第3章
加入书架 A- A+
点击下载App,搜索"The Idiot",免费读到尾

  Itfellfromagreatheight,butitlookedquitelow,anditwashalfamileaway,thoughitdidnotseemfiftypaces。Ilovedtolistentoitatnight,butitwasthenthatIbecamesorestless。

  SometimesIwentandclimbedthemountainandstoodthereinthemidstofthetallpines,allaloneintheterriblesilence,withourlittlevillageinthedistance,andtheskysoblue,andthesunsobright,andanoldruinedcastleonthemountain-side,faraway。Iusedtowatchthelinewhereearthandskymet,andlongedtogoandseektherethekeyofallmysteries,thinkingthatImightfindthereanewlife,perhapssomegreatcitywherelifeshouldbegranderandricher——andthenitstruckmethatlifemaybegrandenougheveninaprison。\"

  \"Ireadthatlastmostpraiseworthythoughtinmymanual,whenI

  wastwelveyearsold,\"saidAglaya。

  \"Allthisispurephilosophy,\"saidAdelaida。\"Youareaphilosopher,prince,andhavecomeheretoinstructusinyourviews。\"

  \"Perhapsyouareright,\"saidtheprince,smiling。\"IthinkIamaphilosopher,perhaps,andwhoknows,perhapsIdowishtoteachmyviewsofthingstothoseImeetwith?\"

  \"Yourphilosophyisratherlikethatofanoldwomanweknow,whoisrichandyetdoesnothingbuttryhowlittleshecanspend。

  Shetalksofnothingbutmoneyallday。YourgreatphilosophicalideaofagrandlifeinaprisonandyourfourhappyyearsinthatSwissvillagearelikethis,rather,\"saidAglaya。

  \"Astolifeinaprison,ofcoursetheremaybetwoopinions,\"

  saidtheprince。\"Ionceheardthestoryofamanwholivedtwelveyearsinaprison——Ihearditfromthemanhimself。Hewasoneofthepersonsundertreatmentwithmyprofessor;hehadfits,andattacksofmelancholy,thenhewouldweep,andoncehetriedtocommitsuicide。HISlifeinprisonwassadenough;hisonlyacquaintanceswerespidersandatreethatgrewoutsidehisgrating-butIthinkIhadbettertellyouofanothermanImetlastyear。Therewasaverystrangefeatureinthiscase,strangebecauseofitsextremelyrareoccurrence。Thismanhadoncebeenbroughttothescaffoldincompanywithseveralothers,andhadhadthesentenceofdeathbyshootingpasseduponhimforsomepoliticalcrime。Twentyminuteslaterhehadbeenreprievedandsomeotherpunishmentsubstituted;buttheintervalbetweenthetwosentences,twentyminutes,oratleastaquarterofanhour,hadbeenpassedinthecertaintythatwithinafewminuteshemustdie。Iwasveryanxioustohearhimspeakofhisimpressionsduringthatdreadfultime,andIseveraltimesinquiredofhimastowhathethoughtandfelt。Herememberedeverythingwiththemostaccurateandextraordinarydistinctness,anddeclaredthathewouldneverforgetasingleiotaoftheexperience。

  \"Abouttwentypacesfromthescaffold,wherehehadstoodtohearthesentence,werethreeposts,fixedintheground,towhichtofastenthecriminalsofwhomtherewereseveral。Thefirstthreecriminalsweretakentotheposts,dressedinlongwhitetunics,withwhitecapsdrawnovertheirfaces,sothattheycouldnotseetheriflespointedatthem。Thenagroupofsoldierstooktheirstandoppositetoeachpost。Myfriendwastheeighthonthelist,andthereforehewouldhavebeenamongthethirdlottogoup。Apriestwentaboutamongthemwithacross:andtherewasaboutfiveminutesoftimeleftforhimtolive。

  \"Hesaidthatthosefiveminutesseemedtohimtobeamostinterminableperiod,anenormouswealthoftime;heseemedtobeliving,intheseminutes,somanylivesthattherewasnoneedasyettothinkofthatlastmoment,sothathemadeseveralarrangements,dividingupthetimeintoportions——oneforsayingfarewelltohiscompanions,twominutesforthat;thenacouplemoreforthinkingoverhisownlifeandcareerandallabouthimself;andanotherminuteforalastlookaround。Herememberedhavingdividedhistimelikethisquitewell。Whilesayinggood-

  byetohisfriendsherecollectedaskingoneofthemsomeveryusualeverydayquestion,andbeingmuchinterestedintheanswer。

  Thenhavingbadefarewell,heembarkeduponthosetwominuteswhichhehadallottedtolookingintohimself;heknewbeforehandwhathewasgoingtothinkabout。Hewishedtoputittohimselfasquicklyandclearlyaspossible,thatherewashe,aliving,thinkingman,andthatinthreeminuteshewouldbenobody;orifsomebodyorsomething,thenwhatandwhere?Hethoughthewoulddecidethisquestiononceforallintheselastthreeminutes。Alittlewayofftherestoodachurch,anditsgildedspireglitteredinthesun。Herememberedstaringstubbornlyatthisspire,andattheraysoflightsparklingfromit。Hecouldnottearhiseyesfromtheseraysoflight;hegottheideathattheserayswerehisnewnature,andthatinthreeminuteshewouldbecomeoneofthem,amalgamatedsomehowwiththem。

  \"Therepugnancetowhatmustensuealmostimmediately,andtheuncertainty,weredreadful,hesaid;butworstofallwastheidea,’WhatshouldIdoifIwerenottodienow?WhatifIweretoreturntolifeagain?Whataneternityofdays,andallmine!

  HowIshouldgrudgeandcountupeveryminuteofit,soastowastenotasingleinstant!’Hesaidthatthisthoughtweighedsouponhimandbecamesuchaterribleburdenuponhisbrainthathecouldnotbearit,andwishedtheywouldshoothimquicklyandhavedonewithit。\"

  Theprincepausedandallwaited,expectinghimtogoonagainandfinishthestory。

  \"Isthatall?\"askedAglaya。

  \"All?Yes,\"saidtheprince,emergingfromamomentaryreverie。

  \"Andwhydidyoutellusthis?\"

  \"Oh,Ihappenedtorecallit,that’sall!Itfittedintotheconversation——\"

  \"Youprobablywishtodeduce,prince,\"saidAlexandra,\"thatmomentsoftimecannotbereckonedbymoneyvalue,andthatsometimesfiveminutesareworthpricelesstreasures。Allthisisverypraiseworthy;butmayIaskaboutthisfriendofyours,whotoldyoutheterribleexperienceofhislife?Hewasreprieved,yousay;inotherwords,theydidrestoretohimthat’eternityofdays。’Whatdidhedowiththeserichesoftime?Didhekeepcarefulaccountofhisminutes?\"

  \"Ohno,hedidn’t!Iaskedhimmyself。Hesaidthathehadnotlivedabitashehadintended,andhadwastedmany,andmanyaminute。\"

  \"Verywell,thenthere’sanexperiment,andthethingisproved;

  onecannotliveandcounteachmoment;saywhatyoulike,butoneCANNOT。\"

  \"Thatistrue,\"saidtheprince,\"Ihavethoughtsomyself。Andyet,whyshouldn’tonedoit?\"

  \"Youthink,then,thatyoucouldlivemorewiselythanotherpeople?\"saidAglaya。

  \"Ihavehadthatidea。\"

  \"Andyouhaveitstill?\"

  \"Yes——Ihaveitstill,\"theprincereplied。

  HehadcontemplatedAglayauntilnow,withapleasantthoughrathertimidsmile,butasthelastwordsfellfromhislipshebegantolaugh,andlookedathermerrily。

  \"Youarenotverymodest!\"saidshe。

  \"Buthowbraveyouare!\"saidhe。\"Youarelaughing,andI——

  thatman’staleimpressedmesomuch,thatIdreamtofitafterwards;yes,Idreamtofthosefiveminutes……\"

  Helookedathislistenersagainwiththatsameserious,searchingexpression。

  \"Youarenotangrywithme?\"heaskedsuddenly,andwithakindofnervoushurry,althoughhelookedthemstraightintheface。

  \"Whyshouldwebeangry?\"theycried。

  \"OnlybecauseIseemtobegivingyoualecture,allthetime!\"

  Atthistheylaughedheartily。

  \"Pleasedon’tbeangrywithme,\"continuedtheprince。\"IknowverywellthatIhaveseenlessoflifethanotherpeople,andhavelessknowledgeofit。Imustappeartospeakstrangelysometimes……\"

  Hesaidthelastwordsnervously。

  \"Yousayyouhavebeenhappy,andthatprovesyouhavelived,notless,butmorethanotherpeople。Whymakealltheseexcuses?\"

  interruptedAglayainamockingtoneofvoice。\"Besides,youneednotmindaboutlecturingus;youhavenothingtoboastof。Withyourquietism,onecouldlivehappilyforahundredyearsatleast。Onemightshowyoutheexecutionofafelon,orshowyouone’slittlefinger。Youcoulddrawamoralfromeither,andbequitesatisfied。Thatsortofexistenceiseasyenough。\"

  \"Ican’tunderstandwhyyoualwaysflyintoatemper,\"saidMrs。

  Epanchin,whohadbeenlisteningtotheconversationandexaminingthefacesofthespeakersinturn。\"Idonotunderstandwhatyoumean。Whathasyourlittlefingertodowithit?Theprincetalkswell,thoughheisnotamusing。Hebeganallright,butnowheseemssad。\"

  \"Nevermind,mamma!Prince,Iwishyouhadseenanexecution,\"

  saidAglaya。\"Ishouldliketoaskyouaquestionaboutthat,ifyouhad。\"

  \"Ihaveseenanexecution,\"saidtheprince。

  \"Youhave!\"criedAglaya。\"Imighthaveguessedit。That’safittingcrowntotherestofthestory。Ifyouhaveseenanexecution,howcanyousayyoulivedhappilyallthewhile?\"

  \"Butistherecapitalpunishmentwhereyouwere?\"askedAdelaida。

  \"IsawitatLyons。Schneidertookusthere,andassoonaswearrivedwecameinforthat。\"

  \"Well,anddidyoulikeitverymuch?Wasitveryedifyingandinstructive?\"askedAglaya。

  \"No,Ididn’tlikeitatall,andwasillafterseeingit;butI

  confessIstaredasthoughmyeyeswerefixedtothesight。I

  couldnottearthemaway。\"

  \"I,too,shouldhavebeenunabletotearmyeyesaway,\"saidAglaya。

  \"Theydonotatallapproveofwomengoingtoseeanexecutionthere。Thewomenwhodogoarecondemnedforitafterwardsinthenewspapers。\"

  \"Thatis,bycontendingthatitisnotasightforwomentheyadmitthatitisasightformen。Icongratulatethemonthededuction。Isupposeyouquiteagreewiththem,prince?\"

  \"Tellusabouttheexecution,\"putinAdelaida。

  \"Iwouldmuchrathernot,justnow,\"saidtheprince,alittledisturbedandfrowningslightly;

  \"Youdon’tseemtowanttotellus,\"saidAglaya,withamockingair。

  \"No,——thethingis,Iwastellingallabouttheexecutionalittlewhileago,and——\"

  \"Whomdidyoutellaboutit?\"

  \"Theman-servant,whileIwaswaitingtoseethegeneral。\"

  \"Ourman-servant?\"exclaimedseveralvoicesatonce。

  \"Yes,theonewhowaitsintheentrancehall,agreyish,red-

  facedman——\"

  \"Theprinceisclearlyademocrat,\"remarkedAglaya。

  \"Well,ifyoucouldtellAlekseyaboutit,surelyyoucantellustoo。\"

  \"Idosowanttohearaboutit,\"repeatedAdelaida。

  \"Justnow,Iconfess,\"begantheprince,withmoreanimation,\"whenyouaskedmeforasubjectforapicture,IconfessIhadseriousthoughtsofgivingyouone。Ithoughtofaskingyoutodrawthefaceofacriminal,oneminutebeforethefalloftheguillotine,whilethewretchedmanisstillstandingonthescaffold,preparatorytoplacinghisneckontheblock。\"

  \"What,hisface?onlyhisface?\"askedAdelaida。\"Thatwouldbeastrangesubjectindeed。Andwhatsortofapicturewouldthatmake?\"

  \"Oh,whynot?\"theprinceinsisted,withsomewarmth。\"WhenIwasinBasleIsawapictureverymuchinthatstyle——Ishouldliketotellyouaboutit;Iwillsometimeorother;itstruckmeveryforcibly。\"

  \"Oh,youshalltellusabouttheBaslepictureanothertime;nowwemusthaveallabouttheexecution,\"saidAdelaida。\"Tellusaboutthatfaceas;itappearedtoyourimagination-howshoulditbedrawn?——justthefacealone,doyoumean?\"

  \"Itwasjustaminutebeforetheexecution,\"begantheprince,readily,carriedawaybytherecollectionandevidentlyforgettingeverythingelseinamoment;\"justattheinstantwhenhesteppedofftheladderontothescaffold。Hehappenedtolookinmydirection:Isawhiseyesandunderstoodall,atonce——buthowamItodescribeit?Idosowishyouorsomebodyelsecoulddrawit,you,ifpossible。Ithoughtatthetimewhatapictureitwouldmake。Youmustimagineallthatwentbefore,ofcourse,all——all。Hehadlivedintheprisonforsometimeandhadnotexpectedthattheexecutionwouldtakeplaceforatleastaweekyet——hehadcountedonalltheformalitiesandsoontakingtime;butitsohappenedthathispapershadbeengotreadyquickly。Atfiveo’clockinthemorninghewasasleep——itwasOctober,andatfiveinthemorningitwascoldanddark。Thegovernoroftheprisoncomesinontip-toeandtouchesthesleepingman’sshouldergently。Hestartsup。’Whatisit?’hesays。’Theexecutionisfixedforteno’clock。’Hewasonlyjustawake,andwouldnotbelieveatfirst,butbegantoarguethathispaperswouldnotbeoutforaweek,andsoon。Whenhewaswideawakeandrealizedthetruth,hebecameverysilentandarguednomore——sotheysay;butafterabithesaid:’Itcomesveryhardononesosuddenly’andthenhewassilentagainandsaidnothing。

  \"Thethreeorfourhourswentby,ofcourse,innecessarypreparations——thepriest,breakfast,coffee,meat,andsomewinetheygavehim;doesn’titseemridiculous?AndyetI

  believethesepeoplegivethemagoodbreakfastoutofpurekindnessofheart,andbelievethattheyaredoingagoodaction。

  Thenheisdressed,andthenbeginstheprocessionthroughthetowntothescaffold。Ithinkhe,too,mustfeelthathehasanagetolivestillwhiletheycarthimalong。Probablyhethought,ontheway,’Oh,Ihavealong,longtimeyet。Threestreetsoflifeyet!Whenwe’vepassedthisstreetthere’llbethatotherone;andthenthatonewherethebaker’sshopisontheright;

  andwhenshallwegetthere?It’sages,ages!’Aroundhimarecrowdsshouting,yelling——tenthousandfaces,twentythousandeyes。Allthishastobeendured,andespeciallythethought:

  ’Herearetenthousandmen,andnotoneofthemisgoingtobeexecuted,andyetIamtodie。’Well,allthatispreparatory。

  \"Atthescaffoldthereisaladder,andjustthereheburstintotears——andthiswasastrongman,andaterriblywickedone,theysay!Therewasapriestwithhimthewholetime,talking;eveninthecartastheydrovealong,hetalkedandtalked。Probablytheotherheardnothing;hewouldbegintolistennowandthen,andatthethirdwordorsohehadforgottenallaboutit。

  \"Atlasthebegantomountthesteps;hislegsweretied,sothathehadtotakeverysmallsteps。Thepriest,whoseemedtobeawiseman,hadstoppedtalkingnow,andonlyheldthecrossforthewretchedfellowtokiss。Atthefootoftheladderhehadbeenpaleenough;butwhenhesetfootonthescaffoldatthetop,hisfacesuddenlybecamethecolourofpaper,positivelylikewhitenotepaper。Hislegsmusthavebecomesuddenlyfeebleandhelpless,andhefeltachokinginhisthroat——youknowthesuddenfeelingonehasinmomentsofterriblefear,whenonedoesnotloseone’swits,butisabsolutelypowerlesstomove?Ifsomedreadfulthingweresuddenlytohappen;ifahousewerejustabouttofallonone;——don’tyouknowhowonewouldlongtositdownandshutone’seyesandwait,andwait?Well,whenthisterriblefeelingcameoverhim,thepriestquicklypressedthecrosstohislips,withoutaword——alittlesilvercrossitwas-

  andhekeptonpressingittotheman’slipseverysecond。Andwheneverthecrosstouchedhislips,theeyeswouldopenforamoment,andthelegsmovedonce,andhekissedthecrossgreedily,hurriedly——justasthoughhewereanxioustocatchholdofsomethingincaseofitsbeingusefultohimafterwards,thoughhecouldhardlyhavehadanyconnectedreligiousthoughtsatthetime。Andsouptotheveryblock。

  \"Howstrangethatcriminalsseldomswoonatsuchamoment!Onthecontrary,thebrainisespeciallyactive,andworksincessantly——

  probablyhard,hard,hard——likeanengineatfullpressure。I

  imaginethatvariousthoughtsmustbeatloudandfastthroughhishead——allunfinishedones,andstrange,funnythoughts,verylikely!——likethis,forinstance:’Thatmanislookingatme,andhehasawartonhisforehead!andtheexecutionerhasburstoneofhisbuttons,andthelowestoneisallrusty!’Andmeanwhilehenoticesandrememberseverything。Thereisonepointthatcannotbeforgotten,roundwhicheverythingelsedancesandturnsabout;andbecauseofthispointhecannotfaint,andthislastsuntiltheveryfinalquarterofasecond,whenthewretchedneckisontheblockandthevictimlistensandwaitsandKNOWS——

  that’sthepoint,heKNOWSthatheisjustNOWabouttodie,andlistensfortheraspoftheironoverhishead。IfIlaythere,I

  shouldcertainlylistenforthatgratingsound,andhearit,too!

  Therewouldprobablybebutthetenthpartofaninstantlefttohearitin,butonewouldcertainlyhearit。Andimagine,somepeopledeclarethatwhentheheadfliesoffitisCONSCIOUSofhavingflownoff!Justimaginewhatathingtorealize!Fancyifconsciousnessweretolastforevenfiveseconds!

  \"Drawthescaffoldsothatonlythetopstepoftheladdercomesinclearly。Thecriminalmustbejuststeppingontoit,hisfaceaswhiteasnote-paper。Thepriestisholdingthecrosstohisbluelips,andthecriminalkissesit,andknowsandseesandunderstandseverything。Thecrossandthehead——there’syourpicture;thepriestandtheexecutioner,withhistwoassistants,andafewheadsandeyesbelow。Thosemightcomeinassubordinateaccessories——asortofmist。There’sapictureforyou。\"Theprincepaused,andlookedaround。

  \"Certainlythatisn’tmuchlikequietism,\"murmuredAlexandra,halftoherself。

  \"Nowtellusaboutyourloveaffairs,\"saidAdelaida,afteramoment’spause。

  Theprincegazedatherinamazement。

  \"Youknow,\"Adelaidacontinued,\"youoweusadescriptionoftheBaslepicture;butfirstIwishtohearhowyoufellinlove。

  Don’tdenythefact,foryoudid,ofcourse。Besides,youstopphilosophizingwhenyouaretellingaboutanything。\"

  \"Whyareyouashamedofyourstoriesthemomentafteryouhavetoldthem?\"askedAglaya,suddenly。

  \"Howsillyyouare!\"saidMrs。Epanchin,lookingindignantlytowardsthelastspeaker。

  \"Yes,thatwasn’tacleverremark,\"saidAlexandra。

  \"Don’tlistentoher,prince,\"saidMrs。Epanchin;\"shesaysthatsortofthingoutofmischief。Don’tthinkanythingoftheirnonsense,itmeansnothing。Theylovetochaff,buttheylikeyou。Icanseeitintheirfaces——Iknowtheirfaces。\"

  \"Iknowtheirfaces,too,\"saidtheprince,withapeculiarstressonthewords。

  \"Howso?\"askedAdelaida,withcuriosity。

  \"WhatdoYOUknowaboutourfaces?\"exclaimedtheothertwo,inchorus。

  Buttheprincewassilentandserious。Allawaitedhisreply。

  \"I’lltellyouafterwards,\"hesaidquietly。

  \"Ah,youwanttoarouseourcuriosity!\"saidAglaya。\"Andhowterriblysolemnyouareaboutit!\"

  \"Verywell,\"interruptedAdelaida,\"thenifyoucanreadfacessowell,youmusthavebeeninlove。Comenow;I’veguessed——let’shavethesecret!\"

  \"Ihavenotbeeninlove,\"saidtheprince,asquietlyandseriouslyasbefore。\"Ihavebeenhappyinanotherway。\"

  \"How,how?\"

  \"Well,I’lltellyou,\"saidtheprince,apparentlyinadeepreverie。

  VI。

  \"Hereyouallare,\"begantheprince,\"settlingyourselvesdowntolistentomewithsomuchcuriosity,thatifIdonotsatisfyyouyouwillprobablybeangrywithme。No,no!I’monlyjoking!\"headded,hastily,withasmile。

  \"Well,then——theywereallchildrenthere,andIwasalwaysamongchildrenandonlywithchildren。TheywerethechildrenofthevillageinwhichIlived,andtheywenttotheschoolthere——allofthem。Ididnotteachthem,ohno;therewasamasterforthat,oneJulesThibaut。Imayhavetaughtthemsomethings,butIwasamongthemjustasanoutsider,andIpassedallfouryearsofmylifethereamongthem。Iwishedfornothingbetter;Iusedtotellthemeverythingandhidnothingfromthem。Theirfathersandrelationswereveryangrywithme,becausethechildrencoulddonothingwithoutmeatlast,andusedtothrongaftermeatalltimes。Theschoolmasterwasmygreatestenemyintheend!Ihadmanyenemies,andallbecauseofthechildren。EvenSchneiderreproachedme。Whatweretheyafraidof?Onecantellachildeverything,anything。Ihaveoftenbeenstruckbythefactthatparentsknowtheirchildrensolittle。Theyshouldnotconcealsomuchfromthem。Howwellevenlittlechildrenunderstandthattheirparentsconcealthingsfromthem,becausetheyconsiderthemtooyoungtounderstand!Childrenarecapableofgivingadviceinthemostimportantmatters。Howcanonedeceivethesedearlittlebirds,whentheylookatonesosweetlyandconfidingly?Icallthembirdsbecausethereisnothingintheworldbetterthanbirds!

  \"However,mostofthepeoplewereangrywithmeaboutoneandthesamething;butThibautsimplywasjealousofme。AtfirsthehadwaggedhisheadandwonderedhowitwasthatthechildrenunderstoodwhatItoldthemsowell,andcouldnotlearnfromhim;andhelaughedlikeanythingwhenIrepliedthatneitherhenorIcouldteachthemverymuch,butthatTHEYmightteachusagooddeal。

  \"Howhecouldhatemeandtellscandalousstoriesaboutme,livingamongchildrenashedid,iswhatIcannotunderstand。

  Childrensootheandhealthewoundedheart。Iremembertherewasonepoorfellowatourprofessor’swhowasbeingtreatedformadness,andyouhavenoideawhatthosechildrendidforhim,eventually。Idon’tthinkhewasmad,butonlyterriblyunhappy。ButI’lltellyouallabouthimanotherday。NowImustgetonwiththisstory。

  \"Thechildrendidnotlovemeatfirst;Iwassuchasickly,awkwardkindofafellowthen——andIknowIamugly。Besides,I

  wasaforeigner。Thechildrenusedtolaughatme,atfirst;andtheyevenwentsofarastothrowstonesatme,whentheysawmekissMarie。Ionlykissedheronceinmylife——no,no,don’tlaugh!\"Theprincehastenedtosuppressthesmilesofhisaudienceatthispoint。\"ItwasnotamatterofLOVEatall!Ifonlyyouknewwhatamiserablecreatureshewas,youwouldhavepitiedher,justasIdid。Shebelongedtoourvillage。Hermotherwasanold,oldwoman,andtheyusedtosellstringandthread,andsoapandtobacco,outofthewindowoftheirlittlehouse,andlivedonthepittancetheygainedbythistrade。Theoldwomanwasillandveryold,andcouldhardlymove。Mariewasherdaughter,agirloftwenty,weakandthinandconsumptive;

  butstillshedidheavyworkatthehousesaround,daybyday。

  Well,onefinedayacommercialtravellerbetrayedherandcarriedheroff;andaweeklaterhedesertedher。Shecamehomedirty,draggled,andshoeless;shehadwalkedforawholeweekwithoutshoes;shehadsleptinthefields,andcaughtaterriblecold;herfeetwereswollenandsore,andherhandstornandscratchedallover。Sheneverhadbeenprettyevenbefore;buthereyeswerequiet,innocent,kindeyes。

  \"Shewasveryquietalways——andIrememberonce,whenshehadsuddenlybegunsingingatherwork,everyonesaid,’Marietriedtosingtoday!’andshegotsochaffedthatshewassilentforeverafter。Shehadbeentreatedkindlyintheplacebefore;butwhenshecamebacknow——illandshunnedandmiserable——notoneofthemallhadtheslightestsympathyforher。Cruelpeople!Oh,whathazyunderstandingstheyhaveonsuchmatters!Hermotherwasthefirsttoshowtheway。Shereceivedherwrathfully,unkindly,andwithcontempt。’Youhavedisgracedme,’shesaid。

  Shewasthefirsttocastherintoignominy;butwhentheyallheardthatMariehadreturnedtothevillage,theyranouttoseeherandcrowdedintothelittlecottage——oldmen,children,women,girls——suchahurrying,stamping,greedycrowd。Mariewaslyingonthefloorattheoldwoman’sfeet,hungry,torn,draggled,crying,miserable。

  \"Wheneveryonecrowdedintotheroomshehidherfaceinherdishevelledhairandlaycoweringonthefloor。Everyonelookedatherasthoughshewereapieceofdirtofftheroad。Theoldmenscoldedandcondemned,andtheyoungoneslaughedather。Thewomencondemnedhertoo,andlookedathercontemptuously,justasthoughsheweresomeloathsomeinsect。

  \"Hermotherallowedallthistogoon,andnoddedherheadandencouragedthem。Theoldwomanwasveryillatthattime,andknewshewasdyingshereallydiddieacoupleofmonthslater,andthoughshefelttheendapproachingsheneverthoughtofforgivingherdaughter,totheverydayofherdeath。Shewouldnotevenspeaktoher。Shemadehersleeponstrawinashed,andhardlygaveherfoodenoughtosupportlife。

  \"Mariewasverygentletohermother,andnursedher,anddideverythingforher;buttheoldwomanacceptedallherserviceswithoutawordandnevershowedhertheslightestkindness。Marieboreallthis;andIcouldseewhenIgottoknowherthatshethoughtitquiterightandfitting,consideringherselfthelowestandmeanestofcreatures。

  \"Whentheoldwomantooktoherbedfinally,theotheroldwomeninthevillagesatwithherbyturns,asthecustomisthere;andthenMariewasquitedrivenoutofthehouse。Theygavehernofoodatall,andshecouldnotgetanyworkinthevillage;nonewouldemployher。Themenseemedtoconsiderhernolongerawoman,theysaidsuchdreadfulthingstoher。SometimesonSundays,iftheyweredrunkenough,theyusedtothrowherapennyortwo,intothemud,andMariewouldsilentlypickupthemoney。Shehadbegantospitbloodatthattime。

  \"Atlastherragsbecamesotatteredandtornthatshewasashamedofappearinginthevillageanylonger。Thechildrenusedtopeltherwithmud;soshebeggedtobetakenonasassistantcowherd,butthecowherdwouldnothaveher。Thenshetooktohelpinghimwithoutleave;andhesawhowvaluableherassistancewastohim,anddidnotdriveherawayagain;onthecontrary,heoccasionallygavehertheremnantsofhisdinner,breadandcheese。Heconsideredthathewasbeingverykind。Whenthemotherdied,thevillageparsonwasnotashamedtoholdMarieuptopublicderisionandshame。Mariewasstandingatthecoffin’shead,inallherrags,crying。

  \"Acrowdofpeoplehadcollectedtoseehowshewouldcry。Theparson,ayoungfellowambitiousofbecomingagreatpreacher,beganhissermonandpointedtoMarie。’There,’hesaid,’thereisthecauseofthedeathofthisvenerablewoman’——whichwasalie,becauseshehadbeenillforatleasttwoyears——’thereshestandsbeforeyou,anddaresnotlifthereyesfromtheground,becausesheknowsthatthefingerofGodisuponher。Lookathertattersandrags——thebadgeofthosewholosetheirvirtue。Whoisshe?herdaughter!’andsoontotheend。

  \"Andjustfancy,thisinfamypleasedthem,allofthem,nearly。

  Onlythechildrenhadaltered——forthentheywereallonmysideandhadlearnedtoloveMarie。

  \"Thisishowitwas:IhadwishedtodosomethingforMarie;I

  longedtogivehersomemoney,butIneverhadafarthingwhileI

  wasthere。ButIhadalittlediamondpin,andthisIsoldtoatravellingpedlar;hegavemeeightfrancsforit——itwasworthatleastforty。

  \"IlongsoughttomeetMariealone;andatlastIdidmeether,onthehillsidebeyondthevillage。IgavehertheeightfrancsandaskedhertotakecareofthemoneybecauseIcouldgetnomore;andthenIkissedherandsaidthatshewasnottosupposeIkissedherwithanyevilmotivesorbecauseIwasinlovewithher,forthatIdidsosolelyoutofpityforher,andbecausefromthefirstIhadnotaccountedherasguiltysomuchasunfortunate。Ilongedtoconsoleandencouragehersomehow,andtoassureherthatshewasnotthelow,basethingwhichsheandothersstrovetomakeout;butIdon’tthinksheunderstoodme。

  Shestoodbeforeme,dreadfullyashamedofherself,andwithdowncasteyes;andwhenIhadfinishedshekissedmyhand。I

  wouldhavekissedhers,butshedrewitaway。Justatthismomentthewholetroopofchildrensawus。Ifoundoutafterwardsthattheyhadlongkeptawatchuponme。Theyallbeganwhistlingandclappingtheirhands,andlaughingatus。Marieranawayatonce;

  andwhenItriedtotalktothem,theythrewstonesatme。Allthevillageheardofitthesameday,andMarie’spositionbecameworsethanever。Thechildrenwouldnotletherpassnowinthestreets,butannoyedherandthrewdirtathermorethanbefore。

  Theyusedtorunafterher——sheracingawaywithherpoorfeeblelungspantingandgasping,andtheypeltingherandshoutingabuseather。

  \"OnceIhadtointerferebyforce;andafterthatItooktospeakingtothemeverydayandwheneverIcould。Occasionallytheystoppedandlistened;buttheyteasedMarieallthesame。

  \"ItoldthemhowunhappyMariewas,andafterawhiletheystoppedtheirabuseofher,andlethergobysilently。Littlebylittlewegotintothewayofconversingtogether,thechildrenandI。Iconcealednothingfromthem,Itoldthemall。TheylistenedveryattentivelyandsoonbegantobesorryforMarie。

  Atlastsomeofthemtooktosaying’Good-morning’toher,kindly,whentheymether。Itisthecustomtheretosaluteanyoneyoumeetwith’Good-morning’whetheracquaintedornot。I

  canimaginehowastonishedMariewasatthesefirstgreetingsfromthechildren。

  \"Oncetwolittlegirlsgotholdofsomefoodandtookittoher,andcamebackandtoldme。Theysaidshehadburstintotears,andthattheylovedherverymuchnow。VerysoonafterthattheyallbecamefondofMarie,andatthesametimetheybegantodevelopthegreatestaffectionformyself。Theyoftencametomeandbeggedmetotellthemstories。IthinkImusthavetoldstorieswell,fortheydidsolovetohearthem。AtlastItooktoreadingupinterestingthingsonpurposetopassthemontothelittleones,andthiswentonforalltherestofmytimethere,threeyears。Later,wheneveryone——evenSchneider——wasangrywithmeforhidingnothingfromthechildren,Ipointedouthowfoolishitwas,fortheyalwaysknewthings,onlytheylearnttheminawaythatsoiledtheirmindsbutnotsofromme。Onehasonlytorememberone’sownchildhoodtoadmitthetruthofthis。

  Butnobodywasconvinced……ItwastwoweeksbeforehermotherdiedthatIhadkissedMarie;andwhentheclergymanpreachedthatsermonthechildrenwereallonmyside。

  \"WhenItoldthemwhatashameitwasoftheparsontotalkashehaddone,andexplainedmyreason,theyweresoangrythatsomeofthemwentandbrokehiswindowswithstones。OfcourseI

  stoppedthem,forthatwasnotright,butallthevillageheardofit,andhowIcaughtitforspoilingthechildren!EveryonediscoverednowthatthelittleoneshadtakentobeingfondofMarie,andtheirparentswereterriblyalarmed;butMariewassohappy。Thechildrenwereforbiddentomeether;buttheyusedtorunoutofthevillagetotheherdandtakeherfoodandthings;

  andsometimesjustranoffthereandkissedher,andsaid,’Jevousaime,Marie!’andthentrottedbackagain。TheyimaginedthatIwasinlovewithMarie,andthiswastheonlypointonwhichIdidnotundeceivethem,fortheygotsuchenjoymentoutofit。Andwhatdelicacyandtendernesstheyshowed!

  \"IntheeveningIusedtowalktothewaterfall。Therewasaspottherewhichwasquiteclosedinandhiddenfromviewbylargetrees;andtothisspotthechildrenusedtocometome。TheycouldnotbearthattheirdearLeonshouldloveapoorgirlwithoutshoestoherfeetanddressedallinragsandtatters。

  So,wouldyoubelieveit,theyactuallyclubbedtogether,somehow,andboughthershoesandstockings,andsomelinen,andevenadress!Ican’tunderstandhowtheymanagedit,buttheydidit,alltogether。WhenIaskedthemaboutittheyonlylaughedandshouted,andthelittlegirlsclappedtheirhandsandkissedme。IsometimeswenttoseeMariesecretly,too。Shehadbecomeveryill,andcouldhardlywalk。Shestillwentwiththeherd,butcouldnothelptheherdsmananylonger。Sheusedtositonastonenear,andwaittherealmostmotionlessallday,tilltheherdwenthome。Herconsumptionwassoadvanced,andshewassoweak,thatsheusedtositwithclosedeyes,breathingheavily。Herfacewasasthinasaskeleton’s,andsweatusedtostandonherwhitebrowinlargedrops。Ialwaysfoundhersittingjustlikethat。Iusedtocomeupquietlytolookather;

  butMariewouldhearme,openhereyes,andtrembleviolentlyasshekissedmyhands。Ididnottakemyhandawaybecauseitmadeherhappytohaveit,andsoshewouldsitandcryquietly。

  Sometimesshetriedtospeak;butitwasverydifficulttounderstandher。Shewasalmostlikeamadwoman,withexcitementandecstasy,wheneverIcame。Occasionallythechildrencamewithme;whentheydidso,theywouldstandsomewayoffandkeepguardoverus,soastotellmeifanybodycamenear。Thiswasagreatpleasuretothem。

  \"Whenwelefther,Marieusedtorelapseatonceintoheroldcondition,andsitwithclosedeyesandmotionlesslimbs。Onedayshecouldnotgooutatall,andremainedathomeallaloneintheemptyhut;butthechildrenverysoonbecameawareofthefact,andnearlyallofthemvisitedherthatdayasshelayaloneandhelplessinhermiserablebed。

  \"Fortwodaysthechildrenlookedafterher,andthen,whenthevillagepeoplegottoknowthatMariewasreallydying,someoftheoldwomencameandtookitinturnstositbyherandlookafterherabit。Ithinktheybegantobealittlesorryforherinthevillageatlast;atalleventstheydidnotinterferewiththechildrenanymore,onheraccount。

  \"Marielayinastateofuncomfortabledeliriumthewholewhile;

  shecougheddreadfully。Theoldwomenwouldnotletthechildrenstayintheroom;buttheyallcollectedoutsidethewindoweachmorning,ifonlyforamoment,andshouted’Bonjour,notrebonneMarie!’andMarienosoonercaughtsightof,orheardthem,andshebecamequiteanimatedatonce,and,inspiteoftheoldwomen,wouldtrytositupandnodherheadandsmileatthem,andthankthem。Thelittleonesusedtobringhernicethingsandsweetstoeat,butshecouldhardlytouchanything。Thankstothem,Iassureyou,thegirldiedalmostperfectlyhappy。Shealmostforgothermisery,andseemedtoaccepttheirloveasasortofsymbolofpardonforheroffence,thoughsheneverceasedtoconsiderherselfadreadfulsinner。Theyusedtoflutteratherwindowjustlikelittlebirds,callingout:’Noust’aimons,Marie!’

  \"Shediedverysoon;Ihadthoughtshewouldlivemuchlonger。

  ThedaybeforeherdeathIwenttoseeherforthelasttime,justbeforesunset。Ithinksherecognizedme,forshepressedmyhand。

  \"NextmorningtheycameandtoldmethatMariewasdead。Thechildrencouldnotberestrainednow;theywentandcoveredhercoffinwithflowers,andputawreathoflovelyblossomsonherhead。Thepastordidnotthrowanymoreshamefulwordsatthepoordeadwoman;buttherewereveryfewpeopleatthefuneral。

  However,whenitcametocarryingthecoffin,allthechildrenrushedup,tocarryitthemselves。Ofcoursetheycouldnotdoitalone,buttheyinsistedonhelping,andwalkedalongsideandbehind,crying。

  \"Theyhaveplantedrosesallroundhergrave,andeveryyeartheylookaltertheflowersandmakeMarie’sresting-placeasbeautifulastheycan。Iwasinillodourafterallthiswiththeparentsofthechildren,andespeciallywiththeparsonandschoolmaster。SchneiderwasobligedtopromisethatIshouldnotmeetthemandtalktothem;butweconversedfromadistancebysigns,andtheyusedtowritemesweetlittlenotes。AfterwardsI

  camecloserthanevertothoselittlesouls,buteventhenitwasverydeartome,tohavethemsofondofme。

  \"SchneidersaidthatIdidthechildrengreatharmbymypernicious’system’;whatnonsensethatwas!Andwhatdidhemeanbymysystem?HesaidafterwardsthathebelievedIwasachildmyself——justbeforeIcameaway。’Youhavetheformandfaceofanadult’hesaid,’butasregardssoul,andcharacter,andperhapsevenintelligence,youareachildinthecompletestsenseoftheword,andalwayswillbe,ifyoulivetobesixty。’Ilaughedverymuch,forofcoursethatisnonsense。ButitisafactthatIdonotcaretobeamonggrown-uppeopleandmuchpreferthesocietyofchildren。Howeverkindpeoplemaybetome,Ineverfeelquiteathomewiththem,andamalwaysgladtogetbacktomylittlecompanions。Nowmycompanionshavealwaysbeenchildren,notbecauseIwasachildmyselfonce,butbecauseyoungthingsattractme。OnoneofthefirstdaysofmystayinSwitzerland,Iwasstrollingaboutaloneandmiserable,whenI

  cameuponthechildrenrushingnoisilyoutofschool,withtheirslatesandbags,andbooks,theirgames,theirlaughterandshouts——andmysoulwentouttothem。IstoppedandlaughedhappilyasIwatchedtheirlittlefeetmovingsoquickly。Girlsandboys,laughingandcrying;forastheywenthomemanyofthemfoundtimetofightandmakepeace,toweepandplay。Iforgotmytroublesinlookingatthem。Andthen,allthosethreeyears,I

  triedtounderstandwhymenshouldbeforevertormentingthemselves。Ilivedthelifeofachildthere,andthoughtI

  shouldneverleavethelittlevillage;indeed,IwasfarfromthinkingthatIshouldeverreturntoRussia。ButatlastI

  recognizedthefactthatSchneidercouldnotkeepmeanylonger。

  Andthensomethingsoimportanthappened,thatSchneiderhimselfurgedmetodepart。Iamgoingtoseenowifcangetgoodadviceaboutit。Perhapsmylotinlifewillbechanged;butthatisnottheprincipalthing。Theprincipalthingistheentirechangethathasalreadycomeoverme。Ileftmanythingsbehindme——toomany。Theyhavegone。OnthejourneyIsaidtomyself,’Iamgoingintotheworldofmen。Idon’tknowmuch,perhaps,butanewlifehasbegunforme。’Imadeupmymindtobehonest,andsteadfastinaccomplishingmytask。PerhapsIshallmeetwithtroublesandmanydisappointments,butIhavemadeupmymindtobepoliteandsinceretoeveryone;morecannotbeaskedofme。

  Peoplemayconsidermeachildiftheylike。Iamoftencalledanidiot,andatonetimeIcertainlywassoillthatIwasnearlyasbadasanidiot;butIamnotanidiotnow。HowcanIpossiblybesowhenIknowmyselfthatIamconsideredone?

  \"WhenIreceivedaletterfromthosedearlittlesouls,whilepassingthroughBerlin,IonlythenrealizedhowmuchIlovedthem。Itwasvery,verypainful,gettingthatfirstlittleletter。Howmelancholytheyhadbeenwhentheysawmeoff!Foramonthbefore,theyhadbeentalkingofmydepartureandsorrowingoverit;andatthewaterfall,ofanevening,whenwepartedforthenight,theywouldhugmesotightandkissmesowarmly,farmoresothanbefore。AndeverynowandthentheywouldturnuponebyonewhenIwasalone,justtogivemeakissandahug,toshowtheirloveforme。Thewholeflockwentwithmetothestation,whichwasaboutamilefromthevillage,andeverynowandthenoneofthemwouldstoptothrowhisarmsroundme,andallthelittlegirlshadtearsintheirvoices,thoughtheytriedhardnottocry。Asthetrainsteamedoutofthestation,Isawthemallstandingontheplatformwavingtomeandcrying’Hurrah!’tilltheywerelostinthedistance。

  \"Iassureyou,whenIcameinherejustnowandsawyourkindfacesIcanreadfaceswellmyheartfeltlightforthefirsttimesincethatmomentofparting。IthinkImustbeoneofthosewhoareborntobeinluck,foronedoesnotoftenmeetwithpeoplewhomonefeelshecanlovefromthefirstsightoftheirfaces;andyet,nosoonerdoIstepoutoftherailwaycarriagethanIhappenuponyou!

  \"Iknowitismoreorlessashamefacedthingtospeakofone’sfeelingsbeforeothers;andyethereamItalkinglikethistoyou,andamnotabitashamedorshy。Iamanunsociablesortoffellowandshallverylikelynotcometoseeyouagainforsometime;butdon’tthinktheworseofmeforthat。ItisnotthatIdonotvalueyoursociety;andyoumustneversupposethatIhavetakenoffenceatanything。

  \"Youaskedmeaboutyourfaces,andwhatIcouldreadinthem;I

  willtellyouwiththegreatestpleasure。You,AdelaidaIvanovna,haveaveryhappyface;itisthemostsympatheticofthethree。

  Nottospeakofyournaturalbeauty,onecanlookatyourfaceandsaytoone’sself,’Shehasthefaceofakindsister。’Youaresimpleandmerry,butyoucanseeintoanother’sheartveryquickly。That’swhatIreadinyourface。

  \"Youtoo,AlexandraIvanovna,haveaverylovelyface;butI

  thinkyoumayhavesomesecretsorrow。Yourheartisundoubtedlyakind,goodone,butyouarenotmerry。Thereisacertainsuspicionof’shadow’inyourface,likeinthatofHolbein’sMadonnainDresden。Somuchforyourface。HaveIguessedright?

  \"Asforyourface,LizabethaProkofievna,Inotonlythink,butamperfectlySURE,thatyouareanabsolutechild——inall,inall,mind,bothgoodandbad-andinspiteofyouryears。Don’tbeangrywithmeforsayingso;youknowwhatmyfeelingsforchildrenare。AnddonotsupposethatIamsocandidoutofpuresimplicityofsoul。Ohdearno,itisbynomeansthecase!

  PerhapsIhavemyownveryprofoundobjectinview。\"

  VII。

  Whentheprinceceasedspeakingallweregazingmerrilyathim——

  evenAglaya;butLizabethaProkofievnalookedthejolliestofall。

  \"Well!\"shecried,\"weHAVE’puthimthroughhispaces,’withavengeance!Mydears,youimagined,Ibelieve,thatyouwereabouttopatronizethisyounggentleman,likesomepoorprotegepickedupsomewhere,andtakenunderyourmagnificentprotection。Whatfoolswewere,andwhataspeciallybigfoolisyourfather!Welldone,prince!Iassureyouthegeneralactuallyaskedmetoputyouthroughyourpaces,andexamineyou。Astowhatyousaidaboutmyface,youareabsolutelycorrectinyourjudgment。Iamachild,andknowit。Iknewitlongbeforeyousaidso;youhaveexpressedmyownthoughts。Ithinkyournatureandminemustbeextremelyalike,andIamverygladofit。Weareliketwodropsofwater,onlyyouareamanandIawoman,andI’venotbeentoSwitzerland,andthatisallthedifferencebetweenus。\"

  \"Don’tbeinahurry,mother;theprincesaysthathehassomemotivebehindhissimplicity,\"criedAglaya。

  \"Yes,yes,sohedoes,\"laughedtheothers。

  \"Oh,don’tyoubeginbanteringhim,\"saidmamma。\"Heisprobablyagooddealclevererthanallthreeofyougirlsputtogether。Weshallsee。Onlyyouhaven’ttoldusanythingaboutAglayayet,prince;andAglayaandIarebothwaitingtohear。\"

  \"Icannotsayanythingatpresent。I’lltellyouafterwards。\"

  \"Why?Herfaceisclearenough,isn’tit?\"

  \"Ohyes,ofcourse。Youareverybeautiful,AglayaIvanovna,sobeautifulthatoneisafraidtolookatyou。\"

  \"Isthatall?Whatabouthercharacter?\"persistedMrs。Epanchin。

  \"Itisdifficulttojudgewhensuchbeautyisconcerned。Ihavenotpreparedmyjudgment。Beautyisariddle。\"

  \"ThatmeansthatyouhavesetAglayaariddle!\"saidAdelaida。

  \"Guessit,Aglaya!Butshe’spretty,prince,isn’tshe?\"

  \"Mostwonderfullyso,\"saidthelatter,warmly,gazingatAglayawithadmiration。\"AlmostaslovelyasNastasiaPhilipovna,butquiteadifferenttype。\"

  Allpresentexchangedlooksofsurprise。

  \"AslovelyasWHO?\"saidMrs。Epanchin。\"AsNASTASIAPHILIPOVNA?

  WherehaveyouseenNastasiaPhilipovna?WhatNastasiaPhilipovna?\"

  \"GavrilaArdalionovitchshowedthegeneralherportraitjustnow。\"

  \"Howso?Didhebringtheportraitformyhusband?\"

  \"Onlytoshowit。NastasiaPhilipovnagaveittoGavrilaArdalionovitchtoday,andthelatterbroughtitheretoshowtothegeneral。\"

  \"Imustseeit!\"criedMrs。Epanchin。\"Whereistheportrait?Ifshegaveittohim,hemusthaveit;andheisstillinthestudy。Heneverleavesbeforefouro’clockonWednesdays。SendforGavrilaArdalionovitchatonce。No,Idon’tlongtoseeHIM

  somuch。Lookhere,dearprince,BEsokind,willyou?Juststeptothestudyandfetchthisportrait!Saywewanttolookatit。

  Pleasedothisforme,willyou?\"

  \"Heisanicefellow,butalittletoosimple,\"saidAdelaida,astheprincelefttheroom。

  \"Heis,indeed,\"saidAlexandra;\"almostlaughablysoattimes。\"

  Neitheronenortheotherseemedtogiveexpressiontoherfullthoughts。

  \"Hegotoutofitveryneatlyaboutourfaces,though,\"saidAglaya。Heflatteredusallround,evenmamma。\"

  \"Nonsense\"criedthelatter。\"Hedidnotflatterme。ItwasIwhofoundhisappreciationflattering。Ithinkyouareagreatdealmorefoolishthanheis。Heissimple,ofcourse,butalsoveryknowing。Justlikemyself。\"

  \"Howstupidofmetospeakoftheportrait,\"thoughttheprinceasheenteredthestudy,withafeelingofguiltathisheart,\"andyet,perhapsIwasrightafterall。\"Hehadanidea,unformedasyet,butastrangeidea。

  GavrilaArdalionovitchwasstillsittinginthestudy,buriedinamassofpapers。Helookedasthoughhedidnottakehissalaryfromthepubliccompany,whoseservanthewas,forasinecure。

  Hegrewverywrothandconfusedwhentheprinceaskedfortheportrait,andexplainedhowitcameaboutthathehadspokenofit。

  \"Oh,curseitall,\"hesaid;\"whatonearthmustyougoblabbingfor?Youknownothingaboutthething,andyet——idiot!\"headded,mutteringthelastwordtohimselfinirrepressiblerage。

  \"Iamverysorry;Iwasnotthinkingatthetime。ImerelysaidthatAglayawasalmostasbeautifulasNastasiaPhilipovna。\"

  Ganiaaskedforfurtherdetails;andtheprinceoncemorerepeatedtheconversation。Ganialookedathimwithironicalcontemptthewhile。

  \"NastasiaPhilipovna,\"hebegan,andtherepaused;hewasclearlymuchagitatedandannoyed。Theprinceremindedhimoftheportrait。

  \"Listen,prince,\"saidGania,asthoughanideahadjuststruckhim,\"Iwishtoaskyouagreatfavour,andyetIreallydon’tknow——\"

  Hepausedagain,hewastryingtomakeuphismindtosomething,andwasturningthematterover。Theprincewaitedquietly。OncemoreGaniafixedhimwithintentandquestioningeyes。

  \"Prince,\"hebeganagain,\"theyareratherangrywithme,inthere,owingtoacircumstancewhichIneednotexplain,sothatIdonotcaretogoinatpresentwithoutaninvitation。I

  particularlywishtospeaktoAglaya,butIhavewrittenafewwordsincaseIshallnothavethechanceofseeingher\"heretheprinceobservedasmallnoteinhishand,\"andIdonotknowhowtogetmycommunicationtoher。Don’tyouthinkyoucouldundertaketogiveittoheratonce,butonlytoher,mind,andsothatnooneelseshouldseeyougiveit?Itisn’tmuchofasecret,butstill——Well,willyoudoit?\"

  \"Idon’tquitelikeit,\"repliedtheprince。

  \"Oh,butitisabsolutelynecessaryforme,\"Ganiaentreated。

  \"Believeme,ifitwerenotso,Iwouldnotaskyou;howelseamItogetittoher?Itismostimportant,dreadfullyimportant!\"

  Ganiawasevidentlymuchalarmedattheideathattheprincewouldnotconsenttotakehisnote,andhelookedathimnowwithanexpressionofabsoluteentreaty。

  \"Well,Iwilltakeitthen。\"

  \"Butmind,nobodyistosee!\"criedthedelightedGania\"AndofcourseImayrelyonyourwordofhonour,eh?\"

  \"Iwon’tshowittoanyone,\"saidtheprince。

  \"Theletterisnotsealed——\"continuedGania,andpausedinconfusion。

  \"Oh,Iwon’treadit,\"saidtheprince,quitesimply。

  Hetookuptheportrait,andwentoutoftheroom。

  Gania,leftalone,clutchedhisheadwithhishands。

  \"Onewordfromher,\"hesaid,\"onewordfromher,andImayyetbefree。\"

  Hecouldnotsettlehimselftohispapersagain,foragitationandexcitement,butbeganwalkingupanddowntheroomfromcornertocorner。

  Theprincewalkedalong,musing。Hedidnotlikehiscommission,anddislikedtheideaofGaniasendinganotetoAglayaatall;butwhenhewastworoomsdistantfromthedrawing-room,wheretheyallwere,hestoppedathoughrecallingsomething;wenttothewindow,nearerthelight,andbegantoexaminetheportraitinhishand。

  HelongedtosolvethemysteryofsomethinginthefaceNastasiaPhilipovna,somethingwhichhadstruckhimashelookedattheportraitforthefirsttime;theimpressionhadnotlefthim。Itwaspartlythefactofhermarvellousbeautythatstruckhim,andpartlysomethingelse。Therewasasuggestionofimmenseprideanddisdaininthefacealmostofhatred,andatthesametimesomethingconfidingandveryfullofsimplicity。Thecontrastarousedadeepsympathyinhisheartashelookedatthelovelyface。Theblindinglovelinessofitwasalmostintolerable,thispalethinfacewithitsflamingeyes;itwasastrangebeauty。

  Theprincegazedatitforaminuteortwo,thenglancedaroundhim,andhurriedlyraisedtheportraittohislips。When,aminuteafter,hereachedthedrawing-roomdoor,hisfacewasquitecomposed。ButjustashereachedthedoorhemetAglayacomingoutalone。

  \"GavrilaArdalionovitchbeggedmetogiveyouthis,\"hesaid,handingherthenote。

  Aglayastopped,tooktheletter,andgazedstrangelyintotheprince’seyes。Therewasnoconfusioninherface;alittlesurprise,perhaps,butthatwasall。ByherlooksheseemedmerelytochallengetheprincetoanexplanationastohowheandGaniahappenedtobeconnectedinthismatter。Butherexpressionwasperfectlycoolandquiet,andevencondescending。

  Sotheystoodforamomentortwo,confrontingoneanother。Atlengthafaintsmilepassedoverherface,andshepassedbyhimwithoutaword。

  Mrs。EpanchinexaminedtheportraitofNastasiaPhilipovnaforsomelittlewhile,holdingitcriticallyatarm’slength。

  \"Yes,sheispretty,\"shesaidatlast,\"evenverypretty。Ihaveseenhertwice,butonlyatadistance。Soyouadmirethiskindofbeauty,doyou?\"sheaskedtheprince,suddenly。

  \"Yes,Ido——thiskind。\"

  \"Doyoumeanespeciallythiskind?\"

  \"Yes,especiallythiskind。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Thereismuchsufferinginthisface,\"murmuredtheprince,moreasthoughtalkingtohimselfthanansweringthequestion。

  \"Ithinkyouarewanderingalittle,prince,\"Mrs。Epanchindecided,afteralengthenedsurveyofhisface;andshetossedtheportraitontothetable,haughtily。

  Alexandratookit,andAdelaidacameup,andboththegirlsexaminedthephotograph。JustthenAglayaenteredtheroom。

  \"Whatapower!\"criedAdelaidasuddenly,assheearnestlyexaminedtheportraitoverhersister’sshoulder。

  \"Whom?Whatpower?\"askedhermother,crossly。

  \"Suchbeautyisrealpower,\"saidAdelaida。\"Withsuchbeautyasthatonemightoverthrowtheworld。\"Shereturnedtohereaselthoughtfully。

  Aglayamerelyglancedattheportrait——frowned,andputoutherunderlip;thenwentandsatdownonthesofawithfoldedhands。

  Mrs。Epanchinrangthebell。

  \"AskGavrilaArdalionovitchtostepthisway,\"saidshetothemanwhoanswered。

  \"Mamma!\"criedAlexandra,significantly。

  \"Ishalljustsaytwowordstohim,that’sall,\"saidhermother,silencingallobjectionbyhermanner;shewasevidentlyseriouslyputout。\"Yousee,prince,itisallsecretswithus,justnow——allsecrets。Itseemstobetheetiquetteofthehouse,forsomereasonor,other。Stupidnonsense,andinamatterwhichoughttobeapproachedwithallcandourandopen-

  heartedness。Thereisamarriagebeingtalkedof,andIdon’tlikethismarriage——\"

  \"Mamma,whatareyousaying?\"saidAlexandraagain,hurriedly。

  \"Well,what,mydeargirl?Asifyoucanpossiblylikeityourself?Theheartisthegreatthing,andtherestisallrubbish——thoughonemusthavesenseaswell。Perhapssenseisreallythegreatthing。Don’tsmilelikethat,Aglaya。Idon’tcontradictmyself。Afoolwithaheartandnobrainsisjustasunhappyasafoolwithbrainsandnoheart。Iamoneandyouaretheother,andthereforebothofussuffer,bothofusareunhappy。\"

  \"Whyareyousounhappy,mother?\"askedAdelaida,whoaloneofallthecompanyseemedtohavepreservedhergoodtemperandspiritsuptonow。

  \"Inthefirstplace,becauseofmycarefullybrought-updaughters,\"saidMrs。Epanchin,cuttingly;\"andasthatisthebestreasonIcangiveyouweneednotbotheraboutanyotheratpresent。Enoughofwords,now!WeshallseehowbothofyouI

  don’tcountAglayawillmanageyourbusiness,andwhetheryou,mostreveredAlexandraIvanovna,willbehappywithyourfinemate。\"

  \"Ah!\"sheadded,asGaniasuddenlyenteredtheroom,\"here’sanothermarryingsubject。Howdoyoudo?\"shecontinued,inresponsetoGania’sbow;butshedidnotinvitehimtositdown。

  \"Youaregoingtobemarried?\"

  \"Married?how——whatmarriage?\"murmuredGania,overwhelmedwithconfusion。

  \"Areyouabouttotakeawife?Iask,——ifyoupreferthatexpression。\"

  \"No,noI-I——no!\"saidGania,bringingouthisliewithatell-

  taleblushofshame。HeglancedkeenlyatAglaya,whowassittingsomewayoff,anddroppedhiseyesimmediately。

  Aglayagazedcoldly,intently,andcomposedlyathim,withouttakinghereyesoffhisface,andwatchedhisconfusion。

  \"No?Yousayno,doyou?\"continuedthepitilessMrs。General。

  \"Verywell,IshallrememberthatyoutoldmethisWednesdaymorning,inanswertomyquestion,thatyouarenotgoingtobemarried。Whatdayisit,Wednesday,isn’tit?\"

  \"Yes,Ithinkso!\"saidAdelaida。

  \"Youneverknowthedayoftheweek;what’sthedayofthemonth?\"

  \"Twenty-seventh!\"saidGania。

  \"Twenty-seventh;verywell。Good-byenow;youhaveagooddealtodo,I’msure,andImustdressandgoout。Takeyourportrait。

  Givemyrespectstoyourunfortunatemother,NinaAlexandrovna。

  Aurevoir,dearprince,comeinandseeusoften,do;andIshalltelloldPrincessBielokonskiaboutyou。Ishallgoandseeheronpurpose。Andlisten,mydearboy,IfeelsurethatGodhassentyoutoPetersburgfromSwitzerlandonpurposeforme。Maybeyouwillhaveotherthingstodo,besides,butyouaresentchieflyformysake,Ifeelsureofit。Godsentyoutome!Aurevoir!Alexandra,comewithme,mydear。\"

  Mrs。Epanchinlefttheroom。

  Gania——confused,annoyed,furious——tookuphisportrait,andturnedtotheprincewithanastysmileonhisface。

  \"Prince,\"hesaid,\"Iamjustgoinghome。Ifyouhavenotchangedyourmindastolivingwithus,perhapsyouwouldliketocomewithme。Youdon’tknowtheaddress,Ibelieve?\"

  \"Waitaminute,prince,\"saidAglaya,suddenlyrisingfromherseat,\"dowritesomethinginmyalbumfirst,willyou?Fathersaysyouareamosttalentedcaligraphist;I’llbringyoumybookinaminute。\"Shelefttheroom。

  \"Well,aurevoir,prince,\"saidAdelaida,\"Imustbegoingtoo。\"

  Shepressedtheprince’shandwarmly,andgavehimafriendlysmileasshelefttheroom。ShedidnotsomuchaslookatGania。

  \"Thisisyourdoing,prince,\"saidGania,turningonthelattersosoonastheotherswerealloutoftheroom。\"Thisisyourdoing,sir!YOUhavebeentellingthemthatIamgoingtobemarried!\"Hesaidthisinahurriedwhisper,hiseyesflashingwithrageandhisfaceablaze。\"Youshamelesstattler!\"

  \"Iassureyou,youareunderadelusion,\"saidtheprince,calmlyandpolitely。\"Ididnotevenknowthatyouweretobemarried。\"

  \"Youheardmetalkingaboutit,thegeneralandme。YouheardmesaythateverythingwastobesettledtodayatNastasiaPhilipovna’s,andyouwentandblurteditouthere。Youlieifyoudenyit。WhoelsecouldhavetoldthemDeviltakeit,sir,whocouldhavetoldthemexceptyourself?Didn’ttheoldwomanasgoodashintasmuchtome?\"

  \"Ifshehintedtoyouwhotoldheryoumustknowbest,ofcourse;

  butIneversaidawordaboutit。\"

  \"Didyougivemynote?Isthereananswer?\"interruptedGania,impatiently。

  ButatthismomentAglayacameback,andtheprincehadnotimetoreply。

  \"There,prince,\"saidshe,\"there’smyalbum。Nowchooseapageandwritemesomething,willyou?There’sapen,anewone;doyoumindasteelone?Ihaveheardthatyoucaligraphistsdon’tlikesteelpens。\"

  Conversingwiththeprince,AglayadidnotevenseemtonoticethatGaniawasintheroom。Butwhiletheprincewasgettinghispenready,findingapage,andmakinghispreparationstowrite,GaniacameuptothefireplacewhereAglayawasstanding,totherightoftheprince,andintrembling,brokenaccentssaid,almostinherear:

  \"Oneword,justonewordfromyou,andI’msaved。\"

  Theprinceturnedsharplyroundandlookedatbothofthem。

  Gania’sfacewasfullofrealdespair;heseemedtohavesaidthewordsalmostunconsciouslyandontheimpulseofthemoment。

  Aglayagazedathimforsomesecondswithpreciselythesamecomposureandcalmastonishmentasshehadshownalittlewhilebefore,whentheprincehandedherthenote,anditappearedthatthiscalmsurpriseandseeminglyabsoluteincomprehensionofwhatwassaidtoher,weremoreterriblyoverwhelmingtoGaniathaneventhemostplainlyexpresseddisdainwouldhavebeen。

  \"WhatshallIwrite?\"askedtheprince。

  \"I’lldictatetoyou,\"saidAglaya,cominguptothetable。\"Nowthen,areyouready?Write,’Inevercondescendtobargain!’Nowputyournameandthedate。Letmeseeit。\"

  Theprincehandedherthealbum。

  \"Capital!Howbeautifullyyouhavewrittenit!Thankssomuch。Aurevoir,prince。Waitaminute,\";sheadded,\"Iwanttogiveyousomethingforakeepsake。Comewithmethisway,willyou?\"

  Theprincefollowedher。Arrivedatthedining-room,shestopped。

  \"Readthis,\"shesaid,handinghimGania’snote。

  Theprincetookitfromherhand,butgazedatherinbewilderment。

  \"Oh!IKNOWyouhaven’treadit,andthatyoucouldneverbethatman’saccomplice。Readit,Iwishyoutoreadit。\"

  Theletterhadevidentlybeenwritteninahurry:

  \"Myfateistobedecidedtoday\"itran,\"youknowhow。ThisdayImustgivemywordirrevocably。Ihavenorighttoaskyourhelp,andIdarenotallowmyselftoindulgeinanyhopes;butonceyousaidjustoneword,andthatwordlightedupthenightofmylife,andbecamethebeaconofmydays。Sayonemoresuchword,andsavemefromutterruin。Onlytellme,’breakoffthewholething!’andIwilldosothisveryday。Oh!whatcanitcostyoutosayjustthisoneword?Indoingsoyouwillbutbegivingmeasignofyoursympathyforme,andofyourpity;onlythis,onlythis;nothingmore,NOTHING。Idarenotindulgeinanyhope,becauseIamunworthyofit。Butifyousaybutthisword,Iwilltakeupmycrossagainwithjoy,andreturnoncemoretomybattlewithpoverty。Ishallmeetthestormandbegladofit;

  Ishallriseupwithrenewedstrength。

  \"Sendmebackthenthisonewordofsympathy,onlysympathy,I

  sweartoyou;andoh!donotbeangrywiththeaudacityofdespair,withthedrowningmanwhohasdaredtomakethislastefforttosavehimselffromperishingbeneaththewaters。

  \"G。L。\"

  \"Thismanassuresme,\"saidAglaya,scornfully,whentheprincehadfinishedreadingtheletter,\"thatthewords’breakoffeverything’donotcommitmetoanythingwhatever;andhimselfgivesmeawrittenguaranteetothateffect,inthisletter。

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