AsIhadnothingparticulartodo,IwenttoaFrenchbooksellerinwhoseshopImadetheacquaintanceofawittyhunchback,andImustsaythatahunchbackwithoutwitisaragaavis;Ihavefounditsoinallcountries。Ofcourseitisnotwitwhichgivesthehump,for,thankGod,allwittymenarenothumpbacked,butwemaywellsaythatasageneralrulethehumpgiveswit,fortheverysmallnumberofhunchbackswhohavelittleornowitonlyconfirmstherule:TheoneIwasalludingtojustnowwascalledDubois—Chateleraux。Hewasaskilfulengraver,anddirectoroftheMintofParmafortheInfante,althoughthatprincecouldnotboastofsuchaninstitution。
Ispentanhourwiththewittyhunchback,whoshewedmeseveralofhisengravings,andIreturnedtothehotelwhereIfoundtheHungarianwaitingtoseeHenriette。Hedidnotknowthatshewouldthatmorningreceiveusintheattireofhersex。Thedoorwasthrownopen,andabeautiful,charmingwomanmetuswithacourtesyfullofgrace,whichnolongerremindedusofthestiffnessorofthetoogreatfreedomwhichbelongtothemilitarycostume。Hersuddenappearancecertainlyastonishedus,andwedidnotknowwhattosayorwhattodo。Sheinvitedustobeseated,lookedatthecaptaininafriendlymanner,andpressedmyhandwiththewarmestaffection,butwithoutgivingwayanymoretothatoutwardfamiliaritywhichayoungofficercanassume,butwhichdoesnotsuitawell—educatedlady。Hernobleandmodestbearingsooncompelledmetoputmyselfinunisonwithher,andIdidsowithoutdifficulty,forshewasnotactingapart,andthewayinwhichshehadresumedhernaturalcharactermadeiteasyformetofollowheronthatground。
Iwasgazingatherwithadmiration,and,urgedbyafeelingwhichI
didnottaketimetoanalyze,Itookherhandtokissitwithrespect,but,withoutgivingmeanopportunityofraisingittomylips,sheofferedmeherlovelymouth。Neverdidakisstastesodelicious。
\"AmInotthenalwaysthesame?\"saidshetome,withdeepfeeling。
\"No,heavenlycreature,anditissotruethatyouarenolongerthesameinmyeyesthatIcouldnotnowuseanyfamiliaritytowardsyou。
Youarenolongerthewitty,freeyoungofficerwhotoldMadameQueriniaboutthegameofPharaoh,endaboutthedepositsmadetoyourbankbythecaptaininsoniggardlyamannerthattheywerehardlyworthmentioning。\"
\"Itisverytruethat,wearingthecostumeofmysex,Ishouldneverdaretouttersuchwords。Yet,dearestfriend,itdoesnotpreventmybeingyourHenriette——thatHenriettewhohasinherlifebeenguiltyofthreeescapades,thelastofwhichwouldhaveutterlyruinedmeifithadnotbeenforyou,butwhichIcalladelightfulerror,sinceithasbeenthecauseofmyknowingyou。\"
ThosewordsmovedmesodeeplythatIwasonthepointofthrowingmyselfatherfeet,toentreathertoforgivemefornothavingshewnhermorerespect,butHenriette,whosawthestateinwhichIwas,andwhowantedtoputanendtothepatheticscene,begantoshakeourpoorcaptain,whosatasmotionlessasastatue,andasifhehadbeenpetrified。Hefeltashamedathavingtreatedsuchawomanasanadventuress,forheknewthatwhathenowsawwasnotanillusion。
Hekeptlookingatherwithgreatconfusion,andbowingmostrespectfully,asifhewantedtoatoneforhispastconducttowardsher。AsforHenriette,sheseemedtosaytohim,butwithouttheshadowofareproach;
\"Iamgladthatyouthinkmeworthmorethantensequins。\"
Wesatdowntodinner,andfromthatmomentshedidthehonoursofthetablewiththeperfecteaseofapersonwhoisaccustomedtofulfilthatdifficultduty。Shetreatedmelikeabelovedhusband,andthecaptainlikearespectedfriend。ThepoorHungarianbeggedmetotellherthatifhehadseenher,asshewasnow,inCivitaVecchia,whenshecameoutofthetartan,heshouldneverhavedreamedofdispatchinghisciceronetoherroom。
\"Oh!tellhimthatIdonotdoubtit。Butisitnotstrangethatapoorlittlefemaledressshouldcommandmorerespectthanthegarbofanofficer?\"
\"Praydonotabusetheofficer’scostume,foritistoitthatIamindebtedformyhappiness。\"
\"Yes,\"shesaid,withalovingsmile,\"asIoweminetothesbirriofCesena。\"
Weremainedforalongtimeatthetable,andourdelightfulconversationturneduponnoothertopicthanourmutualfelicity。
Ifithadnotbeenfortheuneasinessofthepoorcaptain,whichatlaststruckus,weshouldneverhaveputastopeithertothedinnerorto,ourcharmingprattle。
CHAPTERII
IEngageaBoxattheOpera,inSpiteofHenriette’sReluctance——
M。DuboisPaysUsaVisitandDineswithUs;MyDarlingPlaysHimaTrick——HenrietteArguesonHappiness——WeCallonDubois,andMyWifeDisplaysHerMarvellousTalent——M。DutillotTheCourtgivesaSplendidEntertainmentintheDucalGardens——AFatalMeeting——IHaveanInterviewwithM。D’Antoine,theFavouriteoftheInfanteofSpainThehappinessIwasenjoyingwastoocompletetolastlong。Iwasfatedtoloseit,butImustnotanticipateevents。MadamedeFrance,wifeoftheInfanteDonPhilip,havingarrivedinParma,theoperahousewasopened,andIengagedaprivatebox,tellingHenriettethatIintendedtotakehertothetheatreeverynight。
Shehadseveraltimesconfessedthatshehadagreatpassionformusic,andIhadnodoubtthatshewouldbepleasedwithmyproposal。
ShehadneveryetseenanItalianopera,andIfeltcertainthatshewishedtoascertainwhethertheItalianmusicdeserveditsuniversalfame。ButIwasindeedsurprisedwhensheexclaimed,\"What,dearest!Youwishtogoeveryeveningtotheopera?\"
\"Ithink,mylove,that,ifwedidnotgo,weshouldgivesomeexcuseforscandal—mongerstogossip。Yet,shouldyounotlikeit,youknowthatthereisnoneedforustogo。Donotthinkofme,forIpreferourpleasantchatinthisroomtotheheavenlyconcertoftheseraphs。\"
\"Iampassionatelyfondofmusic,darling,butIcannothelptremblingattheideaofgoingout。\"
\"Ifyoutremble,Imustshudder,butweoughttogototheoperaorleaveParma。LetusgotoLondonortoanyotherplace。Giveyourorders,Iamreadytodoanythingyoulike。\"
\"Well,takeaprivateboxaslittleexposedaspossible。\"
\"Howkindyouare!\"
TheboxIhadengagedwasinthesecondtier,butthetheatrebeingsmallitwasdifficultforaprettywomantoescapeobservation。
Itoldherso。
\"Idonotthinkthereisanydanger,\"sheanswered;\"forIhavenotseenthenameofanypersonofmyacquaintanceinthelistofforeignerswhichyougavemetoread。\"
ThusdidHenriettegototheopera。Ihadtakencarethatourboxshouldnotbelightedup。Itwasanopera—buffa,themusicofBurellanowasexcellent,andthesingerswereverygood。
Henriettemadenouseofheropera—glassexcepttolookonthestage,andnobodypaidanyattentiontous。Asshehadbeengreatlypleasedwiththefinaleofthesecondact,Ipromisedtogetitforher,andIaskedDuboistoprocureitforme。Thinkingthatshecouldplaytheharpsichord,Iofferedtogetone,butshetoldmethatshehadnevertouchedthatinstrument。
OnthenightofthefourthorfifthperformanceM。Duboiscametoourbox,andasIdidnotwishtointroducehimtomyfriend,IonlyaskedwhatIcoulddoforhim。HethenhandedmethemusicIhadbeggedhimtopurchaseforme,andIpaidhimwhatithadcost,offeringhimmybestthanks。Aswewerejustoppositetheducalbox,Iaskedhim,forthesakeofsayingsomething,whetherhehadengravedtheportraitsoftheirhighnesses。Heansweredthathehadalreadyengravedtwomedals,andIgavehimanorderforboth,ingold。Hepromisedtoletmehavethem,andleftthebox。Henriettehadnotevenlookedathim,andthatwasaccordingtoallestablishedrules,asIhadnotintroducedhim,butthenextmorninghewasannouncedaswewereatdinner。M。delaHaye,whowasdiningwithus,complimentedusuponhavingmadetheacquaintanceofDubois,andintroducedhimtohispupilthemomenthecameintotheroom。ItwasthenrightforHenriettetowelcomehim,whichshedidmostgracefully。
Aftershehadthankedhimforthe’partizione’,shebeggedhewouldgethersomeothermusic,andtheartistacceptedherrequestasafavourgrantedtohim。
\"Sir,\"saidDuboistome,\"Ihavetakenthelibertyofbringingthemedalsyouwishedtohave;heretheyare。\"
OnoneweretheportraitsoftheInfanteandhiswife,ontheotherwasengravedonlytheheadofDonPhilip。Theywerebothbeautifullyengraved,andweexpressedourjustadmiration。\"Theworkmanshipisbeyondallprice,\"saidHenriette,\"butthegoldcanbebarteredforothergold。\"\"Madam,\"answeredthemodestartist,\"themedalsweightsixteensequins。\"Shegavehimtheamountimmediately,andinvitedhimtocallagainatdinner—time。Coffeewasjustbroughtinatthatmoment,andsheaskedhimtotakeitwithus。Beforesweeteninghiscup,sheenquiredwhetherhelikedhiscoffeeverysweet。
\"Yourtaste,madam,\"answeredthehunchback,gallantly,\"issuretobemine。\"
\"ThenyouhaveguessedthatIalwaysdrinkcoffeewithoutsugar。I
amgladwehavethattasteincommon。\"
Andshegracefullyofferedhimthecupofcoffeewithoutsugar。ShethenhelpedDelaHayeandme,notforgettingtoputplentyofsugarinourcups,andshepouredoutoneforherselfexactlyliketheoneshehandedtoDubois。Itwasmuchadoformenottolaugh,formymischievousFrench—woman,wholikedhercoffeeintheParisianfashion,thatistosayverysweet,wassippingthebitterbeveragewithanairofdelightwhichcompelledthedirectoroftheMinttosmileundertheinfliction。Butthecunninghunchbackwasevenwithher;acceptingthepenaltyofhisfoolishcompliment,andpraisingthegoodqualityofthecoffee,heboldlydeclaredthatitwastheonlywaytotastethedeliciousaromaofthepreciousberry。
WhenDuboisandDelaHayehadleftus,webothlaughedatthetrick。
\"But,\"saidItoHenriette,\"youwillbethefirstvictimofyourmischief,forwheneverhedineswithus,youmustkeepupthejoke,inordernottobetrayyourself。\"
\"Oh!Icaneasilycontrivetodrinkmycoffeewellsweetened,andtomakehimdrainthebittercup。\"
Attheendofonemonth,HenriettecouldspeakItalianfluently,anditwasowingmoretotheconstantpracticeshehadeverydaywithmycousinJeanneton,whoactedashermaid,thantothelessonsofProfessordelaHaye。Thelessonsonlytaughthertherules,andpracticeisnecessarytoacquirealanguage。Ihaveexperienceditmyself。IlearnedmoreFrenchduringthetooshortperiodthatI
spentsohappilywithmycharmingHenriettethaninallthelessonsI
hadtakenfromDalacqua。
Wehadattendedtheoperatwentytimeswithoutmakinganyacquaintance,andourlifewasindeedsupremelyhappy。IneverwentoutwithoutHenriette,andalwaysinacarriage;weneverreceivedanyone,andnobodyknewus。Duboiswastheonlyperson,sincethedepartureofthegoodHungarian,whosometimesdinedwithus;IdonotreckonDelaHaye,whowasadailyguestatourtable。Duboisfeltgreatcuriosityaboutus,buthewascunninganddidnotshewhiscuriosity;wewerereservedwithoutaffectation,andhisinquisitivenesswasatfault。OnedayhementionedtousthatthecourtoftheInfanteofParmawasverybrilliantsincethearrivalofMadamedeFrance,andthatthereweremanyforeignersofbothsexesinthecity。Then,turningtowardsHenriette,hesaidtoher;
\"Mostoftheforeignladieswhomwehavehereareunknowntous。\"
\"Verylikely,manyofthemwouldnotshewthemselvesiftheywereknown。\"
\"Verylikely,madam,asyousay,butIcanassureyouthat,eveniftheirbeautyandtherichnessoftheirtoiletmadethemconspicuous,oursovereignswishforfreedom。Istillhope,madam,thatweshallhavethehappinessofseeingyouatthecourtoftheduke。\"
\"Idonotthinkso,for,inmyopinion,itissuperlativelyridiculousforaladytogotothecourtwithoutbeingpresented,particularlyifshehasarighttobeso。\"
Thelastwords,onwhichHenriettehadlaidalittlemorestressthanuponthefirstpartofheranswer,struckourlittlehunchbackdumb,andmyfriend,improvingheropportunity,changedthesubjectofconversation。
Whenhehadgoneweenjoyedthecheckshehadthusgiventotheinquisitivenessofourguest,butItoldHenriettethat,ingoodconscience,sheoughttoforgiveallthosewhomsherenderedcurious,because……shecutmywordsshortbycoveringmewithlovingkisses。
Thussupremelyhappy,andfindinginoneanotherconstantsatisfaction,wewouldlaughatthosemorosephilosopherswhodenythatcompletehappinesscanbefoundonearth。
\"Whatdotheymean,darling——thosecrazyfools——bysayingthathappinessisnotlasting,andhowdotheyunderstandthatword?Iftheymeaneverlasting,immortal,unintermitting,ofcoursetheyareright,butthelifeofmannotbeingsuch,happiness,asanaturalconsequence,cannotbesucheither。Otherwise,everyhappinessislastingfortheveryreasonthatitdoesexist,andtobelastingitrequiresonlytoexist。Butifbycompletefelicitytheyunderstandaseriesofvariedandnever—interruptedpleasures,theyarewrong,because,byallowingaftereachpleasurethecalmwhichoughttofollowtheenjoymentofit,wehavetimetorealizehappinessinitsreality。Inotherwordsthosenecessaryperiodsofreposeareasourceoftrueenjoyment,because,thankstothem,weenjoythedelightofrecollectionwhichincreasestwofoldtherealityofhappiness。Mancanbehappyonlywheninhisownmindherealizeshishappiness,andcalmisnecessarytogivefullplaytohismind;
thereforewithoutcalmmanwouldtrulyneverbecompletelyhappy,andpleasure,inordertobefelt,mustceasetobeactive。Thenwhatdotheymeanbythatwordlasting?
\"Everydaywereachamomentwhenwelongforsleep,and,althoughitbetheverylikenessofnon—existence,cananyonedenythatsleepisapleasure?No,atleastitseemstomethatitcannotbedeniedwithconsistency,for,themomentitcomestous,wegiveitthepreferenceoverallotherpleasures,andwearegratefultoitonlyafterithasleftus。
\"Thosewhosaythatnoonecanbehappythroughoutlifespeaklikewisefrivolously。Philosophyteachesthesecretofsecuringthathappiness,providedoneisfreefrombodilysufferings。Afelicitywhichwouldthuslastthroughoutlifecouldbecomparedtoanosegayformedofathousandflowerssobeautifully,soskillfullyblendedtogether,thatitwouldlookonesingleflower。Whyshoulditbeimpossibleforustospendherethewholeofourlifeaswehavespentthelastmonth,alwaysingoodhealth,alwayslovingoneanother,withouteverfeelinganyotherwantoranyweariness?Then,tocrownthathappiness,whichwouldcertainlybeimmense,allthatwouldbewantedwouldbetodietogether,inanadvancedage,speakingtothelastmomentofourpleasantrecollections。Surelythatfelicitywouldhavebeenlasting。Deathwouldnotinterruptit,fordeathwouldendit。Wecouldnot,eventhen,supposeourselvesunhappyunlesswedreadedunhappinessafterdeath,andsuchanideastrikesmeasabsurd,foritisacontradictionoftheideaofanalmightyandfatherlytenderness。\"
ItwasthusthatmybelovedHenriettewouldoftenmakemespenddelightfulhours,talkingphilosophicsentiment。HerlogicwasbetterthanthatofCiceroinhisTusculanDisputations,butsheadmittedthatsuchlastingfelicitycouldexistonlybetweentwobeingswholivedtogether,andlovedeachotherwithconstantaffection,healthyinmindandinbody,enlightened,sufficientlyrich,similarintastes,indisposition,andintemperament。Happyarethoseloverswho,whentheirsensesrequirerest,canfallbackupontheintellectualenjoymentsaffordedbythemind!Sweetsleepthencomes,andlastsuntilthebodyhasrecovereditsgeneralharmony。Onawaking,thesensesareagainactiveandalwaysreadytoresumetheiraction。
Theconditionsofexistenceareexactlythesameformanasfortheuniverse,Imightalmostsaythatbetweenthemthereisperfectidentity,forifwetaketheuniverseaway,mankindnolongerexists,andifwetakemankindaway,thereisnolongeranuniverse;whocouldrealizetheideaoftheexistenceofinorganicmatter?Now,withoutthatidea,’nihilest’,sincetheideaistheessenceofeverything,andsincemanalonehasideas。Besides,ifweabstractthespecies,wecannolongerimaginetheexistenceofmatter,andviceversa。
IderivedfromHenrietteasgreathappinessasthatcharmingwomanderivedfromme。Welovedoneanotherwithallthestrengthofourfaculties,andwewereeverythingtoeachother。ShewouldoftenrepeatthoseprettylinesofthegoodLa,Fontaine:
’Soyez—vousl’unal’autreunmondetoujoursbeau,Toujoursdivers,toujoursnouveau;
Tenez—vouslieudetout;comptezpourrienlereste。’
Andwedidnotfailtoputtheadviceintopractice,forneverdidaminuteofennuiorofweariness,neverdidtheslightesttrouble,disturbourbliss。
Thedayafterthecloseoftheopera,Dubois,whowasdiningwithus,saidthatonthefollowingdayhewasentertainingthetwofirstartists,’primocantatore’and’primacantatrice’,andaddedthat,ifwelikedtocome,wewouldhearsomeoftheirbestpieces,whichtheyweretosinginaloftyhallofhiscountry—houseparticularlyadaptedtothedisplayofthehumanvoice。Henriettethankedhimwarmly,butshesaidthat,herhealthbeingverydelicate,shecouldnotengageherselfbeforehand,andshespokeofotherthings。
Whenwewerealone,IaskedherwhyshehadrefusedthepleasureofferedbyDubois。
\"Ishouldaccepthisinvitation,\"sheanswered,\"andwithdelight,ifIwerenotafraidofmeetingathishousesomepersonwhomightknowme,andwoulddestroythehappinessIamnowenjoyingwithyou。\"
\"Ifyouhaveanyfreshmotivefordreadingsuchanoccurrence,youarequiteright,butifitisonlyavague,groundlessfear,mylove,whyshouldyoudepriveyourselfofarealandinnocentpleasure?IfyouknewhowpleasedIamwhenIseeyouenjoyyourself,andparticularlywhenIwitnessyourecstacyinlisteningtofinemusic!\"
\"Well,darling,Idonotwanttoshewmyselflessbravethanyou。Wewillgoimmediatelyafterdinner。Theartistswillnotsingbefore。
Besides,ashedoesnotexpectus,heisnotlikelytohaveinvitedanypersoncurioustospeaktome。Wewillgowithoutgivinghimnoticeofourcoming,withoutbeingexpected,andasifwewantedtopayhimafriendlyvisit。Hetoldusthathewouldbeathiscountry—house,andCaudagnaknowswhereitis。\"
Herreasonswereamixtureofprudenceandoflove,twofeelingswhichareseldomblendedtogether。Myanswerwastokissherwithasmuchadmirationastenderness,andthenextdayatfouro’clockintheafternoonwepaidourvisittoM。Dubois。Weweremuchsurprised,forwefoundhimalonewithaveryprettygirl,whomhepresentedtousashisniece。
\"Iamdelightedtoseeyou,\"hesaid,\"butasIdidnotexpecttoseeyouIalteredmyarrangements,andinsteadofthedinnerIhadintendedtogiveIhaveinvitedmyfriendstosupper。Ihopeyouwillnotrefusemethehonourofyourcompany。Thetwovirtuosiwillsoonbehere。\"
Wewerecompelledtoaccepthisinvitation。
\"Willtherebemanyguests?\"Ienquired。
\"Youwillfindyourselvesinthemidstofpeopleworthyofyou,\"heanswered,triumphantly。\"IamonlysorrythatIhavenotinvitedanyladies。\"
Thispoliteremark,whichwasintendedforHenriette,madeherdrophimacurtsy,whichsheaccompaniedwithasmile。Iwaspleasedtoreadcontentmentonhercountenance,but,alas!shewasconcealingthepainfulanxietywhichshefeltacutely。Hernoblemindrefusedtoshewanyuneasiness,andIcouldnotguessherinmostthoughtsbecauseIhadnoideathatshehadanythingtofear。
IshouldhavethoughtandacteddifferentlyifIhadknownallherhistory。InsteadofremaininginParmaIshouldhavegonewithhertoLondon,andIknownowthatshewouldhavebeendelightedtogothere。
Thetwoartistsarrivedsoonafterwards;theywerethe’primocantatore’Laschi,andthe’primadonna’Baglioni,thenaveryprettywoman。Theotherguestssoonfollowed;allofthemwereFrenchmenandSpaniardsofacertainage。Nointroductionstookplace,andI
readthetactofthewittyhunchbackintheomission,butasalltheguestsweremenusedtothemannersofthecourt,thatneglectofetiquettedidnotpreventthemfrompayingeveryhonourtomylovelyfriend,whoreceivedtheircomplimentswiththateaseandgoodbreedingwhichareknownonlyinFrance,andeventhereonlyinthehighestsociety,withtheexception,however,ofafewFrenchprovincesinwhichthenobility,wronglycalledgoodsociety,shewrathertooopenlythehaughtinesswhichischaracteristicofthatclass。
Theconcertbeganbyamagnificentsymphony,afterwhichLaschiandBaglionisangaduetwithgreattalentandmuchtaste。TheywerefollowedbyapupilofthecelebratedVandini,whoplayedaconcertoonthevioloncello,andwaswarmlyapplauded。
TheapplausehadnotyetceasedwhenHenriette,leavingherseat,wentuptotheyoungartist,andtoldhim,withmodestconfidence,asshetookthevioloncellofromhim,thatshecouldbringoutthebeautifultoneoftheinstrumentstillbetter。Iwasstruckwithamazement。Shetooktheyoungman’sseat,placedthevioloncellobetweenherknees,andbeggedtheleaderoftheorchestratobegintheconcertoagain。Thedeepestsilenceprevailed。Iwastremblingallover,andalmostfainting。FortunatelyeverylookwasfixeduponHenriette,andnobodythoughtofme。Norwasshelookingtowardsme,shewouldnothavethenventuredevenoneglance,forshewouldhavelostcourage,ifshehadraisedherbeautifuleyestomyface。
However,notseeingherdisposingherselftoplay,Iwasbeginningtoimaginethatshehadonlybeenindulginginajest,whenshesuddenlymadethestringsresound。MyheartwasbeatingwithsuchforcethatIthoughtIshoulddropdowndead。
Butletthereaderimaginemysituationwhen,theconcertobeingover,well—meritedapplauseburstfromeverypartoftheroom!Therapidchangefromextremefeartoexcessivepleasurebroughtonanexcitementwhichwaslikeaviolentfever。TheapplausedidnotseemtohaveanyeffectuponHenriette,who,withoutraisinghereyesfromthenoteswhichshesawforthefirsttime,playedsixpieceswiththegreatestperfection。Assherosefromherseat,shedidnotthanktheguestsfortheirapplause,but,addressingtheyoungartistwithaffability,shetoldhim,withasweetsmile,thatshehadneverplayedonafinerinstrument。Then,curtsyingtotheaudience,shesaid,\"Ientreatyourforgivenessforamovementofvanitywhichhasmademeencroachonyourpatienceforhalfanhour。\"
Thenobilityandgraceofthisremarkcompletelyupsetme,andIranouttoweeplikeachild,inthegardenwherenoonecouldseeme。
\"Whoisshe,thisHenriette?\"Isaidtomyself,myheartbeating,andmyeyesswimmingwithtearsofemotion,\"whatisthistreasureIhaveinmypossession?\"
MyhappinesswassoimmensethatIfeltmyselfunworthyofit。
Lostinthesethoughtswhichenhancedthepleasureofanytears,I
shouldhavestayedforalongtuneinthegardenifDuboishadnotcomeouttolookforme。Hefeltanxiousaboutme,owingtomysuddendisappearance,andIquietedhimbysayingthataslightgiddinesshadcompelledmetocomeouttobreathethefreshair。
Beforere—enteringtheroom,Ihadtimetodrymytears,butmyeyelidswerestillred。Henriette,however,wastheonlyonetotakenoticeofit,andshesaidtome,\"Iknow,mydarling,whyyouwentintothegarden\"
Sheknewmesowellthatshecouldeasilyguesstheimpressionmadeonmyheartbytheevening’soccurrence。
Duboishadinvitedthemostamiablenoblemenofthecourt,andhissupperwasdaintyandwellarranged。IwasseatedoppositeHenriettewhowas,asamatterofcourse,monopolizingthegeneralattention,butshewouldhavemetwiththesamesuccessifshehadbeensurroundedbyacircleofladieswhomshewouldcertainlyhavethrownintotheshadebyherbeauty,herwit,andthedistinctionofhermanners。Shewasthecharmofthatsupperbytheanimationsheimpartedtotheconversation。M。Duboissaidnothing,buthewasproudtohavesuchalovelyguestinhishouse。Shecontrivedtosayafewgraciouswordstoeveryone,andwasshrewdenoughnevertouttersomethingwittywithoutmakingmetakeashareinit。Onmyside,Iopenlyshewedmysubmissiveness,mydeference,andmyrespectforthatdivinity,butitwasallinvain。ShewantedeverybodytoknowthatIwasherlordandmaster。Shemighthavebeentakenformywife,butmybehaviourtoherrenderedsuchasuppositionimprobable。
TheconversationhavingfallenontherespectivemeritsoftheFrenchandSpanishnations,DuboiswasfoolishenoughtoaskHenriettetowhichshegavepreference。
Itwouldhavebeendifficulttoaskamoreindiscreetquestion,consideringthatthecompanywascomposedalmostentirelyofFrenchmenandSpaniardsinaboutequalproportion。YetmyHenrietteturnedthedifficultysocleverlythattheFrenchmenwouldhavelikedtobeSpaniards,and’viceversa’。Dubois,nothingdaunted,beggedhertosaywhatshethoughtoftheItalians。Thequestionmademetremble。AcertainM。delaCombe,whowasseatednearme,shookhisheadintokenofdisapprobation,butHenriettedidnottrytoeludethequestion。
\"WhatcanIsayabouttheItalians,\"sheanswered,\"Iknowonlyone?
IfIamtojudgethemallfromthatonemyjudgmentmustcertainlybemostfavourabletothem,butonesingleexampleisnotsufficienttoestablishtherule。\"
Itwasimpossibletogiveabetteranswer,butasmyreadersmaywellimagine,Ididnotappeartohaveheardit,andbeinganxioustopreventanymoreindiscreetquestionsfromDuboisIturnedtheconversationintoadifferentchannel。
Thesubjectofmusicwasdiscussed,andaSpaniardaskedHenriettewhethershecouldplayanyotherinstrumentbesidesthevioloncello。
\"No,\"sheanswered,\"Ineverfeltanyinclinationforanyother。I
learnedthevioloncelloattheconventtopleasemymother,whocanplayitprettywell,andwithoutanorderfrommyfather,sanctionedbythebishop,theabbesswouldneverhavegivenmepermissiontopractiseit。\"
\"Whatobjectioncouldtheabbessmake?\"
\"ThatdevoutspouseofourLordpretendedthatIcouldnotplaythatinstrumentwithoutassuminganindecentposition。\"
AtthistheSpanishguestsbittheirlips,buttheFrenchmenlaughedheartily,anddidnotsparetheirepigramsagainsttheover—
particularabbess。
Afterashortsilence,Henrietterose,andweallfollowedherexample。Itwasthesignalforbreakinguptheparty,andwesoontookourleave。
Ilongedtofindmyselfalonewiththeidolofmysoul。Iaskedherahundredquestionswithoutwaitingfortheanswers。
\"Ah!youwereright,myownHenriette,whenyourefusedtogotothatconcert,foryouknewthatyouwouldraisemanyenemiesagainstme。Iamcertainthatallthosemenhateme,butwhatdoIcare?
Youaremyuniverse!Crueldarling,youalmostkilledmewithyourvioloncello,because,havingnoideaofyourbeingamusician,I
thoughtyouhadgonemad,andwhenIheardyouIwascompelledtoleavetheroominordertoweepundisturbed。Mytearsrelievedmyfearfuloppression。Oh!Ientreatyoutotellmewhatothertalentsyoupossess。Tellmecandidly,foryoumightkillmeifyoubroughtthemoutunexpectedly,asyouhavedonethisevening。\"
\"Ihavenootheraccomplishments,mybestbeloved。Ihaveemptiedmybagallatonce。NowyouknowyourHenrietteentirely。Hadyounotchancedtotellmeaboutamonthagothatyouhadnotasteformusic,IwouldhavetoldyouthatIcouldplaythevioloncelloremarkablywell,butifIhadmentionedsuchathing,Iknowyouwellenoughtobecertainthatyouwouldhaveboughtaninstrumentimmediately,andIcouldnot,dearest,findpleasureinanythingthatwouldwearyyou。\"
Theverynextmorningshehadanexcellentvioloncello,and,farfromwearyingme,eachtimesheplayedshecausedmeanewandgreaterpleasure。Ibelievethatitwouldbeimpossibleeventoamandislikingmusicnottobecomepassionatelyfondofit,ifthatartwerepractisedtoperfectionbythewomanheadores。
The’voxhumana’ofthevioloncello;thekingofinstruments,wenttomyhearteverytimethatmybelovedHenrietteperformeduponit。SheknewIlovedtohearherplay,andeverydaysheaffordedmethatpleasure。HertalentdelightedmesomuchthatIproposedtohertogivesomeconcerts,butshewasprudentenoughtorefusemyproposal。
Butinspiteofallherprudencewehadnopowertohinderthedecreesoffate。
Thefatalhunchbackcamethedayafterhisfinesuppertothankusandtoreceiveourwell—meritedpraisesofhisconcert,hissupper,andthedistinctionofhisguests。
\"Iforesee,madam,\"hesaidtoHenriette,\"allthedifficultyIshallhaveindefendingmyselfagainsttheprayersofallmyfriends,whowillbegofmetointroducethemtoyou。\"
\"Youneednothavemuchtroubleonthatscore:youknowthatInever,receiveanyone。\"
Duboisdidnotagainventureuponspeakingofintroducinganyfriend。
OnthesamedayIreceivedaletterfromyoungCapitani,inwhichheinformedmethat,beingtheownerofSt。Peter’sknifeandsheath,hehadcalledonFranziawithtwolearnedmagicianswhohadpromisedtoraisethetreasureoutoftheearth,andthattohisgreatsurpriseFranziahadrefusedtoreceivehim:Heentreatedmetowritetotheworthyfellow,andtogotohimmyselfifIwantedtohavemyshareofthetreasure。IneednotsaythatIdidnotcomplywithhiswishes,butIcanvouchfortherealpleasureIfeltinfindingthatIhadsucceededinsavingthathonestandsimplefarmerfromtheimpostorswhowouldhaveruinedhim。
OnemonthwasgonesincethegreatsuppergivenbyDubois。Wehadpasseditinalltheenjoymentwhichcanbederivedbothfromthesensesandthemind,andneverhadonesingleinstantofwearinesscausedeitherofustobeguiltyofthatsadsymptomofmiserywhichiscalledayawn。Theonlypleasurewetookoutofdoorswasadriveoutsideofthecitywhentheweatherwasfine。Asweneverwalkedinthestreets,andneverfrequentedanypublicplace,noonehadsoughttomakeouracquaintance,oratleastnoonehadfoundanopportunityofdoingso,inspiteofallthecuriosityexcitedbyHenrietteamongstthepersonswhomwehadchancedtomeet,particularlyatthehouseofDubois。Henriettehadbecomemorecourageous,andImoreconfident,whenwefoundthatshehadnotbeenrecognizedbyanyoneeitheratthatsupperoratthetheatre。Sheonlydreadedpersonsbelongingtothehighnobility。
OnedayasweweredrivingoutsidetheGateofColorno,wemetthedukeandduchesswhowerereturningtoParma。Immediatelyaftertheircarriageanothervehicledrovealong,inwhichwasDuboiswithanoblemanunknowntous。Ourcarriagehadonlygoneafewyardsfromtheirswhenoneofourhorsesbrokedown。ThecompanionofDuboisimmediatelyorderedhiscoachmantostopinordertosendtoourassistance。Whilstthehorsewasraisedagain,hecamepolitelytoourcarriage,andpaidsomecivilcomplimenttoHenriette。
M。Dubois,alwaysashrewdcourtierandanxioustoshewoffattheexpenseofothers,lostnotimeinintroducinghimasM。Dutillot,theFrenchambassador。Mysweetheartgavetheconventionalbow。Thehorsebeingallrightagain,weproceededonourroadafterthankingthegentlemenfortheircourtesy。Suchanevery—dayoccurrencecouldnotbeexpectedtohaveanyseriousconsequences,butalas!themostimportanteventsareoftentheresultofverytriflingcircumstances!
Thenextday,Duboisbreakfastedwithus。HetoldusfranklythatM。Dutillothadbeendelightedatthefortunatechancewhichhadaffordedhimanopportunityofmakingouracquaintance,andthathehadentreatedhimtoaskourpermissiontocallonus。
\"Onmadamoronme?\"Iaskedatonce。
\"Onboth。\"
\"Verywell,butoneatatime。Madam,asyouknow,hasherownroomandIhavemine。\"
\"Yes,buttheyaresoneareachother!\"
\"Granted,yetImusttellyouthat,asfarasIamconcerned,I
shouldhavemuchpleasureinwaitinguponhisexcellencyifheshouldeverwishtocommunicatewithme,andyouwillobligemebylettinghimknowit。Asformadam,sheishere,speaktoher,mydearM。
Dubois,forIamonlyherveryhumbleservant。\"
Henrietteassumedanairofcheerfulpoliteness,andsaidtohim,\"Sir,IbegyouwilloffermythankstoM。Dutillot,andenquirefromhimwhetherheknowsme。\"
\"Iamcertain,madam,\"saidthehunchback,\"thathedoesnot。\"
\"Youseehedoesnotknowme,andyethewishestocallonme。YoumustagreewithmethatifIacceptedhisvisitsIshouldgivehimasingularopinionofmycharacter。Begoodenoughtotellhimthat,althoughknowntonooneandknowingnoone,Iamnotanadventuress,andthereforeImustdeclinethehonourofhisvisits。\"
Duboisfeltthathehadtakenafalsestep,andremainedsilent。Weneveraskedhimhowtheambassadorhadreceivedourrefusal。
Threeweeksafterthelastoccurrence,theducalcourtresidingthenatColorno,agreatentertainmentwasgiveninthegardenswhichweretobeilluminatedallnight。Everybodyhadpermissiontowalkaboutthegardens。Dubois,thefatalhunchbackappointedbydestiny,spokesomuchofthatfestival,thatwetookafancytoseeit。AlwaysthesamestoryofAdam’sapple。Duboisaccompaniedus。WewenttoColornothedaybeforetheentertainment,andputupataninn。
Intheeveningwewalkedthroughthegardens,inwhichwehappenedtomeettheducalfamilyandsuite。AccordingtotheetiquetteoftheFrenchcourt,MadamedeFrancewasthefirsttocurtsytoHenriette,withoutstopping。MyeyesfelluponagentlemanwalkingbythesideofDonLouis,whowaslookingatmyfriendveryattentively。Afewminutesafter,aswewereretracingoursteps,wecameacrossthesamegentlemanwho,afterbowingrespectfullytous,tookDuboisaside。Theyconversedtogetherforaquarterofanhour,followingusallthetime,andwewerepassingoutofthegardens,whenthegentleman,comingforward,andpolitelyapologizingtome,askedHenriettewhetherhehadthehonourtobeknowntoher。
\"Idonotrecollecthavingeverhadthehonourofseeingyoubefore。\"
\"Thatisenough,madam,andIentreatyoutoforgiveme。\"
DuboisinformedusthatthegentlemanwastheintimatefriendoftheInfanteDonLouis,andthat,believingheknewmadam,hehadbeggedtobeintroduced。DuboishadansweredthathernamewasD’Arci,andthat,ifhewasknowntothelady,herequirednointroduction。
M。d’AntoinesaidthatthenameofD’Arciwasunknowntohim,andthathewasafraidofmakingamistake。\"Inthatstateofdoubt,\"
addedDubois,\"andwishingtoclearit,heintroducedhimself,butnowhemustseethathewasmistaken。\"
Aftersupper,Henrietteappearedanxious。IaskedherwhethershehadonlypretendednottoknowM。d’Antoine。
\"No,dearest,Icanassureyou。IknowhisnamewhichbelongstoanillustriousfamilyofProvence,butIhaveneverseenhimbefore。\"
\"Perhapshemayknowyou?\"
\"Hemighthaveseenme,butIamcertainthatheneverspoketome,orIwouldhaverecollectedhim。\"
\"Thatmeetingcausesmegreatanxiety,anditseemstohavetroubledyou。\"
\"Iconfessithasdisturbedmymind。\"
\"LetusleaveParmaatonceandproceedtoGenoa。WewillgotoVeniceassoonasmyaffairstherearesettled。\"
\"Yes,mydearfriend,weshallthenfeelmorecomfortable。ButIdonotthinkweneedbeinanyhurry。\"
WereturnedtoParma,andtwodaysafterwardsmyservanthandedmealetter,sayingthatthefootmanwhohadbroughtitwaswaitingintheante—room。
\"Thisletter,\"IsaidtoHenriette,\"troublesme。\"
Shetookit,andaftershehadreadit——shegaveitbacktome,saying,\"IthinkM。d’Antoineisamanofhonour,andIhopethatwemayhavenothingtofear。\"
Theletterranas,follows:
\"Eitheratyourhoteloratmyresidence,oratanyotherplaceyoumaywishtoappoint,Ientreatyou,sir,togivemeanopportunityofconversingwithyouonasubjectwhichmustbeofthegreatestimportancetoyou。
\"Ihavethehonourtobe,etc。
\"D’ANTOINE。\"
ItwasaddressedM。Farusi。
\"IthinkImustseehim,\"Isaid,\"butwhere?\"
\"Neitherherenorathisresidence,butintheducalgardens。Youranswermustnameonlytheplaceandthehourofthemeeting。\"
IwrotetoM。d’AntoinethatIwouldseehimathalf—pastelevenintheducalgardens,onlyrequestinghimtoappointanotherhourincaseminewasnotconvenienttohim。
Idressedmyselfatonceinordertobeingoodtime,andmeanwhilewebothendeavoured,HenrietteandI,tokeepacheerfulcountenance,butwecouldnotsilenceoursadforebodings。IwasexacttomyappointmentandfoundM。d’Antoinewaitingforme。Assoonasweweretogether,hesaidtome,\"Ihavebeencompelled,sir,tobegfromyouthefavourofaninterview,becauseIcouldnotimagineanysurerwaytogetthislettertoMadamed’Arci’shands。Ientreatyoutodeliverittoher,andtoexcusemeifIgiveityousealed。ShouldIbemistaken,myletterwillnotevenrequireananswer,butshouldIberight,Madamed’Arcialonecanjudgewhethersheoughttocommunicateittoyou。
Thatismyreasonforgivingittoyousealed。Ifyouaretrulyherfriend,thecontentsofthatlettermustbeasinterestingtoyouastoher。MayIhope,sir,thatyouwillbegoodenoughtodeliverittoher?\"
\"Sir,onmyhonourIwilldoit。\"
Webowedrespectfullytoeachother,andpartedcompany。Ihurriedbacktothehotel。
CHAPTERIII
HenrietteReceivestheVisitofM。d’AntoineIAccompanyHerasFarasGenevaandThenILoseHer——ICrosstheSt。Bernard,andReturntoParma——ALetterfromHensiette——MyDespairDeLaHayeBecomesAttachedtoMe——UnpleasantAdventurewithanActressandItsConsequences——ITurnaThoroughBigot——Bavois——IMystifyaBraggingOfficer。
AssoonasIhadreachedourapartment,myheartburstingwithanxiety,IrepeatedtoHenrietteeverywordspokenbyM。d’Antoine,anddeliveredhisletterwhichcontainedfourpagesofwriting。Shereaditattentivelywithvisibleemotion,andthenshesaid,\"Dearestfriend,donotbeoffended,butthehonouroftwofamiliesdoesnotallowofmyimpartingtoyouthecontentsofthisletter。I
amcompelledtoreceiveM。d’Antoine,whorepresentshimselfasbeingoneofmyrelatives。\"
\"Ah!\"Iexclaimed,\"thisisthebeginningoftheend!Whatadreadfulthought!Iamneartheendofafelicitywhichwastoogreattolast!WretchthatIhavebeen!WhydidItarrysolonginParma?Whatfatalblindness!Ofallthecitiesinthewholeworld,exceptFrance,ParmawastheonlyoneIhadtofear,anditisherethatIhavebroughtyou,whenIcouldhavetakenyouanywhereelse,foryouhadnowillbutmine!Iamallthemoreguiltythatyouneverconcealedyourfearsfromme。WhydidIintroducethatfatalDuboishere?OughtInottohaveguessedthathiscuriositywouldsoonerorlaterproveinjurioustous?AndyetIcannotcondemnthatcuriosity,foritis,alas!anaturalfeeling。IcanonlyaccusealltheperfectionswhichHeavenhasbestoweduponyou!——perfectionswhichhavecausedmyhappiness,andwhichwillplungemeinanabyssofdespair,for,alas!Iforeseeafutureoffearfulmisery。\"
\"Ientreatyou,dearest,toforeseenothing,andtocalmyourself。
Letusavailourselvesofallourreasoninordertoproveourselvessuperiortocircumstances,whatevertheymaybe。Icannotanswerthisletter,butyoumustwritetoM。d’Antoinetocallheretomorrowandtosenduphisname。\"
\"Alas!youcompelmetoperformapainfultask。\"
\"Youaremybest,myonlyfriend;Idemandnothing,Iimposenotaskuponyou,butcanyourefuseme?\"
\"No,never,nomatterwhatyouask。Disposeofme,Iamyoursinlifeanddeath。\"
\"Iknewwhatyouwouldanswer。YoumustbewithmewhenM。
d’Antoinecalls,butafterafewminutesgiventoetiquette,willyoufindsomepretexttogotoyourroom,andleaveusalone?
M。d’Antoineknowsallmyhistory;heknowsinwhatIhavedonewrong,inwhatIhavebeenright;asamanofhonour,asmyrelative,hemustsheltermefromallaffront。Heshallnotdoanythingagainstmywill,andifheattemptstodeviatefromtheconditionsI
willdictatetohim,IwillrefusetogotoFrance,Iwillfollowyouanywhere,anddevotetoyoutheremainderofmylife。Yet,mydarling,recollectthatsomefatalcircumstancesmaycompelustoconsiderourseparationasthewisestcoursetoadopt,thatwemusthusbandallourcouragetoadoptit,ifnecessary,andtoendeavournottobetoounhappy。
Haveconfidenceinme,andbequitecertainthatIshalltakecaretoreserveformyselfthesmallportionofhappinesswhichIcanbeallowedtoenjoywithoutthemanwhoalonehaswonallmydevotedlove。Youwillhave,Itrust,andIexpectitfromyourgeneroussoul,thesamecareofyourfuture,andIfeelcertainthatyoumustsucceed。Inthemeantime,letusdriveawayallthesadforebodingswhichmightdarkenthehourswehaveyetbeforeus。\"
\"Ah!whydidwenotgoawayimmediatelyafterwehadmetthataccursedfavouriteoftheInfante!\"
\"Wemighthavemademattersmuchworse;forinthatcaseM。d’Antoinemighthavemadeuphismindtogivemyfamilyaproofofhiszealbyinstitutingasearchtodiscoverourplaceofresidence,andIshouldthenhavebeenexposedtoviolentproceedingswhichyouwouldnothaveendured。Itwouldhavebeenfataltobothofus。\"
Idideverythingsheaskedme。Fromthatmomentourlovebecamesad,andsadnessisadiseasewhichgivesthedeath—blowtoaffection。Wewouldoftenremainawholehouroppositeeachotherwithoutexchangingasingleword,andoursighswouldbeheardwhateverwedidtohushthem。
Thenextday,whenM。d’Antoinecalled,Ifollowedexactlytheinstructionsshehadgivenme,andforsixmortalhoursIremainedalone,pretendingtowrite。
Thedoorofmyroomwasopen,andalargelooking—glassallowedustoseeeachother。Theyspentthosesixhoursinwriting,occasionallystoppingtotalkofIdonotknowwhat,buttheirconversationwasevidentlyadecisiveone。ThereadercaneasilyrealizehowmuchI
sufferedduringthatlongtorture,forIcouldexpectnothingbutthetotalwreckofmyhappiness。
AssoonastheterribleM。d’Antoinehadtakenleaveofher,Henriettecametome,andobservingthathereyeswereredIheavedadeepsigh,butshetriedtosmile。
\"Shallwegoawayto—morrow,dearest?\"
\"Oh!yes,Iamready。Wheredoyouwishmetotakeyou?\"
\"Anywhereyoulike,butwemustbehereinafortnight。\"
\"Here!Oh,fatalillusion!\"
\"Alas!itisso。IhavepromisedtobeheretoreceivetheanswertoaletterIhavejustwritten。Wehavenoviolentproceedingstofear,butIcannotbeartoremaininParma。\"
\"Ah!Icursethehourwhichbroughtustothiscity。WouldyouliketogotoMilan?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Asweareunfortunatelycompelledtocomeback,wemayaswelltakewithusCaudagnaandhissister。\"
\"Asyouplease。\"
\"Letmearrangeeverything。Iwillorderacarriageforthem,andtheywilltakechargeofyourvioloncello。DoyounotthinkthatyououghttoletM。d’Antoineknowwherewearegoing?\"
\"No,itseemstome,onthecontrary,thatIneednotaccounttohimforanyofmyproceedings。Somuchtheworseforhimifheshould,evenforonemoment,doubtmyword。\"
Thenextmorning,weleftParma,takingonlywhatwewantedforanabsenceofafortnight。WearrivedinMilanwithoutaccident,butbothverysad,andwespentthefollowingfifteendaysinconstanttete—a—tete,withoutspeakingtoanyone,exceptthelandlordofthehotelandtoadressmaker。IpresentedmybelovedHenriettewithamagnificentpelissemadeoflynxfur——apresentwhichsheprizedhighly。
Outofdelicacy,shehadneverenquiredaboutmymeans,andIfeltgratefultoherforthatreserve。Iwasverycarefultoconcealfromherthefactthatmypursewasgettingverylight。WhenwecamebacktoParmaIhadonlythreeorfourhundredsequins。
ThedayafterourreturnM。d’Antoineinvitedhimselftodinewithus,andafterwehaddrunkcoffee,IlefthimalonewithHenriette。
Theirinterviewwasaslongasthefirst,andourseparationwasdecided。Sheinformedmeofit,immediatelyafterthedepartureofM。d’Antoine,andforalongtimeweremainedfoldedineachother’sarms,silent,andblendingourbittertears。
\"WhenshallIhavetopartfromyou,mybeloved,alas!toomuchbelovedone?\"
\"Becalm,dearest,onlywhenwereachGeneva,whitheryouaregoingtoaccompanyme。Willyoutrytofindmearespectablemaidbyto—morrow?ShewillaccompanymefromGenevatotheplacewhereIamboundtogo。\"
\"Oh!then,weshallspendafewdaysmoretogether!IknownoonebutDuboiswhomIcouldtrusttoprocureagoodfemme—de—chambre;
onlyIdonotwanthimtolearnfromherwhatyoumightnotwishhimtoknow。\"
\"Thatwillnotbethecase,forIwilltakeanothermaidassoonasI
aminFrance。\"
Threedaysafterwards,Dubois,whohadgladlyundertakenthecommission,presentedtoHenrietteawomanalreadysomewhatadvancedinyears,prettywelldressedandrespectable—looking,who,beingpoor,wasgladofanopportunityofgoingbacktoFrance,hernativecountry。Herhusband,anoldmilitaryofficer,haddiedafewmonthsbefore,leavinghertotallyunprovidedfor。Henrietteengagedher,andtoldhertokeepherselfreadytostartwheneverM。Duboisshouldgivehernotice。Thedaybeforetheonefixedforourdeparture,M。
d’Antoinedinedwithus,and,beforetakingleaveofus,hegaveHenrietteasealedletterforGeneva。
WeleftParmalateintheevening,andstoppedonlytwohoursinTurin,inordertoengageamanservantwhoseserviceswerequiredasfarasGeneva。ThenextdayweascendedMontCenisinsedan—chairs,andwedescendedtotheNovalaiseinmountain—sledges。OnthefifthdaywereachedGeneva,andweputupattheHoteldesBalances。Thenextmorning,HenriettegavemealetterforthebankerTronchin,who,whenhehadreadit,toldmethathewouldcallhimselfatthehotel,andbringmeonethousandlouisd’or。
Icamebackandwesatdowntodinner。Wehadnotfinishedourmealwhenthebankerwasannounced。Hehadbroughtthethousandlouisd’or,andtoldHenriettethathewouldgivehertwomenwhomhecouldrecommendineveryway。
SheansweredthatshewouldleaveGenevaassoonasshehadthecarriagewhichhewastoprovideforher,accordingtotheletterI
haddeliveredtohim。Hepromisedthateverythingwouldbereadyforthefollowingday,andheleftus。Itwasindeedaterriblemoment!
Griefalmostbenumbedusboth。Weremainedmotionless,speechless,wrappedupinthemostprofounddespair。
IbrokethatsadsilencetotellherthatthecarriagewhichM。
Tronchinwouldprovidecouldnotpossiblybeascomfortableandassafeasmine,andIentreatedhertotakeit,assuringherthatbyacceptingitshewouldgivemealastproofofheraffection。
\"Iwilltakeinexchange,mydearestlove,thecarriagesentbythebanker。\"
\"Iacceptthechange,darling,\"sheanswered,\"itwillbeagreatconsolationtopossesssomethingwhichhasbelongedtoyou。\"
Asshesaidthesewords,sheslippedinmypocketfiverollscontainingeachonehundredlouisd’or——aslightconsolationformyheart,whichwasalmostbrokenbyourcruelseparation!Duringthelasttwenty—fourhourswecouldboastofnoothereloquencebutthatwhichfindsexpressionintears,insobs,andinthosehackneyedbutenergeticexclamations,whichtwohappyloversaresuretoaddresstoreason,wheninitssternnessitcompelsthemtopartfromoneanotherintheveryheightoftheirfelicity。Henriettedidnotendeavourtoluremewithanyhopeforthefuture,inordertoallaymysorrow!Farfromthat,shesaidtome,\"Oncewearepartedbyfate,mybestandonlyfriend,neverenquireafterme,and,shouldchancethrowyouinmyway,donotappeartoknowme。\"
ShegavemealetterforM。d’Antoine,withoutaskingmewhetherI
intendedtogobacktoParma,but,evenifsuchhadnotbeenmyintention,Ishouldhavedeterminedatonceuponreturningtothatcity。ShelikewiseentreatedmenottoleaveGenevauntilIhadreceivedaletterwhichshepromisedto,writetomefromthefirststageonherjourney。Shestartedatday—break,havingwithheramaid,afootmanontheboxofthecarriage,andbeingprecededbyacourieronhorseback。IfollowedherwithmyeyesaslongasI
could,seehercarriage,andIwasstillstandingonthesamespotlongaftermyeyeshadlostsightofit。AllmythoughtswerewrappedupinthebelovedobjectIhadlostforever。Theworldwasablank!
Iwentbacktomyroom,orderedthewaiternottodisturbmeuntilthereturnofthehorseswhichhaddrawnHenriette’scarriage,andI
laydownonmybedinthehopethatsleepwouldforatimesilenceagriefwhichtearscouldnotdrown。
ThepostillionwhohaddrivenHenriettedidnotreturntillthenextday;hehadgoneasfarasChatillon。HebroughtmealetterinwhichIfoundonesingleword:Adieu!HetoldmethattheyhadreachedChatillonwithoutaccident,andthattheladyhadimmediatelycontinuedherjourneytowardsLyons。AsIcouldnotleaveGenevauntilthefollowingday,Ispentaloneinmyroomsomeofthemostmelancholyhoursofmylife。IsawononeofthepanesofglassofawindowthesewordswhichshehadtracedwiththepointofadiamondI
hadgivenher:\"YouwillforgetHenriette。\"Thatprophecywasnotlikelytoaffordmeanyconsolation。Buthadsheattacheditsfullmeaningtotheword\"forget?\"No;shecouldonlymeanthattimewouldatlasthealthedeepwoundsofmyheart,andsheoughtnottohavemadeitdeeperbyleavingbehindherthosewordswhichsoundedlikeareproach。No,Ihavenotforgottenher,forevennow,whenmyheadiscoveredwithwhitehair,therecollectionofherisstillasourceofhappinessformyheart!WhenIthinkthatinmyoldageI
derivehappinessonlyfrommyrecollectionsofthepast,Ifindthatmylonglifemusthavecountedmorebrightthandarkdays,andofferingmythankstoGod,theGiverofall,Icongratulatemyself,andconfessthatlifeisagreatblessing。
ThenextdayIsetoffagainforItalywithaservantrecommendedbyM。Tronchin,andalthoughtheseasonwasnotfavourableItooktheroadoverMontSt。Bernard,whichIcrossedinthreedays,withsevenmulescarryingme,myservant,myluggage,andthecarriagesentbythebankertothebelovedwomannowforeverlosttome。Oneoftheadvantagesofagreatsorrowisthatnothingelseseemspainful。Itisasortofdespairwhichisnotwithoutsomesweetness。DuringthatjourneyIneverfelteitherhungerorthirst,orthecoldwhichissointenseinthatpartoftheAlpsthatthewholeofnatureseemstoturntoice,orthefatigueinseparablefromsuchadifficultanddangerousjourney。
IarrivedinParmainprettygoodhealth,andtookupmyquartersatasmallinn,inthehopethatinsuchaplaceIshouldnotmeetanyacquaintanceofmine。ButIwasmuchdisappointed,forIfoundinthatinnM。delaHaye,whohadaroomnexttomine。Surprisedatseeingme,hepaidmealongcompliment,tryingtomakemespeak,butIeludedhiscuriositybytellinghimthatIwastired,andthatwewouldseeeachotheragain。
OnthefollowingdayIcalleduponM。d’Antoine,anddeliveredtheletterwhichHenriettehadwrittentohim。Heopeneditinmypresence,andfindinganothertomyaddressenclosedinhis,hehandedittomewithoutreadingit,althoughitwasnotsealed。
Thinking,however,thatitmighthavebeenHenriette’sintentionthatheshouldreaditbecauseitwasopen,heaskedmypermissiontodoso,whichIgrantedwithpleasureassoonasIhadmyselfperusedit。
Hehandeditbacktomeafterhehadreadit,tellingmeveryfeelinglythatIcouldineverythingrelyuponhimanduponhisinfluenceandcredit。
HereisHenriette’sletter’ItisI,dearestandbestfriend,whohavebeencompelledtoabandonyou,butdonotletyourgriefbeincreasedbyanythoughtofmysorrow。Letusbewiseenoughtosupposethatwehavehadahappydream,andnottocomplainofdestiny,forneverdidsobeautifuladreamlastsolong!Letusbeproudoftheconsciousnessthatforthreemonthswegaveoneanotherthemostperfectfelicity。Fewhumanbeingscanboastofsomuch!Letusswearnevertoforgetoneanother,andtooftenrememberthehappyhoursofourlove,inordertorenewtheminoursouls,which,althoughdivided,willenjoythemasacutelyasifourheartswerebeatingoneagainsttheother。Donotmakeanyenquiriesaboutme,andifchanceshouldletyouknowwhoIam,forgetitforever。IfeelcertainthatyouwillbegladtohearthatIhavearrangedmyaffairssowellthatIshall,fortheremainderofmylife,beashappyasIcanpossiblybewithoutyou,dearfriend,bymyside。Idonotknowwhoyouare,butIamcertainthatnooneintheworldknowsyoubetterthanIdo。IshallnothaveanotherloveraslongasIlive,butIdonotwishyoutoimitateme。OnthecontraryIhopethatyouwillloveagain,andI
trustthatagoodfairywillbringalongyourpathanotherHenriette。
Farewell……farewell。\"……
Imetthatadorablewomanfifteenyearslater;thereaderwillseewhereandhow,whenwecometothatperiodofmylife……
Iwentbacktomyroom,carelessofthefuture,brokendownbythedeepestofsorrows,Ilockedmyselfin,andwenttobed。IfeltsolowinspiritsthatIwasstunned。Lifewasnotaburden,butonlybecauseIdidnotgiveathoughttolife。InfactIwasinastateofcompleteapathy,moralandphysical。SixyearslaterIfoundmyselfinasimilarpredicament,butthattimelovewasnotthecauseofmysorrow;itwasthehorribleandtoofamousprisonofTheLeads,inVenice。
Iwasnotmuchbettereitherin1768,whenIwaslodgedintheprisonofBuenRetiro,inMadrid,butImustnotanticipateevents。
Attheendoftwenty—fourhours,myexhaustionwasverygreat,butI
didnotfindthesensationdisagreeable,and,inthestateofmindinwhichIwasthen,Iwaspleasedwiththeideathat,byincreasing,thatweaknesswouldatlastkillme。Iwasdelightedtoseethatnoonedisturbedmetooffermesomefood,andIcongratulatedmyselfuponhavingdismissedmyservant。Twenty—fourmorehourspassedby,andmyweaknessbecamecompleteinanition。
IwasinthatstatewhenDelaHayeknockedatmydoor。Iwouldnothaveansweredifhehadnotsaidthatsomeoneinsisteduponseeingme。Igotoutofbed,and,scarcelyabletostand,Iopenedmydoor,afterwhichIgotintobedagain。
\"Thereisastrangerhere,\"hesaid,\"who,beinginwantofacarriage,offerstobuyyours\"
\"Idonotwanttosellit。\"
\"ExcusemeifIhavedisturbedyou,butyoulookill。\"
\"Yes,Iwishtobeleftalone。\"
\"Whatisthematterwithyou?\"
Comingnearermybed,hetookmyhand,andfoundmypulseextremelylowandweak。
\"Whatdidyoueatyesterday?\"
\"Ihaveeatennothing,thankGodIfortwodays。\"
Guessingtherealstateofthings,DelaHayebecameanxious,andentreatedmetotakesomebroth。Hethrewsomuchkindness,somuchunction,intohisentreatiesthat,throughweaknessandweariness,I
allowedmyselftobepersuaded。Then,withoutevermentioningthenameofHenriette,hetreatedmetoasermonuponthelifetocome,uponthevanityofthethingsofthislifewhichwearefoolishenoughtoprefer,anduponthenecessityofrespectingourexistence,whichdoesnotbelongtous。
Iwaslisteningwithoutansweringoneword,but,afterall,Iwaslistening,andDelaHaye,perceivinghisadvantage,wouldnotleaveme,andordereddinner。Ihadneitherthewillnorthestrengthtoresist,andwhenthedinnerwasserved,Iatesomething。ThenDelaHavesawthathehadconquered,andfortheremainderofthedaydevotedhimselftoamusingmebyhischeerfulconversation。
Thenextdaythetableswereturned,foritwasIwhoinvitedhimtokeepmecompanyandtodinewithme。ItseemedtomethatIhadnotlostaparticleofmysadness,butlifeappearedtomeoncemorepreferabletodeath,and,thinkingthatIwasindebtedtohimforthepreservationofmylife,Imadeagreatfriendofhim。Myreaderswillseepresentlythatmyaffectionforhimwentveryfar,andtheywill,likeme,marvelatthecauseofthatfriendship,andatthemeansthroughwhichitwasbroughtabout。
Threeorfourdaysafterwards,Dubois,whohadbeeninformedofeverythingbyDelaHaye,calledonme,andpersuadedmetogoout。
Iwenttothetheatre,whereImadetheacquaintanceofseveralCorsicanofficers,whohadservedinFrance,intheRoyalItalianregiment。IalsometayoungmanfromSicily,namedPaterno,thewildestandmostheedlessfellowitwaspossibletosee。Hewasinlovewithanactresswhomadeafoolofhim。Heamusedmewiththeenumerationofallheradorablequalities,andofallthecrueltiesshewaspractisinguponhim,for,althoughshereceivedhimatallhours,sherepulsedhimharshlywheneverhetriedtostealtheslightestfavour。Inthemeantime,sheruinedhimbymakinghimpayconstantlyforexcellentdinnersandsuppers,whichwereeatenbyherfamily,butwhichdidnotadvancehimoneinchtowardsthefulfilmentofhiswishes。
Hesucceededatlastinexcitingmycuriosity。Iexaminedtheactressonthestage,andfindingthatshewasnotwithoutbeautyI
expressedawishtoknowher。Paternowasdelightedtointroducemetoher。
Ifoundthatshewasoftolerablyeasyvirtue,and,knowingthatshewasveryfarfromrollinginriches,Ihadnodoubtthatfifteenortwentysequinswouldbequitesufficienttomakehercompliant。I
communicatedmythoughtstoPaterno,buthelaughedandtoldmethat,ifIdaredtomakesuchapropositiontoher,shewouldcertainlyshutherdooragainstme。Henamedseveralofficerswhomshehadrefusedtoreceiveagain,becausetheyhadmadesimilaroffers。
\"Yet,\"addedtheyoungman,\"Iwishyouwouldmaketheattempt,andtellmetheresultcandidly。\"
Ifeltpiqued,andpromisedtodoit。
Ipaidheravisitinherdressing—roomatthetheatre,andasshehappenedduringourconversationtopraisethebeautyofmywatch,I
toldherthatshecouldeasilyobtainpossessionofit,andIsaidatwhatprice。Sheanswered,accordingtothecatechismofherprofession,thatanhonourablemanhadnorighttomakesuchanoffertoarespectablegirl。
\"Iofferonlyoneducat,\"saidI,\"tothosewhoarenotrespectable。\"
AndIlefther。
WhenItoldPaternowhathadoccurred,hefairlyjumpedforjoy,butIknewwhattothinkofitall,for’cosisonotutte’,andinspiteofallhisentreaties,Ideclinedtobepresentathissuppers,whichwerefarfromamusing,andgavethefamilyoftheactressanopportunityoflaughingatthepoorfoolwhowaspayingforthem。
Sevenoreightdaysafterwards,PaternotoldmethattheactresshadrelatedtheaffairtohimexactlyinthesamewordswhichIhadused,andshehadaddedthat,ifIhadceasedmyvisits,itwasonlybecauseIwasafraidofhertakingmeatmywordincaseIshouldrenewmyproposal。IcommissionedhimtotellherthatIwouldpayheranothervisit,nottorenewmyoffer,buttoshewmycontemptforanyproposalshemightmakemeherself。
Theheedlessfellowfulfilledhiscommissionsowellthattheactress,feelinginsulted,toldhimthatshedaredmetocallonher。
PerfectlydeterminedtoshewthatIdespisedher,Iwenttoherdressing—roomthesameevening,afterthesecondactofaplayinwhichshehadnottoappearagain。Shedismissedthosewhowerewithher,sayingthatshewantedtospeakwithme,and,aftershehadboltedthedoor,shesatdowngracefullyonmyknees,askingmewhetheritwastruethatIdespisedhersomuch。
Insuchapositionamanhasnotthecouragetoinsultawoman,and,insteadofanswering,Isettoworkatonce,withoutmeetingevenwiththatshowofresistancewhichsharpenstheappetite。Inspiteofthat,dupeasIalwayswasofafeelingtrulyabsurdwhenanintelligentmanhastodealwithsuchcreatures,Igavehertwentysequins,andIconfessthatitwaspayingdearlyforverysmartingregrets。WebothlaughedatthestupidityofPaterno,whodidnotseemtoknowhowsuchchallengesgenerallyend。
IsawtheunluckysonofSicilythenextmorning,andItoldhimthat,havingfoundtheactressverydull,Iwouldnotseeheragain。
Suchwastrulymyintention,butaveryimportantreason,whichnaturetookcaretoexplaintomethreedaysafterwards,compelledmetokeepmywordthroughamuchmoreseriousmotivethanasimpledislikeforthewoman。
However,althoughIwasdeeplygrievedtofindmyselfinsuchadisgracefulposition,IdidnotthinkIhadanyrighttocomplain。
Onthecontrary,Iconsideredthatmymisfortunetobeajustandwell—deservedpunishmentforhavingabandonedmyselftoaLais,afterIhadenjoyedthefelicityofpossessingawomanlikeHenriette。