\"Aren’tyougoingtosing,Silvo?\"sheaskedteasingly。
Theboyturnedonhissideandraisedhimselfonhiselbowforamoment。\"Notthisnight,SENORITA,\"hepleadedsoftly,\"notthisnight!\"Hedroppedbackagain,andlaywithhischeekonhisrightarm,thehandlyingpassiveonthesandabovehishead。
\"Howdoesheflattenhimselfintothegroundlikethat?\"
Theaaskedherself。\"IwishIknew。It’sveryeffective,somehow。\"
AcrossthegulchtheKohlers’littlehousesleptamongitstrees,adarkspotonthewhitefaceofthedesert。Thewindowsoftheirupstairsbedroomwereopen,andPaulinahadlistenedtothedancemusicforalongwhilebeforeshedrowsedoff。Shewasalightsleeper,andwhenshewokeagain,aftermidnight,Johnny’sconcertwasatitsheight。
Shelaystilluntilshecouldbearitnolonger。ThenshewakenedFritzandtheywentovertothewindowandleanedout。Theycouldhearclearlythere。
\"DIETHEA,\"whisperedMrs。Kohler;\"itmustbe。ACH,WUNDERSCHON!\"
Fritzwasnotsowideawakeashiswife。Hegruntedand
scratchedonthefloorwithhisbarefoot。Theywerelis—
teningtoaMexicanpart—song;thetenor,thenthesoprano,thenbothtogether;thebarytonejoinsthem,rages,isextinguished;thetenorexpiresinsobs,andthesopranofinishesalone。Whenthesoprano’slastnotediedaway,Fritznoddedtohiswife。\"JA,\"hesaid;\"SCHON。\"
Therewassilenceforafewmoments。Thentheguitarsoundedfiercely,andseveralmalevoicesbeganthesextettefrom\"Lucia。\"Johnny’sreedytenortheyknewwell,andthebricklayer’sbig,opaquebarytone;theothersmightbeanybodyoverthere——justMexicanvoices。Thenattheappointed,attheacute,moment,thesopranovoice,likeafountainjet,shotupintothelight。\"HORCH!HORCH!\"theoldpeoplewhispered,bothatonce。Howitleapedfromamongthoseduskymalevoices!Howitplayedinandaboutandaroundandoverthem,likeagoldfishdartingamongcreekminnows,likeayellowbutterflysoaringaboveaswarmofdarkones。\"Ah,\"saidMrs。Kohlersoftly,\"thedearman;ifhecouldhearhernow!\"
XI
MRS。KRONBORGhadsaidthatTheawasnottobedisturbedonSundaymorning,andshesleptuntilnoon。Whenshecamedownstairsthefamilywerejustsittingdowntodinner,Mr。Kronborgatoneendofthelongtable,Mrs。Kronborgattheother。Anna,stiffandceremonious,inhersummersilk,satatherfather’sright,andtheboyswerestrungalongoneithersideofthetable。
TherewasaplaceleftforTheabetweenhermotherandThor。Duringthesilencewhichprecededtheblessing,Theafeltsomethinguncomfortableintheair。Annaandherolderbrothershadloweredtheireyeswhenshecamein。Mrs。Kronborgnoddedcheerfully,andafterthebless—
ing,asshebegantopourthecoffee,turnedtoher。
\"Iexpectyouhadagoodtimeatthatdance,Thea。I
hopeyougotyoursleepout。\"
\"Highsociety,that,\"remarkedCharley,givingthemashedpotatoesaviciousswat。Anna’smouthandeye—
browsbecamehalf—moons。
Thealookedacrossthetableattheuncompromisingcountenancesofherolderbrothers。\"Why,what’sthematterwiththeMexicans?\"sheasked,flushing。\"Theydon’ttroubleanybody,andtheyarekindtotheirfamiliesandhavegoodmanners。\"
\"Nicecleanpeople;gotsomestyleaboutthem。Doyoureallylikethatkind,Thea,ordoyoujustpretendto?
That’swhatI’dliketoknow。\"Guslookedatherwithpainedinquiry。Butheatleastlookedather。
\"They’rejustascleanaswhitepeople,andtheyhaveaperfectrighttotheirownways。OfcourseIlike’em。
Idon’tpretendthings。\"
\"Everybodyaccordingtotheirowntaste,\"remarked
Charleybitterly。\"Quitcrumbingyourbreadup,Thor。
Ain’tyoulearnedhowtoeatyet?\"
\"Children,children!\"saidMr。Kronborgnervously,lookingupfromthechickenhewasdismembering。Heglancedathiswife,whomheexpectedtomaintainhar—
monyinthefamily。
\"That’sallright,Charley。Dropitthere,\"saidMrs。
Kronborg。\"NousespoilingyourSundaydinnerwithraceprejudices。TheMexicanssuitmeandTheaverywell。Theyareausefulpeople。Nowyoucanjusttalkaboutsomethingelse。\"
Conversation,however,didnotflourishatthatdinner。
Everybodyateasfastaspossible。CharleyandGussaidtheyhadengagementsandleftthetableassoonastheyfinishedtheirapplepie。Annasatprimlyandatewithgreatelegance。Whenshespokeatallshespoketoherfather,aboutchurchmatters,andalwaysinacommiserat—
ingtone,asifhehadmetwithsomemisfortune。Mr。
Kronborg,quiteinnocentofherintentions,repliedkindlyandabsent—mindedly。AfterthedesserthewenttotakehisusualSundayafternoonnap,andMrs。Kronborgcarriedsomedinnertoasickneighbor。TheaandAnnabegantoclearthetable。
\"Ishouldthinkyouwouldshowmoreconsiderationforfather’sposition,Thea,\"Annabeganassoonassheandhersisterwerealone。
Theagaveherasidelongglance。\"Why,whathaveI
donetofather?\"
\"EverybodyatSunday—SchoolwastalkingaboutyougoingoverthereandsingingwiththeMexicansallnight,whenyouwon’tsingforthechurch。Somebodyheardyou,andtolditallovertown。Ofcourse,weallgettheblameforit。\"
\"Anythingdisgracefulaboutsinging?\"Theaaskedwithaprovokingyawn。
\"Imustsayyouchooseyourcompany!Youalways
hadthatstreakinyou,Thea。Weallhopedthatgoingawaywouldimproveyou。Ofcourse,itreflectsonfatherwhenyouarescarcelypolitetothenicepeoplehereandmakeuptotherowdies。\"
\"Oh,it’smysingingwiththeMexicansyouobjectto?\"
Theaputdownatrayfullofdishes。\"Well,Iliketosingoverthere,andIdon’tliketooverhere。I’llsingforthemanytimetheyaskmeto。TheyknowsomethingaboutwhatI’mdoing。They’reatalentedpeople。\"
\"Talented!\"Annamadethewordsoundlikeescapingsteam。\"Isupposeyouthinkit’ssmarttocomehomeandthrowthatatyourfamily!\"
Theapickedupthetray。BythistimeshewasaswhiteastheSundaytablecloth。\"Well,\"sherepliedinacold,eventone,\"I’llhavetothrowitatthemsoonerorlater。
It’sjustaquestionofwhen,anditmightaswellbenowasanytime。\"Shecarriedthetrayblindlyintothekitchen。
Tillie,whowasalwayslisteningandlookingoutforher,tookthedishesfromherwithafurtive,frightenedglanceatherstonyface。Theawentslowlyupthebackstairstoherloft。Herlegsseemedasheavyasleadassheclimbedthestairs,andshefeltasifeverythinginsideherhadsolidi—
fiedandgrownhard。
Aftershuttingherdoorandlockingit,shesatdownontheedgeofherbed。Thisplacehadalwaysbeenherrefuge,buttherewasahostilityinthehousenowwhichthisdoorcouldnotshutout。Thiswouldbeherlastsummerinthatroom。Itsserviceswereover;itstimewasdone。Sheroseandputherhandonthelowceiling。Twotearsrandownhercheeks,asiftheycamefromicethatmeltedslowly。
Shewasnotreadytoleaveherlittleshell。Shewasbeingpulledouttoosoon。Shewouldneverbeabletothinkanywhereelseaswellashere。Shewouldneversleepsowellorhavesuchdreamsinanyotherbed;evenlastnight,suchsweet,breathlessdreams——Theahidherfaceinthepillow。Wherevershewentshewouldliketotakethatlittle
bedwithher。Whenshewentawayfromitforgood,shewouldleavesomethingthatshecouldneverrecover;mem—
oriesofpleasantexcitement,ofhappyadventuresinhermind;ofwarmsleeponhowlingwinternights,andjoyousawakeningsonsummermornings。Therewerecertaindreamsthatmightrefusetocometoheratallexceptinalittlemorningcave,facingthesun——wheretheycametohersopowerfully,wheretheybeatatriumphinher!
Theroomwashotasanoven。Thesunwasbeatingfiercelyontheshinglesbehindtheboardceiling。Sheun—
dressed,andbeforeshethrewherselfuponherbedinherchemise,shefrownedatherselfforalongwhileinherlook—
ing—glass。Yes,sheandItmustfightitouttogether。Thethingthatlookedatheroutofherowneyeswastheonlyfriendshecouldcounton。Oh,shewouldmakethesepeoplesorryenough!Therewouldcomeatimewhentheywouldwanttomakeitupwithher。But,neveragain!Shehadnolittlevanities,onlyonebigone,andshewouldneverforgive。
Hermotherwasallright,buthermotherwasapartofthefamily,andshewasnot。Inthenatureofthings,hermotherhadtobeonbothsides。Theafeltthatshehadbeenbetrayed。Atrucehadbeenbrokenbehindherback。
ShehadneverhadmuchindividualaffectionforanyofherbrothersexceptThor,butshehadneverbeendisloyal,neverfeltscornorheldgrudges。AsalittlegirlshehadalwaysbeengoodfriendswithGunnerandAxel,whenevershehadtimetoplay。Evenbeforeshegotherownroom,whentheywereallsleepinganddressingtogether,likelittlecubs,andbreakfastinginthekitchen,shehadledanabsorbingpersonallifeofherown。Butshehadacubloyaltytotheothercubs。Shethoughtthemniceboysandtriedtomakethemgettheirlessons。Sheoncefoughtabullywho\"pickedon\"Axelatschool。ShenevermadefunofAnna’scrimpingsandcurlingsandbeauty—rites。
Theahadalwaystakenitforgrantedthathersisterand
brothersrecognizedthatshehadspecialabilities,andthattheywereproudofit。Shehaddonethemthehonor,shetoldherselfbitterly,tobelievethatthoughtheyhadnoparticularendowments,THEYWEREOFHERKIND,andnotoftheMoonstonekind。Nowtheyhadallgrownupandbe—
comepersons。Theyfacedeachotherasindividuals,andshesawthatAnnaandGusandCharleywereamongthepeoplewhomshehadalwaysrecognizedashernaturalenemies。Theirambitionsandsacredproprietiesweremeaninglesstoher。ShehadneglectedtocongratulateCharleyuponhavingbeenpromotedfromthegroceryde—
partmentofCommings’sstoretothedrygoodsdepart—
ment。Hermotherhadreprovedherforthisomission。Andhowwasshetoknow,Theaaskedherself,thatAnnaex—
pectedtobeteasedbecauseBertRicenowcameandsatinthehammockwithhereverynight?No,itwasallclearenough。Nothingthatshewouldeverdointheworldwouldseemimportanttothem,andnothingtheywouldeverdowouldseemimportanttoher。
Thealaythinkingintentlyallthroughthestiflingafter—
noon。Tilliewhisperedsomethingoutsideherdooronce,butshedidnotanswer。Shelayonherbeduntilthesecondchurchbellrang,andshesawthefamilygotroopingupthesidewalkontheoppositesideofthestreet,Annaandherfatherinthelead。Annaseemedtohavetakenonaverystory—bookattitudetowardherfather;pat—
ronizingandcondescending,itseemedtoThea。Theolderboyswerenotinthefamilyband。Theynowtooktheirgirlstochurch。Tilliehadstayedathometogetsupper。
Theagotup,washedherhotfaceandarms,andputonthewhiteorgandiedressshehadwornlastnight;itwasgettingtoosmallforher,andshemightaswellwearitout。
Aftershewasdressedsheunlockedherdoorandwentcau—
tiouslydownstairs。Shefeltasifchillinghostilitiesmightbeawaitingherinthetrunkloft,onthestairway,almostanywhere。Inthedining—roomshefoundTillie,sittingby
theopenwindow,readingthedramaticnewsinaDenverSundaypaper。Tilliekeptascrapbookinwhichshepastedclippingsaboutactorsandactresses。
\"ComelookatthispictureofPaulineHallintights,Thea,\"shecalled。\"Ain’tshecute?It’stoobadyoudidn’tgotothetheatermorewhenyouwasinChicago;
suchagoodchance!Didn’tyouevengettoseeClaraMorrisorModjeska?\"
\"No;Ididn’thavetime。Besides,itcostsmoney,Tillie,\"Thearepliedwearily,glancingatthepaperTillieheldouttoher。
Tillielookedupatherniece。\"Don’tyougoandbeupsetaboutanyofAnna’snotions。She’soneofthesenarrowkind。Yourfatherandmotherdon’tpayanyatten—
tiontowhatshesays。Anna’sfussy;sheiswithme,butIdon’tmindher。\"
\"Oh,Idon’tmindher。That’sallright,Tillie。IguessI’lltakeawalk。\"
TheaknewthatTilliehopedshewouldstayandtalktoherforawhile,andshewouldhavelikedtopleaseher。
Butinahouseassmallasthatone,everythingwastoointimateandmixeduptogether。Thefamilywasthefamily,anintegralthing。Onecouldn’tdiscussAnnathere。
Shefeltdifferentlytowardthehouseandeverythinginit,asifthebatteredoldfurniturethatseemedsokindly,andtheoldcarpetsonwhichshehadplayed,hadbeennour—
ishingasecretgrudgeagainstherandwerenottobetrustedanymore。
Shewentaimlesslyoutofthefrontgate,notknow—
ingwhattodowithherself。MexicanTown,somehow,wasspoiledforherjustthen,andshefeltthatshewouldhideifshesawSilvoorFelipecomingtowardher。Shewalkeddownthroughtheemptymainstreet。Allthestoreswereclosed,theirblindsdown。Onthestepsofthebanksomeidleboysweresitting,tellingdisgustingstoriesbecausetherewasnothingelsetodo。Severalofthemhadgone
toschoolwithThea,butwhenshenoddedtothemtheyhungtheirheadsanddidnotspeak。Thea’sbodywasoftencuriouslyexpressiveofwhatwasgoingoninhermind,andto—nighttherewassomethinginherwalkandcarriagethatmadetheseboysfeelthatshewas\"stuckup。\"Ifshehadstoppedandtalkedtothem,theywouldhavethawedoutontheinstantandwouldhavebeenfriendlyandgrateful。ButTheawashurtafresh,andwalkedon,holdingherchinhigherthanever。AsshepassedtheDukeBlock,shesawalightinDr。Archie’soffice,andshewentupthestairsandopenedthedoorintohisstudy。Shefoundhimwithapileofpapersandaccount—
booksbeforehim。Hepointedhertoheroldchairattheendofhisdeskandleanedbackinhisown,lookingatherwithsatisfaction。Howhandsomeshewasgrowing!
\"I’mstillchasingtheelusivemetal,Thea,\"——hepointedtothepapersbeforehim,——\"I’muptomyneckinmines,andI’mgoingtobearichmansomeday。\"
\"Ihopeyouwill;awfullyrich。That’stheonlythingthatcounts。\"Shelookedrestlesslyabouttheconsulting—
room。\"Todoanyofthethingsonewantstodo,onehastohavelotsandlotsofmoney。\"
Dr。Archiewasdirect。\"What’sthematter?Doyouneedsome?\"
Theashrugged。\"Oh,Icangetalong,inalittleway。\"
Shelookedintentlyoutofthewindowatthearcstreet—
lampthatwasjustbeginningtosputter。\"Butit’ssillytoliveatallforlittlethings,\"sheaddedquietly。\"Living’stoomuchtroubleunlessonecangetsomethingbigoutofit。\"
Dr。Archierestedhiselbowsonthearmsofhischair,droppedhischinonhisclaspedhandsandlookedather。
\"Livingisnotroubleforlittlepeople,believeme!\"heexclaimed。\"Whatdoyouwanttogetoutofit?\"
\"Oh——somanythings!\"Theashivered。
\"Butwhat?Money?Youmentionedthat。Well,you
canmakemoney,ifyoucareaboutthatmorethanany—
thingelse。\"Henoddedpropheticallyabovehisinterlacingfingers。
\"ButIdon’t。That’sonlyonething。Anyhow,I
couldn’tifIdid。\"Shepulledherdresslowerattheneckasifsheweresuffocating。\"Ionlywantimpossiblethings,\"
shesaidroughly。\"Theothersdon’tinterestme。\"
Dr。Archiewatchedhercontemplatively,asifshewereabeakerfullofchemicalsworking。Afewyearsago,whensheusedtositthere,thelightfromunderhisgreenlamp—
shadeusedtofallfulluponherbroadfaceandyellowpig—
tails。Nowherfacewasintheshadowandthelineoflightfellbelowherbarethroat,directlyacrossherbosom。Theshrunkenwhiteorgandieroseandfellasifshewerestrug—
glingtobefreeandtobreakoutofitaltogether。Hefeltthatherheartmustbelaboringheavilyinthere,buthewasafraidtotouchher;hewas,indeed。Hehadneverseenherlikethisbefore。Herhair,piledhighonherhead,gaveheracommandinglook,andhereyes,thatusedtobesoin—
quisitive,werestormy。
\"Thea,\"hesaidslowly,\"Iwon’tsaythatyoucanhaveeverythingyouwant——thatmeanshavingnothing,inreality。Butifyoudecidewhatitisyouwantmost,YOU
CANGETIT。\"Hiseyecaughthersforamoment。\"Notevery—
bodycan,butyoucan。Only,ifyouwantabigthing,you’vegottohavenerveenoughtocutoutallthat’seasy,everythingthat’stobehadcheap。\"Dr。Archiepaused。
Hepickedupapaper—cutterand,feelingtheedgeofitsoftlywithhisfingers,headdedslowly,asiftohimself:——
\"Heeitherfearshisfatetoomuch,Orhisdesertsaresmall,WhodaresnotputittothetouchTowin……orloseitall。\"
Thea’slipsparted;shelookedathimfromunderafrown,searchinghisface。\"Doyoumeantobreakloose,too,and——dosomething?\"sheaskedinalowvoice。
\"Imeantogetrich,ifyoucallthatdoinganything。
I’vefoundwhatIcandowithout。Youmakesuchbar—
gainsinyourmind,first。\"
Theasprangupandtookthepaper—cutterhehadputdown,twistingitinherhands。\"Alongwhilefirst,some—
times,\"shesaidwithashortlaugh。\"Butsupposeonecannevergetoutwhatthey’vegotinthem?Supposetheymakeamessofitintheend;thenwhat?\"Shethrewthepaper—cutteronthedeskandtookasteptowardthedoctor,untilherdresstouchedhim。Shestoodlookingdownathim。\"Oh,it’seasytofail!\"Shewasbreathingthroughhermouthandherthroatwasthrobbingwithexcitement。
Ashelookedupather,Dr。Archie’shandstightenedonthearmsofhischair。HehadthoughtheknewTheaKron—
borgprettywell,buthedidnotknowthegirlwhowasstandingthere。Shewasbeautiful,ashislittleSwedehadneverbeen,butshefrightenedhim。Herpalecheeks,herpartedlips,herflashingeyes,seemedsuddenlytomeanonething——hedidnotknowwhat。Alightseemedtobreakuponherfromfaraway——orperhapsfromfarwithin。Sheseemedtogrowtaller,likeascarfdrawnoutlong;lookedasifshewerepursuedandfleeing,and——yes,shelookedtormented。\"It’seasytofail,\"heheardhersayagain,\"andifIfail,you’dbetterforgetaboutme,forI’llbeoneoftheworstwomenthateverlived。I’llbeanawfulwoman!\"
Intheshadowylightabovethelampshadehecaughtherglanceagainandhelditforamoment。Wildashereyeswere,thatyellowgleamatthebackofthemwasashardasadiamonddrill—point。Herosewithanervouslaughanddroppedhishandlightlyonhershoulder。\"No,youwon’t。You’llbeasplendidone!\"
Sheshookhimoffbeforehecouldsayanythingmore,andwentoutofhisdoorwithakindofbound。Sheleftsoquicklyandsolightlythathecouldnotevenhearherfoot—
stepinthehallwayoutside。Archiedroppedbackintohischairandsatmotionlessforalongwhile。
Soitwent;onelovedaquaintlittlegirl,cheerful,in—
dustrious,alwaysontherunandhustlingthroughhertasks;andsuddenlyonelosther。Hehadthoughtheknewthatchildlikethegloveonhishand。Butaboutthistallgirlwhothrewupherheadandglitteredlikethatallover,heknewnothing。Shewasgoadedbydesires,ambitions,revulsionsthatweredarktohim。Onethingheknew:theoldhighroadoflife,wornsafeandeasy,huggingthesunnyslopes,wouldscarcelyholdheragain。
AfterthatnightTheacouldhaveaskedprettymuchanythingofhim。Hecouldhaverefusedhernothing。
Yearsagoacraftylittlebunchofhairandsmileshadshownhimwhatshewanted,andhehadpromptlymarriedher。
To—nightaverydifferentsortofgirl——drivenwildbydoubtsandyouth,bypovertyandriches——hadlethimseethefiercenessofhernature。Shewentoutstilldis—
traught,notknowingorcaringwhatshehadshownhim。
ButtoArchieknowledgeofthatsortwasobligation。Oh,hewasthesameoldHowardArchie!
ThatSundayinJulywastheturning—point;Thea’speaceofminddidnotcomeback。Shefoundithardeventopracticeathome。Therewassomethingintheairtherethatfrozeherthroat。Inthemorning,shewalkedasfarasshecouldwalk。Inthehotafternoonsshelayonherbedinhernightgown,planningfiercely。Shehauntedthepost—office。Shemusthavewornapathinthesidewalkthatledtothepost—office,thatsummer。Shewastherethemomentthemail—sackscameupfromthedepot,morningandevening,andwhiletheletterswerebeingsortedanddistributedshepacedupanddownoutside,underthecottonwoodtrees,listeningtothethump,thump,thumpofMr。Thompson’sstamp。ShehunguponanysortofwordfromChicago;acardfromBowers,aletterfromMrs。Harsanyi,fromMr。Larsen,fromherlandlady,——anythingtoreassureherthatChicagowas
stillthere。ShebegantofeelthesamerestlessnessthathadtorturedherthelastspringwhenshewasteachinginMoonstone。Supposeshenevergotawayagain,afterall?
Supposeonebrokealegandhadtolieinbedathomeforweeks,orhadpneumoniaanddiedthere。Thedesertwassobigandthirsty;ifone’sfootslipped,itcoulddrinkoneuplikeadropofwater。
Thistime,whenThealeftMoonstonetogobacktoChicago,shewentalone。Asthetrainpulledout,shelookedbackathermotherandfatherandThor。Theywerecalmandcheerful;theydidnotknow,theydidnotun—
derstand。Somethingpulledinher——andbroke。ShecriedallthewaytoDenver,andthatnight,inherberth,shekeptsobbingandwakingherself。Butwhenthesunroseinthemorning,shewasfaraway。Itwasallbehindher,andsheknewthatshewouldnevercrylikethatagain。
Peoplelivethroughsuchpainonlyonce;paincomesagain,butitfindsatoughersurface。Thearememberedhowshehadgoneawaythefirsttime,withwhatconfidenceineverything,andwhatpitifulignorance。Suchasilly!Shefeltresentfultowardthatstupid,good—naturedchild。Howmucholdershewasnow,andhowmuchharder!Shewasgoingawaytofight,andshewasgoingawayforever。
EndofPartII