Everyonelaughedatthis。
\"Aspecialcase——accidental,ofcourse!\"criedAlexandraandAdelaida。
\"Letmeremindyouoncemore,Evgenie,\"saidPrinceS。,\"thatyourjokeisgettingalittlethreadbare。\"
\"Whatdoyouthinkaboutit,prince?\"askedEvgenie,takingnonoticeofthelastremark,andobservingMuishkin’sseriouseyesfixeduponhisface。\"Whatdoyouthink——wasitaspecialorausualcase——therule,oranexception?IconfessIputthequestionespeciallyforyou。\"
\"No,Idon’tthinkitwasaspecialcase,\"saidtheprince,quietly,butfirmly。
\"Mydearfellow!\"criedPrinceS。,withsomeannoyance,\"don’tyouseethatheischaffingyou?Heissimplylaughingatyou,andwantstomakegameofyou。\"
\"IthoughtEvgeniePavlovitchwastalkingseriously,\"saidtheprince,blushinganddroppinghiseyes。
\"Mydearprince,\"continuedPrinceS。\"rememberwhatyouandI
weresayingtwoorthreemonthsago。WespokeofthefactthatinournewlyopenedLawCourtsonecouldalreadylayone’sfingeruponsomanytalentedandremarkableyoungbarristers。Howpleasedyouwerewiththestateofthingsaswefoundit,andhowgladIwastoobserveyourdelight!Webothsaiditwasamattertobeproudof;butthisclumsydefencethatEvgeniementions,thisstrangeargumentCAN,ofcourse,onlybeanaccidentalcase——oneinathousand!\"
Theprincereflectedalittle,butverysoonhereplied,withabsoluteconvictioninhistone,thoughhestillspokesomewhatshylyandtimidly:
\"Ionlywishedtosaythatthis’distortion,’asEvgeniePavlovitchexpressedit,ismetwithveryoften,andisfarmorethegeneralrulethantheexception,unfortunatelyforRussia。Somuchso,thatifthisdistortionwerenotthegeneralrule,perhapsthesedreadfulcrimeswouldbelessfrequent。\"
\"Dreadfulcrimes?ButIcanassureyouthatcrimesjustasdreadful,andprobablymorehorrible,haveoccurredbeforeourtimes,andatalltimes,andnotonlyhereinRussia,buteverywhereelseaswell。Andinmyopinionitisnotatalllikelythatsuchmurderswillceasetooccurforaverylongtimetocome。Theonlydifferenceisthatinformertimestherewaslesspublicity,whilenoweveryonetalksandwritesfreelyaboutsuchthings——whichfactgivestheimpressionthatsuchcrimeshaveonlynowsprungintoexistence。Thatiswhereyourmistakelies——anextremelynaturalmistake,Iassureyou,mydearfellow!\"saidPrinceS。
\"Iknowthattherewerejustasmany,andjustasterrible,crimesbeforeourtimes。NotlongsinceIvisitedaconvictprisonandmadeacquaintancewithsomeofthecriminals。Thereweresomeevenmoredreadfulcriminalsthanthisonewehavebeenspeakingof——menwhohavemurderedadozenoftheirfellow-
creatures,andfeelnoremorsewhatever。ButwhatIespeciallynoticedwasthis,thattheverymosthopelessandremorselessmurderer——howeverhardenedacriminalhemaybe——stillKNOWSTHAT
HEISACRIMINAL;thatis,heisconsciousthathehasactedwickedly,thoughhemayfeelnoremorsewhatever。Andtheywerealllikethis。ThoseofwhomEvgeniePavlovitchhasspoken,donotadmitthattheyarecriminalsatall;theythinktheyhadarighttodowhattheydid,andthattheywereevendoingagooddeed,perhaps。Iconsiderthereisthegreatestdifferencebetweenthetwocases。Andrecollect——itwasaYOUTH,attheparticularagewhichismosthelplesslysusceptibletothedistortionofideas!\"
PrinceS。wasnownolongersmiling;hegazedattheprinceinbewilderment。
Alexandra,whohadseemedtowishtoputinherwordwhentheprincebegan,nowsatsilent,asthoughsomesuddenthoughthadcausedhertochangehermindaboutspeaking。
EvgeniePavlovitchgazedathiminrealsurprise,andthistimehisexpressionoffacehadnomockeryinitwhatever。
\"Whatareyoulookingsosurprisedabout,myfriend?\"askedMrs。
Epanchin,suddenly。\"Didyousupposehewasstupiderthanyourself,andwasincapableofforminghisownopinions,orwhat?\"
\"No!Ohno!Notatall!\"saidEvgenie。\"But——howisit,prince,thatyou——excusethequestion,willyou?——ifyouarecapableofobservingandseeingthingsasyouevidentlydo,howisitthatyousawnothingdistortedorpervertedinthatclaimuponyourproperty,whichyouacknowledgedadayortwosince;andwhichwasfullofargumentsfoundeduponthemostdistortedviewsofrightandwrong?\"
\"I’lltellyouwhat,myfriend,\"criedMrs。Epanchin,ofasudden,\"hereareweallsittinghereandimaginingweareveryclever,andperhapslaughingattheprince,someofus,andmeanwhilehehasreceivedaletterthisverydayinwhichthatsameclaimantrenounceshisclaim,andbegstheprince’spardon。
ThereIwedon’toftengetthatsortofletter;andyetwearenotashamedtowalkwithournosesintheairbeforehim。\"
\"AndHippolytehascomedownheretostay,\"saidColia,suddenly。
\"What!hashearrived?\"saidtheprince,startingup。
\"Yes,Ibroughthimdownfromtownjustafteryouhadleftthehouse。\"
\"Therenow!It’sjustlikehim,\"criedLizabethaProkofievna,boilingoveroncemore,andentirelyobliviousofthefactthatshehadjusttakentheprince’spart。\"Idareswearthatyouwentuptotownyesterdayonpurposetogetthelittlewretchtodoyouthegreathonourofcomingtostayatyourhouse。Youdidgouptotown,youknowyoudid——yousaidsoyourself!Nowthen,didyou,ordidyounot,godownonyourkneesandbeghimtocome,confess!\"
\"No,hedidn’t,forIsawitallmyself,\"saidColia。\"Onthecontrary,Hippolytekissedhishandtwiceandthankedhim;andalltheprincesaidwasthathethoughtHippolytemightfeelbetterhereinthecountry!\"
\"Don’t,Colia,——whatistheuseofsayingallthat?\"criedtheprince,risingandtakinghishat。
\"Whereareyougoingtonow?\"criedMrs。Epanchin。
\"Nevermindabouthimnow,prince,\"saidColia。\"Heisallrightandtakinganapafterthejourney。Heisveryhappytobehere;
butIthinkperhapsitwouldbebetterifyoulethimalonefortoday,——heisverysensitivenowthatheissoill——andhemightbeembarrassedifyoushowhimtoomuchattentionatfirst。Heisdecidedlybettertoday,andsayshehasnotfeltsowellforthelastsixmonths,andhascoughedmuchless,too。\"
TheprinceobservedthatAglayacameoutofhercornerandapproachedthetableatthispoint。
Hedidnotdarelookather,buthewasconscious,totheverytipsofhisfingers,thatshewasgazingathim,perhapsangrily;
andthatshehadprobablyflushedupwithalookoffieryindignationinherblackeyes。
\"Itseemstome,Mr。Colia,thatyouwereveryfoolishtobringyouryoungfrienddown——ifheisthesameconsumptiveboywhoweptsoprofusely,andinvitedusalltohisownfuneral,\"remarkedEvgeniePavlovitch。\"Hetalkedsoeloquentlyabouttheblankwalloutsidehisbedroomwindow,thatI’msurehewillneversupportlifeherewithoutit。\"
\"Ithinksotoo,\"saidMrs。Epanchin;\"hewillquarrelwithyou,andbeoff,\"andshedrewherworkboxtowardsherwithanairofdignity,quiteobliviousofthefactthatthefamilywasabouttostartforawalkinthepark。
\"Yes,Irememberheboastedabouttheblankwallinanextraordinaryway,\"continuedEvgenie,\"andIfeelthatwithoutthatblankwallhewillneverbeabletodieeloquently;andhedoessolongtodieeloquently!\"
\"Oh,youmustforgivehimtheblankwall,\"saidtheprince,quietly。\"Hehascomedowntoseeafewtreesnow,poorfellow。\"
\"Oh,Iforgivehimwithallmyheart;youmaytellhimsoifyoulike,\"laughedEvgenie。
\"Idon’tthinkyoushouldtakeitquitelikethat,\"saidtheprince,quietly,andwithoutremovinghiseyesfromthecarpet。
\"Ithinkitismoreacaseofhisforgivingyou\"
\"Forgivingme!whyso?WhathaveIdonetoneedhisforgiveness?\"
\"Ifyoudon’tunderstand,then——butofcourse,youdounderstand。
Hewished——hewishedtoblessyouallroundandtohaveyourblessing——beforehedied——that’sall。\"
\"Mydearprince,\"beganPrinceS。,hurriedly,exchangingglanceswithsomeofthosepresent,\"youwillnoteasilyfindheavenonearth,andyetyouseemtoexpectto。Heavenisadifficultthingtofindanywhere,prince;farmoredifficultthanappearstothatgoodheartofyours。Betterstopthisconversation,orweshallallbegrowingquitedisturbedinourminds,and——\"
\"Let’sgoandheartheband,then,\"saidLizabethaProkofievna,angrilyrisingfromherplace。
Therestofthecompanyfollowedherexample。
II。
THEprincesuddenlyapproachedEvgeniePavlovitch。
\"EvgeniePavlovitch,\"hesaid,withstrangeexcitementandseizingthelatter’shandinhisown,\"beassuredthatIesteemyouasagenerousandhonourableman,inspiteofeverything。Beassuredofthat。\"
EvgeniePavlovitchfellbackastepinastonishment。Foronemomentitwasallhecoulddotorestrainhimselffromburstingoutlaughing;but,lookingcloser,heobservedthattheprincedidnotseemtobequitehimself;atallevents,hewasinaverycuriousstate。
\"Iwouldn’tmindbetting,prince,\"hecried,\"thatyoudidnotintheleastmeantosaythat,andverylikelyyoumeanttoaddresssomeoneelsealtogether。Whatisit?Areyoufeelingunwelloranything?\"
\"Verylikely,extremelylikely,andyoumustbeaverycloseobservertodetectthefactthatperhapsIdidnotintendtocomeuptoYOUatall。\"
Sosayinghesmiledstrangely;butsuddenlyandexcitedlyhebeganagain:
\"Don’tremindmeofwhatIhavedoneorsaid。Don’t!Iamverymuchashamedofmyself,I——\"
\"Why,whathaveyoudone?Idon’tunderstandyou。\"
\"Iseeyouareashamedofme,EvgeniePavlovitch;youareblushingforme;that’sasignofagoodheart。Don’tbeafraid;
Ishallgoawaydirectly。\"
\"What’sthematterwithhim?Dohisfitsbeginlikethat?\"saidLizabethaProkofievna,inahighstateofalarm,addressingColia。
\"No,no,LizabethaProkofievna,takenonoticeofme。Iamnotgoingtohaveafit。Iwillgoawaydirectly;butIknowIamafflicted。Iwastwenty-fouryearsaninvalid,yousee——thefirsttwenty-fouryearsofmylife——sotakeallIdoandsayasthesayingsandactionsofaninvalid。I’mgoingawaydirectly,I
reallyam——don’tbeafraid。Iamnotblushing,forIdon’tthinkI
needblushaboutit,needI?ButIseethatIamoutofplaceinsociety——societyisbetterwithoutme。It’snotvanity,Iassureyou。Ihavethoughtoveritalltheselastthreedays,andIhavemadeupmymindthatIoughttounbosommyselfcandidlybeforeyouatthefirstopportunity。Therearecertainthings,certaingreatideas,whichImustnotsomuchasapproach,asPrinceS。
hasjustremindedme,orIshallmakeyoualllaugh。Ihavenosenseofproportion,Iknow;mywordsandgesturesdonotexpressmyideas——theyareahumiliationandabasementoftheideas,andtherefore,Ihavenoright——andIamtoosensitive。Still,I
believeIambelovedinthishousehold,andesteemedfarmorethanIdeserve。ButIcan’thelpknowingthataftertwenty-fouryearsofillnesstheremustbesometraceleft,sothatitisimpossibleforpeopletorefrainfromlaughingatmesometimes;
don’tyouthinkso?\"
Heseemedtopauseforareply,forsomeverdict,asitwere,andlookedhumblyaroundhim。
Allpresentstoodrootedtotheearthwithamazementatthisunexpectedandapparentlyuncalled-foroutbreak;butthepoorprince’spainfulandramblingspeechgaverisetoastrangeepisode。
\"Whydoyousayallthishere?\"criedAglaya,suddenly。\"WhydoyoutalklikethistoTHEM?\"
Sheappearedtobeinthelaststagesofwrathandirritation;
hereyesflashed。Theprincestooddumblyandblindlybeforeher,andsuddenlygrewpale。
\"Thereisnotoneofthemallwhoisworthyofthesewordsofyours,\"continuedAglaya。\"Notoneofthemisworthyourlittlefinger,notoneofthemhasheartorheadtocomparewithyours!
Youaremorehonestthanall,andbetter,nobler,kinder,wiserthanall。Therearesomeherewhoareunworthytobendandpickupthehandkerchiefyouhavejustdropped。Whydoyouhumiliateyourselflikethis,andplaceyourselflowerthanthesepeople?
Whydoyoudebaseyourselfbeforethem?Whyhaveyounopride?\"
\"MyGod!Whowouldeverhavebelievedthis?\"criedMrs。Epanchin,wringingherhands。
\"Hurrahforthe’poorknight’!\"criedColia。
\"Bequiet!Howdaretheylaughatmeinyourhouse?\"saidAglaya,turningsharplyonhermotherinthathystericalframeofmindthatridesrecklesslyovereveryobstacleandplungesblindlythroughproprieties。\"Whydoeseveryone,everyoneworryandtormentme?Whyhavetheyallbeenbullyingmethesethreedaysaboutyou,prince?Iwillnotmarryyou——never,andundernocircumstances!Knowthatonceandforall;asifanyonecouldmarryanabsurdcreaturelikeyou!Justlookintheglassandseewhatyoulooklike,thisverymoment!Why,WHYdotheytormentmeandsayIamgoingtomarryyou?Youmustknowit;youareintheplotwiththem!\"
\"Nooneevertormentedyouonthesubject,\"murmuredAdelaida,aghast。
\"Nooneeverthoughtofsuchathing!Therehasneverbeenawordsaidaboutit!\"criedAlexandra。
\"Whohasbeenannoyingher?Whohasbeentormentingthechild?Whocouldhavesaidsuchathingtoher?Issheraving?\"criedLizabethaProkofievna,tremblingwithrage,tothecompanyingeneral。
\"Everyoneofthemhasbeensayingit——everyoneofthem——allthesethreedays!AndIwillnever,nevermarryhim!\"
Sosaying,Aglayaburstintobittertears,and,hidingherfaceinherhandkerchief,sankbackintoachair。
\"Buthehasnevereven——\"
\"Ihaveneveraskedyoutomarryme,AglayaIvanovna!\"saidtheprince,ofasudden。
\"WHAT?\"criedMrs。Epanchin,raisingherhandsinhorror。\"WHAT’S
that?\"
Shecouldnotbelieveherears。
\"Imeanttosay——Ionlymeanttosay,\"saidtheprince,faltering,\"ImerelymeanttoexplaintoAglayaIvanovna——tohavethehonourtoexplain,asitwere——thatIhadnointention——neverhad——toaskthehonourofherhand。IassureyouIamnotguilty,AglayaIvanovna,Iamnot,indeed。Ineverdidwishto——Ineverthoughtofitatall——andnevershall——you’llseeityourself——
youmaybequiteassuredofit。Somewickedpersonhasbeenmaligningmetoyou;butit’sallright。Don’tworryaboutit。\"
Sosaying,theprinceapproachedAglaya。
Shetookthehandkerchieffromherface,glancedkeenlyathim,tookinwhathehadsaid,andburstoutlaughing——suchamerry,unrestrainedlaugh,soheartyandgay,that。Adelaidacouldnotcontainherself。She,too,glancedattheprince’spanic-strickencountenance,thenrushedathersister,threwherarmsroundherneck,andburstintoasmerryafitoflaughterasAglaya’sown。
Theylaughedtogetherlikeacoupleofschool-girls。Hearingandseeingthis,theprincesmiledhappily,andinaccentsofreliefandjoy,heexclaimed\"Well,thankGod——thankGod!\"
Alexandranowjoinedin,anditlookedasthoughthethreesistersweregoingtolaughonforever。
\"Theyareinsane,\"mutteredLizabethaProkofievna。\"Eithertheyfrightenoneoutofone’swits,orelse——\"
ButPrinceS。waslaughingnow,too,sowasEvgeniePavlovitch,sowasColia,andsowastheprincehimself,whocaughttheinfectionashelookedroundradiantlyupontheothers。
\"Comealong,let’sgooutforawalk!\"criedAdelaida。\"We’llallgotogether,andtheprincemustabsolutelygowithus。Youneedn’tgoaway,youdeargoodfellow!ISN’Theadear,Aglaya?
Isn’the,mother?Imustreallygivehimakissfor——forhisexplanationtoAglayajustnow。Mother,dear,Imaykisshim,mayn’tI?Aglaya,mayIkissYOURprince?\"criedtheyoungrogue,andsureenoughsheskippeduptotheprinceandkissedhisforehead。
Heseizedherhands,andpressedthemsohardthatAdelaidanearlycriedout;hethengazedwithdelightintohereyes,andraisingherrighthandtohislipswithenthusiasm,kisseditthreetimes。
\"Comealong,\"saidAglaya。\"Prince,youmustwalkwithme。Mayhe,mother?Thisyoungcavalier,whowon’thaveme?YousaidyouwouldNEVERhaveme,didn’tyou,prince?No-no,notlikethat;
THAT’Snotthewaytogiveyourarm。Don’tyouknowhowtogiveyourarmtoaladyyet?There——so。Now,comealong,youandI
willleadtheway。Wouldyouliketoleadthewaywithmealone,tete-a-tete?\"
Shewentontalkingandchattingwithoutapause,withoccasionallittleburstsoflaughterbetween。
\"ThankGod——thankGod!\"saidLizabethaProkofievnatoherself,withoutquiteknowingwhyshefeltsorelieved。
\"Whatextraordinarypeopletheyare!\"thoughtPrinceS。,forperhapsthehundredthtimesincehehadenteredintointimaterelationswiththefamily;but——helikedthese\"extraordinarypeople,\"allthesame。AsforPrinceLefNicolaievitchhimself,PrinceS。didnotseemquitetolikehim,somehow。Hewasdecidedlypreoccupiedandalittledisturbedastheyallstartedoff。
EvgeniePavlovitchseemedtobeinalivelyhumour。HemadeAdelaidaandAlexandralaughallthewaytotheVauxhall;buttheybothlaughedsoveryreallyandpromptlythattheworthyEvgeniebeganatlasttosuspectthattheywerenotlisteningtohimatall。
Atthisidea,heburstoutlaughingallatonce,inquiteunaffectedmirth,andwithoutgivinganyexplanation。
Thesisters,whoalsoappearedtobeinhighspirits,nevertiredofglancingatAglayaandtheprince,whowerewalkinginfront。
Itwasevidentthattheiryoungersisterwasathoroughpuzzletothemboth。
PrinceS。triedhardtogetupaconversationwithMrs。Epanchinuponoutsidesubjects,probablywiththegoodintentionofdistractingandamusingher;butheboredherdreadfully。Shewasabsent-mindedtoadegree,andansweredatcrosspurposes,andsometimesnotatall。
ButthepuzzleandmysteryofAglayawasnotyetoverfortheevening。Thelastexhibitionfelltothelotoftheprincealone。
Whentheyhadproceededsomehundredpacesorsofromthehouse,Aglayasaidtoherobstinatelysilentcavalierinaquickhalf-
whisper:
\"Looktotheright!\"
Theprinceglancedinthedirectionindicated。
\"Lookcloser。Doyouseethatbench,intheparkthere,justbythosethreebigtrees——thatgreenbench?\"
Theprincerepliedthathesawit。
\"Doyoulikethepositionofit?Sometimesofamorningearly,atseveno’clock,whenalltherestarestillasleep,Icomeoutandsittherealone。\"
Theprincemutteredthatthespotwasalovelyone。
\"Now,goaway,Idon’twishtohaveyourarmanylonger;orperhaps,better,continuetogivemeyourarm,andwalkalongbesideme,butdon’tspeakawordtome。Iwishtothinkbymyself。\"
Thewarningwascertainlyunnecessary;fortheprincewouldnothavesaidawordalltherestofthetimewhetherforbiddentospeakornot。HisheartbeatloudandpainfullywhenAglayaspokeofthebench;couldshe——butno!hebanishedthethought,afteraninstant’sdeliberation。
AtPavlofsk,onweekdays,thepublicismoreselectthanitisonSundaysandSaturdays,whenthetownsfolkcomedowntowalkaboutandenjoythepark。
Theladiesdresselegantly,onthesedays,anditisthefashiontogatherroundtheband,whichisprobablythebestofourpleasure-gardenbands,andplaysthenewestpieces。Thebehaviourofthepublicismostcorrectandproper,andthereisanappearanceoffriendlyintimacyamongtheusualfrequenters。Manycomefornothingbuttolookattheiracquaintances,butthereareotherswhocomeforthesakeofthemusic。Itisveryseldomthatanythinghappenstobreaktheharmonyoftheproceedings,though,ofcourse,accidentswillhappeneverywhere。
Onthisparticulareveningtheweatherwaslovely,andtherewerealargenumberofpeoplepresent。Alltheplacesanywhereneartheorchestrawereoccupied。
Ourfriendstookchairsnearthesideexit。ThecrowdandthemusiccheeredMrs。Epanchinalittle,andamusedthegirls;theybowedandshookhandswithsomeoftheirfriendsandnoddedatadistancetoothers;theyexaminedtheladies’dresses,noticedcomicalitiesandeccentricitiesamongthepeople,andlaughedandtalkedamongthemselves。EvgeniePavlovitch,too,foundplentyoffriendstobowto。SeveralpeoplenoticedAglayaandtheprince,whowerestilltogether。
Beforeverylongtwoorthreeyoungmenhadcomeup,andoneortworemainedtotalk;alloftheseyoungmenappearedtobeonintimatetermswithEvgeniePavlovitch。Amongthemwasayoungofficer,aremarkablyhandsomefellow——verygood-naturedandagreatchatterbox。HetriedtogetupaconversationwithAglaya,anddidhisbesttosecureherattention。Aglayabehavedverygraciouslytohim,andchattedandlaughedmerrily。EvgeniePavlovitchbeggedtheprince’sleavetointroducetheirfriendtohim。Theprincehardlyrealizedwhatwaswantedofhim,buttheintroductioncameoff;thetwomenbowedandshookhands。
EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendaskedtheprincesomequestion,butthelatterdidnotreply,orifhedid,hemutteredsomethingsostrangelyindistinctthattherewasnothingtobemadeofit。Theofficerstaredintentlyathim,thenglancedatEvgenie,divinedwhythelatterhadintroducedhim,andgavehisundividedattentiontoAglayaagain。OnlyEvgeniePavlovitchobservedthatAglayaflushedupforamomentatthis。
TheprincedidnotnoticethatothersweretalkingandmakingthemselvesagreeabletoAglaya;infact,atmoments,healmostforgotthathewassittingbyherhimself。Atothermomentshefeltalongingtogoawaysomewhereandbealonewithhisthoughts,andtofeelthatnooneknewwherehewas。
Orifthatwereimpossiblehewouldliketobealoneathome,ontheterrace-withouteitherLebedefforhischildren,oranyoneelseabouthim,andtoliethereandthink——adayandnightandanotherdayagain!Hethoughtofthemountains-andespeciallyofacertainspotwhichheusedtofrequent,whencehewouldlookdownuponthedistantvalleysandfields,andseethewaterfall,faroff,likealittlesilverthread,andtheoldruinedcastleinthedistance。Oh!howhelongedtobetherenow——alonewithhisthoughts——tothinkofonethingallhislife——onething!A
thousandyearswouldnotbetoomuchtime!Andleteveryonehereforgethim——forgethimutterly!Howmuchbetteritwouldhavebeeniftheyhadneverknownhim——ifallthiscouldbutprovetobeadream。Perhapsitwasadream!
NowandthenhelookedatAglayaforfiveminutesatatime,withouttakinghiseyesoffherface;buthisexpressionwasverystrange;hewouldgazeatherasthoughshewereanobjectacoupleofmilesdistant,orasthoughhewerelookingatherportraitandnotatherselfatall。
\"Whydoyoulookatmelikethat,prince?\"sheaskedsuddenly,breakingoffhermerryconversationandlaughterwiththoseabouther。\"I’mafraidofyou!Youlookasthoughyouwerejustgoingtoputoutyourhandandtouchmyfacetoseeifit’sreal!
Doesn’the,EvgeniePavlovitch——doesn’thelooklikethat?\"
Theprinceseemedsurprisedthatheshouldhavebeenaddressedatall;hereflectedamoment,butdidnotseemtotakeinwhathadbeensaidtohim;atallevents,hedidnotanswer。Butobservingthatsheandtheothershadbeguntolaugh,hetooopenedhismouthandlaughedwiththem。
Thelaughterbecamegeneral,andtheyoungofficer,whoseemedaparticularlylivelysortofperson,simplyshookwithmirth。
Aglayasuddenlywhisperedangrilytoherselftheword——
\"Idiot!\"
\"Mygoodness——surelysheisnotinlovewithsucha——surelysheisn’tmad!\"groanedMrs。Epanchin,underherbreath。
\"It’sallajoke,mamma;it’sjustajokelikethe’poorknight’——
nothingmorewhatever,Iassureyou!\"Alexandrawhisperedinherear。\"Sheischaffinghim——makingafoolofhim,afterherownprivatefashion,that’sall!Butshecarriesitjustalittletoofar——sheisaregularlittleactress。Howshefrightenedusjustnow——didn’tshe?——andallforalark!\"
\"Well,it’sluckyshehashappeneduponanidiot,then,that’sallIcansay!\"whisperedLizabethaProkofievna,whowassomewhatcomforted,however,byherdaughter’sremark。
Theprincehadheardhimselfreferredtoas\"idiot,\"andhadshudderedatthemoment;buthisshudder,itsohappened,wasnotcausedbythewordappliedtohim。Thefactwasthatinthecrowd,notfarfromwhereliewassitting,apalefamiliarface,withcurlyblackhair,andawell-knownsmileandexpression,hadflashedacrosshisvisionforamoment,anddisappearedagain。
Verylikelyhehadimaginedit!Thereonlyremainedtohimtheimpressionofastrangesmile,twoeyes,andabrightgreentie。
Whetherthemanhaddisappearedamongthecrowd,orwhetherhehadturnedtowardstheVauxhall,theprincecouldnotsay。
Butamomentortwoafterwardshebegantoglancekeenlyabouthim。Thatfirstvisionmightonlytoolikelybetheforerunnerofasecond;itwasalmostcertaintobeso。SurelyhehadnotforgottenthepossibilityofsuchameetingwhenhecametotheVauxhall?Trueenough,hehadnotremarkedwherehewascomingtowhenhesetoutwithAglaya;hehadnotbeeninaconditiontoremarkanythingatall。
Hadhebeenmorecarefultoobservehiscompanion,hewouldhaveseenthatforthelastquarterofanhourAglayahadalsobeenglancingaroundinapparentanxiety,asthoughsheexpectedtoseesomeone,orsomethingparticular,amongthecrowdofpeople。
Now,atthemomentwhenhisownanxietybecamesomarked,herexcitementalsoincreasedvisibly,andwhenhelookedabouthim,shedidthesame。
Thereasonfortheiranxietysoonbecameapparent。FromthatverysideentrancetotheVauxhall,nearwhichtheprinceandalltheEpanchinpartywereseated,theresuddenlyappearedquitealargeknotofpersons,atleastadozen。
Headingthislittlebandwalkedthreeladies,twoofwhomwereremarkablylovely;andtherewasnothingsurprisinginthefactthattheyshouldhavehadalargetroopofadmirersfollowingintheirwake。
Buttherewassomethingintheappearanceofboththeladiesandtheiradmirerswhichwaspeculiar,quitedifferentforthatoftherestofthepublicassembledaroundtheorchestra。
Nearlyeveryoneobservedthelittlebandadvancing,andallpretendednottoseeornoticethem,exceptafewyoungfellowswhoexchangedglancesandsmiled,sayingsomethingtooneanotherinwhispers。
Itwasimpossibletoavoidnoticingthem,however,inreality,fortheymadetheirpresenceonlytooconspicuousbylaughingandtalkingloudly。Itwastobesupposedthatsomeofthemweremorethanhalfdrunk,althoughtheywerewellenoughdressed,someevenparticularlywell。Therewereoneortwo,however,whowereverystrange-lookingcreatures,withflushedfacesandextraordinaryclothes;someweremilitarymen;notallwerequiteyoung;oneortwoweremiddle-agedgentlemenofdecidedlydisagreeableappearance,menwhoareavoidedinsocietyliketheplague,deckedoutinlargegoldstudsandrings,andmagnificently\"gotup,\"generally。
Amongoursuburbanresortstherearesomewhichenjoyaspeciallyhighreputationforrespectabilityandfashion;butthemostcarefulindividualisnotabsolutelyexemptfromthedangerofatilefallingsuddenlyuponhisheadfromhisneighbour’sroof。
Suchatilewasabouttodescendupontheelegantanddecorouspublicnowassembledtohearthemusic。
InordertopassfromtheVauxhalltotheband-stand,thevisitorhastodescendtwoorthreesteps。Justatthesestepsthegrouppaused,asthoughitfearedtoproceedfurther;butveryquicklyoneofthethreeladies,whoformeditsapex,steppedforwardintothecharmedcircle,followedbytwomembersofhersuite。
Oneofthesewasamiddle-agedmanofveryrespectableappearance,butwiththestampofparvenuuponhim,amanwhomnobodyknew,andwhoevidentlyknewnobody。Theotherfollowerwasyoungerandfarlessrespectable-looking。
Nooneelsefollowedtheeccentriclady;butasshedescendedthestepsshedidnotevenlookbehindher,asthoughitwereabsolutelythesametoherwhetheranyonewerefollowingornot。
Shelaughedandtalkedloudly,however,justasbefore。Shewasdressedwithgreattaste,butwithrathermoremagnificencethanwasneededfortheoccasion,perhaps。
Shewalkedpasttheorchestra,towhereanopencarriagewaswaiting,neartheroad。
TheprincehadnotseenHERformorethanthreemonths。AllthesedayssincehisarrivalfromPetersburghehadintendedtopayheravisit,butsomemysteriouspresentimenthadrestrainedhim。Hecouldnotpicturetohimselfwhatimpressionthismeetingwithherwouldmakeuponhim,thoughhehadoftentriedtoimagineit,withfearandtrembling。Onefactwasquitecertain,andthatwasthatthemeetingwouldbepainful。
Severaltimesduringthelastsixmonthshehadrecalledtheeffectwhichthefirstsightofthisfacehadhaduponhim,whenheonlysawitsportrait。Herecollectedwellthateventheportraitfacehadleftbuttoopainfulanimpression。
Thatmonthintheprovinces,whenhehadseenthiswomannearlyeveryday,hadaffectedhimsodeeplythathecouldnotnowlookbackuponitcalmly。Intheverylookofthiswomantherewassomethingwhichtorturedhim。InconversationwithRogojinhehadattributedthissensationtopity——immeasurablepity,andthiswasthetruth。Thesightoftheportraitfacealonehadfilledhisheartfulloftheagonyofrealsympathy;andthisfeelingofsympathy,nay,ofactualSUFFERING,forher,hadneverlefthisheartsincethathour,andwasstillinfullforce。Ohyes,andmorepowerfulthanever!
ButtheprincewasnotsatisfiedwithwhathehadsaidtoRogojin。Onlyatthismoment,whenshesuddenlymadeherappearancebeforehim,didherealizetothefulltheexactemotionwhichshecalledupinhim,andwhichhehadnotdescribedcorrectlytoRogojin。
And,indeed,therewerenowordsinwhichhecouldhaveexpressedhishorror,yes,HORROR,forhewasnowfullyconvincedfromhisownprivateknowledgeofher,thatthewomanwasmad。
If,lovingawomanaboveeverythingintheworld,oratleasthavingaforetasteofthepossibilityofsuchloveforher,oneweresuddenlytobeholdheronachain,behindbarsandunderthelashofakeeper,onewouldfeelsomethinglikewhatthepoorprincenowfelt。
\"What’sthematter?\"askedAglaya,inawhisper,givinghissleevealittletug。
Heturnedhisheadtowardsherandglancedatherblackandforsomereasonflashingeyes,triedtosmile,andthen,apparentlyforgettingherinaninstant,turnedtotherightoncemore,andcontinuedtowatchthestartlingapparitionbeforehim。
NastasiaPhilipovnawasatthismomentpassingtheyoungladies’
chairs。
EvgeniePavlovitchcontinuedsomeapparentlyextremelyfunnyandinterestinganecdotetoAlexandra,speakingquicklyandwithmuchanimation。TheprincerememberedthatatthismomentAglayaremarkedinahalf-whisper:
\"WHATa——\"
Shedidnotfinishherindefinitesentence;sherestrainedherselfinamoment;butitwasenough。
NastasiaPhilipovna,whouptonowhadbeenwalkingalongasthoughshehadnotnoticedtheEpanchinparty,suddenlyturnedherheadintheirdirection,asthoughshehadjustobservedEvgeniePavlovitchsittingthereforthefirsttime。
\"Why,Ideclare,hereheis!\"shecried,stoppingsuddenly。\"Themanonecan’tfindwithallone’smessengerssentabouttheplace,sittingjustunderone’snose,exactlywhereoneneverthoughtoflooking!Ithoughtyouweresuretobeatyouruncle’sbythistime。\"
EvgeniePavlovitchflushedupandlookedangrilyatNastasiaPhilipovna,thenturnedhisbackonher。
\"WhatIdon’tyouknowaboutityet?Hedoesn’tknow——imaginethat!Why,he’sshothimself。Youruncleshothimselfthisverymorning。Iwastoldattwothisafternoon。Halfthetownmustknowitbynow。Theysaytherearethreehundredandfiftythousandroubles,governmentmoney,missing;somesayfivehundredthousand。AndIwasundertheimpressionthathewouldleaveyouafortune!He’swhistleditallaway。Amostdepravedoldgentleman,really!Well,ta,ta!——bonnechance!Surelyyouintendtobeoffthere,don’tyou?Ha,ha!You’veretiredfromthearmyingoodtime,Isee!Plainclothes!Welldone,slyrogue!Nonsense!Isee——youknewitallbefore——Idaresayyouknewallaboutityesterday-\"
Althoughtheimpudenceofthisattack,thispublicproclamationofintimacy,asitwere,wasdoubtlesspremeditated,andhaditsspecialobject,yetEvgeniePavlovitchatfirstseemedtointendtomakenoshowofobservingeitherhistormentororherwords。
ButNastasia’scommunicationstruckhimwiththeforceofathunderclap。Onhearingofhisuncle’sdeathhesuddenlygrewaswhiteasasheet,andturnedtowardshisinformant。
Atthismoment,LizabethaProkofievnaroseswiftlyfromherseat,beckonedhercompanions,andlefttheplacealmostatarun。
Onlytheprincestoppedbehindforamoment,asthoughinindecision;andEvgeniePavlovitchlingeredtoo,forhehadnotcollectedhisscatteredwits。ButtheEpanchinshadnothadtimetogetmorethantwentypacesawaywhenascandalousepisodeoccurred。Theyoungofficer,EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendwhohadbeenconversingwithAglaya,saidaloudinagreatstateofindignation:
\"Sheoughttobewhipped——that’stheonlywaytodealwithcreatureslikethat——sheoughttobewhipped!\"
ThisgentlemanwasaconfidantofEvgenie’s,andhaddoubtlessheardofthecarriageepisode。
Nastasiaturnedtohim。Hereyesflashed;sherusheduptoayoungmanstandingnear,whomshedidnotknowintheleast,butwhohappenedtohaveinhishandathincane。Seizingthisfromhim,shebroughtitwithallherforceacrossthefaceofherinsulter。
Allthisoccurred,ofcourse,inoneinstantoftime。
Theyoungofficer,forgettinghimself,sprangtowardsher。
Nastasia’sfollowerswerenotbyheratthemomenttheelderlygentlemanhavingdisappearedaltogether,andtheyoungermansimplystandingasideandroaringwithlaughter。
Inanothermoment,ofcourse,thepolicewouldhavebeenonthespot,anditwouldhavegonehardwithNastasiaPhilipovnahadnotunexpectedaidappeared。
Muishkin,whowasbutacoupleofstepsaway,hadtimetospringforwardandseizetheofficer’sarmsfrombehind。
Theofficer,tearinghimselffromtheprince’sgrasp,pushedhimsoviolentlybackwardsthathestaggeredafewstepsandthensubsidedintoachair。
ButtherewereotherdefendersforNastasiaonthespotbythistime。Thegentlemanknownasthe\"boxer\"nowconfrontedtheenragedofficer。
\"Kellerismyname,sir;ex-lieutenant,\"hesaid,veryloud。\"Ifyouwillacceptmeaschampionofthefairsex,Iamatyourdisposal。Englishboxinghasnosecretsfromme。Isympathizewithyoufortheinsultyouhavereceived,butIcan’tpermityoutoraiseyourhandagainstawomaninpublic。Ifyouprefertomeetme——aswouldbemorefittingtoyourrank——insomeothermanner,ofcourseyouunderstandme,captain。\"
Buttheyoungofficerhadrecoveredhimself,andwasnolongerlistening。AtthismomentRogojinappeared,elbowingthroughthecrowd;hetookNastasia’shand,drewitthroughhisarm,andquicklyledheraway。Heappearedtobeterriblyexcited;hewastremblingallover,andwasaspaleasacorpse。
AshecarriedNastasiaoff,heturnedandgrinnedhorriblyintheofficer’sface,andwithlowmaliceobserved:
\"Tfu!lookwhatthefellowgot!Lookatthebloodonhischeek!
Ha,ha!\"
Recollectinghimself,however,andseeingataglancethesortofpeoplehehadtodealwith,theofficerturnedhisbackonbothhisopponents,andcourteously,butconcealinghisfacewithhishandkerchief,approachedtheprince,whowasnowrisingfromthechairintowhichhehadfallen。
\"PrinceMuishkin,Ibelieve?ThegentlemantowhomIhadthehonourofbeingintroduced?\"
\"Sheismad,insane——Iassureyou,sheismad,\"repliedtheprinceintremblingtones,holdingoutbothhishandsmechanicallytowardstheofficer。
\"Icannotboastofanysuchknowledge,ofcourse,butIwishedtoknowyourname。\"
Hebowedandretiredwithoutwaitingforananswer。
Fivesecondsafterthedisappearanceofthelastactorinthisscene,thepolicearrived。Thewholeepisodehadnotlastedmorethanacoupleofminutes。Someofthespectatorshadrisenfromtheirplaces,anddepartedaltogether;somemerelyexchangedtheirseatsforothersalittlefurtheroff;someweredelightedwiththeoccurrence,andtalkedandlaughedoveritforalongtime。
Inaword,theincidentclosedassuchincidentsdo,andthebandbegantoplayagain。TheprincewalkedawayaftertheEpanchinparty。Hadhethoughtoflookingroundtotheleftafterhehadbeenpushedsounceremoniouslyintothechair,hewouldhaveobservedAglayastandingsometwentyyardsaway。Shehadstayedtowatchthescandaloussceneinspiteofhermother’sandsisters’anxiouscriestohertocomeaway。
PrinceS。ranuptoherandpersuadedher,atlast,tocomehomewiththem。
LizabethaProkofievnasawthatshereturnedinsuchastateofagitationthatitwasdoubtfulwhethershehadevenheardtheircalls。Butonlyacoupleofminuteslater,whentheyhadreachedthepark,Aglayasuddenlyremarked,inherusualcalm,indifferentvoice:
\"Iwantedtoseehowthefarcewouldend。\"
III。
THEoccurrenceattheVauxhallhadfilledbothmotheranddaughterswithsomethinglikehorror。IntheirexcitementLizabethaProkofievnaandthegirlswerenearlyrunningallthewayhome。
Inheropiniontherewassomuchdisclosedandlaidbarebytheepisode,that,inspiteofthechaoticconditionofhermind,shewasabletofeelmoreorlessdecidedoncertainpointswhich,uptonow,hadbeeninacloudycondition。
However,oneandallofthepartyrealizedthatsomethingimportanthadhappened,andthat,perhapsfortunatelyenough,somethingwhichhadhithertobeenenvelopedintheobscurityofguess-workhadnowbeguntocomeforthalittlefromthemists。
InspiteofPrinceS。’sassurancesandexplanations,EvgeniePavlovitch’srealcharacterandpositionwereatlastcomingtolight。Hewaspubliclyconvictedofintimacywith\"thatcreature。\"SothoughtLizabethaProkofievnaandhertwoelderdaughters。
Buttherealupshotofthebusinesswasthatthenumberofriddlestobesolvedwasaugmented。Thetwogirls,thoughratherirritatedattheirmother’sexaggeratedalarmandhastetodepartfromthescene,hadbeenunwillingtoworryheratfirstwithquestions。
Besides,theycouldnothelpthinkingthattheirsisterAglayaprobablyknewmoreaboutthewholematterthanboththeyandtheirmotherputtogether。
PrinceS。lookedasblackasnight,andwassilentandmoody。
Mrs。Epanchindidnotsayawordtohimallthewayhome,andhedidnotseemtoobservethefact。Adelaidatriedtopumphimalittlebyasking,\"whowastheuncletheyweretalkingabout,andwhatwasitthathadhappenedinPetersburg?\"Buthehadmerelymutteredsomethingdisconnectedabout\"makinginquiries,\"andthat\"ofcourseitwasallnonsense。\"\"Oh,ofcourse,\"repliedAdelaida,andaskednomorequestions。Aglaya,too,wasveryquiet;andtheonlyremarkshemadeonthewayhomewasthattheywere\"walkingmuchtoofasttobepleasant。\"
Oncesheturnedandobservedtheprincehurryingafterthem。
Noticinghisanxietytocatchthemup,shesmiledironically,andthenlookedbacknomore。Atlength,justastheynearedthehouse,GeneralEpanchincameoutandmetthem;hehadonlyjustarrivedfromtown。
HisfirstwordwastoinquireafterEvgeniePavlovitch。ButLizabethastalkedpasthim,andneitherlookedathimnoransweredhisquestion。
HeimmediatelyjudgedfromthefacesofhisdaughtersandPrinceS。thattherewasathunderstormbrewing,andhehimselfalreadyboreevidencesofunusualperturbationofmind。
Heimmediatelybutton-holedPrinceS。,andstandingatthefrontdoor,engagedinawhisperedconversationwithhim。Bythetroubledaspectofbothofthem,whentheyenteredthehouse,andapproachedMrs。Epanchin,itwasevidentthattheyhadbeendiscussingverydisturbingnews。
LittlebylittlethefamilygatheredtogetherupstairsinLizabethaProkofievna’sapartments,andPrinceMuishkinfoundhimselfaloneontheverandahwhenhearrived。Hesettledhimselfinacornerandsatwaiting,thoughheknewnotwhatheexpected。
Itneverstruckhimthathehadbettergoaway,withallthisdisturbanceinthehouse。Heseemedtohaveforgottenalltheworld,andtobereadytositonwherehewasforyearsonend。
Fromupstairshecaughtsoundsofexcitedconversationeverynowandthen。
Hecouldnotsayhowlonghesatthere。Itgrewlateandbecamequitedark。
SuddenlyAglayaenteredtheverandah。Sheseemedtobequitecalm,thoughalittlepale。
Observingtheprince,whomsheevidentlydidnotexpecttoseethere,aloneinthecorner,shesmiled,andapproachedhim:
\"Whatareyoudoingthere?\"sheasked。
Theprincemutteredsomething,blushed,andjumpedup;butAglayaimmediatelysatdownbesidehim;sohereseatedhimself。
Shelookedsuddenly,butattentivelyintohisface,thenatthewindow,asthoughthinkingofsomethingelse,andthenagainathim。
\"Perhapsshewantstolaughatme,\"thoughttheprince,\"butno;
forifshedidshecertainlywoulddoso。\"
\"Wouldyoulikesometea?I’llordersome,\"shesaid,afteraminuteortwoofsilence。
\"N-nothanks,Idon’tknow——\"
\"Don’tknow!Howcanyounotknow?By-the-by,lookhere——ifsomeoneweretochallengeyoutoaduel,whatshouldyoudo?I
wishedtoaskyouthis——sometimeago——\"
\"Why?Nobodywouldeverchallengemetoaduel!\"
\"Butiftheywereto,wouldyoubedreadfullyfrightened?\"
\"IdaresayIshouldbe——muchalarmed!\"
\"Seriously?Thenareyouacoward?\"
\"N-no!——Idon’tthinkso。Acowardisamanwhoisafraidandrunsaway;themanwhoisfrightenedbutdoesnotrunaway,isnotquiteacoward,\"saidtheprincewithasmile,afteramoment’sthought。
\"Andyouwouldn’trunaway?\"
\"No——Idon’tthinkIshouldrunaway,\"repliedtheprince,laughingoutrightatlastatAglaya’squestions。
\"ThoughIamawoman,Ishouldcertainlynotrunawayforanything,\"saidAglaya,inaslightlypainedvoice。\"However,I
seeyouarelaughingatmeandtwistingyourfaceupasusualinordertomakeyourselflookmoreinteresting。Nowtellme,theygenerallyshootattwentypaces,don’tthey?Atten,sometimes?I
supposeifattentheymustbeeitherwoundedorkilled,mustn’tthey?\"
\"Idon’tthinktheyoftenkilleachotheratduels。\"
\"TheykilledPushkinthatway。\"
\"Thatmayhavebeenanaccident。\"
\"Notabitofit;itwasadueltothedeath,andhewaskilled。\"
\"Thebulletstrucksolowdownthatprobablyhisantagonistwouldneverhaveaimedatthatpartofhim——peopleneverdo;hewouldhaveaimedathischestorhead;sothatprobablythebullethithimaccidentally。Ihavebeentoldthisbycompetentauthorities。\"
\"Well,asoldieroncetoldmethattheywerealwaysorderedtoaimatthemiddleofthebody。Soyouseetheydon’taimatthechestorhead;theyaimloweronpurpose。Iaskedsomeofficeraboutthisafterwards,andhesaiditwasperfectlytrue。\"
\"Thatisprobablywhentheyfirefromalongdistance。\"
\"Canyoushootatall?\"
\"No,Ihavenevershotinmylife。\"
\"Can’tyouevenloadapistol?\"
\"No!Thatis,Iunderstandhowit’sdone,ofcourse,butIhaveneverdoneit。\"
\"Then,youdon’tknowhow,foritisamatterthatneedspractice。Nowlistenandlearn;inthefirstplacebuygoodpowder,notdamptheysayitmustn’tbeatalldamp,butverydry,somefinekinditis——youmustaskforPISTOLpowder,notthestufftheyloadcannonswith。Theysayonemakesthebulletsoneself,somehoworother。Haveyougotapistol?\"
\"No——andIdon’twantone,\"saidtheprince,laughing。
\"Oh,whatNONSENSE!Youmustbuyone。FrenchorEnglisharethebest,theysay。Thentakealittlepowder,aboutathimbleful,orperhapstwo,andpouritintothebarrel。Betterputplenty。ThenpushinabitoffeltitMUSTbefelt,forsomereasonorother;youcaneasilygetabitoffsomeoldmattress,oroffadoor;it’susedtokeepthecoldout。Well,whenyouhavepushedthefeltdown,putthebulletin;doyouhearnow?Thebulletlastandthepowderfirst,nottheotherway,orthepistolwon’tshoot。Whatareyoulaughingat?Iwishyoutobuyapistolandpractiseeveryday,andyoumustlearntohitamarkforCERTAIN;
willyou?\"
Theprinceonlylaughed。Aglayastampedherfootwithannoyance。
Herseriousair,however,duringthisconversationhadsurprisedhimconsiderably。Hehadafeelingthatheoughttobeaskinghersomething,thattherewassomethinghewantedtofindoutfarmoreimportantthanhowtoloadapistol;buthisthoughtshadallscattered,andhewasonlyawarethatshewassittingby,him,andtalkingtohim,andthathewaslookingather;astowhatshehappenedtobesayingtohim,thatdidnotmatterintheleast。
Thegeneralnowappearedontheverandah,comingfromupstairs。
Hewasonhiswayout,withanexpressionofdeterminationonhisface,andofpreoccupationandworryalso。
\"Ah!LefNicolaievitch,it’syou,isit?Whereareyouofftonow?\"heasked,obliviousofthefactthattheprincehadnotshowedtheleastsignofmoving。\"Comealongwithme;Iwanttosayawordortwotoyou。\"
\"Aurevoir,then!\"saidAglaya,holdingoutherhandtotheprince。
Itwasquitedarknow,andMuishkincouldnotseeherfaceclearly,butaminuteortwolater,whenheandthegeneralhadleftthevilla,hesuddenlyflushedup,andsqueezedhisrighthandtightly。
Itappearedthatheandthegeneralweregoinginthesamedirection。Inspiteofthelatenessofthehour,thegeneralwashurryingawaytotalktosomeoneuponsomeimportantsubject。
Meanwhilehetalkedincessantlybutdisconnectedlytotheprince,andcontinuallybroughtinthenameofLizabethaProkofievna。
Iftheprincehadbeeninaconditiontopaymoreattentiontowhatthegeneralwassaying,hewouldhavediscoveredthatthelatterwasdesirousofdrawingsomeinformationoutofhim,orindeedofaskinghimsomequestionoutright;butthathecouldnotmakeuphismindtocometothepoint。
Muishkinwassoabsent,thatfromtheveryfirsthecouldnotattendtoawordtheotherwassaying;andwhenthegeneralsuddenlystoppedbeforehimwithsomeexcitedquestion,hewasobligedtoconfess,ignominiously,thathedidnotknowintheleastwhathehadbeentalkingabout。
Thegeneralshruggedhisshoulders。
\"Howstrangeeveryone,yourselfincluded,hasbecomeoflate,\"
saidhe。\"IwastellingyouthatIcannotintheleastunderstandLizabethaProkofievna’sideasandagitations。Sheisinhystericsupthere,andmoansandsaysthatwehavebeen’shamedanddisgraced。’How?Why?When?Bywhom?IconfessthatIamverymuchtoblamemyself;Idonotconcealthefact;buttheconduct,theoutrageousbehaviourofthiswoman,mustreallybekeptwithinlimits,bythepoliceifnecessary,andIamjustonmywaynowtotalkthequestionoverandmakesomearrangements。Itcanallbemanagedquietlyandgently,evenkindly,andwithouttheslightestfussorscandal。Iforeseethatthefutureispregnantwithevents,andthatthereismuchthatneedsexplanation。Thereisintrigueinthewind;butifononesidenothingisknown,ontheothersidenothingwillbeexplained。IfIhaveheardnothingaboutit,norhaveYOU,norHE,norSHE——
whoHASheardaboutit,Ishouldliketoknow?HowCANallthisbeexplainedexceptbythefactthathalfofitismirageormoonshine,orsomehallucinationofthatsort?\"
\"SHEisinsane,\"mutteredtheprince,suddenlyrecollectingallthathadpassed,withaspasmofpainathisheart。
\"Itoohadthatidea,andIsleptinpeace。ButnowIseethattheiropinionismorecorrect。Idonotbelieveinthetheoryofmadness!Thewomanhasnocommonsense;butsheisnotonlynotinsane,sheisartfultoadegree。HeroutburstofthiseveningaboutEvgenie’suncleprovesthatconclusively。ItwasVILLAINOUS,simplyjesuitical,anditwasallforsomespecialpurpose。\"
\"WhataboutEvgenie’suncle?\"
\"Mygoodness,LefNicolaievitch,why,youcan’thaveheardasinglewordIsaid!Lookatme,I’mstilltremblingalloverwiththedreadfulshock!Itisthatthatkeptmeintownsolate。
EvgeniePavlovitch’suncle——\"
Well?\"criedtheprince。
\"Shothimselfthismorning,atseveno’clock。Arespected,eminentoldmanofseventy;andexactlypointforpointasshedescribedit;asumofmoney,aconsiderablesumofgovernmentmoney,missing!\"
\"Why,howcouldshe——\"
\"What,knowofit?Ha,ha,ha!Why,therewasawholecrowdroundherthemomentsheappearedonthesceneshere。Youknowwhatsortofpeoplesurroundhernowadays,andsolicitthehonourofher’acquaintance。’Ofcourseshemighteasilyhaveheardthenewsfromsomeonecomingfromtown。AllPetersburg,ifnotallPavlofsk,knowsitbynow。LookattheslynessofherobservationaboutEvgenie’suniform!Imean,herremarkthathehadretiredjustintime!There’savenomoushintforyou,ifyoulike!No,no!there’snoinsanitythere!OfcourseIrefusetobelievethatEvgeniePavlovitchcouldhaveknownbeforehandofthecatastrophe;thatis,thatatsuchandsuchadayatseveno’clock,andallthat;buthemightwellhavehadapresentimentofthetruth。AndI——allofus——PrinceS。andeverybody,believedthathewastoinheritalargefortunefromthisuncle。It’sdreadful,horrible!Mind,Idon’tsuspectEvgenieofanything,bequiteclearonthatpoint;butthethingisalittlesuspicious,nevertheless。PrinceS。can’tgetoverit。Altogetheritisaveryextraordinarycombinationofcircumstances。\"
\"WhatsuspicionattachestoEvgeniePavlovitch?\"
\"Oh,noneatall!Hehasbehavedverywellindeed。Ididn’tmeantodropanysortofhint。Hisownfortuneisintact,Ibelieve。
LizabethaProkofievna,ofcourse,refusestolistentoanything。
That’stheworstofitall,thesefamilycatastrophesorquarrels,orwhateveryouliketocallthem。Youknow,prince,youareafriendofthefamily,soIdon’tmindtellingyou;itnowappearsthatEvgeniePavlovitchproposedtoAglayaamonthago,andwasrefused。\"
\"Impossible!\"criedtheprince。
\"Why?Doyouknowanythingaboutit?Lookhere,\"continuedthegeneral,moreagitatedthanever,andtremblingwithexcitement,\"maybeIhavebeenlettingthecatoutofthebagtoofreelywithyou,ifso,itisbecauseyouare——thatsortofman,youknow!
Perhapsyouhavesomespecialinformation?\"
\"IknownothingaboutEvgeniePavlovitch!\"saidtheprince。
\"NordoI!Theyalwaystrytoburymeundergroundwhenthere’sanythinggoingon;theydon’tseemtoreflectthatitisunpleasanttoamantobetreatedso!Iwon’tstandit!Wehavejusthadaterriblescene!——mind,IspeaktoyouasIwouldtomyownson!Aglayalaughsathermother。HersistersguessedaboutEvgeniehavingproposedandbeenrejected,andtoldLizabetha。
\"Itellyou,mydearfellow,Aglayaissuchanextraordinary,suchaself-willed,fantasticallittlecreature,youwouldn’tbelieveit!Everyhighquality,everybrillianttraitofheartandmind,aretobefoundinher,and,withitall,somuchcapriceandmockery,suchwildfancies——indeed,alittledevil!
Shehasjustbeenlaughingathermothertoherveryface,andathersisters,andatPrinceS。,andeverybody——andofcourseshealwayslaughsatme!YouknowIlovethechild——Iloveherevenwhenshelaughsatme,andIbelievethewildlittlecreaturehasaspecialfondnessformeforthatveryreason。Sheisfonderofmethananyoftheothers。IdareswearshehashadagoodlaughatYOUbeforenow!Youwerehavingaquiettalkjustnow,I
observed,afterallthethunderandlightningupstairs。Shewassittingwithyoujustasthoughtherehadbeennorowatall。\"
Theprinceblushedpainfullyinthedarkness,andclosedhisrighthandtightly,buthesaidnothing。
\"MydeargoodPrinceLefNicolaievitch,\"beganthegeneralagain,suddenly,\"bothIandLizabethaProkofievna——whohasbeguntorespectyouoncemore,andmethroughyou,goodnessknowswhy!——
webothloveyouverysincerely,andesteemyou,inspiteofanyappearancestothecontrary。Butyou’lladmitwhatariddleitmusthavebeenforuswhenthatcalm,cold,littlespitfire,Aglaya——forshestooduptohermotherandansweredherquestionswithinexpressiblecontempt,andminestillmoreso,because,likeafool,Ithoughtitmydutytoassertmyselfasheadofthefamily——whenAglayastoodupofasuddenandinformedusthat’thatmadwoman’strangelyenough,sheusedexactlythesameexpressionasyoudid’hastakenitintoherheadtomarrymetoPrinceLefNicolaievitch,andthereforeisdoingherbesttochokeEvgeniePavlovitchoff,andridthehouseofhim。’That’swhatshesaid。Shewouldnotgivetheslightestexplanation;sheburstoutlaughing,bangedthedoor,andwentaway。Weallstoodtherewithourmouthsopen。Well,IwastoldafterwardsofyourlittlepassagewithAglayathisafternoon,and-and——dearprince——youareagood,sensiblefellow,don’tbeangryifIspeakout——sheislaughingatyou,myboy!Sheisenjoyingherselflikeachild,atyourexpense,andtherefore,sincesheisachild,don’tbeangrywithher,anddon’tthinkanythingofit。Iassureyou,sheissimplymakingafoolofyou,justasshedoeswithoneandallofusoutofpurelackofsomethingbettertodo。Well——good-bye!Youknowourfeelings,don’tyou——oursincerefeelingsforyourself?Theyareunalterable,youknow,dearboy,underallcircumstances,but——
Well,herewepart;Imustgodowntotheright。RarelyhaveI
satsouncomfortablyinmysaddle,astheysay,asInowsit。Andpeopletalkofthecharmsofacountryholiday!\"
Lefttohimselfatthecross-roads,theprinceglancedaroundhim,quicklycrossedtheroadtowardsthelightedwindowofaneighbouringhouse,andunfoldedatinyscrapofpaperwhichhehadheldclaspedinhisrighthandduringthewholeofhisconversationwiththegeneral。
Hereadthenoteintheuncertainraysthatfellfromthewindow。
Itwasasfollows:
\"Tomorrowmorning,Ishallbeatthegreenbenchintheparkatseven,andshallwaitthereforyou。Ihavemadeupmymindtospeaktoyouaboutamostimportantmatterwhichcloselyconcernsyourself。
\"P。S——Itrustthatyouwillnotshowthisnotetoanyone。ThoughIamashamedofgivingyousuchinstructions,IfeelthatImustdoso,consideringwhatyouare。Ithereforewritethewords,andblushforyoursimplecharacter。
\"P。P。S——ItisthesamegreenbenchthatIshowedyoubefore。
There!aren’tyouashamedofyourself?Ifeltthatitwasnecessarytorepeateventhatinformation。\"
Thenotewaswrittenandfoldedanyhow,evidentlyinagreathurry,andprobablyjustbeforeAglayahadcomedowntotheverandah。
Ininexpressibleagitation,amountingalmosttofear,theprinceslippedquicklyawayfromthewindow,awayfromthelight,likeafrightenedthief,butashedidsohecollidedviolentlywithsomegentlemanwhoseemedtospringfromtheearthathisfeet。
\"Iwaswatchingforyou,prince,\"saidtheindividual。
\"Isthatyou,Keller?\"saidtheprince,insurprise。
\"Yes,I’vebeenlookingforyou。IwaitedforyouattheEpanchins’house,butofcourseIcouldnotcomein。Idoggedyoufrombehindasyouwalkedalongwiththegeneral。Well,prince,hereisKeller,absolutelyatyourservice——commandhim!——readytosacrificehimself——eventodieincaseofneed。\"
\"But-why?\"
\"Oh,why?——Ofcourseyou’llbechallenged!ThatwasyoungLieutenantMoloftsoff。Iknowhim,orratherofhim;hewon’tpassaninsult。HewilltakenonoticeofRogojinandmyself,and,therefore,youaretheonlyonelefttoaccountfor。You’llhavetopaythepiper,prince。Hehasbeenaskingaboutyou,andundoubtedlyhisfriendwillcallonyoutomorrow——perhapsheisatyourhousealready。Ifyouwoulddomethehonourtohavemeforasecond,prince,Ishouldbehappy。That’swhyIhavebeenlookingforyounow。\"
\"Duel!You’vecometotalkaboutaduel,too!\"Theprinceburstoutlaughing,tothegreatastonishmentofKeller。Helaughedunrestrainedly,andKeller,whohadbeenonpinsandneedles,andinafeverofexcitementtoofferhimselfas\"second,\"wasverynearbeingoffended。
\"Youcaughthimbythearms,youknow,prince。Nomanofproperpridecanstandthatsortoftreatmentinpublic。\"
\"Yes,andhegavemeafearfuldiginthechest,\"criedtheprince,stilllaughing。\"Whatarewetofightabout?Ishallbeghispardon,that’sall。Butifwemustfight——we’llfight!Lethimhaveashotatme,byallmeans;Ishouldratherlikeit。Ha,ha,ha!Iknowhowtoloadapistolnow;doyouknowhowtoloadapistol,Keller?First,youhavetobuythepowder,youknow;itmustn’tbewet,anditmustn’tbethatcoarsestuffthattheyloadcannonswith——itmustbepistolpowder。Thenyoupourthepowderin,andgetholdofabitoffeltfromsomedoor,andthenshovethebulletin。Butdon’tshovethebulletinbeforethepowder,becausethethingwouldn’tgooff——doyouhear,Keller,thethingwouldn’tgooff!Ha,ha,ha!Isn’tthatagrandreason,Keller,myfriend,eh?Doyouknow,mydearfellow,Ireallymustkissyou,andembraceyou,thisverymoment。Ha,ha!Howwasityousosuddenlypoppedupinfrontofmeasyoudid?Cometomyhouseassoonasyoucan,andwe’llhavesomechampagne。We’llallgetdrunk!DoyouknowIhaveadozenofchampagneinLebedeff’scellar?LebedeffsoldthemtomethedayafterI
arrived。Itookthelot。We’llinviteeverybody!Areyougoingtodoanysleepingtonight?\"
\"Asmuchasusual,prince——why?\"
\"Pleasantdreamsthen——ha,ha!\"
Theprincecrossedtheroad,anddisappearedintothepark,leavingtheastonishedKellerinastateofludicrouswonder。Hehadneverbeforeseentheprinceinsuchastrangeconditionofmind,andcouldnothaveimaginedthepossibilityofit。
\"Fever,probably,\"hesaidtohimself,\"forthemanisallnerves,andthisbusinesshasbeenalittletoomuchforhim。HeisnotAFRAID,that’sclear;thatsortneverfunks!H’m!
champagne!Thatwasaninterestingitemofnews,atallevents!——
Twelvebottles!Dearme,that’saveryrespectablelittlestockindeed!IbetanythingLebedefflentsomebodymoneyondepositofthisdozenofchampagne。Hum!he’sanicefellow,isthisprince!
Ilikethissortofman。Well,Ineedn’tbewastingtimehere,andifit’sacaseofchampagne,why——there’snotimelikethepresent!\"
Thattheprincewasalmostinafeverwasnomorethanthetruth。
Hewanderedabouttheparkforalongwhile,andatlastcametohimselfinalonelyavenue。Hewasvaguelyconsciousthathehadalreadypacedthisparticularwalk——fromthatlarge,darktreetothebenchattheotherend——aboutahundredyardsaltogether——atleastthirtytimesbackwardsandforwards。
Astorecollectingwhathehadbeenthinkingofallthattime,hecouldnot。Hecaughthimself,however,indulginginonethoughtwhichmadehimroarwithlaughter,thoughtherewasnothingreallytolaughatinit;buthefeltthathemustlaugh,andgoonlaughing。
ItstruckhimthattheideaoftheduelmightnothaveoccurredtoKelleralone,butthathislessonintheartofpistol-loadingmighthavebeennotaltogetheraccidental!\"Pooh!nonsense!\"hesaidtohimself,struckbyanotherthought,ofasudden。\"Why,shewasimmenselysurprisedtofindmethereontheverandah,andlaughedandtalkedaboutTEA!Andyetshehadthislittlenoteinherhand,thereforeshemusthaveknownthatIwassittingthere。
Sowhywasshesurprised?Ha,ha,ha!\"
Hepulledthenoteoutandkissedit;thenpausedandreflected。
\"Howstrangeitallis!howstrange!\"hemuttered,melancholyenoughnow。Inmomentsofgreatjoy,heinvariablyfeltasensationofmelancholycomeoverhim——hecouldnottellwhy。
Helookedintentlyaroundhim,andwonderedwhyhehadcomehere;
hewasverytired,soheapproachedthebenchandsatdownonit。
Aroundhimwasprofoundsilence;themusicintheVauxhallwasover。Theparkseemedquiteempty,thoughitwasnot,inreality,laterthanhalf-pasteleven。Itwasaquiet,warm,clearnight——arealPetersburgnightofearlyJune;butinthedenseavenue,wherehewassitting,itwasalmostpitchdark。
Ifanyonehadcomeupatthismomentandtoldhimthathewasinlove,passionatelyinlove,hewouldhaverejectedtheideawithastonishment,and,perhaps,withirritation。AndifanyonehadaddedthatAglaya’snotewasalove-letter,andthatitcontainedanappointmenttoalover’srendezvous,hewouldhaveblushedwithshameforthespeaker,and,probably,havechallengedhimtoaduel。
Allthiswouldhavebeenperfectlysincereonhispart。Hehadneverforamomententertainedtheideaofthepossibilityofthisgirllovinghim,orevenofsuchathingashimselffallinginlovewithher。Thepossibilityofbeinglovedhimself,\"amanlikeme,\"asheputit,herankedamongridiculoussuppositions。
ItappearedtohimthatitwassimplyajokeonAglaya’spart,iftherereallywereanythinginitatall;butthatseemedtohimquitenatural。Hispreoccupationwascausedbysomethingdifferent。
AstothefewwordswhichthegeneralhadletslipaboutAglayalaughingateverybody,andathimselfmostofall——heentirelybelievedthem。Hedidnotfeeltheslightestsensationofoffence;onthecontrary,hewasquitecertainthatitwasasitshouldbe。
Hiswholethoughtswerenowastonextmorningearly;hewouldseeher;hewouldsitbyheronthatlittlegreenbench,andlistentohowpistolswereloaded,andlookather。Hewantednothingmore。