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  Everyonelaughedatthis。

  \"Aspecialcase——accidental,ofcourse!\"criedAlexandraandAdelaida。

  \"Letmeremindyouoncemore,Evgenie,\"saidPrinceS。,\"thatyourjokeisgettingalittlethreadbare。\"

  \"Whatdoyouthinkaboutit,prince?\"askedEvgenie,takingnonoticeofthelastremark,andobservingMuishkin’sseriouseyesfixeduponhisface。\"Whatdoyouthink——wasitaspecialorausualcase——therule,oranexception?IconfessIputthequestionespeciallyforyou。\"

  \"No,Idon’tthinkitwasaspecialcase,\"saidtheprince,quietly,butfirmly。

  \"Mydearfellow!\"criedPrinceS。,withsomeannoyance,\"don’tyouseethatheischaffingyou?Heissimplylaughingatyou,andwantstomakegameofyou。\"

  \"IthoughtEvgeniePavlovitchwastalkingseriously,\"saidtheprince,blushinganddroppinghiseyes。

  \"Mydearprince,\"continuedPrinceS。\"rememberwhatyouandI

  weresayingtwoorthreemonthsago。WespokeofthefactthatinournewlyopenedLawCourtsonecouldalreadylayone’sfingeruponsomanytalentedandremarkableyoungbarristers。Howpleasedyouwerewiththestateofthingsaswefoundit,andhowgladIwastoobserveyourdelight!Webothsaiditwasamattertobeproudof;butthisclumsydefencethatEvgeniementions,thisstrangeargumentCAN,ofcourse,onlybeanaccidentalcase——oneinathousand!\"

  Theprincereflectedalittle,butverysoonhereplied,withabsoluteconvictioninhistone,thoughhestillspokesomewhatshylyandtimidly:

  \"Ionlywishedtosaythatthis’distortion,’asEvgeniePavlovitchexpressedit,ismetwithveryoften,andisfarmorethegeneralrulethantheexception,unfortunatelyforRussia。Somuchso,thatifthisdistortionwerenotthegeneralrule,perhapsthesedreadfulcrimeswouldbelessfrequent。\"

  \"Dreadfulcrimes?ButIcanassureyouthatcrimesjustasdreadful,andprobablymorehorrible,haveoccurredbeforeourtimes,andatalltimes,andnotonlyhereinRussia,buteverywhereelseaswell。Andinmyopinionitisnotatalllikelythatsuchmurderswillceasetooccurforaverylongtimetocome。Theonlydifferenceisthatinformertimestherewaslesspublicity,whilenoweveryonetalksandwritesfreelyaboutsuchthings——whichfactgivestheimpressionthatsuchcrimeshaveonlynowsprungintoexistence。Thatiswhereyourmistakelies——anextremelynaturalmistake,Iassureyou,mydearfellow!\"saidPrinceS。

  \"Iknowthattherewerejustasmany,andjustasterrible,crimesbeforeourtimes。NotlongsinceIvisitedaconvictprisonandmadeacquaintancewithsomeofthecriminals。Thereweresomeevenmoredreadfulcriminalsthanthisonewehavebeenspeakingof——menwhohavemurderedadozenoftheirfellow-

  creatures,andfeelnoremorsewhatever。ButwhatIespeciallynoticedwasthis,thattheverymosthopelessandremorselessmurderer——howeverhardenedacriminalhemaybe——stillKNOWSTHAT

  HEISACRIMINAL;thatis,heisconsciousthathehasactedwickedly,thoughhemayfeelnoremorsewhatever。Andtheywerealllikethis。ThoseofwhomEvgeniePavlovitchhasspoken,donotadmitthattheyarecriminalsatall;theythinktheyhadarighttodowhattheydid,andthattheywereevendoingagooddeed,perhaps。Iconsiderthereisthegreatestdifferencebetweenthetwocases。Andrecollect——itwasaYOUTH,attheparticularagewhichismosthelplesslysusceptibletothedistortionofideas!\"

  PrinceS。wasnownolongersmiling;hegazedattheprinceinbewilderment。

  Alexandra,whohadseemedtowishtoputinherwordwhentheprincebegan,nowsatsilent,asthoughsomesuddenthoughthadcausedhertochangehermindaboutspeaking。

  EvgeniePavlovitchgazedathiminrealsurprise,andthistimehisexpressionoffacehadnomockeryinitwhatever。

  \"Whatareyoulookingsosurprisedabout,myfriend?\"askedMrs。

  Epanchin,suddenly。\"Didyousupposehewasstupiderthanyourself,andwasincapableofforminghisownopinions,orwhat?\"

  \"No!Ohno!Notatall!\"saidEvgenie。\"But——howisit,prince,thatyou——excusethequestion,willyou?——ifyouarecapableofobservingandseeingthingsasyouevidentlydo,howisitthatyousawnothingdistortedorpervertedinthatclaimuponyourproperty,whichyouacknowledgedadayortwosince;andwhichwasfullofargumentsfoundeduponthemostdistortedviewsofrightandwrong?\"

  \"I’lltellyouwhat,myfriend,\"criedMrs。Epanchin,ofasudden,\"hereareweallsittinghereandimaginingweareveryclever,andperhapslaughingattheprince,someofus,andmeanwhilehehasreceivedaletterthisverydayinwhichthatsameclaimantrenounceshisclaim,andbegstheprince’spardon。

  ThereIwedon’toftengetthatsortofletter;andyetwearenotashamedtowalkwithournosesintheairbeforehim。\"

  \"AndHippolytehascomedownheretostay,\"saidColia,suddenly。

  \"What!hashearrived?\"saidtheprince,startingup。

  \"Yes,Ibroughthimdownfromtownjustafteryouhadleftthehouse。\"

  \"Therenow!It’sjustlikehim,\"criedLizabethaProkofievna,boilingoveroncemore,andentirelyobliviousofthefactthatshehadjusttakentheprince’spart。\"Idareswearthatyouwentuptotownyesterdayonpurposetogetthelittlewretchtodoyouthegreathonourofcomingtostayatyourhouse。Youdidgouptotown,youknowyoudid——yousaidsoyourself!Nowthen,didyou,ordidyounot,godownonyourkneesandbeghimtocome,confess!\"

  \"No,hedidn’t,forIsawitallmyself,\"saidColia。\"Onthecontrary,Hippolytekissedhishandtwiceandthankedhim;andalltheprincesaidwasthathethoughtHippolytemightfeelbetterhereinthecountry!\"

  \"Don’t,Colia,——whatistheuseofsayingallthat?\"criedtheprince,risingandtakinghishat。

  \"Whereareyougoingtonow?\"criedMrs。Epanchin。

  \"Nevermindabouthimnow,prince,\"saidColia。\"Heisallrightandtakinganapafterthejourney。Heisveryhappytobehere;

  butIthinkperhapsitwouldbebetterifyoulethimalonefortoday,——heisverysensitivenowthatheissoill——andhemightbeembarrassedifyoushowhimtoomuchattentionatfirst。Heisdecidedlybettertoday,andsayshehasnotfeltsowellforthelastsixmonths,andhascoughedmuchless,too。\"

  TheprinceobservedthatAglayacameoutofhercornerandapproachedthetableatthispoint。

  Hedidnotdarelookather,buthewasconscious,totheverytipsofhisfingers,thatshewasgazingathim,perhapsangrily;

  andthatshehadprobablyflushedupwithalookoffieryindignationinherblackeyes。

  \"Itseemstome,Mr。Colia,thatyouwereveryfoolishtobringyouryoungfrienddown——ifheisthesameconsumptiveboywhoweptsoprofusely,andinvitedusalltohisownfuneral,\"remarkedEvgeniePavlovitch。\"Hetalkedsoeloquentlyabouttheblankwalloutsidehisbedroomwindow,thatI’msurehewillneversupportlifeherewithoutit。\"

  \"Ithinksotoo,\"saidMrs。Epanchin;\"hewillquarrelwithyou,andbeoff,\"andshedrewherworkboxtowardsherwithanairofdignity,quiteobliviousofthefactthatthefamilywasabouttostartforawalkinthepark。

  \"Yes,Irememberheboastedabouttheblankwallinanextraordinaryway,\"continuedEvgenie,\"andIfeelthatwithoutthatblankwallhewillneverbeabletodieeloquently;andhedoessolongtodieeloquently!\"

  \"Oh,youmustforgivehimtheblankwall,\"saidtheprince,quietly。\"Hehascomedowntoseeafewtreesnow,poorfellow。\"

  \"Oh,Iforgivehimwithallmyheart;youmaytellhimsoifyoulike,\"laughedEvgenie。

  \"Idon’tthinkyoushouldtakeitquitelikethat,\"saidtheprince,quietly,andwithoutremovinghiseyesfromthecarpet。

  \"Ithinkitismoreacaseofhisforgivingyou\"

  \"Forgivingme!whyso?WhathaveIdonetoneedhisforgiveness?\"

  \"Ifyoudon’tunderstand,then——butofcourse,youdounderstand。

  Hewished——hewishedtoblessyouallroundandtohaveyourblessing——beforehedied——that’sall。\"

  \"Mydearprince,\"beganPrinceS。,hurriedly,exchangingglanceswithsomeofthosepresent,\"youwillnoteasilyfindheavenonearth,andyetyouseemtoexpectto。Heavenisadifficultthingtofindanywhere,prince;farmoredifficultthanappearstothatgoodheartofyours。Betterstopthisconversation,orweshallallbegrowingquitedisturbedinourminds,and——\"

  \"Let’sgoandheartheband,then,\"saidLizabethaProkofievna,angrilyrisingfromherplace。

  Therestofthecompanyfollowedherexample。

  II。

  THEprincesuddenlyapproachedEvgeniePavlovitch。

  \"EvgeniePavlovitch,\"hesaid,withstrangeexcitementandseizingthelatter’shandinhisown,\"beassuredthatIesteemyouasagenerousandhonourableman,inspiteofeverything。Beassuredofthat。\"

  EvgeniePavlovitchfellbackastepinastonishment。Foronemomentitwasallhecoulddotorestrainhimselffromburstingoutlaughing;but,lookingcloser,heobservedthattheprincedidnotseemtobequitehimself;atallevents,hewasinaverycuriousstate。

  \"Iwouldn’tmindbetting,prince,\"hecried,\"thatyoudidnotintheleastmeantosaythat,andverylikelyyoumeanttoaddresssomeoneelsealtogether。Whatisit?Areyoufeelingunwelloranything?\"

  \"Verylikely,extremelylikely,andyoumustbeaverycloseobservertodetectthefactthatperhapsIdidnotintendtocomeuptoYOUatall。\"

  Sosayinghesmiledstrangely;butsuddenlyandexcitedlyhebeganagain:

  \"Don’tremindmeofwhatIhavedoneorsaid。Don’t!Iamverymuchashamedofmyself,I——\"

  \"Why,whathaveyoudone?Idon’tunderstandyou。\"

  \"Iseeyouareashamedofme,EvgeniePavlovitch;youareblushingforme;that’sasignofagoodheart。Don’tbeafraid;

  Ishallgoawaydirectly。\"

  \"What’sthematterwithhim?Dohisfitsbeginlikethat?\"saidLizabethaProkofievna,inahighstateofalarm,addressingColia。

  \"No,no,LizabethaProkofievna,takenonoticeofme。Iamnotgoingtohaveafit。Iwillgoawaydirectly;butIknowIamafflicted。Iwastwenty-fouryearsaninvalid,yousee——thefirsttwenty-fouryearsofmylife——sotakeallIdoandsayasthesayingsandactionsofaninvalid。I’mgoingawaydirectly,I

  reallyam——don’tbeafraid。Iamnotblushing,forIdon’tthinkI

  needblushaboutit,needI?ButIseethatIamoutofplaceinsociety——societyisbetterwithoutme。It’snotvanity,Iassureyou。Ihavethoughtoveritalltheselastthreedays,andIhavemadeupmymindthatIoughttounbosommyselfcandidlybeforeyouatthefirstopportunity。Therearecertainthings,certaingreatideas,whichImustnotsomuchasapproach,asPrinceS。

  hasjustremindedme,orIshallmakeyoualllaugh。Ihavenosenseofproportion,Iknow;mywordsandgesturesdonotexpressmyideas——theyareahumiliationandabasementoftheideas,andtherefore,Ihavenoright——andIamtoosensitive。Still,I

  believeIambelovedinthishousehold,andesteemedfarmorethanIdeserve。ButIcan’thelpknowingthataftertwenty-fouryearsofillnesstheremustbesometraceleft,sothatitisimpossibleforpeopletorefrainfromlaughingatmesometimes;

  don’tyouthinkso?\"

  Heseemedtopauseforareply,forsomeverdict,asitwere,andlookedhumblyaroundhim。

  Allpresentstoodrootedtotheearthwithamazementatthisunexpectedandapparentlyuncalled-foroutbreak;butthepoorprince’spainfulandramblingspeechgaverisetoastrangeepisode。

  \"Whydoyousayallthishere?\"criedAglaya,suddenly。\"WhydoyoutalklikethistoTHEM?\"

  Sheappearedtobeinthelaststagesofwrathandirritation;

  hereyesflashed。Theprincestooddumblyandblindlybeforeher,andsuddenlygrewpale。

  \"Thereisnotoneofthemallwhoisworthyofthesewordsofyours,\"continuedAglaya。\"Notoneofthemisworthyourlittlefinger,notoneofthemhasheartorheadtocomparewithyours!

  Youaremorehonestthanall,andbetter,nobler,kinder,wiserthanall。Therearesomeherewhoareunworthytobendandpickupthehandkerchiefyouhavejustdropped。Whydoyouhumiliateyourselflikethis,andplaceyourselflowerthanthesepeople?

  Whydoyoudebaseyourselfbeforethem?Whyhaveyounopride?\"

  \"MyGod!Whowouldeverhavebelievedthis?\"criedMrs。Epanchin,wringingherhands。

  \"Hurrahforthe’poorknight’!\"criedColia。

  \"Bequiet!Howdaretheylaughatmeinyourhouse?\"saidAglaya,turningsharplyonhermotherinthathystericalframeofmindthatridesrecklesslyovereveryobstacleandplungesblindlythroughproprieties。\"Whydoeseveryone,everyoneworryandtormentme?Whyhavetheyallbeenbullyingmethesethreedaysaboutyou,prince?Iwillnotmarryyou——never,andundernocircumstances!Knowthatonceandforall;asifanyonecouldmarryanabsurdcreaturelikeyou!Justlookintheglassandseewhatyoulooklike,thisverymoment!Why,WHYdotheytormentmeandsayIamgoingtomarryyou?Youmustknowit;youareintheplotwiththem!\"

  \"Nooneevertormentedyouonthesubject,\"murmuredAdelaida,aghast。

  \"Nooneeverthoughtofsuchathing!Therehasneverbeenawordsaidaboutit!\"criedAlexandra。

  \"Whohasbeenannoyingher?Whohasbeentormentingthechild?Whocouldhavesaidsuchathingtoher?Issheraving?\"criedLizabethaProkofievna,tremblingwithrage,tothecompanyingeneral。

  \"Everyoneofthemhasbeensayingit——everyoneofthem——allthesethreedays!AndIwillnever,nevermarryhim!\"

  Sosaying,Aglayaburstintobittertears,and,hidingherfaceinherhandkerchief,sankbackintoachair。

  \"Buthehasnevereven——\"

  \"Ihaveneveraskedyoutomarryme,AglayaIvanovna!\"saidtheprince,ofasudden。

  \"WHAT?\"criedMrs。Epanchin,raisingherhandsinhorror。\"WHAT’S

  that?\"

  Shecouldnotbelieveherears。

  \"Imeanttosay——Ionlymeanttosay,\"saidtheprince,faltering,\"ImerelymeanttoexplaintoAglayaIvanovna——tohavethehonourtoexplain,asitwere——thatIhadnointention——neverhad——toaskthehonourofherhand。IassureyouIamnotguilty,AglayaIvanovna,Iamnot,indeed。Ineverdidwishto——Ineverthoughtofitatall——andnevershall——you’llseeityourself——

  youmaybequiteassuredofit。Somewickedpersonhasbeenmaligningmetoyou;butit’sallright。Don’tworryaboutit。\"

  Sosaying,theprinceapproachedAglaya。

  Shetookthehandkerchieffromherface,glancedkeenlyathim,tookinwhathehadsaid,andburstoutlaughing——suchamerry,unrestrainedlaugh,soheartyandgay,that。Adelaidacouldnotcontainherself。She,too,glancedattheprince’spanic-strickencountenance,thenrushedathersister,threwherarmsroundherneck,andburstintoasmerryafitoflaughterasAglaya’sown。

  Theylaughedtogetherlikeacoupleofschool-girls。Hearingandseeingthis,theprincesmiledhappily,andinaccentsofreliefandjoy,heexclaimed\"Well,thankGod——thankGod!\"

  Alexandranowjoinedin,anditlookedasthoughthethreesistersweregoingtolaughonforever。

  \"Theyareinsane,\"mutteredLizabethaProkofievna。\"Eithertheyfrightenoneoutofone’swits,orelse——\"

  ButPrinceS。waslaughingnow,too,sowasEvgeniePavlovitch,sowasColia,andsowastheprincehimself,whocaughttheinfectionashelookedroundradiantlyupontheothers。

  \"Comealong,let’sgooutforawalk!\"criedAdelaida。\"We’llallgotogether,andtheprincemustabsolutelygowithus。Youneedn’tgoaway,youdeargoodfellow!ISN’Theadear,Aglaya?

  Isn’the,mother?Imustreallygivehimakissfor——forhisexplanationtoAglayajustnow。Mother,dear,Imaykisshim,mayn’tI?Aglaya,mayIkissYOURprince?\"criedtheyoungrogue,andsureenoughsheskippeduptotheprinceandkissedhisforehead。

  Heseizedherhands,andpressedthemsohardthatAdelaidanearlycriedout;hethengazedwithdelightintohereyes,andraisingherrighthandtohislipswithenthusiasm,kisseditthreetimes。

  \"Comealong,\"saidAglaya。\"Prince,youmustwalkwithme。Mayhe,mother?Thisyoungcavalier,whowon’thaveme?YousaidyouwouldNEVERhaveme,didn’tyou,prince?No-no,notlikethat;

  THAT’Snotthewaytogiveyourarm。Don’tyouknowhowtogiveyourarmtoaladyyet?There——so。Now,comealong,youandI

  willleadtheway。Wouldyouliketoleadthewaywithmealone,tete-a-tete?\"

  Shewentontalkingandchattingwithoutapause,withoccasionallittleburstsoflaughterbetween。

  \"ThankGod——thankGod!\"saidLizabethaProkofievnatoherself,withoutquiteknowingwhyshefeltsorelieved。

  \"Whatextraordinarypeopletheyare!\"thoughtPrinceS。,forperhapsthehundredthtimesincehehadenteredintointimaterelationswiththefamily;but——helikedthese\"extraordinarypeople,\"allthesame。AsforPrinceLefNicolaievitchhimself,PrinceS。didnotseemquitetolikehim,somehow。Hewasdecidedlypreoccupiedandalittledisturbedastheyallstartedoff。

  EvgeniePavlovitchseemedtobeinalivelyhumour。HemadeAdelaidaandAlexandralaughallthewaytotheVauxhall;buttheybothlaughedsoveryreallyandpromptlythattheworthyEvgeniebeganatlasttosuspectthattheywerenotlisteningtohimatall。

  Atthisidea,heburstoutlaughingallatonce,inquiteunaffectedmirth,andwithoutgivinganyexplanation。

  Thesisters,whoalsoappearedtobeinhighspirits,nevertiredofglancingatAglayaandtheprince,whowerewalkinginfront。

  Itwasevidentthattheiryoungersisterwasathoroughpuzzletothemboth。

  PrinceS。triedhardtogetupaconversationwithMrs。Epanchinuponoutsidesubjects,probablywiththegoodintentionofdistractingandamusingher;butheboredherdreadfully。Shewasabsent-mindedtoadegree,andansweredatcrosspurposes,andsometimesnotatall。

  ButthepuzzleandmysteryofAglayawasnotyetoverfortheevening。Thelastexhibitionfelltothelotoftheprincealone。

  Whentheyhadproceededsomehundredpacesorsofromthehouse,Aglayasaidtoherobstinatelysilentcavalierinaquickhalf-

  whisper:

  \"Looktotheright!\"

  Theprinceglancedinthedirectionindicated。

  \"Lookcloser。Doyouseethatbench,intheparkthere,justbythosethreebigtrees——thatgreenbench?\"

  Theprincerepliedthathesawit。

  \"Doyoulikethepositionofit?Sometimesofamorningearly,atseveno’clock,whenalltherestarestillasleep,Icomeoutandsittherealone。\"

  Theprincemutteredthatthespotwasalovelyone。

  \"Now,goaway,Idon’twishtohaveyourarmanylonger;orperhaps,better,continuetogivemeyourarm,andwalkalongbesideme,butdon’tspeakawordtome。Iwishtothinkbymyself。\"

  Thewarningwascertainlyunnecessary;fortheprincewouldnothavesaidawordalltherestofthetimewhetherforbiddentospeakornot。HisheartbeatloudandpainfullywhenAglayaspokeofthebench;couldshe——butno!hebanishedthethought,afteraninstant’sdeliberation。

  AtPavlofsk,onweekdays,thepublicismoreselectthanitisonSundaysandSaturdays,whenthetownsfolkcomedowntowalkaboutandenjoythepark。

  Theladiesdresselegantly,onthesedays,anditisthefashiontogatherroundtheband,whichisprobablythebestofourpleasure-gardenbands,andplaysthenewestpieces。Thebehaviourofthepublicismostcorrectandproper,andthereisanappearanceoffriendlyintimacyamongtheusualfrequenters。Manycomefornothingbuttolookattheiracquaintances,butthereareotherswhocomeforthesakeofthemusic。Itisveryseldomthatanythinghappenstobreaktheharmonyoftheproceedings,though,ofcourse,accidentswillhappeneverywhere。

  Onthisparticulareveningtheweatherwaslovely,andtherewerealargenumberofpeoplepresent。Alltheplacesanywhereneartheorchestrawereoccupied。

  Ourfriendstookchairsnearthesideexit。ThecrowdandthemusiccheeredMrs。Epanchinalittle,andamusedthegirls;theybowedandshookhandswithsomeoftheirfriendsandnoddedatadistancetoothers;theyexaminedtheladies’dresses,noticedcomicalitiesandeccentricitiesamongthepeople,andlaughedandtalkedamongthemselves。EvgeniePavlovitch,too,foundplentyoffriendstobowto。SeveralpeoplenoticedAglayaandtheprince,whowerestilltogether。

  Beforeverylongtwoorthreeyoungmenhadcomeup,andoneortworemainedtotalk;alloftheseyoungmenappearedtobeonintimatetermswithEvgeniePavlovitch。Amongthemwasayoungofficer,aremarkablyhandsomefellow——verygood-naturedandagreatchatterbox。HetriedtogetupaconversationwithAglaya,anddidhisbesttosecureherattention。Aglayabehavedverygraciouslytohim,andchattedandlaughedmerrily。EvgeniePavlovitchbeggedtheprince’sleavetointroducetheirfriendtohim。Theprincehardlyrealizedwhatwaswantedofhim,buttheintroductioncameoff;thetwomenbowedandshookhands。

  EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendaskedtheprincesomequestion,butthelatterdidnotreply,orifhedid,hemutteredsomethingsostrangelyindistinctthattherewasnothingtobemadeofit。Theofficerstaredintentlyathim,thenglancedatEvgenie,divinedwhythelatterhadintroducedhim,andgavehisundividedattentiontoAglayaagain。OnlyEvgeniePavlovitchobservedthatAglayaflushedupforamomentatthis。

  TheprincedidnotnoticethatothersweretalkingandmakingthemselvesagreeabletoAglaya;infact,atmoments,healmostforgotthathewassittingbyherhimself。Atothermomentshefeltalongingtogoawaysomewhereandbealonewithhisthoughts,andtofeelthatnooneknewwherehewas。

  Orifthatwereimpossiblehewouldliketobealoneathome,ontheterrace-withouteitherLebedefforhischildren,oranyoneelseabouthim,andtoliethereandthink——adayandnightandanotherdayagain!Hethoughtofthemountains-andespeciallyofacertainspotwhichheusedtofrequent,whencehewouldlookdownuponthedistantvalleysandfields,andseethewaterfall,faroff,likealittlesilverthread,andtheoldruinedcastleinthedistance。Oh!howhelongedtobetherenow——alonewithhisthoughts——tothinkofonethingallhislife——onething!A

  thousandyearswouldnotbetoomuchtime!Andleteveryonehereforgethim——forgethimutterly!Howmuchbetteritwouldhavebeeniftheyhadneverknownhim——ifallthiscouldbutprovetobeadream。Perhapsitwasadream!

  NowandthenhelookedatAglayaforfiveminutesatatime,withouttakinghiseyesoffherface;buthisexpressionwasverystrange;hewouldgazeatherasthoughshewereanobjectacoupleofmilesdistant,orasthoughhewerelookingatherportraitandnotatherselfatall。

  \"Whydoyoulookatmelikethat,prince?\"sheaskedsuddenly,breakingoffhermerryconversationandlaughterwiththoseabouther。\"I’mafraidofyou!Youlookasthoughyouwerejustgoingtoputoutyourhandandtouchmyfacetoseeifit’sreal!

  Doesn’the,EvgeniePavlovitch——doesn’thelooklikethat?\"

  Theprinceseemedsurprisedthatheshouldhavebeenaddressedatall;hereflectedamoment,butdidnotseemtotakeinwhathadbeensaidtohim;atallevents,hedidnotanswer。Butobservingthatsheandtheothershadbeguntolaugh,hetooopenedhismouthandlaughedwiththem。

  Thelaughterbecamegeneral,andtheyoungofficer,whoseemedaparticularlylivelysortofperson,simplyshookwithmirth。

  Aglayasuddenlywhisperedangrilytoherselftheword——

  \"Idiot!\"

  \"Mygoodness——surelysheisnotinlovewithsucha——surelysheisn’tmad!\"groanedMrs。Epanchin,underherbreath。

  \"It’sallajoke,mamma;it’sjustajokelikethe’poorknight’——

  nothingmorewhatever,Iassureyou!\"Alexandrawhisperedinherear。\"Sheischaffinghim——makingafoolofhim,afterherownprivatefashion,that’sall!Butshecarriesitjustalittletoofar——sheisaregularlittleactress。Howshefrightenedusjustnow——didn’tshe?——andallforalark!\"

  \"Well,it’sluckyshehashappeneduponanidiot,then,that’sallIcansay!\"whisperedLizabethaProkofievna,whowassomewhatcomforted,however,byherdaughter’sremark。

  Theprincehadheardhimselfreferredtoas\"idiot,\"andhadshudderedatthemoment;buthisshudder,itsohappened,wasnotcausedbythewordappliedtohim。Thefactwasthatinthecrowd,notfarfromwhereliewassitting,apalefamiliarface,withcurlyblackhair,andawell-knownsmileandexpression,hadflashedacrosshisvisionforamoment,anddisappearedagain。

  Verylikelyhehadimaginedit!Thereonlyremainedtohimtheimpressionofastrangesmile,twoeyes,andabrightgreentie。

  Whetherthemanhaddisappearedamongthecrowd,orwhetherhehadturnedtowardstheVauxhall,theprincecouldnotsay。

  Butamomentortwoafterwardshebegantoglancekeenlyabouthim。Thatfirstvisionmightonlytoolikelybetheforerunnerofasecond;itwasalmostcertaintobeso。SurelyhehadnotforgottenthepossibilityofsuchameetingwhenhecametotheVauxhall?Trueenough,hehadnotremarkedwherehewascomingtowhenhesetoutwithAglaya;hehadnotbeeninaconditiontoremarkanythingatall。

  Hadhebeenmorecarefultoobservehiscompanion,hewouldhaveseenthatforthelastquarterofanhourAglayahadalsobeenglancingaroundinapparentanxiety,asthoughsheexpectedtoseesomeone,orsomethingparticular,amongthecrowdofpeople。

  Now,atthemomentwhenhisownanxietybecamesomarked,herexcitementalsoincreasedvisibly,andwhenhelookedabouthim,shedidthesame。

  Thereasonfortheiranxietysoonbecameapparent。FromthatverysideentrancetotheVauxhall,nearwhichtheprinceandalltheEpanchinpartywereseated,theresuddenlyappearedquitealargeknotofpersons,atleastadozen。

  Headingthislittlebandwalkedthreeladies,twoofwhomwereremarkablylovely;andtherewasnothingsurprisinginthefactthattheyshouldhavehadalargetroopofadmirersfollowingintheirwake。

  Buttherewassomethingintheappearanceofboththeladiesandtheiradmirerswhichwaspeculiar,quitedifferentforthatoftherestofthepublicassembledaroundtheorchestra。

  Nearlyeveryoneobservedthelittlebandadvancing,andallpretendednottoseeornoticethem,exceptafewyoungfellowswhoexchangedglancesandsmiled,sayingsomethingtooneanotherinwhispers。

  Itwasimpossibletoavoidnoticingthem,however,inreality,fortheymadetheirpresenceonlytooconspicuousbylaughingandtalkingloudly。Itwastobesupposedthatsomeofthemweremorethanhalfdrunk,althoughtheywerewellenoughdressed,someevenparticularlywell。Therewereoneortwo,however,whowereverystrange-lookingcreatures,withflushedfacesandextraordinaryclothes;someweremilitarymen;notallwerequiteyoung;oneortwoweremiddle-agedgentlemenofdecidedlydisagreeableappearance,menwhoareavoidedinsocietyliketheplague,deckedoutinlargegoldstudsandrings,andmagnificently\"gotup,\"generally。

  Amongoursuburbanresortstherearesomewhichenjoyaspeciallyhighreputationforrespectabilityandfashion;butthemostcarefulindividualisnotabsolutelyexemptfromthedangerofatilefallingsuddenlyuponhisheadfromhisneighbour’sroof。

  Suchatilewasabouttodescendupontheelegantanddecorouspublicnowassembledtohearthemusic。

  InordertopassfromtheVauxhalltotheband-stand,thevisitorhastodescendtwoorthreesteps。Justatthesestepsthegrouppaused,asthoughitfearedtoproceedfurther;butveryquicklyoneofthethreeladies,whoformeditsapex,steppedforwardintothecharmedcircle,followedbytwomembersofhersuite。

  Oneofthesewasamiddle-agedmanofveryrespectableappearance,butwiththestampofparvenuuponhim,amanwhomnobodyknew,andwhoevidentlyknewnobody。Theotherfollowerwasyoungerandfarlessrespectable-looking。

  Nooneelsefollowedtheeccentriclady;butasshedescendedthestepsshedidnotevenlookbehindher,asthoughitwereabsolutelythesametoherwhetheranyonewerefollowingornot。

  Shelaughedandtalkedloudly,however,justasbefore。Shewasdressedwithgreattaste,butwithrathermoremagnificencethanwasneededfortheoccasion,perhaps。

  Shewalkedpasttheorchestra,towhereanopencarriagewaswaiting,neartheroad。

  TheprincehadnotseenHERformorethanthreemonths。AllthesedayssincehisarrivalfromPetersburghehadintendedtopayheravisit,butsomemysteriouspresentimenthadrestrainedhim。Hecouldnotpicturetohimselfwhatimpressionthismeetingwithherwouldmakeuponhim,thoughhehadoftentriedtoimagineit,withfearandtrembling。Onefactwasquitecertain,andthatwasthatthemeetingwouldbepainful。

  Severaltimesduringthelastsixmonthshehadrecalledtheeffectwhichthefirstsightofthisfacehadhaduponhim,whenheonlysawitsportrait。Herecollectedwellthateventheportraitfacehadleftbuttoopainfulanimpression。

  Thatmonthintheprovinces,whenhehadseenthiswomannearlyeveryday,hadaffectedhimsodeeplythathecouldnotnowlookbackuponitcalmly。Intheverylookofthiswomantherewassomethingwhichtorturedhim。InconversationwithRogojinhehadattributedthissensationtopity——immeasurablepity,andthiswasthetruth。Thesightoftheportraitfacealonehadfilledhisheartfulloftheagonyofrealsympathy;andthisfeelingofsympathy,nay,ofactualSUFFERING,forher,hadneverlefthisheartsincethathour,andwasstillinfullforce。Ohyes,andmorepowerfulthanever!

  ButtheprincewasnotsatisfiedwithwhathehadsaidtoRogojin。Onlyatthismoment,whenshesuddenlymadeherappearancebeforehim,didherealizetothefulltheexactemotionwhichshecalledupinhim,andwhichhehadnotdescribedcorrectlytoRogojin。

  And,indeed,therewerenowordsinwhichhecouldhaveexpressedhishorror,yes,HORROR,forhewasnowfullyconvincedfromhisownprivateknowledgeofher,thatthewomanwasmad。

  If,lovingawomanaboveeverythingintheworld,oratleasthavingaforetasteofthepossibilityofsuchloveforher,oneweresuddenlytobeholdheronachain,behindbarsandunderthelashofakeeper,onewouldfeelsomethinglikewhatthepoorprincenowfelt。

  \"What’sthematter?\"askedAglaya,inawhisper,givinghissleevealittletug。

  Heturnedhisheadtowardsherandglancedatherblackandforsomereasonflashingeyes,triedtosmile,andthen,apparentlyforgettingherinaninstant,turnedtotherightoncemore,andcontinuedtowatchthestartlingapparitionbeforehim。

  NastasiaPhilipovnawasatthismomentpassingtheyoungladies’

  chairs。

  EvgeniePavlovitchcontinuedsomeapparentlyextremelyfunnyandinterestinganecdotetoAlexandra,speakingquicklyandwithmuchanimation。TheprincerememberedthatatthismomentAglayaremarkedinahalf-whisper:

  \"WHATa——\"

  Shedidnotfinishherindefinitesentence;sherestrainedherselfinamoment;butitwasenough。

  NastasiaPhilipovna,whouptonowhadbeenwalkingalongasthoughshehadnotnoticedtheEpanchinparty,suddenlyturnedherheadintheirdirection,asthoughshehadjustobservedEvgeniePavlovitchsittingthereforthefirsttime。

  \"Why,Ideclare,hereheis!\"shecried,stoppingsuddenly。\"Themanonecan’tfindwithallone’smessengerssentabouttheplace,sittingjustunderone’snose,exactlywhereoneneverthoughtoflooking!Ithoughtyouweresuretobeatyouruncle’sbythistime。\"

  EvgeniePavlovitchflushedupandlookedangrilyatNastasiaPhilipovna,thenturnedhisbackonher。

  \"WhatIdon’tyouknowaboutityet?Hedoesn’tknow——imaginethat!Why,he’sshothimself。Youruncleshothimselfthisverymorning。Iwastoldattwothisafternoon。Halfthetownmustknowitbynow。Theysaytherearethreehundredandfiftythousandroubles,governmentmoney,missing;somesayfivehundredthousand。AndIwasundertheimpressionthathewouldleaveyouafortune!He’swhistleditallaway。Amostdepravedoldgentleman,really!Well,ta,ta!——bonnechance!Surelyyouintendtobeoffthere,don’tyou?Ha,ha!You’veretiredfromthearmyingoodtime,Isee!Plainclothes!Welldone,slyrogue!Nonsense!Isee——youknewitallbefore——Idaresayyouknewallaboutityesterday-\"

  Althoughtheimpudenceofthisattack,thispublicproclamationofintimacy,asitwere,wasdoubtlesspremeditated,andhaditsspecialobject,yetEvgeniePavlovitchatfirstseemedtointendtomakenoshowofobservingeitherhistormentororherwords。

  ButNastasia’scommunicationstruckhimwiththeforceofathunderclap。Onhearingofhisuncle’sdeathhesuddenlygrewaswhiteasasheet,andturnedtowardshisinformant。

  Atthismoment,LizabethaProkofievnaroseswiftlyfromherseat,beckonedhercompanions,andlefttheplacealmostatarun。

  Onlytheprincestoppedbehindforamoment,asthoughinindecision;andEvgeniePavlovitchlingeredtoo,forhehadnotcollectedhisscatteredwits。ButtheEpanchinshadnothadtimetogetmorethantwentypacesawaywhenascandalousepisodeoccurred。Theyoungofficer,EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendwhohadbeenconversingwithAglaya,saidaloudinagreatstateofindignation:

  \"Sheoughttobewhipped——that’stheonlywaytodealwithcreatureslikethat——sheoughttobewhipped!\"

  ThisgentlemanwasaconfidantofEvgenie’s,andhaddoubtlessheardofthecarriageepisode。

  Nastasiaturnedtohim。Hereyesflashed;sherusheduptoayoungmanstandingnear,whomshedidnotknowintheleast,butwhohappenedtohaveinhishandathincane。Seizingthisfromhim,shebroughtitwithallherforceacrossthefaceofherinsulter。

  Allthisoccurred,ofcourse,inoneinstantoftime。

  Theyoungofficer,forgettinghimself,sprangtowardsher。

  Nastasia’sfollowerswerenotbyheratthemomenttheelderlygentlemanhavingdisappearedaltogether,andtheyoungermansimplystandingasideandroaringwithlaughter。

  Inanothermoment,ofcourse,thepolicewouldhavebeenonthespot,anditwouldhavegonehardwithNastasiaPhilipovnahadnotunexpectedaidappeared。

  Muishkin,whowasbutacoupleofstepsaway,hadtimetospringforwardandseizetheofficer’sarmsfrombehind。

  Theofficer,tearinghimselffromtheprince’sgrasp,pushedhimsoviolentlybackwardsthathestaggeredafewstepsandthensubsidedintoachair。

  ButtherewereotherdefendersforNastasiaonthespotbythistime。Thegentlemanknownasthe\"boxer\"nowconfrontedtheenragedofficer。

  \"Kellerismyname,sir;ex-lieutenant,\"hesaid,veryloud。\"Ifyouwillacceptmeaschampionofthefairsex,Iamatyourdisposal。Englishboxinghasnosecretsfromme。Isympathizewithyoufortheinsultyouhavereceived,butIcan’tpermityoutoraiseyourhandagainstawomaninpublic。Ifyouprefertomeetme——aswouldbemorefittingtoyourrank——insomeothermanner,ofcourseyouunderstandme,captain。\"

  Buttheyoungofficerhadrecoveredhimself,andwasnolongerlistening。AtthismomentRogojinappeared,elbowingthroughthecrowd;hetookNastasia’shand,drewitthroughhisarm,andquicklyledheraway。Heappearedtobeterriblyexcited;hewastremblingallover,andwasaspaleasacorpse。

  AshecarriedNastasiaoff,heturnedandgrinnedhorriblyintheofficer’sface,andwithlowmaliceobserved:

  \"Tfu!lookwhatthefellowgot!Lookatthebloodonhischeek!

  Ha,ha!\"

  Recollectinghimself,however,andseeingataglancethesortofpeoplehehadtodealwith,theofficerturnedhisbackonbothhisopponents,andcourteously,butconcealinghisfacewithhishandkerchief,approachedtheprince,whowasnowrisingfromthechairintowhichhehadfallen。

  \"PrinceMuishkin,Ibelieve?ThegentlemantowhomIhadthehonourofbeingintroduced?\"

  \"Sheismad,insane——Iassureyou,sheismad,\"repliedtheprinceintremblingtones,holdingoutbothhishandsmechanicallytowardstheofficer。

  \"Icannotboastofanysuchknowledge,ofcourse,butIwishedtoknowyourname。\"

  Hebowedandretiredwithoutwaitingforananswer。

  Fivesecondsafterthedisappearanceofthelastactorinthisscene,thepolicearrived。Thewholeepisodehadnotlastedmorethanacoupleofminutes。Someofthespectatorshadrisenfromtheirplaces,anddepartedaltogether;somemerelyexchangedtheirseatsforothersalittlefurtheroff;someweredelightedwiththeoccurrence,andtalkedandlaughedoveritforalongtime。

  Inaword,theincidentclosedassuchincidentsdo,andthebandbegantoplayagain。TheprincewalkedawayaftertheEpanchinparty。Hadhethoughtoflookingroundtotheleftafterhehadbeenpushedsounceremoniouslyintothechair,hewouldhaveobservedAglayastandingsometwentyyardsaway。Shehadstayedtowatchthescandaloussceneinspiteofhermother’sandsisters’anxiouscriestohertocomeaway。

  PrinceS。ranuptoherandpersuadedher,atlast,tocomehomewiththem。

  LizabethaProkofievnasawthatshereturnedinsuchastateofagitationthatitwasdoubtfulwhethershehadevenheardtheircalls。Butonlyacoupleofminuteslater,whentheyhadreachedthepark,Aglayasuddenlyremarked,inherusualcalm,indifferentvoice:

  \"Iwantedtoseehowthefarcewouldend。\"

  III。

  THEoccurrenceattheVauxhallhadfilledbothmotheranddaughterswithsomethinglikehorror。IntheirexcitementLizabethaProkofievnaandthegirlswerenearlyrunningallthewayhome。

  Inheropiniontherewassomuchdisclosedandlaidbarebytheepisode,that,inspiteofthechaoticconditionofhermind,shewasabletofeelmoreorlessdecidedoncertainpointswhich,uptonow,hadbeeninacloudycondition。

  However,oneandallofthepartyrealizedthatsomethingimportanthadhappened,andthat,perhapsfortunatelyenough,somethingwhichhadhithertobeenenvelopedintheobscurityofguess-workhadnowbeguntocomeforthalittlefromthemists。

  InspiteofPrinceS。’sassurancesandexplanations,EvgeniePavlovitch’srealcharacterandpositionwereatlastcomingtolight。Hewaspubliclyconvictedofintimacywith\"thatcreature。\"SothoughtLizabethaProkofievnaandhertwoelderdaughters。

  Buttherealupshotofthebusinesswasthatthenumberofriddlestobesolvedwasaugmented。Thetwogirls,thoughratherirritatedattheirmother’sexaggeratedalarmandhastetodepartfromthescene,hadbeenunwillingtoworryheratfirstwithquestions。

  Besides,theycouldnothelpthinkingthattheirsisterAglayaprobablyknewmoreaboutthewholematterthanboththeyandtheirmotherputtogether。

  PrinceS。lookedasblackasnight,andwassilentandmoody。

  Mrs。Epanchindidnotsayawordtohimallthewayhome,andhedidnotseemtoobservethefact。Adelaidatriedtopumphimalittlebyasking,\"whowastheuncletheyweretalkingabout,andwhatwasitthathadhappenedinPetersburg?\"Buthehadmerelymutteredsomethingdisconnectedabout\"makinginquiries,\"andthat\"ofcourseitwasallnonsense。\"\"Oh,ofcourse,\"repliedAdelaida,andaskednomorequestions。Aglaya,too,wasveryquiet;andtheonlyremarkshemadeonthewayhomewasthattheywere\"walkingmuchtoofasttobepleasant。\"

  Oncesheturnedandobservedtheprincehurryingafterthem。

  Noticinghisanxietytocatchthemup,shesmiledironically,andthenlookedbacknomore。Atlength,justastheynearedthehouse,GeneralEpanchincameoutandmetthem;hehadonlyjustarrivedfromtown。

  HisfirstwordwastoinquireafterEvgeniePavlovitch。ButLizabethastalkedpasthim,andneitherlookedathimnoransweredhisquestion。

  HeimmediatelyjudgedfromthefacesofhisdaughtersandPrinceS。thattherewasathunderstormbrewing,andhehimselfalreadyboreevidencesofunusualperturbationofmind。

  Heimmediatelybutton-holedPrinceS。,andstandingatthefrontdoor,engagedinawhisperedconversationwithhim。Bythetroubledaspectofbothofthem,whentheyenteredthehouse,andapproachedMrs。Epanchin,itwasevidentthattheyhadbeendiscussingverydisturbingnews。

  LittlebylittlethefamilygatheredtogetherupstairsinLizabethaProkofievna’sapartments,andPrinceMuishkinfoundhimselfaloneontheverandahwhenhearrived。Hesettledhimselfinacornerandsatwaiting,thoughheknewnotwhatheexpected。

  Itneverstruckhimthathehadbettergoaway,withallthisdisturbanceinthehouse。Heseemedtohaveforgottenalltheworld,andtobereadytositonwherehewasforyearsonend。

  Fromupstairshecaughtsoundsofexcitedconversationeverynowandthen。

  Hecouldnotsayhowlonghesatthere。Itgrewlateandbecamequitedark。

  SuddenlyAglayaenteredtheverandah。Sheseemedtobequitecalm,thoughalittlepale。

  Observingtheprince,whomsheevidentlydidnotexpecttoseethere,aloneinthecorner,shesmiled,andapproachedhim:

  \"Whatareyoudoingthere?\"sheasked。

  Theprincemutteredsomething,blushed,andjumpedup;butAglayaimmediatelysatdownbesidehim;sohereseatedhimself。

  Shelookedsuddenly,butattentivelyintohisface,thenatthewindow,asthoughthinkingofsomethingelse,andthenagainathim。

  \"Perhapsshewantstolaughatme,\"thoughttheprince,\"butno;

  forifshedidshecertainlywoulddoso。\"

  \"Wouldyoulikesometea?I’llordersome,\"shesaid,afteraminuteortwoofsilence。

  \"N-nothanks,Idon’tknow——\"

  \"Don’tknow!Howcanyounotknow?By-the-by,lookhere——ifsomeoneweretochallengeyoutoaduel,whatshouldyoudo?I

  wishedtoaskyouthis——sometimeago——\"

  \"Why?Nobodywouldeverchallengemetoaduel!\"

  \"Butiftheywereto,wouldyoubedreadfullyfrightened?\"

  \"IdaresayIshouldbe——muchalarmed!\"

  \"Seriously?Thenareyouacoward?\"

  \"N-no!——Idon’tthinkso。Acowardisamanwhoisafraidandrunsaway;themanwhoisfrightenedbutdoesnotrunaway,isnotquiteacoward,\"saidtheprincewithasmile,afteramoment’sthought。

  \"Andyouwouldn’trunaway?\"

  \"No——Idon’tthinkIshouldrunaway,\"repliedtheprince,laughingoutrightatlastatAglaya’squestions。

  \"ThoughIamawoman,Ishouldcertainlynotrunawayforanything,\"saidAglaya,inaslightlypainedvoice。\"However,I

  seeyouarelaughingatmeandtwistingyourfaceupasusualinordertomakeyourselflookmoreinteresting。Nowtellme,theygenerallyshootattwentypaces,don’tthey?Atten,sometimes?I

  supposeifattentheymustbeeitherwoundedorkilled,mustn’tthey?\"

  \"Idon’tthinktheyoftenkilleachotheratduels。\"

  \"TheykilledPushkinthatway。\"

  \"Thatmayhavebeenanaccident。\"

  \"Notabitofit;itwasadueltothedeath,andhewaskilled。\"

  \"Thebulletstrucksolowdownthatprobablyhisantagonistwouldneverhaveaimedatthatpartofhim——peopleneverdo;hewouldhaveaimedathischestorhead;sothatprobablythebullethithimaccidentally。Ihavebeentoldthisbycompetentauthorities。\"

  \"Well,asoldieroncetoldmethattheywerealwaysorderedtoaimatthemiddleofthebody。Soyouseetheydon’taimatthechestorhead;theyaimloweronpurpose。Iaskedsomeofficeraboutthisafterwards,andhesaiditwasperfectlytrue。\"

  \"Thatisprobablywhentheyfirefromalongdistance。\"

  \"Canyoushootatall?\"

  \"No,Ihavenevershotinmylife。\"

  \"Can’tyouevenloadapistol?\"

  \"No!Thatis,Iunderstandhowit’sdone,ofcourse,butIhaveneverdoneit。\"

  \"Then,youdon’tknowhow,foritisamatterthatneedspractice。Nowlistenandlearn;inthefirstplacebuygoodpowder,notdamptheysayitmustn’tbeatalldamp,butverydry,somefinekinditis——youmustaskforPISTOLpowder,notthestufftheyloadcannonswith。Theysayonemakesthebulletsoneself,somehoworother。Haveyougotapistol?\"

  \"No——andIdon’twantone,\"saidtheprince,laughing。

  \"Oh,whatNONSENSE!Youmustbuyone。FrenchorEnglisharethebest,theysay。Thentakealittlepowder,aboutathimbleful,orperhapstwo,andpouritintothebarrel。Betterputplenty。ThenpushinabitoffeltitMUSTbefelt,forsomereasonorother;youcaneasilygetabitoffsomeoldmattress,oroffadoor;it’susedtokeepthecoldout。Well,whenyouhavepushedthefeltdown,putthebulletin;doyouhearnow?Thebulletlastandthepowderfirst,nottheotherway,orthepistolwon’tshoot。Whatareyoulaughingat?Iwishyoutobuyapistolandpractiseeveryday,andyoumustlearntohitamarkforCERTAIN;

  willyou?\"

  Theprinceonlylaughed。Aglayastampedherfootwithannoyance。

  Herseriousair,however,duringthisconversationhadsurprisedhimconsiderably。Hehadafeelingthatheoughttobeaskinghersomething,thattherewassomethinghewantedtofindoutfarmoreimportantthanhowtoloadapistol;buthisthoughtshadallscattered,andhewasonlyawarethatshewassittingby,him,andtalkingtohim,andthathewaslookingather;astowhatshehappenedtobesayingtohim,thatdidnotmatterintheleast。

  Thegeneralnowappearedontheverandah,comingfromupstairs。

  Hewasonhiswayout,withanexpressionofdeterminationonhisface,andofpreoccupationandworryalso。

  \"Ah!LefNicolaievitch,it’syou,isit?Whereareyouofftonow?\"heasked,obliviousofthefactthattheprincehadnotshowedtheleastsignofmoving。\"Comealongwithme;Iwanttosayawordortwotoyou。\"

  \"Aurevoir,then!\"saidAglaya,holdingoutherhandtotheprince。

  Itwasquitedarknow,andMuishkincouldnotseeherfaceclearly,butaminuteortwolater,whenheandthegeneralhadleftthevilla,hesuddenlyflushedup,andsqueezedhisrighthandtightly。

  Itappearedthatheandthegeneralweregoinginthesamedirection。Inspiteofthelatenessofthehour,thegeneralwashurryingawaytotalktosomeoneuponsomeimportantsubject。

  Meanwhilehetalkedincessantlybutdisconnectedlytotheprince,andcontinuallybroughtinthenameofLizabethaProkofievna。

  Iftheprincehadbeeninaconditiontopaymoreattentiontowhatthegeneralwassaying,hewouldhavediscoveredthatthelatterwasdesirousofdrawingsomeinformationoutofhim,orindeedofaskinghimsomequestionoutright;butthathecouldnotmakeuphismindtocometothepoint。

  Muishkinwassoabsent,thatfromtheveryfirsthecouldnotattendtoawordtheotherwassaying;andwhenthegeneralsuddenlystoppedbeforehimwithsomeexcitedquestion,hewasobligedtoconfess,ignominiously,thathedidnotknowintheleastwhathehadbeentalkingabout。

  Thegeneralshruggedhisshoulders。

  \"Howstrangeeveryone,yourselfincluded,hasbecomeoflate,\"

  saidhe。\"IwastellingyouthatIcannotintheleastunderstandLizabethaProkofievna’sideasandagitations。Sheisinhystericsupthere,andmoansandsaysthatwehavebeen’shamedanddisgraced。’How?Why?When?Bywhom?IconfessthatIamverymuchtoblamemyself;Idonotconcealthefact;buttheconduct,theoutrageousbehaviourofthiswoman,mustreallybekeptwithinlimits,bythepoliceifnecessary,andIamjustonmywaynowtotalkthequestionoverandmakesomearrangements。Itcanallbemanagedquietlyandgently,evenkindly,andwithouttheslightestfussorscandal。Iforeseethatthefutureispregnantwithevents,andthatthereismuchthatneedsexplanation。Thereisintrigueinthewind;butifononesidenothingisknown,ontheothersidenothingwillbeexplained。IfIhaveheardnothingaboutit,norhaveYOU,norHE,norSHE——

  whoHASheardaboutit,Ishouldliketoknow?HowCANallthisbeexplainedexceptbythefactthathalfofitismirageormoonshine,orsomehallucinationofthatsort?\"

  \"SHEisinsane,\"mutteredtheprince,suddenlyrecollectingallthathadpassed,withaspasmofpainathisheart。

  \"Itoohadthatidea,andIsleptinpeace。ButnowIseethattheiropinionismorecorrect。Idonotbelieveinthetheoryofmadness!Thewomanhasnocommonsense;butsheisnotonlynotinsane,sheisartfultoadegree。HeroutburstofthiseveningaboutEvgenie’suncleprovesthatconclusively。ItwasVILLAINOUS,simplyjesuitical,anditwasallforsomespecialpurpose。\"

  \"WhataboutEvgenie’suncle?\"

  \"Mygoodness,LefNicolaievitch,why,youcan’thaveheardasinglewordIsaid!Lookatme,I’mstilltremblingalloverwiththedreadfulshock!Itisthatthatkeptmeintownsolate。

  EvgeniePavlovitch’suncle——\"

  Well?\"criedtheprince。

  \"Shothimselfthismorning,atseveno’clock。Arespected,eminentoldmanofseventy;andexactlypointforpointasshedescribedit;asumofmoney,aconsiderablesumofgovernmentmoney,missing!\"

  \"Why,howcouldshe——\"

  \"What,knowofit?Ha,ha,ha!Why,therewasawholecrowdroundherthemomentsheappearedonthesceneshere。Youknowwhatsortofpeoplesurroundhernowadays,andsolicitthehonourofher’acquaintance。’Ofcourseshemighteasilyhaveheardthenewsfromsomeonecomingfromtown。AllPetersburg,ifnotallPavlofsk,knowsitbynow。LookattheslynessofherobservationaboutEvgenie’suniform!Imean,herremarkthathehadretiredjustintime!There’savenomoushintforyou,ifyoulike!No,no!there’snoinsanitythere!OfcourseIrefusetobelievethatEvgeniePavlovitchcouldhaveknownbeforehandofthecatastrophe;thatis,thatatsuchandsuchadayatseveno’clock,andallthat;buthemightwellhavehadapresentimentofthetruth。AndI——allofus——PrinceS。andeverybody,believedthathewastoinheritalargefortunefromthisuncle。It’sdreadful,horrible!Mind,Idon’tsuspectEvgenieofanything,bequiteclearonthatpoint;butthethingisalittlesuspicious,nevertheless。PrinceS。can’tgetoverit。Altogetheritisaveryextraordinarycombinationofcircumstances。\"

  \"WhatsuspicionattachestoEvgeniePavlovitch?\"

  \"Oh,noneatall!Hehasbehavedverywellindeed。Ididn’tmeantodropanysortofhint。Hisownfortuneisintact,Ibelieve。

  LizabethaProkofievna,ofcourse,refusestolistentoanything。

  That’stheworstofitall,thesefamilycatastrophesorquarrels,orwhateveryouliketocallthem。Youknow,prince,youareafriendofthefamily,soIdon’tmindtellingyou;itnowappearsthatEvgeniePavlovitchproposedtoAglayaamonthago,andwasrefused。\"

  \"Impossible!\"criedtheprince。

  \"Why?Doyouknowanythingaboutit?Lookhere,\"continuedthegeneral,moreagitatedthanever,andtremblingwithexcitement,\"maybeIhavebeenlettingthecatoutofthebagtoofreelywithyou,ifso,itisbecauseyouare——thatsortofman,youknow!

  Perhapsyouhavesomespecialinformation?\"

  \"IknownothingaboutEvgeniePavlovitch!\"saidtheprince。

  \"NordoI!Theyalwaystrytoburymeundergroundwhenthere’sanythinggoingon;theydon’tseemtoreflectthatitisunpleasanttoamantobetreatedso!Iwon’tstandit!Wehavejusthadaterriblescene!——mind,IspeaktoyouasIwouldtomyownson!Aglayalaughsathermother。HersistersguessedaboutEvgeniehavingproposedandbeenrejected,andtoldLizabetha。

  \"Itellyou,mydearfellow,Aglayaissuchanextraordinary,suchaself-willed,fantasticallittlecreature,youwouldn’tbelieveit!Everyhighquality,everybrillianttraitofheartandmind,aretobefoundinher,and,withitall,somuchcapriceandmockery,suchwildfancies——indeed,alittledevil!

  Shehasjustbeenlaughingathermothertoherveryface,andathersisters,andatPrinceS。,andeverybody——andofcourseshealwayslaughsatme!YouknowIlovethechild——Iloveherevenwhenshelaughsatme,andIbelievethewildlittlecreaturehasaspecialfondnessformeforthatveryreason。Sheisfonderofmethananyoftheothers。IdareswearshehashadagoodlaughatYOUbeforenow!Youwerehavingaquiettalkjustnow,I

  observed,afterallthethunderandlightningupstairs。Shewassittingwithyoujustasthoughtherehadbeennorowatall。\"

  Theprinceblushedpainfullyinthedarkness,andclosedhisrighthandtightly,buthesaidnothing。

  \"MydeargoodPrinceLefNicolaievitch,\"beganthegeneralagain,suddenly,\"bothIandLizabethaProkofievna——whohasbeguntorespectyouoncemore,andmethroughyou,goodnessknowswhy!——

  webothloveyouverysincerely,andesteemyou,inspiteofanyappearancestothecontrary。Butyou’lladmitwhatariddleitmusthavebeenforuswhenthatcalm,cold,littlespitfire,Aglaya——forshestooduptohermotherandansweredherquestionswithinexpressiblecontempt,andminestillmoreso,because,likeafool,Ithoughtitmydutytoassertmyselfasheadofthefamily——whenAglayastoodupofasuddenandinformedusthat’thatmadwoman’strangelyenough,sheusedexactlythesameexpressionasyoudid’hastakenitintoherheadtomarrymetoPrinceLefNicolaievitch,andthereforeisdoingherbesttochokeEvgeniePavlovitchoff,andridthehouseofhim。’That’swhatshesaid。Shewouldnotgivetheslightestexplanation;sheburstoutlaughing,bangedthedoor,andwentaway。Weallstoodtherewithourmouthsopen。Well,IwastoldafterwardsofyourlittlepassagewithAglayathisafternoon,and-and——dearprince——youareagood,sensiblefellow,don’tbeangryifIspeakout——sheislaughingatyou,myboy!Sheisenjoyingherselflikeachild,atyourexpense,andtherefore,sincesheisachild,don’tbeangrywithher,anddon’tthinkanythingofit。Iassureyou,sheissimplymakingafoolofyou,justasshedoeswithoneandallofusoutofpurelackofsomethingbettertodo。Well——good-bye!Youknowourfeelings,don’tyou——oursincerefeelingsforyourself?Theyareunalterable,youknow,dearboy,underallcircumstances,but——

  Well,herewepart;Imustgodowntotheright。RarelyhaveI

  satsouncomfortablyinmysaddle,astheysay,asInowsit。Andpeopletalkofthecharmsofacountryholiday!\"

  Lefttohimselfatthecross-roads,theprinceglancedaroundhim,quicklycrossedtheroadtowardsthelightedwindowofaneighbouringhouse,andunfoldedatinyscrapofpaperwhichhehadheldclaspedinhisrighthandduringthewholeofhisconversationwiththegeneral。

  Hereadthenoteintheuncertainraysthatfellfromthewindow。

  Itwasasfollows:

  \"Tomorrowmorning,Ishallbeatthegreenbenchintheparkatseven,andshallwaitthereforyou。Ihavemadeupmymindtospeaktoyouaboutamostimportantmatterwhichcloselyconcernsyourself。

  \"P。S——Itrustthatyouwillnotshowthisnotetoanyone。ThoughIamashamedofgivingyousuchinstructions,IfeelthatImustdoso,consideringwhatyouare。Ithereforewritethewords,andblushforyoursimplecharacter。

  \"P。P。S——ItisthesamegreenbenchthatIshowedyoubefore。

  There!aren’tyouashamedofyourself?Ifeltthatitwasnecessarytorepeateventhatinformation。\"

  Thenotewaswrittenandfoldedanyhow,evidentlyinagreathurry,andprobablyjustbeforeAglayahadcomedowntotheverandah。

  Ininexpressibleagitation,amountingalmosttofear,theprinceslippedquicklyawayfromthewindow,awayfromthelight,likeafrightenedthief,butashedidsohecollidedviolentlywithsomegentlemanwhoseemedtospringfromtheearthathisfeet。

  \"Iwaswatchingforyou,prince,\"saidtheindividual。

  \"Isthatyou,Keller?\"saidtheprince,insurprise。

  \"Yes,I’vebeenlookingforyou。IwaitedforyouattheEpanchins’house,butofcourseIcouldnotcomein。Idoggedyoufrombehindasyouwalkedalongwiththegeneral。Well,prince,hereisKeller,absolutelyatyourservice——commandhim!——readytosacrificehimself——eventodieincaseofneed。\"

  \"But-why?\"

  \"Oh,why?——Ofcourseyou’llbechallenged!ThatwasyoungLieutenantMoloftsoff。Iknowhim,orratherofhim;hewon’tpassaninsult。HewilltakenonoticeofRogojinandmyself,and,therefore,youaretheonlyonelefttoaccountfor。You’llhavetopaythepiper,prince。Hehasbeenaskingaboutyou,andundoubtedlyhisfriendwillcallonyoutomorrow——perhapsheisatyourhousealready。Ifyouwoulddomethehonourtohavemeforasecond,prince,Ishouldbehappy。That’swhyIhavebeenlookingforyounow。\"

  \"Duel!You’vecometotalkaboutaduel,too!\"Theprinceburstoutlaughing,tothegreatastonishmentofKeller。Helaughedunrestrainedly,andKeller,whohadbeenonpinsandneedles,andinafeverofexcitementtoofferhimselfas\"second,\"wasverynearbeingoffended。

  \"Youcaughthimbythearms,youknow,prince。Nomanofproperpridecanstandthatsortoftreatmentinpublic。\"

  \"Yes,andhegavemeafearfuldiginthechest,\"criedtheprince,stilllaughing。\"Whatarewetofightabout?Ishallbeghispardon,that’sall。Butifwemustfight——we’llfight!Lethimhaveashotatme,byallmeans;Ishouldratherlikeit。Ha,ha,ha!Iknowhowtoloadapistolnow;doyouknowhowtoloadapistol,Keller?First,youhavetobuythepowder,youknow;itmustn’tbewet,anditmustn’tbethatcoarsestuffthattheyloadcannonswith——itmustbepistolpowder。Thenyoupourthepowderin,andgetholdofabitoffeltfromsomedoor,andthenshovethebulletin。Butdon’tshovethebulletinbeforethepowder,becausethethingwouldn’tgooff——doyouhear,Keller,thethingwouldn’tgooff!Ha,ha,ha!Isn’tthatagrandreason,Keller,myfriend,eh?Doyouknow,mydearfellow,Ireallymustkissyou,andembraceyou,thisverymoment。Ha,ha!Howwasityousosuddenlypoppedupinfrontofmeasyoudid?Cometomyhouseassoonasyoucan,andwe’llhavesomechampagne。We’llallgetdrunk!DoyouknowIhaveadozenofchampagneinLebedeff’scellar?LebedeffsoldthemtomethedayafterI

  arrived。Itookthelot。We’llinviteeverybody!Areyougoingtodoanysleepingtonight?\"

  \"Asmuchasusual,prince——why?\"

  \"Pleasantdreamsthen——ha,ha!\"

  Theprincecrossedtheroad,anddisappearedintothepark,leavingtheastonishedKellerinastateofludicrouswonder。Hehadneverbeforeseentheprinceinsuchastrangeconditionofmind,andcouldnothaveimaginedthepossibilityofit。

  \"Fever,probably,\"hesaidtohimself,\"forthemanisallnerves,andthisbusinesshasbeenalittletoomuchforhim。HeisnotAFRAID,that’sclear;thatsortneverfunks!H’m!

  champagne!Thatwasaninterestingitemofnews,atallevents!——

  Twelvebottles!Dearme,that’saveryrespectablelittlestockindeed!IbetanythingLebedefflentsomebodymoneyondepositofthisdozenofchampagne。Hum!he’sanicefellow,isthisprince!

  Ilikethissortofman。Well,Ineedn’tbewastingtimehere,andifit’sacaseofchampagne,why——there’snotimelikethepresent!\"

  Thattheprincewasalmostinafeverwasnomorethanthetruth。

  Hewanderedabouttheparkforalongwhile,andatlastcametohimselfinalonelyavenue。Hewasvaguelyconsciousthathehadalreadypacedthisparticularwalk——fromthatlarge,darktreetothebenchattheotherend——aboutahundredyardsaltogether——atleastthirtytimesbackwardsandforwards。

  Astorecollectingwhathehadbeenthinkingofallthattime,hecouldnot。Hecaughthimself,however,indulginginonethoughtwhichmadehimroarwithlaughter,thoughtherewasnothingreallytolaughatinit;buthefeltthathemustlaugh,andgoonlaughing。

  ItstruckhimthattheideaoftheduelmightnothaveoccurredtoKelleralone,butthathislessonintheartofpistol-loadingmighthavebeennotaltogetheraccidental!\"Pooh!nonsense!\"hesaidtohimself,struckbyanotherthought,ofasudden。\"Why,shewasimmenselysurprisedtofindmethereontheverandah,andlaughedandtalkedaboutTEA!Andyetshehadthislittlenoteinherhand,thereforeshemusthaveknownthatIwassittingthere。

  Sowhywasshesurprised?Ha,ha,ha!\"

  Hepulledthenoteoutandkissedit;thenpausedandreflected。

  \"Howstrangeitallis!howstrange!\"hemuttered,melancholyenoughnow。Inmomentsofgreatjoy,heinvariablyfeltasensationofmelancholycomeoverhim——hecouldnottellwhy。

  Helookedintentlyaroundhim,andwonderedwhyhehadcomehere;

  hewasverytired,soheapproachedthebenchandsatdownonit。

  Aroundhimwasprofoundsilence;themusicintheVauxhallwasover。Theparkseemedquiteempty,thoughitwasnot,inreality,laterthanhalf-pasteleven。Itwasaquiet,warm,clearnight——arealPetersburgnightofearlyJune;butinthedenseavenue,wherehewassitting,itwasalmostpitchdark。

  Ifanyonehadcomeupatthismomentandtoldhimthathewasinlove,passionatelyinlove,hewouldhaverejectedtheideawithastonishment,and,perhaps,withirritation。AndifanyonehadaddedthatAglaya’snotewasalove-letter,andthatitcontainedanappointmenttoalover’srendezvous,hewouldhaveblushedwithshameforthespeaker,and,probably,havechallengedhimtoaduel。

  Allthiswouldhavebeenperfectlysincereonhispart。Hehadneverforamomententertainedtheideaofthepossibilityofthisgirllovinghim,orevenofsuchathingashimselffallinginlovewithher。Thepossibilityofbeinglovedhimself,\"amanlikeme,\"asheputit,herankedamongridiculoussuppositions。

  ItappearedtohimthatitwassimplyajokeonAglaya’spart,iftherereallywereanythinginitatall;butthatseemedtohimquitenatural。Hispreoccupationwascausedbysomethingdifferent。

  AstothefewwordswhichthegeneralhadletslipaboutAglayalaughingateverybody,andathimselfmostofall——heentirelybelievedthem。Hedidnotfeeltheslightestsensationofoffence;onthecontrary,hewasquitecertainthatitwasasitshouldbe。

  Hiswholethoughtswerenowastonextmorningearly;hewouldseeher;hewouldsitbyheronthatlittlegreenbench,andlistentohowpistolswereloaded,andlookather。Hewantednothingmore。

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