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  Hesentoutwordbyhisoffice—boythathewouldliketoseeMr。Coreyforafewminutesafterclosing。

  Thetype—writergirlhadlingeredtoo,asifshewishedtospeakwithhim,andCoreystoodinabeyanceasshewenttowardLapham’sdoor。

  \"Can’tseeyouto—night,Zerrilla,\"hesaidbluffly,butnotunkindly。\"PerhapsI’llcallatthehouse,ifit’simportant。\"

  \"Itis,\"saidthegirl,withaspoiledairofinsistence。

  \"Well,\"saidLapham,and,noddingtoCoreytoenter,heclosedthedooruponher。Thenheturnedtotheyoung,mananddemanded:\"WasIdrunklastnight?\"

  XV。

  LAPHAM’Sstrenuousfacewasbrokenupwiththeemotionsthathadforcedhimtothisquestion:shame,fearofthethingsthatmusthavebeenthoughtofhim,mixedwithafainthopethathemightbemistaken,whichdiedoutattheshockedandpityinglookinCorey’seyes。

  \"WasIdrunk?\"herepeated。\"Iaskyou,becauseIwasnevertouchedbydrinkinmylifebefore,andIdon’tknow。\"

  Hestoodwithhishugehandstremblingonthebackofhischair,andhisdrylipsapart,ashestaredatCorey。

  \"Thatiswhateveryoneunderstood,ColonelLapham,\"

  saidtheyoungman。\"Everyonesawhowitwas。

  Don’t————\"

  \"DidtheytalkitoverafterIleft?\"askedLaphamvulgarly。

  \"Excuseme,\"saidCorey,blushing,\"myfatherdoesn’ttalkhisguestsoverwithoneanother。\"Headded,withyouthfulsuperfluity,\"Youwereamonggentlemen。\"

  \"Iwastheonlyonethatwasn’tagentlemanthere!\"

  lamentedLapham。\"Idisgracedyou!Idisgracedmyfamily!I

  mortifiedyourfatherbeforehisfriends!\"Hisheaddropped。

  \"IshowedthatIwasn’tfittogowithyou。I’mnotfitforanydecentplace。WhatdidIsay?WhatdidIdo?\"

  heasked,suddenlyliftinghisheadandconfrontingCorey。

  \"Outwithit!Ifyoucouldbeartoseeitandhearit,Ihadoughttobeartoknowit!\"

  \"Therewasnothing——reallynothing,\"saidCorey。

  \"Beyondthefactthatyouwerenotquiteyourself,therewasnothingwhatever。MyfatherDIDspeakofittome,\"heconfessed,\"whenwewerealone。Hesaidthathewasafraidwehadnotbeenthoughtfulofyou,ifyouwereinthehabitoftakingonlywater;ItoldhimIhadnotseenwineatyourtable。Theotherssaidnothingaboutyou。\"

  \"Ah,butwhatdidtheythink?\"

  \"Probablywhatwedid:thatitwaspurelyamisfortune——

  anaccident。\"

  \"Iwasn’tfittobethere,\"persistedLapham。\"Doyouwanttoleave?\"heasked,withsavageabruptness。

  \"Leave?\"falteredtheyoungman。

  \"Yes;quitthebusiness?Cutthewholeconnection?\"

  \"Ihaven’ttheremotestideaofit!\"criedCoreyinamazement。

  \"WhyintheworldshouldI?\"\"Becauseyou’reagentleman,andI’mnot,anditain’trightIshouldbeoveryou。

  Ifyouwanttogo,Iknowsomepartiesthatwouldbegladtogetyou。Iwillgiveyouupifyouwanttogobeforeanythingworsehappens,andIshan’tblameyou。

  IcanhelpyoutosomethingbetterthanIcanofferyouhere,andIwill。\"

  \"There’snoquestionofmygoing,unlessyouwishit,\"

  saidCorey。\"Ifyoudo————\"

  \"Willyoutellyourfather,\"interruptedLapham,\"thatIhadanotionallthetimethatIwasactingthedrunkenblackguard,andthatI’vesufferedforitallday?WillyoutellhimIdon’twanthimtonoticemeifweevermeet,andthatIknowI’mnotfittoassociatewithgentlemeninanythingbutabusinessway,ifIamthat?\"

  \"CertainlyIshalldonothingofthekind,\"retortedCorey。

  \"Ican’tlistentoyouanylonger。Whatyousayisshockingtome——shockinginawayyoucan’tthink。\"

  \"Why,man!\"exclaimedLapham,withastonishment;\"ifI

  canstandit,YOUcan!\"

  \"No,\"saidCorey,withasicklook,\"thatdoesn’tfollow。

  Youmaydenounceyourself,ifyouwill;butIhavemyreasonsforrefusingtohearyou——myreasonswhyICAN’Thearyou。

  IfyousayanotherwordImustgoaway。\"

  \"Idon’tunderstandyou,\"falteredLapham,inbewilderment,whichabsorbedevenhisshame。

  \"Youexaggeratetheeffectofwhathashappened,\"

  saidtheyoungman。\"It’senough,morethanenough,foryoutohavementionedthemattertome,andIthinkit’sunbecominginmetohearyou。\"

  Hemadeamovementtowardthedoor,butLaphamstoppedhimwiththetragichumilityofhisappeal。\"Don’tgoyet!Ican’tletyou。I’vedisgustedyou,——Iseethat;

  butIdidn’tmeanto。I——Itakeitback。\"

  \"Oh,there’snothingtotakeback,\"saidCorey,witharepressedshudderfortheabasementwhichhehadseen。

  \"Butletussaynomoreaboutit——thinknomore。

  Therewasn’toneofthegentlemenpresentlastnightwhodidn’tunderstandthematterpreciselyasmyfatherandIdid,andthatfactmustenditbetweenustwo。\"

  Hewentoutintothelargerofficebeyond,leavingLaphamhelplesstopreventhisgoing。IthadbecomeavitalnecessitywithhimtothinkthebestofLapham,buthismindwasinawhirlofwhateverthoughtsweremostinjurious。

  Hethoughtofhimthenightbeforeinthecompanyofthoseladiesandgentlemen,andhequiveredinresentmentofhisvulgar,braggart,uncouthnature。Herecognisedhisownallegiancetotheexclusivenesstowhichhewasbornandbred,asamanperceiveshisdutytohiscountrywhenherrightsareinvaded。Hiseyefellontheportergoingaboutinhisshirt—sleevestomaketheplacefastforthenight,andhesaidtohimselfthatDenniswasnotmoreplebeianthanhismaster;thatthegrossappetites,thebluntsense,thepurblindambition,thestupidarrogancewerethesameinboth,andthedifferencewasinabrutewillthatprobablylefttheporterthegentlermanofthetwo。

  TheveryinnocenceofLapham’slifeinthedirectioninwhichhehaderredwroughtagainsthimintheyoungman’smood:itcontainedtheinsultofclownishinexperience。

  Amidstthestingsandflashesofhiswoundedpride,allthesocialtraditions,allthehabitsoffeeling,whichhehadsilencedmoreandmorebyforceofwillduringthepastmonths,assertedtheirnaturalsway,andheriotedinhiscontemptoftheoffensiveboor,whowasevenmoreoffensiveinhisshamethaninhistrespass。

  HesaidtohimselfthathewasaCorey,asifthatweresomewhat;yetheknewthatatthebottomofhisheartallthetimewasthatwhichmustcontrolhimatlast,andwhichseemedsweetlytobesufferinghisrebellion,secureofhissubmissionintheend。Itwasalmostwiththegirl’svoicethatitseemedtopleadwithhim,toundoinhim,effectbyeffect,theworkofhisindignantresentment,tosetallthingsinanotherandfairerlight,togivehimhopes,tosuggestpalliations,toprotestagainstinjustices。ItWASinLapham’sfavourthathewassoguiltlessinthepast,andnowCoreyaskedhimselfifitwerethefirsttimehecouldhavewishedaguestathisfather’stabletohavetakenlesswine;

  whetherLaphamwasnotrathertobehonouredfornotknowinghowtocontainhisfollywhereaveterantransgressormighthaveheldhistongue。Heaskedhimself,withathrillofsuddenremorse,whether,whenLaphamhumbledhimselfinthedustsoshockingly,hehadshownhimthesympathytowhichsuchABANDONhadtheright;andhehadtoownthathehadmethimonthegentlemanlyground,sparinghimselfandassertingthesuperiorityofhissort,andnotrecognisingthatLapham’shumiliationcamefromthesenseofwrong,whichhehadhelpedtoaccumulateuponhimbysuperfinelystandingaloofandrefusingtotouchhim。

  Heshuthisdeskandhurriedoutintotheearlynight,nottogoanywhere,buttowalkupanddown,totrytofindhiswayoutofthechaos,whichnowseemedruin,andnowthematerialsoutofwhichfineactionsandahappylifemightbeshaped。ThreehourslaterhestoodatLapham’sdoor。

  Attimeswhathenowwishedtodohadseemedforeverimpossible,andagainithadseemedasifhecouldnotwaitamomentlonger。

  Hehadnotbeencareless,butverymindfulofwhatheknewmustbethefeelingsofhisownfamilyinregardtotheLaphams,andhehadnotconcealedfromhimselfthathisfamilyhadgreatreasonandjusticeontheirsideinnotwishinghimtoalienatehimselffromtheircommonlifeandassociations。Themostthathecouldurgetohimselfwasthattheyhadnotallthereasonandjustice;

  buthehadhesitatedanddelayedbecausetheyhadsomuch。

  Oftenhecouldnotmakeitappearrightthatheshouldmerelypleasehimselfinwhatchieflyconcernedhimself。

  HeperceivedhowfarapartinalltheirexperiencesandidealstheLaphamgirlsandhissisterswere;howdifferentMrs。Laphamwasfromhismother;howgrotesquelyunlikewerehisfatherandLapham;andthedisparityhadnotalwaysamusedhim。

  Hehadoftentakenitveryseriously,andsometimeshesaidthathemustforegothehopeonwhichhisheartwasset。

  Therehadbeenmanytimesinthepastmonthswhenhehadsaidthathemustgonofurther,andasoftenashehadtakenthisstandhehadyieldedit,uponthisorthatexcuse,whichhewasawareoftrumpingup。Itwaspartofthecomplicationthatheshouldheunconsciousoftheinjuryhemightbedoingtosomeonebesideshisfamilyandhimself;

  thiswasthedefectofhisdiffidence;andithadcometohiminapangforthefirsttimewhenhismothersaidthatshewouldnothavetheLaphamsthinkshewishedtomakemoreoftheacquaintancethanhedid;andthenithadcometoolate。Sincethathehadsufferedquiteasmuchfromthefearthatitmightnotbeasthatitmightbeso;andnow,inthemood,romanticandexalted,inwhichhefoundhimselfconcerningLapham,hewasasfarasmightbefromvainconfidence。Heendedthequestioninhisownmindbyaffirmingtohimselfthathewasthere,firstofall,toseeLaphamandgivehimanultimateproofofhisownperfectfaithandunabatedrespect,andtoofferhimwhatreparationthisinvolvedforthatwantofsympathy——ofhumanity——whichhehadshown。

  XVI。

  THENovaScotiasecond—girlwhoansweredCorey’sringsaidthatLaphamhadnotcomehomeyet。

  \"Oh,\"saidtheyoungman,hesitatingontheouterstep。

  \"Iguessyoubettercomein,\"saidthegirl,\"I’llgoandseewhenthey’reexpectinghim。\"

  Coreywasinthemoodtobeswayedbyanychance。

  Heobeyedthesuggestionofthesecond—girl’spatronisingfriendliness,andlethershuthimintothedrawing—room,whileshewentupstairstoannouncehimtoPenelope。

  \"Didyoutellhimfatherwasn’tathome?\"

  \"Yes。Heseemedsokindofdisappointed,Itoldhimtocomein,andI’dseewhenheWOULDbein,\"saidthegirl,withthehumaninterestwhichsometimesreplacesintheAmericandomestictheserviledeferenceofothercountries。

  AgleamofamusementpassedoverPenelope’sface,assheglancedatherselfintheglass。\"Well,\"shecriedfinally,droppingfromhershouldersthelightshawlinwhichshehadbeenhuddledoverabookwhenCoreyrang,\"Iwillgodown。\"

  \"Allright,\"saidthegirl,andPenelopebeganhastilytoamendthedisarrayofherhair,whichshetumbledintoamassonthetopofherlittlehead,settingoffthepaledarkofhercomplexionwithaflashofcrimsonribbonatherthroat。Shemovedacrossthecarpetonceortwicewiththequaintgracethatbelongedtohersmallfigure,madeadissatisfiedgrimaceatitintheglass,caughtahandkerchiefoutofadrawerandsliditintoherpocket,andthendescendedtoCorey。

  TheLaphamdrawing—roominNankeenSquarewasintheparti—colouredpaintwhichtheColonelhadhopedtorepeatinhisnewhouse:thetrimofthedoorsandwindowswasinlightgreenandthepanelsinsalmon;thewallswereaplaintintofFrenchgreypaper,dividedbygiltmouldingsintobroadpanelswithawidestripeofredvelvetpaperrunningupthecorners;thechandelierwasofmassiveimitationbronze;themirroroverthemantelrestedonafringedmantel—coverofgreenreps,andheavycurtainsofthatstuffhungfromgiltlambrequinframesatthewindow;thecarpetwasofasmallpatternincrudegreen,which,atthetimeMrs。Laphamboughtit,coveredhalfthenewfloorsinBoston。Inthepanelledspacesonthewallsweresomestone—colouredlandscapes,representingthemountainsandcanyonsoftheWest,whichtheColonelandhiswifehadvisitedononeoftheearlyofficialrailroadexcursions。InfrontofthelongwindowslookingintotheSquarewerestatues,kneelingfigureswhichturnedtheirbacksuponthecompanywithin—doors,andrepresentedallegoriesofFaithandPrayertopeoplewithout。Awhitemarblegroupofseveralfigures,expressinganItalianconceptionofLincolnFreeingtheSlaves,——aLatinnegroandhiswife,——withourEagleflappinghiswingsinapproval,atLincoln’sfeet,occupiedonecorner,andbalancedthewhat—notofanearlierperiodinanother。Thesephantasmsaddedtheirchilltothatimpartedbythetoneofthewalls,thelandscapes,andthecarpets,andcontributedtotheviolenceofthecontrastwhenthechandelierwaslightedupfullglare,andtheheatofthewholefurnacewelledupfromtheregistersintothequiveringatmosphereononeoftherareoccasionswhentheLaphamsinvitedcompany。

  Coreyhadnotbeeninthisroombefore;thefamilyhadalwaysreceivedhiminwhattheycalledthesitting—room。

  Penelopelookedintothisfirst,andthenshelookedintotheparlour,withasmilethatbrokeintoalaughasshediscoveredhimstandingunderthesingleburnerwhichthesecond—girlhadlightedforhiminthechandelier。

  \"Idon’tunderstandhowyoucametobeputinthere,\"

  shesaid,assheledthewaytothecozierplace,\"unlessitwasbecauseAlicethoughtyouwereonlyhereonprobation,anyway。Fatherhasn’tgothomeyet,butI’mexpectinghimeverymoment;Idon’tknowwhat’skeepinghim。DidthegirltellyouthatmotherandIrenewereout?\"

  \"No,shedidn’tsay。It’sverygoodofyoutoseeme。\"

  Shehadnotseentheexaltationwhichhehadbeenfeeling,heperceivedwithhalfasigh;itmustallbeuponthislowerlevel;perhapsitwasbestso。\"TherewassomethingIwishedtosaytoyourfather————Ihope,\"hebrokeoff,\"you’rebetterto—night。\"

  \"Ohyes,thankyou,\"saidPenelope,rememberingthatshehadnotbeenwellenoughtogotodinnerthenightbefore。

  \"Weallmissedyouverymuch。\"

  \"Oh,thankyou!I’mafraidyouwouldn’thavemissedmeifIhadbeenthere。\"

  \"Ohyes,weshould,\"saidCorey,\"Iassureyou。\"

  Theylookedateachother。

  \"IreallythinkIbelievedIwassayingsomething,\"

  saidthegirl。

  \"AndsodidI,\"repliedtheyoungman。Theylaughedratherwildly,andthentheybothbecamerathergrave。

  Hetookthechairshegavehim,andlookedacrossather,whereshesatontheothersideofthehearth,inachairlowerthanhis,withherhandsdroppedinherlap,andthebackofherheadonhershouldersasshelookedupathim。

  Thesoft—coalfireinthegratepurredandflickered;

  thedrop—lightcastamellowradianceonherface。

  Shelethereyesfall,andthenliftedthemforanirrelevantglanceattheclockonthemantel。

  \"MotherandIrenehavegonetotheSpanishStudents’concert。\"

  \"Oh,havethey?\"askedCorey;andheputhishat,whichhehadbeenholdinginhishand,onthefloorbesidehischair。

  Shelookeddownatitfornoreason,andthenlookedupathisfacefornoother,andturnedalittlered。

  Coreyturnedalittleredhimself。Shewhohadalwaysbeensoeasywithhimnowbecamealittleconstrained。

  \"Doyouknowhowwarmitisout—of—doors?\"heasked。

  \"No,isitwarm?Ihaven’tbeenoutallday。\"

  \"It’slikeasummernight。\"

  Sheturnedherfacetowardsthefire,andthenstartedabruptly。\"Perhapsit’stoowarmforyouhere?\"

  \"Ohno,it’sverycomfortable。\"

  \"Isupposeit’sthecoldofthelastfewdaysthat’sstillinthehouse。Iwasreadingwithashawlonwhenyoucame。\"

  \"Iinterruptedyou。\"

  \"Ohno。Ihadfinishedthebook。Iwasjustlookingoveritagain。\"

  \"Doyouliketoreadbooksover?\"

  \"Yes;booksthatIlikeatall。\"

  \"Thatwasit?\"askedCorey。

  Thegirlhesitated。\"Ithasratherasentimentalname。

  Didyoueverreadit?——Tears,IdleTears。\"

  \"Ohyes;theyweretalkingofthatlastnight;it’safamousbookwithladies。Theybreaktheirheartsoverit。

  Diditmakeyoucry?\"

  \"Oh,it’sprettyeasytocryoverabook,\"saidPenelope,laughing;\"andthatoneisverynaturaltillyoucometothemainpoint。Thenthenaturalnessofalltherestmakesthatseemnaturaltoo;butIguessit’sratherforced。\"

  \"Hergivinghimuptotheotherone?\"

  \"Yes;simplybecauseshehappenedtoknowthattheotheronehadcaredforhimfirst。Whyshouldshehavedoneit?Whatrighthadshe?\"

  \"Idon’tknow。Isupposethattheself—sacrifice————\"

  \"ButitWASN’Tself—sacrifice——ornotself—sacrificealone。

  Shewassacrificinghimtoo;andforsomeonewhocouldn’tappreciatehimhalfasmuchasshecould。

  I’mprovokedwithmyselfwhenIthinkhowIcriedoverthatbook——forIdidcry。It’ssilly——it’swickedforanyonetodowhatthatgirldid。Whycan’ttheyletpeoplehaveachancetobehavereasonablyinstories?\"

  \"Perhapstheycouldn’tmakeitsoattractive,\"

  suggestedCorey,withasmile。

  \"Itwouldbenovel,atanyrate,\"saidthegirl。

  \"Butsoitwouldinreallife,Isuppose,\"sheadded。

  \"Idon’tknow。Whyshouldn’tpeopleinlovebehavesensibly?\"

  \"That’saveryseriousquestion,\"saidPenelopegravely。

  \"Icouldn’tanswerit,\"andshelefthimtheembarrassmentofsupportinganinquirywhichshehadcertainlyinstigatedherself。Sheseemedtohavefinallyrecoveredherowneaseindoingthis。\"Doyouadmireourautumnaldisplay,Mr。Corey?\"

  \"Yourdisplay?\"

  \"ThetreesintheSquare。WEthinkit’squiteequaltoanopeningatJordan&Marsh’s。\"

  \"Ah,I’mafraidyouwouldn’tletmebeseriousevenaboutyourmaples。\"

  \"Ohyes,Ishould——ifyouliketobeserious。\"

  \"Don’tyou?\"

  \"Wellnotaboutseriousmatters。That’sthereasonthatbookmademecry。\"

  \"Youmakefunofeverything。MissIrenewastellingmelastnightaboutyou。\"

  \"Thenit’snouseformetodenyitsosoon。ImustgiveIreneatalkingto。\"

  \"Ihopeyouwon’tforbidhertotalkaboutyou!\"

  Shehadtakenupafanfromthetable,andheldit,nowbetweenherfaceandthefire,andnowbetweenherfaceandhim。Herlittlevisage,withthatarch,lazylookinit,toppedbyitsmassofduskyhair,anddwindlingfromthefullcheekstothesmallchin,hadaJapaneseeffectinthesubduedlight,andithadthecharmwhichcomestoanywomanwithhappiness。

  Itwouldbehardtosayhowmuchofthissheperceivedthathefelt。Theytalkedaboutotherthingsawhile,andthenshecamebacktowhathehadsaid。Sheglancedathimobliquelyroundherfan,andstoppedmovingit。

  \"DoesIrenetalkaboutme?\"sheasked。\"Ithinkso——yes。

  Perhapsit’sonlyIwhotalkaboutyou。Youmustblamemeifit’swrong,\"hereturned。

  \"Oh,Ididn’tsayitwaswrong,\"shereplied。\"ButI

  hopeifyousaidanythingverybadofmeyou’llletmeknowwhatitwas,sothatIcanreform————\"

  \"No,don’tchange,please!\"criedtheyoungman。

  Penelopecaughtherbreath,butwentonresolutely,——

  \"orrebukeyouforspeakingevilofdignities。\"

  Shelookeddownatthefan,nowflatinherlap,andtriedtogovernherhead,butittrembled,andsheremainedlookingdown。Againtheyletthetalkstray,andthenitwashewhobroughtitbacktothemselves,asifithadnotleftthem。

  \"IhavetotalkOFyou,\"saidCorey,\"becauseIgettotalkTOyousoseldom。\"

  \"YoumeanthatIdoallthetalkingwhenwe’re——together?\"

  Sheglancedsidewiseathim;butshereddenedafterspeakingthelastword。

  \"We’resoseldomtogether,\"hepursued。

  \"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean————\"

  \"SometimesI’vethought——I’vebeenafraidthatyouavoidedme。\"

  \"Avoidedyou?\"

  \"Yes!Triednottobealonewithme。\"

  Shemighthavetoldhimthattherewasnoreasonwhysheshouldbealonewithhim,andthatitwasverystrangeheshouldmakethiscomplaintofher。Butshedidnot。

  Shekeptlookingdownatthefan,andthensheliftedherburningfaceandlookedattheclockagain。

  \"MotherandIrenewillbesorrytomissyou,\"shegasped。

  Heinstantlyroseandcametowardsher。Sherosetoo,andmechanicallyputoutherhand。Hetookitasiftosaygood—night。\"Ididn’tmeantosendyouaway,\"

  shebesoughthim。

  \"Oh,I’mnotgoing,\"heansweredsimply。\"Iwantedtosay——tosaythatit’sIwhomakehertalkaboutyou。

  TosayI————ThereissomethingIwanttosaytoyou;

  I’vesaiditsooftentomyselfthatIfeelasifyoumustknowit。\"Shestoodquitestill,lettinghimkeepherhand,andquestioninghisfacewithabewilderedgaze。\"YouMUST

  know——shemusthavetoldyou——shemusthaveguessed————\"

  Penelopeturnedwhite,butoutwardlyquelledthepanicthatsentthebloodtoherheart。\"I——Ididn’texpect——I

  hopedtohaveseenyourfather——butImustspeaknow,whatever————Iloveyou!\"

  Shefreedherhandfrombothofthosehehadcloseduponit,andwentbackfromhimacrosstheroomwithasinuousspring。

  \"ME!\"Whateverpotentialcomplicityhadlurkedinherheart,hiswordsbroughtheronlyimmeasurabledismay。

  Hecametowardsheragain。\"Yes,you。Whoelse?\"

  Shefendedhimoffwithanimploringgesture。

  \"Ithought——I——itwas————\"

  Sheshutherlipstight,andstoodlookingathimwhereheremainedinsilentamaze。Thenherwordscameagain,shudderingly。\"Oh,whathaveyoudone?\"

  \"Uponmysoul,\"hesaid,withavaguesmile,\"Idon’tknow。

  Ihopenoharm?\"

  \"Oh,don’tlaugh!\"shecried,laughinghystericallyherself。

  \"Unlessyouwantmetothinkyouthegreatestwretchintheworld!\"

  \"I?\"heresponded。\"Forheaven’ssaketellmewhatyoumean!\"

  \"YouknowIcan’ttellyou。Canyousay——canyouputyourhandonyourheartandsaythat——you——sayyounevermeant——thatyoumeantme——allalong?\"

  \"Yes!——yes!Whoelse?Icameheretoseeyourfather,andtotellhimthatIwishedtotellyouthis——toaskhim————Butwhatdoesitmatter?Youmusthaveknownit——youmusthaveseen——andit’sforyoutoanswerme。

  I’vebeenabrupt,Iknow,andI’vestartledyou;butifyouloveme,youcanforgivethattomylovingyousolongbeforeIspoke。\"

  Shegazedathimwithpartedlips。

  \"Oh,mercy!WhatshallIdo?Ifit’strue——whatyousay——youmustgo!\"shesaid。\"Andyoumustnevercomeanymore。

  Doyoupromisethat?\"

  \"Certainlynot,\"saidtheyoungman。\"WhyshouldI

  promisesuchathing——soabominablywrong?Icouldobeyifyoudidn’tloveme————\"

  \"Oh,Idon’t!IndeedIdon’t!Nowwillyouobey。\"

  \"No。Idon’tbelieveyou。\"\"Oh!\"

  Hepossessedhimselfofherhandagain。

  \"Mylove——mydearest!Whatisthistrouble,thatyoucan’ttellit?Itcan’tbeanythingaboutyourself。

  Ifitisanythingaboutanyoneelse,itwouldn’tmaketheleastdifferenceintheworld,nomatterwhatitwas。

  IwouldbeonlytoogladtoshowbyanyactordeedIcouldthatnothingcouldchangemetowardsyou。\"

  \"Oh,youdon’tunderstand!\"

  \"No,Idon’t。Youmusttellme。\"

  \"Iwillneverdothat。\"

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