexaggerateddevil-
may-carenegligence,andasthoughhedidmegreathonourbytalkingtomeso,becauseitshowedthatheconsideredmethesamesortofexaltedNihilisticbeingashimself,towhomdeathwasamatterofnoconsequencewhatever,eitherway。
\"Atallevents,thefactremained——amonthoflifeandnomore!