Thegeneralblusheddreadfully;Coliablushedtoo;andPtitsinturnedhastilyaway。Ferdishenkowastheonlyonewholaughedasgailyasbefore。AstoGania,Ineednotsaythathewasmiserable;hestooddumbandwretchedandtooknonoticeofanybody。
\"Iassureyou,\"saidthegeneral,\"thatexactlythesamethinghappenedtomyself!\"
\"IrememberedtherewassomequarrelbetweenfatherandMissSmith,theBielokonski’sgoverness,\"saidColia。
\"Howverycurious,pointforpointthesameanecdote,andhappeningatdifferentendsofEurope!Eventhelightbluedressthesame,\"continuedthepitilessNastasia。\"Imustreallysendyouthepaper。\"
\"Youmustobserve,\"insistedthegeneral,\"thatmyexperiencewastwoyearsearlier。\"
\"Ah!that’sit,nodoubt!\"
NastasiaPhilipovnalaughedhysterically。
\"Father,willyouhearawordfrommeoutside!\"saidGania,hisvoiceshakingwithagitation,asheseizedhisfatherbytheshoulder。Hiseyesshonewithablazeofhatred。
Atthismomenttherewasaterrificbangatthefrontdoor,almostenoughtobreakitdown。Somemostunusualvisitormusthavearrived。Coliarantoopen。
X。
THEentrance-hallsuddenlybecamefullofnoiseandpeople。Tojudgefromthesoundswhichpenetratedtothedrawing-room,anumberofpeoplehadalreadycomein,andthestampedecontinued。
Severalvoicesweretalkingandshoutingatonce;othersweretalkingandshoutingonthestairsoutside;itwasevidentlyamostextraordinaryvisitthatwasabouttotakeplace。
Everyoneexchangedstartledglances。Ganiarushedouttowardsthedining-room,butanumberofmenhadalreadymadetheirwayin,andmethim。
\"Ah!hereheis,theJudas!\"criedavoicewhichtheprincerecognizedatonce。\"Howd’yedo,Gania,youoldblackguard?\"
\"Yes,that’stheman!\"saidanothervoice。
Therewasnoroomfordoubtintheprince’smind:oneofthevoiceswasRogojin’s,andtheotherLebedeff’s。
Ganiastoodatthedoorlikeablockandlookedoninsilence,puttingnoobstacleinthewayoftheirentrance,andtenoradozenmenmarchedinbehindParfenRogojin。Theywereadecidedlymixed-lookingcollection,andsomeofthemcameinintheirfursandcaps。Noneofthemwerequitedrunk,butallappearedtoDeconsiderablyexcited。
Theyseemedtoneedeachother’ssupport,morally,beforetheydaredcomein;notoneofthemwouldhaveenteredalonebutwiththeresteachonewasbraveenough。EvenRogojinenteredrathercautiouslyattheheadofhistroop;buthewasevidentlypreoccupied。Heappearedtobegloomyandmorose,andhadclearlycomewithsomeendinview。Alltherestweremerelychorus,broughtintosupportthechiefcharacter。BesidesLebedefftherewasthedandyZalesheff,whocameinwithouthiscoatandhat,twoorthreeothersfollowedhisexample;therestweremoreuncouth。Theyincludedacoupleofyoungmerchants,amaninagreat-coat,amedicalstudent,alittlePole,asmallfatmanwholaughedcontinuously,andanenormouslytallstoutonewhoapparentlyputgreatfaithinthestrengthofhisfists。Acoupleof\"ladies\"ofsomesortputtheirheadsinatthefrontdoor,butdidnotdarecomeanyfarther。Coliapromptlybangedthedoorintheirfacesandlockedit。
\"Hallo,Gania,youblackguard!Youdidn’texpectRogojin,eh?\"
saidthelatter,enteringthedrawing-room,andstoppingbeforeGania。
Butatthismomenthesaw,seatedbeforehim,NastasiaPhilipovna。Hehadnotdreamedofmeetingherhere,evidently,forherappearanceproducedamarvellouseffectuponhim。Hegrewpale,andhislipsbecameactuallyblue。
\"Isupposeitistrue,then!\"hemutteredtohimself,andhisfacetookonanexpressionofdespair。\"Sothat’stheendofit!
Nowyou,sir,willyouanswermeornot?\"hewentonsuddenly,gazingatGaniawithineffablemalice。\"Nowthen,you——\"
Hepanted,andcouldhardlyspeakforagitation。Headvancedintotheroommechanically;butperceivingNinaAlexandrovnaandVariahebecamemoreorlessembarrassed,inspiteofhisexcitement。
Hisfollowersenteredafterhim,andallpausedamomentatsightoftheladies。Ofcoursetheirmodestywasnotfatedtobelong-
lived,butforamomenttheywereabashed。Onceletthembegintoshout,however,andnothingonearthshoulddisconcertthem。
\"What,youheretoo,prince?\"saidRogojin,absently,butalittlesurprisedallthesame\"Stillinyourgaiters,eh?\"Hesighed,andforgottheprincenextmoment,andhiswildeyeswanderedovertoNastasiaagain,asthoughattractedinthatdirectionbysomemagneticforce。
Nastasialookedatthenewarrivalswithgreatcuriosity。Ganiarecollectedhimselfatlast。
\"Excuseme,sirs,\"hesaid,loudly,\"butwhatdoesallthismean?\"Heglaredattheadvancingcrowdgenerally,butaddressedhisremarksespeciallytotheircaptain,Rogojin。\"Youarenotinastable,gentlemen,thoughyoumaythinkit——mymotherandsisterarepresent。\"
\"Yes,Iseeyourmotherandsister,\"mutteredRogojin,throughhisteeth;andLebedeffseemedtofeelhimselfcalledupontosecondthestatement。
\"Atallevents,Imustrequestyoutostepintothesalon,\"saidGania,hisragerisingquiteoutofproportiontohiswords,\"andthenIshallinquire——\"
\"What,hedoesn’tknowme!\"saidRogojin,showinghisteethdisagreeably。\"Hedoesn’trecognizeRogojin!\"Hedidnotmoveaninch,however。
\"Ihavemetyousomewhere,Ibelieve,but——\"
\"Metmesomewhere,pfu!Why,it’sonlythreemonthssinceIlosttwohundredroublesofmyfather’smoneytoyou,atcards。Theoldfellowdiedbeforehefoundout。Ptitsinknowsallaboutit。
Why,I’veonlytopulloutathree-roublenoteandshowittoyou,andyou’dcrawlonyourhandsandkneestotheotherendofthetownforit;that’sthesortofmanyouare。Why,I’vecomenow,atthismoment,tobuyyouup!Oh,youneedn’tthinkthatbecauseIwearthesebootsIhavenomoney。Ihavelotsofmoney,mybeauty,——enoughtobuyupyouandallyourstogether。SoI
shall,ifIliketo!I’llbuyyouup!Iwill!\"heyelled,apparentlygrowingmoreandmoreintoxicatedandexcited。\"Oh,NastasiaPhilipovna!don’tturnmeout!Sayoneword,do!Areyougoingtomarrythisman,ornot?\"
Rogojinaskedhisquestionlikealostsoulappealingtosomedivinity,withtherecklessdaringofoneappointedtodie,whohasnothingtolose。
Heawaitedthereplyindeadlyanxiety。
NastasiaPhilipovnagazedathimwithahaughty,ironical。
expressionofface;butwhensheglancedatNinaAlexandrovnaandVaria,andfromthemtoGania,shechangedhertone,allofasudden。
\"Certainlynot;whatareyouthinkingof?Whatcouldhaveinducedyoutoasksuchaquestion?\"shereplied,quietlyandseriously,andeven,apparently,withsomeastonishment。
\"No?No?\"shoutedRogojin,almostoutofhismindwithjoy。\"Youarenotgoingto,afterall?Andtheytoldme——oh,NastasiaPhilipovna——theysaidyouhadpromisedtomarryhim,HIM!AsifyouCOULDdoit!——him——pooh!Idon’tmindsayingittoeveryone——
I’dbuyhimoffforahundredroubles,anydaypfu!Givehimathousand,orthreeifhelikes,poordevil’andhe’dcutandrunthedaybeforehiswedding,andleavehisbridetome!Wouldn’tyou,Gania,youblackguard?You’dtakethreethousand,wouldn’tyou?Here’sthemoney!Look,I’vecomeonpurposetopayyouoffandgetyourreceipt,formally。IsaidI’dbuyyouup,andsoI
will。\"
\"Getoutofthis,youdrunkenbeast!\"criedGania,whowasredandwhitebyturns。
Rogojin’stroop,whowereonlywaitingforanexcuse,setupahowlatthis。LebedeffsteppedforwardandwhisperedsomethinginParfen’sear。
\"You’reright,clerk,\"saidthelatter,\"you’reright,tipsyspirit——you’reright!——NastasiaPhilipovna,\"headded,lookingatherlikesomelunatic,harmlessgenerally,butsuddenlywounduptoapitchofaudacity,\"hereareeighteenthousandroubles,and——andyoushallhavemore。\"Herehethrewapacketofbank-
notestiedupinwhitepaper,onthetablebeforeher,notdaringtosayallhewishedtosay。
\"No-no-no!\"mutteredLebedeff,clutchingathisarm。Hewasclearlyaghastatthelargenessofthesum,andthoughtafarsmalleramountshouldhavebeentriedfirst。
\"No,youfool——youdon’tknowwhomyouaredealingwith——anditappearsIamafool,too!\"saidParfen,tremblingbeneaththeflashingglanceofNastasia。\"Oh,curseitall!WhatafoolI
wastolistentoyou!\"headded,withprofoundmelancholy。
NastasiaPhilipovna,observinghiswoe-begoneexpression,suddenlyburstoutlaughing。
\"Eighteenthousandroubles,forme?Why,youdeclareyourselfafoolatonce,\"shesaid,withimpudentfamiliarity,assherosefromthesofaandpreparedtogo。Ganiawatchedthewholescenewithasinkingoftheheart。
\"Fortythousand,then——fortythousandroublesinsteadofeighteen!
Ptitsinandanotherhavepromisedtofindmefortythousandroublesbyseveno’clocktonight。Fortythousandroubles——paiddownonthenail!\"
Thescenewasgrowingmoreandmoredisgraceful;butNastasiaPhilipovnacontinuedtolaughanddidnotgoaway。NinaAlexandrovnaandVariahadbothrisenfromtheirplacesandwerewaiting,insilenthorror,toseewhatwouldhappen。Varia’seyeswereallablazewithanger;butthescenehadadifferenteffectonNinaAlexandrovna。Shepaledandtrembled,andlookedmoreandmorelikefaintingeverymoment。
\"Verywellthen,aHUNDREDthousand!ahundredthousand!paidthisveryday。Ptitsin!finditforme。Agoodshareshallsticktoyourfingers——come!\"
\"Youaremad!\"saidPtitsin,comingupquicklyandseizinghimbythehand。\"You’redrunk——thepolicewillbesentforifyoudon’tlookout。Thinkwhereyouare。\"
\"Yes,he’sboastinglikeadrunkard,\"addedNastasia,asthoughwiththesoleintentionofgoadinghim。
\"IdoNOTboast!Youshallhaveahundredthousand,thisveryday。Ptitsin,getthemoney,yougayusurer!Takewhatyoulikeforit,butgetitbytheevening!I’llshowthatI’minearnest!\"criedRogojin,workinghimselfupintoafrenzyofexcitement。
\"Come,come;what’sallthis?\"criedGeneralIvolgin,suddenlyandangrily,comingcloseuptoRogojin。Theunexpectednessofthissallyonthepartofthehithertosilentoldmancausedsomelaughteramongtheintruders。
\"Halloa!what’sthisnow?\"laughedRogojin。\"Youcomealongwithme,oldfellow!Youshallhaveasmuchtodrinkasyoulike。\"
\"Oh,it’stoohorrible!\"criedpoorColia,sobbingwithshameandannoyance。
\"Surelytheremustbesomeoneamongallofyouherewhowillturnthisshamelesscreatureoutoftheroom?\"criedVaria,suddenly。
Shewasshakingandtremblingwithrage。
\"That’sme,Isuppose。I’mtheshamelesscreature!\"criedNastasiaPhilipovna,withamusedindifference。\"Dearme,andI
came——likeafool,asIam——toinvitethemovertomyhousefortheevening!Lookhowyoursistertreatsme,GavrilaArdalionovitch。\"
ForsomemomentsGaniastoodasifstunnedorstruckbylightning,afterhissister’sspeech。ButseeingthatNastasiaPhilipovnawasreallyabouttoleavetheroomthistime,hesprangatVariaandseizedherbythearmlikeamadman。
\"Whathaveyoudone?\"hehissed,glaringatherasthoughhewouldliketoannihilateheronthespot。Hewasquitebesidehimself,andcouldhardlyarticulatehiswordsforrage。
\"WhathaveIdone?Whereareyoudraggingmeto?\"
\"Doyouwishmetobegpardonofthiscreaturebecauseshehascomeheretoinsultourmotheranddisgracethewholehousehold,youlow,basewretch?\"criedVaria,lookingbackatherbrotherwithprouddefiance。
Afewmomentspassedastheystoodtherefacetoface,Ganiastillholdingherwristtightly。Variastruggledonce——twice——togetfree;thencouldrestrainherselfnolonger,andspatinhisface。
\"There’sagirlforyou!\"criedNastasiaPhilipovna。\"Mr。
Ptitsin,Icongratulateyouonyourchoice。\"
Ganialosthishead。ForgetfulofeverythingheaimedablowatVaria,whichwouldinevitablyhavelaidherlow,butsuddenlyanotherhandcaughthis。BetweenhimandVariastoodtheprince。
\"Enough——enough!\"saidthelatter,withinsistence,butallofatremblewithexcitement。
\"Areyougoingtocrossmypathforever,damnyou!\"criedGania;
and,looseninghisholdonVaria,heslappedtheprince’sfacewithallhisforce。
Exclamationsofhorroraroseonallsides。Theprincegrewpaleasdeath;hegazedintoGania’seyeswithastrange,wild,reproachfullook;hislipstrembledandvainlyendeavouredtoformsomewords;thenhismouthtwistedintoanincongruoussmile。
\"Verywell——nevermindaboutme;butIshallnotallowyoutostrikeher!\"hesaid,atlast,quietly。Then,suddenly,hecouldbearitnolonger,andcoveringhisfacewithhishands,turnedtothewall,andmurmuredinbrokenaccents:
\"Oh!howashamedyouwillbeofthisafterwards!\"
Ganiacertainlydidlookdreadfullyabashed。Coliarusheduptocomforttheprince,andafterhimcrowdedVaria,Rogojinandall,eventhegeneral。
\"It’snothing,it’snothing!\"saidtheprince,andagainheworethesmilewhichwassoinconsistentwiththecircumstances。
\"Yes,hewillbeashamed!\"criedRogojin。\"Youwillbeproperlyashamedofyourselfforhavinginjuredsucha——suchasheep\"hecouldnotfindabetterword。\"Prince,mydearfellow,leavethisandcomeawaywithme。I’llshowyouhowRogojinshowshisaffectionforhisfriends。\"
NastasiaPhilipovnawasalsomuchimpressed,bothwithGania’sactionandwiththeprince’sreply。
Herusuallythoughtful,paleface,whichallthiswhilehadbeensolittleinharmonywiththejestsandlaughterwhichshehadseemedtoputonfortheoccasion,wasnowevidentlyagitatedbynewfeelings,thoughshetriedtoconcealthefactandtolookasthoughshewereasreadyaseverforjestingandirony。
\"IreallythinkImusthaveseenhimsomewhere!\"shemurmuredseriouslyenough。
\"Oh,aren’tyouashamedofyourself——aren’tyouashamed?Areyoureallythesortofwomanyouaretryingtorepresentyourselftobe?Isitpossible?\"TheprincewasnowaddressingNastasia,inatoneofreproach,whichevidentlycamefromhisveryheart。
NastasiaPhilipovnalookedsurprised,andsmiled,butevidentlyconcealedsomethingbeneathhersmileandwithsomeconfusionandaglanceatGaniashelefttheroom。
However,shehadnotreachedtheouterhallwhensheturnedround,walkedquicklyuptoNinaAlexandrovna,seizedherhandandliftedittoherlips。
\"Heguessedquiteright。Iamnotthatsortofwoman,\"shewhisperedhurriedly,flushingredallover。Thensheturnedagainandlefttheroomsoquicklythatnoonecouldimaginewhatshehadcomebackfor。AlltheysawwasthatshesaidsomethingtoNinaAlexandrovnainahurriedwhisper,andseemedtokissherhand。Varia,however,bothsawandheardall,andwatchedNastasiaoutoftheroomwithanexpressionofwonder。
Ganiarecollectedhimselfintimetorushafterherinordertoshowherout,butshehadgone。Hefollowedhertothestairs。
\"Don’tcomewithme,\"shecried,\"Aurevoir,tilltheevening——doyouhear?Aurevoir!\"
Hereturnedthoughtfulandconfused;theriddlelayheavierthaneveronhissoul。Hewastroubledabouttheprince,too,andsobewilderedthathedidnotevenobserveRogojin’srowdybandcrowdpasthimandsteponhistoes,atthedoorastheywentout。Theywerealltalkingatonce。Rogojinwentaheadoftheothers,talkingtoPtitsin,andapparentlyinsistingvehementlyuponsomethingveryimportant\"You’velostthegame,Gania\"hecried,ashepassedthelatter。
Ganiagazedafterhimuneasily,butsaidnothing。
XI。
THEprincenowlefttheroomandshuthimselfupinhisownchamber。Coliafollowedhimalmostatonce,anxioustodowhathecouldtoconsolehim。Thepoorboyseemedtobealreadysoattachedtohimthathecouldhardlyleavehim。
\"Youwerequiterighttogoaway!\"hesaid。\"Therowwillragethereworsethanevernow;andit’slikethiseverydaywithus——
andallthroughthatNastasiaPhilipovna。\"
\"Youhavesomanysourcesoftroublehere,Colia,\"saidtheprince。
\"Yes,indeed,anditisallourownfault。ButIhaveagreatfriendwhoismuchworseoffeventhanweare。Wouldyouliketoknowhim?\"
\"Yes,verymuch。Isheoneofyourschool-fellows?\"
\"Well,notexactly。Iwilltellyouallabouthimsomeday……
WhatdoyouthinkofNastasiaPhilipovna?Sheisbeautiful,isn’tshe?Ihadneverseenherbefore,thoughIhadagreatwishtodoso。Shefascinatedme。IcouldforgiveGaniaifheweretomarryherforlove,butformoney!Ohdear!thatishorrible!\"
\"Yes,yourbrotherdoesnotattractmemuch。\"
\"Iamnotsurprisedatthat。Afterwhatyou……ButIdohatethatwayoflookingatthings!Becausesomefool,oraroguepretendingtobeafool,strikesaman,thatmanistobedishonouredforhiswholelife,unlesshewipesoutthedisgracewithblood,ormakeshisassailantbegforgivenessonhisknees!
Ithinkthatsoveryabsurdandtyrannical。Lermontoff’sBalMasqueisbasedonthatidea——astupidandunnaturalone,inmyopinion;buthewashardlymorethanachildwhenhewroteit。\"
\"Ilikeyoursisterverymuch。\"
\"DidyouseehowshespatinGania’sface!Variaisafraidofnoone。Butyoudidnotfollowherexample,andyetIamsureitwasnotthroughcowardice。Hereshecomes!Speakofawolfandyouseehistail!Ifeltsurethatshewouldcome。Sheisverygenerous,thoughofcourseshehasherfaults。\"
Variapounceduponherbrother。
\"Thisisnottheplaceforyou,\"saidshe。\"Gotofather。Isheplaguingyou,prince?\"
\"Notintheleast;onthecontrary,heinterestsme。\"
\"Scoldingasusual,Varia!Itistheworstthingabouther。Afterall,IbelievefathermayhavestartedoffwithRogojin。Nodoubtheissorrynow。PerhapsIhadbettergoandseewhatheisdoing,\"addedColia,runningoff。
\"ThankGod,Ihavegotmotheraway,andputhertobedwithoutanotherscene!Ganiaisworried——andashamed——notwithoutreason!
Whataspectacle!Ihavecometothankyouoncemore,prince,andtoaskyouifyouknewNastasiaPhilipovnabefore\"No,Ihaveneverknownher。\"
\"Thenwhatdidyoumean,whenyousaidstraightouttoherthatshewasnotreally’likethat’?Youguessedright,Ifancy。Itisquitepossibleshewasnotherselfatthemoment,thoughIcannotfathomhermeaning。Evidentlyshemeanttohurtandinsultus。I
haveheardcurioustalesaboutherbeforenow,butifshecametoinviteustoherhouse,whydidshebehavesotomymother?
Ptitsinknowsherverywell;hesayshecouldnotunderstandhertoday。WithRogojin,too!Noonewithasparkofself-respectcouldhavetalkedlikethatinthehouseofher……Motherisextremelyvexedonyouraccount,too……
\"Thatisnothing!\"saidtheprince,wavinghishand。
\"Buthowmeekshewaswhenyouspoketoher!\"
\"Meek!Whatdoyoumean?\"
\"Youtoldheritwasashameforhertobehaveso,andhermannerchangedatonce;shewaslikeanotherperson。Youhavesomeinfluenceoverher,prince,\"addedVaria,smilingalittle。
Thedooropenedatthispoint,andincameGaniamostunexpectedly。
HewasnotintheleastdisconcertedtoseeVariathere,buthestoodamomentatthedoor,andthenapproachedtheprincequietly。
\"Prince,\"hesaid,withfeeling,\"Iwasablackguard。Forgiveme!\"Hisfacegaveevidenceofsuffering。Theprincewasconsiderablyamazed,anddidnotreplyatonce。\"Oh,come,forgiveme,forgiveme!\"Ganiainsisted,ratherimpatiently。\"Ifyoulike,I’llkissyourhand。There!\"
Theprincewastouched;hetookGania’shands,andembracedhimheartily,whileeachkissedtheother。
\"Inever,neverthoughtyouwerelikethat,\"saidMuishkin,drawingadeepbreath。\"Ithoughtyou——youweren’tcapableof——\"
\"Ofwhat?Apologizing,eh?AndwhereonearthdidIgettheideathatyouwereanidiot?Youalwaysobservewhatotherpeoplepassbyunnoticed;onecouldtalksensetoyou,but——\"
\"Hereisanothertowhomyoushouldapologize,\"saidtheprince,pointingtoVaria。
\"No,no!theyareallenemies!I’vetriedthemoftenenough,believeme,\"andGaniaturnedhisbackonVariawiththesewords。
\"ButifIbegyoutomakeitup?\"saidVaria。
\"Andyou’llgotoNastasiaPhilipovna’sthisevening——\"
\"Ifyouinsist:but,judgeforyourself,canIgo,oughtItogo?\"
\"Butsheisnotthatsortofwoman,Itellyou!\"saidGania,angrily。\"Shewasonlyacting。\"
\"Iknowthat——Iknowthat;butwhataparttoplay!AndthinkwhatshemusttakeYOUfor,Gania!Iknowshekissedmother’shand,andallthat,butshelaughedatyou,allthesame。Allthisisnotgoodenoughforseventy-fivethousandroubles,mydearboy。Youarecapableofhonourablefeelingsstill,andthat’swhyIamtalkingtoyouso。Oh!DOtakecarewhatyouaredoing!Don’tyouknowyourselfthatitwillendbadly,Gania?\"
Sosaying,andinastateofviolentagitation,Varialefttheroom。
\"There,theyarealllikethat,\"saidGania,laughing,\"justasifIdonotknowallaboutitmuchbetterthantheydo。\"
Hesatdownwiththesewords,evidentlyintendingtoprolonghisvisit。
\"Ifyouknowitsowell,\"saidtheprincealittletimidly,\"whydoyouchooseallthisworryforthesakeoftheseventy-fivethousand,which,youconfess,doesnotcoverit?\"
\"Ididn’tmeanthat,\"saidGania;\"butwhileweareuponthesubject,letmehearyouropinion。Isallthisworryworthseventy-fivethousandornot?
\"Certainlynot。\"
\"Ofcourse!Anditwouldbeadisgracetomarryso,eh?\"
\"Agreatdisgrace。\"
\"Oh,well,thenyoumayknowthatIshallcertainlydoit,now。I
shallcertainlymarryher。Iwasnotquitesureofmyselfbefore,butnowIam。Don’tsayaword:Iknowwhatyouwanttotellme——\"
\"No。Iwasonlygoingtosaythatwhatsurprisesmemostofallisyourextraordinaryconfidence。\"
\"Howso?Whatin?\"
\"ThatNastasiaPhilipovnawillacceptyou,andthatthequestionisasgoodassettled;andsecondly,thatevenifshedid,youwouldbeabletopocketthemoney。Ofcourse,Iknowverylittleaboutit,butthat’smyview。Whenamanmarriesformoneyitoftenhappensthatthewifekeepsthemoneyinherownhands。\"
\"Ofcourse,youdon’tknowall;but,Iassureyou,youneedn’tbeafraid,itwon’tbelikethatinourcase。Therearecircumstances,\"saidGania,ratherexcitedly。\"Andastoheranswertome,there’snodoubtaboutthat。Whyshouldyousupposeshewillrefuseme?\"
\"Oh,IonlyjudgebywhatIsee。VarvaraArdalionovnasaidjustnow——\"
\"Ohshe——theydon’tknowanythingaboutit!NastasiawasonlychaffingRogojin。Iwasalarmedatfirst,butIhavethoughtbetterofitnow;shewassimplylaughingathim。ShelooksonmeasafoolbecauseIshowthatImeanthermoney,anddoesn’trealizethatthereareothermenwhowoulddeceiveherinfarworsefashion。I’mnotgoingtopretendanything,andyou’llseeshe’llmarryme,allright。Ifshelikestolivequietly,sosheshall;butifshegivesmeanyofhernonsense,Ishallleaveheratonce,butIshallkeepthemoney。I’mnotgoingtolookafool;that’sthefirstthing,nottolookafool。\"
\"ButNastasiaPhilipovnaseemstometobesuchaSENSIBLEwoman,and,assuch,whyshouldsherunblindlyintothisbusiness?
That’swhatpuzzlesmeso,\"saidtheprince。
\"Youdon’tknowall,yousee;Itellyoutherearethings——andbesides,I’msurethatsheispersuadedthatIlovehertodistraction,andIgiveyoumywordIhaveastrongsuspicionthatshelovesme,too——inherownway,ofcourse。Shethinksshewillbeabletomakeasortofslaveofmeallmylife;butI
shallpreparealittlesurpriseforher。Idon’tknowwhetherI
oughttobeconfidentialwithyou,prince;but,Iassureyou,youaretheonlydecentfellowIhavecomeacross。IhavenotspokensosincerelyasIamdoingatthismomentforyears。Thereareuncommonlyfewhonestpeopleabout,prince;thereisn’tonehonesterthanPtitsin,he’sthebestofthelot。Areyoulaughing?Youdon’tknow,perhaps,thatblackguardslikehonestpeople,andbeingonemyselfIlikeyou。WHYamIablackguard?
Tellmehonestly,now。Theyallcallmeablackguardbecauseofher,andIhavegotintothewayofthinkingmyselfone。That’swhatissobadaboutthebusiness。\"
\"Iforoneshallneverthinkyouablackguardagain,\"saidtheprince。\"IconfessIhadapooropinionofyouatfirst,butI
havebeensojoyfullysurprisedaboutyoujustnow;it’sagoodlessonforme。Ishallneverjudgeagainwithoutathoroughtrial。Iseenowthatyouareriotonlynotablackguard,butarenotevenquitespoiled。Iseethatyouarequiteanordinaryman,notoriginalintheleastdegree,butratherweak。\"
Ganialaughedsarcastically,butsaidnothing。Theprince,seeingthathedidnotquitelikethelastremark,blushed,andwassilenttoo。
\"Hasmyfatheraskedyouformoney?\"askedGania,suddenly。
\"No。\"
\"Don’tgiveittohimifhedoes。Fancy,hewasadecent,respectablemanonce!Hewasreceivedinthebestsociety;hewasnotalwaystheliarheisnow。Ofcourse,wineisatthebottomofitall;butheisagooddealworsethananinnocentliarnow。
Doyouknowthathekeepsamistress?Ican’tunderstandhowmotherissolong-sufferring。DidhetellyouthestoryofthesiegeofKars?Orperhapstheoneabouthisgreyhorsethattalked?Heloves,toenlargeontheseabsurdhistories。\"AndGaniaburstintoafitoflaughter。Suddenlyheturnedtotheprinceandasked:\"Whyareyoulookingatmelikethat?\"
\"Iamsurprisedtoseeyoulaughinthatway,likeachild。Youcametomakefriendswithmeagainjustnow,andyousaid,’I
willkissyourhand,ifyoulike,’justasachildwouldhavesaidit。Andthen,allatonceyouaretalkingofthismadproject——oftheseseventy-fivethousandroubles!Itallseemssoabsurdandimpossible。\"
\"Well,whatconclusionhaveyoureached?\"
\"Thatyouarerushingmadlyintotheundertaking,andthatyouwoulddowelltothinkitoveragain。ItismorethanpossiblethatVarvaraArdalionovnaisright。\"
\"Ah!nowyoubegintomoralize!IknowthatIamonlyachild,verywell,\"repliedGaniaimpatiently。\"Thatisprovedbymyhavingthisconversationwithyou。Itisnotformoneyonly,prince,thatIamrushingintothisaffair,\"hecontinued,hardlymasterofhiswords,socloselyhadhisvanitybeentouched。\"IfIreckonedonthatIshouldcertainlybedeceived,forIamstilltooweakinmindandcharacter。Iamobeyingapassion,animpulseperhaps,becauseIhavebutoneaim,onethatovermastersallelse。YouimaginethatonceIaminpossessionoftheseseventy-fivethousandroubles,Ishallrushtobuyacarriage……
No,IshallgoonwearingtheoldovercoatIhavewornforthreeyears,andIshallgiveupmyclub。Ishallfollowtheexampleofmenwhohavemadetheirfortunes。WhenPtitsinwasseventeenhesleptinthestreet,hesoldpen-knives,andbeganwithacopeck;nowhehassixtythousandroubles,buttogetthem,whathashenotdone?Well,Ishallbesparedsuchahardbeginning,andshallstartwithalittlecapital。Infifteenyearspeoplewillsay,’Look,that’sIvolgin,thekingoftheJews!’YousaythatIhavenooriginality。Nowmarkthis,prince——
thereisnothingsooffensivetoamanofourtimeandracethantobetoldthatheiswantinginoriginality,thatheisweakincharacter,hasnoparticulartalent,andis,inshort,anordinaryperson。Youhavenotevendonemethehonouroflookinguponmeasarogue。Doyouknow,Icouldhaveknockedyoudownforthatjustnow!YouwoundedmemorecruellythanEpanchin,whothinksmecapableofsellinghimmywife!Observe,itwasaperfectlygratuitousideaonhispart,seeingtherehasneverbeenanydiscussionofitbetweenus!Thishasexasperatedme,andIamdeterminedtomakeafortune!Iwilldoit!OnceIamrich,Ishallbeagenius,anextremelyoriginalman。Oneofthevilestandmosthatefulthingsconnectedwithmoneyisthatitcanbuyeventalent;andwilldosoaslongastheworldlasts。
Youwillsaythatthisischildish——orromantic。Well,thatwillbeallthebetterforme,butthethingshallbedone。Iwillcarryitthrough。Helaughsmost,wholaughslast。WhydoesEpanchininsultme?Simplybecause,socially,Iamanobody。
However,enoughforthepresent。Coliahasputhisnoseintotellusdinnerisready,twice。I’mdiningout。Ishallcomeandtalktoyounowandthen;youshallbecomfortableenoughwithus。Theyaresuretomakeyouoneofthefamily。IthinkyouandIwilleitherbegreatfriendsorenemies。Lookherenow,supposingIhadkissedyourhandjustnow,asIofferedtodoinallsincerity,shouldIhavehatedyouforitafterwards?\"
\"Certainly,butnotalways。Youwouldnothavebeenabletokeepitup,andwouldhaveendedbyforgivingme,\"saidtheprince,afterapauseforreflection,andwithapleasantsmile。
\"Oho,howcarefulonehastobewithyou,prince!Haven’tyouputadropofpoisoninthatremarknow,eh?Bytheway——ha,ha,ha!——
Iforgottoask,wasIrightinbelievingthatyouwereagooddealstruckyourselfwithNastasiaPhilipovna\"Ye-yes。\"
\"Areyouinlovewithher?\"
\"N-no。\"
\"Andyetyouflushupasredasarosebud!Come——it’sallright。
I’mnotgoingtolaughatyou。Doyouknowsheisaveryvirtuouswoman?Believeitornot,asyoulike。YouthinksheandTotski——
notabitofit,notabitofit!Notforeversolong!Aurevoir!\"
Ganialefttheroomingreatgoodhumour。Theprincestayedbehind,andmeditatedaloneforafewminutes。Atlength,Coliapoppedhisheadinoncemore。
\"Idon’twantanydinner,thanks,Colia。IhadtoogoodalunchatGeneralEpanchin’s。\"
Coliacameintotheroomandgavetheprinceanote;itwasfromthegeneralandwascarefullysealedup。ItwasclearfromColia’sfacehowpainfulitwastohimtodeliverthemissive。
Theprincereadit,rose,andtookhishat。
\"It’sonlyacoupleofyards,\"saidColia,blushing。
\"He’ssittingthereoverhisbottle——andhowtheycangivehimcredit,Icannotunderstand。Don’ttellmotherIbroughtyouthenote,prince;Ihaveswornnottodoitathousandtimes,butI’malwayssosorryforhim。Don’tstandonceremony,givehimsometrifle,andletthatendit。\"
\"Comealong,Colia,Iwanttoseeyourfather。Ihaveanidea,\"
saidtheprince。
XII。
Coliatooktheprincetoapublic-houseintheLitaynaya,notfaroff。Inoneofthesideroomstheresatatatable——lookinglikeoneoftheregularguestsoftheestablishment——ArdalionAlexandrovitch,withabottlebeforehim,andanewspaperonhisknee。Hewaswaitingfortheprince,andnosoonerdidthelatterappearthanhebeganalongharangueaboutsomethingorother;
butsofargonewashethattheprincecouldhardlyunderstandaword。
\"Ihavenotgotaten-roublenote,\"saidtheprince;\"buthereisatwenty-five。Changeitandgivemebackthefifteen,orIshallbeleftwithoutafarthingmyself。\"
\"Oh,ofcourse,ofcourse;andyouquiteunderstandthatI——\"
\"Yes;andIhaveanotherrequesttomake,general。HaveyoueverbeenatNastasiaPhilipovna’s?\"
\"I?I?Doyoumeanme?Often,myfriend,often!IonlypretendedIhadnotinordertoavoidapainfulsubject。Yousawtoday,youwereawitness,thatIdidallthatakind,anindulgentfathercoulddo。Nowafatherofaltogetheranothertypeshallstepintothescene。Youshallsee;theoldsoldiershalllaybarethisintrigue,orashamelesswomanwillforceherwayintoarespectableandnoblefamily。\"
\"Yes,quiteso。IwishedtoaskyouwhetheryoucouldshowmethewaytoNastasiaPhilipovna’stonight。Imustgo;Ihavebusinesswithher;IwasnotinvitedbutIwasintroduced。AnyhowIamreadytotrespassthelawsofproprietyifonlyIcangetinsomehoworother。\"
\"Mydearyoungfriend,youhavehitonmyveryidea。ItwasnotforthisrubbishIaskedyoutocomeoverhere\"hepocketedthemoney,however,atthispoint,\"itwastoinviteyourallianceinthecampaignagainstNastasiaPhilipovnatonight。Howwellitsounds,’GeneralIvolginandPrinceMuishkin。’That’llfetchher,Ithink,eh?Capital!We’llgoatnine;there’stimeyet。\"
\"Wheredoesshelive?\"
\"Oh,alongwayoff,neartheGreatTheatre,justinthesquarethere——Itwon’tbealargeparty。\"
Thegeneralsatonandon。Hehadorderedafreshbottlewhentheprincearrived;thistookhimanhourtodrink,andthenhehadanother,andanother,duringtheconsumptionofwhichhetoldprettynearlythewholestoryofhislife。Theprincewasindespair。HefeltthatthoughhehadbutappliedtothismiserableolddrunkardbecausehesawnootherwayofgettingtoNastasiaPhilipovna’s,yethehadbeenverywrongtoputtheslightestconfidenceinsuchaman。
Atlastheroseanddeclaredthathewouldwaitnolonger。Thegeneralrosetoo,drankthelastdropsthathecouldsqueezeoutofthebottle,andstaggeredintothestreet。
Muishkinbegantodespair。Hecouldnotimaginehowhehadbeensofoolishastotrustthisman。Heonlywantedonething,andthatwastogettoNastasiaPhilipovna’s,evenatthecostofacertainamountofimpropriety。Butnowthescandalthreatenedtobemorethanhehadbargainedfor。BythistimeArdalionAlexandrovitchwasquiteintoxicated,andhekepthiscompanionlisteningwhilehediscoursedeloquentlyandpatheticallyonsubjectsofallkinds,interspersedwithtorrentsofrecriminationagainstthemembersofhisfamily。Heinsistedthatallhistroubleswerecausedbytheirbadconduct,andtimealonewouldputanendtothem。
AtlasttheyreachedtheLitaynaya。Thethawincreasedsteadily,awarm,unhealthywindblewthroughthestreets,vehiclessplashedthroughthemud,andtheironshoesofhorsesandmulesrangonthepavingstones。Crowdsofmelancholypeopleploddedwearilyalongthefootpaths,withhereandthereadrunkenmanamongthem。
\"Doyouseethosebrightly-lightedwindows?\"saidthegeneral。
\"Manyofmyoldcomrades-in-armsliveabouthere,andI,whoservedlonger,andsufferedmorethananyofthem,amwalkingonfoottothehouseofawomanofratherquestionablereputation!
Aman,lookyou,whohasthirteenbulletsonhisbreast!……Youdon’tbelieveit?Well,IcanassureyouitwasentirelyonmyaccountthatPirogofftelegraphedtoParis,andleftSebastopolatthegreatestriskduringthesiege。Nelaton,theTuileriessurgeon,demandedasafeconduct,inthenameofscience,intothebesiegedcityinordertoattendmywounds。Thegovernmentknowsallaboutit。’That’stheIvolginwiththirteenbulletsinhim!’That’showtheyspeakofme……Doyouseethathouse,prince?Oneofmyoldfriendslivesonthefirstfloor,withhislargefamily。Inthisandfiveotherhouses,threeoverlookingNevsky,twointheMorskaya,areallthatremainofmypersonalfriends。NinaAlexandrovnagavethemuplongago,butIkeepintouchwiththemstill……ImaysayIfindrefreshmentinthislittlecoterie,inthusmeetingmyoldacquaintancesandsubordinates,whoworshipmestill,inspiteofall。GeneralSokolovitchbytheway,Ihavenotcalledonhimlately,orseenAnnaFedorovna……Youknow,mydearprince,whenapersondoesnotreceivecompanyhimself,hegivesupgoingtootherpeople’shousesinvoluntarily。Andyet……well……youlookasifyoudidn’tbelieveme……Wellnow,whyshouldInotpresentthesonofmyoldfriendandcompaniontothisdelightfulfamily——GeneralIvolginandPrinceMuishkin?Youwillseealovelygirl——whatamIsaying——alovelygirl?No,indeed,two,three!Ornamentsofthiscityandofsociety:beauty,education,culture——thewomanquestion——poetry——everything!Addedtowhichisthefactthateachonewillhaveadotofatleasteightythousandroubles。Nobadthing,eh?……InawordIabsolutelymustintroduceyoutothem:itisaduty,anobligation。GeneralIvolginandPrinceMuishkin。Tableau!\"
\"Atonce?Now?Youmusthaveforgotten……\"begantheprince。
\"No,Ihaveforgottennothing。Come!Thisisthehouse——upthismagnificentstaircase。Iamsurprisednottoseetheporter,but……itisaholiday……andthemanhasgoneoff……Drunkenfool!Whyhavetheynotgotridofhim?Sokolovitchowesallthehappinesshehashadintheserviceandinhisprivatelifetome,andmealone,but……hereweare。\"
Theprincefollowedquietly,makingnofurtherobjectionforfearofirritatingtheoldman。AtthesametimeheferventlyhopedthatGeneralSokolovitchandhisfamilywouldfadeawaylikeamirageinthedesert,sothatthevisitorscouldescape,bymerelyreturningdownstairs。ButtohishorrorhesawthatGeneralIvolginwasquitefamiliarwiththehouse,andreallyseemedtohavefriendsthere。Ateverystephenamedsometopographicalorbiographicaldetailthatleftnothingtobedesiredonthescoreofaccuracy。Whentheyarrivedatlast,onthefirstfloor,andthegeneralturnedtoringthebelltotheright,theprincedecidedtorunaway,butacuriousincidentstoppedhimmomentarily。
\"Youhavemadeamistake,general,\"saidhe。\"ThenameonthedoorisKoulakoff,andyouweregoingtoseeGeneralSokolovitch。\"
\"Koulakoff……Koulakoffmeansnothing。ThisisSokolovitch’sflat,andIamringingathisdoor……WhatdoIcareforKoulakoff?……Herecomessomeonetoopen。\"
Infact,thedooropeneddirectly,andthefootmaninformedthevisitorsthatthefamilywereallaway。
\"Whatapity!Whatapity!It’sjustmyluck!\"repeatedArdalionAlexandrovitchoverandoveragain,inregretfultones。\"Whenyourmasterandmistressreturn,myman,tellthemthatGeneralIvolginandPrinceMuishkindesiredtopresentthemselves,andthattheywereextremelysorry,excessivelygrieved……\"
Justthenanotherpersonbelongingtothehouseholdwasseenatthebackofthehall。Itwasawomanofsomefortyyears,dressedinsombrecolours,probablyahousekeeperoragoverness。Hearingthenamesshecameforwardwithalookofsuspiciononherface。
\"MarieAlexandrovnaisnotathome,\"saidshe,staringhardatthegeneral。\"Shehasgonetohermother’s,withAlexandraMichailovna。\"
\"AlexandraMichailovnaout,too!Howdisappointing!Wouldyoubelieveit,Iamalwayssounfortunate!MayImostrespectfullyaskyoutopresentmycomplimentstoAlexandraMichailovna,andremindher……tellher,thatwithmywholeheartIwishforherwhatshewishedforherselfonThursdayevening,whileshewaslisteningtoChopin’sBallade。Shewillremember。Iwishitwithallsincerity。GeneralIvolginandPrinceMuishkin!\"
Thewoman’sfacechanged;shelosthersuspiciousexpression。
\"Iwillnotfailtodeliveryourmessage,\"shereplied,andbowedthemout。
Astheywentdownstairsthegeneralregrettedrepeatedlythathehadfailedtointroducetheprincetohisfriends。
\"YouknowIamabitofapoet,\"saidhe。\"Haveyounoticedit?
Thepoeticsoul,youknow。\"Thenheaddedsuddenly——\"Butafterall……afterallIbelievewemadeamistakethistime!I
rememberthattheSokolovitch’sliveinanotherhouse,andwhatismore,theyarejustnowinMoscow。Yes,Icertainlywasatfault。However,itisofnoconsequence。\"
\"Justtellme,\"saidtheprinceinreply,\"mayIcountstillonyourassistance?OrshallIgoonalonetoseeNastasiaPhilipovna?\"
\"Countonmyassistance?Goalone?Howcanyouaskmethatquestion,whenitisamatteronwhichthefateofmyfamilysolargelydepends?Youdon’tknowIvolgin,myfriend。TotrustIvolginistotrustarock;that’showthefirstsquadronI
commandedspokeofme。’DependuponIvolgin,’saidtheyall,’heisassteadyasarock。’But,excuseme,Imustjustcallatahouseonourway,ahousewhereIhavefoundconsolationandhelpinallmytrialsforyears。\"
\"Youaregoinghome?\"
\"No……Iwish……tovisitMadameTerentieff,thewidowofCaptainTerentieff,myoldsubordinateandfriend。Shehelpsmetokeepupmycourage,andtobearthetrialsofmydomesticlife,andasIhaveanextraburdenonmymindtoday……\"
\"Itseemstome,\"interruptedtheprince,\"thatIwasfoolishtotroubleyoujustnow。However,atpresentyou……Good-bye!\"
\"Indeed,youmustnotgoawaylikethat,youngman,youmustnot!\"criedthegeneral。\"Myfriendhereisawidow,themotherofafamily;herwordscomestraightfromherheart,andfindanechoinmine。Avisittoherismerelyanaffairofafewminutes;Iamquiteathomeinherhouse。Iwillhaveawash,anddress,andthenwecandrivetotheGrandTheatre。Makeupyourmindtospendtheeveningwithme……Wearejustthere——that’sthehouse……Why,Colia!youhere!Well,isMarfaBorisovnaathomeorhaveyouonlyjustcome?\"
\"Ohno!Ihavebeenherealongwhile,\"repliedColia,whowasatthefrontdoorwhenthegeneralmethim。\"IamkeepingHippolytecompany。Heisworse,andhasbeeninbedallday。Icamedowntobuysomecards。MarfaBorisovnaexpectsyou。Butwhatastateyouarein,father!\"addedtheboy,noticinghisfather’sunsteadygait。\"Well,letusgoin。\"
OnmeetingColiatheprincedeterminedtoaccompanythegeneral,thoughhemadeuphismindtostayasshortatimeaspossible。
HewantedColia,butfirmlyresolvedtoleavethegeneralbehind。
HecouldnotforgivehimselfforbeingsosimpleastoimaginethatIvolginwouldbeofanyuse。ThethreeclimbedupthelongstaircaseuntiltheyreachedthefourthfloorwhereMadameTerentiefflived。
\"Youintendtointroducetheprince?\"askedColia,astheywentup。
\"Yes,myboy。Iwishtopresenthim:GeneralIvolginandPrinceMuishkin!Butwhat’sthematter?……what?……HowisMarfaBorisovna?\"
\"Youknow,father,youwouldhavedonemuchbetternottocomeatall!Sheisreadytoeatyouup!Youhavenotshownyourselfsincethedaybeforeyesterdayandsheisexpectingthemoney。
Whydidyoupromiseherany?Youarealwaysthesame!Well,nowyouwillhavetogetoutofitasbestyoucan。\"
Theystoppedbeforeasomewhatlowdoorwayonthefourthfloor。
ArdalionAlexandrovitch,evidentlymuchoutofcountenance,pushedMuishkininfront。
\"Iwillwaithere,\"hestammered。\"Ishouldliketosurpriseher……\"
Coliaenteredfirst,andasthedoorstoodopen,themistressofthehousepeepedout。Thesurpriseofthegeneral’simaginationfellveryflat,forsheatoncebegantoaddresshimintermsofreproach。
MarfaBorisovnawasaboutfortyyearsofage。Sheworeadressing-jacket,herfeetwereinslippers,herfacepainted,andherhairwasindozensofsmallplaits。NosoonerdidshecatchsightofArdalionAlexandrovitchthanshescreamed:
\"Thereheis,thatwicked,meanwretch!Iknewitwashe!Myheartmisgaveme!\"
Theoldmantriedtoputagoodfaceontheaffair。
\"Come,letusgoin——it’sallright,\"hewhisperedintheprince’sear。
Butitwasmoreseriousthanhewishedtothink。Assoonasthevisitorshadcrossedthelowdarkhall,andenteredthenarrowreception-room,furnishedwithhalfadozencanechairs,andtwosmallcard-tables,MadameTerentieff,intheshrilltoneshabitualtoher,continuedherstreamofinvectives。
\"Areyounotashamed?Areyounotashamed?Youbarbarian!Youtyrant!YouhaverobbedmeofallIpossessed——youhavesuckedmybonestothemarrow。HowlongshallIbeyourvictim?Shameless,dishonourableman!\"
\"MarfaBorisovna!MarfaBorisovna!Hereis……thePrinceMuishkin!GeneralIvolginandPrinceMuishkin,\"stammeredthedisconcertedoldman。
\"Wouldyoubelieve,\"saidthemistressofthehouse,suddenlyaddressingtheprince,\"wouldyoubelievethatthatmanhasnotevensparedmyorphanchildren?HehasstoleneverythingI
possessed,soldeverything,pawnedeverything;hehasleftmenothing——nothing!WhatamItodowithyourIOU’s,youcunning,unscrupulousrogue?Answer,devourerIanswer,heartofstone!
HowshallIfeedmyorphans?withwhatshallInourishthem?Andnowhehascome,heisdrunk!Hecanscarcelystand。How,ohhow,haveIoffendedtheAlmighty,thatHeshouldbringthiscurseuponme!Answer,youworthlessvillain,answer!\"
Butthiswastoomuchforthegeneral。
\"Herearetwenty-fiveroubles,MarfaBorisovna……itisallthatIcangive……andIoweeventhesetotheprince’sgenerosity——mynoblefriend。Ihavebeencruellydeceived。Suchis……life……Now……Excuseme,Iamveryweak,\"hecontinued,standinginthecentreoftheroom,andbowingtoallsides。\"Iamfaint;excuseme!Lenotchka……acushion……mydear!\"
Lenotchka,alittlegirlofeight,rantofetchthecushionatonce,andplaceditonthericketyoldsofa。Thegeneralmeanttohavesaidmuchmore,butassoonashehadstretchedhimselfout,heturnedhisfacetothewall,andsleptthesleepofthejust。
Withagraveandceremoniousair,MarfaBorisovnamotionedtheprincetoachairatoneofthecard-tables。Sheseatedherselfopposite,leanedherrightcheekonherhand,andsatinsilence,hereyesfixedonMuishkin,nowandagainsighingdeeply。Thethreechildren,twolittlegirlsandaboy,Lenotchkabeingtheeldest,cameandleantonthetableandalsostaredsteadilyathim。PresentlyColiaappearedfromtheadjoiningroom。
\"Iamverygladindeedtohavemetyouhere,Colia,\"saidtheprince。\"Canyoudosomethingforme?ImustseeNastasiaPhilipovna,andIaskedArdalionAlexandrovitchjustnowtotakemetoherhouse,buthehasgonetosleep,asyousee。Willyoushowmetheway,forIdonotknowthestreet?Ihavetheaddress,though;itisclosetotheGrandTheatre。\"
\"NastasiaPhilipovna?Shedoesnotlivethere,andtotellyouthetruthmyfatherhasneverbeentoherhouse!Itisstrangethatyoushouldhavedependedonhim!ShelivesnearWladimirStreet,attheFiveCorners,anditisquitecloseby。Willyougodirectly?Itisjusthalf-pastnine。Iwillshowyouthewaywithpleasure。\"
Coliaandtheprincewentofftogether。Alas!thelatterhadnomoneytopayforacab,sotheywereobligedtowalk。
\"IshouldhavelikedtohavetakenyoutoseeHippolyte,\"saidColia。\"Heistheeldestsonoftheladyyoumetjustnow,andwasinthenextroom。Heisill,andhasbeeninbedallday。Butheisratherstrange,andextremelysensitive,andIthoughthemightbeupsetconsideringthecircumstancesinwhichyoucame……Somehowittouchesmeless,asitconcernsmyfather,whileitisHISmother。That,ofcourse,makesagreatdifference。Whatisaterribledisgracetoawoman,doesnotdisgraceaman,atleastnotinthesameway。Perhapspublicopinioniswrongincondemningonesex,andexcusingtheother。
Hippolyteisanextremelycleverboy,butsoprejudiced。Heisreallyaslavetohisopinions。\"
\"Doyousayheisconsumptive?\"
\"Yes。Itreallywouldbehappierforhimtodieyoung。IfIwereinhisplaceIshouldcertainlylongfordeath。Heisunhappyabouthisbrotherandsisters,thechildrenyousaw。Ifitwerepossible,ifweonlyhadalittlemoney,weshouldleaveourrespectivefamilies,andlivetogetherinalittleapartmentofourown。Itisourdream。But,doyouknow,whenIwastalkingoveryouraffairwithhim,hewasangry,andsaidthatanyonewhodidnotcalloutamanwhohadgivenhimablowwasacoward。Heisveryirritableto-day,andIleftoffarguingthematterwithhim。SoNastasiaPhilipovnahasinvitedyoutogoandseeher?\"
\"Totellthetruth,shehasnot。\"
\"Thenhowdoyoucometobegoingthere?\"criedColia,somuchastonishedthathestoppedshortinthemiddleofthepavement。
\"And……andareyougoingtoherAtHomeinthatcostume?\"
\"Idon’tknow,really,whetherIshallbeallowedinatall。Ifshewillreceiveme,somuchthebetter。Ifnot,thematterisended。Astomyclothes——whatcanIdo?\"
\"Areyougoingthereforsomeparticularreason,oronlyasawayofgettingintohersociety,andthatofherfriends?\"
\"No,Ihavereallyanobjectingoing……Thatis,Iamgoingonbusinessitisdifficulttoexplain,but……\"
\"Well,whetheryougoonbusinessornotisyouraffair,Idonotwanttoknow。Theonlyimportantthing,inmyeyes,isthatyoushouldnotbegoingtheresimplyforthepleasureofspendingyoureveninginsuchcompany——cocottes,generals,usurers!IfthatwerethecaseIshoulddespiseandlaughatyou。
Thereareterriblyfewhonestpeoplehere,andhardlyanywhomonecanrespect,althoughpeopleputonairs——Variaespecially!
Haveyounoticed,prince,howmanyadventurerstherearenowadays?Especiallyhere,inourdearRussia。HowithashappenedInevercanunderstand。Thereusedtobeacertainamountofsolidityinallthings,butnowwhathappens?
Everythingisexposedtothepublicgaze,veilsarethrownback,everywoundisprobedbycarelessfingers。Weareforeverpresentatanorgyofscandalousrevelations。Parentsblushwhentheyremembertheirold-fashionedmorality。AtMoscowlatelyafatherwasheardurginghissontostopatnothing——atnothing,mindyou!——togetmoney!Thepressseizeduponthestory,ofcourse,andnowitispublicproperty。Lookatmyfather,thegeneral!Seewhatheis,andyet,Iassureyou,heisanhonestman!Only……hedrinkstoomuch,andhismoralsarenotallwecoulddesire。Yes,that’strue!Ipityhim,totellthetruth,butIdarenotsayso,becauseeverybodywouldlaughatme——butI
dopityhim!Andwhoarethereallyclevermen,afterall?Money-
grubbers,everyoneofthem,fromthefirsttothelast。
Hippolytefindsexcusesformoney-lending,andsaysitisanecessity。Hetalksabouttheeconomicmovement,andtheebbandflowofcapital;thedevilknowswhathemeans。Itmakesmeangrytohearhimtalkso,butheissouredbyhistroubles。Justimagine-thegeneralkeepshismother-butshelendshimmoney!Shelendsitforaweekortendaysatveryhighinterest!Isn’titdisgusting?Andthen,youwouldhardlybelieveit,butmymother——
NinaAlexandrovna——helpsHippolyteinallsortsofways,sendshimmoneyandclothes。Sheevengoesasfarashelpingthechildren,throughHippolyte,becausetheirmothercaresnothingaboutthem,andVariadoesthesame。\"
\"Well,justnowyousaidtherewerenohonestnorgoodpeopleabout,thattherewereonlymoney-grubbers——andheretheyarequitecloseathand,thesehonestandgoodpeople,yourmotherandVaria!Ithinkthereisagooddealofmoralstrengthinhelpingpeopleinsuchcircumstances。\"
\"Variadoesitfrompride,andlikesshowingoff,andgivingherselfairs。Astomymother,Ireallydoadmireher——yes,andhonourher。Hippolyte,hardenedasheis,feelsit。Helaughedatfirst,andthoughtitvulgarofher——butnow,heissometimesquitetouchedandovercomebyherkindness。H’m!Youcallthatbeingstrongandgood?Iwillrememberthat!Ganiaknowsnothingaboutit。Hewouldsaythatitwasencouragingvice。\"
\"Ah,Ganiaknowsnothingaboutit?ItseemstherearemanythingsthatGaniadoesnotknow,\"exclaimedtheprince,asheconsideredColia’slastwords。
\"Doyouknow,Ilikeyouverymuchindeed,prince?Ishallneverforgetaboutthisafternoon。\"
\"Ilikeyoutoo,Colia。\"
\"Listentome!Youaregoingtolivehere,areyounot?\"saidColia。\"Imeantogetsomethingtododirectly,andearnmoney。
Thenshallwethreelivetogether?You,andI,andHippolyte?Wewillhireaflat,andletthegeneralcomeandvisitus。Whatdoyousay?\"
\"Itwouldbeverypleasant,\"returnedtheprince。\"Butwemustsee。
Iamreallyratherworriedjustnow。What!arewetherealready?
Isthatthehouse?Whatalongflightofsteps!Andthere’saporter!Well,ColiaIdon’tknowwhatwillcomeofitall。\"
Theprinceseemedquitedistractedforthemoment。
\"Youmusttellmeallaboutittomorrow!Don’tbeafraid。Iwishyousuccess;weagreesoentirelyIthatcandoso,althoughIdonotunderstandwhyyouarehere。Good-bye!\"criedColiaexcitedly。
\"NowIwillrushbackandtellHippolyteallaboutourplansandproposals!Butastoyourgettingin——don’tbeintheleastafraid。Youwillseeher。Sheissooriginalabouteverything。It’sthefirstfloor。Theporterwillshowyou。\"
XIII。
THEprincewasverynervousashereachedtheouterdoor;buthedidhisbesttoencouragehimselfwiththereflectionthattheworstthingthatcouldhappentohimwouldbethathewouldnotbereceived,or,perhaps,received,thenlaughedatforcoming。
Buttherewasanotherquestion,whichterrifiedhimconsiderably,andthatwas:whatwashegoingtodowhenheDIDgetin?Andtothisquestionhecouldfashionnosatisfactoryreply。
IfonlyhecouldfindanopportunityofcomingcloseuptoNastasiaPhilipovnaandsayingtoher:\"Don’truinyourselfbymarryingthisman。Hedoesnotloveyou,heonlylovesyourmoney。Hetoldmesohimself,andsodidAglayaIvanovna,andI
havecomeonpurposetowarnyou\"——buteventhatdidnotseemquitealegitimateorpracticablethingtodo。Then,again,therewasanotherdelicatequestion,towhichhecouldnotfindananswer;darednot,infact,thinkofit;butattheveryideaofwhichhetrembledandblushed。However,inspiteofallhisfearsandheart-quakingshewentin,andaskedforNastasiaPhilipovna。
Nastasiaoccupiedamedium-sized,butdistinctlytasteful,flat,beautifullyfurnishedandarranged。AtoneperiodofthesefiveyearsofPetersburglife,Totskihadcertainlynotsparedhisexpenditureuponher。Hehadcalculateduponhereventuallove,andtriedtotemptherwithalavishoutlayuponcomfortsandluxuries,knowingtoowellhoweasilytheheartaccustomsitselftocomforts,andhowdifficultitistotearone’sselfawayfromluxurieswhichhavebecomehabitualand,littlebylittle,indispensable。
Nastasiadidnotrejectallthis,sheevenlovedhercomfortsandluxuries,but,strangelyenough,neverbecame,intheleastdegree,dependentuponthem,andalwaysgavetheimpressionthatshecoulddojustaswellwithoutthem。Infact,shewentsofarastoinformTotskionseveraloccasionsthatsuchwasthecase,whichthelattergentlemanconsideredaveryunpleasantcommunicationindeed。
But,oflate,TotskihadobservedmanystrangeandoriginalfeaturesandcharacteristicsinNastasia,whichhehadneitherknownnorreckoneduponinformertimes,andsomeofthesefascinatedhim,evennow,inspiteofthefactthatallhisoldcalculationswithregardtoherwerelongagocasttothewinds。
AmaidopenedthedoorfortheprinceNastasia’sservantswereallfemalesand,tohissurprise,receivedhisrequesttoannouncehimtohermistresswithoutanyastonishment。Neitherhisdirtyboots,norhiswide-brimmedhat,norhissleevelesscloak,norhisevidentconfusionofmanner,producedtheleastimpressionuponher。Shehelpedhimoffwithhiscloak,andbeggedhimtowaitamomentintheante-roomwhilesheannouncedhim。
ThecompanyassembledatNastasiaPhilipovna’sconsistedofnonebuthermostintimatefriends,andformedaverysmallpartyincomparisonwithherusualgatheringsonthisanniversary。
InthefirstplacetherewerepresentTotski,andGeneralEpanchin。Theywerebothhighlyamiable,butbothappearedtobelabouringunderahalf-hiddenfeelingofanxietyastotheresultofNastasia’sdeliberationswithregardtoGania,whichresultwastobemadepublicthisevening。
Then,ofcourse,therewasGaniawhowasbynomeanssoamiableashiselders,butstoodapart,gloomy,andmiserable,andsilent。HehaddeterminednottobringVariawithhim;butNastasiahadnotevenaskedafterher,thoughnosoonerhadhearrivedthanshehadremindedhimoftheepisodebetweenhimselfandtheprince。Thegeneral,whohadheardnothingofitbefore,begantolistenwithsomeinterest,whileGania,drily,butwithperfectcandour,wentthroughthewholehistory,includingthefactofhisapologytotheprince。Hefinishedbydeclaringthattheprincewasamostextraordinaryman,andgoodnessknowswhyhehadbeenconsideredanidiothitherto,forhewasveryfarfrombeingone。
Nastasialistenedtoallthiswithgreatinterest;buttheconversationsoonturnedtoRogojinandhisvisit,andthisthemeprovedofthegreatestattractiontobothTotskiandthegeneral。
PtitsinwasabletoaffordsomeparticularsastoRogojin’sconductsincetheafternoon。Hedeclaredthathehadbeenbusyfindingmoneyforthelattereversince,anduptonineo’clock,Rogojinhavingdeclaredthathemustabsolutelyhaveahundredthousandroublesbytheevening。HeaddedthatRogojinwasdrunk,ofcourse;butthathethoughtthemoneywouldbeforthcoming,fortheexcitedandintoxicatedraptureofthefellowimpelledhimtogiveanyinterestorpremiumthatwasaskedofhim,andtherewereseveralothersengagedinbeatingupthemoney,also。
Allthisnewswasreceivedbythecompanywithsomewhatgloomyinterest。Nastasiawassilent,andwouldnotsaywhatshethoughtaboutit。Ganiawasequallyuncommunicative。Thegeneralseemedthemostanxiousofall,anddecidedlyuneasy。Thepresentofpearlswhichhehadpreparedwithsomuchjoyinthemorninghadbeenacceptedbutcoldly,andNastasiahadsmiledratherdisagreeablyasshetookitfromhim。Ferdishenkowastheonlypersonpresentingoodspirits。
Totskihimself,whohadthereputationofbeingacapitaltalker,andwasusuallythelifeandsouloftheseentertainments,wasassilentasanyonthisoccasion,andsatinastateof,forhim,mostuncommonperturbation。
Therestoftheguestsanoldtutororschoolmaster,goodnessknowswhyinvited;ayoungman,verytimid,andshyandsilent;aratherloudwomanofaboutforty,apparentlyanactress;andaverypretty,well-dressedGermanladywhohardlysaidawordalltheeveningnotonlyhadnogiftforenliveningtheproceedings,buthardlyknewwhattosayforthemselveswhenaddressed。Underthesecircumstancesthearrivaloftheprincecamealmostasagodsend。
Theannouncementofhisnamegaverisetosomesurpriseandtosomesmiles,especiallywhenitbecameevident,fromNastasia’sastonishedlook,thatshehadnotthoughtofinvitinghim。Butherastonishmentonceover,Nastasiashowedsuchsatisfactionthatallpreparedtogreettheprincewithcordialsmilesofwelcome。
\"Ofcourse,\"remarkedGeneralEpanchin,\"hedoesthisoutofpureinnocence。It’salittledangerous,perhaps,toencouragethissortoffreedom;butitisratheragoodthingthathehasarrivedjustatthismoment。Hemayenlivenusalittlewithhisoriginalities。\"
\"Especiallyasheaskedhimself,\"saidFerdishenko。
\"What’sthatgottodowithit?\"askedthegeneral,wholoathedFerdishenko。
\"Why,hemustpaytollforhisentrance,\"explainedthelatter。
\"H’m!PrinceMuishkinisnotFerdishenko,\"saidthegeneral,impatiently。ThisworthygentlemancouldneverquitereconcilehimselftotheideaofmeetingFerdishenkoinsociety,andonanequalfooting。
\"Ohgeneral,spareFerdishenko!\"repliedtheother,smiling。\"I
havespecialprivileges。\"
\"Whatdoyoumeanbyspecialprivileges?\"
\"OncebeforeIhadthehonourofstatingthemtothecompany。I
willrepeattheexplanationto-dayforyourexcellency’sbenefit。