Observehowingenuouslyheunderlinescertainwords,andhowcrudelyheglossesoverhishiddenthoughts。Hemustknowthatifhe’brokeoffeverything,’FIRST,byhimself,andwithouttellingmeawordaboutitorhavingtheslightesthopeonmyaccount,thatinthatcaseIshouldperhapsbeabletochangemyopinionofhim,andevenaccepthis——friendship。Hemustknowthat,buthissoulissuchawretchedthing。Heknowsitandcannotmakeuphismind;heknowsitandyetasksforguarantees。HecannotbringhimselftoTRUST,hewantsmetogivehimhopesofmyselfbeforeheletsgoofhishundredthousandroubles。Astothe’formerword’whichhedeclares’lightedupthenightofhislife,’heissimplyanimpudentliar;Imerelypitiedhimonce。
Butheisaudaciousandshameless。Heimmediatelybegantohope,atthatverymoment。Isawit。Hehastriedtocatchmeeversince;heisstillfishingforme。Well,enoughofthis。Taketheletterandgiveitbacktohim,assoonasyouhaveleftourhouse;notbefore,ofcourse。\"
\"AndwhatshallItellhimbywayofanswer?\"
\"Nothing——ofcourse!That’sthebestanswer。Isitthecasethatyouaregoingtoliveinhishouse?\"
\"Yes,yourfatherkindlyrecommendedmetohim。\"
\"Thenlookoutforhim,Iwarnyou!Hewon’tforgiveyoueasily,fortakingbacktheletter。\"
Aglayapressedtheprince’shandandlefttheroom。Herfacewasseriousandfrowning;shedidnotevensmileasshenoddedgood-
byetohimatthedoor。
\"I’lljustgetmyparcelandwe’llgo,\"saidtheprincetoGania,ashere-enteredthedrawing-room。Ganiastampedhisfootwithimpatience。Hisfacelookeddarkandgloomywithrage。
Atlasttheyleftthehousebehindthem,theprincecarryinghisbundle。
\"Theanswer——quick——theanswer!\"saidGania,theinstanttheywereoutside。\"Whatdidshesay?Didyougivetheletter?\"Theprincesilentlyheldoutthenote。Ganiawasstruckmotionlesswithamazement。
\"How,what?myletter?\"hecried。\"Heneverdeliveredit!Imighthaveguessedit,oh!cursehim!OfcourseshedidnotunderstandwhatImeant,naturally!Why-why-WHYdidn’tyougiveherthenote,you——\"
\"Excuseme;Iwasabletodeliveritalmostimmediatelyafterreceivingyourcommission,andIgaveit,too,justasyouaskedmeto。IthascomeintomyhandsnowbecauseAglayaIvanovnahasjustreturnedittome。\"
\"How?When?\"
\"AssoonasIfinishedwritinginheralbumforher,andwhensheaskedmetocomeoutoftheroomwithheryouheard?,wewentintothedining-room,andshegavemeyourlettertoread,andthentoldmetoreturnit。\"
\"ToREAD?\"criedGania,almostatthetopofhisvoice;\"toREAD,andyoureadit?\"
Andagainhestoodlikealoginthemiddleofthepavement;soamazedthathismouthremainedopenafterthelastwordhadleftit。
\"Yes,Ihavejustreadit。\"
\"Andshegaveityoutoreadherself——HERSELF?\"
\"Yes,herself;andyoumaybelievemewhenItellyouthatI
wouldnothavereaditforanythingwithoutherpermission。\"
Ganiawassilentforaminuteortwo,asthoughthinkingoutsomeproblem。Suddenlyhecried:
\"It’simpossible,shecannothavegivenittoyoutoread!Youarelying。Youreadityourself!\"
\"Iamtellingyouthetruth,\"saidtheprinceinhisformercomposedtoneofvoice;\"andbelieveme,Iamextremelysorrythatthecircumstanceshouldhavemadesuchanunpleasantimpressionuponyou!\"
\"But,youwretchedman,atleastshemusthavesaidsomething?
TheremustbeSOMEanswerfromher!\"
\"Yes,ofcourse,shedidsaysomething!\"
\"Outwithitthen,damnit!Outwithitatonce!\"andGaniastampedhisfoottwiceonthepavement。
\"AssoonasIhadfinishedreadingit,shetoldmethatyouwerefishingforher;thatyouwishedtocompromisehersofarastoreceivesomehopesfromher,trustingtowhichhopesyoumightbreakwiththeprospectofreceivingahundredthousandroubles。
Shesaidthatifyouhaddonethiswithoutbargainingwithher,ifyouhadbrokenwiththemoneyprospectswithouttryingtoforceaguaranteeoutofherfirst,shemighthavebeenyourfriend。That’sall,Ithink。Ohno,whenIaskedherwhatIwastosay,asItooktheletter,sherepliedthat’noansweristhebestanswer。’Ithinkthatwasit。ForgivemeifIdonotuseherexactexpressions。ItellyouthesenseasIunderstooditmyself。\"
UngovernablerageandmadnesstookentirepossessionofGania,andhisfuryburstoutwithouttheleastattemptatrestraint。
\"Oh!that’sit,isit!\"heyelled。\"Shethrowsmylettersoutofthewindow,doesshe!Oh!andshedoesnotcondescendtobargain,whileIDO,eh?Weshallsee,weshallsee!Ishallpayheroutforthis。\"
Hetwistedhimselfaboutwithrage,andgrewpalerandpaler;heshookhisfist。Sothepairwalkedalongafewsteps。Ganiadidnotstandonceremonywiththeprince;hebehavedjustasthoughhewerealoneinhisroom。Heclearlycountedthelatterasanonentity。Butsuddenlyheseemedtohaveanidea,andrecollectedhimself。
\"Buthowwasit?\"heasked,\"howwasitthatyouidiotthatyouare,\"headdedtohimself,\"weresoveryconfidentialacoupleofhoursafteryourfirstmeetingwiththesepeople?Howwasthat,eh?\"
Uptothismomentjealousyhadnotbeenoneofhistorments;nowitsuddenlygnawedathisheart。
\"ThatisathingIcannotundertaketoexplain,\"repliedtheprince。Ganialookedathimwithangrycontempt。
\"Oh!Isupposethepresentshewishedtomaketoyou,whenshetookyouintothedining-room,washerconfidence,eh?\"
\"Isupposethatwasit;Icannotexplainitotherwise?\"
\"Butwhy,WHY?Deviltakeit,whatdidyoudointhere?Whydidtheyfancyyou?Lookhere,can’tyourememberexactlywhatyousaidtothem,fromtheverybeginning?Can’tyouremember?\"
\"Oh,wetalkedofagreatmanythings。WhenfirstIwentinwebegantospeakofSwitzerland。\"
\"Oh,thedeviltakeSwitzerland!\"
\"Thenaboutexecutions。\"
\"Executions?\"
\"Yes——atleastaboutone。ThenItoldthewholethreeyears’
storyofmylife,andthehistoryofapoorpeasantgirl——\"
\"Oh,damnthepeasantgirl!goon,goon!\"saidGania,impatiently。
\"ThenhowSchneidertoldmeaboutmychildishnature,and——\"
\"Oh,CURSESchneiderandhisdirtyopinions!Goon。\"
\"ThenIbegantotalkaboutfaces,atleastabouttheEXPRESSIONS
offaces,andsaidthatAglayaIvanovnawasnearlyaslovelyasNastasiaPhilipovna。ItwasthenIblurtedoutabouttheportrait——\"
\"Butyoudidn’trepeatwhatyouheardinthestudy?Youdidn’trepeatthat——eh?\"
\"No,ItellyouIdidNOT。\"
\"Thenhowdidthey——lookhere!DidAglayashowmylettertotheoldlady?\"
\"Oh,thereIcangiveyoumyfullestassurancethatshedidNOT。
Iwasthereallthewhile——shehadnotimetodoit!\"
\"Butperhapsyoumaynothaveobservedit,oh,youdamnedidiot,you!\"heshouted,quitebesidehimselfwithfury。\"Youcan’tevendescribewhatwenton。\"
Ganiahavingoncedescendedtoabuse,andreceivingnocheck,verysoonknewnoboundsorlimittohislicence,asisoftenthewayinsuchcases。Hisragesoblindedhimthathehadnotevenbeenabletodetectthatthis\"idiot,\"whomhewasabusingtosuchanextent,wasveryfarfrombeingslowofcomprehension,andhadawayoftakinginanimpression,andafterwardsgivingitoutagain,whichwasveryun-idioticindeed。Butsomethingalittleunforeseennowoccurred。
\"IthinkIoughttotellyou,GavrilaArdalionovitch,\"saidtheprince,suddenly,\"thatthoughIoncewassoillthatIreallywaslittlebetterthananidiot,yetnowIamalmostrecovered,andthat,therefore,itisnotaltogetherpleasanttobecalledanidiottomyface。Ofcourseyourangerisexcusable,consideringthetreatmentyouhavejustexperienced;butImustremindyouthatyouhavetwiceabusedmeratherrudely。Idonotlikethissortofthing,andespeciallysoatthefirsttimeofmeetingaman,and,therefore,aswehappentobeatthismomentstandingatacrossroad,don’tyouthinkwehadbetterpart,youtotheleft,homewards,andItotheright,here?Ihavetwenty-
fiveroubles,andIshalleasilyfindalodging。\"
Ganiawasmuchconfused,andblushedforshame\"Doforgiveme,prince!\"hecried,suddenlychanginghisabusivetoneforoneofgreatcourtesy。\"ForHeaven’ssake,forgiveme!YouseewhatamiserableplightIamin,butyouhardlyknowanythingofthefactsofthecaseasyet。Ifyoudid,Iamsureyouwouldforgiveme,atleastpartially。Ofcourseitwasinexcusableofme,I
know,but——\"
\"Oh,dearme,Ireallydonotrequiresuchprofuseapologies,\"
repliedtheprince,hastily。\"Iquiteunderstandhowunpleasantyourpositionis,andthatiswhatmadeyouabuseme。Socomealongtoyourhouse,afterall。Ishallbedelighted——\"
\"Iamnotgoingtolethimgolikethis,\"thoughtGania,glancingangrilyattheprinceastheywalkedalong。\"Thefellowhassuckedeverythingoutofme,andnowhetakesoffhismask——
there’ssomethingmorethanappears,hereweshallsee。Itshallallbeasclearaswaterbytonight,everything!\"
ButbythistimetheyhadreachedGania’shouse。
VIII。
TheflatoccupiedbyGaniaandhisfamilywasonthethirdfloorofthehouse。Itwasreachedbyacleanlightstaircase,andconsistedofsevenrooms,aniceenoughlodging,andonewouldhavethoughtalittletoogoodforaclerkontwothousandroublesayear。Butitwasdesignedtoaccommodateafewlodgersonboardterms,andhadbeertakenafewmonthssince,muchtothedisgustofGania,attheurgentrequestofhismotherandhissister,VarvaraArdalionovna,wholongedtodosomethingtoincreasethefamilyincomealittle,andfixedtheirhopesuponlettinglodgings。Ganiafrownedupontheidea。Hethoughtitinfradig,anddidnotquitelikeappearinginsocietyafterwards——thatsocietyinwhichhehadbeenaccustomedtoposeuptonowasayoungmanofratherbrilliantprospects。Alltheseconcessionsandrebuffsoffortune,oflate,hadwoundedhisspiritseverely,andhistemperhadbecomeextremelyirritable,hiswrathbeinggenerallyquiteoutofproportiontothecause。
Butifhehadmadeuphismindtoputupwiththissortoflifeforawhile,itwasonlyontheplainunderstandingwithhisinnerselfthathewouldverysoonchangeitall,andhavethingsashechoseagain。Yettheverymeansbywhichhehopedtomakethischangethreatenedtoinvolvehiminevengreaterdifficultiesthanhehadhadbefore。
Theflatwasdividedbyapassagewhichledstraightoutoftheentrance-hall。Alongonesideofthiscorridorlaythethreeroomswhichweredesignedfortheaccommodationofthe\"highlyrecommended\"lodgers。Besidesthesethreeroomstherewasanothersmalloneattheendofthepassage,closetothekitchen,whichwasallottedtoGeneralIvolgin,thenominalmasterofthehouse,whosleptonawidesofa,andwasobligedtopassintoandoutofhisroomthroughthekitchen,andupordownthebackstairs。Colia,Gania’syoungbrother,aschool-boyofthirteen,sharedthisroomwithhisfather。
He,too,hadtosleeponanoldsofa,anarrow,uncomfortablethingwithatornrugoverit;hischiefdutybeingtolookafterhisfather,whoneededtobewatchedmoreandmoreeveryday。
Theprincewasgiventhemiddleroomofthethree,thefirstbeingoccupiedbyoneFerdishenko,whilethethirdwasempty。
ButGaniafirstconductedtheprincetothefamilyapartments。
Theseconsistedofa\"salon,\"whichbecamethedining-roomwhenrequired;adrawing-room,whichwasonlyadrawing-roominthemorning,andbecameGania’sstudyintheevening,andhisbedroomatnight;andlastlyNinaAlexandrovna’sandVarvara’sbedroom,asmall,closechamberwhichtheysharedtogether。
Inaword,thewholeplacewasconfined,anda\"tightfit\"fortheparty。Ganiausedtogrindhisteethwithrageoverthestateofaffairs;thoughhewasanxioustobedutifulandpolitetohismother。However,itwasverysoonapparenttoanyonecomingintothehouse,thatGaniawasthetyrantofthefamily。
NinaAlexandrovnaandherdaughterwerebothseatedinthedrawing-room,engagedinknitting,andtalkingtoavisitor,IvanPetrovitchPtitsin。
Theladyofthehouseappearedtobeawomanofaboutfiftyyearsofage,thin-faced,andwithblacklinesundertheeves。Shelookedillandrathersad;butherfacewasapleasantoneforallthat;andfromthefirstwordthatfellfromherlips,anystrangerwouldatonceconcludethatshewasofaseriousandparticularlysincerenature。Inspiteofhersorrowfulexpression,shegavetheideaofpossessingconsiderablefirmnessanddecision。
Herdresswasmodestandsimpletoadegree,darkandelderlyinstyle;butbothherfaceandappearancegaveevidencethatshehadseenbetterdays。
Varvarawasagirlofsometwenty-threesummers,ofmiddleheight,thin,butpossessingafacewhich,withoutbeingactuallybeautiful,hadtherarequalityofcharm,andmightfascinateeventotheextentofpassionateregard。
Shewasverylikehermother:sheevendressedlikeher,whichprovedthatshehadnotasteforsmartclothes。Theexpressionofhergreyeyeswasmerryandgentle,whenitwasnot,aslately,toofullofthoughtandanxiety。Thesamedecisionandfirmnesswastobeobservedinherfaceasinhermother’s,butherstrengthseemedtobemorevigorousthanthatofNinaAlexandrovna。Shewassubjecttooutburstsoftemper,ofwhichevenherbrotherwasalittleafraid。
Thepresentvisitor,Ptitsin,wasalsoafraidofher。Thiswasayoungfellowofsomethingunderthirty,dressedplainly,butneatly。Hismannersweregood,butratherponderouslyso。Hisdarkbeardboreevidencetothefactthathewasnotinanygovernmentemploy。Hecouldspeakwell,butpreferredsilence。Onthewholehemadeadecidedlyagreeableimpression。HewasclearlyattractedbyVarvara,andmadenosecretofhisfeelings。
Shetrustedhiminafriendlyway,buthadnotshownhimanydecidedencouragementasyet,whichfactdidnotquellhisardourintheleast。
NinaAlexandrovnawasveryfondofhim,andhadgrownquiteconfidentialwithhimoflate。Ptitsin,aswaswellknown,wasengagedinthebusinessoflendingoutmoneyongoodsecurity,andatagoodrateofinterest。HewasagreatfriendofGania’s。
AfteraformalintroductionbyGaniawhogreetedhismotherveryshortly,tooknonoticeofhissister,andimmediatelymarchedPtitsinoutoftheroom,NinaAlexandrovnaaddressedafewkindwordstotheprinceandforthwithrequestedColia,whohadjustappearedatthedoor,toshowhimtothe\"middleroom。\"
Coliawasanice-lookingboy。Hisexpressionwassimpleandconfiding,andhismannerswereverypoliteandengaging。
\"Where’syourluggage?\"heasked,asheledtheprinceawaytohisroom。
\"Ihadabundle;it’sintheentrancehall。\"
\"I’llbringityoudirectly。Weonlyhaveacookandonemaid,soIhavetohelpasmuchasIcan。Varialooksafterthings,generally,andloseshertemperoverit。GaniasaysyouhaveonlyjustarrivedfromSwitzerland?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Isitjollythere?\"
\"Very。\"
\"Mountains?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"I’llgoandgetyourbundle。\"
HereVarvarajoinedthem。
\"Themaidshallbringyourbed-linendirectly。Haveyouaportmanteau?\"
\"No;abundle——yourbrotherhasjustgonetothehallforit。\"
\"There’snothingthereexceptthis,\"saidColia,returningatthismoment。\"Wheredidyouputit?\"
\"Oh!butthat’sallIhave,\"saidtheprince,takingit。
\"Ah!IthoughtperhapsFerdishenkohadtakenit。\"
\"Don’ttalknonsense,\"saidVaria,severely。Sheseemedputout,andwasonlyjustpolitewiththeprince。
\"Oho!\"laughedtheboy,\"youcanbenicerthanthattoME,youknow——I’mnotPtitsin!\"
\"Yououghttobewhipped,Colia,yousillyboy。Ifyouwantanything\"totheprince\"pleaseapplytotheservant。Wedineathalf-pastfour。Youcantakeyourdinnerwithus,orhaveitinyourroom,justasyouplease。Comealong,Colia,don’tdisturbtheprince。\"
AtthedoortheymetGaniacomingin。
\"Isfatherin?\"heasked。Coliawhisperedsomethinginhisearandwentout。
\"Justacoupleofwords,prince,ifyou’llexcuseme。Don’tblaboverTHEREaboutwhatyoumayseehere,orinthishouseastoallthataboutAglayaandme,youknow。Thingsarenotaltogetherpleasantinthisestablishment——deviltakeitall!You’llsee。AtalleventskeepyourtonguetoyourselfforTODAY。\"
\"IassureyouI’blabbed’agreatdeallessthanyouseemtosuppose,\"saidtheprince,withsomeannoyance。ClearlytherelationsbetweenGaniaandhimselfwerebynomeansimproving。
\"OhIwell;Icaughtitquitehotenoughtoday,thankstoyou。
However,Iforgiveyou。\"
\"IthinkyoumightfairlyrememberthatIwasnotinanywaybound,Ihadnoreasontobesilentaboutthatportrait。Youneveraskedmenottomentionit。\"
\"Pfu!whatawretchedroomthisis——dark,andthewindowlookingintotheyard。Yourcomingtoourhouseis,innorespect,opportune。However,it’snotMYaffair。Idon’tkeepthelodgings。\"
PtitsinherelookedinandbeckonedtoGania,whohastilylefttheroom,inspiteofthefactthathehadevidentlywishedtosaysomethingmoreandhadonlymadetheremarkabouttheroomtogaintime。Theprincehadhardlyhadtimetowashandtidyhimselfalittlewhenthedooropenedoncemore,andanotherfigureappeared。
Thiswasagentlemanofaboutthirty,tall,broadshouldered,andred-haired;hisfacewasred,too,andhepossessedapairofthicklips,awidenose,smalleyes,ratherbloodshot,andwithanironicalexpressioninthem;asthoughhewereperpetuallywinkingatsomeone。Hiswholeappearancegaveonetheideaofimpudence;hisdresswasshabby。
Heopenedthedoorjustenoughtolethisheadin。Hisheadremainedsoplacedforafewsecondswhilehequietlyscrutinizedtheroom;thedoorthenopenedenoughtoadmithisbody;butstillhedidnotenter。Hestoodonthethresholdandexaminedtheprincecarefully。Atlasthegavethedoorafinalshove,entered,approachedtheprince,tookhishandandseatedhimselfandtheowneroftheroomontwochairssidebyside。
\"Ferdishenko,\"hesaid,gazingintentlyandinquiringlyintotheprince’seyes。
\"Verywell,whatnext?\"saidthelatter,almostlaughinginhisface。
\"Alodgerhere,\"continuedtheother,staringasbefore。
\"Doyouwishtomakeacquaintance?\"askedtheprince。
\"Ah!\"saidthevisitor,passinghisfingersthroughhishairandsighing。Hethenlookedovertotheothersideoftheroomandaroundit。\"Gotanymoney?\"heasked,suddenly。
\"Notmuch。\"
\"Howmuch?\"
\"Twenty-fiveroubles。\"
\"Let’sseeit。\"
TheprincetookhisbanknoteoutandshowedittoFerdishenko。
Thelatterunfoldeditandlookedatit;thenheturneditroundandexaminedtheotherside;thenheheldituptothelight。
\"Howstrangethatitshouldhavebrownedso,\"hesaid,reflectively。\"Thesetwenty-fiveroublenotesbrowninamostextraordinaryway,whileothernotesoftengrowpaler。Takeit。\"
Theprincetookhisnote。Ferdishenkorose。
\"Icameheretowarnyou,\"hesaid。\"Inthefirstplace,don’tlendmeanymoney,forIshallcertainlyaskyouto。\"
\"Verywell。\"
\"Shallyoupayhere?\"
\"Yes,Iintendto。\"
\"Oh!IDON’Tintendto。Thanks。Ilivehere,nextdoortoyou;
younoticedaroom,didyou?Don’tcometomeveryoften;Ishallseeyouherequiteoftenenough。Haveyouseenthegeneral?\"
\"No。\"
\"Norheardhim?\"
\"No;ofcoursenot。\"
\"Well,you’llbothhearandseehimsoon;heeventriestoborrowmoneyfromme。Avisaulecteur。Good-bye;doyouthinkamancanpossiblylivewithanamelikeFerdishenko?\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"Good-bye。\"
Andsohedeparted。Theprincefoundoutafterwardsthatthisgentlemanmadeithisbusinesstoamazepeoplewithhisoriginalityandwit,butthatitdidnotasarule\"comeoff。\"Heevenproducedabadimpressiononsomepeople,whichgrievedhimsorely;buthedidnotchangehiswaysforallthat。
Ashewentoutoftheprince’sroom,hecollidedwithyetanothervisitorcomingin。Ferdishenkotooktheopportunityofmakingseveralwarninggesturestotheprincefrombehindthenewarrival’sback,andlefttheroominconsciouspride。
Thisnextarrivalwasatallred-facedmanofaboutfifty-five,withgreyishhairandwhiskers,andlargeeyeswhichstoodoutoftheirsockets。Hisappearancewouldhavebeendistinguishedhaditnotbeenthathegavetheideaofbeingratherdirty。Hewasdressedinanoldcoat,andhesmelledofvodkawhenhecamenear。Hiswalkwaseffective,andheclearlydidhisbesttoappeardignified,andtoimpresspeoplebyhismanner。
Thisgentlemannowapproachedtheprinceslowly,andwithamostcourteoussmile;silentlytookhishandandhelditinhisown,asheexaminedtheprince’sfeaturesasthoughsearchingforfamiliartraitstherein。
\"’Tishe,’tishe!\"hesaidatlast,quietly,butwithmuchsolemnity。\"Asthoughhewerealiveoncemore。Iheardthefamiliarname-thedearfamiliarname——and,oh。Ihowitremindedmeoftheirrevocablepast——PrinceMuishkin,Ibelieve?\"
\"Exactlyso。\"
\"GeneralIvolgin——retiredandunfortunate。MayIaskyourChristianandgenericnames?\"
\"LefNicolaievitch。\"
\"So,so——thesonofmyold,Imaysaymychildhood’sfriend,NicolaiPetrovitch。\"
\"Myfather’snamewasNicolaiLvovitch。\"
\"Lvovitch,\"repeatedthegeneralwithouttheslightesthaste,andwithperfectconfidence,justasthoughhehadnotcommittedhimselftheleastintheworld,butmerelymadealittleslipofthetongue。Hesatdown,andtakingtheprince’shand,drewhimtoaseatnexttohimself。
\"Icarriedyouinmyarmsasababy,\"heobserved。
\"Really?\"askedtheprince。\"Why,it’stwentyyearssincemyfatherdied。\"
\"Yes,yes——twentyyearsandthreemonths。Wewereeducatedtogether;Iwentstraightintothearmy,andhe——\"
\"Myfatherwentintothearmy,too。Hewasasub-lieutenantintheVasiliefskyregiment。\"
\"No,sir——intheBielomirsky;hechangedintothelattershortlybeforehisdeath。Iwasathisbedsidewhenhedied,andgavehimmyblessingforeternity。Yourmother——\"Thegeneralpaused,asthoughovercomewithemotion。
\"Shediedafewmonthslater,fromacold,\"saidtheprince。
\"Oh,notcold——believeanoldman——notfromacold,butfromgriefforherprince。Oh——yourmother,yourmother!heigh-ho!
Youth——youth!YourfatherandI——oldfriendsaswewere——nearlymurderedeachotherforhersake。\"
Theprincebegantobealittleincredulous。
\"Iwaspassionatelyinlovewithherwhenshewasengaged——
engagedtomyfriend。Theprincenoticedthefactandwasfurious。Hecameandwokemeatseveno’clockonemorning。Iriseanddressinamazement;silenceonbothsides。Iunderstanditall。Hetakesacoupleofpistolsoutofhispocket——acrossahandkerchief——withoutwitnesses。Whyinvitewitnesseswhenbothofuswouldbewalkingineternityinacoupleofminutes?Thepistolsareloaded;westretchthehandkerchiefandstandoppositeoneanother。Weaimthepistolsateachother’shearts。
Suddenlytearsstarttooureyes,ourhandsshake;weweep,weembrace——thebattleisoneofself-sacrificenow!Theprinceshouts,’Sheisyours;’Icry,’Sheisyours——’inaword,inaword——You’vecometolivewithus,hey?\"
\"Yes——yes——forawhile,Ithink,\"stammeredtheprince。
\"Prince,motherbegsyoutocometoher,\"saidColia,appearingatthedoor。
Theprincerosetogo,butthegeneraloncemorelaidhishandinafriendlymanneronhisshoulder,anddraggedhimdownontothesofa。
\"Asthetruefriendofyourfather,Iwishtosayafewwordstoyou,\"hebegan。\"Ihavesuffered——therewasacatastrophe。I
sufferedwithoutatrial;Ihadnotrial。NinaAlexandrovnamywife,isanexcellentwoman,soismydaughterVarvara。Wehavetoletlodgingsbecausewearepoor——adreadful,unheard-ofcome-
downforus——forme,whoshouldhavebeenagovernor-general;butweareverygladtohaveYOU,atallevents。Meanwhilethereisatragedyinthehouse。\"
Theprincelookedinquiringlyattheother。
\"Yes,amarriageisbeingarranged——amarriagebetweenaquestionablewomanandayoungfellowwhomightbeaflunkey。
Theywishtobringthiswomanintothehousewheremywifeanddaughterreside,butwhileIliveandbreathesheshallneverentermydoors。Ishalllieatthethreshold,andsheshalltramplemeunderfootifshedoes。IhardlytalktoGanianow,andavoidhimasmuchasIcan。Iwarnyouofthisbeforehand,butyoucannotfailtoobserveit。Butyouarethesonofmyoldfriend,andIhope——\"
\"Prince,besokindastocometomeforamomentinthedrawing-
room,\"saidNinaAlexandrovnaherself,appearingatthedoor。
\"Imagine,mydear,\"criedthegeneral,\"itturnsoutthatIhavenursedtheprinceonmykneeintheolddays。\"Hiswifelookedsearchinglyathim,andglancedattheprince,butsaidnothing。
Theprinceroseandfollowedher;buthardlyhadtheyreachedthedrawing-room,andNinaAlexandrovnahadbeguntotalkhurriedly,whenincamethegeneral。Sheimmediatelyrelapsedintosilence。
Themasterofthehousemayhaveobservedthis,butatalleventshedidnottakeanynoticeofit;hewasinhighgoodhumour。
\"Asonofmyoldfriend,dear,\"hecried;\"surelyyoumustrememberPrinceNicolaiLvovitch?Yousawhimat——atTver。\"
\"Idon’trememberanyNicolaiLvovitch,Wasthatyourfather?\"
sheinquiredoftheprince。
\"Yes,buthediedatElizabethgrad,notatTver,\"saidtheprince,rathertimidly。\"SoPavlichefftoldme。\"
\"No,Tver,\"insistedthegeneral;\"heremovedjustbeforehisdeath。Youwereverysmallandcannotremember;andPavlicheff,thoughanexcellentfellow,mayhavemadeamistake。\"
\"YouknewPavlicheffthen?\"
\"Oh,yes——awonderfulfellow;butIwaspresentmyself。Igavehimmyblessing。\"
\"Myfatherwasjustabouttobetriedwhenhedied,\"saidtheprince,\"althoughIneverknewofwhathewasaccused。Hediedinhospital。\"
\"Oh!itwastheKolpakoffbusiness,andofcoursehewouldhavebeenacquitted。\"
\"Yes?Doyouknowthatforafact?\"askedtheprince,whosecuriositywasarousedbythegeneral’swords。
\"Ishouldthinksoindeed!\"criedthelatter。\"Thecourt-martialcametonodecision。Itwasamysterious,animpossiblebusiness,onemightsay!CaptainLarionoff,commanderofthecompany,haddied;hiscommandwashandedovertotheprinceforthemoment。
Verywell。Thissoldier,Kolpakoff,stolesomeleatherfromoneofhiscomrades,intendingtosellit,andspentthemoneyondrink。Well!Theprince——youunderstandthatwhatfollowstookplaceinthepresenceofthesergeant-major,andacorporal——theprinceratedKolpakoffsoundly,andthreatenedtohavehimflogged。Well,Kolpakoffwentbacktothebarracks,laydownonacampbedstead,andinaquarterofanhourwasdead:youquiteunderstand?Itwas,asIsaid,astrange,almostimpossible,affair。InduecourseKolpakoffwasburied;theprincewrotehisreport,thedeceased’snamewasremovedfromtheroll。Allasitshouldbe,isitnot?Butexactlythreemonthslaterattheinspectionofthebrigade,themanKolpakoffwasfoundinthethirdcompanyofthesecondbattalionofinfantry,Novozemlianskidivision,justasifnothinghadhappened!\"
\"What?\"saidtheprince,muchastonished。
\"Itdidnotoccur——it’samistake!\"saidNinaAlexandrovnaquickly,looking,attheprinceratheranxiously。\"Monmarisetrompe,\"sheadded,speakinginFrench。
\"Mydear,’setrompe’iseasilysaid。Doyourememberanycaseatalllikeit?Everybodywasattheirwits’end。Ishouldbethefirsttosay’qu’onsetrompe,’butunfortunatelyIwasaneye-
witness,andwasalsoonthecommissionofinquiry。Everythingprovedthatitwasreallyhe,theverysamesoldierKolpakoffwhohadbeengiventheusualmilitaryfuneraltothesoundofthedrum。Itisofcourseamostcuriouscase——nearlyanimpossibleone。Irecognizethat……but——\"
\"Father,yourdinnerisready,\"saidVarvaraatthispoint,puttingherheadinatthedoor。
\"Veryglad,I’mparticularlyhungry。Yes,yes,astrangecoincidence——almostapsychological——\"
\"Yoursoup’llbecold;docome。\"
\"Coming,coming\"saidthegeneral。\"Sonofmyoldfriend——\"hewasheardmutteringashewentdownthepassage。
\"Youwillhavetoexcuseverymuchinmyhusband,ifyoustaywithus,\"saidNinaAlexandrovna;\"buthewillnotdisturbyouoften。Hedinesalone。Everyonehashislittlepeculiarities,youknow,andsomepeopleperhapshavemorethanthosewhoaremostpointedatandlaughedat。OnethingImustbegofyou-ifmyhusbandappliestoyouforpaymentforboardandlodging,tellhimthatyouhavealreadypaidme。Ofcourseanythingpaidbyyoutothegeneralwouldbeasfullysettledasifpaidtome,sofarasyouareconcerned;butIwishittobeso,ifyouplease,forconvenience’sake。Whatisit,Varia?\"
Variahadquietlyenteredtheroom,andwasholdingouttheportraitofNastasiaPhilipovnatohermother。
NinaAlexandrovnastarted,andexaminedthephotographintently,gazingatitlongandsadly。AtlastshelookedupinquiringlyatVaria。
\"It’sapresentfromherselftohim,\"saidVaria;\"thequestionistobefinallydecidedthisevening。\"
\"Thisevening!\"repeatedhermotherinatoneofdespair,butsoftly,asthoughtoherself。\"Thenit’sallsettled,ofcourse,andthere’snohopelefttous。Shehasanticipatedheranswerbythepresentofherportrait。Didheshowityouhimself?\"sheadded,insomesurprise。
\"Youknowwehavehardlyspokentoeachotherforawholemonth。
Ptitsintoldmeallaboutit;andthephotowaslyingunderthetable,andIpickeditup。\"
\"Prince,\"askedNinaAlexandrovna,\"Iwantedtoinquirewhetheryouhaveknownmysonlong?Ithinkhesaidthatyouhadonlyarrivedtodayfromsomewhere。\"
Theprincegaveashortnarrativeofwhatwehaveheardbefore,leavingoutthegreaterpart。Thetwoladieslistenedintently。
\"IdidnotaskaboutGaniaoutofcuriosity,\"saidtheelder,atlast。\"Iwishtoknowhowmuchyouknowabouthim,becausehesaidjustnowthatweneednotstandonceremonywithyou。What,exactly,doesthatmean?\"
AtthismomentGaniaandPtitsinenteredtheroomtogether,andNinaAlexandrovnaimmediatelybecamesilentagain。Theprinceremainedseatednexttoher,butVariamovedtotheotherendoftheroom;theportraitofNastasiaPhilipovnaremainedlyingasbeforeonthework-table。Ganiaobserveditthere,andwithafrownofannoyancesnatcheditupandthrewitacrosstohiswriting-table,whichstoodattheotherendoftheroom。
\"Isittoday,Gania?\"askedNinaAlexandrovna,atlast。
\"Iswhattoday?\"criedtheformer。Thensuddenlyrecollectinghimself,heturnedsharplyontheprince。\"Oh,\"hegrowled,\"I
see,youarehere,thatexplainsit!Isitadisease,orwhat,thatyoucan’tholdyourtongue?Lookhere,understandonceforall,prince——\"
\"Iamtoblameinthis,Gania——nooneelse,\"saidPtitsin。
Ganiaglancedinquiringlyatthespeaker。
\"It’sbetterso,youknow,Gania——especiallyas,fromonepointofview,themattermaybeconsideredassettled,\"saidPtitsin;
andsittingdownalittlewayfromthetablehebegantostudyapapercoveredwithpencilwriting。
Ganiastoodandfrowned,heexpectedafamilyscene。Heneverthoughtofapologizingtotheprince,however。
\"Ifit’sallsettled,Gania,thenofcourseMr。Ptitsinisright,\"saidNinaAlexandrovna。\"Don’tfrown。Youneednotworryyourself,Gania;Ishallaskyounoquestions。Youneednottellmeanythingyoudon’tlike。IassureyouIhavequitesubmittedtoyourwill。\"Shesaidallthis,knittingawaythewhileasthoughperfectlycalmandcomposed。
Ganiawassurprised,butcautiouslykeptsilenceandlookedathismother,hopingthatshewouldexpressherselfmoreclearly。
NinaAlexandrovnaobservedhiscautiousnessandadded,withabittersmile:
\"Youarestillsuspicious,Isee,anddonotbelieveme;butyoumaybequiteatyourease。Thereshallbenomoretears,norquestions——notfrommyside,atallevents。AllIwishisthatyoumaybehappy,youknowthat。Ihavesubmittedtomyfate;butmyheartwillalwaysbewithyou,whetherweremainunited,orwhetherwepart。OfcourseIonlyanswerformyself——youcanhardlyexpectyoursister——\"
\"Mysisteragain,\"criedGania,lookingatherwithcontemptandalmosthate。\"Lookhere,mother,IhavealreadygivenyoumywordthatIshallalwaysrespectyoufullyandabsolutely,andsoshalleveryoneelseinthishouse,beitwhoitmay,whoshallcrossthisthreshold。\"
Ganiawassomuchrelievedthathegazedathismotheralmostaffectionately。
\"Iwasnotatallafraidformyself,Gania,asyouknowwell。ItwasnotformyownsakethatIhavebeensoanxiousandworriedallthistime!Theysayitisalltobesettledto-day。Whatistobesettled?\"
\"Shehaspromisedtotellmetonightatherownhousewhethersheconsentsornot,\"repliedGania。
\"Wehavebeensilentonthissubjectforthreeweeks,\"saidhismother,\"anditwasbetterso;andnowIwillonlyaskyouonequestion。Howcanshegiveherconsentandmakeyouapresentofherportraitwhenyoudonotloveher?Howcansucha——sucha——\"
\"Practisedhand——eh?\"
\"Iwasnotgoingtoexpressmyselfso。Buthowcouldyousoblindher?\"
NinaAlexandrovna’squestionbetrayedintenseannoyance。Ganiawaitedamomentandthensaid,withouttakingthetroubletoconcealtheironyofhistone:
\"Thereyouare,mother,youarealwayslikethat。Youbeginbypromisingthattherearetobenoreproachesorinsinuationsorquestions,andhereyouarebeginningthematonce。Wehadbetterdropthesubject——wehad,really。Ishallneverleaveyou,mother;anyothermanwouldcutandrunfromsuchasisterasthis。Seehowsheislookingatmeatthismoment!Besides,howdoyouknowthatIamblindingNastasiaPhilipovna?AsforVaria,Idon’tcare——shecandojustasshepleases。There,that’squiteenough!\"
Gania’sirritationincreasedwitheverywordheuttered,ashewalkedupanddowntheroom。Theseconversationsalwaystouchedthefamilysoresbeforelong。
\"IhavesaidalreadythatthemomentshecomesinIgoout,andI
shallkeepmyword,\"remarkedVaria。
\"Outofobstinacy\"shoutedGania。\"Youhaven’tmarried,either,thankstoyourobstinacy。Oh,youneedn’tfrownatme,Varvara!
YoucangoatonceforallIcare;Iamsickenoughofyourcompany。What,youaregoingtoleaveusareyou,too?\"hecried,turningtotheprince,whowasrisingfromhischair。
Gania’svoicewasfullofthemostuncontrolledanduncontrollableirritation。
Theprinceturnedatthedoortosaysomething,butperceivinginGania’sexpressionthattherewasbutthatonedropwantingtomakethecupoverflow,hechangedhismindandlefttheroomwithoutaword。Afewminuteslaterhewasawarefromthenoisyvoicesinthedrawingroom,thattheconversationhadbecomemorequarrelsomethaneverafterhisdeparture。
Hecrossedthesalonandtheentrance-hall,soastopassdownthecorridorintohisownroom。Ashecamenearthefrontdoorheheardsomeoneoutsidevainlyendeavouringtoringthebell,whichwasevidentlybroken,andonlyshookalittle,withoutemittinganysound。
Theprincetookdownthechainandopenedthedoor。Hestartedbackinamazement——fortherestoodNastasiaPhilipovna。Heknewheratoncefromherphotograph。Hereyesblazedwithangerasshelookedathim。Shequicklypushedbyhimintothehall,shoulderinghimoutofherway,andsaid,furiously,asshethrewoffherfurcloak:
\"Ifyouaretoolazytomendyourbell,youshouldatleastwaitinthehalltoletpeopleinwhentheyrattlethebellhandle。
There,now,you’vedroppedmyfurcloak——dummy!\"
Sureenoughthecloakwaslyingontheground。Nastasiahadthrownitoffhertowardstheprince,expectinghimtocatchit,buttheprincehadmissedit。
\"Nowthen——announceme,quick!\"
Theprincewantedtosaysomething,butwassoconfusedandastonishedthathecouldnot。However,hemovedofftowardsthedrawing-roomwiththecloakoverhisarm。
\"Nowthen,whereareyoutakingmycloakto?Ha,ha,ha!Areyoumad?\"
Theprinceturnedandcameback,moreconfusedthanever。Whensheburstoutlaughing,hesmiled,buthistonguecouldnotformawordasyet。Atfirst,whenhehadopenedthedoorandsawherstandingbeforehim,hehadbecomeaspaleasdeath;butnowtheredbloodhadrushedbacktohischeeksinatorrent。
\"Why,whatanidiotitis!\"criedNastasia,stampingherfootwithirritation。\"Goon,do!Whomareyougoingtoannounce?\"
\"NastasiaPhilipovna,\"murmuredtheprince。
\"Andhowdoyouknowthat?\"sheaskedhim,sharply。
\"Ihaveneverseenyoubefore!\"
\"Goon,announceme——what’sthatnoise?\"
\"Theyarequarrelling,\"saidtheprince,andenteredthedrawing-
room,justasmattersintherehadalmostreachedacrisis。NinaAlexandrovnahadforgottenthatshehad\"submittedtoeverything!\"ShewasdefendingVaria。Ptitsinwastakingherpart,too。NotthatVariawasafraidofstandingupforherself。
Shewasbynomeansthatsortofagirl;butherbrotherwasbecomingruderandmoreintolerableeverymoment。Herusualpracticeinsuchcasesasthepresentwastosaynothing,butstareathim,withouttakinghereyesoffhisfaceforaninstant。Thismanoeuvre,asshewellknew,coulddriveGaniadistracted。
Justatthismomentthedooropenedandtheprinceentered,announcing:
\"NastasiaPhilipovna!\"
IX。
Silenceimmediatelyfellontheroom;alllookedattheprinceasthoughtheyneitherunderstood,norhopedtounderstand。Ganiawasmotionlesswithhorror。
Nastasia’sarrivalwasamostunexpectedandoverwhelmingeventtoallparties。Inthefirstplace,shehadneverbeenbefore。UptonowshehadbeensohaughtythatshehadneverevenaskedGaniatointroducehertohisparents。Oflateshehadnotsomuchasmentionedthem。Ganiawaspartlygladofthis;butstillhehadputittoherdebitintheaccounttobesettledaftermarriage。
Hewouldhaveborneanythingfromherratherthanthisvisit。Butonethingseemedtohimquiteclear-hervisitnow,andthepresentofherportraitonthisparticularday,pointedoutplainlyenoughwhichwaysheintendedtomakeherdecision!
Theincredulousamazementwithwhichallregardedtheprincedidnotlastlong,forNastasiaherselfappearedatthedoorandpassedin,pushingbytheprinceagain。
\"AtlastI’vestormedthecitadel!Whydoyoutieupyourbell?\"
shesaid,merrily,asshepressedGania’shand,thelatterhavingrusheduptoherassoonasshemadeherappearance。\"Whatareyoulookingsoupsetabout?Introduceme,please!\"
ThebewilderedGaniaintroducedherfirsttoVaria,andbothwomen,beforeshakinghands,exchangedlooksofstrangeimport。
Nastasia,however,smiledamiably;butVariadidnottrytolookamiable,andkepthergloomyexpression。Shedidnotevenvouchsafetheusualcourteoussmileofetiquette。Ganiadartedaterribleglanceofwrathatherforthis,butNinaAlexandrovna,mendedmattersalittlewhenGaniaintroducedheratlast。
Hardly,however,hadtheoldladybegunabouther\"highlygratifiedfeelings,\"andsoon,whenNastasialefther,andflouncedintoachairbyGania’ssideinthecornerbythewindow,andcried:\"Where’syourstudy?andwherearethe——thelodgers?Youdotakeinlodgers,don’tyou?\"
Ganialookeddreadfullyputout,andtriedtosaysomethinginreply,butNastasiainterruptedhim:
\"Why,whereareyougoingtosqueezelodgersinhere?Don’tyouuseastudy?Doesthissortofthingpay?\"sheadded,turningtoNinaAlexandrovna。
\"Well,itistroublesome,rather,\"saidthelatter;\"butI
supposeitwill’pay’prettywell。Wehaveonlyjustbegun,however——\"
AgainNastasiaPhilipovnadidnothearthesentenceout。SheglancedatGania,andcried,laughing,\"Whataface!Mygoodness,whatafaceyouhaveonatthismoment!\"
Indeed,Ganiadidnotlookintheleastlikehimself。Hisbewildermentandhisalarmedperplexitypassedoff,however,andhislipsnowtwitchedwithrageashecontinuedtostareevillyathislaughingguest,whilehiscountenancebecameabsolutelylivid。
Therewasanotherwitness,who,thoughstandingatthedoormotionlessandbewilderedhimself,stillmanagedtoremarkGania’sdeath-likepallor,andthedreadfulchangethathadcomeoverhisface。Thiswitnesswastheprince,whonowadvancedinalarmandmutteredtoGania:
\"Drinksomewater,anddon’tlooklikethat!\"
Itwasclearthathecameoutwiththesewordsquitespontaneously,onthespurofthemoment。Buthisspeechwasproductiveofmuch——foritappearedthatall。Gania’sragenowoverflowedupontheprince。Heseizedhimbytheshoulderandgazedwithanintensityofloathingandrevengeathim,butsaidnothing——asthoughhisfeelingsweretoostrongtopermitofwords。
Generalagitationprevailed。NinaAlexandrovnagavealittlecryofanxiety;Ptitsintookastepforwardinalarm;ColiaandFerdishenkostoodstockstillatthedoorinamazement;——onlyVariaremainedcoollywatchingthescenefromunderhereyelashes。Shedidnotsitdown,butstoodbyhermotherwithfoldedhands。However,Ganiarecollectedhimselfalmostimmediately。Heletgooftheprinceandburstoutlaughing。
\"Why,areyouadoctor,prince,orwhat?\"heasked,asnaturallyaspossible。\"Ideclareyouquitefrightenedme!NastasiaPhilipovna,letmeintroducethisinterestingcharactertoyou——
thoughIhaveonlyknownhimmyselfsincethemorning。\"
Nastasiagazedattheprinceinbewilderment。\"Prince?HeaPrince?Why,Itookhimforthefootman,justnow,andsenthimintoannounceme!Ha,ha,ha,isn’tthatgood!\"
\"Notbadthat,notbadatall!\"putinFerdishenko,\"senonevero——\"
\"IratherthinkIpitchedintoyou,too,didn’tI?Forgiveme——do!
Whoishe,didyousay?Whatprince?Muishkin?\"sheadded,addressingGania。
\"Heisalodgerofours,\"explainedthelatter。
\"Anidiot!\"——theprincedistinctlyheardthewordhalfwhisperedfrombehindhim。ThiswasFerdishenko’svoluntaryinformationforNastasia’sbenefit。
\"Tellme,whydidn’tyouputmerightwhenImadesuchadreadfulmistakejustnow?\"continuedthelatter,examiningtheprincefromheadtofootwithouttheslightestceremony。Sheawaitedtheanswerasthoughconvincedthatitwouldbesofoolishthatshemustinevitablyfailtorestrainherlaughteroverit。
\"Iwasastonished,seeingyousosuddenly——\"murmuredtheprince。
\"HowdidyouknowwhoIwas?Wherehadyouseenmebefore?Andwhywereyousostruckdumbatthesightofme?Whatwastheresooverwhelmingaboutme?\"
\"Oho!ho,ho,ho!\"criedFerdishenko。\"NOWthen,prince!Myword,whatthingsIwouldsayifIhadsuchachanceasthat!Mygoodness,prince——goon!\"
\"SoshouldI,inyourplace,I’venodoubt!\"laughedtheprincetoFerdishenko;thencontinued,addressingNastasia:\"Yourportraitstruckmeveryforciblythismorning;thenIwastalkingaboutyoutotheEpanchins;andthen,inthetrain,beforeI
reachedPetersburg,ParfenRogojintoldmeagooddealaboutyou;
andattheverymomentthatIopenedthedoortoyouIhappenedtobethinkingofyou,when——thereyoustoodbeforeme!\"
\"Andhowdidyourecognizeme?\"
\"Fromtheportrait!\"
\"Whatelse?\"
\"Iseemedtoimagineyouexactlyasyouare——Iseemedtohaveseenyousomewhere。\"
\"Where——where?\"
\"Iseemtohaveseenyoureyessomewhere;butitcannotbe!I
havenotseenyou——Ineverwasherebefore。Imayhavedreamedofyou,Idon’tknow。\"
Theprincesaidallthiswithmanifesteffort——inbrokensentences,andwithmanydrawingsofbreath。Hewasevidentlymuchagitated。NastasiaPhilipovnalookedathiminquisitively,butdidnotlaugh。
\"Bravo,prince!\"criedFerdishenko,delighted。
AtthismomentaloudvoicefrombehindthegroupwhichhedgedintheprinceandNastasiaPhilipovna,dividedthecrowd,asitwere,andbeforethemstoodtheheadofthefamily,GeneralIvolgin。Hewasdressedineveningclothes;hismoustachewasdyed。
ThisapparitionwastoomuchforGania。Vainandambitiousalmosttomorbidness,hehadhadmuchtoputupwithinthelasttwomonths,andwasseekingfeverishlyforsomemeansofenablinghimselftoleadamorepresentablekindofexistence。Athome,henowadoptedanattitudeofabsolutecynicism,buthecouldnotkeepthisupbeforeNastasiaPhilipovna,althoughhehadsworntomakeherpayaftermarriageforallhesufferednow。Hewasexperiencingalasthumiliation,thebitterestofall,atthismoment——thehumiliationofblushingforhisownkindredinhisownhouse。Aquestionflashedthroughhismindastowhetherthegamewasreallyworththecandle。
Forthathadhappenedatthismoment,whichfortwomonthshadbeenhisnightmare;whichhadfilledhissoulwithdreadandshame——themeetingbetweenhisfatherandNastasiaPhilipovna。Hehadoftentriedtoimaginesuchanevent,buthadfoundthepicturetoomortifyingandexasperating,andhadquietlydroppedit。Verylikelyheanticipatedfarworsethingsthanwasatallnecessary;itisoftensowithvainpersons。Hehadlongsincedetermined,therefore,togethisfatheroutoftheway,anywhere,beforehismarriage,inordertoavoidsuchameeting;
butwhenNastasiaenteredtheroomjustnow,hehadbeensooverwhelmedwithastonishment,thathehadnotthoughtofhisfather,andhadmadenoarrangementstokeephimoutoftheway。
Andnowitwastoolate——therehewas,andgotup,too,inadresscoatandwhitetie,andNastasiaintheveryhumourtoheapridiculeonhimandhisfamilycircle;ofthislastfact,hefeltquitepersuaded。Whatelsehadshecomefor?Therewerehismotherandhissistersittingbeforeher,andsheseemedtohaveforgottentheirveryexistencealready;andifshebehavedlikethat,hethought,shemusthavesomeobjectinview。
FerdishenkoledthegeneraluptoNastasiaPhilipovna。
\"ArdalionAlexandrovitchIvolgin,\"saidthesmilinggeneral,withalowbowofgreatdignity,\"anoldsoldier,unfortunate,andthefatherofthisfamily;buthappyinthehopeofincludinginthatfamilysoexquisite——\"
Hedidnotfinishhissentence,foratthismomentFerdishenkopushedachairupfrombehind,andthegeneral,notveryfirmonhislegs,atthispost-prandialhour,floppedintoitbackwards。
Itwasalwaysadifficultthingtoputthiswarriortoconfusion,andhissuddendescentlefthimascomposedasbefore。HehadsatdownjustoppositetoNastasia,whosefingershenowtook,andraisedtohislipswithgreatelegance,andmuchcourtesy。Thegeneralhadoncebelongedtoaveryselectcircleofsociety,buthehadbeenturnedoutofittwoorthreeyearssinceonaccountofcertainweaknesses,inwhichhenowindulgedwithallthelessrestraint;buthisgoodmannersremainedwithhimtothisday,inspiteofall。
NastasiaPhilipovnaseemeddelightedattheappearanceofthislatestarrival,ofwhomshehadofcourseheardagooddealbyreport。
\"Ihaveheardthatmyson——\"beganArdalionAlexandrovitch。
\"Yourson,indeed!Anicepapayouare!YOUmighthavecometoseemeanyhow,withoutcompromisinganyone。Doyouhideyourself,ordoesyoursonhideyou?\"
\"Thechildrenofthenineteenthcentury,andtheirparents——\"
beganthegeneral,again。
\"NastasiaPhilipovna,willyouexcusethegeneralforamoment?
Someoneisinquiringforhim,\"saidNinaAlexandrovnainaloudvoice,interruptingtheconversation。
\"Excusehim?Ohno,Ihavewishedtoseehimtoolongforthat。
Why,whatbusinesscanhehave?Hehasretired,hasn’the?Youwon’tleaveme,general,willyou?\"
\"Igiveyoumywordthatheshallcomeandseeyou——buthe——heneedsrestjustnow。\"
\"General,theysayyourequirerest,\"saidNastasiaPhilipovna,withthemelancholyfaceofachildwhosetoyistakenaway。
ArdalionAlexandrovitchimmediatelydidhisbesttomakehisfoolishpositionagreatdealworse。
\"Mydear,mydear!\"hesaid,solemnlyandreproachfully,lookingathiswife,withonehandonhisheart。
\"Won’tyouleavetheroom,mamma?\"askedVaria,aloud。
\"No,Varia,Ishallsititouttotheend。\"
Nastasiamusthaveoverheardbothquestionandreply,buthervivacitywasnotintheleastdamped。Onthecontrary,itseemedtoincrease。Sheimmediatelyoverwhelmedthegeneraloncemorewithquestions,andwithinfiveminutesthatgentlemanwasashappyasaking,andholdingforthatthetopofhisvoice,amidthelaughterofalmostallwhoheardhim。
Coliajoggedtheprince’sarm。
\"Can’tYOUgethimoutoftheroom,somehow?DO,please,\"andtearsofannoyancestoodintheboy’seyes。\"CursethatGania!\"
hemuttered,betweenhisteeth。
\"Ohyes,IknewGeneralEpanchinwell,\"GeneralIvolginwassayingatthismoment;\"heandPrinceNicolaiIvanovitchMuishkin——whosesonIhavethisdayembracedafteranabsenceoftwentyyears——andI,werethreeinseparables。Alasoneisinthegrave,torntopiecesbycalumniesandbullets;anotherisnowbeforeyou,stillbattlingwithcalumniesandbullets——\"
\"Bullets?\"criedNastasia。
\"Yes,hereinmychest。IreceivedthematthesiegeofKars,andIfeeltheminbadweathernow。Andastothethirdofourtrio,Epanchin,ofcourseafterthatlittleaffairwiththepoodleintherailwaycarriage,itwasallUPbetweenus。\"
\"Poodle?Whatwasthat?Andinarailwaycarriage?Dearme,\"saidNastasia,thoughtfully,asthoughtryingtorecallsomethingtomind。
\"Oh,justasilly,littleoccurrence,reallynotworthtelling,aboutPrincessBielokonski’sgoverness,MissSmith,and——oh,itisreallynotworthtelling!\"
\"No,no,wemusthaveit!\"criedNastasiamerrily。
\"Yes,ofcourse,\"saidFerdishenko。\"C’estdunouveau。\"
\"Ardalion,\"saidNinaAlexandrovitch,entreatingly。
\"Papa,youarewanted!\"criedColia。
\"Well,itisasillylittlestory,inafewwords,\"beganthedelightedgeneral。\"Acoupleofyearsago,soonafterthenewrailwaywasopened,Ihadtogosomewhereorotheronbusiness。
Well,Itookafirst-classticket,satdown,andbegantosmoke,orratherCONTINUEDtosmoke,forIhadlightedupbefore。Iwasaloneinthecarriage。Smokingisnotallowed,butisnotprohibitedeither;itishalfallowed——sotospeak,winkedat。I
hadthewindowopen。\"
\"Suddenly,justbeforethewhistle,incametwoladieswithalittlepoodle,andsatdownoppositetome;notbad-lookingwomen;onewasinlightblue,theotherinblacksilk。Thepoodle,abeautywithasilvercollar,layonlightblue’sknee。
Theylookedhaughtilyabout,andtalkedEnglishtogether。Itooknonotice,justwentonsmoking。Iobservedthattheladiesweregettingangry——overmycigar,doubtless。Onelookedatmethroughhertortoise-shelleyeglass。
\"Itooknonotice,becausetheyneversaidaword。Iftheydidn’tlikethecigar,whycouldn’ttheysayso?Notaword,notahint!
Suddenly,andwithouttheveryslightestsuspicionofwarning,’lightblue’seizesmycigarfrombetweenmyfingers,and,wheugh!outofthewindowwithit!Well,onflewthetrain,andI
satbewildered,andtheyoungwoman,tallandfair,andratherredintheface,toored,glaredatmewithflashingeyes。
\"Ididn’tsayaword,butwithextremecourtesy,Imaysaywithmostrefinedcourtesy,Ireachedmyfingerandthumbovertowardsthepoodle,tookitupdelicatelybythenapeoftheneck,andchuckeditoutofthewindow,afterthecigar。Thetrainwentflyingon,andthepoodle’syellswerelostinthedistance。\"
\"Oh,younaughtyman!\"criedNastasia,laughingandclappingherhandslikeachild。
\"Bravo!\"saidFerdishenko。Ptitsinlaughedtoo,thoughhehadbeenverysorrytoseethegeneralappear。EvenColialaughedandsaid,\"Bravo!\"
\"AndIwasright,trulyright,\"criedthegeneral,withwarmthandsolemnity,\"forifcigarsareforbiddeninrailwaycarriages,poodlesaremuchmoreso。\"
\"Well,andwhatdidtheladydo?\"askedNastasia,impatiently。
\"She——ah,that’swhereallthemischiefofitlies!\"repliedIvolgin,frowning。\"Withoutaword,asitwere,ofwarning,sheslappedmeonthecheek!Anextraordinarywoman!\"
\"Andyou?\"
Thegeneraldroppedhiseyes,andelevatedhisbrows;shruggedhisshoulders,tightenedhislips,spreadhishands,andremainedsilent。Atlastheblurtedout:
\"Ilostmyhead!\"
\"Didyouhither?\"
\"No,ohno!——therewasagreatflare-up,butIdidn’thither!I
hadtostrugglealittle,purelytodefendmyself;buttheverydevilwasinthebusiness。Itturnedoutthat’lightblue’wasanEnglishwoman,governessorsomething,atPrincessBielokonski’s,andtheotherwomanwasoneoftheold-maidprincessesBielokonski。Well,everybodyknowswhatgreatfriendstheprincessandMrs。Epanchinare,sotherewasaprettykettleoffish。AlltheBielokonskiswentintomourningforthepoodle。Sixprincessesintears,andtheEnglishwomanshrieking!
\"OfcourseIwroteanapology,andcalled,buttheywouldnotreceiveeithermeormyapology,andtheEpanchinscutme,too!\"
\"Butwait,\"saidNastasia。\"Howisitthat,fiveorsixdayssince,Ireadexactlythesamestoryinthepaper,ashappeningbetweenaFrenchmanandanEnglishgirl?Thecigarwassnatchedawayexactlyasyoudescribe,andthepoodlewaschuckedoutofthewindowafterit。Theslappingcameoff,too,asinyourcase;
andthegirl’sdresswaslightblue!\"