Shewasascapriciousaseverinthechoiceofheracquaintances,andadmittedfewintohernarrowcircle。Yetshealreadyhadanumerousfollowingandmanychampionsonwhomshecoulddependintimeofneed。Onegentlemanonhisholidayhadbrokenoffhisengagementonheraccount,andanoldgeneralhadquarrelledwithhisonlysonforthesamereason。
Shewasaccompaniedsometimesinhercarriagebyagirlofsixteen,adistantrelativeofherhostess。Thisyoungladysangverywell;infact,hermusichadgivenakindofnotorietytotheirlittlehouse。Nastasia,however,wasbehavingwithgreatdiscretiononthewhole。Shedressedquietly,thoughwithsuchtasteastodrivealltheladiesinPavlofskmadwithenvy,ofthat,aswellasofherbeautyandhercarriageandhorses。
\"Asforyesterday’sepisode,\"continuedGania,\"ofcourseitwaspre-arranged。\"Herehepaused,asthoughexpectingtobeaskedhowheknewthat。Buttheprincedidnotinquire。ConcerningEvgeniePavlovitch,Ganiastated,withoutbeingasked,thathebelievedtheformerhadnotknownNastasiaPhilipovnainpastyears,butthathehadprobablybeenintroducedtoherbysomebodyintheparkduringthesefourdays。AstothequestionoftheIOU’sshehadspokenof,theremighteasilybesomethinginthat;forthoughEvgeniewasundoubtedlyamanofwealth,yetcertainofhisaffairswereequallyundoubtedlyindisorder。
Arrivedatthisinterestingpoint,Ganiasuddenlybrokeoff,andsaidnomoreaboutNastasia’sprankofthepreviousevening。
AtlastVarvaraArdalionovnacameinsearchofherbrother,andremainedforafewminutes。WithoutMuishkin’saskingher,sheinformedhimthatEvgeniePavlovitchwasspendingthedayinPetersburg,andperhapswouldremainthereovertomorrow;andthatherhusbandhadalsogonetotown,probablyinconnectionwithEvgeniePavlovitch’saffairs。
\"LizabethaProkofievnaisinareallyfiendishtempertoday,\"
sheadded,asshewentout,\"butthemostcuriousthingisthatAglayahasquarrelledwithherwholefamily;notonlywithherfatherandmother,butwithhersistersalso。Itisnotagoodsign。\"Shesaidallthisquitecasually,thoughitwasextremelyimportantintheeyesoftheprince,andwentoffwithherbrother。Regardingtheepisodeof\"Pavlicheff’sson,\"Ganiahadbeenabsolutelysilent,partlyfromakindoffalsemodesty,partly,perhaps,to\"sparetheprince’sfeelings。\"Thelatter,however,thankedhimagainforthetroublehehadtakenintheaffair。
Muishkinwasgladenoughtobeleftalone。Hewentoutofthegarden,crossedtheroad,andenteredthepark。Hewishedtoreflect,andtomakeuphismindastoacertain\"step。\"Thisstepwasoneofthosethings,however,whicharenotthoughtout,asarule,butdecidedfororagainsthastily,andwithoutmuchreflection。Thefactis,hefeltalongingtoleaveallthisandgoaway——goanywhere,ifonlyitwerefarenough,andatonce,withoutbiddingfarewelltoanyone。Hefeltapresentimentthatifheremainedbutafewdaysmoreinthisplace,andamongthesepeople,hewouldbefixedthereirrevocablyandpermanently。
However,inaveryfewminuteshedecidedthattorunawaywasimpossible;thatitwouldbecowardly;thatgreatproblemslaybeforehim,andthathehadnorighttoleavethemunsolved,oratleasttorefusetogiveallhisenergyandstrengthtotheattempttosolvethem。Havingcometothisdetermination,heturnedandwenthome,hiswalkhavinglastedlessthanaquarterofanhour。Atthatmomenthewasthoroughlyunhappy。
Lebedeffhadnotreturned,sotowardseveningKellermanagedtopenetrateintotheprince’sapartments。Hewasnotdrunk,butinaconfidentialandtalkativemood。HeannouncedthathehadcometotellthestoryofhislifetoMuishkin,andhadonlyremainedatPavlofskforthatpurpose。Therewasnomeansofturninghimout;nothingshortofanearthquakewouldhaveremovedhim。
Inthemannerofonewithlonghoursbeforehim,hebeganhishistory;butafterafewincoherentwordshejumpedtotheconclusion,whichwasthat\"havingceasedtobelieveinGodAlmighty,hehadlosteveryvestigeofmorality,andhadgonesofarastocommitatheft。\"\"Couldyouimaginesuchathing?\"saidhe。
\"Listentome,Keller,\"returnedtheprince。\"IfIwereinyourplace,Ishouldnotacknowledgethatunlessitwereabsolutelynecessaryforsomereason。Butperhapsyouaremakingyourselfouttobeworsethanyouare,purposely?\"
\"Ishouldtellittonoonebutyourself,prince,andIonlynameitnowasahelptomysoul’sevolution。WhenIdie,thatsecretwilldiewithme!But,excellency,ifyouknew,ifyouonlyhadtheleastidea,howdifficultitistogetmoneynowadays!Wheretofinditisthequestion。Askforaloan,theanswerisalwaysthesame:’Giveusgold,jewels,ordiamonds,anditwillbequiteeasy。’Exactlywhatonehasnotgot!Canyoupicturethattoyourself?Igotangryatlast,andsaid,’Isupposeyouwouldacceptemeralds?’’Certainly,weacceptemeraldswithpleasure。
Yes!’’Well,that’sallright,’saidI。’Gotothedevil,youdenofthieves!’AndwiththatIseizedmyhat,andwalkedout。\"
\"Hadyouanyemeralds?\"askedtheprince。
\"What?Ihaveemeralds?Oh,prince!withwhatsimplicity,withwhatalmostpastoralsimplicity,youlookuponlife!\"
Couldnotsomethingbemadeofthismanundergoodinfluences?
askedtheprinceofhimself,forhebegantofeelakindofpityforhisvisitor。Hethoughtlittleofthevalueofhisownpersonalinfluence,notfromasenseofhumility,butfromhispeculiarwayoflookingatthingsingeneral。Imperceptiblytheconversationgrewmoreanimatedandmoreinteresting,sothatneitherofthetwofeltanxioustobringittoaclose。Kellerconfessed,withapparentsincerity,tohavingbeenguiltyofmanyactsofsuchanaturethatitastonishedtheprincethathecouldmentionthem,eventohim。Ateveryfreshavowalheprofessedthedeepestrepentance,anddescribedhimselfasbeing\"bathedintears\";butthisdidnotpreventhimfromputtingonaboastfulairattimes,andsomeofhisstoriesweresoabsurdlycomicalthatbothheandtheprincelaughedlikemadmen。
\"Onepointinyourfavouristhatyouseemtohaveachild-likemind,andextremetruthfulness,\"saidtheprinceatlast。\"Doyouknowthatthatatonesformuch?\"
\"Iamassuredlynoble-minded,andchivalroustoadegree!\"saidKeller,muchsoftened。\"But,doyouknow,thisnobilityofmindexistsinadream,ifonemayputitso?Itneverappearsinpracticeordeed。Now,whyisthat?Icanneverunderstand。\"
\"Donotdespair。Ithinkwemaysaywithoutfearofdeceivingourselves,thatyouhavenowgivenafairlyexactaccountofyourlife。I,atleast,thinkitwouldbeimpossibletoaddmuchtowhatyouhavejusttoldme。\"
\"Impossible?\"criedKeller,almostpityingly。\"Ohprince,howlittleyoureallyseemtounderstandhumannature!\"
\"Istherereallymuchmoretobeadded?\"askedtheprince,withmildsurprise。\"Well,whatisityoureallywantofme?Speakout;tellmewhyyoucametomakeyourconfessiontome?\"
\"WhatdidIwant?Well,tobeginwith,itisgoodtomeetamanlikeyou。Itisapleasuretotalkovermyfaultswithyou。I
knowyouforoneofthebestofmen……andthen……then……\"
Hehesitated,andappearedsomuchembarrassedthattheprincehelpedhimout。
\"Thenyouwantedmetolendyoumoney?\"
Thewordswerespokeninagravetone,andevensomewhatshyly。
Kellerstarted,gaveanastonishedlookatthespeaker,andthumpedthetablewithhisfist。
\"Well,prince,that’senoughtoknockmedown!Itastoundsme!
Hereyouare,assimpleandinnocentasaknightofthegoldenage,andyet……yet……youreadaman’ssoullikeapsychologist!Now,doexplainittome,prince,becauseI……I
reallydonotunderstand!……Ofcourse,myaimwastoborrowmoneyallalong,andyou……youaskedthequestionasiftherewasnothingblameableinit——asifyouthoughtitquitenatural。\"
\"Yes……fromyouitisquitenatural。\"
\"Andyouarenotoffended?\"
\"WhyshouldIbeoffended?\"
\"Well,justlisten,prince。Iremainedherelastevening,partlybecauseIhaveagreatadmirationfortheFrencharchbishopBourdaloue。Ienjoyedadiscussionoverhimtillthreeo’clockinthemorning,withLebedeff;andthen……
then——IswearbyallIholdsacredthatIamtellingyouthetruth——thenIwishedtodevelopmysoulinthisfrankandheartfeltconfessiontoyou。ThiswasmythoughtasIwassobbingmyselftosleepatdawn。JustasIwaslosingconsciousness,tearsinmysoul,tearsonmyfaceIrememberhowIlaytheresobbing,anideafromhellstruckme。’Whynot,afterconfessing,borrowmoneyfromhim?’Yousee,thisconfessionwasakindofmasterstroke;Iintendedtouseitasameanstoyourgoodgraceandfavour——andthen——thenImeanttowalkoffwithahundredandfiftyroubles。Now,doyounotcallthatbase?\"
\"Itishardlyanexactstatementofthecase,\"saidtheprinceinreply。\"Youhaveconfusedyourmotivesandideas,asIneedscarcelysaytoooftenhappenstomyself。Icanassureyou,Keller,Ireproachmyselfbitterlyforitsometimes。WhenyouweretalkingjustnowIseemedtobelisteningtosomethingaboutmyself。AttimesIhaveimaginedthatallmenwerethesame,\"hecontinuedearnestly,forheappearedtobemuchinterestedintheconversation,\"andthatconsoledmeinacertaindegree,foraDOUBLEmotiveisathingmostdifficulttofightagainst。Ihavetried,andIknow。Godknowswhencetheyarise,theseideasthatyouspeakofasbase。Ifearthesedoublemotivesmorethaneverjustnow,butIamnotyourjudge,andinmyopinionitisgoingtoofartogivethenameofbasenesstoit——whatdoyouthink?
Youweregoingtoemployyourtearsasaruseinordertoborrowmoney,butyoualsosay——infact,youhavesworntothefact——
thatindependentlyofthisyourconfessionwasmadewithanhonourablemotive。Asforthemoney,youwantitfordrink,doyounot?Afteryourconfession,thatisweakness,ofcourse;but,afterall,howcananyonegiveupabadhabitatamoment’snotice?Itisimpossible。Whatcanwedo?Itisbest,Ithink,toleavethemattertoyourownconscience。Howdoesitseemtoyou?\"AsheconcludedtheprincelookedcuriouslyatKeller;
evidentlythisproblemofdoublemotiveshadoftenbeenconsideredbyhimbefore。
\"Well,howanybodycancallyouanidiotafterthat,ismorethanIcanunderstand!\"criedtheboxer。
Theprincereddenedslightly。
\"Bourdaloue,thearchbishop,wouldnothavesparedamanlikeme,\"Kellercontinued,\"butyou,youhavejudgedmewithhumanity。ToshowhowgratefulIam,andasapunishment,Iwillnotacceptahundredandfiftyroubles。Givemetwenty-five——thatwillbeenough;itisallIreallyneed,forafortnightatleast。Iwillnotaskyouformoreforafortnight。IshouldliketohavegivenAgathaapresent,butshedoesnotreallydeserveit。Oh,mydearprince,Godblessyou!\"
AtthismomentLebedeffappeared,havingjustarrivedfromPetersburg。Hefrownedwhenhesawthetwenty-fiveroublenoteinKeller’shand,butthelatter,havinggotthemoney,wentawayatonce。Lebedeffbegantoabusehim。
\"Youareunjust;Ifoundhimsincerelyrepentant,\"observedtheprince,afterlisteningforatime。
\"Whatisthegoodofrepentancelikethat?Itisthesameexactlyasmineyesterday,whenIsaid,’Iambase,Iambase,’——words,andnothingmore!\"
\"Thentheywereonlywordsonyourpart?Ithought,onthecontrary……\"
\"Well,Idon’tmindtellingyouthetruth——youonly!Becauseyouseethroughamansomehow。Wordsandactions,truthandfalsehood,arealljumbleduptogetherinme,andyetIamperfectlysincere。Ifeelthedeepestrepentance,believeitornot,asyouchoose;butwordsandliescomeoutintheinfernalcravingtogetthebetterofotherpeople。Itisalwaysthere——thenotionofcheatingpeople,andofusingmyrepentanttearstomyownadvantage!Iassureyouthisisthetruth,prince!Iwouldnottellanyothermanfortheworld!Hewouldlaughandjeeratme——butyou,youjudgeamanhumanely。\"
\"Why,Kellersaidthesamethingtomenearlywordforwordafewminutesago!\"criedMuishkin。\"Andyoubothseeminclinedtoboastaboutit!Youastonishme,butIthinkheismoresincerethanyou,foryoumakearegulartradeofit。Oh,don’tputonthatpatheticexpression,anddon’tputyourhandonyourheart!
Haveyouanythingtosaytome?Youhavenotcomefornothing……\"
Lebedeffgrinnedandwriggled。
\"Ihavebeenwaitingalldayforyou,becauseIwanttoaskyouaquestion;and,foronceinyourlife,pleasetellmethetruthatonce。Hadyouanythingtodowiththataffairofthecarriageyesterday?\"
Lebedeffbegantogrinagain,rubbedhishands,sneezed,butspokenotawordinreply。
\"Iseeyouhadsomethingtodowithit。\"
\"Indirectly,quiteindirectly!Iamspeakingthetruth——Iamindeed!ImerelytoldacertainpersonthatIhadpeopleinmyhouse,andthatsuchandsuchpersonagesmightbefoundamongthem。\"
\"Iamawarethatyousentyoursontothathouse——hetoldmesohimselfjustnow,butwhatisthisintrigue?\"saidtheprince,impatiently。
\"Itisnotmyintrigue!\"criedLebedeff,wavinghishand。
\"Itwasengineeredbyotherpeople,andis,properlyspeaking,ratherafantasythananintrigue!\"
\"Butwhatisitallabout?Tellme,forHeaven’ssake!Cannotyouunderstandhownearlyittouchesme?WhyaretheyblackeningEvgeniePavlovitch’sreputation?\"
Lebedeffgrimacedandwriggledagain。
\"Prince!\"saidhe。\"Excellency!Youwon’tletmetellyouthewholetruth;Ihavetriedtoexplain;morethanonceIhavebegun,butyouhavenotallowedmetogoon……\"
Theprincegavenoanswer,andsatdeepinthought。Evidentlyhewasstrugglingtodecide。
\"Verywell!Tellmethetruth,\"hesaid,dejectedly。
\"AglayaIvanovna……\"beganLebedeff,promptly。
\"Besilent!Atonce!\"interruptedtheprince,redwithindignation,andperhapswithshame,too。\"Itisimpossibleandabsurd!Allthathasbeeninventedbyyou,orfoolslikeyou!Letmeneverhearyousayawordagainonthatsubject!\"
LateintheeveningColiacameinwithawholebudgetofPetersburgandPavlofsknews。HedidnotdwellmuchonthePetersburgpartofit,whichconsistedchieflyofintelligenceabouthisfriendHippolyte,butpassedquicklytothePavlofsktidings。HehadgonestraighttotheEpanchins’fromthestation。
\"There’sthedeuceandallgoingonthere!\"hesaid。\"Firstofallabouttherowlastnight,andIthinktheremustbesomethingnewaswell,thoughIdidn’tliketoask。NotawordaboutYOU,prince,thewholetime!\"ThemostinterestingfactwasthatAglayahadbeenquarrellingwithherpeopleaboutGania。Coliadidnotknowanydetails,exceptthatithadbeenaterriblequarrel!AlsoEvgeniePavlovitchhadcalled,andmetwithanexcellentreceptionallround。Andanothercuriousthing:Mrs。
EpanchinwassoangrythatshecalledVariatoher——Variawastalkingtothegirls——andturnedheroutofthehouse\"onceforall\"shesaid。\"IhearditfromVariaherself——Mrs。Epanchinwasquitepolite,butfirm;andwhenVariasaidgood-byetothegirls,shetoldthemnothingaboutit,andtheydidn’tknowtheyweresayinggoodbyeforthelasttime。I’msorryforVaria,andforGaniatoo;heisn’thalfabadfellow,inspiteofhisfaults,andIshallneverforgivemyselffornotlikinghimbefore!Idon’tknowwhetherIoughttocontinuetogototheEpanchins’now,\"concludedColia——\"Iliketobequiteindependentofothers,andofotherpeople’squarrelsifIcan;
butImustthinkoverit。\"
\"Idon’tthinkyouneedbreakyourheartoverGania,\"saidtheprince;\"forifwhatyousayistrue,hemustbeconsidereddangerousintheEpanchinhousehold,andifso,certainhopesofhismusthavebeenencouraged。\"
\"What?Whathopes?\"criedColia;\"yousurelydon’tmeanAglaya?——
oh,no!——\"
\"You’readreadfulsceptic,prince,\"hecontinued,afteramoment’ssilence。\"Ihaveobservedoflatethatyouhavegrownscepticalabouteverything。Youdon’tseemtobelieveinpeopleasyoudid,andarealwaysattributingmotivesandsoon——amI
usingtheword’sceptic’initspropersense?\"
\"Ibelieveso;butI’mnotsure。\"
\"Well,I’llchangeit,rightorwrong;I’llsaythatyouarenotsceptical,butJEALOUS。There!youaredeadlyjealousofGania,overacertainprouddamsel!Come!\"Coliajumpedup,withthesewords,andburstoutlaughing。Helaughedashehadperhapsneverlaughedbefore,andstillmorewhenhesawtheprinceflushinguptohistemples。HewasdelightedthattheprinceshouldbejealousaboutAglaya。However,hestoppedimmediatelyonseeingthattheotherwasreallyhurt,andtheconversationcontinued,veryearnestly,foranhourormore。
Nextdaytheprincehadtogototown,onbusiness。Returningintheafternoon,hehappeneduponGeneralEpanchinatthestation。
Thelatterseizedhishand,glancingaroundnervously,asifhewereafraidofbeingcaughtinwrong-doing,anddraggedhimintoafirst-classcompartment。Hewasburningtospeakaboutsomethingofimportance。
\"Inthefirstplace,mydearprince,don’tbeangrywithme。I
wouldhavecometoseeyouyesterday,butIdidn’tknowhowLizabethaProkofievnawouldtakeit。Mydearfellow,myhouseissimplyahelljustnow,asortofsphinxhastakenupitsabodethere。Weliveinanatmosphereofriddles;Ican’tmakeheadortailofanything。Asforyou,Ifeelsureyouaretheleasttoblameofanyofus,thoughyoucertainlyhavebeenthecauseofagooddealoftrouble。Yousee,it’sallverypleasanttobeaphilanthropist;butitcanbecarriedtoofar。OfcourseIadmirekind-heartedness,andIesteemmywife,but——\"
Thegeneralwanderedoninthisdisconnectedwayforalongtime;
itwasclearthathewasmuchdisturbedbysomecircumstancewhichhecouldmakenothingof。
\"Itisplaintome,thatYOUarenotinitatall,\"hecontinued,atlast,alittlelessvaguely,\"butperhapsyouhadbetternotcometoourhouseforalittlewhile。Iaskyouinthefriendliestmanner,mind;justtillthewindchangesagain。AsforEvgeniePavlovitch,\"hecontinuedwithsomeexcitement,\"thewholethingisacalumny,adirtycalumny。Itissimplyaplot,anintrigue,toupsetourplansandtostirupaquarrel。Yousee,prince,I’lltellyouprivately,Evgenieandourselveshavenotsaidawordyet,wehavenoformalunderstanding,weareinnowayboundoneitherside,butthewordmaybesaidverysoon,don’tyousee,VERYsoon,andallthisismostinjurious,andismeanttobeso。Why?I’msureIcan’ttellyou。She’sanextraordinarywoman,yousee,aneccentricwoman;ItellyouIamsofrightenedofthatwomanthatIcan’tsleep。Whatacarriagethatwas,andwherediditcomefrom,eh?Ideclare,IwasbaseenoughtosuspectEvgenieatfirst;butitseemscertainthatthatcannotbethecase,andifso,whyissheinterferinghere?
That’stheriddle,whatdoesshewant?IsittokeepEvgenietoherself?But,mydearfellow,Isweartoyou,Iswearhedoesn’tevenKNOWher,andasforthosebills,why,thewholethingisaninvention!Andthefamiliarityofthewoman!It’squiteclearwemusttreattheimpudentcreature’sattemptwithdisdain,andredoubleourcourtesytowardsEvgenie。Itoldmywifeso。
\"NowI’lltellyoumysecretconviction。I’mcertainthatshe’sdoingthistorevengeherselfonme,onaccountofthepast,thoughIassureyouthatallthetimeIwasblameless。Iblushattheveryidea。Andnowsheturnsupagainlikethis,whenI
thoughtshehadfinallydisappeared!Where’sRogojinallthistime?IthoughtshewasMrs。Rogojin,longago。\"
Theoldmanwasinastateofgreatmentalperturbation。Thewholeofthejourney,whichoccupiednearlyanhour,hecontinuedinthisstrain,puttingquestionsandansweringthemhimself,shrugginghisshoulders,pressingtheprince’shand,andassuringthelatterthat,atallevents,hehadnosuspicionwhateverofHIM。Thislastassurancewassatisfactory,atallevents。ThegeneralfinishedbyinforminghimthatEvgenie’sunclewasheadofoneofthecivilservicedepartments,andrich,veryrich,andagourmand。\"And,well,Heavenpreservehim,ofcourse——butEvgeniegetshismoney,don’tyousee?But,forallthis,I’muncomfortable,Idon’tknowwhy。There’ssomethingintheair,I
feelthere’ssomethingnastyintheair,likeabat,andI’mbynomeanscomfortable。\"
AnditwasnotuntilthethirddaythattheformalreconciliationbetweentheprinceandtheEpanchinstookplace,assaidbefore。
XII。
ITwassevenintheevening,andtheprincewasjustpreparingtogooutforawalkinthepark,whensuddenlyMrs。Epanchinappearedontheterrace。
\"Inthefirstplace,don’tdaretosuppose,\"shebegan,\"thatI
amgoingtoapologize。Nonsense!Youwereentirelytoblame。\"
Theprinceremainedsilent。
\"Wereyoutoblame,ornot?\"
\"No,certainlynot,nomorethanyourself,thoughatfirstI
thoughtIwas。\"
\"Oh,verywell,let’ssitdown,atallevents,forIdon’tintendtostandupallday。Andremember,ifyousay,onewordabout’mischievousurchins,’Ishallgoawayandbreakwithyoualtogether。Nowthen,didyou,ordidyounot,sendalettertoAglaya,acoupleofmonthsorsoago,aboutEaster-tide?\"
\"Yes!\"
\"Whatfor?Whatwasyourobject?Showmetheletter。\"Mrs。
Epanchin’seyesflashed;shewasalmosttremblingwithimpatience。
\"Ihavenotgottheletter,\"saidtheprince,timidly,extremelysurprisedattheturntheconversationhadtaken。\"Ifanyonehasit,ifitstillexists,AglayaIvanovnamusthaveit。\"
\"Nofinessing,please。Whatdidyouwriteabout?\"
\"Iamnotfinessing,andIamnotintheleastafraidoftellingyou;butIdon’tseetheslightestreasonwhyIshouldnothavewritten。\"
\"Bequiet,youcantalkafterwards!Whatwastheletterabout?
Whyareyoublushing?\"
Theprincewassilent。Atlasthespoke。
\"Idon’tunderstandyourthoughts,LizabethaProkofievna;butI
canseethatthefactofmyhavingwrittenisforsomereasonrepugnanttoyou。YoumustadmitthatIhaveaperfectrighttorefusetoansweryourquestions;but,inordertoshowyouthatI
amneitherashamedoftheletter,norsorrythatIwroteit,andthatIamnotintheleastinclinedtoblushaboutit\"heretheprince’sblushesredoubled,\"Iwillrepeatthesubstanceofmyletter,forIthinkIknowitalmostbyheart。\"
Sosaying,theprincerepeatedtheletteralmostwordforword,ashehadwrittenit。
\"Mygoodness,whatuttertwaddle,andwhatmayallthisnonsensehavesignified,pray?Ifithadanymeaningatall!\"saidMrs。
Epanchin,cuttingly,afterhavinglistenedwithgreatattention。
\"Ireallydon’tabsolutelyknowmyself;Iknowmyfeelingwasverysincere。Ihadmomentsatthattimefulloflifeandhope。\"
\"Whatsortofhope?\"
\"Itisdifficulttoexplain,butcertainlynotthehopesyouhaveinyourmind。Hopes——well,inaword,hopesforthefuture,andafeelingofjoythatTHERE,atallevents,Iwasnotentirelyastrangerandaforeigner。Ifeltanecstasyinbeinginmynativelandoncemore;andonesunnymorningItookupapenandwroteherthatletter,butwhytoHER,Idon’tquiteknow。Sometimesonelongstohaveafriendnear,andIevidentlyfelttheneedofonethen,\"addedtheprince,andpaused。
\"Areyouinlovewithher?\"
\"N-no!Iwrotetoherastoasister;Isignedmyselfherbrother。\"
\"Ohyes,ofcourse,onpurpose!Iquiteunderstand。\"
\"Itisverypainfultometoanswerthesequestions,LizabethaProkofievna。\"
\"Idaresayitis;butthat’snoaffairofmine。Nowthen,assuremetrulyasbeforeHeaven,areyoulyingtomeornot?\"
\"No,Iamnotlying。\"
\"Areyoutellingthetruthwhenyousayyouarenotinlove?\"
\"Ibelieveitistheabsolutetruth。\"
\"’Ibelieve,’indeed!Didthatmischievousurchingiveittoher?\"
\"IaskedNicolaiArdalionovitch……\"
\"Theurchin!theurchin!\"interruptedLizabethaProkofievnainanangryvoice。\"IdonotwanttoknowifitwereNicolaiArdalionovitch!Theurchin!\"
\"NicolaiArdalionovitch……\"
\"Theurchin,Itellyou!\"
\"No,itwasnottheurchin:itwasNicolaiArdalionovitch,\"saidtheprinceveryfirmly,butwithoutraisinghisvoice。
\"Well,allright!Allright,mydear!Ishallputthatdowntoyouraccount。\"
Shewassilentamomenttogetbreath,andtorecoverhercomposure。
\"Well!——andwhat’sthemeaningofthe’poorknight,’eh?\"
\"Idon’tknowintheleast;Iwasn’tpresentwhenthejokewasmade。ItISajoke。Isuppose,andthat’sall。\"
\"Well,that’sacomfort,atallevents。Youdon’tsupposeshecouldtakeanyinterestinyou,doyou?Why,shecalledyouan’idiot’herself。\"
\"Ithinkyoumighthavesparedmethat,\"murmuredtheprincereproachfully,almostinawhisper。
\"Don’tbeangry;sheisawilful,mad,spoiltgirl。Ifshelikesapersonshewillpitchintohim,andchaffhim。Iusedtobejustsuchanother。Butforallthatyouneedn’tflatteryourself,myboy;sheisnotforyou。Idon’tbelieveit,anditisnottobe。Itellyousoatonce,sothatyoumaytakeproperprecautions。Now,Iwanttohearyouswearthatyouarenotmarriedtothatwoman?\"
\"LizabethaProkofievna,whatareyouthinkingof?\"criedtheprince,almostleapingtohisfeetinamazement。
\"Why?Youverynearlywere,anyhow。\"
\"Yes——Inearlywas,\"whisperedtheprince,hanginghishead。
\"Wellthen,haveyoucomehereforHER?AreyouinlovewithHER?
WithTHATcreature?\"
\"Ididnotcometomarryatall,\"repliedtheprince。
\"Isthereanythingyouholdsacred?\"
\"Thereis。\"
\"ThenswearbyitthatyoudidnotcomeheretomarryHER!\"
\"I’llswearitbywhateveryouplease。\"
\"Ibelieveyou。Youmaykissme;Ibreathefreelyatlast。Butyoumustknow,mydearfriend,Aglayadoesnotloveyou,andsheshallneverbeyourwifewhileIamoutofmygrave。Sobewarnedintime。Doyouhearme?\"
\"Yes,Ihear。\"
Theprinceflushedupsomuchthathecouldnotlookherintheface。
\"Ihavewaitedforyouwiththegreatestimpatiencenotthatyouwereworthit。EverynightIhavedrenchedmypillowwithtears,notforyou,myfriend,notforyou,don’tflatteryourself!I
havemyowngrief,alwaysthesame,alwaysthesame。ButI’lltellyouwhyIhavebeenawaitingyousoimpatiently,becauseI
believethatProvidenceitselfsentyoutobeafriendandabrothertome。Ihaven’tafriendintheworldexceptPrincessBielokonski,andsheisgrowingasstupidasasheepfromoldage。Nowthen,tellme,yesorno?Doyouknowwhyshecalledoutfromhercarriagetheothernight?\"
\"IgiveyoumywordofhonourthatIhadnothingtodowiththematterandknownothingaboutit。\"
\"Verywell,Ibelieveyou。Ihavemyownideasaboutit。UptoyesterdaymorningIthoughtitwasreallyEvgeniePavlovitchwhowastoblame;nowIcannothelpagreeingwiththeothers。ButwhyhewasmadesuchafoolofIcannotunderstand。However,heisnotgoingtomarryAglaya,Icantellyouthat。Hemaybeaveryexcellentfellow,but——soitshallbe。Iwasnotatallsureofacceptinghimbefore,butnowIhavequitemadeupmymindthatI
won’thavehim。’Putmeinmycoffinfirstandthenintomygrave,andthenyoumaymarrymydaughtertowhomsoeveryouplease,’soIsaidtothegeneralthisverymorning。YouseehowItrustyou,myboy。\"
\"Yes,Iseeandunderstand。\"
Mrs。Epanchingazedkeenlyintotheprince’seyes。ShewasanxioustoseewhatimpressionthenewsastoEvgeniePavlovitchhadmadeuponhim。
\"DoyouknowanythingaboutGavrilaArdalionovitch?\"sheaskedatlast。
\"Ohyes,Iknowagooddeal。\"
\"DidyouknowhehadcommunicationswithAglaya?\"
\"No,Ididn’t,\"saidtheprince,tremblingalittle,andingreatagitation。\"YousayGavrilaArdalionovitchhasprivatecommunicationswithAglaya?——Impossible!\"
\"Onlyquitelately。Hissisterhasbeenworkinglikearattoclearthewayforhimallthewinter。\"
\"Idon’tbelieveit!\"saidtheprinceabruptly,afterashortpause。\"HaditbeensoIshouldhaveknownlongago。\"
\"Oh,ofcourse,yes;hewouldhavecomeandweptouthissecretonyourbosom。Oh,yousimpleton——yousimpleton!Anyonecandeceiveyouandtakeyouinlikea——likea,——aren’tyouashamedtotrusthim?Can’tyouseethathehumbugsyoujustasmuchaseverhepleases?\"
\"Iknowverywellthathedoesdeceivemeoccasionally,andheknowsthatIknowit,but——\"Theprincedidnotfinishhissentence。
\"Andthat’swhyyoutrusthim,eh?SoIshouldhavesupposed。
GoodLord,wasthereeversuchamanasyou?Tfu!andareyouaware,sir,thatthisGania,orhissisterVaria,havebroughtherintocorrespondencewithNastasiaPhilipovna?\"
\"Broughtwhom?\"criedMuishkin。
\"Aglaya。\"
\"Idon’tbelieveit!It’simpossible!Whatobjectcouldtheyhave?\"Hejumpedupfromhischairinhisexcitement。
\"NordoIbelieveit,inspiteoftheproofs。Thegirlisself-
willedandfantastic,andinsane!She’swicked,wicked!I’llrepeatitforathousandyearsthatshe’swicked;theyALLare,justnow,allmydaughters,eventhat’wethen’Alexandra。AndyetIdon’tbelieveit。BecauseIdon’tchoosetobelieveit,perhaps;butIdon’t。Whyhaven’tyoubeen?\"sheturnedontheprincesuddenly。\"Whydidn’tyoucomenearusallthesethreedays,eh?\"
Theprincebegantogivehisreasons,butsheinterruptedhimagain。
\"Everybodytakesyouinanddeceivesyou;youwenttotownyesterday。Idareswearyouwentdownonyourkneestothatrogue,andbeggedhimtoacceptyourtenthousandroubles!\"
\"Ineverthoughtofdoinganysuchthing。Ihavenotseenhim,andheisnotarogue,inmyopinion。Ihavehadaletterfromhim。\"
\"Showitme!\"
Theprincetookapaperfromhispocket-book,andhandedittoLizabethaProkofievna。Itranasfollows:
\"SIR,\"IntheeyesoftheworldIamsurethatIhavenocauseforprideorself-esteem。Iammuchtooinsignificantforthat。Butwhatmaybesotoothermen’seyesisnotsotoyours。Iamconvincedthatyouarebetterthanotherpeople。Doktorenkodisagreeswithme,butIamcontenttodifferfromhimonthispoint。Iwillneveracceptonesinglecopeckfromyou,butyouhavehelpedmymother,andIamboundtobegratefultoyouforthat,howeverweakitmayseem。Atanyrate,Ihavechangedmyopinionaboutyou,andIthinkrighttoinformyouofthefact;butIalsosupposethattherecanbenofurtherintercoursebetweenus\"ANTIPBURDOVSKY。
\"P。S——ThetwohundredroublesIoweyoushallcertainlyberepaidintime。\"
\"Howextremelystupid!\"criedMrs。Epanchin,givingbacktheletterabruptly。\"Itwasnotworththetroubleofreading。Whyareyousmiling?\"
\"Confessthatyouarepleasedtohavereadit。\"
\"What!Pleasedwithallthatnonsense!Why,cannotyouseethattheyareallinfatuatedwithprideandvanity?\"
\"Hehasacknowledgedhimselftobeinthewrong。Don’tyouseethatthegreaterhisvanity,themoredifficultthisadmissionmusthavebeenonhispart?Oh,whatalittlechildyouare,LizabethaProkofievna!\"
\"Areyoutemptingmetoboxyourearsforyou,orwhat?\"
\"Notatall。Iamonlyprovingthatyouaregladabouttheletter。Whyconcealyourrealfeelings?Youalwaysliketodoit。\"
\"Nevercomenearmyhouseagain!\"criedMrs。Epanchin,palewithrage。\"Don’tletmeseeasmuchasaSHADOWofyouabouttheplace!Doyouhear?\"
\"Ohyes,andinthreedaysyou’llcomeandinvitemeyourself。
Aren’tyouashamednow?Theseareyourbestfeelings;youareonlytormentingyourself。\"
\"I’lldiebeforeIinviteyou!Ishallforgetyourveryname!
I’veforgottenitalready!\"
Shemarchedtowardsthedoor。
\"ButI’mforbiddenyourhouseasitis,withoutyouraddedthreats!\"criedtheprinceafterher。
\"What?Whoforbadeyou?\"
Sheturnedroundsosuddenlythatonemighthavesupposedaneedlehadbeenstuckintoher。
Theprincehesitated。Heperceivedthathehadsaidtoomuchnow。
\"WHOforbadeyou?\"criedMrs。Epanchinoncemore。
\"AglayaIvanovnatoldme——\"
\"When?Speak——quick!\"
\"Shesenttosay,yesterdaymorning,thatIwasnevertodaretocomenearthehouseagain。\"
LizabethaProkofievnastoodlikeastone。
\"Whatdidshesend?Whom?Wasitthatboy?Wasitamessage?-
quick!\"
\"Ihadanote,\"saidtheprince。
\"Whereisit?Giveithere,atonce。\"
Theprincethoughtamoment。Thenhepulledoutofhiswaistcoatpocketanuntidyslipofpaper,onwhichwasscrawled:
\"PRINCELEFNICOLAIEVITCH,——Ifyouthinkfit,afterallthathaspassed,tohonourourhousewithavisit,Icanassureyouyouwillnotfindmeamongthenumberofthosewhoareinanywaydelightedtoseeyou。
\"AGLAYAEPANCHIN。\"
Mrs。Epanchinreflectedamoment。Thenextminutesheflewattheprince,seizedhishand,anddraggedhimafterhertothedoor。
\"Quick——comealong!\"shecried,breathlesswithagitationandimpatience。\"Comealongwithmethismoment!\"
\"ButyoudeclaredIwasn’t——\"
\"Don’tbeasimpleton。Youbehavejustasthoughyouweren’tamanatall。Comeon!Ishallsee,now,withmyowneyes。Ishallseeall。\"
\"Well,letmegetmyhat,atleast。\"
\"Here’syourmiserablehatHecouldn’tevenchoosearespectableshapeforhishat!Comeon!ShedidthatbecauseItookyourpartandsaidyououghttohavecome——littlevixen!——elseshewouldneverhavesentyouthatsillynote。It’samostimpropernote,I
callit;mostimproperforsuchanintelligent,well-brought-upgirltowrite。H’m!Idaresayshewasannoyedthatyoudidn’tcome;butsheoughttohaveknownthatonecan’twritelikethattoanidiotlikeyou,foryou’dbesuretotakeitliterally。\"
Mrs。Epanchinwasdraggingtheprincealongwithherallthetime,andneverletgoofhishandforaninstant。\"Whatareyoulisteningfor?\"sheadded,seeingthatshehadcommittedherselfalittle。\"Shewantsaclownlikeyou——shehasn’tseenoneforsometime——toplaywith。That’swhysheisanxiousforyoutocometothehouse。AndrightgladIamthatshe’llmakeathoroughgoodfoolofyou。Youdeserveit;andshecandoit——oh!
shecan,indeed!——aswellasmostpeople。\"
PARTIII
I。
THEEpanchinfamily,oratleastthemoreseriousmembersofit,weresometimesgrievedbecausetheyseemedsounliketherestoftheworld。Theywerenotquitecertain,buthadattimesastrongsuspicionthatthingsdidnothappentothemastheydidtootherpeople。Othersledaquiet,uneventfullife,whiletheyweresubjecttocontinualupheavals。Otherskeptontherailswithoutdifficulty;theyranoffattheslightestobstacle。Otherhousesweregovernedbyatimidroutine;theirswassomehowdifferent。
PerhapsLizabethaProkofievnawasaloneinmakingthesefretfulobservations;thegirls,thoughnotwantinginintelligence,werestillyoung;thegeneralwasintelligent,too,butnarrow,andinanydifficultyhewascontenttosay,\"H’m!\"andleavethemattertohiswife。Consequently,onherfelltheresponsibility。Itwasnotthattheydistinguishedthemselvesasafamilybyanyparticularoriginality,orthattheirexcursionsoffthetrackledtoanybreachoftheproprieties。Ohno。
Therewasnothingpremeditated,therewasnotevenanyconsciouspurposeinitall,andyet,inspiteofeverything,thefamily,althoughhighlyrespected,wasnotquitewhateveryhighlyrespectedfamilyoughttobe。ForalongtimenowLizabethaProkofievnahadhaditinhermindthatallthetroublewasowingtoher\"unfortunatecharacter,\"andthisaddedtoherdistress。
Sheblamedherownstupidunconventional\"eccentricity。\"Alwaysrestless,alwaysonthego,sheconstantlyseemedtoloseherway,andtogetintotroubleoverthesimplestandmoreordinaryaffairsoflife。
Wesaidatthebeginningofourstory,thattheEpanchinswerelikedandesteemedbytheirneighbours。Inspiteofhishumbleorigin,IvanFedorovitchhimselfwasreceivedeverywherewithrespect。Hedeservedthis,partlyonaccountofhiswealthandposition,partlybecause,thoughlimited,hewasreallyaverygoodfellow。Butacertainlimitationofmindseemstobeanindispensableasset,ifnottoallpublicpersonages,atleasttoallseriousfinanciers。Addedtothis,hismannerwasmodestandunassuming;heknewwhentobesilent,yetneverallowedhimselftobetrampledupon。Also——andthiswasmoreimportantthanall——
hehadtheadvantageofbeingunderexaltedpatronage。
AstoLizabethaProkofievna,she,asthereaderknows,belongedtoanaristocraticfamily。True,Russiansthinkmoreofinfluentialfriendsthanofbirth,butshehadboth。Shewasesteemedandevenlovedbypeopleofconsequenceinsociety,whoseexampleinreceivingherwasthereforefollowedbyothers。
Itseemshardlynecessarytoremarkthatherfamilyworriesandanxietieshadlittleornofoundation,orthatherimaginationincreasedthemtoanabsurddegree;butifyouhaveawartonyourforeheadornose,youimaginethatalltheworldislookingatit,andthatpeoplewouldmakefunofyoubecauseofit,evenifyouhaddiscoveredAmerica!DoubtlessLizabethaProkofievnawasconsidered\"eccentric\"insociety,butshewasnonethelessesteemed:thepitywasthatshewasceasingtobelieveinthatesteem。Whenshethoughtofherdaughters,shesaidtoherselfsorrowfullythatshewasahindranceratherthanahelptotheirfuture,thathercharacterandtemperwereabsurd,ridiculous,insupportable。Naturally,sheputtheblameonhersurroundings,andfrommorningtonightwasquarrellingwithherhusbandandchildren,whomshereallylovedtothepointofself-sacrifice,even,onemightsay,ofpassion。
Shewas,abovealldistressedbytheideathatherdaughtersmightgrowup\"eccentric,\"likeherself;shebelievedthatnoothersocietygirlswerelikethem。\"TheyaregrowingintoNihilists!\"sherepeatedoverandoveragain。Foryearsshehadtormentedherselfwiththisidea,andwiththequestion:\"Whydon’ttheygetmarried?\"
\"Itistoannoytheirmother;thatistheironeaiminlife;itcanbenothingelse。Thefactisitisallofapiecewiththesemodernideas,thatwretchedwoman’squestion!SixmonthsagoAglayatookafancytocutoffhermagnificenthair。Why,evenI,whenIwasyoung,hadnothinglikeit!Thescissorswereinherhand,andIhadtogodownonmykneesandimploreher……Shedidit,Iknow,fromsheermischief,tospitehermother,forsheisanaughty,capriciousgirl,arealspoiledchildspitefulandmischievoustoadegree!AndthenAlexandrawantedtoshaveherhead,notfromcapriceormischief,but,likealittlefool,simplybecauseAglayapersuadedhershewouldsleepbetterwithoutherhair,andnotsufferfromheadache!Andhowmanysuitorshavetheynothadduringthelastfiveyears!Excellentoffers,too!Whatmoredotheywant?Whydon’ttheygetmarried?
Fornootherreasonthantovextheirmother——none——none!\"
ButLizabethaProkofievnafeltsomewhatconsoledwhenshecouldsaythatoneofhergirls,Adelaida,wassettledatlast。\"Itwillbeoneoffourhands!\"shedeclaredaloud,thoughinprivatesheexpressedherselfwithgreatertenderness。Theengagementwasbothhappyandsuitable,andwasthereforeapprovedinsociety。
PrinceS。wasadistinguishedman,hehadmoney,andhisfuturewifewasdevotedtohim;whatmorecouldbedesired?LizabethaProkofievnahadfeltlessanxiousaboutthisdaughter,however,althoughsheconsideredherartistictastessuspicious。Buttomakeupforthemshewas,ashermotherexpressedit,\"merry,\"
andhadplentyof\"common-sense。\"ItwasAglaya’sfuturewhichdisturbedhermost。Withregardtohereldestdaughter,Alexandra,themotherneverquiteknewwhethertherewascauseforanxietyornot。Sometimesshefeltasiftherewasnothingtobeexpectedfromher。Shewastwenty-fivenow,andmustbefatedtobeanoldmaid,and\"withsuchbeauty,too!\"Themotherspentwholenightsinweepingandlamenting,whileallthetimethecauseofhergriefslumberedpeacefully。\"Whatisthematterwithher?IssheaNihilist,orsimplyafool?\"
ButLizabethaProkofievnaknewperfectlywellhowunnecessarywasthelastquestion。ShesetahighvalueonAlexandraIvanovna’sjudgment,andoftenconsultedherindifficulties;butthatshewasa’wethen’sheneverforamomentdoubted。\"Sheissocalm;
nothingrousesher——thoughwethensarenotalwayscalm!Oh!I
can’tunderstandit!\"HereldestdaughterinspiredLizabethawithakindofpuzzledcompassion。ShedidnotfeelthisinAglaya’scase,thoughthelatterwasheridol。Itmaybesaidthattheseoutburstsandepithets,suchas\"wethen\"inwhichthematernalsolicitudeusuallyshoweditself,onlymadeAlexandralaugh。
SometimesthemosttrivialthingannoyedMrs。Epanchin,anddroveherintoafrenzy。Forinstance,AlexandraIvanovnalikedtosleeplate,andwasalwaysdreaming,thoughherdreamshadthepeculiarityofbeingasinnocentandnaiveasthoseofachildofseven;andtheveryinnocenceofherdreamsannoyedhermother。
Onceshedreamtofninehens,andthiswasthecauseofquiteaseriousquarrel——nooneknewwhy。Anothertimeshehad——itwasmostunusual——adreamwithasparkoforiginalityinit。Shedreamtofamonkinadarkroom,intowhichshewastoofrightenedtogo。AdelaidaandAglayarushedoffwithshrieksoflaughtertorelatethistotheirmother,butshewasquiteangry,andsaidherdaughterswereallfools。
\"H’m!sheisasstupidasafool!Averitable’wethen’!Nothingexcitesher;andyetsheisnothappy;somedaysitmakesonemiserableonlytolookather!Whyissheunhappy,Iwonder?\"AttimesLizabethaProkofievnaputthisquestiontoherhusband,andasusualshespokeinthethreateningtoneofonewhodemandsanimmediateanswer。IvanFedorovitchwouldfrown,shrughisshoulders,andatlastgivehisopinion:\"Sheneedsahusband!\"
\"Godforbidthatheshouldshareyourideas,IvanFedorovitch!\"
hiswifeflashedback。\"Orthatheshouldbeasgrossandchurlishasyou!\"
Thegeneralpromptlymadehisescape,andLizabethaProkofievnaafterawhilegrewcalmagain。Thatevening,ofcourse,shewouldbeunusuallyattentive,gentle,andrespectfultoher\"grossandchurlish\"husband,her\"dear,kindIvanFedorovitch,\"forshehadneverleftofflovinghim。Shewasevenstill\"inlove\"withhim。
Heknewitwell,andforhispartheldherinthegreatestesteem。
Butthemother’sgreatandcontinualanxietywasAglaya。\"Sheisexactlylikeme——myimageineverything,\"saidMrs。Epanchintoherself。\"Atyrant!Areallittledemon!ANihilist!Eccentric,senselessandmischievous!GoodLord,howunhappyshewillbe!\"
Butaswesaidbefore,thefactofAdelaida’sapproachingmarriagewasbalmtothemother。Forawholemonthsheforgotherfearsandworries。
Adelaida’sfatewassettled;andwithhernamethatofAglaya’swaslinked,insocietygossip。PeoplewhisperedthatAglaya,too,was\"asgoodasengaged;\"andAglayaalwayslookedsosweetandbehavedsowellduringthisperiod,thatthemother’sheartwasfullofjoy。Ofcourse,EvgeniePavlovitchmustbethoroughlystudiedfirst,beforethefinalstepshouldbetaken;but,really,howlovelydearAglayahadbecome——sheactuallygrewmorebeautifuleveryday!Andthen——Yes,andthen——thisabominableprinceshowedhisfaceagain,andeverythingwenttopsy-turvyatonce,andeveryoneseemedasmadasMarchhares。
Whathadreallyhappened?
IfithadbeenanyotherfamilythantheEpanchins’,nothingparticularwouldhavehappened。But,thankstoMrs。Epanchin’sinvariablefussinessandanxiety,therecouldnotbetheslightesthitchinthesimplestmattersofeverydaylife,butsheimmediatelyforesawthemostdreadfulandalarmingconsequences,andsufferedaccordingly。
Whatthenmusthavebeenhercondition,when,amongalltheimaginaryanxietiesandcalamitieswhichsoconstantlybesether,shenowsawloomingaheadaseriouscauseforannoyance——
somethingreallylikelytoarousedoubtsandsuspicions!
\"Howdaredthey,howDAREDtheywritethathatefulanonymousletterinformingmethatAglayaisincommunicationwithNastasiaPhilipovna?\"shethought,asshedraggedtheprincealongtowardsherownhouse,andagainwhenshesathimdownattheroundtablewherethefamilywasalreadyassembled。\"HowdaredtheysomuchasTHINKofsuchathing?IshouldDIEwithshameifIthoughttherewasaparticleoftruthinit,orifIweretoshowthelettertoAglayaherself!WhodaresplaythesejokesuponUS,theEpanchins?WHYdidn’twegototheYelagininsteadofcomingdownhere?ITOLDyouwehadbettergototheYelaginthissummer,IvanFedorovitch。It’sallyourfault。IdaresayitwasthatVariawhosenttheletter。It’sallIvanFedorovitch。THATwomanisdoingitallforhim,Iknowsheis,toshowshecanmakeafoolofhimnowjustasshedidwhenheusedtogiveherpearls。
\"Butafterallissaid,wearemixedupinit。Yourdaughtersaremixedupinit,IvanFedorovitch;youngladiesinsociety,youngladiesatanagetobemarried;theywerepresent,theyheardeverythingtherewastohear。Theyweremixedupwiththatotherscene,too,withthosedreadfulyouths。Youmustbepleasedtoremembertheyhearditall。Icannotforgivethatwretchedprince。Inevershallforgivehim!Andwhy,ifyouplease,hasAglayahadanattackofnervesfortheselastthreedays?Whyhassheallbutquarrelledwithhersisters,evenwithAlexandra——
whomsherespectssomuchthatshealwayskissesherhandsasthoughshewerehermother?Whatarealltheseriddlesofhersthatwehavetoguess?WhathasGavrilaArdalionovitchtodowithit?Whydidshetakeuponherselftochampionhimthismorning,andburstintotearsoverit?Whyisthereanallusiontothatcursed’poorknight’intheanonymousletter?AndwhydidIrushofftohimjustnowlikealunatic,anddraghimbackhere?IdobelieveI’vegonemadatlast。WhatonearthhaveIdonenow?Totalktoayoungmanaboutmydaughter’ssecrets——andsecretshavingtodowithhimself,too!Thankgoodness,he’sanidiot,andafriendofthehouse!SurelyAglayahasn’tfalleninlovewithsuchagaby!Whatanidea!Pfu!weoughtalltobeputunderglasscases——myselffirstofall——andbeshownoffascuriosities,attencopecksapeep!\"
\"Ishallneverforgiveyouforallthis,IvanFedorovitch——never!
Lookathernow。Whydoesn’tshemakefunofhim?Shesaidshewould,andshedoesn’t。Lookthere!Shestaresathimwithallhereyes,anddoesn’tmove;andyetshetoldhimnottocome。Helookspaleenough;andthatabominablechatterbox,EvgeniePavlovitch,monopolizesthewholeoftheconversation。Nobodyelsecangetawordin。IcouldsoonfindoutallabouteverythingifIcouldonlychangethesubject。\"
Theprincecertainlywasverypale。Hesatatthetableandseemedtobefeeling,byturns,sensationsofalarmandrapture。
Oh,howfrightenedhewasoflookingtooneside——oneparticularcorner——whenceheknewverywellthatapairofdarkeyeswerewatchinghimintently,andhowhappyhewastothinkthathewasoncemoreamongthem,andoccasionallyhearingthatwell-knownvoice,althoughshehadwrittenandforbiddenhimtocomeagain!
\"Whatonearthwillshesaytome,Iwonder?\"hethoughttohimself。
Hehadnotsaidawordyet;hesatsilentandlistenedtoEvgeniePavlovitch’seloquence。Thelatterhadneverappearedsohappyandexcitedasonthisevening。Theprincelistenedtohim,butforalongtimedidnottakeinawordhesaid。
ExceptingIvanFedorovitch,whohadnotasyetreturnedfromtown,thewholefamilywaspresent。PrinceS。wasthere;andtheyallintendedtogoouttohearthebandverysoon。
Coliaarrivedpresentlyandjoinedthecircle。\"Soheisreceivedasusual,afterall,\"thoughttheprince。
TheEpanchins’country-housewasacharmingbuilding,builtafterthemodelofaSwisschalet,andcoveredwithcreepers。Itwassurroundedonallsidesbyaflowergarden,andthefamilysat,asarule,ontheopenverandahasattheprince’shouse。
Thesubjectunderdiscussiondidnotappeartobeverypopularwiththeassembly,andsomewouldhavebeendelightedtochangeit;butEvgeniewouldnotstopholdingforth,andtheprince’sarrivalseemedtospurhimontostillfurtheroratoricalefforts。
LizabethaProkofievnafrowned,buthadnotasyetgraspedthesubject,whichseemedtohavearisenoutofaheatedargument。
Aglayasatapart,almostinthecorner,listeninginstubbornsilence。
\"Excuseme,\"continuedEvgeniePavlovitchhotly,\"Idon’tsayawordagainstliberalism。Liberalismisnotasin,itisanecessarypartofagreatwhole,whichwholewouldcollapseandfalltopieceswithoutit。Liberalismhasjustasmuchrighttoexistashasthemostmoralconservatism;butIamattackingRUSSIANliberalism;andIattackitforthesimplereasonthataRussianliberalisnotaRussianliberal,heisanon-Russianliberal。ShowmearealRussianliberal,andI’llkisshimbeforeyouall,withpleasure。\"
\"Ifhecaredtokissyou,thatis,\"saidAlexandra,whosecheekswereredwithirritationandexcitement。
\"Lookatthat,now,\"thoughtthemothertoherself,\"shedoesnothingbutsleepandeatforayearatatime,andthensuddenlyfliesoutinthemostincomprehensibleway!\"
TheprinceobservedthatAlexandraappearedtobeangrywithEvgenie,becausehespokeonaserioussubjectinafrivolousmanner,pretendingtobeinearnest,butwithanunder-currentofirony。
\"Iwassayingjustnow,beforeyoucamein,prince,thattherehasbeennothingnationaluptonow,aboutourliberalism,andnothingtheliberalsdo,orhavedone,isintheleastdegreenational。Theyaredrawnfromtwoclassesonly,theoldlandowningclass,andclericalfamilies——\"
\"How,nothingthattheyhavedoneisRussian?\"askedPrinceS。
\"ItmaybeRussian,butitisnotnational。OurliberalsarenotRussian,norareourconservatives,andyoumaybesurethatthenationdoesnotrecognizeanythingthathasbeendonebythelandedgentry,orbytheseminarists,orwhatistobedoneeither。\"
\"Come,that’sgood!Howcanyoumaintainsuchaparadox?Ifyouareserious,thatis。Icannotallowsuchastatementaboutthelandedproprietorstopassunchallenged。Why,youarealandedproprietoryourself!\"criedPrinceS。hotly。
\"Isupposeyou’llsaythereisnothingnationalaboutourliteratureeither?\"saidAlexandra。
\"Well,Iamnotagreatauthorityonliteraryquestions,butI
certainlydoholdthatRussianliteratureisnotRussian,exceptperhapsLomonosoff,PouschkinandGogol。\"
\"Inthefirstplace,thatisaconsiderableadmission,andinthesecondplace,oneoftheabovewasapeasant,andtheothertwowerebothlandedproprietors!\"
\"Quiteso,butdon’tbeinsuchahurry!Forsinceithasbeenthepartofthesethreemen,andonlythesethree,tosaysomethingabsolutelytheirown,notborrowed,sobythisveryfactthesethreemenbecomereallynational。IfanyRussianshallhavedoneorsaidanythingreallyandabsolutelyoriginal,heistobecallednationalfromthatmoment,thoughhemaynotbeabletotalktheRussianlanguage;stillheisanationalRussian。I
considerthatanaxiom。Butwewerenotspeakingofliterature;
webeganbydiscussingthesocialists。Verywellthen,IinsistthattheredoesnotexistonesingleRussiansocialist。Theredoesnot,andtherehasneverexistedsuchaone,becauseallsocialistsarederivedfromthetwoclasses——thelandedproprietors,andtheseminarists。Alloureminentsocialistsaremerelyoldliberalsoftheclassoflandedproprietors,menwhowereliberalsinthedaysofserfdom。Whydoyoulaugh?Givemetheirbooks,givemetheirstudies,theirmemoirs,andthoughI
amnotaliterarycritic,yetIwillproveasclearasdaythateverychapterandeverywordoftheirwritingshasbeentheworkofaformerlandedproprietoroftheoldschool。You’llfindthatalltheirraptures,alltheirgeneroustransportsareproprietary,alltheirwoesandtheirtears,proprietary;allproprietaryorseminarist!Youarelaughingagain,andyou,prince,aresmilingtoo。Don’tyouagreewithme?\"
Itwastrueenoughthateverybodywaslaughing,theprinceamongthem。
\"IcannottellyouontheinstantwhetherIagreewithyouornot,\"saidthelatter,suddenlystoppinghislaughter,andstartinglikeaschoolboycaughtatmischief。\"But,Iassureyou,Iamlisteningtoyouwithextremegratification。\"
Sosaying,healmostpantedwithagitation,andacoldsweatstooduponhisforehead。Thesewerehisfirstwordssincehehadenteredthehouse;hetriedtolifthiseyes,andlookaround,butdarednot;EvgeniePavlovitchnoticedhisconfusion,andsmiled。
\"I’lljusttellyouonefact,ladiesandgentlemen,\"continuedthelatter,withapparentseriousnessandevenexaltationofmanner,butwithasuggestionof\"chaff\"behindeveryword,asthoughhewerelaughinginhissleeveathisownnonsense——\"afact,thediscoveryofwhich,Ibelieve,Imayclaimtohavemadebymyselfalone。Atallevents,nootherhaseversaidorwrittenawordaboutit;andinthisfactisexpressedthewholeessenceofRussianliberalismofthesortwhichIamnowconsidering。
\"Inthefirstplace,whatisliberalism,speakinggenerally,butanattackwhethermistakenorreasonable,isquiteanotherquestionupontheexistingorderofthings?Isthisso?Yes。
Verywell。Thenmy’fact’consistsinthis,thatRUSSIAN
liberalismisnotanattackupontheexistingorderofthings,butanattackupontheveryessenceofthingsthemselves——indeed,onthethingsthemselves;notanattackontheRussianorderofthings,butonRussiaitself。MyRussianliberalgoessofarastorejectRussia;thatis,hehatesandstrikeshisownmother。
Everymisfortuneandmishapofthemother-countryfillshimwithmirth,andevenwithecstasy。Hehatesthenationalcustoms,Russianhistory,andeverything。Ifhehasajustification,itisthathedoesnotknowwhatheisdoing,andbelievesthathishatredofRussiaisthegrandestandmostprofitablekindofliberalism。Youwilloftenfindaliberalwhoisapplaudedandesteemedbyhisfellows,butwhoisinrealitythedreariest,blindest,dullestofconservatives,andisnotawareofthefact。ThishatredforRussiahasbeenmistakenbysomeofour’Russianliberals’forsincereloveoftheircountry,andtheyboastthattheyseebetterthantheirneighbourswhatrealloveofone’scountryshouldconsistin。Butoflatetheyhavegrown,morecandidandareashamedoftheexpression’loveofcountry,’
andhaveannihilatedtheveryspiritofthewordsassomethinginjuriousandpettyandundignified。Thisisthetruth,andI
holdbyit;butatthesametimeitisaphenomenonwhichhasnotbeenrepeatedatanyothertimeorplace;andtherefore,thoughI
holdtoitasafact,yetIrecognizethatitisanaccidentalphenomenon,andmaylikelyenoughpassaway。Therecanbenosuchthinganywhereelseasaliberalwhoreallyhateshiscountry;
andhowisthisfacttobeexplainedamongUS?BymyoriginalstatementthataRussianliberalisNOTaRUSSIANliberal——that’stheonlyexplanationthatIcansee。\"
\"Itakeallthatyouhavesaidasajoke,\"saidPrinceS。
seriously。
\"Ihavenotseenallkindsofliberals,andcannot,therefore,setmyselfupasajudge,\"saidAlexandra,\"butIhaveheardallyouhavesaidwithindignation。Youhavetakensomeaccidentalcaseandtwisteditintoauniversallaw,whichisunjust。\"
\"Accidentalcase!\"saidEvgeniePavlovitch。\"Doyouconsideritanaccidentalcase,prince?\"
\"Imustalsoadmit,\"saidtheprince,\"thatIhavenotseenmuch,orbeenveryfarintothequestion;butIcannothelpthinkingthatyouaremoreorlessright,andthatRussianliberalism——
thatphaseofitwhichyouareconsidering,atleast——reallyissometimesinclinedtohateRussiaitself,andnotonlyitsexistingorderofthingsingeneral。OfcoursethisisonlyPARTIALLYthetruth;youcannotlaydownthelawforall……\"
Theprinceblushedandbrokeoff,withoutfinishingwhathemeanttosay。
Inspiteofhisshynessandagitation,hecouldnothelpbeinggreatlyinterestedintheconversation。Aspecialcharacteristicofhiswasthenaivecandourwithwhichhealwayslistenedtoargumentswhichinterestedhim,andwithwhichheansweredanyquestionsputtohimonthesubjectatissue。Intheveryexpressionofhisfacethisnaivetewasunmistakablyevident,thisdisbeliefintheinsincerityofothers,andunsuspectingdisregardofironyorhumourintheirwords。
ButthoughEvgeniePavlovitchhadputhisquestionstotheprincewithnootherpurposebuttoenjoythejokeofhissimple-mindedseriousness,yetnow,athisanswer,hewassurprisedintosomeseriousnesshimself,andlookedgravelyatMuishkinasthoughhehadnotexpectedthatsortofansweratall。
\"Why,howstrange!\"heejaculated。\"Youdidn’tanswermeseriously,surely,didyou?\"
\"Didnotyouaskmethequestionseriously\"inquiredtheprince,inamazement。
Everybodylaughed。
\"Oh,trustHIMforthat!\"saidAdelaida。\"EvgeniePavlovitchturnseverythingandeverybodyhecanlayholdoftoridicule。
Youshouldhearthethingshesayssometimes,apparentlyinperfectseriousness。\"
\"Inmyopiniontheconversationhasbeenapainfulonethroughout,andweoughtnevertohavebegunit,\"saidAlexandra。
\"Wewereallgoingforawalk——\"
\"Comealongthen,\"saidEvgenie;\"it’sagloriousevening。But,toprovethatthistimeIwasspeakingabsolutelyseriously,andespeciallytoprovethistotheprinceforyou,prince,haveinterestedmeexceedingly,andIsweartoyouthatIamnotquitesuchanassasIliketoappearsometimes,althoughIamratheranass,Iadmit,and——well,ladiesandgentlemen,willyouallowmetoputjustonemorequestiontotheprince,outofpurecuriosity?Itshallbethelast。Thisquestioncameintomymindacoupleofhourssinceyousee,prince,Idothinkseriouslyattimes,andImademyowndecisionuponit;nowIwishtohearwhattheprincewillsaytoit。\"
\"Wehavejustusedtheexpression’accidentalcase。’Thisisasignificantphrase;weoftenhearit。Well,notlongsinceeveryonewastalkingandreadingaboutthatterriblemurderofsixpeopleonthepartofa——youngfellow,andoftheextraordinaryspeechofthecounselforthedefence,whoobservedthatinthepoverty-strickenconditionofthecriminalitmusthavecomeNATURALLYintohisheadtokillthesesixpeople。Idonotquotehiswords,butthatisthesenseofthem,orsomethingverylikeit。Now,inmyopinion,thebarristerwhoputforwardthisextraordinarypleawasprobablyabsolutelyconvincedthathewasstatingthemostliberal,themosthumane,themostenlightenedviewofthecasethatcouldpossiblybebroughtforwardinthesedays。Now,wasthisdistortion,thiscapacityforapervertedwayofviewingthings,aspecialoraccidentalcase,orissuchageneralrule?\"