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  \"Oh,Betty,Betty!\"shecried,\"youtalkasif——youareso————!\"

  Thefact,sosimpletothemembersoftheabnormalclasstowhichsheofatruthbelonged,theclasswhichheapedupitsmillions,theabsoluteknowledgethattherewasagreatdealofmoneyintheworldandthatshewasofthosewhowereamongitschiefowners,hadceasedtoseemafact,andhadvanishedintotheregionoffairystories。

  ThatshecouldnotbelieveitarealityrevealeditselftoBettina,asbyaflash,whichwasalsoarevelationofmanythings。Therewouldbeunpleasingtruthstobelearned,andshehadnotmadeherpilgrimagefornothing。But——inanyevent——therewereadvantageswithoutdoubtinthecircumstancewhichsubjectedonetobeingperpetuallypointedoutasadaughterofamulti—millionaire。Asthisargueditselfoutforherwithrapidlucidity,shebentandkissedRosyoncemore。Sheeventriedtodoitlightly,andnottoallowtherushofloveandpityinhersoultobetrayher。

  \"Italkasif——asifIwereBetty,\"shesaid。\"Youhaveforgotten。Ihavenot。Ihavebeenlookingforwardtothisforyears。IhavebeenplanningtocometoyousinceIwaselevenyearsold。Andherewesit。\"

  \"Youdidn’tforget?Youdidn’t?\"falteredthepoorwreckofRosy。\"Oh!Oh!Ithoughtyouhadallforgottenme——quite——quite!\"

  Andherfacewentdowninherspare,smallhands,andshebegantocryagain。

  CHAPTERXII

  UGHTRED

  Bettinastoodaloneinherbedroomacoupleofhourslater。

  LadyAnstruthershadtakenhertoit,preparingherforitslimitationsbyexplainingthatshewouldfinditquitedifferentfromherroominNewYork。Shehadbeenpatheticallynervousandflushedaboutit,andBettinahadalsobeenawarethattheapartmentitselfhadbeenhastily,andwithmuchmovingofobjectsfromonechambertoanother,madereadyforher。

  Theroomwaslargeandsquareandlow。Itwaspanelledinsmallsquaresofwhitewood。Thepanelswereoldenoughtobecrackedhereandthere,andthepaintwasstainedandyellowwithtime,whereitwasnotknockedorwornoff。

  Therewasasmallpaned,leadedwindowwhichfilledalargepartofonesideoftheroom,anditsdeepseatwasanagreeablefeature。Sittinginit,onelookedoutoverseveralred—

  walledgardens,andthroughbreaksinthetreesoftheparktoafairbeyond。Bettinastoodbeforethiswindowforafewmoments,andthentookaseatintheembrasure,thatshemightgazeoutandreflectatleisure。

  Hergenius,ashasbeforebeenmentioned,wasthegeniusforliving,forbeingvital。Manypeoplemerelyexist,arekeptalivebyothers,orcontinuetovegetatebecausethepersistentactionofnormalfunctionswillallowoftheirdoingnoless。BettinaVanderpoelhadlivedvividly,andinthemidstofaself—createdatmosphereofactionfromherfirsthour。Itwasnotpossibleforhertobeoneofthehordeofmerespectators。Wheresoevershemovedtherewassomeoccultstirringofthemental,andevenphysical,air。Herpulsesbeattoostrongly,herbloodrantoofasttoallowofinactionofmindorbody。When,inpassingthroughthevillage,shehadseenthebrokenwindowsandthehangingpalingsofthecottages,ithadbeeninevitablethat,atonce,sheshould,inthought,repairthem,setthemstraight。Disorderfilledherwithasortofimpatiencewhichwasakintophysicaldistress。Ifshehadbeenbornapoorwomanshewouldhaveworkedhardforherliving,andfoundaninterest,almostanexhilaration,inherlabour。Suchgiftsasshehadwouldhavebeenappliedtothetaskssheundertook。Ithadfrequentlygivenherpleasuretoimagineherselfearningherlivelihoodasaseamstress,ahousemaid,anurse。Sheknewwhatshecouldhaveputintoherservice,andhowshecouldhavefounditabsorbing。Imaginationandinitiativecouldmakeanyserviceabsorbing。Theactualtruthwasthatifshehadbeenahousemaid,theroomshesetinorderwouldhavetakenacharacterunderhertouch;ifshehadbeenaseamstress,herworkwouldhavebeenswiftlydone,herimaginationwouldhaveinventedforhercombinationsofformandcolour;ifshehadbeenanursemaid,thechildrenunderhercarewouldneverhavebeensufficientlyboredtobecometiresomeorintractable,andtheyalsowouldhavegainedcharactertowhichwouldhavebeenaddedanundeniablevividnessofoutlook。

  Shecouldnothaveleftthemalone,sotospeak。Inobeyingthemerelawsofherbeing,shewouldhavestimulatedthem。

  Unconsciouslyshehadstimulatedherfellowpupilsatschool;

  whenshewashiscompanion,herfatherhadalwaysfelthimselfstirredtointerestandenterprise。

  \"Yououghttohavebeenaman,Betty,\"heusedtosaytohersometimes。

  ButBettyhadnotagreedwithhim。

  \"Yousaythat,\"sheoncerepliedtohim,\"becauseyouseeIaminclinedtodothings,tochangethem,iftheyneedchanging。Well,oneiseitherbornlikethat,oroneisnot。

  SometimesIthinkthatperhapsthepeoplewhomustACTareofadistinctrace。Akindofvigorousrestlessnessdrivesthem。

  IrememberthatwhenIwasachildIcouldnotseeapinlyinguponthegroundwithoutpickingitup,orpassadrawerwhichneededclosing,withoutgivingitapush。Buttherehasalwaysbeenasmuchforwomentodoasformen。\"

  Therewasmuchtobedonehereofonesortofthingandanother。Thatwascertain。Asshegazedthroughthesmallpanesofherlargewindows,shefoundherselfoverlookingpartofawildernessofgarden,whichrevealeditselfthroughanarchinanovergrownlaurelhedge。Shehadglimpsesofunkemptgrasspathsandunclippedtopiaryworkwhichhadlostitsoriginalform。Amongatangleofweedsrosetheheadsofclumpsofdaffodils,stirredbyapassingwindofspring。Intheparkbeyondacuckoowascalling。

  Shewasconsciousbothoftheforlornbeautyandsignificanceoftheneglectedgarden,andoftheclearquaintnessofthecuckoocall,asshethoughtofotherthings。

  \"Herspiritandherhealtharebroken,\"washersummingup。\"Herprettinesshasfadedtoarag。Sheisasnervousasanill—treatedchild。Shehaslostherwits。Idonotknowwheretobeginwithher。Imustlethertellmethingsasgraduallyasshechooses。UntilIseeNigelIshallnotknowwhathismethodwithherhasbeen。Shelooksasifshehadceasedtocareforthings,evenforherself。WhatshallIwritetomother?\"

  Sheknewwhatsheshouldwritetoherfather。Withhimshecouldbeexplicit。Shecouldrecordwhatshehadfoundandwhatitsuggestedtoher。Shecouldalsomakeclearherreasonforhesitanceanddeliberation。Hisdiscretionandaffectionwouldcomprehendthethingwhichsheherselffeltandwhichaffectionnotcombinedwithdiscretionmightnottakein。Hewouldunderstand,whenshetoldhimthatoneofthefirstthingswhichhadstruckher,hadbeenthatRosyherself,herhelplessnessandtimidity,might,foraperiodatleast,formobstaclesintheirpathofaction。HenotonlylovedRosy,butrealisedhowslightasweetthingshehadalwaysbeen,andhewouldknowhowfaraslightcreature’sgentlenessmightbeoverpoweredandbeatendown。

  Therewassomuchthathermothermustbespared,therewasindeedsolittlethatitwouldbewisetotellher,thatBettinasatgentlyrubbingherforeheadasshethoughtofit。

  Thetruthwasthatshemusttellhernothing,untilallwasover,accomplished,decided。Whatsoevertherewastobe\"over,\"whatsoevertheactionfinallytaken,mustbeamatterlyingasfaraspossiblebetweenherfatherandherself。

  Mrs。Vanderpoel’stroublewouldbetookeen,heranxietytoogreattokeeptoherself,evenifshewerenotoverwhelmedbythem。ShemustbetoldofthebeautiesanddimensionsofStornham,allrelatabledetailsofRosy’slifemustbegenerouslydwelton。AboveallRosymustbemadetowriteletters,andwithanairoffreedomhoweverspecious。

  Aknockonthedoorbrokethethreadofherreflection。Itwasalow—soundingknock,andsheansweredthesummonsherself,becauseshethoughtitmightbeRosy’s。

  ItwasnotLadyAnstrutherswhostoodoutside,butUghtred,whobalancedhimselfonhiscrutches,andliftedhissmall,toomature,face。

  \"MayIcomein?\"heasked。

  Herewastheunexpectedagain,butshedidnotallowhimtoseehersurprise。

  \"Yes,\"shesaid。\"Certainlyyoumay。\"

  Heswunginandthenturnedtospeaktoher。

  \"Pleaseshutthedoorandlockit,\"hesaid。

  Therewassuddenilluminationinthis,butofanorderalmostwhimsical。Thatmodernpeopleinmoderndaysshouldfeelboltsandbarsanecessityofordinaryintercoursewassuggestive。Shewasplainlyabouttoreceiveenlightenment。Sheturnedthekeyandfollowedthehaltingfigureacrosstheroom。

  \"Whatareyouafraidof?\"sheasked。

  \"WhenmotherandItalkthingsover,\"hesaid,\"wealwaysdoitwherenoonecanseeorhear。It’stheonlywaytobesafe。\"

  \"Safefromwhat?\"

  Hiseyesfixedthemselvesonherasheansweredheralmostsullenly。

  \"Safefrompeoplewhomightlistenandgoandtellthatwehadbeentalking。\"

  Inhisthwarted—looking,oddchild—facetherewasashadeofappealnotwhollyhiddenbyhisevidentwishnottobeboylike。Bettyfeltadesiretokneeldownsuddenlyandembracehim,butsheknewhewasnotpreparedforsuchademonstration。Helookedlikeacreaturewhohadlivedcontinuallyatbay,andhadlearnedtoadjusthimselftoanysituationwithcautionandrestraint。

  \"Sitdown,Ughtred,\"shesaid,andwhenhedidsosheherselfsatdown,butnottoonearhim。

  Restinghischinonthehandleofacrutch,hegazedatheralmostprotestingly。

  \"Ialwayshavetodothesethings,\"hesaid,\"andIamnotcleverenough,oroldenough。Iamonlyeleven。\"

  Thementionofthenumberofhisyearswasplainlynotapologetic,butwasamerestatementofhislimitations。Therethefactwas,andhemustmakethebestofithecould。

  \"Whatthingsdoyoumean?\"

  \"Tryingtomakethingseasier——explainingthingswhenshecannotthinkofexcuses。To—dayitistellingyouwhatsheistoofrightenedtotellyouherself。Isaidtoherthatyoumustbetold。Itmadehernervousandmiserable,butIknewyoumust。\"

  \"Yes,Imust,\"Bettyanswered。\"Iamgladshehasyoutodependon,Ughtred。\"

  Hiscrutchgratedonthefloorandhisboyeyesforbadehertobelievethattheirsuddenlustrewasinanywayconnectedwithrestrainedemotion。

  \"IknowIseemqueerandlikealittleoldman,\"hesaid。

  \"Mothercriesaboutitsometimes。Butitcan’tbehelped。

  Itisbecauseshehasneverhadanyonebutmetohelpher。

  WhenIwasverylittle,Ifoundouthowfrightenedandmiserableshewas。Afterhisrages,\"heusednoname,\"sheusedtorunintomynurseryandsnatchmeupinherarmsandhideherfaceinmypinafore。Sometimesshestuffeditintohermouthandbitittokeepherselffromscreaming。Once——

  beforeIwasseven——Iranintotheirroomandshoutedout,andtriedtofightforher。Hewasgoingout,andhadhisridingwhipinhishand,andhecaughtholdofmeandstruckmewithit——untilhewastired。\"

  Bettystoodupright。

  \"What!What!What!\"shecriedout。

  Hemerelynoddedhisheadshortly。Shesawwhatthethinghadbeenbythewayhisfacelostcolour。

  \"OfcoursehesaiditwasbecauseIwasimpudent,andneededpunishment,\"hesaid。\"HesaidshehadencouragedmeinAmericanimpudence。Itwasworseforherthanforme。Shekneeleddownandscreamedoutasifshewascrazy,thatshewouldgivehimwhathewantedifhewouldstop。\"

  \"Wait,\"saidBetty,drawinginherbreathsharply。\"`He,’

  isSirNigel?Andhewantedsomething。\"

  Henoddedagain\"Tellme,\"shedemanded,\"hasheeverstruckher?\"

  \"Once,\"heansweredslowly,\"beforeIwasborn——hestruckherandshefellagainstsomething。ThatiswhyIamlikethis。\"Andhetouchedhisshoulder。

  ThefeelingwhichsurgedthroughBettyVanderpoel’sbeingforcedhertogoandstandwithherfaceturnedtowardsthewindows,herhandsholdingeachothertightlybehindherback。

  \"Imustkeepstill,\"shesaid。\"Imustmakemyselfkeepstill。\"

  Shespokeunconsciouslyhalfaloud,andUghtredheardherandrepliedhurriedly。

  \"Yes,\"hesaid,\"youmustmakeyourselfkeepstill。Thatiswhatwehavetodowhateverhappens。Thatisoneofthethingsmotherwantedyoutoknow。Sheisafraid。Shedaren’tletyou————\"

  Sheturnedfromthewindow,standingatherfullheightandlookingverytallforagirl。

  \"Sheisafraid?Shedaren’t?See——thatwillcometoanendnow。Therearethingswhichcanbedone。\"

  Heflushednervously。

  \"Thatiswhatshewasafraidyouwouldsay,\"hespokefastandhishandstrembled。\"Sheisnearlywildaboutit,becausesheknowshewilltrytodosomethingthatwillmakeyoufeelasifshedoesnotwantyou。\"

  \"Sheisafraidofthat?\"Bettyexclaimed。

  \"He’ddoit!He’ddoit——ifyoudidnotknowbeforehand。\"

  \"Oh!\"saidBetty,withunflinchingclearness。\"Heisaliar,ishe?\"

  Thehelplessrageintheunchildisheyes,theshakingvoice,ashecriedoutinanswer,wereashock。Itwasasifhewildlyrejoicedthatshehadspokentheword。

  \"Yes,he’saliar——aliar!\"heshrilled。\"He’saliarandabullyandacoward。He’d——he’dbeamurdererifhedared——buthedaren’t。\"Andhisfacedroppedonhisarmsfoldedonhiscrutch,andhebrokeintoapassionofcrying。ThenBettyknewshemightgotohim。Shewentandkneltdownandputherarmroundhim。

  \"Ughtred,\"shesaid,\"cry,ifyoulike,Ishoulddoit,ifIwereyou。ButItellyouitcanallbealtered——anditshallbe。\"

  Heseemedquitelikealittleboywhenheputouthishandtohersandspokesobbingly:

  \"She——shesays——thatbecauseyouhaveonlyjustcomefromAmerica——andinAmericapeople——candothings——youwillthinkyoucandothingshere——andyoudon’tknow。Hewilltellliesaboutyouliesyoucan’tbear。Shesatwringingherhandswhenshethoughtofit。Shewon’tletyoubehurtbecauseyouwanttohelpher。\"Hestoppedabruptlyandclutchedhershoulder。

  \"AuntBetty!AuntBetty——whateverhappens——whateverhemakesherseemlike——youaretoknowthatitisnottrue。

  Nowyouhavecome——nowshehasseenyouitwouldKILLherifyouweredrivenawayandthoughtshewantedyoutogo。\"

  \"Ishallnotthinkthat,\"sheanswered,slowly,becausesherealisedthatitwaswellthatshehadbeenwarnedintime。

  \"Ughtred,areyoutryingtotellmethataboveallthingsI

  mustnotlethimthinkthatIcameheretohelpyou,becauseifheisangryhewillmakeusallsuffer——andyourmothermostofall?\"

  \"He’llfindaway。Wealwaysknowhewill。Hewouldeitherbesorudethatyouwouldnotstayhere——orhewouldmakemotherseemrude——orhewouldwriteliestograndfather。

  AuntBetty,shescarcelybelievesyouarerealyet。Ifshewon’ttellyouthingsatfirst,pleasedon’tmind。\"Helookedquitelikeachildagaininhisappealtoher,totrytounderstandastateofaffairssocomplicated。\"Couldyou——

  couldyouwaituntilyouhaveletherget——getusedtoyou?\"

  \"Usedtothinkingthattheremaybesomeoneintheworldtohelpher?\"slowly。\"Yes,Iwill。Hasanyoneevertriedtohelpher?\"

  \"Onceortwicepeoplefoundoutandweresorryatfirst,butitonlymadeitworse,becausehemadethembelievethings。\"

  \"IshallnotTRY,Ughtred,\"saidBetty,aremotesparkkindlinginthedeepsofthepupilsofhersteel—blueeyes。\"I

  shallnotTRY。NowIamgoingtoaskyousomequestions。\"

  Beforehelefthershehadaskedmanyquestionswhichwerepertinentandsearching,andshehadlearnedthingssherealisedshecouldhavelearnedinnootherwayandfromnootherperson。Butforhisuncannysenseoftheresponsibilityheclearlyhadassumedinthedayswhenheworepinafores,andwhichhadbroughthimtoherroomtopreparehermindforwhatshewouldfindherselfconfrontedwithinthewayofapparentlyunexplainableobstacles,therewasastronglikelihoodthatattheoutsetshemighthavefoundherselfmorethanoncedangerouslyataloss。Yes,shewouldhavebeenataloss,puzzled,perhapsgreatlydiscouraged。Shewasfacetofacewithacomplicationsoextraordinary。

  Thatoneman,throughmerepersistentsteadinessineviltemperanddomestictyranny,shouldhavesobrokenthecreaturesofhishouseholdintoabjectsubmissionandhopelessness,seemedtooincredible。SuchapowerappearedasremotefromcivilisedexistenceinLondonandNewYorkasdidthatwhichhadinflictedtorturesinthedungeonsofcastlesofold。

  Prisonersinsuchdungeonscouldutternocrywhichcouldreachtheoutsideworld;theprisonersatStornhamCourt,notfourhoursfromHydeParkCorner,couldutternonetheworldcouldhear,orcomprehendifitheardit。Sheerlackofpowertoresistboundthemhandandfoot。Andshe,BettyVanderpoel,washereuponthespot,and,asfarasshecouldunderstand,wasbeingimploredtotakenosteps,todonothing。

  Theatmosphereinwhichshehadspentherlife,theworldshehadbeenborninto,hadnotmadeforfearfulnessthatonewouldbeatanytimedefencelessagainstcircumstancesandbeobligedtosubmittooutrage。TobeaVanderpoelwas,itwastrue,tobeashiningmarkforenvyasforadmiration,butthefactremovedobstaclesasarule,andtofindone’sselfstandingbeforeasituationwithone’shands,figurativelyspeaking,tied,wasnewenoughtoarouseunusualsensations。Sherecalled,withanironicsenseofbewilderment,asasortofmaterialevidenceofherownreality,thefactthatnotaweekagoshehadsteppedontoEnglishsoilfromthegangwayofasolidAtlanticliner。ItaidedhertoresistthefeelingthatshehadbeensweptbackintotheMiddleAges。

  \"Whenheisangry,\"wasoneofthefirstquestionssheputtoUghtred,\"whatdoeshegiveashisreason?Hemustprofesstohaveareason。\"

  \"Whenhegetsinaragehesaysitisbecausemotherissillyandcommon,andIambadlybroughtup。Butwealwaysknowhewantsmoney,anditmakeshimfurious。Hecouldkilluswithrage。\"

  \"Oh!\"saidBetty。\"Isee。\"

  \"Itbeganthattimewhenhestruckher。Hesaidthenthatitwasnotdecentthatawomanwhowasmarriedshouldkeepherownmoney。Hemadehergivehimalmosteverythingshehad,butshewantstokeepsomeforme。Hetriestomakehergetmorefromgrandfather,butshewillnotwritebeggingletters,andshewon’tgivehimwhatsheissavingforme。\"

  Itwasasimpleandsordidenoughexplanationinonesense,anditwasoneofwhichBettinahadknown,notoneparallel,butseveral。Havingmarriedtoensurehimselfpoweroverunquestionedresources,themanhadfelthimselfdisgustinglytakenin,andavengedhimselfaccordingly。Inhimhadbeenbornthemakingsofadomestictyrantwho,evenhadhebeenfavouredbyfortune,wouldhavewreakedhishumoursuponthedefencelessthingsmadehispropertybytiesofbloodandmarriage,andwho,beingunfavoured,woulddoworse。BettycouldseewhattheyearshadheldforRosy,andhowherweaknessandtimidityhadbeenconsideredaspositiveassets。A

  womanwhowillcrywhensheisbullied,maybecountedupontosubmitaftershehascried。Rosyhadsubmitteduptoacertainpointandthen,withthestubbornnessofaweakcreature,hadstoodattimidbayforheryoung。

  WhatBettygatheredwasthat,afterthelongandterribleillnesswhichhadfollowedUghtred’sbirth,shehadrisenfromwhathadbeensonearlyherdeathbed,prostratedinbothmindandbody。Ughtreddidnotknowallthatherevealedwhenhetoucheduponthetimewhichhesaidhismothercouldnotquiteremember——whenshehadsatformonthsstaringvacantlyoutofherwindow,tryingtorecallsomethingterriblewhichhadhappened,andwhichshewantedtotellhermother,ifthedayevercamewhenshecouldwritetoheragain。Shehadneverrememberedclearlythedetailsofthethingshehadwantedtotell,andNigelhadinsistedthatherfancywaspartofherpastdelirium。Hehadsaidthatatthebeginningofherdeliriumshehadattackedandinsultedhismotherandhimselfbuttheyhadexcusedherbecausetheyrealisedafterwardswhatthecauseofherexcitementhadbeen。Foralongtimeshehadbeentoobrokenlyweaktoquestionordisbelieve,but,latershehadvaguelyknownthathehadbeenlyingtoher,thoughshecouldnotrefutewhathesaid。Sherecalled,incourseoftime,ahorriblesceneinwhichallthreeofthemhadravedateachother,andsheherselfhadshriekedandlaughedandhurledwildwordsatNigel,andhehadstruckher。Thatsheknewandneverforgot。Shehadbeenillayear,herhairhadfallenout,herskinhadfadedandshehadbeguntofeellikeanervous,tiredoldwomaninsteadofagirl。Girlhood,withallthepast,hadbecomeunrealandtoofarawaytobemorethanadream。NothinghadremainedrealbutStornhamandNigelandthelittlehunchbackedbaby。ShewasgladwhentheDowagerdiedandwhenNigelspenthistimeinLondonorontheContinentandleftherwithUghtred。Whenhesaidthathemustspendhermoneyontheestate,shehadacquiescedwithoutcomment,becausethatinsuredhisgoingaway。Shesawthatnoimprovementorrepairsweremade,butshecoulddonothingandwastoolistlesstomaketheattempt。SheonlywantedtobeleftalonewithUghtred,andsheexhibitedwill—

  poweronlyindefenceofherchildandinherobstinacywithregardtoaskingmoneyofherfather。

  \"Shethought,somehow,thatgrandfatherandgrandmotherdidnotcareforheranymore——thattheyhadforgottenherandonlycaredforyou,\"Ughtredexplained。\"Sheusedtotalktomeaboutyou。Shesaidyoumustbesocleverandsohandsomethatnoonecouldrememberher。Sometimesshecriedandsaidshedidnotwantanyofyoutoseeheragain,becauseshewasonlyahideous,little,thin,yellowoldwoman。

  WhenIwasverylittleshetoldmestoriesaboutNewYorkandFifthAvenue。Ithoughttheywerenotrealplaces——I

  thoughtheywereplacesinfairyland。\"

  Bettypattedhisshoulderandlookedawayforamomentwhenhesaidthis。Inherremoteandhelplessloneliness,toRosy’shomesick,yearningsoul,noisy,rattlingNewYork,FifthAvenuewithitstrafficandpeople,itsbrown—stonehousesandrickettystages,hadseemedlikeTHAT——sosplendidandbrightandheart—filling,thatshehadpaintedthemincolourswhichcouldbelongonlytofairyland。Itsaidsomuch。

  Thethingshehadsuspectedasshehadtalkedtohersisterwas,beforetheinterviewended,madecuriouslyclear。Thefirstobstacleinherpathwaywouldbetheshrinkingofacreaturewhohadbeensolongunderdominionthatthemerethoughtofseeinganystepstakentowardsherrescuefilledherwithalarm。Onemightbepreparedforheralmostprayingtobeletalone,becauseshefeltthattheprocessofhersalvationwouldbringaboutsuchshocksandtormentsasshecouldnotendurethefacingof。

  \"Shewillhavetogetusedtoyou,\"Ughtredkeptsaying。

  \"Shewillhavetogetusedtothinkingthings。\"

  \"Iwillbecareful,\"Bettinaanswered。\"Sheshallnotbetroubled。Ididnotcometotroubleher,\"

  CHAPTERXIII

  ONEOFTHENEWYORKDRESSES

  Asshewentdownthestaircaselater,onherwaytodinner,MissVanderpoelsawonallsidessignsoftheextentofthenakednessoftheland。Shewasinafineoldhouse,strippedofmostofitssaleablebelongings,uncaredfor,deterioratingyearbyyear,graduallygoingtoruin。Oneneednotpossessparticularkeennessofsighttoobservethis,andshehadchancedtoseeoldhousesinlikeconditioninothercountriesthanEngland。Aman—servant,inashabbylivery,openedthedrawing—

  roomdoorforher。Hewasnotapicturesqueservitoroffallenfortunes,butanawkwardpersonwhowasnotaccustomedtohisduties。Bettywonderedifhehadbeencalledinfromthegardenstomeetthenecessitiesofthemoment。Hisfurtiveglanceatthetallyoungwomanwhopassedhim,tookinwithsuddenembarrassmentthefactthatsheplainlydidnotbelongtothedispiritedworldboundedbyStornhamCourt。Withoutsparklinggemsortrailingrichnessinherwake,shewassuggestivelysplendid。Hedidnotknowwhetheritwasherhairorthebuildofherneckandshouldersthatdidit,butitwasrevealedtohimthattiarasandcollarsofstoneswhichblazedbelongedwithoutdoubttoherequipment。HerecalledthattherewasalegendtotheeffectthatthepresentLadyAnstruthers,wholookedlikearagdoll,hadbeenthedaughterofarichAmerican,andthatbetterthingsmighthavebeenexpectedofherifshehadnotbeensuchapoor—spiritedcreature。

  Ifthiswashersister,sheperhapswasayoungwomanoffortune,andthatshewasnotofpoorspiritwasplain。

  Thelargedrawing—roompresentedbutanotheraspectofthebarenessoftherestofthehouse。Intimesprobablylongpast,possiblyintheDowagerLadyAnstruthers’earlyyearsofmarriage,thewallshadbeenhungwithwhiteandgoldpaperofapatternwhichdominatedthescene,andhadbeenfurnishedwithgildedchairs,tables,andottomans。Someoftheselasthadevidentlybeenremovedastheybecametoomuchoutofrepairforuseorornament。Suchasremained,tarnishedastogildingandworninthematterofupholstery,stoodsparselyscatteredonadesertofcarpet,whosehuge,floweredmedallionshadfadedalmostfromview。

  LadyAnstruthers,lookingshyandawkwardasshefingeredanornamentonasmalltable,seemedsingularlyapartofherbackground。Hereveningdress,slippingoffherthinshoulders,wasasfadedandoutofdateashercarpet。Ithadoncebeendelicatelyblueandgauzy,butitsgauzinesshungincrushedfoldsanditsbluewasalmostgrey。Itwasalsothedressofagirl,notthatofacolourless,wornwoman,andherconsciousnessofitsunfitnessshowedinhersmall—featuredfaceasshecameforward。

  \"Doyou——recogniseit,Betty?\"sheaskedhesitatingly。\"ItwasoneofmyNewYorkdresses。Iputitonbecause——

  because————\"andherstammeringendedhelplessly。

  \"Becauseyouwantedtoremindme,\"Bettysaid。Ifshefeltiteasiertobeginwithanexcusesheshouldbeprovidedwithone。

  PerhapsbutforthisreadinesstofallintoanytoneshechosetoadoptRosymighthaveendeavouredtocarryherpoorfarceon,butasitwasshesuddenlygaveitup。

  \"IputitonbecauseIhavenoother,\"shesaid。\"WeneverhavevisitorsandIhaven’tdressedfordinnerforsolongthatIseemtohavenothingleftthatisfittowear。Idraggedthisoutbecauseitwasbetterthananythingelse。Itwasprettyonce————\"shegavealittlelaugh,\"twelveyearsago。Howlongyearsseem!WasI——wasIpretty,Betty——twelveyearsago?\"

  \"Twelveyearsisnotsuchalongtime。\"Bettytookherhandanddrewhertoasofa。\"Letussitdownandtalkaboutit。\"

  \"Thereisnothingmuchtotalkabout。Thisisit————\"

  takingintheroomwithawaveofherhand。\"Iamit。

  Ughtredisit。\"

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