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  Menweresostrange。Thethoughttookawayfromherallherformerreticence,andmadeheractionbold。Shestartedfromherseat。Ifthelittlebreach,quarrel,orwhateveritmightbecalled,ofyesterday,wastobehealedupitmustbedonebyherontheinstant。Shecrossedintotheorchard,andclamberedthroughthegapafterGiles,justashewasdiminishingtoafaun-

  likefigureunderthegreencanopyandoverthebrownfloor。

  Gracehadbeenwrong——veryfarwrong——inassumingthattheletterhadnoreferencetoherselfbecauseGileshadturnedawayintothewoodafteritsperusal。Itwas,sadtosay,becausethemissivehadsomuchreferencetoherselfthathehadthusturnedaway。Hefearedthathisgrieveddiscomfituremightbeobserved。TheletterwasfromBeaucock,writtenafewhourslaterthanMelbury’stohisdaughter。Itannouncedfailure。

  Gileshadoncedonethatthriftlessmanagoodturn,andnowwasthemomentwhenBeaucockhadchosentorememberitinhisownway。

  DuringhisabsenceintownwithMelbury,thelawyer’sclerkhadnaturallyheardagreatdealofthetimber-merchant’sfamilyschemeofjusticetoGiles,andhiscommunicationwastoinformWinterborneattheearliestpossiblemomentthattheirattempthadfailed,inorderthattheyoungmanshouldnotplacehimselfinafalsepositiontowardsGraceinthebeliefofitscomingsuccess。

  Thenewswas,insum,thatFitzpiers’sconducthadnotbeensufficientlycrueltoGracetoenablehertosnapthebond。Shewasapparentlydoomedtobehiswifetilltheendofthechapter。

  Winterbornequiteforgothissuperficialdifferenceswiththepoorgirlunderthewarmrushofdeepanddistractingloveforherwhichthealmosttragicalinformationengendered。

  Torenounceherforever——thatwasthentheendofitforhim,afterall。Therewasnolongeranyquestionaboutsuitability,orroomfortiffsonpettytastes。Thecurtainhadfallenagainbetweenthem。Shecouldnotbehis。Thecrueltyoftheirlaterevivedhopewasnowterrible。Howcouldtheyallhavebeensosimpleastosupposethisthingcouldbedone?

  Itwasatthismomentthat,hearingsomeonecomingbehindhim,heturnedandsawherhasteningonbetweenthethickets。Heperceivedinaninstantthatshedidnotknowtheblightingnews。

  “Giles,whydidn’tyoucomeacrosstome?”sheasked,witharchreproach。“Didn’tyouseemesittingthereeversolong?”

  “Ohyes。”hesaid,inunprepared,extemporizedtones,forherunexpectedpresencecaughthimwithouttheslightestplanofbehaviorintheconjuncture。Hismannermadeherthinkthatshehadbeentoochidinginherspeech;andamildscarletwavepassedoverherassheresolvedtosoftenit。

  “Ihavehadanotherletterfrommyfather。”shehastenedtocontinue。“Hethinkshemaycomehomethisevening。And——inviewofhishopes——itwillgrievehimifthereisanylittledifferencebetweenus,Giles。”

  “Thereisnone。”hesaid,sadlyregardingherfromthefacedownwardasheponderedhowtolaythecrueltruthbare。

  “Still——Ifearyouhavenotquiteforgivenmeaboutmybeinguncomfortableattheinn。”

  “Ihave,Grace,I’msure。”

  “Butyouspeakinquiteanunhappyway。”shereturned,comingupclosetohimwiththemostwinningofthemanyprettyairsthatappertainedtoher。“Don’tyouthinkyouwilleverbehappy,Giles?”

  Hedidnotreplyforsomeinstants。“WhenthesunshinesonthenorthfrontofShertonAbbey——that’swhenmyhappinesswillcometome!”saidhe,staringasitwereintotheearth。

  “But——thenthatmeansthatthereissomethingmorethanmyoffendingyouinnotlikingTheThreeTuns。IfitisbecauseI——

  didnotliketoletyoukissmeintheAbbey——well,youknow,Giles,thatitwasnotonaccountofmycoldfeelings,butbecauseIdidcertainly,justthen,thinkitwasratherpremature,inspiteofmypoorfather。Thatwasthetruereason——thesoleone。

  ButIdonotwanttobehard——GodknowsIdonot。”shesaid,hervoicefluctuating。“Andperhaps——asIamonthevergeoffreedom——

  Iamnotright,afterall,inthinkingthereisanyharminyourkissingme。”

  “OhGod!”saidWinterbornewithinhimself。Hisheadwasturnedaskanceashestillresolutelyregardedtheground。Forthelastseveralminuteshehadseenthisgreattemptationapproachinghiminregularsiege;andnowithadcome。Thewrong,thesocialsin,ofnowtakingadvantageoftheofferofherlipshadamagnitude,intheeyesofonewhoselifehadbeensoprimitive,soruledbypuresthouseholdlaws,asGiles’s,whichcanhardlybeexplained。

  “Didyousayanything?”sheasked,timidly。

  “Ohno——onlythat——“

  “YoumeanthatitmustBEsettled,sincemyfatheriscominghome?”shesaid,gladly。

  Winterborne,thoughfightingvaliantlyagainsthimselfallthiswhile——thoughhewouldhaveprotectedGrace’sgoodreputeastheappleofhiseye——wasaman;and,asDesdemonasaid,menarenotgods。Infaceoftheagonizingseductivenessshownbyher,inherunenlightenedschool-girlsimplicityaboutthelawsandordinances,hebetrayedaman’sweakness。Sinceitwasso——sinceithadcometothis,thatGrace,deemingherselffreetodoit,wasvirtuallyaskinghimtodemonstratethathelovedher——sincehecoulddemonstrateitonlytootruly——sincelifewasshortandlovewasstrong——hegavewaytothetemptation,notwithstandingthatheperfectlywellknewhertobeweddedirrevocablytoFitzpiers。Indeed,hecaredfornothingpastorfuture,simplyacceptingthepresentandwhatitbrought,desiringonceinhislifetoclaspinhisarmsherhehadwatchedoverandlovedsolong。

  Shestartedbacksuddenlyfromhisembrace,influencedbyasortofinspiration。“Oh,Isuppose。”shestammered,“thatIamreallyfree?——thatthisisright?IsthereREALLYanewlaw?Fathercannothavebeentoosanguineinsaying——“

  Hedidnotanswer,andamomentafterwardsGraceburstintotearsinspiteofherself。“Oh,whydoesnotmyfathercomehomeandexplain。”shesobbed,“andletmeknowclearlywhatIam?Itistootrying,this,toaskmeto——andthentoleavemesolonginsovagueastatethatIdonotknowwhattodo,andperhapsdowrong!”

  WinterbornefeltlikeaveryCain,overandabovehisprevioussorrow。Howhehadsinnedagainstherinnottellingherwhatheknew。Heturnedaside;thefeelingofhiscrueltymountedhigherandhigher。Howcouldhehavedreamedofkissingher?Hecouldhardlyrefrainfromtears。Surelynothingmorepitiablehadeverbeenknownthantheconditionofthispooryoungthing,nowasheretoforethevictimofherfather’swell-meantbutblunderingpolicy。

  EveninthehourofMelbury’sgreatestassuranceWinterbornehadharboredasuspicionthatnolaw,neworold,couldundoGrace’smarriagewithoutherappearanceinpublic;thoughhewasnotsufficientlysureofwhatmighthavebeenenactedtodestroybyhisownwordsherpleasingideathatameredashofthepen,onherfather’stestimony,wasgoingtobesufficient。Buthehadneversuspectedthesadfactthatthepositionwasirremediable。

  PoorGrace,perhapsfeelingthatshehadindulgedintoomuchflusterforamerekiss,calmedherselfatfindinghowgravehewas。“Iamgladwearefriendsagainanyhow。”shesaid,smilingthroughhertears。“Giles,ifyouhadonlyshownhalftheboldnessbeforeImarriedthatyoushownow,youwouldhavecarriedmeoffforyourownfirstinsteadofsecond。Ifwedomarry,Ihopeyouwillneverthinkbadlyofmeforencouragingyoualittle,butmyfatherisSOimpatient,youknow,ashisyearsandinfirmitiesincrease,thathewillwishtoseeusalittleadvancedwhenhecomes。Thatismyonlyexcuse。”

  ToWinterborneallthiswassadderthanitwassweet。Howcouldshesotrustherfather’sconjectures?Hedidnotknowhowtotellherthetruthandshamehimself。Andyethefeltthatitmustbedone。“Wemayhavebeenwrong。”hebegan,almostfearfully,“insupposingthatitcanallbecarriedoutwhilewestayhereatHintock。IamnotsurebutthatpeoplemayhavetoappearinapubliccourtevenunderthenewAct;andifthereshouldbeanydifficulty,andwecannotmarryafterall——“

  Hercheeksbecameslowlybloodless。“Oh,Giles。”shesaid,graspinghisarm,“youhaveheardsomething!What——cannotmyfatherconcludeitthereandnow?Surelyhehasdoneit?Oh,Giles,Giles,don’tdeceiveme。WhatterriblepositionamIin?”

  Hecouldnottellher,tryashewould。Thesenseofherimplicittrustinhishonorabsolutelydisabledhim。“Icannotinformyou。”hemurmured,hisvoiceashuskyasthatoftheleavesunderfoot。“Yourfatherwillsoonbehere。Thenweshallknow。

  Iwilltakeyouhome。”

  Inexpressiblydearasshewastohim,heofferedherhisarmwiththemostreservedair,asheadded,correctingly,“Iwilltakeyou,atanyrate,intothedrive。”

  Thustheywalkedontogether。Gracevibratingbetweenhappinessandmisgiving。Itwasonlyafewminutes’walktowherethedriveran,andtheyhadhardlydescendedintoitwhentheyheardavoicebehindthemcry,“Takeoutthatarm!”

  Foramomenttheydidnotheed,andthevoicerepeated,moreloudlyandhoarsely,“Takeoutthatarm!”

  ItwasMelbury’s。Hehadreturnedsoonerthantheyexpected,andnowcameuptothem。Grace’shandhadbeenwithdrawnlikelightningonherhearingthesecondcommand。“Idon’tblameyou——

  Idon’tblameyou。”hesaid,inthewearycadenceofonebrokendownwithscourgings。“Butyoutwomustwalktogethernomore——I

  havebeensurprised——Ihavebeencruellydeceived——Giles,don’tsayanythingtome;butgoaway!”

  HewasevidentlynotawarethatWinterbornehadknownthetruthbeforehebroughtit;andGileswouldnotstaytodiscussitwithhimthen。WhentheyoungmanhadgoneMelburytookhisdaughterin-doorstotheroomheusedashisoffice。Therehesatdown,andbentovertheslopeofthebureau,herbewilderedgazefixeduponhim。

  WhenMelburyhadrecoveredalittlehesaid,“Youarenow,asever,Fitzpiers’swife。Iwasdeluded。HehasnotdoneyouENOUGHharm。Youarestillsubjecttohisbeckandcall。”

  “Thenletitbe,andnevermind,father。”shesaid,withdignifiedsorrow。“Icanbearit。Itisyourtroublethatgrievesmemost。”Shestoopedoverhim,andputherarmroundhisneck,whichdistressedMelburystillmore。“Idon’tmindatallwhatcomestome。”Gracecontinued;“whosewifeIam,orwhoseIamnot。IdoloveGiles;Icannothelpthat;andIhavegonefurtherwithhimthanIshouldhavedoneifIhadknownexactlyhowthingswere。

  ButIdonotreproachyou。”

  “ThenGilesdidnottellyou?”saidMelbury。

  “No。”saidshe。“Hecouldnothaveknownit。Hisbehaviortomeprovedthathedidnotknow。”

  Herfathersaidnothingmore,andGracewentawaytothesolitudeofherchamber。

  Herheavydisquietudehadmanyshapes;andforatimesheputasidethedominantfacttothinkofhertoofreeconducttowardsGiles。Hislove-makinghadbeenbriefasitwassweet;butwouldheonreflectioncontemnherforforwardness?Howcouldshehavebeensosimpleastosupposeshewasinapositiontobehaveasshehaddone!Thusshementallyblamedherignorance;andyetinthecentreofherheartsheblesseditalittleforwhatithadmomentarilybroughther。

  Lifeamongthepeopleinvolvedintheseeventsseemedtobesuppressedandhide-boundforawhile。Graceseldomshowedherselfoutsidethehouse,neveroutsidethegarden;forshefearedshemightencounterGilesWinterborne;andthatshecouldnotbear。

  Thispensiveintramuralexistenceoftheself-constitutednunappearedlikelytocontinueforanindefinitetime。Shehadlearnedthattherewasonepossibilityinwhichherformerlyimaginedpositionmightbecomereal,andonlyone;thatherhusband’sabsenceshouldcontinuelongenoughtoamounttopositivedesertion。Butsheneverallowedhermindtodwellmuchuponthethought;stilllessdidshedeliberatelyhopeforsucharesult。HerregardforWinterbornehadbeenrarefiedbytheshockwhichfolloweditsavowalintoanetherealemotionthathadlittletodowithlivinganddoing。

  AsforGiles,hewaslying——orrathersitting——illathishut。A

  feverishindispositionwhichhadbeenhangingabouthimforsometime,theresultofachillcaughtthepreviouswinter,seemedtoacquirevirulencewiththeprostrationofhishopes。Butnotasoulknewofhislanguor,andhedidnotthinkthecaseseriousenoughtosendforamedicalman。Afterafewdayshewasbetteragain,andcreptabouthishomeinagreatcoat,attendingtohissimplewantsasusualwithhisownhands。SomattersstoodwhenthelimpidinertionofGrace’spool-likeexistencewasdisturbedasbyageyser。ShereceivedaletterfromFitzpiers。

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