\"No,butIhaveoftenseenyoupassingundermywindow。IliveatSt。Roch,nearthebridge。\"
Thewayinwhichthewomantoldheryarnconvincedusthatshewasanadeptinthescienceofprostitution,butwethoughtCapsucefalo,inspiteofthecount,worthyofthepillory。ThegirlwasabouttenyearsolderthanM。M。,shewaspretty,butlight—complexioned,whilemybeautifulnunhadfinedarkbrownhairandwasatleastthreeinchestaller。
Aftertwelveo’clockwesatdowntosupper,anddidhonourtotheexcellentmealwhichmydearAntoinettehadpreparedforus。Wewerecruelenoughtoleavethepoorwretchwithoutofferinghersomuchasaglassofwine,butwethoughtitourduty。
Whileweweretalking,thejollyEnglishmanmadesomewittycommentsonmyeagernesstoconvincehimthathehadnotenjoyedM。M。’sfavours。
\"Ican’tbelieve,\"saidhe,\"thatyouhaveshewnsomuchinterestwithoutbeinginlovewiththedivinenun。\"
IansweredbysayingthatifIwereherloverIwasmuchtobepitiedinbeingcondemnedtogototheparlour,andnofarther。
\"Iwouldgladlygiveahundredguineasamonth,\"saidhe,\"tohavetheprivilegeofvisitingheratthegrating。\"
Sosayinghegavememyhundredsequins,complimentingmeonmysuccess,andIslippedthemforthwithintomypocket。
Attwoo’clockinthemorningweheardasoftknockonthestreetdoor。
\"Hereisourfriend,\"Isaid,\"bediscreet,andyouwillseethathewillmakeafullconfession。\"
HecameinandsawMurrayandthelady,butdidnotdiscoverthatathirdpartywaspresenttillheheardtheante—roomdoorbeinglocked。Heturnedroundandsawme,andasheknewme,merelysaid,withoutlosingcountenance:
\"Ah,youarehere;youknow,ofcourse,thatthesecretmustbekept?\"
Murraylaughedandcalmlyaskedhimtobeseated,andheenquired,withthelady’spistolsinhishands,wherehewasgoingtotakeherbeforeday—break。
\"Home。\"
\"Ithinkyoumaybemistaken,asitisverypossiblethatwhenyouleavethisplaceyouwillbothofyoubeprovidedwithabedinprison。\"
\"No,Iamnotafraidofthathappening;thethingwouldmaketoomuchnoise,andthelaughwouldnotbeonyourside。Come,\"saidhetohismate,\"putonyourcloakandletusbeoff。\"
Theambassador,wholikeanEnglishmankeptquitecoolthewholetime,pouredhimoutaglassofChambertin,andtheblackguarddrankhishealth。Murrayseeinghehadonafineringsetwithbrilliants,praisedit,andshewingsomecuriositytoseeitmorecloselyhedrewitoffthefellow’sfinger,examinedit,founditwithoutflaw,andaskedhowmuchitwasworth。Capsucefalo,alittletakenaback,saiditcosthimfourhundredsequins。
\"Iwillholditasapledgeforthatsum,\"saidtheambassador,puttingtheringintohispocket。Theotherlookedchop—fallen,andMurraylaughingathisretiringmannerstoldthegirltoputonhercloakandtopackoffwithherworthyacolyte。Shedidsodirectly,andwithalowbowtheydisappeared。
\"Farewell,nunprocurer!\"saidtheambassador,butthecountmadenoanswer。
AssoonastheyweregoneIthankedMurraywarmlyforthemoderationhehadshewn,asascandalwouldhaveonlyinjuredthreeinnocentpeople。
\"Besure,\"saidhe,\"thattheguiltypartiesshallbepunishedwithoutanyone’sknowingthereason\"
IthenmadeToninecomeupstairs,andmyEnglishfriendofferedheraglassofwine,whichshedeclinedwithmuchmodestyandpoliteness。
Murraylookedatherwithflamingglances,andleftaftergivingmehisheartiestthanks。
PoorlittleToninehadbeenresigned,andobedientformanyhours,andshehadgoodcausetothinkIhadbeenunfaithfultoher;
however,Igaveherthemostunmistakableproofsofmyfidelity。Westayedinbedforsixhours,androsehappyinthemorning。
AfterdinnerIhurriedofftomynobleM————M————,andtoldherthewholestory。Shelistenedeagerly,hervariousfeelingsflittingacrossherface。Fear,anger,wrath,approvalofmymethodofclearingupmynaturalsuspicions,joyatdiscoveringmestillherlover——allweredepictedinsuccessioninherglance,andintheplayofherfeatures,andintheredandwhitewhichfollowedoneanotheronhercheeksandforehead。ShewasdelightedtohearthatthemaskerwhowaswithmeintheparlourwastheEnglishambassador,butshebecamenoblydisdainfulwhenItoldherthathewouldgladlygiveahundredguineasamonthforthepleasureofvisitingherintheparlour。Shewasangrywithhimforfancyingthatshehadbeeninhispower,andforfindingalikenessbetweenherandaportrait,when,soshesaid,therewasnolikenessatall;Ihadgivenhertheportrait。Sheadded,withashrewdsmile,thatshewassureIhadnotletmylittlemaidseethefalsenun,asshemighthavebeenmistaken。
\"Youknow,doyou,thatIhaveayoungservant?\"
\"Yes,andaprettyone,too。SheisLaura’sdaughter,andifyouloveherIamveryglad,andsoisC————C————。Ihopeyouwillletmehaveasightofher。C————C————hasseenherbefore。\"
AsIsawthatsheknewtoomuchformetobeabletodeceiveher,I
tookmycuedirectlyandtoldherindetailthehistoryofmyamours。
Sheshewedhersatisfactiontooopenlynottobesincere。BeforeI
lefthershesaidherhonourobligedhertogetCapsucefaloassassinated,forthewretchhadwrongedherbeyondpardon。BywayofquietingherIpromisedthatiftheambassadordidnotridusofhimwithintheweekIwouldchargemyselfwiththeexecutionofourcommonvengeance。
AboutthistimediedBragadintheprocurator,brotherofmypatron,leavingM。deBragadinsufficientlywelloff。However,asthefamilythreatenedtobecomeextinct,hedesiredawomanwhohadbeenhismistress,andofwhomhehadhadanaturalson,tobecomehiswife。
Bythismarriagethesonwouldhavebecomelegitimate,andthefamilyrenewedagain。TheCollegeofCardinalswouldhaverecognizedthewifeforasmallfee,andallwouldhavegoneadmirably。
Thewomanwrotetome,askingmetocallonher;andIwasgoingto,curioustoknowwhatawoman,whomIdidnotknowfromAdam,couldwantwithme,whenIreceivedasummonsfromM。deBragadin。HebeggedmetoaskParalisifheoughttofollowDelaHaye’sadviceinamatterhehadpromisednottoconfidetome,butofwhichtheoraclemustbeinformed。Theoracle,naturallyopposedtotheJesuit,toldhimtoconsulthisownfeelingsandnothingelse。AfterthisIwenttothelady。
Shebeganbytellingmethewholestory。Sheintroducedhersontome,andtoldmethatifthemarriagecouldbeperformed,adeedwouldbedeliveredinmyfavourbywhich,atthedeathofM。deBragadin,Ishouldbecomeentitledtoanestateworthfivethousandcrownsperannum。
AsIguessedwithoutmuchtroublethatthiswasthesamematterwhichDelaHayehadproposedtoM。deBragadin,IansweredwithouthesitationthatsinceDelaHayewasbeforemeIcoulddonothing,andthereuponmadehermybow。
IcouldnothelpwonderingatthisJesuit’scontinuallyintriguingtomarrymyoldfriendswithoutmyknowledge。Twoyearsago,ifIhadnotsetmyfaceagainstit,hewouldhavemarriedM。Dandolo。I
carednotawhitwhetherthefamilyofBragadinbecameextinctornot,butIdidcareforthelifeofmybenefactor,andwasquitesurethatmarriagewouldshortenitbymanyyears;hewasalreadysixty—
three,andhadrecoveredfromaseriousapoplecticstroke。
IwenttodinewithLadyMurray(English—womenwhoaredaughtersoflordskeepthetitle),andafterdinnertheambassadortoldmethathehadtoldM。Cavallithewholestoryofthefalsenun,andthatthesecretaryhadinformedhim,theeveningbefore,thateverythinghadbeendonetohisliking。CountCapsucefalohadbeensenttoCephalonia,hisnativecountry,withtheordernevertoreturntoVenice,andthecourtezanhaddisappeared。
Thefinepart,orratherthefearfulpart,aboutthesesentencesisthatnooneeverknowsthereasonwhyorwherefore,andthatthelotmayfallontheinnocentaswellastheguilty。M。M。wasdelightedwiththeevent,andIwasmorepleasedthanshe,forIshouldhavebeensorrytohavebeenobligedtosoilmyhandswiththebloodofthatrascallycount。
Thereareseasonsinthelifeofmenwhichmaybecalled’fasti’and’nefasti’;Ihaveprovedthisofteninmylongcareer,andonthestrengthoftherubsandstrugglesIhavehadtoencounter。Iamable,aswellasanyman,toverifythetruthofthisaxiom。Ihadjustexperiencedarunofluck。Fortunehadbefriendedmeatplay,I
hadbeenhappyinthesocietyofmen,andfromloveIhadnothingtoask;butnowthereverseofthemedalbegantoappear。Lovewasstillkind,butFortunehadquiteleftme,andyouwillsoonsee,reader,thatmenusedmenobetterthantheblindgoddess。
Nevertheless,sinceone’sfatehasphasesaswellasthemoon,goodfollowsevilasdisasterssucceedtohappiness。
Istillplayedonthemartingale,butwithsuchbadluckthatIwassoonleftwithoutasequin。AsIsharedmypropertywithM。M。Iwasobligedtotellherofmylosses,anditwasatherrequestthatI
soldallherdiamonds,losingwhatIgotforthem;shehadnowonlyfivehundredsequinsbyher。Therewasnomoretalkofherescapingfromtheconvent,forwehadnothingtoliveon!Istillgamed,butforsmallstakes,waitingfortheslowreturnofgoodluck。
OnedaytheEnglishambassador,aftergivingmeasupperathiscasinowiththecelebratedFannyMurray,askedmetolethimsupatmycasinoatMuran,whichInowonlykeptupforthesakeofTonine。
Igrantedhimthefavour,butdidnotimitatehisgenerosity。Hefoundmylittlemistresssmilingandpolite,butalwayskeepingwithintheboundsofdecency,fromwhichhewouldhaveverywillinglyexcusedher。Thenextmorninghewrotetomeasfollows:
\"IammadlyinlovewithTonine。IfyouliketohandherovertomeIwillmakethefollowingprovisionforher:IwillsetherupinasuitablelodgingwhichIwillfurnishthroughout,andwhichIwillgivetoherwithallitscontents,providedthatImayvisitherwheneverIplease,andthatshegivesmealltherightsofafortunatelover。Iwillgiveheramaid,acook,andthirtysequinsamonthasprovisionfortwopeople,withoutreckoningthewine,whichIwillprocuremyself。BesidesthisIwillgiveheralifeincomeoftwohundredcrownsperannum,overwhichshewillhavefullcontrolafterlivingwithmeforayear。Igiveyouaweektosendyouranswer。\"
IrepliedimmediatelythatIwouldlethimknowinthreedayswhetherhisproposalwereaccepted,forToninehadamotherofwhomshewasfond,andshewouldpossiblynotcaretodoanythingwithoutherconsent。Ialsoinformedhimthatinallappearancethegirlwaswithchild。
ThebusinesswasanimportantoneforTonine。Ilovedher,butI
knewperfectlywellthatwecouldnotpasstherestofourlivestogether,andIsawnoprospectofbeingabletomakeherasgoodaprovisionasthatofferedbytheambassador。ConsequentlyIhadnodoubtsonthequestion,andtheverysamedayIwenttoMuranandtoldherall。
\"Youwishtoleaveme,then,\"saidshe,intears。
\"Iloveyou,dearest,andwhatIproposeoughttoconvinceyouofmylove。\"
\"Notso;Icannotservetwomasters。\"
\"Youwillonlyserveyournewlover,sweetheart。Ibegofyoutoreflectthatyouwillhaveafinedowry,onthestrengthofwhichyoumaymarrywell;andthathowevermuchIloveyouIcannotpossiblymakesogoodaprovisionforyou。\"
\"Leavemeto—dayfortearsandreflection,andcometosupperwithmeto—morrow。\"
Ididnotfailtokeeptheappointment。
\"IthinkyourEnglishfriendisaveryprettyman,\"shesaid,\"andwhenhespeaksintheVenetiandialectitmakesmediewithlaughter。
Ifmymotheragrees,Imight,perhaps,forcemyselftolovehim。
Supposingwedidnotagreewecouldpartattheendofayear,andI
shouldbethericherbyanincomeoftwohundredcrowns。\"
\"Iamcharmedwiththesenseofyourarguments;speakaboutittoyourmother。\"
\"Idaren’t,sweetheart;thiskindofthingistoodelicatetobediscussedbetweenamotherandherdaughterspeaktoheryourself。\"
\"Iwill,indeed。\"
Laura,whomIhadnotseensinceshehadgivenmeherdaughter,askedfornotimetothinkitover,butfullofgleetoldmethatnowherdaughterwouldbeabletosootheherdecliningyears,andthatshewouldleaveMuranofwhichshewastired。SheshewedmeahundredandthirtysequinswhichToninehadgainedinmyservice,andwhichshehadplacedinherhands。
Barberine,Tonine’syoungersister,cametokissmyhand。Ithoughthercharming,andIgaveherallthesilverinmypocket。Ithenleft,tellingLaurathatIshouldexpectheratmyhouse。Shesoonfollowedme,andgaveherchildamother’sblessing,tellingherthatsheandherfamilycouldgoandliveinVeniceforsixtysousaday。
Tonineembracedher,andtoldherthatsheshouldhaveit。
Thisimportantaffairhavingbeenmanagedtoeverybody’ssatisfaction,IwenttoseeM————M————,whocameintotheparlourwithC————C————,whomIfoundlookingsad,thoughprettierthanever。Shewasmelancholy,butnonethelesstender。Shecouldnotstayformorethanaquarterofanhourforfearofbeingseen,asshewasforbiddenevertogointotheparlour。ItoldM。M。thestoryofTonine,whowasgoingtolivewithMurrayinVenice;shewassorrytohearit,\"for,\"saidshe,\"nowthatyouhavenolongeranyattractionatMuran,Ishallseeyoulessthanever。\"Ipromisedtocomeandseeheroften,butvainpromises!Thetimewasnearwhichpartedusforever。
ThesameeveningIwenttotellthegoodnewstomyfriendMurray。
Hewasinatransportofjoy,andbeggedmetocomeandsupwithhimathiscasinothedayafternext,andtobringthegirlwithme,thatthesurrendermightbemadeinform。Ididnotfailhim,foroncethematterwasdecided,Ilongedtobringittoanend。InmypresenceheassignedtohertheyearlyincomeforherlifeoftwohundredVenetianducats,andbyaseconddeedhegaveherallthecontentsofthehousewithwhichhewasgoingtoprovideher,providedalwaysthatshelivedwithhimforayear。Heallowedhertoreceivemeasafriend,alsotoreceivehermotherandsisters,andshewasfreetogoandseethemwhenshewould。Toninethrewherarmsabouthisneck,andassuredhimthatshewouldendeavourtopleasehimtotheutmostofherability。\"Iwillseehim,\"saidshe,pointingtome,\"butashisfriendheshallhavenothingmorefromme。\"Throughoutthistrulyaffectingsceneshekeptbackhertears,butIcouldnotconcealmine。Murraywashappy,butIwasnotlongawitnessofhisgoodfortune,thereasonofwhichIwillexplainalittlelater。
ThreedaysafterwardsLauracametome,toldmethatshewaslivinginVenice,andaskedmetotakehertoherdaughter’s。Iowedthiswomantoomuchtorefuseher,andItookherthereforthwith。ToninegavethankstoGod,andalsotome,andhermothertookupthesong,fortheywerenotquitesurewhethertheyweremoreindebtedtoGodortome。ToninewaseloquentinherpraiseofMurray,andmadenocomplaintatmynothavingcometoseeher,atwhichIwasglad。AsIwasgoingLauraaskedmetotakeherbackinmygondola,andaswehadtopassbythehouseinwhichshelivedshebeggedmetocomeinforamoment,andIcouldnothurtherfeelingsbyrefusing。IoweittomyhonourtoremarkherethatIwasthuspolitewithoutthinkingthatIshouldseeBarberineagain。
Thisgirl,asprettyashersister,thoughinanotherstyle,beganbyawakeningmycuriosity——aweaknesswhichusuallyrenderstheprofligatemaninconstant。Ifallwomenweretohavethesamefeatures,thesamedisposition,andthesamemanners,menwouldnotonlyneverbeinconstant,butwouldneverbeinlove。Underthatstateofthingsonewouldchooseawifebyinstinctandkeeptohertilldeath,butourworldwouldthenbeunderadifferentsystemtothepresent。Noveltyisthemasterofthesoul。Weknowthatwhatwedonotseeisverynearlythesameaswhatwehaveseen,butwearecurious,weliketobequitesure,andtoattainourendswegiveourselvesasmuchtroubleasifwewerecertainoffindingsomeprizebeyondcompare。
Barberine,wholookeduponmeasanoldfriend——forhermotherhadaccustomedhertokissmyhandwheneverIwentthere,whohadundressedmorethanonceinmypresencewithouttroublingaboutme,whoknewIhadmadehersister’sfortuneandthefamilyfortuneaswell,andthoughtherselfprettierthanToninebecauseherskinwasfairer,andbecauseshehadfineblackeyes,desiringtotakehersister’splace,knewthattosucceedshemusttakemebystorm。HercommonsensetoldherthatasIhardlyevercametothehouse,I
shouldnotbelikelytobecomeamorousofherunlessshewonmebystorm;andtothisendsheshewedtheutmostcomplaisancewhenshehadthechance,sothatIwonherwithoutanydifficulty。Allthisreasoningcamefromherownhead,forIamsurehermothergavehernoinstructions。Laurawasamotherofakindcommontheworldover,butespeciallyinItaly。Shewaswillingtotakeadvantageoftheearningsofherdaughters,butshewouldneverhaveinducedthemtotakethepathofevil。Therehervirtuestoppedshort。
AfterIhadinspectedhertworoomsandherlittlekitchen,andhadadmiredthecleannesswhichshoneallaround,BarberineaskedmeifI
wouldliketoseetheirsmallgarden。
\"Withpleasure,\"Ireplied,\"foragardenisararityinVenice。\"
Hermothertoldhertogivemesomefigsiftherewereanyripeones。
Thegardenconsistedofaboutthirtysquarefeet,andgrewonlysaladherbsandafinefigtree。Ithadnotagoodcrop,andItoldherthatIcouldnotseeanyfigs。
\"Icanseesomeatthetop,\"saidBarberine,\"andIwillgatherthemifyouwillholdmetheladder。\"
\"Yes,climbaway;Iwillholditquitefirmly。\"
Shesteppeduplightly,andstretchingoutanarmtogetatsomefigstoonesideofher,sheputherbodyoffitsbalance,holdingontotheladderwiththeotherhand。
\"MydearBarberine,whatdoyouthinkIcansee?\"
\"Whatyouhaveoftenseenwithmysister。\"
\"That’strue!butyouareprettierthansheis。\"
Thegirlmadenoreply,but,asifshecouldnotreachthefruit,sheputherfootonahighbranch,andspewedmethemostseductivepicture。Iwasinanecstasy,andBarberine,whosawit,didnothurryherself。AtlastIhelpedhertocomedown,andlettingmyhandwanderindiscreetly,IaskedherifthefruitIheldhadbeenplucked,andshekeptmealongtimetellingmeitwasquitefresh。
Itookherwithinmyarms,andalreadyhercaptive,Ipressedheramorouslytomyheart,printingonherlipsafierykiss,whichshegavemebackwithasmuchardour。
\"WillyougivemewhatIhavecaught,dearest?\"
\"MymotherisgoingtoMuranto—morrow,andshewillstaytherealltheday;ifyoucome,thereisnothingIwillrefuseyou。\"
Whenspeechlikethisproceedsfromamouthstillinnocent,themantowhomitisaddressedoughttobehappy,fordesiresarebutpainandtorment,andenjoymentissweetbecauseitdeliversusfromthem。
Thisshewsthatthosewhopreferalittleresistancetoaneasyconquestareinthewrong;butatooeasyconquestoftenpointstoadepravednature,andthismendonotlike,howeverdepravedtheythemselvesmaybe。
Wereturnedtothehouse,andIgaveBarberineatenderkissbeforeLaura’seyes,tellingherthatshehadaveryjewelinherdaughter——
acomplimentwhichmadeherfacelightupwithpleasure。Igavethedeargirltensequins,andIwentawaycongratulatingmyself,butcursingmyluckatnotbeingabletomakeasgoodprovisionforBarberineasMurrayhadmadeforhersister。
Toninehadtoldmethatformanners’sakeIshouldsuponcewithher。
IwentthesameeveningandfoundRigheliniandMurraythere。Thesupperwasdelicious,andIwasdelightedwiththeexcellentunderstandingthetwolovershadalreadycometo。Icomplimentedtheambassadoronthelossofoneofhistastes,andhetoldmeheshouldbeverysorryatsuchaloss,asitwouldwarnhimofhisdecliningpowers。
\"But,\"saidI,\"youusedtoliketoperformthemysterioussacrificeofLovewithoutaveil。\"
\"ItwasnotIbutAncillawholikedit,andasIpreferredpleasinghertopleasingmyself,Igaveintohertastewithoutanydifficulty。\"
\"Iamdelightedwithyouranswer,asIconfessitwouldcostmesomethingtobethewitnessofyourexploitswithTonine。\"
HavingcasuallyremarkedthatIhadnolongerahouseinMuran,RighelinitoldmethatifIlikedhecouldgetmeadelightfulhouseatalowrentontheTondamenteNuovo。
Asthisquarterfacingnorth,andasagreeableinsummerasdisagreeableinwinter,wasoppositetoMuran,whereIshouldhavetogotwiceaweek,ItoldthedoctorIshouldbegladtolookatthehouse。
Itookleaveoftherichandfortunateambassadoratmidnight,andbeforepassingthedaywithmynewprizeIwenttosleepsoastobefreshandcapableofrunningagoodcourse。
IwenttoBarberineatanearlyhour,andassoonasshesawmeshesaid,\"Mymotherwillnotbebacktilltheevening,andmybrotherwilltakehisdinnerattheschool。Hereisafowl,aham,somecheese,andtwobottlesofScopolowine。Wewilltakeourmesswheneveryoulike:\"
\"Youastonishme,sweetheart,forhowdidyoumanagetogetsuchagooddinner?\"
\"Weoweittomymother,sotoherbethepraise。\"
\"Youhavetoldher,then,whatwearegoingtodo?\"
\"No,notI,forIknownothingaboutit;butItoldheryouwerecomingtoseeme,andatthesametimeIgaveherthetensequins。\"
\"Andwhatdidyourmothersay?\"
\"Shesaidshewouldn’tbesorryifyouweretolovemeasyoulovedmysister。\"
\"Iloveyoubetter,thoughIloveherwell。\"
\"Youloveher?Whyhaveyoulefther,then?\"
\"Ihavenotlefther,forwesuppedtogetheryesterdayevening;butwenolongerlivetogetheraslovers,thatisall。Ihaveyieldedheruptoarichfriendofmine,whohasmadeherfortune。\"
\"Thatiswell,thoughIdon’tunderstandmuchabouttheseaffairs。I
hopeyouwilltellToninethatIhavetakenherplace,andIshouldbeverypleasedifyouwouldletherknowthatyouarequitesureyouaremyfirstlover。\"
\"Andsupposingthenewsvexesher?\"
\"Somuchthebetter。Willyoudoitforme?it’sthefirstfavourI
haveaskedofyou。\"
\"Ipromisetodoso。\"
Afterthisrapiddialoguewetookbreakfast,andthen,perfectlyagreed,wewenttobed,ratherasifwewereabouttosacrificetoHymenthantolove。
ThegamewasnewtoBarberine,andhertransports,hergreennotions—
—whichshetoldmeopenly——herinexperience,orratherherawkwardness,enchantedme。Iseemedforthefirsttimetopluckthefruitofthetreeofknowledge,andneverhadItastedfruitsodelicious。Mylittlemaidwouldhavebeenashamedtoletmeseehowthefirstthornhurther,andtoconvincemethatsheonlysmelttherose,shestrovetomakemethinksheexperiencedmorepleasurethanispossibleinafirsttrial,alwaysmoreorlesspainful。Shewasnotyetabiggirl,therosesonherswellingbreastswereasyetbutbuds,andshewasawomanonlyinherheart。
Aftermorethanoneassaultdeliveredandsustainedwithspirit,wegotupfordinner,andafterwehadrefreshedourselveswemountedoncemorethealtaroflove,whereweremainedtilltheevening。
Laurafoundusdressedandwellpleasedwitheachotheronherreturn。ImadeBarberineanotherpresentoftwentysequins,Isworetoloveheralways,andwentonmyway。AtthetimeIcertainlymeanttokeeptomyoath,butthatwhichdestinyhadinstoreformecouldnotbereconciledwiththesepromiseswhichwelledforthfrommysoulinamomentofexcitement。
ThenextmorningRighelinitookmetoseethelodginghehadspokentomeabout。Ilikeditandtookitonthespot,payingthefirstquarterinadvance。Thehousebelongedtoawidowwithtwodaughters,theelderofwhomhadjustbeenblooded。Righeliniwasherdoctor,andhadtreatedherforninemonthswithoutsuccess。AshewasgoingtopayheravisitIwentinwithhim,andfoundmyselfinthepresenceofafinewaxenstatue。Surprisedrewfrommethesewords:
\"Sheispretty,butthesculptorshouldgivehersomecolour。\"
Onwhichthestatuesmiledinamannerwhichwouldhavebeencharmingifherlipshadbutbeenred。
\"Herpallor,\"saidRighelini,\"willnotastonishyouwhenItellyoushehasjustbeenbloodedforthehundredandfourthtime。\"
Igaveaverynaturalgestureofsurprise。
Thisfinegirlhadattainedtheageofeighteenyearswithoutexperiencingthemonthlyreliefaffordedbynature,theresultbeingthatshefeltadeathlyfaintnessthreeorfourtimesaweek,andtheonlyreliefwastoopenthevein。
\"Iwanttosendhertothecountry,\"saidthedoctor,\"wherepureandwholesomeair,and,aboveall,moreexercise,willdohermoregoodthanallthedrugsintheworld。\"
AfterIhadbeentoldthatmybedshouldbemadereadybytheevening,IwentawaywithRighelini,whotoldmethattheonlycureforthegirlwouldbeagoodstronglover。
\"Butmydeardoctor,\"saidI,\"can’tyoumakeyourownprescription?\"
\"Thatwouldbetooriskyagame,forImightfindmyselfcompelledtomarryher,andIhatemarriagelikethedevil。\"
ThoughIwasnobetterinclinedtowardsmarriagethanthedoctor,I
wastoonearthefirenottogetburnt,andthereaderwillseeinthenextchapterhowIperformedthemiraculouscureofbringingthecoloursofhealthintothecheeksofthispallidbeauty。
CHAPTERXXV
TheFairInvalidICureHer——APlotFormedtoRuinMe——WhatHappenedattheHouseoftheYoungCountessBonafede——TheErberia——DomiciliaryVisit——MyConversationwithM。deBragadin——IAmArrestedbyOrderoftheStateInquisitors。
AfterleavingDr。RigheliniIwenttosupwithM。deBragadin,andgavethegenerousandworthyoldmanahappyevening。Thiswasalwaysthecase;ImadehimandhistwogoodfriendshappywheneverI
tookmealswiththem。
Leavingthematanearlyhour,Iwenttomylodgingandwasgreatlysurprisedtofindmybedroombalconyoccupied。Ayoungladyofanexquisitefigureroseassoonasshesawme,andgracefullyaskedmepardonforthelibertyshehadtaken。
\"Iam,\"shesaid,\"thestatueyousawthismorning。Wedonotlightthecandlesintheeveningforfearofattractingthegnats,butwhenyouwanttogotobedwewillshutthedoorandgoaway。Ibegtointroduceyoutomyyoungersister,mymotherhasgonetobed。\"
Iansweredhertotheeffectthatthebalconywasalwaysatherservice,andthatsinceitwasstillearlyIbeggedtheirpermissiontoputonmydressing—gownandtokeepthemcompany。Herconversationwascharming;shemademespendtwomostdelightfulhours,anddidnotleavemetilltwelveo’clock。Heryoungersisterlightedmeacandle,andastheywenttheywishedmeagoodnight。
Ilaydownfullofthisprettygirl,andIcouldnotbelievethatshewasreallyill。Shespoketothepoint,shewascheerful,clever,andfullofspirits。IcouldnotunderstandhowitcametopassthatshehadnotbeenalreadycuredinatownlikeVenice,ifhercurewasreallyonlytobeeffectedinthemannerdescribedbyDr。Righelini;
forinspiteofherpallorsheseemedtomequitefairenoughtocharmalover,andIbelievedhertobespiritedenoughtodeterminetotakethemostagreeablemedicineadoctorcanprescribe。
InthemorningIrangthebellasIwasgettingup,andtheyoungersistercameintomyroom,andsaidthatastheykeptnoservantshehadcometodowhatIwanted。IdidnotcaretohaveaservantwhenIwasnotatM。deBragadin’s,asIfoundmyselfmoreatlibertytodowhatIliked。Aftershehaddonemesomesmallservices,Iaskedherhowhersisterwas。
\"Verywell,\"saidshe,\"forherpalecomplexionisnotanillness,andsheonlysufferswhenherbreathfailsher。Shehasaverygoodappetite,andsleepsaswellasIdo。\"
\"WhomdoIhearplayingtheviolin?\"
\"It’sthedancingmastergivingmysisteralesson。\"
IhurriedovermydressingthatImightseeher;andIfoundhercharming,thoughherolddancingmasterallowedhertoturninhertoes。AllthatthisyoungandbeautifulgirlwantedwasthePrometheanspark,thecolouroflife;herwhitenesswastoolikesnow,andwasdistressingtolookat。
Thedancingmasterbeggedmetodanceaminuetwithhispupil,andI
assented,askinghimtoplaylarghissimo。\"Thesignorinawouldfindittootiring,\"saidhe;butshehastenedtoanswerthatshedidnotfeelweak,andwouldliketodancethus。Shedancedverywell,butwhenwehaddoneshewasobligedtothrowherselfinachair。\"Infuture,mydearmaster,\"saidshe,\"Iwillonlydancelikethat,forIthinktherapidmotionwilldomegood。\"
Whenthemasterwasgone,Itoldherthatherlessonsweretooshort,andthathermasterwaslettinghergetintobadhabits。Ithensetherfeet,hershoulders,andherarmsinthepropermanner。Itaughtherhowtogiveherhandgracefully,tobendherkneesintime;infine,Igaveheraregularlessonforanhour,andseeingthatshewasgettingrathertiredIbeggedhertositdown,andIwentouttopayavisittoM。M。
Ifoundherverysad,forC————C————’sfatherwasdead,andtheyhadtakenheroutoftheconventtomarryhertoalawyer。BeforeleavingC————C————hadleftaletterforme,inwhichshesaidthatifIwouldpromisetomarryheratsometimesuitabletomyself,shewouldwaitforme,andrefuseallotheroffers。IansweredherstraightforwardlythatIhadnopropertyandnoprospects,thatI
leftherfree,advisinghernottorefuseanyofferwhichmightbetoheradvantage。
InspiteofthisdismissalC————C————didnotmarryN————tillaftermyflightfromTheLeads,whennobodyexpectedtoseemeagaininVenice。Ididnotseeherfornineteenyears,andthenIwasgrievedtofindherawidow,andpoorlyoff。IfIwenttoVenicenowI
shouldnotmarryher,foratmyagemarriageisanabsurdity,butI
wouldsharewithhermylittleall,andlivewithheraswithadearsister。
WhenIhearwomentalkingaboutthebadfaithandinconstancyofmen,andmaintainingthatwhenmenmakepromisesofeternalconstancytheyarealwaysdeceivers,Iconfessthattheyareright,andjoinintheircomplaints。Stillitcannotbehelped,forthepromisesofloversaredictatedbytheheart,andconsequentlythelamentationsofwomenonlymakemewanttolaugh。Alas!welovewithoutheedingreason,andceasetoloveinthesamemanner。
AboutthistimeIreceivedaletterfromtheAbbedeBernis,whowrotealsotoM————M————。HetoldmethatIoughttodomyutmosttomakeournuntakeareasonableviewofthings,dwellingontherisksIshouldrunincarryingheroffandbringinghertoParis,whereallhisinfluencewouldbeofnoavailtoobtainforusthatsafetysoindispensabletohappiness。IsawM————M————;weshewedeachotherourletters,shehadsomebittertears,andhergriefpiercedmetotheheart。Istillhadagreatloveforherinspiteofmydailyinfidelities,andwhenIthoughtofthosemomentsinwhichIhadseenhergivenovertovoluptuousnessIcouldnothelppityingherfateasIthoughtofthedaysofdespairinstoreforher。Butsoonafterthisaneventhappenedwhichgaverisetosomewholesomereflections。Oneday,whenIhadcometoseeher,shesaid,\"Theyhavejustbeenburyinganunwhodiedofconsumptionthedaybeforeyesterdayintheodourofsanctity。Shewascalled’MariaConcetta。’Sheknewyou,andtoldC————C————yournamewhenyouusedtocometomassonfeastdays。C————C————beggedhertobediscreet,butthenuntoldherthatyouwereadangerousman,whosepresenceshouldbeshunnedbyayounggirl。C————C————toldmeallthisafterthemaskofPierrot。\"
\"Whatwasthissaint’snamewhenshewasintheworld?\"
\"Martha。\"
\"Iknowher。\"
IthentoldM————M————thewholehistoryofmyloveswithNanetteandMarton,endingwiththelettershewroteme,inwhichshesaidthatsheowedme,indirectly,thateternalsalvationtowhichshehopedtoattain。
Ineightortendaysmyconversationwithmyhostess’daughter——
conversationwhichtookplaceonthebalcony,andwhichgenerallylastedtillmidnight——andthelessonIgavehereverymorning,producedtheinevitableandnaturalresults;firstly,thatshenolongercomplainedofherbreathfailing,and,secondly,thatIfellinlovewithher。Nature’scurehadnotyetrelievedher,butshenolongerneededtobeletblood。Righelinicametovisitherasusual,andseeingthatshewasbetterheprophesiedthatnature’sremedy,withoutwhichonlyartcouldkeepheralive,wouldmakeallrightbeforetheautumn。HermotherlookeduponmeasanangelsentbyGodtocureherdaughter,whoforherpartshewedmethatgratitudewhichwithwomenisthefirststeptowardslove。Ihadmadeherdismissherolddancingmaster,andIhadtaughthertodancewithextremegrace。
Attheendofthesetenortwelvedays,justasIwasgoingtogiveherherlesson,herbreathfailedinstantaneously,andshefellbackintomyarmslikeadeadwoman。Iwasalarmed,buthermother,whohadbecomeaccustomedtoseeherthus,sentforthesurgeon,andhersisterunlacedher。Iwasenchantedwithherexquisitebosom,whichneedednocolouringtomakeitmorebeautiful。Icovereditup,sayingthatthesurgeonwouldmakeafalsestrokeifheweretoseeherthusuncovered;butfeelingthatIlaidmyhanduponherwithdelight,shegentlyrepulsedme,lookingatmewithalanguishinggazewhichmadethedeepestimpressiononme。
Thesurgeoncameandbledherinthearm,andalmostinstantaneouslysherecoveredfullconsciousness。Atmostonlyfourouncesofbloodweretakenfromher,andhermothertellingmethatthiswastheutmostextenttowhichshewasblooded,IsawitwasnosuchmatterforwonderasRighelinirepresentedit,forbeingbloodedtwiceaweekshelostthreepoundsofbloodamonth,whichshewouldhavedonenaturallyifthevesselshadnotbeenobstructed。
ThesurgeonhadhardlygoneoutofthedoorwhentomyastonishmentshetoldmethatifIwouldwaitforheramomentshewouldcomebackandbeginherdancing。Thisshedid,anddancedasiftherehadbeennothingthematter。
Herbosom,onwhichtwoofmysenseswerequalifiedtogiveevidence,wasthelaststroke,andmadememadlyinlovewithher。Ireturnedtothehouseintheevening,andfoundherinherroomwiththesister。Shetoldmethatshewasexpectinghergod—father,whowasanintimatefriendofherfather’s,andhadcomeeveryeveningtospendanhourwithherforthelasteighteenyears。
\"Howoldishe?\"
\"Heisoverfifty。\"
\"Isheamarriedman?\"
\"Yes,hisnameisCountS————。Heisasfondofmeasafatherwouldbe,andhisaffectionhascontinuedthesamesincemychildhood。
Evenhiswifecomestoseemesometimes,andtoaskmetodinner。
NeatautumnIamgoingintothecountrywithher,andIhopethefreshairwilldomegood。Mygod—fatherknowsyouarestayingwithusandissatisfied。Hedoesnotknowyou,butifyoulikeyoucanmakehisacquaintance。\"
Iwasgladtohearallthis,asIgainedagooddealofusefulinformationwithouthavingtoaskanyawkwardquestions。ThefriendshipofthisGreeklookedverylikelove。HewasthehusbandofCountessS————,whohadtakenmetotheconventatMurantwoyearsbefore。
Ifoundthecountaverypoliteman。Hethankedmeinapaternalmannerformykindnesstohisdaughter,andbeggedmetodohimthehonourofdiningwithhimonthefollowingday,tellingmethathewouldintroducemetohiswife。Iacceptedhisinvitationwithpleasure,forIwasfondofdramaticsituations,andmymeetingwiththecountesspromisedtobeanexcitingone。Thisinvitationbespokethecourteousgentleman,andIcharmedmyprettypupilbysinginghispraisesafterhehadgone。
\"Mygod—father,\"saidshe,\"isinpossessionofallthenecessarydocumentsforwithdrawingfromthehouseofPersicoourfamilyfortune,whichamountstofortythousandcrowns。Aquarterofthissumbelongstome,,andmymotherhaspromisedmysisterandmyselftoshareherdowrybetweenus。\"
IconcludedfromthisthatshewouldbringherhusbandfifteenthousandVenetianducats。
Iguessedthatshewasappealingtomewithherfortune,andwishedtomakemeinlovewithherbyshewingherselfcharyofherfavours;
forwheneverIallowedmyselfanysmallliberties,shecheckedmewithwords,ofremonstrancetowhichIcouldfindnoanswer。I
determinedtomakeherpursueanothercourse。
NextdayItookherwithmetohergod—father’swithouttellingherthatIknewthecountess。Ifanciedtheladywouldpretendnottoknowme,butIwaswrong,asshewelcomedmeinthehandsomestmannerasifIwereanoldfriend。This,nodoubt,wasasurpriseforthecount,buthewastoomuchamanoftheworldto,shewanyastonishment。Heaskedherwhenshehadmademyacquaintance,andshe,likeawomanofexperience,answeredwithouttheslightesthesitationthatwehadseeneachothertwoyearsagoatMira。Thematterwassettled,andwespentaverypleasantday。
TowardseveningItooktheyoungladyinmygondolabacktothehouse,butwishingtoshortenthejourneyIallowedmyselftoindulgeinafewcaresses。Iwashurtatbeingrespondedtobyreproaches,andforthatreason,assoonasshehadsetfootonherowndoorstep,insteadofgettingoutIwenttoTonine’shouse,andspentnearlythewholenighttherewiththeambassador,whocamealittleafterme。
Nextday,asIdidnotgetuptillquitelate,therewasnodancinglesson,andwhenIexcusedmyselfshetoldmenottotroubleanymoreaboutit。IntheeveningIsatonthebalconyfarintothenight,butshedidnotcome。VexedatthisairofindifferenceIroseearlyinthemorningandwentout,notreturningtillnightfall。Shewasonthebalcony,butasshekeptmeatarespectfuldistanceIonlytalkedtoheroncommonplacesubjects。InthemorningIwasrousedbyatremendousnoise。Igotup,andhurriedlyputtingonmydressing—gownranintoherroomtoseewhatwasthematter,onlytofindherdying。Ihadnoneedtofeignaninterestinher,forI
feltthemosttenderconcern。AsitwasatthebeginningofJulyitwasextremelyhot,andmyfairinvalidwasonlycoveredbyathinsheet。Shecouldonlyspeaktomewithhereyes,butthoughthelidswereloweredshelookeduponmesolovingly!Iaskedherifshesufferedfrompalpitations,andlayingmyhanduponherheartI
pressedafierykissuponherbreast。Thiswastheelectricspark,forshegaveasighwhichdidhergood。ShehadnotstrengthtorepulsethehandwhichIpressedamorouslyuponherheart,andbecomingbolderIfastenedmyburninglipsuponherlanguidmouth。
Iwarmedherwithmybreath,andmyaudacioushandpenetratedtotheverysanctuaryofbliss。Shemadeanefforttopushmeback,andtoldmewithhereyes,sinceshecouldnotspeak,howinsultedshefelt。Idrewbackmyhand,andatthatmomentthesurgeoncame。
Hardlywastheveinopenedwhenshedrewalongbreath,andbythetimetheoperationwasovershewishedtogetup。Ientreatedhertostayinbed,andhermotheraddedhervoicetomine;atlastI
persuadedher,tellingherthatIwouldnotleaveherforasecond,andthatIwouldhavemydinnerbyherbedside。Shethenputonacorsetandaskedhersistertodrawasarcenetcoverletoverher,asherlimbscouldbeseenasplainlyasthroughacrapeveil。
Havinggivenordersformydinner,Isatdownbyherbedside,burningwithlove,andtakingherhandandcoveringitwithkissesItoldherthatIwassureshewouldgetbetterifshewouldletherselflove。
\"Alas!\"shesaid,\"whomshallIlove,notknowingwhetherIshallbelovedinreturn?\"
Ididnotleavethisquestionunanswered,andcontinuingtheamorousdiscoursewithanimationIwonasighandalovelornglance。Iputmyhandonherknee,begginghertoletmeleaveitthere,andpromisingtogonofarther,butlittlebylittleIattainedthecenter,andstrovetogivehersomepleasantsensations。
\"Letmealone,\"saidshe,inasentimentalvoice,drawingaway,\"’tisperchancethecauseofmyillness。\"
\"No,sweetheart,\"Ireplied,\"thatcannotbe。\"Andmymouthstoppedallherobjectionsuponherlips。
Iwasenchanted,forIwasnowinafairway,andIsawthemomentofblissinthedistance,feelingcertainthatIcouldeffectacureifthedoctorwasnotmistaken。Isparedherallindiscreetquestionsoutofregardforhermodesty;butIdeclaredmyselfherlover,promisingtoasknothingofherbutwhatwasnecessarytofeedthefireofmylove。Theysentmeupaverygooddinner,andshedidjusticetoit;afterwardssayingthatshewasquitewellshegotup,andIwentawaytodressmyselfforgoingout。Icamebackearlyintheevening,andfoundheronmybalcony。There,asIsatclosetoherlookingintoherface,speakingbyturnsthelanguageoftheeyesandthatofsighs,fixingmyamorousgazeuponthosecharmswhichthemoonlightrenderedsweeter,Imadehershareinthefirewhichconsumedme;andasIpressedheramorouslytomybosomshecompletedmyblisswithsuchwarmththatIcouldeasilyseethatshethoughtshewasreceivingafavourandnotgrantingone。Isacrificedthevictimwithoutstainingthealtarwithblood。
Hersistercametotellherthatitgrewlate。
\"Doyougotobed,\"sheanswered;\"thefreshairisdoingmegood,andIwanttoenjoyitalittlelonger。\"
Assoonaswewerealonewewenttobedtogetherasifwehadbeendoingitforawholeyear,andwepassedagloriousnight,Ifullofloveandthedesireofcuringher,andsheoftenderandardentvoluptuousness。Atday—breaksheembracedme,hereyesdewywithbliss,andwenttoliedowninherownbed。I,likeher,stoodinneedofarest,andonthatdaytherewasnotalkofadancinglesson。Inspiteofthefiercepleasureofenjoymentandthetransportsofthisdelightfulgirl,Ididnotforamomentlayprudenceaside。Wecontinuedtopasssuchnightsastheseforthreeweeks,andIhadthepleasureofseeingherthoroughlycured。I
shoulddoubtlesshavemarriedher,ifaneventhadnothappenedtometowardstheendofthemonth,ofwhichIshallspeaklowerdown。
Youwillremember,dearreader,aboutaromancebytheAbbeChiari,asatiricalromancewhichMr。Murrayhadgivenme,andinwhichIfaredbadlyenoughattheauthor’shandsIhadsmallreasontobepleasedwithhim,andIlethimknowmyopinioninsuchwisethattheabbewhodreadedacaning,keptuponhisguard。AboutthesametimeI
receivedananonymousletter,thewriterofwhichtoldmethatI
shouldbebetteroccupiedintakingcareofmyselfthaninthoughtsofchastisingtheabbe,forIwasthreatenedbyanimminentdanger。
Anonymousletter—writersshouldbeheldincontempt,butoneoughttoknowhow,onoccasion,tomakethebestofadvicegiveninthatway。
Ididnothing,andmadeagreatmistake。
AboutthesametimeamannamedManuzzi,astonesetterforhisfirsttrade,andalsoaspy,avileagentoftheStateInquisitors——amanofwhomIknewnothing——foundawaytomakemyacquaintancebyofferingtoletmehavediamondsoncredit,andbythismeanshegottheentryofmyhouse。Ashewaslookingatsomebooksscatteredhereandthereabouttheroom,hestoppedshortatthemanuscriptswhichwereonmagic。Enjoyingfoolishlyenough,hislookofastonishment,Ishewedhimthebookswhichteachonehowtosummontheelementaryspirits。Myreaderswill,Ihope,domethefavourtobelievethatIputnofaithintheseconjuringbooks,butIhadthembymeandusedtoamusemyselfwiththemasonedoesamuseone’sselfwiththemultitudinousfollieswhichproceedfromtheheadsofvisionaries。Afewdaysafter,thetraitorcametoseemeandtoldmethatacollector,whosenamehemightnottellme,wasreadytogivemeathousandsequinsformyfivebooks,butthathewouldliketoexaminethemfirsttoseeiftheyweregenuine。Ashepromisedtoletmehavethembackintwenty—fourhours,andnotthinkingmuchaboutthematter,Ilethimhavethem。Hedidnotfailtobringthembackthenextday,tellingmethatthecollectorthoughtthemforgeries。Ifoundout,someyearsafter,thathehadtakenthemtotheStateInquisitors,whothusdiscoveredthatIwasanotablemagician。
Everythingthathappenedthroughoutthisfatalmonthtendedtomyruin,forMadameMemmo,motherofAndre,Bernard,andLaurentMemmo,hadtakenitintoherheadthatIhadinclinedhersonstoatheisticopinions,andtookcounselwiththeoldknightAntonyMocenigo,M。deBragadin’suncle,whowasangrywithme,because,ashesaid,Ihadconspiredtoseducehisnephew。Thematterwasaseriousone,andanauto—da—fewasverypossible,asitcameunderthejurisdictionoftheHolyOffice——akindofwildbeast,withwhichitisnotgoodtoquarrel。Nevertheless,astherewouldbesomedifficultyinshuttingmeupintheecclesiasticalprisonsoftheHolyOffice,itwasdeterminedtocarrymycasebeforetheStateInquisitors,whotookuponthemselvestheprovisionaldutyofputtingawatchuponmymannerofliving。
M。AntonyCondulmer,whoasafriendofAbbeChiari’swasanenemyofmine,wasthenanInquisitorofState,andhetooktheopportunityoflookinguponmeinthelightofadisturberofthepeaceofthecommonwealth。Asecretaryofanembassy,whomIknewsomeyearsafter,toldmethatapaidinformer,withtwootherwitnesses,also,doubtless,inthepayofthisgrandtribunal,haddeclaredthatIwasguiltyofonlybelievinginthedevil,asifthisabsurdbelief,ifitwerepossible,didnotnecessarilyconnoteabeliefinGod!ThesethreehonestfellowstestifiedwithanoaththatwhenIlostmoneyatplay,onwhichoccasionallthefaithfularewonttoblaspheme,Iwasneverheardtocursethedevil。Iwasfurtheraccusedofeatingmeatalltheyearround,ofonlygoingtohearfinemasses,andIwasvehementlysuspectedofbeingaFreemason。ItwasaddedthatI
frequentedthesocietyofforeignministers,andthatlivingasIdidwiththreenoblemen,itwascertainthatIrevealed,forthelargesumswhichIwasseentolose,asmanystatesecretsasIcouldwormoutofthem。
Alltheseaccusations,noneofwhichhadanyfoundationinfact,servedtheTribunalasapretexttotreatmeasanenemyofthecommonwealthandasaprimeconspirator。ForseveralweeksIwascounselledbypersonswhomImighthavetrustedtogoabroadwhilsttheTribunalwasengagedonmycase。Thisshouldhavebeenenough,fortheonlypeoplewhocanliveinpeaceatVenicearethosewhoseexistencetheTribunalisignorantof,butIobstinatelydespisedallthesehints。IfIhadlistenedtotheindirectadvicewhichwasgivenme,Ishouldhavebecomeanxious,andIwastheswornfoeofallanxiety。Ikeptsayingtomyself,\"IfeelremorsefornothingandIamthereforeguiltyofnothing,andtheinnocenthavenothingtofear。\"Iwasafool,forIarguedasifIhadbeenafreemaninafreecountry。Imustalsoconfessthatwhattoagreatextentkeptmefromthinkingofpossiblemisfortunewastheactualmisfortunewhichoppressedmefrommorningtonight。Ilosteveryday,Iowedmoneyeverywhere,Ihadpawnedallmyjewels,andevenmyportraitcases,takingtheprecaution,however,ofremovingtheportraits,whichwithmyimportantpapersandmyamorouslettersIhadplacedinthehandsofMadameManzoni。Ifoundmyselfavoidedinsociety。Anoldsenatortoldme,oneday,thatitwasknownthattheyoungCountessBonafedehadbecomemadinconsequenceofthelovephiltresIhadgivenher。Shewasstillattheasylum,andinhermomentsofdeliriumshedidnothingbututtermynamewithcurses。Imustletmyreadersintothesecretofthissmallhistory。
ThisyoungCountessBonafede,towhomIhadgivensomesequinsafewdaysaftermyreturntoVenice,thoughtherselfcapableofmakingmecontinuemyvisits,fromwhichshehadprofitedlargely。WorriedbyherlettersIwenttoseeherseveraltimes,andalwaysleftherafewsequins,butwiththeexceptionofmyfirstvisitIwasneverpoliteenoughtogiveheranyproofsofmyaffection。Mycoldnesshadbaulkedallherendeavoursforayear,whensheplayedacriminalpart,ofwhich,thoughIwasneverableabsolutelytoconvicther,I
hadeveryreasontobelieveherguilty。
Shewrotemealetter,inwhichsheimportunedmetocomeandseeheratacertainhouronimportantbusiness。
Mycuriosity,aswellasadesiretobeofservicetoher,tookmethereattheappointedtime;butassoonasshesawmesheflungherarmsroundmyneck,andtoldmethattheimportantbusinesswaslove。
Thismademelaughheartily,andIwaspleasedtofindherlookingneaterthanusual,which,doubtless,mademefindherlookingprettier。SheremindedmeofSt。Andre,andsucceededsowellinhereffortsthatIwasonthepointofsatisfyingherdesires。Itookoffmycloak,andaskedherifherfatherwerein。Shetoldmehehadgoneout。Beingobligedtogooutforaminute,incomingbackI
mistookthedoor,andIfoundmyselfinthenextroom,whereIwasmuchastonishedtoseethecountandtwovillainous—lookingfellowswithhim。
\"Mydearcount,\"Isaid,\"yourdaughterhasjusttoldmethatyouwereout。\"
\"Imyselftoldhertodoso,asIhavesomebusinesswiththesegentlemen,which,however,canwaitforanotherday。\"
Iwouldhavegone,buthestoppedme,andhavingdismissedthetwomenhetoldmethathewasdelightedtoseeme,andforthwithbeganthetaleofhistroubles,whichwereofmorethanonekind。TheStateInquisitorshadstoppedhisslenderpension,andhewasontheeveofseeinghimselfdrivenoutwithhisfamilyintothestreetstobeghisbread。Hesaidthathehadnotbeenabletopayhislandlordanythingforthreeyears,butifhecouldpayonlyaquarter’srent,hewouldobtainarespite,orifhepersistedinturninghimout,hecouldmakeanight—flittingofit,andtakeuphisabodesomewhereelse。Asheonlywantedtwentyducats,Itookoutsixsequinsandgavethemtohim。Heembracedme,andshedtearsofjoy;then,takinghispoorcloak,hecalledhisdaughter,toldhertokeepmecompany,andwentout。
Alonewiththecountess,Iexaminedthedoorofcommunicationbetweenthetworoomsandfounditslightlyopen。
\"Yourfather,\"Isaid,\"wouldhavesurprisedme,anditiseasytoguesswhathewouldhavedonewiththetwosbirriwhowerewithhim。
Theplotisclear,andIhaveonlyescapedfromitbythehappiestofchances。\"
Shedenied,wept,calledGodtowitness,threwherselfonherknees;
butIturnedmyheadaway,andtakingmycloakwentawaywithoutaword。Shekeptonwritingtome,butherlettersremainedunanswered,andIsawhernomore。
Itwassummer—time,andbetweentheheat,herpassions,hunger,andwretchedness,herheadwasturned,andshebecamesomadthatshewentoutofthehousestarknaked,andranupanddownSt。Peter’sPlace,askingthosewhostoppedhertotakehertomyhouse。Thissadstorywentalloverthetownandcausedmeagreatdealofannoyance。Thepoorwretchwassenttoanasylum,anddidnotrecoverherreasonforfiveyears。Whenshecameoutshefoundherselfreducedtobegherbreadinthestreets,likeallherbrothers,exceptone,whomIfoundacadetintheguardsoftheKingofSpaintwelveyearsafterwards。
AtthetimeofwhichIamspeakingallthishadhappenedayearago,butthestorywasdugupagainstme,anddressedoutintheattireoffiction,andthusformedpartofthosecloudswhichweretodischargetheirthunderuponmetomydestruction。
IntheJulyof1755thehatefulcourtgaveMesser—Grandeinstructionstosecureme,aliveordead。InthisfuriousstyleallordersforarrestsproceedingfromtheThreewereissued,fortheleastoftheircommandscarriedwithitthepenaltyofdeath。
ThreeorfourdaysbeforetheFeastofSt。James,mypatronsaint,M————M————mademeapresentofseveralellsofsilverlacetotrimasarcenetdresswhichIwasgoingtowearontheeveofthefeast。
Iwenttoseeher,dressedinmyfinesuit,andItoldherthatI
shouldcomeagainonthedayfollowingtoaskhertolendmesomemoney,asIdidnotknowwheretoturntofindsome。ShewasstillinpossessionofthefivehundredsequinswhichshehadputasidewhenIhadsoldherdiamonds。
AsIwassureofgettingthemoneyinthemorningIpassedthenightatplay,andIlostthefivehundredsequinsinadvance。Atday—
break,beinginneedofalittlequiet,IwenttotheErberia,aspaceofgroundonthequayoftheGrandCanal。Hereisheldtheherb,fruit,andflowermarket。
PeopleingoodsocietywhocometowalkintheErberiaataratherearlyhourusuallysaythattheycometoseethehundredsofboatsladenwithvegetables,fruitandflowers,whichhailfromthenumerousislandsnearthetown;buteveryoneknowsthattheyaremenandwomenwhohavebeenspendingthenightintheexcessesofVenusorBacchus,orwhohavelostallhopeatthegaming—table,andcomeheretobreathapurerairandtocalmtheirminds。Thefashionofwalkinginthisplaceshewshowthecharacterofanationchanges。
TheVenetiansofoldtimewhomadeasgreatamysteryofloveasofstateaffairs,havebeenreplacedbythemodernVenetians,whosemostprominentcharacteristicistomakeamysteryofnothing。ThosewhocometotheErberiawithwomenwishtoexcitetheenvyoftheirfriendsbythuspublishingtheirgoodfortune。Thosewhocomealoneareonthewatchfordiscoveries,oronthelook—outformaterialstomakewivesorhusbandsjealous,thewomenonlycometobeseen,gladtoleteverybodyknowthattheyarewithoutanyrestraintupontheiractions。Therewascertainlynoquestionofsmartnessthere,consideringthedisorderedstyleofdressworn。Thewomenseemedtohaveagreedtoshewallthesignsofdisorderimaginable,togivethosewhosawthemsomethingtotalkabout。Asforthemen,onwhosearmstheyleaned,theircarelessandloungingairswereintendedtogivetheideaofasurfeitofpleasure,andtomakeonethinkthatthedisorderedappearanceoftheircompanionswasasuretriumphtheyhadenjoyed。Inshortitwasthecorrectthingtolooktiredout,andasifonestoodinneedofsleep。
Thisveraciousdescription,reader,willnotgiveyouaveryhighopinionofthemoralsofmydearfellowcitizens;butwhatobjectshouldIhaveatmyagefordeceiving?Veniceisnotattheworld’send,butiswellenoughknowntothosewhosecuriositybringsthemintoItaly;andeveryonecanseeforhimselfifmypicturesareoverdrawn。
Afterwalkingupanddownforhalfanhour,Icameaway,andthinkingthewholehousestilla—bedIdrewmykeyouttoopenthedoor,butwhatwasmyastonishmenttofindituseless,asthedoorwasopen,andwhatismore,thelockburstoff。Iranupstairs,andfoundthemallup,andmylandladyutteringbitterlamentations。
\"Messer—Grande,\"shetoldme,\"hasenteredmyhouseforcibly,accompaniedbyabandofsbirri。Heturnedeverythingupsidedown,onthepretextthathewasinsearchofaportmanteaufullofsalt——ahighlycontrabandarticle。Hesaidheknewthataportmanteauhadbeenlandedtheretheeveningbefore,whichwasquitetrue;butitbelongedtoCountS————,andonlycontainedlinenandclothes。
Messer—Grande,afterinspectingit,wentoutwithoutsayingaword。\"
Hehadalsopaidmyroomavisit。Shetoldmethatshemusthavesomereparationmadeher,andthinkingshewasintherightI
promisedtospeaktoM。deBragadinonthematterthesameday。
Needingrestaboveallthings,Ilaydown,butmynervousexcitement,whichIattributedtomyheavylossesatplay,mademeriseafterthreeorfourhours,andIwenttoseeM。deBragadin,towhomItoldthewholestorybegginghimtopressforsomesignalamends。Imadealivelyrepresentationtohimofallthegroundsonwhichmylandladyrequiredproportionateamendstobemade,sincethelawsguaranteedthepeaceofalllaw—abidingpeople。
IsawthatthethreefriendsweregreatlysaddenedbywhatIsaid,andthewiseoldman,quietlybutsadly,toldmethatIshouldhavemyanswerafterdinner。
DelaHayedinedwithus,butallthroughthemeal,whichwasamelancholyone,hespokenotaword。Hissilenceshouldhavetoldmeall,ifIhadnotbeenundertheinfluenceofsomemalevolentgeniiwhowouldnotallowmetoexercisemycommonsense:astothesorrowofmythreefriends,Iputthatdowntotheirfriendshipforme。
Myconnectionwiththeseworthymenhadalwaysbeenthetalkofthetown,andasallwereagreedthatitcouldnotbeexplainedonnaturalgrounds,itwasdeemedtobetheeffectofsomesorceryexercisedbyme。Thesethreemenwerethoroughlyreligiousandvirtuouscitizens;Iwasnothingifnotirreligious,andVenicedidnotcontainagreaterlibertine。Virtue,itwassaid,mayhavecompassiononvice,butcannotbecomeitsfriend。
AfterdinnerM。deBragadintookmeintohisclosetwithhistwofriends,fromwhomhehadnosecrets。HetoldmewithwonderfulcalmnessthatinsteadofmeditatingvengeanceonMesser—GrandeI
shouldbethinkingofputtingmyselfinaplaceofsafety。
\"Theportmanteau,\"saidhe,\"wasamerepretext;itwasyoutheywantedandthoughttofind。Sinceyourgoodgeniushasmadethemmissyou,lookoutforyourself;perhapsbyto—morrowitmaybetoolate。IhavebeenaStateInquisitorforeightmonths,andIknowthewayinwhichthearrestsorderedbythecourtarecarriedout。
Theywouldnotbreakopenadoortolookforaboxofsalt。Indeed,itispossiblethattheyknewyouwereout,andsoughttowarnyoutoescapeinthismanner。Takemyadvice,mydearson,andsetoutdirectlyforFusina,andthenceasquicklyasyoucanmakeyourwaytoFlorence,whereyoucanremaintillIwritetoyouthatyoumayreturnwithsafety。IfyouhavenomoneyIwillgiveyouahundredsequinsforpresentexpenses。Believemethatprudencebidsyougo。\"
Blindedbymyfolly,IansweredhimthatbeingguiltyofnothingI
hadnothingtofear,andthatconsequently,althoughIknewhisadvicewasgood,Icouldnotfollowit。
\"Thehighcourt,\"saidhe,\"maydeemyouguiltyofcrimesrealorimaginary;butinanycaseitwillgiveyounoaccountoftheaccusationsagainstyou。Askyouroracleifyoushallfollowmyadviceornot。\"IrefusedbecauseIknewthefollyofsuchaproceeding,butbywayofexcuseIsaidthatIonlyconsulteditwhenIwasindoubt。Finally,IreasonedthatifIfledIshouldbeshewingfear,andthusconfessingmyguilt,foraninnocentman,feelingnoremorse,cannotreasonablybeafraidofanything。
\"Ifsecrecy,\"saidI,\"isoftheessenceoftheCourt,youcannotpossiblyjudge,aftermyescape,whetherIhavedonesorightlyorwrongly。Thesamereasons,which,accordingtoyourexcellence,bidmego,wouldforbidmyreturn。MustIthensaygood—byeforevertomycountry,andallthatisdeartome?\"Asalastresourcehetriedtopersuademetopassthefollowingdayandnight,atleast,atthepalace。IamstillashamedofhavingrefusedtheworthyoldmantowhomIowedsomuchthisfavour;forthepalaceofanobleissacredtothepolicewhodarenotcrossitsthresholdwithoutaspecialorderfromtheTribunal,whichispracticallynevergiven;byyieldingtohisrequestIshouldhaveavoidedagrievousmisfortune,andsparedtheworthyoldmansomeacutegrief。
IwasmovedtoseeM。deBragadinweeping,andperhapsImighthavegrantedtohistearsthatwhichIhadobstinatelyrefusedtohisargumentsandentreaties。\"ForHeaven’ssake!\"saidI,\"sparemetheharrowingsightofyourtears。\"Inaninstanthesummonedallhisstrengthtohisassistance,madesomeindifferentremarks,andthen,withasmilefullofgoodnature,heembracedme,saying,\"PerhapsI
maybefatednevertoseeyouagain,but’Fataviaminvenient’。\"
Iembracedhimaffectionately,andwentaway,buthispredictionwasverified,forIneversawhimagain;hediedelevenyearsafterwards。
Ifoundmyselfinthestreetwithoutfeelingtheslightestfear,butIwasinagooddealoftroubleaboutmydebts。IhadnotthehearttogotoMurantotakeawayfromM。M。herlastfivehundredsequins,whichsumIowedtothemanwhowonitfrommeinthenight;I
preferredaskinghimtowaiteightdays,andIdidso。AfterperformingthisunpleasantpieceofbusinessIreturnedhome,and,havingconsoledmylandladytotheutmostofmypower,Ikissedthedaughter,andlaydowntosleep。ThedatewasJuly25th,1755。
Nextmorningatday—breakwhoshouldentermyroombuttheawfulMesser—Grande。Toawake,toseehim,andtohearhimaskingifI
wereJacquesCasanova,wastheworkofamoment。Atmy\"yes,IamCasanova,\"hetoldmetorise,toputonmyclothes,togivehimallthepapersandmanuscriptsinmypossession,andtofollowhim。
\"Onwhoseauthoritydoyouordermetodothis?\"
\"BytheauthorityoftheTribunal。\"
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CHAPTERXXVI
UnderTheLeads——TheEarthquakeWhatastrangeandunexplainedpowercertainwordsexerciseuponthesoul!I,whotheeveningbeforesobravelyfortifiedmyselfwithmyinnocenceandcourage,bythewordtribunalwasturnedtoastone,withmerelythefacultyofpassiveobediencelefttome。