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  PARTIII

  STUPIDFACES

  I

  Somanygrinning,stupidfaces!TheawassittingbythewindowinBowers’sstudio,waitingforhimtocomebackfromlunch。Onherkneewasthelatestnumberofanillustratedmusicaljournalinwhichmusiciansgreatandlittlestridentlyadvertisedtheirwares。Everyafternoonsheplayedaccompanimentsforpeoplewholookedandsmiledlikethese。Shewasgettingtiredofthehumancountenance。

  TheahadbeeninChicagofortwomonths。Shehadasmallchurchpositionwhichpartlypaidherlivingex—

  penses,andshepaidforhersinginglessonsbyplayingBowers’saccompanimentseveryafternoonfromtwountilsix。ShehadbeencompelledtoleaveheroldfriendsMrs。

  LorchandMrs。Andersen,becausethelongridefromNorthChicagotoBowers’sstudioonMichiganAvenuetooktoomuchtime——anhourinthemorning,andatnight,whenthecarswerecrowded,anhourandahalf。Forthefirstmonthshehadclungtoheroldroom,butthebadairinthecars,attheendofalongday’swork,fatiguedhergreatlyandwasbadforhervoice。SincesheleftMrs。

  Lorch,shehadbeenstayingatastudents’clubtowhichshewasintroducedbyMissAdler,Bowers’smorningac—

  companist,anintelligentJewishgirlfromEvanston。

  TheatookherlessonfromBowerseverydayfromeleven—thirtyuntiltwelve。ThenshewentouttolunchwithanItaliangrammarunderherarm,andcamebacktothestudiotobeginherworkattwo。Intheafternoon

  Bowerscoachedprofessionalsandtaughthisadvancedpupils。ItwashistheorythatTheaoughttobeabletolearnagreatdealbykeepingherearsopenwhilesheplayedforhim。

  Theconcert—goingpublicofChicagostillremembersthelong,sallow,discontentedfaceofMadisonBowers。Heseldommissedaneveningconcert,andwasusuallytobeseenloungingsomewhereatthebackoftheconcerthall,readinganewspaperorreview,andconspicuouslyignoringtheeffortsoftheperformers。Attheendofanumberhelookedupfromhispaperlongenoughtosweeptheap—

  plaudingaudiencewithacontemptuouseye。Hisfacewasintelligent,withanarrowlowerjaw,athinnose,fadedgrayeyes,andaclose—cutbrownmustache。Hishairwasiron—gray,thinanddead—looking。Hewenttoconcertschieflytosatisfyhimselfastohowbadlythingsweredoneandhowgulliblethepublicwas。Hehatedthewholeraceofartists;theworktheydid,thewagestheygot,andthewaytheyspenttheirmoney。Hisfather,oldHiramBowers,wasstillaliveandatwork,agenialoldchoirmasterinBos—

  ton,fullofenthusiasmatseventy。ButMadisonwasofthecolderstuffofhisgrandfathers,alonglineofNewHamp—

  shirefarmers;hardworkers,closetraders,withgoodminds,meannatures,andflintyeyes。AsaboyMadisonhadafinebarytonevoice,andhisfathermadegreatsacrificesforhim,sendinghimtoGermanyatanearlyageandkeep—

  inghimabroadathisstudiesforyears。Madisonworkedunderthebestteachers,andafterwardsanginEnglandinoratorio。Hiscoldnatureandacademicmethodswereagainsthim。Hisaudienceswerealwaysawareofthecontempthefeltforthem。Adozenpoorersingerssuc—

  ceeded,butBowersdidnot。

  Bowershadallthequalitieswhichgotomakeagoodteacher——exceptgenerosityandwarmth。Hisintelligencewasofahighorder,histasteneveratfault。Heseldomworkedwithavoicewithoutimprovingit,andinteach—

  ingthedeliveryoforatoriohewaswithoutarival。Sing—

  erscamefromfarandneartostudyBachandHandelwithhim。EventhefashionablesopranosandcontraltosofChicago,St。Paul,andSt。Louis(theywereusuallyladieswithveryrichhusbands,andBowerscalledthemthe\"pamperedjadesofAsia\")humblyenduredhissardonichumorforthesakeofwhathecoulddoforthem。Hewasnotatallabovehelpingaverylamesingeracross,ifherhusband’scheck—bookwarrantedit。Hehadawholebagoftricksforstupidpeople,\"life—preservers,\"hecalledthem。\"Cheaprepairsforacheap’un,\"heusedtosay,butthehusbandsneverfoundtherepairsverycheap。

  Thosewerethedayswhenlumbermen’sdaughtersandbrewers’wivescontendedinsong;studiedinGermanyandthenfloatedfromSANGERFESTtoSANGERFEST。Choralso—

  cietiesflourishedinalltherichlakecitiesandrivercities。

  ThesoloistscametoChicagotocoachwithBowers,andheoftentooklongjourneystohearandinstructachorus。

  Hewasintenselyavaricious,andfromthesesemi—profes—

  sionalshereapedagoldenharvest。Theyfedhispocketsandtheyfedhisever—hungrycontempt,hisscornofhim—

  selfandhisaccomplices。Themoremoneyhemade,themoreparsimonioushebecame。Hiswifewassoshabbythatsheneverwentanywherewithhim,whichsuitedhimexactly。Becausehisclientswereluxuriousandextrava—

  gant,hetookarevengefulpleasureinhavinghisshoeshalf—

  soledasecondtime,andingettingthelastwearoutofabrokencollar。HehadfirstbeeninterestedinTheaKron—

  borgbecauseofherbluntness,hercountryroughness,andhermanifestcarefulnessaboutmoney。ThementionofHarsanyi’snamealwaysmadehimpullawryface。ForthefirsttimeTheahadafriendwho,inhisowncoolandguardedway,likedherforwhateverwasleastadmirableinher。

  Theawasstilllookingatthemusicalpaper,hergrammarunopenedonthewindow—sill,whenBowerssaunteredin

  alittlebeforetwoo’clock。Hewassmokingacheapcigar—

  etteandworethesamesoftfelthathehadwornalllastwinter。Henevercarriedacaneorworegloves。

  Theafollowedhimfromthereception—roomintothestudio。\"Imaycutmylessonoutto—morrow,Mr。Bowers。

  Ihavetohuntanewboarding—place。\"

  Bowerslookeduplanguidlyfromhisdeskwherehehadbeguntogooverapileofletters。\"What’sthematterwiththeStudioClub?Beenfightingwiththemagain?\"

  \"TheClub’sallrightforpeoplewholiketolivethatway。Idon’t。\"

  Bowersliftedhiseyebrows。\"Whysotempery?\"heaskedashedrewacheckfromanenvelopepostmarked\"Minneapolis。\"

  \"Ican’tworkwithalotofgirlsaround。They’retoofamiliar。Inevercouldgetalongwithgirlsofmyownage。It’salltoochummy。Getsonmynerves。I

  didn’tcomeheretoplaykindergartengames。\"Theabeganenergeticallytoarrangethescatteredmusiconthepiano。

  Bowersgrimacedgood—humoredlyatheroverthethreecheckshewaspinningtogether。Helikedtoplayataroughgameofbanterwithher。Heflatteredhimselfthathehadmadeherharsherthanshewaswhenshefirstcametohim;thathehadgotoffalittleofthesugar—coatingHarsanyialwaysputonhispupils。

  \"Theartofmakingyourselfagreeablenevercomesamiss,MissKronborg。Ishouldsayyouratherneedalittlepracticealongthatline。Whenyoucometomarket—

  ingyourwaresintheworld,alittlesmoothnessgoesfartherthanagreatdealoftalentsometimes。Ifyouhap—

  pentobecursedwitharealtalent,thenyou’vegottobeverysmoothindeed,oryou’llnevergetyourmoneyback。\"

  Bowerssnappedtheelasticbandaroundhisbank—book。

  Theagavehimasharp,recognizingglance。\"Well,that’sthemoneyI’llhavetogowithout,\"shereplied。

  \"Justwhatdoyoumean?\"

  \"Imeanthemoneypeoplehavetogrinfor。Iusedtoknowarailroadmanwhosaidtherewasmoneyineveryprofessionthatyoucouldn’ttake。He’dtriedagoodmanyjobs,\"Theaaddedmusingly;\"perhapshewastooparticularaboutthekindhecouldtake,forheneverpickedupmuch。Hewasproud,butIlikedhimforthat。\"

  Bowersroseandclosedhisdesk。\"Mrs。Priestislateagain。Bytheway,MissKronborg,remembernottofrownwhenyouareplayingforMrs。Priest。Youdidnotre—

  memberyesterday。\"

  \"Youmeanwhenshehitsatonewithherbreathlikethat?Whydoyoulether?Youwouldn’tletme。\"

  \"Icertainlywouldnot。ButthatisamannerismofMrs。Priest’s。Thepubliclikeit,andtheypayagreatdealofmoneyforthepleasureofhearingherdoit。Theresheis。Remember!\"

  Bowersopenedthedoorofthereception—roomandatall,imposingwomanrustledin,bringingwithheraglowofanimationwhichpervadedtheroomasifhalfadozenpersons,alltalkinggayly,hadcomeininsteadofone。Shewaslarge,handsome,expansive,uncontrolled;onefeltthisthemomentshecrossedthethreshold。Sheshonewithcareandcleanliness,maturevigor,unchallengedauthority,graciousgood—humor,andabsoluteconfidenceinherper—

  son,herpowers,herposition,andherwayoflife;aglowing,overwhelmingself—satisfaction,onlytobefoundwherehumansocietyisyoungandstrongandwithoutyesterdays。

  Herfacehadakindofheavy,thoughtlessbeauty,likeapinkpeonyjustatthepointofbeginningtofade。Herbrownhairwaswavedinfrontanddoneupbehindinagreattwist,heldbyatortoiseshellcombwithgoldfili—

  gree。Sheworeabeautifullittlegreenhatwiththreelonggreenfeathersstickingstraightupinfront,alittlecapemadeofvelvetandfurwithayellowsatinroseonit。Hergloves,hershoes,herveil,somehowmadethemselvesfelt。

  Shegavetheimpressionofwearingacargoofsplendidmerchandise。

  Mrs。PriestnoddedgraciouslytoThea,coquettishlytoBowers,andaskedhimtountieherveilforher。Shethrewhersplendidwraponachair,theyellowliningout。

  Theawasalreadyatthepiano。Mrs。Prieststoodbehindher。

  \"`RejoiceGreatly’first,please。Andpleasedon’thurryitinthere,\"sheputherarmoverThea’sshoulder,andindicatedthepassagebyasweepofherwhiteglove。Shethrewoutherchest,claspedherhandsoverherabdomen,liftedherchin,workedthemusclesofhercheeksbackandforthforamoment,andthenbeganwithconviction,\"Re—jo—oice!Re—jo—oice!\"

  Bowerspacedtheroomwithhiscatliketread。WhenhecheckedMrs。Priest’svehemenceatall,hehandledherroughly;pokedandhammeredhermassivepersonwithcoldsatisfaction,almostasifheweretakingoutagrudgeonthissplendidcreation。Suchtreatmenttheimposingladydidnotatallresent。Shetriedharderandharder,hereyesgrowingallthewhilemorelustrousandherlipsredder。

  Theaplayedonasshewastold,ignoringthesinger’sstruggles。

  WhenshefirstheardMrs。Priestsinginchurch,Theaadmiredher。Sinceshehadfoundouthowdullthegood—

  naturedsopranoreallywas,shefeltadeepcontemptforher。ShefeltthatMrs。Priestoughttobereprovedandevenpunishedforhershortcomings;thatsheoughttobeexposed,——atleasttoherself,——andnotbepermittedtoliveandshineinhappyignoranceofwhatapoorthingitwasshebroughtacrosssoradiantly。Thea’scoldlooksofreproofwerelostuponMrs。Priest;althoughtheladydidmurmuronedaywhenshetookBowershomeinhercarriage,\"Howhandsomeyourafternoongirlwouldbeifshedidnothavethatunfortunatesquint;itgivesherthatvacantSwedelook,likeananimal。\"Thatamused

  Bowers。Helikedtowatchthegerminationandgrowthofantipathies。

  OneofthefirstdisappointmentsTheahadtofacewhenshereturnedtoChicagothatfall,wasthenewsthattheHarsanyiswerenotcomingback。TheyhadspentthesummerinacampintheAdirondacksandweremovingtoNewYork。AnoldteacherandfriendofHarsanyi’s,oneofthebest—knownpianoteachersinNewYork,wasabouttoretirebecauseoffailinghealthandhadarrangedtoturnhispupilsovertoHarsanyi。AndorwastogivetworecitalsinNewYorkinNovember,todevotehim—

  selftohisnewstudentsuntilspring,andthentogoonashortconcerttour。TheHarsanyishadtakenafurnishedapartmentinNewYork,astheywouldnotattempttosettleaplaceoftheirownuntilAndor’srecitalswereover。

  ThefirstofDecember,however,TheareceivedanotefromMrs。Harsanyi,askinghertocallattheoldstudio,whereshewaspackingtheirgoodsforshipment。

  Themorningafterthisinvitationreachedher,Theaclimbedthestairsandknockedatthefamiliardoor。Mrs。

  Harsanyiherselfopenedit,andembracedhervisitorwarmly。TakingTheaintothestudio,whichwaslitteredwithexcelsiorandpacking—cases,shestoodholdingherhandandlookingatherinthestronglightfromthebigwindowbeforesheallowedhertositdown。Herquickeyesawmanychanges。Thegirlwastaller,herfigurehadbe—

  comedefinite,hercarriagepositive。Shehadgotusedtolivinginthebodyofayoungwoman,andshenolongertriedtoignoreitandbehaveasifshewerealittlegirl。

  Withthatincreasedindependenceofbodytherehadcomeachangeinherface;anindifference,somethinghardandskeptical。Herclothes,too,weredifferent,liketheattireofashopgirlwhotriestofollowthefashions;apurplesuit,apieceofcheapfur,athree—corneredpurplehatwithapomponstickingupinfront。Thequeercountryclothes

  sheusedtowearsuitedhermuchbetter,Mrs。Harsanyithought。Butsuchtrifles,afterall,wereaccidentalandremediable。Sheputherhandonthegirl’sstrongshoulder。

  \"Howmuchthesummerhasdoneforyou!Yes,youareayoungladyatlast。Andorwillbesogladtohearaboutyou。\"

  Thealookedaboutatthedisorderofthefamiliarroom。

  Thepictureswerepiledinacorner,thepianoandtheCHAISELONGUEweregone。\"IsupposeIoughttobegladyouhavegoneaway,\"shesaid,\"butI’mnot。It’safinethingforMr。Harsanyi,Isuppose。\"

  Mrs。Harsanyigaveheraquickglancethatsaidmorethanwords。\"IfyouknewhowlongIhavewantedtogethimawayfromhere,MissKronborg!Heisnevertired,neverdiscouraged,now。\"

  Theasighed。\"I’mgladforthat,then。\"Hereyestraveledoverthefaintdiscolorationsonthewallswherethepictureshadhung。\"Imayrunawaymyself。Idon’tknowwhetherIcanstanditherewithoutyou。\"

  \"WehopethatyoucancometoNewYorktostudybeforeverylong。Wehavethoughtofthat。AndyoumusttellmehowyouaregettingonwithBowers。Andorwillwanttoknowallaboutit。\"

  \"IguessIgetonmoreorless。ButIdon’tlikemyworkverywell。ItneverseemsseriousasmyworkwithMr。

  Harsanyidid。IplayBowers’saccompanimentsintheafternoons,youknow。IthoughtIwouldlearnagooddealfromthepeoplewhoworkwithhim,butIdon’tthinkIgetmuch。\"

  Mrs。Harsanyilookedatherinquiringly。Theatookoutacarefullyfoldedhandkerchieffromthebosomofherdressandbegantodrawthecornersapart。\"Singingdoesn’tseemtobeaverybrainyprofession,Mrs。Har—

  sanyi,\"shesaidslowly。\"ThepeopleIseenowarenotabitliketheonesIusedtomeethere。Mr。Harsanyi’spupils,eventhedumbones,hadmore——well,moreof

  everything,itseemstome。ThepeopleIhavetoplayaccompanimentsforarediscouraging。Theprofessionals,likeKatharinePriestandMilesMurdstone,areworstofall。IfIhavetoplay`TheMessiah’muchlongerforMrs。

  Priest,I’llgooutofmymind!\"Theabroughtherfootdownsharplyonthebarefloor。

  Mrs。Harsanyilookeddownatthefootinperplexity。

  \"Youmustn’twearsuchhighheels,mydear。Theywillspoilyourwalkandmakeyoumincealong。Can’tyouatleastlearntoavoidwhatyoudislikeinthesesingers?I

  wasneverabletocareforMrs。Priest’ssinging。\"

  Theawassittingwithherchinlowered。Withoutmov—

  ingherheadshelookedupatMrs。Harsanyiandsmiled;

  asmilemuchtoocoldanddesperatetobeseenonayoungface,Mrs。Harsanyifelt。\"Mrs。Harsanyi,itseemstomethatwhatIlearnisjustTODISLIKE。Idislikesomuchandsohardthatittiresmeout。I’vegotnoheartforany—

  thing。\"Shethrewupherheadsuddenlyandsatindefi—

  ance,herhandclenchedonthearmofthechair。\"Mr。

  Harsanyicouldn’tstandthesepeopleanhour,Iknowhecouldn’t。He’dputthemrightoutofthewindowthere,frizzesandfeathersandall。Now,takethatnewsopranothey’reallmakingsuchafussabout,JessieDarcey。She’sgoingontourwithasymphonyorchestraandshe’swork—

  ingupherrepertorywithBowers。She’ssingingsomeSchumannsongsMr。Harsanyiusedtogooverwithme。

  Well,Idon’tknowwhatheWOULDdoifheheardher。\"

  \"Butifyourownworkgoeswell,andyouknowthesepeoplearewrong,whydoyouletthemdiscourageyou?\"

  Theashookherhead。\"That’sjustwhatIdon’tunder—

  standmyself。Only,afterI’veheardthemallafternoon,I

  comeoutfrozenup。Somehowittakestheshineoffofeverything。PeoplewantJessieDarceyandthekindofthingshedoes;sowhat’stheuse?\"

  Mrs。Harsanyismiled。\"Thatstileyoumustsimplyvaultover。Youmustnotbegintofretaboutthesuc—

  cessesofcheappeople。Afterall,whathavetheytodowithyou?\"

  \"Well,ifIhadsomebodylikeMr。Harsanyi,perhapsI

  wouldn’tfretaboutthem。Hewastheteacherforme。

  Pleasetellhimso。\"

  ThearoseandMrs。Harsanyitookherhandagain。\"I

  amsorryyouhavetogothroughthistimeofdiscourage—

  ment。IwishAndorcouldtalktoyou,hewouldunder—

  standitsowell。ButIfeellikeurgingyoutokeepclearofMrs。PriestandJessieDarceyandalltheirworks。\"

  Thealaugheddiscordantly。\"Nouseurgingme。Idon’tgetonwiththemATALL。Myspinegetslikeasteelrailwhentheycomenearme。Ilikedthematfirst,youknow。Theirclothesandtheirmannersweresofine,andMrs。PriestIS

  handsome。ButnowIkeepwantingtotellthemhowstupidtheyare。Seemsliketheyoughttobeinformed,don’tyouthinkso?\"TherewasaflashoftheshrewdgrinthatMrs。Harsanyiremembered。Theapressedherhand。

  \"Imustgonow。Ihadtogivemylessonhourthismorn—

  ingtoaDuluthwomanwhohascomeontocoach,andI

  mustgoandplay`OnMightyPens’forher。PleasetellMr。HarsanyithatIthinkoratorioisagreatchanceforbluffers。\"

  Mrs。Harsanyidetainedher。\"Buthewillwanttoknowmuchmorethanthataboutyou。Youarefreeatseven?

  Comebackthisevening,then,andwewillgotodinnersomewhere,tosomecheerfulplace。Ithinkyouneedaparty。\"

  Theabrightened。\"Oh,Ido!I’lllovetocome;thatwillbelikeoldtimes。Yousee,\"shelingeredamoment,soft—

  ening,\"Iwouldn’tmindiftherewereonlyONEofthemI

  couldreallyadmire。\"

  \"HowaboutBowers?\"Mrs。Harsanyiaskedastheywereapproachingthestairway。

  \"Well,there’snothingheloveslikeagoodfakir,andnothinghehateslikeagoodartist。Ialwaysremember

  somethingMr。Harsanyisaidabouthim。HesaidBowerswasthecoldmuffinthathadbeenleftontheplate。\"

  Mrs。Harsanyistoppedshortattheheadofthestairsandsaiddecidedly:\"IthinkAndormadeamistake。I

  can’tbelievethatistherightatmosphereforyou。Itwouldhurtyoumorethanmostpeople。It’sallwrong。\"

  \"Something’swrong,\"Theacalledbackassheclattereddownthestairsinherhighheels。

  II

  DURINGthatwinterThealivedinsomanyplacesthatsometimesatnightwhensheleftBowers’sstudioandemergedintothestreetshehadtostopandthinkforamomenttorememberwhereshewaslivingnowandwhatwasthebestwaytogetthere。

  Whenshemovedintoanewplacehereyeschallengedthebeds,thecarpets,thefood,themistressofthehouse。Theboarding—houseswerewretchedlyconductedandThea’scomplaintssometimestookaninsultingform。

  Shequarreledwithonelandladyafteranotherandmovedon。Whenshemovedintoanewroom,shewasalmostsuretohateitonsightandtobeginplanningtohuntanotherplacebeforesheunpackedhertrunk。Shewasmoodyandcontemptuoustowardherfellowboarders,excepttowardtheyoungmen,whomshetreatedwithacarelessfamiliaritywhichtheyusuallymisunderstood。

  Theylikedher,however,andwhensheleftthehouseafterastorm,theyhelpedhertomoveherthingsandcametoseeheraftershegotsettledinanewplace。Butshemovedsooftenthattheysoonceasedtofollowher。Theycouldseenoreasonforkeepingupwithagirlwho,underherjocularity,wascold,self—centered,andunimpression—

  able。Theysoonfeltthatshedidnotadmirethem。

  Theausedtowakenupinthenightandwonderwhyshewassounhappy。ShewouldhavebeenamazedifshehadknownhowmuchthepeoplewhomshemetinBowers’sstudiohadtodowithherlowspirits。Shehadneverbeenconsciousofthoseinstinctivestandardswhicharecalledideals,andshedidnotknowthatshewassufferingforthem。Sheoftenfoundherselfsneeringwhenshewasonastreet—car,orwhenshewasbrushingoutherhairbefore

  hermirror,assomeinaneremarkortoofamiliarmanner—

  ismflittedacrosshermind。

  Shefeltnocreaturekindness,notolerantgood—willforMrs。PriestorJessieDarcey。AfteroneofJessieDar—

  cey’sconcertstheglowingpressnotices,andtheadmiringcommentsthatfloatedaboutBowers’sstudio,causedTheabitterunhappiness。Itwasnotthetormentofper—

  sonaljealousy。ShehadneverthoughtofherselfasevenapossiblerivalofMissDarcey。Shewasapoormusicstudent,andJessieDarceywasapopularandpettedprofessional。Mrs。Priest,whateveroneheldagainsther,hadafine,big,showyvoiceandanimpressivepresence。

  Shereadindifferently,wasinaccurate,andwasalwaysputtingotherpeoplewrong,butsheatleasthadthematerialoutofwhichsingerscanbemade。ButpeopleseemedtolikeJessieDarceyexactlybecauseshecouldnotsing;because,astheyputit,shewas\"sonaturalandunprofessional。\"Hersingingwaspronounced\"artless,\"

  hervoice\"birdlike。\"MissDarceywasthinandawkwardinperson,withasharp,sallowface。Theanoticedthatherplainnesswasaccountedtohercredit,andthatpeoplespokeofitaffectionately。MissDarceywassing—

  ingeverywherejustthen;onecouldnothelphearingabouther。Shewasbackedbysomeofthepacking—housepeopleandbytheChicagoNorthwesternRailroad。Onlyonecriticraisedhisvoiceagainsther。TheawenttoseveralofJessieDarcey’sconcerts。Itwasthefirsttimeshehadhadanopportunitytoobservethewhimsofthepublicwhichsingerslivebyinteresting。ShesawthatpeoplelikedinMissDarceyeveryqualityasingeroughtnottohave,andespeciallythenervouscomplacencythatstampedherasacommonplaceyoungwoman。TheyseemedtohaveawarmerfeelingforJessiethanforMrs。

  Priest,anaffectionateandcherishingregard。ChicagowasnotsoverydifferentfromMoonstone,afterall,andJessieDarceywasonlyLilyFisherunderanothername。

  TheaparticularlyhatedtoaccompanyforMissDarceybecauseshesangoffpitchanddidn’tminditintheleast。

  Itwasexcruciatingtosittheredayafterdayandhearher;

  therewassomethingshamelessandindecentaboutnotsingingtrue。

  OnemorningMissDarceycamebyappointmenttogoovertheprogrammeforherPeoriaconcert。Shewassuchafrail—lookinggirlthatTheaoughttohavefeltsorryforher。True,shehadanarch,sprightlylittlemanner,andaflashofsalmon—pinkoneitherbrowncheek。Butanar—

  rowupperjawgaveherfaceapinchedlook,andhereye—

  lidswereheavyandrelaxed。Bythemorninglight,thepurplishbrowncirclesunderhereyeswerepatheticenough,andforetoldnolongorbrilliantfuture。Asingerwithapoordigestionandlowvitality;sheneedednoseertocastherhoroscope。IfTheahadevertakenthepainstostudyher,shewouldhaveseenthat,underallhersmilesandarchness,poorMissDarceywasreallyfrightenedtodeath。

  ShecouldnotunderstandhersuccessanymorethanTheacould;shekeptcatchingherbreathandliftinghereye—

  browsandtryingtobelievethatitwastrue。Herloqua—

  citywasnotnatural,sheforcedherselftoit,andwhensheconfidedtoyouhowmanydefectsshecouldovercomebyherunusualcommandofheadresonance,shewasnotsomuchtryingtopersuadeyouastopersuadeherself。

  Whenshetookanotethatwashighforher,MissDarceyalwaysputherrighthandoutintotheair,asifshewereindicatingheight,orgivinganexactmeasurement。Someearlyteacherhadtoldherthatshecould\"place\"atonemoresurelybythehelpofsuchagesture,andshefirmlybelievedthatitwasofgreatassistancetoher。(Evenwhenshewassinginginpublic,shekeptherrighthanddownwithdifficulty,nervouslyclaspingherwhitekidfingerstogetherwhenshetookahighnote。Theacouldalwaysseeherelbowsstiffen。)Sheunvaryinglyexecutedthisgesturewithasmileofgraciousconfidence,asifshewere

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