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  \"Imean,becauseIunderstandbetterhowonecantortureone’sselfoverunrealities。\"

  AsDarrowlistened,thetensionofhisnervesbegantorelax。Hergaze,sograveandyetsosweet,waslikeadeeppoolintowhichhecouldplungeandhidehimselffromthehardglareofhismisery。Asthisecstaticsenseenvelopedhimhefounditmoreandmoredifficulttofollowherwordsandtoframeananswer;butwhatdidanythingmatter,exceptthathervoiceshouldgoon,andthesyllablesfalllikesofttouchesonhistorturedbrain?

  \"Don’tyouknow,\"shecontinued,\"theblissofwakingfromabaddreaminone’sownquietroom,andgoingslowlyoverallthehorrorwithoutbeingafraidofitanymore?That’swhatI’mdoingnow。Andthat’swhyIunderstandOwen……\"Shebrokeoff,andhefelthertouchonhisarm。\"BECAUSE

  I’DDREAMEDTHEHORRORTOO!\"

  Heunderstoodherthen,andstammered:\"You?\"

  \"Forgiveme!Andletmetellyou!……ItwillhelpyoutounderstandOwen……ThereWERElittlethings……littlesigns……onceIhadbeguntowatchforthem:yourreluctancetospeakabouther……herreservewithyou……asortofconstraintwe’dneverseeninherbefore……\"

  Shelaughedupathim,andwithherhandsinhishecontrivedtosay:\"NOWyouunderstandwhy?\"

  \"Oh,Iunderstand;ofcourseIunderstand;andIwantyoutolaughatme——withme!Becausetherewereotherthingstoo……crazierthingsstill……Therewaseven——lastnightontheterrace——herpinkcloak……\"

  \"Herpinkcloak?\"Nowhehonestlywondered,andasshesawitsheblushed。

  \"You’veforgottenaboutthecloak?ThepinkcloakthatOwensawyouwithattheplayinParis?Yes……yes……Iwasmadenoughforthat!……Itdoesmegoodtolaughaboutitnow!

  ButyououghttoknowthatI’mgoingtobeajealouswoman……aridiculouslyjealouswoman……yououghttobewarnedofitintime……\"

  Hehaddroppedherhands,andsheleanedcloseandliftedherarmstohisneckwithoneofherraregesturesofsurrender。

  \"Idon’tknowwhyitis;butitmakesmehappiernowtohavebeensofoolish!\"

  Herlipswerepartedinanoiselesslaughandthetremorofherlashesmadetheirshadowmoveonhercheek。Helookedatherthroughamistofpainandsawallherofferedbeautyhelduplikeacuptohislips;butashestoopedtoitadarknessseemedtofallbetweenthem,herarmsslippedfromhisshouldersandshedrewawayfromhimabruptly。

  \"ButsheWASwithyou,then?\"sheexclaimed;andthen,ashestaredather:\"Oh,don’tsayno!Onlygoandlookatyoureyes!\"

  Hestoodspeechless,andshepressedon:\"Don’tdenyit——oh,don’tdenyit!Whatwillbeleftformetoimagineifyoudo?Don’tyouseehoweverysinglethingcriesitout?Owenseesit——hesawitagainjustnow!WhenItoldhimshe’drelented,andwouldseehim,hesaid:’IsthatDarrow’sdoingtoo?’\"

  Darrowtooktheonslaughtinsilence。Hemighthavespoken,havesummoneduptheusualphrasesofbanteranddenial;hewasnotevencertainthattheymightnot,forthemoment,haveservedtheirpurposeifhecouldhaveutteredthemwithoutbeingseen。ButhewasasconsciousofwhathadhappenedtohisfaceasifhehadobeyedAnna’sbiddingandlookedathimselfintheglass。Heknewhecouldnomorehidefromherwhatwaswrittentherethanhecouldeffacefromhissoulthefieryrecordofwhathehadjustlivedthrough。Therebeforehim,staringhimintheeyes,andreflectingitselfinallhislineaments,wastheoverwhelmingfactofSophyViner’spassionandoftheactbywhichshehadattestedit。

  Annawastalkingagain,hurriedly,feverishly,andhissoulwaswrungbytheanguishinhervoice。\"Dospeakatlast——

  youmustspeak!Idon’twanttoaskyoutoharmthegirl;

  butyoumustseethatyoursilenceisdoinghermoreharmthanyouransweringmyquestionscould。You’releavingmeonlytheworstthingstothinkofher……she’dseethatherselfifshewerehere。Whatworseinjurycanyoudoherthantomakemehateher——tomakemefeelshe’splottedwithyoutodeceiveus?\"

  \"Oh,notthat!\"Darrowheardhisownvoicebeforehewasawarethathemeanttospeak。\"Yes;IdidseeherinParis,\"hewentonafterapause;\"butIwasboundtorespectherreasonfornotwantingitknown。\"

  Annapaled。\"Itwassheatthetheatrethatnight?\"

  \"Iwaswithheratthetheatreonenight。\"

  \"Whyshouldshehaveaskedyounottosayso?\"

  \"Shedidn’twishitknownthatI’dmether。\"

  \"Whyshouldn’tshehavewisheditknown?\"

  \"ShehadquarrelledwithMrs。MurrettandcomeoversuddenlytoParis,andshedidn’twanttheFarlowstohearofit。I

  cameacrossherbyaccident,andsheaskedmenottospeakofhavingseenher。\"

  \"Becauseofherquarrel?Becauseshewasashamedofherpartinit?\"

  \"Oh,no。Therewasnothingforhertobeashamedof。ButtheFarlowshadfoundtheplaceforher,andshedidn’twantthemtoknowhowsuddenlyshe’dhadtoleave,andhowbadlyMrs。Murretthadbehaved。Shewasinaterribleplight——thewomanhadevenkeptbackhermonth’ssalary。SheknewtheFarlowswouldbeawfullyupset,andshewantedmoretimetopreparethem。\"

  Darrowheardhimselfspeakasthoughthewordshadproceededfromotherlips。Hisexplanationsoundedplausibleenough,andhehalf—fanciedAnna’slookgrewlighter。Shewaitedamoment,asthoughtobesurehehadnomoretoadd;thenshesaid:\"ButtheFarlowsDIDknow;theytoldmeallaboutitwhentheysenthertome。\"

  Heflushedasifshehadlaidadeliberatetrapforhim。

  \"TheymayknowNOW;theydidn’tthen————\"

  \"That’snoreasonforhercontinuingnowtomakeamysteryofhavingmetyou。\"

  \"It’stheonlyreasonIcangiveyou。\"

  \"ThenI’llgoandaskherforonemyself。\"Sheturnedandtookafewstepstowardthedoor。

  \"Anna!\"Hestartedtofollowher,andthencheckedhimself。

  \"Don’tdothat!\"

  \"Whynot?\"

  \"It’snotlikeyou……notgenerous……\"

  Shestoodbeforehimstraightandpale,butunderherrigidfacehesawthetumultofherdoubtandmisery。

  \"Idon’twanttobeungenerous;Idon’twanttopryintohersecrets。Butthingscan’tbeleftlikethis。Wouldn’titbebetterformetogotoher?Surelyshe’llunderstand——she’llexplain……Itmaybesomemeretrifleshe’sconcealing:

  somethingthatwouldhorrifytheFarlows,butthatI

  shouldn’tseeanyharmin……\"Shepaused,hereyessearchinghisface。\"Aloveaffair,Isuppose……that’sit?

  Youmetherwithsomemanatthetheatre——andshewasfrightenedandbeggedyoutofibaboutit?Thosepooryoungthingsthathavetogoaboutamonguslikemachines——oh,ifyouknewhowIpitythem!\"

  \"Ifyoupityher,whynotlethergo?\"

  Shestared。\"Lethergo——goforgood,youmean?Isthatthebestyoucansayforher?\"

  \"Letthingstaketheircourse。Afterall,it’sbetweenherselfandOwen。\"

  \"Andyouandme——andEffie,ifOwenmarriesher,andIleavemychildwiththem!Don’tyouseetheimpossibilityofwhatyou’reasking?We’reallboundtogetherinthiscoil。\"

  Darrowturnedawaywithagroan。\"Oh,lethergo——lethergo。\"

  \"ThenthereISsomething——somethingreallybad?SheWASwithsomeonewhenyoumether?Someonewithwhomshewas————\"Shebrokeoff,andhesawherstrugglingwithnewthoughts。\"Ifit’sTHAT,ofcourse……Oh,don’tyousee,\"shedesperatelyappealedtohim,\"thatImustfindout,andthatit’stoolatenowforyounottospeak?Don’tbeafraidthatI’llbetrayyou……I’llnever,neverletasoulsuspect。ButImustknowthetruth,andsurelyit’sbestforherthatIshouldfinditoutfromyou。\"

  Darrowwaitedamoment;thenhesaidslowly:\"Whatyouimagine’smeremadness。Shewasatthetheatrewithme。\"

  \"Withyou?\"Hesawatremorpassthroughher,butshecontrolleditinstantlyandfacedhimstraightandmotionlessasawoundedcreatureinthemomentbeforeitfeelsitswound。\"Whyshouldyoubothhavemadeamysteryofthat?\"

  \"I’vetoldyoutheideawasnotmine。\"Hecastabout。\"ShemayhavebeenafraidthatOwen————\"

  \"Butthatwasnotareasonforheraskingyoutotellmethatyouhardlyknewher——thatyouhadn’tevenseenherforyears。\"Shebrokeoffandthebloodrosetoherfaceandforehead。\"EvenifSHEhadotherreasons,therecouldbeonlyonereasonforyourobeyingher————\"

  Silencefellbetweenthem,asilenceinwhichtheroomseemedtobecomesuddenlyresonantwithvoices。Darrow’sgazewanderedtothewindowandhenoticedthatthegaleoftwodaysbeforehadnearlystrippedthetopsofthelime—

  treesinthecourt。Annahadmovedawayandwasrestingherelbowsagainstthemantel—piece,herheadinherhands。Asshestoodtherehetookinwithanewintensityofvisionlittledetailsofherappearancethathiseyeshadoftencherished:thebranchingblueveinsinthebacksofherhands,thewarmshadowthatherhaircastonherear,andthecolourofthehairitself,dullblackwithatawnyunder—surface,likethewingsofcertainbirds。Hefeltittobeuselesstospeak。

  Afterawhilesheliftedherheadandsaid:\"Ishallnotseeheragainbeforeshegoes。\"

  Hemadenoanswer,andturningtohimsheadded:\"Thatiswhyshe’sgoing,Isuppose?Becauseshelovesyouandwon’tgiveyouup?\"

  Darrowwaited。Thepaltrinessofconventionaldenialwassoapparenttohimthatevenifitcouldhavedelayeddiscoveryhecouldnolongerhaveresortedtoit。Underallhisotherfearswasthedreadofdishonouringthehour。

  \"SheHASgivenmeup,\"hesaidatlast。

  XXVIII

  WhenhehadgoneoutoftheroomAnnastoodwherehehadlefther。\"Imustbelievehim!Imustbelievehim!\"shesaid。

  Amomentbefore,atthemomentwhenshehadliftedherarmstohisneck,shehadbeenwrappedinasenseofcompletesecurity。Allthespiritsofdoubthadbeenexorcised,andherlovewasoncemoretheclearhabitationinwhicheverythoughtandfeelingcouldmoveinblissfulfreedom。Andthen,assheraisedherfacetoDarrow’sandmethiseyes,shehadseemedtolookintotheveryruinsofhissoul。

  Thatwastheonlywayshecouldexpressit。Itwasasthoughheandshehadbeenlookingattwosidesofthesamething,andthesideshehadseenhadbeenalllightandlife,andhisaplaceofgraves……

  Shedidn’tnowrecallwhohadspokenfirst,oreven,veryclearly,whathadbeensaid。Itseemedtoheronlyamomentlaterthatshehadfoundherselfstandingattheotherendoftheroom——theroomwhichhadsuddenlygrownsosmallthat,evenwithitslengthbetweenthem,shefeltasifhetouchedher——cryingouttohim\"ItISbecauseofyoushe’sgoing!\"andreadingtheavowalinhisface。

  Thatwashissecret,then,THEIRsecret:hehadmetthegirlinParisandhelpedherinherstraits——lenthermoney,Annavaguelyconjectured——andshehadfalleninlovewithhim,andonmeetinghimagainhadbeensuddenlyovermasteredbyherpassion。Anna,droppingbackintohersofa—corner,satstaringthesefactsintheface。

  Thegirlhadbeeninadesperateplight——frightened,penniless,outragedbywhathadhappened,andnotknowing(withawomanlikeMrs。Murrett)whatfreshinjurymightimpend;andDarrow,meetingherinthisdistractedhour,hadpitied,counselled,beenkindtoher,withthefatal,theinevitableresult。TherewerethefactsasAnnamadethemout:that,atleast,wastheirexternalaspect,wasasmuchofthemasshehadbeensufferedtosee;andintothesecretintricaciestheymightcovershedarednotyetprojectherthoughts。

  \"Imustbelievehim……Imustbelievehim……\"Shekeptonrepeatingthewordslikeatalisman。Itwasnatural,afterall,thatheshouldhavebehavedashehad:defendedthegirl’spiteoussecrettothelast。Shetoobegantofeelthecontagionofhispity——thestir,inherbreast,offeelingsdeeperandmorenativetoherthanthepainsofjealousy。

  Fromthesecurityofherblessednessshelongedtoleanoverwithcompassionatehands……ButOwen?WhatwasOwen’sparttobe?Sheowedherselffirsttohim——shewasboundtoprotecthimnotonlyfromallknowledgeofthesecretshehadsurprised,butalso——andchiefly!——fromitsconsequences。

  Yes:thegirlmustgo——therecouldbenodoubtofit——Darrowhimselfhadseenitfromthefirst;andatthethoughtshehadawildrevulsionofrelief,asthoughshehadbeentryingtocreateinherheartthedelusionofagenerosityshecouldnotfeel……

  TheonefactonwhichshecouldstayhermindwasthatSophywasleavingimmediately;wouldbeoutofthehousewithinanhour。Onceshewasgone,itwouldbeeasiertobringOwentothepointofunderstandingthatthebreakwasfinal;ifnecessary,toworkuponthegirltomakehimseeit。Butthat,Annawassure,wouldnotbenecessary。ItwasclearthatSophyVinerwasleavingGivrewithnothoughtofeverseeingitagain……

  Suddenly,asshetriedtoputsomeorderinherthoughts,sheheardOwen’scallatthedoor:\"Mother!————\"anameheseldomgaveher。Therewasanewnoteinhisvoice:thenoteofajoyousimpatience。Itmadeherturnhastilytotheglasstoseewhatfaceshewasabouttoshowhim;butbeforeshehadhadtimetocomposeithewasintheroomandshewascaughtinaschool—boyhug。

  \"It’sallright!It’sallright!Andit’sallyourdoing!I

  wanttodotheworstkindofpenance——bellandcandleandtherest。I’vebeenthroughitwithHER,andnowshehandsmeontoyou,andyou’retocallmeanynamesyouplease。\"Hefreedherwithhishappylaugh。\"I’mtobestoodinthecornertillnextweek,andthenI’mtogouptoseeher。AndshesaysIoweitalltoyou!\"

  \"Tome?\"Itwasthefirstphraseshefoundtoclutchatasshetriedtosteadyherselfintheeddiesofhisjoy。

  \"Yes:youweresopatient,andsodeartoher;andyousawatoncewhatadamnedassI’dbeen!\"Shetriedasmile,anditseemedtopassmusterwithhim,forhesentitbackinabroadbeam。\"That’snotsodifficulttosee?No,Iadmititdoesn’ttakeamicroscope。Butyouweresowiseandwonderful——youalwaysare。I’vebeenmadtheselastdays,simplymad——youandshemightwellhavewashedyourhandsofme!Andinstead,it’sallright——allright!\"

  Shedrewbackalittle,tryingtokeepthesmileonherlipsandnotlethimgettheleastglimpseofwhatithid。Nowifever,indeed,itbehovedhertobewiseandwonderful!

  \"I’msoglad,dear;soglad。Ifonlyyou’llalwaysfeellikethataboutme……\"Shestopped,hardlyknowingwhatshesaid,andaghastattheideathatherownhandsshouldhaveretiedtheknotsheimaginedtobebroken。Butshesawhehadsomethingmoretosay;somethinghardtogetout,butabsolutelynecessarytoexpress。Hecaughtherhands,pulledherclose,and,withhisforeheaddrawnintoitswhimsicalsmilingwrinkles,\"Lookhere,\"hecried,\"ifDarrowwantstocallmeadamnedasstooyou’renottostophim!\"

  Itbroughtherbacktoasharpersenseofhercentralperil:

  ofthesecrettobekeptfromhimatwhatevercosttoherrackednerves。

  \"Oh,youknow,hedoesn’talwayswaitfororders!\"Onthewholeitsoundedbetterthanshe’dfeared。

  \"Youmeanhe’scalledmeonealready?\"Heacceptedthefactwithhisgayestlaugh。\"Well,thatsavesalotoftrouble;

  nowwecanpasstotheorderoftheday————\"hebrokeoffandglancedattheclock——\"whichis,youknow,dear,thatshe’sstartinginaboutanhour;sheandAdelaidemustalreadybesnatchingahastysandwich。You’llcomedowntobidthemgood—bye?\"

  \"Yes——ofcourse。\"

  Therehad,infact,grownuponherwhilehespoketheurgencyofseeingSophyVineragainbeforesheleft。Thethoughtwasdeeplydistasteful:Annashrankfromencounteringthegirltillshehadclearedawaythroughherownperplexities。Butitwasobviousthatsincetheyhadseparated,barelyanhourearlier,thesituationhadtakenanewshape。SophyVinerhadapparentlyreconsideredherdecisiontobreakamicablybutdefinitelywithOwen,andstoodagainintheirpath,amenaceandamystery;andconfusedimpulsesofresistancestirredinAnna’smind。

  ShefeltOwen’stouchonherarm。\"Areyoucoming?\"

  \"Yes……yes……presently。\"

  \"What’sthematter?Youlooksostrange。\"

  \"Whatdoyoumeanbystrange?\"

  \"Idon’tknow:startled——surprised\"Shereadwhatherlookmustbebyitssuddenreflectioninhisface。

  \"DoI?Nowonder!You’vegivenusallanexcitingmorning。\"

  Heheldtohispoint。\"You’remoreexcitednowthatthere’snocauseforit。WhatonearthhashappenedsinceIsawyou?\"

  Helookedabouttheroom,asifseekingthecluetoheragitation,andinherdreadofwhathemightguesssheanswered:\"WhathashappenedissimplythatI’mrathertired。WillyouaskSophytocomeupandseemehere?\"

  Whileshewaitedshetriedtothinkwhatsheshouldsaywhenthegirlappeared;butshehadneverbeenmoreconsciousofherinabilitytodealwiththeobliqueandthetortuous。

  Shehadlackedthehardteachingsofexperience,andaninstinctivedisdainforwhateverwaslessclearandopenthanherownconsciencehadkeptherfromlearninganythingoftheintricaciesandcontradictionsofotherhearts。Shesaidtoherself:\"Imustfindout————\"yeteverythinginherrecoiledfromthemeansbywhichshefeltitmustbedone……

  SophyVinerappearedalmostimmediately,dressedfordeparture,herlittlebagonherarm。Shewasstillpaletothepointofhaggardness,butwithalightuponherthatstruckAnnawithsurprise。Orwasit,perhaps,thatshewaslookingatthegirlwithneweyes:seeingher,forthefirsttime,notasEffie’sgoverness,notasOwen’sbride,butastheembodimentofthatunknownperillurkinginthebackgroundofeverywoman’sthoughtsaboutherlover?Anna,atanyrate,withasuddensenseofestrangement,notedinhergracesandsnaresneverbeforeperceived。Itwasonlytheflashofaprimitiveinstinct,butitlastedlongenoughtomakeherashamedofthedarknessesitlitupinherheart……

  ShesignedtoSophytositdownonthesofabesideher。\"I

  askedyoutocomeuptomebecauseIwantedtosaygood—byequietly,\"sheexplained,feelingherlipstremble,buttryingtospeakinatoneoffriendlynaturalness。

  Thegirl’sonlyanswerwasafaintsmileofacquiescence,andAnna,disconcertedbyhersilence,wenton:\"You’vedecided,then,nottobreakyourengagement?\"

  SophyVinerraisedherheadwithalookofsurprise。

  Evidentlythequestion,thusabruptlyput,musthavesoundedstrangelyonthelipsofsoardentapartisanasMrs。Leath!

  \"Ithoughtthatwaswhatyouwished,\"shesaid。

  \"WhatIwished?\"Anna’sheartshookagainstherside。\"I

  wish,ofcourse,whateverseemsbestforOwen……It’snatural,youmustunderstand,thatthatconsiderationshouldcomefirstwithme……\"

  Sophywaslookingathersteadily。\"Isupposeditwastheonlyonethatcountedwithyou。\"

  ThecurtnessofretortrousedAnna’slatentantagonism。\"Itis,\"shesaid,inahardvoicethatstartledherassheheardit。Hadsheeverspokensotoanyonebefore?Shefeltfrightened,asthoughherverynaturehadchangedwithoutherknowingit……Feelingthegirl’sastonishedgazestillonher,shecontinued:\"Thesuddennessofthechangehasnaturallysurprisedme。WhenIleftyouitwasunderstoodthatyouweretoreserveyourdecision————\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Andnow————?\"Annawaitedforareplythatdidnotcome。

  Shedidnotunderstandthegirl’sattitude,theedgeofironyinhershortsyllables,theplainlypremeditateddeterminationtolaytheburdenofproofonherinterlocutor。Annafeltthesuddenneedtolifttheirintercourseabovethismeanlevelofdefianceanddistrust。

  ShelookedappealinglyatSophy。

  \"Isn’titbestthatweshouldspeakquitefrankly?It’sthischangeonyourpartthatperplexesme。Youcanhardlybesurprisedatthat。It’strue,IaskedyounottobreakwithOwentooabruptly——andIaskedit,believeme,asmuchforyoursakeasforhis:Iwantedyoutotaketimetothinkoverthedifficultythatseemstohavearisenbetweenyou。

  Thefactthatyoufeltitrequiredthinkingoverseemedtoshowyouwouldn’ttakethefinalsteplightly——wouldn’t,I

  mean,acceptofOwenmorethanyoucouldgivehim。ButyourchangeofmindobligesmetoaskthequestionIthoughtyouwouldhaveaskedyourself。Isthereanyreasonwhyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen?\"

  Shestoppedalittlebreathlessly,hereyesonSophyViner’sburningface。\"Anyreason————?Whatdoyoumeanbyareason?\"

  Annacontinuedtolookathergravely。\"Doyoulovesomeoneelse?\"sheasked。

  Sophy’sfirstlookwasoneofwonderandafaintrelief;

  thenshegavebacktheother’sscrutinyinaglanceofindescribablereproach。\"Ah,youmighthavewaited!\"sheexclaimed。

  \"Waited?\"

  \"TillI’dgone:tillIwasoutofthehouse。Youmighthaveknown……youmighthaveguessed……\"SheturnedhereyesagainonAnna。\"Ionlymeanttolethimhopealittlelonger,sothatheshouldn’tsuspectanything;ofcourseI

  can’tmarryhim,\"shesaid。

  Annastoodmotionless,silencedbytheshockoftheavowal。

  Shetoowastrembling,lesswithangerthanwithaconfusedcompassion。Butthefeelingwassoblentwithothers,lessgenerousandmoreobscure,thatshefoundnowordstoexpressit,andthetwowomenfacedeachotherwithoutspeaking。

  \"I’dbettergo,\"Sophymurmuredatlengthwithloweredhead。

  ThewordsrousedinAnnaalatentimpulseofcompunction。

  Thegirllookedsoyoung,soexposedanddesolate!Andwhatthoughtsmustshebehidinginherheart!Itwasimpossiblethattheyshouldpartinsuchaspirit。

  \"Iwantyoutoknowthatnoonesaidanything……ItwasI

  who……\"

  Sophylookedather。\"YoumeanthatMr。Darrowdidn’ttellyou?Ofcoursenot:doyousupposeIthoughthedid?Youfounditout,that’sall——Iknewyouwould。InyourplaceI

  shouldhaveguesseditsooner。\"

  Thewordswerespokensimply,withoutironyoremphasis;buttheywentthroughAnnalikeasword。Yes,thegirlwouldhavehaddivinations,promptingsthatshehadnothad!Shefelthalfenviousofsuchasadprecocityofwisdom。

  \"I’msosorry……sosorry……\"shemurmured。

  \"Thingshappenthatway。NowI’dbettergo。I’dliketosaygood—byetoEffie。\"

  \"Oh————\"itbrokeinacryfromEffie’smother。\"Notlikethis——youmustn’t!Ifeel——youmakemefeeltoohorribly:asifIweredrivingyouaway……\"Thewordshadrushedupfromthedepthsofherbewilderedpity。

  \"Nooneisdrivingmeaway:Ihadtogo,\"sheheardthegirlreply。

  Therewasanothersilence,duringwhichpassionateimpulsesofmagnanimitywarredinAnnawithherdoubtsanddreads。

  Atlength,hereyesonSophy’sface:\"Yes,youmustgonow,\"

  shebegan;\"butlateron……afterawhile,whenallthisisover……ifthere’snoreasonwhyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen————

  \"shepausedamomentonthewords——\"Ishouldn’twantyoutothinkIstoodbetweenyou……\"

  \"You?\"Sophyflushedagain,andthengrewpale。Sheseemedtotrytospeak,butnowordscame。

  \"Yes!ItwasnottruewhenIsaidjustnowthatIwasthinkingonlyofOwen。I’msorry——oh,sosorry!——foryoutoo。Yourlife——Iknowhowhardit’sbeen;andmine……mine’ssofull……Happywomenunderstandbest!\"Annadrewnearandtouchedthegirl’shand;thenshebeganagain,pouringallhersoulintothebrokenphrases:\"It’sterriblenow……youseenofuture;butif,byandbye……youknowbest……butyou’resoyoung……andatyouragethingsDO

  pass。Ifthere’snoreason,norealreason,whyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen,IWANThimtohope,I’llhelphimtohope……ifyousayso……\"

  WiththeurgencyofherpleadingherclasptightenedonSophy’shand,butitwarmedtonoresponsivetremor:thegirlseemednumb,andAnnawasfrightenedbythestonysilenceofherlook。\"IsupposeI’mnotmorethanhalfawoman,\"shemused,\"forIdon’twantmyhappinesstohurther;\"andaloudsherepeated:\"Ifonlyyou’lltellmethere’snoreason————\"

  Thegirldidnotspeak;butsuddenly,likeasnappedbranch,shebent,stoopeddowntothehandthatclaspedher,andlaidherlipsuponitinastreamofweeping。Shecriedsilently,continuously,abundantly,asthoughAnna’stouchhadreleasedthewatersofsomedeepspringofpain;then,asAnna,movedandhalfafraid,leanedoverherwithasoundofpity,shestoodupandturnedaway。

  \"You’regoing,then——forgood——likethis?\"Annamovedtowardherandstopped。Sophystoppedtoo,witheyesthatshrankfromher。

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