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  “It’sinsolentto——“saidRachel,andstopped。Shedidnotknowexactlywhyshehadbeenmadesoangry。Withagreateffortshepulledherselftogether。

  “Oh,well,“sheadded,thevisionofHelenandhermockerybeforeher,“IdaresayI’mafool。“Shemadeasthoughsheweregoingbackintotheballroom,butHewetstoppedher。

  “Pleaseexplaintome,“hesaid。“IfeelsureHirstdidn’tmeantohurtyou。“

  WhenRacheltriedtoexplain,shefounditverydifficult。

  Shecouldnotsaythatshefoundthevisionofherselfwalkinginacrocodilewithherhairdownherbackpeculiarlyunjustandhorrible,norcouldsheexplainwhyHirst’sassumptionofthesuperiorityofhisnatureandexperiencehadseemedtohernotonlygallingbutterrible——asifagatehadclangedinherface。

  PacingupanddowntheterracebesideHewetshesaidbitterly:

  “It’snogood;weshouldliveseparate;wecannotunderstandeachother;

  weonlybringoutwhat’sworst。“

  Hewetbrushedasidehergeneralisationastothenaturesofthetwosexes,forsuchgeneralisationsboredhimandseemedtohimgenerallyuntrue。But,knowingHirst,heguessedfairlyaccuratelywhathadhappened,and,thoughsecretlymuchamused,wasdeterminedthatRachelshouldnotstoretheincidentawayinhermindtotakeitsplaceintheviewshehadoflife。

  “Nowyou’llhatehim,“hesaid,“whichiswrong。PooroldHirst——

  hecan’thelphismethod。Andreally,MissVinrace,hewasdoinghisbest;

  hewaspayingyouacompliment——hewastrying——hewastrying——“

  hecouldnotfinishforthelaughterthatovercamehim。

  Rachelveeredroundsuddenlyandlaughedouttoo。ShesawthattherewassomethingridiculousaboutHirst,andperhapsaboutherself。

  “It’shiswayofmakingfriends,Isuppose,“shelaughed。“Well——I

  shalldomypart。Ishallbegin——’Uglyinbody,repulsiveinmindasyouare,Mr。Hirst——“

  “Hear,hear!“criedHewet。“That’sthewaytotreathim。Yousee,MissVinrace,youmustmakeallowancesforHirst。He’slivedallhislifeinfrontofalooking-glass,sotospeak,inabeautifulpanelledroom,hungwithJapaneseprintsandlovelyoldchairsandtables,justonesplashofcolour,youknow,intherightplace,——

  betweenthewindowsIthinkitis,——andtherehesitshourafterhourwithhistoesonthefender,talkingaboutphilosophyandGodandhisliverandhisheartandtheheartsofhisfriends。

  They’reallbroken。Youcan’texpecthimtobeathisbestinaballroom。Hewantsacosy,smoky,masculineplace,wherehecanstretchhislegsout,andonlyspeakwhenhe’sgotsomethingtosay。

  Formyself,Ifinditratherdreary。ButIdorespectit。

  They’reallsomuchinearnest。Theydotaketheseriousthingsveryseriously。“

  ThedescriptionofHirst’swayoflifeinterestedRachelsomuchthatshealmostforgotherprivategrudgeagainsthim,andherrespectrevived。

  “Theyarereallyverycleverthen?“sheasked。

  “Ofcoursetheyare。SofarasbrainsgoIthinkit’struewhathesaidtheotherday;they’rethecleverestpeopleinEngland。But——

  yououghttotakehiminhand,“headded。“There’sagreatdealmoreinhimthan’severbeengotat。Hewantssomeonetolaughathim……TheideaofHirsttellingyouthatyou’vehadnoexperiences!

  PooroldHirst!“

  Theyhadbeenpacingupanddowntheterracewhiletheytalked,andnowonebyonethedarkwindowswereuncurtainedbyaninvisiblehand,andpanesoflightfellregularlyatequalintervalsuponthegrass。

  Theystoppedtolookinatthedrawing-room,andperceivedMr。Pepperwritingaloneatatable。

  “There’sPepperwritingtohisaunt,“saidHewet。“Shemustbeaveryremarkableoldlady,eighty-fivehetellsme,andhetakesherforwalkingtoursintheNewForest……Pepper!“

  hecried,rappingonthewindow。“Goanddoyourduty。MissAllanexpectsyou。“

  Whentheycametothewindowsoftheballroom,theswingofthedancersandtheliltofthemusicwasirresistible。

  “Shallwe?“saidHewet,andtheyclaspedhandsandsweptoffmagnificentlyintothegreatswirlingpool。Althoughthiswasonlythesecondtimetheyhadmet,thefirsttimetheyhadseenamanandwomankissingeachother,andthesecondtimeMr。Hewethadfoundthatayoungwomanangryisverylikeachild。Sothatwhentheyjoinedhandsinthedancetheyfeltmoreattheireasethanisusual。

  Itwasmidnightandthedancewasnowatitsheight。Servantswerepeepinginatthewindows;thegardenwassprinkledwiththewhiteshapesofcouplessittingout。Mrs。ThornburyandMrs。Elliotsatsidebysideunderapalmtree,holdingfans,handkerchiefs,andbroochesdepositedintheirlapsbyflushedmaidens。

  Occasionallytheyexchangedcomments。

  “MissWarrington_does_lookhappy,“saidMrs。Elliot;theybothsmiled;

  theybothsighed。

  “Hehasagreatdealofcharacter,“saidMrs。Thornbury,alludingtoArthur。

  “Andcharacteriswhatonewants,“saidMrs。Elliot。“Nowthatyoungmanis_clever_enough,“sheadded,noddingatHirst,whocamepastwithMissAllanonhisarm。

  “Hedoesnotlookstrong,“saidMrs。Thornbury。“Hiscomplexionisnotgood——ShallItearitoff?“sheasked,forRachelhadstopped,consciousofalongstriptrailingbehindher。

  “Ihopeyouareenjoyingyourselves?“Hewetaskedtheladies。

  “Thisisaveryfamiliarpositionforme!“smiledMrs。Thornbury。

  “Ihavebroughtoutfivedaughters——andtheyallloveddancing!

  Youloveittoo,MissVinrace?“sheasked,lookingatRachelwithmaternaleyes。“IknowIdidwhenIwasyourage。HowIusedtobegmymothertoletmestay——andnowIsympathisewiththepoormothers——

  butIsympathisewiththedaughterstoo!“

  Shesmiledsympathetically,andatthesametimeratherkeenly,atRachel。

  “Theyseemtofindagreatdealtosaytoeachother,“saidMrs。Elliot,lookingsignificantlyatthebacksofthecoupleastheyturnedaway。

  “Didyounoticeatthepicnic?Hewastheonlypersonwhocouldmakeherutter。“

  “Herfatherisaveryinterestingman,“saidMrs。Thornbury。

  “HehasoneofthelargestshippingbusinessesinHull。Hemadeaveryablereply,youremember,toMr。Asquithatthelastelection。

  ItissointerestingtofindthatamanofhisexperienceisastrongProtectionist。“

  Shewouldhavelikedtodiscusspolitics,whichinterestedhermorethanpersonalities,butMrs。ElliotwouldonlytalkabouttheEmpireinalessabstractform。

  “IheartherearedreadfulaccountsfromEnglandabouttherats,“

  shesaid。“Asister-in-law,wholivesatNorwich,tellsmeithasbeenquiteunsafetoorderpoultry。Theplague——yousee。

  Itattackstherats,andthroughthemothercreatures。“

  “Andthelocalauthoritiesarenottakingpropersteps?“

  askedMrs。Thornbury。

  “Thatshedoesnotsay。Butshedescribestheattitudeoftheeducatedpeople——whoshouldknowbetter——ascallousintheextreme。

  Ofcourse,mysister-in-lawisoneofthoseactivemodernwomen,whoalwaystakesthingsup,youknow——thekindofwomanoneadmires,thoughonedoesnotfeel,atleastIdonotfeel——butthenshehasaconstitutionofiron。“

  Mrs。Elliot,broughtbacktotheconsiderationofherowndelicacy,heresighed。

  “Averyanimatedface,“saidMrs。Thornbury,lookingatEvelynM。whohadstoppednearthemtopintightascarletfloweratherbreast。

  Itwouldnotstay,and,withaspiritedgestureofimpatience,shethrustitintoherpartner’sbutton-hole。Hewasatallmelancholyyouth,whoreceivedthegiftasaknightmightreceivehislady’stoken。

  “Verytryingtotheeyes,“wasMrs。Eliot’snextremark,afterwatchingtheyellowwhirlinwhichsofewofthewhirlershadeithernameorcharacterforher,forafewminutes。Burstingoutofthecrowd,Helenapproachedthem,andtookavacantchair。

  “MayIsitbyyou?“shesaid,smilingandbreathingfast。

  “IsupposeIoughttobeashamedofmyself,“shewenton,sittingdown,“atmyage。“

  Herbeauty,nowthatshewasflushedandanimated,wasmoreexpansivethanusual,andboththeladiesfeltthesamedesiretotouchher。

  “I_am_enjoyingmyself,“shepanted。“Movement——isn’titamazing?“

  “Ihavealwaysheardthatnothingcomesuptodancingifoneisagooddancer,“saidMrs。Thornbury,lookingatherwithasmile。

  Helenswayedslightlyasifshesatonwires。

  “Icoulddanceforever!“shesaid。“Theyoughttoletthemselvesgomore!“sheexclaimed。“Theyoughttoleapandswing。Look!

  Howtheymince!“

  “HaveyouseenthosewonderfulRussiandancers?“beganMrs。Elliot。

  ButHelensawherpartnercomingandroseasthemoonrises。

  Shewashalfroundtheroombeforetheytooktheireyesoffher,fortheycouldnothelpadmiringher,althoughtheythoughtitalittleoddthatawomanofherageshouldenjoydancing。

  DirectlyHelenwasleftaloneforaminuteshewasjoinedbySt。JohnHirst,whohadbeenwatchingforanopportunity。

  “Shouldyoumindsittingoutwithme?“heasked。“I’mquiteincapableofdancing。“HepilotedHelentoacornerwhichwassuppliedwithtwoarm-chairs,andthusenjoyedtheadvantageofsemi-privacy。Theysatdown,andforafewminutesHelenwastoomuchundertheinfluenceofdancingtospeak。

  “Astonishing!“sheexclaimedatlast。“Whatsortofshapecanshethinkherbodyis?“Thisremarkwascalledforthbyaladywhocamepastthem,waddlingratherthanwalking,andleaningonthearmofastoutmanwithglobulargreeneyessetinafatwhiteface。Somesupportwasnecessary,forshewasverystout,andsocompressedthattheupperpartofherbodyhungconsiderablyinadvanceofherfeet,whichcouldonlytripintinysteps,owingtothetightnessoftheskirtroundherankles。

  Thedressitselfconsistedofasmallpieceofshinyyellowsatin,adornedhereandthereindiscriminatelywithroundshieldsofblueandgreenbeadsmadetoimitatehuesofapeacock’sbreast。

  Onthesummitofafrothycastleofhairapurpleplumestooderect,whilehershortneckwasencircledbyablackvelvetribbonknobbedwithgems,andgoldenbraceletsweretightlywedgedintothefleshofherfatglovedarms。Shehadthefaceofanimpertinentbutjollylittlepig,mottledredunderadustingofpowder。

  St。JohncouldnotjoininHelen’slaughter。

  “Itmakesmesick,“hedeclared。“Thewholethingmakesmesick……Considerthemindsofthosepeople——theirfeelings。

  Don’tyouagree?“

  “Ialwaysmakeavownevertogotoanotherpartyofanydescription,“

  Helenreplied,“andIalwaysbreakit。“

  Sheleantbackinherchairandlookedlaughinglyattheyoungman。

  Shecouldseethathewasgenuinelycross,ifatthesametimeslightlyexcited。

  “However,“hesaid,resuminghisjauntytone,“Isupposeonemustjustmakeupone’smindtoit。“

  “Towhat?“

  “Thereneverwillbemorethanfivepeopleintheworldworthtalkingto。“

  SlowlytheflushandsparkleinHelen’sfacediedaway,andshelookedasquietandasobservantasusual。

  “Fivepeople?“sheremarked。“Ishouldsaythereweremorethanfive。“

  “You’vebeenveryfortunate,then,“saidHirst。“OrperhapsI’vebeenveryunfortunate。“Hebecamesilent。

  “ShouldyousayIwasadifficultkindofpersontogetonwith?“

  heaskedsharply。

  “Mostcleverpeoplearewhenthey’reyoung,“Helenreplied。

  “AndofcourseIam——immenselyclever,“saidHirst。“I’minfinitelyclevererthanHewet。It’squitepossible,“hecontinuedinhiscuriouslyimpersonalmanner,“thatI’mgoingtobeoneofthepeoplewhoreallymatter。That’sutterlydifferentfrombeingclever,thoughonecan’texpectone’sfamilytoseeit,“headdedbitterly。

  Helenthoughtherselfjustifiedinasking,“Doyoufindyourfamilydifficulttogetonwith?“

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