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  Theremarkwassosingularlyatvariancewithallshehadledhimtoexpectfromher,thatStrumolowskistretchedouthishandandtookacigarette。

  \"Englandneverwantsanidealist,\"hesaid。

  ButinJunesomethingprimitivelyEnglishwasthoroughlyupset;oldJolyon’ssenseofjusticehadrisen,asitwere,frombed。\"Youcomeandspongeonus,\"shesaid,\"andthenabuseus。Ifyouthinkthat’splayingthegame,Idon’t。\"

  Shenowdiscoveredthatwhichothershaddiscoveredbeforeher——thethicknessofhidebeneathwhichthesensibilityofgeniusissometimesveiled。Strumolowski’syoungandingenuousfacebecametheincarnationofasneer。

  \"Sponge,onedoesnotsponge,onetakeswhatisowing——atenthpartofwhatisowing。Youwillrepenttosaythat,MissForsyte。\"

  \"Oh,no,\"saidJune,\"Ishan’t。\"

  \"Ah!Weknowverywell,weartists——youtakeustogetwhatyoucanoutofus。Iwantnothingfromyou\"——andheblewoutacloudofJune’ssmoke。

  Decisionroseinanicypufffromtheturmoilofinsultedshamewithinher。\"Verywell,then,youcantakeyourthingsaway。\"

  And,almostinthesamemoment,shethought:’Poorboy!He’sonlygotagarret,andprobablynotataxifare。Infrontofthesepeople,too;it’spositivelydisgusting!’

  YoungStrumolowskishookhisheadviolently;hishair,thick,smooth,closeasagoldenplate,didnotfalloff。

  \"Icanliveonnothing,\"hesaidshrilly;\"IhaveoftenhadtoforthesakeofmyArt。Itisyoubourgeoiswhoforceustospendmoney。\"

  ThewordshitJunelikeapebble,intheribs。AfterallshehaddoneforArt,allheridentificationwithitstroublesandlameducks。Shewasstrugglingforadequatewordswhenthedoorwasopened,andherAustrianmurmured:

  \"Ayounglady,gnadigesFraulein。\"

  \"Where?\"

  \"Inthelittlemeal—room。\"

  WithaglanceatBorisStrumolowski,atHannahHobdey,atJimmyPortugal,Junesaidnothing,andwentout,devoidofequanimity。

  Enteringthe\"littlemeal—room,\"sheperceivedtheyoungladytobeFleur——lookingverypretty,ifpale。AtthisdisenchantedmomentalittlelameduckofherownbreedwaswelcometoJune,sohomoeopathicbyinstinct。

  Thegirlmusthavecome,ofcourse,becauseofJon;or,ifnot,atleasttogetsomethingoutofher。AndJunefeltjustthenthattoassistsomebodywastheonlybearablething。

  \"Soyou’verememberedtocome,\"shesaid。

  \"Yes。Whatajollylittleduckofahouse!Butpleasedon’tletmebotheryou,ifyou’vegotpeople。\"

  \"Notatall,\"saidJune。\"Iwanttoletthemstewintheirownjuiceforabit。HaveyoucomeaboutJon?\"

  \"Yousaidyouthoughtweoughttobetold。Well,I’vefoundout。\"

  \"Oh!\"saidJuneblankly。\"Notnice,isit?\"

  TheywerestandingoneoneachsideofthelittlebaretableatwhichJunetookhermeals。AvaseonitwasfullofIcelandpoppies;thegirlraisedherhandandtouchedthemwithaglovedfinger。Tohernew—fangleddress,frillyaboutthehipsandtightbelowtheknees,Junetookasuddenliking——acharmingcolour,flax—blue。

  ’Shemakesapicture,’thoughtJune。Herlittleroom,withitswhitewashedwalls,itsfloorandhearthofoldpinkbrick,itsblackpaint,andlatticedwindowathwartwhichthelastofthesunlightwasshining,hadneverlookedsocharming,setoffbythisyoungfigure,withthecreamy,slightlyfrowningface。SherememberedwithsuddenvividnesshownicesheherselfhadlookedinthoseolddayswhenherheartwassetonPhilipBosinney,thatdeadlover,whohadbrokenfromhertodestroyforeverIrene’sallegiancetothisgirl’sfather。DidFleurknowofthat,too?

  \"Well,\"shesaid,\"whatareyougoingtodo?\"

  ItwassomesecondsbeforeFleuranswered。

  \"Idon’twantJontosuffer。Imustseehimoncemoretoputanendtoit。\"

  \"You’regoingtoputanendtoit!\"

  \"Whatelseistheretodo?\"

  ThegirlseemedtoJune,suddenly,intolerablyspiritless。

  \"Isupposeyou’reright,\"shemuttered。\"Iknowmyfatherthinksso;

  but——Ishouldneverhavedoneitmyself。Ican’ttakethingslyingdown。\"

  Howpoisedandwatchfulthatgirllooked;howunemotionalhervoicesounded!

  \"PeoplewillassumethatI’minlove。\"

  \"Well,aren’tyou?\"

  Fleurshruggedhershoulders。’Imighthaveknownit,’thoughtJune;

  ’she’sSoames’daughter——fish!Andyet——he!’

  \"Whatdoyouwantmetodothen?\"shesaidwithasortofdisgust。

  \"CouldIseeJonhereto—morrowonhiswaydowntoHolly’s?He’dcomeifyousenthimalineto—night。Andperhapsafterwardyou’dletthemknowquietlyatRobinHillthatit’sallover,andthattheyneedn’ttellJonabouthismother。\"

  \"Allright!\"saidJuneabruptly。\"I’llwritenow,andyoucanpostit。Half—pasttwotomorrow。Ishan’tbein,myself。\"

  Shesatdownatthetinybureauwhichfilledonecorner。WhenshelookedroundwiththefinishednoteFleurwasstilltouchingthepoppieswithherglovedfinger。

  Junelickedastamp。\"Well,hereitis。Ifyou’renotinlove,ofcourse,there’snomoretobesaid。Jon’slucky。\"

  Fleurtookthenote。\"Thanksawfully!\"

  ’Cold—bloodedlittlebaggage!’thoughtJune。Jon,sonofherfather,tolove,andnottobelovedbythedaughterof——Soames!Itwashumiliating!

  \"Isthatall?\"

  Fleurnodded;herfrillsshookandtrembledassheswayedtowardthedoor。

  \"Good—bye!\"

  \"Good—bye!……Littlepieceoffashion!\"mutteredJune,closingthedoor。\"Thatfamily!\"Andshemarchedbacktowardherstudio。BorisStrumolowskihadregainedhisChrist—likesilenceandJimmyPortugalwasdamningeverybody,exceptthegroupinwhosebehalfherantheNeo—Artist。AmongthecondemnedwereEricCobbley,andseveralother\"lame—duck\"geniiwhoatonetimeoranotherhadheldfirstplaceintherepertoireofJune’saidandadoration。Sheexperiencedasenseoffutilityanddisgust,andwenttothewindowtolettheriver—windblowthosesqueakywordsaway。

  ButwhenatlengthJimmyPortugalhadfinished,andgonewithHannahHobdey,shesatdownandmotheredyoungStrumolowskiforhalfanhour,promisinghimamonth,atleast,oftheAmericanstream;sothathewentawaywithhishaloinperfectorder。’Inspiteofall,’

  Junethought,’Borisiswonderful’

  VIII

  THEBITBETWEENTHETEETH

  Toknowthatyourhandisagainsteveryone’sis——forsomenatures——

  toexperienceasenseofmoralrelease。FleurfeltnoremorsewhensheleftJune’shouse。Readingcondemnatoryresentmentinherlittlekinswoman’sblueeyes—shewasgladthatshehadfooledher,despisingJunebecausethatelderlyidealisthadnotseenwhatshewasafter。

  Endit,forsooth!Shewouldsoonshowthemallthatshewasonlyjustbeginning。AndshesmiledtoherselfonthetopofthebuswhichcarriedherbacktoMayfair。Butthesmiledied,squeezedoutbyspasmsofanticipationandanxiety。WouldshebeabletomanageJon?Shehadtakenthebitbetweenherteeth,butcouldshemakehimtakeittoo?Sheknewthetruthandtherealdangerofdelay——heknewneither;thereinlayallthedifferenceintheworld。

  ’SupposeItellhim,’shethought;’wouldn’titreallybesafer?’

  Thishideousluckhadnorighttospoiltheirlove;hemustseethat!

  Theycouldnotletit!Peoplealwaysacceptedanaccomplishedfactintime!Fromthatpieceofphilosophy——profoundenoughatherage——

  shepassedtoanotherconsiderationlessphilosophic。IfshepersuadedJontoaquickandsecretmarriage,andhefoundoutafterwardthatshehadknownthetruth。Whatthen?Jonhatedsubterfuge。Again,then,woulditnotbebettertotellhim?Butthememoryofhismother’sfacekeptintrudingonthatimpulse。

  Fleurwasafraid。Hismotherhadpoweroverhim;morepowerperhapsthansheherself。Whocouldtell?Itwastoogreatarisk。Deep—

  sunkintheseinstinctivecalculationsshewascarriedonpastGreenStreetasfarastheRitzHotel。Shegotdownthere,andwalkedbackontheGreenParkside。Thestormhadwashedeverytree;theystilldripped。Heavydropsfellontoherfrills,andtoavoidthemshecrossedoverundertheeyesoftheIseeumClub。ChancingtolookupshesawMonsieurProfondwithatallstoutmaninthebaywindow。

  TurningintoGreenStreetsheheardhernamecalled,andsaw\"thatprowler\"comingup。Hetookoffhishat——aglossy\"bowler\"suchassheparticularlydetested。

  \"Goodevenin’!MissForsyde。Isn’tthereasmallthingIcandoforyou?\"

  \"Yes,passbyontheotherside。\"

  \"Isay!Whydoyoudislikeme?\"

  \"DoI?\"

  \"Itlookslikeit。\"

  \"Well,then,becauseyoumakemefeellifeisn’tworthliving。\"

  MonsieurProfondsmiled。

  \"Lookhere,MissForsyde,don’tworry。It’llbeallright。Nothinglasts。\"

  \"Thingsdolast,\"criedFleur;\"withmeanyhow——especiallylikesanddislikes。\"

  \"Well,thatmakesmeabitun’appy。\"

  \"Ishouldhavethoughtnothingcouldevermakeyouhappyorunhappy。\"

  \"Idon’tliketoannoyotherpeople。I’mgoin’onmyyacht。\"

  Fleurlookedathim,startled。

  \"Where?\"

  \"SmallvoyagetotheSouthSeasorsomewhere,\"saidMonsieurProfond。

  Fleursufferedreliefandasenseofinsult。Clearlyhemeanttoconveythathewasbreakingwithhermother。Howdaredhehaveanythingtobreak,andyethowdaredhebreakit?

  \"Good—night,MissForsyde!RemembermetoMrs。Dartie。I’mnotsobadreally。Good—night!\"Fleurlefthimstandingtherewithhishatraised。Stealingalookround,shesawhimstroll——immaculateandheavy——backtowardhisClub。

  ’Hecan’tevenlovewithconviction,’shethought。’WhatwillMotherdo?’

  Herdreamsthatnightwereendlessanduneasy;sheroseheavyandunrested,andwentatoncetothestudyofWhitaker’sAlmanac。A

  Forsyteisinstinctivelyawarethatfactsaretherealcruxofanysituation。ShemightconquerJon’sprejudice,butwithoutexactmachinerytocompletetheirdesperateresolve,nothingwouldhappen。

  >Fromtheinvaluabletomeshelearnedthattheymusteachbetwenty—

  one;orsomeone’sconsentwouldbenecessary,whichofcoursewasunobtainable;thenshebecamelostindirectionsconcerninglicenses,certificates,notices,districts,comingfinallytotheword\"perjury。\"Butthatwasnonsense!Whowouldreallymindtheirgivingwrongagesinordertobemarriedforlove!Sheatehardlyanybreakfast,andwentbacktoWhitaker。Themoreshestudiedthelesssureshebecame;till,idlyturningthepages,shecametoScotland。Peoplecouldbemarriedtherewithoutanyofthisnonsense。Shehadonlytogoandstaytheretwenty—onedays,thenJoncouldcome,andinfrontoftwopeopletheycoulddeclarethemselvesmarried。Andwhatwasmore——theywouldbe!Itwasfarthebestway;andatoncesheranoverherschoolfellows。TherewasMaryLambewholivedinEdinburghandwas\"quiteasport!\"

  Shehadabrothertoo。ShecouldstaywithMaryLambe,whowithherbrotherwouldserveforwitnesses。Shewellknewthatsomegirlswouldthinkallthisunnecessary,andthatallsheandJonneeddowastogoawaytogetherforaweekendandthensaytotheirpeople:

  \"WearemarriedbyNature,wemustnowbemarriedbyLaw。\"ButFleurwasForsyteenoughtofeelsuchaproceedingdubious,andtodreadherfather’sfacewhenheheardofit。Besides,shedidnotbelievethatJonwoulddoit;hehadanopinionofhersuchasshecouldnotbeartodiminish。No!MaryLambewaspreferable,anditwasjustthetimeofyeartogotoScotland。Moreateasenowshepacked,avoidedheraunt,andtookabustoChiswick。Shewastooearly,andwentontoKewGardens。Shefoundnopeaceamongitsflower—beds,labelledtrees,andbroadgreenspaces,andhavinglunchedoffanchovy—pastesandwichesandcoffee,returnedtoChiswickandrangJune’sbell。TheAustrianadmittedhertothe\"littlemeal—room。\"

  NowthatsheknewwhatsheandJonwereupagainst,herlongingforhimhadincreasedtenfold,asifhewereatoywithsharpedgesordangerouspaintsuchastheyhadtriedtotakefromherasachild。

  Ifshecouldnothaveherway,andgetJonforgoodandall,shefeltlikedyingofprivation。Byhookorcrookshemustandwouldgethim!Arounddimmirrorofveryoldglasshungoverthepinkbrickhearth。Shestoodlookingatherselfreflectedinit,pale,andratherdarkundertheeyes;littleshudderskeptpassingthroughhernerves。Thensheheardthebellring,and,stealingtothewindow,sawhimstandingonthedoorstepsmoothinghishairandlips,asifhetooweretryingtosubduetheflutteringofhisnerves。

  Shewassittingononeofthetworush—seatedchairs,withherbacktothedoor,whenhecamein,andshesaidatonce\"Sitdown,Jon,Iwanttotalkseriously。\"

  Jonsatonthetablebyherside,andwithoutlookingathimshewenton:

  \"Ifyoudon’twanttoloseme,wemustgetmarried。\"

  Jongasped。

  \"Why?Isthereanythingnew?\"

  \"No,butIfeltitatRobinHill,andamongmypeople。\"

  \"But——\"stammeredJon,\"atRobinHill——itwasallsmooth——andthey’vesaidnothingtome。\"

  \"Buttheymeantostopus。Yourmother’sfacewasenough。Andmyfather’s。\"

  \"Haveyouseenhimsince?\"

  Fleurnodded。Whatmatteredafewsupplementarylies?

  \"But,\"saidJoneagerly,\"Ican’tseehowtheycanfeellikethatafteralltheseyears。\"

  Fleurlookedupathim。

  \"Perhapsyoudon’tlovemeenough。\"

  \"Notloveyouenough!Why——!\"

  \"Thenmakesureofme。\"

  \"Withouttellingthem?\"

  \"Nottillafter。\"

  Jonwassilent。Howmucholderhelookedthanonthatday,barelytwomonthsago,whenshefirstsawhim——quitetwoyearsolder!

  \"ItwouldhurtMotherawfully,\"hesaid。

  Fleurdrewherhandaway。

  \"You’vegottochoose。\"

  Jonslidoffthetableontohisknees。

  \"Butwhynottellthem?Theycan’treallystopus,Fleur!\"

  \"Theycan!Itellyou,theycan。\"

  \"How?\"

  \"We’reutterlydependent——byputtingmoneypressure,andallsortsofotherpressure。I’mnotpatient,Jon。\"

  \"Butit’sdeceivingthem。\"

  Fleurgotup。

  \"Youcan’treallyloveme,oryouwouldn’thesitate。’Heeitherfearshisfatetoomuch!’\"

  Liftinghishandstoherwaist,Jonforcedhertositdownagain。

  Shehurriedon:

  \"I’veplanneditallout。We’veonlytogotoScotland。Whenwe’remarriedthey’llsooncomeround。Peoplealwayscomeroundtofacts。

  Don’tyousee,Jon?\"

  \"Buttohurtthemsoawfully!\"

  Sohewouldratherhurtherthanthosepeopleofhis!\"Allright,then;letmego!\"

  Jongotupandputhisbackagainstthedoor。

  \"Iexpectyou’reright,\"hesaidslowly;\"butIwanttothinkitover。\"

  Shecouldseethathewasseethingwithfeelingshewantedtoexpress;butshedidnotmeantohelphim。Shehatedherselfatthismomentandalmosthatedhim。Whyhadshetodoalltheworktosecuretheirlove?Itwasn’tfair。Andthenshesawhiseyes,adoringanddistressed。

  \"Don’tlooklikethat!Ionlydon’twanttoloseyou,Jon。\"

  \"Youcan’tlosemesolongasyouwantme。\"

  \"Oh,yes,Ican。\"

  Jonputhishandsonhershoulders。

  \"Fleur,doyouknowanythingyouhaven’ttoldme?\"

  Itwasthepoint—blankquestionshehaddreaded。Shelookedstraightathim,andanswered:\"No。\"Shehadburntherboats;butwhatdiditmatter,ifshegothim?Hewouldforgiveher。Andthrowingherarmsroundhisneck,shekissedhimonthelips。Shewaswinning!Shefeltitinthebeatingofhisheartagainsther,intheclosingofhiseyes。\"Iwanttomakesure!Iwanttomakesure!\"shewhispered。\"Promise!\"

  Jondidnotanswer。Hisfacehadthestillnessofextremetrouble。

  Atlasthesaid:

  \"It’slikehittingthem。Imustthinkalittle,Fleur。Ireallymust。\"

  Fleurslippedoutofhisarms。

  \"Oh!Verywell!\"Andsuddenlysheburstintotearsofdisappointment,shame,andoverstrain。Followedfiveminutesofacutemisery。Jon’sremorseandtendernessknewnobounds;buthedidnotpromise。

  Despiteherwilltocry,\"Verywell,then,ifyoudon’tlovemeenough—goodbye!\"shedarednot。Frombirthaccustomedtoherownway,thischeckfromonesoyoung,sotender,sodevoted,baffledandsurprisedher。Shewantedtopushhimawayfromher,totrywhatangerandcoldnesswoulddo,andagainshedarednot。Theknowledgethatshewasschemingtorushhimblindfoldintotheirrevocableweakenedeverything——weakenedthesincerityofpique,andthesincerityofpassion;evenherkisseshadnotthelureshewishedforthem。Thatstormylittlemeetingendedinconclusively。

  \"Willyousometea,gnadigesFraulein?\"

  PushingJonfromher,shecriedout:

  \"No—no,thankyou!I’mjustgoing。\"

  Andbeforehecouldpreventhershewasgone。

  Shewentstealthily,moppinghergushed,stainedcheeks,frightened,angry,verymiserable。ShehadstirredJonupsofearfully,yetnothingdefinitewaspromisedorarranged!Butthemoreuncertainandhazardousthefuture,themore\"thewilltohave\"workeditstentaclesintothefleshofherheart——likesomeburrowingtick!

  NoonewasatGreenStreet。WinifredhadgonewithImogentoseeaplaywhichsomesaidwasallegorical,andothers\"veryexciting,don’tyouknow。\"ItwasbecauseofwhatotherssaidthatWinifredandImogenhadgone。FleurwentontoPaddington。Throughthecarriagetheairfromthebrick—kilnsofWestDraytonandthelatehayfieldsfannedherstillgushedcheeks。Flowershadseemedtobehadforthepicking;nowtheywereallthornedandprickled。Butthegoldenflowerwithinthecrownofspikesseemedtohertenaciousspiritallthefairerandmoredesirable。

  IX

  THEFATINTHEFIRE

  OnreachinghomeFleurfoundanatmospheresopeculiarthatitpenetratedeventheperplexedauraofherownprivatelife。Hermotherwasinaccessiblyentrenchedinabrownstudy;herfathercontemplatingfateinthevinery。Neitherofthemhadawordtothrowtoadog。’Isitbecauseofme?’thoughtFleur。’OrbecauseofProfond?’Tohermothershesaid:

  \"What’sthematterwithFather?\"

  Hermotheransweredwithashrugofhershoulders。

  Toherfather:

  \"What’sthematterwithMother?\"

  Herfatheranswered:

  \"Matter?Whatshouldbethematter?\"andgaveherasharplook。

  \"Bytheway,\"murmuredFleur,\"MonsieurProfondisgoinga’small’

  voyageonhisyacht,totheSouthSeas。\"

  Soamesexaminedabranchonwhichnograpesweregrowing。

  \"Thisvine’safailure,\"hesaid。\"I’vehadyoungMonthere。Heaskedmesomethingaboutyou。\"

  \"Oh!Howdoyoulikehim,Father?\"

  \"He——he’saproduct——likealltheseyoungpeople。\"

  \"Whatwereyouathisage,dear?\"

  Soamessmiledgrimly。

  \"Wewenttowork,anddidn’tplayabout——flyingandmotoring,andmakinglove。\"

  \"Didn’tyouevermakelove?\"

  Sheavoidedlookingathimwhileshesaidthat,butshesawhimwellenough。Hispalefacehadreddened,hiseyebrows,wheredarknesswasstillmingledwiththegrey,hadcomeclosetogether。

  \"Ihadnotimeorinclinationtophilander。\"

  \"Perhapsyouhadagrandpassion。\"

  Soameslookedatherintently。

  \"Yes——ifyouwanttoknow——andmuchgooditdidme。\"Hemovedaway,alongbythehot—waterpipes。Fleurtiptoedsilentlyafterhim。

  \"Tellmeaboutit,Father!\"

  Soamesbecameverystill。

  \"Whatshouldyouwanttoknowaboutsuchthings,atyourage?\"

  \"Isshealive?\"

  Henodded。

  \"Andmarried?\"Yes。\"

  \"It’sJonForsyte’smother,isn’tit?Andshewasyourwifefirst。\"

  Itwassaidinaflashofintuition。Surelyhisoppositioncamefromhisanxietythatsheshouldnotknowofthatoldwoundtohispride。

  Butshewasstartled。Toseesomeonesooldandcalmwinceasifstruck,tohearsosharpanoteofpaininhisvoice!

  \"Whotoldyouthat?Ifyouraunt!Ican’tbeartheaffairtalkedof。\"

  \"But,darling,\"saidFleur,softly,\"it’ssolongago。\"

  \"Longagoornot,I……\"

  Fleurstoodstrokinghisarm。

  \"I’vetriedtoforget,\"hesaidsuddenly;\"Idon’twishtobereminded。\"Andthen,asifventingsomelongandsecretirritation,headded:\"Inthesedayspeopledon’tunderstand。Grandpassion,indeed!Nooneknowswhatitis。\"

  \"Ido,\"saidFleur,almostinawhisper。

  Soames,whohadturnedhisbackonher,spunround。

  \"Whatareyoutalkingof——achildlikeyou!\"

  \"PerhapsI’veinheritedit,Father。\"

  \"What?\"

  \"Forherson,yousee。\"

  Hewaspaleasasheet,andsheknewthatshewasasbad。Theystoodstaringateachotherinthesteamyheat,redolentofthemushyscentofearth,ofpottedgeranium,andofvinescomingalongfast。

  \"Thisiscrazy,\"saidSoamesatlast,betweendrylips。

  Scarcelymovingherown,shemurmured:

  \"Don’tbeangry,Father。Ican’thelpit。\"

  Butshecouldseehewasn’tangry;onlyscared,deeplyscared。

  \"Ithoughtthatfoolishness,\"hestammered,\"wasallforgotten。\"

  \"Oh,no!It’stentimeswhatitwas。\"

  Soameskickedatthehot—waterpipe。Thehaplessmovementtouchedher,whohadnofearofherfather——none。

  \"Dearest!\"shesaid。\"Whatmustbe,must,youknow。\"

  \"Must!\"repeatedSoames。\"Youdon’tknowwhatyou’retalkingof。

  Hasthatboybeentold?\"

  Thebloodrushedintohercheeks。

  \"Notyet。\"

  Hehadturnedfromheragain,and,withoneshoulderalittleraised,stoodstaringfixedlyatajointinthepipes。

  \"It’smostdistastefultome,\"hesaidsuddenly;\"nothingcouldbemoreso。Sonofthatfellow!It’s——it’s——perverse!\"

  Shehadnoted,almostunconsciously,thathedidnotsay\"sonofthatwoman,\"andagainherintuitionbeganworking。

  Didtheghostofthatgrandpassionlingerinsomecornerofhisheart?

  Sheslippedherhandunderhisarm。

  \"Jon’sfatherisquiteillandold;Isawhim。\"

  \"You——?\"

  \"Yes,IwenttherewithJon;Isawthemboth。\"

  \"Well,andwhatdidtheysaytoyou?\"

  \"Nothing。Theywereverypolite。\"

  \"Theywouldbe。\"Heresumedhiscontemplationofthepipe—joint,andthensaidsuddenly:

  \"Imustthinkthisover——I’llspeaktoyouagainto—night。\"

  Sheknewthiswasfinalforthemoment,andstoleaway,leavinghimstilllookingatthepipe—joint。Shewanderedintothefruit—garden,amongtheraspberryandcurrantbushes,withoutimpetustopickandeat。Twomonthsago——shewaslight—hearted!Eventwodaysago——

  light—hearted,beforeProsperProfondtoldher。Nowshefelttangledinaweb—ofpassions,vestedrights,oppressionsandrevolts,thetiesofloveandhate。Atthisdarkmomentofdiscouragementthereseemed,eventoherhold—fastnature,nowayout。Howdealwithit——

  howswayandbendthingstoherwill,andgetherheart’sdesire?

  And,suddenly,roundthecornerofthehighboxhedge,shecameplumponhermother,walkingswiftly,withanopenletterinherhand。Herbosomwasheaving,hereyesdilated,hercheeksflushed。InstantlyFleurthought:’Theyacht!PoorMother!’

  Annettegaveherawidestartledlook,andsaid:

  \"J’ailamigraine。\"

  \"I’mawfullysorry,Mother。\"

  \"Oh,yes!youandyourfather——sorry!\"

  \"But,Mother——Iam。Iknowwhatitfeelslike。\"

  Annette’sstartledeyesgrewwide,tillthewhitesshowedabovethem。

  \"Poorinnocent!\"shesaid。

  Hermother——soself—possessed,andcommonsensical——tolookandspeaklikethis!Itwasallfrightening!Herfather,hermother,herself!

  Andonlytwomonthsbacktheyhadseemedtohaveeverythingtheywantedinthisworld。

  Annettecrumpledtheletterinherhand。Fleurknewthatshemustignorethesight。

  \"Can’tIdoanythingforyourhead,Mother?\"

  Annetteshookthatheadandwalkedon,swayingherhips。

  ’It’scruel,’thoughtFleur,’andIwasglad!Thatman!Whatdomencomeprowlingfor,disturbingeverything!Isupposehe’stiredofher。Whatbusinesshashetobetiredofmymother?Whatbusiness!’

  Andatthatthought,sonaturalandsopeculiar,sheutteredalittlechokedlaugh。

  Sheought,ofcourse,tobedelighted,butwhatwastheretobedelightedat?Herfatherdidn’treallycare!Hermotherdid,perhaps?Sheenteredtheorchard,andsatdownunderacherry—tree。

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