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  “Intolerable……Theywantmetobeapeerandaprivycouncillor。

  I’vecomeoutherepartlyinordertosettlethematter。It’sgottobesettled。EitherImustgotothebar,orImuststayoninCambridge。

  Ofcourse,thereareobviousdrawbackstoeach,buttheargumentscertainlydoseemtomeinfavourofCambridge。Thiskindofthing!“

  hewavedhishandatthecrowdedballroom。“Repulsive。I’mconsciousofgreatpowersofaffectiontoo。I’mnotsusceptible,ofcourse,inthewayHewetis。I’mveryfondofafewpeople。Ithink,forexample,thatthere’ssomethingtobesaidformymother,thoughsheisinmanywayssodeplorable……AtCambridge,ofcourse,Ishouldinevitablybecomethemostimportantmanintheplace,butthereareotherreasonswhyIdreadCambridge——“

  heceased。

  “Areyoufindingmeadreadfulbore?“heasked。Hechangedcuriouslyfromafriendconfidinginafriendtoaconventionalyoungmanataparty。

  “Notintheleast,“saidHelen。“Ilikeitverymuch。“

  “Youcan’tthink,“heexclaimed,speakingalmostwithemotion,“whatadifferenceitmakesfindingsomeonetotalkto!

  DirectlyIsawyouIfeltyoumightpossiblyunderstandme。

  I’mveryfondofHewet,buthehasn’ttheremotestideawhatI’mlike。

  You’retheonlywomanI’veevermetwhoseemstohavethefaintestconceptionofwhatImeanwhenIsayathing。“

  Thenextdancewasbeginning;itwastheBarcarolleoutofHoffman,whichmadeHelenbeathertoeintimetoit;butshefeltthataftersuchacomplimentitwasimpossibletogetupandgo,and,besidesbeingamused,shewasreallyflattered,andthehonestyofhisconceitattractedher。Shesuspectedthathewasnothappy,andwassufficientlyfemininetowishtoreceiveconfidences。

  “I’mveryold,“shesighed。

  “TheoddthingisthatIdon’tfindyouoldatall,“hereplied。

  “Ifeelasthoughwewereexactlythesameage。Moreover——“

  herehehesitated,buttookcouragefromaglanceatherface,“IfeelasifIcouldtalkquiteplainlytoyouasonedoestoaman——

  abouttherelationsbetweenthesexes,about……and……“

  Inspiteofhiscertaintyaslightrednesscameintohisfaceashespokethelasttwowords。

  Shereassuredhimatoncebythelaughwithwhichsheexclaimed,“Ishouldhopeso!“

  Helookedatherwithrealcordiality,andthelineswhichweredrawnabouthisnoseandlipsslackenedforthefirsttime。

  “ThankGod!“heexclaimed。“Nowwecanbehavelikecivilisedhumanbeings。“

  Certainlyabarrierwhichusuallystandsfasthadfallen,anditwaspossibletospeakofmatterswhicharegenerallyonlyalludedtobetweenmenandwomenwhendoctorsarepresent,ortheshadowofdeath。Infiveminuteshewastellingherthehistoryofhislife。

  Itwaslong,foritwasfullofextremelyelaborateincidents,whichledontoadiscussionoftheprinciplesonwhichmoralityisfounded,andthustoseveralveryinterestingmatters,whicheveninthisballroomhadtobediscussedinawhisper,lestoneofthepouterpigeonladiesorresplendentmerchantsshouldoverhearthem,andproceedtodemandthattheyshouldleavetheplace。

  Whentheyhadcometoanend,or,tospeakmoreaccurately,whenHelenintimatedbyaslightslackeningofherattentionthattheyhadsattherelongenough,Hirstrose,exclaiming,“Sothere’snoreasonwhateverforallthismystery!“

  “None,exceptthatweareEnglishpeople,“sheanswered。Shetookhisarmandtheycrossedtheball-room,makingtheirwaywithdifficultybetweenthespinningcouples,whowerenowperceptiblydishevelled,andcertainlytoacriticaleyebynomeanslovelyintheirshapes。

  Theexcitementofundertakingafriendshipandthelengthoftheirtalk,madethemhungry,andtheywentinsearchoffoodtothedining-room,whichwasnowfullofpeopleeatingatlittleseparatetables。InthedoorwaytheymetRachel,goinguptodanceagainwithArthurVenning。Shewasflushedandlookedveryhappy,andHelenwasstruckbythefactthatinthismoodshewascertainlymoreattractivethanthegeneralityofyoungwomen。

  Shehadnevernoticeditsoclearlybefore。

  “Enjoyingyourself?“sheasked,astheystoppedforasecond。

  “MissVinrace,“Arthuransweredforher,“hasjustmadeaconfession;

  she’dnoideathatdancescouldbesodelightful。“

  “Yes!“Rachelexclaimed。“I’vechangedmyviewoflifecompletely!“

  “Youdon’tsayso!“Helenmocked。Theypassedon。

  “That’stypicalofRachel,“shesaid。“Shechangesherviewoflifeabouteveryotherday。D’youknow,Ibelieveyou’rejustthepersonIwant,“shesaid,astheysatdown,“tohelpmecompletehereducation?

  She’sbeenbroughtuppracticallyinanunnery。Herfather’stooabsurd。

  I’vebeendoingwhatIcan——butI’mtooold,andI’mawoman。

  Whyshouldn’tyoutalktoher——explainthingstoher——talktoher,Imean,asyoutalktome?“

  “Ihavemadeoneattemptalreadythisevening,“saidSt。John。

  “Iratherdoubtthatitwassuccessful。Sheseemstomesoveryyoungandinexperienced。IhavepromisedtolendherGibbon。“

  “It’snotGibbonexactly,“Helenpondered。“It’sthefactsoflife,Ithink——d’youseewhatImean?Whatreallygoeson,whatpeoplefeel,althoughtheygenerallytrytohideit?There’snothingtobefrightenedof。It’ssomuchmorebeautifulthanthepretences——

  alwaysmoreinteresting——alwaysbetter,Ishouldsay,than_that_

  kindofthing。“

  Shenoddedherheadatatablenearthem,wheretwogirlsandtwoyoungmenwerechaffingeachotherveryloudly,andcarryingonanarchinsinuatingdialogue,sprinkledwithendearments,about,itseemed,apairofstockingsorapairoflegs。Oneofthegirlswasflirtingafanandpretendingtobeshocked,andthesightwasveryunpleasant,partlybecauseitwasobviousthatthegirlsweresecretlyhostiletoeachother。

  “Inmyoldage,however,“Helensighed,“I’mcomingtothinkthatitdoesn’tmuchmatterinthelongrunwhatonedoes:

  peoplealwaysgotheirownway——nothingwilleverinfluencethem。“

  Shenoddedherheadatthesupperparty。

  ButSt。Johndidnotagree。Hesaidthathethoughtonecouldreallymakeagreatdealofdifferencebyone’spointofview,booksandsoon,andaddedthatfewthingsatthepresenttimematteredmorethantheenlightenmentofwomen。Hesometimesthoughtthatalmosteverythingwasduetoeducation。

  Intheballroom,meanwhile,thedancerswerebeingformedintosquaresforthelancers。ArthurandRachel,SusanandHewet,MissAllanandHughlingElliotfoundthemselvestogether。

  MissAllanlookedatherwatch。

  “Half-pastone,“shestated。“AndIhavetodespatchAlexanderPopeto-morrow。“

  “Pope!“snortedMr。Elliot。“WhoreadsPope,Ishouldliketoknow?

  Andasforreadingabouthim——No,no,MissAllan;bepersuadedyouwillbenefittheworldmuchmorebydancingthanbywriting。“

  ItwasoneofMr。Elliot’saffectationsthatnothingintheworldcouldcomparewiththedelightsofdancing——nothingintheworldwassotediousasliterature。Thushesoughtpatheticallyenoughtoingratiatehimselfwiththeyoung,andtoprovetothembeyondadoubtthatthoughmarriedtoaninnyofawife,andratherpaleandbentandcarewornbyhisweightoflearning,hewasasmuchaliveastheyoungestofthemall。

  “It’saquestionofbreadandbutter,“saidMissAllancalmly。

  “However,theyseemtoexpectme。“Shetookupherpositionandpointedasquareblacktoe。

  “Mr。Hewet,youbowtome。“ItwasevidentatoncethatMissAllanwastheonlyoneofthemwhohadathoroughlysoundknowledgeofthefiguresofthedance。

  Afterthelancerstherewasawaltz;afterthewaltzapolka;

  andthenaterriblethinghappened;themusic,whichhadbeensoundingregularlywithfive-minutepauses,stoppedsuddenly。

  Theladywiththegreatdarkeyesbegantoswatheherviolininsilk,andthegentlemanplacedhishorncarefullyinitscase。

  TheyweresurroundedbycouplesimploringtheminEnglish,inFrench,inSpanish,ofonemoredance,oneonly;itwasstillearly。

  Buttheoldmanatthepianomerelyexhibitedhiswatchandshookhishead。Heturnedupthecollarofhiscoatandproducedaredsilkmuffler,whichcompletelydashedhisfestiveappearance。

  Strangeasitseemed,themusicianswerepaleandheavy-eyed;theylookedboredandprosaic,asifthesummitoftheirdesirewascoldmeatandbeer,succeededimmediatelybybed。

  Rachelwasoneofthosewhohadbeggedthemtocontinue。Whentheyrefusedshebeganturningoverthesheetsofdancemusicwhichlayuponthepiano。Thepiecesweregenerallyboundincolouredcovers,withpicturesonthemofromanticscenes——gondoliersastrideonthecrescentofthemoon,nunspeeringthroughthebarsofaconventwindow,oryoungwomenwiththeirhairdownpointingagunatthestars。Sherememberedthatthegeneraleffectofthemusictowhichtheyhaddancedsogailywasoneofpassionateregretfordeadloveandtheinnocentyearsofyouth;dreadfulsorrowshadalwaysseparatedthedancersfromtheirpasthappiness。

  “Nowondertheygetsickofplayingstufflikethis,“sheremarkedreadingabarortwo;“they’rereallyhymntunes,playedveryfast,withbitsoutofWagnerandBeethoven。“

  “Doyouplay?Wouldyouplay?Anything,solongaswecandancetoit!“Fromallsideshergiftforplayingthepianowasinsistedupon,andshehadtoconsent。Asverysoonshehadplayedtheonlypiecesofdancemusicshecouldremember,shewentontoplayanairfromasonatabyMozart。

  “Butthat’snotadance,“saidsomeonepausingbythepiano。

  “Itis,“shereplied,emphaticallynoddingherhead。“Inventthesteps。“

  Sureofhermelodyshemarkedtherhythmboldlysoastosimplifytheway。Helencaughttheidea;seizedMissAllanbythearm,andwhirledroundtheroom,nowcurtseying,nowspinninground,nowtrippingthiswayandthatlikeachildskippingthroughameadow。

  “Thisisthedanceforpeoplewhodon’tknowhowtodance!“

  shecried。Thetunechangedtoaminuet;St。Johnhoppedwithincredibleswiftnessfirstonhisleftleg,thenonhisright;

  thetuneflowedmelodiously;Hewet,swayinghisarmsandholdingoutthetailsofhiscoat,swamdowntheroominimitationofthevoluptuousdreamydanceofanIndianmaidendancingbeforeherRajah。

  Thetunemarched;andMissAllenadvancedwithskirtsextendedandbowedprofoundlytotheengagedpair。Oncetheirfeetfellinwiththerhythmtheyshowedacompletelackofselfconsciousness。

  FromMozartRachelpassedwithoutstoppingtooldEnglishhuntingsongs,carols,andhymntunes,for,asshehadobserved,anygoodtune,withalittlemanagement,becameatuneonecoulddanceto。

  Bydegreeseverypersonintheroomwastrippingandturninginpairsoralone。Mr。Pepperexecutedaningeniouspointedstepderivedfromfigure-skating,forwhichheonceheldsomelocalchampionship;

  whileMrs。Thornburytriedtorecallanoldcountrydancewhichshehadseendancedbyherfather’stenantsinDorsetshireintheolddays。

  AsforMr。andMrs。Elliot,theygallopadedroundandroundtheroomwithsuchimpetuositythattheotherdancersshiveredattheirapproach。

  Somepeoplewereheardtocriticisetheperformanceasaromp;

  toothersitwasthemostenjoyablepartoftheevening。

  “Nowforthegreatrounddance!“Hewetshouted。Instantlyagiganticcirclewasformed,thedancersholdinghandsandshoutingout,“D’youkenJohnPeel,“astheyswungfasterandfasterandfaster,untilthestrainwastoogreat,andonelinkofthechain——

  Mrs。Thornbury——gaveway,andtherestwentflyingacrosstheroominalldirections,tolanduponthefloororthechairsorineachother’sarmsasseemedmostconvenient。

  Risingfromthesepositions,breathlessandunkempt,itstruckthemforthefirsttimethattheelectriclightsprickedtheairveryvainly,andinstinctivelyagreatmanyeyesturnedtothewindows。Yes——therewasthedawn。Whiletheyhadbeendancingthenighthadpassed,andithadcome。Outside,themountainsshowedverypureandremote;thedewwassparklingonthegrass,andtheskywasflushedwithblue,saveforthepaleyellowsandpinksintheEast。Thedancerscamecrowdingtothewindows,pushedthemopen,andhereandthereventuredafootuponthegrass。

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