第21章
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  \"Ishouldbedelighted,forwecouldhavesomeconversation,buttakecare,sir,yourtaskwillnotbeaneasyone,youwilloftenfindyourselfobligedtotranslateforbothofus。\"

  \"Ishalldosowithgreatpleasure;Iamonlysorrythatthejourneyisnotlonger。Wecanarrangeeverythingatsupper—time;allowmetoleaveyounowasIhavesomebusinesstosettle。\"

  Mybusinesswasinreferencetoacarriage,fortheoneIhadboastedofexistedonlyinmyimagination。Iwenttothemostfashionablecoffee—house,and,asgoodluckwouldhaveit,heardthattherewasatravellingcarriageforsale,whichnoonewouldbuybecauseitwastooexpensive。Twohundredsequinswereaskedforit,althoughithadbuttwoseatsandabracket—stoolforathirdperson。ItwasjustwhatIwanted。Icalledattheplacewhereitwouldbeseen。I

  foundaveryfineEnglishcarriagewhichcouldnothavecostlessthantwohundredguineas。Itsnobleproprietorwasthenatsupper,soIsenthimmyname,requestinghimnottodisposeofhiscarriageuntilthenextmorning,andIwentbacktothehotelwellpleasedwithmydiscovery。AtsupperIarrangedwiththecaptainthatwewouldnotleaveCesenatillafterdinneronthefollowingday,andtheconversationwasalmostentirelyadialoguebetweenHenrietteandmyself;itwasmyfirsttalkwithaFrenchwoman。Ithoughtthisyoungcreaturemoreandmorecharming,yetIcouldnotsupposehertobeanythingelsebutanadventurers,andIwasastonishedatdiscoveringinherthosenobleanddelicatefeelingswhichdenoteagoodeducation。However,assuchanideawouldnothavesuitedtheviewsIhadabouther,Irejecteditwheneveritpresenteditselftomymind。WheneverItriedtomakehertalkaboutthecaptainshewouldchangethesubjectofconversation,orevademyinsinuationswithatactandashrewdnesswhichastonishedanddelightedmeatthesametime,foreverythingshesaidboretheimpressofgraceandwit。

  Yetshedidnoteludethisquestion:

  \"Atleasttellme,madam,whetherthecaptainisyourhusbandoryourfather。\"

  \"Neitheronenortheother,\"sheanswered,withasmile。

  Thatwasenoughforme,andinrealitywhatmoredidIwanttoknow?

  Theworthycaptainhadfallenasleep。WhenheawokeIwishedthembothgoodnight,andretiredtomyroomwithaheartfullofloveandamindfullofprojects。Isawthateverythinghadtakenagoodturn,andIfeltcertainofsuccess,forIwasyoung,Ienjoyedexcellenthealth,Ihadmoneyandplentyofdaring。Ilikedtheaffairallthebetterbecauseitmustcometoaconclusioninafewdays。

  EarlythenextmorningIcalleduponCountDandini,theownerofthecarriage,andasIpassedajeweller’sshopIboughtapairofgoldbraceletsinVenetianfiligree,eachfiveyardslongandofrarefineness。IintendedthemasapresentforJavotte。

  ThemomentCountDandinisawmeherecognizedme。HehadseenmeinPaduaatthehouseofhisfather,whowasprofessorofcivillawatthetimeIwasastudentthere。Iboughthiscarriageonconditionthathewouldsendittomeingoodrepairatoneo’clockintheafternoon。

  Havingcompletedthepurchase,Iwenttomyfriend,Franzia,andmypresentofthebraceletsmadeJavotteperfectlyhappy。Therewas。

  notonegirlinCesenawhocouldboastofpossessingafinerpair,andwiththatpresentmyconsciencefeltatease,foritpaidtheexpenseIhadoccasionedduringmystayoftenortwelvedaysatherfather’shousefourtimesover。ButthiswasnotthemostimportantpresentIofferedthefamily。Imadethefathertakeanoathtowaitforme,andnevertotrustinanypretendedmagicianforthenecessaryoperationtoobtainthetreasure,evenifIdidnotreturnorgiveanynewsofmyselffortenyears。

  \"Because,\"Isaidtohim,\"inconsequenceoftheagreementinwhichI

  haveenteredwiththespiritswatchingthetreasure,atthefirstattemptmadebyanyotherperson,thecasketcontainingthetreasurewillsinktotwiceitspresentdepth,thatistosayasdeepasthirty—fivefathoms,andthenIshallhavemyselftentimesmoredifficultyinraisingittothesurface。Icannotstatepreciselythetimeofmyreturn,foritdependsuponcertaincombinationswhicharenotundermycontrol,butrecollectthatthetreasurecannotbeobtainedbyanyonebutI。\"

  Iaccompaniedmyadvicewiththreatsofutterruintohisfamilyifheshouldeverbreakhisoath。AndinthismannerIatonedforallI

  haddone,for,farfromdeceivingtheworthyman,Ibecamehisbenefactorbyguardingagainstthedeceitofsomecheatwhowouldhavecaredforhismoneymorethanforhisdaughter。Ineversawhimagain,andmostlikelyheisdead,butknowingthedeepimpressionI

  leftonhismindIamcertainthathisdescendantsareevennowwaitingforme,forthenameofFarusimusthaveremainedimmortalinthatfamily。

  Javotteaccompaniedmeasfarasthegateofthecity,whereIkissedheraffectionately,whichmademefeelthatthethunderandlightninghadhadbutamomentaryeffectuponme;yetIkeptcontrolovermysenses,andIcongratulatemyselfondoingsotothisday。Itoldher,beforebiddingheradieu,that,hervirginitybeingnolongernecessaryformymagicoperations,Iadvisedhertogetmarriedassoonaspossible,ifIdidnotreturnwithinthreemonths。Sheshedafewtears,butpromisedtofollowmyadvice。

  ItrustthatmyreaderswillapproveofthenoblemannerinwhichI

  concludedmymagicbusiness。Ihardlydaretoboastofit,butI

  thinkIdeservesomepraiseformybehaviour。Perhaps,ImighthaveruinedpoorFranziawithalightheart,hadInotpossessedawell—

  filledpurse。Idonotwishtoenquirewhetheranyyoungman,havingintelligence,lovingpleasure,andplacedinthesameposition,wouldnothavedonethesame,butIbegmyreaderstoaddressthatquestiontothemselves。

  AsforCapitani,towhomIsoldthesheathofSt。Peter’sknifeforrathermorethanitwasworth,IconfessthatIhavenotyetrepentedonhisaccount,forCapitanithoughthehaddupedmeinacceptingitassecurityfortheamounthegaveme,andthecount,hisfather,valuedituntilhisdeathasmorepreciousthanthefinestdiamondintheworld。Dyingwithsuchafirmbelief,hediedrich,andIshalldieapoorman。Letthereaderjudgewhichofthetwomadethebestbargain。ButImustreturnnowtomyfuturetravellingcompanions。

  AssoonasIhadreachedtheinn,IpreparedeverythingforourdepartureforwhichIwasnowlonging。Henriettecouldnotopenherlipswithoutmydiscoveringsomefreshperfection,forherwitdelightedmeevenmorethanherbeauty。ItstruckmethattheoldcaptainwaspleasedwithalltheattentionIshewedher,anditseemedevidenttomethatshewouldnotbesorrytoexchangeherelderlyloverforme。Ihadallthebetterrighttothinkso,inasmuchasIwasperfectionfromaphysicalpointofview,andI

  appearedtobewealthy,althoughIhadnoservant。ItoldHenriettethat,forthesakeofhavingnone,Ispenttwiceasmuchasaservantwouldhavecostme,that,bymybeingmyownservant,Iwascertainofbeingservedaccordingtomytaste,andIhadthesatisfactionofhavingnospyatmyheelsandnoprivilegedthieftofear。SheagreedwitheverythingIsaid,anditincreasedmylove。

  ThehonestHungarianinsistedupongivingmeinadvancetheamounttobepaidforthepost—horsesatthedifferentstagesasfarasParma。

  WeleftCesenaafterdinner,butnotwithoutacontestofpolitenessrespectingtheseats。Thecaptainwantedmetooccupythebackseat—

  nearHenriette,butthereaderwillunderstandhowmuchbettertheseatoppositetohersuitedme;thereforeIinsistedupontakingthebracket—seat,andhadthedoubleadvantageofshewingmypoliteness,andofhavingconstantlyandwithoutdifficultybeforemyeyesthelovelywomanwhomIadored。

  Myhappinesswouldhavebeentoogreatiftherehadbeennodrawbacktoit。Butwherecanwefindroseswithoutthorns?WhenthecharmingFrenchwomanutteredsomeofthosewittysayingswhichproceedsonaturallyfromthelipsofhercountrywomen,IcouldnothelppityingthesorryfaceofthepoorHungarian,and,wishingtomakehimsharemymirth,IwouldundertaketotranslateinLatinHenriette’ssallies;butfarfrommakinghimmerry,Ioftensawhisfacebearalookofastonishment,asifwhatIhadsaidseemedtohimratherflat。IhadtoacknowledgetomyselfthatIcouldnotspeakLatinaswellasshespokeFrench,andthiswasindeedthecase。Thelastthingwhichwelearninalllanguagesiswit,andwitnevershinessowellasinjests。IwasthirtyyearsofagebeforeIbegantolaughinreadingTerence,PlautusandMartial。

  Somethingbeingthematterwiththecarriage,westoppedatForlitohaveitrepaired。Afteraverycheerfulsupper,Iretiredtomyroomtogotobed,thinkingofnothingelsebutthecharmingwomanbywhomIwassocompletelycaptivated。Alongtheroad,HenriettehadstruckmeassostrangethatIwouldnotsleepinthesecondbedintheirroom。Iwasafraidlestsheshouldleaveheroldcomradetocometomybedandsleepwithme,andIdidnotknowhowfartheworthycaptainwouldhaveputupwithsuchajoke。Iwished,ofcourse,topossessthatlovelycreature,butIwantedeverythingtobesettledamicably,forIfeltsomerespectforthebraveofficer。

  Henriettehadnothingbutthemilitarycostumeinwhichshestood,notanywoman’slinen,notevenonechemise。Forachangeshetookthecaptain’sshirt。Suchastateofthingswassonewtomethatthesituationseemedtomeacompleteenigma。

  InBologna,excitedbyanexcellentsupperandbytheamorouspassionwhichwaseveryhourburningmorefiercelyinme,Iaskedherbywhatsingularadventureshehadbecomethefriendofthehonestfellowwholookedherfatherratherthanherlover。

  \"Ifyouwishtoknow,\"sheanswered,withasmile,\"askhimtorelatethewholestoryhimself,onlyyoumustrequesthimnottoomitanyoftheparticulars。\"

  OfcourseIappliedatoncetothecaptain,and,havingfirstascertainedbysignsthatthecharmingFrenchwomanhadnoobjection,thegoodmanspoketomethus:

  \"Afriendofmine,anofficerinthearmy,havingoccasiontogotoRome,Isolicitedafurloughofsixmonths,andaccompaniedhim。I

  seizedwithgreatdelighttheopportunityofvisitingacity,thenameofwhichhasapowerfulinfluenceontheimagination,owingtothememoriesofthepastattachedtoit。IdidnotentertainanydoubtthattheLatinlanguagewasspokenthereingoodsociety,atleastasgenerallyasinHungary。ButIwasindeedgreatlymistaken,fornobodycanspeakit,noteventhepriests,whoonlypretendtowriteit,anditistruethatsomeofthemdosowithgreatpurity。

  IwasthereforeratheruncomfortableduringmystayinRome,andwiththeexceptionofmyeyesmysensesremainedperfectlyinactive。I

  hadspentaverytediousmonthinthatcity,theancientqueenoftheworld,whenCardinalAlbanigavemyfrienddispatchesforNaples。

  BeforeleavingRome,heintroducedmetohiseminence,andhisrecommendationhadsomuchinfluencethatthecardinalpromisedtosendmeverysoonwithdispatchesfortheDukeofParma,Piacenza,andGuastalla,assuringmethatallmytravellingexpenseswouldbedefrayed。AsIwishedtoseetheharbourcalledinformertimesCentumcellaeandnowCivita—Vecchia,Igaveuptheremainderofmytimetothatvisit,andIproceededtherewithaciceronewhospokeLatin。

  \"IwasloiteringabouttheharbourwhenIsaw,comingoutofatartan,anelderlyofficerandthisyoungwomandressedassheisnow。Herbeautystruckme,butIshouldnothavethoughtanymoreaboutit,iftheofficerhadnotputupatmyinn,andinanapartmentoverwhichIhadacompleteviewwheneverIopenedmywindow。IntheeveningIsawthecoupletakingsupperatthesametable,butIremarkedthattheelderlyofficerneveraddressedawordtotheyoungone。Whenthesupperwasover,thedisguisedgirllefttheroom,andhercompaniondidnotlifthiseyesfromaletterwhichhewasreading,asitseemedtome,withthedeepestattention。Soonafterwardstheofficerclosedthewindows,thelightwasputout,andIsupposemyneighborswenttobed。Thenextmorning,beingupearlyasismyhabit,Isawtheofficergoout,andthegirlremainedaloneintheroom。

  \"Isentmycicerone,whowasalsomyservant,totellthegirlinthegarbofanofficerthatIwouldgivehertensequinsforanhour’sconversation。Hefulfilledmyinstructions,andonhisreturnheinformedmethatheranswer,giveninFrench,hadbeentotheeffectthatshewouldleaveforRomeimmediatelyafterbreakfast,andthat,onceinthatcity,Ishouldeasilyfindsomeopportunityofspeakingtoher。

  \"’Icanfindoutfromthevetturino,’saidmycicerone,’wheretheyputupinRome,andIpromiseyoutoenquireofhim。’

  \"SheleftCivita—Vecchiawiththeelderlyofficer,andIreturnedhomeonthefollowingday。

  \"Twodaysafterwards,thecardinalgavemethedispatches,whichwereaddressedtoM。Dutillot,theFrenchminister,withapassportandthemoneynecessaryforthejourney。Hetoldme,withgreatkindness,thatIneednothurryontheroad。

  \"Ihadalmostforgottenthehandsomeadventuress,when,twodaysbeforemydeparture,myciceronegavemetheinformationthathehadfoundoutwhereshelived,andthatshewaswiththesameofficer。I

  toldhimtotrytoseeher,andtoletherknowthatmydeparturewasfixedforthedayafterthemorrow。Shesentmewordbyhimthat,ifIwouldinformherofthehourofmydeparture,shewouldmeetmeoutsideofthegate,andgetintothecoachwithmetoaccompanymeonmyway。IthoughtthearrangementveryingeniousandduringthedayIsenttheciceronetotellherthehouratwhichIintendedtoleave,andwhereIwouldwaitforheroutsideofthePortodelPopolo。Shecameattheappointedtime,andwehaveremainedtogethereversince。Assoonasshewasseatednearme,shemademeunderstandbysignsthatshewantedtodinewithme。Youmayimaginewhatdifficultywehadinunderstandingoneanother,butweguessedsomehowthemeaningexpressedbyourpantomime,andIacceptedtheadventurewithdelight。

  \"Wedinedgailytogether,speakingwithoutunderstanding,butafterthedessertwecomprehendedeachotherverywell。IfanciedthatI

  hadseentheendofit,andyoumayimaginehowsurprisedIwaswhen,uponmyofferingherthetensequins,sherefusedmostpositivelytotakeanymoney,makingmeunderstandthatshewouldrathergowithmetoParma,becauseshehadsomebusinessinthatcity,anddidnotwanttoreturntoRome。

  \"Theproposalwas,afterall,ratheragreeabletome;Iconsentedtoherwishes。Ionlyregrettedmyinabilitytomakeherunderstandthat,ifshewasfollowedbyanyonefromRome,andifthatpersonwantedtotakeherback,Iwasnotinapositiontodefendheragainstviolence。Iwasalsosorrythat,withourmutualignoranceofthelanguagespokenbyeachofus,wehadnoopportunityofconversation,forIshouldhavebeengreatlypleasedtohearheradventures,which,Ithink,mustbeinteresting。Youcan,ofcourse,guessthatIhavenoideaofwhoshecanbe。IonlyknowthatshecallsherselfHenriette,thatshemustbeaFrenchwoman,thatsheisasgentleasaturtledove,thatshehasevidentlyreceivedagoodeducation,andthatsheenjoysgoodhealth。Sheiswittyandcourageous,aswehavebothseen,IinRomeandyouinCesenaatGeneralSpada’stable。Ifshewouldtellyouherhistory,andallowyoutotranslateitformeinLatinshewouldindeedpleasememuch,forIamsincerelyherfriend,andIcanassureyouthatitwillgrievemetopartfromherinParma。PleasetotellherthatI

  intendtogiveherthethirtysequinsIreceivedfromtheBishopofCesena,andthatifIwererichIwouldgivehermoresubstantialproofsofmytenderaffection。Now,sir,IshallfeelobligedtoyouifyouwillexplainitalltoherinFrench。\"

  IaskedherwhethershewouldfeeloffendedifIgaveheranexacttranslation。Sheassuredmethat,onthecontrary,shewishedmetospeakopenly,andItoldherliterallywhatthecaptainhadrelatedtome。

  Withanoblefranknesswhichaslightshadeof—shamerenderedmoreinteresting,Henrietteconfirmedthetruthofherfriend’snarrative,butshebeggedmetotellhimthatshecouldnotgranthiswishrespectingtheadventuresofherlife。

  \"Begoodenoughtoinformhim,\"sheadded,\"thatthesameprinciplewhichforbidsmetoutterafalsehood,doesnotallowmetotellthetruth。Asforthethirtysequinswhichheintendstogiveme,Iwillnotacceptevenoneofthem,andhewoulddeeplygrievemebypressingthemuponme。ThemomentwereachParmaIwishhimtoallowmetolodgewhereverImayplease,tomakenoenquirieswhateveraboutme,and,incaseheshouldhappentomeetme,tocrownhisgreatkindnesstomebynotappearingtohaveeverknownme。\"

  Assheutteredthelastwordsofthisshortspeech,whichshehaddeliveredveryseriouslyandwithamixtureofmodestyandresolution,shekissedherelderlyfriendinamannerwhichindicatedesteemandgratituderatherthanlove。Thecaptain,whodidnotknowwhyshewaskissinghim,wasdeeplygrievedwhenItranslatedwhatHenriettehadsaid。Hebeggedmetotellherthat,ifhewastoobeyherwithaneasyconscience,hemustknowwhethershewouldhaveeverythingsherequiredinParma。

  \"Youcanassurehim,\"sheanswered,\"thatheneednotentertainanyanxietyaboutme。\"

  Thisconversationhadmadeusallverysad;weremainedforalongtimethoughtfulandsilent,until,feelingthesituationtobepainful,Irose,wishingthemgoodnight,andIsawthatHenriette’sfaceworealookofgreatexcitement。

  AssoonasIfoundmyselfaloneinmyroom,deeplymovedbyconflictingfeelingsoflove,surprise,anduncertainty,Ibegantogiveventtomyfeelingsinakindofsoliloquy,asIalwaysdowhenIamstronglyexcitedbyanything;thinkingisnot,inthosecases,enoughforme;Imustspeakaloud,andIthrowsomuchaction,somuchanimationintothesemonologuesthatIforgetIamalone。WhatIknewnowofHenriettehadupsetmealtogether。

  \"Whocanshebe,\"Isaid,speakingtothewalls;\"thisgirlwhoseemstohavethemostelevatedfeelingsundertheveilofthemostcynicallibertinism?ShesaysthatinParmashewishestoremainperfectlyunknown,herownmistress,andIcannot,ofcourse,flattermyselfthatshewillnotplacemeunderthesamerestrictionsasthecaptaintowhomshehasalreadyabandonedherself。Goodbyetomyexpectations,tomymoney,andmyillusions!Butwhoisshe——whatisshe?ShemusthaveeitheraloverorahusbandinParma,orshemustbelongtoarespectablefamily;or,perhaps,thankstoaboundlesslovefordebaucheryandtoherconfidenceinherowncharms,sheintendstosetfortune,misery,anddegradationatdefiance,andtotrytoenslavesomewealthynobleman!Butthatwouldbetheplanofamadwomanorofapersonreducedtoutterdespair,anditdoesnotseemtobethecasewithHenriette。Yetshepossessesnothing。

  True,butsherefused,asifshehadbeenprovidedwithallsheneeded,thekindassistanceofamanwhohastherighttoofferit,andfromwhom,insooth,shecanacceptwithoutblushing,sinceshehasnotbeenashamedtogranthimfavourswithwhichlovehadnothingtodo。Doesshethinkthatitislessshamefulforawomantoabandonherselftothedesiresofamanunknownandunlovedthantoreceiveapresentfromanesteemedfriend,andparticularlyattheeveoffindingherselfinthestreet,entirelydestituteinthemiddleofaforeigncity,amongstpeoplewhoselanguageshecannotevenspeak?Perhapsshethinksthatsuchconductwilljustifythe’fauxpas’ofwhichshehasbeenguiltywiththecaptain,andgivehimtounderstandthatshehadabandonedherselftohimonlyforthesakeofescapingfromtheofficerwithwhomshewasinRome。Butsheoughttobequitecertainthatthecaptaindoesnotentertainanyotheridea;heshewshimselfsoreasonablethatitisimpossibletosupposethatheeveradmittedthepossibilityofhavinginspiredherwithaviolentpassion,becauseshehadseenhimoncethroughawindowinCivita—Vecchia。Shemightpossiblyberight,andfeelherselfjustifiedinherconducttowardsthecaptain,butitisnotthesamewithme,forwithherintelligenceshemustbeawarethatI

  wouldnothavetravelledwiththemifshehadbeenindifferenttome,andshemustknowthatthereisbutonewayinwhichshecanobtainmypardon。Shemaybeendowedwithmanyvirtues,butshehasnottheonlyonewhichcouldpreventmefromwishingtherewardwhicheverymanexpectstoreceiveatthehandsofthewomanheloves。Ifshewantstoassumeprudishmannerstowardsmeandtomakeadupeofme,Iamboundinhonourtoshewherhowmuchsheismistaken。\"

  Afterthismonologue,whichhadmademestillmoreangry,Imadeupmymindtohaveanexplanationinthemorningbeforeourdeparture。

  \"Ishallaskher,\"saidItomyself,\"tograntmethesamefavourswhichshehassoeasilygrantedtoheroldcaptain,andifImeetwitharefusalthebestrevengewillbetoshewheracoldandprofoundcontemptuntilourarrivalinParma。\"

  Ifeltsurethatshecouldnotrefusemesomemarksofrealorofpretendedaffection,unlessshewishedtomakeashowofamodestywhichcertainlydidnotbelongtoher,and,knowingthathermodestywouldonlybeallpretence,Iwasdeterminednottobeameretoyinherhands。

  Asforthecaptain,Ifeltcertain,fromwhathehadtoldme,thathewouldnotbeangrywithmeifIriskedadeclaration,forasasensiblemanhecouldonlyassumeaneutralposition。

  Satisfiedwithmywisereasoning,andwithmymindfullymadeup,I

  fellasleep。MythoughtsweretoocompletelyabsorbedbyHenrietteforhernottohauntmydreams,butthedreamwhichIhadthroughoutthenightwassomuchlikerealitythat,onawaking,Ilookedforherinmybed,andmyimaginationwassodeeplystruckwiththedelightsofthatnightthat,ifmydoorhadnotbeenfastenedwithabolt,I

  shouldhavebelievedthatshehadleftmeduringmysleeptoresumeherplaceneartheworthyHungarian。

  WhenIwasawakeIfoundthatthehappydreamofthenighthadturnedmyloveforthelovelycreatureintoaperfectamorousfrenzy,anditcouldnotbeotherwise。Letthereaderimagineapoordevilgoingtobedbrokendownwithfatigueandstarvation;hesuccumbstosleep,thatmostimperativeofallhumanwants,butinhisdreamhefindshimselfbeforeatablecoveredwitheverydelicacy;whatwillthenhappen?Why,averynaturalresult。Hisappetite,muchmorelivelythanonthepreviousday,doesnotgivehimaminute’sresthemustsatisfyitordieofsheerhunger。

  Idressedmyself,resolvedonmakingsureofthepossessionofthewomanwhohadinflamedallmysenses,evenbeforeresumingourjourney。

  \"IfIdonotsucceed,\"Isaidtomyself,\"Iwillnotgoonestepfurther。\"

  But,inordernottooffendagainstpropriety,andnottodeservethereproachesofanhonestman,Ifeltthatitwasmydutytohaveanexplanationwiththecaptaininthefirstplace。

  IfancythatIhearoneofthosesensible,calm,passionlessreaders,whohavehadtheadvantageofwhatiscalledayouthwithoutstorms,oroneofthosewhomoldagehasforcedtobecomevirtuous,exclaim,\"Cananyoneattachsomuchimportancetosuchnonsense?\"

  Agehascalmedmypassionsdownbyrenderingthempowerless,butmyhearthasnotgrownold,andmymemoryhaskeptallthefreshnessofyouth;andfarfromconsideringthatsortofthingameretrifle,myonlysorrow,dearreader,arisesfromthefactthatIhavenotthepowertopractise,tothedayofmydeath,thatwhichhasbeentheprincipalaffairofmylife!

  WhenIwasreadyIrepairedtothechamberoccupiedbymytwotravellingcompanions,andafterpayingeachofthemtheusualmorningcomplimentsItoldtheofficerthatIwasdeeplyinlovewithHenriette,andIaskedhimwhetherhewouldobjecttomytryingtoobtainherasmymistress。

  \"Thereasonforwhichshebegsyou,\"Iadded,\"toleaveherinParmaandnottotakeanyfurthernoticeofher,mustbethatshehopestomeetsomeloverofhersthere。Letmehavehalfanhour’sconversationwithher,andIflattermyselfIcanpersuadehertosacrificethatloverforme。Ifsherefusesme,Iremainhere;youwillgowithhertoParma,whereyouwillleavemycarriageatthepost,onlysendingmeareceipt,sothatIcanclaimitwheneverI

  please。\"

  \"Assoonasbreakfastisover,\"saidtheexcellentman,\"Ishallgoandvisittheinstitute,andleaveyoualonewithHenriette。Ihopeyoumaysucceed,forIshouldbedelightedtoseeherunderyourprotectionwhenIpartwithher。Shouldshepersistinherfirstresolution,Icouldeasilyfinda’vetturino’here,andyoucouldkeepyourcarriage。Ithankyouforyourproposal,anditwillgrievemetoleaveyou。\"

  Highlypleasedathavingaccomplishedhalfofmytask,andatseeingmyselfnearthedenouement,IaskedthelovelyFrenchwomanwhethershewouldliketoseethesightsofBologna。

  \"Ishouldlikeitverymuch,\"shesaid,\"ifIhadsomeotherclothes;

  butwithsuchacostumeasthisIdonotcaretoshewmyselfaboutthecity。\"

  \"Thenyoudonotwanttogoout?\"

  \"No。\"

  \"CanIkeepyoucompany?\"

  \"Thatwouldbedelightful:\"

  Thecaptainwentoutimmediatelyafterbreakfast。ThemomenthehadgoneItoldHenriettethatherfriendhadleftusalonepurposely,soastogivemetheopportunityofaprivateinterviewwithher。

  \"Tellmenowwhetheryouintendedtheorderwhichyougavehimyesterdaytoforgetyou,nevertoenquireafteryou;andevennottoknowyouifhehappenedtomeetyou,fromthetimeofourarrivalinParma,formeaswellasforhim。\"

  \"ItisnotanorderthatIgavehim;Ihavenorighttodoso,andI

  couldnotsofarforgetmyself;itisonlyaprayerIaddressedtohim,aservicewhichcircumstanceshavecompelledmetoclaimathishands,andashehasnorighttorefuseme,Ineverentertainedanydoubtofhisgrantingmycommand。Asfarasyouareconcerned,itiscertainthatIshouldhaveaddressedthesameprayertoyou,ifIhadthoughtthatyouhadanyviewsaboutme。Youhavegivenmesomemarksofyourfriendship,butyoumustunderstandthatif,underthecircumstances,Iamlikelytobeinjuredbythekindattentionsofthecaptain,yourswouldinjurememuchmore。Ifyouhaveanyfriendshipforme,youwouldhavefeltallthat。\"

  \"AsyouknowthatIentertaingreatfriendshipforyou,youcannotpossiblysupposethatIwouldleaveyoualone,withoutmoney,withoutresourcesinthemiddleofacitywhereyoucannotevenmakeyourselfunderstood。Doyouthinkthatamanwhofeelsforyouthemosttenderaffectioncanabandonyouwhenhehasbeenfortunateenoughtomakeyouracquaintance,whenheisawareofthesadpositioninwhichyouareplaced?Ifyouthinksuchathingpossible,youmusthaveaveryfalseideaoffriendship,andshouldsuchamangrantyourrequest,hewouldonlyprovethatheisnotyourfriend。\"

  \"Iamcertainthatthecaptainismyfriend;yetyouhaveheardhim,hewillobeyme,andforgetme。\"

  \"Idonotknowwhatsortofaffectionthathonestmanfeelsforyou,orhowfarhecanrelyuponthecontrolhemayhaveoverhimself,butIknowthatifhecangrantyouwhatyouhaveaskedfromhim,hisfriendshipmustbeofanatureverydifferentfrommine,forIamboundtotellyouitisnotonlyimpossibleformetoaffordyouwillinglythestrangegratificationofabandoningyouinyourposition,buteventhat,ifIgotoParma,youcouldnotpossiblycarryoutyourwishes,becauseIloveyousopassionatelythatyoumustpromisetobemine,orImustremainhere。InthatcaseyoumustgotoParmaalonewiththecaptain,forIfeelthat,ifI

  accompaniedyouanyfurther,Ishouldsoonbethemostwretchedofmen。Icouldnotbeartoseeyouwithanotherlover,withahusband,noteveninthemidstofyourfamily;infact,Iwouldfainseeyouandlivewithyouforever。Letmetellyou,lovelyHenriette,thatifitispossibleforaFrenchmantoforget,anItaliancannotdoit,atleastifIjudgefrommyownfeelings。Ihavemadeupmymind,youmustbegoodenoughtodecidenow,andtotellmewhetherIamtoaccompanyyouortoremainhere。Answeryesorno;ifIremainhereitisallover。IshallleaveforNaplesto—morrow,andIknowI

  shallbecuredintimeofthemadpassionIfeelforyou,butifyoutellmethatIcanaccompanyyoutoParma,youmustpromisemethatyourheartwillforeverbelongtomealone。Imustbetheonlyonetopossessyou,butIamreadytoacceptasacondition,ifyoulike,thatyoushallnotcrownmyhappinessuntilyouhavejudgedmeworthyofitbymyattentionsandbymylovingcare。Now,bekindenoughtodecidebeforethereturnofthetoohappycaptain。Heknowsall,forIhavetoldhimwhatIfeel。\"

  \"Andwhatdidheanswer?\"

  \"Thathewouldbehappytoseeyouundermyprotection。Butwhatisthemeaningofthatsmileplayingonyourlips?\"

  \"Pray,allowmetolaugh,forIhaveneverinmyliferealizedtheideaofafuriousdeclarationoflove。Doyouunderstandwhatitistosaytoawomaninadeclarationwhichoughttobepassionate,butatthesametimetenderandgentle,thefollowingterriblewords:

  ’Madam,makeyourchoice,eitheroneortheother,anddecideinstanter!’Ha!ha!ha!\"

  \"Yes,Iunderstandperfectly。Itisneithergentle,norgallant,norpathetic,butitispassionate。Rememberthatthisisaseriousmatter,andthatIhaveneveryetfoundmyselfsomuchpressedbytime。Canyou,onyourside,realizethepainfulpositionofaman,who,beingdeeplyinlove,findshimselfcompelledtotakeadecisionwhichmayperhapsdecideissuesoflifeanddeath?Begoodenoughtoremarkthat,inspiteofthepassionraginginme,IdonotfailintherespectIoweyou;thattheresolutionIintendtotake,ifyoushouldpersistinyouroriginaldecision,isnotathreat,butaneffortworthyofahero,whichoughttocallforyouresteem。Ibegofyoutoconsiderthatwecannotaffordtolosetime。Thewordchoosemustnotsoundharshlyinyourears,sinceitleavesmyfateaswellasyoursentirelyinyourhands。Tofeelcertainofmylove,doyouwanttoseemekneelingbeforeyoulikeasimpleton,cryingandentreatingyoutotakepityonme?No,madam,thatwouldcertainlydispleaseyou,anditwouldnothelpme。Iamconsciousofbeingworthyofyourlove,Ithereforeaskforthatfeelingandnotforpity。Leaveme,ifIdispleaseyou,butletmegoaway;forifyouarehumaneenoughtowishthatIshouldforgetyou,allowmetogofarawayfromyousoastomakemysorrowlessimmense。ShouldI

  followyoutoParma,Iwouldnotanswerformyself,forImightgivewaytomydespair。Considereverythingwell,Ibeseechyou;youwouldindeedbeguiltyofgreatcruelty,wereyoutoanswernow:

  ’CometoParma,althoughImustbegofyounottoseemeinthatcity。’Confessthatyoucannot,inallfairness,givemesuchananswer;amInotright?\"

  \"Certainly,ifyoutrulyloveme。\"

  \"GoodGod!ifIloveyou?Oh,yes!believeme,myloveisimmense,sincere!Now,decidemyfate。\"

  \"What!alwaysthesamesong?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Butareyouawarethatyoulookveryangry?\"

  \"No,foritisnotso。Iamonlyinastateofuncontrollableexcitement,inoneofthedecisivehoursofmylife,apreytothemostfearfulanxiety。Ioughttocursemywhimsicaldestinyandthe’sbirri’ofCesena(mayGodcursethem,too!),for,withoutthem,I

  shouldneverhaveknownyou。\"

  \"Areyou,then,soverysorrytohavemademyacquaintance?\"

  \"HaveInotsomereasontobeso?\"

  \"No,forIhavenotgivenyoumydecisionyet。\"

  \"NowIbreathemorefreely,forIamsureyouwilltellmetoaccompanyyoutoParma。\"

  \"Yes,cometoParma。\"

  EndMEMOIRSOFJACQUESCASANOVAdeSEINGALT1725—1798

  TOPARISANDPRISON,Volume2a——PARIS

  THERAREUNABRIDGEDLONDONEDITIONOF1894TRANSLATEDBYARTHUR

  MACHENTOWHICHHASBEENADDEDTHECHAPTERSDISCOVERED

  BYARTHURSYMONS。

  PARIS

  CHAPTERI

  LeaveBolognaaHappyMan——TheCaptainPartsfromUsinReggio,whereISpendaDelightfulNightwithHenriette——OurArrivalinParma——

  HenrietteResumestheCostumeofaWoman;OurMutualFelicity——IMeetSomeRelativesofMine,butDonotDiscoverMyselfThereadercaneasilyguessthattherewasachangeassuddenasatransformationinapantomime,andthattheshortbutmagicsentence,\"CometoParma,\"provedaveryfortunatecatastrophe,thankstowhichIrapidlychanged,passingfromthetragictothegentlemood,fromtheserioustothetendertone。Soothtosay,Ifellatherfeet,andlovinglypressingherkneesIkissedthemrepeatedlywithrapturesofgratitude。Nomore’furore’,nomorebitterwords;theydonotsuitthesweetestofallhumanfeelings!Loving,docile,grateful,Iswearnevertobegforanyfavour,noteventokissherhand,untilIhaveshewnmyselfworthyofherpreciouslove!Theheavenlycreature,delightedtoseemepasssorapidlyfromdespairtothemostlivelytenderness,tellsme,withavoicethetoneofwhichbreathesoflove,togetupfrommyknees。

  \"Iamsurethatyouloveme,\"saysshe,\"andbequitecertainthatI

  shallleavenothingundonetosecuretheconstancyofyourfeelings。\"

  EvenifshehadsaidthatshelovedmeasmuchasIadoredher,shewouldnothavebeenmoreeloquent,forherwordsexpressedallthatcanbefelt。Mylipswerepressedtoherbeautifulhandsasthecaptainenteredtheroom。Hecomplimenteduswithperfectgoodfaith,andItoldhim,myfacebeamingwithhappiness,thatIwasgoingtoorderthecarriage。Ileftthemtogether,andinashorttimewewereonourroad,cheerful,pleased,andmerry。

  BeforereachingReggiothehonestcaptaintoldmethatinhisopinionitwouldbebetterforhimtoproceedtoParmaalone,as,ifwearrivedinthatcityalltogether,itmightcausesomeremarks,andpeoplewouldtalkaboutusmuchlessifwewerewithouthim。Weboththoughthimquiteright,andweimmediatelymadeupourmindstopassthenightinReggio,whilethecaptainwouldtakeapost—chaiseandgoalonetoParma。AccordingtothatarrangementhistrunkwastransferredtothevehiclewhichhehiredinReggio,hebadeusfarewellandwentaway,afterhavingpromisedtodinewithusonthefollowingdayinParma。

  ThedecisiontakenbytheworthyHungarianwas,doubtless,asagreeabletomylovelyfriendastome,forourdelicacywouldhavecondemnedustoagreatreserveinhispresence。Andtruly,underthenewcircumstances,howwerewetoarrangeforourlodgingsinReggio?Henriettecouldnot,ofcourse,sharethebedofthecaptainanymore,andshecouldnothavesleptwithmeaslongashewaswithus,withoutbeingguiltyofgreatimmodesty。Weshouldallthreehavelaughedatthatcompulsoryreservewhichwewouldhavefelttoberidiculous,butweshould,forallthat,havesubmittedtoit。

  Loveisthelittleimpudentgod,theenemyofbashfulness,althoughhemayveryoftenenjoydarknessandmystery,butifhegiveswaytoithefeelsdisgraced;helosesthree—fourthsofhisdignityandthegreatestportionofhischarms。

  EvidentlytherecouldbenohappinessforHenrietteorformeunlesswepartedwiththepersonandevenwiththeremembranceoftheexcellentcaptain。

  Wesuppedalone。Iwasintoxicatedwithafelicitywhichseemedtooimmense,andyetIfeltmelancholy,butHenriette,wholookedsadlikewise,hadnoreproachtoaddresstome。Oursadnesswasinrealitynothingbutshyness;welovedeachother,butwehadhadnotimetobecomeacquainted。Weexchangedonlyafewwords,therewasnothingwitty,nothinginterestinginourconversation,whichstruckusbothasinsipid,andwefoundmorepleasureinthethoughtswhichfilledourminds。Weknewthatweweregoingtopassthenighttogether,butwecouldnothavespokenofitopenly。Whatanight!

  whatadelightfulcreaturewasthatHenriettewhomIhavelovedsodeeply,whohasmademesosupremelyhappy!

  ItwasonlythreeorfourdayslaterthatIventuredonaskingherwhatshewouldhavedone,withoutagroatinherpossession,havingnotoneacquaintanceinParma,ifIhadbeenafraidtodeclaremylove,andifIhadgonetoNaples。Sheansweredthatshewoulddoubtlesshavefoundherselfinverygreatdifficulties,butthatshehadallalongfeltcertainofmylove,andthatshehadforeseenwhathadhappened。Sheaddedthat,beingimpatienttoknowwhatIthoughtofher,shehadaskedmetotranslatetothecaptainwhatshehadexpressedrespectingherresolution,knowingthathecouldneitheropposethatresolutionnorcontinuetolivewithher,andthat,asshehadtakencarenottoincludemeintheprayerwhichshehadaddressedtohimthroughme,shehadthoughtitimpossiblethatI

  shouldfailtoaskwhetherIcouldbeofsomeservicetoher,waitingtotakeadecisionuntilshecouldhaveascertainedthenatureofmyfeelingstowardsher。Sheconcludedbytellingmethatifshehadfallenitwasthefaultofherhusbandandofherfather—in—law,bothofwhomshecharacterizedasmonstersratherthanmen。

  WhenwereachedParma,IgavethepolicethenameofFarusi,thesamethatIhadassumedinCesena;itwasthefamilynameofmymother;

  whileHenriettewrotedown,\"AnneD’Arci,fromFrance。\"Whilewewereansweringthequestionsoftheofficer,ayoungFrenchman,smartandintelligent—looking,offeredmehisservices,andadvisedmenottoputupattheposting—inn,buttotakelodgingsatD’Andremorit’s。

  hotel,whereIshouldfindgoodapartments,Frenchcooking,andthebestFrenchwines。

  SeeingthatHenriettewaspleasedwiththeproposal,Itoldtheyoungmantotakeusthere,andweweresoonverycomfortablylodged。I

  engagedtheFrenchmanbytheday,andcarefullysettledallmyarrangementswithD’Andremont。AfterthatIattendedtothehousingofmycarriage。

  Cominginagainforafewminutes,ItoldHenriettethatIwouldreturnintimefordinner,and,orderingtheservanttoremainintheante—room,Iwentoutalone。

  Parmawasthengroaningunderanewgovernment。Ihadeveryreasontosupposethattherewerespieseverywhereandundereveryform。I

  thereforedidnotwanttohaveatmyheelsavaletwhomighthaveinjuredratherthanservedme。ThoughIwasinmyfather’snativecity,Ihadnoacquaintancesthere,butIknewthatIshouldsoonfindmyway。

  WhenIfoundmyselfinthestreets,IscarcelycouldbelievethatI

  wasinItaly,foreverythinghadatramontaneappearance。IheardnothingbutFrenchandSpanish,andthosewhodidnotspeakoneofthoselanguagesseemedtobewhisperingtooneanother。Iwasgoingaboutatrandom,lookingforahosier,yetunwillingtoenquirewhereIcouldfindone;atlastIsawwhatIwanted。

  Ienteredtheshop,andaddressingmyselftoastout,good—lookingwomanseatedbehindthecounter,Isaid,\"Madam,Iwishtomakesomepurchases。\"

  \"Sir,shallIsendforsomeonespeakingFrench?\"

  \"Youneednotdoso,IamanItalian。\"

  \"Godbepraised!Italiansarescarceinthesedays。\"

  \"Whyscarce?\"

  \"DoyounotknowthatDonPhiliphasarrived,andthathiswife,MadamedeFrance,isontheroad?\"

  \"Icongratulateyou,foritmustmaketradeverygood。Isupposethatmoneyisplentiful,andthatthereisabundanceofallcommodities。\"

  \"Thatistrue,buteverythingishighinprice,andwecannotgetreconciledtothesenewfashions。TheyareabadmixtureofFrenchfreedomandSpanishhaughtinesswhichaddlesourbrains。But,sir,whatsortoflinendoyourequire?\"

  \"Inthefirstplace,ImusttellyouthatInevertrytodriveahardbargain,thereforebecareful。Ifyouchargemetoomuch,Ishallnotcomeagain。Iwantsomefinelinenfortwenty—fourchemises,somedimityforstaysandpetticoats,somemuslin,somecambricforpocket—handkerchiefs,andmanyotherarticleswhichIshouldbeverygladtofindinyourshop,forIamastrangerhere,andGodknowsinwhathandsIamgoingtotrustmyself!\"

  \"Youwillbeinhonestones,ifyouwillgivemeyourconfidence。\"

  \"Iamsurethatyoudeserveit,andIabandonmyintereststoyou。

  Iwantlikewisetofindsomeneedlewomenwillingtoworkinthelady’sroom,becausesherequireseverythingtobemadeveryrapidly。\"

  \"Anddresses?\"

  \"Yes,dresses,caps,mantles—infact,everything,forsheisnaked。\"

  \"Withmoneyshewillsoonhaveallshewants。Issheyoung?\"。

  \"SheisfouryearsyoungerthanI。Sheismywife。\"

  \"Ah!mayGodblessyou!Anychildren?\"

  \"Notyet,mygoodlady;buttheywillcome,forwedoallthatisnecessarytohavethem。\"

  \"Ihavenodoubtofit。HowpleasedIam!Well,sir,Ishallsendfortheveryphoenixofalldressmakers。Inthemeantime,choosewhatyourequire,itwillamuseyou。\"

  Itookthebestofeverythingandpaid,andthedressmakermakingherappearanceatthatmomentIgavemyaddress,requestingthatvarioussortsofstuffmightbesentatonce。Itoldthedressmakerandherdaughter,whohadcomewithher,tofollowmeandtocarrythelinen。

  OnmywaytothehotelIboughtseveralpairsofsilkstockings,andtookwithmeabootmakerwholivedcloseby。

  Oh,whatadelightfulmoment!Henriette,whohadnottheslightestideaofwhatIhadgoneoutfor,lookedateverythingwithgreatpleasure,yetwithoutanyofthosedemonstrationswhichannounceaselfishorinteresteddisposition。SheshewedhergratitudeonlybythedelicatepraisewhichshebestoweduponmytasteanduponthequalityofthearticlesIhadpurchased。Shewasnotmorecheerfulonaccountofmypresents,butthetenderaffectionwithwhichshelookedatmewasthebestproofofhergratefulfeelings。

  ThevaletIhadhiredhadenteredtheroomwiththeshoemaker。

  Henriettetoldhimquietlytowithdraw,andnottocomeunlesshewascalled。Thedressmakersettowork,theshoemakertookhermeasure,andItoldhimtobringsomeslippers。Hereturnedinashorttime,andthevaletcameinagainwithhimwithouthavingbeencalled。Theshoemaker,whospokeFrench,wastalkingtheusualnonsenseofdealers,whensheinterruptedhimtoaskthevalet,whowasstandingfamiliarlyintheroom,whathewanted。

  \"Nothing,madam,Iamonlywaitingforyourorders。\"

  \"HaveInottoldyouthatyouwouldbecalledwhenyourserviceswererequired?\"

  \"Ishouldliketoknowwhoismymaster,youorthegentleman?\"

  \"Neither,\"Ireplied,laughing。\"Hereareyourday’swages。Beoffatonce。\"

  Theshoemaker,seeingthatHenriettespokeonlyFrench,beggedtorecommendateacheroflanguages。

  \"Whatcountrydoeshebelongto?\"sheenquired。

  \"ToFlanders,madam,\"answeredCrispin,\"heisaverylearnedman,aboutfiftyyearsold。Heissaidtobeagoodman。Hechargesthreelibbreforeachlessonofonehour,andsixfortwohours,butherequirestobepaideachtime。\"

  \"Mydear,\"saidHenriettetome,\"doyouwishmetoengagethatmaster?\"

  \"Yes,dearest,itwillamuseyou。\"

  TheshoemakerpromisedtosendtheFlemishprofessorthenextmorning。

  Thedressmakerswerehardatwork,themothercuttingandthedaughtersewing,but,asprogresscouldnotbetoorapid,ItoldthemotherthatshewouldobligeusifshecouldprocureanotherseamstresswhospokeFrench。

  \"Youshallhaveonethisveryday,sir,\"sheanswered,andsheofferedmetheservicesofherownsonasaservant,sayingthatifI

  tookhimIshouldbecertaintohaveneitherathiefnoraspyaboutme,andthathespokeFrenchprettywell。Henriettethoughtwecouldnotdobetterthantaketheyoungman。Ofcoursethatwasenoughtomakemeconsentatonce,fortheslightestwishofthewomanweloveisoursupremelaw。Themotherwentforhim,andshebroughtbackatthesametimethehalf—Frenchdressmaker。Itallamusedmygoddess,wholookedveryhappy。

  Theyoungmanwasabouteighteen,pleasant,gentleandmodest。I

  enquiredhisname,andheansweredthatitwasCaudagna。

  Thereadermayverylikelyrecollectthatmyfather’snativeplacehadbeenParma,andthatoneofhissistershadmarriedaCaudagna。

  \"Itwouldbeacuriouscoincidence,\"Ithought,\"ifthatdressmakershouldbemyaunt,andmyvaletmycousin!\"butIdidnotsayitaloud。

  HenrietteaskedmeifIhadanyobjectiontothefirstdressmakerdiningatourtable。

  \"Ientreatyou,mydarling,\"Ianswered,\"never,forthefuture,toaskmyconsentinsuchtriflingmatters。Bequitecertain,mybeloved,thatIshallalwaysapproveeverythingyoumaydo。\"

  Shesmiledandthankedme。Itookoutmypurse,andsaidtoher;

  \"Takethesefiftysequins,dearest,topayforallyoursmallexpenses,andtobuythemanytrifleswhichIshouldbesuretoforget。\"

  Shetookthemoney,assuringmethatshewasvastlyobligedtome。

  Ashorttimebeforedinnertheworthycaptainmadehisappearance。

  Henrietterantomeethimandkissedhim,callinghimherdearfather,andIfollowedherexamplebycallinghimmyfriend。Mybelovedlittlewifeinvitedhimtodinewithuseveryday。Theexcellentfellow,seeingallthewomenworkingbusilyforHenriette,washighlypleasedathavingprocuredsuchagoodpositionforhisyoungadventuress,andIcrownedhishappinessbytellinghimthatI

  wasindebtedtohimformyfelicity。

  Ourdinnerwasdelicious,anditprovedacheerfulmeal。IfoundoutthatHenriettewasdainty,andmyoldfriendaloverofgoodwines。

  Iwasboth,andfeltthatIwasamatchforthem。WetastedseveralexcellentwineswhichD’Andremonthadrecommended,andaltogetherwehadaverygooddinner。

  Theyoungvaletpleasedmeinconsequenceoftherespectfulmannerinwhichheservedeveryone,hismotheraswellashismasters。Hissisterandtheotherseamstresshaddinedapart。

  Wewereenjoyingourdessertwhenthehosierwasannounced,accompaniedbyanotherwomanandamillinerwhocouldspeakFrench。

  Theotherwomanhadbroughtpatternsofallsortsofdresses。IletHenrietteordercaps,head—dresses,etc。,asshepleased,butIwouldinterfereinthedressdepartmentalthoughIcompliedwiththeexcellenttasteofmycharmingfriend。Imadeherchoosefourdresses,andIwasindeedgratefulforherreadyacceptanceofthem,formyownhappinesswasincreasedinproportiontothepleasureI

  gaveherandtheinfluenceIwasobtainingoverherheart。

  Thusdidwespendthefirstday,andwecouldcertainlynothaveaccomplishedmore。

  Intheevening,aswewerealoneatsupper,Ifanciedthatherlovelyfacelookedsad。Itoldherso。

  \"Mydarling,\"sheanswered,withavoicewhichwenttomyheart,\"youarespendingagreatdealofmoneyonme,andifyoudosointhehopeofmylovingyoumoredearlyImusttellyouitismoneylost,forIdonotloveyounowmorethanIdidyesterday,butIdoloveyouwithmywholeheart。AllyoumaydothatisnotstrictlynecessarypleasesmeonlybecauseIseemoreandmorehowworthyyouareofme,butitisnotneededtomakemefeelallthedeeplovewhichyoudeserve。\"

  \"Ibelieveyou,dearest,andmyhappinessisindeedgreatifyoufeelthatyourloveformecannotbeincreased。Butlearnalso,delightofmyheart,thatIhavedoneitallonlytotrytoloveyouevenmorethanIdo,ifpossible。Iwishtoseeyoubeautifulandbrilliantintheattireofyoursex,andifthereisonedropofbitternessinthefragrantcupofmyfelicity,itisaregretatnotbeingabletosurroundyouwiththehalowhichyoudeserve。CanIbeotherwisethandelighted,mylove,ifyouarepleased?\"

  \"Youcannotforonemomentdoubtmybeingpleased,andasyouhavecalledmeyourwifeyouarerightinoneway,butifyouarenotveryrichIleaveittoyoutojudgehowdeeplyIoughttoreproachmyself。\"

  \"Ah,mybelovedangel!letme,Ibegofyou,believemyselfwealthy,andbequitecertainthatyoucannotpossiblybethecauseofmyruin。Youwerebornonlyformyhappiness。AllIwishisthatyoumayneverleaveme。TellmewhetherIcanentertainsuchahope。\"

  \"Iwishitmyself,dearest,butwhocanbesureofthefuture?Areyoufree?Areyoudependentonanyone?\"

  \"Iamfreeinthebroadestmeaningofthatword,Iamdependentonnoonebutyou,andIlovetobeso。\"

  \"Icongratulateyou,andIamverygladofit,fornoonecantearyoufrommyarms,but,alas!youknowthatIcannotsaythesameasyou。Iamcertainthatsomepersonsare,evennow,seekingforme,andtheywillnotfinditverydifficulttosecuremeiftheyeverdiscoverwhereIam。Alas!IfeelhowmiserableIshouldbeiftheyeversucceededindraggingmeawayfromyou!\"

  \"Youmakemetremble。Areyouafraidofsuchadreadfulmisfortunehere?\"

  \"No,unlessIshouldhappentobeseenbysomeoneknowingme。\"

  \"Areanysuchpersonslikelytobehereatpresent?\"

  \"Ithinknot。\"

  \"Thendonotletourlovetakealarm,Itrustyourfearswillneverbeverified。Only,mydarlingone,youmustbeascheerfulasyouwereinCesena。\"

  \"Ishallbemoretrulysonow,dearfriend。InCesenaIwasmiserable;whilenowIamhappy。Donotbeafraidofmybeingsad,forIamofanaturallycheerfuldisposition。\"

  \"IsupposethatinCesenayouwereafraidofbeingcaughtbytheofficerwhomyouhadleftinRome?\"

  \"Notatall;thatofficerwasmyfather—in—law,andIamquitecertainthathenevertriedtoascertainwhereIhadgone。Hewasonlytoogladtogetridofme。IfeltunhappybecauseIcouldnotbeartobeachargeonamanwhomIcouldnotlove,andwithwhomI

  couldnotevenexchangeonethought。RecollectalsothatIcouldnotfindconsolationintheideathatIwasministeringtohishappiness,forIhadonlyinspiredhimwithapassingfancywhichhehadhimselfvaluedattensequins。Icouldnothelpfeelingthathisfancy,oncegratified,wasnotlikelyathistimeoflifetobecomeamorelastingsentiment,andIcouldthereforeonlybeaburdentohim,forhewasnotwealthy。Besides,therewasamiserableconsiderationwhichincreasedmysecretsorrow。Ithoughtmyselfboundindutytocarresshim,andonhisside,ashethoughtthatheoughttopaymeinthesamemoney,Iwasafraidofhisruininghishealthforme,andthatideamademeveryunhappy。Havingnoloveforeachother,weallowedafoolishfeelingofregardtomakebothofusuncomfortable。

  Welavished,forthesakeofawell—meaningbutfalsedecorum,thatwhichbelongstolovealone。Anotherthingtroubledme,greatly。I

  wasafraidlestpeoplemightsupposethatIwasasourceofprofittohim。Thatideamademefeelthedeepestshame,yet,wheneverI

  thoughtofit,Icouldnothelpadmittingthatsuchasupposition,howeverfalse,wasnotwantinginprobability。Itisowingtothatfeelingthatyoufoundmesoreservedtowardsyou,forIwasafraidthatyoumightharbourthatfearfulideaifIallowed,youtoreadinmylooksthefavourableimpressionwhichyouhadmadeonmyheart。\"

  \"Thenitwasnotowingtoafeelingofself—love?\"

  \"No,Iconfessit,foryoucouldbutjudgemeasIdeserved。Ihadbeenguiltyofthefollynowknowntoyoubecausemyfather—in—lawintendedtoburymeinaconvent,andthatdidnotsuitmytaste。

  But,dearestfriend,youmustforgivemeif,Icannotconfideeventoyouthehistoryofmylife。\"

  \"Irespectyoursecret,darling;youneednotfearanyintrusionfrommeonthatsubject。Allwehavetodoistoloveoneanother,andnottoallowanydreadofthefuturetomarouractualfelicity。\"

  Thenextday,afteranightofintenseenjoyment,Ifoundmyselfmoredeeplyinlovethanbefore,andthenextthreemonthswerespentbyusinanintoxicationofdelight。

  Atnineo’clockthenextmorningtheteacherofItalianwasannounced。Isawamanofrespectableappearance,polite,modest,speakinglittlebutwell,reservedinhisanswers,andwiththemannersofoldentimes。Weconversed,andIcouldnothelplaughingwhenhesaid,withanairofperfectgoodfaith,thataChristiancouldonlyadmitthesystemofCopernicusasacleverhypothesis。

  IansweredthatitwasthesystemofGodHimselfbecauseitwasthatofnature,andthatitwasnotinHolyScripturethatthelawsofsciencecouldbelearned。

  TheteachersmiledinamannerwhichbetrayedtheTartufe,andifI

  hadconsultedonlymyownfeelingsIshouldhavedismissedthepoorman,butIthoughtthathemightamuseHenrietteandteachherItalian;afterallitwaswhatIwantedfromhim。Mydearwifetoldhimthatshewouldgivehimsixlibbreforalessonoftwohours:thelibbraofParmabeingworthonlyaboutthreepence,hislessonswerenotveryexpensive。Shetookherfirstlessonimmediatelyandgavehimtwosequins,askinghimtopurchasehersomegoodnovels。

  WhilstmydearHenriettewastakingherlesson,Ihadsomeconversationwiththedressmaker,inordertoascertainwhethershewasarelativeofmine。

  \"Whatdoesyourhusbanddo?\"Iaskedher。

  \"HeisstewardtotheMarquisofSissa。\"

  \"Isyourfatherstillalive?\"

  \"No,sir,heisdead。\"

  \"Whatwashisfamilyname?\"

  \"Scotti。\"

  \"Areyourhusband’sparentsstillalive?\"

  \"Hisfatherisdead,buthismotherisstillalive,andresideswithheruncle,CanonCasanova。\"

  Thatwasenough。ThegoodwomanwasmyWelshcousin,andherchildrenweremyWelshnephews。MynieceJeannetonwasnotpretty;

  butsheappearedtobeagoodgirl。Icontinuedmyconversationwiththemother,butIchangedthetopic。

  \"AretheParmesanssatisfiedwithbeingthesubjectsofaSpanishprince?\"

  \"Satisfied?Well,inthatcase,weshouldbeeasilypleased,forwearenowinaregularmaze。Everythingisupset,wedonotknowwhereweare。Oh!happytimesofthehouseofFarnese,whitherhaveyoudeparted?ThedaybeforeyesterdayIwenttothetheatre,andHarlequinmadeeverybodyroarwithlaughter。Well,now,fancy,DonPhilipo,ournewduke,didallhecouldtoremainserious,andwhenhecouldnotmanageit,hewouldhidehisfaceinhishatsothatpeopleshouldnotseethathewaslaughing,foritissaidthatlaughteroughtnevertodisturbthegraveandstiffcountenanceofanInfanteofSpain,andthathewouldbedishonouredinMadridifhedidnotconcealhismirth。Whatdoyouthinkofthat?Cansuchmannerssuitus?Herewelaughwillinglyandheartily!Oh!thegoodDukeAntonio(Godresthissoul!)wascertainlyasgreataprinceasDukePhilipo,buthedidnothidehimselffromhissubjectswhenhewaspleased,andhewouldsometimeslaughsoheartilythathecouldbeheardinthestreets。Nowweareallinthemostfearfulconfusion,andforthelastthreemonthsnooneinParmaknowswhat’so’clock。\"

  \"Havealltheclocksbeendestroyed?\"

  \"No,buteversinceGodcreatedtheworld,thesunhasalwaysgonedownathalf—pastfive,andatsixthebellshavealwaysbeentolledfortheAngelus。Allrespectablepeopleknewthatatthattimethecandlehadtobelit。Now,itisverystrange,thesunhasgonemad,forhesetseverydayatadifferenthour。Ourpeasantsdonotknowwhentheyaretocometomarket。Allthatiscalledaregulationbutdoyouknowwhy?Becausenoweverybodyknowsthatdinneristobeeatenattwelveo’clock。Afineregulation,indeed!UndertheFarneseweusedtoeatwhenwewerehungry,andthatwasmuchbetter。\"

  Thatwayofreasoningwascertainlysingular,butIdidnotthinkitsoundedfoolishinthemouthofawomanofhumblerank。Itseemstomethatagovernmentoughtnevertodestroyancientcustomsabruptly,andthatinnocenterrorsoughttobecorrectedonlybydegrees。

  Henriettehadnowatch。Ifeltdelightedattheideaofofferinghersuchapresent,andIwentouttopurchaseone,butafterIhadboughtaveryfinewatch,Ithoughtofear—rings,ofafan,andofmanyotherprettynicknacks。OfcourseIboughtthemallatonce。

  Shereceivedallthosegiftsofferedbylovewithatenderdelicacywhichoverjoyedme。ShewasstillwiththeteacherwhenIcameback。

  \"Ishouldhavebeenable,\"hesaidtome,\"toteachyourladyheraldry,geography,history,andtheuseoftheglobes,butsheknowsthatalready。Shehasreceivedanexcellenteducation。\"

  Theteacher’snamewasValentindelaHaye。Hetoldmethathewasanengineerandprofessorofmathematics。IshallhavetospeakofhimveryoftenintheseMemoirs,andmyreaderswillmakehisacquaintancebyhisdeedsbetterthanbyanyportraitIcouldgiveofhim,soIwillmerelysaythathewasatrueTartufe,aworthypupilofEscobar。

  WehadapleasantdinnerwithourHungarianfriend。Henriettewasstillwearingtheuniform,andIlongedtoseeherdressedasawoman。Sheexpectedadresstobereadyforthenextday,andshewasalreadysuppliedwithpetticoatsandchemises。

  Henriettewasfullofwitandamistressofrepartee。Themilliner,whowasanativeofLyons,cameinonemorning,andsaidinFrench:

  \"MadameetMonsieur,j’ail’honneurdevoussouhaiterlebonjour。\"

  \"Why,\"saidmyfriend,\"doyounotsayMonsieuretmadame?\"

  \"Ihavealwaysheardthatinsocietytheprecedenceisgiventotheladies。\"

  \"Butfromwhomdowewishtoreceivethathonour?\"

  \"Fromgentlemen,ofcourse。\"

  \"Anddoyounotseethatwomenwouldrenderthemselvesridiculousiftheydidnotgranttomenthesamethattheyexpectfromthem。Ifwewishthemnevertofailinpolitenesstowardsus,wemustshewthemtheexample。\"

  \"Madam,\"answeredtheshrewdmilliner,\"youhavetaughtmeanexcellentlesson,andIwillprofitbyit。Monsieuretmadame,jesuisvotreservante。\"

  Thisfemininecontroversygreatlyamusedme。

  Thosewhodonotbelievethatawomancanmakeamanhappythroughthetwenty—fourhoursofthedayhaveneverpossessedawomanlikeHenriette。Thehappinesswhichfilledme,ifIcanexpressitinthatmanner,wasmuchgreaterwhenIconversedwithhereventhanwhenIheldherinmyarms。Shehadreadmuch,shehadgreattact,andhertastewasnaturallyexcellent;herjudgmentwassane,and,withoutbeinglearned,shecouldarguelikeamathematician,easilyandwithoutpretension,andineverythingshehadthatnaturalgracewhichissocharming。Shenevertriedtobewittywhenshesaidsomethingofimportance,butaccompaniedherwordswithasmilewhichimpartedtothemanappearanceoftrifling,andbroughtthemwithintheunderstandingofall。Inthatwayshewouldgiveintelligenceeventothosewhohadnone,andshewoneveryheart。Beautywithoutwitofferslovenothingbutthematerialenjoymentofitsphysicalcharms,whilstwittyuglinesscaptivatesbythecharmsofthemind,andatlastfulfilsallthedesiresofthemanithascaptivated。

  ThenwhatwasmypositionduringallthetimethatIpossessedmybeautifulandwittyHenriette?ThatofamansosupremelyhappythatIcouldscarcelyrealizemyfelicity!

  Letanyoneaskabeautifulwomanwithoutwitwhethershewouldbewillingtoexchangeasmallportionofherbeautyforasufficientdoseofwit。Ifshespeaksthetruth,shewillsay,\"No,IamsatisfiedtobeasIam。\"Butwhyisshesatisfied?Becausesheisnotawareofherowndeficiency。Letanuglybutwittywomanbeaskedifshewouldchangeherwitagainstbeauty,andshewillnothestitateinsayingno。Why?Because,knowingthevalueofherwit,sheiswellawarethatitissufficientbyitselftomakeheraqueeninanysociety。

  Butalearnedwoman,ablue—stocking,isnotthecreaturetoministertoaman’shappiness。Positiveknowledgeisnotawoman’sprovince。

  Itisantipathetictothegentlenessofhernature,totheamenity,tothesweettimiditywhicharethegreatestcharmsofthefairsex,besides,womennevercarrytheirlearningbeyondcertainlimits,andthetittle—tattleofblue—stockingscandazzlenoonebutfools。

  Therehasneverbeenonegreatdiscoveryduetoawoman。Thefairsexisdeficientinthatvigorouspowerwhichthebodylendstothemind,butwomenareevidentlysuperiortomeninsimplereasoning,indelicacyoffeelings,andinthatspeciesofmeritwhichappertainstotheheartratherthantothemind。

  Hurlsomeidlesophismatawomanofintelligence。Shewillnotunravelit,butshewillnotbedeceivedbyit,and,thoughshemaynotsayso,shewillletyouguessthatshedoesnotacceptit。A

  man,onthecontrary,ifhecannotunravelthesophism,takesitinaliteralsense,andinthatrespectthelearnedwomanisexactlythesameasman。WhataburdenaMadameDaciermustbetoaman!MayGodsaveeveryhonestmanfromsuch!

  Whenthenewdresswasbrought,Henriettetoldmethatshedidnotwantmetowitnesstheprocessofhermetamorphosis,andshedesiredmetogooutforawalkuntilshehadresumedheroriginalform。I

  obeyedcheerfully,fortheslightestwishofthewomanweloveisalaw,andourveryobedienceincreasesourhappiness。

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